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don’t become obsessed with sadness · feel your feelings with Ethan Jewell

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  Pain is so comforting. Despair is easy.
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  I often carry the life view of everything sucks.
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  The world is on fire, and there's nothing that I can do
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  about it. So I might as well be hopeless
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  about everything. However, recently I've realized
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  that there is so much more to life than that.
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  Hey, there and welcome back to another episode of feel your
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  feelings, with me. Ethan Jewel.
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  This is a podcast, I started all about mental health.
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  Now, I'm not a doctor or a psychiatrist.
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  Diet, restore a professional in the mental health industry.
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  I'm just a normal guy who has felt some big feelings is super
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  passionate about mental health and wants to start the
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  conversation. So, thank you so much for being
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  here. And as always, let's feel some
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  feelings. Pain is so comfortable, and I've
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  lived with that comfort for several years.
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  Now, it's become a big part of who I am.
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  I used to be somebody who was really, really happy and
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  energetic and motivated and never really felt any feelings
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  of depression or sadness. And then one day, everything
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  kind of Switched. And I fell and I fell into this
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  character of hopelessness and despair and I engaged in
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  negative thinking patterns and that fall was exhilarating, see
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  that? Part of what is so appealing
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  about pain and despair. Pain and despair are
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  spectacular. They AR exhilarating, while
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  self-betterment and building yourself up is slow, quiet and
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  boring. Living in despair living.
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  In pain is fascinating and it is easy.
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  It is so easy. There is comfort in despair.
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  There is comfort in pain. It's very predictable.
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  It's very easy. You know how you're going to
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  feel you won't feel Disappointment, you won't get
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  let down, you won't feel rejection.
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  You won't ever feel anything other than dull, you know, what
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  to expect. And that is very, very
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  comforting at times. And the fall itself is
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  spectacular, I remember the feeling over a year or two as I
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  slowly got worse and worse as my mental health.
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  Worsened people, worried I worried and I liked it, it felt
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  great at times and I feel weird saying that and you We never
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  heard anyone say that, but getting worse was a fascinating
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  spectacle that I couldn't get away from.
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  And honestly, at the time, I didn't even see anything wrong
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  with it. I didn't see anything wrong with
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  finding comfort in pain. I didn't see anything wrong with
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  having an Outlook of Despair on the world.
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  I didn't see anything wrong with thinking everything is
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  pointless. There is no point.
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  It was so comfortable. However, it's simply not worth
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  it to be stuck like that. Yes, it is easy.
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  And yes, it Is comfortable but to imply that despair is
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  everywhere is to imply, that beautiful moment.
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  Shared between people have no point it implies that our
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  existence and other people's existence and our connections
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  are pointless and I just can't buy that.
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  I can't believe that over the past year and especially in the
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  past couple of months I have been really, really, really
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  trying to improve my mental health for the first time in
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  several years, I have really been working.
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  Get better and it's slow, its monotonous.
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  It's not a spectacle, it's boring getting better as way,
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  more boring than getting worse. However, I've begun to see
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  beauty and things again. I've begun to see Beauty in
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  day-to-day moments in life. And I'm appreciating the moment
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  and it is a much better way to live as somebody who has
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  experienced both the comfort of pain and the monotony of getting
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  better. I would choose the monotony
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  every single time I'm life can be so beautiful when I go into a
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  field and I feel the breeze and I soak in the sun, I just think
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  that it has to mean something. I can't buy that there is
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  nothing but pain and despair in that there's so much Beauty in
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  life, a good friend called me a few days ago.
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  He checked in on how I'm doing. I told him, I told him the ins
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  and outs of how I am how I'm trying to get better.
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  I asked him how he's doing. He told me the ins and Of his
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  life the projects that he's working on the friends that he's
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  made the connections that he's fallen into and we laughed and
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  we talked and we shared a connection and that means
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  something there is a point to that there is no despair or pain
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  to be found in the beauty of human connection.
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  Human connection is such a powerful thing.
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  Life is such a powerful thing, the ability to sit in a field
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  and feel the Sun and feel the breeze is a powerful thing and
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  we all deserve to feel that we all deserve to feel more than
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  pain. We deserve to feel more than
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  despair. Yes, it's comforting.
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  Yes, it can feel nice. Yes, the fall is spectacular.
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  But the Quiet Moments of life being able to sit with your
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  thoughts and not feel pain being able to talk to others and not
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  think that it is pointless. That is the most beautiful
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  thing. You can do getting better is not
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  glamorous, but there is so much Beauty to appreciate in
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  day-to-day life that we have to get better.
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  As I've gone on this journey to try to improve my mental health.
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  I've realized that and I've realized how much I missed out
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  on while I was engulfing myself in my own pain and it's not an
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  easy process. I haven't flipped a switch and
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  suddenly felt better. I still have off days most days
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  even on my days. I can suddenly start feeling bad
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  but I continue working towards getting better.
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  I keep moving. And in that alone, I find
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  beauty. People always say to zoom out
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  and see the bigger perspective. But me, I say zoom in look
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  smaller it closed in your life and see how beautiful everything
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  can be when you zoom in on your day-to-day, hour-to-hour minute
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  to minute and you drooly breathe and take time to She ate your
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  surroundings, take time to appreciate connections.
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  Take time to feel the sun, feel the breeze and realize that you
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  are a human and you are here to feel complicated.
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  Emotions. You are here to experience life
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  and that there is more to life than Despair and pain when you
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  feel that when you realize that it's all.
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  So, so worth it. So I encourage you to zoom in to
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  try to shake the despair. And pain as good as it feels as
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  comfortable as it can be. There's so much more out there.
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  You deserve to feel happiness day-to-day, you deserve to feel
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  motivation to get out of bed in the morning, you deserve to want
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  to keep going and you can that exists.
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  And I believe that you'll get there zoom in and keep moving.
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  There is more to life than our pain.
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  That's going to wrap it up for today's episode.
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  Thank you so much for being here with me.
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  If you need help, feeling your feelings, go check out my music
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  on all platforms. Ethan Jewel.
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  Also I'm going on tour in less than a month all up the west
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  coast of North America. So you should go to my website,
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  Ethan Jewel.com and see if I'm playing a show near you.
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  I'll be playing my music and giving talks just like this.
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  Also please message me on my Instagram at Jewel, boy
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  underscore and let me know what you thought about today's Is
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  episode. Thank you so much for being
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  here. Thank you so much for finding
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  the beauty and things outside of your pain.
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  And as always, thank you for feeling your feelings.
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  I'll see you next time. Is episode.
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  Thank you so much for being here.
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  Thank you so much for finding the beauty and things outside of
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  your pain. And as always, thank you for
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  feeling your feelings. I'll see you next time.