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327. Embracing Discomfort: Kirsten Ferguson On Running Her First Marathon, Overcoming Injury & Stepping Into Your Power · Hurdle with Emily Abbate

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  Speaker 1: I knew, no matter what, I was going to get
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  Speaker 1: to the finish line because my daughters were at the
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  Speaker 1: finish line.
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  Speaker 2: Hey, hey, EMILYA Bodi. Here.
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  Speaker 3: You are listening to episode three hundred and twenty seven
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  Speaker 3: of Hurdle, a wellness focused podcast where I talk to
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  Speaker 3: inspirational people about everything from their highest ties and toughest
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  Speaker 3: moments to essential tips on how to live a healthier, hopier,
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  Speaker 3: more motivated life. We all go through our fair share
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  Speaker 3: of hurdles. My goal through these discussions is to empower
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  Speaker 3: you to better navigate yours and move with intention so
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  Speaker 3: that you can stride towards your own big potential and of.
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  Speaker 2: Course have some fun along the way.
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  Speaker 3: For episode three twenty seven, I am bringing in my
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  Speaker 3: girl New York City Marathon Peloton instructor Kirsten Ferguson. It
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  Speaker 3: was a no brainer for me the second that I
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  Speaker 3: knew that Kirsten was running the marathon, I said, you
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  Speaker 3: know what We're doing the Tuesday after November three, the
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  Speaker 3: first Sunday in November in New York City. We are
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  Speaker 3: sitting down and we are diving into everything, and oh
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  Speaker 3: my gosh, this conversation delivers. Kirsten is telling me not
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  Speaker 3: only about the journey to the marathon starting line from
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  Speaker 3: the perspective of the last sixteen weeks in this training cycle,
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  Speaker 3: but also we're diving into the journey holistically. Kirsten went
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  Speaker 3: through a really gnarly injury, a major setback that put
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  Speaker 3: her marathon journey on pause for a while. She shares
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  Speaker 3: about her hip surgery and how there were so many
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  Speaker 3: moments on the road to recovery that she really truly struggled.
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  Speaker 3: Kirsten shares her excitement about every weekend running her longest
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  Speaker 3: run ever, about the highs and the lows of the
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  Speaker 3: journey to get to that starting line, and how she
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  Speaker 3: was able to keep her nerves at bay despite knowing
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  Speaker 3: that come November third, when she showed up in Staten Island,
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  Speaker 3: she was going to enter a period of great unknown.
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  Speaker 2: She shares her highs.
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  Speaker 3: And lows from the twenty six point two mile journey
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  Speaker 3: from Sutton Island to Central Park, the main thing that
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  Speaker 3: kept her going when it felt so hard, and where
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  Speaker 3: she drew inspiration from along the way. Of course, I
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  Speaker 3: have to ask her whether or not she'd ever do another,
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  Speaker 3: and we also chat about what she's excited about now
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  Speaker 3: what she's looking forward to next. There's nothing more that
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  Speaker 3: Let's get to hurdling.
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  Speaker 2: Today.
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  Speaker 3: I am sitting down with Kirstin Ferguson. She is a
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  Speaker 3: peloton instructor a new marathonor wow, wow wow.
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  Speaker 1: How does an add that to like my resume? Please,
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  Speaker 1: it's gonna be the first thing that's on there. Mom,
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  Speaker 1: yea Comma marathonor absolutely, oh my god, wild Yeah. I
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  Speaker 1: still wake up like I've been sleeping next to my
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  Speaker 1: medal for the last two days and I wake up like, wow,
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  Speaker 1: I really did just do that.
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  Speaker 2: That's so wild to me.
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  Speaker 3: Did you spot to do this for a while now
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  Speaker 3: or was this on a whim I'm just going to
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  Speaker 3: go for it situation.
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  Speaker 1: Never in a million years did I think that I
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  Speaker 1: was going to be a marathon or like ever run
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  Speaker 1: a marathon ever. I think even when I first talked
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  Speaker 1: to you, it was just never something that I thought
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  Speaker 1: was in the cards for me. And then after my
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  Speaker 1: hip surgery and I ran the half marathon, I was like, oh, okay,
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  Speaker 1: that was cool. And then someone was like, would you
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  Speaker 1: ever do the full? Because it's always like, all right,
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  Speaker 1: you did that, what's next? And so I remember asking
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  Speaker 1: my run coach and I was like, do you think
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  Speaker 1: I would be able to do this? And he said,
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  Speaker 1: I'll get you there. It's it's not going to be easy,
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  Speaker 1: but if you're willing to do it, I'll get you there.
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  Speaker 2: So I did a lot of praying about it, asking.
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  Speaker 1: Everyone, and then I was like all right, I sent
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  Speaker 1: the email asking if I can get a bib and
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  Speaker 1: there was and so.
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  Speaker 3: The bib comes from the NYRR and Peloton partnership.
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  Speaker 2: Correct, you got it.
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  Speaker 3: Okay, and it wasn't the first time that you had
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  Speaker 3: signed up for a race like this, because the half marathon,
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  Speaker 3: what happened was that you registered for your first one
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  Speaker 3: and then you had to sidestep because of that injury.
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  Speaker 1: Correct, Yeah, I signed up for the Brooklyn half. Initially,
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  Speaker 1: you know, I'm just surrounded by superheroes, whether it be
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  Speaker 1: my teammates at Peloton or even just the members, and
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  Speaker 1: I was like, Wow, how cool would it be if
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  Speaker 1: I did actually.
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  Speaker 2: Run a half marathon.
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  Speaker 1: At that time, that just seemed even out of the
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  Speaker 1: cards for me then, and you know, teaching at Peloton
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  Speaker 1: at that.
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  Speaker 2: Time, it was like two years. It's like all right,
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  Speaker 2: I think I'm ready, let's just try this.
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  Speaker 1: And then, you know, I went out for a long
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  Speaker 1: run and was dragging my leg home and I had
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  Speaker 1: injured my hip, and so to have to pull out
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  Speaker 1: of that race was tough because I finally got in
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  Speaker 1: my head wrapped around the idea of running a half marathon,
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  Speaker 1: and so having to pull out of that was really
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  Speaker 1: hard for me. But then after the surgery, I needed
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  Speaker 1: a goal. I needed something besides just getting back to Peloton.
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  Speaker 1: What is it that I can do that would prove
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  Speaker 1: to myself that my body is healed, and it was
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  Speaker 1: that half marathon for me.
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  Speaker 2: Yeah. Yeah, injuries are not easy.
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  Speaker 3: And when you have to put your pride aside or
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  Speaker 3: your ego aside and be like, I need to prioritize
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  Speaker 3: what's best for my body in the long term, it's
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  Speaker 3: so challenging.
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  Speaker 1: Beyond beyond and even just trusting the process, because the
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  Speaker 1: tricky part with hip surgery is you feel good, you know,
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  Speaker 1: after you get off the crutches, things feel good, But
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  Speaker 1: in that moment you really have to truck your doctors
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  Speaker 1: and trust your pt and trust the plan to get
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  Speaker 1: back and to get back healthy and get back smart.
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  Speaker 1: And so that was also just really hard because that
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  Speaker 1: was movement. Was also just the way I released things mentally,
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  Speaker 1: and so to take that out was really hard for me.
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  Speaker 2: And it's such a big part of your livelihood.
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  Speaker 3: Yeah yeah, yeah, when you went about your day to day,
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  Speaker 3: did you find it challenging not only to not be
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  Speaker 3: able to move as Kirsten, but not be able to
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  Speaker 3: move as Kirsten the person that would otherwise be moving
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  Speaker 3: for work.
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  Speaker 1: But I think it was in those moments that I
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  Speaker 1: realized also there were things I needed to heal mentally
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  Speaker 1: and emotionally that I had been just pushing down for
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  Speaker 1: years and never really tapped into it until God, the universe,
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  Speaker 1: whatever you believe, was like, hey, I really need to
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  Speaker 1: make you still until you heal these things, which is
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  Speaker 1: so hard beyond I'm like, wait what I thought I
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  Speaker 1: was doing all the things right, but now I was like, no, no, no, no,
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  Speaker 1: we got to fix some things.
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  Speaker 2: Yeah.
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  Speaker 3: And so when that alarm goes off, so to speak
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  Speaker 3: of we need to heal, what does that process look
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  Speaker 3: like for you?
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  Speaker 2: Are you speaking to someone? What did you do?
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  Speaker 3: Because it's bigger than just like I'm going to sit
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  Speaker 3: with how I feel about this.
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  Speaker 2: It's interesting.
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  Speaker 1: I did a lot. I have a life coach that
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  Speaker 1: I speak to you weekly. But also I did hypnotherapy.
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  Speaker 1: So getting back to young Kirsten and really healing those
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  Speaker 1: wounds and going even deeper than I thought was. There,
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  Speaker 1: A lot of prayer, meditation, all those things really helped.
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  Speaker 1: And also talking to my mom, like having real conversations
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  Speaker 1: with her that I've never had, and just addressing things
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  Speaker 1: that we both had pushed down for so long and
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  Speaker 1: I didn't even realize, like not tapping into those things
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  Speaker 1: they say, hip pain is fear of moving forward, and
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  Speaker 1: so I needed to heal all of those things order
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  Speaker 1: for me to really step into my true potential.
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  Speaker 2: And that was to come. And this is challenges from
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  Speaker 2: when you were younger.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah, okay, yeah, So dealing with you know, my father
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  Speaker 1: not being there, not being present, and always feeling like
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  Speaker 1: there was these holes missing, and even you know, just
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  Speaker 1: feeling things from the dating world, and all of that
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  Speaker 1: just sent back to the lack of my father being
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  Speaker 1: present in my life. And I had to address all
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  Speaker 1: of those things, you know. And I even went through
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  Speaker 1: a divorce during the pandemic, and I never really it
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  Speaker 1: was almost like, all right, this is what I have
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  Speaker 1: to do because I'm mom, and I have to figure out, like,
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  Speaker 1: what's the next step. I never really healed from any
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  Speaker 1: of that, and so this I called it my pause season,
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  Speaker 1: was my moment to heal physically, emotionally, and mentally.
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  Speaker 3: How relatable is that, though, that we were constantly just
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  Speaker 3: trying to get to the next thing, right or just
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  Speaker 3: a autopilot, I would argue, especially as New Yorkers, Right,
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  Speaker 3: there's so much happening around us all the time. There
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  Speaker 3: are so many different things that are stimulating, and it's like, okay,
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  Speaker 3: I need to do a BC and oh we did,
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  Speaker 3: be okay, onto scene right.
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  Speaker 2: Exactly, onto the next thing immediately.
