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CIMC 127: I’m Not Attracted to My Husband Anymore—What’s Wrong With Me? · Dr. Danielle Difference

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  Welcome
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  in
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  pursuit
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  of
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  living
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  life,
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  abundantly
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  not
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  held
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  back
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  by
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  our
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  body
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  size
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  symptoms,
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  are
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  we
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  back
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  by
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  our
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  hurts,
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  habits,
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  or
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  other
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  obstacles
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  in
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  life.
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  Learn
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  the
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  to
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  crush
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  your
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  health,
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  wellness,
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  relationships,
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  and
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  spiritual
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  life.
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  Hey,
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  I
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  am
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  Dr.
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  Danielle,
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  your
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  host
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  practitioner,
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  and
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  in
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  today's.
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  Episode
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  we
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  are
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  gonna
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  talk
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  about
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  something.
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  Um,
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  just
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  continuing
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  on
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  from
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  the
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  last
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  episode,
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  if
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  you
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  did
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  not
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  listen
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  to
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  that
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  last
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  episode,
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  the
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  responses
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  I
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  have
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  gotten
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  about
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  this
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  is
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  like,
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  oh
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  my
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  gosh,
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  Dr.
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  Danielle,
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  you
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  are
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  in
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  my
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  head.
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  How
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  do
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  you
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  know
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  this?
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  Like,
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  I'm
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  sitting
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  here
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  listening
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  with
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  this
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  in,
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  um,
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  with
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  tears.
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  It's
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  like
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  you
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  actually
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  are
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  in
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  my
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  head
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  the
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  things
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  that
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  I'm
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  not,
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  the
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  things
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  that
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  I'm
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  not
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  saying,
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  the
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  things
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  that
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  I
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  feel,
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  but
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  I
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  don't
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  even
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  have
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  words
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  for.
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  Um,
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  I'm
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  going
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  to,
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  I'm
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  actually
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  looking
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  it
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  up
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  because
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  I.
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  Did
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  not
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  have
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  I
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  did
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  not
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  have
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  my
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  episode
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  number
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  popped
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  up.
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  So
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  it
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  is
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  episode
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  1
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  26.
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  I
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  hate
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  that
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  my
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  husband
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  touches
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  me
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  when
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  I
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  feel
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  this
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  gross.
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  So
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  if
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  you
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  have
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  not
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  listened
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  to
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  the
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  episode,
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  definitely
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  make
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  sure
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  you
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  do,
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  you
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  can
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  totally
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  listen
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  to
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  this
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  episode
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  as
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  well.
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  Um,
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  right,
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  right
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  now,
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  it's
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  not
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  like
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  you
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  have
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  to
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  listen
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  to
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  that
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  before,
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  but
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  this
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  is
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  a
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  continuation
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  of
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  that
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  conversation
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  from
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  there.
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  Um,
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  and
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  if
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  you
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  don't
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  know,
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  I
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  have
• 1:11
  started
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  a
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  substack.
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  And
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  Substack
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  for
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  me
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  is
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  a
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  place
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  where
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  I
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  can
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  go
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  in
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  a
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  little
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  bit
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  deeper
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  with
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  you.
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  You
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  see,
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  I
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  used
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  to
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  be
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  a
• 1:18
  blogger,
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  that's
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  where
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  the
• 1:19
  name
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  car
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  and
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  my
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  cheesecake
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  came
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  from
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  Car
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  and
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  my
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  cheesecake,
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  uh,
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  there
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  was
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  this
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  time
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  that
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  I,
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  I
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  think
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  I
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  just
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  had
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  the
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  two
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  children
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  and
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  I
• 1:28
  was
• 1:29
  on
• 1:29
  my
• 1:29
  second
• 1:29
  pot
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  of
• 1:30
  coffee.
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  And
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  there
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  was
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  a,
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  in
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  the
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  kitchen
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  of
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  our
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  old
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  house,
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  we
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  had
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  what
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  was
• 1:35
  it?
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  Like
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  Chinese
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  takeout
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  containers
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  and
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  you
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  know
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  how
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  little
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  kids
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  like
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  to
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  get
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  into
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  the
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  Tupperware
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  drawer
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  door
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  or
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  cabinet
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  whatever,
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  then
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  they
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  pull
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  all
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  those
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  things
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  I
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  was
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  just
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  so
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  tired,
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  hadn't
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  them
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  up.
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  And
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  I
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  think
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  my
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  oldest
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  was
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  maybe
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  right
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  around
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  two.
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  My
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  youngest
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  don't
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  know,
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  a
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  couple
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  months
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  old.
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  And
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  I
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  just,
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  I,
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  that
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  day
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  I
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  slid,
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  I
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  put
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  my
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  foot
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  in
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  a.
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  You
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  know,
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  like
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  the,
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  I
• 1:59
  don't
• 1:59
  know,
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  you
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  know
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  what
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  swan
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  chicken
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  or
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  like
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  sweet
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  sour
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  chicken
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  or
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  whatever
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  it
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  comes
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  in
• 2:02
  like
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  that,
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  that
• 2:03
  box-like
• 2:04
  container,
• 2:04
  you
• 2:04
  know
• 2:04
  what
• 2:04
  I'm
• 2:04
  talking
• 2:05
  about
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  with
• 2:05
  the
• 2:05
  plastic
• 2:06
  lid?
• 2:06
  I,
• 2:07
  my
• 2:07
  foot
• 2:07
  got
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  stuck
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  in
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  one
• 2:08
  of
• 2:08
  those
• 2:08
  and
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  I
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  slid
• 2:09
  across
• 2:09
  the,
• 2:10
  I
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  slid
• 2:11
  across
• 2:11
  the
• 2:11
  kitchen.
• 2:12
  Like
• 2:12
  thinking
• 2:12
  back
• 2:12
  on
• 2:12
  it,
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  I
• 2:13
  was
• 2:13
  just
• 2:13
  like,
• 2:13
  it's
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  funny
• 2:14
  to
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  even
• 2:14
  think
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  about,
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  I
• 2:15
  believe
• 2:16
  I
• 2:16
  was
• 2:16
  probably
• 2:16
  over
• 2:16
  300
• 2:17
  pounds
• 2:17
  again
• 2:17
  at
• 2:17
  that
• 2:18
  time.
• 2:19
  Um,
• 2:19
  and
• 2:19
  again,
• 2:19
  like
• 2:19
  I
• 2:19
  said,
• 2:20
  I
• 2:20
  was
• 2:20
  on
• 2:20
  my
• 2:20
  second
• 2:20
  pot
• 2:21
  of
• 2:21
  coffee
• 2:22
  and
• 2:22
  I
• 2:22
  slid
• 2:22
  across
• 2:23
  the
• 2:23
  kitchen
• 2:24
  floor
• 2:25
  and
• 2:26
  I
• 2:26
  just
• 2:26
  said,
• 2:27
  I
• 2:27
  just
• 2:27
  wanna
• 2:28
  cry
• 2:28
  in
• 2:28
  my
• 2:28
  cheesecake,
• 2:29
  because
• 2:29
  that's
• 2:30
  where
• 2:30
  I
• 2:30
  was
• 2:30
  like
• 2:30
  my.
• 2:31
  My
• 2:32
  brain
• 2:32
  was
• 2:32
  like,
• 2:33
  oh,
• 2:33
  the
• 2:33
  only
• 2:33
  comfort
• 2:34
  I
• 2:34
  can
• 2:34
  seek
• 2:34
  right
• 2:34
  now
• 2:35
  is
• 2:35
  in
• 2:35
  food.
• 2:36
  And
• 2:36
  so
• 2:37
  that's
• 2:37
  where
• 2:37
  the
• 2:37
  name
• 2:38
  crying
• 2:38
  in
• 2:38
  my
• 2:38
  cheesecake
• 2:39
  came
• 2:39
  from.
• 2:40
  And
• 2:40
  it
• 2:40
  came
• 2:41
  from
• 2:41
  literally
• 2:42
  this
• 2:42
  piece
• 2:43
  of
• 2:43
  me
• 2:43
  that
• 2:43
  was
• 2:43
  so
• 2:44
  desperate.
• 2:45
  I
• 2:45
  didn't
• 2:45
  even
• 2:45
  know
• 2:46
  then,
• 2:46
  like,
• 2:46
  I
• 2:46
  couldn't
• 2:47
  even
• 2:47
  had
• 2:47
  wor,
• 2:47
  I
• 2:47
  didn't
• 2:47
  even
• 2:48
  have
• 2:48
  words.
• 2:49
  Um,
• 2:49
  I
• 2:49
  didn't
• 2:49
  even
• 2:49
  know
• 2:50
  that
• 2:50
  what
• 2:50
  I
• 2:50
  was
• 2:51
  experiencing
• 2:51
  wasn't
• 2:52
  normal.
• 2:52
  I
• 2:52
  just
• 2:52
  thought
• 2:52
  it
• 2:52
  was.
• 2:53
  I,
• 2:54
  I
• 2:54
  didn't
• 2:54
  know
• 2:54
  any
• 2:54
  different,
• 2:55
  right?
• 2:55
  Like,
• 2:55
  we
• 2:55
  don't
• 2:55
  know
• 2:55
  any
• 2:55
  different
• 2:56
  until
• 2:56
  we
• 2:56
  see
• 2:56
  something
• 2:57
  different
• 2:57
  and
• 2:57
  then
• 2:57
  we
• 2:57
  start
• 2:58
  excusing
• 2:59
  away
• 2:59
  why
• 2:59
  we're
• 3:00
  different?
• 3:00
  And
• 3:01
  that
• 3:01
  was
• 3:01
  me.
• 3:02
  Um,
• 3:02
  so
• 3:03
  that's
• 3:03
  where
• 3:03
  credit
• 3:03
  and
• 3:03
  my
• 3:03
  cheesecake
• 3:04
  came
• 3:04
  from.
• 3:05
  And
• 3:06
  I
• 3:06
  just
• 3:06
  want
• 3:07
  to
• 3:07
  share
• 3:08
  that
• 3:08
  with
• 3:08
  you
• 3:08
  because
• 3:09
  I
• 3:09
  want
• 3:09
  you
• 3:09
  to
• 3:09
  know
• 3:09
  that
• 3:10
  I
• 3:10
  get
• 3:10
  this.
• 3:11
  I
• 3:12
  am
• 3:12
  not
• 3:12
  playing
• 3:13
  when
• 3:13
  I
• 3:13
  make
• 3:14
  these
• 3:14
  episodes.
• 3:14
  I
• 3:15
  really
• 3:15
  wanna
• 3:15
  serve
• 3:16
  you
• 3:16
  and
• 3:17
  in
• 3:17
  my
• 3:17
  substack,
• 3:18
  I
• 3:18
  take
• 3:19
  what
• 3:19
  we
• 3:19
  talk
• 3:19
  about
• 3:19
  here
• 3:20
  on
• 3:21
  the
• 3:21
  podcast
• 3:21
  and
• 3:22
  just
• 3:22
  go
• 3:22
  even
• 3:23
  deeper.
• 3:23
  So
• 3:24
  if
• 3:24
  you
• 3:24
  are
• 3:24
  not
• 3:24
  on
• 3:24
  my
• 3:25
  substack
• 3:25
  or
• 3:25
  following,
• 3:26
  I
• 3:26
  think
• 3:26
  all
• 3:26
  you
• 3:26
  have
• 3:26
  to
• 3:27
  do,
• 3:27
  honestly,
• 3:27
  I
• 3:27
  don't
• 3:27
  even
• 3:27
  think
• 3:27
  you
• 3:28
  need
• 3:28
  to
• 3:28
  download
• 3:28
  the
• 3:28
  app.
• 3:28
  I
• 3:29
  think
• 3:29
  you
• 3:29
  just
• 3:29
  have
• 3:29
  to,
• 3:29
  if
• 3:29
  you
• 3:30
  wanna
• 3:30
  chat
• 3:30
  with
• 3:30
  me
• 3:30
  or
• 3:30
  leave
• 3:31
  a
• 3:31
  response
• 3:31
  or
• 3:31
  something
• 3:31
  like
• 3:31
  that,
• 3:32
  you
• 3:32
  can
• 3:32
  download
• 3:33
  the
• 3:33
  app.
• 3:34
  But
• 3:34
  you
• 3:34
  can
• 3:34
  literally
• 3:35
  just
• 3:35
  hit
• 3:35
  subscribe.
• 3:36
  And
• 3:36
  then
• 3:36
  those
• 3:37
  episodes
• 3:38
  or
• 3:38
  the,
• 3:38
  not
• 3:38
  those
• 3:38
  episodes,
• 3:39
  those
• 3:39
  posts
• 3:40
  or
• 3:40
  those
• 3:40
  letters
• 3:40
  from
• 3:41
  the
• 3:41
  wilderness
• 3:42
  actually
• 3:42
  get
• 3:42
  emailed
• 3:43
  to
• 3:43
  you.
• 3:43
  So
• 3:43
  you
• 3:43
  don't
• 3:43
  even
• 3:43
  have
• 3:44
  to
• 3:44
  worry
• 3:44
  about
• 3:44
  getting
• 3:45
  on
• 3:45
  the
• 3:45
  platform
• 3:46
  of
• 3:46
  Substack.
• 3:47
  I
• 3:47
  think
• 3:47
  that's
• 3:47
  how
• 3:47
  it
• 3:47
  works.
• 3:48
  Please,
• 3:48
  if
• 3:49
  someone
• 3:49
  knows
• 3:49
  any
• 3:49
  better,
• 3:49
  please
• 3:50
  let
• 3:50
  me
• 3:50
  know.
• 3:50
  Um,
• 3:51
  but
• 3:51
  that's
• 3:51
  how
• 3:51
  it
• 3:51
  works
• 3:51
  and
• 3:52
  I
• 3:52
  just
• 3:52
  really
• 3:53
  thoroughly
• 3:53
  enjoy
• 3:54
  it.
• 3:54
  And
• 3:54
  so,
• 3:54
  crying
• 3:54
  on
• 3:54
  my
• 3:55
  cheesecake,
• 3:55
  I
• 3:55
  started
• 3:56
  out
• 3:56
  blogging.
• 3:57
  Sharing
• 3:58
  my
• 3:58
  heart
• 3:59
  in
• 3:59
  deep
• 3:59
  ways.
• 4:00
  And
• 4:00
  then
• 4:00
  of
• 4:00
  course,
• 4:01
  people
• 4:02
  that
• 4:02
  are
• 4:02
  not
• 4:02
  safe
• 4:03
  or
• 4:03
  don't
• 4:03
  understand
• 4:04
  what
• 4:04
  it
• 4:04
  means
• 4:04
  to
• 4:04
  share,
• 4:05
  um,
• 4:06
  share
• 4:06
  authentically
• 4:07
  and
• 4:07
  to
• 4:07
  have
• 4:07
  authentic
• 4:08
  relationships
• 4:09
  and
• 4:09
  to
• 4:09
  connect
• 4:10
  with
• 4:10
  others.
• 4:10
  Because
• 4:10
  here
• 4:11
  in
• 4:11
  this
• 4:11
  space,
• 4:12
  we
• 4:12
  know
• 4:12
  and
• 4:12
  we
• 4:12
  believe.
• 4:13
  That
• 4:14
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• 4:14
  you
• 4:14
  share
• 4:14
  vulnerably,
• 4:15
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• 4:15
  you
• 4:15
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• 4:16
  up
• 4:16
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• 4:16
  be
• 4:16
  vulnerable,
• 4:17
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• 4:17
  means
• 4:17
  you're
• 4:18
  being
• 4:18
  honest
• 4:18
  with
• 4:18
  yourself
• 4:19
  and
• 4:19
  ready
• 4:19
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• 4:19
  be
• 4:19
  honest
• 4:20
  with
• 4:20
  someone
• 4:20
  else.
• 4:21
  And
• 4:21
  so
• 4:21
  vulnerability
• 4:22
  leads
• 4:22
  to
• 4:23
  human
• 4:23
  connection.
