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Mega Edition: Billionaire Playboy's Club...A Memoir By Virginia Roberts (Volume 4) (6/6/26) · The Epstein Chronicles

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Speaker 1: What's up, everyone, and welcome to another episode of the
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Epstein Chronicles. In this episode, we're picking up where we
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left off with the Virginia Roberts memoir The Billionaire's Playboy Club.
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It didn't take me long to get back into my
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own comfort zone, heading straight back to my cabana after
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dessert was served, nearly tripping over my own feet as
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I tried to scuttle off in a hurry. As soon
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as I entered my domain, I drew a breath inside,
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a deep exhale outwards, Finally alone and at peace for
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now at least. Although the sun had set hours ago,
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the high temperature of the Caribbean were still an affliction
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plaguing my cabana. I was welcomed by a rush of
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warm airror as I opened the door. I hit the
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switch to the fan and stripped down for a shower.
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Preparing my towel and toilet trees, I opened the back
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door to the outside shower and placed them on the floor.
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Whether I was cleaning up in the midst of a
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hot day or retiring for the evening, an outside shower
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was all way splendid under the thick, dark cloak of
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the night sky. Only the moon and stars to shed
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enough light for me to see my way around. I
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could feel the soft breeze lick droplets falling off of
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my body's curves in the reflection of the moonlight. It
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only encouraged me to stay longer under the warmth from
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the spray of rushing water. I let the hot water
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run out before I was sufficed enough to go back inside.
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Lounging around the bed and my panties in a tank top,
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I was still sweltering from the heat, trying to tire
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myself out. I did some reading and eventually fell asleep.
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I needed those times to unwind after such an ordeal.
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Letting the xanax wash away all of my pain, I
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could then forgive the mistakes I had made, blaming myself
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for staying around. For this, I had wished I had
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never been born at all. The pills would take all
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of that away from me. My heart was tangled in
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a weave of deception and pain, only reassured by the
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lies that were told to me, and the lies I
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would have to convince myself. When we flew back into
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Palm Beach, Juan drove me back to my apartment lonely,
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for some companionship. I decided to call an old friend.
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I was longing to be important to someone, and unfortunately,
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with such little time to have a social life of
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my own, I was compelled to call TJ again. His
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mom answered the phone and sounded quite surprised to hear
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my voice on the other end. She was always kind
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to me. I even used to bring her back kolacans
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from other countries, a bizarre hobby she loved collecting. She
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just didn't know what to say or what I saw
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on her son, even saying that to his face many
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times over. Not blind to his ways of cheating and stealing,
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being a personal victim of it, she made it a
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parent that he did not approve of TJ's choice and
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a lifestyle. It used to really hurt him how his
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parents thought so badly of him, so he gave up
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trying to earn their love a long time ago. As
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long as he didn't steal from them anymore, he was
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allowed to live there. Instead of that being a lesson
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to him, he would just try to be more clever
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and what he would steal less obvious things. He would
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steal the toaster and sell it for five dollars if
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he knew it would help him get his next high. Nonetheless,
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and at my expense, I had a sweet spot for him.
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With enough water under the bridge, I was able to
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forget about the troubles he caused. His mom told me
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she'd passed on the message when he got home, but
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that could be days from now. The last time he
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had been home was a couple of weeks now. He
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only stopped by to get something to eat, have a
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long sleep, and beg for a few bucks, supposedly to
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help him buy food. Then he was off again without
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a single word, only leaving his parents with their own assumptions,
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which were pretty much correct anyway. I then called around
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a couple of mutual friends to see if anyone had
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heard from him. Everyone I spoke to pointed their finger
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in the same direction and the worst place possible, Richie's house.
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One of his best friends told me how he bad
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he'd been doing. He's not the same guy anymore, and
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all he cares about is his next hie and where
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he gets it. If we don't get anything for him,
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he just loses it and goes off somewhere. It was
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hard to hear how badly affected my best friend was
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and a part of me secretly hoped they weren't right.
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Still defending him, I told everyone I had spoke to
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while trying to find him that TJ would be fine.
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He's just probably going through a bad phase like we
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all do sometimes, and he needs people to have his
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back more now than ever. I was pretty much laughed
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at on the spot. Most people that I considered my
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friends at the time were only friends by association. As
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long as we all looked the part, acted the part,
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and could handle the part, only then did they want
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to be around us. The last person I called was
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the last person I had hoped he wasn't with, and
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it turned out that everyone was right. He was one
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of the biggest coke dealers in our area, Richie Rich,
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as everyone used to call him. He didn't look like
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a typical, strung out junkier dealer. Instead, he looked like
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your average preppy college grad with aspiring propositions. He dressed
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well and acted like a nice guy to the eminent clients,
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only to get them hooked on his drugs and then
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turns them in and onto the streets. He was a businessman,
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and his business was thriving. He carried everything from the
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most dangerous drugs to guns and knives. Having ears in
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all places made him dangerous acquaintance, using kids off the
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local Palm Beach street to run his dirty errands and
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the errands of the others above him. He made his
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money by using these teenagers, who, as hard as it
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was to believe, was once somebody sweet child. I knew
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TJ didn't have his finances to support himself or his
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drug habit, so the likelihood of him being indebted to
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Richie in other ways was a safe assumption. Obtaining Richie's
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number from one of TJ's friends, Marcus, he asked me,
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what do you want to call Richie for? Come over
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to my place and I can get you whatever you want.
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Marcus was a sleeves bag who would tirelessly continue to
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try to appeal to my lesser sense of judgment, never
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getting the hint or not, just caring that I could
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never would never be interested in him. No thanks, Marcus,
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Can I just get the number pleased? It's very important
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that I get a hold of TJ. I'm really worried
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about him. I hated having to call this guy, let
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alone ask him for something. Is this about the Adam bullshit?
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Because if it is, you can let him know what
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a fucking bitch he is for not showing up to
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be there for him. You can tell him that from me,
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and that it's his fault and he should have been there,
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and it should have been him that's lying in the
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morgue now, not Adam. I was totally thrown off by
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his allegation. I could only mutter out a whisper. Did
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you just say that Adam's dead? What happened? Oh? Snap?
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I thought you knew where you've been? Girl under a
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rock or something. Marcus was less than sensitive about his statements.
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He got shot in the head by two black guys
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who got suspicious when their usual supplier didn't show up.
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Your boy, TJ was so fucked up he didn't even
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remember to turn up at Richie's for the delivery. So
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Richie sent Adam alone, and now he's dead. Adam was
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a sweet kid who had just happened to be born
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living on the wrong block. Best friends with TJ s childhood,
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The two were inseparable until puberty hit, and then they
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would chase girls together, and Adam followed in TJ's every footstep,
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mimicking his shadow. If TJ jumped off the Eiffel Tower.
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Then so would Adam. So then TJ got hooked on drugs. Consequently,
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Adam did too, leading ultimately to his death. Wanting to
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end the conversation with Marcus quickly, I scribbled down the
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number on the blank piece of paper in front of
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me and hung up the phone call. And then I
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called Richie's place immediately. Yeah, it was Richie, who bluntly
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answered the phone after the first ring. Hi, uh, rich
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it's Jenna, TJ's X. We met a couple of times
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at a few parties. I was trying to remind him
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of who I was, knowing how paranoid he was about
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people having his number. Oh yeah, I know who you are.
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What is it that you want, he answered with a
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dry tone. I was hoping you could tell me where
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I could find TJ. I've heard some stuff and I'm
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really worried about him. Is he all right? Richie snickered
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at my concerns. Where he was mom or Something's fine?
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He should be back here around five o'clock. I'll tell
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him you called in the middle of me saying thank
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you and goodbye. He hung up the phone. As there
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is no room for manners. In his line of work.
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I waited until five o'clock, watching the minutes on the
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clock tick by, and when five o'clock came and passed
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with no phone call, I couldn't deny to myself that
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I wasn't stricken with distress. Falling asleep wasn't easy either.
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I ended up crashing out on my sofa watching TV,
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half expecting to hear another murder on the news, and
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it being TJ forgetting to put on my eyemask before
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I went to bed. I was woken up the next
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morning by rays of the sun beaming into my living room.
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When I sleep, I am a creature of darkness, avoided
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any window light at all costs, staggering to the coffee pot,
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not used to getting up this early. My first thought
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that day was TJ and why he hadn't called. A
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million thoughts rushed through my head like a steam train.
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Is he okay? Is he not calling because he's still
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mad from our last breakup as he moved on to
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someone else? Is he in trouble? Did Richie even pass
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on my message? The thoughts were an endless infliction, consuming
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my entire day, until finally he called my cell phone
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later in the afternoon. Relief swept over me when I
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heard his voice on the other end. Thank god you called.
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I've been so worried about you. Are you all right?
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I jumped in without letting him know or get pass,
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saying hello, Yeah, I'm fine. Richie told me you called
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his house looking for me yesterday and gave me shit
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for saying you were upset or something. What's up? I
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knew I would have to dedicate about asking what happened
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to Adam, thinking he'd be a mess over it. I
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heard from Marcus that something happened to Adam, and I
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got worried about you. What's going on? TJ? TJ sounded
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scared for what reasons were beyond my knowledge, but I
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was going to find out, He replied, I don't want
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to talk about it over the phone. Are you in
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town so we can meet up or something? It was
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obvious I wanted him to know that I was more
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than willing to let me shoulder for his problem. I'm
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home now if you want to come over whenever you
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feel like it. He didn't hesitate, and taking me up
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on the offer. But I won't be able to get
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there until later. I'm downtown at Richie's place unless you
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want to come pick me up. It was more of
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a request than a favor to myself, which is what
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he was making it out to sound like. Knowing him
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all too well, I didn't make a fuss of his
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ill contemplated attributes. I got the address off him and
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made my way into the ugliness of the not so
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dazzling parts upon Beaches downtown area, rolling up my windows
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and locking the doors to my truck, I nervously drove
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down the rough streets trying to find Richie's apartment complex,
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knowing all too well his history of the area. It's
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not a place a lone white girl in a nice
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truck wants to be seen. Many reports of the locals
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rushing up the vehicles with a weapon, demanding money, cars,
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or just angry and out to hurt someone. I was
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speeding through the streets, wanting to get out of there
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as quick as I could. A sad world we live in,
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with so much hurt everywhere you look, and nobody wanting
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to do anything about it. Just accepting the hopelessness of
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never being able to achieve anything more than what our
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civilization has to come to. Being among one of these
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people We were similar in so many ways, only separated
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by our personal fears in the different direction they pulled
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us into. I drove straight through the open gates at
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the entrance to the complex and parked on the gutter
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in front of Richie's block of units. Crowded people stood
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outside the block as I was entering, being hit on
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and offered drugs simultaneously. My cheeks went flush and I
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put my head down, not saying a word. Walking up
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the corridors of the staircase looked like a scene out
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of a horror flick. Graffiti covered the peeling of green
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paint on the walls, and the pungent stench of something
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rotting only to the worst of my imagination filled my nostrils.
