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Becoming Flame, Feminine Power and the Fire Within · Becoming Flame: Where Sensuality, Sovereignty, and Sacred Power Ignite

• Kait Tregenza: Hey everybody, welcome to another episode. This episode of Becoming Flame is brought to you by Phenxx. Phenxx is a ritual luxury house devoted to erotic feminine embodiment. We create alchemical intimacy oils and functional fragrances infused with spagyric botanicals designed to soften the nervous system, open the body, and awaken life force vitality. Our formulations are crafted as tools of self-initiation. They are not cosmetic. It seems really weird that I haven't actually spoken to the very critical point about what is becoming flame. Why is it called becoming flame? Why do we name it that? What is this whole thing even about? Why do we talk about topics of emotional alchemy, but also sensuality and sexuality? How are those things all related? What is this all about? They are not decorative. They are designed to be felt. They are designed to shift. 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And you're just like, drowning. And I think really what becoming flame is for me, for why I'm doing this, for why I'm showing up here, for how I'm using this platform. is the moment of talking and airing out and feeling the depth of what we're in, of where we are, of where we are as a collective, but where we are as individuals. If you cannot feel the rage, the injustice, the... the lack of control, the lack of choice, the lack of autonomy, of agency, of capacity. You have no capacity to be unaffected by these global events. You have no capacity to simply say, don't agree and therefore I'm living outside of that reality because at some level we are all connected. And we should be far more connected. We should be far more integrated into each other's lives. But we're living in these hyper masculine, hyper individualized, hyper independent. entities instead of in cogs that are turning together in community and togetherness in village style matriarchal connection. And so for me becoming flame is that moment of I stop and I feel and I accept the depth of what that feels like. And in the moment of feeling it all and having that rip your body apart, that you're not running, that you're not isolating, but that you're sitting around connection point that you are a cog in a much wider system and that as you feel the pain of the world if you hold it for long enough and if you sit in that moment and you say I am safe here I am physically safe I am okay I am going to hold myself then what opens next is this opportunity to see the extent of the pleasure, the joy or the connection or the connectivity that you also hold in your body. And as we drop the fear of failing and as we drop the... As we drop the fear of these big emotions that we think we can't hold in our body, that we don't know how to process, that we don't know how to move through. And we said, okay, so let it consume me. I'm available to be consumed by rage. I'm available to be consumed by anger, by wrath, by envy, by injustice, by loss of agency. I'm available to feel the fullness of what that's actually like to have not enough power to exert control over a different situation. And the moment that you get into that, the moment that you sit and you go, why am I so angry about this? The reason is because it's not true. The reason is it's not true. There's another level of fear behind that fear that everything is falling apart and that you can't do anything about it. And the next level of that fear is that you can. The next level of fear that we as women are terrified of is not that we are powerless, is that we are powerful. the level of fear that I have met in women who change history, who change the world. They are not scared of being powerless. They're not scared that they cannot affect change. They are scared that they can. They are scared of who they need to become to be her. They are scared of what everyone around them will think of their immense power. Mmm. when I track every single event where powerlessness was locked into my consciousness, was locked into my psyche. The very moment that preceded a conclusion of powerlessness was showing my immense power and having it met with fear, with terror, with somebody else not available to hold the container for these incredibly powerful women to thrive. And as I got older and as my I had no outlet because I was stuffing it and stuffing it and stuffing it and stuffing it and be like, not here. You need to hold your tongue there. You're not the boss. They're the boss. know, this dynamic doesn't allow for you to be center stage and we control and we control and we control and we understand what polite society expects of us. We understand good girl. We understand pleasing. We understand doing all these things for other people because our training in life. has given us incredible complex understanding of how to serve everybody else's needs. And in doing so, it becomes this impossible task of if everybody's needs are here, where does my overwhelming power sit in that dynamic? And we conclude time and time and time and time again. Nowhere. It sits nowhere. There's no room for that. There's no place to