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Navigating Spiritual Responsibility in Relationships | FT Kenneth Campbell | EP68 · Jess Ask

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  Speaker 1: Yo, it's your girl Jessica and Smith, and you already
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  Speaker 2: For another day. Hey, hey, I know we could be
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  Speaker 1: Holy Spirit, after the Holy Spirit, Holy Spirit, after the
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  Speaker 1: Holy go Spirit. Oh go you know, desert desert. So
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  Speaker 1: it was an intro you like that. I may I
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  Speaker 1: on the ninety nine and the two thousand, all right,
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  Speaker 1: talk bill boy. You know what I'm saying. Yeah, if
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  Speaker 1: for influences to decompress, have fun and guess what just
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  Speaker 1: ass period. Okay, So listen, we having fun because we
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  Speaker 1: have a ball of fun with us today. I'm I
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  Speaker 1: don't know how I feel.
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  Speaker 2: I'm sorry, y'all.
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  Speaker 1: Okay, okay, let's try this. So the person I out
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  Speaker 1: here today as a guest that we have today is
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  Speaker 1: a ball of fun. I want to say that first
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  Speaker 1: ball of fund. He tried to ask shy, but he
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  Speaker 1: really not. I don't know how the Lord works with him,
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  Speaker 1: but it's not regular. It's not regular. But the Man
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  Speaker 1: of God does have drillt for sales, so if you
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  Speaker 1: need it, you can call him for that. He is
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  Speaker 1: a father, he's a prophet like all Josephs side, like
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  Speaker 1: he seeing here the Lord very well, okay, and then yeah,
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  Speaker 1: he is a I don't want to just put him
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  Speaker 1: as an actress actor. I want to say he's a
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  Speaker 1: creative like acting is a part of his creative gene. Right.
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  Speaker 1: And so I'm really excited about this conversation because I
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  Speaker 1: don't know what's about to happen, but I know it's
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  Speaker 1: about to be fun. So I want to introduce to
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  Speaker 1: some and present to others none other than the Kenneth Kembell.
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  Speaker 3: That was introduction.
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  Speaker 1: To introduce me. Everybody says that they're like okay, because
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  Speaker 1: Everybody always talks about you know, accolades and stuff like
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  Speaker 1: that or whatever. But I just like talking about you
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  Speaker 1: know who you are? Like you you're the like you
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  Speaker 1: can't you can't you know You're kenned me. That's you,
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  Speaker 1: that's you.
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  Speaker 3: How you doing, bro, I'm doing good. I'm doing excellent, excellent.
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  Speaker 1: What does that mean?
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  Speaker 3: Excellent? Meaning that I'm in the obedience of God. I'm
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  Speaker 3: in the floor of God.
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  Speaker 1: Excellent, excellent. You are in the obedience of God and
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  Speaker 1: you are in the flow of God. Kenny. Okay, let's
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  Speaker 1: start with d T. I did not know Kenny was
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  Speaker 1: as young as he is. Yeah, like I thought, I
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  Speaker 1: thought you were older than me. Not because you look
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  Speaker 1: older than me, but because like the maturity the grace
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  Speaker 1: of your life. Like when I first met you, you
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  Speaker 1: look like you came from Beverly Hills to Burningham. Oh man,
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  Speaker 1: and my I mean Felicia over here shaking her head. Yes,
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  Speaker 1: so I got an a man corner over here, shout
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  Speaker 1: out to Felicia, black girl right here. I can't see her.
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  Speaker 1: She she got too much drifts for sale for y'all
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  Speaker 1: right now, So, but yeah, like, how old are you?
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  Speaker 3: I'm thirty one, and.
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  Speaker 1: I promise Felicia's just about just were like what no,
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  Speaker 1: like for real, like do you just got a lot
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  Speaker 1: of old people in your family or like who raised you?
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  Speaker 3: I really do, I really really really do. Like it's
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  Speaker 3: so crazy because like even my ministry caters to older
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  Speaker 3: people than younger people. What, yes, they can relate more.
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  Speaker 1: So okay, so let's get let's give a bad story.
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  Speaker 1: So we said that you're an actor, we said your prophet,
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  Speaker 1: we said that you're a husband, you are a father
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  Speaker 1: of two boys. Man, y'all have no thing back to back.
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  Speaker 3: Quickly listen. The second one was unexpected.
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  Speaker 1: Because y'all wanted the first of You're like, whoa, we're
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  Speaker 1: doing some stuff right, but you know, like it's it's
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  Speaker 1: kind of crazy because.
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  Speaker 3: I'm just gonna let's go, let's go. We're here.
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  Speaker 1: So hold up, Paul. Did y'all see that he got
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  Speaker 1: the towel? You know what I mean? That's every every
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  Speaker 1: middle of this.
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  Speaker 3: When I got the call, was like what am I
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  Speaker 3: doing with this? I don't know.
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  Speaker 1: Had apostles here, alpostolic, nobody the town. But listen, I'm
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  Speaker 1: doing kiddy, just go bab what okay?
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  Speaker 3: Okay, okay, okay, okay, the children back to back. Yeah yeah, okay,
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  Speaker 3: So me and my life. We've been married for about
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  Speaker 3: three years now, and your wife is beautiful. Thank you,
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  Speaker 3: she is. She really is. Shout out to you. Okay,
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  Speaker 3: but I just want to tell my testimony about this
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  Speaker 3: because many people be like, you know, why did y'all
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  Speaker 3: have another child so soon? My first son is one
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  Speaker 3: years old, my second is one month old, so they'd
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  Speaker 3: be like, why did y'all do that? So many people
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  Speaker 3: don't know. It's me and Amber. We was trying to
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  Speaker 3: have kids for like two years. Wasn't happening. So you know,
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  Speaker 3: we started to think, like, you know, maybe something is
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  Speaker 3: wrong or whatever. So we started getting like different treatments
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  Speaker 3: or whatever, and you know, trying to get it diagnosed
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  Speaker 3: or whatever.
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  Speaker 1: And so.
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  Speaker 3: The doctors was like, well, we see nothing wrong, but
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  Speaker 3: you all can do this and you all can do that.
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  Speaker 3: And so at this point I'm like, God, I know
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  Speaker 3: you didn't help me to get married, and now I
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  Speaker 3: can't even have kids.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah.
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  Speaker 3: So we were scheduled to have a fertility surgery the
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  Speaker 3: next month. And so we had been trying this for
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  Speaker 3: two years. Yeah, prayed about it, had people to pray
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  Speaker 3: over us. Everything. Nothing was working, so we was going
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  Speaker 3: to have this surgery or whatever. And so the Lord
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  Speaker 3: spoke to me, he was like, give me another week.
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  Speaker 3: I'm like okay, And so then he telled me to
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  Speaker 3: tell Amber call the doctor, call the surgeons, and tell
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  Speaker 3: him that you will not be getting that surgery.
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  Speaker 1: Whoa.
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  Speaker 3: And so you know how that worked, like with the
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  Speaker 3: whole period and all that. So they track all of
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  Speaker 3: this stuff and we had to get that surgery that
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  Speaker 3: next month, had to So I was like, Amber, tell
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  Speaker 3: them to counsel the surgery and they were going to
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  Speaker 3: have her to do like some shots before that or whatever.
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  Speaker 3: So she had to get like medications, she had to
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  Speaker 3: take medications before the procedure.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah.
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  Speaker 3: So she was like, okay, well, you know, if I
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  Speaker 3: don't take the medication, even if we do try to
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  Speaker 3: get the surgery, we will not be able to have
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  Speaker 3: a surgery.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah.
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  Speaker 3: So we fasted prayed that week. The next week she
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  Speaker 3: was pregnant.
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  Speaker 1: So really she was really pregnant when he told you,
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  Speaker 1: you just had became evident that she was pregnant because
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  Speaker 1: pregnancy tests take what two weeks.
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  Speaker 3: So, but this is the thing we took one before
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  Speaker 3: she took one the next week she was pregnant. M
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  Speaker 3: It was very strange, very weird. I'm just like, okay,
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  Speaker 3: we are you pregnant now? And so now we consider
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  Speaker 3: her wanting to be blessed. So if y'all see a
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  Speaker 3: whole bunch of babies walking around, we were like, we'd
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  Speaker 3: be like, hey, we prayed for this. This is what
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  Speaker 3: it looks like or what we prayed for.
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  Speaker 1: That's so good. How many truth and y'all want that's
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  Speaker 1: the that's the that's the thing. We pray for it,
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  Speaker 1: but be around it.
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  Speaker 3: How many cheers you praying? I wasn't ready. I wasn't
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  Speaker 3: ready for that. But the second one like it's it's
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  Speaker 3: been a journey, but sleepless nights, no sleep at night.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah, but then you have to go back to I
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  Speaker 1: was just telling my sister this that I'm I'm grateful
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  Speaker 1: for the opportunity to to do certain things in the
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  Speaker 1: season I man now, like helping out with my father.
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  Speaker 1: You know, he's doing the council journey and so so
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  Speaker 1: even helping him out or whatever with the job that
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  Speaker 1: I have, that the flexibility I have with that, y'all
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  Speaker 1: might be struggling here or I might not be getting
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  Speaker 1: this here, but this is priceless. And I know it's
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  Speaker 1: like you're like, oh, well, I pray for this, God,
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  Speaker 1: I pray for this. Why would I curse what I
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  Speaker 1: prayed for? And so that's that's to be the thing.
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  Speaker 1: But before we get into the kids, because we can't
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  Speaker 1: get in the kids without getting to mom and dad.
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  Speaker 1: And mom and dad have a great relationship and ship.
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  Speaker 1: How did you meet Amber?
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  Speaker 3: I met her through some mutual friends. My homeboy was like, hey, bro,
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  Speaker 3: I want to invite you over. We have a Bible study.
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  Speaker 3: You know, I consider Bible study fun, Like I'm really sixty.
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  Speaker 1: Years old, but we established that your grandmama's grandmama was
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  Speaker 1: yeah yeah.
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  Speaker 3: So it was like, Bro, I'm having the Bible study
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  Speaker 3: or whatever and my wife, so his wife was having
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  Speaker 3: like a girl's night and so I was like cool.
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  Speaker 3: So I get over there and I see the women
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  Speaker 3: there or whatever. So me and him, you know, we're
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  Speaker 3: just doing our Bible study. And at the time, I
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  Speaker 3: was with somebody, so I wouldn't, you know, really stun
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  Speaker 3: the women that was there anyway, because I'm pretty faithful,
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  Speaker 3: you know, try to be and so you.
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  Speaker 1: Were with somebody.
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  Speaker 3: Yeah, I was with them, and he said pretty to
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  Speaker 3: be Yeah.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah, So it's some thought tendencies around there.
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  Speaker 3: Okay, but yeah, I've been delivered and so I was
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  Speaker 3: with somebody at the time, so I wouldn't studying women,
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  Speaker 3: that'll be honest. So then the women join our Bible study.
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  Speaker 3: Oh wow, and so you know, I'm prophetic or whatever.
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  Speaker 3: So we started prophesying to each other. We get this
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  Speaker 3: thing called like the prophetic circle, and we just started
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  Speaker 3: prophising to each other whatever. So I get on Amber,
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  Speaker 3: I start prophisying to her, and so I started telling her, yeah,
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  Speaker 3: I can see your husband or whatever. He looks like this,
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  Speaker 3: he looks like that, he sounds like this, he does this.