• 4:24
  And
• 4:25
  that
• 4:25
  human
• 4:25
  connection
• 4:25
  can
• 4:26
  just
• 4:26
  be
• 4:26
  like,
• 4:26
  oh
• 4:26
  girl,
• 4:27
  I'm
• 4:27
  with
• 4:27
  you.
• 4:27
  Or,
• 4:28
  um,
• 4:28
  I
• 4:28
  understand.
• 4:29
  Let
• 4:29
  me
• 4:29
  just
• 4:29
  hold
• 4:29
  space
• 4:30
  for
• 4:30
  you.
• 4:30
  Let
• 4:30
  me
• 4:30
  just
• 4:31
  let
• 4:31
  you
• 4:31
  talk.
• 4:31
  Let
• 4:31
  me
• 4:32
  just
• 4:32
  let
• 4:32
  you
• 4:32
  vent.
• 4:33
  Um,
• 4:33
  let
• 4:33
  me
• 4:33
  just,
• 4:33
  let
• 4:34
  hold
• 4:34
  you,
• 4:34
  let
• 4:34
  me
• 4:35
  go
• 4:35
  get
• 4:35
  coffee.
• 4:36
  Let
• 4:36
  me
• 4:36
  go
• 4:36
  do
• 4:36
  your
• 4:36
  laundry.
• 4:37
  Let
• 4:37
  me,
• 4:37
  let
• 4:37
  me
• 4:37
  help
• 4:38
  you,
• 4:38
  let
• 4:38
  me
• 4:38
  walk
• 4:39
  alongside
• 4:39
  with
• 4:39
  you.
• 4:40
  Let
• 4:40
  me
• 4:40
  coach
• 4:41
  you.
• 4:41
  Let
• 4:42
  me
• 4:42
  support
• 4:42
  you.
• 4:42
  Let
• 4:43
  me
• 4:43
  show
• 4:43
  you
• 4:43
  the
• 4:43
  pathway
• 4:44
  to
• 4:44
  healing,
• 4:44
  right?
• 4:45
  That's
• 4:46
  human
• 4:46
  connection.
• 4:47
  And
• 4:47
  then
• 4:47
  human
• 4:48
  connection
• 4:48
  leads
• 4:48
  to
• 4:49
  change,
• 4:49
  but
• 4:49
  it
• 4:49
  requires
• 4:50
  us
• 4:50
  to
• 4:50
  be
• 4:50
  vulnerable.
• 4:50
  And
• 4:51
  on
• 4:51
  the
• 4:51
  front
• 4:51
  side,
• 4:52
  it
• 4:52
  requires
• 4:52
  us
• 4:52
  to
• 4:52
  be
• 4:53
  honest
• 4:53
  with
• 4:53
  ourselves
• 4:53
  and
• 4:53
  honest
• 4:54
  with
• 4:54
  other
• 4:54
  people.
• 4:55
  And
• 4:56
  some
• 4:56
  people
• 4:56
  on
• 4:57
  that
• 4:57
  cran
• 4:57
  of
• 4:57
  my
• 4:57
  cheesecake
• 4:58
  blog
• 4:58
  did
• 4:58
  not
• 4:59
  like
• 4:59
  what
• 4:59
  I
• 4:59
  shared.
• 5:00
  And
• 5:01
  sometimes
• 5:01
  people
• 5:01
  don't
• 5:02
  like
• 5:02
  what
• 5:02
  I
• 5:02
  share
• 5:02
  here,
• 5:02
  and
• 5:03
  that's
• 5:03
  okay
• 5:03
  too
• 5:03
  because
• 5:04
  did
• 5:04
  you
• 5:04
  know
• 5:05
  that
• 5:05
  not
• 5:05
  every
• 5:06
  piece
• 5:06
  of
• 5:06
  content
• 5:07
  was
• 5:07
  made
• 5:07
  for
• 5:07
  you?
• 5:08
  Not
• 5:09
  every
• 5:09
  single
• 5:09
  piece
• 5:09
  of
• 5:10
  content
• 5:10
  on
• 5:10
  the
• 5:10
  internet
• 5:11
  is
• 5:11
  made
• 5:11
  for
• 5:11
  you.
• 5:12
  I
• 5:12
  was
• 5:13
  like,
• 5:13
  stunned,
• 5:15
  and
• 5:15
  I
• 5:15
  loved
• 5:16
  this
• 5:16
  person.
• 5:16
  I,
• 5:17
  I
• 5:17
  wish
• 5:17
  I
• 5:17
  could
• 5:17
  give
• 5:17
  credit
• 5:18
  to
• 5:18
  it
• 5:18
  where
• 5:18
  it's
• 5:18
  due,
• 5:18
  but
• 5:18
  I
• 5:19
  don't
• 5:19
  know
• 5:19
  who
• 5:19
  it
• 5:19
  is.
• 5:20
  But
• 5:20
  this
• 5:20
  person
• 5:21
  shared.
• 5:22
  This,
• 5:23
  this
• 5:23
  carousel
• 5:23
  post
• 5:24
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• 5:25
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• 5:25
  very
• 5:25
  laid
• 5:26
  out,
• 5:26
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• 5:27
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• 5:28
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• 5:28
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• 5:29
  everything
• 5:29
  on
• 5:29
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• 5:29
  internet
• 5:29
  being
• 5:30
  for
• 5:30
  you,
• 5:31
  and
• 5:32
  it
• 5:32
  looks
• 5:32
  like
• 5:33
  someone,
• 5:33
  I
• 5:33
  think
• 5:34
  someone
• 5:34
  shared
• 5:34
  something
• 5:35
  about
• 5:35
  how
• 5:35
  Beans
• 5:35
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• 5:35
  help
• 5:36
  you
• 5:36
  with
• 5:36
  blah,
• 5:36
  blah,
• 5:36
  blah.
• 5:36
  Okay?
• 5:37
  And
• 5:37
  then
• 5:38
  under
• 5:38
  there
• 5:39
  the
• 5:39
  comments
• 5:39
  were,
• 5:39
  well,
• 5:39
  what
• 5:40
  if
• 5:40
  I
• 5:40
  can't
• 5:40
  have
• 5:40
  beans?
• 5:41
  Well,
• 5:42
  right
• 5:42
  there
• 5:42
  we
• 5:43
  are
• 5:43
  not
• 5:44
  like
• 5:44
  if
• 5:44
  you
• 5:45
  can't
• 5:45
  have
• 5:45
  beans,
• 5:46
  then
• 5:46
  you
• 5:46
  skip
• 5:47
  past
• 5:47
  because
• 5:47
  this
• 5:48
  has
• 5:48
  nothing
• 5:48
  to
• 5:48
  do
• 5:48
  with
• 5:49
  you.
• 5:49
  If
• 5:49
  you're
• 5:49
  someone
• 5:50
  that
• 5:50
  can't
• 5:50
  handle
• 5:50
  beans,
• 5:51
  then,
• 5:51
  then
• 5:51
  it
• 5:51
  has
• 5:51
  nothing
• 5:52
  to
• 5:52
  do
• 5:52
  with
• 5:52
  you.
• 5:53
  And
• 5:53
  so
• 5:54
  I
• 5:54
  have
• 5:54
  experienced
• 5:55
  this
• 5:55
  a
• 5:56
  lot
• 5:56
  over
• 5:56
  my
• 5:56
  years
• 5:57
  of
• 5:57
  sharing
• 5:58
  capital
• 5:58
  T,
• 5:58
  truth
• 5:59
  sharing
• 5:59
  my
• 6:00
  experience,
• 6:00
  my
• 6:00
  testimony,
• 6:01
  and
• 6:02
  people
• 6:02
  not
• 6:02
  understanding
• 6:03
  that.
• 6:03
  Sometimes
• 6:04
  it
• 6:04
  may
• 6:04
  not
• 6:05
  be
• 6:05
  my
• 6:05
  content
• 6:05
  may
• 6:05
  not
• 6:06
  be
• 6:06
  for
• 6:06
  you,
• 6:07
  but
• 6:07
  for
• 6:07
  those
• 6:07
  of
• 6:07
  you
• 6:07
  that
• 6:08
  are
• 6:08
  here.
• 6:09
  That
• 6:09
  you
• 6:09
  can
• 6:10
  tell
• 6:10
  that
• 6:10
  I
• 6:10
  am
• 6:10
  speaking
• 6:11
  to
• 6:11
  your
• 6:11
  soul
• 6:12
  because
• 6:12
  I
• 6:13
  am
• 6:13
  you.
• 6:13
  I
• 6:14
  was
• 6:14
  you.
• 6:14
  I
• 6:15
  was
• 6:15
  in
• 6:15
  your
• 6:15
  positions
• 6:16
  or
• 6:16
  I
• 6:16
  understand
• 6:17
  you,
• 6:18
  that
• 6:18
  substack
• 6:18
  is
• 6:19
  a
• 6:19
  place
• 6:19
  to
• 6:19
  go
• 6:19
  further
• 6:20
  and
• 6:20
  go
• 6:20
  a
• 6:20
  little
• 6:20
  bit
• 6:20
  deeper.
• 6:21
  For
• 6:22
  the
• 6:22
  people
• 6:22
  that
• 6:22
  really
• 6:23
  get
• 6:23
  it,
• 6:24
  that
• 6:24
  really
• 6:24
  understand
• 6:26
  that
• 6:26
  there
• 6:26
  has
• 6:27
  to
• 6:27
  be
• 6:27
  this
• 6:27
  vulner,
• 6:28
  the
• 6:28
  vulnerability.
• 6:28
  It
• 6:29
  doesn't
• 6:29
  have
• 6:29
  to
• 6:29
  be
• 6:29
  transparent
• 6:30
  'cause
• 6:30
  transparent.
• 6:31
  And
• 6:31
  that
• 6:31
  is
• 6:32
  only
• 6:32
  for
• 6:32
  your
• 6:32
  inner
• 6:33
  circle
• 6:33
  people.
• 6:34
  But
• 6:34
  it
• 6:34
  doesn't
• 6:34
  have
• 6:35
  to
• 6:35
  be
• 6:35
  a
• 6:35
  transparent
• 6:36
  sharing,
• 6:37
  but
• 6:37
  it
• 6:37
  needs
• 6:37
  to
• 6:37
  be
• 6:37
  a
• 6:38
  sharing
• 6:38
  in
• 6:38
  a
• 6:38
  way
• 6:39
  that
• 6:39
  can
• 6:39
  urge
• 6:39
  you
• 6:40
  and
• 6:40
  move
• 6:40
  the
• 6:40
  needle
• 6:40
  forward
• 6:41
  with
• 6:41
  you.
• 6:41
  And
• 6:41
  that's
• 6:41
  what
• 6:41
  we're
• 6:41
  doing
• 6:42
  in
• 6:42
  the
• 6:42
  Substack.
• 6:43
  So
• 6:43
  I
• 6:43
  want
• 6:43
  to
• 6:43
  let
• 6:44
  you
• 6:44
  know
• 6:44
  that
• 6:44
  I'm
• 6:44
  being
• 6:44
  vulnerable
• 6:45
  in
• 6:45
  Substack.
• 6:45
  I'm
• 6:46
  helping
• 6:46
  you
• 6:46
  to
• 6:46
  build
• 6:47
  that
• 6:47
  human
• 6:47
  connection
• 6:48
  so
• 6:48
  you
• 6:48
  don't
• 6:48
  feel
• 6:49
  alone.
• 6:49
  And
• 6:49
  I'm
• 6:50
  helping
• 6:50
  you
• 6:50
  to
• 6:50
  build
• 6:50
  that
• 6:51
  space
• 6:52
  where
• 6:52
  you
• 6:52
  can
• 6:52
  actually
• 6:52
  have.
• 6:53
  Like
• 6:54
  takeaways
• 6:54
  from
• 6:55
  what
• 6:55
  I'm
• 6:55
  talking
• 6:55
  about
• 6:56
  here
• 6:56
  in
• 6:56
  the
• 6:56
  episodes.
• 6:57
  Okay.
• 6:58
  So
• 6:58
  again,
• 6:59
  last
• 6:59
  week
• 6:59
  women
• 7:00
  were
• 7:00
  talking
• 7:00
  and
• 7:00
  just
• 7:01
  sending
• 7:01
  me
• 7:01
  messages,
• 7:01
  emails
• 7:02
  even
• 7:02
  my
• 7:03
  one-to-one
• 7:03
  patients
• 7:04
  are
• 7:04
  sending
• 7:04
  me
• 7:04
  messages
• 7:05
  in,
• 7:05
  in
• 7:05
  our
• 7:05
  messenger
• 7:06
  and
• 7:06
  just
• 7:06
  like,
• 7:06
  oh
• 7:06
  my
• 7:06
  gosh,
• 7:07
  like,
• 7:08
  how
• 7:08
  did
• 7:08
  you
• 7:08
  know?
• 7:08
  And
• 7:08
  I'm
• 7:08
  like,
• 7:08
  because
• 7:09
  I
• 7:09
  like,
• 7:09
  I
• 7:10
  get
• 7:10
  it.
• 7:10
  Like
• 7:10
  I
• 7:10
  truly
• 7:11
  get
• 7:11
  it.
• 7:12
  And
• 7:12
  so
• 7:13
  all
• 7:13
  this
• 7:13
  to
• 7:14
  say,
• 7:14
  we're
• 7:14
  gonna
• 7:14
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• 7:15
  of
• 7:15
  move
• 7:15
  forward
• 7:16
  in
• 7:16
  this
• 7:16
  conversation
• 7:17
  about
• 7:18
  not
• 7:18
  being
• 7:18
  attracted
• 7:18
  to
• 7:19
  our
• 7:19
  husbands
• 7:19
  anymore.
• 7:21
  And
• 7:21
  these
• 7:21
  are
• 7:21
  things,
• 7:22
  again,
• 7:23
  here
• 7:23
  on
• 7:23
  the
• 7:24
  podcast,
• 7:24
  we
• 7:24
  talk
• 7:24
  about
• 7:25
  what's
• 7:25
  not
• 7:25
  happening
• 7:25
  on,
• 7:26
  in
• 7:26
  our
• 7:26
  Bible
• 7:26
  study
• 7:27
  groups
• 7:27
  or
• 7:27
  in
• 7:27
  our
• 7:27
  women's
• 7:28
  groups
• 7:28
  or
• 7:28
  girls
• 7:28
  nights,
• 7:29
  we're
• 7:29
  not
• 7:29
  talking
• 7:29
  about
• 7:30
  these
• 7:30
  things.
• 7:30
  You're
• 7:30
  not
• 7:30
  gonna
• 7:31
  see
• 7:31
  these
• 7:31
  things
• 7:31
  on
• 7:31
  social
• 7:32
  media
• 7:32
  in
• 7:32
  a,
• 7:33
  in
• 7:33
  a
• 7:33
  cute
• 7:33
  background.
• 7:34
  Or
• 7:35
  you're
• 7:35
  not
• 7:35
  gonna
• 7:35
  see
• 7:35
  these
• 7:36
  conversations
• 7:37
  that
• 7:37
  are
• 7:37
  like,
• 7:38
  screenshot
• 7:38
  this
• 7:39
  for
• 7:39
  my
• 7:39
  phone
• 7:40
  wallpaper.
• 7:40
  You're
• 7:41
  not
• 7:41
  gonna
• 7:41
  see
• 7:41
  these
• 7:41
  conversations
• 7:42
  happen
• 7:43
  because
• 7:43
  we're,
• 7:43
  we're
• 7:44
  so
• 7:44
  busy
• 7:44
  trying
• 7:45
  to
• 7:45
  perform
• 7:46
  and
• 7:46
  do
• 7:46
  and,
• 7:46
  and
• 7:47
  take
• 7:47
  care
• 7:47
  of
• 7:47
  everything
• 7:47
  else
• 7:48
  around
• 7:48
  us
• 7:48
  that.
• 7:49
  We
• 7:49
  don't
• 7:50
  address
• 7:50
  the
• 7:50
  elephant
• 7:51
  in
• 7:51
  the
• 7:51
  room
• 7:52
  oftentimes.
