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EPISODE #30 WHO AM I? · WOMEN MAJORING IN MARRIAGE

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Welcome to the Women Majoring in Marriage podcast with your host,
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Janice L Vance. Girl If you are a married woman
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that desires not just to have a surviving marriage, you know,
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the kind that's just on cruise control but actually want a
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thriving marriage, you are in the right place.
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If you are engaged, this show can inspire you to prepare for
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your marriage before preparing for that expensive wedding day.
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Ho and all my Single Ladies out there that are in their season
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of waiting on God to send your husband.
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We've got something for you as well, girl.
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Marriage is not hard, but it certainly is work.
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So relax, get your pen and paper, and let us major in
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marriage. Well, hello to all of my Queens
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and welcome to the Women Major Marriage Podcast with yours
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truly Janice fans. I want to continue to thank you,
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ladies. But continue to rock with me and
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watch these podcasts. As you all know, I have a guest
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once a month and y'all know I've been telling y'all.
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I don't just get anybody. I let God leave me who my guest
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is to be and when. But if you feel that you have a
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story that you want to share or reach out to me.
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My e-mail is Janice. No, it's not my e-mail.
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I got so many e-mail. My e-mail is
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themarriagemajor@gmail.com. e-mail me and I'll send you a
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form. And if I feel that your story is
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befitting for my podcast, I'll reach out to you.
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Not saying that your story is not a story, but there's has to
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be a certain story. For this particular podcast,
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because this podcast is for women that are married, women
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that are engaged, women that are in the season of waiting, and
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those women that just in between trying to figure out are they
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waiting, are they want to be married or don't want to be
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married. It is particular for women.
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There's a lot of women out of there.
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They have stories and that are sitting on their story.
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So I enlight people so they can share their story, so others are
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feel more comfortable and free to tell their story.
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Today I have a special guest with me.
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Look at a granny, look at all kids.
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What did I have her with me today as my special guest?
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She is the one that. I feel very led to have for the
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month of July. I don't know why it was this
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month, but she's been on my list.
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But there was this, this for her month.
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I just want to introduce her and I'm not going to take a lot of
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time. I'm going to introduce her to
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you all and she would tell you all more about her, more about
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what she doing, how you can reach out to her, how you can
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find her, because I'm sure there's some lady.
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A more than one or somebody that knows somebody that need to hear
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this. So you get this podcast you
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share. I'm going to tell you a little
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bit about her today. Her topic is going to be who are
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you? Who are you?
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That is a very strong question. Who are you?
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She is from Houston, TX. She's a mother of three.
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And one Furby she had to throw. She just had to put.
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That in there, Yes. Yes, she's.
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A United State Air Force Veterans for eight years and
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thank you for your service. Good.
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Thank you. She is an author.
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She's an advocate of domestic violence.
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She assists women with healing from life circumstances and help
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them to be their authentic self that say a whole lot.
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And I pray that this this episode would do exactly what
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her hard desire and more people would hear of her and more
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people will hear her story. I'm thankful to God for the
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podcast and land the podcast on my heart and it's amazing how
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people the podcast is being being shared.
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I'm getting comments from Africa.
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Yes, India. Yes, the people are thanking me
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and relating to these different podcasts, so I know your story.
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Your story will go out to the masses, so at this time I'm
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going to let you we just going to sit here and chat as if I'm
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just sitting there on that sofa with you.
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Tell your story how your story started, what inspired you to be
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an advocate for domestic violence and if you feel
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comfortable telling of some some situations and how long it took
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you to. Because you know, a lot of
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people suffering salad and they go years and years and the other
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story. And I don't know if that was
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your situation, did you go years and years without really scary?
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So I'm just going to let you just have your way.
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Thank you, thank you and y'all thank.
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We want to give a big shout out to Miss Janice Vans for setting
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up this platform to even have women of All races colors.
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Everything, women of every statue, every phase of your life
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to just come on here. Like, I really thought she was.
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You know, she stands for the marriage major.
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But I told her, I say Miss Janice ain't married no more.
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She was like, I ain't know that, But no, ma'am.
