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Episode #188: Checking-In with the Self · Tea Time w/Amie & Bev

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Hi, Welcome to tea time with Amy and Bev. Happy December, Happy
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December. How are you doing trying to stay warm? For Pete's sake?
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Cheesos? I mean it's not super cold, but it's cold enough. Just
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saying yeah, I would be in agreeiance with that. I mean, it's
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I've enjoying it, honestly. Yeah, after the temperatures we've been having.
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Yeah, and like we need to go ahead. You need the seasons,
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right, So yeah, and besides that, it's nicer in the daytime usually,
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and it's i mean it's cold at night, so we probably have it
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better than most people in the world. Right. Oh, for sure,
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I love the weather here, at least in the United States. Yeah,
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it's you know, that could be nice. We could be sitting on the
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beach somewhere, you know, right now, just relaxing. Yeah, for
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the Christmas cocktail. Might be up for that. But we need the season.
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So there's, you know, for life to make its transitions in nature,
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there's the different seasons, and so I would you know, in the
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things that we talk about that's similar to what we go through. We have
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different seasons in our life, and you might go through a season, so
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summer, fall, winter, spring. You might go through those four seasons
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through your life, or you might go through them multiple times through your life.
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So keeps it interesting, for sure, it really does. You know.
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I mentioned cocktails, and I was thinking, I went to the Matt
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Frasier. He's a psychic media you and I had talked, I think off
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there, but I had went and I had gotten to go see him because
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one of my friends had taken me to go with and I was very thankful
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that she did because I noticed the things that I was noticing, Like what
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would I do differently? Why would I think those things? I don't know,
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but those are the things that I you know, or what would I
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take from him, maybe not do differently. One of the things that kind
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of caught me off, back to the cocktail part, was because I know,
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I believe that alcohol lowers your vibrational frequency. And before this gathering,
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you know, in the back of the room, before the times, you
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know, before I think it had to be by six forty five, they
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were closing the bar down, but there were so many people that were getting
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drinks, and you know, I don't know, it just kind of caught
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me off, Like to me, that kind of you just lower your frequency.
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And I don't know how that played out for anybody. I don't know
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anybody that was being read had they been drinking or not been drinking, do
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you know what I mean. So it just kind of was interesting to me.
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It was because I I remember talking to my friend. I kept looking
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back and I'm like, I'm just so surprised serving alcohol. But I know
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you can go to you know, you're at the casinos, so you can
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pretty much get alcohol anywhere there anyways. But it just kind of surprised me.
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Just one of the things that I kind of noticed and and I think,
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I don't know how I would I'd for me, if I was to
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have a group gathering or something like that, from my perspective, I wouldn't
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have alcohol involved in it. And simply because I feel like it takes away
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from you might miss something or you might get caught up on something that it's
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kind of enhances, Like if you have a triggered moment, it's probably going
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to enhance that triggered moment. Maybe you don't want to be in that space.
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And it's not because I'm anti alcohol, but it's it's just because I
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feel like it lowers the vibrational frequency, and I would want to high frequency
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because it's so beneficial for everybody that's there. Well, yeah, and I
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understand that, and I I hear you and the direction you're coming from.
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And those that drink at an event like that are still suffering in their own
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emotions, and so it's a kind of I want to go and check this
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out and see how it is. But they're still remorseful in the transition of
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their loved ones and they're still covering it up with that band aid. And
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how am I going to how am I going to handle it if if he
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picks me? You know, it's just but yes, I get what you're
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saying as far as lowering the vibration. Sure, And there's something else I
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was going to say, Oh, the missing right when when you're impaired,
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you miss things, You miss information that's coming through or being shared, and
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even if it's somebody else is receiving the reading, you're you're just not fully
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present with what it's being presented. So yeah, I get it. Yeah,
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And I get where you're coming from too, because you're it's very vulnerable.
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You're very vulnerable when you're up there like that. When they're bringing for
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something and then him saying, do you care if I bring this information for
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right now? They're like, oh no, not at all. You know,
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I don't mind at all. But it's like it's personal stuff, Like
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it's stuff that you know, you could be dealing with stuff on the insight.
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So I hear what you're saying too. I hear you one hundred percent.
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And even so, even if that person was picked, they still wouldn't
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be able to process everything being shared because of the impairment they just and you
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know, still being in the suffering, like you were hitting on, is
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it may compound whatever it is they're feeling because outcome is that to us?
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Right? So, yeah, what we've talked about. It's been a long
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time ago, but it's we talked about it. Like when you have someone
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that transitions and and then you go and drink. It kind of like resets
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the cycle of the whole grieving process, which is like a long process.
