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THE DISCLAIMER: Undiagnosed · The Hauraki Big Show

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  Speaker 1: Hey! Here we go.
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  Speaker 3: Four to seven every weekday.
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  Speaker 2: On Radio Hodak here. Oh!
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  Speaker 3: Oh, g'day fellas! Hello.
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  Speaker 2: Um.
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  Speaker 4: It was funny, actually, because my boss just said to
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  Speaker 4: me in the off, did you hear him, Mogi?
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  Speaker 2: Don't know.
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  Speaker 4: He said to me, do you realise, do you have
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  Speaker 4: some sort of earworm or something? And I said, what
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  Speaker 4: do you mean? And he said, oh, I'm just... wondering
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  Speaker 4: if you're aware of the fact that you just constantly
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  Speaker 4: make a lot of noises.
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  Speaker 2: Did he say that?
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  Speaker 3: He said that, which I went, hang on.
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  Speaker 2: He's the last person.
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  Speaker 3: Yeah, hang on here.
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  Speaker 4: But I replied to him and I said, yes, I
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  Speaker 4: am aware of the fact that I do that. And
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  Speaker 4: then it's just funny because... I've been coming in and
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  Speaker 4: out of the studio listening to Mogi.
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  Speaker 3: Do you think that we have... What is that? I
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  Speaker 3: don't know what that is.
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  Speaker 2: ADHD? I think it is. There was a great comment
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  Speaker 2: on that video that you guys sent, or that Keezy
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  Speaker 2: sent me with the.
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  Speaker 3: Oh, you and the... Yes, in the kitchen.
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  Speaker 2: And the comment was, ADHD is like being possessed by
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  Speaker 2: your personality or some shit like that.
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  Speaker 4: Right.
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  Speaker 2: Oh, interesting. Something along those lines, and it had like
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  Speaker 2: 130,000 likes. But yeah, you're just nonstop. You're nonstop, and
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  Speaker 2: you don't even notice it. Well, I don't. I notice
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  Speaker 2: it in you. I mean, you seem like an insane man. Yeah.
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  Speaker 2: And then Toddy, he's got a fucking cheek.
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  Speaker 3: Yeah, well, that's what I mean. I was like, excuse me.
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  Speaker 5: So you'll notice that my desk is directly opposite him,
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  Speaker 5: and he will put on headphones and have no idea
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  Speaker 5: what's coming out of his mouth, and it'll be this.
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  Speaker 5: It'll be him tapping on the keyboard, and it'll be.
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  Speaker 2: So there you go. So what we've found is there's
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  Speaker 2: something wrong with pugs. Yeah. Because three out of four
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  Speaker 2: backbones are off their fucking heads. Yeah, yeah, yeah.
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  Speaker 3: I'm too straight edge, fellas.
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  Speaker 2: I've got to loosen up a little bit, get some.
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  Speaker 4: Yeah, well, I do like, I wonder how my wife
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  Speaker 4: deals with it because I actually don't think I'm as
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  Speaker 4: bad at home.
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  Speaker 3: But I probably am.
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  Speaker 2: You are.
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  Speaker 3: You're in your sanctuary.
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  Speaker 2: My wife said to, it must have been to my brother,
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  Speaker 2: she said, you can hear me coming from over a
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  Speaker 2: block away. So it's good. She said it's good because
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  Speaker 2: it gives her time to get her kid into bed
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  Speaker 2: because she always lets her stay up later.
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  Speaker 1: Yes.
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  Speaker 2: And to tidy the house up.
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  Speaker 3: Yeah.
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  Speaker 2: You know, she's got about five minutes. It's a couple
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  Speaker 2: of Ks. Yeah, yeah. Shit, he's going to be upset
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  Speaker 2: about that. I can hear him stimming. That's the one
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  Speaker 2: thing I do notice is the yawn. Yes. I'll go. Yeah, yeah.
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  Speaker 2: And I'll do that walking down Queen Street. Yeah. I've
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  Speaker 2: not seen anyone else doing that.
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  Speaker 3: Nah.
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  Speaker 2: And people turning around and looking.
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  Speaker 3: I'll tell you what I did.
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  Speaker 2: He's literally turning around looking at you. It's fucking.
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  Speaker 4: I'll tell you what I did the other night, and
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  Speaker 4: this is a bit of a reveal about old Hoity J.
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  Speaker 3: It's not great.
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  Speaker 2: Uh-oh.