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  Speaker 3: I'm like, wait a minute, yourself.
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  Speaker 1: She probably thought you were lie. Like so look, if
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  Speaker 1: I was a woman, I'm looking at you and you're
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  Speaker 1: describing yourself the devil is a lie, you would get
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  Speaker 1: away from me. Now okay, there's a whole line.
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  Speaker 3: Yeah, so I'm just like, wait a minute, am I
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  Speaker 3: talking about myself? So I stopped, I started prophisying her
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  Speaker 3: and go to that. When to the next person, what Yes,
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  Speaker 3: So that's how we met and some months later, I
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  Speaker 3: broke up with old girl that was with whatever. Very toxic.
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  Speaker 1: It's the I broke up with her or whatever girl.
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  Speaker 3: Yeah, very very toxic situation. Then our mutual friends put
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  Speaker 3: us on three Way together trying to hook us up.
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  Speaker 3: And so they put us on three way and they
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  Speaker 3: hung up. I want to meet these friends, they hangs up.
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  Speaker 3: So at this point I'm pissed off because I'm like, hey, like, hey,
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  Speaker 3: I'm a real nigga, Like I don't nobody.
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  Speaker 1: Like now, I look right, I get you. Fam Birmingham
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  Speaker 1: guys like to be specific west side beside. So no,
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  Speaker 1: when you talk about dudes coming up to you or whatever,
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  Speaker 1: they get real mad, like I don't need no, I
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  Speaker 1: don't need you to play. I could go get my
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  Speaker 1: own play.
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  Speaker 3: So so yeah, so they do that or whatever. So
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  Speaker 3: I was like, you know what, they don't even have
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  Speaker 3: to do that. Here's my number. If you want to talk,
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  Speaker 3: we can talk. So we've been talking since.
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  Speaker 1: Amber is very I don't know what she has like
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  Speaker 1: disgrace over her, Like she's just very pleasant. She's a woman.
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  Speaker 1: She's like she's a woman. Yeah, and like y'all to
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  Speaker 1: be so young. It's just like dangn Like it's just
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  Speaker 1: God has really annoyted you, and it's like God continues
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  Speaker 1: to show you proof that you guys belong together. So
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  Speaker 1: I saw a story on you on TikTok. I think
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  Speaker 1: and because you write place or that was the only
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  Speaker 1: play you've written.
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  Speaker 3: I write plays, but I also act in plays too.
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  Speaker 1: Okay, yeah, but I think this was this one, not
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  Speaker 1: the one. You wrote the play and then it was
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  Speaker 1: it ended up translating to your actual widow. Yeah, you see,
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  Speaker 1: you don't even know I know that. How did you even?
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  Speaker 1: Let's let's go through that story, because I felt like
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  Speaker 1: that was like I was like, oh, if that wasn't
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  Speaker 1: confirmation that you're supposed to be with her, I don't
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  Speaker 1: know what was. So let's start from the beginning. Okay,
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  Speaker 1: you wrote this play. I wrote the play, and God,
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  Speaker 1: how how how did that download to you? Oh? God?
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  Speaker 3: So with my prophetic gift in the Lord allows me
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  Speaker 3: to use it in different talents that I have, such
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  Speaker 3: as acting and writing and stuff like that. So the
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  Speaker 3: place that I write, there are prophetic plays. Mm hmm,
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  Speaker 3: there are prophetic plays. And so I wrote this play
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  Speaker 3: of it was it was supposed to be about Joseph
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  Speaker 3: and Mary. I think I was Joseph. She was married.
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  Speaker 3: I hope I got this right now.
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  Speaker 1: Were y'all were y'all together at that time?
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  Speaker 3: We were dating? Okay, Yeah, it was the beginning of
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  Speaker 3: us dating, the genesis of it. And wrote the play.
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  Speaker 3: She was playing near I was playing Joseph, And basically
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  Speaker 3: it was like a wedding in the play, and somehow,
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  Speaker 3: prophetically it just turned out being just like our wedding.
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  Speaker 3: It's all god Like, I can't even explain it.
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  Speaker 1: And when you had the realization of that, because I
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  Speaker 1: was like, you couldn't have known it until after right,
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  Speaker 1: like you had to watch you get married again and
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  Speaker 1: then watch the play again, Like what was going through
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  Speaker 1: your mind when you like had that connection.
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  Speaker 3: So honestly, I knew it. I knew it was gonna
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  Speaker 3: go exactly that way, But I said, I didn't set
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  Speaker 3: anything up for it to go that way.
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  Speaker 1: You knew it was gonna go that way, but you
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  Speaker 1: didn't set it up for it to go that way.
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  Speaker 1: That's gonna miss some people minds up. How can you
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  Speaker 1: know something's gonna go that way, because that's a part
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  Speaker 1: of the profetic, right, But you didn't set it up
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  Speaker 1: to go that way? How does that work out?
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  Speaker 3: So it all works out, and just really being obedient,
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  Speaker 3: just like for an example, and this is crazy, the
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  Speaker 3: Lord told me to be here in Alabama May twenty fifth.
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  Speaker 3: I didn't know why I had to come. I didn't
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  Speaker 3: I love Houston, but he said, I want you to
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  Speaker 3: be in Alabama for a few months. Cool. I'm like,
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  Speaker 3: do I move or what is this? He didn't give
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  Speaker 3: me all the details. I just need you to move.
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  Speaker 3: May twenty fifth. I get here. May twenty fifth, my
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  Speaker 3: dad has a stroke. May twenty six. Whoa guess who
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  Speaker 3: finds them in his apartment unconscious? Me. So I've learned,
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  Speaker 3: like in life, your obedience is tied to something. My
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  Speaker 3: obedience was tied to saving my father's life. If I
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  Speaker 3: would have never came on May twenty fifth to find him.
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  Speaker 3: May twenty six, you just.
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  Speaker 1: Okay, we're going fast, going somewhere fast, very fast. We
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  Speaker 1: just got through laughing. But this is a serious matter.
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  Speaker 1: So I don't want to because we have a lot
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  Speaker 1: of different people from different avenues or come on this,
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  Speaker 1: and we don't want to assume that they know what
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  Speaker 1: we're talking about. When we talk about prophetic yeah, so
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  Speaker 1: can you explain what the prophetic is?
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  Speaker 3: What the prophetic is basically, in my own words, the
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  Speaker 3: prophetic is it's a very very deep topic, deep subject.
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  Speaker 3: When I think of the prophetic, it basically means, first
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  Speaker 3: of all, having a relationship with God Holy Spirit, and
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  Speaker 3: being able to be in relationship with Him, to hear
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  Speaker 3: his voice, to to bring clarity to things in your
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  Speaker 3: life and other people's lives, to foretell, to foresee, to
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  Speaker 3: change the future. Yeah, it's good.
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  Speaker 1: It's a scripture.
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  Speaker 3: It's a gift from God.
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  Speaker 1: It is it is. It's a scripture that talks about
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  Speaker 1: I think it's in First Corinthians. If I'm not mistaken, well,
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  Speaker 1: Google just told me this and based upon First Corinthian fourteen.
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  Speaker 1: So prophecy, however, is a gift given for the benefit
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  Speaker 1: of the church. And this context, prophecy has nothing to
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  Speaker 1: do with predicting the future. It is speaking to people
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  Speaker 1: for the strengthening, encouragement and comfort, and which it is.
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  Speaker 1: So when people say they have a prophetic gift, they do.
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  Speaker 1: Their gift is rooted in the encouragement, strengthening and comfort
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  Speaker 1: of people. And so people, and I gotta say this
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  Speaker 1: because I know you you like tiktokic, like I like
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  Speaker 1: TikTok You have social media. We've been seeing a lot
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  Speaker 1: of these uh pimps in the spirit. Oh baby, I
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  Speaker 1: want anoking but like it frustrates me so bad that
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  Speaker 1: it's like if you put I'm putting my cash up
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  Speaker 1: on up here and I'm going to release a word
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  Speaker 1: as soon as you give me, you know, cash up.
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  Speaker 1: No that's not that's not a gift that you're paying me.
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  Speaker 1: So if this is so good, so if I'm if
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  Speaker 1: I am using my gift and not pimping it, you know,
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  Speaker 1: these people can be accurate, but they're not in the
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  Speaker 1: right spirit because it's not operating in with the gifts.
• 19:50
  Speaker 1: Like it's a gift that gives and we don't get
• 19:53
  Speaker 1: the opportunity to to pimp something God gave us. And
• 19:58
  Speaker 1: there's evidence of that. Yeah, so I wanted to I
• 20:01
  Speaker 1: wanted to break the whole prophetic down and like he's
• 20:04
  Speaker 1: talking about this. But what I like about what you're
• 20:07
  Speaker 1: talking about, Ken Kenneth is you're so young. But when
• 20:12
  Speaker 1: I met you, it was like it was annoyce on you.
• 20:15
  Speaker 1: So at one point did you realize that you were prophetic?
• 20:18
  Speaker 1: And how did you respond to it? Because I know
• 20:20
  Speaker 1: how I responded. What is this? Oh?
• 20:28
  Speaker 3: Well, There's been many different stages of it in my life.
• 20:33
  Speaker 3: It started when I was six years old, then progressed
• 20:38
  Speaker 3: to like I was like thirteen. That's when I kind
• 20:42
  Speaker 3: of fully started understanding everything. And that was when I
• 20:47
  Speaker 3: didn't want it anymore because I'm just like, this is
• 20:50
  Speaker 3: too much, Like God, I'm too young for this. And
• 20:55
  Speaker 3: I prayed that prayer and he did just that. He
• 20:57
  Speaker 3: didn't show me anything else. What yes, I mean went
• 21:02
  Speaker 3: dark for like four years.
• 21:05
  Speaker 1: And this was when you were sixteen.
• 21:07
  Speaker 3: Thirteen thirteen, Yeah, thirteen, went blank, didn't say anything else
• 21:13
  Speaker 3: to me. I'm like, dang, I gotta watch what I
• 21:15
  Speaker 3: asked for listen, because he did just that. But then
• 21:20
  Speaker 3: it went a little deeper. Yeah, sixteen, well, sixteen seventeen,
• 21:27
  Speaker 3: I was going through a really really hard time in
• 21:29
  Speaker 3: my life. I didn't understand a lot about life during
• 21:33
  Speaker 3: that time. It was a lot of depths in my
• 21:35
  Speaker 3: family didn't understand that. Then I didn't understand myself, you know.
• 21:39
  Speaker 3: So I'm just like God, I don't believe you're real. Yeah,
• 21:45
  Speaker 3: I didn't believe it. I'm like with so much in
• 21:49
  Speaker 3: the world going on, how can you be real? And
• 21:52
  Speaker 3: with me not understanding myself, my family, my whole life,
• 21:56
  Speaker 3: I'm just like, how can you be real? So that
• 22:00
  Speaker 3: night I pray the prayer. I was like, God, if
• 22:03
  Speaker 3: you don't show me you real tonight, I'm gonna do
• 22:06
  Speaker 3: something very bad. And that bad meant either I was
• 22:12
  Speaker 3: gonna do something to myself or to somebody else because
• 22:16
  Speaker 3: I was you know, I was. I was a gangster
• 22:17
  Speaker 3: back then.