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You know, they have a list of things, and do we go through
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all the processes. I'd probably say a big portion of it. We probably
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do. But I felt like, and maybe that was my perspective in the
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past because I just had watched a few people that when they had lost them
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and I've had some had losses as well as far as if we want to
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call it losses, but that would go and drink right afterwards. They might
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make it a few steps, but then they drink and they're like right back
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to that beginning step again, into that grief, into that anger, into
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that sadness. So not ever, not it doesn't. I don't feel like
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it allows that flow for you to kind of get out of. It almost
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keeps you in that space. YEA. From perspectively, why were we having
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this conversation, I don't know, because it's not even put touching on anything
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that I've experienced recently, besides just noticing, I was surprised that alcohol was
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being served in the room, like in the space where we were going to
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be holding the space. So yeah, that's casinos for you. But because
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I just you know, I don't know, just a different perspective. Well,
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I think you're having that conversation for me because the past a couple of
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nights I've had a couple of cocktails, and not because I wouldn't need not
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because of like the space I was in before it was Well, let's try
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it. Let's see what's what comes up? Not come up, but how
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do I feel? And noticing like how I feel the next day, And
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it's just like it's kind of a check in, right sometimes we okay,
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Yeah, so if you're if you're being a healthy eater for a long period
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of time and then you're like I really want that cheeseburger like or that slice
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of pizza and you eat it and they're just like, yeah, now I
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know why I don't eat it. Similar for the alcohol with me, it's
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like, well, I just try it and seek and the taste of it
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was not so not so much, and then uh, how I felt afterwards
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not excited about it, and then the next day I could feel lower in
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my energy type of things. So just to check in, it's like do
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I really need this? No? And is it okay if I don't have
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it? Yes, I'm good with it. You know. It's just like
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I still recognize I don't need it to have a good time and I can
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have a good time long it's no, And I am not beating myself up
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over it. I'm just like, yeah, it's just a it's just a
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reaffirming where I'm at with myself. With my energy and it's not a necessity.
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Gotcha years ago, because I've heard so many go ahead years ago.
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I was to say, years ago, I needed it to have a good
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time, and now it's like I don't need it because, like you said,
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it lowers my vibration, like and feel that in me. I still
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have a good time. I still had a good time with whatever we were
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doing. Just yeah, the vibration, the energy level, all the stuff
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is like, just so need it. I'm good. Yeah, And I
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was kind of letting people know, like it's not it's not good or bad.
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Anybody that's watching watching it. I've listened to several psychic mediums, followed
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them, listen to them. Maybe Spatilla like to have her drinks. Oh
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my gosh, uh Van Prague, I can't remember his first name right now,
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but he likes to have his drinks. You know, It's it's not
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I'm not saying anything that's bad or good. So it's just a recognition like
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you're just saying kind of goes along with the conversation, like really checking in
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with yourself and see how do you feel on this. And sometimes I feel
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like people do it just because they need to shut things down and they don't
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know how to quiet things down right. We know meditation can be helpful,
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but sometimes you're not in the space for meditation, and that's okay too.
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So it's just really recognizing and then it's like go through the process. I
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was talking to one of my kids yesterday and she was having a conversation with
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one of her kids, and I made a comment. She started to say
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some things to me, and I'm like, I said, I don't have
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an opinion about it one way or the other, but how do you feel?
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Right? It gets right back to that conversation, how do you feel
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on you're having that conversation, why didn't feel good? Okay, well,
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then I'm not telling you that you're doing anything right or wrong, but you
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can't ask inside of yourself how can I show up better for myself and show
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up better for my kids? And I said, ways will be shown to
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you. Then it's like, oh my gosh, why didn't I think about
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that sooner? But we don't know until we know, right, it's just
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the way it is. It's just the way it is. We never know
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how things are going to flow or how they're going to go, or it's
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not a matter of controlling it. And there's so many different dynamics when you
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have the group involved. And then even hearing my grandchild like, well,
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that wouldn't happen because Grandma would would do something about it, and I just
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didn't say nothing at all, because it's like I just let her have,
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let her have the conversation so that that see how she handled it and for
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him to recognize it's not for me to step into saying if things are obviously
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going too far. If it was so sideways, of course I would say
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something that's I'm not going to just let somebody be bullied or whatever. How
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are we going to receive it? But if it's like if it's not my
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place, it's not my place. And I talk to my grandkids all the
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time to kind of express to them. And I'm not perfect either, but
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I talk to them all the time about different things. I don't know if
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we had the conversation or not, but recently I had had the grandkids over
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and maybe I one of my grandkids had said something and then I said,
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well, I don't care about whatever is going on at home. That's not
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that's not going to happen here or whatever, this whatever, the conversation was
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I can't remember what, but it started out with I don't care, and
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Freeman came out immediately and then started talking to him and then let him know,
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like, hey, your opinion matters. It doesn't always mean that we're
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going to change, you know, because due to your opinion, but we'll
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take it into consideration and go from there. Just know that you're always being
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seen and heard. And I didn't know. It made me emotional that he
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was talking to him like that, but it's like it didn't make any sense,
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you know, I didn't know why. And then later after the kids
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were gone, he come in and talked to me about it and then told
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me that I had. He was surprised because I was like, I don't
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care whatever, and it's like, thinking about our words, it was nothing.
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My intentions were nothing to back up those words, because I do care,
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But me saying I don't care to someone that's very literal. We've talked
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about this before, but now I'm on the opposite side of it again and
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recognizing I don't always say the right words either. But it's put me into
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a place where I'm have more of awareness that I'm really watching the words that
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are coming out of my mouth. I'm really listening to the words, listening
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to my thoughts, which we've been talking about all this for a long time,
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but it's more fine tuned right now because that got my attention. I
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don't want to ever talk to my kids or a person or anybody, and
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I have, even with you recently, I kind of jumped it, jumped
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you just a bit on something that I didn't have answers to. I didn't
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have I hadn't I didn't ask a question. I just automatically had a response
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to it. And so it's just recognizing where the stuff comes from, and
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then you know, looking at it and not being ashamed or upset or fearful,
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and then trying to find the words to not say I'm sorry, because
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when I say I'm sorry, I'm sorry feels feel shitty. But I apologize.
