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Episode #239: When Your Voice is Shut Down · Tea Time w/Amie & Bev

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  Speaker 1: It's everybody.
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  Speaker 2: Welcome to Tea Time with Amy and Bev. Good evening
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  Speaker 2: for us.
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  Speaker 3: Yes, that's good evening. How are you. It seems like
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  Speaker 3: it's been forever.
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  Speaker 2: Yeah, it has been so Bev and I have been
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  Speaker 2: doing one session and recording two to four episodes because
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  Speaker 2: of life. Life is happening, and there's a lot happening
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  Speaker 2: in my world, and I'm navigating a lot of different
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  Speaker 2: things right now. So this is this is how we're
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  Speaker 2: navigating Tea Time right now, is doing several in one
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  Speaker 2: sitting and then and then meeting in two to three
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  Speaker 2: weeks to do some more. So and every time something happens,
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  Speaker 2: and during that time frame when we're not recording, I think, oh,
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  Speaker 2: I need to share that on Tea Time. Oh I
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  Speaker 2: need to share that on teach, And then it gets
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  Speaker 2: by me.
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  Speaker 1: I don't make.
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  Speaker 2: Note of it. But then at the same time, I think,
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  Speaker 2: you know what, something's gonna trigger something and it'll come up.
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  Speaker 2: So it's it's divine timing and it's meant to do
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  Speaker 2: it be when it's when it needs to be revealed.
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  Speaker 2: So I at the same time, I don't even like,
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  Speaker 2: well it.
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  Speaker 1: Pops up, It'll pop up.
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  Speaker 3: Yeah, and so I'll sit down when I have time,
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  Speaker 3: and I have all the time today, So I sat
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  Speaker 3: down and started writing down, you know, asking spirit like
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  Speaker 3: what do you want to talk about? Or actually I said, Joyce,
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  Speaker 3: so what do you want to talk about today? Joy Like?
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  Speaker 2: How is it? How? What?
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  Speaker 3: What are we going to have a conversation about? Yeah,
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  Speaker 3: so it's like all the stuff came out. I wrote
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  Speaker 3: it down, but it's so it's like it I had
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  Speaker 3: to put my glasses on to read it. So, yeah,
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  Speaker 3: we'll just fly by the seat of our pants. Anyways,
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  Speaker 3: it gets to that point, we'll just take a look
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  Speaker 3: at some of the stuff. But yeah, no, life's been happening,
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  Speaker 3: hasn't it.
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  Speaker 1: It sure has.
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  Speaker 2: All of it's been fun and at the same time.
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  Speaker 1: It's been tiring.
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  Speaker 2: So and then having several people around me, so this
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  Speaker 2: is interesting, having several people around me not feeling well
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  Speaker 2: and me holding my space of my body's healthy, whole
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  Speaker 2: and complete. Everything is good, right, but something crept in
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  Speaker 2: and so I've had a little bit of a sore
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  Speaker 2: throat today, but still feeling good. I haven't felt run
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  Speaker 2: down or anything, so that's a plus.
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  Speaker 1: I think.
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  Speaker 2: It's just maybe some still deep seated stuff in there
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  Speaker 2: that's popping up, and that's okay, but actually what's interesting.
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  Speaker 2: So so as I'm talking, I'm like, wait, there's more.
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  Speaker 2: I know, there's more. Last night with my job, my
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  Speaker 2: day job, we were at an event last night, and
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  Speaker 2: so this is really interesting. As I'm talking about this,
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  Speaker 2: I love this that I So my boss had asked
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  Speaker 2: one person, one of the staff members, to talk, and
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  Speaker 2: then she gave me a piece to do. She's like, okay,
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  Speaker 2: you do this part, and you do this part, and
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  Speaker 2: we were like, okay, Well, the one person did their
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  Speaker 2: did their part, and then when she got to where
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  Speaker 2: I was supposed to speak, I got up and I
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  Speaker 2: was talking and I got to one of the topic,
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  Speaker 2: one of the things I was to talk about, and
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  Speaker 2: I start talking and then she kind of took over
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  Speaker 2: and just ran with what I was feeling like I
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  Speaker 2: was supposed to be talking about. So it was kind
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  Speaker 2: of kind of we're just in a room, people were
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  Speaker 2: standing around, hanging out, and so she just kept talking
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  Speaker 2: and I just kind of moved on over and sat down,
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  Speaker 2: and I had to sit there and process it for
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  Speaker 2: a second. So processing okay, because I felt a little like, hey,
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  Speaker 2: you're not allowing me to use my voice. You're kind
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  Speaker 2: of stepping on my toes here, You're just kind of
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  Speaker 2: taking over like I'm not important, Like I'm choppedliver standing
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  Speaker 2: here in front of everybody, and you're over here and
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  Speaker 2: you're just spewing everything out. So I'm sitting there processing
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  Speaker 2: saying while she's doing her thing, I'm sitting there processing
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  Speaker 2: all this.
