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2018 throwback: ego -- the projector and protector · faafo with courtney

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  All right. So I want to tell y 'all something
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  funny. Well, it is funny. It's funny to me now,
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  but I don't know. I don't have like my vocabulary
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  sucks. So I don't know if this is a parable or
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  metaphor or whatever the hell it is, but whatever.
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  So observation. And I was having this conversation
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  with someone the other day. I don't know who
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  it was. Probably three people. It's probably
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  happened three times because I'm doing a video
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  about it. But anyway, our egos and like. How
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  nobody ever wants to admit that we have an ego
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  and we get in our ego. So but it's and I, you
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  know, I'll be the first to admit that, like,
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  I don't have an ego, like whatever. Right. But
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  then when I really sat and watched myself and
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  then watch others in the group and then watch
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  all of us as a collective, you start to see the
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  different ways that ego shows up. Right. So one
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  of the funny ways that ego shows itself and it's
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  cute and it's very innocent, but it's just, again,
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  another way to look at it. Like as we judge other
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  people, how we ourselves do things. not realizing
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  we be in our feelings aka ego so one when we
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  go into um like our quote unquote caves or whatever
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  like no matter how many times i say we are not
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  alone we are one or that you see it and that
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  you even say it we have a tendency to still fall
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  into our ego when like For example, like when
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  people still come into my inbox, right? And say
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  something to me and I'm like posted in the group.
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  We're not alone. Like we're not the only one.
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  And it's not like we're even thinking about it
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  or that you guys are even thinking about it.
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  And not just to me or anybody else, but if we're
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  saying we're not alone and I'm saying that over
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  and over and over again, our ego automatically
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  kicks in and it's just like, no, my situation
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  is unique. This is different. And then you end
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  up in somebody's inbox and that shit is hilarious
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  because we don't even realize we're doing it.
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  And our ego is like this little fucking devil
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  that sits on our corner. And it's like, no, you
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  go get attention because what you're feeling
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  right now is different than everybody else. So
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  you go talk to Courtney and... Tell her how you're
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  feeling and why you're running to your cave because
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  we're special. All right. So that's one. And
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  then two is, this one just might be a little
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  bit more sensitive, but this one, this doesn't
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  happen. Actually, it hasn't happened at all in
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  a while or whatever, but it, and not with anybody
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  in the group, but it happened when I was inviting
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  people to, I think the, the, what would be the
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  fourth group, whatever. So people will say, no,
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  I'm too busy. I don't have time for a group or
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  anything like that or whatever. Or, oh, here's
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  a perfect example. So I've watched this actually
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  with friends on the group, friends and family
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  member or whatever, right? We'll say, we don't
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  want to do. we don't want to work with people
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  and I think I mentioned this about my sister
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  we'll say we don't want to work with people right
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  because it's too complicated it's too difficult
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  it's too challenging or whatever excuses that
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  we have that makes us feel uncomfortable with
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  working with people and then as opposed to like
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  really figuring out like why do we sometimes
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  feel like we don't want to work with people right
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  is it because they're too much of a reflection
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  of us does it require too much work Is it because
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  we're afraid that our shadow self is going to
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  come out and they're going to see something in
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  us that we can't hide? Because it's a lot easier
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  to hide our layers and our mask and our shadow
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  self with one person than it is a group of people.
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  Because inevitably, all the people are going
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  to be reflecting our shit back to us, right?
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  And inevitably, having a group of people is going
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  to, one person, at least one person in that group
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  is going to be able to uncover our shit, right?
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  So anyway, so people have run out of a group,
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  but then they might run to one person in the
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  group to have conversations with. And it's, again,
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  kind of like our ego kicking in and it's like,
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  I don't want to work in the group, but I want
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  your attention by myself to myself. That's like
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  some spoiled stuff or whatever. And I don't know,
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  maybe somebody needed to hear that message today,
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  but I just thought that was kind of funny. So
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  all of this. i don't know what's gonna happen
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  this week but there's a theme around time and
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  retreating to our caves and as it relates to
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  us stepping into our work and springtime springing
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  forward i don't know i haven't really put it
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  together but it's actually um really interesting
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  though because it's kind of like we went from
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  this heavy sad purging to like stripping our
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  clothes off purging like i realized that like
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  my guys and stuff or whatever have like switched
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  up i don't know they're having like spring fever
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  or something over there but it's actually pretty
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  beautiful so it's more of a light -hearted playful
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  kind of thing i hope y 'all are feeling the same
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  way because if you're still doing like winter
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  purging and taking off winter clothes as opposed
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  to like spring fling hey i'm here i'm not perfect
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  but you know yeah so about that i would share
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  that i hope y 'all are feeling it