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I could hear baby screaming through the thin walls, and
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trying to find the unit number was difficult from the
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sporadic flicker of the fluorescent lights above me. At last,
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I found Richie's one, quite astonished with myself that I
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even made it this far. I had to knock loudly
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on the door a few times before a young girl
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answered the door with eyeliner bleeding down from her eyes.
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Her jet black hair was strung out and a mess,
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and she looked off her face on some hard drugs.
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She had only her brown and a short skirt to
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cover her private areas, and a cigarette hung out of
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her mouth to complete the full picture of terrible state
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she was in. She looked me down and up with
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a contempt and snubbed at me, what do you want?
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I maintain my politeness and told her TJ was expecting me.
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She opened the door and walked away, leaving me by
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myself to venture through looking for TJ. All right, folks,
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you're going to wrap up right here and in the
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next episode dealing with the topic, we're gonna pick up
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where we left off. All of the information that goes
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with this episode can be found in the description box.
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What's up, everyone, and welcome to another episode of the
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Epstein Chronicles. In this episode, we're diving right back in
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to Virginia Robert's memoir a Billionaire playboys club. Passing through
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the kitchen, it looked like a hospital lab, with syringes
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on the countertop and medicine containers lying around everywhere. Minding
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my steps through the dirty house, I walked to the
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back of the living room and found TJ and a
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k hole strung out on a filthy couch. Hey there,
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he acknowledged me with a giant smile spread across his face.
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He probably didn't even know who I am or who
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I was from the dreadful state that he was in.
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My first look at him in months, and I was
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in utter shock. My jaw must have dropped to the
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floor at the very sight of him. Never seeing him
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so skinny and unhealthy looking, I took pity, and I
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wanted to help him before things got even worse and
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he ended up like Adam dead. TJ. Hey, buddy, it's Jenna.
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Remember I was coming to pick you up today. You
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don't look so good. What are you doing so messed up?
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I don't think he could even understand what I was
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even saying, because he could only reply by giggling and
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rolling over, patting the couch as if it were a
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fluffy animal. I stood over him now and raised my
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voice so he'd know I was serious and snap out
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of it a bit. Get up, TJ. Now. I ushered
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at him to get him off the couch, repeated myself
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a few times over, and with no response, I knew
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I had to get physical, rolling him back over to
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face me again. I smacked his face hard, and I'm
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sure it's stung, but I got the reaction I had wanted.
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He sat up and looked at me, confused. At least
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now he was able to focus on my words requesting
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him to come with me. He was just getting up
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from the couch and stumbling around before falling down to
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the floor again. Putting his arms around my neck and
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carrying the majority of his weight. I helped him up
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many times, over and down three flights of stairs, into
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my truck and drove him back to my place. It
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was a triumph on its own, arriving downstairs in one piece.
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Being the only person who really cared if TJ lived
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or died, I felt like it was my responsibility of
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helping him, and it was my concern alone. Thankfully, Jeffrey
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was in Palm Beach for the next couple of days
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or weeks entertaining royalty, which gave me a little bit
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of time to try and clean TJ up. I called
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a few of his friends that I knew, and I
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asked them not to score any drugs for him, pleading
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with them and telling them that he was on the
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brink of death, reminding them of their friendship between us,
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all that once existed before the drugs corrupted so many
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of us. Some of them laughed, telling me I was
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wasting my time with TJ, and others were nice enough
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to at least lie to my face politely and promise
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not to help him feed his addiction. I just wanted
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to remedy all of his pain and problems, but I
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felt so helpless fighting his battle against the streets. I
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bought some marijuana for him to smoke, hoping to subside
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the withdrawals he was facing over the next few days,
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but with no avail. The only thing that would help
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him was my xanax. A few of those pills, and
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he would go back to sleep, only waking up to
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get more of them. I would have to force him
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out of bed to take a shower once a day
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and make sure that he ate something. He was more
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like a baby right now than he was a boyfriend,
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too much in need of something I couldn't give. When
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I went to see Jeffrey over the next course of days,
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he picked out the dilemma I wore spread across my
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face straight away. You're back with TJ, aren't you. It
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was so funny that he knew me so well. Yeah,
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he's in a real bad place in his life right now,
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and he needs my help. He looked astonished and replied,
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you're a much better friend than I am. I know
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people like him, and trust me, they never change. No
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use in even trying, I believed him to, knowing I
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was stupid for even attempting to change DJ, but my
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heart felt differently. He was still a human being and
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a good friend of mine, just down at his worst.
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That's what good friends are for. I laughed back at
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his remark, not wanting to take this conversation too much further.
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I admire your loyalty at least, but take my word
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for it, he will hurt you again. His words were
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chilling but true. I had to find out for myself.
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Though almost seeming like an actual friend for a second,
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he ruined his brief momentary image by turning over from
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the unfinished massage that I was giving him, and acquired
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his sexual longings from my worn down soul. Not only
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did he know that I didn't want to endure any
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more demands tonight, but his energy enhanced from knowing it too.
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Looking up at him during the foreplay, it was easy
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observation from the look in my eyes that I hated
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every minute of it, seething through all of my duties
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until he climaxed. Most days I could take this kind
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of treatment. It was only seldom I couldn't hold it
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in the way Jeffrey disregarded my feelings. He had me
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just where he wanted me, like a pawn piece on
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a checker's board. I was his own personal sex slave.
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For the remainder of the evening, I stayed quiet, not
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sure of what to say after an episode like that.
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It was a vigorous display of how calculating he could
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really be. He required me to clean up his spilled
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seamen off of his genitals with a warm washcloth before
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he retired to his bedroom for a good night's sleep,
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only a monstrous creep. Sleep easy at night, knowing what
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pain he caused others. I went downstairs and asked Wan,
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who was still in the kitchen, to pay me for
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the evening, telling him that Jeffrey had gone to sleep
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for the night. It wasn't an unusual request. Wan would
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often have to fix up the girls after the sessions,
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and sometimes even drive them home. He went to Jeffrey's desk,
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and underneath was a duffel bag that was always held
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with an insurmountable bundle of CRISP one hundred dollars bills.
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He took out two for me and handed them over.
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I thanked him and said good night, as I was
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always polite to Wan and his wife Maria. His eyes
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were gentle and told me that he was allowed to say.
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I understood, well. We all needed to eat and pay bills, unfortunately,
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even sometimes at our own moral expense. Putting the keys
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in the ignition, I started up the engine and reversed
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out of Jeffrey's driveway with promptness. I didn't want to
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be there a moment longer than I had to be.
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Not much to look forward to getting back to my
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apartment either. I needed some time to filter my emotions.
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Parking my truck in front of the nearby beach, I
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took my shoes off, gradually stepping out of the door
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into the fog. I walked down to the edge of
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the sand, where the water licked my toes. My life
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was slipping away from me, and I was really beginning
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to question the difference between living and dying. I was
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so tired of everything, my whole existence revolved around being
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everything to everyone, forgetting about being something for myself altogether,
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pretending to be someone else became an attribute. I was
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better than good at, probably much of why Jeffrey liked
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me in the first place. This time, I held back
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my tears and only let the anger fester into a
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deep pit into my stomach. My rage was aimed at
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the very people who abandoned me to offend for myself
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in the first place, and accepted this life as normal
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for me, my parents. When I got back to my apartment,
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I was expecting to have to look after TJ, but
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to my surprise, he had come around good at that night.
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He agreed me at the door and ask me how
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my evening was. It was all fine. I easily lied.
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I never let anyone inside close enough to see my vulnerabilities.
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They were mine alone to battle in my head. They
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were too shameful to talk about anyway. He wanted to
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talk about something else. Sitting down at the dining room table,
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he began his spiel. I know you don't think much
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of me anymore. How could you? I'm a junkie who
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steals and sells drugs for a living. But I promise
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that's all going to change now. Adam is dead because
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of me, and the only way I can make up
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for it to him is to get away from it all.
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I promise that things are going to get better. It
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was a convincing talk, but I knew him all too well.
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His demon inside yearned for him to fail. But who
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was I to second guess him out loud. I could
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only try to give him hope. No one's perfect, DJ,
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at least you're trying now, and that's all that matters
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to me. I'm so proud of you. I gave him
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a sincere hug and kissed him for the first time
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in a long time. I love you, he said to me,
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and return my life back. We slept in the bed
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together that night and were officially back together. Two days later,
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I was gone again, beckoned to Santa fe Gleayne only
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told me I was to meet someone there. Not sure
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of whom that was. It wasn't my place to ask questions.
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As far as I knew, it could be anyone, and
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I had no choice but to be compliant to their needs.
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It was the middle of the day when I arrived
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at the airport. One of the ranchands came to pick
21:27
me up in a big work truck that smelled like
21:29
dirt and sweat, but I didn't mind. That's what I
21:32
loved about the countryside. When we arrived at the mansion,
21:36
my guest was already there waiting for me. I couldn't
21:39
wipe the look off my face. As he turned around
21:41
from the bookshelf that he was standing at Hello, the
21:45
same old cheesy grin greeted me once again. It was
21:48
His Highness, Prince Andrew, and what a sight. He wrapped
21:52
his arms around my waist and greeted me like an
21:54
old friend. I hugged him back, rolling my eyes at
21:57
the same time, already dreading what lay in store over
22:00
the next couple of days. My job was to entertain
22:03
them endlessly, whether that meant having to bestow them any
22:06
of my body during an erotic massage or simply take
22:10
a horseback riding. For the next couple of days, he
22:13
was to be my only concern, but he wasn't. I
22:16
called in checking on TJ a few times a day,
22:19
not wanting to be a nag, but just hoping he
22:21
hadn't had any thoughts about relapsing. He was doing great,
22:25
even applying for a couple of jobs. Being reassured by
22:28
him made my time away less complicated, and, thankfully, with
22:32
the help of my ever ready xanax, I was able
22:34
to cope with the ordeal. The mansion was completely empty,
22:38
save a couple of maids who also cooked our dinners
22:41
for us, and a couple of bodyguards that we hardly
22:44
even saw at all. The time dragged by slowly for me,
22:47
as I was counting down the hours until I flew
22:50
away again anywhere but here, I thought. It wasn't easy
22:54
meeting the sexual desires of these strange men, the Prince
22:57
being one of them. He loved my feet and even
23:00
in between my toes. Then there was the lack of
23:03
passion in the intimacy we shared. To him, I was
23:06
just another girl and to me he was just another job.