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I apologize for how I had shown up during that time when I could
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have handled things a little bit differently. But if we don't have those experiences,
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how are we ever going to know? Right? So, if I
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didn't have the experience, there was no way for me to identify that,
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yes, I still have something withinside of me that I can be looking at
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and I don't have to throw it. I don't have to get to be
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a monkey and fling shit out someone. It's not necessary. What's necessary is
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to pay attention to where I'm at, how do I feel, and how
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did that feel? Afterwards? Well, it didn't feel good. You know,
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the anxiousness when something feels like it's wrong or whatever and you're like ready
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to go, and it's like, that doesn't feel good either because that doesn't
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feel like it's led by spirit that doesn't feel and you can't identify that because
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it feels you feel justified, or you might feel right about things, but
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it doesn't always mean it's correct. So it's taking the time to really set
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with yourself when you feel these things. But I'm not perfect and I don't
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proclaim to be right. So I go through these experiences. I go through
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these experiences and I start to kind of check in with myself and see and
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then it helps me really identify what do I want, what do I want
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in my experiences, and then I can take that right into massage. I
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love people, I love to do their massages, but I can I can
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tell you where my passions lie and where my passions don't lie, And it's
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it's honoring that, and it's kind of a scary thing, like how do
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you honor that? Like how do you honor that when you don't know what's
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next right when you're going to jump into the next thing. So it's like,
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uh, well, you know, I mean, you just got to
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figure out where it's going to go from there. And and even for like
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a lot of your stuff, you went into this other position which gave you
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so much relief in so many ways. And now I don't know how your
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time schedule is, but I feel like you've got so much stuff going on.
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I don't even know how much time you get for yourself because it's like
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that. But at the same time, you're learning so much, and you're
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gaining so much information, and you're gaining so many contacts, and you're in
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there, there's so many things that are happening that that it feels to me
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like you are following your passions. Yeah, it's it's a good it's a
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good learning. It's a good learning when I can witness you or others how
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they're doing. Yeah, and then also recommend or recognizing and then sending support
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to you, like not not like oh well, well Amy had to go
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do this. No, it's like look at Amy, go like, look
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at her doing these things and celebrating her not finding any flaws in a situation
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because there is no flaws. It's perfect and it's going great. Just like
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when someone wins the lottery, it's like celebrating with them that hey, they
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want the lottery. Look at them. That's so freaking awesome. And think
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about all the things you would want to do with all that stuff. It's
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we have opportunities all the time, and those thoughts feel better than the opposite
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thoughts. Yeah. So I'll go back to you're comment about words with me,
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and I just want to say it was a great check in for me
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because when I received the text, I was like huh okay, and I
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responded, Now, five years ago, I would have flew off the handle.
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I would have been pissed, like hugely pissed and judgmental and just felt
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attacked and needed to defend myself and feel any I felt no of that.
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I just want you to know that I found none of that, which was
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great for me because that was great, aw just check in for myself.
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And uh so I was like, Okay, well, good for you,
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Amy, you're doing great, because that's true. Not matching energy. Not
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matching energy, it's not necessary. It's totally unnecessary, and it takes us
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out of our feel good spaces to do those times type of things. So
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we have those check ins, and just like I was talking about the alcohol,
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it's a check in. Like we have the check ins as we go
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along in our lifetime. I will tell people, you know, you're gonna
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you're gonna do some healing on this pross, on this this experience and from
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the past, and it's similar to I mean we say this quite frequently,
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similar to peeling an onion, and you're gonna have those thicker layers, you're
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gonna have those fine sheen layers, you're gonna have the in between, and
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you're gonna peel one of those layers. That's a healing layer of that experience,
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but it's not completely healed. Sometimes it takes several processes to really heal
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an experience. And so you'll have opportunity to practice, trust me, because
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somebody's going to come along and push a button in you and it's going to
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flare something up those emotions, and it's not that person in front of you.
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But it's really still that experience that you're hanging onto, that energy of
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the typically the emotions of it. And so you're so whether you're getting triggered
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or you want to call it a check in what I now, I'm like,
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okay, I'm just checking in with myself. Here we go doing pretty
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good, you right, and celebrate that, And I don't. I mean
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at the time, I don't know where you were with being your experience or
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what you were going through. Right, This is where we get into that
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judgmental pieces. Well, how dare she even? How how could she do
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that to me? And we've been friends for and how right? It was
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just like, I don't, I don't know what's going on with her.
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So I'm just going to answer her in the best way I can. And
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then I would also say that this is we've talked about, you know,
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communication before, and sometimes texting can get convoluted in how we perceive it or
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how we interpret it. So just you know, for people to be aware
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of that. I was gonna go on with what you were talking about?
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What were you talking about? Wrapped up in that? Did you just to
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talk about after that? Because I was ready, I was I didn't make
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my notes though. Shoot, oh it'll come back. It'll come back.
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So because it's like I don't necessarily o where you got it. No,
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not really, I was just kill in some stuff. I don't know what
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I was gonna say, is I know I know where it came from.