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  Speaker 3: And so for you to have this pause season and
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  Speaker 3: get comfortable with the uncomfortable something that you have done
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  Speaker 3: before in terms of going outside of your comfort zone
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  Speaker 3: for sure, but certainly not in this way.
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  Speaker 2: No, no, no, no, no.
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  Speaker 1: No.
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  Speaker 2: Not at all, not at all. And it was it
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  Speaker 2: was challenging.
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  Speaker 1: Was it was challenging, you know, to walk through all
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  Speaker 1: the open old wounds and really look at them from
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  Speaker 1: a different perspective was hard, but also just so necessary
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  Speaker 1: when you are conquering these emotional hurdles, these mental hurdles.
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  Speaker 3: How do you know quote unquote that the work is
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  Speaker 3: behind you, right Like, how do you know that you
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  Speaker 3: have done enough on this certain thing that you can
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  Speaker 3: progress to the next area, you can work on the
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  Speaker 3: next challenge.
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  Speaker 2: I knew that I.
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  Speaker 1: Was really healing and healed when things that used to
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  Speaker 1: take me out emotionally no longer cared the same weight,
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  Speaker 1: you know, like I was able to get through Father's
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  Speaker 1: Day without feeling like I'm lacking anything, or I was
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  Speaker 1: able to, you know, just move through different things that
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  Speaker 1: would arise like, Okay, that happened. I acknowledged that, and
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  Speaker 1: I could move on. It didn't take me out like
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  Speaker 1: it used to before. And that's how I know there's growth. Yeah,
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  Speaker 1: that's that you can like see it, acknowledge it, and
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  Speaker 1: move on versus taking you into a dark lace or
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  Speaker 1: you know however it used to spiral before. For me,
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  Speaker 1: no longer cares that weight, right, no longer cares at weight.
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  Speaker 2: You know.
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  Speaker 1: Even my father always sends a Chris card every year,
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  Speaker 1: and this year when I got it, it was like, okay, yeah,
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  Speaker 1: Before it used to just make me so upset.
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  Speaker 2: Now it's like okay.
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  Speaker 3: Isn't that the first step to moving forward from anything?
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  Speaker 1: Though?
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  Speaker 3: It's like you get to this place where you recognize, okay,
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  Speaker 3: this is how it is now, And when you're honest
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  Speaker 3: with yourself about how things are, then you can make
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  Speaker 3: changes if you seek them moving forward, absolutely, But until
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  Speaker 3: you recognize the baseline, you're not going to be able
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  Speaker 3: to adapt or change, or if you make those ed
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  Speaker 3: adaptations or those changes, it's probably not going to stick.
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  Speaker 2: No, absolutely not.
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  Speaker 1: And I think for me it was just knowing that
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  Speaker 1: that was there and acknowledging that and also celebrating you know,
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  Speaker 1: where I'm at today, you know, and how I got
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  Speaker 1: to where I am without you know that the presence
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  Speaker 1: of my father there, or you know, the things that
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  Speaker 1: really hurt, you know, acknowledging them, but then also just
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  Speaker 1: stepping into your power. And I think that is the
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  Speaker 1: best place.
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  Speaker 3: To be when you're able to do that, when you
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  Speaker 3: finally get to sign up for the half marathon, talk
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  Speaker 3: to me about where your head's at. I think for
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  Speaker 3: me it was like it was like a test, like, okay, body,
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  Speaker 3: are you fully healed.
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  Speaker 2: Let's try it and see.
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  Speaker 1: And even for that point, you know, the furthest I
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  Speaker 1: had done was ten miles, so it was also accepting
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  Speaker 1: like Okay, I'm not going to go out and run
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  Speaker 1: ten miles. I'm going to start and I'm going to
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  Speaker 1: go out and walk run four and it's starting from
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  Speaker 1: the beginning again, and that's also challenged. That's another challenge
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  Speaker 1: of like Okay, I know where I was before.
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  Speaker 2: But I have to go back. I have to go
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  Speaker 2: back to the beginning.
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  Speaker 3: You have to meet yourself with where you're at right then, yeah, right,
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  Speaker 3: like humble yourself. One of my raised mantras has always been.
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  Speaker 3: All it takes is all you've got. And when I
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  Speaker 3: show up to each race, no matter what I've done,
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  Speaker 3: no matter where I've been, I am a different Emily
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  Speaker 3: than I was the day before, the year before, et cetera.
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  Speaker 3: And so when you're beginning this training after that injury,
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  Speaker 3: I would imagine two things. One, you're like scared of
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  Speaker 3: taking a backstep, but also there's so much difficulty in
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  Speaker 3: that act of meeting yourself with where you're at right now,
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  Speaker 3: knowing where you had been.
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  Speaker 1: Right yeah, for sure, and trusting your body again, trusting
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  Speaker 1: the doctors they said you're ready, you just have to
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  Speaker 1: go out and trust that.
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  Speaker 2: But then it's also like I was, I was so
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  Speaker 2: much better before, you know.
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  Speaker 1: But but also you know, I'm stronger than I was
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  Speaker 1: before now because I've went through a lot, and I
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  Speaker 1: actually know more about my body now, and I know what.
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  Speaker 2: It looks like to actually warm up before a run.
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  Speaker 1: Wow, I wasn't doing that before, or you know, just
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  Speaker 1: doing all of the recovery things that I was not
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  Speaker 1: doing before. And I promised myself after my surgery that
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  Speaker 1: would never take my body for granted again. And so
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  Speaker 1: even though I was starting at square one, I was
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  Speaker 1: starting from a much smarter and stronger place, and so
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  Speaker 1: I get myself grace in that. And so every week
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  Speaker 1: you just adding from that, you know, take it one
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  Speaker 1: step at a time. How do you find that grace
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  Speaker 1: with yourself?
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  Speaker 3: How do you cultivate a conversation of positivity so that
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  Speaker 3: you can meet yourself with where you're at.
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  Speaker 2: You know, it's positive self talk to yourself.
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  Speaker 1: You know, even even in the run where it gets
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  Speaker 1: hard or where things feel challenging, it's like you got
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  Speaker 1: to give yourself some grace.
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  Speaker 2: Like there were runs that didn't go great.
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  Speaker 1: It's like, Okay, you just had hip surgery, Kirsten, look
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  Speaker 1: at all the things that you've been through. You're doing
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  Speaker 1: a great job. Like keep going, yeah, you know, keep going.
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  Speaker 1: And I also find that I know that I'm moving
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  Speaker 1: in the right direction when I'm not faced with a
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  Speaker 1: lot of resistance. And so in that process of training Behalf,
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  Speaker 1: it took a step by step and I didn't feel
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  Speaker 1: I didn't have any hip pain. I didn't have anything
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  Speaker 1: that was like, oh I don't know about this or this.
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  Speaker 1: You know, because running is also my job and so
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  Speaker 1: that's always going to be top of mind in my
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  Speaker 1: top priority, and so at any point something felt off,
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  Speaker 1: I knew I was going to pull out.
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  Speaker 2: I want to talk about that sentiment.
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  Speaker 3: I know that I'm moving in the right direction when
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  Speaker 3: I'm not experiencing a lot of resistance. Otherwise often referred
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  Speaker 3: to being in alignment. Yes, how else have you seen
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  Speaker 3: that payoff in your life? Where else have you realized, Oh,
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  Speaker 3: I must be in alignment right now?
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  Speaker 2: This is feeling good for me.
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  Speaker 1: When I first started interviewing at Peloton, I went through
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  Speaker 1: so much imposter syndrome, you know, when they told me
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  Speaker 1: they wanted me to teach on the tread and I
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  Speaker 1: was like, I'm sorry.
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  Speaker 2: Come again, I don't do this, you know.
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  Speaker 1: And so it was like we all of this is
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  Speaker 1: making sense or all of the things were coming into place,
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  Speaker 1: and I was starting to feel like, oh wait, I
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  Speaker 1: do belong here. And there wasn't much resistance coming to me.
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  Speaker 1: I was learning, I was growing, I was supported. Even
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  Speaker 1: when they actually hired me, I was every week. I
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  Speaker 1: remember every interview that I went on, every audition, I
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  Speaker 1: was like, Okay, this is great. Like if it doesn't happen,
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  Speaker 1: I've learned so much, you know, And with every yes,
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  Speaker 1: it was like, Okay, this is the next step in
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  Speaker 1: the process. But I really was not attached to the outcome.
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  Speaker 1: I was really just enjoying the journey in the process,
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  Speaker 1: and so that to me was one example of like no, no, no,
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  Speaker 1: you're moving in your purpose here.
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  Speaker 2: This is where you're meant to be.
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  Speaker 3: Some people don't even know that about you, that you
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  Speaker 3: came into Peloton with a cycling background and then ended
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  Speaker 3: up auditioning to do things on the trend.
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  Speaker 2: Yeah, wild Wild. I was like, are you sure?
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  Speaker 1: But you know, Bex believed in me when I didn't
• 18:01
  Speaker 1: believe myself. Robin believing when I didn't believe myself. A
• 18:04
  Speaker 1: lot of the team, my teammates believed in me when
• 18:05
  Speaker 1: I was like you know what, all right, y'all, y'all
• 18:08
  Speaker 1: say it, I'll do it, you know. So their support
• 18:11
  Speaker 1: was incredible too.
• 18:13
  Speaker 3: Feelings from finishing your first half marathon it was so interesting.
• 18:19
  Speaker 2: I remember finishing and being like, wow, that was so hard.
• 18:24
  Speaker 1: I could never I can't even imagine doing this, and
• 18:29
  Speaker 1: then like going back like it was to me that.
• 18:34
  Speaker 2: Was challenging, Like I remember I did.
• 18:37
  Speaker 1: I ran the race with Tunday, rad and Selena and
• 18:40
  Speaker 1: they had all finished before me and I'm like, y'all,
• 18:42
  Speaker 1: that was so hard.
• 18:43
  Speaker 2: They're like, really, it was great, great day.
• 18:45
  Speaker 1: I think today went out to six minute of hour
• 18:46
  Speaker 1: zone after I was like cors Allo for a couple
• 18:48
  Speaker 1: of days. But that's so beautiful about I think just
• 18:53
  Speaker 1: trying something hard and then going after the next thing.
• 18:57
  Speaker 1: You know, even in training, like for the Marion, you
• 19:01
  Speaker 1: run half marathons every long run, right, I was just
• 19:05
  Speaker 1: in all of the whole process after that.
• 19:07
  Speaker 3: Do you remember for the beginning of the marathon training then,
• 19:12
  Speaker 3: like the first consecutive week that you did back to
• 19:15
  Speaker 3: back half marathons.
• 19:16
  Speaker 2: Yeah, that was crazy. That was crazy. That was crazy.
