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Why Desire Feels Different After Having Kids And How to Find It Again · Intimacy With Lauren

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  SPEAKER_00: For kids, desire was something that showed up, maybe spontaneously, maybe with a little buildup, but it showed up.
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  SPEAKER_00: After kids, everything changed.
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  SPEAKER_00: I know you love your children, you even love your partner, but your body feels like it belongs to everyone else now.
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  SPEAKER_00: You are touched out, exhausted, and running a deficit that never seems to close.
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  SPEAKER_00: And somewhere inside you, you wonder if desire is just gone or if the person who had it is gone.
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  SPEAKER_00: So I need to tell you something.
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  SPEAKER_00: Neither is true.
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  SPEAKER_00: But something did change.
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  SPEAKER_00: And once you understand what, you can stop fighting it and start working with it.
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  SPEAKER_00: In the next 12 minutes, I am going to explain exactly what happens to desire after children, why it is not a permanent loss, and how to find your way back to intimacy that actually fits your life now, not the life you had before.
• 0:46
  SPEAKER_00: You have tried the date nights, you have read the articles about keeping the spark alive, you have felt guilty about how little you want intimacy with the partner you love.
• 0:55
  SPEAKER_00: But nobody told you that what happened to your desire after kids was neither an individual nor a marital failure.
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  SPEAKER_00: It was a recalibration, a reorganization.
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  SPEAKER_00: And you can't fix the new organization by trying harder.
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  SPEAKER_00: You need to understand what actually shifted.
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  SPEAKER_00: I'm Lauren Wolfe, registered psychotherapist and sex therapist.
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  SPEAKER_00: One of the most common presentations I see in my practice is women who had active, engaged sex lives and strong desire before children and feel nearly nothing after.
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  SPEAKER_00: This is a predictable response to what is a massive seismic life shift.
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  SPEAKER_00: And once you understand the mechanisms, a path forward becomes quite clear.
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  SPEAKER_00: I'm going to walk you through five things that change about desire after kids, and for each one, what it actually means and how to work with it instead of against it.
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  SPEAKER_00: Your nervous system shifted into permanent vigilance.
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  SPEAKER_00: The moment you became a parent, your nervous system recalibrated.
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  SPEAKER_00: It is now running a background program called Vigilance 24 Hours a day, monitoring for sounds, needs, danger, and even emergencies.
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  SPEAKER_00: Even when your child is safe and sleeping, your nervous system does not fully power down.
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  SPEAKER_00: And desire cannot emerge from a nervous system that is stuck in alert mode.
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  SPEAKER_00: Desire requires safety, ease, and the absence of threat.
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  SPEAKER_00: Your body decided that threat now includes anything that takes your attention away from the children who need you.
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  SPEAKER_00: That is biology doing exactly what it was designed to do.
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  SPEAKER_00: There's nothing wrong with you after kids.
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  SPEAKER_00: You are on duty and your desire does not visit people who are always on duty.
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  SPEAKER_00: Women describe it as I finally have a moment alone and I just feel nothing.
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  SPEAKER_00: No desire, no relief, just numb.
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  SPEAKER_00: That numbness is the nervous system that has been in overdrive for so long it does not know how to shift out of it.
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  SPEAKER_00: It's not the absence of desire, it's the absence of the nervous system's capacity to hold desire.
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  SPEAKER_00: Think of your nervous system like a phone with every app running at once.
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  SPEAKER_00: Desire is an app that needs significant memory space to operate.
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  SPEAKER_00: Isn't that what we used to call RAM?
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  SPEAKER_00: Anyway, when everything else is running, the baby monitor, school, schedules, activities, caring for other family members, everyday tasks, work.
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  SPEAKER_00: There's no memory space or RAM left for desire.
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  SPEAKER_00: The program isn't deleted, it's just not able to open.
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  SPEAKER_00: Or if it tries, the system may crash first.
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  SPEAKER_00: Ask yourself, when did I last feel genuinely off duty?
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  SPEAKER_00: Not just alone, but absolutely not responsible for a moment.
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  SPEAKER_00: When did I last feel relaxed?
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  SPEAKER_00: If you can't remember, your nervous system has not had space to shift.