23:10
Not the right reasons to be together, But I thought,
23:13
in this world and to these monsters, there didn't need
23:16
to be a reason. To them, it's nothing but a
23:19
reenactment of their personal fantasies. To me, a living nightmare. Thankfully,
23:23
one of Jeffrey's assistants from New York called me on
23:26
my cell phone in the morning on the second day
23:28
to fill me in on my next adventure. I had
23:31
a flight booked for me to leave that afternoon to
23:34
arrive at LaGuardia Airport in the evening. Even though I
23:38
had to go back to he had another controlling man,
23:40
I was still relieved. At least I was used to
23:43
the confinements of Jeffrey's control. In some twisted way, he
23:46
was more comforting than these strangers he sent me to
23:50
overlooking the city of New York. As the plane landed,
23:53
felt like I was flying from one cage to another
23:56
and trapped by falling victim to the predators that lured
23:59
me into the closure. I didn't know how I would
24:02
ever get out again. The deep pit in my stomach
24:04
began to churn again, a physical reaction to the anxiety
24:08
I was played with. Before getting off the plane, I
24:11
touched up my makeup to hide any signs of the
24:14
frailty that I was feeling. All right, folks, we're gonna
24:17
wrap up right here and to the next episode. We're
24:19
gonna pick up where we left off. All of the
24:21
information that goes with this episode can be found in
24:24
the description box. What's up, everyone, and welcome to another
24:27
episode of the Epstein Chronicles. In this episode. We're picking
24:31
up where we left off with the Virginia Roberts memoir
24:34
The Billionaire's Playboy Club. Jojo met me at the arrival
24:37
terminal and picked up my luggage for me. He never
24:40
said much at all, nodding to any reciprocating conversation. I
24:44
don't think he could really speak that good of English. Anyway,
24:48
it was better for me as I preferred the quietness
24:50
of the moment. He opened the back door for me
24:52
and we headed off for my next prison cell. When
24:55
we got to Jeffrey's mansion on seventy second Street, the
24:58
place looked empty. I walked up the staircase to Jeffrey's
25:01
office and he wasn't there. Feeling a bit hungry, I
25:04
walked back down to where the kitchen was. I opened
25:07
the fridge and found some leftovers that Adam Jeffrey chef
25:10
had cooked. I loved his cooking when it wasn't filled
25:13
with bean sprouts and tofu. He used to make the
25:16
best pizza upon request, or whenever he was cooking seafood,
25:19
which he knew I hated. He had an honest appeal
25:22
about him and never even took notice when on many
25:25
occasions us girls would be prancing around topless, sometimes even
25:29
stark naked around the pool or the beach. He would
25:33
have to serve us our meals and would do it
25:35
with such a casual professionalism, never making anyone uneasy at
25:39
any occasion. And she's talking about Adam Perry Lang right there, folks,
25:43
friends with Jimmy Kimmel and somebody that's been on the
25:46
Joe Rogan Show. Before halfway through my meal, the kitchen
25:50
door swung open, and incoming was Jeffrey and Glane, choking
25:54
down my bite of food. I got up from my
25:56
seat and I kissed them both on the cheeks. Hi, guys,
25:59
how are you? I greeted them, and Golayne answered for
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them both good. Good, Sit down and finish your meal.
26:04
Don't let us interrupt you. I hated eating alone in
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front of people. Chewing food and maintaining a conversation at
26:11
the same time didn't give off the best look. I
26:14
was just finishing anyways. Can I get you guys anything?
26:17
Maybe a tear or something. Always playing my part another
26:20
reason to keep me around. I guess I went beyond
26:23
the call of duty. And after the last period with them,
26:26
I had been reminded of my place. Yes, I'll take one,
26:29
Glaine stated, Jeffrey. How about you? Anything I can get
26:33
for you? I asked again, any answered no, thanks. We
26:36
just date and I'm still full. And they sat down
26:39
together on the stools at the kitchen bench. I got
26:42
out the shiny red kettle from the cupboard, knowing my
26:45
way all too well around the kitchen, and put it
26:47
over the hot stove plate. Turning around to face them,
26:51
I thought they were acting peculiar, so Golaine started the conversation,
26:55
how was the ranch with the prince. It was a
26:57
natural reaction for me to blush, knowing exactactly what she
27:00
was referring to. Keeping busy preparing the cup of tea
27:04
and avoiding eye contact with both of them, I started
27:06
to unpack the counter where I had been eating. I
27:10
think he had a really good time. He seemed relaxed
27:12
during the trip, and when we said goodbye to each other,
27:15
he gave me a kiss. I went on to tell
27:17
them what we did together. I took him horseback riding,
27:20
nowhere too far, just around the property. We went swimming
27:23
in the pool, and of course I gave him plenty
27:25
of massages. He had a massage at least a couple
27:27
times a day, really seeming to enjoy his time there.
27:31
It's what they wanted to hear, not the truth of
27:34
how disgusting I had felt over the whole thing, But
27:37
they already knew the truth anyways. It's what they had
27:40
trained me for in the first place. Like two proud parents.
27:43
They both looked over at me with such content. Good
27:46
you really did well, Jeffrey complimented me. Turning around the
27:49
boiling kettle. I finished Glaine's tea for her, and the
27:52
conversation led on to other subjects. We all ventured up
27:56
to Jeffrey's office, and out came the infamous Duffel bag
27:59
that when and wherever he did. I was given close
28:02
to one thousand dollars for my time in Santa Fe,
28:04
more than what I thought anybody in my young age
28:07
could make for a couple of days work. It was
28:09
fulfilling the obscene, vulgar needs of the so called privilege
28:13
that earned me so much. I spent the next few
28:16
days in New York, venturing out to do some shopping therapy.
28:19
I love the eccentric parts of the city. Every street
28:22
was different, but the same energetic vibe filled all of them.
28:26
Animated with all different walks of life. Hanging out at
28:29
coffee shops, reading the newspaper or a good book was
28:32
a favorite pastime while in the Big Apple, being close
28:36
enough to get back to Jeffrey for what he needed,
28:39
but also far enough to get away from it all.
28:42
Most of the days I slipped by without being missed,
28:45
and I made my way back to Jeffrey's. Making one
28:47
last pit stop, I walked into an old bookshop to
28:50
browse at their assortment of old titles. I wasn't in
28:54
any hurry, so I took my time reading the backs
28:57
of interesting looking books. I bumped in to a girl
29:00
looking down the same aisle. I was down. Sorry, I'm
29:03
so clumsy. She was apologizing for my mistake. No, no,
29:06
it was my fault. I wasn't looking at where I
29:09
was going. I get so wrapped up with my nose
29:11
in a book and trip over my own feet if
29:14
I'm not careful enough. We were both giggling now, and
29:17
I further introduced myself to her. Her name was Valerie
29:20
or Vicky or something like that. Anyway, she was a
29:23
student at school for hair dressing nearby, chatting away both
29:27
young and similar interests in each other's choices of reading,
29:31
we found it easy to speak to one another. She
29:33
wasn't from around here, only being in the city for
29:36
the last two months. Her parents hated her being here,
29:39
but were also supportive in her big decision to move
29:42
from the countryside in hopes of accomplishing her own dreams.
29:46
Aside from not having her near them, they just wanted
29:49
her to be happy and supported in her big decision
29:51
to move to the city, helping her pay some of
29:54
the way. She was a pretty girl with cherry red
29:57
hair and soft white skin. Her long leg were emphasized
30:01
by the short, flowery dress that complimented her hourglass figure.
30:05
She would definitely fit the pro quo for going down
30:07
in one of Jeffrey's Little Black Books. Only imagining the
30:11
look on his face upon meeting her, I could already
30:14
see his sly grin spread from ear to ear, knowing
30:17
exactly what he would do with her, and the very
30:20
thought of him tarnishing a sweet country girl such as
30:23
her just couldn't be done. It was the beginning of
30:26
a turning point in my life that started with realizing
30:30
I had a choice at hand and the effect I
30:32
could have on one person alone. I must be off,
30:36
but it was really nice meeting you, bidding her a
30:39
good night, and paying for my books. I turned around
30:42
with one last glance over my shoulder and said good
30:44
luck in the city. Leaving the bookshop was a small
30:47
step in a growing abundance of larger strides to come.
30:51
Turning the corner onto seventy second Street, I had an
30:54
undeniable feeling in the pit of my stomach again. But
30:57
this time it wasn't the familiar hurl of anxiety I
31:00
was used to after I had done something wrong that
31:04
I had regretted. It was a new feeling of pride
31:06
and inner strength. I quite liked it a lot. I
31:09
held my head high and smiled on the inside when
31:12
Jeffrey asked me how my day was and what I
31:15
got up to, not mentioning that I had let one
31:17
girl slip on by The icy winter winds faded away,
31:21
making way for the approaching sunny days that blossomed the
31:25
colorful shades of spring. This was my favorite time of year.
31:29
Making the most use of his island. We spent countless
31:32
days of the increasingly hot days. There a constant array
31:36
of visiting guests and plentiful young women to flock around
31:39
keeping them entertained. Was a typical lazy afternoon on Little
31:43
Saint Jeff's. We ate, drank and played under the blue
31:46
blanket of cloud disguise. Too many, this lifestyle could seem
31:50
idellic unless you were like me, the one on the
31:54
other side of the fence where the grass wasn't so green.
31:57
Fortunately for me, and in some ways not, I was
32:00
mostly expected to attend only Jeffrey's insurmountable sexual desires, whereas
32:05
the other girls who came one day and went the
32:08
next were a promise to a multitude of open doors
32:11
just for their meager participation and sexual acts with random men,
32:14
only to be disappointed when they realized there was nothing
32:17
more than a single night out for these geriatric senior
32:20
citizens who most likely do or would die from Alzheimer's,
32:24
and they would sooner forget their entire experience, let alone
32:27
their first name. Surrounded by those in our world who
32:31
many looked up to, but not seeing them from where
32:34
I was standing, I didn't have the highest of standards
32:36
in humanity. Then I met al Gore, his lovely wife,
32:40
during one of those many weekends away in the Caribbean.
32:42
I was blown away by the amount of attention Al
32:45
doated on his wife. It was sweet to watch. They
32:48
sat next to each other at the dinner table, gazing
32:50
into one another's eyes, having an intimate conversation between them.
32:54
Among the many guests that visited that night, in many
32:57
of them young beautiful women, not once did al thighs
33:00
stray elsewhere to them, they were the only ones there.
33:04
He was up for presidential election that year, and he
33:07
definitely had my vote. Anyone that could show that much
33:10
devotion and passion towards his loved ones could have the
33:13
same devotion towards running a country, or at least I
33:16
thought so. He only left his wife's side to have
33:19
a walk down the beach with the host of the weekend, Jeffrey.
