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Nervous System and Soulful Manifesting Part 4 · The Spiritual Shitshow Podcast

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  Hello, and welcome back to the Spiritual Shit Show podcast.
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  My name is Julie Nguyen, and I am loving this manifestation series, and I hope you are, too.
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  Listen, I record this because I am in the trenches with you.
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  I think anybody who says that they have it all figured out is full of shit.
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  I think we are always a work in progress.
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  We are always looking at our own stuff because we are human and we are always evolving.
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  Our human experience is a lifelong experience of growth, and continuous learning and learning more and more and more about yourself.
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  I think the, the growth and the understanding and this phrase that I've been loving lately is, you know, can you feel the rapture of being alive, of being alive?
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  I think that's what this journey home to yourself really is all about, is, you know, no matter what is going on in the outside world, can you feel the rapture of being alive, the gift of being alive?
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  I love recording these podcasts right now, specifically, selfishly, because I am in a few different coaching programs, and what I am seeing and feeling with myself is the bigger the expansion and, like, when I'm, like, so excited about, yes, you know, I'm gonna do it, I'm gonna put myself out there, I'm gonna-- this is, like, getting clear about the life that I wanna create, then the contraction feels just as intense So this, so this particular manifestation series is keeping me on point because I definitely do have a tendency to dip.
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  I definitely dip, like,"See, here it goes again.
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  Nothing's fucking working out.
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  That was so close.
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  I was so close." Like, when is it gonna happen?
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  And I think that's normal for a lot of us.
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  I think, you know, a lot of us who are in this, dance with manifestation, it's a tricky dance, and we want the end result.
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  We want the final performance, and it's that space, it's that timing in between.
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  It's the waiting.
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  It's the surrendering.
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  It's the trusting.
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  All of that is the hard part.
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  I am in it.
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  and today I'm laughing'cause question number 10 of this series is what role does the nervous system play in our ability to receive?
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  Now, I experienced this firsthand yesterday because my goal, I set a certain amount of money that I wanted to make this month, and it's getting to the end of the month, and I was like,"See?
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  This shit doesn't work." And lo and behold, which is how the universe works, I had a few people contact me who are interested in my coaching packages, and when I did the math, I was like,"Well, when they sign up, Julie, you're gonna hit your mark." And my first response wasn't a woo-hoo.
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  My first response was,"Oh my God.
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  Am I ready for this?
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  Can I do this?
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  And is this too good to be true?" Nervous system, so we're gonna get into it.
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  The first question today, what role does the nervous system play in our ability to receive, and can something be consciously desired while the body experiences as unsafe?
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  And the answer here is yes.
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  I don't even have to channel on that answer.
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  It's yes.
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  It's yes, and that's where the real work comes in, is we have to cultivate a sense of not only self-love, safety, worthiness.
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  We have to work on our energetic frequency within ourselves so we can be a vibrational match for what it is that we want.
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  In Energy Club, the guides are always prepping and priming us on that.
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  That's why practices like gratitude and love and follow the joy and find what's fun and what do you love, all of these things are what brings you to a higher frequency.
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  It, it brings you to a, a, a state of being where then you can actually celebrate the manifestation when it's coming to you But I am gonna pause and see what the guides have to say about this.
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  And they're saying absolutely right, everything is frequency.
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  And if we can point a- an arrow, if anybody who wants to do more inner work, it is to really begin to notice and establish can you increase your base point all the time, your base for integration, your base for being grounded, your base point for joy, for love, for trust?
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  How do you resonate with the idea that the universe has my back, everything's always working out for me all the time, I am incredibly and deeply supported all the time, all the time, all the time?
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  What is your relationship to that?
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  This is where the nervous system work comes in because it's the brain's way of kind of always tracking for safety, and the nervous system responds.
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  If we can get into the physical body in deeper, deeper states of resonant safety, of really truly being grounded, then it is easier to trust in the knowing that everything is working out for me.
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  Everything is working out for me.
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  Everything is always working out for me.
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  And then from that, you can take some breaths, relax, sit back Trust that you're supported And then from this point, when you go from panic To surrender And you're allowing more and more and more of your soul to participate in the incredible creation of your manifestations.
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  It is a practice of sitting back in life, sitting back, sitting back, sitting back and watching it all happen observe, observe observe how the universe is giving you all things constantly priming you and prepping you for the next and then the next and then the next and then the next.
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  But do you believe that there can be an abundance of the next and the next and the next and the next?
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  Or are you attuned to scarcity?
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  Too good to be true The other shoe's gonna have to drop I'm holding my breath through all of the good because I know it's not gonna last long There's an invitation here through meditation to practice the sensation in the physical body of everything is happening for me all the time, all the time.
