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Episode #328: You’re Not Falling Apart – You’re Being Revealed! · Tea Time w/Amie & Bev

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  Speaker 1: Yeah, you took a breath.
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  Speaker 2: Good morning, everybody, Welcome to tea time with Amy and Bev.
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  Speaker 2: That's just ready to go, Let's go.
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  Speaker 1: These are the days of our lives.
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  Speaker 2: Couldn't tar if you wouldn't stop talking. We can't talk
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  Speaker 2: before recording because we.
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  Speaker 1: Because we have the running.
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  Speaker 3: That's why we start having all these conversations like that
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  Speaker 3: should have been on the recording.
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  Speaker 2: And sometimes it's juicy stuff. I'll tell you some things
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  Speaker 2: we just don't want to say on a recording.
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  Speaker 1: That's true too, so we don't harm our loved ones. No,
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  Speaker 1: just kidding. I'm only kidding a little bit, just a little.
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  Speaker 2: Names are removed to protect the what they think is
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  Speaker 2: innocent exactly. Girl, it's been a week man. Did I
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  Speaker 2: get into a mood and an attitude and F bombs
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  Speaker 2: and all the things for a few day a rogue
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  Speaker 2: because I was in it and I'm still in it,
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  Speaker 2: you know. With the weekend, you get a little bit
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  Speaker 2: of a breath, even though I could take a breath
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  Speaker 2: in the middle of it, and I've talked about it.
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  Speaker 2: We've talked about it here the tools techniques, but I
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  Speaker 2: will say I still have my moment. I still have
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  Speaker 2: this shit buried inside of me that has not come
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  Speaker 2: up yet and has come up this week was a
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  Speaker 2: revealing of what is still left inside of my being.
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  Speaker 1: It was that pretty, but I love it.
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  Speaker 3: And if to go along with that, if you look,
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  Speaker 3: if anyone follows like scientifically stuff, you know that's out there.
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  Speaker 3: The human residence has been saying for the last oh
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  Speaker 3: I think it's almost been two weeks.
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  Speaker 1: That we've been it's been a roller coaster ride.
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  Speaker 3: So if people feel like they're on a roller coaster ride,
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  Speaker 3: because I have, I could be doing great one day
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  Speaker 3: and the next day I could be a blubbering idiot
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  Speaker 3: or and I feel like that sometime. Not that I am,
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  Speaker 3: because I'm not judging myself from that space any longer.
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  Speaker 3: But it has been an emotional ride, and it is
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  Speaker 3: the energies are really evoking all this energy out of
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  Speaker 3: us because it's not benefiting us to keep continue carrying it.
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  Speaker 1: And it's also because we're ready for it to let go.
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  Speaker 3: It's really that easy, and it's just not getting caught
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  Speaker 3: up in this stuff. Although I have, I say that,
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  Speaker 3: but I have in the last few weeks.
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  Speaker 1: It's been a ride.
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  Speaker 3: It's not been pretty and it's doesn't and it's not been.
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  Speaker 3: I would say, probably ultimately in the long run a
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  Speaker 3: little bit beneficial for my relationships, but in the immediate
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  Speaker 3: it wasn't beneficial for my relationships from the way that
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  Speaker 3: it feels and stuff like that.
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  Speaker 1: But I feel like in the.
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  Speaker 3: Long run, there's just like you said, you've got stuff
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  Speaker 3: that's coming forward, and it's got to come forward otherwise
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  Speaker 3: we're still carrying it. And it's just all of a sudden,
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  Speaker 3: the beam of light hit that space and it's like,
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  Speaker 3: what the hell.
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  Speaker 2: And it's everything you're saying is spot onto the fact.
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  Speaker 2: Somebody asked me if Jupiter was in retrograde, and I'm like,
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  Speaker 2: I don't know. Let me find out, because I don't
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  Speaker 2: really follow all that. I just hear it when somebody
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  Speaker 2: says it or it pops up on my social feed
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  Speaker 2: or whatever, and the I'm like, oh, okay, well that explains
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  Speaker 2: a lot. And so I look, no, Jupiter is not
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  Speaker 2: in retrograde. It just came out of retrograde and it's
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  Speaker 2: going to go back in in December. However, there are
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  Speaker 2: four other planets in retrograde right now, and everything you
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  Speaker 2: said validates what the plant planets are saying with this
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  Speaker 2: retrograde is that things are being revealed, the the the negativity,
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  Speaker 2: the emotional roller coaster, the like it's all coming up.
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  Speaker 2: It's like all bubbling to the surface. And then it's
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  Speaker 2: it's being able with all of that. Those who are
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  Speaker 2: are attempting or are I would say I'm more attempting
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  Speaker 2: and I have intention too, But right now I am attempting.