33:22
The weather was still warm in the evening when I
33:25
decided to break away from the idle chat around the
33:27
table and take a stroll too. Not wanting to interrupt
33:31
the conversation between Jeffrey and Al, I walked in the
33:35
opposite direction, plucking the washed up seashells embedded in the
33:38
sand along the way. I enjoyed the serenity in the
33:41
solitude of the island. So many nooks and crannies to
33:44
get lost in I could imagine that I actually disappeared
33:48
from the entire world for a moment. By the time
33:51
that I came back to the main house, majority of
33:54
the small crowd had been long gone retired to their cabanas.
33:58
Even Jeffrey had gone off to bed. But trust party
34:01
animal Glane was still up entertaining the remaining guests left
34:05
at the table, telling her wild stories of people in
34:09
places she is embarked on, trying not to make eye
34:11
contact as I walk past them on my way back
34:14
to the cabana, carrying my seashells inside my curled up blouse,
34:18
I wasn't up for any more pointless talking tonight. Emptying
34:22
out my seashells into a plastic bag, I went over
34:25
my new treasure one by one. I love collecting odd things,
34:28
shells being one of my favorites. Glene and I shared
34:31
that interest together. We would enjoy walkabouts around the island
34:35
searching for lost pieces of the remnants that pirates had
34:38
left behind centuries ago. It was mostly broken plates or
34:42
smashed glass from bottles of ale, and even occasionally getting
34:45
lucky and finding some old coins here and there. It
34:49
wasn't easy, though, both loving a challenge. It was perfect
34:52
for us, and during many scratches from the bushes we
34:55
would be searching through and then soar arms from digging
34:58
all day, but it was worth it. In end, after
35:01
nearly two years of collecting items and saving them, we
35:04
made Jeffrey a mosaic table out of the remaining pieces
35:08
left from the era of the Pirate's day. Upon completing it,
35:11
we were both astounded in our creation. It was such
35:14
an item of rarity and an interesting piece of work.
35:18
When we presented it to Jeffrey, he was even impressed,
35:20
not only in our amazing fins, but what we did
35:23
with them. The table became an important work of art
35:27
that Jeffrey showed off inside the main house lounge room,
35:30
sparking much intrigue and table conversation by many of the
35:33
visiting guests to his island. All right, we're going to
35:36
wrap up right here, and in the next episode, we're
35:38
going to pick up where we left off. All of
35:41
the information that goes with this episode can be found
35:43
in the description box. What's up, everyone, and welcome to
35:46
another episode of the Epstein Chronicles. In this episode, we're
35:51
going to pick up where we left off with the
35:53
Virginia Roberts memoir The Billionaire's Club. The next day, I
35:57
attended class as usual, but not to concentrate like I
36:01
normally did, too excited about when I'd be seeing Robbie
36:04
that night. Again. As I walked out of class that afternoon,
36:08
even the teacher noticed a difference in my performance and
36:11
asked me if I was feeling well on top of
36:14
the world. Actually, I smiled back at the old instructor,
36:17
and it wasn't far from the exact truth either. I
36:21
hadn't ever felt the churning of the butterflies of my
36:24
stomach and the constant thoughts of anyone else like this before.
36:28
My girlfriend and I got a tuk tuk back together,
36:31
as we usually did after school, and I couldn't shut
36:34
up about the night before. She was laughing at my girlishness,
36:37
telling me that anyone who just met me would think
36:41
that I had never been let out before. But little
36:43
did she know that I had more than my fair
36:45
share in experience with men, and never had I ever
36:49
come across anyone that could make me feel this way.
36:52
And what spun me out even more was that it
36:55
was such an instant attraction, never considering myself, a person
36:59
who believed in the existence of love at first sight,
37:02
but a true romantic deep at heart. I couldn't help
37:04
but believe in it. Now he's my walk in proof
37:07
of it. Waiting for me in the hotel lobby was
37:10
the very person I couldn't stop entertaining the thoughts about
37:13
all day. There he was, looking ever so fine, standing
37:16
in front of me. Now the whole entire world faded away,
37:20
and all that was left for the moment was this
37:22
complete stranger I had only met last night, but somehow
37:26
captivated the very essence of my very heart. There was
37:30
no need for me to try and act cool. Now
37:32
he already knew. I was snagged, hook line and sinker,
37:36
Smiling all the way up the many stories in the
37:38
elevator up to my room. He took notice of my
37:40
pash decor of the hotel. You should see where I'm staying.
37:44
This is a royal palace compared to where I'm staying.
37:47
His first impression of me was that I was going
37:50
to be a spoiled, high maintenance girl that had money
37:53
coming in from parents or a hefty trust fund. Casually
37:57
he got to find out through many deep and meaningful
37:59
convers stations that my life's grim story wasn't that pretty
38:03
at all. For some reason beyond my knowledge, I had
38:06
the need to tell this stranger almost everything, wanting to
38:09
be judged and looked down upon. For everything about my
38:12
life that I knew I was wrong, and being the
38:15
first time I had spoken about my years with Jeffrey
38:18
to anyone honestly like that ever before, I had felt
38:21
like I had deserved punishment. He offered me no judgment, instead,
38:25
only gave me his warmth and compassion as he wrapped
38:28
his strong arms around me, making me feel so meager
38:31
and small, but so safe at the same time, encouraging
38:35
me to see the worthiness of myself and leave that
38:37
life behind. He adorned me with the kind of love
38:40
that I was not accustomed to. He took me in
38:43
and made me feel so at home. It was like
38:45
I had known him my whole life. I couldn't bear
38:48
to be without him another second while I was away
38:51
on this dream holiday, when he was in training formoy
38:54
Thai tournaments and I wasn't in school, nobody would ever
38:57
see us, too enveloped any each other in my hotel
39:01
room to care about anything else, which is why I
39:04
asked him to come stay at my hotel with me,
39:06
seeing he was never at his own anyway. My girlfriend
39:10
was soon departing back to Wisconsin, making my room more
39:13
than available for him. Enchanted by his words and tender touch,
39:18
and the way that he made love to me was
39:20
again like nothing I had experienced before, even down to
39:25
after sex. As I had been routinely instructed by Jeffrey
39:28
to get up for a warm washcloth to clean his
39:30
genitals afterwards, he refused it, telling me I was no
39:33
longer a slave and that he didn't want me acting
39:36
like one. He just rather laid down together afterwards and
39:39
repeat our sweet nothings with many adjoining kisses. On the
39:43
third night, together with nothing but the bed sheets between us,
39:46
we had spent all night looking at each other and
39:49
into each other's eyes, sharing such an undeniable passion for
39:52
one another. In the deepest caverns of my heart, I
39:56
knew that this man would give me what I had
39:58
never experienced before, true love. We were still laying in
40:03
each other's arms when the orange and pink sunrise began
40:06
to rise slowly through the peak of my room's windows,
40:10
enticing me to come feel the freshness of the morning's
40:13
chill on the bed sheets were still wrapped around my body,
40:17
and I went to the balcony. It was overlooking the
40:20
city in a valley surrounded mountainous tops. My thoughts began
40:24
to rampage through my head, and I knew this could
40:26
only be a dream for me. It was getting serious, now,
40:30
too serious for the life that I led back home.
40:33
As if he sensed my anxiety, Robbie walked up behind
40:36
me and wrapped his strong arms around my waistline, gently
40:39
kissing my neckline and pausing with this ever so thoughtful
40:42
stare and gave me the exact opening that I needed
40:46
to expel my thoughts back home. As you already know,
40:49
I'm going back to somebody else. It's my job, and
40:53
as much as I really like you, this guy that
40:55
I kind of see is going to expect me to
40:57
be putting him first. I'm so sorry to say all
41:00
of this after such a wonderful few days as we
41:03
have spent together, but you need to know that this
41:06
thing happening between us can't get any more serious than
41:09
what we have for now. I'm so sorry. I looked
41:13
down to the floor with nothing else I could say
41:15
to alter his perception on me now that I had
41:18
told him the truth, and it never dawned on me
41:21
that he wouldn't be out the door before I could
41:23
even finish the sentence. But he continued to surprise me
41:27
with the efforts to make me believe we were more
41:29
than just friends with the summer crush. You see, your
41:32
problem is that you don't see what I'm looking at
41:34
right here in front of me, a beautiful girl who
41:36
is completely lost in a game she has no control over.
41:40
Get out of it. Now, take my hand and follow
41:42
me back to my home in Australia. I heard what
41:46
he said, but I found it hard to comprehend what
41:49
he was actually talking about. What I asked him with
41:53
a look of confusion on my face. He're nobody's property.
41:56
You can do this, marry me. His statements got more
41:59
and more pfe as he went on repeating the questions.
42:02
He got on one knee and proposed again, Jenna, I
42:06
am in love with you and I want to spend
42:08
the rest of my life making you happy. Please don't
42:11
go back to him. I know that I'm the only
42:13
one for you, and I will always treat you right.
42:16
He paused for another second and repeated his question, Jenna,
42:20
will you please marry me? My hand fell into my
42:23
face after that, and without even letting myself think through
42:26
the answer, I let my heart do all the talking.
42:29
Looking back up to him, I said yes. I almost
42:32
shouted the answer at him, as if saying it louder
42:35
would give the word more meaning. Wanting to believe him
42:38
and everything that he was saying felt like a vacation
42:41
from all of the suffering and loneliness that I had
42:43
endured over a lifetime of abuse and degradation. But knowing
42:47
what you want and getting it are two things that
42:50
rarely went hand in hand, or so I thought. All
42:54
I knew from the brief period I had known this
42:56
stranger was that he was offering me a life and
42:59
loved down an unfamiliar path. And it was a gamble
43:02
to believe a complete stranger, But somehow I knew he
43:05
was right. My heart was beating so loud I thought
43:09
it was going to jump right out of my chest
43:11
while the earnestness in my reply he picked up in
43:14
his strong arms and took me back to the bed
43:17
and reiterated his words in a more physical sense. This time.
