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improve your life with mental health · feel your feelings with Ethan Jewell

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  I have tried for a long time to improve myself as a person.
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  I would commit to focusing on my work more but ultimately I would
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  fail. What I came to realize is that
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  this failure was not a reflection of myself but rather
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  was a reflection of the internal work that I need to do before I
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  can improve my life for the better.
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  Hey there and welcome back to another episode of feel your
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  feelings with me. Ethan Jewel.
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  This is a podcast. I started all about mental
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  health, and mental health awareness.
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  Now, I'm not a professional in the mental health industry.
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  I'm not a doctor or a psychologist.
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  I'm just a normal guy who has felt some very big feelings and
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  wants to open the conversation about emotions and mental
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  health. So thank you so much for joining
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  me and together. Let's feel some feelings.
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  Now, I've always been big on self-improvement.
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  I can think years and years ago, I would commit every other month
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  to some new self improvement activity.
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  Whether it was running lifting weights, reading learning more,
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  I was trying to find ways to improve myself and then the last
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  few years I have been incredibly unsuccessful in those Endeavors.
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  It was like something switched. And suddenly, every single thing
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  that I was trying to do to improve my Of just wasn't
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  working. And I think a couple years ago,
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  I committed to working out and improving my physical self and I
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  just gave up after a month or two even when it comes to my own
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  work, making music. And poetry I have for a very
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  long time, gone through random bursts of just being not
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  motivated and not wanting to work and not wanting to improve
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  my craft whatsoever in. This is very, very frustrating.
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  Whether it's working out or its creative writing, it's super
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  frustrating. Um, I took it as a reflection of
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  my own failure. I thought to myself.
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  Wow, I'm so undisciplined, I can't do anything.
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  I can't get things done. What is wrong with me?
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  That is the question that I kept asking myself over and over
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  again. What is wrong with me?
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  And this is a mantra that I still repeat to this day.
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  Very often, it's something that I actively fight with whenever I
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  struggle to commit to something or to complete a physical task,
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  I ask, what is wrong with me. Whatever began to realize is
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  that it isn't. What's wrong with me.
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  But rather what do I need to focus on Within Myself?
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  You see, I went to therapy for about two two and a half years
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  and it made me realize a lot about myself.
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  And one of the things that it made me realize is that I was
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  struggling more mentally than I ever thought I was.
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  I never realized that it was actually stopping me from
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  improving myself. You see, every time I failed to
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  commit to an active Self-improvement the failure was
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  not a reflection of me. It was my brain telling me that
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  I wasn't ready to improve physically and I needed to
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  improve mentally first and that's when I realized you must
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  come to terms with your inner hurt and he lit before, you can
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  fully and successfully, practice self improvement.
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  So let's talk about this a little bit, this became a brutal
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  cycle of me, starting something failing and then beating myself
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  up too. Myself, I wasn't good enough.
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  When in reality, I was just hurting, I had feelings that
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  needed to be resolved. I wasn't facing what was inside.
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  I was ignoring hurt and trying to push through it and this is
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  detrimental, no matter what you do.
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  One thing that I've preached on this podcast is that you have to
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  feel your feelings and you have to understand them and come to
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  terms with them. But that isn't just for your own
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  mental health, it can be for your physical health as well.
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  If your mental health is struggling, it can become more
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  difficult. Difficult to do physical tasks,
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  to work out to work at all, to get out of bed, to brush your
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  teeth to take showers your mental health can drastically
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  affect your physical health, in your routine, from day to day.
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  And that is so frustrating. And it is so difficult.
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  It's already hard enough to struggle mentally, but when you
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  begin to struggle physically too because of it, it becomes so
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  much worse. This is a big reason, I created
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  this podcast. So, People are unaware of the
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  negative effects and impacts that your mental health can have
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  on all forms of your life. It can affect your physical
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  health, it can affect your relationships.
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  You can't expect yourself to find self-improvement
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  physically. If you're hurting mentally, and
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  you have drama and hurt that needs to be resolved.
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  Mental illness is our brain asking us to focus on something
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  within us and to heal or hurt and to focus on a trauma.
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  So if you find yourself in this cycle, know that maybe it's not
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  that that you are a failure or you're undisciplined.
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  It might be that you're hurting and you need to focus on those
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  feelings. I found a poem by the author
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  young Pueblo talking about this subject.
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  He says, you can change your location.
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  Meet new people and still have the same old problems to truly
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  change your life. You need to look inward.
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  Get to know and love yourself and heal the trauma and dense
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  conditioning in your mind. This is how you get to the root.
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  Internal changes have a significant external impact.
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  You see? Nobody has the ability to run
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  away from their feelings. They will always be there.
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  You can move cities, you can cut people off, you can make changes
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  in your day-to-day physical routine, but those same
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  feelings, those same problems, the same trauma and conditioning
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  that you have within your mind will still be, there it is so
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  important for you to look inwards.
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  To ask yourself, what do I need to heal?
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  What am I struggling with? And to focus your energy into
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  that. In order to improve yourself,
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  you must have stable, mental health and you must understand
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  your feelings. Healing is not forgetting.
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  You can't just keep moving forward and expect yourself to
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  improve. When your mental health is
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  struggling, you can't just forget about feelings and
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  emotions. Healing is understanding your
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  feelings and living with them regardless.
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  Of how badly they may hurt. It's knowing that you need to
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  take time for yourself that you need to focus on your mental
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  health and it's the ability to be okay with not being.
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  Okay, it's a slow process, it's difficult.
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  It's something that I'm still learning to this day, but it's
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  so important for you to understand your habits.
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  You are struggles with setting new habits and new routines, and
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  new goals is not a reflection of your failures, but instead could
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  be a reflection of your internal, Struggles pay
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  attention to your mental health, pay attention to what hurts and
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  take care of it. Take your time and learn to heal
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  your inner drama above all else. So that's going to wrap it up
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  for today's episode. Thank you so much for tuning in.
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  Please message me on my Instagram at Jewel, boy
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  underscore and tell me what you thought about today's episode.
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  If you need help, feeling your feelings, I just released two
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  Thank you so much for being here.
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  Please. Take care of yourself and as
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  always, thank you for feeling your feelings.
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  I'll see you next time.