• 19:20
  Speaker 2: That was crazy, And.
• 19:21
  Speaker 1: It was also interesting because that moment was and you
• 19:25
  Speaker 1: sent me the sweetest note. That was the moment I
• 19:27
  Speaker 1: was going out for. I had did fourteen and then
• 19:30
  Speaker 1: I had to go out and do sixteen and run
• 19:33
  Speaker 1: in summer streets, and my feeling was just all for
• 19:37
  Speaker 1: It was just a bad run day. I don't know,
• 19:39
  Speaker 1: it was like eighty five deal. It was just hot,
• 19:43
  Speaker 1: and I had gotten to probably almost thirteen and my
• 19:48
  Speaker 1: body hit a block a block and I could I
• 19:52
  Speaker 1: walk ran another mile and a half, but at fourteen
• 19:55
  Speaker 1: and a half.
• 19:55
  Speaker 2: I had to stop.
• 19:56
  Speaker 1: I didn't know whether I was going to pass out.
• 20:00
  Speaker 1: I didn't know what was going to happen, but I
• 20:02
  Speaker 1: knew I was done. And I remember feeling so defeated
• 20:05
  Speaker 1: in that moment because I was like, oooh, do you
• 20:07
  Speaker 1: think you are Kirston Ferguson. If you can't run sixteen,
• 20:10
  Speaker 1: what makes you think you can run twenty six point too?
• 20:13
  Speaker 1: I remember that moment so vividly. But then I had
• 20:17
  Speaker 1: ran into Bex and Adrian and locker room and they're like, girl,
• 20:20
  Speaker 1: you're just not there yet, Like you're going to get there.
• 20:23
  Speaker 1: You're going to get there. Let's just adjusture fueling. Let's
• 20:26
  Speaker 1: figure out what went wrong that day. It could have
• 20:28
  Speaker 1: just been like your worst case is all happening at
• 20:32
  Speaker 1: the same time, right, And then I spoke to you,
• 20:35
  Speaker 1: and you know, so many other people had reached out,
• 20:38
  Speaker 1: like it's just bad. Runs are necessary in this process,
• 20:42
  Speaker 1: you know, and.
• 20:44
  Speaker 2: Then you go out and do it again.
• 20:45
  Speaker 3: Yeah, you know, I remember this, and I remember like
• 20:49
  Speaker 3: just I could feel how heavy it was like from
• 20:52
  Speaker 3: my side of the phone, and I saw at first,
• 20:54
  Speaker 3: like you post that it didn't go well, and I
• 20:56
  Speaker 3: was like oh no, hell no. I picked up the
• 20:58
  Speaker 3: phone and I was like, we need to talk. Yeah,
• 21:00
  Speaker 3: because I'm so grateful that you did that. I literally
• 21:03
  Speaker 3: was just like, you are so fine. And I think
• 21:06
  Speaker 3: that that is whether you know, we're talking about running,
• 21:09
  Speaker 3: but it's not about running. When you're in the thick
• 21:11
  Speaker 3: of a difficult moment, it's hard to see it holistically. Yeah,
• 21:16
  Speaker 3: you almost need to remove yourself to be like no,
• 21:18
  Speaker 3: like it's not world ending.
• 21:20
  Speaker 2: Yeah.
• 21:20
  Speaker 3: And I say this all the time, but ninety nine
• 21:23
  Speaker 3: point nine percent of the time, when you are experiencing
• 21:27
  Speaker 3: something that's bad and you're worried about the outcome, the
• 21:30
  Speaker 3: worst thing that could happen is you'll be where you
• 21:33
  Speaker 3: started and it's probably not that bad of a place
• 21:36
  Speaker 3: to be, right right. Yeah, And so going out for
• 21:39
  Speaker 3: that bad run, like you said, to your point, it
• 21:43
  Speaker 3: was the best.
• 21:43
  Speaker 2: Thing that could have happened for you.
• 21:47
  Speaker 1: Because even after I got all of your just encouraging
• 21:51
  Speaker 1: words in that moment, and then the next weekend, I
• 21:54
  Speaker 1: gave myself some grace and I just went into fourteen
• 21:57
  Speaker 1: and then the next week was a sixteen mile and
• 22:00
  Speaker 1: I just was like, you know.
• 22:01
  Speaker 2: What this is, let's coo see and I did it
• 22:04
  Speaker 2: and the next week two more. You know, you're like,
• 22:07
  Speaker 2: oh my gosh, this is wild.
• 22:09
  Speaker 3: What would you say in your training or some of
• 22:13
  Speaker 3: the most unexpected lessons that you learned or new intel
• 22:19
  Speaker 3: that you learned about running that you did not have previously.
• 22:23
  Speaker 2: I learned so much. Like you hear all these stories and.
• 22:26
  Speaker 1: Then you're like, oh, no, this is what they're talking about,
• 22:29
  Speaker 1: Like just the battle between your body and your mind.
• 22:33
  Speaker 1: Like your body's capable, but your mind is You're constantly
• 22:37
  Speaker 1: battling it. Especially on a lot of my long res
• 22:40
  Speaker 1: I did solo, and so you're in the thick of
• 22:43
  Speaker 1: like fourteen sixteen miles and I'm like, man, I would.
• 22:48
  Speaker 2: Just want to stop. I just want to stop. No,
• 22:50
  Speaker 2: I want to know if you stop, what if you stop?
• 22:52
  Speaker 1: You know, it's battling that. I think that was one
• 22:55
  Speaker 1: of the hardest things for me. Also just how important
• 22:58
  Speaker 1: fueling is. Learning that along the way, and you know,
• 23:03
  Speaker 1: stomach tantrums mid run are also lots of fun. I
• 23:07
  Speaker 1: just learned so much and have so much respect for
• 23:10
  Speaker 1: the sport now, and also just what my body is
• 23:12
  Speaker 1: capable of doing all of it.
• 23:14
  Speaker 2: Isn't it interesting?
• 23:15
  Speaker 1: Though?
• 23:16
  Speaker 3: And I would love your perspective on this because so
• 23:19
  Speaker 3: many of your community members, they look at you, you're
• 23:23
  Speaker 3: teaching them how to do the thing, and then you're
• 23:25
  Speaker 3: out there also being taught how to do the time
• 23:29
  Speaker 3: do the thing. So how does that feel for you
• 23:32
  Speaker 3: being somewhat of a beginner despite being someone that's helping
• 23:36
  Speaker 3: other people also on their journeys.
• 23:38
  Speaker 2: Yeah, I think one of my.
• 23:39
  Speaker 1: Biggest things and why I always stay true to who
• 23:43
  Speaker 1: I am. I've always been very authentic about that, and
• 23:46
  Speaker 1: I think, you know, everything I speak about in class
• 23:49
  Speaker 1: was all from just personal experience, you know, And that
• 23:52
  Speaker 1: was also a big driving factor for me to do
• 23:54
  Speaker 1: the marathon is I know so many people that train
• 23:56
  Speaker 1: with me on a daily basis, and I want to
• 23:59
  Speaker 1: be able to talk about it from an authentic perspective
• 24:02
  Speaker 1: and know that, you know, I went.
• 24:04
  Speaker 2: Through this process. I always said that I was.
• 24:07
  Speaker 1: Not a runner, and so now to be able to
• 24:09
  Speaker 1: officially call myself a runner now is like wild to me.
• 24:13
  Speaker 1: But you know, accepting that, you know, I wasn't always
• 24:17
  Speaker 1: a runner, but I'm a runner now and I have
• 24:20
  Speaker 1: a story to tell and I pride myself in, you know,
• 24:24
  Speaker 1: speaking to that person that also never sought it for
• 24:27
  Speaker 1: themselves and say, no, you can.
• 24:29
  Speaker 2: You know I did it, you could. If I could
• 24:31
  Speaker 2: do it, you could do it.
• 24:32
  Speaker 1: And I think it was also for me, Emily, it
• 24:35
  Speaker 1: was letting go of the perception of I had of
• 24:39
  Speaker 1: what a runner was. I had this perception like a
• 24:42
  Speaker 1: runner is fast, and if you're going to run a marathon,
• 24:46
  Speaker 1: you have to be fast, and if you're not fast,
• 24:49
  Speaker 1: you can't run a marathon. You know. I don't know why.
• 24:52
  Speaker 1: I just always had this in my head. Finally let
• 24:54
  Speaker 1: that go and I was like, you know what, I'm
• 24:56
  Speaker 1: run a marathon. I'm gonna do it my way, and
• 24:57
  Speaker 1: I'm gonna have fun. I'm not going to pressure for
• 24:59
  Speaker 1: myself time and I'm just going to do it, you know.
• 25:02
  Speaker 1: And and that felt good to me. You know. I
• 25:07
  Speaker 1: know everybody's different, but for me, it was, you know,
• 25:10
  Speaker 1: letting go of that pressure. I think also one of
• 25:12
  Speaker 1: the other things that would have prevented me from signing
• 25:15
  Speaker 1: up from marathon is, you know, people are watching, like
• 25:17
  Speaker 1: I'm coaching these people, and I'm like, are they going
• 25:19
  Speaker 1: to look at my time and judge me? Are they
• 25:21
  Speaker 1: going to look at my time and not trust me
• 25:23
  Speaker 1: as a coach. You know, all of these things in
• 25:26
  Speaker 1: my head said to.
• 25:28
  Speaker 2: Let that go.
• 25:29
  Speaker 1: You know, I was like, because also there's somebody that
• 25:31
  Speaker 1: is seeing my time, and it's like, wow, she worked really, really,
• 25:36
  Speaker 1: really really hard and she came out on the other side.
• 25:39
  Speaker 2: Look at that. I always think about that.
• 25:42
  Speaker 3: There are people every day that would kill to be
• 25:46
  Speaker 3: in your quote unquote worst case scenario. And thank god
• 25:52
  Speaker 3: that you got to this place where you could put
• 25:57
  Speaker 3: that worry aside, albeit very challenging and valid, so that
• 26:03
  Speaker 3: you could be the person that they look to and
• 26:05
  Speaker 3: think she could so that I could do.
• 26:07
  Speaker 2: Yeah. Absolutely, in order to be her, you need to
• 26:11
  Speaker 2: see her.
• 26:12
  Speaker 3: And you know that as a mother, as now an instructor,
• 26:17
  Speaker 3: and the way that you move and speak and carry
• 26:20
  Speaker 3: yourself matters. And so what an unbelievable example that you've
• 26:24
  Speaker 3: set for both the members and then and we'll talk
• 26:27
  Speaker 3: about this shortly, but also your girls, we're not there yet.
• 26:34
  Speaker 2: Aready yet?