put my immense feeling, my immense alchemy, my immense capacity. There's nowhere for it to go. So I push it, I suppress it, I stop it. I don't let it rise. I don't let it air. I stuff it all here. I keep it here. And I keep myself very controlled. After the dissolution of my marriage, my career, becoming mother, going through... the darkest journey that I had been on at that point. I finally had enough energy to sit down with my guides, my teachers, and I was at my tether and I said, I don't know what to do. I literally cannot go on. I have no more energy. I have no more me left. I have nothing else I can give to anybody, let alone myself. I have nothing more. And I got this like come hither, like step into it then. And this new teacher arriving and it was this flame, it was the fire. This was the first kind of time that I had ever thought about elemental teachers or elementals in any way. ⁓ You know, I knew that elements had a great opportunity for being part of women's work or whatever it may be. I was definitely one who was always lighting candles or loving bushfires or not bushfires, but like, know, campfires. And I understood the role of bushfire. as an Australian, I understand the role and the alchemy of that and back burning and controlled burning. And I understood to the extent that I could at the time, the Aboriginal land management philosophies that used fire. But that was it. I wasn't really a fiery or explosive person. I think that most of what I would be convicted of would be more my avoidance and my aloofness or my inability to really engage beyond a certain point. I'm a triple air sign, so I'm like, yeah, cool, I'm gone. This is not gelling. Peace. And so conflict avoidance was far more comfortable for me than stepping into the... into the middle of a problem. I'm more one to be like, have your problem. I'm gone. I don't literally need to see you ever again. true Aquarian in every way. And so for those of you who know that, you'll laugh at it. And so fire for me was, it was nothing. Like I didn't have a relationship with this. I didn't have any understanding beyond what a normal person would know. And so as I stepped into that fire and I can feel it here again now, it's just that container. It was this really amazing container of like, I have freedom here. I can feel the fullness here. And as I would bring up these awful, terrible, body shattering emotions, I would bring them up and the fire would take them and it would like alchemize. And what would come back to me would be like, a cause, a mission, not wrath for wrath's sake, not rage for race sake, but a level of clarity around what a mission could be based on what we were all feeling collectively. And as I said, I'm a triple air sign. So I have this incredible capacity to think deeply about myself as a Gemini. rising. ⁓ I'm a Libra moon, so I think deeply about all others and how I can put myself in the other person's perspective, having a complete understanding of them. And then as an Aquarian Sun, I'm like, my whole thing is about collective consciousness and how do we shift? How do we build new worlds? How do we destroy this old one and build this new one? And so, you know, to But I'm a Gemini and ⁓ cancer Casp. And so this ability to feel deeply is something that is actually able, like I can feel it deeply and intellectualize it and put words to it and translate the collective feeling and the collective pulse. And it's been this translation skill that I've had in almost every ⁓ orientation of my life and my background. So I'm stepping into the fire and I can feel it all. And can hear what fire is saying. I can hear the instructions and this teacher saying, you're safe here. To feel it all, you're safe. Like, just feel it, just be that. Give it to me, relax into this. And it was in that moment, this realization of I have never. in my life been safe to feel the fullness and the depth of not only me but of her and of all of us and the weeping and the pain and the injustice and the the depth and the sadness and all of it in this world because it's a world that doesn't exist for humanity it doesn't It doesn't accept that humans have a role to play in in a collective sense. It sees the world as we have these people on top and then we have a mass to extract from and to operate over the top of, to use and to mine and to ⁓ rob and to thief everything that they have for our gain. And you know, if you are someone who can live in this world and not feel anything about it, if you don't have any thoughts that this isn't good, this isn't ideal, if you are so stuck in your ways of like, I'm gonna go to my job and I'm gonna buy my house and I'm gonna, you know, do these things and, you know, send my kids to the institutions that... enforce these ways of thinking and being in the world, then You know, my question is, are you really human if you can't feel that this world isn't made for us? Are we in a world full of people who are not human? I'm not necessarily proposing that as a hypothesis, but I think it's a really interesting question because how is it possible that we have zombified people to such an extent that not feeling anything is the baseline normal? That's insanity. And that's what we call neurotypical people. That's what