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What Am I Trying To build? · Off Track With Brooke

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Hello everybody, and welcome to my first episode of my rebranded
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podcast Off Track with Brooke. So if you've been keeping up
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with my racing or I don't know anything to do in my life, you
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will know that a lot has been going on behind the scenes and
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with racing as well. So I quite like to have this
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space to, I don't know, I've got my YouTube videos, which are
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more formal, I suppose I could say, but this is kind of more
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like a chatty, I don't know, more behind the scenes of my
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actual life. So much has changed recently.
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And I've got my iPad here because I've got notes because
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basically if you don't know me, I have to have notes because I
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talk a lot and I get very sidetracked very easily.
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So I've got some little notes here which I'm going to talk
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from so I don't get too sidetracked.
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But a lot has been going on in my life.
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So first of all, there's all the kind of, I would say uproar,
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like all the all the big things have been going on with racing.
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I feel like that my outreach with my YouTube and my Facebook
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has literally like blown up in the past three months, I want to
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say, which is insane. And I am so, so grateful.
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You might have seen my BBC interview on the TV and yeah,
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I've been in like a few newspapers and I'm just so, so
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grateful for people that actually want to talk to me and
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want to know about my story and actually getting stock car
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racing out there. And anyway, as well as that, I
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also quit my full time apprenticeship, which is insane.
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I'll go into a bit more detail about that.
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But I quit my job, as you may know.
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I'm trying to build my brand, my business, Brook Kits and Racing.
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As I said, I've had loads of opportunities come up, which I'm
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so, so grateful for. And yeah, there is just so much
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going on right now, which I have to talk to you all about.
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So let us rewind to the old the old podcast that I had, which
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the episodes you can still see, I think I only need about 3,
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maybe 4, but I think 3 episodes with my old podcast.
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So my old podcast on here was called Don't forget this.
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So when I first started, well, I've always known that I like
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talking and when I first started, another big thing close
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to my heart is mental health and just general well-being really
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and talking about things that a lot of people don't don't really
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like talking about or kind of maybe feel scared to talk about.
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And I thought, well, since I've been getting the kind of
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recognition over on YouTube and yeah, people said I'd know my
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name a bit more. I thought, you know what, I'm
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going to start my own podcast and talk about mental health and
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things like that because not a lot of people talk about it.
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And it's just so, so important because the more we talk about
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it, the more normalised it will become.
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So that was my old podcast. I did a few episodes.
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Most of my episodes were kind of about me dealing with grief and
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loss. They're still available.
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You can still listen to them. But now I've changed my podcast.
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So this podcast is now called Off Track with Brooke.
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I don't know if you can see the little the little picture up
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here that I've got. So basically what this is all
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about now is my kind of related more to my racing.
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So I thought that my brand BKR Brook kits and racing the
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podcast that I had before didn't really align with what I was
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doing and kind of seem like something completely separate
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when I wanted people to know about it kind of all as one and
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it all be kind of to do with the same thing sort of thing.
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So I will still definitely 100% there is so much that there's so
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many different topics I have to talk to you all about still to
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do with mental health and well-being.
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You know, it's not just going to be the type of podcast now that
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people think I'm going to get like other races on it and
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things like that, because that's more of what I'd make a whole
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YouTube video on. This podcast is more like the
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behind the scenes of my life, life and talking about things
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that I don't think that other people would necessarily talk
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about, which I want to talk about because they should be
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talked about basically. But there is so much more of
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that to come, right? So let's get back onto the topic
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of the fact that I quit my job. This is a big thing which I
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didn't know if I wanted to share actually online because as much
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as I do talk about my life a lot online, it's one of them things
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that I didn't really know if I did want to talk about.
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Because I, I suppose some things, you know, you keep to
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yourself and other things you talk about where everyone can
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listen to them and know about them.
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So anyway, I am going to talk about it because I think it's
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very important to tell you all because at the end of the day,
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everyone that watches what I do watches my podcast episodes,
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watches my YouTube videos. You know, that is the viewers is
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how I am gaining my recognition, gaining.