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This is what my podcast stand for.
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And I've been on board ever since.
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I've been stoked and excited ever since.
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So thank you, Miss Janice. For, you're welcome.
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And she say God leads her. And it's the reason why God led
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her to me. Because I'm here, y'all.
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And we're going to get into it. We're going to talk about how
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this progress been. But for the first time in my
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life, on me. Oh, Jesus.
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Hallelujah. Thank you.
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Thank you. Yes, Lord, I don't look like
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what I've been through, but let me tell you, let me share with
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child some of the stuff I've been through.
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My the title of my thing. My.
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That I chose was who are you when you look in that mirror?
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Who looking back at you? I asked my son that.
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He's 10. I said, who are you?
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And he was like, Mama, what kind of question is that?
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No, baby. Who are you?
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When you look in the mirror, who are you?
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And we start working on it and the man can lay out 10 things in
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in 10 seconds on who he is. Now let's just say that worked
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on it. You know we we speaking life
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into ourselves. If if I'm broken.
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No I'm fixed. You you speaking life.
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So it don't matter what you've been through when you look in
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that mirror. But let me give you a little bit
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background behind me. I'm Tiana.
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My name is just Tiana. With just Tiana.
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Because let me let me let me help you out.
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I've been married twice. This is my.
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Yeah, my third last night. So I got 3 aliases.
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So it's just Tiana. Don't call me.
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No nothing. That's it.
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But just no last night. But so I grew up in Houston, TX.
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I got 7 brothers. Y'all it's just me.
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I'm the girl only girl. It was hard with the Allen
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brothers, you can imagine, but I was a tone boy.
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But I end up being raped at 13 by my third cousin and it hurt
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me. I was confused.
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I didn't know what was going on. I didn't know.
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Not one thing about sex. I knew we had sex.
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She was pregnant. So here I am, 13 confused,
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thinking I'm pregnant. I think my cousin loved me and
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I'm going to have to figure out how to love him and had his
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baby. Oh oh man.
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So. After I didn't tell anybody, so
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16 because he lived out of town. So when I was 16 I seen him
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again and he had had a child and he didn't say nothing to me.
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He didn't look at me. He just passed by me because I
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went down there for a funeral and he just passed by me like he
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didn't know me and he hurt me y'all.
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And I was so confused and depressed and kind of like he
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don't love me but he has sex so I'm all over the place.
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But I held that secret. The first person I told about it
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was he became my husband. But his I told him about it when
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I was 18. He didn't know what to do with
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it. But when we got in marriage
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counseling, the first session at the marriage counseling, he told
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this woman My business, I'm sitting up there looking at him
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like. I know you didn't just tell her
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that. My deepest, darkest secret.
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And you just totally strange. From the first time, I only know
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this woman name. So that's what that's exactly
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what he was supposed to do. Because he he looked at me and
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he said, Tiana, you're suffering from it and I don't know how to
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help you, so I'm still got an attitude, but I'm going to
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listen to this lady, she said, well do you suffer from you
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don't like me and holding you down?
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You don't like rough sex. Like sometimes you have to stop.
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Like if you're feeling some type of way and don't want to do it
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again, you cry. Like it's a lot of emotional
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stuff that you deal with after that that I was unaware of and I
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was like this lady feed me how she knows.
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So y'all I was angry. It was a lot going on at that
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time. So she helped me tell my mom 1st
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and here I am at this point in my life I was.
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I was 26, so I was 13 and this was 26.
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So I had suffered in silence for 13 years, 13 years.
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Oh, and law and all the law and order SVU became my best friend
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because Olivia taught me everything there was to nothing.
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So I had to kind of work through some things after that, like
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trying to figure out like it's not my fault because, you know,
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the man told me it was my fault because I was.
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Playing with him, I was wearing some little shorts, you know,
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I'm a little kid, you know, so. But I had to get through some
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things. So I was married, broke up from
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that relationship, and I got into and I moved to Alabama and
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got into another relationship. Good Jesus.
