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Rewire the Beliefs Shaping Your Relationships · Conscious Mastery: The Science and Spirituality of Creating Your Next Level in Life

• 0:18
  SPEAKER_00: Do you ever get the feeling that you're destined for an even bigger, bolder, more magical life?
• 0:24
  SPEAKER_00: Welcome to the Conscious Glow Up.
• 0:26
  SPEAKER_00: I'm your host, intuitive energy healer and coach Crystal Ward.
• 0:30
  SPEAKER_00: My goal is to help you create the life you fantasize about by teaching you energetic spiritual laws of the universe and neuroscience tools.
• 0:38
  SPEAKER_00: I'll share how I utilize these teachings in my own life with stories of single motherhood, entrepreneurship, finances, and relationships.
• 0:46
  SPEAKER_00: Let's dive on into the depths of consciousness and glow up from the inside out.
• 0:54
  SPEAKER_00: Hello and welcome back to The Conscious Glow Up.
• 0:58
  SPEAKER_00: Today is going to be a type of podcast that I don't normally do.
• 1:02
  SPEAKER_00: I don't normally just talk into the mic, but that's what I'm gonna do because I am listening to my intuition, and that is what she is challenging me to do.
• 1:13
  SPEAKER_00: So this one is going to be about my personal growth, mainly in the area of relationships.
• 1:21
  SPEAKER_00: Well, technically the area of life is social, but specifically my relationship and reflections, and I'm gonna talk about the reflection of prioritizing myself, or should I say not prioritizing myself, which is causing the reflections in the area of relationships and social and yeah, just stuff about growth.
• 1:47
  SPEAKER_00: So I sound a little different because I'm I don't know, I don't maybe I have a little virus or something, but my throat's a little scratchy.
• 1:58
  SPEAKER_00: It is the end of the day.
• 2:00
  SPEAKER_00: I worked at the restaurant tonight, so I'm surprised I still have a voice, but we're gonna use it.
• 2:07
  SPEAKER_00: So it's been uh an interesting uh couple of days and I've had uh basically the same reflection.
• 2:16
  SPEAKER_00: So if you've heard me talk about reflections before, um, then you know what this is.
• 2:21
  SPEAKER_00: And if you haven't, well, it is a really fun thing.
• 2:25
  SPEAKER_00: It's a really fun thing that us high conscious beings get well, we all experience them, but high conscious beings, we understand what they are, and what they are is communication from our higher self or that inner guide, that higher power that isn't necessarily source or you know, creator, parent energy.
• 2:48
  SPEAKER_00: It is that higher part of you, it could be you could think of it as like the soul that drives your life.
• 2:59
  SPEAKER_00: So our higher self has things that she or he has planned for us in this lifetime and our higher self and our guides, of course, but reflections are specifically for our higher self, needs to communicate with us and get our attention when we are off track or when we are not seeing in a perspective that I'm just gonna say she for higher self because mine is a she, so that she wants us to see, and a lot of the times we have we're humans, right?
• 3:34
  SPEAKER_00: So we get skewed or limited perspectives, perceptions about ourselves or our life or just anything.
• 3:47
  SPEAKER_00: And it's it's so natural, right?
• 3:49
  SPEAKER_00: So it's it's normal and it's nothing to be like, you know, oh, you know, shit, I had a reflection today, I'm so terrible, I can't, you know, I need to get my life together, but they are opportunities for growth, they are always here so that we can up level, so that we can have new perceptions about things in our life, new perceptions that are going to advance us and to help us grow.
• 4:17
  SPEAKER_00: So reflections as annoying as they can be, they can be as little as spilling water, dropping crumbs on you while you're eating.
• 4:30
  SPEAKER_00: Um they can happen, you know, our cars can be our reflectors, our children, especially if they are under age seven, they are basically just big old reflections of us.
• 4:43
  SPEAKER_00: And stubbing our toe is a reflection.
• 4:46
  SPEAKER_00: Illnesses, even my little virus thing I have, that is all a reflection.
• 4:51
  SPEAKER_00: So they are chances, they're opportunities for us to take radical responsibility.
• 4:57
  SPEAKER_00: And I like to work through my reflection.
• 5:02
  SPEAKER_00: So I like to whether it's journaling or thinking, I spend a lot of time in my head.
• 5:07
  SPEAKER_00: So sometimes I just like to sit and close my eyes and think about what the reflection is and where it's coming from.
• 5:16
  SPEAKER_00: What perspective, what perception am I having about an area of my life that is a little skewed, and then seeing how okay, this perception is creating this reflection.
• 5:30
  SPEAKER_00: So I'm gonna give you my current biggest reflections in my relationships.
• 5:39
  SPEAKER_00: Who doesn't like a good talk on relationships?
• 5:41
  SPEAKER_00: So I'm gonna give you some juicy details into my personal life, and I am in zero way outing my boyfriend at all.
• 5:50
  SPEAKER_00: He is we're in a very high conscious relationship.
• 5:54
  SPEAKER_00: We are both pretty high frequency people, and because of that, we are supposed to grow quite a bit together, and I know that I do things, you know, that are reflections for him to work on, and he does things that are reflections for me to work on.
• 6:15
  SPEAKER_00: I I love him very much, so again, none of this is to be like, oh, can you believe it?