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You know, none of it will be possible without every single
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person that watches or listens or interacts comments,
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subscribes to my YouTube channel, follows my podcast.
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None of it will be possible without you lot.
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So I want to kind of share with you what's going on in my life
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and what I'm trying to build and what I'm doing to try and get
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there. So I quit my job basically.
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Let's go back to the beginning. I had a mechanic's
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apprenticeship when I was 16. I came straight out of school,
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went into a mechanic's apprenticeship.
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I did that for about a year. I did the mechanic's
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apprenticeship and to be honest, it was OK.
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I've gained a lot of valuable skills that I didn't have before
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because obviously I didn't know a lot about Rd cars.
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I am a stock car girl and I didn't, I didn't know a lot
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about Rd cars. So I, I did gain some really
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valuable skills, which I'm really, really grateful for.
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But the big dream then was to have my own garage and do all
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this. Like maybe, maybe have like
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it'll be like pink themed because I don't know, I just
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love the colour pink. Look at my little sign that's
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pink up there. I love it.
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But yeah, that was kind of the dream.
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And as I kept going in the mechanics apprenticeship, I
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thought, Nah, to be honest, no, I'm not.
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I am not built for this life. I am not spending the rest of my
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life in a garage or because for me to start my own car garage,
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it would have had to have taken so many years of working in a
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garage with. And I did get along with some of
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the people, but others and then the small minority of them I
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didn't really get along with, to be honest.
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And I thought there is no way that I'm going to spend so many
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more years of my life in this sort of environment.
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No, because to be honest, when I worked there, pretty much all of
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them told me about how I should leave and get out of mechanics
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as quick as I could. And yeah, yeah, I didn't want
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that, to be honest. I'm not no, not interested.
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So anyway, at the end of kind of when I was thinking of leaving
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that job, I thought to myself, I just want to like speak as a
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job. I love talking, as you can tell.
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And I don't know, I just wanted people to interview me.
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But it literally be like my whole entire job that I get
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paid. But then I thought, I'm not
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really going to get paid to be interviewed.
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I mean, like maybe there's some opportunities that could come in
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the future, but I couldn't make that my whole job.
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So then I started to have a bit more of a thing.
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And I'm a very, very impulsive person and started to have a bit
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more of a thing. And I thought, you know what?
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Nobody is going to know who I am until I get myself out there.
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So I started my own YouTube channel.
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And literally within, I want to say 48 hours of me thinking
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about having a YouTube channel, I literally started it pretty
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much straight away. Went to the yard, balanced my
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phone, a bin Bosch done. Like my YouTube video.
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I sat on the sofa in my living room and edited it and posted it
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straight away. Yeah, very, very impulsive
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person. And that's what I've been doing.
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And basically while when I quit my mechanics apprenticeship, I
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thought, right, I need another job and I need something that
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potentially might help me a bit with the life I'm trying to
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build because I didn't know exactly where I was going yet.
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I just had a dream and was trying to navigate how I could
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make it happen. I didn't really know exactly
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what the dream looked like. I just, I don't know.
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I just was just taking everyday how it came.
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So I thought, right, I will go into a business administration
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apprenticeship. Looking back, that is so stupid.
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I don't know why I did that. I'm a very bubbly, loud, very
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energetic person and I don't know why I thought going and
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sitting in an office was the life for me because I can tell
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you now that that was probably the worst thing I have ever
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done. There is no sugar coat in there.
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The worst thing. Why I thought that was a good
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idea, I have no clue. So I did actually do that for a
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year. I was doing a business
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administration apprenticeship and I did like the course, but
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the actual job itself? No, Oh no.
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And the longer that I kept obviously my, I started that in
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September last year and that was when I properly started doing my
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YouTube. You know, since around October,
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November time last year, I have consistently posted a YouTube
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video every single week and not missed a single week.
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And now as you know, I'm posting or may know, I'm now posting 2
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YouTube videos a week. So I have been very consistent
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with that. I'm very set on the fact that I
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don't want to let people down and I need to stay consistent,
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obviously. So that was very hard.