• 22:18
  Speaker 1: I know. Oh so you was gonna He was trying
• 22:20
  Speaker 1: to politely tell us, Oh, okay into that.
• 22:25
  Speaker 3: Yeah. So I'm just like, if you don't show me
• 22:27
  Speaker 3: you real to night, I'm gonna do something very very drastically.
• 22:29
  Speaker 3: So it's on you God. That night, in my sleep,
• 22:36
  Speaker 3: I had like this outer body experience. The Lord took
• 22:41
  Speaker 3: me out of my body, tossed me in the air
• 22:45
  Speaker 3: and at this point, like I'm just flying up, like
• 22:47
  Speaker 3: I feel the wind going through my shirt light all
• 22:51
  Speaker 3: of that, and so I'm just like, Okay, God, I
• 22:54
  Speaker 3: know you real. I know you're real now, I know
• 22:56
  Speaker 3: you real. And once I said that, I gently just
• 23:00
  Speaker 3: went back down to my body. So from that night
• 23:05
  Speaker 3: I knew God was real.
• 23:07
  Speaker 1: Yeah, if somebody did down.
• 23:14
  Speaker 3: I'm afraid of heights, very afraid of put me down now.
• 23:20
  Speaker 3: So from that night, I'm so convinced that God is real.
• 23:24
  Speaker 3: And since then I've been having like different supernatural things
• 23:30
  Speaker 3: happening in my life. So that's kind of how my
• 23:34
  Speaker 3: journey started. That's when I knew that it was real.
• 23:37
  Speaker 3: That's how I knew the prophetic was real in my life.
• 23:40
  Speaker 1: So and I would even guess that that's how you
• 23:42
  Speaker 1: knew God really listened to you and value your voice,
• 23:45
  Speaker 1: because I would only I would only imagine like for
• 23:48
  Speaker 1: God to do something instantly like stop talking to you
• 23:51
  Speaker 1: or cut access off, then when you open back up
• 23:55
  Speaker 1: to him to immediately respond you special you you were
• 24:00
  Speaker 1: special breed, but you bought something up. Yeah that you
• 24:03
  Speaker 1: said you was a gangster. So you was in the streets.
• 24:05
  Speaker 1: I was all right, So how quickly did you did
• 24:07
  Speaker 1: you trans transform from being in the streets to being
• 24:11
  Speaker 1: fully in ministry?
• 24:14
  Speaker 3: So it was a process. Uh, It very much was
• 24:18
  Speaker 3: a process because I was in the streets and in
• 24:21
  Speaker 3: the church in the at the same time. I was
• 24:24
  Speaker 3: before I started preaching and all this stuff I used
• 24:28
  Speaker 3: to do, like praising worships, seeing stuff like that. And
• 24:32
  Speaker 3: I was still doing all of that while I was
• 24:34
  Speaker 3: out in the streets. The streets didn't know it and
• 24:37
  Speaker 3: the church didn't know it. They didn't know about each
• 24:39
  Speaker 3: east side. In the church, I was an angel. I
• 24:43
  Speaker 3: mean I still was an angel, but in the church,
• 24:46
  Speaker 3: I was a real, real, real angel, like they could
• 24:49
  Speaker 3: never imagine me.
• 24:53
  Speaker 1: Yeah, it ain't no saying here. You know what I
• 24:58
  Speaker 1: tell folks at the time, and it's not to get
• 25:01
  Speaker 1: cloud or anything like, but this is real story. Like
• 25:04
  Speaker 1: my boyfriend when I was in college was it was
• 25:06
  Speaker 1: a dope boy, like dope money's paid for my books.
• 25:10
  Speaker 1: Like I ain't saying to that, and that's I had
• 25:14
  Speaker 1: school and the Lord allowed that.
• 25:16
  Speaker 3: Man, Yeah exactly. Little it got you through, it got
• 25:20
  Speaker 3: me through.
• 25:22
  Speaker 1: I ain't saying, go do it, but I'm just saying, so,
• 25:25
  Speaker 1: it's no shame shame here, and I think it's because
• 25:27
  Speaker 1: of who you are today.
• 25:29
  Speaker 3: But people need to hear that, Yeah, like people need
• 25:31
  Speaker 3: to hear that.
• 25:32
  Speaker 1: Like I was living a double life.
• 25:34
  Speaker 3: Yeah I was, so I know, and the streets didn't.
• 25:37
  Speaker 3: The streets didn't know that. I was in the church,
• 25:39
  Speaker 3: playing the keyboard, playing the drums, singing singing in my
• 25:43
  Speaker 3: false cellar. They didn't know none of that, none of
• 25:47
  Speaker 3: that in the church.
• 25:48
  Speaker 1: So how did that? Like, you gotta break that down
• 25:51
  Speaker 1: because at some point, like I know, God, we talked
• 25:53
  Speaker 1: about we talked about being aluke warm, and he'll spit
• 25:55
  Speaker 1: you out, like you gotta make a choice. What what
• 25:57
  Speaker 1: was the cross road for you?
• 25:59
  Speaker 3: Well, the cross world was my I'm not going to
• 26:05
  Speaker 3: say that my spiritual gifts were being tainted at that point.
• 26:09
  Speaker 3: And I saw it when well, okay, this is what
• 26:13
  Speaker 3: did it? One night I got sloppy drunk and so
• 26:21
  Speaker 3: that was a Saturday, Saturday night, Sunday morning. Here I
• 26:24
  Speaker 3: am praise and worship. As I'm doing praise and worship,
• 26:30
  Speaker 3: the Lord showed me my demons going out into the crowd,
• 26:38
  Speaker 3: into the audience, to the congregation, and I was like,
• 26:42
  Speaker 3: I don't want that. I don't want that. It It
• 26:51
  Speaker 3: almost made me sick to my stomach because I always
• 26:54
  Speaker 3: said that I never want to be like them, like
• 26:56
  Speaker 3: how you were saying like the pimp prophets. Yeah, I
• 26:58
  Speaker 3: never want to be like them. And when I saw that,
• 27:03
  Speaker 3: I'm just like, I gotta make a change.
• 27:06
  Speaker 1: So okay, don't move past that. Two fast because I
• 27:10
  Speaker 1: know we all and he'll just kind of like took
• 27:12
  Speaker 1: a deep breath. But we gotta assume that people don't
• 27:14
  Speaker 1: really understand why that what that meant to you? So
• 27:18
  Speaker 1: when you saw demons going out into the congregation, what
• 27:24
  Speaker 1: did that mean to you?
• 27:26
  Speaker 3: It meant to me.
• 27:29
  Speaker 1: And you know, none of us are perfect, but the
• 27:33
  Speaker 1: sin that I was in intentionally you used that word
• 27:39
  Speaker 1: now like y'all see, y'all he very he's very somonic.
• 27:43
  Speaker 1: So he's a monic tone, is he when he used
• 27:45
  Speaker 1: strong pauses? He wants you to get the point he said,
• 27:49
  Speaker 1: I want to repeat, Yeah, where he was in the
• 27:51
  Speaker 1: world sinning intentionally pause, proceed.
• 27:58
  Speaker 3: This is good. Oh my god. Intentionally I saw that
• 28:05
  Speaker 3: scene going out into the people, meaning that even if
• 28:09
  Speaker 3: they didn't struggle with with what I was struggling with
• 28:14
  Speaker 3: after that moment, they were going to be struggling with that.
• 28:18
  Speaker 1: So basically, and this is the thing about worship. Okay,
• 28:21
  Speaker 1: we're going somewhere, So this is the thing about worship.
• 28:26
  Speaker 1: Worship does a lot of things. And one of the
• 28:29
  Speaker 1: things that I understand about worship is is like it's
• 28:31
  Speaker 1: almost it opens like portals, like it opens people up
• 28:36
  Speaker 1: to It makes some sensitive to whatever the atmosphere. So
• 28:39
  Speaker 1: that's why you have to you're worshiping something. Folks like
• 28:41
  Speaker 1: I don't worship these I don't know you're worshiping something.
• 28:44
  Speaker 1: And when you worship, worship opens up portals and access
• 28:49
  Speaker 1: to things that you may or may not want. And
• 28:53
  Speaker 1: so when you said that, I literally with you saying
• 28:57
  Speaker 1: that these people they or may not be struggling with this,
• 29:02
  Speaker 1: and if they are, they're trying to overcome. And I
• 29:06
  Speaker 1: am the worship leader, I'm a part of the worship
• 29:08
  Speaker 1: team exactly, I am granting them access to my demonic portals.
• 29:13
  Speaker 1: And people get a little hesitant with the demonic word word,
• 29:19
  Speaker 1: but it's a real thing, like there are two you know,
• 29:22
  Speaker 1: there is a good spirit and a bad spirit, whatever
• 29:26
  Speaker 1: you want to call it demonic or not, it's a
• 29:28
  Speaker 1: good spirit and a bad spirit. And what happens is
• 29:30
  Speaker 1: I am opening you up to my full self. And
• 29:34
  Speaker 1: if I don't walk in purity, then you're gonna get
• 29:36
  Speaker 1: those those negative content.
• 29:38
  Speaker 3: Yeah, I mean, because even the Bible tells you to
• 29:41
  Speaker 3: enter into the courts and into the gates. Those are portals,
• 29:45
  Speaker 3: those are realms. And so if you're not carrying the
• 29:49
  Speaker 3: Holy Spirit fully, what realms are you opening? What gates
• 29:53
  Speaker 3: are you opening? What doors are you opening? And not
• 29:56
  Speaker 3: only you're just opening them, but you're allowing the people
• 30:00
  Speaker 3: to follow you in craising worship leader. You're leading them
• 30:04
  Speaker 3: into a gate, a door, a rem a dimension. So
• 30:10
  Speaker 3: if you're not carrying carrying the Holy Spirit, the Holy Ghost, God, purity,
• 30:16
  Speaker 3: what are you leading them into? I always put it
• 30:20
  Speaker 3: like this. You know, our body is supposed to be
• 30:22
  Speaker 3: the temple of the Holy Ghost, the Holy Spirit. Our
• 30:26
  Speaker 3: bodies are temples. What does it look like with you
• 30:30
  Speaker 3: inviting someone to your temple? Are what are they getting
• 30:34
  Speaker 3: out of your church? Are they getting lies, gossip, marijuana, hennessy?
• 30:42
  Speaker 3: What am I getting out of you?
• 30:44
  Speaker 1: That's so good. I love how you put that, because
• 30:48
  Speaker 1: we only think about our body being temples when it
• 30:51
  Speaker 1: comes to six, like we only talk about it like, oh,
• 30:54
  Speaker 1: your body is I think we just pervert everything. Oh
• 30:58
  Speaker 1: my gosh, we pervert so much. But with you put
• 31:01
  Speaker 1: in a perspective like that, like even amongst friends, like
• 31:05
  Speaker 1: what am I presenting to you in my friendship? What
• 31:07
  Speaker 1: am I presenting to you? Because I hate this thing,
• 31:10
  Speaker 1: but it comes true. It's like birds of the field
• 31:13
  Speaker 1: flock together because my spirit is connecting with your spirit
• 31:15
  Speaker 1: at the time that's being invested, the words that's being digested.