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  Speaker 2: Trust me to stand in the light and to be
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  Speaker 2: that light and to shed a light and to breathe
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  Speaker 2: love into what's happening. It takes a tremendous amount of
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  Speaker 2: steadfast focus, consistency, and it is I've never said that
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  Speaker 2: anything that we talk about is easy. None of it
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  Speaker 2: is easy. And it is definitely an opportunity to notice
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  Speaker 2: what you what feels good to you, and what does
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  Speaker 2: not feel to you feel good to you. I've I've
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  Speaker 2: experienced this. I've been on an immense emotional and mental
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  Speaker 2: roller coaster in this past week. And then experience came
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  Speaker 2: up and I on one day, I was standing in
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  Speaker 2: my power and my confidence and I was accepting a challenge,
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  Speaker 2: but I was ready, like I was putting my armor
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  Speaker 2: on my shoulders, back my head up and I was
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  Speaker 2: stepping into it and I was ready. It's not a fight,
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  Speaker 2: it's a it's not a battle, it's none of those.
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  Speaker 1: To me.
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  Speaker 2: It was a challenge, a challenge to me of can
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  Speaker 2: I stand in the light and share positivity around something
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  Speaker 2: where so much darkness is being focused on? And I
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  Speaker 2: was ready for that. It was an incredible day. I
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  Speaker 2: had so much support human and non human perspective, okay,
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  Speaker 2: because I know I had spirit around me and they
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  Speaker 2: still are and I have my ways of knowing that.
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  Speaker 2: The next day, it seemed like a freaking shit storm.
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  Speaker 2: From six am until about four pm. It didn't seem
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  Speaker 2: like anything was going right. One thing after another just
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  Speaker 2: chopping me at like just chop chop, chop, chop chop.
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  Speaker 2: And I was struggling. I know. I would just say
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  Speaker 2: I did not hold it together whatsoever.
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  Speaker 1: That day.
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  Speaker 2: It was it was unlimited amount of f bombs. It
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  Speaker 2: was a very uncomfortable attitude. It was difficult in seeing
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  Speaker 2: through the eyes of perspective that I was having because
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  Speaker 2: it was not pretty. It wasn't positive by no means,
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  Speaker 2: and every What was interesting though, is people around me
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  Speaker 2: were like, okay, and this is happening and this is happening,
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  Speaker 2: and then they're trying to shed the light on where
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  Speaker 2: I was coming from a more heavy emotionally mentally heavy
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  Speaker 2: be perspective. And then the next day, so this is
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  Speaker 2: three days in a row, I'm high on energy. I'm good.
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  Speaker 2: Next day, boy, things just crapped out. And then the following.
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  Speaker 1: Day was a.
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  Speaker 2: That's just the way it is, Like I just lost
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  Speaker 2: It was like I lost almost all emotions. Like I
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  Speaker 2: was just in this flatline surrender. Somebody would say something
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  Speaker 2: to me, I'm like okay, or they had asked me
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  Speaker 2: a yes or no question, or they would tell me
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  Speaker 2: something was happened. I'm like, okay, yeah, whatever, whatever we
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  Speaker 2: wanna do, it's great. Like even if in my being
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  Speaker 2: I knew was not going to be good, I was like,
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  Speaker 2: here we are. That's the way it is. And I
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  Speaker 2: just most It was that moment of when you're at
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  Speaker 2: such a level of intensity emotional mental intensity, whether it
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  Speaker 2: was a higher vibrational frequency, which was I was on
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  Speaker 2: two days before that, and then I hit the lower
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  Speaker 2: vibrational frequencies all day and then so having that emotional
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  Speaker 2: roller coaster, like you're saying, that third day just color
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  Speaker 2: me done like that was in that moment of I
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  Speaker 2: don't It wasn't that I couldn't take anymore. I didn't
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  Speaker 2: want to take anymore. And I still had several moments
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  Speaker 2: of lower vibrational energy, and I was looking for the good,
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  Speaker 2: so trying to keep myself, pulling myself out of what
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  Speaker 2: I was experiencing. Shining the light on darkness, it takes
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  Speaker 2: a tremendous amount of internal strength and leaning on the
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  Speaker 2: strength of spirit of the Angel's God. Whoever you are
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  Speaker 2: are leaning towards strength and confidence, internal power. You have
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  Speaker 2: to hold steadfast because at some point you just get
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  Speaker 2: to no matter how much light you are shining, you
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  Speaker 2: feel I felt. I won't say, I won't speak for everybody.