we call a functional human in society. When we say, when we talk about somebody's nervous system, as being functional and operational, as in they're not over-strung or ⁓ overstimulated, under-stimulated, over-regulated, down-regulated. It's like, I'm sorry, how is anyone functioning in a world where we pillage and extract and extinguish other human beings for fun, for sport, because we didn't have anything to do, because we couldn't have a conversation where we could all collaborate on an outcome that is suitable. Why is the border of your land versus my land important in any function? What does a border function as outside of patriarchy, outside of capitalism? Nothing. It's made up. It's arbitrary. It's artificial. And we are killing people over where a map is drawn. It's a line on a map. You go to a border in a real life circumstance, there's nothing there. It doesn't exist except in the offices of people that are so separate to the world that they are taking away from people. The people who fire the bombs are not required to be in amongst those who receive them. And if you cannot feel the injustice of that, if you cannot feel the unhumanity of that, the despair, the sadness, the destruction for no purpose. then I don't think it's that we feel too much. It's that the ones who feel nothing are dead. They're not human. They're not alive. They're not connected. When you walk past a forest and you see its destruction and you feel nothing, there needs to be a deeper question as to why. And so as I start to work with the flame and as I started to be held by this and feel the immensity of that in a container that could finally hold something while I collapsed in deep grief, in the grief that our mother feels, in the grief that our father feels, and in the perpetual capacity to just destroy this earth and each other for no meaningful reason that has any meaning beyond the artificial creation in these systems, in these man-made systems. The question had to become... Why is there for this war? It's a war on woman. It's a war on feeling. It's a war on creation. It's a war on alchemy. And these women who hold the fire within them, which is both the alchemical capacity to ⁓ transform, but also the passion, also the sensuality, the sexual energy, the life force energy, the vitality. Women's fire is literally the ingredient that is missing from this planet. Not at this time, at all times. Women are the fabric of the earth. Women are the portal of life. They are the way-showers of humanity. And we have been ripped from our fire. We don't have our fire ingested into us anymore. And so... as we get overworked and underpaid and we're tired and we're raising children alone, even if we have husbands outside of village, outside of community, outside of connection, the fire is too dim. It's embers. It's not getting stoked, literally and metaphorically. You know, you got to stoke your fire to get your juices flowing, right? And so this whole like, connection that I started to have with flame and the realization that you know if we don't take care of self if we don't take care of our own fire our own flame and we don't become that flame number one we're gonna hold a lot of emotion that is not ours that's part of the collective or that is ours but that we're not moving through because we're not catalyzing change from it When we talk about women feeling too much, it's because the emotion is stagnant. It's not coming in as data, as information, as resource to transform, to catalyze and to catalyze change, to catapult the world forward. And so as women have come more and more and more out of the flame of their power, of their fire, of their self, this essence of feeling too much, the heaviness of that, it's true because you cannot just have it all in your body and just feel it every day and just be like ⁓ I'm just I don't know what to do with this this is all too much I can't I have no power to do anything and that brings me back to the reason that women are also themselves disconnecting themselves from the flame is because they're terrified of just how powerful they are. They're terrified that they actually do hold the power to change the world and that they actually do hold the capacity to craft new worlds, to shape a world in which they want to live, a world in which women, children and all people, all animals, all natural life is held in reverence because If we only value the destruction of life and we don't value the birth of life, we don't value the birther, we don't value the creator or the creatrix, we have a world where we perceive it as dead. We talk about a woman's body as it. as innate, as sorry, as... ⁓ We talk about a woman's body as it, as if it's inanimate, as if it's non-living, as if it's this dead thing that she carries around on the bottom of her head. A woman's body is the vessel of communication. It is the alchemist. It is the transformational agent, the catalytic agent of feeling what it is, bringing it into her flame, bringing it down, and then catalyzing into that which needs to be birthed. There is so much in this world right now that is asking us to change it. That is asking us to feel it, to bring it, for us to come into our bodies and then when we feel that emotion in our bodies to