• 7:53
  And
• 7:53
  so
• 7:53
  I'm
• 7:53
  gonna
• 7:53
  address
• 7:53
  the
• 7:54
  elephant
• 7:54
  in
• 7:54
  the
• 7:54
  room
• 7:54
  on
• 7:54
  this
• 7:55
  podcast
• 7:55
  episode
• 7:56
  on
• 7:56
  this
• 7:56
  podcast
• 7:56
  period.
• 7:57
  And
• 7:58
  if
• 7:58
  you
• 7:58
  are
• 7:58
  into
• 7:59
  that,
• 7:59
  awesome.
• 8:00
  And
• 8:00
  I
• 8:00
  would
• 8:00
  love
• 8:00
  for
• 8:00
  you
• 8:01
  to
• 8:01
  leave
• 8:01
  me
• 8:01
  a
• 8:01
  rating
• 8:02
  of
• 8:02
  five
• 8:02
  stars
• 8:03
  if
• 8:03
  you
• 8:03
  have
• 8:03
  not
• 8:03
  on
• 8:03
  whatever
• 8:04
  platform
• 8:04
  you're
• 8:04
  listening.
• 8:05
  And
• 8:05
  I
• 8:05
  would
• 8:05
  also
• 8:06
  love
• 8:06
  for
• 8:06
  you
• 8:06
  to
• 8:06
  leave
• 8:07
  me
• 8:07
  a
• 8:07
  review
• 8:07
  of
• 8:07
  what
• 8:08
  you
• 8:08
  get
• 8:08
  off
• 8:08
  of
• 8:08
  this
• 8:09
  episode
• 8:09
  because
• 8:09
  those
• 8:09
  reviews
• 8:10
  wow.
• 8:11
  Allow
• 8:12
  other
• 8:12
  women
• 8:12
  just
• 8:13
  like
• 8:13
  us
• 8:13
  to
• 8:13
  just
• 8:13
  kind
• 8:13
  of
• 8:13
  meet
• 8:14
  and
• 8:14
  gather
• 8:15
  here
• 8:15
  so
• 8:15
  that
• 8:15
  we
• 8:16
  know
• 8:16
  we're
• 8:16
  not
• 8:16
  alone.
• 8:17
  So
• 8:18
  this
• 8:18
  episode
• 8:19
  about
• 8:20
  not
• 8:20
  being
• 8:20
  attracted
• 8:20
  to
• 8:21
  our
• 8:21
  husbands
• 8:21
  anymore
• 8:22
  makes
• 8:22
  us
• 8:23
  think
• 8:23
  that
• 8:23
  we,
• 8:24
  there's
• 8:24
  something
• 8:25
  wrong
• 8:25
  with
• 8:25
  us
• 8:26
  and
• 8:27
  I.
• 8:29
  This
• 8:29
  comes
• 8:29
  in,
• 8:30
  I
• 8:30
  don't
• 8:30
  know.
• 8:30
  I,
• 8:31
  I
• 8:31
  have
• 8:31
  felt
• 8:31
  this
• 8:32
  before.
• 8:32
  I
• 8:33
  have
• 8:33
  had
• 8:33
  women
• 8:33
  in
• 8:34
  my
• 8:34
  clinic
• 8:34
  say
• 8:34
  this
• 8:35
  to
• 8:35
  me.
• 8:35
  Um,
• 8:36
  because
• 8:36
  I
• 8:36
  ask
• 8:37
  about
• 8:37
  libido
• 8:37
  all
• 8:37
  the
• 8:37
  time.
• 8:38
  I
• 8:38
  ask
• 8:38
  about
• 8:38
  libido
• 8:39
  because
• 8:39
  a
• 8:39
  libido
• 8:39
  is
• 8:40
  a,
• 8:40
  a
• 8:40
  biomarker
• 8:42
  of
• 8:42
  how
• 8:42
  your
• 8:42
  hormones
• 8:43
  are
• 8:43
  doing
• 8:43
  well,
• 8:43
  if
• 8:43
  those
• 8:43
  sex
• 8:44
  hormones
• 8:44
  aren't
• 8:44
  working
• 8:45
  well,
• 8:45
  and
• 8:45
  that
• 8:45
  means
• 8:45
  we
• 8:46
  still
• 8:46
  got
• 8:46
  some
• 8:46
  more
• 8:46
  stuff
• 8:46
  to
• 8:47
  do.
• 8:47
  It
• 8:47
  is
• 8:47
  a
• 8:47
  biomarker
• 8:48
  of
• 8:48
  the,
• 8:49
  the
• 8:49
  roadmap
• 8:49
  to
• 8:50
  health
• 8:50
  that
• 8:50
  I
• 8:50
  offer
• 8:50
  you
• 8:51
  to
• 8:51
  support
• 8:51
  you
• 8:52
  in
• 8:52
  all
• 8:53
  of
• 8:53
  the
• 8:53
  things.
• 8:54
  So
• 8:55
  this
• 8:56
  is
• 8:56
  something
• 8:56
  that
• 8:57
  is,
• 8:57
  like
• 8:58
  I
• 8:58
  said,
• 8:58
  it
• 8:58
  might
• 8:58
  be
• 8:59
  in
• 8:59
  your
• 8:59
  head
• 8:59
  as
• 8:59
  you
• 8:59
  go
• 8:59
  to
• 8:59
  bed
• 9:00
  on
• 9:00
  the
• 9:00
  pillow
• 9:02
  that
• 9:02
  you're
• 9:02
  not
• 9:02
  attracted
• 9:03
  to
• 9:03
  your
• 9:03
  husband
• 9:03
  anymore.
• 9:03
  And
• 9:04
  we
• 9:04
  can
• 9:04
  talk
• 9:04
  about,
• 9:04
  we're
• 9:05
  gonna
• 9:05
  talk
• 9:05
  about
• 9:05
  the
• 9:05
  ramifications
• 9:06
  of
• 9:06
  this
• 9:06
  spiritually
• 9:07
  physically,
• 9:08
  what
• 9:08
  it
• 9:08
  looks
• 9:08
  like
• 9:09
  physically,
• 9:09
  um,
• 9:09
  how
• 9:10
  to,
• 9:10
  to
• 9:10
  move
• 9:10
  forward
• 9:11
  with
• 9:11
  this.
• 9:12
  But
• 9:13
  these
• 9:13
  things
• 9:15
  come
• 9:16
  to
• 9:16
  surface
• 9:17
  and
• 9:17
  you
• 9:18
  are
• 9:18
  probably
• 9:18
  thinking,
• 9:19
  I
• 9:19
  love
• 9:19
  my
• 9:20
  husband.
• 9:21
  I
• 9:21
  really
• 9:21
  do.
• 9:22
  He's
• 9:22
  a
• 9:22
  good
• 9:22
  man.
• 9:23
  You're
• 9:23
  trying
• 9:23
  to
• 9:23
  convince
• 9:24
  yourself
• 9:24
  that
• 9:25
  he's
• 9:25
  a
• 9:25
  good
• 9:25
  man.
• 9:25
  You're
• 9:25
  trying
• 9:26
  to
• 9:26
  convince
• 9:26
  yourself
• 9:28
  that
• 9:28
  you
• 9:28
  love
• 9:28
  him.
• 9:31
  But
• 9:31
  when
• 9:31
  you
• 9:31
  touch
• 9:32
  or
• 9:33
  you
• 9:33
  come
• 9:33
  near
• 9:33
  each
• 9:34
  other,
• 9:34
  it's
• 9:34
  almost
• 9:35
  like
• 9:35
  you're
• 9:35
  the
• 9:35
  opposite
• 9:36
  ends
• 9:36
  of
• 9:36
  a
• 9:36
  magnet
• 9:37
  and
• 9:37
  like
• 9:37
  repulsed.
• 9:39
  And
• 9:40
  sometimes
• 9:40
  women
• 9:41
  will
• 9:41
  say,
• 9:41
  well,
• 9:41
  I
• 9:41
  don't,
• 9:41
  I
• 9:41
  just
• 9:42
  don't
• 9:42
  want
• 9:42
  sex.
• 9:42
  I'm
• 9:42
  not
• 9:43
  into
• 9:43
  it.
• 9:43
  I
• 9:43
  don't
• 9:43
  even
• 9:44
  wanna
• 9:44
  be
• 9:44
  looked
• 9:44
  at
• 9:44
  all
• 9:45
  of
• 9:45
  that.
• 9:45
  And,
• 9:45
  and
• 9:45
  then
• 9:46
  like
• 9:46
  this
• 9:46
  shame
• 9:47
  thought
• 9:47
  of
• 9:47
  what's
• 9:48
  wrong
• 9:48
  with
• 9:48
  me
• 9:48
  starts
• 9:49
  to
• 9:49
  creep
• 9:49
  in.
• 9:50
  Okay,
• 9:51
  and
• 9:52
  then,
• 9:53
  and
• 9:53
  then
• 9:54
  this
• 9:54
  all
• 9:54
  just
• 9:55
  kind
• 9:55
  of
• 9:55
  subtly
• 9:55
  happens
• 9:56
  and
• 9:56
  then
• 9:56
  we
• 9:56
  end
• 9:57
  up
• 9:57
  like
• 9:57
  being
• 9:57
  outside
• 9:57
  of
• 9:58
  our
• 9:58
  home
• 9:58
  more
• 9:58
  often.
• 9:59
  We
• 9:59
  start
• 9:59
  complaining
• 10:00
  about
• 10:00
  our
• 10:00
  husbands.
• 10:00
  We
• 10:01
  start
• 10:01
  wondering
• 10:02
  if
• 10:02
  it's
• 10:02
  just
• 10:02
  us.
• 10:02
  We
• 10:02
  start
• 10:03
  comparing
• 10:03
  our
• 10:03
  marriage
• 10:04
  to
• 10:04
  someone
• 10:04
  that's
• 10:04
  been
• 10:05
  married
• 10:05
  for
• 10:05
  20
• 10:05
  some
• 10:06
  years
• 10:07
  and
• 10:07
  like
• 10:08
  looks
• 10:08
  like
• 10:08
  they're
• 10:08
  still
• 10:08
  in
• 10:08
  love,
• 10:09
  they're
• 10:09
  in
• 10:09
  sync,
• 10:09
  all
• 10:10
  of
• 10:10
  that.
• 10:10
  But
• 10:10
  they
• 10:10
  don't
• 10:10
  realize
• 10:11
  that
• 10:11
  there's
• 10:11
  a
• 10:11
  whole
• 10:11
  story
• 10:12
  that
• 10:12
  goes
• 10:12
  into
• 10:13
  having
• 10:13
  a
• 10:13
  happy
• 10:13
  and
• 10:14
  healthy
• 10:14
  marriage.
• 10:16
  And
• 10:16
  so
• 10:16
  we
• 10:16
  start
• 10:16
  thinking,
• 10:17
  what's
• 10:17
  wrong
• 10:17
  with
• 10:17
  me?
• 10:18
  And
• 10:18
  then
• 10:18
  we
• 10:18
  start
• 10:18
  numbing
• 10:19
  ourselves,
• 10:19
  shoving
• 10:20
  it
• 10:20
  down.
• 10:20
  We
• 10:20
  get
• 10:21
  ourselves
• 10:21
  busy
• 10:21
  with
• 10:22
  the
• 10:22
  kids,
• 10:22
  the
• 10:22
  grandkids,
• 10:23
  the
• 10:23
  housework,
• 10:24
  the,
• 10:24
  the
• 10:24
  projects
• 10:25
  around
• 10:25
  the
• 10:25
  house,
• 10:26
  the
• 10:26
  work,
• 10:26
  the
• 10:26
  scrolling,
• 10:27
  um,
• 10:28
  the
• 10:28
  volunteer,
• 10:29
  the
• 10:29
  over
• 10:29
  volunteering.
• 10:30
  I
• 10:30
  wanna
• 10:31
  be
• 10:31
  very
• 10:31
  clear
• 10:31
  on
• 10:31
  that.
• 10:32
  Like
• 10:32
  volunteering
• 10:32
  is
• 10:32
  good,
• 10:33
  but
• 10:33
  over
• 10:33
  too
• 10:34
  much
• 10:34
  of
• 10:34
  a
• 10:34
  good
• 10:34
  thing
• 10:34
  is
• 10:35
  not
• 10:35
  a
• 10:35
  good
• 10:35
  thing.
• 10:35
  It's
• 10:35
  a
• 10:36
  bad
• 10:36
  thing.
• 10:37
  So,
• 10:37
  but
• 10:38
  behind
• 10:38
  all
• 10:39
  of
• 10:39
  this,
• 10:40
  you
• 10:40
  actually
• 10:40
  feel
• 10:41
  disconnected.
• 10:43
  You
• 10:43
  feel
• 10:43
  resentful,
• 10:45
  lost,
• 10:46
  and
• 10:46
  you
• 10:46
  don't
• 10:47
  know.
• 10:48
  Where
• 10:49
  to
• 10:49
  even
• 10:49
  go.
• 10:50
  It's
• 10:50
  almost
• 10:51
  like
• 10:51
  you
• 10:51
  just
• 10:51
  feel
• 10:51
  like
• 10:51
  you're
• 10:51
  falling
• 10:52
  down
• 10:52
  this
• 10:53
  pit
• 10:53
  and
• 10:53
  these
• 10:54
  emotions
• 10:54
  that
• 10:54
  you're
• 10:54
  not
• 10:55
  used
• 10:55
  to
• 10:56
  are
• 10:56
  just
• 10:56
  uncomfortable.
• 10:57
  And
• 10:58
  if
• 10:58
  this
• 10:59
  is
• 10:59
  you,
• 11:00
  I
• 11:00
  just
• 11:00
  wanna
• 11:01
  say
• 11:01
  something
• 11:02
  in
• 11:02
  love
• 11:04
  that
• 11:04
  if
• 11:04
  you
• 11:05
  think
• 11:05
  that
• 11:06
  your
• 11:06
  body
• 11:07
  rejecting
• 11:08
  the
• 11:08
  man
• 11:08
  you
• 11:09
  once
• 11:09
  loved
• 11:09
  and
• 11:09
  once
• 11:10
  couldn't
• 11:10
  get
• 11:10
  enough
• 11:10
  of
• 11:11
  is
• 11:11
  normal.
• 11:12
  It's
• 11:12
  not.
• 11:14
  So
• 11:14
  let's
• 11:15
  kind
• 11:15
  of
• 11:15
  break
• 11:16
  down
• 11:16
  what's
• 11:16
  actually
• 11:17
  going
• 11:17
  on.
• 11:18
  Let's,
• 11:18
  let's
• 11:18
  do
• 11:18
  this
• 11:18
  together.
• 11:19
  Let
• 11:19
  me
• 11:19
  hold
• 11:19
  your
• 11:19
  hand.
• 11:20
  Let's
• 11:20
  grab
• 11:21
  some
• 11:21
  coffee.
• 11:21
  I'm
• 11:21
  gonna
• 11:21
  drink
• 11:21
  another
• 11:22
  little
• 11:22
  sip
• 11:23
  here
• 11:23
  of
• 11:23
  my
• 11:23
  Nespresso
• 11:24
  coconut
• 11:25
  with
• 11:25
  raw
• 11:26
  cream.
• 11:27
  And
• 11:28
  we're
• 11:28
  gonna
• 11:28
  just
• 11:29
  pretend
• 11:29
  that
• 11:29
  we're
• 11:29
  sitting
• 11:29
  across
• 11:30
  the
• 11:30
  table
• 11:30
  from
• 11:30
  each
• 11:30
  other
• 11:31
  and
• 11:31
  we're
• 11:31
  just
• 11:32
  gonna
• 11:32
  talk.
• 11:32
  There's
• 11:32
  no
• 11:33
  BS
• 11:33
  between
• 11:34
  us,
• 11:34
  like
• 11:34
  it's
• 11:34
  just,
• 11:35
  we're
• 11:35
  just
• 11:35
  talking.
• 11:36
  Okay?
• 11:36
  Because
• 11:37
  this
• 11:37
  is
• 11:37
  how
• 11:37
  I
• 11:37
  talk
• 11:38
  in
• 11:38
  real
• 11:38
  life.
• 11:38
  This
• 11:39
  is
• 11:39
  how
• 11:39
  I
• 11:39
  talk.
