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Beyond the Highlight Reel: Joy Without an Audience · UNMASKED with Wesley Farnsworth

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  I don't think we talk often enough about how lonely
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  happiness can feel sometimes. Not sadness, not grief.
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  Happiness. Because there are moments when
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  things are actually OK, maybe even good, and instead of
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  enjoying them, you feel this quiet pressure to do something
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  with it, to capture it, to frame it, to make sure it counts.
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  And the moment you start thinking about how to present
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  joy, it slips through your fingers.
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  That's what I want to sit with today.
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  Not loud joy, not obvious joy, but the kind that doesn't
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  survive the spotlight very well. Welcome to Unmasked, where we
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  take off the filters that get real about faith, failure, and
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  finding freedom. I'm your host, Wesley
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  Farnsworth, a dad, veteran, author, and a man who's learned
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  that God does his best work in the middle of our mess.
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  Each episode we have honest conversations with people who
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  walk through addiction, pain, or doubt, and with pastors,
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  leaders, and everyday believers who are learning to live and
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  lead authentically. So take a breath, pull up a
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  chair, and let's get real. This is Unmasked.
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  Right now we live inside the highlight reel.
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  Even when we're not scrolling, it's still there, hovering in
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  the background of our thoughts like a low level hum that we've
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  gotten used to hearing. A measuring stick we didn't ask
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  for but somehow keep using anyways.
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  You don't have to feel jealous for it to affect you.
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  Sometimes it just leaves you tired, emotionally worn down,
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  like you're always slightly behind even when nothing is
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  technically wrong, because everything looks finished,
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  polished, and certain. But real life almost never feels
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  like that, especially when you're inside it.
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  Joy, especially joy, is fragile. It doesn't like pressure.
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  It doesn't like being evaluated or compared.
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  It doesn't respond well to being watched.
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  And yet we've turned it into something performative,
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  something to display, something to prove.
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  There's an unspoken message floating around that says it
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  mattered, You would have shared it if it was real.
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  People would know. So joy becomes another
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  achievement, another signal, another way to show that you're
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  doing life correctly. But here's the paradox.
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  The more joy becomes something to show, the harder it becomes
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  to actually feel. See, I don't think that social
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  media makes us fake. I do think it makes us
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  distracted, though. Distracted from our own interior
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  lives, Distracted from subtlety, distracted from moments that
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  don't announce themselves loudly enough to compete.
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  We start narrating in our lives instead of inhabiting them.
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  We don't just experience something, we step outside of it
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  in real time and begin evaluating it, how it looks, how
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  it lands, how it might be received.
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  And over time, that changes the questions that we ask ourselves.
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  We stop asking, am I content? And we start asking, does this
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  look like contentment? That shift is small, but it's
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  profound, because once the question becomes about
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  perception, joy stops being something you live inside of,
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  and it becomes something that you manage.
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  And management always costs more than it gives.
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  The problem is is that performance doesn't stay
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  confined to social media. It leaks into work, into
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  friendships, into faith, into how we live and go about our
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  lives. We start treating joy the same
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  way that we treat success. Something that needs to be
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  maximized, leveraged, turned into proof that we're OK if
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  things are good. We feel pressure to show
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  gratitude in the right way, to package happiness so that it
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  makes sense to other people. And if things aren't good, we
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  hide them. Not because we're dishonest, but
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  because we don't want to be a burden or awkward or out of
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  step. So we self edit.
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  We smile a little longer than we feel.
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  We move past heaviness too quickly.
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  We tell ourselves it's fine even when it's not.
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  Performance doesn't always look loud.
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  Sometimes it looks controlled. Something that I've noticed in
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  my own life is that moments that stay with me the longest are
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  rarely the ones that I documented.
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  They're the ones that happened quietly, the ones that didn't
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  feel important enough to interrupt.
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  A laugh that surprised me. A moment of calm that showed up
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  without explanation. Relief that didn't come with
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  answers. Those moments didn't announce
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  themselves. They didn't ask for attention,
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  they just existed briefly and honestly, and then passed.
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  And maybe that's why they don't. And maybe that's why they don't
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  survive the highlight reel very well.
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  Because the real wants clarity. It wants resolution.
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  It wants emotion that can only be named and summarized.
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  But real joy doesn't always cooperate with that.
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  Sometimes it's blurry, sometimes it's inconvenient, sometimes it
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  shows up while the other things are still unresolved.
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  And when we don't trust those moments unless they're
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  witnessed, we lose something important.
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  We stop believing our inner life is enough.