alchemize that into a powerful outcome. Okay, so let's ground this. Let's talk about this really importantly. What is it? that you could talk about, that you could yell about, that you could get so fired up about, that boils your blood, that just you cannot put down. What is that thing for you? Because that is where you need to start feeling it. And don't just stay surface, go deep. Why is it bad? And ask again and again and again and again and again and again until you come into that visceral darkness. and you become someone you wouldn't recognize. You come into the full darkness, the full ferociousness, a demonic version of you that would kill for that, that would destroy for that, that would just do anything for that change. That's where you need to go. That's what you need to hold that. Oh my God, the terror of what I could do. hold there because she's who you need to know. She holds the power that you need for the alchemy, for the change, for the transformation, not only internally, but how that manifests externally, how you're going to bring that wisdom now into the world. Because if you are afraid of her within you, you're not going to be able to bring her out in a way that is sustainable, that is susceptible, that is translatable, that is communicatable to others. Because we as women change through network. We are network beings. We network together. We bring cohesion. We bring harmonic resonance in a collective unit. And we move that forward as we hold the vision for a better, more coherent, more harmonic world. one that resonates in depth, in full clarity of what is possible and one woman in her power in her full you know shadow dark embodied power is powerful. But an army of women, an army of women who know exactly why they're here and they've done the work to meet themselves in the depth, in the darkness, in the shadow, in the demonic, in the parts of you that terrify yourself at what you could do. And when you see that part of you that's awful and demonic and challenged and you say, I'm going to find out who you are and what skills you have and I'm going to sit here with you. Not to forgive you, not to love you, to know you, to understand you. Reveal to me the skills that you have. Why are you here? Because your repression holds the answers. Your repression and my suppression of you tells me. where we need to go. Why haven't I looked at you before? When did I start shutting you down? Who else around here has been shutting you down and why? What's the power that you hold? Tell me, teach me, educate me, help me to embody the darkness of you so that I can use you in the most balanced and impactful way. We can change lives. We can change the world. Tell me who you are, why are you here? Why haven't I known you? Why am I shutting you out? What's available for me here? And when you start to come deeper and deeper and deeper into this sense of you that is like, I walk with my demons and I hold their hands down the street. I walk side by side with the wolves around me. I am a woman who you cannot touch because I know every aspect of me. I know all the parts of me that I am not necessarily proud of, but as I hold myself, steady, still, strong, connected to those parts, they start to teach me how I can use them for good. So instead of I'm not manipulating people anymore, but I'm seducing them into an impactful and beautiful life. Manipulation is I do something to you in order for you to be coerced into what I want. Seduction is I'm doing this from the place of deep pleasure. embodiment and most importantly because I'm going there. If you'd like to come with me you are so welcome and if not be well. The seductress holds the power of the vision within herself. And you walk down the street with your wolves, with your demons, because you know you are a woman who has met yourself there. You are a woman who knows your demon is just the part of you that you didn't talk to until now. And that demon holds wisdom. She holds purpose and clarity and understanding and information and data and codes for you to unlock. Anyone who is dwelling on the surface of their being and living from their head has masculine power that works in the linear, that works in the... Masculine power works in the linear. It works in the tick by tick by tick by tick. It works in that I'm going to think about this and then I'm going to tick through and achieve it bit by bit. Here's what I want and now I go and make that happen. But that's not how feminine power works at all. Feminine power doesn't need to know how because she works with the universal law. She is part of the fabric of the universe. She is part of the quantum. She doesn't need to learn quantum. She doesn't need to learn universal law. She doesn't need to learn how to make a baby, how to make a... She doesn't need to learn how. She needs to hold who she is. in fullness, not in just the parts that she likes, not in just the parts that feel comfortable. A woman who has met herself in the fullness of her power and is terrifying to others, the reason she's terrified of her own power is she needs to go through the dark. She needs to live in that. She needs to bring herself into parts of herself that she has never wanted to meet. But the problem is until she