• 31:21
  Speaker 1: Felicia's here right now and we're building our relationship. And
• 31:25
  Speaker 1: so one of the things that I'm very mindful of
• 31:29
  Speaker 1: is and especially in our relationship and new relationships, is
• 31:33
  Speaker 1: that I'm mindful of the words that I use because
• 31:36
  Speaker 1: I understand that there is an attraction to whatever I say. Yeah,
• 31:40
  Speaker 1: and so by she's saying something that I'm like, oh, Okay,
• 31:43
  Speaker 1: that's good, God, that's good for me. I can digest
• 31:45
  Speaker 1: that because everybody doesn't have the level of maturity like
• 31:48
  Speaker 1: we have to say I can't digest that, or I
• 31:51
  Speaker 1: can digest that. And you are this is so good.
• 31:55
  Speaker 1: You are made responsible because you know better. This is good.
• 31:59
  Speaker 1: I got to say this. You are made responsible because
• 32:01
  Speaker 1: you know better. Somebody that's not carrying their temple in
• 32:04
  Speaker 1: the way that they need to carry you are responsible
• 32:07
  Speaker 1: for how you like, you are responsible for. We were
• 32:09
  Speaker 1: so quick to say, oh, this not me, this ain't
• 32:12
  Speaker 1: but it says love thy neighbor, yeah, as thyself, And
• 32:16
  Speaker 1: so if I love myself to care myself as a pure,
• 32:19
  Speaker 1: purified temple or to get there, because baby, I'm still
• 32:22
  Speaker 1: you know, working on being walking in hole in his
• 32:25
  Speaker 1: writings and all that good stuff. But I can, I
• 32:28
  Speaker 1: can deposit that with somebody else. And so I think
• 32:32
  Speaker 1: what you what you're saying is so profound because because
• 32:37
  Speaker 1: it takes it makes me more aware of my responsibility.
• 32:41
  Speaker 3: Yeah, you know, and I was aware of my responsibilities.
• 32:44
  Speaker 3: Like I said, you know, no one is perfect, but
• 32:46
  Speaker 3: there are some things that God really convicts us about
• 32:49
  Speaker 3: that we know that we hey, this is off limits.
• 32:52
  Speaker 3: You can you can do this and get away with it,
• 32:54
  Speaker 3: but this off limits. And those were the things that
• 32:59
  Speaker 3: I was doing that were off minutes to God. And
• 33:04
  Speaker 3: that's why it was so much of an unsettling to
• 33:08
  Speaker 3: my spirit because I knew I would. I was doing
• 33:11
  Speaker 3: them intentionally.
• 33:15
  Speaker 1: You got me going going a little left with my
• 33:18
  Speaker 1: brain right now. But this is so good. So, Kennedy,
• 33:22
  Speaker 1: we don't normally have like a man our age in
• 33:25
  Speaker 1: the room. So we're gonna pull on you, oh the
• 33:28
  Speaker 1: single ladies, all the single leaders. But oh, the Saint
• 33:36
  Speaker 1: is gonna be mad that I said that. Oh my
• 33:38
  Speaker 1: godsh y'all just get over it. Okay, get over it. Okay,
• 33:43
  Speaker 1: So but seriously, like I'll be looking at you and
• 33:48
  Speaker 1: Amber and I'm like, Lord, what you've done for others?
• 33:53
  Speaker 1: Because you can you spend that around the block to
• 33:56
  Speaker 1: me because it's the day see nowadays kind of like
• 34:00
  Speaker 1: discouraging and I know you're three years in, but could
• 34:06
  Speaker 1: like we need some man here, like are we doing
• 34:09
  Speaker 1: something wrong? Like what we need? What they's a raid
• 34:12
  Speaker 1: what we need to be doing, because I was staying
• 34:15
  Speaker 1: in the will of guy. But I'm trying to. I'm
• 34:16
  Speaker 1: trying to. I'm trying to be in the little guy.
• 34:25
  Speaker 1: Oh my god, I'm in my line. I'm trying to
• 34:30
  Speaker 1: be in the little guy. I'm single. I am prophetic
• 34:33
  Speaker 1: in what I know about prophetic people. I don't know
• 34:34
  Speaker 1: why I'm being so free right now. But okay, so Faith,
• 34:37
  Speaker 1: doctor Faith.
• 34:38
  Speaker 3: She was talking about her.
• 34:40
  Speaker 1: I love her. She brought up the fact that prophetic
• 34:43
  Speaker 1: people really need to be married because they are they
• 34:48
  Speaker 1: get around prophetic over I'm just being honest, and so
• 34:58
  Speaker 1: I think the whole idea of being kept, the whole
• 35:02
  Speaker 1: idea of wanting marriage, I think it's just a lot
• 35:05
  Speaker 1: of a lot of things that's pulling at the same time,
• 35:08
  Speaker 1: So for like talking to us as your sisters, right, like,
• 35:11
  Speaker 1: what is the what are the top three things that
• 35:13
  Speaker 1: we should outside of of course being a man of God,
• 35:16
  Speaker 1: like we gon, we're gonna give that, But outside of
• 35:19
  Speaker 1: the first thing being a man of God, what are
• 35:20
  Speaker 1: the first three things that we should look for in
• 35:23
  Speaker 1: this society? Because I know if the talks is like, oh,
• 35:28
  Speaker 1: I want this man to already be here, but maybe
• 35:31
  Speaker 1: he's progressing. How do we know that he's progressing in
• 35:34
  Speaker 1: the right way? Like we need to know. I'm curious
• 35:37
  Speaker 1: cause I'm putting pull on you because I trust you.
• 35:39
  Speaker 3: Okay, let's go. And I get this question a lot
• 35:43
  Speaker 3: from women, like I was just on a show like
• 35:46
  Speaker 3: two weeks.
• 35:47
  Speaker 1: Ago or whatever, and I want to tell you why,
• 35:49
  Speaker 1: because you're a man of God, you have a beautiful family,
• 35:52
  Speaker 1: you're faithful, and you ain't ugly. I just I want
• 35:58
  Speaker 1: to know that I can have a man that loves
• 36:00
  Speaker 1: good and loves God. So put that on a T shirt.
• 36:05
  Speaker 3: So I would say number one, like, because that was
• 36:09
  Speaker 3: a time that I wasn't interested in church girls. I
• 36:12
  Speaker 3: was not interested in church girls. It's just boring you
• 36:18
  Speaker 3: go to and so I got that, but it was
• 36:21
  Speaker 3: mostly all of them, Praise God. But I would say
• 36:26
  Speaker 3: that many women in the church need balance. M Yeah,
• 36:33
  Speaker 3: you need balance, like it's good to be spiritually gifted
• 36:36
  Speaker 3: and what spiritually grounded? Yeah, and no scripture and all that,
• 36:41
  Speaker 3: but you also need to have a balance of Okay,
• 36:45
  Speaker 3: I can do that, and I can go to the movies.
• 36:47
  Speaker 3: I can do that, and I can write in your
• 36:49
  Speaker 3: car with you to go to the movies, and you know,
• 36:54
  Speaker 3: it's just stuff like that. And sometimes like church women
• 37:00
  Speaker 3: are so uptight, and I think it's because of the teachings,
• 37:06
  Speaker 3: like better I let him do this, then I let
• 37:08
  Speaker 3: him do that. Don't be caught with them by yourself
• 37:11
  Speaker 3: in this place, you know. And all of that is good, but.
• 37:14
  Speaker 1: You need a balance that sounds like fear talk though
• 37:17
  Speaker 1: it's no, it's no I guess freedom in that. Like
• 37:26
  Speaker 1: it's almost like.
• 37:26
  Speaker 3: There's no freedom in that, and especially towards the male
• 37:30
  Speaker 3: because he gonna be like I can't do nothing. I
• 37:33
  Speaker 3: can't I gotta watch what I say, I gotta watch
• 37:35
  Speaker 3: what I do, I gotta watch how I dress. This
• 37:39
  Speaker 3: is not it.
• 37:39
  Speaker 1: It's almost like they feel like a build a bear.
• 37:43
  Speaker 3: Would you say yes, and what happened?
• 37:45
  Speaker 1: A man feels like a build a bear.
• 37:48
  Speaker 3: He runs and then he runs to something that he
• 37:51
  Speaker 3: don't even need, like the woman of God could be
• 37:56
  Speaker 3: perfect for him, but he see those things he runs.
• 38:00
  Speaker 1: So how does the Morman of God manage.
• 38:02
  Speaker 3: To create create balance mentally? Like intentional? Be intentional about it,
• 38:10
  Speaker 3: like okay, like I know we're dating and I'm not
• 38:15
  Speaker 3: trying to have sex with you until we're married. Lay
• 38:18
  Speaker 3: that out. I already put that out on the table.
• 38:21
  Speaker 3: This is what we're doing, this is not what we're doing,
• 38:25
  Speaker 3: and it's up to him to agree to that agreement.
• 38:28
  Speaker 3: If he stays with that agreement he really likes you,
• 38:32
  Speaker 3: then y'all can move forward saying like, Okay, he really
• 38:38
  Speaker 3: likes me and he's committed to not do this, do that,
• 38:42
  Speaker 3: do this out and already laid everything out on the table.
• 38:45
  Speaker 3: Now we can move forward and create a friendship, not
• 38:48
  Speaker 3: a not a potential marriage, a friendship. Just be their friend,
• 38:56
  Speaker 3: because that's another thing. Another thing. Church women, they try
• 39:02
  Speaker 3: to rush the man to be prepared for marriage. But hey,
• 39:09
  Speaker 3: we over heel like we need friendship. Yeah, like how
• 39:13
  Speaker 3: you step in? How are you already stepping to these
• 39:18
  Speaker 3: different masses. When it comes to our relationship, we ain't
• 39:20
  Speaker 3: even friends. And even if you have prophetically seen or whatever.
• 39:26
  Speaker 1: Talk about it, please.
• 39:29
  Speaker 3: In a state of delusion, whatever you need, whatever you
• 39:33
  Speaker 3: done saw yourself with this guy, this man, even if
• 39:37
  Speaker 3: you've seen that, Okay, that's the future. That's not now,
• 39:42
  Speaker 3: that is the future. And so there's a process to
• 39:47
  Speaker 3: these things, and so many women try to speed up
• 39:49
  Speaker 3: the process, and a man is not ready for that,
• 39:52
  Speaker 3: especially if he's not spiritual or whatever that part.
• 39:56
  Speaker 1: And so I'm glad you said the last part because
• 39:58
  Speaker 1: I think there's an opportunity in the question. In our
• 40:01
  Speaker 1: organization or our our i'll say, cool culture is that
• 40:07
  Speaker 1: men don't go to church.
• 40:08
  Speaker 3: And that's another thing. And so that's why I'm kind
• 40:11
  Speaker 3: of presenting presenting this this way, because the men that
• 40:14
  Speaker 3: y'all won't they ain't really church. The church men. That's
• 40:22
  Speaker 3: not the pool that you want. I'm just saying, I'm
• 40:25
  Speaker 3: just being honest.
• 40:26
  Speaker 1: Okay, you just said something, and you said, run, there's
• 40:29
  Speaker 1: abody run. Don't look back. Most of the men in
• 40:33
  Speaker 1: church married, married, and other stuff. Yeah, I was about
• 40:37
  Speaker 1: to say, and other stuff too. Most of the men
• 40:40
  Speaker 1: in church are married and unavailable. That's probably they are unavailable.
