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- 0:00Speaker 1: Section forty six of selected Essays of Michel de Montaigne
- 0:04Speaker 1: by Micheliquem de Montaigne, translated by Charles Cotton. This LibriVox
- 0:10Speaker 1: recording is in the public domain. Read by Pamel Andagami
- 0:16Speaker 1: of Managing the Will, Part three, How often have I
- 0:22Speaker 1: done myself a manifest injustice to avoid the hazard of
- 0:27Speaker 1: having yet a worse done me by the judges? After
- 0:30Speaker 1: an age of vexations, dirty and vile practices more enemies
- 0:35Speaker 1: to my nature than fire or the rack. A man
- 0:39Speaker 1: should be an enemy to all lawsuits as much as
- 0:42Speaker 1: he may, and I know not whether not something more,
- 0:46Speaker 1: for tis not only liberal, but sometimes also advantageous too
- 0:52Speaker 1: a little to recede from one's right Cicero, were we wise,
- 0:57Speaker 1: we ought to rejoice and boast, as I one day
- 1:00Speaker 1: heard a young gentleman of a good family, very innocently
- 1:04Speaker 1: do that his mother had lost her cause, as if
- 1:08Speaker 1: it had been a cough, a fever, or something very troublesome.
- 1:12Speaker 1: To keep even the favors that fortune might have given
- 1:17Speaker 1: me through relationship or acquaintance with those who have sovereign
- 1:20Speaker 1: authority in those affairs, I have very conscientiously and very
- 1:26Speaker 1: carefully avoided employing them to the prejudice of others, and
- 1:30Speaker 1: of advancing my pretensions above their true right. In fine,
- 1:36Speaker 1: I have so much prevailed by my endeavors, and happily
- 1:40Speaker 1: I may say it that I am to this day
- 1:43Speaker 1: of virgin from all suits in law, though I have
- 1:47Speaker 1: had very fair offers made me, and with very just title.
- 1:51Speaker 1: Would I have hearkened to them, and a virgin from
- 1:55Speaker 1: quarrels too. I have almost passed over a long life
- 2:00Speaker 1: without any offensive moment, either active or passive, or without
- 2:05Speaker 1: ever hearing a worse word than my own name a
- 2:08Speaker 1: rare favor of heaven. Our greatest agitations have ridiculous springs
- 2:14Speaker 1: and causes. What ruin did our last Duke of Burgundy
- 2:19Speaker 1: run into about a cartload of sheepskins? And was not
- 2:23Speaker 1: the graving of a seal the first and principal cause
- 2:27Speaker 1: of the greatest commotion that this machine of the world
- 2:30Speaker 1: ever underwent Footnote the civil war between Marius and Sullah,
- 2:37Speaker 1: for Pompey and Caesar were but the offsets and continuation
- 2:41Speaker 1: of the two others. And I have in my time
- 2:44Speaker 1: seen the wisest heads in this kingdom assembled with great
- 2:48Speaker 1: ceremony and at the public expense, about treaties and agreements
- 2:53Speaker 1: of which the true decision in the meantime absolutely depended
- 2:58Speaker 1: upon the lady's cabinet, cometl and the inclination of some
- 3:02Speaker 1: foolish woman. The poets very well understood this when they
- 3:08Speaker 1: put all Greece and Asia to fire and sword about
- 3:11Speaker 1: an apple. Inquire why that man hazards his life and
- 3:16Speaker 1: honor upon the fortune of his rapier and dagger. Let
- 3:20Speaker 1: him acquaint you with the occasion of the quarrel. He
- 3:23Speaker 1: cannot do it without blushing. Tis so idle and frivolous.
- 3:29Speaker 1: A little thing will engage you in it. But being
- 3:32Speaker 1: once embarked, all the chords draw. Great provisions are then required,
- 3:37Speaker 1: more hard and more important. How much easier is it
- 3:43Speaker 1: not to enter in than it is to get out?
- 3:47Speaker 1: Now we should proceed contrary to the read, which, at
- 3:51Speaker 1: its first springing produces a long and straight shoot, but afterwards,
- 3:56Speaker 1: as if tired and out of breath, it runs into
- 4:00Speaker 1: and frequent joints and knots, as so many pauses, which
- 4:04Speaker 1: demonstrate that it has no more its first vigor and firmness.
