Latest / Sincere 360 Roundtable / Who Are You? (S1:E1)
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- Studio: Who are you when everything is stripped away from you? Who are you when the times get low? Who are you when you feel like you need it but don't nobody need you? Let me rephrase that. Who are you when you need it? And you can't get that help, man. When you done help everybody else from the bottom of your heart, who are you then? What are you gonna do then? How are you gonna maintain your thoughts? Who are you? When you feel like you're that person to hold all the glue together, who are you then? Who are you when you feel like your homeboy or your your homegirl or your inner circle disrespected you? Who are you? Who are you when you when life get tough, man, and that ladder seem too long to climb? When that mountain, man, begin to to move itself, but it's gonna move in your way. Not move out of your way, but move in your way. Who are you? Who are you gonna be? Are you gonna strip yourself? You gonna let the world strip you? Or you gonna stand ten toes. Welcome to Sincere 360s Round Table. man sit back and relax because let's go on a journey. I started Sincere 360. to heal the broken. And when by broken, by people that are lost, It's not to dissect or break down. the catastrophes of your life. It's to uplift what you got going on right now today. I don't care about the past you've been through. I don't care about none of that. Because it's in the past. We always leave stuff in the past. Because if you ponder on the past, you're always gonna live in the past. Let's look at right now and where you need to be. Sincere 360 is my brand. It is, it is who I am, it's my whole circle. It's not a 90-degree angle, it's not 180, it's not, no, it's the whole 360. And this is why I made this up. This is why I live this life. This is why I do what I do right now, today. When I wake up in the morning from a 24-hour yesterday, this is what I wake up to. We're here to shape you. I'm speaking to you directly. if you listen to my voice, you listen to what I have to say right now, I'm listening. Let's shape what situation you in right now. Let's take that journey, man. Let's start right now, right now, today, let's talk about it. I don't care about what you've been through. And I mean that in the best way. Because we all have, a past, man. Regardless if you were a Christian, Muslim, what I don't, it doesn't matter to me. It doesn't matter where you come from. We all have a past, we all have a story, and we can help one another. That's the meaning of this podcast is to unite people to be in human. If you're not human, man, I don't even want you listening to me. If you can feel, if you can understand, if you can feel with your heart, man, yeah, I need you. I need you right now. So let's do what we gotta do. So y'all can contact me at any time, anytime. And I can guarantee you, man, if I got that opportunity, I'm gonna hit you back up. Man, hit me up. I want to get to know who you really are. Because I'm gonna tell you who I am. I'm gonna tell you where I've been. I'm gonna tell you who I saw to try to shape me, who they thought I was. I'm gonna man, I'ma gonna chime in because I'm authentic like that. Let's be real. This podcast is about being real, man. This element right now, this platform is about being real. It's about being authentic about who you are. I don't give a man, listen, excuse me I don't give a damn about where you've been. I don't give a damn about who you know. This is for you, me, and everybody that feel like they need a platform to speak. They need a platform to learn. They need a platform to understand where they're going. Let's go on a journey. Man, I'm gonna try to bring y'all what I have at least once a week. Y'all can chime in on what I need to do, what I need to improve on. I'm good on good criticism. Y'all can reach me on social media, you know, anything. let me know what I need to improve on. So we're gonna stay on topic here, man. I wanna ask everybody a question right now before I start. Take a deep breath. It's gonna hit real deep with some people. Who you are? Who are you? What do you stand for in your life? The topic of today is who are you? Let that sit for a second, man. Let me emphasize that, man. Who are you? Let me introduce you to me. My life was a tug of war. It was a tug of war for me in my situations where I grew up at. I was looking at people trying to understand what they had going on. And people that can relate to me just understand where I'm going. Pimps, players, hustlers, gangbangers, prostitutes, whatever. Whatever you've been through in life, man, whatever you had your eyes to shed tears on. When I say tears, I don't mean at this moment, I don't mean tears that people saw you cry, but the hurt that you saw inside because what you saw, it really wasn't you. I had to play tug of war with myself. I had to really understand who I really was. That's the tug of war between who I really was and who I really wanted to be. Because even as a young age, man, you had dreams. You had dreams when you was when you was little. when you went to elementary, they asked you what did you wanted to be when you was little. Back in my day, a bunch of people said, I want to be a police, I wanna be a fireman, I wanna be whatever, right? But you start seeing the different chaos in your life. You start recommending people, man, I don't want to go to the army because you might have seen a Muhammad