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The One About Jumping On The Sober Train · Untraditionally Lala

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  Speaker 1: Hello, gorgeous as Lala Kent, Welcome back to Get them
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  Speaker 1: All a podcast. We are here ready to bump gums
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  Speaker 1: evergreen style, because Mama is ready to give hearts and
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  Speaker 1: I may that's coming, Baby is coming. So today's episode
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  Speaker 1: is going to be about sobriety because we had an
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  Speaker 1: overwhelming amount of people right in with their sobriety stories
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  Speaker 1: and their journeys experiences to the bonus episode that we
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  Speaker 1: did on sobriety, So I just felt the need to
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  Speaker 1: talk about it again. And me and my pregnancy brain
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  Speaker 1: put this shirt on that is so comfortable and is
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  Speaker 1: covered in.
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  Speaker 2: Alcoholic Shout out Kent, whose shirt is that?
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  Speaker 1: But it is my dad's shirt, and it reminds me
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  Speaker 1: of him and in honor of him, because I got
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  Speaker 1: sober six months to the day after my dad's passing.
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  Speaker 1: So let's try to ignore the alcoholic beverages and focus
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  Speaker 1: more on the.
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  Speaker 3: Fact that you've said it before. You're you're good. You're
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  Speaker 3: the first person to pour somebody else to drink.
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  Speaker 2: Enorm me.
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  Speaker 1: If there have been people around me where I'm sensing,
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  Speaker 1: I'm not. I'm not diagnosing, because alcoholism is a self diagnosed.
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  Speaker 2: Diagnosed disease.
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  Speaker 1: But there are moments where I'm like, I'm sensing that
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  Speaker 1: this could be a problem. So I'm not going to
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  Speaker 1: promote drinking with this person. I will offer them all
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  Speaker 1: of the sparkling.
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  Speaker 2: Beverages alcohol free, right. Yeah.
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  Speaker 1: But people who are like super normal and they just
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  Speaker 1: want to get lit because they are celebrating something, Oh honey.
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  Speaker 4: You'll pour? Do you overpour? Sometimes? Like do you have
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  Speaker 4: the people?
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  Speaker 2: Do you?
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  Speaker 3: I remember the last time that drink when I don't drink,
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  Speaker 3: since I haven't been drinking. When I'm with people that
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  Speaker 3: do drink, I'm the first person to be like, hey,
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  Speaker 3: let me pour that for you.
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  Speaker 4: Really?
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  Speaker 5: Hell yeah, because like the pouring of it is kind
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  Speaker 5: of like it's kind of like.
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  Speaker 6: Taking it, you know, like like you're like it's like
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  Speaker 6: you get the placebo effect of like you pour the
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  Speaker 6: shot totally see you take it, You're like, we're fucked.
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  Speaker 5: So yeah, I love I love pouring the drinks.
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  Speaker 3: I may not be the best one to be pouring
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  Speaker 3: them for everybody, right, getting.
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  Speaker 2: Everybody turned, But not everyone is like that.
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  Speaker 1: I have many friends in sobriety who they can't go
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  Speaker 1: out to bars, they can't be around drinking because it
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  Speaker 1: triggers them. So again, I always say that, uh sobriety
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  Speaker 1: is not one size fits all. Everybody's journey and experience
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  Speaker 1: is going to be different. Everybody works the program differently
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  Speaker 1: if you are in the program, which is why it
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  Speaker 1: kind of takes a minute to find your sponsor, you know,
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  Speaker 1: because it's like we're all working the program, but there's
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  Speaker 1: not a play by play on how it's not math.
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  Speaker 2: Two plus two is not always four.
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  Speaker 1: So you and I may be able to pour people drinks,
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  Speaker 1: but not everybody is able to do that.
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  Speaker 4: So you don't drink?
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  Speaker 7: Or is it just like, are you like sober from
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  Speaker 7: alcohol or are you like I'll do it sometimes.
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  Speaker 5: I'm liquor free. Okay, I'm thinking and.
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  Speaker 2: Dude, alcohol free.
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  Speaker 5: Yeah, liquor liquor free.
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  Speaker 4: So you still drink beer?
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  Speaker 1: No?
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  Speaker 5: He doesn't, Yeah, just liquor free. Do you drink beer? No?
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  Speaker 5: Isn't liquor is.
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  Speaker 2: Vodka to ke? Yeah? Hard alcohol is liquor.
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  Speaker 5: And then beer is not like I thought liquor was
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  Speaker 5: in beer.
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  Speaker 2: You should never be able to drink because you don't
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  Speaker 2: even know what it is.
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  Speaker 7: I don't like beer and wine And people say liquor
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  Speaker 7: free they're like, oh, I'll.
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  Speaker 4: Drink beer and wine.
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  Speaker 3: So when Landing was doing his cooking video, he was like,
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  Speaker 3: do you want to help me do this? I was
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  Speaker 3: like no, do you want me to open your high noon?
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  Speaker 3: And he was like yes, And I said, I got
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  Speaker 3: you on that one, so I can do that because
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  Speaker 3: there it is. It's like the placebo effect of me
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  Speaker 3: just like handing it to him.
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  Speaker 5: Yeah, but you already don't drink.
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  Speaker 2: You're dry.
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  Speaker 5: I am dry.
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  Speaker 3: I am all liquor, beer, wines and spilcohol free. Alcohol free,
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  Speaker 3: but I am, and so is Lisa.
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  Speaker 8: Yeah.
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  Speaker 3: Alcohol free marijuana is marijuana, non free marijuana.
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  Speaker 5: Over doing that now.
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  Speaker 4: Enthusiast that I could be happier.
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  Speaker 2: I don't feel like you overdo the weed.
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  Speaker 4: I don't feel like you do either. Actually I wouldn't know.
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  Speaker 5: I guess here's the thing.
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  Speaker 3: Even if I smoke, I know I have to do something.
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  Speaker 3: So it's like my relationship with weed is good. I'm smoking,
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  Speaker 3: but I know I have to get something done. Most
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  Speaker 3: people will smoke and then do nothing, right, So the
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  Speaker 3: relationship I.
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  Speaker 5: Have with marijuana is a good one.
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  Speaker 3: It's like I smoke and now I'm productive, and there's
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  Speaker 3: I don't know why.
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  Speaker 5: Yeah, I get in that month.
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  Speaker 4: Do you only smoke a certain time of day?
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  Speaker 7: Because I remember an ex boyfriend of mine years and
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  Speaker 7: years ago had to start smoking only at night.
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  Speaker 2: No to go to bed.
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  Speaker 5: No, he just he it was like a reward for him, Yes.
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  Speaker 4: A productive day.
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  Speaker 7: And he started realizing like he thought he was productive
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  Speaker 7: when he smoked, but he wasn't. Actually it would just
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  Speaker 7: be a lot of thoughts and ideas. But he's like,
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  Speaker 7: I'm not actually getting stuff done.
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  Speaker 4: So he would smoke at.
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  Speaker 7: Night and it was like a reward. Yeah, like before
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  Speaker 7: bed and stuff. Yeah, do you do that or are
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  Speaker 7: you like you can do it whenever?
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  Speaker 3: No, I smoke, and then I say I need to
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  Speaker 3: do something because I smoke.
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  Speaker 4: That's really good.
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  Speaker 1: So that's my re I feel like you smoke like
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  Speaker 1: the pen And then when it's nighttime and it's like
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  Speaker 1: dusk dusk.
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  Speaker 2: He and land and go out and spark the doobies.
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  Speaker 7: Really, yeah, do you and watch a movie when I smoke?
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  Speaker 7: Those are my favorite. I love a joint or blunt
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  Speaker 7: hits a little hard, but a joint is so like nice,
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  Speaker 7: not like a face or a spliff.
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  Speaker 4: Really, yeah, that's what he said really, Oh yeah, I
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  Speaker 4: always loved the feeling of like rolling this, this.
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  Speaker 7: Is a sobriety I and I'm like, I love.
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  Speaker 4: A good margarita too.
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  Speaker 1: Don't worry, No, don't worry about it. I mean we're
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  Speaker 1: a well rounded podcast.
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  Speaker 7: Okay, I have a question for you, La, do you
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  Speaker 7: because I find it interesting you wrote about your sobriety,
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  Speaker 7: like why you Got Sober in your book.
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  Speaker 4: I do feel like you talk about it a lot
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  Speaker 4: and mention it a lot.
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  Speaker 7: However, it's always the number one people or thing when
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  Speaker 7: we ask whether or not on Amazon Live or whether
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  Speaker 7: or not on in the stories Instagram, what do you
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  Speaker 7: want us to talk about? They're like, Lala, we want
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  Speaker 7: to hear Lala's sobriety journey. Do you Does that get
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  Speaker 7: you frustrated because you're like, I literally talk about it
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  Speaker 7: all the time.
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  Speaker 4: I've told it many times.
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  Speaker 7: Or are you like, okay, yeah, I'll tell it again,
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  Speaker 7: Like how do you feel when that happens?
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  Speaker 2: No?