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But out of that relationship, that's what a domestic violence
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came from. I was suffering from religious,
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domestic violence, digital, psychological, intellectual,
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emotional, verbal, like. It became my passion and I I
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studied on all types of it's. It's more but I studied on all
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types of abuse and once again because I was taking a class at
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this time I was in college for and taking a family violence
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class and y'all once again I'm being read.
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I'm like. I'm in a domestic violence
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relationship, This man. I'm thinking domestic violence
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is really wanting somebody hitting you in your face ain't
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gonna hit him a face, but can hit him everywhere else.
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And you know, I stayed in a relationship five years older
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marriage. I stayed there eight years.
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That marriage was very he. We were young.
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Let me tell you about that one. Sorry, I skipped that one.
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We got married at 21 because I was pregnant.
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We was in the military and I had orders to oversee.
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So in the military you want to stay with your baby, got to be
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married. So that was something me and him
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decided that was going to be the best for our relationship and we
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end up getting married. So and we had two children from
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that marriage and then like that didn't work out.
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Divorce from him with the the abuser.
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So I finally left that relationship and came back home.
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I came back home like two days after I graduated college
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because I had to stick it out. Came back home to Texas.
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I miss somebody else. Y'all.
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He was what I needed at that time.
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He was caring, sensitive to my needs, understanding.
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It was something that I never had in a relationship and he was
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my friend. But it didn't work out and
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that's okay. So after all of this, I'm, I'm,
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I'm y'all. I'm sitting in the bed 30 days
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crying. My children, good thing they
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knew how to drive because I was giving them my car.
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Go get the food. I'm in the bed.
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I'm crying. I don't feel like dealing with
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nothing. House is out of control, of
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course, which I was drinking my problems away and finally God,
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God just stopped me. He isolated me.
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So. I was working at a job and I had
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a mental breakdown, but my anxiety had been high for a
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while and I didn't know what it was.
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I'm just shaking, nervous, worrying about the future,
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worrying about everything. It got so bad.
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I'm driving and I have to sit on side the side of the road
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because I'm about to have panic attack.
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All kinds of stuff hit my way. So finally I got into
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counseling. I say, you know what?
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I'm going to work on myself because.
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I'm all over the place and all I needed to do y'all was heal my
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inner. I had to start by healing my
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inner child. I didn't even know it was a
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thing, but I had to work on healing that inner child.
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I had to because I'm the type I feel feelings hard, like if I
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think about. Like giving birth or whatever to
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my my children. Like I can feel it.
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I remember that pain. Like I can almost feel like I'm
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still there. I don't know why I feel like
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that, but it's due. So it's hard for me to feel
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emotions. I don't want to deal with it.
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I don't want to deal with it. I don't want to be sad.
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I don't want to cry. I don't want to deal with it.
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So I drink it away. I'm better tomorrow if I need
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smoke. We're going to drink again.
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That's what I did. Sad, but that's what I did.
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So and healing my inner child. Y'all I had to go back to when I
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was little. My brother's being mean to them.
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It did something to you. You don't.
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You don't think it. But those little bitty things
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can transform your life. And I had to go back and see
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where some of my behaviors come from.
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Like I had to look at me. Why do I do that?
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And y'all I would dig and find the answer and I felt.
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I felt like I was plucking the weeds because I'm healing
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myself. So all these things were taught
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in our life. I had to sit up there and really
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sit down and be like, do I believe this?
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It's not because Mama told me this, but do I believe it?
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I had to sit in the room and cry like a little baby holding
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myself, rocking baby. When I say I had to play out the
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whole situation and I had to be there and I had to cry.
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And I had to feel sorry for myself.
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And I went through it and I let it go.
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I never knew how to let because I never went all the way through
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it. It was just stuck.
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But finally, I I learned how to just let it go.
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Wendy. Fine.
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Y'all. It used to be so bad I couldn't
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watch the news because every time I watched the news I was
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affected by it. I feel bad for the mother that
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lost her child. Like I ain't been able to watch
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the news ever since I was pregnant with my first child.
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And that's been since 2003. And if I do do the news, I would
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go online and I'll pick and choose what I want to see
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because I know how I'm going to be.