Ali. You saw Muhammad Ali, like, hey, don't call me Castis Clay. Call me Muhammad Ali because he was woke. To certain things in his life that he like he graduated to, and he was like, no, I'm not gonna accept what people put on me, right? But once again, that's his life. That's who he was. That's who he saw himself that he wanted to be. But I asked you one question, straight up, man. Throughout what I'm saying right now, who are you? You can't be like him. That's Muhammad Ali. That's the greatest of all time. Let's do that. Let's start right there. That's Muhammad Ali. But where do you see yourself at? Where who do you see yourself as? It's good to mimic people, man. I'm a boxer, man. I like different kinds of boxes, man. I can name a few. You know what I mean? But I get my style of boxing from a bunch of people. But at the end of the day, I'm gonna implement that on my own terms. I can't box like Mike Tyson. I don't hit hard as Mike Tyson. I ain't gonna even lie to you. But I can I can show some of his moves. I can, generate myself in a form that People can say, okay, that yeah, Mike Tyson might have taught me that. I don't mind. Because I can learn from different people, man. But did I learn in a negative way? Let me show you that. Did I learn in a negative form? Give me that answer. Because I learned from a person that I like to do. I like to box. He showed me some things that I learned from, right? So now that was a stepping stone for me. That made me feel good. That made me feel I got the question in my mind: who am I? Yeah, I'm a boxer at that point in time. That's what I want to do. That's where I want to stand at right there. And his element, man, he was the best. Still the best in me. straight up, he's still the best. Regardless of what he did in his past, I look at that. it wasn't somebody that told me to be him. Everybody loved Mike Tyson, man. Even the haters love Mike Tyson. So I asked you again, man. I'm gonna ask you, who are you? Because at some point in time, you're gonna be like, okay, yeah, I traveled through, that moment. I travel through that moment right there. I travel through a specific time that I felt that was me. This is not about who you was told to be. This is not who life graded a zero to you because you wasn't in your element at that time. So who was you told to be? person work all your life and not have fun, a person to to to to join this gang and and no man come on man like let let's be real about what what's going on let's be authentic about what's going on because you probably joined something that you really don't didn't want to join because everybody persuaded you to do certain things in your life but you was told to do that you was manipulated to do that How many years of your life, man, you was manipulated to and told to be somebody that you really didn't want to be? And you live your life uncomfortable. I'm talking to you, homie. Don't don't do yourself like that. You manipulated yourself to believe that these people hold the truth in what you you really need to be. And that wasn't really the truth, homie. In the back of your mind, you wanted to be something totally different. come on, man. And you didn't even understand that because you saw them living in a life. That you want it, but you didn't know what it took for them to get it. And once once you knew the road that it took to get it, you didn't want it no more. You didn't want it no more. We're gonna go back to the gangbanging days in my era. The dope sellers, the pimps, or whatever. They had the money, they had the cars, they had the women, they had all this here. So as a young dude, I'm looking at all this like, damn, yeah, I need that. They got the respect. They got the hands, they got the pistols, they got all this right here. That's all I'm seeing because it's a protection for my family. It ain't even for me. I ain't never been a scary dude. I've been a shy dude before, you know what I'm saying? But don't quote me on that. But yeah, but I'm saying, in life, man, in life, we took what we saw. And we took what we was told to do as a youngster, until you start maneuvering, you start seeing people different. You start peeping, people go to the penitentiary. You start hearing about snitches. You start hearing about, he ain't keeping it 100. You start hearing these things, but you don't leave, you don't really want to comprehend to it because this is a dude that you respected. This is a dude that you respected in the streets, and you and you held him accountable, not even really knowing that word. You held him accountable, not even knowing what that meant. you see, man, the man, the big homie, he real. The big homie, he got it going on. The big homie, he got everything that I want. But you never accepted the fact of how he got it. You never accepted the fact of he went down there. He didn't keep it 100 with the hood. He kept it 100 with himself. That's how he felt. He pretended. He pretended. He pretended to be the person you thought he was. Man, don't pretend to yourself. Because whether they like you or not. If you want honey with yourself, they ain't got no choice but to agree with it. Or leave them alone because they mean nothing to you. If a person is real with you behind you being not authentic, man, that's not the person for you, homie. That's not the person that you need in your world. Because every day you wake up, you wake up for him, not you. You wake up for them, not you. You wake up for another