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  Speaker 1: I feel because there's as I stay in this game
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  Speaker 1: longer and longer, more people find out who I am,
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  Speaker 1: or more people start watching the show or come in
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  Speaker 1: contact with my Instagram, so there's always new people who
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  Speaker 1: maybe haven't heard it, don't know that I have a book.
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  Speaker 1: It's similar to like, it's not about the pasta. We've
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  Speaker 1: explained this that five hundred times, that happened years ago,
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  Speaker 1: and I'm still having to talk about it. Right, sobriety
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  Speaker 1: is not something that I'll ever get sick of because
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  Speaker 1: you're always gonna have people who also are familiar with you,
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  Speaker 1: sobriety doesn't necessarily affect them right now, or they're not
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  Speaker 1: into it, and then all of a sudden they want
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  Speaker 1: to get sober and they're looking for your story because
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  Speaker 1: they heard that I'm sober right.
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  Speaker 2: So, No, I don't get sick of it the posta question.
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  Speaker 2: I get sick of the positive question when I'm done.
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  Speaker 7: We did, Yes, do you mind us asking a couple
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  Speaker 7: questions on your sobriety before we get into other stories
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  Speaker 7: or would you rather get straight into other stories?
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  Speaker 2: No, I'm let's ask questions.
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  Speaker 7: I know one of the most asked questions, and we've
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  Speaker 7: touched on it, but they all always will be like,
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  Speaker 7: what was Lalla's rock bottom moment? Was there a moment
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  Speaker 7: where you're like, that's it, I'm done, I'm sober.
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  Speaker 4: You did have it? In your book. I remember reading
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  Speaker 4: about it.
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  Speaker 7: Yeah, did you feel like the plane and the coloring
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  Speaker 7: on the face like that was the next morning you
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  Speaker 7: were like, that's.
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  Speaker 3: It because also there's a story that you told me,
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  Speaker 3: and I don't know if it was in that same
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  Speaker 3: rock bottom moment, but you were in Vegas. Yeah, at
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  Speaker 3: dinner and you tripped upstairs. No, that was the same trip,
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  Speaker 3: same trip that was in Florida. Yeah, okay, Disney World
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  Speaker 3: there it is.
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  Speaker 1: No, there were there were many moments that I would
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  Speaker 1: say to myself that I needed to reel it in over,
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  Speaker 1: you know, the course of a few years before I
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  Speaker 1: got sober in twenty eighteen, where it was like I'm
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  Speaker 1: not going to get drunk tonight, and then I would
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  Speaker 1: end up drunk again, and then it was like I'm
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  Speaker 1: only going to drink beer and wine. And keep in
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  Speaker 1: mind in the Big Book they talk about this, it's
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  Speaker 1: like literally what I experienced. You try to limit your right.
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  Speaker 1: So I was like only beer and wine. And then
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  Speaker 1: it was like I can have a cocktail, but let's
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  Speaker 1: only have two. And then the cocktails turned into like
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  Speaker 1: in big glasses that really equaled maybe six, right, And
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  Speaker 1: then I did AA for a while where I was
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  Speaker 1: still smoking weed, and then I felt like I was
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  Speaker 1: making a mockery of the program.
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  Speaker 2: Finally I had just given up. I was like, I
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  Speaker 2: like to drink, and everyone's gonna have to just get
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  Speaker 2: over it.
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  Speaker 3: Right.
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  Speaker 1: So I would say that my rock bottom moment did
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  Speaker 1: happen six months after my dad died, because that's when
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  Speaker 1: I really leaned into drinking.
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  Speaker 2: Drinking for me used to just.
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  Speaker 1: Be fun and like we'd go out on the weekends
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  Speaker 1: and it would make me loose back in Utide, go
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  Speaker 1: out maybe twice a month, you know, and I get
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  Speaker 1: a little lit. But it wasn't It wasn't an everyday thing.
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  Speaker 1: Once I moved to LA and then once I met
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  Speaker 1: my ex, it was really bad, okay, And I don't
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  Speaker 1: want to place blame on that situation. I'm just using
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  Speaker 1: that as the time marker of when it got bad.
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  Speaker 5: He made it easy.
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  Speaker 3: Your life was easy for you to drink every day,
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  Speaker 3: the responsibilities lowered. I feel like when you met him,
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  Speaker 3: it's not like he made you drink or things like that.
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  Speaker 3: Your life became easy. You were on a TV show,
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  Speaker 3: Things were taken care of. Your life became easier to
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  Speaker 3: just have fun, on Tuesday Wednesday.
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  Speaker 5: That's how I I.
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  Speaker 2: Just feel like in La, there's something happening all the time.
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  Speaker 5: It's crazy that Friday and Saturday is a slow night
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  Speaker 5: in La. Yeah, you know, it's like it's crazy.
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  Speaker 1: We were like Tuesday through Thursday was when we were
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  Speaker 1: like having the best time ever. And then Friday and
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  Speaker 1: Saturday is when I'd go into sir because my friends
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  Speaker 1: had to work, so like i'd drink, but those weren't
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  Speaker 1: the party nights.
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  Speaker 2: Tuesday through Thursday, it was like, let's fucking go.
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  Speaker 7: You're also, you know, not like it's the elephant in
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  Speaker 7: the room, but you're filming a TV show. I don't
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  Speaker 7: think I could film a reality TV show which thrives
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  Speaker 7: off of drama, thrives off of interactions that are a
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  Speaker 7: little more wild, and not drink because I'd be like,
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  Speaker 7: I'm doing my job. I'm gonna make a TV I'm
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  Speaker 7: gonna get loose lit say some shit. I might not
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  Speaker 7: I might filter myself because cameras are around.
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  Speaker 3: So that probably back to the point of your friend
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  Speaker 3: who moved who had to have drinks to make friends.
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  Speaker 3: It's like how you've felt the need to drink to
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  Speaker 3: make TV. Yeah, fall into that hole.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah, of course, and everyone else is drinking and you
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  Speaker 1: are absolutely terrified being in this new environment.
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  Speaker 2: And then it became my norm.
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  Speaker 1: It was like I would be on movie sets and
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  Speaker 1: be drinking before scenes.
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  Speaker 2: You know.
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  Speaker 1: It was like we were full blown, like off to
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  Speaker 1: the races of alcoholism.
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  Speaker 2: Right. So when I went on.
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  Speaker 1: At that trip to Mexico season seven, and I hadn't
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  Speaker 1: been drinking, but then I started sneaking drinks in the
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  Speaker 1: middle of the season, got wasted in Mexico. After that trip,
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  Speaker 1: I came home and was like, I'm never picking up
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  Speaker 1: alcohol again. At Jackson Brittany's engagement party, you see me
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  Speaker 1: talking to Stossy saying it doesn't mix. I'm gonna be sober.
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  Speaker 1: It did not last, okay. I was still spiraling, And
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  Speaker 1: then it got to the point where I just caved
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  Speaker 1: into the fact that I liked to drink and at
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  Speaker 1: some point it would go away. Mm, Like literally, I
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  Speaker 1: didn't give a fuck. I was like, I'm not ever
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  Speaker 1: gonna question this again. Like, one day I'll get pregnant
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  Speaker 1: and be a mom and that's when I'll stop drinking,
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  Speaker 1: because who would drink pregnant? Well, you'd be surprised. Addiction
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  Speaker 1: is a wild thing, right, So I'm in that zone.
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  Speaker 1: My ex says, I want us to go meet with
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  Speaker 1: a psychiatrist. You know, he's sensing that I need to
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  Speaker 1: talk to somebody. I meet with this woman. As I'm
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  Speaker 1: talking to her, she dismisses my ex and says, like,
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  Speaker 1: I would like to talk to Lalla by herself. We
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  Speaker 1: venture into my drinking habits. She tells me to take
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  Speaker 1: this number down, and I felt like she was pushing
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  Speaker 1: me to get help. So as I'm writing it down,
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  Speaker 1: I was like, are you giving this to me because
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  Speaker 1: you're asking me to be sober, because.
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  Speaker 2: That's not fucking happening.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah, I'll get sober when I get pregnant, bitch, not
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  Speaker 1: a few good years, right, And she was like, I'm
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  Speaker 1: not asking you to do anything. I'm asking you to
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  Speaker 1: put this number in your phone. If you use it, great,
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  Speaker 1: if you don't, great. We go to Florida on the
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  Speaker 1: family vacation to Disney Worlds. I am beyond wasted and
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  Speaker 1: not like the fun, like let's get a little buzzed,
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  Speaker 1: you know how. You see like parents that are with
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  Speaker 1: the kids and they're like, there's no driving involved because
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  Speaker 1: you're literally staying on the park and it's like, oh,
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  Speaker 1: that's fun. That person like works really hard, Like I'm
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  Speaker 1: just going to take a load off. My kids are
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  Speaker 1: gonna ride rides. Yes, it was not like that.
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  Speaker 5: I will say it was fun during the mornings.
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  Speaker 4: You were there.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah, everyone was there. Yeah, my exes, whole family, my
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  Speaker 1: whole family. Okay, Brannan and Cheryl. Did anyone else drink
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  Speaker 1: with you or was it a weird like.