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  Speaker 1: And I was like, Okay, how do you feel?
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  Speaker 3: Well?
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  Speaker 2: I feel like I was just shut down and not
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  Speaker 2: allowed to use my voice, and.
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  Speaker 1: How you feel about that?
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  Speaker 2: Seriously, this is how I talk to myself internally in
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  Speaker 2: a group of people.
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  Speaker 1: Well, how do you feel about that?
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  Speaker 2: And then I thought, you know, she's new to the group,
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  Speaker 2: she's excited, she's energized. She's kind of like that cheerleading
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  Speaker 2: type of person anality of you know, super excited, and
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  Speaker 2: and it's okay, it's okay. So interesting enough. This morning
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  Speaker 2: I woke up and I had a sore throat, not
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  Speaker 2: sore sore, but I could feel it settling in. And
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  Speaker 2: I was like, okay, but you know, the first thought
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  Speaker 2: for the human brain is well, everybody around me has
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  Speaker 2: been sick, so I guess it's meant to be and
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  Speaker 2: I gotta get sick. But also sitting here just talking
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  Speaker 2: out loud about it, and then you start connecting the dots. Well,
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  Speaker 2: you weren't allowed to use your voice. Somebody shut you down,
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  Speaker 2: you weren't important, you were pushed aside.
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  Speaker 1: You know you you need.
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  Speaker 2: To just be quiet, don't talk unless you're being talked to, right,
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  Speaker 2: those stories that we heard as children. So so it's
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  Speaker 2: it's a little different. My point. One of my points
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  Speaker 2: here is is I have been processing this throughout the
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  Speaker 2: day last night, but it's interesting that even as I
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  Speaker 2: say it out loud, more comes up. And so sometimes
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  Speaker 2: you need just somebody to sit there and listen while
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  Speaker 2: you talk. And then you're like, oh, yeah, okay, well
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  Speaker 2: I can see how this happened, and then this happened,
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  Speaker 2: and this happened, and it makes it a little You
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  Speaker 2: can go deeper a lot of times. For me, anyway,
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  Speaker 2: I can go deeper if I'm saying it out loud.
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  Speaker 2: So thanks for listening, BEV, thank you.
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  Speaker 1: For everybody for being here.
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  Speaker 3: You're welcome to that, and.
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  Speaker 1: That's in the mail.
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  Speaker 3: But it's important to go through that whole process. And
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  Speaker 3: I had an experience recently that just the behavior and
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  Speaker 3: how I felt about it and did not express myself.
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  Speaker 3: That's not even the right way to go. There would
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  Speaker 3: have been a time in my past that I can
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  Speaker 3: recognize that there was some karma stuff that I was experiencing.
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  Speaker 3: And when I say karmik is, it's an experience for
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  Speaker 3: you to learn from. And I can recognize in this
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  Speaker 3: experience how I have shown up for others and how
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  Speaker 3: I have spoke to others and not allowing them their voice.
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  Speaker 3: It's not the same because your situation is a bit different,
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  Speaker 3: but I just recognize why I was having the experience.
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  Speaker 3: So when you say going deeper, you know, when you
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  Speaker 3: start asking questions and I can ask them with inside
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  Speaker 3: or I can voice it from outside right and the
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  Speaker 3: information is like right there, and it's always been there.
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  Speaker 3: And that's the thing that I'm recognizing the more that
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  Speaker 3: I've been meditating now for a couple of months every
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  Speaker 3: single day, and I a couple of times a day
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  Speaker 3: sometimes you know, I'll try to do it as many
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  Speaker 3: times that I can, and I do it even when
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  Speaker 3: I'm working, So it's been very beneficial and reckon. You know,
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  Speaker 3: having the dialogues in your head is amazing because it
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  Speaker 3: does do. It does help a lot. But if I
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  Speaker 3: didn't have those questions in that dialogue with myself, it's
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  Speaker 3: so easy to take on someone else's stuff as your own.