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And it wasn't. And it's not like I'm putting it onto somebody else,
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but I was taking on energy. I was taking on energy again, and
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it's we don't it's just like a so easy, a little flick of a
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switch that you can all of a sudden be in someone else's stuff. And
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it's like because because I was having a great day, I had a great
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night, I had a great week, like it's been great. So it
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was just a yeah, it was interesting. And then it's like to sit
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back again. I could go back to childhood stuff too. And then also
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feeling having feelings of not being good enough again that's kind of had peaked this
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little head up a little bit a little bit, but it wasn't like it's
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horrible. It's just like, wait a minute, that's not true. That's
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not true at all. You know, just like you had asked me about
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doing something and I'm like I have no idea what I would even do.
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And then you say something and and Spirit keeps talking to me, and it's
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like, yeah, just just give her the money, sign up for it,
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whatever or whatever, it doesn't matter. Put it on your calendar,
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do it, just show up. Who knows, who cares, what's gonna
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happen. Just throw up. And then I'm like, well, I don't
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know anything about that, because right mine kind of gets in the way,
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and I'm listening to Spirit and I'm like, yeah, I'm in a contactor
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and I have it obviously, but it's it's been a couple of times and
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then all of a sudden, my mind's like, oh, well, what
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are you gonna do? Like, what are you gonna do? Really,
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you're gonna do that? Like it's funny. It's funny. It's like having
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it's like having the angel on the shoulder and the devil on the other shoulder,
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and there's and it's not like that. It is not like that,
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But it's it's the perspective again, being aware of where your thoughts are at
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and how they hinder you, because they can't the thoughts. The thoughts are
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what can hinder you in so many ways, not always, but in a
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lot of ways, it can get you like that. Yeah, and so
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that's what I was kind of. I was noticing a lot of that stuff
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and afterwards, but it's like I so I just processed through and now I'm
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paying attention every time I have contact with this person or with other persons,
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I'm recognizing. Wait a minute, I noticed the shift to myself. Did
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I dip again? Did I go? Did I have an agreement with something
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that they were saying? And all of a sudden, now we're matching that
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energy. And it's reminding myself that I can be a higher vibrational match.
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I can be the higher so they can come up to me. But it's
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like it's sometimes it's just easy to get into those conversations and it's not like
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again, not to beat yourselves up about it. It's just to recognize and
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it's not anything right or wrong, but it doesn't feel good. It's not
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my favorite feelings, so I know what to do about it. Now,
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That's what it was. You were talking about picking up on other people's energy
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and then I'm letting it affect you that. I've had to be very aware
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of that at my new job because they're all, they're all low vibrational energies
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for the most part in how they talk and think and feel. And so
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too. When you're a light worker, meaning you have done a lot of
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healing, you're connected more into that joyful space, happy space, enjoying life
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space, and you get into the energy where the majority of the people around
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you, for many hours of the day, are on a different vibrational frequency.
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We have to be very attentive to our own energy. And I've noticed
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like I've dipped into kind of the same vibrational like wording, just like you
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were saying and engaging in conversations that are lower vibrational, and I'm just like,
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okay, we got to be more aware of this and be more mindful
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of what I say before I say it. Now, I did you on
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the same lines of you of saying I don't care. I use those three
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words recently too in a meeting because I have my office, and in that
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office is like a supply closet, and so the girls are in and out
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of there, sometimes several times a day, depending on what's going on.
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But they feel, for whatever reason, they feel the need to every time
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they come in. They got to tell me what they're doing or say something.
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And if I'm folk like when you're when you're focused on something, and
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you know, I'm usually doing a lot of like social media posts so or
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creating some new documents. Like you got your focused on whatever you're doing,
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and then somebody says something and it snaps you out of that. Now you
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have to readjust yourself to get back into what you're doing, and that could
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take some time. And if you're on a roll with something and you're like,
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oh, this is good, right, and then somebody pulls you up,
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oh my gosh, and the struggle can seem like to get back into
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it whatever you were focused on. So we had a meeting and I said,
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listen, you ladies are in and out of that closet. I said,
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I don't care why you're in there. I unless it pertains to me,
25:22
I don't care. And so I just I explained to them what I
25:27
just said about being focused and then being interrupted and all that and and so
25:34
however, I was talking to adults who sometimes speaking their language and sometimes it's
25:44
a little harsh like that for them to hear it so that they could get
25:48
it and understand. Oh, because until they until you make them aware of
25:56
it, right until you know you don't know. Yeah, but I was
26:03
just I was just frush by at that point. I was a little frustrated
26:07
with the whole thing, Like just stop talking to me this kind or just
26:17
you know, come in my if you need to see me, because my
26:18
door's open all the time. I'm like, if you need to come see
26:21
me, come in. If I'm in the middle of something, I'll let
26:25
you know, give me a second, right, ell motion, Just give
26:27
me a second. Let me finish this so you can have my full attention.
26:32
That's how I've been operating for a while. Let me finish this thought
26:37
and then I can give you my full attention. That is being respectful of
26:41
each other's time and energy. Yeah, I'm asking right when you're talking to
26:48
somebody and they're doing this and doing that, and you're over here talking to
26:52
them, but they're doing all this stuff, and I'm just like, you're
26:56
you're not even catching what I'm saying. You're not in it. You're not
26:57
in this conversation with me. So when you have a minute, let me
27:03
know when I can have your attention. It makes sense to me because I've
27:07
even done automatic writing. I can't even imagine because you're getting you're receiving information
27:11
and you're writing down the information, and to me, it's probably no different
27:14
than what you're doing right then because you're in the flow of things. You're
27:17
you know, boom boom boom, getting this stuff done, and then all
27:19
of a sudden it takes you all that connection and then it's like meditation.