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  Speaker 2: I mean, I think no one was keeping up with me,
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  Speaker 2: that's for sure.
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  Speaker 3: But that's the thing is like she was funduring the
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  Speaker 3: morning and the afternoon, but that's where you would hit
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  Speaker 3: that one point of you over drink and then.
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  Speaker 5: Afternoons and dinners became nightmares, me.
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  Speaker 2: Falling down the stairs, I mean, mabing someone to walk
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  Speaker 2: me to.
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  Speaker 3: The bathroom, like the fun that we would have in
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  Speaker 3: the morning because you just had started right and then
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  Speaker 3: the other drinking.
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  Speaker 1: Is just talking about this is taking me to such
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  Speaker 1: a dark place that I'm having to remind myself like
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  Speaker 1: we don't live in that.
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  Speaker 2: No, exactly.
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  Speaker 4: And I also want to get to year one.
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  Speaker 7: When you hit your one and half, you felt like
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  Speaker 7: I want to get to that but I know a
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  Speaker 7: lot of people ask about rock bottom and we can.
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  Speaker 2: We can see.
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  Speaker 1: But this is why I tell people, I think it's
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  Speaker 1: important to talk about your rock bottom moment and in
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  Speaker 1: some way relive it, because it does take you back
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  Speaker 1: to a place where you're like, well, I'm never going
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  Speaker 1: there again, Like I don't want to go there. This
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  Speaker 1: is why we go to meetings because it's a constant
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  Speaker 1: I don't want to say rehashing, but it takes you
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  Speaker 1: to where you can remember your lowest place. And then
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  Speaker 1: when the speaker is sharing, they're taking you to their
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  Speaker 1: lowest place and you're relating, and then all of this
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  Speaker 1: sudden the moment that they get sober and the whole
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  Speaker 1: room feels like they're not suffocating anymore, and you feel
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  Speaker 1: inspired and you go out and you're back to loving sobriety.
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  Speaker 2: Yeah.
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  Speaker 1: So we go through Disneyland, me being wasted the entire time.
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  Speaker 1: We're leaving to go back to la We chartered a jet.
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  Speaker 1: We easton, got a bottle of Hennessy in the gift
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  Speaker 1: shop and I was fixated on where it was at
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  Speaker 1: all times.
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  Speaker 2: I got two roadies to take.
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  Speaker 3: The one thing that I will say, I was like yeah,
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  Speaker 3: I want to get some Hennessy for the plane.
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  Speaker 2: Yeah, I d.
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  Speaker 5: I poured one little drink.
• 16:09
  Speaker 3: Of cocaine Hennessy and I'm just sipping it, chatting.
• 16:12
  Speaker 2: I drink the whole thing was gone. And then.
• 16:18
  Speaker 4: Were you concerned or were you like no, you know, everyone.
• 16:21
  Speaker 2: Was concerned after this trip.
• 16:22
  Speaker 5: After this trip, I was concerned.
• 16:24
  Speaker 2: But remember my family didn't live in l A.
• 16:27
  Speaker 5: Like, I had never seen her like this.
• 16:30
  Speaker 1: I think there would have been an intervention. Okay, there
• 16:33
  Speaker 1: were moments that my mom would talk to Easton. I
• 16:38
  Speaker 1: did at moments drink and drive and that's.
• 16:42
  Speaker 5: Where and that's where I almost got it.
• 16:45
  Speaker 3: But that's where my mother would fly out when she
• 16:49
  Speaker 3: would call us and we could tell she was drunk,
• 16:53
  Speaker 3: and she was like, I'm getting away from x Y
• 16:57
  Speaker 3: and Z, whether that be the person she was with
• 17:00
  Speaker 3: or the eggs like the fight, but it wasn't always
• 17:04
  Speaker 3: it was x Y and Z. Whatever the story was.
• 17:06
  Speaker 3: She was trying to get away, but we knew she
• 17:08
  Speaker 3: was drunk, but she was driving. And those are the
• 17:13
  Speaker 3: times where my mother was like, yeah, like I'm flying out.
• 17:18
  Speaker 3: So that's why she would go out and things like
• 17:20
  Speaker 3: that is because of those reasons of that, but that's
• 17:24
  Speaker 3: when we were scared, We were nervous.
• 17:26
  Speaker 2: Yeah, I was reckless. My life had become unmanageable.
• 17:30
  Speaker 1: And on that plane ride when I was drinking, it
• 17:35
  Speaker 1: was I was letting the kids because they were getting antsy.
• 17:37
  Speaker 1: I was letting them draw with markers on my legs,
• 17:40
  Speaker 1: letting them put makeup on my face. And then you know,
• 17:43
  Speaker 1: we get home and funds over were back to reality
• 17:47
  Speaker 1: and I couldn't get any drunker, and it was I
• 17:51
  Speaker 1: was depressed.
• 17:52
  Speaker 2: I had hit that you know, where you want.
• 17:55
  Speaker 1: To drive your car off of a cliff because you're
• 17:58
  Speaker 1: just in such a dark place, which is what alcohol
• 18:01
  Speaker 1: does to a lot of people. And that's why I
• 18:04
  Speaker 1: would continue to drink the next day because I didn't
• 18:07
  Speaker 1: want to deal with that level of depression, right, So
• 18:10
  Speaker 1: the cycle just continued. But I remember waking up the
• 18:13
  Speaker 1: next morning. Easton was gone, my mom was gone, his
• 18:18
  Speaker 1: girlfriend that he brought out was gone, and I was
• 18:21
  Speaker 1: I had scrubbed my legs the night before because I
• 18:24
  Speaker 1: didn't want to remember the darkness. But it didn't matter
• 18:29
  Speaker 1: if I did that or not, because all of the
• 18:31
  Speaker 1: marker was gone off my legs. But I woke up
• 18:35
  Speaker 1: still and said, like admitted to myself, you're an alcoholic.
• 18:39
  Speaker 1: You're calling the number that the woman gave you. I
• 18:43
  Speaker 1: called my partner at the time and said, I need
• 18:46
  Speaker 1: to talk to you at your office.
• 18:48
  Speaker 2: Went to his office.
• 18:49
  Speaker 1: I told him I'm an alcoholic and I'm reaching out
• 18:52
  Speaker 1: today to get help. I had a meeting that day
• 18:54
  Speaker 1: about something, and it was just like a very freeing
• 18:58
  Speaker 1: moment in my life.
• 19:00
  Speaker 2: For the first time. The elephant had like lifted off
• 19:03
  Speaker 2: of my chest when I first entered the AA meetings,
• 19:13
  Speaker 2: because you know, I was going and meeting with my
• 19:14
  Speaker 2: sober coach. She was like a caseworker, Ashley.
• 19:19
  Speaker 1: She would call me every day and I would meet
• 19:22
  Speaker 1: with her every Thursday, and she was trying to link
• 19:24
  Speaker 1: me up with She knew I was in a delicate
• 19:26
  Speaker 1: position right I was also on a television show. She
• 19:29
  Speaker 1: just wanted to handle it with care of I wasn't
• 19:32
  Speaker 1: Kim Kardashian getting sober, but she just wanted to make
• 19:34
  Speaker 1: sure I was protected.
• 19:36
  Speaker 2: And so we found my sponsor. I started going to meetings.
• 19:40
  Speaker 1: I did the whole thing, and for the first thirty
• 19:45
  Speaker 1: days I went to this meeting and I had so
• 19:49
  Speaker 1: much guilt because listening to Sorry, I gotta breathe, no breathe.
• 19:55
  Speaker 5: Take a couple of them.
• 19:57
  Speaker 1: Listening to the stories that people were it was like
• 20:03
  Speaker 1: so many of them got into cars drunk and something
• 20:06
  Speaker 1: horrible happened. And then here I am getting into cars drunk,
• 20:13
  Speaker 1: acting fucking reckless for years on end and just nothing happened.
• 20:19
  Speaker 1: Like what made me so special that my rock bottom
• 20:25
  Speaker 1: was thirty five thousand feet in the air on a
• 20:27
  Speaker 1: private jet. Yeah, but this person had to have his
• 20:32
  Speaker 1: whole life change, you know, you struggle with the guilt
• 20:35
  Speaker 1: of I just don't understand that, like why does life
• 20:38
  Speaker 1: work that way?
• 20:39
  Speaker 2: Like someone make it make sense.
• 20:42
  Speaker 1: But then after I got through thirty days, this woman
• 20:45
  Speaker 1: came up to me and she was like, you have
• 20:47
  Speaker 1: like a bright light to you now, like you came
• 20:50
  Speaker 1: in so defeated, and I hope me telling you this
• 20:53
  Speaker 1: makes you come back over and over and over again,
• 20:56
  Speaker 1: because some people fall off after thirty days.
• 20:57
  Speaker 2: That's the hardest point to reach.
• 21:00
  Speaker 4: Is it every day just so I know?
• 21:02
  Speaker 7: Or is it just like thirty days, like maybe a
• 21:04
  Speaker 7: couple days here, a couple of days there.
• 21:05
  Speaker 1: Like meetings, Yes, No, I did ninety meetings in ninety days.
• 21:11
  Speaker 7: Wowulation amazing whatever.