does, everyone else has power over her. Why? Because they're the most powerful parts of her. The rejection of her power, of her enormous world-changing power is the part that all other people outside of her have. also clung onto in order to have power over her. And the moment she holds her power into herself again, all those leeches fall off her. She can no longer be controlled by any other person ever again. Because a woman who owns the darkness in her and alchemizes that into impact, into something tangible and valuable and uniquely hers to bring, that's her path of alchemy. That's her path of sovereignty. That's her path of sensual sexual awakening into the safety of her. But it also happens the other way in reverse as well. The safety of her becomes the sexual vitality of her which becomes the sovereign, which becomes the master, which becomes the dark mother, which becomes the ultimate alchemist. When you're working as a woman as opposed to in the masculine linear way, you're working in spirals, you're working in circles, you're working in shapes that don't necessarily look masculine. We let go of the triangles and the lines and the linear and the logical and the rational, and we step into the unfolding. And what might feel like a really long journey at first starts to get faster, starts to wind up, starts to gain momentum and exponentiality. And then the quantum starts to move and you're in a vortex rising. And as you step into that vortex and you can hold the frequency of the vortex, you can go both deeply in and deeply up and moving around. And you start to understand Fibonacci, start to understand sacred geometry, you start to understand mathematics and frequency and light. And what holds all the light? the dark. The dark holds all. How do we know this is true? Because we see what the patriarchal church religious systems have taught women. and we do the opposite. So if women need to search the light and go up outside of the body, then we need to search the dark and go in deeply to the body to find the truth. If the desire of the church is for us to be good girls, to be palatable, to be in service to other, then what we need to do is start to be in service to ourselves as very bad girls, as very selfish, meaning of self, full of self, being in self, being in the body. Serving the woman first is how she then serves all. And so as we fill ourselves up by going deeper down and we find the darkness and not searching for the light outside as we don't seek out the answers externally. We seek them internally and go deeper and deeper and deeper and hold that wisdom in our pussy. The more that the church tells you to not have sex, the more that the church tells you that your pleasure is wrong or not worthy or not a goal or something that makes you unvirtuous. Those are where you find the answers. That's where it is. And so we need to go back to more ancient matriarchal lineages of information that hold us in the fullness of our wisdom. And part of that is we need to stop celebrating, clinging onto, and claiming the maiden as the ideal. in our societies. The maiden is beautiful, but she does not hold the embodied wisdom. She is a child. And why does pedophilia explain the stripping of the power of women is because maidens are not met. The biological resonance of a maiden is not that to hold wisdom yet. She is in the spring. She is blossoming. She is not yet. even in her summer. And so ⁓ a flower in spring is just budding, it is not bloomed, it is not full, it is not her full expression yet. And if we cut off the role and the value and the worth of women before they ever get into their wisdom or their power, we can keep them controlled. And so as we untangle ourselves from pedophilia and from the beauty industry and all other aspects that touch womanhood as maiden meaning, power and worth and wealth of wisdom and knowledge and that of her highest expression. When we see a woman of 30 years old being no longer of value, we can start to think, aha. So we start to come into knowledge around 30. Our 30s is when things get real messy. It's when we really go into the caves, into the dungeon, into the demon of us, and we hold a space for it. The biology is available from then. So the terror that we feel as a collective society of women coming into their own power and their own embodiment is because it will literally stop the world in which power over another exists. Because women in their own fullest power, do you know what they want? They want everyone else to feel powerful and free and liberated and in and of themselves. They want children to grow up safely and to be who they're here to be. In a world where women all step into their own power. We build structures of society where everybody benefits. We build structures of society where everyone is included and not because of DEI, but because we understand that the note that you are here to bring to the symphony of us in a collective togetherness is required. And without your note and without your capacity to hold that note, the symphony is incomplete. The orchestra cannot. perform. You are needed and everyone's fullest expression is needed and required and honored and loved and revered when women are in their fullest expression of power. When women