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And that is like a whole nother like podcast episode of how
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difficult and how much how much I really actually struggled with
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that, having that job and doing all of that.
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So you know, go back to about when did I leave now?
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I left at the very beginning of September, so we're in the
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middle of October now. So call it a month ago, call it
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a month ago because I went to Benidorm at the start of
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September. A month ago I left my job and I
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have never looked back since. And that is another thing that I
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could do a whole episode on actually, when you want
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something so bad and taking the jump and just doing it.
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It took a lot of courage. And I have never, ever been so
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terrified in my life to quit a job because I had essentially I
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had no necessarily a backup plan.
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You know, I had no cushion behind me with that big extra
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income. I mean, I think pretty much
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everybody knows apprenticeship wages you can search up online.
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What is it like 8 LB an hour? Like I had no cushion behind me
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to be consistently giving me that £8 an hour working 40 hours
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a week. So what was it like 300 and
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something pound a week? There was, there's no saying
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that I'm going to get that every week and I'm not going to lie,
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I'm not. And it was a very big and scary
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jump for me to do that. So I decided to quit the job and
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I have quit it and I haven't looked back.
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It is very is very scary, but this is what it's this is what
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it takes for me to try and build the future that I want because
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ultimately I could not do that with the life that I was living.
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And pretty much nobody, there is a small minority, but pretty
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much nobody was very confident, I say, in the fact that I was
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quitting my job. And it took a lot of thought.
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I've been thinking about it since the start of this year and
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never actually took the jump and did it.
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And I did. But I will do a whole nother
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episode on kind of navigating all of that.
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So yeah, that is a big crazy thing that I have done this
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year. Probably actually the scariest
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thing. So anyway, as you know, I'm
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trying to build my brand. I am now posting more on
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YouTube, more on TikTok, more on Facebook.
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Basically what I'm trying to do right now is build myself up to
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try get the life that I want because I have got a dream of
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where I want to be and I'll explain what the dream is in a
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second. I have got a dream of where I
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want to be. And you might actually think
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this is crazy because I am 18 years old and I kind of forget
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that sometimes how young I actually am, that I have got a
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dream and it would have to go horribly wrong for me to not
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push to get to the place where I want to be.
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I want it so, so bad and I want to do everything to try and make
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sure that I get there and it is difficult.
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So basically what that end goal looks like or what it looks like
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to me right now, I've not got it all figured out yet, that is
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definitely for sure. But obviously I want to do all
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of my YouTube, my Instagram, TikTok, all my social media
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stuff. Basically.
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I don't want to be a full time content creator, but I want that
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to be quite a big thing on what I do because I enjoy doing it.
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And I was having to think about this the other day and I
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thought, you know, what, if I actually didn't get paid and was
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still doing all the social media stuff, but I was not getting
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paid to do it, I knew it wasn't my thing.
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Would I still be doing it, if anybody's actually wondering?
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And yeah, I would actually still do it because I think it's so
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nice. Not probably not all the stuff
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I'm doing right now, but I would still definitely keep doing the
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YouTube just a little bit here and there when I had time
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because I think it's so important to promote the sport
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that I love and what everybody loves and it needs that outreach
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on social media. But anyway, that's been getting
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sidetracked. I don't want to be a full time
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content creator, but I want it to be a really big thing of what
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I'm doing. So brand deals, you know, and
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just doing the general being monetized on social media.
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I love doing it. And I never thought that I'd
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actually say that because when I thought about what I wanted to
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do, being a content sort of creator was never one of them
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things. But actually I do really love
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it. And and yeah, I like talking the
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anyway, did you know I like talking?
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Because I do keep mentioning it a lot.
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So, you know, having brand deals is a big one.
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And that is something I'm still trying to work on.
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But no brands necessarily want to work with you if you've not
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got the following behind you and people don't know who you are.