- 4:09Speaker 1: Twour better to begin gently and coldly, and to keep
- 4:13Speaker 1: one's breath and vigorous efforts for the height and stress
- 4:17Speaker 1: of the business. We guide affairs in their beginnings and
- 4:22Speaker 1: have them in our own power. But afterward, when they
- 4:25Speaker 1: are once at work, tis day that guide and govern us,
- 4:29Speaker 1: and we are to follow them. Yet do I not
- 4:33Speaker 1: mean to say that this council has discharged me of
- 4:36Speaker 1: all difficulty, and that I have not often had enough
- 4:40Speaker 1: to do to curb and restrain my passions. They are
- 4:44Speaker 1: not always to be governed according to the measure of occasions,
- 4:48Speaker 1: and often have their entries very sharp and violent, but
- 4:53Speaker 1: still good fruit and profit may thence be reaped, except
- 4:57Speaker 1: for those who, in well doing are not sad satisfied
- 5:00Speaker 1: with any benefit. If reputation be wanting foreign truth, such
- 5:06Speaker 1: an effect is not valued, but by everyone to himself.
- 5:11Speaker 1: You are better contented, but not more esteemed, seeing you
- 5:16Speaker 1: reformed yourself before you got into the whirl of the dance,
- 5:20Speaker 1: or that the provocative matter was in sight. Yet not
- 5:25Speaker 1: in this only, but in all other duties of life. Also,
- 5:28Speaker 1: the way of those who aim at honor is very
- 5:31Speaker 1: different from that they proceed by who propose to themselves
- 5:36Speaker 1: order and reason. I find some who rashly and furiously
- 5:41Speaker 1: rush into the lists and cool in the course. As
- 5:45Speaker 1: Plutarch says, that those who, through false shame are soft
- 5:49Speaker 1: and facile to grant whatever is desired of them, are
- 5:53Speaker 1: afterwards as facial to break their word and to recant.
- 5:57Speaker 1: So he who enters lightly into a quarrel is apt
- 6:01Speaker 1: to go as lightly out of it. The same difficulty
- 6:05Speaker 1: that keeps me from entering into it, would, when once
- 6:08Speaker 1: hot and engaged in quarrel, incite me to maintain it
- 6:13Speaker 1: with great obstinacy and resolution. Tis the tyranny of custom.
- 6:19Speaker 1: When a man is once engaged, he must go through
- 6:22Speaker 1: with it or die undertake coldly said bias, but pursueth
- 6:28Speaker 1: ardor for want of prudence, men fall into want of courage,
- 6:33Speaker 1: which is still more intolerable. Most accommodations of the quarrels
- 6:38Speaker 1: of these days of ours are shameful and false. We
- 6:42Speaker 1: only seek to save appearances, and in the meantime betray
- 6:46Speaker 1: and disavow our true intentions. We salve over the fact.
- 6:52Speaker 1: We know very well how we said the thing, and
- 6:55Speaker 1: in what sense we spoke it, and the company know it,
- 6:58Speaker 1: and our friends whom we have wished to make sensible
- 7:01Speaker 1: of our advantage. Understand it well enough too. Tis at
- 7:05Speaker 1: the expense of our frankness and of the honor of
- 7:09Speaker 1: our courage, that we disown our thoughts and seek refuge
- 7:13Speaker 1: in falsities to make matters up. We give ourselves the
- 7:18Speaker 1: lie to excuse the lie we have given to another.
- 7:23Speaker 1: You are not to consider if your word or action
- 7:25Speaker 1: may admit of another interpretation, tis your own true and
- 7:29Speaker 1: sincere interpretation your real meaning in what you said or
- 7:33Speaker 1: did that you are thenceforward to maintain whatever it costs.