are coherent in their self, in their bodies, in their spirits, in their minds, in their knowing of who they are and the power that they be. and they join and they magnetize other women who are powerful and holding their power for their own self. And they ask for what they need and they tell people who they are and they receive willingly and without guilt and without repression and without second guessing and with no costs or strings involved. then we start to build cohesion. And the only way that we can all do that is because we know who we are. We turn inwards and we walk down, down, down the valley, the valley, the valley, the valley, the valley, the darkest caves of where you do not want to go, hold your deepest, most profound power because it is where you have hidden the codes that you are here to activate within you and then amplify that. The alchemist in you is innate. You do not need to learn how. You need to learn that you are willing to. No woman goes to school to learn how to make a baby before she does. You do not need to learn how to be yourself before you are. You simply need to accept. that the journey will unfold and that you will become who you are. And learning to face the immense power of you is terrifying. I don't need to sugarcoat it. Learning to meet the immense power of you will always be terrifying because the power that you possess has never been held within your body before. You have been lived in condition to live in a world where power is held over you, where choice is held over you, where you are at the mercy of a group of people or a small minority of people that control the universe. You don't set the technology on this planet. They do. But if you start to truly understand the technology that is within your own body, that is so much more powerful than any other man-made device. we will start to think differently, but it is so much easier to think differently and hold that frequency differently when you are in a group of people that hold you. So the Becoming Flame podcast is about your ability to be held by the fire, held by the flame as you go deeper and deeper and deeper into you. And as you hold that flame, guess what? You've got light in those dark places. Guess what? You've got power in those dark places. You've got something to sustain you to get you another step and another step and another step. And then when you find the depth of the... parts of you that you have not been willing to see, have not been willing to face, not been willing to know. And you have the warmth and the light there, but you also have the flame to help you alchemize that. You start to pressurize and build the flame and the heat of that flame and the rage and the grief and the alchemy and the sadness and the loss. Because knowing that you have not been living the truth of you and the power of you for however many years it's been brings immense grief. Like why couldn't I do this earlier? This is so incredible who I be. You have to also alchemize that. You have to also be with that. The grief of the loss of the power of you. Not only in the initial but in the ongoing. But knowing that there are other people out there doing this and being seen by them and known by them and accepted by them and coherently connecting in the harmonics of that, I think helps enormously. It is a fundamentally solitary body of work, but women are made to withstand extremes, extreme temperatures, extreme emotion, extreme solitude, extreme isolation, but also they're made to withstand extreme togetherness, extreme oneness. Because in the polarity of one, you find the other. In the polarity of you, you find all aspects of self that you have been pushing further away. No part of this journey is easy, but it's also not easier to not do it because you will only get what you get by going through it. You will only manifest into your unfolding by going through it. And as you let go of those things that you are not willing to accept any longer and the scariness and the fear of going, I'm going to throw caution to the wind here and just let this go. and I'm going to learn how to take steps by step as the pavement is paving itself under my feet. the trust that it takes to put down a foot knowing that there's not yet a pavement there and knowing that you will meet it every single time in solidity and in... safety. That's an incredible skill. That's an incredible skill. You don't go to university to learn that. You go to the feminine to learn that. You go to the fire to learn that. You go to the water. You go to the earth. You stand and you say, I am here, flesh blood. Connect me to those who know me. Connect me to the power of who I be. And I am walking this path back in return to her. And I'm not yet fully in remembrance of all that she is. I am not fully in remembrance of all that I am, but here I am willing nonetheless to walk along the path that has not even been laid or that has been laid so many millennia ago that it is overgrown and unclear. But here I am. Nevertheless, I am willing. Nevertheless, I am willing. I am willing to discover who I truly am in the fullness of the power of me and how terrifying that is in this moment. But nevertheless, I take that step. Nevertheless, I take that step. Coming Flame