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But I really hope that maybe soon some brands will like come
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forward. And basically if you don't know
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what that means, basically kind of brands pay you to promote
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their stuff. And I feel like there's some
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really exciting opportunities that I could have with brands
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with the sort of content that I do create.
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So I'm kind of saying that because if there is anybody
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watching this, then get in touch with me because that is
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something I really want to do. And that is kind of holding me
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back right now because that's or not holding me back.
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But that is somewhere where I'm trying to be at the moment,
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which I'm not there yet, but I'm trying anyway.
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So that's the sort of that's a sort of dream in the content
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creation aspect, but it doesn't stop there.
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So another big thing that I want to do, which I'm also trying to
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figure out at the moment is having talks going, having
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talks, going to places, going to events, going to schools, going
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to going to different places and doing talks at these events.
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I've already done a few. They're not obviously paid
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talks. I just went.
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I've been to a few different events where I go and I speak in
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front of a crowd. The biggest one that I've ever
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done is I went to, I've actually been to Silverstone twice and
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talked, but the second one was planned.
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The first one wasn't. The second one was planned and
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that was in front of year 8 and year nine students at one of the
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Silverstone schools. And there was a lot, there was a
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lot of students there, and I've never spoke in front of such a
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massive crowd before. There's obviously adults there
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as well, but that was crazy. It wasn't just me.
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But basically what I want to do is I want people hopefully to
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pay me to go and speak at their events.
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And I say that right now because I'm not trying to be necessarily
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too professional because this is what the podcast is all about.
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Like, this is like unfiltered my life.
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And that is still something I'm working on right now.
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I'm still working on kind of what exactly it is because I
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need to have like a package of me like so these are the things
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that I can speak about, you know, choose or you can choose
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what you want me to necessarily focus that on and I can do that.
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I'm still figuring that bit out. But anyway, hopefully once
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that's all figured out and hopefully I can actually secure
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some like talks and going into places and doing these talks.
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And the main goal is to like be inspiring.
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You know, I could talk about how like having the confidence to,
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you know, do all of this or like when you think something and
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like when you believe something, like there's just so much I
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could talk about in the kind of topic of like, sort of like
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chasing your dreams. And yeah, obviously I've not got
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it all figured out yet. I wouldn't class myself as being
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successful. So I can't really be like, and
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this is how I went from this to this to being successful because
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the thing that's holding me back is just outreach.
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People knowing who I am, people wanting to listen to me, people
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wanting to speak to me, people wanting to collaborate with me.
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That is something that is holding me back.
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And I've had a few. But not a lot and not on the
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scale that I want. But you're not just going to get
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that overnight and you've got to push for it.
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So that is that's another thing that I want to do.
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I also want to potentially write a book in the future.
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That's crazy. But I'm not going to say what I
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want that I'm going to write the book on.
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But I think if people put some puzzle pieces together, you
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could probably imagine what the books about obviously what it
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would be to do with motorsport, but I'll let people guess that
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if they want to. But that's another thing I want
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to do. And and yeah, I understand that
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with like the content creation aspect of it.
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Like, you know, say if I did do content creation as like a full
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time, like that ended up being like my full time job, I
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certainly wouldn't be complaining about it.
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But the scale of like how popular you've got to be to do
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that is literally insane. And I don't think that, I don't
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know, it would be very, very difficult to me to get to that
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point. And if I ever did, then that'll
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be amazing. But that's not the end goal that
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I'm pushing for. But if it did happen, then that
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would be pretty cool. But it's more about like doing
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the talks as well that I really, really like.
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You know, I love this like little space I have.
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I've created this sort of room by myself.
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Bit of a side note, but a few months ago, or was it like at
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the start of the year Now, when I first did this room, I
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remember coming in here, shutting the door, putting
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something up against the door and rearranging this whole room.
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And yeah, my parents didn't know about it until they walked in.
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And I've changed it a lot more now.
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So it's got like all of my stuff in it.
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And if you become up to me, it tracks and give me like little
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pictures or I don't know, I'll have to, I'll have to do like a
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full tour or something. It's not really a lot of a tour.