- 7:38Speaker 1: You men, speak to your virtue and conscience, which are
- 7:43Speaker 1: not things to be put under a mask. Let us
- 7:47Speaker 1: leave these pitiful ways and expedients to the jugglers of
- 7:50Speaker 1: the law. The excuses and reparations that I see every
- 7:54Speaker 1: day made and given to repair indiscretion seem to me
- 7:58Speaker 1: more scandalous than the indiscretion itself. It were better to
- 8:03Speaker 1: affront your adversary a second time than to offend yourself
- 8:08Speaker 1: by giving him so unmanly a satisfaction. You have braved
- 8:13Speaker 1: him in your heat and anger, and you would flatter
- 8:16Speaker 1: and appease him in your cooler and better sense, and
- 8:20Speaker 1: by that means lay yourself lower and at his feet
- 8:23Speaker 1: whom before you pretended to overtop. I do not find
- 8:29Speaker 1: anything a gentleman can say so vicious in him as
- 8:33Speaker 1: unsaying what he has said is infamous, when to unsay
- 8:37Speaker 1: it is authoritatively extracted from him. For as much as
- 8:42Speaker 1: obstinacy is more excusable in a man of honor than pusillanimity,
- 8:47Speaker 1: passions are as easy for me to evade as they
- 8:51Speaker 1: are hard for me to moderate. Ex conduntur fauchiliusanimo quam temperantour.
- 8:59Speaker 1: He who cannot attain the noble stoical and passibility, let
- 9:04Speaker 1: him secure himself in the bosom of this popular stolidity
- 9:09Speaker 1: of mine. What they performed by virtue, I inure myself
- 9:14Speaker 1: to do by temperament. The middle region harbors storms and tempests.
- 9:21Speaker 1: The two extremes of philosophers and peasants concur in tranquility
- 9:26Speaker 1: and happiness, says Virgil. Happy is he who has discovered
- 9:32Speaker 1: the causes of things and tramples underfoot, all fear, all
- 9:37Speaker 1: concern as to inexorable fate, or as to the roaring
- 9:41Speaker 1: of greedy acorn. He is blessed who knows the country
- 9:45Speaker 1: gods pan Old Sylvanus, and the sister nymphs. The births
- 9:51Speaker 1: of all things are weak and tender, and therefore we
- 9:55Speaker 1: should have our eyes intent on beginnings. For as when
- 9:58Speaker 1: in its infancy the danger is not perceived, so when
- 10:03Speaker 1: it is grown up, the remedy is as little to
- 10:06Speaker 1: be found. I had every day encountered a million of
- 10:10Speaker 1: crosses harder to digest than the progress of ambition, than
- 10:15Speaker 1: it has been hard for me to curb the natural
- 10:18Speaker 1: propension that inclined me to it. I ever justly feared
- 10:23Speaker 1: to raise my head too high horus. All public actions
- 10:28Speaker 1: are subject to various and uncertain interpretations, for too many
- 10:32Speaker 1: heads judge of them. Some say of this civic employment
- 10:36Speaker 1: of mine, and I am willing to say a word
- 10:39Speaker 1: or two about it, not that it is worth so much,
- 10:43Speaker 1: but to give an account of my manner and such
- 10:45Speaker 1: things that I have behaved myself in it, as a
- 10:49Speaker 1: man not sufficiently easy to be moved, and with a
- 10:52Speaker 1: languishing affection. And they have some color for what they say.
- 10:58Speaker 1: I endeavored to keep my mind, did my thoughts in
- 11:01Speaker 1: repose kum semper natura tomatium my tacte, yam quietus. And
- 11:08Speaker 1: if they sometimes lash out upon some rude and sensible
- 11:12Speaker 1: impression tis in truth without my advice. Yet from this
- 11:17Speaker 1: natural heaviness of mine, men ought not to conclude a
- 11:21Speaker 1: total inability in me, For want of care and want
- 11:25Speaker 1: of sense are two very different things, and much less
- 11:29Speaker 1: any unkindness or ingratitude toward that corporation who employed the
- 11:35Speaker 1: utmost means they had in their power to oblige me,
- 11:38Speaker 1: both before they knew me and after. And they did
- 11:42Speaker 1: much more for me in choosing me anew than in
- 11:46Speaker 1: conferring that honor upon me. At first, I wish them
- 11:50Speaker 1: all imaginable good, and assuredly, had occasion been there is
- 11:55Speaker 1: nothing I would have spared for their service. I did
- 11:59Speaker 1: for them as I would have done for myself. 'tis
- 12:02Speaker 1: a good, warlike and generous people, but capable of obedience
- 12:07Speaker 1: and discipline, and of whom the best use may be
- 12:10Speaker 1: made if well guided. They say also that my administration
- 12:15Speaker 1: passed over without leaving any mark or trace good. They
- 12:20Speaker 1: moreover accuse my cessation in a time when everybody almost
- 12:25Speaker 1: was convicted of doing too much. I am impatient to
- 12:29Speaker 1: be doing where my will spurs me on. But this
- 12:33Speaker 1: itself is an enemy to perseverance. Let him who will
- 12:38Speaker 1: make use of me according to my own way. Employ
- 12:41Speaker 1: me in affairs where vigor and liberty are required, where
- 12:45Speaker 1: a direct, short and moreover a hazardous conduct are necessary.