43:21
Never had I felt loved like this before, so swept
43:24
off my feet and unable to even think, eat, or
43:27
do anything for that matter, which would involve leaving the
43:30
hotel room without him. Every day after school would be
43:35
my Robbie waiting to take me back to the hotel
43:37
room for another night's passionate rendezvous. But a few nights
43:40
after his proposal, he had another surprise in store. He
43:45
didn't just want to get married someday. He wanted to
43:47
get married now this week even I walked into the
43:50
fabric store and was attended to by several seamstress who
43:54
were already expecting my arrival. I was there to design
43:58
and have fun designing my own dream wedding dress. While
44:01
I was busy picking out fabrics and having measurements taken,
44:05
I would look away for a moment, only to catch
44:07
his tender eyes staring in my direction. Such adoration behind
44:11
his looks. Could it be real? I would often ponder
44:15
it to myself, just hoping for the gamble I was
44:17
taking to work. I still had to believe in something
44:20
better than what I was accustomed to, And here he was,
44:23
writesmack dab in front of me, giggling at all of
44:27
the lace and frills, they were trying to dress me
44:29
up in looking more like an antique porcelain doll than
44:32
anything else. I closed my eyes and pictured the day
44:35
that I thought would never come. Starting to imagine the
44:39
kind of dress I would like to wear, I envisioned
44:41
a simple, sleekness, a complimentary, figure hugging gown with a
44:45
small train, but long enough to distinguish and distinct as
44:49
an actual wedding dress. After we settled on what we
44:52
were going to wear for the big day, we would
44:54
next have to decide where we would hold the ceremony,
44:58
not before celebrating the entire week beforehand, though. We started
45:01
our honeymoon early, celebrating every night, spending our time between
45:05
the hotel room and sending our heads spinning on the
45:09
dance floor at many different clubs, only with each other
45:12
in sight. The dance floor was ours. We were out
45:15
to give each other something to remember each night by
45:19
I whispered all of the things I couldn't wait to
45:21
do to him. Once we got back to the hotel
45:23
room and watching him heat up on the dance floor,
45:25
I was never able to get enough of him, driving
45:28
me crazy. Like a thirst, I was unable to quench
45:31
his lips were like a fountain of deep springs that
45:34
I could never reach the bottom of. Seven days, exactly
45:38
a week after his proposal, I sat on my bed
45:40
in distress, contemplating what I would say to the man
45:44
who I was about to call. There was no nice
45:46
way to go about it. It couldn't last forever with
45:49
it and with him, and this was my one chance
45:52
to get out of it for good. I was leaving him,
45:55
never to return to him ever again. I just had
45:58
to go ahead and do it. Part of me was
46:00
hoping he'd be at least a little happy for me
46:03
and the sudden change in my life's direction, But the
46:05
other part of me knew I was already asking too
46:08
much of him. Calling his office in New York, I
46:11
was transferred to Jeffrey's personal office. He picked up the
46:15
phone on the third ring, pausing before I could get
46:18
any of the words to come out of my mouth.
46:20
But I mustered up my courage eventually and gave him
46:22
my prepared spuel, beginning with how much I had appreciate
46:26
everything he had done for me up until this point.
46:28
I hoped that he would understand, but he just wanted
46:31
me to hurry up and get to the point trying
46:34
to contagiously pass on my excitement through the phone line.
46:38
I finally screamed out, I'm getting married. Can you believe it?
46:42
No reply was given, only silence on the other end.
46:45
Trying to make some conversation. Ridding the uncomfortable silence, I
46:48
went on to tell him about Robbie and how I
46:51
had fallen madly in love with him over the last
46:54
amazing few days we'd spent together. The absence of sound
46:57
made my thoughts begin to run wild, and to get
47:00
he had some response, I had to ask him what
47:02
he thought about everything I was telling him. Finally, a
47:04
few seconds later, his reaction to the news sunk in
47:08
and his only and final reply until many years to
47:11
come was have a good life. With that statement, he
47:16
slammed down the phone receiver, leaving only an echo of
47:18
the dial tone to answer back to. I was too
47:21
paralyzed from the shocking response. What have I just done?
47:25
Was the first thing that entered my thoughts. Overwhelmed with guilt,
47:28
I felt like I was falling down a deep, dark hole,
47:31
and then the tears began to flood in. Here I
47:34
was standing at the dawn of a new happy wife.
47:35
For myself, and I couldn't see past how bad I
47:38
had let Jeffrey down, not yet seeing the hold he
47:41
had on me. All right, folks, we're gonna wrap up
47:44
right here, and we're getting close to the end. So
47:47
in the next episode, we're gonna pick up where we
47:49
left off and bring this bad boy to a completion.
47:52
All of the information that goes with this episode can
47:55
be found in the description box. What's up, everyone, and
47:59
welcome to another epilepisode of the Epstein Chronicles. In this episode,
48:03
we're picking up where he left off with Virginia Robert's
48:06
memoir The Billionaires Playboy Club. Like my White Knight on
48:10
a horse, In came my hero to soothe my somberness.
48:14
He rushed over to the bed where I was beating
48:16
myself up mentally and wipe the falling tears from my cheeks.
48:20
I take it that it didn't go so well, huh.
48:22
Sniffling through my sobs, I managed to tell him that
48:25
it doesn't matter anymore. All I care about is you
48:28
and leaving all of that life behind me. I wrapped
48:30
my arms around him, and he asked me, in a
48:33
half joking voice, then why are you crying? He got
48:36
me almost laughing now too. I guess it's just so scary,
48:40
taking such a huge plunge away from what I'm used
48:43
to and taking such a big move to another country.
48:46
It's just all so different, and I'm just trying to
48:48
comprehend everything that's happening in such a short time. Always
48:52
out to lift my spirits, his next comments made me
48:55
gush in laughter. You think that was a hard phone call,
48:59
Wait until I call my Sicilian mother. Watch this. I
49:02
know exactly what she'll say. First, it'll be a saga
49:05
about how I'm killing her with myself as actions. Then
49:08
it'll be about how she's going to kill herself for
49:10
doing such a terrible job raising normal children. Don't worry, though,
49:14
She'll love every second of it. Logs thrive off of
49:17
the drama in their lives and off everybody else's for
49:20
that matter. He was pretty much on the dot when
49:23
he told me how she'd react to the news. In
49:26
the end, after relentlessly trying to change his mind, she sighed,
49:29
if it was going to be anybody to do something
49:32
as crazy as this, Robbie, it would be you. It
49:36
wasn't a blessing as such, but at least she wasn't
49:39
threatening suicide any longer, calling the closest of our families
49:43
that night before our wedding to share with them. The
49:45
announcement wasn't celebrated by any members of either side, but
49:49
that didn't discern us one bit. My parents took it well,
49:52
considering their only daughter was marrying a foreign man that
49:56
they didn't know from the next guy on the street.
49:59
And to top it off, I was moving to Australia permanently.
50:02
When I asked my dad many years later why he
50:05
hadn't put up a fight, he simply replied that nobody
50:07
expected it to last very long. Fair Enough, I thought,
50:11
I don't think anyone did at first, even us at
50:14
our toughest times. We were a rare attribute. These days
50:17
in the Namera, we have all been accustomed to living in,
50:20
turning nothing into something, which I had also come to
50:23
realize was the most precious gift in my life love.
50:28
Falling asleep was easy to do in his arms. That night,
50:31
I laid my head on top of his chest, listening
50:33
to the drum of his beating heart. I had never
50:36
felt like I was more at home than ever before
50:39
in my life. He pulled me gently in closer to him,
50:42
letting me know that he was there for me even
50:45
when the lights went out and the thoughts would usually
50:47
creep in. Amazing how he knew what I needed without
50:51
even asking for it, wishing for something like this my
50:53
whole life. I thought I was being such a fool
50:56
in so many ways, but I was so wrong. The
50:59
way is pretty Igh looked at me with such an
51:01
understanding and compassionate sincerity made me want to trust his
51:05
words and believe the love that he was offering me
51:08
was indeed real. The next morning, Robbie was up and
51:11
out of bed early to pick up our tailored wedding
51:14
suit and dresses for our big day at Deyset Temple.
51:18
His best friend from high school days that was traveling
51:21
with him from Australia, met him at the hotel lobby
51:23
at seven o'clock. He was going to be joining us
51:26
for the wedding as Robbie's best man. He still hadn't
51:28
been able to find black shoes to go with the suit,
51:31
so after he dropped off my dress back to me,
51:33
he was off again to try and find himself a
51:35
pair of decent looking ones. Overjoyed with excitement, I was
51:38
thrilled from the second I kiss Robbie goodbye for the
51:41
last time before we were officially married. Looking in the
51:45
same mirror only a week ago, I was now a
51:48
different person. I felt like I was plunging into a
51:50
bottomless abyss. Here I go, I thought to myself as
51:54
I plunged out the door, letting the butterflies of my
51:57
stomach carry me all the way to my nearly husband.
52:01
I had to go to the beauticians that morning for
52:03
my pre wedding makeup and dressing. The ladies who were
52:06
doing my hair and face at the salon did a
52:08
great job making me feel so beautiful for my special
52:11
occasion that every girl dreams about their entire life. Requesting
52:15
simplicity at best, not wanting to go overboard with all
52:18
of the wedding apparel, they tied my long hair up
52:20
into a knot, wrapping it around a veil of flowers
52:24
made up of baby's breath and small, yellow, purple budding flowers.
52:28
I could have dreamt it up better myself. And when
52:30
I met my husband to be at the bottom of
52:33
the mountain, he stood before me speechless. You look so beautiful,
52:38
were his first words that his mouth formed almost whispering them.
52:42
He took my hand and we walked into the skylift together.
52:45
Behind us followed an interpreter that Robbie hired to translate
52:48
the Buddhist monks ceremony speech for us to English only speakers,
52:52
and his best friend, who was only moments before it
52:55
gave him the best man's speech about being the last
52:57
chance to walk away from this and not get married
53:00
to a girl he hardly knew. But my Robbie wouldn't
53:03
hear a word of it. He already made up his
53:05
mind the instant he proposed, and I said, yes, I
53:09
was born to be with this girl. He told his
53:11
best mate, all right, then let's do this. Then, once
53:14
he knew that Robbie was sure in his decision, he
53:17
was more than a static for him. We were slowly
53:19
lifted up the tremendous mountain side, surrounded by floral green
53:23
carpet of mossy grass that covered the earthly skyscraper, and
53:26
falling fog. It was like being carried to Heaven, or
53:30
the closest thing to it. Taking my eyes off the
53:32
scenery and catching him adoringly staring at me again, I
53:36
welled up with unstoppable tears. I am so lucky. Is
53:40
this really happening? He squeezed my hand and replied back,
53:43
You're the only one for me. I love you, relieving
53:47
the anxiety written all over my tear stained face. Getting
53:52
out of the carriage, we were greeted by good fortune
53:54
from the gods above. A sun shower cascaded over us.