• 6:20
  SPEAKER_00: The thing about reflections is well, our creator field.
• 6:25
  SPEAKER_00: So I'm gonna talk about our creator field.
• 6:27
  SPEAKER_00: That is the electromagnetic field, it is radiating off of our body at all times, and it sends a script to the world, to other people, about how to behave with us.
• 6:40
  SPEAKER_00: So reflections are really cool when they are with, you know, someone you love, like a relationship, because it is such a mirror into ourselves, into how we are being with ourselves.
• 6:56
  SPEAKER_00: So my biggest reflection, and I know it's like perfect, right?
• 7:04
  SPEAKER_00: Because my higher self right now really wants me to work on prioritizing myself.
• 7:12
  SPEAKER_00: So back in May, I found my teacher, Alessandro.
• 7:16
  SPEAKER_00: He is also the founder and CEO of the spiritual college I am at called Guided Light Healing.
• 7:25
  SPEAKER_00: My intro into all of this, into his world was a one-on-one session with him.
• 7:31
  SPEAKER_00: And since then, since May of 2025, I have taken four of his classes.
• 7:35
  SPEAKER_00: I am almost finished with the last two.
• 7:37
  SPEAKER_00: I have just a couple more weeks left, but I am, I'm not breezing through them like I do with other classes.
• 7:43
  SPEAKER_00: I want to master these classes.
• 7:46
  SPEAKER_00: So sometimes I do go a couple of weeks or a few weeks, even a month here and there, where I'm just really focusing on what I have learned so far or the current tools I'm learning so that I can master them before moving on.
• 8:01
  SPEAKER_00: It's a very new thing for me, but this kind of stuff I really want to integrate and just it's helping me become a new person.
• 8:09
  SPEAKER_00: It is blowing my open my intuitive skills and gifts.
• 8:13
  SPEAKER_00: It is really cool.
• 8:14
  SPEAKER_00: But my intro into Alessandra was a one-on-one session I had, and I went to him because I was really not making much money in my business.
• 8:23
  SPEAKER_00: And by that time, I had had my business for five years.
• 8:27
  SPEAKER_00: I do life coaching.
• 8:28
  SPEAKER_00: I started as a health coach, I still do a lot of health coaching, but it's kind of just evolved into life coaching, spiritual life coaching.
• 8:35
  SPEAKER_00: Now I obviously offer intuitive services in my coaching, whether the client specifically comes to me for intuition, it is in everything I do now.
• 8:45
  SPEAKER_00: So it's very much intuitive life coaching, intuitive health coaching.
• 8:50
  SPEAKER_00: But I wasn't making money at this time.
• 8:52
  SPEAKER_00: So I was like, you know what?
• 8:53
  SPEAKER_00: I need to go, I found him, need to go to hire the big guns.
• 8:57
  SPEAKER_00: So in our session, he won, he told me, and he's had, I mean, he I don't know how old he is.
• 9:06
  SPEAKER_00: I don't think any of us do.
• 9:07
  SPEAKER_00: He looks he he's an energy healer too.
• 9:10
  SPEAKER_00: So he has done a lot of energy work on himself.
• 9:13
  SPEAKER_00: So he looks very youthful, but I am imagining that his intuition has been dialed in for like 40 years, and he is he's an incredible teacher.
• 9:23
  SPEAKER_00: The students who I am surrounded by, I mean, just thousands of people have incredible businesses.
• 9:29
  SPEAKER_00: Their skills are their intuitive skills, are it's just wild.
• 9:33
  SPEAKER_00: It is so cool.
• 9:34
  SPEAKER_00: So I'm so blessed.
• 9:36
  SPEAKER_00: I feel so grateful that my higher self led me to him and this school because I know I'm doing you know big shit in my life.
• 9:44
  SPEAKER_00: Way more than just a coach.
• 9:45
  SPEAKER_00: So I went to him because I had been struggling in my coaching business forever.
• 9:50
  SPEAKER_00: I had, you know, some highs, mostly lows, lots of time in between potential clients, lots of time between paying clients, lots of clients who would want to work with me.
• 10:03
  SPEAKER_00: We would have a console, and then it just never happened.
• 10:06
  SPEAKER_00: We never got to like the checkout cart, right?
• 10:09
  SPEAKER_00: They wouldn't pay me.
• 10:11
  SPEAKER_00: And he taught me I knew a little bit about reflections by that point because I'd seen a few of his webinars, but he taught me about one of my biggest reflections on not prioritizing myself was that the thing about reflections and areas of life is there are eight areas of life.
• 10:27
  SPEAKER_00: And when we are when we are having it's always about perception.
• 10:32
  SPEAKER_00: So these are all perceptions.
• 10:34
  SPEAKER_00: In the eyes of source, everything is neutral.
• 10:36
  SPEAKER_00: So it is just about the meaning we are prescribing about ourselves, the world, other people, whatever.
• 10:42
  SPEAKER_00: So with reflections, you will be having you will be having experience in an area of life, and that experience, perceived as negative, is a reflection.
• 10:55
  SPEAKER_00: It is a communication from your higher self to get your attention in that area of life because it knows you are paying attention there.
• 11:02
  SPEAKER_00: It is getting your attention there, but it is a reflection from another area of life.
• 11:08
  SPEAKER_00: So, because so at this time I was focusing basically only on my business, and this was years.