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But after I heal that in a child and heal that teenager child and
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healed everything I was holding on to and I told those dark
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secrets, that's not mine that the whole anyway.
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Like, because remember. Remember Miss Janice?
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I think you were there when I finally said the words.
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I was raped at 13. That was the first time I've
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ever said those words and I was bawling y'all.
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I couldn't even talk. I just knew that this group of
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ladies was just going to judge me.
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But they were only there to. To.
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Urture me and take care of me and love on me and and show me.
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That's not who I am. So I had to.
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I had downloaded this app. It's called I Am.
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And it goes off multiple times a day.
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I got my children downloading and my man, so but it goes off
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and it gives you pick what kind of stuff you want inspiration
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for. You go on there, you you click
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how many times you wanted to remind you.
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And when it go off and I'm not around, it has a special
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ringtone When it goes off, I say my own affirmation of who I am.
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So it starts with I am powerful. I am worried.
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Y'all, I ain't feeling that way. I'm a repeated anyway until I
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believe it. I am a champion.
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You look at yourself and you believe it.
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Even when you got to get naked in the mirror, baby start to
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love yourself. My hair, my hair is Gray with
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black highlights. It's black with Gray highlights.
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Y'all like I had to learn. I had to sit in there for.
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And y'all know I'm blonde, I'm red or purple, anything for that
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birthday. But I sat in and I and I loved
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every minute of it. I had to learn to love me.
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I don't wear makeup. I wear, I wear a lipstick, I
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wear a mascara. But I had a season last year
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with my face broke out like crazy, and then I had to stop
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putting makeup on because the makeup was making it.
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Make up. Make it worse.
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Services that I don't really wear make it when I learn to
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love these flaws. Because when you look on TV, you
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see everybody out. Perfect, right.
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Exactly. That's not who they are, baby.
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Love the skin you're in? Exactly.
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Yeah. Exactly.
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Yes, love them flaws. Love that fat in that in that
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mirror. Them that sell your life.
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Love it, that's that's who you are, baby.
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Look, wear your little shorts and stuff in the house.
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Even if you in your back room. Whatever, whatever you can do.
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You know? Wear your stuff, honey.
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Who are you? What do you love to do?
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It Don't matter by nobody else. It just looking at yourself and
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being real with yourself, knowing oh and learning
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boundaries, Oh my God. That's one thing I had to learn
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about me, a book. And I learned some boundaries
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because that's what I lacked. That's what I like, because I
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was a people pleaser. I'm trying to help this person,
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help this person, help this person.
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And that's why I end up having a mental breakdown because I'm, I
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don't know, I'm taking care of everybody else.
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Help this one, everybody else taking care of.
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But me I'm on the background but my God got me he got me in
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perfect position Let me tell you how he got me he got me after my
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son his he just had his first year in college and my daughter
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went to go stay do her last year with her dad in San Antonio.
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So I just had baby boy and I don't have the twins no more.
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You know them them teenagers, they be be a lot So I ain't got
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to deal with them no more Now can focus on.
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I ain't. Got enough to do with focus.
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God making me focus on this, He has a way of.
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Display my smile, my heart, my pictures, My love is authentic.
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Like if I don't want to do it, I'm going to express that to you
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in the nicest place. But I am who I am.
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I love who I am. I just need you to look in that
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mirror my sister, and figure out who you are.
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Wow, my goodness, that is an awesome story.
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I am sure that this would inspire so many women and I'm
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hoping that this will cause women to say, you know what, I'm
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going to tell my story. I'm not going to just sit that
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on my on my story when tender. When you told your when you told
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your mom, your mom was shot, wasn't she?
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My Mama was in shock. My Mama now, mind you, my Mama,
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I never saw my Mama cry. That's why I have a problem with
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crying. So I thought my Mama was the
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strongest black woman ever. But the woman told me she was a
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crybaby y'all and I'm like, how long.
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So I live my life thinking this woman don't cry.
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And crying is a weakness because my dad always I may never cry.
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But anyway, so yeah, she. Couldn't believe it.
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She couldn't believe it and she cried.
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And she was just on that phone because I couldn't do it at
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first. Y'all.