• 11:39
  If
• 11:39
  you
• 11:40
  were
• 11:40
  across
• 11:40
  the
• 11:40
  table
• 11:40
  from
• 11:40
  me.
• 11:42
  I
• 11:42
  would
• 11:42
  tell
• 11:43
  you
• 11:43
  number
• 11:43
  one,
• 11:44
  we
• 11:44
  need
• 11:45
  to
• 11:45
  look
• 11:45
  at
• 11:45
  your
• 11:45
  hormones.
• 11:47
  Your
• 11:47
  ho
• 11:47
  hormones
• 11:48
  might
• 11:48
  be
• 11:48
  like
• 11:49
  screaming
• 11:49
  an
• 11:49
  SOS.
• 11:51
  What
• 11:51
  does
• 11:51
  SOS
• 11:51
  mean?
• 11:52
  Does
• 11:52
  anybody
• 11:52
  know
• 11:53
  what
• 11:53
  SOS
• 11:53
  actually
• 11:53
  means?
• 11:54
  I'm
• 11:54
  gonna
• 11:54
  have
• 11:54
  to
• 11:55
  Google
• 11:55
  this
• 11:56
  anyway.
• 11:56
  If
• 11:56
  your
• 11:56
  hormones
• 11:57
  might
• 11:58
  be
• 11:58
  scream,
• 11:58
  or
• 11:58
  this
• 11:59
  might
• 11:59
  be
• 11:59
  your
• 11:59
  hormones
• 12:00
  actually
• 12:00
  screaming
• 12:01
  at
• 12:01
  you
• 12:02
  because
• 12:02
  one
• 12:03
  body,
• 12:03
  one
• 12:03
  flesh,
• 12:04
  and
• 12:04
  yet
• 12:04
  one
• 12:05
  part
• 12:05
  of
• 12:05
  the
• 12:05
  flesh
• 12:06
  is
• 12:06
  rejecting
• 12:06
  the
• 12:06
  other
• 12:07
  part
• 12:07
  of
• 12:07
  the
• 12:07
  flesh.
• 12:08
  This
• 12:08
  could
• 12:08
  be
• 12:09
  a
• 12:09
  hormonal.
• 12:10
  Thing,
• 12:11
  and
• 12:11
  I'm
• 12:11
  talking,
• 12:12
  I'm
• 12:12
  not,
• 12:12
  I
• 12:13
  wanna
• 12:13
  be
• 12:13
  very
• 12:13
  clear.
• 12:13
  I'm
• 12:14
  also
• 12:14
  not
• 12:14
  talking
• 12:14
  about
• 12:15
  a
• 12:15
  relationship
• 12:15
  where
• 12:15
  you're
• 12:15
  physically
• 12:16
  or
• 12:16
  emotionally
• 12:16
  abused.
• 12:17
  That
• 12:17
  is,
• 12:18
  we
• 12:18
  are
• 12:18
  not
• 12:18
  talking
• 12:19
  about
• 12:19
  that.
• 12:19
  We're
• 12:20
  talking
• 12:20
  about
• 12:20
  this
• 12:20
  great
• 12:21
  man
• 12:21
  that
• 12:21
  we're
• 12:21
  now
• 12:22
  repulsed
• 12:22
  by.
• 12:23
  Okay?
• 12:24
  We're
• 12:24
  not
• 12:24
  talking
• 12:25
  about
• 12:25
  that.
• 12:26
  So.
• 12:27
  Your
• 12:27
  home
• 12:28
  hormones
• 12:28
  might
• 12:28
  be
• 12:29
  just
• 12:29
  screaming
• 12:30
  at
• 12:30
  you.
• 12:31
  And
• 12:31
  I
• 12:31
  want
• 12:31
  you
• 12:31
  to
• 12:32
  know
• 12:32
  too
• 12:33
  that
• 12:33
  when
• 12:33
  your
• 12:33
  cor,
• 12:33
  like
• 12:34
  when
• 12:34
  this
• 12:34
  is
• 12:34
  happening,
• 12:35
  when
• 12:35
  your
• 12:35
  cortisol
• 12:36
  is
• 12:36
  so
• 12:37
  high,
• 12:38
  when
• 12:38
  your
• 12:38
  estrogen
• 12:39
  is
• 12:39
  erratic,
• 12:40
  when
• 12:40
  your
• 12:40
  testosterone
• 12:41
  has
• 12:41
  tanked,
• 12:42
  when
• 12:42
  your
• 12:42
  progesterone
• 12:42
  has
• 12:43
  completely
• 12:43
  checked
• 12:43
  out
• 12:44
  and
• 12:44
  you're
• 12:44
  not
• 12:44
  even
• 12:44
  ovulating
• 12:45
  anymore,
• 12:45
  you
• 12:46
  will
• 12:46
  not
• 12:46
  feel
• 12:46
  safe
• 12:47
  or
• 12:47
  sexy.
• 12:48
  Testosterone
• 12:49
  and
• 12:49
  progesterone
• 12:49
  make
• 12:50
  us
• 12:50
  feel
• 12:50
  sexy.
• 12:51
  They
• 12:51
  make
• 12:52
  us
• 12:52
  feel
• 12:52
  good,
• 12:52
  but
• 12:53
  instead.
• 12:54
  If
• 12:54
  this
• 12:55
  stuff
• 12:55
  is
• 12:55
  happening,
• 12:55
  if
• 12:56
  we
• 12:56
  are
• 12:56
  having
• 12:57
  erratic
• 12:57
  hormones,
• 12:58
  erratic
• 12:59
  stress
• 12:59
  hormones,
• 13:00
  erratic
• 13:00
  sex
• 13:00
  hormones,
• 13:02
  you
• 13:02
  are
• 13:02
  going
• 13:02
  to
• 13:03
  feel
• 13:03
  irritated
• 13:04
  by
• 13:04
  touch.
• 13:05
  You're
• 13:06
  going
• 13:06
  to
• 13:06
  feel
• 13:06
  disgusted
• 13:08
  by
• 13:08
  sweat
• 13:09
  or
• 13:09
  your
• 13:09
  husband
• 13:10
  breathing
• 13:11
  near
• 13:11
  you.
• 13:13
  And
• 13:13
  I'm
• 13:13
  laughing
• 13:13
  because.
• 13:14
  Anyway,
• 13:15
  that's,
• 13:15
  that's,
• 13:16
  that's
• 13:16
  for
• 13:16
  a
• 13:16
  substack
• 13:17
  conversation
• 13:17
  another
• 13:18
  day.
• 13:18
  You're
• 13:19
  gonna
• 13:19
  feel
• 13:19
  unable
• 13:20
  to
• 13:20
  relax,
• 13:21
  and
• 13:21
  you're
• 13:21
  probably
• 13:22
  not
• 13:22
  even
• 13:22
  gonna
• 13:22
  be
• 13:22
  able
• 13:22
  to
• 13:22
  feel
• 13:23
  pleasure
• 13:23
  or
• 13:23
  even
• 13:23
  have
• 13:24
  an
• 13:24
  orgasm
• 13:25
  because
• 13:26
  your
• 13:26
  mind
• 13:26
  and
• 13:27
  everything
• 13:27
  is
• 13:27
  just
• 13:27
  so
• 13:29
  pulled,
• 13:29
  like
• 13:29
  all
• 13:29
  the
• 13:29
  hormones
• 13:30
  are
• 13:30
  pulled
• 13:30
  away
• 13:30
  from
• 13:30
  that
• 13:31
  area.
• 13:31
  Blood
• 13:31
  flow
• 13:31
  doesn't
• 13:32
  go
• 13:32
  there.
• 13:32
  It's
• 13:33
  probably
• 13:33
  going
• 13:33
  to
• 13:34
  be
• 13:34
  very
• 13:34
  hard
• 13:34
  to
• 13:35
  be
• 13:35
  in,
• 13:35
  and
• 13:36
  you're
• 13:36
  probably
• 13:36
  not
• 13:36
  gonna
• 13:36
  have
• 13:36
  any
• 13:36
  lubrication.
• 13:38
  You
• 13:38
  are
• 13:38
  not
• 13:38
  gonna
• 13:38
  even,
• 13:39
  you
• 13:39
  know,
• 13:39
  we
• 13:39
  should
• 13:39
  be
• 13:39
  able
• 13:40
  to
• 13:40
  have
• 13:40
  two,
• 13:40
  three
• 13:41
  orgasms
• 13:42
  in
• 13:42
  a,
• 13:42
  in
• 13:42
  a,
• 13:43
  in
• 13:43
  a
• 13:43
  session
• 13:45
  and
• 13:45
  girlfriend
• 13:45
  get
• 13:46
  it
• 13:46
  because
• 13:46
  sex,
• 13:46
  we
• 13:46
  talk
• 13:47
  about
• 13:47
  sex
• 13:47
  here
• 13:47
  a
• 13:47
  lot.
• 13:48
  If
• 13:48
  you're
• 13:48
  in
• 13:48
  my
• 13:49
  clinic
• 13:49
  and
• 13:49
  you're
• 13:49
  in
• 13:50
  my
• 13:50
  wilderness
• 13:50
  of
• 13:50
  wellness,
• 13:50
  we're
• 13:51
  gonna
• 13:51
  talk
• 13:51
  about
• 13:51
  sex
• 13:51
  a
• 13:51
  lot
• 13:52
  because
• 13:52
  sex
• 13:53
  is
• 13:53
  a
• 13:53
  great
• 13:53
  way
• 13:54
  to
• 13:54
  manage
• 13:54
  mental
• 13:54
  health.
• 13:55
  It's
• 13:55
  a
• 13:55
  great
• 13:55
  way
• 13:55
  to
• 13:55
  improve
• 13:56
  your,
• 13:56
  um,
• 13:56
  your
• 13:57
  immune
• 13:57
  health.
• 13:57
  It's
• 13:58
  a
• 13:58
  great
• 13:58
  way
• 13:58
  to
• 13:58
  bring
• 13:58
  down
• 13:59
  antibodies.
• 13:59
  If
• 13:59
  you
• 13:59
  have
• 14:00
  and
• 14:00
  I'm
• 14:00
  talking
• 14:00
  about,
• 14:01
  I'm
• 14:01
  being
• 14:01
  very
• 14:02
  clear
• 14:02
  about
• 14:02
  sex
• 14:03
  in
• 14:03
  a
• 14:03
  married.
• 14:03
  Married,
• 14:04
  committed
• 14:04
  relationship.
• 14:05
  That
• 14:05
  is
• 14:05
  sec,
• 14:06
  that
• 14:06
  is
• 14:06
  safe.
• 14:07
  And
• 14:07
  I
• 14:07
  wanna
• 14:07
  make
• 14:07
  sure
• 14:07
  that
• 14:08
  we're
• 14:08
  talking
• 14:08
  about
• 14:08
  that
• 14:09
  and,
• 14:09
  and
• 14:09
  on
• 14:09
  the
• 14:09
  same
• 14:09
  page
• 14:10
  there,
• 14:10
  but
• 14:11
  the,
• 14:11
  we
• 14:12
  can
• 14:12
  go
• 14:12
  into
• 14:12
  the
• 14:12
  science
• 14:13
  of
• 14:13
  this
• 14:13
  too,
• 14:13
  that
• 14:13
  the
• 14:13
  semen
• 14:14
  of
• 14:15
  our
• 14:15
  husband,
• 14:16
  if
• 14:16
  it
• 14:16
  is,
• 14:16
  if
• 14:16
  he
• 14:17
  is
• 14:17
  a
• 14:17
  safe
• 14:17
  person
• 14:18
  and,
• 14:19
  and
• 14:19
  all
• 14:19
  of
• 14:19
  that.
• 14:19
  Then
• 14:20
  that
• 14:20
  semen
• 14:21
  actually
• 14:21
  gives
• 14:21
  us
• 14:21
  zinc.
• 14:22
  It
• 14:22
  gives
• 14:22
  us
• 14:23
  all
• 14:23
  of
• 14:23
  the
• 14:23
  minerals
• 14:24
  that
• 14:24
  we
• 14:24
  need
• 14:24
  for
• 14:24
  mental
• 14:25
  health.
• 14:25
  And
• 14:25
  guess
• 14:25
  what
• 14:26
  is
• 14:26
  right
• 14:26
  there
• 14:26
  on
• 14:27
  the
• 14:27
  edge
• 14:27
  of
• 14:27
  the
• 14:27
  VA
• 14:27
  vaginal
• 14:28
  wall,
• 14:28
  we
• 14:29
  have
• 14:29
  bowels.
• 14:30
  And
• 14:30
  guess
• 14:30
  what
• 14:30
  is
• 14:31
  there
• 14:31
  in
• 14:31
  our
• 14:31
  bowels?
• 14:32
  It
• 14:32
  is
• 14:32
  very
• 14:33
  rich
• 14:33
  and
• 14:33
  very
• 14:34
  much
• 14:34
  like
• 14:35
  abor,
• 14:35
  ab
• 14:35
  absorb,
• 14:37
  absorptive
• 14:37
  absorption.
• 14:38
  Anyway,
• 14:38
  the
• 14:38
  absorption
• 14:39
  of
• 14:40
  these
• 14:40
  minerals
• 14:40
  is
• 14:40
  there
• 14:41
  and
• 14:41
  it
• 14:41
  goes
• 14:41
  right
• 14:41
  into
• 14:41
  our
• 14:41
  bloodstream
• 14:42
  and
• 14:43
  is
• 14:43
  actually
• 14:43
  nourishing
• 14:44
  our
• 14:44
  bodies.
• 14:45
  Imagine
• 14:46
  a
• 14:46
  God
• 14:47
  who
• 14:47
  would
• 14:47
  give
• 14:47
  us
• 14:48
  exactly
• 14:49
  the
• 14:49
  nourishment
• 14:49
  we
• 14:49
  need
• 14:50
  from
• 14:50
  our
• 14:51
  husbands.
• 14:52
  Like,
• 14:52
  whoa.
• 14:53
  I
• 14:53
  call,
• 14:54
  I
• 14:54
  call
• 14:55
  sex
• 14:55
  an
• 14:55
  attitude
• 14:56
  adjustment
• 14:56
  because
• 14:57
  we
• 14:57
  should
• 14:57
  be
• 14:57
  having
• 14:57
  sex
• 14:58
  at
• 14:58
  least
• 14:58
  once
• 14:58
  a
• 14:58
  week,
• 14:59
  more
• 15:00
  if
• 15:00
  possible.
• 15:01
  But
• 15:01
  we
• 15:01
  should
• 15:01
  be
• 15:01
  doing
• 15:02
  that,
• 15:02
  especially
• 15:02
  around,
• 15:03
  um,
• 15:03
  the
• 15:04
  beginning,
• 15:04
  like
• 15:04
  right
• 15:04
  before
• 15:04
  we
• 15:05
  start
• 15:05
  our
• 15:05
  cycle,
• 15:06
  in
• 15:06
  the
• 15:06
  middle
• 15:06
  of
• 15:06
  our
• 15:06
  cycle,
• 15:07
  and
• 15:07
  then
• 15:08
  again,
• 15:08
  right
• 15:08
  before
• 15:09
  we
• 15:09
  should
• 15:09
  be
• 15:09
  doing
• 15:09
  that
• 15:09
  because
• 15:10
  it
• 15:10
  helps
• 15:10
  with
• 15:10
  our
• 15:10
  different
• 15:11
  mineral
• 15:11
  needs
• 15:12
  throughout
• 15:12
  the
• 15:12
  month.
• 15:13
  You
• 15:13
  start
• 15:13
  feeling.
• 15:14
  A
• 15:15
  little
• 15:15
  itchy,
• 15:15
  irritable.
• 15:16
  Then
• 15:16
  you
• 15:16
  go
• 15:17
  have
• 15:17
  sex
• 15:17
  and
• 15:17
  those
• 15:18
  minerals
• 15:18
  go
• 15:19
  in
• 15:19
  and
• 15:19
  completely
• 15:20
  change
• 15:20
  your
• 15:20
  change
• 15:21
  Who
• 15:21
  you
• 15:21
  are.