53:57
As we advanced into the Hian Holy Temple. My tears
54:01
of joy dried and my happiness was glowing for all
54:04
to see. The many visitors to the temple stopped and
54:06
took photos of the passing bride and groom. No other
54:09
foreigners had ever been married there, and certainly anyone wearing
54:13
traditional Western wedding attire. Such a sight had never been
54:16
seen behind these religious walls. We became a permanent icon
54:20
at the temple. The ceremony was done in the Buddhist
54:23
customs according to their ancestral accordance and translated for us
54:27
in our own language. Both Robbie and I were anointed
54:30
with a blessing from the monk, with a splash of
54:32
water and seven sacramental bracelets, each one representing another meaning
54:37
to the longevity of our union. Together, we signed our
54:40
names in the Buddhists wedding Registry of deussept Temple and
54:43
officially became Missus and Missus Roberts, at least officially in
54:47
our hearts, knowing the laws of Australia only recognized certified weddings,
54:51
meaning when we got back to his homeland, we'd have
54:53
to make a run for the courthouse. This was our
54:57
real wedding, though perfect down to every detail. Waking up
55:00
to the highest point of the temple, to the balcony
55:03
hanging over the edge of the cliff side overlooking the
55:06
city of chang May, we knew we had found the
55:09
perfect spot to recite our vows of love to each other,
55:12
providing everything for me and more than I could ever ask.
55:15
His vows were to love me unconditionally until death do
55:18
we part, shelter me from all the cruelty in the
55:21
world that I was so accustomed to, and be like
55:24
a bear, because the bear never forgets. Tears once again
55:28
streamed down my eyes as he made this moment unforgettable,
55:32
wiping the miscaa fading underneath my eyelids, whilst giggling at
55:35
my embarrassment. I took my hands back into mine again
55:38
and gave him the vows that were the sacred prepared
55:42
words from my heart. My ears were thundering the sound
55:45
of a million horses hoofs descending downhill, and my heart
55:48
was beating so fast my words barely trembled out of
55:51
my mouth when I began to tell him how much
55:53
he had changed my whole life around, and how dedicated
55:57
my entire being to loving him and only him. Until
56:00
I blew my final breath, I meant every word of
56:03
what I said to him. This was it for me,
56:06
wanting nothing more out of life than to be with
56:08
someone like him, to raise a few kids together and
56:11
grow old on the front porch, letting the days fade
56:13
us by. I know it probably sounds boring to most people,
56:17
and it would have to me as well many years ago.
56:19
But after the life I had led, I had enough
56:22
experience in the real world for my liking, and now
56:25
all I want is to do to enjoy the remaining
56:27
days of my life for what it is, a simple
56:30
and satisfying existence. Our day was so special, not only
56:34
to us, even to the monk that married us. Upon
56:37
our descent down the lifts, he asked if he could
56:39
take a photo with the bride and groom in front
56:41
of their symbolic liberty bell, signifying the union of East
56:45
and West. It represented a lot for us too. It
56:49
was a commencement of a new life together and just
56:51
the beginning of battling each other's past demons together. Kissing
56:55
the bridal party goodbye. Who were just the local girls
56:58
I had met on some of are many nights out
57:00
having fun. I threw my arranged bouquet of Thailand's white
57:04
wedding flooras mixed with the colorful orchids to the screaming
57:07
Thie women behind me, and they were given one last
57:10
tradition to take with us, the release of cage doves.
57:14
It was such an incredible gesture, especially for me, symbolizing
57:17
their freedom as well as mine. I opened the cage
57:20
door to let them free to decide their own fate.
57:23
As the wings on the birds began to spread open
57:25
and they took their final descent into the blue skies,
57:28
granting themselves freedom, I knew mine had finally come too.
57:32
The relevance of watching them fly away and how I
57:35
had perceived my own day of marriage related to the
57:37
identical feeling of feeling an entrapment of my own kind.
57:41
I was liberated from the bounds of slavery. I had
57:44
come to know over many years I had spent with
57:46
my fair share of greedy, pervert old men, only to
57:49
have the serendipity mend my scars with the powerful healing
57:53
of what true love has to endeavor on as customary
57:57
in the romance novels I have read as a young girl.
57:59
He piqued me up in the hallway before our hotel
58:03
suite and carried me over the threshold. Poofy dressed, and
58:05
all my arms were tightly squeezed around his neck, never
58:09
once taking my eyes off of him until he revealed
58:12
yet another sweet surprise. Besides the cleaners tidying up the
58:16
room while we were going back, they were given instructions
58:19
by none other than the groom himself to pick up
58:21
the petals off the stems of red roses to place
58:24
on our bed in the shape of a giant heart.
58:27
The rose petals led the way to where we consummated
58:30
our love physically, and it was undeniably the first time
58:33
in my life I had ever been made love to.
58:36
Hours passed by before we thought about anything else besides
58:40
one another's words of arousal and tantalizing touches and lingering kisses.
58:45
We had a quiet dinner at a local restaurant and
58:47
went went straight back into the arms of each other again,
58:50
so profoundly in love with one another. It was the
58:53
ideal display of what the honeymoon period should have to
58:55
show for us. It was crazy, young and energetic, just
58:59
what it should have been for two blossoming lovers. All right, folks,
59:02
we're gonna wrap up right here, and in the next
59:05
episode we're gonna pick up where we left off. All
59:07
of the information that goes with this episode can be
59:09
found in the description box. What's up, everyone, and welcome
59:13
to another episode of the Epstein Chronicles. In this episode,
59:17
we're gonna get right back to the Virginia Roberts memoir
59:20
Billionaires Playboy Club. The following morning, we left the Princess Hotel,
59:25
no longer under any of Jeffrey's financial privileges or control,
59:29
so to speak, continuing our love spree and another dwelling
59:33
of our own accord. Three days later, when we finally
59:36
showed our face for the first time since checking in
59:38
downstairs in the new hotel lobby. Besides to request fresh
59:42
sheets and towels, the entire staff of the hotel had
59:45
a good laugh at our expenditure. From their reaction, it
59:48
must have been nice to see a couple so affectionately
59:51
fond of one another. Now we wanted to have another
59:54
type of fun. Robbie had visited a tourist agent by
59:58
himself before we got hitched to book a honey room.
1:00:01
My itinerary for us to explore Thailand and beyond together,
1:00:05
another surprise he had in store for me. We left
1:00:08
early in the morning and joined the crowded bus for
1:00:11
our journey beyond the border of Thailand to a village
1:00:14
and the war torn nation of Laos. When we got
1:00:17
through the extremely armored visa office eight hours off the
1:00:20
beaten path, we then had to cross a flooding river
1:00:24
from a recent heavy downpour of rain in a slim
1:00:26
banana boat that looked like it could barely handle our weight,
1:00:29
let alone the excess of my luggage that Robbie was
1:00:32
so kind to trek around the world for me. Unbelievably,
1:00:36
we did make it to the other side, only to
1:00:38
find that my honeymoon in the tropics wasn't exactly how
1:00:41
it had been explained to me. Naked children ran through
1:00:44
the dirty streets with one boy that decided to release
1:00:48
his bladder on the pathway where we were walking as
1:00:51
we passed by him on the way to our hotel.
1:00:54
My doubts of his choice and destinations became apparent after
1:00:57
that sight. Robbie was getting hungry after we hadn't eaten
1:01:01
the entire duration of the trip, and being such a
1:01:04
rugged man he could digest just about anything. Deciding to
1:01:08
stop on the side of the road, he ordered some
1:01:10
kind of seafood dish, daring, I thought, settling for some
1:01:14
toast and jam, something safer, I thought. Then I saw
1:01:18
the lady behind the counter dip some plates in a
1:01:20
dirty bucket full of dirty water, and then rinse in
1:01:23
another bucket of water that didn't look as bad as
1:01:26
the previous muddrench one, and then further proceeded to put
1:01:29
my toast and his food on top of them, serving
1:01:33
it to us all in clear view. I just couldn't
1:01:36
bring myself to eat that, I mouthed in a hush voice,
1:01:40
trying to quietly make my point, but was made public
1:01:44
with the loud mouth outburst of why not looks fine
1:01:46
to me? You have to try and eat something you
1:01:49
haven't eaten all day. I know it was just his
1:01:51
caring side that he was trying to force me. And
1:01:54
to top it off, he's Sicilian and they're all about eating.
1:01:57
So it was our first debate, and now we were
1:01:59
a fit married, with many more marital conflicts to subsequently follow.
1:02:05
Two headstrong and stubborn people, both both with the best intentions,
1:02:09
but still recovering from old wounds. It was only natural
1:02:13
and important that we thought just as much as we
1:02:15
made passionate love together, countlessly proving to one another the
1:02:19
true intentions of each other's loves, but sometimes in not
1:02:22
so seemingly actions. Finally, arriving at the hotel, it was
1:02:26
like a scene out of a horror flick. We were
1:02:29
showed up to the room that looked like somebody had
1:02:31
been brutally killed in The bed sheets were torn apart,
1:02:35
and the bed was stained with blood from some poor,
1:02:38
helpless victim. Nearly vomiting at the pure site of my
1:02:41
room and the stench that accompanied it, I was now
1:02:44
tearing at the thought of even staying here for a
1:02:47
single moment longer. No way, I told my new husband,
1:02:50
and from the tone of my voice he knew I
1:02:53
was serious, not that I was not denying the fact
1:02:56
that I had never been an out back type of girl.
1:02:58
I was fine with that impression. I'm no snob, but
1:03:01
give me the simple luxuries of a clean bed and
1:03:03
a shower, then I'll make myself at home. But this
1:03:07
was just the epitome of filth and even possibly an
1:03:09
act of a horrendous event. But who knows. The lady
1:03:12
who showed us to the room seemed fine with it,
1:03:15
passing it off as a hooker on our period. In
1:03:18
some ways, that was even worse. Yuck, Okay, Robbie, it's
1:03:22
time to go now. We were heading back down the
1:03:25
hill back to the passport center, declaring our passage back
1:03:29
into Thailand. Considering us a risk due to the short
1:03:32
time we spent crossing the border and back, the officials
1:03:35
held us at gunpoint while others rummaged through our luggage
1:03:38
for drugs or whatnot, Finding nothing, of course, they released
1:03:41
us and stamped our passports, making us good for another
1:03:45
three months if we wanted. We were thankful for escaping
1:03:49
with our lives alone, although we had nothing to hide,
1:03:51
but still an endearing experience. Nonetheless, in the first days
1:03:55
of our honeymoon, of all days arriving in Ko Samu,
1:04:00
we were finally a bit of relaxation in the tropics.
1:04:02
It was my idea of how a holiday should be, sunny,
1:04:05
warm and clean, well an ideal way for two strangers
1:04:09
to properly get acquainted. Dancing into the wee hours of
1:04:12
the night and making love in the blistering heat of
1:04:15
the sunny days. We discovered everything on that island, mostly
1:04:19
being into each other. We made friends of all sorts,
1:04:22
mostly travelers, but everyone the same in being taken aback
1:04:27
by our fairytale romance. With our captivated eyes never straying
1:04:31
too far from one another, anyone could easily see the
1:04:34
strong chemistry between us. Trying to find the woman in
1:04:38
me wasn'tdifficult, as I took to the bounds of marriage
1:04:41
with such ease. No longer a girl, I loved the
1:04:44
idea of being a wife and belonging to a husband
1:04:48
like Robbie. Marriage was bliss for the duration of our
1:04:51
honeymoon until we had to ride coach on our way
1:04:53
to the Bangkok airport to fly out to Australia, chatting
1:04:57
away with always so much to say to each other.