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  Speaker 3: And then but when you get it, when you start
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  Speaker 3: asking questions and you kind of step back from it,
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  Speaker 3: you don't take it on as your own. You get
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  Speaker 3: to actually see it like why did it show up
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  Speaker 3: for me? Or you know, and gosh, while you were talking,
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  Speaker 3: it's exciting to know that someone's wanting to say all
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  Speaker 3: these things, you know, to take control. So it's like,
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  Speaker 3: you know, in the future, this person is a take
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  Speaker 3: control kind of person so you've got a better idea
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  Speaker 3: about this person. And if this is a cheerleader type personality,
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  Speaker 3: a lot of people like that kind of personality. So
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  Speaker 3: to be a front runner and maybe to give yourself
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  Speaker 3: a break a bit, you know what I mean. So
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  Speaker 3: it's just different perspectives about the whole thing, which I've
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  Speaker 3: been gaining for myself. On gosh, on so many levels,
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  Speaker 3: it seems like it seems like it's a constant it's
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  Speaker 3: a constant evolution and it's but it's a beautiful, beautiful
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  Speaker 3: state to be in, honestly, because it's like you get
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  Speaker 3: to see all the nuggets why they had shown up
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  Speaker 3: and for all we know that you were starting to
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  Speaker 3: get sick. But I would agree with you. I agree
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  Speaker 3: with you one hundred percent. I would because I would
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  Speaker 3: have said I would look back and been like, Okay, well, yeah,
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  Speaker 3: I was shut down. So I was not allowed to
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  Speaker 3: express myself. And so we know how to express ourselves.
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  Speaker 3: We know how to find ways, and sometimes we don't
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  Speaker 3: have the time forward, or sometimes we're just in the
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  Speaker 3: space to do it, you know what I mean, We're
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  Speaker 3: just not there in that space. But it's every one
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  Speaker 3: of these are just opportunities. These experiences are opportunities for
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  Speaker 3: us to you know, show up and do better, is
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  Speaker 3: what you've always said. And it's like seeing how how
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  Speaker 3: how was it a benefit to me? Because everything is
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  Speaker 3: a benefit to us. However, I want to look at things. Honestly,
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  Speaker 3: there's been some things and all that being said recently
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  Speaker 3: during my little group that I have it. It's these
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  Speaker 3: revelations that come in. They're so simple. But to recognize
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  Speaker 3: that everybody's a guide. You're a guide. I'm a guide,
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  Speaker 3: and this person was a guide in your experience. My
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  Speaker 3: person is a guide. You know we have all these guides.
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  Speaker 3: My grandkids are guides. I'm a guide for my grandkids.
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  Speaker 3: But it's like knowing that there's always something for us
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  Speaker 3: to learn from each other, which is a bonus, but
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  Speaker 3: also knowing that takes I'm gonna go way out the
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  Speaker 3: other side. That actually takes a lot of stress off
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  Speaker 3: of a person. So if I recognized Jim was a
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  Speaker 3: guide and Jim's being a guide for me, that had
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  Speaker 3: that purpose, that ended, and then another guide had come
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  Speaker 3: in to help evolve me, or to help me graduate,
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  Speaker 3: or help trigger me or whatever it looks like, right,
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  Speaker 3: because we can't we got to have other people in
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  Speaker 3: our lives in order to have these experiences kind of
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  Speaker 3: highlight put the flashlight on, like, oh, look at I
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  Speaker 3: see a sticker right there, a little splinter. Otherwise we
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  Speaker 3: wouldn't see them. So it helps bring all this stuff
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  Speaker 3: to the surface and then we feel lighter.