• 21:15
  Speaker 2: I walked in and I was like, show me the way.
• 21:18
  Speaker 1: There's no version of me. Tell me what to do,
• 21:21
  Speaker 1: what to do, I'll eat dog shit. That'll get me
• 21:24
  Speaker 1: fucking sober. Like, I don't care.
• 21:26
  Speaker 2: I want what you have. What do I do?
• 21:28
  Speaker 7: Okay, So we go back you did after the thirty days?
• 21:31
  Speaker 7: She said, there's a bright light now. Is that the
• 21:33
  Speaker 7: pink cloud you were talking about or no?
• 21:35
  Speaker 2: I think she just saw it in my eyes.
• 21:37
  Speaker 1: There was clarity, you know, like I look back on
• 21:40
  Speaker 1: pictures like I'm like, you.
• 21:44
  Speaker 2: Look like shit.
• 21:46
  Speaker 1: How did you possibly walk out into the world and
• 21:48
  Speaker 1: feel confident? Your eyes are bloodshot, your puffy is shit,
• 21:53
  Speaker 1: your your coloring is off. You look not good, bitch,
• 21:58
  Speaker 1: and you're going out into the world thinking that you're
• 22:00
  Speaker 1: hitting right.
• 22:01
  Speaker 2: That's what alcohol does see you.
• 22:04
  Speaker 5: Yeah, you know, you guys don't have your summer bots.
• 22:07
  Speaker 4: You body shame people the false confidence.
• 22:10
  Speaker 1: Right now, I can go out and have confrontation with people,
• 22:15
  Speaker 1: but at least I can own it and be like, yeah,
• 22:17
  Speaker 1: well there was not a proud moment. But I have
• 22:19
  Speaker 1: no one to blame but myself. I was you know,
• 22:21
  Speaker 1: I can't blame it on alcohol. I remember everything that happened,
• 22:25
  Speaker 1: and although that sounds like a shitty thing, we're like,
• 22:27
  Speaker 1: I can't blame something, right, it actually feels very good.
• 22:31
  Speaker 4: I was gonna say it probably feels freeing.
• 22:33
  Speaker 7: Yeah, yeah, because to me, it's like embarrassing when I
• 22:37
  Speaker 7: have to blame alcohol.
• 22:38
  Speaker 4: I feel like, ugh, how gross? How grow up? I
• 22:43
  Speaker 4: was drunk. Okay, you're thirty two, get.
• 22:46
  Speaker 2: It together, get it.
• 22:48
  Speaker 1: It's not cute in high school where like you leave
• 22:50
  Speaker 1: your friends at the high school party like the rivalry
• 22:53
  Speaker 1: team's house or whatever.
• 22:55
  Speaker 2: You're like, I was just wasted, Sierra, Sierra, so drunk.
• 23:00
  Speaker 2: You know, it's like not cute.
• 23:02
  Speaker 7: Yes, okay, so happy now because you get to a year,
• 23:07
  Speaker 7: You get to a year of sobriety are you? And
• 23:10
  Speaker 7: there might have been a moment before a year, who
• 23:12
  Speaker 7: knows six months where you're like, holy shit, I can't
• 23:14
  Speaker 7: believe I made it.
• 23:15
  Speaker 4: Do you get to a year.
• 23:16
  Speaker 7: And you're like easy, breezy, like it's not even a
• 23:18
  Speaker 7: big deal. How are you feeling when you get to
• 23:20
  Speaker 7: a year, your year anniversary?
• 23:22
  Speaker 1: You know, it was weird because I remember just randomly
• 23:25
  Speaker 1: getting on Instagram on my five month sobriety and treating
• 23:28
  Speaker 1: it like it was no big deal.
• 23:30
  Speaker 2: Like, by the way, I'm.
• 23:31
  Speaker 1: A friend of Bill W's now and then like the
• 23:34
  Speaker 1: internet blew up was like La La Kent has a
• 23:37
  Speaker 1: drinking problem and has been sober for five months, which
• 23:40
  Speaker 1: is such a random number, right, And I was like, oh,
• 23:43
  Speaker 1: this is like a kind of a big deal, right
• 23:45
  Speaker 1: to be like someone who admits to having a drinking
• 23:48
  Speaker 1: problem and now you're sober.
• 23:51
  Speaker 2: So when I hit a year, it was fucking wild.
• 23:55
  Speaker 1: When they gave me my one year chip, I was like,
• 23:58
  Speaker 1: this is the greatest prize of my life.
• 24:02
  Speaker 5: Every year. She's yes, wait for that second third. It's
• 24:06
  Speaker 5: like the Lord of the Rings.
• 24:07
  Speaker 1: You wanted Easton and my mom got me the diamond
• 24:10
  Speaker 1: five for my five year. I still haven't gotten my
• 24:13
  Speaker 1: five year chip.
• 24:14
  Speaker 5: You have to go get that. I finally Jewelers for
• 24:18
  Speaker 5: the five.
• 24:18
  Speaker 1: Yeah, it's the only thing I have that represents my
• 24:21
  Speaker 1: five years.
• 24:24
  Speaker 5: We love I see it a lot.
• 24:27
  Speaker 4: You have to go get it in person. They won't
• 24:29
  Speaker 4: mail it to you or anything.
• 24:30
  Speaker 2: No, it's just it's special to get it in person.
• 24:32
  Speaker 2: But now I'm you know, we're just.
• 24:37
  Speaker 5: This year.
• 24:39
  Speaker 1: But that's when my sponsor told me that she not
• 24:43
  Speaker 1: my sponsor, my sober coach. I'm sorry because I was
• 24:45
  Speaker 1: still seeing her along with my sponsor in AA meetings,
• 24:48
  Speaker 1: but she told.
• 24:49
  Speaker 2: Me you're my little unicorn.
• 24:52
  Speaker 1: Why because she said it's a rare thing to have
• 24:56
  Speaker 1: someone come in and want it so badly and not
• 25:01
  Speaker 1: ever in the course of a year talk about wanting
• 25:06
  Speaker 1: to drink less.
• 25:07
  Speaker 2: Work through that because I didn't. You didn't.
• 25:10
  Speaker 4: No, you were not tempted you.
• 25:12
  Speaker 5: Nope, it of your rock bottom.
• 25:14
  Speaker 3: You thought of that often, because I really I think
• 25:17
  Speaker 3: you thinking or anybody thinking of where they were at
• 25:20
  Speaker 3: rock bottom is a very good thing to think about.
• 25:22
  Speaker 5: I know you hated talking.
• 25:24
  Speaker 3: About it and thinking about it, but what did that
• 25:27
  Speaker 3: do just for you to not drink for the next
• 25:28
  Speaker 3: three months?
• 25:29
  Speaker 4: Yeah? Is that what it was?
• 25:30
  Speaker 3: I sitting your rock bottom puts you in a place
• 25:34
  Speaker 3: again of I don't even care to talk about it
• 25:36
  Speaker 3: because I just revisited.
• 25:37
  Speaker 4: Or was it people counting on you?
• 25:39
  Speaker 7: I remember seeing a clip Was it because you actually
• 25:41
  Speaker 7: made a public statement? I remember seeing a clip on
• 25:43
  Speaker 7: like watch What Happens Live or something, and You're like,
• 25:45
  Speaker 7: I'm never drinking again. Was it that that you're like, well,
• 25:48
  Speaker 7: I can't, like, what was it you think that?
• 25:50
  Speaker 1: I just think for the first time, I was like
• 25:52
  Speaker 1: so happy and clear, and I liked the way that
• 25:56
  Speaker 1: I looked. I liked the way that I felt. It
• 26:00
  Speaker 1: just was a good I never had to worry about,
• 26:05
  Speaker 1: like getting in my car, like I'm always gonna get
• 26:07
  Speaker 1: in my car sober, and if something bad happens, God forbid.
• 26:12
  Speaker 2: At least I wasn't.
• 26:13
  Speaker 5: Fucked up, you know, But I do feelings.
• 26:17
  Speaker 1: Like that made me just want to keep staying sober,
• 26:20
  Speaker 1: and that feeling has not ended since the day I
• 26:23
  Speaker 1: got sober.
• 26:24
  Speaker 5: Yeah, And for me, I.
• 26:26
  Speaker 3: Do, I have a feeling And maybe it's subconscious on
• 26:29
  Speaker 3: you of I think the jet and having all of
• 26:32
  Speaker 3: them writing on you and all of that. You revisiting
• 26:35
  Speaker 3: that moment is what will keep you sober throughout. I
• 26:38
  Speaker 3: think so too, Even though you don't want to revisit it,
• 26:41
  Speaker 3: revisiting it is the thing that will give you longevity
• 26:44
  Speaker 3: and what you're doing, I think so too. And to everybody, like,
• 26:49
  Speaker 3: that's the other thing that I'm trying to say, like
• 26:51
  Speaker 3: for you, for everybody, if you have to revisit that
• 26:53
  Speaker 3: thing and get disgusted, however, you have to do it
• 26:56
  Speaker 3: with friends, family, however you do it, revisiting it for
• 27:00
  Speaker 3: me because you've brought up those points so many times.