1:05:00
We watched the movie and finally got comfortable leaning up
1:05:03
against each other as pillows. We both fell asleep on
1:05:06
the long ride, and when we woke up to the
1:05:08
sound of the bus's brakes coming to a halt, we
1:05:11
initially realized my purse and Robbie's wallet, with all of
1:05:14
our money and cards, were missing. Stranded in the city
1:05:18
of Bangkok was frightening enough as it was, but to
1:05:22
make matters worse, a lady looking in her mid seventies,
1:05:24
scrawny and hunched over from an obvious lack of nutrition,
1:05:27
lifted up her skirt to a passer by with a
1:05:30
she mal hanging off his arm, and began smacking her vagina,
1:05:33
blaring out look, no cock, pussy, pussy only five bought,
1:05:38
repeating herself many times over. The man just walked on past.
1:05:42
As she sat back down on the curb waiting for
1:05:44
the next alluring customer. Robbie and I shook our heads
1:05:48
in disgusted, in disbelief things could really be that bad
1:05:51
for someone I would know best, as it wasn't far
1:05:54
off the life that Jeffrey had been trending me up for.
1:05:58
Completely broke at two o'clock in the morning, and with
1:06:01
no one a call for help, I panicked right away.
1:06:04
Robbie rub my back and his tired eyes, trying to
1:06:07
make the situation better. Luckily, we had made friends with
1:06:10
some really nice people from the resort on the island,
1:06:13
who gave us about two thousand bought when they saw
1:06:15
how devastated Robbie and I were. With just enough money
1:06:19
to rent a really cheap room for the night at
1:06:21
a backpacker's hostel and pay for a taxi to the
1:06:23
airport the following day, we were saved. Early the next morning,
1:06:28
we were off in separate planes, since Robbie's ticket was
1:06:30
pre booked and no available seats left for me to
1:06:33
join them. Meant we would be landing in Australia separately. Fortunately,
1:06:38
we had found the corresponding flight that arrived within the
1:06:40
same hour of each other, but I would have to
1:06:43
make a stopover in the Philippines. The lengthy hours of
1:06:46
the duration of the flight seemed to stretch with the
1:06:49
thoughts of the journey ahead of me. I couldn't wait
1:06:52
to get back to my husband's loving arms. The trip
1:06:55
was going well, sleeping the majority of the flight until
1:06:57
I had to change planes in the Philippines. After the
1:07:01
plane landed and before any of the passengers were allowed
1:07:04
to get off. We were handed a declaration statement that
1:07:06
informed us that if we were carrying any drugs or
1:07:09
a weaponry, we would be arrested and face charges with
1:07:12
death as the ultimate penalty. Not that I had anything
1:07:16
to worry about, but what a thought to willingly sign
1:07:19
over your life. I got the chills and handing over
1:07:23
my signed declaration and traveling documents to the customs officer
1:07:27
obtaining my passport, he additionally asked to see my departing ticket.
1:07:30
No problem, I thought, I just had done many times,
1:07:33
and I handed over the required information. The officer looked
1:07:37
me up and down, and then got on the phone immediately,
1:07:40
which sounded like a phone call to his superiors, but
1:07:43
I could tell since it wasn't another language. A brief conversation,
1:07:47
but long enough to get me thinking. He then called
1:07:49
over to guards, who took me by the arms and
1:07:52
brought me into the empty room to be interrogated. No
1:07:55
one would tell me what was going on, and they
1:07:57
all scattered around in frenzy, ignoring all of my hysterical inquisitions,
1:08:02
leaving me by myself and alone with my thoughts. I
1:08:05
couldn't help a panic even worse now. This was the
1:08:08
total bombshell of confusion on my part. What had I
1:08:11
done wrong? Minute later, a large framed woman in a
1:08:14
green uniform entered the room with the guards from before
1:08:17
and sat down across from me with a stern look
1:08:20
in her eye. She placed my documents on my desk
1:08:23
in between us, not saying a word to me. She
1:08:27
was waiting for me to give her an explanation about something.
1:08:30
Can you please tell me what this is about. Have
1:08:32
I done something wrong? I asked her, politely, trying to
1:08:35
restrain any animosity towards her. Her reply sounded as grim
1:08:39
as she looked. You have been in Thailand for three
1:08:42
months and now you only have a one way ticket
1:08:44
booked to Australia with no visa. What exactly are your
1:08:47
plans once you get there, Miss Roberts. To myself, I
1:08:52
wondered what business it was to her. Don't people travel
1:08:55
with one way tickets all the time. Knowing I was
1:08:58
in no position to be able to see anything like that,
1:09:01
or even at all, I just gave in nicely and
1:09:03
told her my intentions to travel over there, crying through
1:09:07
the entire explanation. I wasn't sure if I was even
1:09:10
going to make my flight. Now she had to think
1:09:12
about everything I had told her for a moment, deciding
1:09:15
whether or not she would grant me permission to meet
1:09:17
my husband in Australia or send me back alone to Bangkok.
1:09:21
With only time on my side, she had to make
1:09:24
a hasty verdict. Now one more question had to be
1:09:27
answered before I was let go. She wanted some proof.
1:09:30
If you have just got married, can you show me
1:09:32
your marriage certificate? Then this didn't help my story's credibility
1:09:36
at all, seeing that we were married in a Buddhist
1:09:39
temple and given woven bracelets instead of certificates, explaining to
1:09:43
her that I didn't have one to show her, but
1:09:45
was already aware that I would have to obtain a
1:09:48
legal marriage certificate through a courthouse upon my arrival in
1:09:51
Australia to stay there legally. It was only because of
1:09:54
my husband's beliefs we wanted to get married in a
1:09:57
Buddhist ceremony. She must have shared to common interest in
1:10:00
the religion or something like that, as she finally cracked
1:10:03
a smile upon the photos of the wedding day that
1:10:05
I showed her and carrying in my purse since getting
1:10:08
them developed if she wanted proof, well, this is all
1:10:11
I really had. Handing me back my documents and ticket,
1:10:14
I was now free to leave, but she wasn't leaving
1:10:17
me much time to run through the airport's terminal to
1:10:19
get to my departing flight. Expeditiously bolting through the busy airport,
1:10:24
my adrenaline was still pumping from the previous encounter with
1:10:26
the officials of the Philippines, who had enough power to
1:10:30
condemn me if they had felt like it. I caught
1:10:32
my plane in the nick of time, and once I
1:10:34
was settled in my seat, my thoughts went back to
1:10:37
my dear Robbie and how much I was missing them.
1:10:40
I was just relieved that I was on my way
1:10:42
to be back with them again. Soon, looking out the window,
1:10:46
I could see the red earth beneath me. As I
1:10:48
landed for the last time, I took notice of the
1:10:52
first steps I walked off the plane and onto a
1:10:54
new soil for the first time. I had so much
1:10:57
to be looking forward to in my new husband, my heart.
1:11:00
I knew that this was all I ever wanted. This
1:11:03
was going to be my heaven. There was another surprise
1:11:05
in store for me when two elder strangers walked up
1:11:08
to me and asked my name, are you Jenna? Nodding
1:11:11
at their question, they gave me their first names and
1:11:13
wrapped their arms around my neck. My new mother in
1:11:16
law then said, we are Robbi's parents. We wanted to
1:11:19
be the first ones who welcomed you to Australia and
1:11:21
into our family. Yeah, that's an Italian shit right there.
1:11:25
Just to interject, that is definitely some Sicilian Italian type shit.
1:11:29
While waiting for Robbie's plane to arrive, we all chatted
1:11:33
about many things, like the flight over from Thailand and
1:11:36
the scare at the previous airport in the Philippines. I
1:11:39
asked them how they knew whom to look for. My
1:11:42
father in law laughed, saying recognizing me was easy from
1:11:45
Robbie's detailed description. He told them to look out for
1:11:48
a petite, young blonde carrying an abundance of luggage. Laughing
1:11:52
together over a few more brief conversations of getting to
1:11:55
know each other better, they seem relieved to finally meet me,
1:11:58
compared how stretch he sounded in the conversations I overheard
1:12:02
Robbie having with her while in Thailand, watching the arrivals board,
1:12:06
I knew that Robbie's plane had landed ages ago, but
1:12:09
was now just waiting for him to get out of customs.
1:12:12
It didn't bother me anyhow, I was enjoying getting accompanied
1:12:15
with his parents for the first time. Eventually, I saw
1:12:18
my husband walking down the runway behind the gates. I
1:12:21
just couldn't wait a second longer. I ducked underneath the
1:12:24
gate and ran all the way up the runway to
1:12:26
jump excitedly into his arms. I wrapped my arms and
1:12:29
legs around him, holding on to him for dear life.
1:12:32
I just missed him so much. I knew I would
1:12:35
never let him go theoretically speaking, that is, and I
1:12:38
never have nearly a decade later. Over the near decade
1:12:43
we spent together, Robbie and I have shared common highs
1:12:46
and lows. That every determined marriage endures. It's taken a
1:12:50
lot of hard work and doesn't come without its flaws,
1:12:53
but no matter what, it's just perfect for the two
1:12:56
of us. He helped me how to remember to smile again,
1:12:59
and life as slowly began to sort itself out. They
1:13:02
say that time heals all wounds, but what I had
1:13:05
experienced in my young years wasn't nearly long enough to
1:13:08
tell or let all of the hurt go. Seeking help
1:13:11
through many counselors and psychiatrists. I was doing everything that
1:13:15
I could to deal with all the scars and all
1:13:17
the pain that was left behind, completely off of any
1:13:20
pharmaceuticals since the last day of our honeymoon, and healing
1:13:24
my heart with love instead of hate. Our marriage is
1:13:26
my foundation and Robbie is my solid rock. We have
1:13:30
to be for one another, putting the bonds of our
1:13:32
union through the ringer and back. As neither of us
1:13:35
expected my past life eventually to come back and haunt
1:13:38
me after so long, our blissful life came to a
1:13:41
sudden halt. One day when we were out visiting my
1:13:44
in laws at their nearby house on just another plan afternoon,
1:13:48
there was a knock on the front door, and my
1:13:50
father in law got up from watching TV on the
1:13:52
couch to answer it. He rushed back quickly, coming into
1:13:56
the dining room where I was feeding my nineteen month
1:13:58
and five month old boys at the table, and he
1:14:01
blurted out, Jenna, there are three police officers at the
1:14:03
door asking for you, by the name of Virginia Roberts.