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And I ain't tell my dad. It's how I went all the way to
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Germany. He was so mad at me.
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I went to go visit my friend in Germany and then that's when I
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got my courage to tell him. And I told him don't don't call
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nobody. And of course he got on that
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phone 30 years later. I'm so warm.
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Did you know? Wow, wow.
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But I. Am writing a book?
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Yes, that's what I'm going to tell you next.
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A girl. You know, A survivor's memoir.
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I named this A girl. You know, because it can be
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anybody. It can be it.
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This can happen to anybody. Everybody has a story.
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Everybody has a story. Baby, don't be afraid to Because
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I was afraid to tell people I was raped by my cousin.
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I was ashamed. Y'all.
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I thought I had scarlet letter like some written on my
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forehead. I was ashamed.
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But just to know the the thousands of women and I already
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helped by letting them know, baby, it's okay.
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It's okay to leave that you are worthy of respect.
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You know, speaking, speaking, baby, speak.
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It's power in your tongue. It's power.
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God gave us a tool right here. And you know I'm sitting here
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thinking about as mother with young daughters that we need to
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pay attention to if we if if their reaction or or they send
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to their self or they quiet or they seem like they're bothered
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by something be be open. How do you handle your daughter
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growing up knowing what you had went through?
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Did you make her feel comfortable coming to you
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talking to you about anything? It's always a person.
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If somebody tells you if somebody do this, it's okay.
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Don't let them tell you that you the reason you the cause of this
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happening, because you know that's what they would do and
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it's always usually somebody that you usually trust a person
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that. You would trust your kids
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because you ain't going to leave them with a stranger then,
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right? But it was easy for me when I
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had my kids. The reason why I got the
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military is because they were trying to deploy me and my
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husband at the same time. So Iraq or whatever was going on
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and it's like, hold on, I'm gonna have to leave my kids.
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And my my son was 4 at the time and he's about to start pre-K
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for the first time. So you know, it's exciting, like
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we're pre-K like I don't know how the hell why I'm gonna do
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anything overseas. And I couldn't protect my baby
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and that was big on me because. I didn't have that protection,
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you know, My Mama was working. My Mama was a black woman, hard
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working, trying to make the house, you know, make ends meet.
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You know what I'm saying? So we didn't have that type of
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relationship and I wanted to change that.
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And yes, ma'am, please believe we knew what good touch was and
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bad touch. Oh, and this, it wasn't only for
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my daughters from my son. So you know he's Jesus.
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And for my. Daughter being, she was like
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probably five years, five or six years old.
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Y'all. The girl came home, she said,
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Mama, I need to talk to you. I said OK, what's going on?
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She said I had a bad touch at school today.
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Y'all know Mama line was. So I said, let me see what she
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told me and if y'all know my daughter, she's something else
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and this little boy would sit behind me and I ain't want to
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talk to him and I ain't want to pass him the paper.
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So he pulled my help and I told the teacher that he touched me
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in a bad spot. I said that was the bad touch,
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baby. Yeah, he pulled my house Okay.
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Well, thank you for telling me. But you know, we had the over
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the years we had to keep on and y'all my friends, my friends
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just loved me because when it was time to have the, I'm on
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YouTube looking up PowerPoint because I don't want to use
26:08
this. You want, you want, you want to
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have all the knowledge. I want it because, baby, that's
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what we suffer from. Ignorance.
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Lack of knowledge. Baby, I'm not.
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Dial it out the box, baby. They comfortable talking to me
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about things other kids wouldn't dare talk to their parents
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about, but pull up. Hey, I need to know what's going
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on. I'll be able to help you help
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yourself. So yes, I was very adamant on
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that. Like where you're okay to touch
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people. I don't care who it is.
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I don't care if it's Mama, daddy, uncle, I don't care if
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they say this. I don't care if you threaten
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them like I tried to let them know that this is a safe place
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so and to give them and like for me because I'm I'm y'all, I'm
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dramatic. I'm over the top.
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So when them kids bring their little stuff to you handle it
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nicely. Handle it well because they not
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going to be able to bring the big stuff because you can't even
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handle the little stuff, so that's powerful.