- 12:51Speaker 1: I may do something, but if it must be long, subtle, laborious, artificial,
- 12:57Speaker 1: and intricate, he had better call ins somebody else. All
- 13:02Speaker 1: important offices are not necessarily difficult. I came prepared to
- 13:07Speaker 1: do somewhat rougher work had there been great occasion, For
- 13:12Speaker 1: it is in my power to do something more than
- 13:14Speaker 1: I do, or than I love to do. I did not,
- 13:18Speaker 1: to my knowledge, omit anything that my duty really required.
- 13:24Speaker 1: I easily forgot those offices that ambition mixes with duty
- 13:28Speaker 1: and palliates with its title. These are they that, for
- 13:31Speaker 1: the most part, fill the eyes and ears and give
- 13:36Speaker 1: men the most satisfaction. Not the thing, but the appearance
- 13:40Speaker 1: contents them. If they hear no noise, they think men's sleep.
- 13:47Speaker 1: My humor is no friend to tumult. I could appease
- 13:51Speaker 1: a commotion without commotion, and chastise a disorder without being
- 13:56Speaker 1: myself disorderly. If I stand in need of anger in inflammation,
- 14:00Speaker 1: I borrow it and put it on. My manners are
- 14:04Speaker 1: languid rather faint than sharp. I do not condemn a
- 14:09Speaker 1: magistrate whose sleeps provided the people under his charge sleep
- 14:14Speaker 1: as well as he. The laws in that case sleep too.
- 14:19Speaker 1: For my part, I commend a gliding, staid and silent life.
- 14:24Speaker 1: Nequae submiss someu et abjectam necue say a ferndemn. My
- 14:31Speaker 1: fortune will have it. So I am descended from a
- 14:35Speaker 1: family that has lived without luster or tumult and time
- 14:39Speaker 1: out of mind, particularly ambitious of a character for probity.
- 14:44Speaker 1: Our people nowadays are so bred up to bustle an
- 14:47Speaker 1: ostentation that good nature, moderation, equability, constancy, and such like,
- 14:55Speaker 1: quiet and obscure qualities are no more thought on or regarded.
- 15:00Speaker 1: Rough bodies make themselves felt. The smooth are imperceptibly handled.
- 15:06Speaker 1: Sickness is felt, health little or not at all, no
- 15:11Speaker 1: more than the oils that foment us in comparison of
- 15:15Speaker 1: the pains for which we are fomented. Tis acting for
- 15:19Speaker 1: one's particular reputation and profit, not for the public good.
- 15:24Speaker 1: To refer that to be done in the public squares,
- 15:27Speaker 1: which one may do in the council chamber, and to
- 15:31Speaker 1: noonday what might have been done the night before, and
- 15:35Speaker 1: to be jealous to do that himself, which his colleague
- 15:38Speaker 1: can do as well as he. So were Some surgeons
- 15:42Speaker 1: of Greece wont to perform their operations upon scaffolds in
- 15:46Speaker 1: the sight of the people, to draw more practice and profit.
- 15:50Speaker 1: They think that good rules cannot be understood. But by
- 15:54Speaker 1: the sound of the trumpet, ambition is not a vice
- 15:59Speaker 1: of little people, nor of such modest means as ours.