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  Speaker 2: To add to that, one of the other things that
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  Speaker 2: I processed with this whole situation was being interrupted, and
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  Speaker 2: that was actually the first thing I thought about in
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  Speaker 2: this situation is Okay, she interrupted me. How do I
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  Speaker 2: interrupt people? Or how am I in a interruption or
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  Speaker 2: how am I in what ways do I get excited
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  Speaker 2: about something and I just want to talk and I
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  Speaker 2: just start talking when somebody else is talking or interrupt them,
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  Speaker 2: and which I have done because I get excited about
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  Speaker 2: things and I just jump in. And for a little
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  Speaker 2: bit at work, I've experienced some a little bit of
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  Speaker 2: frustration and annoyance and people will be doing things and
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  Speaker 2: like they're just not getting it, and there's different reasons
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  Speaker 2: for that. So I will just jump in and say, Okay,
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  Speaker 2: here we go, here's what you gotta do, do this,
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  Speaker 2: do that right, and just kind of not being a
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  Speaker 2: teacher or a guide being frustrated with the whole thing.
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  Speaker 1: So it's like.
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  Speaker 3: You should still a teacher and a guide at the
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  Speaker 3: same time.
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  Speaker 2: So so but seeing it from the frustrated point of view,
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  Speaker 2: I'm like, Okay, well, I can see how I've been
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  Speaker 2: doing that to other people and and so it's that
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  Speaker 2: for me is like an attitude check. I'm like, all right,
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  Speaker 2: you gotta check yourself, sister, because you do this too,
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  Speaker 2: but you're doing it in a little bit different way,
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  Speaker 2: which is a little uncomfortable. And I have felt it
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  Speaker 2: in my body when I do it. I just because
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  Speaker 2: I'm just like you know, it's like, come on, let's
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  Speaker 2: just get this done already. So yeah, So there were
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  Speaker 2: several and there's probably more gonna come up from it,
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  Speaker 2: but there were several things that I recognized about myself.
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  Speaker 2: And and I was talking to a lady today. We
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  Speaker 2: were having a this morning and we were having a
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  Speaker 2: conversation and I brought it up. I said, and this
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  Speaker 2: thing happened last night made me a little kind of
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  Speaker 2: I kind of at the moment felt shut down. But
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  Speaker 2: you know what, this is what I said, and I
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  Speaker 2: loved it, I said I And I said with a smiles,
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  Speaker 2: like I'm telling you and I appreciate those moments now
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  Speaker 2: because it helps me be better.
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  Speaker 3: Yeah, because we moved past it, I don't have to
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  Speaker 3: have it anymore. And then we it just it slows
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  Speaker 3: us down. So I'm at a point now where I'm
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  Speaker 3: really thinking about the things that I say. I'm I'm
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  Speaker 3: having a dialogue withinside. If someone's talking to me outside
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  Speaker 3: of myself, I'll go inside and have the conversation first
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  Speaker 3: before it comes out. So it's like there's just a
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  Speaker 3: different process that's happening, but we can hear. Then it
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  Speaker 3: gives the opportunity to hear the messages really and then
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  Speaker 3: really to see what's going on here and is does
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  Speaker 3: this have anything to do with me? You know what
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  Speaker 3: I mean, Just like you just said, it's just going
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  Speaker 3: through this whole dialogue to see about what this is about?
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  Speaker 3: What is this all about? And I've been having.
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  Speaker 2: I was gonna say it wasn't about blaming her for anything. No,
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  Speaker 2: my immediate I've gotten so good at this. My immediate
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  Speaker 2: thing is, well, okay, how did that make you feel?
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  Speaker 2: And for me talking to myself, how does that make
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  Speaker 2: me feel? And what was what was some a lesson here?
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  Speaker 2: And usually when I say one, then other things come
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  Speaker 2: up to so uh and then once I recognim like okay,
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  Speaker 2: and so for the audience, just for their for for context,
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  Speaker 2: I was born, my mom married a an abusive person
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  Speaker 2: is so mentally emotional abusive, and so that's what I
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  Speaker 2: came into. So that would be the beginning of my
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  Speaker 2: time here on earth. And just always being shut down
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  Speaker 2: because as a little kid, you know, don't forget, don't
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  Speaker 2: speak unless you're being spoken to be quiet, you can
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  Speaker 2: you definitely can't stick up for yourself and by no
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  Speaker 2: means so anyway I just wanted to put that out
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  Speaker 2: there so they understood where why I felt, you know,
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  Speaker 2: why that sore throat would settle in because I was
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  Speaker 2: being shut down.
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  Speaker 3: But but.