person in your life and not you. And once again, you're gonna live in misery. You're gonna live in misery, man. Don't wake up for nobody else. You got 24 hours a day I want you to shine, shine, shine. And once you shine, you're gonna shine that light on somebody else that really needs it. It's not only me. It's somebody that I'm working through you. You working through somebody that somebody's working through somebody else. That's how we unite, man. I don't care about the bags. I don't care about. What everybody getting, you know what I'm saying? I I don't. This is what I'm getting right here. I'm speaking to you. I wanna ask you something, all the listening ears, I wanna ask you something. Who are you when everything is stripped away from you? Who are you when the times get low? Who are you when you feel like you need it but don't nobody need you? Let me rephrase that. Who are you when you need it? And you can't get that help, man. When you done help everybody else from the bottom of your heart, who are you then? What are you gonna do then? How are you gonna maintain your thoughts? Who are you? When you feel like you're that person to hold all the glue together, who are you then? Who are you when you feel like your homeboy or your your homegirl or your inner circle disrespected you? Who are you? Who are you when you when life get tough, man, and that ladder seem too long to climb? When that mountain, man, begin to to move itself, but it's gonna move in your way. Not move out of your way, but move in your way. Who are you? Who are you gonna be? Are you gonna strip yourself? You gonna let the world strip you? You gonna stand ten toes, man. I'm gonna make a little joke, but those of you with nine nine, eight, seven seven toes, man, you can use some of my toes to step on. Just a little joke, man. But but seriously though. Who are you gonna be, man? I advise you, man, to truly understand who you are, not what people say you are, not what people see you as. Everybody living up under these gang names, everybody living up under these murder raps, whatever you living up under, man. If you got a pure heart about yourself. I advise you to let it roll, let it shine. If you can think of a diamond, Y'all may heard this many times before, but how was that diamond made? It was made under fire, intensive fire. It was molded into something, man. It was graded into something. Grade yourself. Don't let the world grade you, homie. Don't let the world grade who you are because they always gonna be off. Because, first of all, you don't have the courage to speak for yourself at that moment. When I was a little kid, I could I didn't have the courage to speak for myself. I spoke for the hood. I spoke what they thought of me. I gave my input on everything about the hood. I don't own no hood. That ain't my hood. Can I go back to the place where I've been? Yeah, I can, always. Always got my respect there. But that's not my hood, man. I don't own anything but this house I'm living in. I don't own no blocks, man. I don't own none of that. And I'm not gonna pretend like I own it. Yeah, I was loyal to the people, man. I was loyal to my homies. Not no more. To the ones that got out like me, yeah, of course. Yeah, yeah, I'm cool. The ones that's still in it, if they need my assistance on some positive thing, man, I'm there. You can't call me right now and be like, hey man, look, I'm I'm going, I'm yeah, I'm now no, I'm no. Nah. Because I have courage enough. I have, I have the ability and the choices in my life right now to understand who I am, to say no. To say no. When you loyal to the hood when you was little, you know what I'm saying? When you was growing up and you saw authentic things that in your mind you saw that was you felt like. That was real, you went with the flow because that was real to you. That was real to you when you was growing up, man. But as you grew, as you had that maturity in your life, man, that growth started weighing on you. And that ain't me. That ain't how I feel. That ain't what the universe created me for. Come on, man. I'm speaking real to somebody. So what you see in your life? Understand what that means. Research on what you see in life. Regardless, it's religion, it's gangbanging, selling drugs, pimping, whatever, man. Your family, marriage, whatever it is what you see in your life, I need you to feel it. I need you to feel those emotions, man, and take heed to what you feel. Take heed to what you feel. Don't be equipped enough to be like, okay, this is what I was told to do. Because what you told to, what was you told to do is somebody that didn't even know better. They know they didn't know better about what they felt. And even if they did, I need you to do the research on yourself because what they taught you may have been real to them, but not real to you. It wasn't real to you because y'all are two different people. I don't care if it was your mama, daddy, sister, auntie. Grandmoms, everybody respect the grandmoms and the moms, man. You know what I'm saying? But what was real to you back in whatever, man, time has changed, time has in evolved. But take that, take that and don't pretend on yourself, man. Don't pretend on yourself because what they told you is not happening right now today. But in reality, you can keep that same spirit, man, and keep it like man, keep it kosher with yourself. Keep it closer with yourself, man, at all times. Because one thing about life, man, people are always gonna