• 11:15
  SPEAKER_00: I was a complete workaholic.
• 11:16
  SPEAKER_00: I would if I had a day off, I would work, I would, you know, work like 12 hours straight, sometimes 14 hours straight.
• 11:26
  SPEAKER_00: And at the time I was dating somebody who also had his own business, and he was doing the same thing.
• 11:30
  SPEAKER_00: So we were just enabling each other.
• 11:33
  SPEAKER_00: It was really fun though, not gonna lie.
• 11:34
  SPEAKER_00: That's why I continue to do it.
• 11:37
  SPEAKER_00: But we would have so much fun just sitting there all day long, working on our businesses next to each other, you know, having meals sometimes at our desk.
• 11:45
  SPEAKER_00: And I also wanted to do a lot more in my physical area of life.
• 11:52
  SPEAKER_00: There were so many times where I would say, okay, I'm gonna go to the gym, but I would always feel like if I go to the gym and spend time working on myself and my body and my mind, that it would take away from my business.
• 12:06
  SPEAKER_00: So Alessandro helped me realize that I was not prioritizing myself in the physical area of life.
• 12:15
  SPEAKER_00: Specifically, I was not following through with myself.
• 12:19
  SPEAKER_00: Okay, Crystal, you're gonna go to the gym at 11 a.m.
• 12:22
  SPEAKER_00: on, you know, say Friday.
• 12:23
  SPEAKER_00: It's your day off.
• 12:24
  SPEAKER_00: You have plenty of time to do this.
• 12:26
  SPEAKER_00: I wouldn't follow through.
• 12:27
  SPEAKER_00: So then the reflection, my higher self wanted me to follow through on that because your higher self wants you to be balanced in all eight areas of life.
• 12:36
  SPEAKER_00: So she was like, Well, Crystal is not following through on herself in the physical area of life.
• 12:42
  SPEAKER_00: We are going to throw constant reflections in her vocation, business area of life by getting people to do the same, to treat her the same way she is treating herself in physical.
• 12:57
  SPEAKER_00: So I'm not prioritizing myself.
• 13:01
  SPEAKER_00: Therefore, potential clients were also not prioritizing me.
• 13:04
  SPEAKER_00: I wanted to go to the gym, they wanted to work with me, but I was not following through, so they were not following through.
• 13:12
  SPEAKER_00: When he gave me the tools on how to follow through with myself, even if it wasn't going to a whole gym, like a whole workout, my perception how I would shift that is okay, well, I'm not going to go to the gym for a full workout.
• 13:25
  SPEAKER_00: I'm going to at least do five minutes of exercise at home.
• 13:29
  SPEAKER_00: When I learned this though, I did start going to the gym way more full time.
• 13:34
  SPEAKER_00: And yeah, so he taught me that I wasn't prioritizing myself or he showed me and that I wasn't following through.
• 13:40
  SPEAKER_00: So when I started following through on myself, within that next six months after that, I made more money in my business.
• 13:47
  SPEAKER_00: It was over$6,000, which to me in six months was freaking awesome.
• 15:50
  SPEAKER_00: I made more money in my business than the past couple of years combined.
• 15:54
  SPEAKER_00: By this point, I've made more in my business.
• 15:57
  SPEAKER_00: Um, it's been almost a year than my entire previous five years combined.
• 16:02
  SPEAKER_00: So reflections.
• 16:05
  SPEAKER_00: So this prioritizing myself reflection issue, it's I'm not fully, I haven't fully mastered it.
• 16:14
  SPEAKER_00: Things take time, growth takes time.
• 16:16
  SPEAKER_00: So my higher self, because it's so important for me to prioritize myself, if I want to have a really big, massive, successful business where I get to help so many people all of the time, I need to really be so dialed in with prioritizing myself in all areas of life.
• 16:35
  SPEAKER_00: So, how this reflection started in my relationship was we've only we've been together five months actually, as of today.
• 16:44
  SPEAKER_00: And really, not the first few weeks, not the first month or two, but after that, things would happen.
• 16:55
  SPEAKER_00: Say my boyfriend would in the morning, he would be like playing online chess on his phone instead of hanging out with me, and it really bothered me.
• 17:08
  SPEAKER_00: So I'm a human, my human emotions would come up, and I would be like, Wow, you know, do you just want me to leave?
• 17:14
  SPEAKER_00: Do you not want to hang out?
• 17:16
  SPEAKER_00: I would say things that would express my frustration and my my sadness at the end of the day.
• 17:22
  SPEAKER_00: It was sadness and then fear, like I had the fear that okay, he I'm not enough for him.
• 17:29
  SPEAKER_00: So so many things are are linked, right?
• 17:33
  SPEAKER_00: So my belief, a core belief that I am not good enough, was being reflected in like not prioritizing myself because he was not, I felt he I was perceiving that he was not prioritizing me, and it was a reflection of me not prioritizing myself.
• 17:51
  SPEAKER_00: So because we had been together for only a couple of months, I had actually basically stopped focusing on my business and I w and my intuition classes, and I was constantly having the perception, telling myself even out loud, talking to him about it, like, oh, I feel really behind in my intuition classes.
• 18:10
  SPEAKER_00: I feel like I haven't been using intuition a lot, and I haven't been doing my the things in my business that I was doing before we got together.