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  Speaker 2: I very rarely, now very rarely is a is do
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  Speaker 2: I point the finger and blame somebody for how I feel? Now,
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  Speaker 2: before it used to be constant, it was everybody's fault
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  Speaker 2: for me feeling like crap meaning sad, angry, frustrated.
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  Speaker 1: Now that is not.
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  Speaker 2: My typical go to. So that's a good thing.
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  Speaker 3: It's nice, actually.
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  Speaker 1: It is.
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  Speaker 3: And then it feels better afterwards too, you know, because
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  Speaker 3: you don't have the same emotional you don't have the
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  Speaker 3: same you don't have to feel bad for the things
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  Speaker 3: that you would have said or how you could have
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  Speaker 3: reacted or you just went over.
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  Speaker 2: And sat down or hang on to it for days
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  Speaker 2: and weeks months, Yeah, and then have an uncomfortable energy
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  Speaker 2: the next day at work because she did this and
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  Speaker 2: I couldn't finish my spiel and.
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  Speaker 1: No, I don't have time for that. I'm like, no,
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  Speaker 1: I don't want to feel that way, No.
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  Speaker 3: Because it doesn't just it doesn't feel good. It's useless. Yeah,
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  Speaker 3: I mean that's not true. It's not useless because you
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  Speaker 3: can take a look at it and say, oh, next time,
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  Speaker 3: I'm not going to do this, or or I'm going
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  Speaker 3: to have the dialogue within myself or whatever you want
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  Speaker 3: to do. It's just whatever feels better. And to me,
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  Speaker 3: the feel better part is just stopping. Just stopping right now,
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  Speaker 3: go take some breaths, breath, checking myself, ask some questions.
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  Speaker 2: And other than that, it was a delightful evening. And
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  Speaker 2: we showed up at work today and we and we
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  Speaker 2: laughed and had a great day.
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  Speaker 1: It was a wonderful day.
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  Speaker 2: And yeah, so now the difference would have been if
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  Speaker 2: I would have been upset and held on to that
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  Speaker 2: because the situation happened, and then went to work, Uh,
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  Speaker 2: I would have had a grudge, right, hold none to
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  Speaker 2: a grudge.
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  Speaker 1: I would have.
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  Speaker 2: Retracted, So I would not have I would have been
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  Speaker 2: very quiet, short. If anybody talk to me, I would
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  Speaker 2: have been very short. So these are all characteristics I
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  Speaker 2: used to have totally ignore them all day unless they
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  Speaker 2: asked me something directly.
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  Speaker 3: Like.
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  Speaker 2: These are all these things that I didn't do at all,
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  Speaker 2: moving in in fact, laugh. We laughed several times today.
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  Speaker 2: It was so fun so that to recognize in yourself,
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  Speaker 2: how far you've come when you've done this type of work.
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  Speaker 1: It's so worth it.
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  Speaker 2: Because then that energy would have that would have affected
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  Speaker 2: me all day long, at work, all night, it would
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  Speaker 2: affect me last night.
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  Speaker 1: I wouldn't have slept.
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  Speaker 2: It would have been well, I should have and I
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  Speaker 2: could have, right, I should have could have wit it,
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  Speaker 2: and I wouldn't have slept, and I probably feel worse today.
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  Speaker 1: Than I do. Had that happened, then.
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  Speaker 2: I would have woke up mad, right, because I'm gonna
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  Speaker 2: start my day all right, Well, now I gotta go
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  Speaker 2: to work and face earth really and then mad all
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  Speaker 2: day and then who knows how much longer, days, weeks, months, years.
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  Speaker 3: I hold on this forever, same though, and hold inventory. Right,
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  Speaker 3: I would go over this checklist of all these things
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  Speaker 3: this person has ever done. I don't do that anymore.
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  Speaker 3: If I start catching myself doing that, I'm like, that
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  Speaker 3: doesn't feel good. Yeah, it doesn't feel good. I'm not
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  Speaker 3: going to rehash that stuff. It's I don't sit and
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  Speaker 3: bring forth this is what you're doing or what you
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  Speaker 3: did or I did that. I did it for a
• 20:00
  Speaker 3: very long time, and it just doesn't That's just not
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  Speaker 3: part of my life anymore. I have zero desire for
• 20:06
  Speaker 3: It doesn't feel good. And it's like, why keep you know,
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  Speaker 3: we've talked about this before, but why keep reading the
• 20:13
  Speaker 3: same freaking chapter over and over and over again. Move
• 20:16
  Speaker 3: on to the next book already.