come and try to disrupt your peace. They're gonna try to disrupt who you really are or what you're trying to be. A little about this podcast, man. A lot of people said it wasn't gonna make it. They didn't speak to me directly, but they spoke to me like, man, I'm yeah, it's cool, but yeah. I took that. I took that within me. they did not stop me from being who I am. That's why I'm right here today. I'm living my purpose right now today, because I didn't allow them to stop who I am today, man. They don't hold no weight in my life. They don't hold anything in my life but conversation. And I'm able to throw it away. Because it's something I don't need. Don't pretend with yourself. Don't pretend about who you are. And don't allow life or anybody else to strip anything away from you, man. Don't do that with yourself. Give yourself an opportunity to grow. Give yourself an opportunity in that chance in that moment in your life, that precious moment in your life, man, to say, okay, this is who I am. This is what I'm gonna motivate myself to be. You start looking up things, you start looking up people, you start talking people that's higher than you in that zone. Don't look at nobody that's trying to disrupt who you are. Homie, don't look at nobody that's that's trying to manipulate situations. Well, look, we can turn this corner right here and be there faster. No, you don't want it faster. You don't want that faster, man. I can guarantee you that you don't want it faster. This is what you're looking at with me right now. I'm looking at you in your eyes right now. I'm looking you in your eyes right now and tell you and telling you, I built this right here with my own two hands, man. Without the people that told me it couldn't happen. Without the people that told me, okay, yeah, man, I I'm I'm with you, but I'm I'm I'm gonna stay back here. But guess what, man, you continuously be back there. I'm not tripping. Because now I'm looking at you and you ain't looking at me. And not just on a not not on this podcast. I'm looking at you like, damn. I had that respect in you. I had that knowledge in you. I had that understanding about you. I was willing to take you with me. But I had to understand, you not me. I am who I am. You are who you are. I asked the question again, who are you? Who are you? Ask yourself that in the mirror, man. Don't ask nobody else. Ask yourself that. Who are you? What do you see in yourself? What people told me that I can overcome? Who did I pretend to be when people was looking at me? Who was I when everything was stripped away from me? Who was I? Was I really the man that I needed to be? Because honestly, you could be. You could be that that person that that that you are. But I don't feel like, this is my personal opinion, man. I don't feel like nobody, no one on the face of this earth. Was the person they was meant to be when they was born. And listen to what I'm saying. Don't don't misinterpret what I'm saying. You had to grow into it, first of all. Some people was born in poverty. Some people was born with a silver spoon in their mouth. Even the people with the born what was born with the silver spoon in their mouth had choices. They had choices. And sometimes they had more problems than the person that was struggling. So you can't mimic that, man. You can't mimic the people that the high class people from the low class people. Because one thing about life, man, we was all human. We all human. And these are just the smaller things in life. These are just the smaller things that people don't even look at no more because there's so many, there's so much technology. There's so many things that's going on in our lifespan to where we look at different things and different people and try to conduct our lives on that. Why would you do that when you have different feelings? Why would you override your emotions when you have different feelings from the next person? I don't understand that. Why continuously to take chances on your life and play tug of war with yourself? Do you even understand the tug of war? Why would you fight against yourself? Chime in and please help me, man, understand. why pretend with yourself? You have to sleep with yourself. You have to eat with yourself. You have to go through certain things in life by yourself. So why would you fight with yourself? I don't understand that, man. Be real with yourself, man. Be authentic with yourself. I can guarantee you go a long way with learning who I am, learning the structures of life of what you want to be, where you wanna be, who you wanna be, how you wanna conduct the path of your life. I can guarantee you have a better understanding of I want to get in my car and I wanna roll somewhere without the GPS. I want to get in my car and I wanna do this by myself. That's more really than I'm gonna go pick up one of my homies, man, and we're gonna ride where he wanna go. Nah, it's not where I wanna go. Nah. If we don't agree to it and I feel safe with it, nah. I'm not gonna pretend with you, man. Because first of all, I'm not gonna pretend with myself. Let's get into it, man. I love it. There's certain situations in my life, man, to where Where I learned from. Where I see myself as compared to Where I want to go, where I want to be. There are certain things that that taught me the value. Of who I am. Growing up, I misunderstood who I was. I misunderstood and misinterpreted. My life, my emotions, my heart, my mental. My mental was with everything