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  Speaker 2: I felt like in some aspects it was useless. But
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  Speaker 2: I know that wasn't true because of the responses I
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  Speaker 2: was getting and the support I was getting was it
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  Speaker 2: was huge, it was it was so good, It was
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  Speaker 2: so good. But because I was over here focused on
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  Speaker 2: shining that light on the darkness, I was focused on
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  Speaker 2: the darkness. And then you start consuming it and focusing
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  Speaker 2: on it, and it just start weighing me down, pulling
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  Speaker 2: me down, and and I went I went with it.
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  Speaker 3: So there's so much that we could unpack from that.
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  Speaker 3: There's so many different perspectives. There really is on some
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  Speaker 3: perspectives that you've got to a place of allowing yourself
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  Speaker 3: to receive, so giving and receiving also, like day one,
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  Speaker 3: you're like allowing all this to now, I guess the
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  Speaker 3: question would be, were you like trying to stay in
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  Speaker 3: that space or.
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  Speaker 1: Were you, know, everything but just flowing your way. It
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  Speaker 1: was just flowing.
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  Speaker 3: It was you were in the flow of things, and
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  Speaker 3: then next day when you were hitting a low. It
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  Speaker 3: gives everybody else the opportunity to step it up. It
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  Speaker 3: gives everybody else the opportunity to see that Amy goes
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  Speaker 3: through struggles too, and this is how she's going to
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  Speaker 3: process things. Because how we show up, whether it's good
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  Speaker 3: or bad, it's going to give someone else the opportunity
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  Speaker 3: for their own growth.
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  Speaker 1: And sometimes we have to show up in these ways
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  Speaker 1: in order for them.
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  Speaker 3: To Maybe that day you needed to be a mirror
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  Speaker 3: for other people too. I know that when we're processing
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  Speaker 3: this dark stuff that's on the inside, the stuff that
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  Speaker 3: needs to be rebuilt, it's not just an inside job,
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  Speaker 3: it's an outside job too, because it's happening throughout the world.
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  Speaker 1: It's not just within each person.
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  Speaker 3: I have witnessed so much stuff in these spaces going
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  Speaker 3: into town. I've seen people walk across the street on
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  Speaker 3: a very busy street with a with a green light,
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  Speaker 3: you would never walk across without going through the I mean,
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  Speaker 3: he walked across on the crosswalk, but it wasn't his
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  Speaker 3: turn to walk across. There's traffic that's going through, and
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  Speaker 3: he didn't care. He just kept his head down and
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  Speaker 3: walked all the way through. He made it across. So
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  Speaker 3: on one side, this is amazing. On the other side,
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  Speaker 3: other people were paying attention. It could have been a
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  Speaker 3: bad situation. I watched people arguing. I've watched people coming
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  Speaker 3: on glued unraveled in front of other people, which perhaps
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  Speaker 3: I could have done in the past too. But I've
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  Speaker 3: got to witness a lot of his stuff. I had
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  Speaker 3: my own experience that I would say, I decided to have.
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  Speaker 1: A sort of a reading or a.
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  Speaker 3: Psychic connection with somebody else, and I knew prior to
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  Speaker 3: going into that that it probably wasn't a good idea
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  Speaker 3: because we are amidst these energies that are chaotic. But
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  Speaker 3: I learned a lot from this situation. Information was coming through.
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  Speaker 3: It was all perfect and divine, and then all of
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  Speaker 3: a sudden, I noticed that the person that was doing
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  Speaker 3: the information was triggered emotionally by something that was I
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  Speaker 3: had said, and they were using a tool. And I
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  Speaker 3: know for myself, if I'm using a pendulum or my
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  Speaker 3: wands or anything like that, if I'm in that process
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  Speaker 3: and I start and I'm emotionally attached to something or
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  Speaker 3: have had an emotional trigger to something, my answers are
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  Speaker 3: going to be muddied.
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  Speaker 1: They're not They're not true and reflective.
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  Speaker 3: But on the other side of that, even though this
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  Speaker 3: person had that moment, which created a moment for myself,
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  Speaker 3: but it created an opportunity for me to be like,
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  Speaker 3: this is my time. It's so important for us to
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  Speaker 3: check in with ourselves. It's one thing to receive information,
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  Speaker 3: but it's another thing instead of running with that, it's
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  Speaker 3: another thing to stop and feel that emotion within yourself
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  Speaker 3: and really ask yourself is this true? And then you know,
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  Speaker 3: having having conversations that are important conversations after that. But
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  Speaker 3: it was it was such a learning process for me
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  Speaker 3: and then me knowing because I'm telling you every single day,
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  Speaker 3: I've got an update on the human residence, and she
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  Speaker 3: would say, it's crazy right now. And this is what
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  Speaker 3: it looks like if you're going through this part, if
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  Speaker 3: you're you know, dealing with the dark side of things,
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  Speaker 3: and this is what it looks like if you're like
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  Speaker 3: on the other side of it. And I would I
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  Speaker 3: could be on both sides. I could be on both
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  Speaker 3: sides the same day. It would fluctuate, I could have
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  Speaker 3: a little bit of this, a little bit of that.