• 27:03
  Speaker 3: I feel like that is what has kept you sober
• 27:06
  Speaker 3: as well and not even wanting a drink, right, And
• 27:09
  Speaker 3: that's just coming from me.
• 27:11
  Speaker 7: Yeah, and what like a simple statement, but like that's
• 27:15
  Speaker 7: probably so freeing that you said, like I could get
• 27:17
  Speaker 7: in my car anytime I want. That's like, oh yeah,
• 27:20
  Speaker 7: people like you could get in your car anytime you
• 27:22
  Speaker 7: want and know you're not going to be fucked up.
• 27:24
  Speaker 7: That is so simple but so powerful. That's like you're
• 27:26
  Speaker 7: not trapped anywhere. You literally can leave any time you need,
• 27:31
  Speaker 7: which probably.
• 27:33
  Speaker 1: Yeah, well, and I don't ever want because I was
• 27:36
  Speaker 1: on a pretty high dose of anti anxiety and antidepressants.
• 27:42
  Speaker 1: And I don't say to people like, once you get sober,
• 27:46
  Speaker 1: you don't need meds anymore.
• 27:47
  Speaker 2: That's not what I'm saying.
• 27:48
  Speaker 1: Like, I'm not a doctor, listen to your doctor for
• 27:51
  Speaker 1: me personally, After I got sober, I no longer needed
• 27:56
  Speaker 1: medication for my anxiety or depression and have not been
• 27:59
  Speaker 1: on medication and since I got sober.
• 28:01
  Speaker 5: Wow, But that's where I can battle you.
• 28:04
  Speaker 4: Oh yeah, about But that's why I say.
• 28:07
  Speaker 1: That's why I say, don't listen to me, because this
• 28:09
  Speaker 1: is just my own person.
• 28:11
  Speaker 5: Just as much as the next person. I promise.
• 28:13
  Speaker 2: Okay, that's meaning let me back. You're not a sober person.
• 28:18
  Speaker 3: I smoke weed. You're right, so you're right. Maybe the
• 28:21
  Speaker 3: weed would kick it.
• 28:22
  Speaker 5: I don't know, and I don't know where you could
• 28:24
  Speaker 5: battle me.
• 28:26
  Speaker 1: I'm fully sober.
• 28:30
  Speaker 3: But also the only other thing is you've been in
• 28:33
  Speaker 3: this world for like a decade of.
• 28:37
  Speaker 5: Just getting.
• 28:40
  Speaker 1: They all say that the comments section won't affect that until.
• 28:44
  Speaker 3: Until you're in that thing, and you're like, you know what,
• 28:47
  Speaker 3: I'm a little just stay home for a couple of years.
• 28:51
  Speaker 5: But no, you're right. You're right.
• 28:53
  Speaker 2: I'm not sober, so I can't not change anything.
• 28:55
  Speaker 5: It may not, but i'm not.
• 28:57
  Speaker 7: But we all have different it's all relative. We all
• 28:59
  Speaker 7: have different brains, chemicality, your doctor.
• 29:02
  Speaker 1: Yeah, I don't listen to me. I'm just coming from
• 29:05
  Speaker 1: personal experiences, right.
• 29:09
  Speaker 4: Thank you for sharing that with us, law.
• 29:10
  Speaker 7: Is there anything else you want to say about your
• 29:12
  Speaker 7: sobriety story for now in your journey?
• 29:15
  Speaker 4: I know we have other stories to share, but I.
• 29:18
  Speaker 1: Think the biggest thing is that my sobriety has made
• 29:22
  Speaker 1: it so that I can be the person that the
• 29:27
  Speaker 1: daughter my mom deserves, the sister that Easton deserves.
• 29:30
  Speaker 2: And there are.
• 29:31
  Speaker 1: Moments where I'm a hot head and I don't want
• 29:33
  Speaker 1: to listen, and I always think that my feelings are facts.
• 29:36
  Speaker 1: The difference is is once I retreat after battle, I
• 29:42
  Speaker 1: can understand where the other person is coming.
• 29:45
  Speaker 5: From, back to where we go for the jugular.
• 29:48
  Speaker 2: Right, That's just in my nature.
• 29:50
  Speaker 5: Yes, is what we all do. I do it now too.
• 29:53
  Speaker 1: We all do it, yes many and my family not
• 29:55
  Speaker 1: the world this Yeah, and it's allowed me to be
• 30:01
  Speaker 1: the parent that Ocean deserves. Yeah, because I would not
• 30:04
  Speaker 1: be this kind of mom if I was not sober.
• 30:07
  Speaker 7: That's really sweet and great. Yeah, thank you for sharing that,
• 30:10
  Speaker 7: And I'm really glad. I don't even know if we've
• 30:12
  Speaker 7: done a full on like just you know.
• 30:14
  Speaker 3: Guests talking about I love you, I love your way more.
• 30:21
  Speaker 4: Do you want to get into some shared stories?
• 30:24
  Speaker 2: I know?
• 30:25
  Speaker 7: Okay, So we did a few longer ones the last
• 30:28
  Speaker 7: time or whenever the Sober Bonus episode aired. So I'll
• 30:31
  Speaker 7: do like a few of the short ones that people
• 30:34
  Speaker 7: wrote in so this person, I'll start with us. My
• 30:39
  Speaker 7: husband just entered a thirty day program for alcoholism.
• 30:43
  Speaker 4: Any words of advice.
• 30:45
  Speaker 1: Ooh, I would suggest going to number one.
• 30:51
  Speaker 2: That's incredible, congratulations.
• 30:53
  Speaker 1: I think alan On is extremely beneficial to people who
• 30:57
  Speaker 1: have been on the receiving end of an addict because
• 31:02
  Speaker 1: as much as it is a disease and the person
• 31:05
  Speaker 1: is not who they are truly when they're under the influence,
• 31:10
  Speaker 1: you know, we have deeply affected people, and I think
• 31:15
  Speaker 1: that that could be beneficial. And also I would say
• 31:18
  Speaker 1: sticking to one day at a time is like the
• 31:20
  Speaker 1: most important thing, Like do not look at the bigger picture.
• 31:24
  Speaker 1: Sometimes you have to take it one second at a time.
• 31:28
  Speaker 1: And when you can just get through that one second,
• 31:30
  Speaker 1: one minute at a time, it's like a freaking win.
• 31:33
  Speaker 1: So that would be my biggest piece of advice.
• 31:35
  Speaker 4: Yeah.
• 31:36
  Speaker 7: I think one day at a time, one second at
• 31:38
  Speaker 7: a time, for me, helps with so much too, not
• 31:41
  Speaker 7: even sobriety, like just for like, if I'm feeling for me,
• 31:44
  Speaker 7: if I'm feeling wildly overwhelmed and I have a list
• 31:47
  Speaker 7: of fifty things to do, I go one item at
• 31:50
  Speaker 7: a time, right list them out what's most important, and literally,
• 31:53
  Speaker 7: just if I look at the entire list, I like
• 31:56
  Speaker 7: almost feel frozen.
• 31:57
  Speaker 4: Right, but one item at a time. I don't know,
• 32:00
  Speaker 4: but that is I.
• 32:00
  Speaker 1: Also think if I had a partner who was entering
• 32:03
  Speaker 1: a thirty day program, once they got out, you have
• 32:07
  Speaker 1: to create a very safe space for them and see
• 32:10
  Speaker 1: what they need. If they say I don't feel comfortable,
• 32:16
  Speaker 1: I wouldn't keep alcohol in the house. People bring alcohol
• 32:19
  Speaker 1: to my house and leave it and it's there for
• 32:22
  Speaker 1: them when they return.
• 32:23
  Speaker 2: But again, everybody's different.
• 32:25
  Speaker 1: So just like making your person feel safe enough to say, like, hey,
• 32:29
  Speaker 1: this is how I'm going to best practice my sobriety
• 32:35
  Speaker 1: and continue on this road.
• 32:38
  Speaker 2: Please no alcohol in the house. Please.
• 32:41
  Speaker 1: I can't go here and listen to listen to them,
• 32:43
  Speaker 1: and you know, I'm sure it could get difficult. Your
• 32:45
  Speaker 1: life is going to change tremendously because normies think about it.
• 32:50
  Speaker 1: Everywhere you go there's really a bar or someone's offering
• 32:54
  Speaker 1: you a beverage.
• 32:56
  Speaker 2: So life is going to change.
• 32:58
  Speaker 1: But you have to like incubate that person because this
• 33:02
  Speaker 1: is like life or death for an addict.
• 33:05
  Speaker 7: Yeah, this person said, I literally hit rock bottom and
• 33:11
  Speaker 7: almost ruined my marriage. I've been sober for one year
• 33:14
  Speaker 7: and could not be happier. You've been such an inspiration, Lalla.
• 33:18
  Speaker 2: I love that human in one year is so special?
• 33:21
  Speaker 4: Huge.
• 33:22
  Speaker 2: Yeah.
• 33:23
  Speaker 5: Can I tell you for everybody though, well, thank you.