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  SPEAKER_00: This is the first thing to address.
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  SPEAKER_00: But the nervous system is only one piece.
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  SPEAKER_00: Something else happened to your body that nobody warned you about.
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  SPEAKER_00: After children, many women experience a profound shift in their relationship to their body.
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  SPEAKER_00: Your body grew a person.
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  SPEAKER_00: It may have been a feeding station for months.
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  SPEAKER_00: It's grabbed, climbed on, needed, and touched constantly by small people who have no awareness of physical boundaries.
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  SPEAKER_00: By the time your partner reaches for you at the end of the day, your body has nothing left to give.
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  SPEAKER_00: Not because you don't love him, but because the concept of your body is a source of your own pleasure or even someone else's pleasure has been completely overridden by your body as a functional object for everyone else.
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  SPEAKER_00: Being touched out is not selfishness.
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  SPEAKER_00: It is your body asking to be yours again before it can be shared.
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  SPEAKER_00: Women tell me they feel guilty for recoiling from their partner's touch, but when I ask how many hours a day their body is demanded by someone else, the math is obvious.
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  SPEAKER_00: An infant nurses every two hours.
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  SPEAKER_00: A toddler climbs and pulls and grabs from waking to sleep.
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  SPEAKER_00: That body has given everything it has.
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  SPEAKER_00: The no at night is not rejection, it's depletion.
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  SPEAKER_00: Think of your body like a glass of water.
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  SPEAKER_00: Your children drink from it constantly throughout the day.
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  SPEAKER_00: By evening, the glass is empty.
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  SPEAKER_00: Your partner asks for a sip and there's genuinely nothing left.
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  SPEAKER_00: The solution is not to be angry at your partner for asking, it is to find ways to refill the glass during the day.
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  SPEAKER_00: Moments where your body belongs to you and not anyone else.
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  SPEAKER_00: Notice, is there any point in your day where your body is fully yours, no one touching it, needing it, or making demands of it?
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  SPEAKER_00: If the answer is rarely or never, you're operating on empty.
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  SPEAKER_00: But even beyond your body, something shifted in how you see yourself.
• 5:01
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• 5:05
  SPEAKER_00: I post weekly on desire and intimacy for women in long-term relationships.
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  SPEAKER_00: Being a mother changes everything, including how desire works, and I talk about all of it.
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  SPEAKER_00: Before children, you had an identity that included being a sexual person.
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  SPEAKER_00: After children, that identity often gets buried under the weight of mother.
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  SPEAKER_00: The role of mother is consuming in a way that most identities are not.
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  SPEAKER_00: It asks everything.
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  SPEAKER_00: And when you are deeply identified with being a mother, the version of you who is sensual, desiring, and sexual can feel foreign and almost inappropriate.
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  SPEAKER_00: Some women describe feeling like they have to leave the mom behind to access desire.
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  SPEAKER_00: And that feels like too much work or even wrong.
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  SPEAKER_00: You are not just a mother, but motherhood can take so much of you that you feel like everything else no longer fits, desire included.
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  SPEAKER_00: I ask women, who were you before you were a mother?
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  SPEAKER_00: Many have to think hard.
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  SPEAKER_00: That person, her interests, her sensuality, her way of moving through the world hasn't disappeared, but she has been on the shelf.
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  SPEAKER_00: Reconnecting with her is part of reconnecting with desire.
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  SPEAKER_00: So ask yourself, do I have any sense of myself outside of being a mother right now?
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  SPEAKER_00: When was the last time I did something that was purely for the part of me that is not a parent?
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  SPEAKER_00: Does being sexual feel incompatible with who I've become?
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  SPEAKER_00: And even if you find yourself, again, outside of motherhood, there's something else your relationship may have lost.
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  SPEAKER_00: Before children, your relationship had room for desire.
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  SPEAKER_00: You had time, privacy, energy, and a dynamic that was primarily about just the two of you.
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  SPEAKER_00: After children, the relationship reorganized around logistics.
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  SPEAKER_00: You are now co-parents first, romantic partners, somewhere much further down the list.
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  SPEAKER_00: The language of your relationship became who is picking up who, who is taking the 3 a.m.
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  SPEAKER_00: wake up, whose turn is it?