• 26:36
  Speaker 3: In the days leading up to the marathon, bring us
• 26:40
  Speaker 3: into your mindset.
• 26:42
  Speaker 2: How are you talking to yourself?
• 26:43
  Speaker 1: Yeah, I kept myself very busy. I kept myself very
• 26:48
  Speaker 1: busy because I didn't want to freak myself out. So
• 26:52
  Speaker 1: it was like a marathon before the marathon, but I
• 26:55
  Speaker 1: think I just had it in my head that I
• 26:57
  Speaker 1: had a long run coming up, had a long run
• 26:59
  Speaker 1: coming up, and I was excited, you know. I went
• 27:02
  Speaker 1: from nerves. I think nerves are good. I had them,
• 27:05
  Speaker 1: but I was also just more excited. I was more
• 27:08
  Speaker 1: excited to do this thing that I never thought I
• 27:11
  Speaker 1: would have ever done, you know, and be able to
• 27:14
  Speaker 1: experience it and take it all in.
• 27:17
  Speaker 2: I knew, no matter what, I.
• 27:19
  Speaker 1: Was going to get to the finish line, because my
• 27:21
  Speaker 1: daughters were at the finish line, and so I said
• 27:24
  Speaker 1: to myself, Kirsten, even if you have to walk this thing,
• 27:26
  Speaker 1: you're going to cross that finish line, You're going to
• 27:28
  Speaker 1: be a marathon or And so I held on to that,
• 27:31
  Speaker 1: and once you kind of let that go and the
• 27:33
  Speaker 1: pressure of that, I.
• 27:36
  Speaker 2: Just was like excited.
• 27:38
  Speaker 1: I was excited to be able to do this and
• 27:40
  Speaker 1: to experience the city in the most beautiful way. I've
• 27:43
  Speaker 1: been cheering for the last four years and I've always
• 27:46
  Speaker 1: just been so inspired and so that then to be
• 27:48
  Speaker 1: on the other side.
• 27:50
  Speaker 2: It was beautiful. It was a beautiful opportunity for me.
• 27:53
  Speaker 1: I was excited to be running with Peloton members and
• 27:56
  Speaker 1: friends and just have a good day. I knew Peloton
• 28:00
  Speaker 1: its going to be at mile nineteen, couldn't wait to
• 28:02
  Speaker 1: see them. I think one of the things that I
• 28:04
  Speaker 1: did while I was in training, I don't know if
• 28:06
  Speaker 1: you do this, but like I visualized, like every house.
• 28:09
  Speaker 2: That I ran, pretend like they were people, and I
• 28:11
  Speaker 2: was like.
• 28:12
  Speaker 1: Oh, thank you, okay, Kirsten, Or like I visualized running
• 28:15
  Speaker 1: up to my Pelison teammates, like what that's going to
• 28:18
  Speaker 1: feel like?
• 28:19
  Speaker 2: Oh yeah, And that just made me excited, like I
• 28:23
  Speaker 2: couldn't wait to get to.
• 28:24
  Speaker 3: Mile nineteen the way that I would cry in the
• 28:28
  Speaker 3: like days leading up to the marathon. The marathon goes
• 28:34
  Speaker 3: through my neighborhood, and I thought about running by my
• 28:39
  Speaker 3: friends and their babies on the side of the street
• 28:42
  Speaker 3: and just like I would lose it.
• 28:44
  Speaker 2: Yeh, I absolutely lose it.
• 28:47
  Speaker 3: So I can really relate to that because it's just
• 28:49
  Speaker 3: such a special exchange and that exchange is so valuable,
• 28:53
  Speaker 3: and it reminds you of the power of the exchange
• 28:55
  Speaker 3: period right. It reminds us that as humans, we have
• 29:00
  Speaker 3: the opportunity to be energy dealers from one another, and
• 29:04
  Speaker 3: it doesn't just have to happen on the side of
• 29:07
  Speaker 3: a marathon right right, No, for sure, for sure, and
• 29:10
  Speaker 3: I swear emily I've never felt so loved like I
• 29:14
  Speaker 3: felt so loved by people I didn't even know, like
• 29:18
  Speaker 3: just it was just such a beautiful experience and seeing
• 29:21
  Speaker 3: so many different people from so many different walks of life,
• 29:24
  Speaker 3: like you just can't help but be inspired out there.
• 29:27
  Speaker 3: So my mindset going into it was just excitement, like
• 29:31
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  Speaker 3: you said earlier. You mentioned that you did all of
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  Speaker 3: your long runs or a majority of them solo. I'm
• 31:19
  Speaker 3: guessing that's a logistics thing, gues and no. Can we
• 31:24
  Speaker 3: talk about that? Yeah, because I would. I would love
• 31:27
  Speaker 3: to get into this conversation with you for sure.
• 31:29
  Speaker 1: So one, yes, logistics because I love doing my long
• 31:33
  Speaker 1: runs super early in the morning, so five am. I'm
• 31:36
  Speaker 1: getting ready and I'm usually out the door by six,
• 31:39
  Speaker 1: and so I don't want to wait on nobody. I
• 31:41
  Speaker 1: don't want that, you know. I just want to be
• 31:43
  Speaker 1: able to do my thing. I have my plan, I
• 31:45
  Speaker 1: have my routine, and I want to go. But also
• 31:49
  Speaker 1: for me, sometimes I feel like when you run with somebody,
• 31:53
  Speaker 1: you feel the pressure, and I don't want to feel
• 31:56
  Speaker 1: that this is already hard enough, and so I wanted
• 32:00
  Speaker 1: to do it on my own. And also like the
• 32:02
  Speaker 1: long runs for me as a mom were for me
• 32:07
  Speaker 1: like I get three hours to myself where I am
• 32:11
  Speaker 1: not needed for anything, where I don't have to do
• 32:14
  Speaker 1: anything but put one foot in front of the other,
• 32:16
  Speaker 1: and I can listen to whatever music I want, and
• 32:20
  Speaker 1: I could soak all of that in. And so that's
• 32:24
  Speaker 1: really why I loved running solo and training solo and
• 32:30
  Speaker 1: just tapping into where I was ever mentally. A lot
• 32:34
  Speaker 1: of my long runs, I would put gospel music on
• 32:36
  Speaker 1: the beginning and I would just start thinking about things
• 32:38
  Speaker 1: that I want and saying it out loud. It was
• 32:42
  Speaker 1: just like a beautiful way for me to get my
• 32:45
  Speaker 1: head together mentally.
• 32:47
  Speaker 3: I love to hear this, yeah, and I can really
• 32:49
  Speaker 3: relate to that. I am similar, and that I probably
• 32:55
  Speaker 3: do like fifty percent solo fifty percent in.
• 32:59
  Speaker 2: Some sort of community.
• 33:01
  Speaker 3: Generally speaking, all of that is just scheduling for me,
• 33:06
  Speaker 3: Yeah for sure. But I really in the first I
• 33:10
  Speaker 3: don't even have a solid number to put on this now,
• 33:13
  Speaker 3: But if I had to guess, like probably in my
• 33:15
  Speaker 3: first five six seven years of considering myself a runner,
• 33:21
  Speaker 3: I didn't run with other people, and it was twofold one.
• 33:25
  Speaker 3: I told myself that it was just my me time.
• 33:28
  Speaker 3: But truly I was just worried that I wasn't enough
• 33:30
  Speaker 3: to do it.
• 33:31
  Speaker 2: Yeah.
• 33:31
  Speaker 3: Yeah, And so when I heard you say that, I
• 33:35
  Speaker 3: wanted to dig into it a little bit, yeah, and
• 33:39
  Speaker 3: understand or know or hear a little bit if that's
• 33:42
  Speaker 3: something that crossed your mind as well.
• 33:44
  Speaker 1: Yeah, because I also just felt bad, like I don't
• 33:47
  Speaker 1: know how I'm gonna feel. I'd never really was attached
• 33:50
  Speaker 1: to time when I was running. I mean, my coach
• 33:52
  Speaker 1: gave me like a parameter, so sometimes my watch would
• 33:54
  Speaker 1: like yell at me, like.
• 33:55
  Speaker 2: Curry up, gir, I'll pick it up.
• 33:57
  Speaker 1: But I was never really attached to time, and I
• 33:59
  Speaker 1: never wanted to feel like, hey, I'm slowing you down,
• 34:02
  Speaker 1: like if I'm slowing you down. Go like just go,
• 34:04
  Speaker 1: like I don't want that pressure. And so that I
• 34:10
  Speaker 1: did a couple with other people, which was great.
• 34:12
  Speaker 2: It was fun. It's fine, but I kind of liked it.
• 34:16
  Speaker 3: That's okay, solo, no, And I really can sympathize and
• 34:20
  Speaker 3: like relate with all of it, right, Like, I think
• 34:22
  Speaker 3: there are benefits to doing it on your own and
• 34:25
  Speaker 3: reclaiming that space, and then there are obviously benefits to
• 34:28
  Speaker 3: doing it within community for sin. For me, until I
• 34:32
  Speaker 3: started diving into my community and like allowing my community
• 34:38
  Speaker 3: to show up for me, Yeah, that is what unlocked
• 34:42
  Speaker 3: a different type of running for me. And even over
• 34:46
  Speaker 3: the weekend when I was running, I felt like after
• 34:51
  Speaker 3: fourteen marathons or thirteen marathons, Sunday being my fourteenth, that
• 34:57
  Speaker 3: this was the first time I full allowed everyone else
• 35:02
  Speaker 3: just to swallow me whole, Like I got out of
• 35:05
  Speaker 3: my head and was for the first time in thirteen
• 35:10
  Speaker 3: marathons like completely where my feet were.
• 35:13
  Speaker 1: Yeah, and it was so special, that's beautiful. It was
• 35:16
  Speaker 1: so special. I'll also say, like just watching you this
• 35:18
  Speaker 1: training cycle, like I remember we first talked about You're like, yeah,
• 35:22
  Speaker 1: I'm gonna have pizza.
• 35:23
  Speaker 2: And he was your whole plan.
• 35:26
  Speaker 1: And then something I don't know what switched for you,
• 35:28
  Speaker 1: but like all of a sudden, I'm like watching you.
• 35:31
  Speaker 1: Oh my girl, okay ss like something switched in you
• 35:36
  Speaker 1: and I watched it and I was like, oh, just
• 35:39
  Speaker 1: not playing any games.
• 35:41
  Speaker 2: Oh okay, okay.
• 35:42
  Speaker 3: I'm just trying to channel my inner fierceness of Karsten
• 35:47
  Speaker 3: with the speed, tenacity of Bex gentry.
• 35:50
  Speaker 1: I mean, girl, we ran into each other the marathon
• 35:54
  Speaker 1: day out there and I was like, you.