• 18:19
  SPEAKER_00: That reflection was so loud because my higher self is like, girl, what are you doing?
• 18:24
  SPEAKER_00: Not prioritizing your vocation area of life.
• 18:28
  SPEAKER_00: You are clearly spending a lot more time in your relationship.
• 18:33
  SPEAKER_00: So because you're spending so much time in your relationship, I know you are going to pay attention when I throw you reflections in that area.
• 18:43
  SPEAKER_00: So here you go.
• 18:44
  SPEAKER_00: Here's the reflection of somebody who you care about each other so much.
• 18:49
  SPEAKER_00: I am going to your creator field says, do not prioritize me.
• 18:52
  SPEAKER_00: So my creator field, that electromagnetic field that is giving the script, it has all of our thoughts and our beliefs and our actions.
• 18:59
  SPEAKER_00: They are written in our creator field, and that is the script we are giving the world.
• 19:03
  SPEAKER_00: So my boyfriend, other people have to act out your script.
• 19:07
  SPEAKER_00: There's no way around that.
• 19:08
  SPEAKER_00: So he was simply, lovingly, high consciously acting out my script that says, I do not prioritize myself.
• 19:17
  SPEAKER_00: I do not prioritize myself specifically in my business, in vocation.
• 19:22
  SPEAKER_00: So he he he prioritized me, you know, obviously to a degree because I stayed with him, but little tiny things, law of focus, I was focusing on these little areas that would just they felt so much bigger than they were.
• 19:35
  SPEAKER_00: Higher self was like, Crystal, you have to prioritize yourself.
• 19:39
  SPEAKER_00: So I did the inner work and I realized, okay, where is this reflection coming from?
• 19:44
  SPEAKER_00: I looked at all eight areas of life.
• 19:46
  SPEAKER_00: Okay, I see I have not been prioritizing my business or my classes.
• 19:52
  SPEAKER_00: So what happened was I started doing way more in my business, getting full swing back in classes, practicing intuition all the time.
• 20:00
  SPEAKER_00: I started moving so quickly, um, hosting online webinars, getting back to my email list.
• 20:07
  SPEAKER_00: Guess what?
• 20:09
  SPEAKER_00: He started prioritizing me.
• 20:11
  SPEAKER_00: Specifically time of day, it was morning.
• 20:14
  SPEAKER_00: He started prioritizing me more.
• 20:17
  SPEAKER_00: Well, what area now?
• 20:20
  SPEAKER_00: So this is a few months later, I again have stopped really prioritizing the gym, which I love the gym.
• 20:30
  SPEAKER_00: I love working out, but there was we had a huge snowstorm, and my daughter had off of school for a whole week.
• 20:38
  SPEAKER_00: So, and we stayed at my boyfriend's house together because I live in the middle of the woods and it was feet of snow.
• 20:44
  SPEAKER_00: I live in dirt roads, back roads, so I knew that it would take a long time for me to be able to get out of my driveway, and just the whole area would be a mess.
• 20:53
  SPEAKER_00: So we stayed at his house, and I wasn't able to go to the gym.
• 20:58
  SPEAKER_00: I obviously wouldn't have been able to do that at my house either.
• 21:01
  SPEAKER_00: But I was having the perception of, oh, I'm not going to the gym.
• 21:06
  SPEAKER_00: I'm not focusing on physical, and I didn't even, I have weights at his house.
• 21:10
  SPEAKER_00: I wasn't even using those.
• 21:12
  SPEAKER_00: So, and then actually the following week after that, I got my period, and I've just I don't have the energy to go to the gym on my period.
• 21:20
  SPEAKER_00: I'm sure I could do a little bit at home, at least stretch.
• 21:23
  SPEAKER_00: So if I was stretching at this time, I probably would have neutralized the perception.
• 21:29
  SPEAKER_00: But that week of no school, no gym, following week, period, no gym, and then my routine, my habit became not going to the gym.
• 21:38
  SPEAKER_00: And it was like a month.
• 21:40
  SPEAKER_00: So the perception was just I was getting louder with it.
• 21:45
  SPEAKER_00: And now here we are.
• 21:47
  SPEAKER_00: I have been to the gym a couple of times by now, but that's perception is still very loud in my mind.
• 21:54
  SPEAKER_00: So the prioritization reflection has shown up and blown up in my relationship again.
• 22:02
  SPEAKER_00: He is in, he's on vacation right now.
• 22:05
  SPEAKER_00: He's taking a trip to see his grandparents in Florida, and I am in Virginia, and I'm normally not extremely sensitive if you know he's if I, you know, I know he's hanging out with his grandparents, he's not really going to be available for texting, but every time an hour would go by from me hearing from him or him not like answering a question that I asked, like there was a we were communicating a little back and forth, and I had asked him a question and he didn't answer, and I got so upset.
• 22:34
  SPEAKER_00: And I had to, I had to really just I had a pep talk with myself.
• 22:38
  SPEAKER_00: I had a pep talk with myself in the car after work, after we kind of like got into it a little bit, and he even said, Why are you being so sensitive?
• 22:45
  SPEAKER_00: And I was he was only mirroring to me how I was feeling inside.
• 22:48
  SPEAKER_00: I was like, Wow, Crystal, you are being so sensitive.
• 22:51
  SPEAKER_00: But it was like, you know, women, really, I'm speaking to you here.