• 15:21
  Like
• 15:22
  you,
• 15:22
  you
• 15:22
  walk
• 15:22
  in
• 15:23
  one
• 15:23
  person,
• 15:23
  walk
• 15:23
  out
• 15:24
  another
• 15:24
  person.
• 15:25
  So
• 15:26
  all
• 15:26
  of
• 15:26
  this,
• 15:28
  if
• 15:28
  you
• 15:28
  feel
• 15:28
  completely
• 15:29
  disinterest
• 15:29
  in
• 15:30
  disinterested
• 15:31
  in
• 15:31
  sex,
• 15:32
  it
• 15:32
  is
• 15:32
  likely
• 15:33
  due
• 15:33
  to
• 15:33
  all
• 15:34
  of
• 15:34
  those
• 15:34
  hormones
• 15:34
  not
• 15:35
  working
• 15:35
  right,
• 15:36
  because
• 15:36
  you're
• 15:36
  so
• 15:37
  stressed
• 15:37
  and
• 15:37
  because
• 15:38
  your
• 15:38
  body
• 15:38
  does
• 15:38
  not
• 15:39
  feel
• 15:39
  safe.
• 15:40
  And
• 15:40
  when
• 15:41
  your
• 15:41
  body
• 15:41
  doesn't
• 15:41
  feel
• 15:42
  safe.
• 15:43
  Ever.
• 15:43
  It
• 15:44
  always,
• 15:44
  always,
• 15:45
  always
• 15:45
  prioritizes
• 15:46
  survival,
• 15:47
  not
• 15:47
  connection.
• 15:48
  We
• 15:49
  don't,
• 15:49
  we
• 15:49
  do
• 15:49
  need
• 15:49
  connection
• 15:50
  to
• 15:50
  survive,
• 15:51
  but
• 15:51
  connection
• 15:52
  does
• 15:52
  not
• 15:53
  mean
• 15:54
  that
• 15:54
  we
• 15:54
  are
• 15:54
  going
• 15:55
  to
• 15:55
  survive
• 15:55
  and
• 15:55
  our
• 15:56
  internal
• 15:56
  organs
• 15:56
  are
• 15:57
  designed
• 15:57
  to
• 15:58
  survive.
• 15:59
  So
• 15:59
  a
• 15:59
  low
• 15:59
  libido,
• 16:00
  dryness,
• 16:01
  brain
• 16:02
  fog,
• 16:02
  weight
• 16:03
  gain,
• 16:03
  anxiety,
• 16:04
  insomnia.
• 16:05
  These
• 16:05
  things
• 16:06
  are
• 16:06
  flashing,
• 16:06
  warning
• 16:07
  signs
• 16:07
  that
• 16:07
  when
• 16:07
  they
• 16:07
  go
• 16:07
  unchecked
• 16:08
  you,
• 16:09
  your
• 16:09
  body
• 16:09
  will
• 16:10
  shut
• 16:10
  down.
• 16:11
  Intimacies
• 16:11
  needs.
• 16:13
  So
• 16:13
  again,
• 16:14
  this
• 16:15
  is
• 16:15
  a
• 16:15
  sign
• 16:16
  that
• 16:16
  you
• 16:16
  don't
• 16:16
  need
• 16:16
  to
• 16:16
  go
• 16:17
  run
• 16:17
  a
• 16:17
  Dutch
• 16:18
  panel.
• 16:18
  You
• 16:18
  don't
• 16:19
  need
• 16:19
  to
• 16:19
  go
• 16:19
  get
• 16:19
  lab
• 16:20
  work
• 16:20
  done.
• 16:21
  You
• 16:21
  don't
• 16:21
  need
• 16:21
  labs
• 16:22
  to
• 16:22
  prove
• 16:22
  to
• 16:22
  me
• 16:23
  that
• 16:23
  you
• 16:23
  are
• 16:24
  dis
• 16:24
  disinterested
• 16:25
  in
• 16:25
  sex.
• 16:26
  You
• 16:26
  don't
• 16:26
  need
• 16:26
  labs
• 16:26
  to
• 16:27
  prove
• 16:27
  to
• 16:27
  me
• 16:27
  that
• 16:27
  you
• 16:27
  have
• 16:27
  a
• 16:27
  low
• 16:28
  libido
• 16:28
  or
• 16:28
  dryness
• 16:29
  or
• 16:29
  brain
• 16:29
  fog
• 16:29
  or
• 16:29
  weight
• 16:30
  gain.
• 16:30
  I
• 16:30
  don't
• 16:30
  need
• 16:31
  that.
• 16:31
  I
• 16:31
  need
• 16:31
  you
• 16:31
  to
• 16:31
  tell
• 16:31
  me
• 16:32
  that
• 16:33
  you
• 16:33
  just
• 16:34
  simply
• 16:34
  need
• 16:34
  restoration.
• 16:36
  And
• 16:36
  that
• 16:36
  ability
• 16:37
  to
• 16:37
  be
• 16:37
  vulnerable
• 16:38
  and
• 16:38
  to
• 16:38
  get
• 16:39
  that
• 16:39
  human
• 16:39
  connection
• 16:40
  and
• 16:40
  to
• 16:41
  then
• 16:41
  get
• 16:42
  the
• 16:42
  changes
• 16:42
  you
• 16:42
  need.
• 16:43
  Okay,
• 16:44
  so
• 16:44
  the
• 16:44
  second
• 16:45
  thing
• 16:45
  that
• 16:46
  is
• 16:46
  really
• 16:46
  kind
• 16:46
  of
• 16:46
  going
• 16:47
  on
• 16:47
  between
• 16:47
  us,
• 16:47
  the
• 16:47
  first
• 16:48
  thing
• 16:48
  I
• 16:48
  said
• 16:48
  was
• 16:48
  your
• 16:48
  hormones.
• 16:49
  The
• 16:49
  second
• 16:50
  thing
• 16:50
  is
• 16:50
  resentment.
• 16:52
  The
• 16:52
  second
• 16:53
  thing
• 16:53
  that's
• 16:53
  going
• 16:53
  on
• 16:53
  is
• 16:54
  resentment.
• 16:54
  Resentment
• 16:55
  is
• 16:55
  a
• 16:55
  very
• 16:55
  real
• 16:56
  thing
• 16:56
  inside
• 16:57
  of
• 16:57
  marriages
• 16:57
  that's
• 16:57
  killing
• 16:58
  intimacy,
• 16:59
  which
• 16:59
  then
• 16:59
  ultimately
• 17:00
  kills
• 17:00
  our
• 17:02
  marriages.
• 17:03
  Even
• 17:04
  if
• 17:04
  your
• 17:04
  husband
• 17:04
  is
• 17:05
  a
• 17:05
  good
• 17:05
  man,
• 17:06
  even
• 17:06
  if
• 17:06
  you
• 17:07
  love
• 17:07
  him,
• 17:07
  even
• 17:08
  if
• 17:08
  you're
• 17:08
  doing
• 17:08
  all
• 17:08
  the
• 17:08
  quote
• 17:09
  unquote
• 17:09
  right,
• 17:09
  Christian
• 17:10
  wife
• 17:10
  things,
• 17:12
  if
• 17:12
  you
• 17:12
  feel
• 17:12
  like
• 17:12
  you
• 17:13
  carry
• 17:13
  more
• 17:13
  of
• 17:13
  the
• 17:13
  load,
• 17:14
  if
• 17:15
  you
• 17:15
  feel
• 17:15
  like
• 17:15
  you,
• 17:16
  you've
• 17:16
  disappeared
• 17:17
  into
• 17:17
  motherhood
• 17:17
  and
• 17:17
  work
• 17:18
  or
• 17:18
  the
• 17:18
  house,
• 17:19
  while
• 17:19
  he
• 17:19
  still
• 17:19
  gets
• 17:19
  to
• 17:20
  be
• 17:20
  himself,
• 17:22
  oh,
• 17:22
  did
• 17:22
  I
• 17:23
  hit
• 17:23
  a
• 17:23
  nerve?
• 17:25
  If
• 17:25
  you
• 17:26
  haven't
• 17:26
  voiced
• 17:26
  what
• 17:27
  you
• 17:27
  need
• 17:27
  and
• 17:28
  you're
• 17:28
  starting
• 17:28
  to
• 17:29
  simmer
• 17:29
  with
• 17:29
  unspoken
• 17:30
  tension,
• 17:31
  the
• 17:32
  resentment
• 17:32
  grows
• 17:33
  and
• 17:33
  it
• 17:33
  grows
• 17:33
  quietly.
• 17:35
  But
• 17:35
  here's
• 17:36
  what
• 17:36
  happens.
• 17:37
  Resentment
• 17:37
  blocks
• 17:38
  desire.
• 17:39
  So
• 17:39
  because
• 17:40
  emotional
• 17:40
  disconnection
• 17:41
  becomes
• 17:41
  physical
• 17:42
  disconnection,
• 17:43
  we
• 17:43
  as
• 17:43
  women,
• 17:44
  our
• 17:45
  bodies
• 17:45
  simply
• 17:45
  follow
• 17:46
  that
• 17:47
  feeling
• 17:48
  and
• 17:48
  we
• 17:48
  can't
• 17:48
  separate
• 17:49
  them.
• 17:50
  So
• 17:51
  here's
• 17:51
  what
• 17:51
  I
• 17:51
  just
• 17:51
  said.
• 17:52
  Resentment.
• 17:54
  Is
• 17:54
  killing
• 17:55
  your
• 17:55
  intimacy.
• 17:56
  And
• 17:56
  I
• 17:56
  just
• 17:56
  said,
• 17:57
  if
• 17:57
  you
• 17:57
  haven't
• 17:57
  voiced
• 17:58
  what
• 17:58
  you
• 17:58
  need,
• 17:59
  if
• 17:59
  you
• 17:59
  think
• 18:00
  your
• 18:00
  husband
• 18:00
  should
• 18:00
  know
• 18:01
  what
• 18:01
  you
• 18:01
  need,
• 18:02
  if
• 18:02
  you
• 18:02
  think
• 18:02
  your
• 18:03
  husband
• 18:03
  still
• 18:03
  gets
• 18:04
  to
• 18:04
  be
• 18:04
  and
• 18:04
  do,
• 18:05
  and
• 18:05
  his
• 18:05
  life
• 18:05
  is
• 18:05
  just
• 18:05
  amazing
• 18:06
  and
• 18:06
  you're
• 18:06
  over
• 18:06
  here
• 18:07
  suffering,
• 18:07
  it's
• 18:08
  likely
• 18:08
  because
• 18:08
  you
• 18:08
  haven't
• 18:09
  spoken
• 18:09
  up.
• 18:09
  So
• 18:10
  we'll
• 18:10
  get
• 18:10
  there
• 18:10
  in
• 18:10
  a
• 18:10
  few
• 18:10
  minutes,
• 18:11
  but
• 18:11
  it
• 18:12
  could
• 18:12
  be
• 18:13
  the
• 18:13
  fact
• 18:13
  that
• 18:13
  you
• 18:13
  are
• 18:14
  struggling
• 18:15
  with
• 18:16
  and
• 18:16
  not
• 18:16
  being
• 18:16
  attracted
• 18:17
  to
• 18:17
  your
• 18:17
  husband
• 18:18
  anymore.
• 18:18
  It
• 18:18
  is
• 18:18
  likely
• 18:19
  due
• 18:19
  to
• 18:20
  the
• 18:20
  fact
• 18:20
  that
• 18:20
  you
• 18:20
  have
• 18:21
  and
• 18:21
  are
• 18:21
  holding
• 18:22
  resentment.
• 18:23
  Okay.
• 18:24
  And
• 18:24
  then
• 18:24
  the
• 18:25
  third
• 18:25
  thing
• 18:25
  is
• 18:26
  the
• 18:26
  reason
• 18:26
  why
• 18:27
  you
• 18:27
  are
• 18:27
  struggling
• 18:28
  with
• 18:28
  attraction
• 18:28
  to
• 18:28
  your
• 18:28
  husband
• 18:29
  is
• 18:29
  likely
• 18:30
  that
• 18:30
  you're
• 18:30
  numbing
• 18:30
  out
• 18:31
  and
• 18:31
  you
• 18:32
  know
• 18:32
  it.
• 18:33
  You
• 18:33
  are
• 18:33
  saying
• 18:34
  things
• 18:34
  because
• 18:35
  we're
• 18:35
  good.
• 18:35
  We're
• 18:35
  good
• 18:36
  Christian
• 18:36
  women
• 18:36
  on
• 18:37
  the
• 18:37
  surface,
• 18:38
  it's
• 18:38
  just
• 18:38
  a
• 18:38
  busy
• 18:39
  season.
• 18:40
  It's
• 18:40
  okay.
• 18:41
  Like
• 18:41
  I'll
• 18:41
  get
• 18:41
  through
• 18:42
  this,
• 18:42
  we'll
• 18:42
  get
• 18:42
  through
• 18:42
  this
• 18:43
  deer.
• 18:43
  It's
• 18:43
  fine.
• 18:45
  We'll
• 18:45
  say
• 18:46
  things
• 18:46
  also
• 18:47
  well,
• 18:47
  when
• 18:47
  the
• 18:47
  kids
• 18:47
  are
• 18:47
  older,
• 18:48
  I'll
• 18:48
  feel
• 18:48
  like
• 18:48
  myself
• 18:49
  again.
• 18:49
  We'll
• 18:49
  be
• 18:49
  connected.
• 18:50
  We'll
• 18:50
  travel
• 18:50
  the
• 18:50
  world.
• 18:51
  We'll,
• 18:51
  you
• 18:51
  live
• 18:52
  in
• 18:52
  this
• 18:52
  la
• 18:52
  la
• 18:52
  land
• 18:53
  of
• 18:53
  not
• 18:54
  taking
• 18:54
  accountability
• 18:55
  right
• 18:55
  now.
• 18:57
  Or
• 18:57
  maybe
• 18:57
  you
• 18:57
  say
• 18:57
  things
• 18:58
  like,
• 18:58
  I'm
• 18:58
  just
• 18:58
  tired.
• 18:59
  Then
• 18:59
  go
• 19:00
  to
• 19:00
  bed,
• 19:00
  like,
• 19:01
  like
• 19:01
  I,
• 19:01
  I
• 19:02
  am,
• 19:02
  I
• 19:02
  am
• 19:02
  literally
• 19:03
  sitting
• 19:03
  across
• 19:03
  the
• 19:03
  table
• 19:04
  from
• 19:04
  you,
• 19:05
  and
• 19:05
  this
• 19:05
  is
• 19:05
  how
• 19:05
  I
• 19:05
  would
• 19:05
  talk
• 19:05
  to
• 19:06
  you
• 19:07
  because
• 19:07
  I
• 19:07
  am
• 19:07
  the
• 19:07
  friend
• 19:08
  that
• 19:08
  is
• 19:08
  kind
• 19:10
  not
• 19:10
  nice.
• 19:11
  I'm
• 19:11
  not
• 19:11
  gonna
• 19:11
  placate
• 19:13
  and
• 19:13
  enable
• 19:13
  those
• 19:14
  in
• 19:14
  my
• 19:14
  sphere,
• 19:15
  in
• 19:15
  my
• 19:15
  circle,
• 19:16
  in
• 19:16
  front
• 19:16
  of
• 19:17
  me
• 19:17
  to
• 19:17
  continue
• 19:18
  moving
• 19:18
  forward
• 19:19
  in.
• 19:20
  Brokenness,
• 19:21
  or
• 19:21
  what
• 19:22
  is
• 19:22
  that
• 19:22
  word
• 19:22
  I'm
• 19:22
  thinking
• 19:23
  of?
• 19:23
  Like
• 19:23
  dissolution
• 19:24
  of
• 19:25
  their,
• 19:25
  of
• 19:25
  who
• 19:25
  they
• 19:25
  even
• 19:26
  are.
• 19:26
  And
• 19:26
  then
• 19:27
  it
• 19:27
  just
• 19:27
  creates
• 19:27
  this
• 19:28
  thing
• 19:28
  where
• 19:28
  the
• 19:28
  enemy
• 19:29
  doesn't
• 19:29
  have
• 19:29
  to
• 19:29
  do
• 19:29
  any
• 19:29
  work
• 19:30
  on
• 19:30
  you
• 19:30
  anymore.