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  Speaker 3: It's not great. Because my head just yabbers away.
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  Speaker 2: Yeah.
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  Speaker 4: It's just constantly just hammering away at me, and it's
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  Speaker 4: sometimes with thoughts that I really don't appreciate.
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  Speaker 3: You know, just negative thoughts. Intrusive. Intrusive, negative thoughts.
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  Speaker 4: Anxious sort of ridden thoughts. And I was walking down.
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  Speaker 4: I was walking past Sky City after work, actually. And
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  Speaker 4: these thoughts were hammering away. And I had my headphones
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  Speaker 4: on listening to tunes and bloody hammering away there.
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  Speaker 3: And out loud I said to myself, shut the fuck up.
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  Speaker 2: Yep.
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  Speaker 3: Like out loud.
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  Speaker 2: In public.
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  Speaker 3: In public.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah.
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  Speaker 3: And I went, oh, that's not good.
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  Speaker 4: But interestingly, interestingly, interestingly, my head did shut the fuck
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  Speaker 4: up for a couple of hours.
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  Speaker 3: I was just so. over my negative thinking.
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  Speaker 2: But you would have been just solely focused on the
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  Speaker 2: fact that you'd had a verbal outburst in the middle
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  Speaker 2: of the street. Yeah.
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  Speaker 4: That could have very easily turned into an anxiety-ridden thought process,
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  Speaker 4: but it didn't actually. It was just like, shut the
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  Speaker 4: fuck up. And then it was like, okay, good. We've
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  Speaker 4: had our conversation.
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  Speaker 2: That'll learn them in there.
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  Speaker 3: Oh, g'day, Matt. Oh, hi, mate, yeah.
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  Speaker 1: Look, if you want the chance to win all our
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  Speaker 1: on-air competitions and stuff and get amongst the live conversation,
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  Speaker 1: tune in to the Hauraki Big Show, four to seven
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  Speaker 1: weekdays on Radio Hauraki and iHeartRadio.
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  Speaker 3: The Hauraki Big Show Podcast.
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  Speaker 4: But, yeah, I mean, this whole ADHD thing is, you know,
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  Speaker 4: a good friend of ours, she recently got diagnosed with it.
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  Speaker 2: Right.
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  Speaker 3: And, you know, we're actually quite similar people. Yeah. And
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  Speaker 3: she said to me, oh, you 100% have ADHD. But
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  Speaker 3: I also– but.
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  Speaker 2: I do think, like, who– I think there's probably good–
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  Speaker 2: there'll be a spectrum, right? There'll be a line and
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  Speaker 2: you sit on it somewhere. And I don't give a
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  Speaker 2: fuck if I've got– I don't give a shit. I'm
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  Speaker 2: perfectly happy with how things are going.
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  Speaker 3: That's right.
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  Speaker 2: That's right. It does be– because I think once you
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  Speaker 2: get diagnosed, then what?
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  Speaker 3: Drugs.
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  Speaker 2: Exactly. To be diagnosed means that you need treatment, I
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  Speaker 2: would generally think. I don't want any treatment.
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  Speaker 5: Yeah, I think I agree that some people just like
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  Speaker 5: to know. For confirmation, maybe they've had trouble. Like my sister,
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  Speaker 5: for example, she's had a lot of trouble focusing and
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  Speaker 5: things like that, multitasking or whatever. So for her, it's
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  Speaker 5: just a peace.
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  Speaker 3: Of mind thing.
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  Speaker 2: To know what it is. I don't remember.
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  Speaker 5: I don't know what kind of action she's taken. But
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  Speaker 5: in that case, it's good. But for you, it's like,
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  Speaker 5: who cares?
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  Speaker 2: No, that's right. But I do believe that it is
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  Speaker 2: good to know what kind of a machine you're operating, right?
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  Speaker 2: Because you're just in a body.
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  Speaker 1: Yes.
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  Speaker 2: Your personality sits inside it. And you can't help what
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  Speaker 2: it is. So there's no point blaming yourself for the
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  Speaker 2: kind of person you are because it's the body you
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  Speaker 2: were born into and it does its own thing. It
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  Speaker 2: had nothing to do with you. Do you know what
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  Speaker 2: I mean? It's a machine. You've been put into this machine.
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  Speaker 2: But the good thing is to learn how the machine
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  Speaker 2: works and then once you know how it works, to
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  Speaker 2: be able to use that in your favour.
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  Speaker 3: Yes.