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  SPEAKER_00: You stop being lovers who occasionally discuss life and became managers who occasionally remember they used to be lovers.
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  SPEAKER_00: Desire does not live in a management relationship.
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  SPEAKER_00: It lives in a romantic one.
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  SPEAKER_00: Children change the relationship, but they do not have to end it.
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  SPEAKER_00: You have to choose to keep the romantic relationship alive, or it defaults into co-management.
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  SPEAKER_00: Couples tell me they never fight, they function seamlessly, and they feel completely disconnected.
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  SPEAKER_00: Because a smooth co-parenting operation is not the same as a relationship.
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  SPEAKER_00: You can be excellent co-parents and emotional strangers.
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  SPEAKER_00: The combination guarantees desire disappears.
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  SPEAKER_00: Here's what I want you to hear.
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  SPEAKER_00: Desire after kids is not a return to what you had before.
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  SPEAKER_00: It is something new.
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  SPEAKER_00: It is built differently, accessed differently, and needs different conditions.
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  SPEAKER_00: It requires genuine time to be off duty, not just physically alone, but neurologically released from responsibility.
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  SPEAKER_00: It requires your body feeling like yours again, not just a resource.
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  SPEAKER_00: It requires refinding yourself outside of motherhood.
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  SPEAKER_00: And it requires deliberately choosing to keep the romantic relationship alive alongside the parenting one.
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  SPEAKER_00: None of that is easy, but all of it is possible.
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  SPEAKER_00: You are not trying to get back to who you were before kids.
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  SPEAKER_00: You are building desire that fits who you are now.
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  SPEAKER_00: That is a different and a better goal.
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  SPEAKER_00: Think of pre-kid desire as a road you used to drive.
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  SPEAKER_00: That road is gone.
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  SPEAKER_00: You cannot go back to it, but you can build a new road.
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  SPEAKER_00: It requires intention and effort, but it can take you somewhere just as good, maybe better, because you are building it consciously.
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  SPEAKER_00: Stop measuring your desire against how it felt before kids and concluding something is broken.
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  SPEAKER_00: Stop trying to force connection at the end of the day when your tank is completely empty.
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  SPEAKER_00: Stop treating the absence of desire as a failure of love or commitment.
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  SPEAKER_00: Start protecting intentional off-duty windows where you are neurologically released from responsibility.
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  SPEAKER_00: Start reclaiming small moments throughout the day where your body belongs to you.
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  SPEAKER_00: And start communicating specifically what you need to feel like a person, not just a parent, before intimacy is possible.
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  SPEAKER_00: Tonight, do this.
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  SPEAKER_00: Identify your primary depletion source.
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  SPEAKER_00: Nervous system vigilance, body ownership, identity, or relationship dynamic or all four.
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  SPEAKER_00: Pick one.
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  SPEAKER_00: What would off duty look like for 30 minutes?
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  SPEAKER_00: Not helpful, not productive, genuinely off-duty.
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  SPEAKER_00: Make time for it this week.
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  SPEAKER_00: Reclaim one moment where your body belongs to you: a bath, a walk, anything where you are not accessible to anyone else's needs.
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  SPEAKER_00: Say to your partner, I want to feel close to you, but I need some of these things first.
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  SPEAKER_00: Then name one specific thing you need.
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  SPEAKER_00: Desire after kids requires rebuilding conditions that support it, not forcing old desire back into a life that it no longer fits.
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  SPEAKER_00: Starting with one specific condition creates movement.
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  SPEAKER_00: Movement creates momentum.
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  SPEAKER_00: And momentum is what actually eventually brings desire home.
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  SPEAKER_00: Your desire did not disappear when you became a mother.
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  SPEAKER_00: It went dormant because every system that supports desire got reorganized around survival and caregiving.
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  SPEAKER_00: That's not a loss.
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  SPEAKER_00: That is an invitation to build something new, something that fits the person you are now.
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  SPEAKER_00: It is possible, and you do not have to wait until the kids leave home to find it.
• 9:59
  SPEAKER_00: In the next video, I'm breaking down why scheduling sex, which so many people tell you to do, actually backfires and what to do instead.
• 10:07
  SPEAKER_00: Click the link around this video to watch that one next.