• 19:30
  So
• 19:30
  because
• 19:31
  you're
• 19:31
  already
• 19:31
  in
• 19:31
  your
• 19:31
  own
• 19:31
  world
• 19:32
  and
• 19:32
  he
• 19:32
  has
• 19:33
  already
• 19:33
  got
• 19:33
  you
• 19:33
  distracted
• 19:34
  enough
• 19:34
  in
• 19:34
  your
• 19:34
  own
• 19:35
  pity
• 19:35
  party,
• 19:36
  and
• 19:36
  you're
• 19:36
  not
• 19:36
  taking
• 19:37
  ownership
• 19:37
  of
• 19:37
  that.
• 19:38
  And
• 19:39
  so
• 19:39
  we
• 19:39
  say
• 19:39
  things
• 19:39
  like,
• 19:39
  I'm
• 19:40
  not,
• 19:40
  I'm
• 19:40
  just
• 19:40
  tired,
• 19:41
  or
• 19:41
  I
• 19:41
  just
• 19:41
  don't
• 19:41
  care
• 19:41
  anymore.
• 19:42
  I'm
• 19:42
  fine.
• 19:43
  But
• 19:43
  you're
• 19:43
  not
• 19:44
  fine.
• 19:45
  You're
• 19:45
  lying.
• 19:46
  That's
• 19:46
  that
• 19:46
  vulnerability
• 19:47
  piece,
• 19:47
  that
• 19:47
  vulnerability
• 19:48
  pieces
• 19:48
  that
• 19:48
  we
• 19:48
  have
• 19:48
  to
• 19:48
  be
• 19:48
  honest
• 19:49
  with
• 19:49
  ourselves
• 19:49
  and
• 19:49
  honest
• 19:49
  with
• 19:50
  someone
• 19:50
  else.
• 19:50
  And
• 19:51
  every
• 19:51
  single
• 19:51
  time
• 19:51
  you
• 19:51
  say
• 19:52
  you're
• 19:52
  fine,
• 19:53
  you're
• 19:53
  lying.
• 19:53
  You're
• 19:53
  not
• 19:54
  being
• 19:54
  vulnerable
• 19:57
  every
• 19:57
  single
• 19:58
  time
• 19:59
  because
• 20:00
  you,
• 20:00
  we
• 20:01
  can
• 20:01
  clearly
• 20:01
  see
• 20:01
  you're
• 20:02
  not
• 20:02
  fine.
• 20:02
  The
• 20:02
  fruit
• 20:03
  of
• 20:03
  who
• 20:03
  you
• 20:03
  are,
• 20:04
  the
• 20:04
  fruit
• 20:04
  of
• 20:04
  your
• 20:04
  skin,
• 20:05
  the
• 20:05
  fruit
• 20:05
  of
• 20:05
  your
• 20:06
  bowels,
• 20:06
  the
• 20:06
  fruit
• 20:06
  of
• 20:07
  you
• 20:07
  complaining
• 20:07
  about
• 20:07
  your
• 20:07
  foods,
• 20:08
  the
• 20:08
  fruit
• 20:08
  of
• 20:08
  you
• 20:09
  all
• 20:09
  of
• 20:09
  these
• 20:09
  other
• 20:10
  things
• 20:10
  of,
• 20:11
  of
• 20:11
  your
• 20:11
  excuses.
• 20:12
  Tell
• 20:13
  us
• 20:13
  you're
• 20:13
  not
• 20:13
  fine.
• 20:14
  They
• 20:14
  tell
• 20:14
  us
• 20:15
  that
• 20:15
  you've
• 20:15
  numbed
• 20:15
  out,
• 20:15
  you've
• 20:16
  shut
• 20:16
  down,
• 20:16
  you've
• 20:17
  checked
• 20:17
  out
• 20:17
  of
• 20:17
  your
• 20:17
  own
• 20:18
  body
• 20:18
  and
• 20:18
  soul,
• 20:20
  whether
• 20:21
  it's
• 20:21
  simply
• 20:21
  scrolling
• 20:22
  or,
• 20:22
  or
• 20:23
  snacking,
• 20:23
  or
• 20:23
  maybe
• 20:24
  you're
• 20:24
  doing
• 20:24
  late
• 20:24
  night
• 20:24
  shopping
• 20:25
  or
• 20:25
  ticky
• 20:25
  talky
• 20:26
  stores.
• 20:26
  I
• 20:26
  don't
• 20:26
  even
• 20:26
  know
• 20:27
  what
• 20:27
  a
• 20:27
  TikTok
• 20:27
  shop
• 20:27
  is.
• 20:27
  Can
• 20:28
  someone
• 20:28
  please
• 20:28
  tell
• 20:28
  me
• 20:28
  what
• 20:29
  that
• 20:29
  is?
• 20:29
  'cause
• 20:29
  I
• 20:29
  don't
• 20:30
  know.
• 20:30
  Everyone
• 20:30
  keeps
• 20:30
  talking.
• 20:30
  I
• 20:30
  got
• 20:31
  this
• 20:31
  on
• 20:31
  the
• 20:31
  TikTok
• 20:31
  shop.
• 20:32
  Well,
• 20:32
  what
• 20:32
  is
• 20:32
  a
• 20:32
  TikTok
• 20:32
  shop?
• 20:33
  I
• 20:33
  have
• 20:33
  no
• 20:33
  clue
• 20:33
  what
• 20:33
  that
• 20:33
  is.
• 20:34
  Maybe
• 20:34
  when
• 20:35
  China
• 20:35
  doesn't
• 20:35
  own.
• 20:36
  TikTok
• 20:37
  anymore.
• 20:37
  Maybe
• 20:37
  I'll
• 20:37
  get
• 20:37
  one.
• 20:37
  I
• 20:38
  don't
• 20:38
  know.
• 20:38
  Maybe
• 20:38
  I'll
• 20:38
  just
• 20:38
  stay
• 20:38
  away
• 20:38
  from
• 20:39
  it.
• 20:39
  Maybe
• 20:39
  I'm
• 20:39
  too
• 20:39
  old.
• 20:40
  There's
• 20:40
  my
• 20:40
  excuse
• 20:41
  that
• 20:41
  I
• 20:41
  just
• 20:41
  simply
• 20:42
  need
• 20:42
  to
• 20:42
  say.
• 20:43
  I
• 20:43
  don't
• 20:43
  want
• 20:44
  TikTok.
• 20:44
  I
• 20:44
  don't
• 20:44
  need
• 20:45
  another
• 20:45
  social
• 20:45
  media
• 20:46
  source
• 20:46
  to
• 20:46
  distract
• 20:46
  me.
• 20:47
  So
• 20:48
  also
• 20:49
  social
• 20:49
  media,
• 20:49
  right?
• 20:49
  The
• 20:49
  scrolling,
• 20:50
  um,
• 20:50
  if
• 20:51
  you're
• 20:51
  pouring
• 20:51
  another
• 20:51
  glass
• 20:52
  of
• 20:52
  wine
• 20:52
  or
• 20:52
  another
• 20:52
  Tito's,
• 20:53
  because
• 20:53
  Tito's
• 20:54
  seems
• 20:54
  to
• 20:54
  be
• 20:54
  the,
• 20:55
  the
• 20:55
  girl
• 20:55
  acceptable
• 20:56
  liquor.
• 20:57
  And
• 20:58
  girls.
• 20:58
  I
• 20:58
  was,
• 20:58
  I
• 20:59
  was
• 20:59
  a
• 20:59
  Jack
• 20:59
  Daniels,
• 21:00
  a
• 21:00
  bourbon
• 21:00
  girl.
• 21:00
  I
• 21:00
  would
• 21:01
  still
• 21:01
  choose
• 21:01
  a
• 21:02
  bourbon
• 21:02
  over
• 21:03
  vodka
• 21:03
  because,
• 21:04
  I
• 21:04
  don't
• 21:04
  know,
• 21:04
  it
• 21:04
  just
• 21:05
  has
• 21:05
  more
• 21:05
  character.
• 21:06
  Anyway,
• 21:07
  all
• 21:07
  of
• 21:07
  that
• 21:07
  to
• 21:08
  say
• 21:08
  you're
• 21:08
  avoiding
• 21:09
  feeling
• 21:10
  the
• 21:10
  pain,
• 21:11
  the,
• 21:11
  the,
• 21:12
  the
• 21:12
  truth,
• 21:12
  the
• 21:12
  pain
• 21:13
  of
• 21:13
  the
• 21:13
  truth,
• 21:14
  the
• 21:14
  pain
• 21:15
  of
• 21:15
  the
• 21:15
  reality
• 21:16
  of
• 21:16
  being
• 21:17
  honest
• 21:17
  with
• 21:17
  yourself
• 21:17
  and
• 21:18
  someone
• 21:18
  else.
• 21:19
  The
• 21:19
  pain
• 21:19
  of
• 21:20
  of
• 21:20
  knowing
• 21:21
  that
• 21:21
  change
• 21:21
  is
• 21:21
  hard
• 21:22
  and
• 21:22
  you're
• 21:22
  gonna
• 21:22
  have
• 21:22
  to
• 21:22
  change
• 21:23
  some
• 21:23
  things
• 21:23
  about
• 21:23
  you.
• 21:26
  Because
• 21:26
  facing
• 21:27
  this
• 21:27
  and
• 21:27
  being
• 21:28
  honest
• 21:28
  would
• 21:28
  mean
• 21:28
  that
• 21:28
  you
• 21:29
  have
• 21:29
  to
• 21:29
  admit
• 21:29
  just
• 21:30
  how
• 21:30
  lonely
• 21:30
  you
• 21:30
  are.
• 21:31
  Admitting
• 21:32
  how
• 21:32
  far
• 21:32
  that
• 21:32
  you've
• 21:32
  drifted
• 21:33
  away.
• 21:33
  Even
• 21:34
  if
• 21:34
  you're
• 21:34
  in
• 21:34
  the
• 21:34
  church
• 21:35
  and
• 21:35
  serving
• 21:36
  the
• 21:36
  church
• 21:36
  and
• 21:37
  you
• 21:37
  look
• 21:37
  on
• 21:37
  the
• 21:38
  outside
• 21:38
  of
• 21:38
  like
• 21:38
  someone
• 21:39
  who's
• 21:39
  so
• 21:40
  like,
• 21:40
  so
• 21:40
  wise
• 21:41
  in
• 21:41
  the
• 21:41
  word.
• 21:41
  And
• 21:41
  maybe
• 21:42
  you
• 21:42
  are,
• 21:42
  maybe
• 21:43
  you
• 21:43
  were
• 21:43
  like
• 21:43
  I
• 21:43
  was,
• 21:43
  I
• 21:43
  was
• 21:44
  wise
• 21:44
  in
• 21:44
  the
• 21:44
  word,
• 21:45
  but
• 21:45
  I
• 21:45
  was
• 21:45
  not,
• 21:46
  I
• 21:46
  was
• 21:46
  not
• 21:46
  fully
• 21:47
  embodying
• 21:47
  wisdom
• 21:48
  because
• 21:48
  wisdom
• 21:49
  is
• 21:49
  truth
• 21:50
  lived
• 21:50
  out,
• 21:51
  it's
• 21:51
  knowledge
• 21:52
  lived
• 21:52
  out.
• 21:53
  And
• 21:54
  we're
• 21:54
  not.
• 21:54
  So
• 21:54
  we
• 21:54
  feel
• 21:55
  that
• 21:55
  we've
• 21:55
  drifted.
• 21:56
  So
• 21:56
  it
• 21:56
  feels
• 21:56
  like
• 21:57
  we've
• 21:57
  not
• 21:57
  only
• 21:57
  disconnected
• 21:58
  from
• 21:58
  God,
• 21:59
  but
• 21:59
  from
• 21:59
  ourselves
• 22:00
  and
• 22:00
  from
• 22:00
  our
• 22:00
  husbands,
• 22:01
  and
• 22:01
  we've
• 22:01
  disconnected
• 22:02
  in
• 22:02
  integrity.
• 22:04
  But
• 22:05
  I
• 22:05
  want
• 22:05
  you
• 22:05
  to
• 22:06
  listen
• 22:06
  in
• 22:07
  right
• 22:08
  now.
• 22:09
  You
• 22:09
  can
• 22:09
  keep
• 22:10
  numbing
• 22:11
  and
• 22:11
  drifting
• 22:11
  away,
• 22:12
  and
• 22:12
  that's
• 22:12
  one
• 22:13
  option
• 22:14
  because
• 22:14
  it
• 22:14
  has
• 22:15
  an
• 22:15
  emotional
• 22:15
  payoff
• 22:16
  of,
• 22:16
  okay,
• 22:16
  well,
• 22:17
  it's
• 22:17
  just
• 22:17
  easier
• 22:18
  right
• 22:18
  now.
• 22:19
  Or
• 22:20
  you
• 22:20
  can
• 22:20
  turn
• 22:20
  around
• 22:21
  and
• 22:21
  say,
• 22:22
  this
• 22:22
  isn't
• 22:22
  how
• 22:22
  the
• 22:22
  story
• 22:23
  ends.
• 22:24
  And
• 22:24
  that
• 22:24
  emotional
• 22:25
  payoff
• 22:25
  lasts
• 22:25
  eternity
• 22:26
  and
• 22:26
  generation
• 22:27
  upon
• 22:27
  generations.
• 22:30
  You
• 22:30
  know,
• 22:30
  God
• 22:31
  created
• 22:31
  intimacy
• 22:33
  as
• 22:33
  a
• 22:33
  gift.
• 22:36
  It
• 22:36
  is
• 22:36
  a
• 22:36
  duty.
• 22:36
  There's
• 22:37
  a
• 22:37
  marital
• 22:37
  duty
• 22:37
  that
• 22:38
  comes
• 22:38
  with
• 22:38
  that
• 22:38
  gift.
• 22:40
  It's
• 22:41
  a
• 22:41
  reflection
• 22:41
  of
• 22:42
  the
• 22:42
  oneness
• 22:42
  that
• 22:42
  we're
• 22:43
  invited
• 22:43
  to
• 22:43
  have
• 22:44
  with
• 22:44
  him.
• 22:45
  But
• 22:45
  sin.
• 22:46
  Stress,
• 22:47
  trauma,
• 22:48
  biology,
• 22:49
  all
• 22:49
  try
• 22:50
  to
• 22:50
  rob
• 22:50
  us
• 22:51
  of
• 22:51
  that
• 22:51
  gift.
• 22:52
  And
• 22:53
  the
• 22:53
  enemy
• 22:53
  would
• 22:53
  love
• 22:53
  nothing
• 22:54
  more
• 22:54
  than
• 22:54
  to
• 22:54
  keep
• 22:54
  you
• 22:55
  isolated,
• 22:56
  keep
• 22:56
  you
• 22:56
  burnt
• 22:56
  out,
• 22:57
  keep
• 22:57
  you
• 22:57
  too
• 22:58
  tired,
• 22:58
  too
• 22:59
  inflamed,
• 23:00
  too
• 23:00
  many
• 23:00
  bowel
• 23:00
  issues,
• 23:01
  too
• 23:01
  angry,
• 23:02
  too
• 23:02
  ashamed
• 23:03
  to
• 23:03
  ever
• 23:03
  feel
• 23:03
  joy
• 23:04
  again
• 23:04
  in
• 23:04
  your
• 23:04
  own
• 23:04
  skin,
• 23:05
  let
• 23:06
  alone
• 23:06
  your
• 23:06
  marriage.
• 23:07
  But
• 23:07
  you,
• 23:08
  my
• 23:09
  friend,
• 23:09
  because
• 23:09
  you're
• 23:09
  still
• 23:09
  listening
• 23:10
  to
• 23:10
  this
• 23:10
  episode,
• 23:11
  20
• 23:11
  some
• 23:11
  odd
• 23:11
  minutes
• 23:12
  in
• 23:12
  here.
• 23:13
  I
• 23:14
  know
• 23:15
  that
• 23:15
  you
• 23:15
  were
• 23:16
  made
• 23:16
  for
• 23:16
  restoration.