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  Speaker 2: If you know what I mean. To your advantage. As
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  Speaker 2: opposed to it being a hindrance.
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  Speaker 4: And that's kind of how I view it in the
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  Speaker 4: sense of, yes, you know, I'm kind of loud. But
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  Speaker 4: it's also a part of who I am. And there
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  Speaker 4: is an equal positive side to the negative.
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  Speaker 3: If there's a negative. And there is a negative.
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  Speaker 4: Because I do get very intrusive thoughts that repeat themselves
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  Speaker 4: over and over in a treadmill.
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  Speaker 3: That's not cool.
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  Speaker 2: Yeah.
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  Speaker 3: That's not cool.
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  Speaker 2: No. But that's the thing. If you've got something that
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  Speaker 2: is negative, then it would be good to have, to
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  Speaker 2: be able to, is there something that can sort that out? Yes.
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  Speaker 2: And I would prefer never to take a drug. Yes.
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  Speaker 2: Unless it comes in a bag.
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  Speaker 3: Well, this is the thing, you know.
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  Speaker 2: Yeah.
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  Speaker 3: That'll straighten your eye out.
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  Speaker 2: I have always. Because you never have voices in your
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  Speaker 2: head after that.
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  Speaker 4: Despite my, you know, addictions and so forth, I've always
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  Speaker 4: been a snob with pills.
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  Speaker 3: I've always been like, nah, nah. Yeah, right.
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  Speaker 4: Nah. You know, and I remember years ago, like we're
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  Speaker 4: talking 20 years ago, getting a prescription for anxiety.
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  Speaker 3: And, you know, I immediately.
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  Speaker 4: Took one and was massively anxious, you know, because I
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  Speaker 4: was like, oh, fuck. What's it going to do to me?
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  Speaker 2: That's also what they do as well, those fucking things.
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  Speaker 3: Yes, yeah.
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  Speaker 2: Because they make you worse for a couple of weeks
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  Speaker 2: or even longer.
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  Speaker 3: They do, yes.
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  Speaker 2: Before you get better.
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  Speaker 3: Yeah.
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  Speaker 2: What the fuck's that?
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  Speaker 4: So it's like it'll be about a month before you
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  Speaker 4: start to feel, you start to normalise.
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  Speaker 3: So in the meantime, you'll have a month of hell,
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  Speaker 3: of madness. And then it might not even work for you.
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  Speaker 3: And then it might not work.
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  Speaker 4: But we'll just, you know, we'll just experiment and see
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  Speaker 4: where we find you at.
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  Speaker 2: Yeah.
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  Speaker 3: Just give me Valium and be done with it, all right?
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  Speaker 2: A few beers.
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  Speaker 4: A few beersies. I tell you what, now give me
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  Speaker 4: a packet of durries, I'll be sweet as. I'll just
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  Speaker 4: go outside and have a durry.
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  Speaker 2: Does that quiet the thoughts down?
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  Speaker 3: Yeah, it does actually.
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  Speaker 2: It gives you something to concentrate on.
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  Speaker 4: Yeah. Yeah.
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  Speaker 3: God, I haven't had a durry in a long time. Truly,
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  Speaker 3: hand on heart. Don't look at me like that, Pugs.
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  Speaker 2: I have a heart. What do you call it there,
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  Speaker 2: magic round? When was that?
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  Speaker 3: Yeah, magic. Yeah, true. Yeah, was it?
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  Speaker 5: A little beer and a burger there, yeah, and you're
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  Speaker 5: having a little sugar.
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  Speaker 2: Yeah.
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  Speaker 3: It's pretty good, man. What, Siggy's?
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  Speaker 4: Well, you know, because Siggy's my greatest love probably of everything.
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  Speaker 2: I don't know why you quit. I really don't.
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  Speaker 3: Yeah, neither do I.
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  Speaker 2: I sincerely think that they're better than vaping.
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  Speaker 3: Yeah, maybe. Maybe, I don't know.
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  Speaker 5: My mum, who's very, like, she doesn't know what goes
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  Speaker 5: on for me a lot of the time, but she
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  Speaker 5: called me one time quite recently and was like, just
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  Speaker 5: whatever you're doing, don't be vaping.
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  Speaker 2: Yeah.
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  Speaker 5: Just whatever you're doing. So I ignored everything.
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  Speaker 3: It was the vape.