• 33:25
  Speaker 3: That's what I want you to know that, thank you
• 33:27
  Speaker 3: for sharing for all of them, because what you share
• 33:29
  Speaker 3: has helped a lot of people.
• 33:31
  Speaker 2: Thank you.
• 33:32
  Speaker 5: Thank you for being strong and doing.
• 33:34
  Speaker 2: It one year.
• 33:35
  Speaker 1: Thank you for that was really sweet tea with the
• 33:38
  Speaker 1: one year. So, after my relationship ended and I basically
• 33:45
  Speaker 1: ran away from the house, I took as much as
• 33:48
  Speaker 1: I could, but I didn't empty out my chores, and
• 33:51
  Speaker 1: so I had called someone who was still in the
• 33:54
  Speaker 1: house and I said, please go back in there. You
• 34:00
  Speaker 1: you have to empty my bedside table. My one year
• 34:03
  Speaker 1: sobriety chip is in there. She called us back, remember,
• 34:06
  Speaker 1: and she was like, I don't know how to tell
• 34:07
  Speaker 1: you this, but all of your things are gone and
• 34:09
  Speaker 1: there's like another chick stuff in there. And I was
• 34:13
  Speaker 1: totally fine with everything except for where is my one
• 34:18
  Speaker 1: year chip? Like that I must get and do you
• 34:21
  Speaker 1: remember she delivered it to us. Yeah, she found it
• 34:24
  Speaker 1: in some garbage bag that all my shit was in
• 34:28
  Speaker 1: and I was like, I don't care about anything else
• 34:30
  Speaker 1: in the bag, just the chip.
• 34:33
  Speaker 7: This person said, well, you brought this up. I got pregnant,
• 34:36
  Speaker 7: so maybe it just works for some people. They get
• 34:38
  Speaker 7: pregnant and then they never drink again.
• 34:40
  Speaker 5: I have another question on top of this and being
• 34:44
  Speaker 5: sober and that, I want to know on the vape
• 34:47
  Speaker 5: with this, do you think you'll ever go back to
• 34:50
  Speaker 5: smoking the vape after not being pregnant one day?
• 34:58
  Speaker 4: Guys, I think about it every.
• 34:59
  Speaker 5: Day, didn't I know? I in front of her and
• 35:02
  Speaker 5: I need to stop.
• 35:03
  Speaker 1: I don't think about it ever until it's in front
• 35:07
  Speaker 1: of me going into someone's mouth Easton.
• 35:11
  Speaker 7: But yours is weed vape, so it's different, right, he says,
• 35:15
  Speaker 7: double puffet.
• 35:16
  Speaker 2: No.
• 35:16
  Speaker 4: No, I don't see them as much anymore because.
• 35:21
  Speaker 2: Probably because you were hanging out with me every day.
• 35:25
  Speaker 5: You had him in your purse. I remember, Laura, let
• 35:28
  Speaker 5: you go. Do you have my vape? And I'd have
• 35:29
  Speaker 5: to text you do you have one? Yeah? I have
• 35:31
  Speaker 5: two extra in my bag.
• 35:32
  Speaker 7: Always a backup, always a backup, always a backup.
• 35:36
  Speaker 4: If I was didn't have a backup, oh my god.
• 35:38
  Speaker 5: No.
• 35:39
  Speaker 1: But that's what's wild is people asking me, how have
• 35:41
  Speaker 1: you been doing with the vape since being pregnant.
• 35:43
  Speaker 5: I'm like, good, I think I am very good.
• 35:47
  Speaker 1: The moment I went through with the I U I
• 35:49
  Speaker 1: the vape was in the trash.
• 35:51
  Speaker 4: Yeah, but I guess that's the point some people.
• 35:54
  Speaker 3: If I were you and I was pregnant once that
• 35:57
  Speaker 3: kid shot out mbilical cord.
• 36:00
  Speaker 2: But I can't talk about it.
• 36:02
  Speaker 4: That's going to be my present for her. It's a
• 36:06
  Speaker 4: basket of vape.
• 36:07
  Speaker 1: You can never get me to drink again, but vaping
• 36:10
  Speaker 1: I need to go to. Like, I think there is
• 36:12
  Speaker 1: a bow text to me. This was a while ago,
• 36:15
  Speaker 1: probably a year ago. Vape, vape, vapes and no, there
• 36:20
  Speaker 1: is a lot like doing smoking cigarettes vape.
• 36:27
  Speaker 4: There's a lot of vape groups that are like vape
• 36:29
  Speaker 4: help groups. Christian dads who vape, Oh, I've.
• 36:32
  Speaker 5: Been in the car before.
• 36:33
  Speaker 2: Really is that a thing?
• 36:35
  Speaker 7: Christian dads who vape, dads who are addicted to the vape,
• 36:38
  Speaker 7: who are Christian, who want to get off it.
• 36:41
  Speaker 2: Everyone, It truly is the heart.
• 36:42
  Speaker 3: I see somebody hitting it in their car and I'm like, oh,
• 36:46
  Speaker 3: I have one, and then I hit mine.
• 36:48
  Speaker 1: When you okay, I have to tell you something about
• 36:51
  Speaker 1: this guy at my AA meeting.
• 36:53
  Speaker 5: This was a while I have to get back to
• 36:54
  Speaker 5: her question. Now. I do feel bad that I which one.
• 36:57
  Speaker 1: We will We will get back to it. But I
• 37:01
  Speaker 1: was smoking my vabe and he was like, you know,
• 37:02
  Speaker 1: those are really bad for you. And I was like,
• 37:04
  Speaker 1: I know, but I figure like if I could stop
• 37:07
  Speaker 1: drinking alcohol and quit that, I can certainly quit this.
• 37:11
  Speaker 1: And he goes, you ever quit heroin? Before I go no, no,
• 37:15
  Speaker 1: and he goes, wow. They're saying it's the equivalent to
• 37:17
  Speaker 1: quitting that it's good luck. And I was like, oh,
• 37:20
  Speaker 1: really stressed, stressed exactly.
• 37:25
  Speaker 2: I need to stress it people.
• 37:27
  Speaker 7: I'm telling you there are the sober groups for the
• 37:29
  Speaker 7: vapes because they are so bad.
• 37:31
  Speaker 3: I'll have to dismiss myself for like six days, no vape. No,
• 37:34
  Speaker 3: we know nothing, and I'm just going to be running
• 37:37
  Speaker 3: and nobody can be near me because they'll assault anybody
• 37:41
  Speaker 3: near me, lovely assault that I'm.
• 37:43
  Speaker 5: Going to be just in a house, locked doors, just
• 37:45
  Speaker 5: walking around.
• 37:46
  Speaker 2: Are going to put him in a pat room.
• 37:49
  Speaker 1: Wait, tell me what the she got pressured? She got
• 37:52
  Speaker 1: sober after she got pregnant.
• 37:54
  Speaker 7: Yes, well, she just said I got pregnant, So I'm
• 37:56
  Speaker 7: assuming that because it was share your sobriety journey simple
• 38:00
  Speaker 7: as that can.
• 38:01
  Speaker 1: I tell you a lot of people say, after I
• 38:03
  Speaker 1: got pregnant, I loved the feeling of not drinking and
• 38:06
  Speaker 1: waking up and feeling okay.
• 38:08
  Speaker 2: And there's so many.
• 38:09
  Speaker 1: Like alcohol free replacements yes that they're like, I just
• 38:15
  Speaker 1: never drank again.
• 38:17
  Speaker 4: Right, So I will share this because she'd be fine
• 38:19
  Speaker 4: with it.
• 38:19
  Speaker 7: But my sister, she drank, and she had gotten on
• 38:23
  Speaker 7: a certain anxiety medication. She got pregnant, she gave up
• 38:27
  Speaker 7: the alcohol, and I believe she either lowered the dose or.
• 38:30
  Speaker 4: Got on a different medication for anxiety.
• 38:31
  Speaker 7: Whatever, she got pregnant, and in a healthy way, she
• 38:34
  Speaker 7: started like dropping weight like crazy. Her face slammed, and
• 38:38
  Speaker 7: I was like, and she was very much and she
• 38:41
  Speaker 7: still is pregnant. But she I was like, do you
• 38:42
  Speaker 7: think it was the alcohol the medicine. She's like, I
• 38:44
  Speaker 7: don't know, but like I've never felt better.
• 38:47
  Speaker 1: This is not me shaming anyone's body, Okay, so please
• 38:50
  Speaker 1: don't take it that way. The way that alcohol weight
• 38:56
  Speaker 1: attaches itself to you is very fair your face and
• 39:01
  Speaker 1: right in your mid section, like you could have the
• 39:03
  Speaker 1: skinniest little legs and these cute little arms or whatever
• 39:07
  Speaker 1: and toned because you do the shake weight like I do.
• 39:10
  Speaker 1: If you drink excessively, it is such a specific type
• 39:15
  Speaker 1: of weight that you're carrying, sugarweight, isn't it. Yeah, it's
• 39:20
  Speaker 1: all sugar.
• 39:21
  Speaker 2: Sugars as we know, sugar like grips itself to you.
• 39:25
  Speaker 2: It is very hard to lose sugar weight.