• 23:18
  This
• 23:19
  isn't
• 23:19
  for
• 23:19
  the
• 23:19
  faint
• 23:19
  of
• 23:19
  heart,
• 23:21
  but
• 23:22
  restoration
• 23:23
  looks
• 23:23
  like
• 23:24
  restoring
• 23:25
  your
• 23:25
  health,
• 23:27
  restoring
• 23:28
  your
• 23:28
  intimacy,
• 23:29
  restoring
• 23:29
  your
• 23:29
  relationships,
• 23:31
  restoring
• 23:32
  that
• 23:33
  broken
• 23:33
  8-year-old
• 23:34
  girl
• 23:35
  who
• 23:35
  learned.
• 23:36
  That
• 23:37
  she
• 23:37
  had
• 23:37
  to
• 23:37
  perform
• 23:38
  for
• 23:38
  everyone
• 23:38
  else,
• 23:39
  and
• 23:39
  now
• 23:40
  her
• 23:40
  body
• 23:40
  feels
• 23:41
  like
• 23:41
  it's
• 23:41
  betraying
• 23:41
  her
• 23:42
  because
• 23:42
  she
• 23:42
  has
• 23:42
  been
• 23:43
  performing
• 23:43
  for
• 23:44
  thir
• 23:45
  3,
• 23:45
  4,
• 23:45
  5,
• 23:46
  6
• 23:46
  decades.
• 23:48
  For
• 23:48
  maybe
• 23:49
  someone
• 23:49
  that's
• 23:49
  no
• 23:49
  longer
• 23:50
  even
• 23:50
  on
• 23:50
  this
• 23:50
  earth,
• 23:52
  still
• 23:52
  trying
• 23:52
  to
• 23:52
  get
• 23:52
  approval
• 23:53
  from
• 23:53
  mom
• 23:53
  and
• 23:53
  dad.
• 23:55
  Still
• 23:55
  trying
• 23:55
  to
• 23:56
  please
• 23:56
  mom
• 23:56
  and
• 23:56
  dad
• 23:57
  or
• 23:57
  grandma
• 23:57
  and
• 23:57
  grandpa
• 23:58
  or
• 23:58
  trying
• 23:59
  to
• 23:59
  prove
• 23:59
  yourself
• 23:59
  wrong
• 24:00
  because
• 24:00
  you
• 24:00
  were
• 24:00
  bullied
• 24:00
  in
• 24:01
  high
• 24:01
  school
• 24:01
  or
• 24:01
  middle
• 24:01
  school
• 24:02
  or,
• 24:02
  um,
• 24:03
  trying
• 24:03
  to
• 24:03
  prove
• 24:03
  to
• 24:03
  your
• 24:04
  siblings
• 24:04
  just
• 24:04
  how
• 24:04
  much
• 24:04
  better
• 24:05
  you
• 24:05
  are
• 24:05
  or
• 24:06
  all
• 24:06
  of
• 24:07
  those
• 24:07
  things.
• 24:09
  And
• 24:09
  because
• 24:10
  your
• 24:10
  body
• 24:10
  heals
• 24:12
  and
• 24:12
  as
• 24:12
  your
• 24:12
  body
• 24:13
  heals,
• 24:14
  your
• 24:14
  heart
• 24:15
  starts
• 24:15
  to
• 24:16
  soften.
• 24:17
  Your
• 24:17
  hormones
• 24:18
  stabilize.
• 24:20
  So
• 24:20
  you
• 24:20
  find
• 24:20
  your
• 24:20
  spark
• 24:21
  again.
• 24:21
  And
• 24:21
  when
• 24:21
  I
• 24:21
  say
• 24:21
  spark,
• 24:22
  I
• 24:22
  mean
• 24:23
  that
• 24:23
  mental
• 24:23
  clarity.
• 24:24
  I'm
• 24:24
  thinking
• 24:24
  that
• 24:24
  quick.
• 24:24
  Wittedness,
• 24:25
  the
• 24:25
  fun,
• 24:26
  the
• 24:26
  impromptu
• 24:27
  dances
• 24:28
  in
• 24:28
  the
• 24:28
  kitchen.
• 24:29
  If
• 24:29
  you
• 24:29
  haven't
• 24:29
  danced
• 24:30
  in
• 24:30
  the
• 24:30
  kitchen
• 24:30
  with
• 24:30
  your
• 24:30
  kids
• 24:31
  or
• 24:31
  even
• 24:31
  by
• 24:31
  yourself,
• 24:32
  I
• 24:32
  mean,
• 24:32
  I,
• 24:32
  if,
• 24:33
  if
• 24:33
  Wynona
• 24:33
  is
• 24:33
  on,
• 24:34
  especially
• 24:34
  hers.
• 24:35
  And
• 24:35
  is
• 24:35
  that
• 24:35
  Lainey
• 24:35
  Wilson's
• 24:36
  cover
• 24:36
  of
• 24:37
  tom
• 24:37
  Petty's
• 24:40
  song.
• 24:41
  I'm
• 24:41
  like
• 24:41
  really
• 24:42
  prepared
• 24:42
  today,
• 24:42
  aren't
• 24:42
  I?
• 24:43
  I'm
• 24:43
  like
• 24:43
  on
• 24:44
  a
• 24:44
  tangent,
• 24:45
  but
• 24:45
  I
• 24:45
  will
• 24:45
  be,
• 24:46
  I
• 24:46
  will
• 24:46
  be
• 24:46
  drumming.
• 24:47
  I
• 24:47
  will
• 24:47
  be
• 24:47
  dancing.
• 24:48
  I
• 24:48
  will
• 24:48
  be
• 24:48
  offbeat
• 24:49
  because
• 24:49
  I
• 24:49
  am
• 24:49
  such
• 24:50
  a
• 24:50
  white
• 24:50
  girl
• 24:50
  that
• 24:50
  my
• 24:51
  beat
• 24:51
  sucks.
• 24:52
  Um,
• 24:52
  my.
• 24:52
  My
• 24:53
  children
• 24:53
  are
• 24:53
  really
• 24:54
  good
• 24:54
  with
• 24:54
  music
• 24:54
  and
• 24:55
  they
• 24:55
  can
• 24:55
  keep
• 24:55
  a
• 24:55
  beat,
• 24:56
  and
• 24:56
  they're
• 24:56
  really
• 24:56
  good
• 24:56
  with
• 24:57
  their
• 24:57
  voice
• 24:57
  and
• 24:58
  instruments
• 24:58
  and
• 24:58
  things,
• 24:59
  and
• 24:59
  I'm
• 24:59
  like,
• 24:59
  guys,
• 24:59
  just
• 24:59
  let
• 25:00
  me
• 25:00
  do
• 25:00
  me.
• 25:00
  God
• 25:00
  sees
• 25:01
  it
• 25:01
  all
• 25:01
  as
• 25:02
  I'm,
• 25:02
  I'm,
• 25:02
  it's
• 25:02
  holy
• 25:03
  and
• 25:03
  pleasing
• 25:03
  to
• 25:04
  him,
• 25:04
  right?
• 25:05
  But
• 25:05
  you're
• 25:05
  gonna
• 25:05
  find
• 25:05
  that
• 25:05
  spark
• 25:06
  again,
• 25:06
  that
• 25:06
  childlike
• 25:07
  play
• 25:07
  again.
• 25:08
  Right.
• 25:09
  As
• 25:09
  you
• 25:09
  reconnect
• 25:09
  with
• 25:10
  God,
• 25:10
  you're
• 25:10
  gonna
• 25:10
  re
• 25:10
  reconnect
• 25:11
  with
• 25:11
  the
• 25:11
  real
• 25:12
  you
• 25:12
  because
• 25:13
  he
• 25:13
  had
• 25:13
  a
• 25:13
  divine
• 25:14
  purpose
• 25:15
  for
• 25:15
  the
• 25:15
  creation
• 25:16
  of
• 25:16
  you.
• 25:16
  He
• 25:16
  knew
• 25:16
  you
• 25:16
  before
• 25:17
  you
• 25:17
  were
• 25:17
  even
• 25:17
  formed
• 25:17
  in
• 25:17
  the
• 25:18
  womb.
• 25:18
  He
• 25:18
  actually
• 25:18
  knew
• 25:18
  you
• 25:19
  at
• 25:19
  creation
• 25:19
  and
• 25:20
  he
• 25:20
  knew
• 25:20
  that
• 25:20
  you
• 25:20
  were
• 25:20
  needed
• 25:21
  at
• 25:21
  for
• 25:21
  such
• 25:21
  a
• 25:21
  time
• 25:22
  as
• 25:22
  this,
• 25:22
  and
• 25:22
  he
• 25:23
  also
• 25:23
  gave
• 25:23
  you
• 25:23
  specific
• 25:24
  spiritual
• 25:25
  gifts
• 25:25
  to
• 25:25
  be
• 25:25
  used
• 25:25
  and
• 25:25
  lived
• 25:26
  out
• 25:26
  because
• 25:27
  your
• 25:27
  gifting
• 25:28
  and
• 25:28
  the
• 25:28
  way
• 25:28
  that
• 25:28
  you
• 25:28
  do
• 25:29
  it
• 25:29
  is
• 25:29
  going
• 25:29
  to
• 25:29
  reach
• 25:29
  a
• 25:29
  specific
• 25:30
  population
• 25:31
  because
• 25:31
  that's
• 25:31
  our
• 25:32
  purpose
• 25:32
  here.
• 25:34
  And
• 25:34
  if
• 25:34
  we
• 25:34
  think
• 25:35
  so
• 25:35
  poorly
• 25:36
  of
• 25:36
  ourselves,
• 25:37
  then
• 25:37
  that
• 25:37
  means
• 25:38
  that
• 25:38
  we
• 25:38
  are
• 25:38
  a
• 25:38
  direct
• 25:38
  reflection
• 25:39
  of
• 25:39
  that.
• 25:39
  We
• 25:40
  think
• 25:40
  that
• 25:40
  God's
• 25:40
  creation
• 25:41
  of
• 25:41
  us
• 25:41
  is
• 25:41
  so
• 25:41
  poorly
• 25:43
  that
• 25:43
  our
• 25:43
  time
• 25:43
  here,
• 25:43
  our
• 25:44
  purpose,
• 25:44
  our
• 25:44
  our,
• 25:45
  such
• 25:45
  a
• 25:45
  time
• 25:45
  as
• 25:45
  this
• 25:46
  is
• 25:46
  not
• 25:46
  right,
• 25:46
  like
• 25:46
  we're
• 25:47
  telling
• 25:47
  God
• 25:47
  it's
• 25:47
  not
• 25:48
  time.
• 25:49
  I
• 25:49
  don't
• 25:49
  know
• 25:49
  why
• 25:49
  I'm
• 25:50
  even
• 25:50
  here.
• 25:51
  And
• 25:51
  the
• 25:51
  real
• 25:51
  you,
• 25:52
  that
• 25:53
  real
• 25:53
  you,
• 25:54
  she
• 25:55
  loves
• 25:55
  deeply.
• 25:57
  She's
• 25:57
  capable
• 25:58
  of
• 25:58
  passion.
• 26:00
  And
• 26:00
  she's
• 26:00
  safe
• 26:01
  in
• 26:01
  her
• 26:01
  body.
• 26:02
  So
• 26:02
  here
• 26:03
  are
• 26:03
  three
• 26:03
  ways
• 26:04
  to
• 26:04
  get
• 26:04
  off
• 26:04
  of
• 26:04
  this
• 26:04
  numbing
• 26:05
  path
• 26:06
  and
• 26:06
  actually
• 26:06
  start
• 26:07
  healing.
• 26:07
  Okay.
• 26:08
  You
• 26:08
  ready
• 26:08
  for
• 26:08
  this?
• 26:09
  Number
• 26:10
  one,
• 26:10
  we're
• 26:10
  gonna
• 26:10
  say
• 26:11
  out
• 26:11
  loud.
• 26:11
  Yes.
• 26:11
  I
• 26:11
  want
• 26:12
  you
• 26:12
  to
• 26:12
  say
• 26:12
  out
• 26:12
  loud.
• 26:13
  I
• 26:14
  don't
• 26:14
  feel
• 26:14
  attracted
• 26:15
  to
• 26:15
  my
• 26:15
  husband
• 26:15
  right
• 26:15
  now,
• 26:16
  and
• 26:16
  I
• 26:16
  want
• 26:16
  to
• 26:17
  understand
• 26:17
  why
• 26:18
  we
• 26:18
  take
• 26:19
  the
• 26:19
  feeling.
• 26:19
  We
• 26:19
  acknowledge
• 26:20
  that
• 26:20
  feeling
• 26:21
  and
• 26:21
  we
• 26:21
  don't
• 26:21
  just
• 26:22
  sit
• 26:22
  with
• 26:22
  that
• 26:22
  feeling.
• 26:23
  We
• 26:23
  say,
• 26:24
  I
• 26:24
  want
• 26:24
  to
• 26:24
  understand
• 26:25
  why
• 26:25
  we
• 26:25
  get
• 26:25
  curious.
• 26:27
  Because
• 26:28
  what
• 26:28
  that
• 26:28
  is
• 26:29
  is
• 26:29
  being
• 26:29
  honest
• 26:29
  with
• 26:30
  yourself
• 26:30
  and
• 26:30
  honest
• 26:31
  with
• 26:31
  someone
• 26:31
  else,
• 26:32
  God
• 26:33
  and
• 26:33
  the
• 26:33
  enemy,
• 26:34
  because
• 26:34
  everything
• 26:34
  you
• 26:35
  speak
• 26:35
  out
• 26:35
  loud,
• 26:35
  the
• 26:35
  enemy
• 26:35
  hears
• 26:38
  and
• 26:38
  you
• 26:38
  name
• 26:39
  what's
• 26:40
  going
• 26:40
  on.
• 26:41
  Ask
• 26:42
  the
• 26:42
  question
• 26:42
  or
• 26:43
  ask
• 26:43
  or
• 26:43
  get
• 26:43
  curious
• 26:44
  about
• 26:44
  it
• 26:45
  so
• 26:45
  that
• 26:45
  you
• 26:45
  cannot
• 26:46
  keep
• 26:46
  denying
• 26:47
  it.
• 26:48
  Because
• 26:48
  when
• 26:48
  we
• 26:48
  acknowledge
• 26:49
  what's
• 26:49
  actually
• 26:49
  happening,
• 26:50
  it
• 26:50
  sets
• 26:50
  us
• 26:51
  free.
• 26:52
  No
• 26:52
  matter
• 26:52
  if
• 26:52
  someone
• 26:53
  judges
• 26:53
  us,
• 26:53
  no
• 26:53
  matter
• 26:53
  if
• 26:53
  someone
• 26:54
  says,
• 26:54
  oh,
• 26:54
  you're
• 26:55
  sharing
• 26:55
  too
• 26:55
  much.
• 26:56
  Well,
• 26:56
  you
• 26:56
  know
• 26:56
  what?
• 26:57
  You're
• 26:57
  not
• 26:57
  sharing
• 26:57
  enough
• 26:58
  and
• 26:58
  you're
• 26:58
  actually
• 26:58
  living
• 26:59
  in
• 26:59
  denial,
• 27:00
  and
• 27:00
  you're
• 27:00
  actually
• 27:00
  living
• 27:01
  in
• 27:01
  a
• 27:01
  place
• 27:01
  where
• 27:01
  you're
• 27:01
  trying
• 27:02
  to
• 27:02
  people
• 27:02
  please
• 27:02
  and
• 27:03
  be
• 27:03
  codependent
• 27:03
  on
• 27:03
  someone
• 27:04
  else,
• 27:04
  on
• 27:04
  someone
• 27:05
  else's
• 27:05
  reality
• 27:06
  of
• 27:06
  whatever,
• 27:07
  because
• 27:08
  quite
• 27:08
  frankly.