• 22:56
  SPEAKER_00: Obviously, if you have a PMS, sometimes we say things or do things that just this has been my experience so many times that I feel like it's not even me thinking these things or saying these things.
• 23:10
  SPEAKER_00: It's like something is acting through me.
• 23:13
  SPEAKER_00: And I do have an episode on dark forces, highly recommend that.
• 23:16
  SPEAKER_00: But sometimes it is a dark force issue.
• 23:19
  SPEAKER_00: And when we have emotional imbalances, so I was very emotionally imbalanced in this situation.
• 23:26
  SPEAKER_00: Dark forces, that that's one of our vulnerabilities for dark forces, and they come and feed on our light in these situations, so it's kind of like a dark force situation where you're doing and saying things that just are not you, they are not your true self.
• 23:42
  SPEAKER_00: That is how I was feeling.
• 23:44
  SPEAKER_00: So I I had to get real with myself.
• 23:47
  SPEAKER_00: I was like, I don't want to keep feeling this way while he's gone.
• 23:51
  SPEAKER_00: I don't want to feel like I'm not a priority, I don't want to be upset at him for literally nothing.
• 23:57
  SPEAKER_00: This guy is the sweetest, sweetest, gentlest, most caring man.
• 24:04
  SPEAKER_00: It's he does not deserve, he does not deserve for me to be acting like this over nothing.
• 24:13
  SPEAKER_00: So after we got into it while I was At work, I was like, I'm gonna just stop texting.
• 24:18
  SPEAKER_00: You know, we we ended the conversation.
• 24:20
  SPEAKER_00: I was like, I'm not gonna text him until I get home and I'm ready for bed.
• 24:24
  SPEAKER_00: And in the car on the way home, I was like, all right, what am I scared of?
• 24:29
  SPEAKER_00: I had to get really real with myself.
• 24:31
  SPEAKER_00: What the hell is this reflection based on?
• 24:35
  SPEAKER_00: There is a core belief that I am having, and it was the the belief that, well, I guess I'm not good enough for him to talk to.
• 24:45
  SPEAKER_00: And then I had to ask, where what are the truths here?
• 24:50
  SPEAKER_00: What am I scared of?
• 24:52
  SPEAKER_00: And what are the truths?
• 24:53
  SPEAKER_00: I was scared of bottom bottom line, that he didn't love me.
• 24:58
  SPEAKER_00: So I was like, Crystal, is that true?
• 25:00
  SPEAKER_00: And I'm literally talking to myself, like having a conversation.
• 25:04
  SPEAKER_00: There was I had one voice, they were both my voice, but like I would ask a question as my kind of as my higher self, and then I would answer it as my human self.
• 25:13
  SPEAKER_00: Higher self is like, Crystal, does he love you?
• 25:17
  SPEAKER_00: Human self is like, well, yes, he loves me so much.
• 25:21
  SPEAKER_00: And do I love him?
• 25:22
  SPEAKER_00: Yes, so much.
• 25:24
  SPEAKER_00: Is it true that he doesn't want to be talking to you?
• 25:29
  SPEAKER_00: No, it's not.
• 25:30
  SPEAKER_00: He's a very honest person.
• 25:31
  SPEAKER_00: I would know if he doesn't want to be talking to me.
• 25:34
  SPEAKER_00: Is it true that he's ignoring you?
• 25:37
  SPEAKER_00: No.
• 25:38
  SPEAKER_00: Is it true that he is with his grandparents and probably having conversations all day long?
• 25:43
  SPEAKER_00: Yes.
• 25:44
  SPEAKER_00: And this conversation went on probably 10 or 15 minutes while I'm driving, and I was able to neutralize my perception about how I felt I was being treated by him, and I felt so much better when I just let myself get real because we get so wrapped up in our emotions that it's literally clouding our logic.
• 26:10
  SPEAKER_00: It's releasing cortisol, I'm in a fear-based state, and I'm telling myself this bullshit that my boyfriend doesn't want to talk to me, he wants to ignore me, he doesn't love me.
• 26:21
  SPEAKER_00: None of that is true.
• 26:22
  SPEAKER_00: So when I finally let myself see the truth, the truth that I knew deep down the whole time, even when I was being bitchy, I let myself see the truth.
• 26:34
  SPEAKER_00: And I helped, I mean, I'm into subconscious reprogramming, and I think I was able to just because what's happening is these beliefs are coming up because they are based in previous situations in my life.
• 26:48
  SPEAKER_00: So I didn't go all the way back to childhood where the beliefs were originally formulated, but I I let my brain go to situations in the past that were telling me, hey, those situations are still alive right now, and that's what's going on, but it's not what was going on.
• 27:03
  SPEAKER_00: So, for example, there was a time with one of my first boyfriends where he told me he was at home, like taking a nap or something, and I was driving in the car with my mom, and we pass a soccer field, and I'm like, wait a minute, that's Ben playing soccer.
• 27:24
  SPEAKER_00: And I was like, and I was crushed.
• 27:25
  SPEAKER_00: I was like, oh my god, he lied to me saying he was napping and he's really playing soccer.
• 27:30
  SPEAKER_00: So that was a big one because it was in the start of my relationship experience, and it it affected me.