• 40:44
  Speaker 1: They're unavailable, they are unavailable people. And so okay, so
• 40:47
  Speaker 1: if I'm so I'm this church woman, well I'm not
• 40:50
  Speaker 1: even a church woman. I'm a I'll do relationship with
• 40:53
  Speaker 1: got And so I meet someone you know that is
• 40:58
  Speaker 1: not you know, built to where I feel like, Oh,
• 41:01
  Speaker 1: I know that God has destiny to have my husband.
• 41:04
  Speaker 1: How do you know? I don't know. When you say balance,
• 41:09
  Speaker 1: what does that practically look like? Do I like, do
• 41:12
  Speaker 1: I not have the expectation that you need to we
• 41:14
  Speaker 1: go to church? What do I look like? Because we
• 41:17
  Speaker 1: always say folks always say like, you ain't gotta go
• 41:20
  Speaker 1: to church to have a relationship with God. And I'm like,
• 41:28
  Speaker 1: I think, oh my God, And okay, let me say
• 41:35
  Speaker 1: my reason, and I'm gonna give you the reason is
• 41:38
  Speaker 1: is because I know what relationship looks like when I'm
• 41:40
  Speaker 1: not in church. It's a church is of the level
• 41:44
  Speaker 1: of accountability and strength or strengthening place to where I
• 41:47
  Speaker 1: can maintain my relationship with God. Right now. There has
• 41:51
  Speaker 1: been there has been a season to where I didn't
• 41:54
  Speaker 1: I wasn't in church, but God it was because I
• 41:57
  Speaker 1: had been hurt by the church, and I said, God,
• 42:01
  Speaker 1: this is not what I'm gonna do. But I still,
• 42:04
  Speaker 1: you know, put myself in a territory and surroundings. I
• 42:07
  Speaker 1: got a spiritual brothers shout out to Coach d shout
• 42:11
  Speaker 1: out to that doctor defund me j I was around
• 42:16
  Speaker 1: her like. So it was not like I didn't I
• 42:19
  Speaker 1: wouldn't getting God like she was. We was up at
• 42:22
  Speaker 1: midnight praying with folks when they when she went on live,
• 42:25
  Speaker 1: when she went on her mental program. It was on
• 42:26
  Speaker 1: the phone with me that bow like.
• 42:30
  Speaker 3: She didn't set the way to glory on my back before.
• 42:33
  Speaker 3: And I mean physically, I was like, I ain't.
• 42:37
  Speaker 1: Seeing this that that that that that that she different
• 42:42
  Speaker 1: And so I was covered still. And a lot of
• 42:47
  Speaker 1: people don't. They talk about church and they don't have
• 42:50
  Speaker 1: a spiritual covering. So maybe you don't go to church,
• 42:52
  Speaker 1: but do you have a spiritual cover That's the change
• 42:56
  Speaker 1: zone for me because most people don't. So that's why
• 42:59
  Speaker 1: I said, what.
• 43:01
  Speaker 3: Was I agree? I agree church is very important. I
• 43:07
  Speaker 3: was just talking to one of my homeboys about a
• 43:10
  Speaker 3: week ago and he was like, you know this girl,
• 43:12
  Speaker 3: she invited me to church or whatever, and I didn't
• 43:16
  Speaker 3: go I'm like, why you didn't go? But now, okay,
• 43:20
  Speaker 3: just to put this out here, this guy really wants
• 43:23
  Speaker 3: this girl. But he was like, she's playing okay, but okay,
• 43:29
  Speaker 3: So she invited him to church, he didn't go. I'm like, bro,
• 43:32
  Speaker 3: why you didn't go? Because I feel like we went
• 43:35
  Speaker 3: equally yoke. What do you mean by that, sir? Because
• 43:41
  Speaker 3: we haven't got close to each other yet?
• 43:44
  Speaker 1: What kind of close to each other he talking about exactly.
• 43:48
  Speaker 3: So I'm just like, what do you mean by that? Oh,
• 43:50
  Speaker 3: we haven't got close to each other as far as
• 43:52
  Speaker 3: like our friendship relationship, and we haven't started talking about
• 43:55
  Speaker 3: God with each other yet. I'm like, well, maybe that's
• 43:57
  Speaker 3: the place you need to go to so you can
• 44:00
  Speaker 3: get to that place to talk about God. So where
• 44:04
  Speaker 3: was I going? I just had a marine park because.
• 44:07
  Speaker 1: We were talking about going to church with me.
• 44:08
  Speaker 3: Okay to church. So so yeah, so he didn't go,
• 44:12
  Speaker 3: and so I'm like, bro, you should go. Maybe that's
• 44:14
  Speaker 3: the reason why y'all not together. But he was like, well,
• 44:20
  Speaker 3: if she would have explained it to me in that way,
• 44:24
  Speaker 3: I would have went. So just to put out there
• 44:28
  Speaker 3: the dating pool for the guys that y'all want. They're
• 44:32
  Speaker 3: un educated about a lot of things when it comes
• 44:35
  Speaker 3: to church, God, relationship coverings and all of that. So
• 44:42
  Speaker 3: you may have to put on your teacher's cap a
• 44:44
  Speaker 3: little bit, a little grace. Yeah, because.
• 44:48
  Speaker 1: When when you said, he said that, and i''ll tell
• 44:50
  Speaker 1: you why, Yeah, I was. I was. I don't want
• 44:53
  Speaker 1: to build a bell either.
• 44:54
  Speaker 3: You don't want to build a bear.
• 44:55
  Speaker 1: I don't want to build a bear, and I don't
• 44:57
  Speaker 1: want nobody to want to be built. So you know what,
• 45:00
  Speaker 1: I'm sorry, no, please cut me off, because.
• 45:03
  Speaker 3: So this is what this is what Amber did. This
• 45:06
  Speaker 3: is what Ember did. Amber wrote down the type of
• 45:10
  Speaker 3: man she wanted. And you know how the scripture says,
• 45:13
  Speaker 3: write it down, make a plan. She wrote down the
• 45:16
  Speaker 3: exact man that she wanted. I want him to smell
• 45:19
  Speaker 3: like this, I want him to look like this. I
• 45:21
  Speaker 3: want him to be in this word da dada all
• 45:23
  Speaker 3: the way down. She wrote a letter to God. She
• 45:27
  Speaker 3: showed me this letter after we got married. It fits
• 45:31
  Speaker 3: me to a t. I want him to have a
• 45:34
  Speaker 3: nice smile, perfect teeth, all this stuff. I ain't got
• 45:37
  Speaker 3: perfect tea. I'm almost there, but the letter fitted to
• 45:41
  Speaker 3: a tee. So when it's when it's when that is
• 45:45
  Speaker 3: your case, when you don't want to build a bear,
• 45:47
  Speaker 3: when you don't feel like going through all of that,
• 45:51
  Speaker 3: put prayer on it and believe it.
• 45:55
  Speaker 1: I think this is okay, So I'm finna tell on myself.
• 45:57
  Speaker 1: So it's almost like a moment to help my unblief
• 46:00
  Speaker 1: type of things. So I've been in situations where oh, okay,
• 46:07
  Speaker 1: I'm trying to see how gonna say this. I've been
• 46:09
  Speaker 1: in situations where that I didn't know I was building
• 46:17
  Speaker 1: the beer until I was in the manufacturer mm hmm.
• 46:22
  Speaker 1: And it's like, because it's my nature to fix things
• 46:29
  Speaker 1: when I see something that needs to be built up,
• 46:32
  Speaker 1: it's a natural response, and that has a lot to
• 46:34
  Speaker 1: do with me. I can take ownership with that.
• 46:37
  Speaker 3: So I mean, because yeah, that's kind of what I
• 46:39
  Speaker 3: was getting a little bit too, like.
• 46:47
  Speaker 1: Hey, you can't look just ask look cut my throwt first.
• 46:51
  Speaker 1: Somebody else might need to hear. I need know.
• 46:54
  Speaker 3: But because like, yeah, me and Amber, we have a
• 46:57
  Speaker 3: nice marriage, but it was it wasn't easy. We both
• 47:02
  Speaker 3: was building a bear. Okay, we both were at equal
• 47:07
  Speaker 3: at least we both would be. That's true. But in
• 47:12
  Speaker 3: that in that process of what that looked like if
• 47:14
  Speaker 3: our build a bell workshop, in our build a beil workshop.
• 47:21
  Speaker 3: We went through spiritual counseling and what that spiritual counseling
• 47:27
  Speaker 3: until it was deliverance. We both needed deliverance out of
• 47:32
  Speaker 3: different things during your dating process.
• 47:35
  Speaker 1: Yes, wow, I can specified yes because people think it's
• 47:41
  Speaker 1: after they got.
• 47:41
  Speaker 3: Married, but oh no, you need counseling before you get married.
• 47:46
  Speaker 3: I got counseling before I even started dating dating. I
• 47:49
  Speaker 3: was going through spiritual counseling in the dating pool, and
• 47:53
  Speaker 3: I found out that was something that I needed because
• 47:57
  Speaker 3: during that time when I was in a relationship, I
• 48:00
  Speaker 3: was in a very toxic relationship and didn't know it.
• 48:04
  Speaker 3: I was in a verbal abusive relationship and didn't know it.
• 48:07
  Speaker 1: Were y'all verbally abusive to each other or just one sided?
• 48:10
  Speaker 3: It was one sided? Oh, I didn't know. And I
• 48:14
  Speaker 3: also didn't know that she was a witch.
• 48:19
  Speaker 1: You havn't a lot of Paul's moments like I'm not
• 48:24
  Speaker 1: laughing at it's not funny, but it's like, Okay, she was.
• 48:29
  Speaker 1: She was verbally abusive, and she was a witch. So
• 48:32
  Speaker 1: she probably even put.
• 48:33
  Speaker 3: Ain't no telling, Oh lord, ain't no telling, And so
• 48:37
  Speaker 3: I had to get deliverance from all of that to
• 48:39
  Speaker 3: even to you were.
• 48:41
  Speaker 1: Intimate with her, No, no, you weren't into it, okay, okay, cooling,
• 48:44
  Speaker 1: So that was another level of deliverance.
• 48:47
  Speaker 3: I mean, but even just with being connected with her,
• 48:50
  Speaker 3: being with her every day, you know, there is a
• 48:53
  Speaker 3: little intimacy in there with love from your heart right.
• 48:56
  Speaker 3: So I had to be delivered from all of that
• 49:00
  Speaker 3: through spiritual counseling, I mean out on the floor rolling
• 49:04
  Speaker 3: around like it was very needed. So I would say
• 49:09
  Speaker 3: I would recommend that to the women that are watching, like,
• 49:13
  Speaker 3: you know, maybe definitely my brothers. Uh, hey, go through
• 49:19
  Speaker 3: go through some spiritual counseling before you even get in
• 49:22
  Speaker 3: the dating pool. Because there there, there's me. And Emma
• 49:25
  Speaker 3: wrote a book about this. We wrote a book about this.
• 49:28
  Speaker 3: It's called It's the God in Them for Me And basically.
• 49:32
  Speaker 1: That's the one that was in the library. Yes, yes, yes,
• 49:36
  Speaker 1: yes uh.