• 27:09
  I
• 27:09
  know
• 27:09
  that
• 27:09
  I'm
• 27:10
  here
• 27:10
  for
• 27:10
  a
• 27:10
  split
• 27:11
  second
• 27:11
  on
• 27:12
  this
• 27:12
  earth
• 27:12
  and
• 27:12
  I
• 27:13
  want
• 27:13
  to
• 27:13
  bring
• 27:13
  as
• 27:13
  many
• 27:14
  women
• 27:14
  home
• 27:14
  with
• 27:14
  me
• 27:14
  as
• 27:14
  I
• 27:15
  can,
• 27:15
  and
• 27:15
  I
• 27:15
  wanna
• 27:15
  do
• 27:16
  that
• 27:16
  by
• 27:16
  simply
• 27:17
  encouraging
• 27:17
  women
• 27:18
  to
• 27:18
  heal
• 27:18
  their
• 27:19
  issues
• 27:19
  at
• 27:19
  the
• 27:19
  root
• 27:20
  cause,
• 27:20
  to
• 27:20
  make
• 27:21
  sure
• 27:21
  that
• 27:21
  they
• 27:21
  are
• 27:22
  they
• 27:22
  rise
• 27:22
  up
• 27:23
  as,
• 27:23
  as
• 27:23
  leaders
• 27:24
  in
• 27:24
  their
• 27:24
  home,
• 27:24
  in
• 27:25
  their
• 27:25
  church,
• 27:25
  in
• 27:25
  their
• 27:25
  communities,
• 27:26
  at
• 27:27
  their
• 27:27
  jobs,
• 27:27
  wherever,
• 27:28
  so
• 27:28
  that
• 27:28
  they
• 27:28
  can
• 27:28
  also
• 27:29
  bring
• 27:29
  as
• 27:29
  many
• 27:29
  home,
• 27:30
  many
• 27:30
  home
• 27:30
  with
• 27:30
  them
• 27:31
  as
• 27:31
  they
• 27:31
  can.
• 27:31
  That
• 27:32
  is
• 27:32
  why
• 27:32
  I'm
• 27:32
  here
• 27:33
  and
• 27:33
  that's
• 27:33
  why
• 27:33
  I'm
• 27:34
  doing
• 27:34
  this.
• 27:34
  That
• 27:34
  is
• 27:35
  why
• 27:35
  we
• 27:35
  start
• 27:35
  with
• 27:36
  truth.
• 27:37
  We
• 27:37
  speak
• 27:38
  what
• 27:38
  is
• 27:38
  actually
• 27:39
  happening
• 27:39
  and
• 27:40
  we
• 27:40
  get
• 27:40
  curious
• 27:40
  about
• 27:41
  it.
• 27:42
  The
• 27:42
  second
• 27:43
  thing
• 27:43
  we
• 27:43
  do
• 27:43
  is
• 27:43
  we
• 27:44
  look
• 27:44
  for
• 27:44
  a
• 27:44
  physical
• 27:45
  root
• 27:45
  cause.
• 27:46
  Not
• 27:46
  just
• 27:46
  emotion.
• 27:46
  We
• 27:46
  don't
• 27:47
  get
• 27:47
  stuck
• 27:47
  in
• 27:47
  emotions.
• 27:48
  Emotions
• 27:49
  have
• 27:49
  their
• 27:49
  own
• 27:49
  thing.
• 27:50
  Emotions
• 27:50
  are
• 27:50
  indicators
• 27:51
  and
• 27:51
  we
• 27:51
  need
• 27:52
  to
• 27:52
  detox
• 27:52
  those
• 27:52
  out
• 27:53
  at
• 27:53
  some
• 27:53
  point.
• 27:54
  But
• 27:54
  I
• 27:54
  wanna
• 27:54
  know,
• 27:55
  have
• 27:56
  you
• 27:56
  gotten
• 27:56
  a
• 27:56
  lab
• 27:56
  panel
• 27:57
  done
• 27:57
  recently?
• 27:58
  Have
• 27:58
  you
• 27:59
  addressed
• 27:59
  inflammation
• 28:00
  or
• 28:00
  adrenal
• 28:00
  fatigue?
• 28:02
  Have
• 28:02
  you
• 28:02
  cleaned
• 28:03
  up
• 28:03
  your
• 28:03
  blood
• 28:03
  sugar?
• 28:04
  These
• 28:04
  are
• 28:04
  not
• 28:04
  optional.
• 28:05
  These
• 28:05
  are
• 28:05
  foundational.
• 28:06
  These
• 28:06
  things
• 28:06
  are
• 28:06
  like
• 28:07
  your
• 28:07
  body
• 28:07
  cannot
• 28:07
  feel
• 28:08
  sexy
• 28:08
  or
• 28:08
  safe
• 28:09
  if
• 28:09
  you're
• 28:09
  inflamed,
• 28:10
  if
• 28:10
  you're
• 28:10
  exhausted,
• 28:10
  if
• 28:11
  you're
• 28:11
  deprived
• 28:11
  of
• 28:11
  nutrients,
• 28:12
  you
• 28:12
  can't
• 28:13
  love
• 28:13
  Jesus
• 28:13
  and
• 28:13
  still
• 28:14
  need
• 28:14
  progesterone
• 28:15
  or
• 28:15
  you,
• 28:15
  I'm
• 28:15
  sorry,
• 28:16
  you
• 28:16
  can
• 28:16
  love
• 28:16
  Jesus
• 28:17
  and
• 28:17
  still
• 28:17
  need
• 28:17
  progesterone
• 28:18
  support.
• 28:18
  I
• 28:19
  said,
• 28:20
  what?
• 28:20
  I
• 28:20
  said,
• 28:21
  you
• 28:21
  can
• 28:21
  love
• 28:22
  Jesus
• 28:22
  and
• 28:22
  still
• 28:22
  need
• 28:23
  support.
• 28:26
  And
• 28:26
  the
• 28:26
  third
• 28:26
  thing
• 28:27
  is,
• 28:28
  is.
• 28:30
  You
• 28:30
  need
• 28:30
  to
• 28:30
  get
• 28:30
  into
• 28:30
  a
• 28:30
  safe,
• 28:31
  godly
• 28:31
  community
• 28:32
  that's
• 28:32
  actually
• 28:33
  doing
• 28:33
  the
• 28:33
  work,
• 28:34
  not
• 28:34
  just
• 28:34
  talking
• 28:35
  about
• 28:35
  it.
• 28:36
  A
• 28:36
  community
• 28:37
  is
• 28:37
  not
• 28:37
  just
• 28:37
  going
• 28:38
  into
• 28:38
  the
• 28:38
  doctor's
• 28:39
  office.
• 28:40
  The
• 28:40
  community
• 28:40
  is
• 28:40
  a
• 28:41
  group
• 28:41
  of
• 28:41
  women
• 28:42
  that
• 28:42
  helps
• 28:42
  you
• 28:43
  to
• 28:43
  be
• 28:44
  doing
• 28:44
  this
• 28:44
  together.
• 28:45
  Because
• 28:46
  you're
• 28:46
  not
• 28:46
  meant
• 28:46
  to
• 28:46
  figure
• 28:47
  this
• 28:47
  out
• 28:47
  alone.
• 28:47
  You
• 28:47
  need
• 28:48
  other
• 28:48
  women
• 28:48
  who
• 28:48
  are
• 28:48
  saying,
• 28:49
  same
• 28:49
  here,
• 28:49
  sis
• 28:49
  like,
• 28:50
  let's,
• 28:50
  let's
• 28:50
  do
• 28:50
  this.
• 28:51
  I'm
• 28:51
  here
• 28:51
  for
• 28:51
  you.
• 28:52
  I'm
• 28:52
  gonna
• 28:52
  check
• 28:52
  in
• 28:52
  on
• 28:52
  you
• 28:52
  tomorrow
• 28:53
  because
• 28:53
  I
• 28:53
  know
• 28:53
  tomorrow's
• 28:54
  a
• 28:54
  hard
• 28:54
  day.
• 28:54
  Let's
• 28:55
  make
• 28:55
  sure
• 28:55
  that
• 28:55
  we
• 28:55
  can
• 28:55
  get
• 28:56
  through
• 28:56
  this
• 28:57
  Inside
• 28:57
  the
• 28:57
  wilderness
• 28:58
  of
• 28:58
  wellness
• 28:58
  community,
• 28:58
  we
• 28:58
  talk
• 28:59
  about
• 28:59
  it
• 28:59
  all
• 29:00
  that
• 29:00
  hard,
• 29:01
  that
• 29:01
  real,
• 29:01
  that
• 29:02
  raw
• 29:02
  that
• 29:02
  I,
• 29:03
  the,
• 29:03
  the
• 29:03
  stuff
• 29:04
  that
• 29:04
  I
• 29:04
  just
• 29:04
  can't
• 29:04
  believe.
• 29:05
  I
• 29:05
  omitted
• 29:05
  that
• 29:05
  stuff.
• 29:07
  We
• 29:07
  talk
• 29:07
  about
• 29:07
  that
• 29:07
  because
• 29:08
  healing
• 29:08
  has
• 29:09
  to
• 29:09
  happen
• 29:09
  in
• 29:09
  a
• 29:09
  safe
• 29:10
  community.
• 29:10
  It
• 29:10
  doesn't
• 29:10
  happen
• 29:11
  in
• 29:11
  silence.
• 29:11
  It
• 29:12
  doesn't
• 29:12
  happen.
• 29:13
  It
• 29:13
  you
• 29:13
  get
• 29:13
  direction
• 29:14
  in
• 29:14
  my
• 29:14
  one-to-one.
• 29:15
  But
• 29:16
  you
• 29:16
  have
• 29:16
  to
• 29:16
  go
• 29:16
  live
• 29:16
  it
• 29:16
  out.
• 29:17
  You
• 29:18
  need
• 29:18
  a
• 29:18
  space
• 29:18
  in
• 29:19
  between
• 29:19
  the
• 29:19
  doctor's
• 29:19
  appointments.
• 29:20
  You
• 29:20
  need
• 29:21
  a
• 29:21
  space
• 29:21
  where
• 29:21
  you
• 29:21
  can
• 29:22
  actually
• 29:22
  get
• 29:22
  that
• 29:22
  support,
• 29:23
  that
• 29:24
  this
• 29:24
  other
• 29:24
  piece,
• 29:24
  the
• 29:25
  other
• 29:25
  elements.
• 29:27
  You
• 29:27
  need
• 29:27
  a
• 29:28
  foundational
• 29:28
  roadmap
• 29:29
  and
• 29:29
  you
• 29:29
  need
• 29:30
  my
• 29:30
  success
• 29:30
  path
• 29:30
  that
• 29:31
  gets
• 29:31
  you
• 29:31
  to
• 29:31
  live
• 29:31
  the
• 29:31
  life.
• 29:32
  But
• 29:32
  then
• 29:32
  you
• 29:32
  also
• 29:33
  need
• 29:33
  that
• 29:33
  community
• 29:34
  element
• 29:34
  where
• 29:34
  we're
• 29:34
  come
• 29:34
  around
• 29:35
  the
• 29:35
  table
• 29:35
  and
• 29:35
  we
• 29:35
  support
• 29:36
  you.
• 29:38
  So
• 29:39
  if
• 29:39
  this
• 29:39
  episode
• 29:40
  hits
• 29:41
  you
• 29:41
  in
• 29:41
  the
• 29:41
  gut.
• 29:42
  Maybe
• 29:43
  you're
• 29:43
  wiping
• 29:43
  tears
• 29:44
  or
• 29:44
  maybe
• 29:44
  your
• 29:44
  heart's
• 29:45
  racing.
• 29:45
  Here's
• 29:46
  what
• 29:46
  I
• 29:46
  want
• 29:46
  you
• 29:46
  to
• 29:46
  do
• 29:46
  next.
• 29:47
  I
• 29:47
  want
• 29:48
  you
• 29:48
  to
• 29:48
  go
• 29:48
  read
• 29:48
  the
• 29:48
  full
• 29:49
  post.
• 29:49
  That's
• 29:49
  like
• 29:49
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• 29:51
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• 29:51
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• 29:52
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• 29:53
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• 29:53
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• 29:53
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• 29:57
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• 29:58
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• 29:58
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• 29:59
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• 30:15
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• 30:17
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• 30:18
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• 30:20
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• 30:24
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• 30:25
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• 30:25
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• 30:25
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• 30:26
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• 30:27
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• 30:27
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• 30:28
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• 30:28
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• 30:29
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• 30:29
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• 30:30
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• 30:32
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• 30:33
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• 30:38
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• 30:47
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• 30:47
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• 30:47
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• 30:48
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• 30:48
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• 30:55
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• 30:58
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• 31:11
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• 31:27
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• 31:37
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• 31:44
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• 31:44
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• 31:44
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• 31:44
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• 31:44
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• 31:45
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• 31:45
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• 31:45
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• 31:47
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• 31:47
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• 31:47
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• 31:48
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• 31:48
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• 31:48
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• 31:48
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• 31:48
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• 31:49
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• 31:49
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• 31:49
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• 31:50
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• 31:50
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• 31:50
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• 31:50
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• 31:51
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• 31:51
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• 31:51
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• 31:52
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• 31:52
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• 31:52
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• 31:52
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• 31:53
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• 31:53
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• 31:53
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• 31:53
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• 31:53
  any
• 31:54
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• 31:54
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• 31:55
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• 31:56
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• 31:56
  with
• 31:56
  full
• 31:56
  vulnerability,
• 31:57
  with
• 31:57
  full
• 31:58
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• 31:58
  connection.
• 31:59
  And
• 31:59
  that
• 31:59
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• 32:00
  comes
• 32:01
  because
• 32:01
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• 32:02
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• 32:02
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• 32:03
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• 32:03
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• 32:05
  And
• 32:05
  I
• 32:05
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• 32:05
  you
• 32:05
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• 32:05
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• 32:06
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• 32:07
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• 32:08
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• 32:08
  walking
• 32:08
  this
• 32:08
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• 32:09
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• 32:10
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• 32:10
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• 32:10
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• 32:11
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• 32:11
  You
• 32:11
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• 32:11
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• 32:12
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• 32:12
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• 32:14
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• 32:14
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• 32:14
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• 32:15
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• 32:16
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• 32:16
  my
• 32:16
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• 32:16
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• 32:19
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• 32:21
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• 32:21
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• 32:21
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• 32:22
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• 32:23
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• 32:24
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• 32:24
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• 32:24
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• 32:24
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• 32:24
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• 32:25
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• 32:25
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• 32:25
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• 32:26
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• 32:27
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• 32:27
  Dr.
• 32:27
  Danielle,
• 32:28
  and
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  this
• 32:29
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• 32:30
  what
• 32:30
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• 32:30
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• 32:31
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• 32:31
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• 32:31
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• 32:32
  I
• 32:32
  will
• 32:32
  see
• 32:33
  you
• 32:33
  guys
• 32:33
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• 32:33
  Substack.
• 32:34
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• 32:34
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• 32:35
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• 32:35
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• 32:35
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• 32:35
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• 32:36
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• 32:36
  and
• 32:37
  I
• 32:37
  will
• 32:37
  hear
• 32:37
  be
• 32:38
  here
• 32:38
  again
• 32:39
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• 32:39
  week.
• 32:42
  Thanks
• 32:42
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• 32:42
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• 32:42
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• 32:43
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• 32:44
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• 32:44
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• 32:45
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• 32:45
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• 32:45
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• 32:45
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• 32:45
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• 32:45
  a
• 32:45
  next
• 32:46
  best
• 32:46
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• 32:46
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• 32:46
  your
• 32:46
  health.
• 32:47
  Take
• 32:47
  a
• 32:47
  look
• 32:47
  at
• 32:47
  the
• 32:47
  show
• 32:47
  notes
• 32:48
  for
• 32:48
  more
• 32:48
  information
• 32:49
  or
• 32:49
  other
• 32:49
  links
• 32:49
  I
• 32:49
  mentioned
• 32:50
  in
• 32:50
  the
• 32:50
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• 32:51
  And
• 32:51
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• 32:51
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• 32:51
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• 32:51
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• 32:51
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• 32:52
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• 32:52
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• 32:52
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• 32:59
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• 33:00
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• 33:00
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• 33:00
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• 33:00
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• 33:00
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• 33:00
  this
• 33:00
  episode.