• 39:27
  Speaker 1: Again, not body shaming, But if you drink a lot
• 39:30
  Speaker 1: and you've been trying to lose a few pounds and
• 39:33
  Speaker 1: you're wondering why it's not happening, look into the.
• 39:37
  Speaker 2: Alcohol of it.
• 39:38
  Speaker 5: Well, that's not body shaming. That's like I mean, well, I'm.
• 39:41
  Speaker 1: Talking about people's bodies and if i'm I'm just.
• 39:48
  Speaker 5: But you can just tell a drinker's body. That's not
• 39:52
  Speaker 5: a shaming, that's just it's facts mine.
• 39:55
  Speaker 7: Like I literally get like jowls of sorts, Like my
• 39:59
  Speaker 7: face starts to get heavy and I get like and
• 40:02
  Speaker 7: the eyes.
• 40:03
  Speaker 5: It's after I eat like a lot of like soy
• 40:05
  Speaker 5: sauce salt.
• 40:06
  Speaker 4: Yeah, it looks the same. It's gross.
• 40:08
  Speaker 5: And I love soy sauce.
• 40:10
  Speaker 1: I love soy sauce too. The best part of being
• 40:14
  Speaker 1: pregnant is like have a ton of soy sauce on
• 40:18
  Speaker 1: this rice, because if I look puffy, no one's gonna
• 40:20
  Speaker 1: be like, she looks like shit, because they're gonna be like, oh,
• 40:22
  Speaker 1: she's pregnant.
• 40:24
  Speaker 5: You look great, baby, sweetheart.
• 40:28
  Speaker 4: Do you know you might not know this? I don't.
• 40:30
  Speaker 7: But someone saying, can you touch on the caral from
• 40:33
  Speaker 7: Summer House sobriety journey?
• 40:34
  Speaker 4: Do you know his journey?
• 40:36
  Speaker 2: I don't know his exact journey. I will say that
• 40:38
  Speaker 2: I do.
• 40:39
  Speaker 1: He's very open about his addiction being alcohol and cocaine. Okay,
• 40:43
  Speaker 1: And I've spoken about this before that I was never
• 40:47
  Speaker 1: a drug user. I smoked weed and I liked my weed,
• 40:51
  Speaker 1: and I always had a pen at my house. I
• 40:52
  Speaker 1: always had joints and blunts, but it wasn't like I
• 40:55
  Speaker 1: was obsessive about it. I just enjoyed it. And then
• 40:58
  Speaker 1: I did mushrooms one time. But as far as like
• 41:01
  Speaker 1: the drugs, I would be wasted and people would be like, why.
• 41:04
  Speaker 2: Don't you do it?
• 41:04
  Speaker 1: I'm like, I just have a super addictive personality, not.
• 41:09
  Speaker 4: Sound all can have another shot?
• 41:13
  Speaker 5: Yeah wild right?
• 41:15
  Speaker 4: Oh wow.
• 41:17
  Speaker 1: I don't know his journey to sobriety. All I know
• 41:20
  Speaker 1: is watching Summer House, and again that's such a small
• 41:25
  Speaker 1: piece of like his life and what happens in his
• 41:29
  Speaker 1: world and friendships and relationships. But I really enjoyed watching
• 41:35
  Speaker 1: his perspective on situations coming from a sober place.
• 41:40
  Speaker 7: Yeah yeah, this person says sixteen days sober, huge and
• 41:46
  Speaker 7: so happy to say, I'm finally the mom I hoped
• 41:49
  Speaker 7: to be.
• 41:50
  Speaker 2: I hope that you forever. Just keep that in mind.
• 41:55
  Speaker 5: Tomorrow's seventeen. The next day is eighteen, day by day.
• 41:58
  Speaker 1: Day by day, and remember, if there's a problem, you
• 42:02
  Speaker 1: will never conquer the beast. The moment you think you've
• 42:07
  Speaker 1: conquered it and you dabble in it again, you just have.
• 42:10
  Speaker 2: It's it's woke again.
• 42:13
  Speaker 5: You created two beasts.
• 42:18
  Speaker 7: It's celebrating four hundred and nineteen days of sobriety today.
• 42:22
  Speaker 7: Couldn't be more thankful for you as a role model.
• 42:25
  Speaker 2: That's incredible. You have a year over a year journeys.
• 42:30
  Speaker 7: I didn't know sobriety was possible for me until you
• 42:33
  Speaker 7: appeared on my screen.
• 42:34
  Speaker 4: Number three hundred and twenty four. You're almost there. Forty
• 42:37
  Speaker 4: days until you've hit a year forty one God, I
• 42:39
  Speaker 4: have chills.
• 42:40
  Speaker 2: H that's really you have to do something to celebrate
• 42:44
  Speaker 2: a year.
• 42:44
  Speaker 4: Yeah, what's your like? I know it's dependent on the person.
• 42:47
  Speaker 7: Would you say, like an overnight trip or like a
• 42:50
  Speaker 7: little party. I guess it also depends on what triggers you.
• 42:53
  Speaker 7: What would you say?
• 42:54
  Speaker 1: I love to have like people over or I love
• 42:57
  Speaker 1: to do like a cute little dinner with all of
• 42:59
  Speaker 1: the people who have I I will celebrate my sobriety
• 43:04
  Speaker 1: birthday way before I celebrate my like I'm like, everybody
• 43:08
  Speaker 1: has a fucking birthday.
• 43:11
  Speaker 2: Birthday? No right, Yes, that one's hard to get.
• 43:15
  Speaker 4: Yeah, celebrating rare, Oh my god, it's.
• 43:21
  Speaker 5: Not just given to you if you have to work
• 43:24
  Speaker 5: for it.
• 43:26
  Speaker 1: Yeah, so I think a cute dinner is always so fun.
• 43:29
  Speaker 1: Or if if you're still in the place of like
• 43:32
  Speaker 1: things trigger you, But you could always pick a super
• 43:34
  Speaker 1: cute restaurant that likes not alcohol, or.
• 43:38
  Speaker 4: A trip, or buy something or that.
• 43:41
  Speaker 2: I'm a huge fan of the buying of something. I
• 43:44
  Speaker 2: love a good I have someone else buy it for you.
• 43:46
  Speaker 2: Treat yourself if.
• 43:49
  Speaker 5: It deserved. Yeah, yeah, people feel bad, don't buy you
• 43:54
  Speaker 5: they will. Yeah.
• 43:56
  Speaker 4: This person said I drank to fit in. I never
• 43:58
  Speaker 4: liked the taste. Quit drinking. Twenty five plus years ago
• 44:00
  Speaker 4: and so happy. It's cool.
• 44:03
  Speaker 2: It is cool now, well that's a new thing.
• 44:06
  Speaker 5: Like in all the bars, like people are you can.
• 44:09
  Speaker 3: We went to just a bar on last Sunday, just
• 44:12
  Speaker 3: me and four buddies and we were just chilling live music.
• 44:15
  Speaker 5: They went to the bar.
• 44:17
  Speaker 3: No one at it because everybody's like sobering.
• 44:22
  Speaker 7: Yeah, and they have the fully sober bars, the mocktails
• 44:25
  Speaker 7: like those are fun.
• 44:26
  Speaker 3: But yeah, no, like the bar you used to see
• 44:28
  Speaker 3: the ball, I mean I used to remember bars just packed.
• 44:31
  Speaker 3: And now you go up hundreds of people you can
• 44:33
  Speaker 3: get a drink right away. It looks like, yeah you
• 44:36
  Speaker 3: can because everybody's just on that sober train.
• 44:38
  Speaker 2: Yeah, but that's amazing. Twenty five years so great.
• 44:41
  Speaker 4: This person said, not me, but my brother.
• 44:43
  Speaker 7: I prayed to have him back one day and finally
• 44:46
  Speaker 7: two years sober.
• 44:49
  Speaker 3: Yay.
• 44:51
  Speaker 5: I always relations.
• 44:52
  Speaker 1: I always feel so sad for families that are dealing
• 44:57
  Speaker 1: with a loved one who's like really strong with addiction,
• 45:01
  Speaker 1: because even if you hold an intervention, you know, unless
• 45:05
  Speaker 1: the person wants to be sober, Yeah, it's like extremely difficult.
• 45:09
  Speaker 5: You can lead a horse to water, but you can't.
• 45:13
  Speaker 7: No, and it's so painful too, Like it's you know,
• 45:17
  Speaker 7: this is a distant family, but like you do everything,
• 45:21
  Speaker 7: you offer to pay fully for the nicest some families.
• 45:24
  Speaker 7: If you can the nicest facilities, the whole family gets
• 45:27
  Speaker 7: behind you.
• 45:27
  Speaker 4: There's there's the tough love.
• 45:29
  Speaker 7: Uh try, there's the fucking intervention, try, like it's everything,
• 45:35
  Speaker 7: and then they might go into the facility, but then
• 45:37
  Speaker 7: they check themselves out, like it's such a painful fucking cycle.
• 45:41
  Speaker 7: They truly have to be ready, and then you get
• 45:44
  Speaker 7: to a point where you're like you just have to
• 45:46
  Speaker 7: kind of accept this is personal experience, but like watching
• 45:49
  Speaker 7: them die until they're hopefully ready to change.