• 49:36
  Speaker 3: It's a book of prayers, deliverance prayers, spiritual warfare prayers
• 49:42
  Speaker 3: to basically help you find your match or to be
• 49:47
  Speaker 3: successful in marriage and your relationships. It's for singles and
• 49:51
  Speaker 3: married couples. But there's one chapter that I like in there.
• 49:54
  Speaker 3: It's called clearing the foundation. Many times our foundation, and
• 50:00
  Speaker 3: it's very faulty, meaning there are some curses in our foundation,
• 50:05
  Speaker 3: some generational curses, some habits, all that type of stuff
• 50:13
  Speaker 3: that would cause you not to find your husband or wife.
• 50:21
  Speaker 3: So those things have to be handled first, because even
• 50:23
  Speaker 3: if you do enter into a marriage with them, the
• 50:26
  Speaker 3: marriage is not going to be great.
• 50:28
  Speaker 1: Mm hmm. So some of these marriages that aren't breaking
• 50:32
  Speaker 1: are like separating. It is not because God didn't ordain,
• 50:36
  Speaker 1: but the unwillingness to get to the root of the
• 50:40
  Speaker 1: the healing that is, Yes, that's that's good. I think
• 50:44
  Speaker 1: you just because I feel like God has been I've
• 50:47
  Speaker 1: been feeling like I just need to change counselors. I've
• 50:49
  Speaker 1: known and said it's like five times or whatever. But
• 50:52
  Speaker 1: I think that's probably my hold up. If I'm honest
• 50:55
  Speaker 1: that I there's healing that is happening, but there's also
• 50:59
  Speaker 1: healing that I haven't tapt in too, because I'm probably
• 51:01
  Speaker 1: fearful and I can see myself because oh, Kenneth, I'm
• 51:08
  Speaker 1: about to tell me I pop off with the best
• 51:10
  Speaker 1: of Jesus like always bad. I'm flying with the mouth.
• 51:14
  Speaker 1: It's bad, like I know it's bad. I have to.
• 51:18
  Speaker 1: I have grown to a point where you you the
• 51:21
  Speaker 1: button is getting higher and higher, but when you reach
• 51:24
  Speaker 1: that button, go in, it's off. Because I'm from what
• 51:29
  Speaker 1: the west side of Birmingham, it comes out effortlessly for me.
• 51:32
  Speaker 1: And so what I grew up and I was seeing
• 51:34
  Speaker 1: and you know a lot of women being independent like
• 51:38
  Speaker 1: I come from that now. My dad raised me, but
• 51:40
  Speaker 1: I was around a lot of independent women and I
• 51:42
  Speaker 1: saw them fight for themselves, you know what I'm saying.
• 51:45
  Speaker 1: And so I'm I'm that's my button like that. When
• 51:51
  Speaker 1: the press that button, it go like that. I don't
• 51:53
  Speaker 1: even want to to be honest, I'm transfer. I don't
• 51:55
  Speaker 1: even want to be like that. I don't want to
• 51:56
  Speaker 1: have a guard. I don't want to fight. I don't
• 51:59
  Speaker 1: want you. I feel like I have to protect myself.
• 52:02
  Speaker 1: I'm being soul transfer right now. I don't want I
• 52:06
  Speaker 1: don't want to do that. I just feel like I
• 52:08
  Speaker 1: have to. I don't feel like I have space enough
• 52:11
  Speaker 1: to just say okay, you can take that, or I
• 52:15
  Speaker 1: trust you to manage that, or you know what I'm saying.
• 52:17
  Speaker 1: I really want to be in that space. But why
• 52:20
  Speaker 1: I don't think it's fair to expect for me to
• 52:22
  Speaker 1: give you that without the commitment. Yeah, I'm in therapy, y'all.
• 52:31
  Speaker 3: But you know what, But actually I would say that
• 52:33
  Speaker 3: that is where deliverance is needed at because I don't know,
• 52:36
  Speaker 3: people look at deliverance as different things, but one form
• 52:40
  Speaker 3: of deliverance is the Lord delivering me, healing me against
• 52:46
  Speaker 3: my will, meaning that once I'm in that mode of deliverance,
• 52:49
  Speaker 3: I have no choice but to change, whether I like
• 52:52
  Speaker 3: it or not. And so that was my form of
• 52:55
  Speaker 3: deliverance because there were some things that I held on
• 52:58
  Speaker 3: too that I didn't want that I didn't want to
• 53:01
  Speaker 3: let go, but I knew if I would have kept
• 53:03
  Speaker 3: kept it, held on to it, I wasn't gonna find nobody.
• 53:08
  Speaker 3: It was not going to be good but no one.
• 53:12
  Speaker 3: So that was one of the things I went through
• 53:15
  Speaker 3: with the deliverance. And also it's some things that you
• 53:19
  Speaker 3: don't know about yourself when you're in deliverance, Like I
• 53:24
  Speaker 3: didn't know this until my dad told me this. He
• 53:26
  Speaker 3: was like, so, you're trying to get married. I was
• 53:29
  Speaker 3: like yeah. He was like, well, you know, the men
• 53:32
  Speaker 3: in our family don't stay married and can't get married.
• 53:36
  Speaker 3: He told you that he told me this, All of
• 53:39
  Speaker 3: this is happening when I'm going through spiritual counseling, Like
• 53:41
  Speaker 3: that's like when you're going through it, like stuff, people
• 53:45
  Speaker 3: just going to be exposing stuff. And I was like,
• 53:49
  Speaker 3: what did you say? It is like, you know people
• 53:52
  Speaker 3: and the men in this family can't stay married or
• 53:55
  Speaker 3: get married. I'm like, I rebuke it. I rebuke that
• 53:59
  Speaker 3: in the name of Jesus. So once he told me that,
• 54:02
  Speaker 3: and once that was exposed, I knew what to pray
• 54:05
  Speaker 3: against because I was always wondering, like why I can't
• 54:10
  Speaker 3: why none of my relationships are successful? Like what is
• 54:14
  Speaker 3: the problem? That was a curse?
• 54:18
  Speaker 1: You just said a whole mouthful. So really what you
• 54:21
  Speaker 1: said is that God brought you the awareness of where
• 54:27
  Speaker 1: the brokenness was and I didn't and you didn't know.
• 54:31
  Speaker 1: And it's so beautiful. How how God will allow us
• 54:34
  Speaker 1: to experience stuff that we need to change in our bloodline.
• 54:38
  Speaker 1: Like even in this season, God recently told me that.
• 54:42
  Speaker 1: He was like, you need to investigate your bloodline, investigating
• 54:48
  Speaker 1: investigate your bloodline. We investigate a lot of things, but
• 54:51
  Speaker 1: because we trust and we're part of it, we were like, oh,
• 54:53
  Speaker 1: it's straight. You know what I'm saying. It's straight. Ain't
• 54:56
  Speaker 1: got it, We ain't got no work to do here.
• 54:57
  Speaker 1: It's straight. But really that's the first place we needed.
• 55:00
  Speaker 1: We are like, why Lord, why am I like this?
• 55:03
  Speaker 1: What your mom was doing? Oh what you see your
• 55:05
  Speaker 1: day to do? Oh your auntie over there? You know,
• 55:08
  Speaker 1: I'm like, it's so much. And when I when I
• 55:12
  Speaker 1: tell you I've started this process, and I'm like, okay,
• 55:16
  Speaker 1: let's take a break for this. I need to digest
• 55:18
  Speaker 1: what I just learned, like so that I not only
• 55:22
  Speaker 1: just counsel cast it down, but give myself a chance
• 55:25
  Speaker 1: to do something different. And so looking at your bloodline
• 55:28
  Speaker 1: and being able to say, okay, this is like divorce
• 55:32
  Speaker 1: on side both sides of my family, Infidelity both sides
• 55:34
  Speaker 1: of my family, like broken, broken marriages. It's like all
• 55:40
  Speaker 1: of that is in both sides. I'm finding out God
• 55:44
  Speaker 1: is like giving me double that, Like, oh, not only
• 55:48
  Speaker 1: was that happening on this side of the family, kids,
• 55:50
  Speaker 1: wasn't happening on this side of the family. It's like,
• 55:53
  Speaker 1: so both of y'all acting up like I ain't got
• 55:55
  Speaker 1: no I'm gonna be like I got a slave dmis,
• 55:59
  Speaker 1: I ain't gonna ever get mad, but God gets. I
• 56:03
  Speaker 1: believe that God has graced us, but that does alread
• 56:06
  Speaker 1: this man has I was finna say. The beautiful thing
• 56:10
  Speaker 1: about it, though, is that the scripture says that deliverance
• 56:15
  Speaker 1: is the children's bread, right, and so if we are
• 56:20
  Speaker 1: some things, you know, he delivers from that we don't,
• 56:22
  Speaker 1: like you said, we don't know about but when you
• 56:24
  Speaker 1: have a heart just to be free and to do better,
• 56:27
  Speaker 1: like he honest, that right, And I'm just thinking about
• 56:31
  Speaker 1: literally May May. Yeah, so in May, so the Lord
• 56:37
  Speaker 1: started to leave me. Let me back in February to
• 56:40
  Speaker 1: do first Friday night prayer, right, And it's not something
• 56:43
  Speaker 1: that I wanted to do because I was very uncomfortable
• 56:45
  Speaker 1: with that. But I was like, all right, and be obediot. Yeah,
• 56:50
  Speaker 1: well April and May and what he and and now
• 56:55
  Speaker 1: I'm sitting here looking at he used. He literally has
• 57:03
  Speaker 1: used my obedience to help me to deliver me. Right.
• 57:07
  Speaker 1: So it started in April when, like I said, praying
• 57:14
  Speaker 1: this prayer thing has not been It's not comfortable for me,
• 57:16
  Speaker 1: but one because I wasn't never really comfortable in my
• 57:19
  Speaker 1: voice like that, right, I'm like, I don't pray like that.
• 57:21
  Speaker 1: I don't pray out loud no da dah. But as
• 57:23
  Speaker 1: I've been obedient, he's been ushering me into spaces that
• 57:29
  Speaker 1: funny enough that I've created, to say, spaces that I'm
• 57:32
  Speaker 1: thinking I'm creating for other people, but I've literally been
• 57:35
  Speaker 1: creating for myself.
• 57:36
  Speaker 3: Wow.
• 57:37
  Speaker 1: Right, And so here we are in April. I've been
• 57:42
  Speaker 1: going live. I had started going live with it right
• 57:46
  Speaker 1: in April. I went live this time on the right page.
• 57:50
  Speaker 1: So the month before I w wasn't live on the
• 57:52
  Speaker 1: wrong page. And I say the wrong page because I
• 57:54
  Speaker 1: created a Facebook page that I was Okay, we're going
• 57:57
  Speaker 1: live on because on the page, if I'm honest, I'm like, oh, yeah,
• 58:02
  Speaker 1: I go live on a bandeau a't nobody on there? Yeah.
• 58:05
  Speaker 1: But the month before I went live on my personal page,
• 58:08
  Speaker 1: which means cause I'm in my head, right in my head,
• 58:11
  Speaker 1: like what people don't think what they're gonna say, I
• 58:13
  Speaker 1: don't say the wrong thing, X, Y and Z. So
• 58:15
  Speaker 1: I didn't know I went live on the wrong page
• 58:16
  Speaker 1: until one of my friends takes me the next day
• 58:20
  Speaker 1: about a word that the young lady had given and said,
• 58:22
  Speaker 1: how she know that she's on that page? Oh my gosh.