• 27:38
  SPEAKER_00: So I think my body, well, I know for a fact, my body processed that really highly emotional experience.
• 27:47
  SPEAKER_00: I did not neutralize, I didn't know about neutralizing shit back then.
• 27:51
  SPEAKER_00: It stored in my body that boys are going to lie to you and do and tell you things that and like they're gonna tell you they're napping when really they're just playing soccer with their friends.
• 28:04
  SPEAKER_00: And then there have been, you know, plenty of situations.
• 28:07
  SPEAKER_00: If you've been in many relationships, I've been in relationships for 20 years now, maybe more.
• 28:13
  SPEAKER_00: You know, there's been other situations where emotions then programmed into my body new beliefs that men are going to lie.
• 28:22
  SPEAKER_00: I'm gonna have a sip of water now because my throat is starting to hurt.
• 28:29
  SPEAKER_00: So I was like, is Cameron doing these things right now?
• 28:34
  SPEAKER_00: No, I know what he's doing, I know he's not lying.
• 28:37
  SPEAKER_00: And I'm past that, right?
• 28:39
  SPEAKER_00: I have evolved enough as a person in relationships that I am not actually creating those specific situations.
• 28:48
  SPEAKER_00: Back then, I was my creator field, I'm sure, was a mess.
• 28:51
  SPEAKER_00: I didn't know anything about creator fields, I didn't know anything about taking radical responsibility.
• 28:55
  SPEAKER_00: So I got real with myself in the car, I neutralized it, and I have felt better ever since.
• 29:03
  SPEAKER_00: So that relate the reflection of not so well, then I had to ask myself, okay, why is this reflection coming up again?
• 29:10
  SPEAKER_00: This not prioritizing myself.
• 29:12
  SPEAKER_00: Okay, I'm not prioritizing the gym again as much as I want, but also I wasn't really prioritizing myself with eating enough food.
• 29:24
  SPEAKER_00: For some reason, I just wasn't eating a lot of fruits and vegetables.
• 29:29
  SPEAKER_00: I was still eating healthy, like, you know, an egg and toast or something, but I was like, I was having the perception that I'm not eating enough fruit.
• 29:37
  SPEAKER_00: So after my little pep talk, I took myself to Wegmans after work.
• 29:42
  SPEAKER_00: I love going to the grocery store after work because nobody's there.
• 29:46
  SPEAKER_00: And I had a really amazing time getting myself all of the foods that I had felt I was neglecting myself of.
• 29:54
  SPEAKER_00: So the reflection, so I told myself, okay, what are you gonna do?
• 29:58
  SPEAKER_00: Like, let's prepare for the worst case.
• 30:00
  SPEAKER_00: What if you get home?
• 30:01
  SPEAKER_00: And we hadn't talked since our little issue when I was at work.
• 30:06
  SPEAKER_00: We just ended the conversation.
• 30:07
  SPEAKER_00: The last thing I said was K, like literally the letter K.
• 30:11
  SPEAKER_00: And he didn't reply.
• 30:12
  SPEAKER_00: I didn't reply.
• 30:13
  SPEAKER_00: I was like, all right, you're gonna talk, you're gonna text him.
• 30:15
  SPEAKER_00: If he doesn't text you first, you're gonna text him when you get home.
• 30:19
  SPEAKER_00: And I had to pre-work myself, like do pre-work on myself and say, okay, what if he decides he doesn't want to talk to you tonight?
• 30:28
  SPEAKER_00: What if he doesn't reply?
• 30:29
  SPEAKER_00: What if he says, hey, I actually we had planned to talk on the phone.
• 30:33
  SPEAKER_00: What if he says, hey, I actually don't want to talk to you tonight?
• 30:36
  SPEAKER_00: I had to neutralize that before it possibly happened.
• 30:41
  SPEAKER_00: So it happened, not worst case scenario, but I texted him a few times.
• 30:49
  SPEAKER_00: He didn't reply.
• 30:50
  SPEAKER_00: He has read receipts and he did not read them.
• 30:52
  SPEAKER_00: And then I called him a few times.
• 30:54
  SPEAKER_00: I was like, okay, maybe he fell asleep or something and he didn't answer.
• 30:57
  SPEAKER_00: So my brain, if I had not come to a place of neutralization, if I had not gotten real with myself and had that back and forth conversation with myself, had I not reminded myself of how much he loves me and how kind and caring he is, that he would not ever intentionally ignore me.
• 31:15
  SPEAKER_00: If I had not done that work, I would have gotten so mad and upset and sad about him not answering the phone.
• 31:24
  SPEAKER_00: But I told myself, okay, he still loves me.
• 31:29
  SPEAKER_00: I think he just fell asleep.
• 31:32
  SPEAKER_00: So I went to bed and then he texted me at 5 30 in the morning that he had fallen asleep on the couch watching a movie.
• 31:41
  SPEAKER_00: And I was like, I'm gonna let that be the last.
• 31:43
  SPEAKER_00: I'm sure, you know, it won't be the last because I'm still there's still other areas where I'm sure I could prioritize myself more, but because I'm emotionally neutralizing myself emotionally, it's not going to feel as strong.
• 31:58
  SPEAKER_00: And now I know because I told myself and reminded myself he loves me.
• 32:03
  SPEAKER_00: This is silly, Crystal.