that I saw. As before, I grew up in a gang infested area. Everybody around me was gang members, man. From my home front to school in the middle of the day, late at night, that's what we that's what I inherit. I saw that in my life. I mimicked that in my life. I had the dickies, the chucks, the flags, the, yeah, I did that, man. I did all that. It was somewhat of who I was told to be through actions of everybody else. People that saw 10, 15 years before me, they taught me and told me who I was gonna be. So I mimicked that. I mimicked that era and my that was my era in life. That was who I wanted to be at that particular time. But did I feel right doing it? Sometimes I ain't I'm I'm gonna keep it 100. Sometimes, because that's what I knew. But when I go back, And I understand who I was. man, how could I feel right doing that? How could I feel right? At that moment, yeah, it was. It was. But once I started growing with myself, once I started learning who I was, I asked myself, why? Why did I do that? And once you ask yourself, why did you do that? You begin to learn who you are. Because if you ask yourself why, now you're gonna ask yourself, who am I? Who do I really wanna be? I don't wanna be something that somebody told me to be. That ain't gonna feel good with me. That ain't gonna feel right with me. That's not gonna set right with me. So who am I? I was a pretender, man. Let's keep it real. I was a pretender in the streets. I was a pretender. Was I fake? No, I wasn't fake to the hood. I wasn't fake to the hood because I stayed loyal to the hood. Yeah, my credentials says so. I stay loyal to the hood. But man, I didn't even stay loyal to myself, so I was a pretender to myself. Come on. Let's be real to what we saying, man. I was pretending to be someone that I was not. Understand what I'm telling you. I was pretending to be someone that I was not, somebody that I was not. I wasn't made to kill my own kind. I wasn't made to kill anybody. Man, I I'm not trying to go to war. But here I am, I'm toggling with myself. I'm toggling with myself, trying to be this person, man, trying to live my purpose in life. That's who I would I needed to be, but I didn't understand it. I didn't understand the masses of what I needed to do to incorporate this life for myself. I pretend to be somebody. that I had no interest in in in really doing. It was just the thing that I saw. It was a thing that surrounded me, that captivated me into doing other things in my life that yeah, I regretted right now today. But when all fails though, when all that was stripped away from me, and I woke up. That growth, that maturity, that choice to allow me to change, that choice to allow me to understand truly who I am. I begin to notify myself. I begin to understand, okay, yeah, you know what? I did this. But life has something different from me, man. It has something different for me. It has something that I can pull to. Who was I when everything stripped away from me? I was that person that meditated. Didn't even know that I was meditating. I was that person that went off by myself because I was I was always a quiet person. I was always that person. To believe in myself, but I didn't know how. I was always that person to say, damn, I did wrong, man. Damn, damn, I tripped out. I was that person say, damn, why the hell did I do that? I was always that person to correct myself, not even knowing that I did. Not even knowing that I was correcting myself because I didn't have the ability in my mental, in my mental to understand that. But who I am right now, I'm not complete, man. I'm not complete. I'm not perfect. But I am the man who I need to be. I'm growing. I'm understanding life in my own eyes. I no longer have to play tug of war with myself. I no longer have to pretend with myself. I no longer have to listen to the people that try to tell me who I was gonna be. I never I I I no longer have to look at the things that I see and say, Hey, I wanna mimic that unless it's positive. Who am I today? Is the person that I grew from yesterday. I developed myself. I grew with myself. I was patient with myself. I was understanding with myself. I mimic myself because I am who I trust. I am who I say I am. I can go to bed at night and say I told somebody the truth about me today. I can sleep well knowing that I did that, man. I can speak from the heart. I can speak from who I am and my standpoint right now, today, as you look at me, man, say, I spoke the truth about who I am to somebody who's really who's really ready to accept who they are. If you can understand that, man, roll with me. Chime in with me. Let's unite. Let's see who you are. I don't want no pretenders. I don't want somebody who told you that you were this person. I don't need that. You don't need that. The world don't need that. The world needs you. Real woman, real man, real whoever you are. Let's go. Let's be authentic about who you are, man. Let's be authentic about your lifespan in life. Let's be authentic about what you're trying to do. This is the platform for you, man, not just me again. Let's create something positive, man. Let's, man, let's come together on something. Let's break the chain on something, man. Whatever the chain that you want to break, let's be authentic about it. Let's break it. Let's break it, man. Once again, man, this is Sincere 360. The round table. The round table means everybody's welcome. That means you. Let's get it. Let's get it done. Let's chime in, man.