• 58:25
  Speaker 1: So I heard the Holy Spirit say, yeah, it's not
• 58:26
  Speaker 1: about you though, like I'm trying to show you that.
• 58:29
  Speaker 1: I'm like, there's some work to be done, but you
• 58:31
  Speaker 1: got to get out of the way. Yeah.
• 58:32
  Speaker 2: Right.
• 58:33
  Speaker 1: So the next month, a young lady the minister shout uncle.
• 58:37
  Speaker 1: She was praying and everybody minding their own business, right,
• 58:39
  Speaker 1: I'm minding my own business right. And I'm sitting there
• 58:43
  Speaker 1: and I literally begin to feel my body. Now I've
• 58:46
  Speaker 1: already like the Lord knows my heart towards him, like
• 58:48
  Speaker 1: it's just it's just to do right, like I want
• 58:50
  Speaker 1: what the God has for me. Right literally, sitting there,
• 58:53
  Speaker 1: ain't nobody doing nothing, she praying whatever, and my body
• 58:57
  Speaker 1: begins to literally go through deliverance on the live stream. Wow,
• 59:01
  Speaker 1: yep on the live string. So here I'm Jessica because
• 59:04
  Speaker 1: I'm thank the Lord. She said, Okay, y'all, thank you
• 59:06
  Speaker 1: so much for doing this for fair. We'll se y'all
• 59:08
  Speaker 1: next month, you know, And I just just you know,
• 59:13
  Speaker 1: continue to be obedient and submit to what he was doing.
• 59:17
  Speaker 1: I don't know, like the Lord don't I'm not like
• 59:20
  Speaker 1: I ain't gonna say deep prevent or anything like that.
• 59:21
  Speaker 1: But he knows me and I need to know and
• 59:24
  Speaker 1: he and a lot of times he doesn't tell me
• 59:26
  Speaker 1: things because he just wants me to be obedient and
• 59:28
  Speaker 1: follow him. Right. So that was April. Now here we
• 59:31
  Speaker 1: come May. At the top of going into the first Friday,
• 59:35
  Speaker 1: I was led to fast and prayers. We're talking about
• 59:37
  Speaker 1: bloodline things. So I've had issues with fibroids, right, Literally
• 59:43
  Speaker 1: I had almost like literally got taken out of here
• 59:45
  Speaker 1: twice from that issue. But also if I look at
• 59:49
  Speaker 1: my bloodline, majority of the women that are in my
• 59:52
  Speaker 1: immediate family have had hysterectomies for issues with their uteruses. Right.
• 59:56
  Speaker 1: So this going into this month, I was led to
• 1:00:00
  Speaker 1: fast and pray specifically for the wounds of my family. Right.
• 1:00:05
  Speaker 1: So I didn't tell Jessica this, right, But also leaning
• 1:00:08
  Speaker 1: into this, I'm like, okay, Holy Spirit, what you wanna do?
• 1:00:10
  Speaker 1: What you wanna do Friday night because we getting ready
• 1:00:12
  Speaker 1: to pray, and I'm begin to hear intimacy. Look he
• 1:00:14
  Speaker 1: sent me up. Now listen, I begin to hear intimacy.
• 1:00:17
  Speaker 1: I'm like, Okay, that's cool. So I was feeling like
• 1:00:20
  Speaker 1: whatever he wanted to do in that space for whoever
• 1:00:23
  Speaker 1: was in there, I didn't want them not to be
• 1:00:25
  Speaker 1: able to receive, because, like I said, not everybody understands
• 1:00:29
  Speaker 1: a lot of spiritual principles, you know what I'm saying.
• 1:00:31
  Speaker 1: And so I'm like, Okay, I won't go live because
• 1:00:33
  Speaker 1: I don't want nobody to be weird about you know, X, Y,
• 1:00:36
  Speaker 1: and Z. The three ladies that had said they were
• 1:00:39
  Speaker 1: coming ended up not being able to come. So it
• 1:00:41
  Speaker 1: ended up literally just being me, Jessica and her little
• 1:00:43
  Speaker 1: sister who had just received salvation the Sunday before. Okay,
• 1:00:47
  Speaker 1: so we in there, like he gave me two songs,
• 1:00:49
  Speaker 1: we worshiped, and we was in our own little space
• 1:00:52
  Speaker 1: or whatever, and I'm praying, and I kept hearing some
• 1:00:56
  Speaker 1: rattling going on back then Inaday in my head, so
• 1:00:58
  Speaker 1: I'm trying to stay, but I'm like, what the heck
• 1:01:01
  Speaker 1: she doing? What's going on? So as I'm finishing praying,
• 1:01:04
  Speaker 1: I turn around and here comes Jessica walking towards me,
• 1:01:07
  Speaker 1: and she's reading something off this book. So now I
• 1:01:11
  Speaker 1: know that as I was praying, the Lord had told
• 1:01:13
  Speaker 1: her to grab something to write with, and she began
• 1:01:16
  Speaker 1: to write what the Lord was speaking, and so she
• 1:01:20
  Speaker 1: thought it was about her until he began to call
• 1:01:21
  Speaker 1: my name, right, so she writing, So as she's speaking
• 1:01:25
  Speaker 1: the stuff to me, you know, you know what happened,
• 1:01:27
  Speaker 1: you know you you know, you just on the ground,
• 1:01:30
  Speaker 1: so nothing else is happening. She she's done, and I
• 1:01:34
  Speaker 1: literally again begin to feel my body literally go through deliverance,
• 1:01:39
  Speaker 1: like and it's nothing that you know. I had, like, Lord,
• 1:01:42
  Speaker 1: I need to go through deliverance. But my heart was like, Lord,
• 1:01:45
  Speaker 1: I don't know what if is there anything in there?
• 1:01:47
  Speaker 1: Like I don't know the things that I don't know,
• 1:01:49
  Speaker 1: like I don't need it, like if it's you know,
• 1:01:52
  Speaker 1: whatever it is, Lord is playing. So obviously he was like, yeah,
• 1:01:54
  Speaker 1: you guess I'm gonna get out of you. Right. But
• 1:01:57
  Speaker 1: what happened during that deliverance was like crazy, right, my sister,
• 1:02:02
  Speaker 1: who I'm so great, I'm grateful, you know that. As
• 1:02:05
  Speaker 1: I also prayed for Kingdom connections, was obedient enough to
• 1:02:09
  Speaker 1: just begin to lean in what the Holy Spirit was
• 1:02:12
  Speaker 1: showing her, and she began to break all break a
• 1:02:17
  Speaker 1: generational bloodline which I believe literally had been the cause
• 1:02:23
  Speaker 1: and the issues of a lot of the issues with
• 1:02:27
  Speaker 1: female wounds. The woman's life, that's where you give life
• 1:02:30
  Speaker 1: from you know what I'm saying, And I was like,
• 1:02:33
  Speaker 1: I already know there's a lot of things that I'm
• 1:02:34
  Speaker 1: doing that is breaking things off of my family. And
• 1:02:37
  Speaker 1: I refused, like I almost literally, when I tell you,
• 1:02:40
  Speaker 1: almost went out of here. Like I literally was laying
• 1:02:42
  Speaker 1: on the hospital bed because I was bleeding internally from
• 1:02:44
  Speaker 1: my uterus and I was like, there's no way. So
• 1:02:47
  Speaker 1: when I woke up from that surgery, I was like, Lord,
• 1:02:50
  Speaker 1: whatever it is, I don't know. I don't know what
• 1:02:52
  Speaker 1: you got me to do, but I'm going to do it.
• 1:02:54
  Speaker 1: And So when we talk about the importance of deliverance,
• 1:02:58
  Speaker 1: like there's so much stuff like situations that we've gone
• 1:03:01
  Speaker 1: through in life. You know, we've encountered people date people
• 1:03:04
  Speaker 1: that we don't know, like you know, their background and
• 1:03:06
  Speaker 1: stuff like that, and so in those spirits transfer. So
• 1:03:09
  Speaker 1: it's just so important that we just keep an open
• 1:03:11
  Speaker 1: heart to you know, the things of God and breaking
• 1:03:16
  Speaker 1: that stuff off of there, because that's literally what happens.
• 1:03:18
  Speaker 1: You got two people who've gone through life, who's gone
• 1:03:22
  Speaker 1: through trauma, and now they're trying to come together and
• 1:03:24
  Speaker 1: do life together and not and not even open to growing.
• 1:03:28
  Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying, and trying to do better.
• 1:03:29
  Speaker 1: So y'all talk. I said all that to say, y'all
• 1:03:31
  Speaker 1: talking good? All right, No you, I'm glad you brought
• 1:03:35
  Speaker 1: that up because like that's a tangible, like he said,
• 1:03:39
  Speaker 1: heart posture, Like once we go open, we give God
• 1:03:43
  Speaker 1: room to open, like come into spaces. He doesn't. He
• 1:03:50
  Speaker 1: can't come into closed spaces. So when we open our hearts,
• 1:03:54
  Speaker 1: he says, Okay, it's open. Now I can get Yeah,
• 1:03:57
  Speaker 1: that's literally what deliverance is. We can make it all
• 1:04:00
  Speaker 1: spiritual whatever he says, Oh you're open, I can get it.
• 1:04:04
  Speaker 3: I can get it.
• 1:04:04
  Speaker 1: And it's it's one thing that I saw on Facebook
• 1:04:07
  Speaker 1: and there's some there's certain topics that's going around and
• 1:04:10
  Speaker 1: this person was asked, hey, if God told you to
• 1:04:13
  Speaker 1: remove this out of your life with you, the response
• 1:04:18
  Speaker 1: of the Man of God was, he wouldn't ask me
• 1:04:22
  Speaker 1: that what you mean he want He wouldn't ask you that.
• 1:04:27
  Speaker 1: That's dangerous. That doesn't give God the room to deliver.
• 1:04:32
  Speaker 1: That doesn't give even God room to bless because if
• 1:04:35
  Speaker 1: I'm closed off, I can't receive nor can I be delivered.
• 1:04:42
  Speaker 1: So it's I think you bring up a great, great
• 1:04:45
  Speaker 1: point of focusing on the healing. And then the husband
• 1:04:48
  Speaker 1: comes because you because we always talked about you know,
• 1:04:54
  Speaker 1: the man. You know, we have to be we have
• 1:04:57
  Speaker 1: to be the blessing too, like we want him to
• 1:04:58
  Speaker 1: come with all the things, you know what I'm saying,
• 1:05:01
  Speaker 1: But we also have to be in the same heart
• 1:05:02
  Speaker 1: posture to be a blessing to him, because at the
• 1:05:04
  Speaker 1: end of the day, we all are called to something
• 1:05:07
  Speaker 1: like to do something or to be something X, Y
• 1:05:09
  Speaker 1: and z. But can you do that in your in
• 1:05:13
  Speaker 1: your wholeness?
• 1:05:14
  Speaker 3: Yeah?
• 1:05:14
  Speaker 1: Yeah, Like can we do that in our wholeness though
• 1:05:17
  Speaker 1: you know or not?
• 1:05:20
  Speaker 3: Yeah? And the scripture also says a man that finds
• 1:05:23
  Speaker 3: a wife finds favor in the sight of the Lord.