27:22
Right. Sometimes it's not always that could get right back into that space.
27:26
It's not easy to get right back in that space, is what I was
27:27
going to say, which the universe hears that it's easy. I like that
27:32
conversation. Actually, it's not a bad conversation. It's easy to get back
27:36
into that space easy. Maybe that's what we're learning to get back into those
27:40
spaces a lot quicker instead of being in that space. But I also know
27:44
that these these ladies in the office, like they're they could be I'm gonna
27:53
put it say, and when I say they are, I'm I say they
27:56
could be still in that space of needing to be seen and heard. And
28:00
that's one way they can do it that they just ran. Yeah, I
28:10
was gonna say, even fearful, fearful they're gonna do something wrong, They're
28:12
interrupting, you know, dad doing his work or something like that. I'm
28:17
sorry, I got to come in here and get something real quick. This
28:18
the only reason I want to come in here otherwise, But i got to
28:21
come in here to get this. And I'm sorry. It's in your space,
28:23
you know, and then you there's no control over it by for anybody.
28:27
So and it's being okay with that. It's not a it's not a
28:30
bad thing. Well I know, I know. It's part of it is
28:36
they're just needing to be seen and heard and from a person who's kind of
28:45
introverted. And I'm quiet for most most of the part, like the majority
28:51
of my I'm just an observer. I'm listening, I'm observing. I'm just
28:56
I'm pretty quiet, believe it or not. Unless I teaching, I can
29:00
talk for hours. So when I'm in that space, the quiet or the
29:08
solitude and being in that creative mode and all that, that other extra noise
29:17
is just so distracting, especially especially I mean, like if there was some
29:22
music playing, that wouldn't bother me, right, because that's there, and
29:25
it's it's it's just there, but an unexpected interruption it just throws you off
29:33
kilter. So anyway, yeah, and maybe that is I think about you
29:42
when you're out there, it's easy to get back and I'd like that that
29:47
affirmation. Yeah, yeah, it's because it's totally opposite of what we're thinking.
29:52
But it's because that's been our experience. But it doesn't have to continue
29:55
being our experience. So listen and learned people, Right, it's right,
29:59
it's a choice. We can stay in those places. We can stay in
30:02
the place of struggle. We can stay. I mean, we can do
30:03
anything, and there's not and it's not right or wrong. It doesn't matter.
30:07
It might be from the view of somebody else because maybe it bothers them.
30:10
You know, it's affecting their thoughts. Now you're affecting how they're seeing
30:14
the world, and God forbid. But no, it's not even it's it's
30:18
not good or bad. It's your own experience. And that's why I go
30:22
back to the same thing that how did you feel when you were having that
30:23
conversation, Like, how did it feel? Didn't feel good? Okay,
30:27
Well, maybe don't be a party to that conversation again, Maybe don't dip
30:30
into the conversation or dip into the energy of another person or and that's easy,
30:36
especially when it comes to your grandkids. It's you can get right into
30:38
that energy right this moment, or you can stay back out of it.
30:42
And I recognize that I see things. It's reminding us again when something's showing
30:48
up in our experience, there's a reason it's showing up in our experience.
30:52
So we can get pissed off of the people around us, we can push
30:53
against them and everything else, but they're in our experience for a reason.
30:57
So we don't have to carry this stuff anymore. So we can move forward,
31:00
and so we can be You want to be free. That's how you're
31:03
free. That's how you're free yourself. Free yourself from these limitations that you
31:07
put on yourself. Celebrate people when they're when they're doing great, send them
31:12
prayers when when you think they're not doing so great. And of course that's
31:17
a judgment thing, but you could just send prayers all the time, Listen
31:18
them strings of grace all the time, whether they're whether you perceive them to
31:22
be in a good space or a bad space. It's just it's just those
31:25
thoughts, and they go so such a long way. Yeah, and then
31:30
something i'd been I came back to is when I'm on my way to work,
31:36
it's I start sending my intentions. Am I going to show up today?
31:41
What's my intentions for today? What am I going to do today?
31:47
Well, I'm going to be focused, I'm going to be productive, I'm
31:51
going to be kind and understanding. Right, So I set those intentions for
31:56
myself, and when I do that, it's the day is just amazing,
32:00
so much easier. And they're and I'm not going to say I am a
32:09
perfect, perfect at what I'm about to say. However, I know I
32:14
don't do it as often is they're very wrapped up in the drama of things.
32:20
They're very wrapped up in the wrongness right, who did them wrong?