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But if people give me little, little gifts and things like
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that, I always put them or most of them in here because I don't
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know. It's nice to just look at things
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that people have gone out of their way to make for me anyway.
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So as I say, I am only 18 and there is a lot that I want to
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build. There's a lot that I want to do
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and is crazy and some people might think that it does sound
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absolutely ridiculous and insane, and to be honest, it
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does. It sounds insane for me.
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How I'm going to get there, I don't know.
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And the bit that's scary is that I don't know if I am going to
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get there. There's nothing telling me that
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I am. I am just living on the hope and
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the determination that hopefully I will get there one day.
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And I had this dream when I was 16.
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I'm now 18, only two years on and I have.
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And once I figured out how I'm going to try and make this work,
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I've not looked back. And as I say, I'll do everything
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to try and make this work, but I am just pushing content out
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there on social media for people to know my name.
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If anyone actually has any tips on what else they think I could
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be doing, then that would be really, really nice.
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And yeah, I've just got a dream. I'm an 18 year old girl and I
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will not stop until I get there. And if it actually got really
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bad and I don't get there, then I'm not really sure what I'm
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going to do because I don't really have a backup plan
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because this is how determined I am to do what I want to do.
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And yeah, hopefully people appreciate and like to see what
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I'm doing and maybe are even inspired by listening to this
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because that's also what this podcast is about, being
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inspired. And, and yeah, it's just a
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crazy, crazy whirlwind of a journey right now.
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So that's basically where I'm up to right now.
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I quit my job. I'm trying to build a brand.
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I it has my racing and my social media have blown up a little
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bit. Not on like a big scale, but
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like on a, on a little sort of scale, which is insane.
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And I'm so, so grateful. There is a long way to go yet.
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There is a long way to go, but as I say, I'm determined to make
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it work. But that is probably enough of
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me talking right now. As I say, this episode is more
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like where I'm up to in my life, what's going on, Kind of a more
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behind the scenes of what I'm trying to create and telling you
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all. Because at the end of the day,
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like I said, you guys that watch and interact are the reason why
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I can keep doing what I'm doing. And the more outreach and
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publicity I get is really good for me at the moment.
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Literally any publicity is good publicity and that is the truth.
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But that is what I'm trying to build, as I say, with kind of
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how the mental health sort of well-being side of it.
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I am not getting rid of that. But not a chance.
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Like there is so much that I have to talk about with you all
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to do with that. Yeah, so, so much that I will
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talk about. But that is kind of in my other
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episodes. So where I'm up to right now is
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I'm hoping to do an episode every week.
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So I've got 2 YouTube videos that come out a week, and then I
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also want to do a podcast episode every Wednesday, 7:00
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PM. That's when this one will be
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coming out. And that's what I'm going to try
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and do for the coming weeks until anything changes really.
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So that's kind of the plan. That's what I'm going to do.
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And yeah, I hope you all kind of enjoy this sort of like behind
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the scenes sort of, I don't know, my life and stuff like
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that. There is definitely so, so much
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more to come with this, but that's just kind of where my
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life's up to right now, what I'm trying to build.
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And yeah, just a behind the scenes of how it's all going
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right now. So thank you all so much for
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watching my first kind of Rebranded podcast episode.
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I really, really hope you've enjoyed listening.
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And yeah, I will be back next week for my next podcast
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episode. And yeah, if you like listening
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to this sort of stuff, please follow my Spotify account.
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Like this episode, interact with it because it helps.
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It really, really does. The consistent help by people
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literally means so, so much to me.
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So if you could do that, that would be amazing.
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But thank you all so, so much for listening.
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Hopefully this will be out on YouTube as well.
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That's what I'm going to try plan to do, Do it on Spotify, on
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YouTube, because people have said they want to see it on
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YouTube. So I'm going to get the gist of
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how that all works. And yeah, as I say, thank you
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all so much for listening. And I'll see you all next
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Wednesday for my next podcast episode on Off Track with
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Brooke.