• 35:56
  Speaker 2: Literally looked at me and you were like, it's great
• 35:58
  Speaker 2: to see you have a nice day.
• 35:59
  Speaker 1: It's like, have a alright race girl. To you, honey,
• 36:02
  Speaker 1: you were like, please leave, please leave a sap. I
• 36:06
  Speaker 1: don't want you anywhere near me.
• 36:07
  Speaker 2: It's like I don't want your pressure.
• 36:09
  Speaker 1: Girl.
• 36:09
  Speaker 2: I know you was flying. Girl. I ain't even gonna
• 36:12
  Speaker 2: try to fake the fun and try to keep up
• 36:13
  Speaker 2: with you.
• 36:13
  Speaker 3: Honey, your race day experience different than some others race
• 36:17
  Speaker 3: day experience, and that you did have this kind of
• 36:21
  Speaker 3: I want to call it almost like an elite start,
• 36:23
  Speaker 3: and that you have the relationship with nyr R.
• 36:25
  Speaker 2: Tell us what that looked like for you.
• 36:27
  Speaker 1: It was wild, like I felt like fiance going up
• 36:30
  Speaker 1: to this start line. No, you know, grateful for the
• 36:35
  Speaker 1: relationship we have. And it was like a bunch of
• 36:38
  Speaker 1: different relationships and we were able to get into Wave
• 36:42
  Speaker 1: one and I remember we were going to like this
• 36:46
  Speaker 1: holding place and outwalked the elite woman it's like Helen
• 36:49
  Speaker 1: and was walking out and we're like yes, God, and
• 36:52
  Speaker 1: Helen's like in her zone, and I was like, wow,
• 36:55
  Speaker 1: this is wild. This is really cool, you know. And
• 36:58
  Speaker 1: then all the way when I went out onto the
• 37:01
  Speaker 1: bridge and we were going to go behind them, and
• 37:06
  Speaker 1: that's when I was like, Wow, this is this is
• 37:08
  Speaker 1: this is it, this is happening. And it was beautiful
• 37:11
  Speaker 1: because I was out there with my teammates, you know
• 37:14
  Speaker 1: that I know all were just going to do amazing
• 37:17
  Speaker 1: that this is my first one.
• 37:18
  Speaker 2: So I was just like I'm happy to be here.
• 37:20
  Speaker 2: We're all like this is wild. I'm just here for
• 37:23
  Speaker 2: the vibes, you know. So it was beautiful.
• 37:25
  Speaker 1: It's beautiful morning, you know, the sun was coming out,
• 37:28
  Speaker 1: and I didn't even feel nervous in that moment. It
• 37:32
  Speaker 1: was like, let's go do this.
• 37:35
  Speaker 2: You know.
• 37:35
  Speaker 1: I think being surrounded by people that you love in
• 37:38
  Speaker 1: that moment was beautiful, let's just go have a great race.
• 37:41
  Speaker 3: When they sing the national anthem, and he did so
• 37:45
  Speaker 3: good too, Oh beautiful, beautiful. It is just it's game
• 37:49
  Speaker 3: over for me. Like the chills are there, the fuels
• 37:52
  Speaker 3: are there. I am like, oh my god.
• 37:54
  Speaker 2: Yeah, it's time. It's time. It's time, it's time.
• 37:58
  Speaker 3: At the beginning, as you're going over the Verrizonta and
• 38:02
  Speaker 3: it's starting to sing in that you're about to run
• 38:04
  Speaker 3: a marathon, bring us to your headspace as I'm running
• 38:09
  Speaker 3: too fast, I'm running too slow?
• 38:10
  Speaker 2: Am I doing this right?
• 38:11
  Speaker 1: Like?
• 38:11
  Speaker 2: Where is your head at?
• 38:13
  Speaker 1: Honestly, I didn't even think about my pace at all.
• 38:17
  Speaker 1: I was just like, okay, this is the arizontal they
• 38:20
  Speaker 1: said this, this is an uphill moment, like just getting
• 38:23
  Speaker 1: all the things that everyone told me, like what to
• 38:25
  Speaker 1: expect and then turn that off and be super present
• 38:30
  Speaker 1: and remember to look right and left and look at
• 38:34
  Speaker 1: the city and look at the sun coming up and wow,
• 38:38
  Speaker 1: this is amazing.
• 38:38
  Speaker 2: Hey, why that guy pushed me?
• 38:41
  Speaker 1: Hereson, be present, keep going, you know, like and also
• 38:45
  Speaker 1: you know second road, he was like, people are going
• 38:47
  Speaker 1: to try to zoom by you them. Let them, you know,
• 38:50
  Speaker 1: that's their race as their goal. You run your race,
• 38:54
  Speaker 1: and so I was holding on to that and I
• 38:56
  Speaker 1: was just enjoying the moment.
• 38:57
  Speaker 2: I was like, wow, this is really looking cool, like
• 39:01
  Speaker 2: we're running up the bridge.
• 39:02
  Speaker 1: And then coming down the bridge. I remember my coach
• 39:06
  Speaker 1: being like, don't go out too fast, you know, stay
• 39:09
  Speaker 1: where you're at.
• 39:10
  Speaker 2: Then you know the excitement's gonna get you. You're gonna
• 39:12
  Speaker 2: hear the crowds.
• 39:14
  Speaker 1: So I just remember just telling myself to be super
• 39:16
  Speaker 1: present and taking every single moment.
• 39:19
  Speaker 2: How did you find your coach?
• 39:23
  Speaker 1: So my coach is actually Hannah's husband, John Ferry, and
• 39:27
  Speaker 1: I remember I was with Wilpers.
• 39:31
  Speaker 2: I was like, oh my gosh. Now I'm trying to think.
• 39:33
  Speaker 1: Right after my hip surgery, I was like, well, I
• 39:36
  Speaker 1: think I want to run a half. He's like, oh,
• 39:38
  Speaker 1: I got the guy for you. And I said it
• 39:39
  Speaker 1: to Hannah and she was like connected with me with
• 39:41
  Speaker 1: John and he helped me with the half marathon, and
• 39:46
  Speaker 1: you know when I said, you know, hey, I'm thinking
• 39:48
  Speaker 1: about running the full.
• 39:49
  Speaker 2: What do you think?
• 39:49
  Speaker 1: And we sat down, we had a conversation and he
• 39:52
  Speaker 1: walked me through what the training program was going to
• 39:55
  Speaker 1: look like it's gonna look very different than the half program,
• 39:58
  Speaker 1: so he laid everything out for me and helped me
• 40:01
  Speaker 1: understand like what I was really committing.
• 40:03
  Speaker 3: I think a referral is always really helpful when choosing
• 40:07
  Speaker 3: a coach, and then obviously important to point out knowing
• 40:11
  Speaker 3: what their relevant certifications are. Yeah, And I think that
• 40:15
  Speaker 3: that goes back to our conversation about like the struggles
• 40:18
  Speaker 3: that go hand in hand with like am I fast enough?
• 40:20
  Speaker 3: Am I doing well enough? I help other people run?
• 40:22
  Speaker 3: It's like you know what you have to offer. You
• 40:26
  Speaker 3: are responsible and smart and diligent and would never steer
• 40:30
  Speaker 3: someone wrong, like you've done the work to make sure
• 40:32
  Speaker 3: that by coaching them, you're doing it in a safe and
• 40:35
  Speaker 3: effective way. Absolutely, So clearly that was something that you
• 40:38
  Speaker 3: looked for, oh one, especially considering your hip surgery one percent.
• 40:42
  Speaker 1: And I knew a lot of the other instructors had
• 40:44
  Speaker 1: worked with him before and they just really trusted him,
• 40:48
  Speaker 1: and my experience of working with him for the half
• 40:51
  Speaker 1: was fantastic, and so I trusted him to help me
• 40:56
  Speaker 1: in the full.
• 40:56
  Speaker 2: But also you understood.
• 40:58
  Speaker 1: The lifestyle too of a Pelton instruction, and he understood
• 41:01
  Speaker 1: that my priority was always going to be Peloton and
• 41:04
  Speaker 1: you know, he would look at my schedule and understand
• 41:06
  Speaker 1: what the load was for that week for me work wise.
• 41:09
  Speaker 1: We'd have that conversation first before he build out my
• 41:12
  Speaker 1: plan for the week. So he was just really smart
• 41:15
  Speaker 1: and knowledgeable to help me get to where I need
• 41:19
  Speaker 1: to be.
• 41:19
  Speaker 2: Before we continue on the journey of November.
• 41:21
  Speaker 3: Third, can we also talk about that the structuring, because
• 41:25
  Speaker 3: obviously what you're doing as a peloton instructor when you're
• 41:28
  Speaker 3: running X amount every week is very different than what
• 41:32
  Speaker 3: someone would do if they were simply training for a marathon.
• 41:36
  Speaker 3: How do you take that into account, especially because some
• 41:38
  Speaker 3: days your training runs would only be three or four miles,
• 41:41
  Speaker 3: but you might have to do more than that for work, right.
• 41:43
  Speaker 1: Yeah, So he would take that all into account before
• 41:46
  Speaker 1: he would lay out the week, especially if I had,
• 41:49
  Speaker 1: you know, certain hit runs or different speed classes.
• 41:51
  Speaker 2: Because also, like even if.
• 41:53
  Speaker 1: I'm teaching a walk with members, that's still a lot
• 41:57
  Speaker 1: on me mentally and physically. So we really took into
• 42:00
  Speaker 1: account everything before he would lay out days. And I
• 42:03
  Speaker 1: would understand, I knew the days that I was committed
• 42:07
  Speaker 1: to running, but I would really stay away from the
• 42:10
  Speaker 1: days that I was teaching because I know how much
• 42:14
  Speaker 1: it takes out of me, both physically and mentally, and
• 42:18
  Speaker 1: then also fitting in strength training and all the pet
• 42:22
  Speaker 1: all of the things, you know. So we would literally
• 42:26
  Speaker 1: sit down and map out like, Okay, I'm going to
• 42:28
  Speaker 1: do a heavy day this day, so let's put my
• 42:30
  Speaker 1: run here or maybe I'll switch it. It was like also
• 42:33
  Speaker 1: a dance too of understanding how my body felt after
• 42:37
  Speaker 1: a week and where I structured my strength training to
• 42:41
  Speaker 1: then figure out, right, well, maybe we'll adjust it here.
• 42:43
  Speaker 2: Yeah, So it was a lot of back and forth.
• 42:44
  Speaker 2: For sure.