32:24
And if only they would change? Type of stories. And so while they're
32:30
talking, my mind is thinking, how can I switch the energy of this
32:37
conversation? How can I you know, can I help them see the things
32:45
to be grateful for about any of it? Can I help them see how
32:51
it's serving a purpose? So I've been working on that as far as the
32:59
energy and these conversations that I get to hear every day for the most part,
33:05
most days, not every day most days. So and sometimes it's they
33:12
don't have anybody else and to really hear them and vent and have a sounding
33:17
board or get some feedback. Like one person I know of is that way,
33:22
like she needs to get it out because she doesn't really have a sounding
33:29
board. So and then it's a place of space of no judgment because you're
33:34
you're not going to judge them for their experience right now. You're gonna help
33:38
them. Because we've talked about this before. When we when we say things
33:43
out loud, we kind of resolve things. We can get into more of
33:45
a solution minded place or like aha moments like all the time. And then
33:50
especially when you have someone then you can sit and talk to about this stuff
33:53
and then they have experiences with stuff and can give different perspectives. And we've
33:58
talked about that all along. Everybody you can have people like this in their
34:00
life. It's really back to setting intentions. Right. Even when I worked
34:04
for the jail, I remember always telling myself and it's before I even knew
34:07
what intentions were or you know, creating your day. I didn't know any
34:12
of that stuff that I just remember. I would always say that everybody loves
34:15
me, everybody respects me. You know, everything's always even everybody's safe and
34:20
happy, and I'm working out a freaking jail for God's sake. So when
34:23
I can go in and they're all happy to see me because I'm there,
34:27
you know, whether it's up to the inmates or my peers or whatever,
34:30
it's because things would flow different. They would be different. I could come
34:35
in after a riot had happened and it would be totally it would be totally
34:40
different. It wouldn't It would be no big deal at all, when it
34:44
would have been a big deal before that. So it's those setting those intentions
34:46
or having those thoughts as you're going. You may think that it's nothing at
34:50
all, but it really was something. And even if something happens in your
34:53
day, it was probably less of something that happened during the day than it
34:59
could have been. It could have probably been so much worse. And then
35:01
you get wrapped into the story right right when you're back then into that story.
35:05
Now you're into that space, and now you're feeding a beast that you
35:07
don't want to feed. Perhaps maybe you do want to feed that beast.
35:12
I don't know that's your choice, but I think that mostly we don't want
35:16
to. We want to. We like to feel good. And that's the
35:20
whole thing. We pushed ourselves past the feel good points too many times in
35:23
our lifetime is because we did things because we had to do them, because
35:27
we were told that we had to do them by our parents, by a
35:30
teachers, by whatever. So it's just realizing that we have so much more
35:35
control than probably we did when we were kids, but we have the capability
35:39
even still having control then. And that's where I spend a lot of time
35:44
really asking self, how can I show up better? For It's not just
35:47
for the grand babies, it's for the parents, because the parents are having
35:51
all these struggles withinside themselves and it trickles down. It's the ripple, right,
35:55
you're driving to work, It's like, how can I ripple? What's
35:58
my ripple going to be today? What do I ripple out to the world
36:00
today? So it's like it's being in that same space. And then again,
36:04
of course reminding yourself just didn't feel good. It doesn't feel good to
36:07
get into an argument with the child. It never does and it's never going
36:10
to go anywhere. And I remember, and I say that now because I
36:15
remember my youngest she I could say, oh, the school, the school,
36:19
the sky is blue, and she'd say, no, it's light blue.
36:22
That was the way it always was, so her literal. So now
36:24
I see those conversations kind of happening in her experience, now that the sun
36:30
is now arguing with her about the same things. And then I'm sitting there
36:34
and she's like, yeah, that's right, because the sky is blue outside.
36:37
Do you want to argue about that? And I'm thinking, well,
36:39
he could, he could because you have argued about that when you were younger.
36:44
So it's just interesting. It's funny. It's a lot of growing.
36:49
It can be funny, right if we want it to be, if we
36:51
want to have fun with it and not get all wrapped up in it.
36:54
Oh for sure, I uh yeah, Just I mean because for what a
37:02
handful of years I spent with me right here doing my thing, and now
37:09
being out in the public a whole lot more and hearing these conversations and the
37:16
way people talk and how they feel when they're saying these, you know,
37:21
and and definitely gives me an opportunity to check in. It's important. I
37:31
feel like it's super important for you. So this is like a layer,
37:35
right, and then this is good for both of us for all of us.
37:38
But this is like a layer that you're dealing with right now. You're
37:40
dealing with it without you being on the stage, without you doing that solely
37:45
a talking to people and doing all that stuff continually, because then you get
37:49
you can get caught up in people's stuff too, But you're going through this
37:52
these phases now so that when you get into bigger groups like that, you're
37:54
totally unaffected by those by the thoughts and their emotions unless it's uplifting. Of
38:00
course, if it's uplifting and if they feel like they're flying high, hook
38:04
into that, like really connect into that, go as high as you possibly
38:07
can. I would always tell people to do that, but it's like,
38:10
to me, it's like practice for you to it's this is practices that are
38:15
going on for the next phase because this right here is easier to tolerate than
38:20
the other side of that because it could be a lot, especially because people's
38:23
energy can be dreaming if we allow it. Right. Yeah, And I've
38:30
noticed that too, that when those days that I'm not giving attention to myself
38:34
and my energy, like at the end of the day, I'm just like,
38:38
eh, like that, and I understand that. Yeah, So it's
38:50
definitely important for us all to be aware of how we're feeling, and that
38:57
just goes deeper with how do you feel mentally, emotionally, physically, and
39:02
spiritually. To me, those all four of those are important when you're when
39:08
special well, it's important period, and it's extra important when you're going to
39:15
be out and around other people are even watching. Even if I want to
39:22
get wrapped in, you don't want to get wrapped in and have a moment,
39:27
right It's one thing to be able to do with the way we're doing
39:29
it, and we do it with friends and stuff like that. It's another
39:32
thing when you're in a huge you know, just being so seen. Yeah,
39:37
that's that's a process too. So it's like even right now, God,
39:40
you really are on. You're really on for this next stage really and
39:45
and stage more than more than just stage. It's us standing on a stage.