• 20:18
  Speaker 2: Right, yeah, get a new title something.
• 20:22
  Speaker 3: That's right, that's right, you already read b D. Why
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  Speaker 3: do you keep going back and rereading it again?
• 20:29
  Speaker 1: Right?
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  Speaker 2: So you're in twenty twenty four right now, and you're
• 20:33
  Speaker 2: still reading the chapter, just the chapter, not even the
• 20:35
  Speaker 2: whole book, just the chapter, same chapter, over and over
• 20:38
  Speaker 2: and again from nineteen what eighty nine ninety five? Why
• 20:43
  Speaker 2: where it's like you're still reading that chapter. You haven't
• 20:46
  Speaker 2: even read the whole you lived it, but apparently you
• 20:49
  Speaker 2: need to keep reliving it.
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  Speaker 1: We know because we've done it.
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  Speaker 2: We'ren't being like hard about it, but we've been.
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  Speaker 3: And when you stop, and when you start recognizing all
• 20:59
  Speaker 3: this stuff, you recognize how much time that you're not
• 21:03
  Speaker 3: present for all the amazing things when you keep going
• 21:06
  Speaker 3: over that stuff. And that's something that I've processed probably
• 21:08
  Speaker 3: in the last few months too, just recognizing how how
• 21:13
  Speaker 3: you really can disappear because you're not present, You're not
• 21:17
  Speaker 3: in the conversations with things that I can go inside
• 21:19
  Speaker 3: it in my head and I can be gone for
• 21:20
  Speaker 3: a long time, for a long time. And because I anymore,
• 21:24
  Speaker 3: I just process things on the inside, because I'll start
• 21:27
  Speaker 3: asking my team, I start asking questions, I start asking.
• 21:30
  Speaker 3: I mean, I've been doing this a lot lately. I
• 21:33
  Speaker 3: mean I constantly do it, tuning in right, I'm tuning
• 21:37
  Speaker 3: into frequencies and stuff like that. So to whatever it did,
• 21:41
  Speaker 3: it could be Archangel Michael, it could be Archangel Metatron.
• 21:44
  Speaker 3: It's I'm and I'm asking what do you feel like?
• 21:46
  Speaker 3: What does your energies feel like? You know, asking questions
• 21:49
  Speaker 3: about well, can you talk to me? Hearing sounds like that,
• 21:52
  Speaker 3: like when you've got water in your ear, like this clicking,
• 21:56
  Speaker 3: Like I know that something's happening, but I'm not trans
• 22:00
  Speaker 3: just yet, or I need to fine tune it. I
• 22:02
  Speaker 3: don't need to do anything. It's it's just happening, but
• 22:05
  Speaker 3: it's letting me know. But it's happening in correspondence with questions.
• 22:09
  Speaker 3: So it's kind of fascinating. And the synchronicities there are,
• 22:13
  Speaker 3: Oh my gosh, it's just ridiculous. It's ridiculously awesome and
• 22:17
  Speaker 3: amazing when you start paying attention, when you start tuning
• 22:20
  Speaker 3: in how different life is. Life is like full of
• 22:25
  Speaker 3: all these miracles, like miracles with goosebumps and you know,
• 22:29
  Speaker 3: just constant goosebumps all the time, and even even to
• 22:33
  Speaker 3: a point where recently I thought, well, I thought this.
• 22:36
  Speaker 3: I had a day that I just didn't think it was.
• 22:39
  Speaker 1: I thought it was.
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  Speaker 3: Gonna be a quiet day, you know. I didn't think
• 22:41
  Speaker 3: there was going to be really any deep conversations, and
• 22:43
  Speaker 3: then turned out to have two deep conversations with these
• 22:46
  Speaker 3: two people, and I was like, that's you just can't
• 22:50
  Speaker 3: you can't make this stuff up. But it's like it's
• 22:52
  Speaker 3: I kind of put it up, even though it wasn't
• 22:54
  Speaker 3: a positive charge when I put it out there, like
• 22:56
  Speaker 3: you know, it's probably mean, it's probably not going to
• 22:58
  Speaker 3: be positive, you know, these great deep conversations. But by
• 23:02
  Speaker 3: just saying that, it turned out to be these deep conversations.