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  This is when joy starts to feel like pressure.
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  There's a strange guilt that comes with happiness sometimes.
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  Like you're supposed to do something with it.
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  Use it well, make it productive. If things are good, you should
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  be grateful visibly. If you're not celebrating
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  publicly, you can almost feel like you're wasting the moment.
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  So we turn happiness into something that we manage.
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  We think about how long it should last, whether it's
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  deserved, whether it makes sense given everything else.
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  And instead of resting inside of joy, we hover over it.
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  Performance is exhausting even when it's positive.
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  Especially when it's positive because you never get to exhale.
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  You're always maintaining it, always checking whether it's
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  still convincing. And eventually the joy starts to
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  feel like work. And that's when you find out
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  what the quiet cost is. See, this self monitoring does
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  something to us. We stop trusting our own
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  emotional signals. We begin filtering feelings
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  automatically without even noticing that we're doing it.
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  Is it still worth sharing? Is this impressive enough?
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  Does this say something good about me?
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  And when joy doesn't pass that test, we dismiss it.
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  We overlook contentment because it's too ordinary.
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  We ignore peace because it's not exciting.
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  We chase. We chase intensity because it
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  photographs better. Slowly, we forget what joy
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  actually looks like in our bodies and what it feels like.
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  Not excitement. Not adrenaline.
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  Not relief, but the steady, grounded sense of being OK where
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  you are. There's a kind of joy out there
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  that refuses to perform. It doesn't show up on demand.
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  It doesn't arrive on schedule. It doesn't care whether anyone
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  else sees it. It usually appears when you stop
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  producing something, when you stop narrating, when you stop
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  optimizing, when you stop asking whether this moment is enough.
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  That kind of joy feels fragile at first, almost shy, like it
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  might disappear if you reach for it too quickly.
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  So you learn to be gentle with it.
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  You don't grab your phone, you don't explain it, you don't even
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  name it fully. You just let it be.
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  And that feels almost rebellious now.
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  But there's a quiet truth in there that we don't hear often.
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  Because joy doesn't need to be chased, it just needs space.
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  Space to exist without commentary, space to arrive
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  without explanation, space to leave without being mourned.
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  There's a short line in scripture that hints at this.
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  Joy is something that grows, not something that we manufacture.
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  Which suggests that joy isn't found by effort, it's found by
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  environment. And maybe the reason that joy is
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  so elusive right now isn't because it's gone.
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  Maybe it's because there's no room left for it to breathe.
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  Reclaiming authentic joy doesn't require a dramatic rest.
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  Reclaiming authentic joy doesn't require a dramatic reset.
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  It starts small, almost unnoticeable.
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  It begins when you notice the urge to document something and
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  you choose not to. When you feel the pull to
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  explain the moment instead of staying inside of it.
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  When you allow happiness to be imperfect, unfinished, and
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  unshared. There's something grounding
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  about letting moments remain private.
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  Not secretive, just unclaimed. Because not everything
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  meaningful needs an audience. Some things are meant to be
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  lived and not validated. Living beyond the highlight reel
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  means accepting that your life will never feel as cohesive as
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  it looks from the outside, and that's not failure.
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  Meaning isn't built from moments that look good in hindsight,
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  it's built from moments that are lived honestly in real time.
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  Your worth is not tied to your visibility.
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  Your joy is not validated by engagement.
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  Your life does not need to be impressive to be real.
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  Sometimes the most honest thing that you can do is to stop
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  performing happiness and let yourself feel whatever is
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  actually there. Even if it's quiet it.
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  Even if it's small, even if no one else ever knows.
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  So here's an action step for you this week.
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  Notice one moment where you feel the urge to capture joy and
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  resist it. Let the moment pass without
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  proof. Let it belong to you alone.
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  And then later ask yourself not what it looked like, but how it
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  felt to keep it private. That question matters more than
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  it sounds. Thanks for joining me today in
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  unmasked. If something in this episode
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  spoke to you, don't let it stop with you.
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  Share it with one person that God puts on your heart while you
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  were listening. You never know whose
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  breakthrough might start with a simple message from you.
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  If you want more encouragement, want to work with me one-on-one,
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  or if you're interested in having me speak at your church
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  or event, you can find everything about me at Wesley
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  Farnsworth dot. And make sure you join the
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  Unmasked community by connecting with me on social media so that
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  we can keep walking this journey together until till next time.
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  Remember, grace is greater than your past and real freedom
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  begins the moment that you choose to live unmasked.
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  God bless you.