39:51
So it's really part of a preparation for the next part. It really
39:54
is. That's just what's what I'm feeling right now. I really do feel
39:58
like it has there's so much learning to be done in those moments that and
40:04
then recognizing being unaffected by things like that, it's really huge. It's really
40:07
huge. You really had it into an amazing direction. Have you done your
40:14
have you done your just don't? Have you done your twelve card? You're
40:17
reading for next year? Yet I thought I was reading yesterday. I'm like,
40:22
oh, it's just about time. So probably in the next this week
40:24
and next week. No, that's not on the lists. Next week has
40:36
got got a lot of activities going on. But that was the other thing
40:38
you talked about earlier, about the things I have going on and and then
40:45
having time and all that stuff. It's really, you know, just picking
40:52
and choosing what's important right now. What is it I need to do right
40:58
now, and give attention to that. And that's been another check in for
41:02
myself because before, if I got you overwhelmed with having so much to do,
41:10
I would shut down and then nothing would get done. And that's not
41:15
good. When you have momentum going and a shutdown, that is not good.
41:17
So it's okay. So that's another check in, is the overwhelm.
41:24
Did I started to feel that energy and I was like, Okay, hold
41:28
on, what do I have to give my attention to right now in the
41:32
short amount of time that I have to do this? And so so,
41:37
picking and choosing and then also coming back to a phrase that helps me a
41:44
lot is I have all the time, space and energy I need to complete
41:47
the tacity my attention today. And I say that over and over and over,
41:53
and I tell you what, it's amazing how things happened, because,
41:58
for example, today I am I have this and I have an energy clearing,
42:06
and then I'm leaving town and I will be back tomorrow. And then
42:09
on Tuesday night I was supposed to have, you know, Tuesday, I
42:13
was gonna be off Monday, Tuesday work all day. And then there was
42:17
a commitment I made for Tuesday night, and then I just this was I
42:27
just found this out that Wednesday, I'm leaving coming back Thursday. So but
42:31
that's that that the Wednesday, Thursday wasn't on the table yet. But there
42:36
were other things already in motion for next week that was or for this week
42:40
that was starting to amp up my overwhelm, and I'm like, oh,
42:45
there's a lot going on right now that I commit Now, that is my
42:49
responsibility. I committed to it. And so I was like taking that piece
42:53
and going you did this. Nobody else did this too. You you did
42:58
this, So are we going to move through this right, Well, I
43:01
start thinking, I start saying all the time, space and energy I need
43:07
complete testing my attention. And the event for Tuesday evening got canceled. Nice,
43:15
I'm like, all right, cool, well then it there there were
43:22
actually two two commitments for that night, so I got a substitute for one
43:25
and was going to go do the other one. Well, then the Wednesday
43:29
Thursday came up and it was like, okay, well, now I can
43:36
do the first Tuesday commitment that I had that I got a replacement for.
43:39
I can do that because now I need that person who is going to replace
43:43
me on Tuesday to fill in for me on Thursdays. It's just like things
43:49
just just they just work, and it's just so fun to watch it.
43:53
And that's where I'm meant now because before there would have been the overwhelmed,
43:58
there would have been a lot of resistance, there would have been the shutdown,
44:00
there would have been all kinds of like heaviness to the experiences. And
44:07
now I'm like, okay, well I'm interested to see where this goes that
44:13
I got myself into and just let things unfold and it's been It's a lot
44:17
more fun that way it is, and when I have experiences similar to that,
44:23
because that's I'm you know, it's just one of my things too.
44:28
I start asking spirit, like if I put too many people on the calendar,
44:30
I'm like, if you think that I can't handle this, or if
44:32
this isn't good for me to be doing seeing this many people or whatever,
44:37
have one of them canceler and I will tell you almost every single time they'll
44:40
cancel. Yeah, So it really And so I kind of put it over
44:45
to that because sometimes I do I do the same thing. You can kind
44:49
of overcommit and it's like, well, I meant well because I know the
44:51
person really wanted but then again the person really wanted it, right, So
44:54
it's really paying attention to how did I get to where I got to because
44:58
I was I trying to please people. So it's recognizing the same behaviors,
45:01
the same behaviors that I've done, but on another level right without it.
45:07
But this comes back to the beginning of the conversation. It's having awareness,
45:10
having an awareness. What do I like. We've been talking about this and
45:15
I've been bringing it up to you. I like to be able to go
45:16
help my kids out. I like to be able to go pay for things
45:20
when they don't expect it. I'd like to surprise and delight them. I
45:22
love it. So it's like being in that space with people. I love
45:27
to go get gifts. And for the longest time, I wasn't doing buying
45:30
anybody gifts or doing any of that stuff because I was always with the energy
45:34
of the not enough money or of the lack of or not coming in.
45:37
And as soon as you start thinking that way, you stop the flow.