• 23:05
  Speaker 3: Because the universe isn't here, can't or won't or don't
• 23:08
  Speaker 3: or any of that kind of stuff, it just kind
• 23:10
  Speaker 3: of matches whatever I put out there, and that was
• 23:13
  Speaker 3: neutral about it. So it was just it turned out
• 23:15
  Speaker 3: to be such a beautiful day. All my days are
• 23:18
  Speaker 3: turning out to be beautiful days, even though I did
• 23:21
  Speaker 3: not sleep last night.
• 23:24
  Speaker 1: Here I am, here, we are and.
• 23:29
  Speaker 2: Being present and having those experiences. If you are still
• 23:34
  Speaker 2: in your head like we used to be and thinking
• 23:37
  Speaker 2: about all this stuff and all the turmoil and the
• 23:40
  Speaker 2: trauma and drama, you wouldn't be able to have yourself
• 23:45
  Speaker 2: present enough to be able to tune into spirit and
• 23:49
  Speaker 2: get those questions answered internally, or be present enough to
• 23:54
  Speaker 2: be in a deep conversation such.
• 23:57
  Speaker 3: As you had.
• 23:58
  Speaker 1: Right.
• 23:58
  Speaker 2: So, I heard was listening to a podcast the other
• 24:01
  Speaker 2: day and I heard this saying, so I was asking.
• 24:04
  Speaker 1: This lady, okay, so.
• 24:08
  Speaker 2: About how many times a day do you think about
• 24:10
  Speaker 2: this traumatic situation? She's like thirty minutes. He goes, okay, well,
• 24:14
  Speaker 2: I'm just doing the math on my calculator on my phone.
• 24:16
  Speaker 2: So if you think thirty minutes a day times three
• 24:20
  Speaker 2: hundred and sixty five days a year, right, right, ten
• 24:24
  Speaker 2: nine hundred and fifty minutes. So now have we multiplay that,
• 24:29
  Speaker 2: Let's just say by twenty years. So ten thousand, nine
• 24:36
  Speaker 2: hundred and fifty times twenty years, two hundred and nineteen
• 24:40
  Speaker 2: thousand minutes minutes. They could have been doing so much
• 24:45
  Speaker 2: more with we stay stuck in our head about the
• 24:52
  Speaker 2: past and about thinking about all that stuff. And again
• 24:56
  Speaker 2: I'm saying this lightheartedly, but believe me, I did this
• 25:00
  Speaker 2: and probably wait for more more than twenty years. And
• 25:05
  Speaker 2: then the time we can't get back. We just can't
• 25:08
  Speaker 2: get it back. But we can do is just start
• 25:10
  Speaker 2: right now. Right now is a good time to start.
• 25:14
  Speaker 2: If you want to make a change and do something different,
• 25:16
  Speaker 2: right now, right now, it is a good time to start.
• 25:18
  Speaker 2: Don't wait for Monday, don't wait till January one, Start
• 25:23
  Speaker 2: right now, yes, yes, so.
• 25:31
  Speaker 1: Let's do it.
• 25:33
  Speaker 2: Any final words before we wrap this up, make a
• 25:37
  Speaker 2: magical week.
• 25:40
  Speaker 3: And start start now, right now, this minute.
• 25:45
  Speaker 1: Let's start your week. This right now is the start
• 25:48
  Speaker 1: of your week.
• 25:49
  Speaker 3: So make it magical, starting your life.
• 25:55
  Speaker 2: Thank you friends for hanging out with us. Tea time
• 25:57
  Speaker 2: with Amy and Bev. We're found on Mani platforms are
• 26:00
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• 26:08
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• 26:11
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• 26:13
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• 26:17
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• 26:19
  Speaker 2: your journey. Please share that information with other people. I
• 26:22
  Speaker 2: send out podcast links all the time, books, speakers, influencers.
• 26:30
  Speaker 2: I share stuff like that on a regular basis, so
• 26:34
  Speaker 2: you definitely know somebody who could use that information as well.
• 26:38
  Speaker 2: So with that, thank you. We appreciate your time and energy.
• 26:41
  Speaker 2: Thanks for hanging out with us, tea time with Amy
• 26:44
  Speaker 2: and Bev, and we will see you next time. Hi,