is about... your ability to follow the compass of your own body, not just your heart, not just your pussy, the entire body as technology mechanisms of returning. The mechanism to return to her, to return to a world that we all benefit from is wired inside of us. Those demons follow the pathway as well. It's a convergent path. As you follow the shadow of you and you unlock it and you alchemize that and you learn how to grow your impact and your being and your fullness from discovering and befriending and alchemizing your shadow, you're paving the pathway back to her and you're paving the pathway back to a world in which we all benefit. It's all convergent. And that is why you're so terrified of the power that we can all truly be because what would it actually be like to destroy everything that we have in the world at the moment and rebuilding community and togetherness in a world where mother is revered, where child is celebrated and where every single person's contribution is valued and worthy, not because of what they do, because of who they be. but you cannot have a system that is against that, is contra that, and that world at the same time. You need to be willing to go into the parts of you that hold up that system of oppression, that system of slavery, that system of war and competition and hate and division, because that war that's being fought out there is being fought in here. your work as women, as embodied women. goes inward. You find the wars that are being fought within you and you show up to understand them. You show up to hear the strategies of both sides and learn and hold that and be still until enough heat, until enough power is brought into that moment. for the alchemy to occur. Your job is not to change anything. Your job is to be still, be woman, to be whole and to not reject any part of you any longer until the wisdom of that part being seen, of that part being understood, heard, listened to, attended to, serviced and sat with gets what it needs from you. This is what the mother work is here for. We mother ourselves. We give each aspect, each child within us the unconditional attention and held love that it needs. A mother does not just say, okay well your behavior is really bad, the end. A mother guides. A mother grows her children. She raises the awareness of her children to a higher perspective, to a higher vision, to a higher way. of operating, but she doesn't stop loving in the process. She doesn't pull her love until behavior is changed. That creates division. That creates rupture. Can we find the mother's love for all aspects of ourselves and be the mother that we need to be? Be the ones raising ourselves, raising our consciousness, raising our belief systems into and plugging into a world where we are all held in the complexity of us, irrespective of whether we've done our shadow work or not. But as we do it, we come to rise there. This is the work. This is the work. You don't want war, don't want famine, you don't want oppression, you don't want slavery, you don't want corruption, you don't want criminalization of human, you know, you don't want human trafficking, you don't want sex, you know, you don't want all of these things that are happening day in and day out. It's not to say that we are the traffickers or that we are the ones who created this, but how we change it, how we shift it, is that we sit with that within us. So above as below, so within, so without. The externalization of the world is because we as humans are holding that within us. And I honestly don't know how many humans there are on this planet. I know that there are eight billion bodies, but how many real true humans, how many... how many catalyses of new world there are, I don't even know anymore. So maybe there aren't that many and maybe the work that we do. is the catalyst that we need and we aren't as many as we think that we need to be. We don't need as many people as we might imagine to shift this planet into this new direction. And you can feel it. You can feel the pulse and the energy of going, ⁓ my God, is this it? Is this here? As the world becomes more extreme in the other side, you also feel the energy of going, ⁓ my god, this is all about to collapse. And when you talk to people about it, they don't know what you're talking about. They don't know what you're talking about. And that's why I think, I don't know that there are that many humans on this planet. I think the ones that are staying have stayed and the ones that are not have gone. I really feel like there are not that many, there are a lot of humanoids. There are a lot of AI, there are a lot of whatevers coming from wherever. And you know that because every celebrity has changed their face all of a sudden and you're like, so all of a sudden we have plastic surgery that changes people's face to looking like a clone of each other. And we're all okay with this. It's happened. They've descended. They're showing themselves. We need to show ourselves now too. We need to show ourselves now too because all the people that we've been afraid of showing ourselves to, they've gone, they've left, they're not here. It's just us and it's time to use human biology. It's so much more powerful than we know. So much more. Lots of love.