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  Speaker 2: It was the vape. It is the vape. What is
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  Speaker 2: in that juice? What is in it? There's nothing natural
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  Speaker 2: in it, I can tell you that much. We don't know.
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  Speaker 2: for people to be fucking hanging off those bastards.
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  Speaker 5: Well, yeah, because you were to hoon on Jase's one
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  Speaker 5: and it just about killed you.
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  Speaker 2: Oh, my God. Yeah. It's like sucking on a fucking,
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  Speaker 2: the exhaust on a truck. It just hit the back
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  Speaker 2: of your throat.
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  Speaker 3: Yeah, it can do that, that one.
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  Speaker 2: And a hell of a load it was.
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  Speaker 1: Hmm?
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  Speaker 2: So I had a couple of goes on it. Yeah, me.
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  Speaker 2: The same thing both times. Yeah, no good. So that's
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  Speaker 2: why I was no good with them. But I don't know,
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  Speaker 2: how many meg is that? Milligrams, you wouldn't even fucking know.
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  Speaker 1: Two.
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  Speaker 2: Fucking Jesus.
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  Speaker 4: What?
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  Speaker 3: Is that a lot, is it? No, because there's four.
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  Speaker 2: I know. I'm sure I used to do two. But
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  Speaker 2: that was, fuck, that was full on. I don't remember
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  Speaker 2: you having a vape. When did you have a vape?
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  Speaker 2: I vaped when me and Jase gave up. And I'd
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  Speaker 2: given up for ages. We gave up for ages. We
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  Speaker 2: did very well, Jase. And then I went down to
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  Speaker 2: live in for a 40th and I was like, ah,
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  Speaker 2: it's going to be no good. So I was going
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  Speaker 2: to grab one of these vapes just to get me
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  Speaker 2: through and it fucking killed me.
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  Speaker 5: Yeah.
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  Speaker 2: So then I ended up on the vape and my
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  Speaker 2: missus did it mine. So then I'm on the couch
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  Speaker 2: and I'm, you know. So then you're straight into that.
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  Speaker 2: And it was, I... have never felt worse in my
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  Speaker 2: life than when I was vaping.
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  Speaker 3: That is, you know, the real, I mean, they're fucked
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  Speaker 3: all over.
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  Speaker 4: But the thing about vapes is, you know, our boss
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  Speaker 4: here was telling me, he vapes in bed, he vapes
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  Speaker 4: on the bog, he vapes everywhere he is.
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  Speaker 3: Yeah, it's too convenient. It's just that, I mean, you
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  Speaker 3: don't light up a ciggy in bed, generally speaking, unless
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  Speaker 3: you've been making love, pugs. So I imagine you've... Spucked
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  Speaker 3: a few in your life I'd.
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  Speaker 5: Probably still go outside I'd be like hey listen.
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  Speaker 2: Yeah I mean the idea of doing that Yeah I
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  Speaker 2: do too Having sex What? The idea.
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  Speaker 3: The idea of having sex Those were the days eh
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  Speaker 3: fellas What?
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  Speaker 2: What days?
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  Speaker 3: The vigorous love making Yes I know, man. You don't
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  Speaker 3: need to fucking tell me that.
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  Speaker 2: Nobody's disputing any of that.
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  Speaker 3: I mean, you're still in that vigorous stage, Bucks. That's
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  Speaker 3: all good. That's all good, man. You're a young fella.
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  Speaker 3: As you should be in that vigorous stage.
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  Speaker 2: They call him Captain Jack, isn't it? Yeah.
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  Speaker 3: So good.
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  Speaker 2: Hey, if you want more of that.
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  Speaker 3: Listen to the big show. What did you think of
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  Speaker 3: my throbber today? A bit outside the box, wasn't it?
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  Speaker 2: He said great variety today for all of us, but
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  Speaker 2: yours is a shitter. Looking forward to it, though. And
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  Speaker 2: you can listen to the throbber.
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  Speaker 3: On the big show.
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  Speaker 5: One day I'll get it out.
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  Speaker 3: Video games or?
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  Speaker 2: Oh, yeah, okay, no. Yummy Boys. It's got to be
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  Speaker 2: the Yummy Boys. You're going for your first win of
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  Speaker 2: the year, Pugs. Have I not had a win this year?
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  Speaker 2: Not even close. Not even close.
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  Speaker 5: Listen to the big show four to seven weekdays on iHeartRadio.
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  Speaker 2: And iHeartRadio, evidently. Four to seven weekdays.
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  Speaker 5: Thanks.