• 1:05:26
  Speaker 3: I want my favor to be right, listen. I want
• 1:05:30
  Speaker 3: my favor to be right. So whatever you gotta do
• 1:05:32
  Speaker 3: to get yourself together before I come into your life,
• 1:05:35
  Speaker 3: I need you to do it before. That's good.
• 1:05:37
  Speaker 1: That's real good. I need my favorite to be right
• 1:05:42
  Speaker 1: a little bit. Kenneth. I really appreciate you for coming.
• 1:05:46
  Speaker 1: He was, Yeah, he was so nervous, he was. But
• 1:05:48
  Speaker 1: that's probably why you got this. But I will yeah,
• 1:05:51
  Speaker 1: we will say that. One of the things I appreciate
• 1:05:54
  Speaker 1: about Kenneth. I want to tell you this on camera. Man,
• 1:05:57
  Speaker 1: you came up to us when we just start discussing,
• 1:06:00
  Speaker 1: know you been on the pod. You came up to
• 1:06:03
  Speaker 1: me in desiree h.
• 1:06:04
  Speaker 3: I think it was just me.
• 1:06:05
  Speaker 1: I don't know, and you spoke. You spoke to my
• 1:06:09
  Speaker 1: heart man, like you was like first first before you
• 1:06:12
  Speaker 1: did that, you shared a post saying at three am
• 1:06:16
  Speaker 1: you were watching just as the podcast, and I was like, what,
• 1:06:21
  Speaker 1: Like he's watching the show, Like I'm so surprised and
• 1:06:24
  Speaker 1: obliviate to people that's watching. I just feel like I
• 1:06:27
  Speaker 1: don't know that there's an insecurity there where support lines
• 1:06:30
  Speaker 1: and to know that I know who you are. And
• 1:06:32
  Speaker 1: he was like, yeah, I watched all the time. And
• 1:06:35
  Speaker 1: then I don't know if y'all heard me before when
• 1:06:37
  Speaker 1: I said somebody called us out about not singing the
• 1:06:40
  Speaker 1: Desert Ray song, it was Kenneth. And I didn't even
• 1:06:44
  Speaker 1: know somebody was paying attention like that, Like I didn't
• 1:06:46
  Speaker 1: even know somebody was watching long enough to capture or
• 1:06:49
  Speaker 1: embody the essence of this podcast. And so you just
• 1:06:54
  Speaker 1: don't know. I literally I tell people that all the time,
• 1:06:58
  Speaker 1: like I gotta keep going because he was the one
• 1:07:00
  Speaker 1: that's confirmed when we were doubting, Like, oh, I'm saying
• 1:07:04
  Speaker 1: I was doubting. I was doubting is this working? Does
• 1:07:07
  Speaker 1: it make sense? Am I reaching the audience? And like,
• 1:07:12
  Speaker 1: I just had a lot of questions because you know,
• 1:07:14
  Speaker 1: people don't the likes, comings and subscribes are not just
• 1:07:19
  Speaker 1: to be able to say opinion, but if you want
• 1:07:21
  Speaker 1: something to keep going, that is probably this fuel to
• 1:07:24
  Speaker 1: help people keep going and doing what they need to do.
• 1:07:27
  Speaker 1: I'm not asking it just because you know I need
• 1:07:29
  Speaker 1: it for my health, but it is very encouraging to
• 1:07:33
  Speaker 1: get that. And then when you Tube recognize, hey I
• 1:07:36
  Speaker 1: like this or whatever platform you're listening on, when you're
• 1:07:40
  Speaker 1: coming and when you're liking, when you're subscribing, and you're
• 1:07:43
  Speaker 1: supporting in a free manner. The analytics does what the
• 1:07:46
  Speaker 1: analytics need to do, and they pay me for it.
• 1:07:51
  Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying, they pay us for And
• 1:07:53
  Speaker 1: so you just saying that was priceless to me. And
• 1:07:57
  Speaker 1: I just want to thank you for just continues to supports.
• 1:07:59
  Speaker 1: So when I tell y'all with the listeners, hey, if
• 1:08:02
  Speaker 1: you want to be on here, let me know, I
• 1:08:04
  Speaker 1: literally mean it, Like if it don't make sense. It
• 1:08:06
  Speaker 1: just won't make sense, but it made sense for you
• 1:08:08
  Speaker 1: to be here, and so I'm grateful that you said yes.
• 1:08:11
  Speaker 1: I'm grateful that you went from a supporter to a speaker.
• 1:08:14
  Speaker 1: Basically you went from watching on YouTube to being watched,
• 1:08:19
  Speaker 1: and so I just really excited for what God is
• 1:08:22
  Speaker 1: doing with you. I do expect you to come back again.
• 1:08:26
  Speaker 3: I'm ready come back again, just as.
• 1:08:29
  Speaker 1: You continue to grow in new projects that you come into.
• 1:08:33
  Speaker 1: And so since you know that you know the podcast,
• 1:08:36
  Speaker 1: you know this is what we do, is that we
• 1:08:38
  Speaker 1: give you opportunities. If anything was missed or left unsaid
• 1:08:43
  Speaker 1: that you really had on your heart that you brought
• 1:08:45
  Speaker 1: into this place, I would want to give you opportunity
• 1:08:48
  Speaker 1: to give your final thoughts and your last word to
• 1:08:50
  Speaker 1: the people before we close out.
• 1:08:53
  Speaker 3: First of all, I just want to say I'm honored
• 1:08:55
  Speaker 3: to be on this platform. Like yes, I was watching
• 1:09:00
  Speaker 3: you all many miles away Houston, Texas, and a group
• 1:09:05
  Speaker 3: of us would watch you all, and so it's just
• 1:09:08
  Speaker 3: truly a blessing to just be sitting here because even
• 1:09:12
  Speaker 3: during those times when we were watching in Houston, Texas,
• 1:09:15
  Speaker 3: I was like, I want to be on there, I
• 1:09:18
  Speaker 3: want to be on the I want to be and
• 1:09:22
  Speaker 3: I guess, hey, I watched y'all so much. I'm finally here. Yes,
• 1:09:26
  Speaker 3: But and even just to encourage you about the followers
• 1:09:30
  Speaker 3: and the subscribers, I had been watching you and I
• 1:09:34
  Speaker 3: wasn't even subscribed. What I'm like, this is dumb. So
• 1:09:40
  Speaker 3: I'm sure there's probably other dummies out there like me
• 1:09:43
  Speaker 3: that's probably type in. I was typing in Justica smith podcast.
• 1:09:48
  Speaker 3: I'm like, should I type in Justica Smith's podcast or
• 1:09:51
  Speaker 3: just as I was doing that every time to just watch,
• 1:09:55
  Speaker 3: but I wasn't subscribe, and so you know, some people
• 1:09:57
  Speaker 3: are dumb like me to to be watching stuff and
• 1:10:01
  Speaker 3: not subscribe. But I finally did subscribe. But even just
• 1:10:04
  Speaker 3: to encourage you and the viewers. It ain't even about
• 1:10:09
  Speaker 3: the subscribers and the followers, because you just don't even
• 1:10:13
  Speaker 3: know who's watching. You don't even know who's watching. So
• 1:10:17
  Speaker 3: that's that's all I want to say. I'm just really
• 1:10:19
  Speaker 3: honored to be here. And I'll be like, y'all have
• 1:10:22
  Speaker 3: all the good people, all the good people. What I
• 1:10:26
  Speaker 3: look like coming on this show. I mean, even as
• 1:10:29
  Speaker 3: I walked in the door, I'm like, oh, them are
• 1:10:33
  Speaker 3: the most known as the youngest couple.
• 1:10:39
  Speaker 1: Here. Shout out to.
• 1:10:42
  Speaker 3: Courtney Miller, Courtney Miller and Jet Yeah, so yeah, shout
• 1:10:48
  Speaker 3: out to them. But yeah, I'm just honored to be here,
• 1:10:50
  Speaker 3: thank y'all.
• 1:10:51
  Speaker 1: Yeah, we like it because we want we want some
• 1:10:54
  Speaker 1: more menses on hill because we get we get a
• 1:10:57
  Speaker 1: lot of women's is we want some menses?
• 1:11:00
  Speaker 3: Yeah, that's.
• 1:11:02
  Speaker 1: I think this we said we need to be said,
• 1:11:07
  Speaker 1: not a ben editions made.
• 1:11:08
  Speaker 3: The Lord.
• 1:11:10
  Speaker 1: Between me and me while we're absent one from another
• 1:11:16
  Speaker 1: with his towel, I.
• 1:11:19
  Speaker 3: Didn't even have to use it.
• 1:11:20
  Speaker 1: You didn't because it wasn't like this. I want you
• 1:11:22
  Speaker 1: to know. This is this is, this is the church,
• 1:11:24
  Speaker 1: But ain't the church? Two or three together, that's the scripture,
• 1:11:27
  Speaker 1: but this ain't there.
• 1:11:32
  Speaker 3: I was, yeah, I was about to bring my Bible
• 1:11:33
  Speaker 3: in here too. I didn't know. I didn't know what
• 1:11:35
  Speaker 3: to do.
• 1:11:35
  Speaker 1: Okay, So we're finna have a conversation after this, y'all.
• 1:11:39
  Speaker 3: But and his level, how.
• 1:11:46
  Speaker 1: Big is you got?
• 1:11:48
  Speaker 3: You got the old bath.
• 1:11:49
  Speaker 1: You ain't great and it got a little wrinkle, lady,
• 1:11:51
  Speaker 1: because you're using so much. You got highlighters in and
• 1:11:54
  Speaker 1: all that. The ones that look on the side. Do
• 1:11:58
  Speaker 1: you have the Bible that got the yep, help somebody grandmama,
• 1:12:06
  Speaker 1: somebody Grandma raised you, shouts Impress City Viola. Yes she
• 1:12:14
  Speaker 1: raised you. Okay, y'all, I hope you guys had as
• 1:12:19
  Speaker 1: much fun as we had. Thank you getting Kenneth Desiree.
• 1:12:22
  Speaker 1: Shout out to you, Felicia, Thank you for being here.
• 1:12:24
  Speaker 1: You know, she looking cute. And then y'all gon see
• 1:12:26
  Speaker 1: your one day okay, but not today, okay, until next time,
• 1:12:30
  Speaker 1: until next week. We remember life to be much more
• 1:12:33
  Speaker 1: simple if you just asked see y'all later. Thank you
• 1:12:42
  Speaker 1: for tuning in to this week's episode. Since you've made
• 1:12:45
  Speaker 1: it this far, you might as well connect with us
• 1:12:48
  Speaker 1: on all social media platforms at d Jessica S. Smith.
• 1:12:52
  Speaker 1: I know I won't see you back until next week,
• 1:12:55
  Speaker 1: but until then, remember to love always yourself and always think.
• 1:13:02
  Speaker 2: Thank God for one another day. Hey, Hey, I know
• 1:13:07
  Speaker 2: we could be another way. Hey, pray thank God for
• 1:13:13
  Speaker 2: another day. Hey Hey, I'm just thankful another day. Hey
• 1:13:22
  Speaker 2: Hey another day? Oh another day wise, another day to
• 1:13:26
  Speaker 2: get it right, another day to rise up, another day
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  Speaker 2: living another day we loved ones. I always remember hold
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  Speaker 2: it down for a ball one yeh