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Healing Across Borders: My Journey of Letting Go · Groove with Portia

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  Welcome to Group of Porsche, the podcast that uncovers the hidden treasures within grief.
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  I'm your host, Porsche the Producer, and I'm inviting you to join
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  me on a transformative journey where we will exchange laughter, of course, the
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  best medicine of them all, reflect on cherished memories, remember that time that
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  the little boy grabbed my hand instead of his mother's at the amusement park yikes,
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  And of course, discover gratitude while navigating one of the life's hardest challenges,
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  loss. So get ready to grow with me, Porsche the Producer,
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  let's dive in. Hey, everybody, welcome back to another episode of Group
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  of Porsche. I'm your host in face, Porsche the Producer. Before we
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  begin, don't forget to like, share and subscribe to get all the latest
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  and greatest of Grew with Porsche. So you guys, get me today,
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  no guest today. So I want to start off, of course, with
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  gratitude. One of the things that I am grateful for today is my dreams,
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  right because when I have dreams, they're very vivid. You know,
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  when you watch the matrix and how they put the little thing in the back
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  of their head and they go to the different dimensions. That's only how my
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  dreams are for me. They're very vivid. They really appeal to all of
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  my senses and all of those things. So I'm truly grateful for those.
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  So one of the things that I wanted to talk about today is actually a
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  dream that I had while I was in Canada. So those of you who
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  saw on my Instagram and Facebook, you saw my adventures in Canada. I
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  went to Niagara Falls, Niagara on the Lake, and also Toronto. Well,
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  the very last day that we spent in Canada, I had a dream
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  that night and my mother came to visit me. Now those of you who
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  know my mom has officially been transitioned for a year now, and the dream
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  was so profound. Like when I tell you, guys, when my mom
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  came to see me. In my dream, we were literally sitting at my
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  kitchen table. And I don't know for those of you how you grew up,
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  but our kitchen table has been one of those places where deep conversations have
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  been held, where there's about money, where there's about transitions. It's like
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  there's this profound thing that happens at the kitchen table over a cup of coffee
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  over food. Anybody else can relate to that. I hope you can.
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  Well. One of the things that my mom said to me the very first
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  thing. And I'm going to try to get through this you guys without crying,
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  But if I do, I'm gonna keep talking anyway. So my mom,
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  the first thing she said to me was, Porsha, I am okay.
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  Porsha, I am okay. She said, don't hold on to any
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  resentment towards anybody on your grief journey. Your grief journey is unique to you,
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  and other people don't understand. Let that sink in for a minute.
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  Grief journey is unique to me, and other people don't understand. When my
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  mom said that to me in the dream, I felt a shift happened for
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  me right And I really want to expound on this because I had a hard
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  time really forgiving people and thinking that they understood. I was under the impression
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  that when you're going through grief, other people are going to embrace you with
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  love, embrace you with so much abundance of support. But how can others
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  support you in an arena that they don't understand and at the same time they're
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  going through their own wave of emotions. The other thing my mom told me
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  was go for your dreams, Porsche. She reiterated that to me, she
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  said, even if you have to do it alone, Mommy is with you.
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  Mommy is always with you. And before I continue this conversation, I
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  want to give a special shout out to my sister CEO friend, Miss Jenny
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  duloc Young. She is the founder of She did a videography I actually received
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  kind of the download and inspiration to talk about my dream from her Facebook post
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  not too long ago in regards to her father being transitioned for over a decade
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  now and him coming to visit her in a dream. And what I really
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  want to touch on today, you guys, is the fact that when we're
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  going through grief, right, there's so many ways of emotions that can surface
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  for us, right And I know for me that's been my journey for the
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  last year. But with my mom coming to see me, it really helped
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  me in a sense pivot, really put things into perspective and let go of
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  so much resentment, so much anger towards other people because you don't know what
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  you don't know. I always talk about how in our society we're conditioned to
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  see grief from only one light. We put such a heavy negative connotation to
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  our grief journey instead of looking at grief as wonder closing and another one opening,
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  Right, And so I really wanted to shed some light on to that
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  today to all of you. And so for the next couple episodes, a
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  group of portion that are going to come out after this solo chat with all
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  of you, the episodes are going to get deeper into grief. So I'm
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  gonna have somebody come on to talk about the grief stemming from finding out that
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  their biological parent from a DNA test was not theirs. They found out,
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  being fifty years old, that the person who they thought was their biological parent
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  was not. How crazy is that? Right, I'm going I'll also talk
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  about the loss of that identity, or when you're going through multiple losses,
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  how do you find the hitting gift in your grief journey when you're so bogged
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  down with so many quote unquote losses at the same time. Right, So,
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  I really wanted to bridge that gap today and really talk to you guys
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  about that because I feel as though my mom's message is for the masses.
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  It's not just for me, you know. Some of you who had the
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  opportunity to meet my mother. Her childhood nickname growing up was Miss Lungs.
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  It really was, and considering she starts in the military, she was also
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  a teacher for Clean Municipal School District for thirteen years. My mom definitely utilized
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  her lungs and more than one capacity, and when she channels into me,
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  I want to share her message of inspiration to all of you because you were
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  all part of the Group Porsche. Family. Group Porsche got its name from
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  my mom, so again you know this is dedicated to her and also all
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  of you who have been a part of my journey. Anyway, you guys,
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  I hope that you enjoyed this quick little chat of Group Porsche before our
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  new guests come on for this next part of season two. A Group of
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  Porsche anyway, you guys. As always, this concludes this episode of Group
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  Porsche Season number two. Thanks for listening, Peace and hair grease. Guys,
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  thank you so much for tuning in to Group of Porsche. Remember to
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  subscribe to my channel for the latest episodes, and of course follow me on
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  social media. You can follow me on Instagram at Porsche the Producer. Anyway,
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  guys, Until we meet again, Peace and hair grease