• 42:45
  Speaker 3: I really appreciate you highlighting and noting that there's also
• 42:48
  Speaker 3: mental stress. I believe that regardless of what journey or
• 42:54
  Speaker 3: on what you might be preparing for, whether it's a
• 42:57
  Speaker 3: big day at the office or a marathon, a lot
• 43:00
  Speaker 3: of the time we're not taking into account the other
• 43:03
  Speaker 3: things that are going on in our lives that impact
• 43:05
  Speaker 3: and maybe require us to pivot from what was expected
• 43:10
  Speaker 3: for you in the training. Talk to me about meeting
• 43:14
  Speaker 3: yourself with where you were at, because did you have
• 43:16
  Speaker 3: to ever adapt simply because you were.
• 43:19
  Speaker 2: Overwhelmed one hundred thousand percent?
• 43:22
  Speaker 1: Yeah, you know, because in addition to being a peloton
• 43:25
  Speaker 1: instructor and being additioned to trading for marathon. I'm also
• 43:27
  Speaker 1: a mom and that comes with peaks and valleys, and
• 43:30
  Speaker 1: some days are great and some days are really challenging.
• 43:32
  Speaker 1: And I hit a lot of those challenges and I
• 43:35
  Speaker 1: would just say John, like this not happening this week.
• 43:38
  Speaker 1: I just I'm not there mentally and be like, Okay,
• 43:41
  Speaker 1: all good, We'll wake it up in the next week.
• 43:44
  Speaker 1: Or you know, that's not going to take us out.
• 43:46
  Speaker 1: We're good and we're still tracking. We're still good. You know,
• 43:49
  Speaker 1: so did one hundred percent. There were weeks where I
• 43:52
  Speaker 1: wasn't all there like I did, where I didn't have
• 43:55
  Speaker 1: the time or the mental capacity to get in those
• 43:58
  Speaker 1: extra runs or get into speech training, you know, on
• 44:01
  Speaker 1: a random Wednesday night, like I'm like, no, my kids
• 44:04
  Speaker 1: are like driving me nuts, Like I need to sit
• 44:08
  Speaker 1: down and I need to just be for a second,
• 44:12
  Speaker 1: you know.
• 44:12
  Speaker 2: And I gave myself grace in that. You Know, what I.
• 44:15
  Speaker 1: Really stressed was I don't want this training to stress
• 44:20
  Speaker 1: me out. I carry a lot on a daily basis.
• 44:24
  Speaker 1: I don't want this to stress me out. I want
• 44:27
  Speaker 1: this to be a beautiful addition to what I got
• 44:30
  Speaker 1: going on.
• 44:30
  Speaker 2: It's the journey, right, Yeah, for sure.
• 44:33
  Speaker 3: And I think that that's something that often gets so
• 44:35
  Speaker 3: lost in this process. If you're only eyeing that finish
• 44:39
  Speaker 3: line and you're only thinking about the finale, you're missing
• 44:44
  Speaker 3: the point. Yeah, for sure, for sure. And not to
• 44:47
  Speaker 3: say that it's not a beautiful experience. And you know,
• 44:50
  Speaker 3: we're only part of the way talking about yours, but
• 44:53
  Speaker 3: it is such a small piece to the opportunity cost
• 44:57
  Speaker 3: that it takes over fourteen, sixteen, twenty weeks to get
• 45:01
  Speaker 3: to that one moment.
• 45:02
  Speaker 1: Yeah. Absolutely, it's all a journey. It's all a process,
• 45:06
  Speaker 1: you know. And for me, it was giving myself grace
• 45:11
  Speaker 1: during the week because I knew, you know, what I
• 45:14
  Speaker 1: do for a living. I knew what I have to carry.
• 45:16
  Speaker 1: But I'll say I knew like my long runs were
• 45:19
  Speaker 1: where I put a lot on my focus and I
• 45:21
  Speaker 1: knew that that was my time. So though it was
• 45:24
  Speaker 1: challenging and hard, I just I also looks forward to
• 45:28
  Speaker 1: it like that wasn't the part that stressed me out.
• 45:30
  Speaker 1: It was adding on to my workload that was stressful,
• 45:34
  Speaker 1: like that during the week, stuff that you have to
• 45:37
  Speaker 1: add on, you know, Oh, I just took on twenty
• 45:39
  Speaker 1: minute power work. I guess I should get some miles
• 45:40
  Speaker 1: in today, you know, so stuff like that.
• 45:43
  Speaker 3: When does the marathon on November third start to really
• 45:47
  Speaker 3: feel challenging for you?
• 45:50
  Speaker 2: So it felt.
• 45:52
  Speaker 1: Challenging at miles twenty, Yeah, miles twenty, because that's also
• 45:57
  Speaker 1: the furthest I went in my training.
• 45:59
  Speaker 2: Yeah, mile twenty, I was like woof, woof, woof.
• 46:05
  Speaker 3: And that's also when everything started crazy. I saw you
• 46:07
  Speaker 3: at seventeen yeah, yeah, so not for Peloton.
• 46:11
  Speaker 1: Before Peloton, I mean even when I saw you, it
• 46:13
  Speaker 1: was like, Okay, this is this is starting to get tough,
• 46:16
  Speaker 1: this is starting to get tough. You know. When I
• 46:19
  Speaker 1: saw Peloton, I had a really emotional breakdown.
• 46:23
  Speaker 2: Because I knew it was hard.
• 46:24
  Speaker 1: But then you got that boost from seeing all your
• 46:28
  Speaker 1: people and feeling all that love and getting a cry
• 46:30
  Speaker 1: out and somehow it just makes you feel good. Yeah.
• 46:33
  Speaker 2: And then mile twenty I was like, what is this?
• 46:38
  Speaker 1: Like? My legs everything was just like and then all
• 46:41
  Speaker 1: of a sudden, my stomach I just started feeling sick.
• 46:45
  Speaker 2: And that's also interesting.
• 46:46
  Speaker 1: One of my earbuds popped out when I hugged my friend,
• 46:50
  Speaker 1: and so I had no music from nineteen to twenty six,
• 46:53
  Speaker 1: and so I don't know if you experienced this, but
• 46:56
  Speaker 1: as you get to like twenty three twenty four, the
• 46:59
  Speaker 1: noise it started to make me feel nauseous, like it
• 47:03
  Speaker 1: was like overstimulated at that point, and I was just like, please,
• 47:10
  Speaker 1: let me just get to the finish line.
• 47:11
  Speaker 2: Just get to get to the fish line. You're doing
• 47:13
  Speaker 2: so good, Kirsten, you know. But yeah, it was interesting.
• 47:16
  Speaker 1: I never experienced I never thought that that's what I
• 47:18
  Speaker 1: would experience. I remember just being like, I'm so excited
• 47:21
  Speaker 1: for the crowds, but like towards the end, I was like,
• 47:24
  Speaker 1: I wish I had noise canceling headphones just to like
• 47:27
  Speaker 1: zone out a little bit because it was so hard
• 47:29
  Speaker 1: for me in that moment that I just wanted to close.
• 47:33
  Speaker 2: It out a little bit.
• 47:34
  Speaker 3: I understand strange. It's not strange, I understand. Yeah, it's
• 47:39
  Speaker 3: also very understandable that you would feel this way. And
• 47:43
  Speaker 3: is there some resistance there too, being vulnerable to allowing
• 47:49
  Speaker 3: all of these people.
• 47:50
  Speaker 2: Probably to show up for you? Probably? Yeah, probably. It
• 47:53
  Speaker 2: was just like, Okay, I need y'all to just let
• 47:56
  Speaker 2: me be.
• 47:57
  Speaker 1: I know y'all are here, like this is a Lott's
• 48:00
  Speaker 1: see you and then.
• 48:01
  Speaker 2: You wear the name yeah.
• 48:03
  Speaker 1: And so it's also like I didn't know if there
• 48:06
  Speaker 1: were Peloton members or if it was just someone saying
• 48:08
  Speaker 1: my name, Like do I turn for everyone? That's a
• 48:11
  Speaker 1: lot of energy that you spend. And so just towards
• 48:14
  Speaker 1: the end, I think I was just losing it, and
• 48:18
  Speaker 1: the only thing I kept visualizing was like, my daughters
• 48:21
  Speaker 1: are at the finish sign. My daughters are at the
• 48:22
  Speaker 1: finish sign. It's okay to walk a little bit. And
• 48:25
  Speaker 1: then you got to keep going. Your daughters are there,
• 48:27
  Speaker 1: They're waiting for you. They made signs. Yeah, get to
• 48:30
  Speaker 1: the end.
• 48:30
  Speaker 2: Yeah they did.
• 48:31
  Speaker 3: Yeah, we'll talk about their signs in just a second.
• 48:34
  Speaker 3: Before we do, I want to bring you back to
• 48:36
  Speaker 3: mile nineteen when you saw the Peloton squad.
• 48:41
  Speaker 1: Was it how you visualized? Exactly how I visualized it.
• 48:47
  Speaker 1: I knew Jessins was going to be there.
• 48:50
  Speaker 3: I scared the hell out of her when I remire
• 48:52
  Speaker 3: she was looking the other way and I saw her
• 48:55
  Speaker 3: in her cute little brown hed and I reached for
• 48:57
  Speaker 3: her arm and then I'm like, oh my god, I
• 48:59
  Speaker 3: probably just scared the sh out of her. I reached
• 49:01
  Speaker 3: for her arm and I grab it.
• 49:02
  Speaker 2: She just like, oh my god. I'm like, oh my god,
• 49:04
  Speaker 2: that's so crazy.
• 49:05
  Speaker 3: Just like ran by her and I texted her yesterday
• 49:08
  Speaker 3: I was like, I am sorry for a time assaulting you,
• 49:11
  Speaker 3: assaulting you, and I ran, but you.
• 49:13
  Speaker 2: Knew she was going to be there.
• 49:14
  Speaker 1: I knew she was going to be there, And there
• 49:16
  Speaker 1: was just something about seeing them like I had envisioned
• 49:21
  Speaker 1: it for so long and so like running straight to
• 49:25
  Speaker 1: her was like I was running towards my sister. I
• 49:27
  Speaker 1: don't I don't have a sister. I'm an only son,
• 49:29
  Speaker 1: only child, and so like I think there was something
• 49:33
  Speaker 1: about just running towards her and knowing that she was
• 49:36
  Speaker 1: so proud of me, and all of them were, and
• 49:41
  Speaker 1: it was just a beautiful, super emotional moment for me,
• 49:45
  Speaker 1: Like even to see Robin out there like after you know,
• 49:49
  Speaker 1: her believing in me when I didn't believe myself, and
• 49:51
  Speaker 1: like just all the people there, Matt Wolper's was out there,
• 49:56
  Speaker 1: like I was just like, oh my god, I loved
• 49:58
  Speaker 1: y'all so much and they just the confetti bomb and
• 50:02
  Speaker 1: just hugging them and then just to be real and
• 50:04
  Speaker 1: just be like this is so hard, and like you
• 50:07
  Speaker 1: got this. You gotta keep going, keep going, You're so close,
• 50:10
  Speaker 1: You're doing so good. You know.