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Yes. So some little stuff you got to
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talk them through and, you know, kind of teach them, but just let
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it go, right? So you build that relationship
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with your child. Wow.
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Wow. And to hear you say that you are
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free. Now, I know you came out and you
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told your story and well, you wasn't suffering in silence, but
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I know that was a work in progress.
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When did you actually feel yourself free?
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Did you have to get into counseling or what?
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Yes, I had to get into counseling.
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I had to get my relationship back right with God.
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I had to. I had to learn to pray for me.
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And you know what I'm saying? Because I'm the one, y'all.
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I'm praying for everybody. I had to learn to pray for men
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and uplift myself and put positive back into me.
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I have to take it back to elementary.
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You know what I'm saying? I had to put that positive back
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people on Facebook. I had to delete them.
28:18
Baby, I have to give me some positive stuff coming here, you
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know, family members, I can't deal with you right now.
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Friends, I need nothing but. And that's what I stayed around.
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God had me isolated. Now mind you, I'm a Road runner
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and I always ripping and running.
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I'm at somebody house. I'm doing this doing it.
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Maybe I stay in this house for six months from from December
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when I had my I had my breakdown in November, but from December
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to June I was in counseling In June, she told me, she say, see
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Anna, you're done. And I felt kind of scared.
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I was like, what? You mean we're done?
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Like, come on, we we've been doing this for six months.
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Like we've been seeing each other for six months, every
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Wednesday at 10:00. O'clock like everybody know
28:59
about our relationship, but what you mean?
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What? What?
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What do you mean you're going to leave me?
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You're not going to help me with this walk no more.
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She was like, you got it, you got it.
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And she calls me every two weeks to make sure she matter of fact,
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we just had a phone call this last Wednesday.
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She say okay, you think you can handle a couple months and I'm
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like, okay, okay, I say. When I say in my mind you have
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to know yourself, you have to know how the devil plays on you,
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what he can play on you and you. You gird yourself up like you,
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you, you, you be ready for and you know who he is and you cast
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them down as soon as he try to come in.
29:41
Say not really. Get deep behind me.
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Press on. Yeah.
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And and and and. And that freedom feels so good
29:51
then. I watched too.
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I bring in my house because different energies that.
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But when I say it feels good, it feels awesome to wake up every
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morning and so know that God loves you.
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And he, He favored me once again to wake me up.
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He chose me. I mean, I ain't done yet.
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Ain't done you, child. I love it.
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I love it. I love it.
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Wow. What a powerful, powerful story
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to tell them how that they can reach out to you.
30:28
Tell them the name of your book again.
30:30
How they can get a copy of your book and also if somebody just
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want talk to you, you might be the first person they may want
30:38
to tell they want to you know they might might been going
30:41
through this for years and say you know what, maybe I just need
30:45
to talk to her. You know what?
30:48
That made me think about my first public speaking.
30:51
I was scared, scared, scared. And this 86 year old woman came
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up to me afterwards. She said, baby, you know what
30:59
she said? You just taught me something.
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I've been suffering in silence since I was a little girl.
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And now you gave me the strength to be able to get past it
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because it always eat at me. And this woman was 86, so that
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made me think, oh, I'm out here doing something right, baby, I'm
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helping out. I'm helping out, grandma, baby.
31:23
So yeah, wow, that's I can't imagine that's a long time.
31:30
I just thought about my little time and I was like, that's a
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lifetime. Oh Jesus, that's a lifetime.
31:35
And people that's. Why I want to help us?
31:37
Because that ain't a subject nobody want to talk about, not
31:40
even not even to the to the babies to let them know what it
31:44
was. Because if I would would have
31:45
known what was going on, I could have put a stop to him, like,
31:48
hey, this is not where I want to be.
31:50
But it wasn't that. And that's why I just want to
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help people learn what domestic violence really is and let them
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know. Baby, you don't have to take
31:59
that. Periods you don't have to take
32:03
it. You are worthy of more.
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You are worthy of respect and of love.
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Oh girl, yes, yes. So you can reach me Y'all.