• 45:53
  Speaker 1: It's so that's that's an uh uh what's it called
• 45:59
  Speaker 1: a success story with amazing two years sober?
• 46:04
  Speaker 4: It's beautiful? Oh my god. The same person writes in
• 46:08
  Speaker 4: every time we want to see Lala's tits? This person
• 46:13
  Speaker 4: this person.
• 46:14
  Speaker 8: Okay comments on all?
• 46:18
  Speaker 4: Does he comment on YouTube to comments on all?
• 46:20
  Speaker 7: Please ask Lala if she'll wear a mesh shirt with
• 46:22
  Speaker 7: her tits out.
• 46:23
  Speaker 2: I want to see La.
• 46:25
  Speaker 7: Why hasn't Lala shown her tits?
• 46:28
  Speaker 4: Fucking A They're on TV somewhere there.
• 46:31
  Speaker 1: I love, I love how big is the check that
• 46:33
  Speaker 1: you're writing the moment I received the wire.
• 46:36
  Speaker 2: The moment I.
• 46:37
  Speaker 1: Receive the wire, family, right, I will be in a
• 46:40
  Speaker 1: mesh top.
• 46:40
  Speaker 4: See there we have it.
• 46:43
  Speaker 5: Okay, Christ, So it's just money.
• 46:46
  Speaker 8: Someone show this man of God or Lala every comment.
• 46:55
  Speaker 8: I mean at least fifty five comments, Laala, please your
• 46:59
  Speaker 8: squeaky wheels, honestly show us your tits for la La,
• 47:04
  Speaker 8: I mean, my.
• 47:05
  Speaker 2: God, for real.
• 47:07
  Speaker 1: Your your check can pay both my mortgages and all
• 47:11
  Speaker 1: my bills for the next year.
• 47:13
  Speaker 2: I will show you my tits.
• 47:15
  Speaker 4: She will show you her. She will sell you a
• 47:16
  Speaker 4: photo of her tits or video.
• 47:20
  Speaker 5: I love.
• 47:23
  Speaker 1: About sobriety and and I'm like, how BIG's shack before.
• 47:28
  Speaker 5: I talking about what I know?
• 47:31
  Speaker 2: I know?
• 47:31
  Speaker 4: I'm like, I love a joint. It's your episode, you
• 47:35
  Speaker 4: enormy what are we doing?
• 47:37
  Speaker 2: You freaking?
• 47:39
  Speaker 7: This is really great because I've I'll just share it.
• 47:42
  Speaker 7: I'm a bar owner who has been sober for a
• 47:45
  Speaker 7: little over three years now. Bar owners and bartenders. I
• 47:49
  Speaker 7: was a bartender.
• 47:50
  Speaker 4: I know a lot of.
• 47:51
  Speaker 7: People who struggled with balancing working and drinking. Because you
• 47:57
  Speaker 7: see your regulars, they go, let me buy you a shot.
• 48:00
  Speaker 7: You I for like the first few months of bartending,
• 48:04
  Speaker 7: I would take the shots to like you get more tips.
• 48:07
  Speaker 4: They'd be like, oh, but.
• 48:08
  Speaker 7: Then I started making fake drinks of course, but a
• 48:11
  Speaker 7: lot of people become alcoholics that way.
• 48:13
  Speaker 3: Well, yeah, I found out all the people who have
• 48:16
  Speaker 3: bars or anything like that, the sober ones are the
• 48:20
  Speaker 3: ones that still have them.
• 48:21
  Speaker 5: Yeah, because they they're like, no, I'm not drunk. You're
• 48:25
  Speaker 5: not getting a drink for free.
• 48:26
  Speaker 1: Game like a bar rescue. How much of the time
• 48:28
  Speaker 1: they're bankrupt because he's.
• 48:30
  Speaker 2: Like, you're drinking your own alcohol.
• 48:32
  Speaker 1: Yes, you're taking shots every time that young.
• 48:36
  Speaker 9: Yeah, you're handing five out to the patrons and taking
• 48:39
  Speaker 9: one with That's two bottles in an hour that you
• 48:42
  Speaker 9: gave out, and it's like, wow, once that guy stops drinking,
• 48:45
  Speaker 9: those two bottles are now paid for a boy the
• 48:47
  Speaker 9: patrons because you're like, I'm not paying.
• 48:49
  Speaker 4: For this show, I know, or they have employees like
• 48:52
  Speaker 4: me who give them out, and they don't. They give
• 48:54
  Speaker 4: it out for free to their friends.
• 48:56
  Speaker 2: Not for law, not good no, for real.
• 48:58
  Speaker 4: They should have kept track. They did it.
• 49:00
  Speaker 7: They allowed me, you know, they didn't keep an eye
• 49:03
  Speaker 7: on me because I had my regulars coming up and
• 49:05
  Speaker 7: they're like, oh, look at all the people, but the
• 49:06
  Speaker 7: amount of alcohol I was giving away should be.
• 49:09
  Speaker 5: Good for him to have a bar still have it her.
• 49:12
  Speaker 3: I think her apologies good for her to still have
• 49:15
  Speaker 3: a bar okay for.
• 49:17
  Speaker 5: X amount of years and not having workers like Jess.
• 49:20
  Speaker 1: Yes, congratulation because she's she's got the clarity to say
• 49:26
  Speaker 1: that's what looks like she's gonna drink my supply. This
• 49:29
  Speaker 1: one doesn't. She seems like a stand up gal.
• 49:33
  Speaker 7: Stand up gal. Good for you. Congrats. And also that's
• 49:36
  Speaker 7: probably the thing with drug dealers. I'm sure drug dealers,
• 49:40
  Speaker 7: but for.
• 49:40
  Speaker 3: Real drug dealing successful drug off your own supply.
• 49:44
  Speaker 2: They say that all the time.
• 49:46
  Speaker 4: Don't get high. I'm sure they're like.
• 49:47
  Speaker 5: Don't get high in your own supply.
• 49:49
  Speaker 7: Yeah, I for a short, short amount of time was
• 49:52
  Speaker 7: considering dealing drugs when I went in when I was
• 49:55
  Speaker 7: in college, Me and my friend Angela, we had a
• 49:57
  Speaker 7: whole like drive through scenario. You guys would have got
• 50:00
  Speaker 7: you would have killed every night, every night, probably every night,
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  Speaker 7: but our scenario we would have been so good.
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  Speaker 4: We're like we'll do pick up only we'll have And.
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  Speaker 7: Then quickly our friend was like you don't think anyone's
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  Speaker 7: going to be shocked at like cars driving through the
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  Speaker 7: Landlord's not going to say anything.
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  Speaker 4: And we quickly realized we would get arrested.
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  Speaker 1: And it was a stupid help you helped you.
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  Speaker 5: I would have just bought it all and just smoked
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  Speaker 5: it for you.
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  Speaker 1: Wow, what a fun sober episode. I doesn't want you
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  Speaker 1: all to look at the table and look at who
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  Speaker 1: the boss is.
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  Speaker 2: At the table and why.
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  Speaker 1: Get sober and don't do drugs. I'm just kidding, guys,
• 50:42
  Speaker 1: I'm just teasing.
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  Speaker 2: I just don't this episode anyone going off the rails. Okay,
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  Speaker 2: my god, I.
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  Speaker 5: Am thank you for my job.
• 50:53
  Speaker 2: I'm sober. I was totally kidding.
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  Speaker 1: But I do love sobriety and it has been tremendously
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  Speaker 1: helpful in my life. I will never give it up again,
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  Speaker 1: one day at a time, because every time I say never,
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  Speaker 1: there's always some score that's like, aren't you not supposed
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  Speaker 1: to say that in sobriety?
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  Speaker 4: Your some just like them.
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  Speaker 1: Guess as sober And I'm sure I'm not supposed to
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  Speaker 1: say that, but I'm going to say it because I'm
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  Speaker 1: happy with the life that I have. So if you
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  Speaker 1: or anybody that you know is struggling with addiction. We
• 51:29
  Speaker 1: obviously love to hear from you guys in the DMS,
• 51:33
  Speaker 1: but there is an addiction crisis hotline. That number is
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  Speaker 1: one eight eight eight four zero three seven to one
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  Speaker 1: zero three. Thank you guys for sharing your sobriety journeys.
• 51:42
  Speaker 1: I know that that is not easy. Sobriety bonds us man.
• 51:46
  Speaker 1: All my people who slide in the DMS and they're like,
• 51:48
  Speaker 1: I've been sober. I'm like, there's just something that happens
• 51:51
  Speaker 1: where it's like I see you, you see me. Thank
• 51:53
  Speaker 1: you guys, Easton and Jess for asking questions. I'm sorry,
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  Speaker 1: I through a dig in.
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  Speaker 4: There at the We Love a Day. It's not the
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  Speaker 4: podcast without a Day.
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  Speaker 2: Yeah, I love y'all.
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  Speaker 1: Thank y'all for listening to another episode of the Give
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  Speaker 1: Them All a Podcast and we will catch you next week.