• 50:12
  Speaker 2: Just hearing that in that moment was what I needed
• 50:15
  Speaker 2: and so wild.
• 50:16
  Speaker 3: Also being on the other side, because I don't even
• 50:19
  Speaker 3: think when Jess ran the marathon in Boston that you
• 50:22
  Speaker 3: thought that you.
• 50:23
  Speaker 2: Were going to run a marathon. Oh gosh, absolutely not.
• 50:26
  Speaker 1: I was like, she is nuts, but I'm going to
• 50:28
  Speaker 1: go support her because you know, she had went through
• 50:30
  Speaker 1: her own challenges with injury, and I was like, I'm
• 50:33
  Speaker 1: going to go up here.
• 50:33
  Speaker 2: And you know, she didn't.
• 50:34
  Speaker 1: Tell anybody that she was doing it right, which I
• 50:36
  Speaker 1: think was a beautiful way to go about it too.
• 50:39
  Speaker 2: You know, I think we both that's how you could
• 50:40
  Speaker 2: tell we're both so different.
• 50:41
  Speaker 1: I tell everyone, She's like, I'm just going to do it,
• 50:43
  Speaker 1: and then I'll tell everybody after. But you know, just
• 50:48
  Speaker 1: being out there and being able to support her, and
• 50:50
  Speaker 1: I knew that she would be out there, you know,
• 50:52
  Speaker 1: cheering for me, and I was getting tons of text
• 50:54
  Speaker 1: messages from her like every mile, like keep going, yeah,
• 50:57
  Speaker 1: so good.
• 50:58
  Speaker 2: Yeah.
• 50:59
  Speaker 3: You are running on Central Park South and you are
• 51:03
  Speaker 3: heading toward twenty six point two, you pass twenty six,
• 51:08
  Speaker 3: you're turning that right that Columbus Circle and you make
• 51:11
  Speaker 3: that final right into the park. Where's your head? Where's
• 51:15
  Speaker 3: your heart?
• 51:18
  Speaker 1: My head and my heart are connected, and I'm just
• 51:21
  Speaker 1: saying to myself. And I also ran with my pet,
• 51:25
  Speaker 1: and I was like, I did this, I did this,
• 51:27
  Speaker 1: I did this. I can I can almost see the
• 51:29
  Speaker 1: finish line. I remember like taking the the marathon scenic
• 51:35
  Speaker 1: classes on Teleton, and I remember the moment like I
• 51:37
  Speaker 1: remember like, this is the finish line is close, you know,
• 51:40
  Speaker 1: so I visually, I'm a visual person, so I knew
• 51:42
  Speaker 1: like it was coming. And I was like, Kirsten, you
• 51:45
  Speaker 1: really did this, you really did this, and you are
• 51:51
  Speaker 1: so close. You're so close. You're so close. Yeah, and
• 51:56
  Speaker 1: your daughters are literally inches away from you now at
• 52:00
  Speaker 1: this point. So where were they they were brought down
• 52:04
  Speaker 1: onto the finish line? Yeah, yeah, So I crossed the
• 52:07
  Speaker 1: finish line and I was like, where are my babies?
• 52:11
  Speaker 1: And then I look up and I see a sign
• 52:12
  Speaker 1: with my head on it, like like a cutout of
• 52:16
  Speaker 1: my head, and then like another sign, and I was like,
• 52:18
  Speaker 1: there they are, and I I ran right up to
• 52:23
  Speaker 1: them and I.
• 52:23
  Speaker 2: Just lost it. I lost it.
• 52:25
  Speaker 1: I lost it, and they were just like, we're so
• 52:28
  Speaker 1: proud of you, Mom, We're so proud of you. And
• 52:30
  Speaker 1: then Emory had my metal. Oh so she put the
• 52:34
  Speaker 1: metal around my neck.
• 52:36
  Speaker 2: And that was everything for me. Like that was for
• 52:48
  Speaker 2: them to be able to see how I went through
• 52:51
  Speaker 2: something so hard, to then get back and then to
• 52:55
  Speaker 2: do this was just and then to have her put
• 52:59
  Speaker 2: the metal on my neck, it was like just the
• 53:02
  Speaker 2: form of like them saying they're so proud of me
• 53:06
  Speaker 2: after it all was just my why and doing it all,
• 53:11
  Speaker 2: you know, is for them to see me as their example.
• 53:15
  Speaker 2: But like also know like I would do anything for them,
• 53:18
  Speaker 2: and for them to show up for me in that
• 53:20
  Speaker 2: day was beautiful for me, so beautiful.
• 53:22
  Speaker 3: Yeah, and you don't necessarily need to run twenty six
• 53:27
  Speaker 3: point two miles, I.
• 53:29
  Speaker 2: Know, know, like I'll never do that again. I'll I'll
• 53:32
  Speaker 2: just make them pancakes and they'll still be excited. They
• 53:35
  Speaker 2: will same excitement.
• 53:37
  Speaker 3: They will because you are their superhero. Yeah yeah hard
• 53:41
  Speaker 3: stop yeah right yeah. And so to see you for.
• 53:45
  Speaker 2: Them at that moment so special.
• 53:48
  Speaker 3: But it's really just solidifying it yet again what they
• 53:52
  Speaker 3: already know. Yeah, like Mom's here, she ain't going anywhere,
• 53:57
  Speaker 3: you know, and she will always make her way back
• 54:00
  Speaker 3: to you.
• 54:00
  Speaker 2: Yes, And I told him that.
• 54:03
  Speaker 1: In that moment, I was like, you are the reason
• 54:05
  Speaker 1: why I crossed the finish line.
• 54:06
  Speaker 2: I knew you were here.
• 54:07
  Speaker 1: Yeah, that is the only reason why I crossed the
• 54:10
  Speaker 1: finish line. You guys, the only reason why I cross
• 54:14
  Speaker 1: the finish line. I knew you were there. Yeah.
• 54:17
  Speaker 2: How'd you celebrate? So?
• 54:20
  Speaker 1: I had a house full of people. All my friends
• 54:24
  Speaker 1: came over. I had big brunch, but I was so
• 54:28
  Speaker 1: ill I couldn't even eat.
• 54:31
  Speaker 2: I didn't want to eat.
• 54:32
  Speaker 1: Yeah, I pulled my legs and sleeves and sat and
• 54:36
  Speaker 1: I just wanted to calm down from it all and
• 54:41
  Speaker 1: just process it, you know. But everyone was just so
• 54:47
  Speaker 1: happy for me and wanted to celebrate, and I'm just
• 54:49
  Speaker 1: so grateful. I think for me also, it's accepting love
• 54:54
  Speaker 1: in a different way. For me, for so long, I
• 54:56
  Speaker 1: thought love had to come from a partner, and now
• 54:59
  Speaker 1: i'm it can come from so many different places and spaces.
• 55:03
  Speaker 1: And I felt so loved that day from people I
• 55:06
  Speaker 1: didn't even know to, like my chosen family to my family.
• 55:12
  Speaker 1: I just felt so much love. What about the love
• 55:16
  Speaker 1: from yourself? Still working on that, Yeah, I'm definitely still
• 55:21
  Speaker 1: working on that. But I did find some quiet time
• 55:27
  Speaker 1: in the shower while I was like, oh that chafed
• 55:29
  Speaker 1: a little, where I was like, I'm so proud of you.
• 55:35
  Speaker 1: I'm so proud of you Hereston. You worked really freaking
• 55:38
  Speaker 1: hard and you did that, and you told yourself you
• 55:41
  Speaker 1: would never do it, and you did it. And so
• 55:44
  Speaker 1: I did have that quiet moment in the shower. But
• 55:49
  Speaker 1: still still working on the love of me process.
• 55:52
  Speaker 3: Yeah, yeah, I've definitely mentioned this on the show before,
• 55:56
  Speaker 3: but I was once at a workshop and there were
• 55:58
  Speaker 3: maybe like forty five women in the room, and the
• 56:01
  Speaker 3: facilitator was like, I want you to think about someone
• 56:03
  Speaker 3: you love and write down like a sentiment to share
• 56:07
  Speaker 3: with them, and not a single woman in the room
• 56:11
  Speaker 3: thought about herself. And it's a testament really to what
• 56:19
  Speaker 3: ninety nine point nine percent of us always are doing.
• 56:23
  Speaker 3: We're naturally in community, we're naturally in service of others.
• 56:27
  Speaker 3: We're naturally people that aren't going to say I'm going
• 56:31
  Speaker 3: to put myself first. But what I would say is
• 56:35
  Speaker 3: one of my biggest lessons from doing this fourteen times
• 56:38
  Speaker 3: over is that I will never regret investing in myself.
• 56:42
  Speaker 3: I will never regret showing up for myself. And so
• 56:46
  Speaker 3: now when you reflect on your training process, your marathon journey,
• 56:51
  Speaker 3: what would you say has been one of your biggest takeaways?
• 56:57
  Speaker 1: One of my biggest takeaways I would say is stop
• 57:03
  Speaker 1: limiting yourself, Kirston. You are called to do so much,
• 57:11
  Speaker 1: and just stop believing the lies that you've been telling yourself.
• 57:15
  Speaker 2: What are some of the lies?
• 57:17
  Speaker 1: Not capable, not good enough, too slow, if too big
• 57:24
  Speaker 1: of hips.
• 57:28
  Speaker 2: Definitely can't run a marathon. You definitely can't run a
• 57:30
  Speaker 2: marathon with them hips, honey, And now you know that
• 57:35
  Speaker 2: not to be true.
• 57:36
  Speaker 1: It's not true. It's not true. You can run a
• 57:38
  Speaker 1: marathon with hips. Hey, Yeah, And like every runner looks different,
• 57:44
  Speaker 1: every mother brother looks different, and you know we get
• 57:48
  Speaker 1: the same metal. You know, you ran it a lot
• 57:51
  Speaker 1: faster than mine, but on this side it looks the same.
• 57:54
  Speaker 1: Yours hasn't graved. I don't have my time on it,
• 57:57
  Speaker 1: but it all it's all the same, right. Yeah, So
• 58:00
  Speaker 1: if you can get through that twenty six point two,
• 58:04
  Speaker 1: you're incredible, Yeah, incredible, incredible, incredible, regardless of how long
• 58:08
  Speaker 1: it takes you.
• 58:08
  Speaker 3: You know, I was honest, And how long it takes you.