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  I am deeply and wildly supported all the time Life is getting better all the time, and I am ready.
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  I am ready.
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  I am ready.
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  I say yes.
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  I say yes.
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  I say yes.
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  I'm ready for it.
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  And so what's happening here, is I'm hearing that for myself, and, sitting down in a little meditation and allowing the, this information to come into my own physical body.
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  I'm very aware of, as I'm saying, hearing these words, saying these words, and then practicing them in real time This is where that, uh, disconnect within your desires, your heart, and then your nervous system is because my nervous system then revs up because then it's like,"Well, what if, what if I disappoint myself?
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  What if I believe in the work and somebody else is disappointed?
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  What if I oversell and under-deliver?
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  What if?" So then my nervous system drops into the what if.
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  So this then is giving me the area then that I need to work on.
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  How can I strengthen this?
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  I love a power of a reframe.
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  So how can I see this for myself in a different way?
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  And how can I connect in and train my nervous system?
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  Uh, let's fucking go.
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  Like, let's go.
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  Like, we can have a good life.
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  We can have a, an incredible life And it feels like to follow up with this might be a meditation.
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  but for now, I'm gonna pause and I'm gonna get into the next question.
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  And the next question is: how do we know what we genuinely desire versus what our ego wants because it symbolizes success, validation, status, and belonging?
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  I am totally there in that question as well.
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  I've realized for myself that when I am creating and doing, like, the vision board and the manifestation stuff, I'm doing so from this part of me that wants to be seen.
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  I want to...
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  I remember how a room shifts, and I've seen it firsthand, when it's like,"Ooh, that person is..." or,"They are..." And everybody goes,"Ooh.
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  Ah." My husband is an actor, and we can be in the same room together, and once people find out that he's in movies, I turn into chopped liver immediately.
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  And he gets, like, all eyes on him, and he gets the perks, and yeah.
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  It's, it's, I see it.
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  So I know that there's a part of me that when I am manifesting, I want also the big name, and I want the big job, and I wanna be the, the spiritual coordinator for Ariana Grande and, these big celebrities because there's a part of me that is manifesting because I want the,"Ooh, look at who she is," or,"Ooh, look what they've done." I want, I want the status.
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  I want, I want that.
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  I want the accolades.
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  Does my soul really want that?
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  Not sure.
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  So I totally get this question because I catch it for myself.
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  Do I want the big house so that way I feel validated in life?
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  And can I feel validated in life by what I have already?
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  So for me personally, my personal work is surrendering to not needing a big identity and role to feel valued by other people.
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  And it's hard, like I said, because as soon as you hear what somebody does and there's the ooh, and the ah, and the wow, you know, you're kinda like,"Oh, shit," you know?
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  "I'm not, I'm not anybody." Or,"Why would any..." And since I'm not anybody, why would anybody wanna come work with me?
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  Am I valued?
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  Am I talented?
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  Does anybody care what I offer?
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  So it's way easier to have the accolades, to have the fame and the charm and the name.
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  I get it.
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  But that's where this tricky work comes in.
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  Can I be satisfied within myself without having the name or the thing or the ooh and the ah in other people's eyes?
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  Can I be so incredibly and deeply grateful for the life that I have, and feeling so lucky with everything that I have, and still be okay with desiring more?
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  But being able to operate in the world where my identity and my reputation doesn't precede me in a way then that makes me feel safe and more important.
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  Can I just feel important and valued and valuable as is?
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  It's a tricky part for me.
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  But that's my personal experience.
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  Let's check in and see what the guides have to say about this.
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  So how do we know what we genuinely desire versus what our ego wants because it symbolizes success, validation, status, and belonging?
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  This is the beautiful question of, mm, there are so many people who have chased success, and when they get to the top and when they reach their goal, they're not happy.
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  All humans can achieve whatever it is that you want.
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  It's desire, then it's action.
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  What we want to invite in is, uh, soul-aligned space, time, allowance, and then action.
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  And then action.
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  Then what you manifest, what you achieve, what you do becomes so soul-fulfilling Then you want more of it and more of it and more of it and more of it because you see what an impact it is making on the hearts of others.
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  We encourage everybody to stop manifesting for a moment and connect into what makes you, you.
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  What are the gifts that you innately have?
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  What makes you happy?
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  What do you love?
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  If you weren't getting paid for anything ever, if there was no such thing as money at all, what would you choose to do?
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  Have you experienced times in your life where whatever you're doing, you can keep doing it and doing it and doing it and doing it because it's fun?
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  And when you're doing it, there's no sense of time and you never want it to end When you are in these types of spaces and places This is how you know you are living a soul-aligned life and not an ego-based one Now there is nothing wrong with an ego.