1:14:07
I asked my mother in law to stay with the
1:14:09
babies to find out what this was all about. I
1:14:12
didn't even think it had had anything to do with
1:14:14
Jeffrey at first, and wasn't even worried. When I opened
1:14:16
the door to offer them to come inside, they weren't.
1:14:20
Actually a police officers and two federal agents of Australia
1:14:23
with one FBI agent from America. The American agent asked
1:14:28
if I would mind actually coming outside so that I
1:14:32
may speak with them in private. Okay, I said, as
1:14:35
well as mentally preparing myself for something big. From the
1:14:37
look of it, it's not over a parking ticket or
1:14:40
anything small that you get three federal agents knocking at
1:14:44
your in law's front door asking to speak to you
1:14:46
in private? Can we ask you if you are in
1:14:49
fact missed Virginia Roberts and originally from Palm Beach County
1:14:52
in the United States. I confirm my name and previous
1:14:55
state of residence. Then they even asked, may we see
1:14:58
some identification please. A different agent asked the question this time,
1:15:02
and I told them I will have to go and
1:15:04
grab it. My purse is inside. I'll be just one second.
1:15:08
Robbie was standing on the other side of the door,
1:15:10
trying to figure out what they were doing here talking
1:15:12
to me, And when I rushed through it to grab
1:15:15
my purse and saw him standing there looking puzzled, I
1:15:17
told him I had no idea what it was about yet,
1:15:20
but not to worry. Everything was going to be just fine.
1:15:23
Taking a deep breath and slowly exhaling outward, I opened
1:15:27
the door to find out exactly what the agents wanted
1:15:30
to talk about. Pulling out my Australian driver's license from
1:15:34
my wallet, I was going to hand it over to them,
1:15:36
but they sufficed at a quick glance this was no
1:15:40
meet and greed, and they went straight to the point.
1:15:42
One agent picked up a briefcase off the floor and
1:15:45
opened it up, taking out a stable stack of paper.
1:15:48
Then the same agent asked me if I had ever
1:15:51
known an affiliate by the name of Jeffrey Epstein. All
1:15:54
of a sudden, my stomach tangled in a familiar not
1:15:57
that I hadn't felt in many years from my past life,
1:16:00
life that I was trying to forget about. I nodded
1:16:03
an affirmation of their question and said, yes, it was
1:16:06
a long time ago, and he's no longer an affiliate
1:16:09
of mine, but yes I did know him once, it
1:16:11
was shameful enough to think about, let alone talk about
1:16:14
with them for the first time since I had started
1:16:17
my entire life over His next response left me nothing
1:16:20
short of speechless. The United States Attorney's Office for the
1:16:24
District of Florida was giving me a notification of being
1:16:27
an identified victim. Jeffrey was finally caught for his atrocious
1:16:31
acts of perversion on girls who were barely old enough
1:16:34
to even comprehend the birds and the bees, so to speak.
1:16:38
On June thirtieth, two thousand and eight, Jeffrey Epstein pleaded
1:16:41
guilty for a procurement of minords to engage in and
1:16:45
solicitation of prostitution. More than a dozen girls had been
1:16:50
named as victims of Jeffrey's federal offenses, and without ever
1:16:54
stepping a day in court, he was granted a plea bargain,
1:16:57
consenting to charges that named him a regis stirred pedophile
1:17:01
for only two of the minor girls, getting away with
1:17:05
even serving only twelve of the sentenced eighteen months behind bars,
1:17:09
be that in the evening alone and in the morning.
1:17:11
He was released during the day, restricted to the confinement
1:17:15
of his lavish mansion in Palm Beach, only to be
1:17:19
with his original sex slaves from over ten years ago,
1:17:22
Nadia Marsenkova and Sarah Kellen, and knowing Jeffrey all too well,
1:17:26
they wouldn't be the only ones while he was pulling
1:17:29
his laughing stint of retribution. Even at nighttime, the girls
1:17:33
were still allowed to visit him, accounting to nearly seventy
1:17:36
times while serving his time in incarceration. No justice had
1:17:41
been served for any of us, victims, denied the very
1:17:44
constitutional rights allegedly there to protect and serve us. We
1:17:47
weren't allowed to have a voice in front of a
1:17:49
jury and a judge even informed for that matter. Instead,
1:17:54
we were handed this notification of being a victim, but
1:17:57
told we were all too late to do anything about it.
1:18:00
To make matters worse, part of the plea bargain was
1:18:03
that we had the option to sue him with the
1:18:05
lawyers he provided for us, and conveniently enough I found
1:18:09
out later that they were also his lawyer's old friends
1:18:12
from college days. I felt my knees go weak, and
1:18:15
the anxiety churning in my stomach was now making me
1:18:18
feel sick. Taking the bundle of paperwork from the agent
1:18:22
who was now handing it over to me. I had
1:18:24
to excuse myself before my legs actually buckled, closing the
1:18:28
door behind me. I couldn't even find the words to
1:18:31
tell my husband what was going on. I rushed to
1:18:34
the back of the house and went to the backyard,
1:18:36
where I wanted a minute to compose myself and process
1:18:39
the information I had just been told. Robbie followed behind me,
1:18:43
but the stillness in my eyes convinced him to give
1:18:46
me that moment to compile my emotions. A few moments
1:18:49
later and I was ready to talk, collapsing into his
1:18:52
arms with such anguish. He just held me until the
1:18:55
sobs subsided and I was able to tell him what
1:18:58
actually happened. Star With an apology, I began to tell
1:19:01
him how I was so sorry, but my trouble passed
1:19:04
has come back, the plague our simple, sweet lives and
1:19:08
was just about to turn it all upside down. He
1:19:11
was so understanding from the beginning of all this, telling
1:19:14
me that he will always be behind me every choice
1:19:16
that I make in mending the sorrows of my tormenting past,
1:19:20
and that there has been and he has been through
1:19:22
all of the thick and thin deciding to call the
1:19:25
lawyers on the victim suit provided for me was a
1:19:28
big decision, but one that I had to seek the
1:19:30
unanswered questions from my battered heart. The two women at
1:19:33
the firm that I spoke to treated me so wonderfully
1:19:36
like long term friends. They counseled me not only in
1:19:39
the terms of a lawsuit towards Jeffrey, but also in
1:19:42
the matters of being emotionally and sexually abused. I chose
1:19:46
to proceed with the lawsuit at least to make a
1:19:48
statement to a man that tried to make a degrading
1:19:51
statement about me so long ago. Now it was my turn.
1:19:55
I had the choice to turn the tables on him,
1:19:57
hoping he would feel embarrassed and in the spotlight for
1:20:00
everyone's entertainment, where he had kept me for so many years.
1:20:05
Winning my lawsuit against him was not enough to heal
1:20:07
old wounds. I'd never got the chance to stand up
1:20:09
in front of a jury and tell them how much
1:20:11
pain I had endured and still endure throughout the many
1:20:15
nightmares I face when darkness hits and the silence of
1:20:18
sleeping household fills my head with pictures overliving my past
1:20:22
with him, or the others he sent me to, or
1:20:26
did I even get to hear him confess his guilt
1:20:28
and suffer the way I did, locked in confinement for
1:20:31
many years. No, Instead, I got to see a picture
1:20:34
of Jeffrey with his arms around a very youthful looking teenager,
1:20:38
if even that, parading the streets of New York, the
1:20:41
very way he had with me and so many girls
1:20:43
long before, as if it were a public display intended
1:20:47
for not only as many victims to see, but also
1:20:49
a spectacle for the public justice system. It was a
1:20:52
bold show of insolence, laughing in our faces while we
1:20:55
all sat by, not being able to do anything to
1:20:58
help these young girls from the streets, still stuffering this
1:21:02
perverted affliction. Not much longer, there was another story on Jeffrey.
1:21:06
I saw in the papers of him and Prince Andrew
1:21:09
having a stroll together in Central Park. It instantly sparked
1:21:13
my concern for other girls in the very same position
1:21:16
I was in so long ago, and he was obviously
1:21:18
up to the same old tricks. I had to do
1:21:21
something now, Not being able to sit by any longer
1:21:24
with the knowledge of being able to help out in
1:21:26
some way, I had to tell my story no matter
1:21:29
how shameful it was to even speak about putting my
1:21:32
sham aside. I had to derive every bit of courage
1:21:35
I could sustain, and now I'm ready to tell it
1:21:38
the hardest lesson I had failed. That learning until later
1:21:40
on in my life, became my strength, the belief in
1:21:43
my inner voice and the ability to speak up. I
1:21:46
do have a voice, and now the world is going
1:21:49
to hear it in my whispered cries for justice swept
1:21:52
away by a surge of media. With one phone call,
1:21:55
I sent Jeffrey's publicist into a frenzy not to mention
1:21:58
the release of the photo showing the first night that
1:22:01
Prince Andrew and I shared together that I so happened
1:22:04
to unveil for the public to see. I spent too
1:22:07
much of my life going out of my mind, waiting
1:22:10
for rescue that never came until it was too late,
1:22:13
and then the scars were already embedded deeply within. Thankfully,
1:22:17
I am now free from the struggles that nearly destroyed
1:22:20
the love inside of my heart. I only wish it
1:22:22
could be the same for the other victims, not just
1:22:25
for Jeffrey's inflictions, but every person who has ever suffered
1:22:28
at the hands of another. I'm here to tell you
1:22:31
from my own experience that the moon is yours. If
1:22:34
that's all you want, all you have to do is
1:22:36
stand up and take it. If some girl off the
1:22:38
streets of Florida like me can stand up against the
1:22:41
tyrants that run the deep pockets of our world, then
1:22:44
anyone can. Just like I needed to believe that something
1:22:47
or someone stood up for me once, like Robbie did
1:22:50
long ago, I now stand up for us. For all
1:22:53
of the girls, the ones who are still on the
1:22:55
streets and think that they don't deserve better, or it's
1:22:58
an unachievable dream to be entitled to more out of life.
1:23:02
For all of the beautiful girls who don't see beyond
1:23:04
their outside appearance, For all the girls still trapped in
1:23:07
enslavement and unable to get out of the abuse that
1:23:10
holds them down. But most of all, I stand up
1:23:13
for every girl's belief in love, because it's the very
1:23:16
savior of my spirit and soul. The end, All right, folks, Well,
1:23:21
that brings us to the conclusion of Virginia Roberts memoir
1:23:25
The Billionaires Playboy Club. And now that we have this
1:23:28
added to the catalog. We're gonna finish off the Acosta
1:23:31
deposition and then we're gonna move on to the Nadia
1:23:34
Marson COVID deposition, and you definitely don't want to miss that.
1:23:39
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