• 32:05
  SPEAKER_00: So if that reflection pops up, I don't think it's going to be with him because I've completely neutralized all of that and the emotions and everything.
• 32:14
  SPEAKER_00: So that is kind of how that reflection has shown up in multiple ways in my relationship over the past five months.
• 32:25
  SPEAKER_00: It and I was just talking to someone about this tonight, literally about this.
• 32:30
  SPEAKER_00: When we ask for growth, we're gonna get it.
• 32:34
  SPEAKER_00: And when I found my teacher and started taking his classes, I I have signed up for very fast-tracked growth.
• 32:45
  SPEAKER_00: Most related and we grow the most in relationships, and that is why I got into a relationship.
• 32:50
  SPEAKER_00: That's not why.
• 32:51
  SPEAKER_00: I wasn't like, hey, let's be in a relationship.
• 32:52
  SPEAKER_00: I want to grow.
• 32:53
  SPEAKER_00: I was like, hey, but you know, we decided to be in a relationship because we really liked each other.
• 32:58
  SPEAKER_00: But I had told myself it had only been a couple of months since my last relationship, and I was like, I'm just gonna date people.
• 33:04
  SPEAKER_00: I've never done that in my life.
• 33:06
  SPEAKER_00: I usually just jump into another relationship, but now I know it's because that's what my higher self planned.
• 33:13
  SPEAKER_00: She always wants me to be in long-term serious relationships because you grow a lot more there than when you're just dating.
• 33:21
  SPEAKER_00: Because when you're just dating, it's so easy to be like, oh well, they just suck.
• 33:25
  SPEAKER_00: They this, they that.
• 33:26
  SPEAKER_00: I'm just moving on, you know.
• 33:28
  SPEAKER_00: We don't really have to take a lot of radical responsibility when we're just dating a bunch of people because we're just dating a bunch of people.
• 33:37
  SPEAKER_00: So I did accept his invitation to make it an exclusive relationship because I was like, you know, I don't I don't truly just want to date people.
• 33:48
  SPEAKER_00: And when I like someone, I can't like other people.
• 33:52
  SPEAKER_00: If I really like someone, that's it.
• 33:55
  SPEAKER_00: You know, we're either gonna be together or I'm just gonna get over you.
• 33:59
  SPEAKER_00: And when we ask for growth, we get growth.
• 34:02
  SPEAKER_00: So when I found guided light healing, that is like the big green light from my higher self to grow.
• 34:11
  SPEAKER_00: And yeah, I think I was saying most honeymoons, I mean most relationships have that honeymoon phase.
• 34:18
  SPEAKER_00: It's like four to six months where it's just bliss.
• 34:20
  SPEAKER_00: There's, you know, no arguments, no fighting.
• 34:23
  SPEAKER_00: You just you're so into each other, but that has not been our experience.
• 34:29
  SPEAKER_00: And it's okay, and we've talked about it, that we have a very passionate relationship, but with that amazing, awesome passion comes the other side of passion where we are very passionate when we are both in our feelings, feeling some type of way about the other person when we piss each other off.
• 34:49
  SPEAKER_00: And we are both growing immensely.
• 34:52
  SPEAKER_00: We are both, I mean, at the end of the day, we if something happens, we we come back together and oftentimes we do check in with ourselves together, like, okay, why are we because we both have to be a match to the situation.
• 35:07
  SPEAKER_00: So, okay, what what are my reflections in this situation?
• 35:11
  SPEAKER_00: What am I supposed to be up leveling here?
• 35:14
  SPEAKER_00: And then what are yours?
• 35:15
  SPEAKER_00: What are your reflections here?
• 35:17
  SPEAKER_00: What is your creator field bringing to the table?
• 35:19
  SPEAKER_00: So it's been cool.
• 35:21
  SPEAKER_00: Um, it's it's been cool.
• 35:23
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah, it's been amazing.
• 35:25
  SPEAKER_00: And that's really what I have for you today.
• 35:29
  SPEAKER_00: Um, probably a little shorter than I intended, but I feel like it's pretty valuable, especially if you are in relationship and you are either not like us where you didn't really have the honeymoon phase, or if you are in a relationship past the honeymoon phase and you're like, why, why do they why are they doing this?
• 35:49
  SPEAKER_00: Why are they treating me this way?
• 35:50
  SPEAKER_00: Why are they focused on their phone so much instead of me?
• 35:54
  SPEAKER_00: My invitation for you is to look at what role are you playing with yourself in this situation?
• 36:02
  SPEAKER_00: Where so what you do for reflections and other people is you figure out you see what they're doing, and you figure out how is that making me feel, and how are you making yourself feel in your own life and you go through the areas of life and you figure out okay, and you don't need dialed in intuition to do this.
• 36:26
  SPEAKER_00: If you want intuitive help, I'm happy to help you.
• 36:29
  SPEAKER_00: Please reach out to me.
• 36:30
  SPEAKER_00: You can find me on Instagram at crystal underscore baller, k-r-y-s-t-al or k r-y-s-t-al at crystalward.com.
• 36:38
  SPEAKER_00: Send me an email.
• 36:39
  SPEAKER_00: But you figure out what area of life am I treating myself the same way?
• 36:44
  SPEAKER_00: You guys, that will open up so much for you, not only in your relationship, but in your life.
• 36:51
  SPEAKER_00: You are going to up level at speeds at which you have not been up-leveling.