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  We love an ego.
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  An ego is, is so supportive.
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  The ego is empowering.
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  The ego helps you to set incredible goals and to hold really beautiful, loving boundaries But the ego isn't writing the script.
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  You are.
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  Your soul is.
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  Your heart is.
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  So we always wanna make sure that we can give the ego a different role and practice allowing the heart, the soul of who you are to speak.
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  What does the soul of who you are want to say?
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  And then when you manifest from there, then you know you are in what it is that you genuinely desire versus what your ego wants This next question is interesting.
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  It's what would I want if nobody could see it?
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  And if I couldn't post it, announce it, monetize on it, or receive praise for it, would I still want it?
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  Hmm, I don't really know how that's gonna be a question for the guides, but I can see What would I want if nobody can see it?
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  Well, when I check in to see if there's an answer here, you know, when I channel, I, I get the answers by asking the questions.
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  But this, I'm trying to feel into that just as a really beautiful question for myself of this actually feels like, um, a journaling prompt of how would I want my life to be?
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  What would I do?
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  How would I look?
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  What would I wear?
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  Where would I go?
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  How would I live?
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  if it truly was just for me and not to post or not to be impressive or not to be keeping up with the Joneses or whatever.
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  And I think that's actually a really beautiful way of, centering into your life, taking ownership of what really feels good for you and loving what feels good for you.
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  For me, I know, again, this is practice.
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  Practice, practice, practice Because I can get caught up in the, the keeping up with the Joneses.
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  Not that I wanna keep up with the Joneses, but I feel the pressure when I'm around other people that are like that, you know, that are really status-driven and, you know, have the designer bags and the things and the things.
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  And it's interesting because I feel that I, as I'm talking this out, that I...
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  Hmm, I'm gonna have to journal about this.
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  This is really good.
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  I equate my value to how other people see me, and I personally feel that sometimes when there's somebody who has the big house and the Gucci bag and the th- uh, like, they look very, um, impressive, then I begin to question my own worth.
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  So again, in manifesting, I can see how there is a part of me that desires to have these things because there's a part of me that feels like if I am these things and I have these things, then I will be seen, but more importantly, valued.
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  I'll be treated better So then this question of what would I want if nobody could see it?
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  What would I desire if I didn't have to announce it or monetize it or receive praise for it?
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  And would I still want it?
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  So that sounds like a really cool question and something to think about and journal on Hmm.
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  Okay.
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  That's it for now.
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  Thanks for joining me here as we question a little deeper and work with spirit just a little bit more on manifesting.
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  What I'm hearing is it's really like this journey inward.
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  What is really, really true for you?
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  And can you catch yourself when you're slipping into these parts of yourself that are seeking validation and recognition and status?
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  And that's totally fine.
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  I'm not gonna lie, I still do want it, but I need to look at it and create it from a different way.
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  Meaning, if I reframed that idea, my ability to have a name that people recognize Also offers me bigger opportunities for impact and power, but power for love.
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  Power to really step into what it is that I want to do, which is to inspire as many lives as I possibly can, and to help other people see the light and the beauty and the magic within themselves.
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  To light as many souls up as I possibly can.
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  To practice being in community, loving community with people.
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  My favorite thing in the entire world is leaving somebody and they feel better, I have left them better Not always perfect at it, but that's the goal.
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  It is what I love to do.
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  Makes me feel happy And so when I'm doing the work on myself, it's so that I can actually do more of that And then I'm gonna say in big but also sustainable ways.
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  Like I want this next thing that I'm building To be the path that's carrying me into the rest of my, my life.
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  Like, it's gonna be my legacy.
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  Where in the dance world, you know, I spent 17 years building something, but that business is not what is carrying me into the rest of my life.
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  It kind of was just something that I created and spent 17 years doing, and then I had, to unravel and heal for 10 years.
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  And so building this next part of my life is really actually scary.
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  Super scary.
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  It comes with a lot of what ifs, like,"What if I don't make it?
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  What if I never become something again?
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  What if nothing that I build ever takes off like like I had once before?
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  What if I can't do it by myself?
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  What if I'm not as talented as I think I might be?
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  What if?" So all of those questions are coming in through this manifestation process for me.
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  And I'm talking it out with you, the listener, because these are some of the things that are happening within our bodies that we don't always know how to name or recognize.
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  But when you can hear somebody talking it out in real time, you're like,"Fuck, that's me too," or,"Shit, I never really thought about that that's how I feel," or,"That's what I'm, I'm kinda working through." So anyway, that is the podcast for today.
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  As always, thank you for being here.
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  Thank you for being on the journey I'm just really grateful.
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  Okay, till next time