- 16:03Speaker 1: One said to Alexander, your father will leave you a
- 16:07Speaker 1: great dominion, easy and pacific. This youth was emulous of
- 16:13Speaker 1: his father's victories and of the justice of his government.
- 16:17Speaker 1: He would not have enjoyed the empire of the world
- 16:20Speaker 1: in ease and peace. Alcibiades in Plato had rather die young, beautiful, rich, noble,
- 16:28Speaker 1: and learned, and all this in full excellence, than to
- 16:32Speaker 1: stop short of such condition. This disease is peradventure excusable
- 16:38Speaker 1: in so strong and so full a soul. When wretched
- 16:42Speaker 1: and dwarfish souls gull and deceive themselves and think to
- 16:46Speaker 1: spread their fame for having given right judgment in an affair,
- 16:50Speaker 1: or maintained the discipline of the guard of the gate
- 16:53Speaker 1: of their city, the more they think to exalt their heads,
- 16:57Speaker 1: the more they show their tails. This little well doing
- 17:01Speaker 1: has neither body nor life. It vanishes in the first mouth,
- 17:06Speaker 1: and goes no farther than from one street to another.
- 17:10Speaker 1: Talk of it by all means to your son or
- 17:13Speaker 1: your servant, like that old fellow, who, having no other
- 17:16Speaker 1: auditor of his praises, nor approver of his valor, boasted
- 17:20Speaker 1: to his chambermaid, crying, Oh, Perette, what a brave clever
- 17:25Speaker 1: man hast thou for thy master at the worst, Talk
- 17:29Speaker 1: of it to yourself, like a counselor of my acquaintance, who,
- 17:34Speaker 1: having disgorged a whole cart full of law jargon with
- 17:38Speaker 1: great heat and as great folly, coming out of the
- 17:41Speaker 1: council chamber, was heard very complacently to mutter between his teeth,
- 17:47Speaker 1: No nobis domine, no nob'st said nomini too, o dog Lorean.
- 17:53Speaker 1: He who gets it of nobody else, let him pay
- 17:56Speaker 1: himself out of his own purse. Fame is not prostituted
- 18:01Speaker 1: at so cheap. A rate rare in exemplary actions to
- 18:06Speaker 1: which it is due would not endure the company of
- 18:09Speaker 1: this prodigious crowd of petty daily performances. Marble may exalt
- 18:15Speaker 1: your titles as much as you please for having repaired
- 18:19Speaker 1: a rod of wall or cleansed a public sewer, but
- 18:22Speaker 1: not men of sense. Renown does not follow all good deeds,
- 18:27Speaker 1: if novelty and difficulty be not conjoined, Nay, so much
- 18:32Speaker 1: as mere esteem, according to the Stoics, is not due
- 18:35Speaker 1: to every action that proceeds from virtue. Nor will they
- 18:39Speaker 1: allow them bear thanks who, out of temperance, abstains from
- 18:43Speaker 1: an old, blear eyed hag. Those who have known the
- 18:48Speaker 1: admirable qualities of Scipio Africanus deny him the glory that
- 18:52Speaker 1: Panaetius attributes to him of being abstinent from gifts, as
- 18:57Speaker 1: the glory not so much his as that of the
- 19:00Speaker 1: age he lived in. We have pleasures suitable to our lot.
- 19:06Speaker 1: Let us not usurp those of grandeur. Our own are
- 19:10Speaker 1: more natural, and by so much more solid and sure
- 19:14Speaker 1: as they are lower, if not for that of conscience,
- 19:19Speaker 1: yet at least for ambition's sake, let us reject ambition.