• 58:10
  Speaker 3: It's so true. It's so true. I was the wall
• 58:13
  Speaker 3: in the studio that we're sitting in right now. I
• 58:16
  Speaker 3: have six big posters, and one for each of the
• 58:19
  Speaker 3: world marathon majors. New York is the only one that
• 58:22
  Speaker 3: I've run multiple times, and previously on the wall I
• 58:26
  Speaker 3: had the New York time, which also happened to be
• 58:29
  Speaker 3: my fastest marathon ever. And I got my new poster
• 58:33
  Speaker 3: yesterday and I came home and I thought to myself, Yeah,
• 58:36
  Speaker 3: I'm gonna put the new one in there, because it
• 58:39
  Speaker 3: isn't about the time for me. Yes, you can aspire
• 58:42
  Speaker 3: to something start.
• 58:43
  Speaker 2: I love that for you, It's part of it.
• 58:46
  Speaker 3: But when I think about the journey to each of
• 58:49
  Speaker 3: these different destinations, they are all so beautiful and so
• 58:52
  Speaker 3: special in their own way that they all deserve to
• 58:56
  Speaker 3: be celebrated, absolutely regardless of what those say at the end,
• 59:01
  Speaker 3: regardless of what's on the back of the metal.
• 59:04
  Speaker 1: The fact that you have one of these as awesome.
• 59:07
  Speaker 1: I love hearing the clinging.
• 59:10
  Speaker 2: Let me tell you something. They're like, Oh, you're gonna
• 59:12
  Speaker 2: wear your metal metal Monday.
• 59:13
  Speaker 1: I said, no metal year, honey, metal yahs, sick of
• 59:15
  Speaker 1: see in this thing? Because I'm wearing it everywhere.
• 59:17
  Speaker 2: You're gonna be sick of me.
• 59:18
  Speaker 1: You're gonna be Could you go and talk about that
• 59:21
  Speaker 1: metal again?
• 59:23
  Speaker 2: Would you do it again? No? Oh wow, I didn't
• 59:27
  Speaker 2: expect that, Gandi Bla. Really Yeah, No, you don't need
• 59:30
  Speaker 2: to do it. I don't need to do it again.
• 59:32
  Speaker 1: You feel full. I feel full, like I I can
• 59:37
  Speaker 1: really close the door on the fact that I said
• 59:43
  Speaker 1: I would never do this like I'm full, I'm full.
• 59:47
  Speaker 1: I don't need to do it again. I think for me,
• 59:50
  Speaker 1: I love the half marathon distance, and I think where
• 59:53
  Speaker 1: I want to play is maybe do more halves and
• 59:56
  Speaker 1: work on time there. But I also just want I
• 1:00:00
  Speaker 1: get back into strength training and challenge myself in other
• 1:00:03
  Speaker 1: ways and maybe find a different hobby. But I you know,
• 1:00:08
  Speaker 1: I do appreciate running and I and I do love
• 1:00:12
  Speaker 1: that time. For me, I just don't know if I
• 1:00:14
  Speaker 1: need to do that distance. Yeah again, that's understandable. I'm
• 1:00:19
  Speaker 1: totally fine. Yeah, I want to like love like I
• 1:00:22
  Speaker 1: love that I did it. I did it, I did it.
• 1:00:24
  Speaker 1: I don't have to do it again. You know. What's
• 1:00:26
  Speaker 1: also interesting is it's almost like kids, they're like, all right,
• 1:00:28
  Speaker 1: we did that now what are you gonna do? It's like, uh,
• 1:00:31
  Speaker 1: celebrate this, Yeah, but how important is that?
• 1:00:34
  Speaker 2: Right?
• 1:00:34
  Speaker 1: Yeah?
• 1:00:35
  Speaker 2: That is something that is so often overlooked.
• 1:00:37
  Speaker 3: It's like we give ourselves this narrow window of time
• 1:00:41
  Speaker 3: to celebrate. That's it, and then it's like, Okay, onto
• 1:00:43
  Speaker 3: the next thing, On to the next thing.
• 1:00:46
  Speaker 2: Now.
• 1:00:46
  Speaker 1: I want you to be like fully present and what
• 1:00:48
  Speaker 1: you just did, yeah, and all that you accomplished. Yeah,
• 1:00:52
  Speaker 1: And I'm gonna sit in it for a while because
• 1:00:54
  Speaker 1: I feel like I still haven't fully processed at all,
• 1:00:56
  Speaker 1: even sitting here talking to you. I'm a sit in
• 1:01:00
  Speaker 1: it for a while. I'm a sit in I'm a
• 1:01:02
  Speaker 1: celebrated and yeah, I don't know if I need to
• 1:01:06
  Speaker 1: do it again.
• 1:01:06
  Speaker 3: Though you sat in your pause era for a while, Yeah,
• 1:01:09
  Speaker 3: you might as well sit in this one for a
• 1:01:10
  Speaker 3: while too.
• 1:01:11
  Speaker 2: I love it. I love it here.
• 1:01:12
  Speaker 3: It's done for anyone else who ever doubted that they
• 1:01:18
  Speaker 3: could too take on a feat like this. Maybe it's
• 1:01:22
  Speaker 3: a marathon. What do you have to say to them?
• 1:01:29
  Speaker 3: What I told myself, Stop believing the lies that you've
• 1:01:32
  Speaker 3: been telling yourself. You're capable. I always believe that if
• 1:01:36
  Speaker 3: you have that feeling on your heart, we all know
• 1:01:38
  Speaker 3: what that feeling is. But when you don't feel like
• 1:01:40
  Speaker 3: you're qualified or capable, you just tell yourself you can't. Instead,
• 1:01:50
  Speaker 3: what if you just say, well, it's on my heart,
• 1:01:53
  Speaker 3: let me try, let me try and see what happens.
• 1:01:57
  Speaker 3: And there's gonna be peaks and valleys in that too,
• 1:01:59
  Speaker 3: but still try, still try. If it's not your heart,
• 1:02:03
  Speaker 3: try it, try it. What's the worst that could happen.
• 1:02:07
  Speaker 3: What's the worst that could happen? You learn something new
• 1:02:09
  Speaker 3: about yourself. I'm gonna make that a gift and just
• 1:02:11
  Speaker 3: like keep that out in my life. Like you just saying,
• 1:02:13
  Speaker 3: what's the worst that.
• 1:02:13
  Speaker 2: Could happen, the worst that could happen.
• 1:02:15
  Speaker 3: I love that you have an opportunity right now as
• 1:02:19
  Speaker 3: we finish up, to offer yourself a piece of advice.
• 1:02:22
  Speaker 3: If we go back to the pause era, if we
• 1:02:25
  Speaker 3: go back to the woman that was so beside herself
• 1:02:28
  Speaker 3: with frustration that she was nowhere where she wanted to be.
• 1:02:33
  Speaker 3: Knowing what you know now having that metal around your neck,
• 1:02:37
  Speaker 3: what do you tell her?
• 1:02:40
  Speaker 1: I have a lot to tell her, but I would
• 1:02:44
  Speaker 1: first tell her that I am proud of her, proud
• 1:02:51
  Speaker 1: of her. Then in that moment in that moment, because
• 1:02:55
  Speaker 1: it was one of the darkest times in my life,
• 1:02:57
  Speaker 1: to be honest, where I just felt like all that
• 1:02:59
  Speaker 1: I worked hard for.
• 1:03:00
  Speaker 2: I worked so hard to.
• 1:03:03
  Speaker 1: Get through the divorce, to get to Peloton, to learn
• 1:03:07
  Speaker 1: everything I needed to learn to then be running and
• 1:03:10
  Speaker 1: things be great, you know in flow I like to
• 1:03:13
  Speaker 1: call it, and then for it all to come to
• 1:03:14
  Speaker 1: a halt, and I didn't know if I was going
• 1:03:17
  Speaker 1: to be able to run again, and I didn't know
• 1:03:18
  Speaker 1: like this was my livelihood, this that I provide for
• 1:03:20
  Speaker 1: my children. Didn't know all that, and then I had
• 1:03:24
  Speaker 1: so much to heal. I did all that in that moment,
• 1:03:28
  Speaker 1: before even the vision of a marathon. I would want
• 1:03:31
  Speaker 1: her to know I'm proud of her. I'm so proud
• 1:03:34
  Speaker 1: of her as she is she is. Oh my god,
• 1:03:40
  Speaker 1: I'm so happy for you. Thanks, I'm so proud of you.
• 1:03:44
  Speaker 3: It has like been it has been such a joy
• 1:03:47
  Speaker 3: to watch you on this journey and I'm grateful to
• 1:03:50
  Speaker 3: have been the smallest part of it.
• 1:03:53
  Speaker 2: No, you were a big part of it. So thank you.
• 1:03:56
  Speaker 1: Like your encouragement throughout this whole process has been for me,
• 1:04:00
  Speaker 1: Like I think you even saw something in me that
• 1:04:02
  Speaker 1: I didn't see in myself either, Like, so I appreciate
• 1:04:05
  Speaker 1: you down girl.
• 1:04:07
  Speaker 3: Yeah, well, I mean, but that's again that goes back
• 1:04:09
  Speaker 3: to our conversation about like, when you're in it, it's hard.
• 1:04:12
  Speaker 3: It's hard, and we are so lucky to have the
• 1:04:14
  Speaker 3: opportunity to show up for people that we love.
• 1:04:16
  Speaker 2: Yeah.
• 1:04:16
  Speaker 3: Absolutely, and like you said on the day of the marathon,
• 1:04:19
  Speaker 3: it reminds you that that is truly an opportunity. And
• 1:04:22
  Speaker 3: so now I think that, you know, we get to
• 1:04:27
  Speaker 3: continue to do that without hundreds of thousands of people
• 1:04:31
  Speaker 3: in one place.
• 1:04:32
  Speaker 2: Exactly the quiet and the quient.
• 1:04:37
  Speaker 3: For those that aren't following along with you just yet
• 1:04:39
  Speaker 3: tell us how we keep up with you on social.
• 1:04:41
  Speaker 1: You can follow me on Instagram I am Kirsten Ferguson
• 1:04:45
  Speaker 1: and catch me on Peloton, Peloton, Tread, Peloton Outdoor. I'd
• 1:04:48
  Speaker 1: love to see you.
• 1:04:49
  Speaker 2: I can't wait to cheer a champagne with you. In
• 1:04:51
  Speaker 2: four moments.
• 1:04:51
  Speaker 3: I am over at Emily a Body and at Hurdle
• 1:04:54
  Speaker 3: Podcast Another Hurdle Conquered.
• 1:04:57
  Speaker 2: Catch you guys next time.