• 36:56
  SPEAKER_00: I can promise you that.
• 36:57
  SPEAKER_00: Unless you're already a master at reflections, then obviously you know that I'm right.
• 37:01
  SPEAKER_00: So the eight areas of life are mental, which includes like your thoughts about yourself and your learning.
• 37:08
  SPEAKER_00: You've got financial, spiritual, which is your your connection, your relationship with source or your higher self or your your higher power.
• 37:21
  SPEAKER_00: It includes your relationship with your intuition.
• 37:24
  SPEAKER_00: And then you've got family, and that does include your partner if you are moved in together.
• 37:30
  SPEAKER_00: You've got social, which includes dating, or your partner if you are not moved in together.
• 37:35
  SPEAKER_00: And then we've got the passion hobby area of life, which is the most neglected usually.
• 37:42
  SPEAKER_00: And let's see, okay.
• 37:45
  SPEAKER_00: Let me think.
• 37:46
  SPEAKER_00: Oh, physical, your health, how you're treating your body, and what is the last one?
• 37:54
  SPEAKER_00: Um sorry, bear with me one second.
• 37:59
  SPEAKER_00: Vocation, your soul pool career.
• 38:01
  SPEAKER_00: So your vocation, unless your nine to five job is what your soul designed you to do, that might be your financial.
• 38:10
  SPEAKER_00: Your vocation is your your passion business, like your passion business, your passion career.
• 38:16
  SPEAKER_00: Like, if you know you're living your purpose.
• 38:18
  SPEAKER_00: So those are your eight areas of life.
• 38:20
  SPEAKER_00: I do recommend writing those down.
• 38:22
  SPEAKER_00: I actually made myself and my boyfriend individual, like they look different, but on Canva, I designed pretty cute posters that have all the areas of life on them that we are going to frame and put in our respective homes so that we can like my intention for my poster is to look at each area of life.
• 38:39
  SPEAKER_00: I don't, I don't have it hung up yet, so I don't know how exactly how I'm gonna use it.
• 38:43
  SPEAKER_00: I might focus on one area each week or each day might even be better.
• 38:48
  SPEAKER_00: And just little reminders of okay, which area kind of wants me to focus on it a little more.
• 38:54
  SPEAKER_00: And when we focus on areas that we are not focusing on a lot, like if I'm not focusing on an area, I'm having perceptions about that area that are going to cause reflections.
• 39:04
  SPEAKER_00: So we can see intuitively, just you can feel it out.
• 39:07
  SPEAKER_00: Again, you don't need dialed intuition.
• 39:09
  SPEAKER_00: You can just feel it, see what area wants me to focus on it more, what area am I telling myself I'm not doing enough?
• 39:16
  SPEAKER_00: And if there is an area where you tell yourself you're not doing enough, for example, my passion hobby, I could have multiple of those, but if I'm feeling like I'm not doing that enough, how can I at least flip the perception of it and say, okay, well, how is it actually great that I'm not focusing on that right now?
• 39:37
  SPEAKER_00: And you'll be able to neutralize the reflections.
• 39:40
  SPEAKER_00: But again, your higher self does want you to be balanced in all areas, and that does mean giving attention to all eight areas.
• 39:47
  SPEAKER_00: But there are eight areas, there are a lot, so it's not like every day I'm gonna be focusing on all eight areas, but over time I can start to, you know, balance all of those in my life.
• 39:58
  SPEAKER_00: So if you have any questions about this or you want to talk more about it, or send me a reflection you feel like you're having, like send me something that just keeps happening to you, or you feel really frustrated and stuck with, I would love to help you out.
• 40:14
  SPEAKER_00: And if you want to be on my email list where I send exclusive announcements about free webinars and workshops that I do, those are always really fun.
• 40:24
  SPEAKER_00: I did one on body reflections and how your body's talking to you, and we talked about specific body reflections.
• 40:30
  SPEAKER_00: So each part of the body, each system of the body, it means a specific thing.
• 40:34
  SPEAKER_00: So the reflections can be very, a very specific way to figure out, okay, where, like if I, if I, if I'm having joint pain, where what area of life am I not feeling flexible?
• 40:47
  SPEAKER_00: So I love talking about this.
• 40:49
  SPEAKER_00: I love teaching people about it.
• 40:50
  SPEAKER_00: So contact me.
• 40:52
  SPEAKER_00: And if you want to get on my email list, send me a message at either the email or Instagram.
• 40:57
  SPEAKER_00: I can get you on that.
• 40:58
  SPEAKER_00: And yeah, I hope this was beneficial for you.
• 41:01
  SPEAKER_00: I hope it helped you open your eyes to see that, you know, maybe other people aren't trying to treat you a certain way.
• 41:10
  SPEAKER_00: You know, my boyfriend's not trying to make me feel like I'm not a priority.
• 41:15
  SPEAKER_00: He's not trying that at all.
• 41:17
  SPEAKER_00: But it was happening, it's how I was feeling.
• 41:20
  SPEAKER_00: So I can help you neutralize these things, help you balance your perceptions about your own life, and then it will inevitably help other people and the world treat you how you want to be treated.
• 41:32
  SPEAKER_00: All right.
• 41:32
  SPEAKER_00: Have a great evening or day, and thank you for listening.