- 19:24Speaker 1: Let us disdain that thirst of honor and renown so
- 19:28Speaker 1: low and mendicant that it makes us beg it of
- 19:31Speaker 1: all sorts of people by abject means, and at what
- 19:35Speaker 1: cheap rates soever tis dishonor to be so honored. Let
- 19:41Speaker 1: us learn to be no more greedy than we are
- 19:43Speaker 1: capable of glory. To be puffed up with every action
- 19:47Speaker 1: that is innocent or of use is only for those
- 19:51Speaker 1: with whom such things are extraordinary and rare. They will
- 19:55Speaker 1: value it as it costs them. The more a good
- 19:59Speaker 1: effect makes a noise, the more do I abate of
- 20:03Speaker 1: its goodness, as I suspect that it was more performed
- 20:06Speaker 1: for the noise than upon account of the goodness exposed
- 20:11Speaker 1: upon the stall tis half sold. Those actions have much
- 20:16Speaker 1: more grace and luster that slip from the hand of
- 20:19Speaker 1: him that does them negligently and without noise, and that
- 20:23Speaker 1: some honest man thereafter finds out and raises from the
- 20:26Speaker 1: shade to produce it to the light upon its own account.
- 20:32Speaker 1: All things truly seem more laudable to me that are
- 20:35Speaker 1: performed without ostentation and without the testimony of the people,
- 20:40Speaker 1: says the most ostentatious man that ever lived footnote Cicero.
- 20:46Speaker 1: I had but to conserve and to continue, which are
- 20:50Speaker 1: silent and insensible effects. Innovation is of great luster, but
- 20:55Speaker 1: tis interdicted in this age when we are pressed upon
- 20:59Speaker 1: an have nothing to defend ourselves from but novelties. To
- 21:05Speaker 1: forbear doing is often as generous as to do, but
- 21:09Speaker 1: tis less in the light. And the little good that
- 21:12Speaker 1: I have in me is of this kind. In fine
- 21:16Speaker 1: occasions in this employment of mine, have been confederate with
- 21:20Speaker 1: my humor, and I heartily thank them for it. Is
- 21:24Speaker 1: there any who desires to be sick that he may
- 21:27Speaker 1: see his physician at work, And would not that physician
- 21:31Speaker 1: deserve to be whipped, who should wish the plague among
- 21:34Speaker 1: us that he might put his art in practice. I
- 21:38Speaker 1: have never been of that wicked humor, and common enough
- 21:42Speaker 1: to desire that troubles and disorders in this city should
- 21:46Speaker 1: elevate and honor my government. I have ever heartily contributed
- 21:51Speaker 1: all I could to their tranquility and ease. He who
- 21:55Speaker 1: will not thank me for the order the sweet and
- 21:58Speaker 1: silent calm that has accompanied my administration cannot, however, deprive
- 22:03Speaker 1: me of the share that belongs to me by title
- 22:07Speaker 1: of my good fortune. And I am of such a
- 22:10Speaker 1: composition that I would as willingly be lucky as wise,
- 22:15Speaker 1: and had rather owe my successes purely to the favor
- 22:18Speaker 1: of Almighty God than to any operation of my own
- 22:23Speaker 1: I had sufficiently published to the world my unfitness for
- 22:27Speaker 1: such public offices. But I have something in me yet
- 22:32Speaker 1: worse than incapacity itself, which is that I am not
- 22:36Speaker 1: much displeased at it, and that I do not much
- 22:39Speaker 1: go about to cure it. Considering the course of life
- 22:43Speaker 1: that I have proposed to myself. Neither have I satisfied
- 22:48Speaker 1: myself in this employment. But I have very near arrived
- 22:51Speaker 1: at what I expected from my own performance, and have
- 22:55Speaker 1: much surpassed what I promised them with whom I had
- 22:58Speaker 1: to do. For I am apt to promise something less
- 23:01Speaker 1: than what I am able to do and than what
- 23:04Speaker 1: I hope to make good. I assure myself that I
- 23:08Speaker 1: have left no offense or hatred behind me, to leave
- 23:12Speaker 1: regret or desire for me among them. I at least
- 23:16Speaker 1: know very well that I never much aimed at it.
- 23:19Speaker 1: But says Virgil, should I place confidence in this monster?
- 23:24Speaker 1: Should I be ignorant of the dangers of that seeming
- 23:27Speaker 1: placid sea those now quiet waves? End of section forty six,
- 23:35Speaker 1: read by Pamelinagami, M D. In Encino, California, October twenty
- 23:40Speaker 1: twenty three. End of selected essays of Michel de Montaigne
- 23:45Speaker 1: by michel icem de Montaigne, translated by Charles Cotton,