32:15
I mainly be on Facebook. My name is spelled TAJANA and my
32:21
last name is Dobb DOBB. Now I'm finally y'all I told
32:26
you, I'm here now. Now I'll be in here making arts
32:28
and crafts shell. I love it, love it, love it,
32:29
love it, love it. Everybody come to my house.
32:31
I make this big picture behind me like so I'm going to start.
32:35
I'm going to get my Etsy shop up.
32:36
It's called House of Tiana. Ain't up yet.
32:40
Y'all and he's supposed to be on her way over here to help me.
32:43
But you actually get up. You actually did that painting.
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Yeah. No, it's yes, I did it.
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Wow. Yeah, so yeah.
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So I'm going to be on Etsy. You can catch me on that with
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Facebook. I'm on sick tock.
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I do a little bit on sick tock with a little Sick tock.
33:06
You can find me by my name or just Tiana.
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Wow, awesome, awesome. Message me.
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I'm here. Y'all wow wow with TI.
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Just want to thank you for sharing.
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Wow. All I can say when when I see
33:24
this happen, I know that I'm doing what I supposed to be
33:30
doing. I'm doing what I supposed to be
33:32
doing because I wrote my book, which I had never desired to
33:37
write a book. And God kept dealing with about
33:39
the book. I ain't writing the book.
33:42
Yeah, you don't write in the book.
33:43
And then one day it was like, start a podcast.
33:48
And I'm like, I don't even know what you do.
33:51
Is there app? Is there what?
33:55
And God just lay everything out for me.
33:58
That's why I say when God lays someone hard to do, just start.
34:02
You don't have to be perfect, just start.
34:04
Just start and you learn as you go.
34:08
Exactly. And I was.
34:09
Like I was like I don't want to do it every week and then it was
34:13
like okay, I'll just do it twice a month.
34:15
The when I do it twice a month on the the 1st I'm on the second
34:18
Tuesday I do it. It's just an audio there's no
34:24
visual. And then when I on the 4th one I
34:27
start interviewing guests and that just been working out so so
34:34
great people telling stories I get.
34:37
I end up getting so many messages about people sharing my
34:42
story. So if you listening to this
34:46
podcast and you do not see the two of us, then you haven't
34:51
downloaded the app. It'll just only allow you to
34:54
hear the hear the audio part. So download the Spotify app, the
35:00
marriage major, download that podcast and you'll be able to
35:07
see us. And I think it's because I enjoy
35:10
seeing podcast. You know, even though I on the
35:15
second Wednesday, I I do minds. And it's just audio, but I enjoy
35:21
seeing them. So I would love for you, If
35:25
you're listening to the podcast, please download the app so you
35:29
can see who this powerful woman is, so you can see that she
35:33
looked like she been here. She don't even look like what
35:36
she just told us about. And look at her, she doesn't
35:43
even look like what she told us about.
35:45
So you can see this young lady who have looked in the mirror
35:51
and now she can look and say she's free.
35:56
Ain't nothing. No power for them being free.
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Nothing. No power be there.
36:03
Free. But TI just want to thank you.
36:05
Thank you. Thank you.
36:07
And ladies, until next time I'll see you on the women Major
36:13
marriage podcast and remember if if you would like to be
36:17
interviewed, reach out to me the marriage major@gmail.com and you
36:24
might not be a woman that had went through any of this that
36:27
she just said share because guess who would?
36:32
I'm so sorry y'all I got to turn my phone down.
36:40
Make sure you make sure you share it.
36:43
Make sure I turn that off. Make sure you share because you
36:47
don't know if you have to share it on your social media share.
36:52
Use like, use like I don't know anybody share.
36:58
I guarantee you somebody in your circle, somebody in your circle,
37:03
is suffering in silence from something so that they so that
37:09
they can be free, so that they can be free, so that they can be
37:13
free. And again, ladies, be blessed.
37:18
Have an amazing day. And as I always say, always try
37:23
to leave a person better than you found.
37:26
Have a great rest of your day. T you stay.
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Hold on one second. Bye y'all.
37:35
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37:38
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