45:39
I would stop the flow of whatever what's happening. So I'm talking to archangel
45:44
Raguell and I'm talking about, Yeah, it's just so easy to be in
45:47
that space. And I'm recognizing and I look at my bills this morning,
45:50
and I'm like, I love paying my bills. It's because I want to
45:53
approach. It gave me goosebumps at my chest area just now, but it's
45:57
to be in Huh. I just got goosebumps too. And you said that
46:01
nice, and it's like that wouldn't have been my conversation before. But it's
46:05
all these little fine details. That's why I keep telling people. Someone could
46:08
tell me and I could tell someone else, Well, you got blocks in
46:10
yourself, that's why you don't have it. If you don't have it,
46:14
you got blocks. If it's not going the way you want it, you
46:15
got blocks. And it's not like oh, getting all pissed off and pushing
46:19
the blocks away that I have tried to do in the past. It doesn't
46:21
work, guys, does not work. It'll show up in another way,
46:23
passively to resistance. It's always there. It'll be someone that you love and
46:28
it'll show up for you that that can trigger you, and then you'll take
46:30
time to take a look at it instead of being triggered by it, or
46:34
you won't be triggered as long. But it's being in those times to recognize
46:38
how am I? How am I showing up? How am I showing up?
46:40
When I think about my bills, it seems to come up in the
46:44
middle of the night, and the conversations will start coming up, and they're
46:46
like shitty conversations. I'm like, yeah, but this isn't even true.
46:50
It's not even true. I got an archangel, Ragoil. I'll be fine,
46:53
everything's fine. He's gonna help me balance out things and I'll figure it
46:55
all out. Like it's good, it's perfect. I'm in perfect place right
47:00
now to evolve and resolve probably issues that I've had in many lifetimes. It's
47:05
not even just from here and from family, from ancestors like the trickle down.
47:09
Okay, let's do it then, And it's so simple, But it's
47:14
just being aware of what my thoughts were, how my feelings were when I
47:16
thought about those bills. Well, I'm excited because I even have anything to
47:21
be able to create a bill with. Right, I'm excited because I have
47:24
so many potential possibilities of ways for money to come in. And then that's
47:29
another thing, noticing where you're restricting the flow. Is it only coming from
47:31
work? Is it coming from the lottery only? Is it coming from you
47:35
know? It's like, okay, universe, surprise and delight me. Show
47:38
me all the many possible amazing ways that money can show up for me,
47:44
or abundance can show up for me, or my relationships can show up for
47:46
me or whatever whatever, and then start making a list. And that's this
47:52
is a spirit obviously, is talking to me making a list of the things
47:54
that you like, and then start going from there like we're kind of whittling
47:59
through it a bit and seeing what you like and what you don't like.
48:01
We've spent so much time just doing things because we feel like we have to
48:06
do those things we have to. Yeah. Yeah, the tribes are not
48:10
out there waiting to come and eat you at your front door, or they're
48:15
just not it's just not even like that. So it's like we get we
48:17
put so much emphasis on things that are so not valuable to us, and
48:22
putting emphasis on energy that's not helping us to create the things that we want.
48:28
You're creating, but it may not necessarily be what you want. So
48:31
nicely, I get to tell myself, well, that's great, Beth.
48:34
You got to have that experience. What now you already have the experience of
48:37
a struggle, You've already had the experience of lack. What now surprising to
48:42
light the universe hum ready and to do it and leaning on the universe,
48:49
the angels, God, whoever whoever is in spirit in that spiritual energy,
48:55
lean and ask them for help and guidance and to assist you and to surprise
49:02
and delight you. And and but also recognizing that your energy is is a
49:07
little more elevated than typical. So just checking in with yourself on that.
49:15
And when you talked about money, I just want to put this in there
49:17
real quick because I thought it was It was great because I listened to he's
49:22
Japanese and he's a he's a teacher about manifesting and and he's been interviewed by
49:30
Alex Ferrari and Michael Bernard back with and I've listened to him a couple of
49:34
times. More of the things he said is he says, of course money's
49:38
energy. And he says, you know, when I spend money, I
49:44
just say thank you for for being with me. And next time you come
49:47
back, bring more of your friends. I was like, oh, I
49:52
like that when you come back and visit, bring like that's cool? Is
50:04
cool? So light, so light, so tight and so light and flippy,
50:08
awesome, any other words, sister, before we call it good.
50:15
I think that's good. That's plenty of food for thoughts. Yeah, So
50:20
check in with yourself, see how you're doing. Every experience is going to
50:23
give you that opportunity on some level to check in with you, with you,
50:28
with yourself, to see how you're doing, how you've progressed. And
50:31
that's what I would say is give yourself kudos on how much you how far
50:36
you've progressed, how well you are doing, how much better you're doing now
50:39
than you were then, So we are always given that opportunity, so so
50:45
use it as a learning experience. Be a student in your life instead of
50:51
a victim, and see how life blossoms or flourish is more when you're when
50:59
you're in that space. So with that, thank you for hanging out with
51:04
us for tea time with Amy and Bev. Share us with your friends and
51:07
family, because you know people need to hear this kind of these kinds of
51:12
conversations that are of guidance of upliftment, of tips and tricks, and give
51:22
more attention to this kind of stuff, whether it's with us or or other
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podcasters, and be sure to share them because that helps us grow. And
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I'm not just speaking for Bev and I, I'm speaking for any podcasts you
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listen to. If you're getting something valuable out of it, you got to
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share it. Just don't keep it to yourself. I know I share this
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with friends and family. If I'm listening to a podcast I think is somebody,
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I will send them the link. I will post it in my Facebook
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groups. So be sure to share anything that's you. Our feeling is valuable.
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So with that, thank you, for hanging out with us. We
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appreciate your time and energy and we will see you next time than bye,