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  Speaker 3: It was, there was so much and it's still it continues.
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  Speaker 3: It's not going to it's not going to stop.
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  Speaker 1: Right now.
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  Speaker 3: We've got I guess, like they said, four blocks of
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  Speaker 3: this basically, that it's going to be like back to
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  Speaker 3: back to back with all the stuff that's happening. And
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  Speaker 3: so that knowledge really helps support me, help needs to
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  Speaker 3: support myself actually the step back and recognize this wasn't mine,
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  Speaker 3: and also to really process how I'm handling these emotional
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  Speaker 3: triggers when these triggers come up, when they when they
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  Speaker 3: are shown up for me now and I've talked about
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  Speaker 3: it on here, but it's like you said, we're in
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  Speaker 3: a process of our own growth, really, and it's not
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  Speaker 3: once we get wrapped up into something, once it gets
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  Speaker 3: a hold of us or snags us and we let
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  Speaker 3: it lead us down the path instead of us being
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  Speaker 3: the one that's in control of that path, it can
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  Speaker 3: be a little bit crazy. Well for me, it was
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  Speaker 3: a lot crazy, and it was from day to day,
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  Speaker 3: Like one day I was even having heart palpitations. I
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  Speaker 3: don't have heart heart palpitations, but I was. I was
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  Speaker 3: having extreme things. But once I had recognized that this
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  Speaker 3: is energetically there's a lot of stuff going on, it
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  Speaker 3: would make sense to me that I would recognize, Okay,
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  Speaker 3: it's a trigger, and then I would slow down and
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  Speaker 3: be like, okay, these are triggers. I'm going to stop,
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  Speaker 3: not associate the person, place, thing, or experience with the
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  Speaker 3: trigger that I'm experiencing this moment and just filling the
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  Speaker 3: emotion within myself, seeing it as if it's a little child,
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  Speaker 3: zero judgments, just witnessing it, breathing into it, and then
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  Speaker 3: it would just go away and it would be fine.
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  Speaker 1: There was a day that I couldn't.
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  Speaker 3: I tried to get into meditation, and it's like uh ah,
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  Speaker 3: I could zero no, hell no, I could not get
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  Speaker 3: into that place, no matter, no matter what. And so
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  Speaker 3: it's like it's slowing down, it's breathing, it's all the
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  Speaker 3: things we've talked about, because sometimes when you're once, you're
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  Speaker 3: in it. That's why it's so important for us to
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  Speaker 3: have friends, people around us that we look up to
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  Speaker 3: that can help guide us out of these things or
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  Speaker 3: give us some information that could be beneficial in that
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  Speaker 3: moment so we can catch our breath and.
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  Speaker 1: Then we can go into that meditation.
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  Speaker 3: But it's also learning how to be in that space
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  Speaker 3: even though there's chaos going around. So it's like, okay,
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  Speaker 3: and right now as I'm saying this, it's remembering we
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  Speaker 3: can ask the universe to slow things down. I'm having
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  Speaker 3: a real hard time processing all of this at one time.
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  Speaker 3: Right now, can we slow this down so that I
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  Speaker 3: can process this? And that's us speaking up for ourselves,
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  Speaker 3: recognizing that we have boundaries because we need the boundaries
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  Speaker 3: sometimes because we're still going to this growth, and then
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  Speaker 3: asking the questions like I've had to ask myself numerous times,
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  Speaker 3: is this mine? Is this my energy right now? A
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  Speaker 3: lot of times it would go away because it wasn't
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  Speaker 3: my energy, And then sometimes it wouldn't be going and
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  Speaker 3: I'm like, what that help? This isn't supposed to remind Okay,
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  Speaker 3: look what can we do with this? And then I
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  Speaker 3: would do the whole process. I would stop and start breathing,
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  Speaker 3: just constantly. Like you said, you have to be steadfast
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  Speaker 3: you otherwise you can let it rule your whole life.
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  Speaker 3: And it's a miserable place to be in. But on
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  Speaker 3: the other side of that, you didn't you spend a
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  Speaker 3: day in it from six to four. You didn't spend
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  Speaker 3: three years in it. You didn't spend a week in
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  Speaker 3: it a month, you know what I mean. And then
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  Speaker 3: it's just really taking the time for that. Also in relationships,
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  Speaker 3: when there's the opportunity and I call it an opportunity
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  Speaker 3: now because I didn't see it that way before, when
• 17:38
  Speaker 3: there's not a lot of communication, it's an opportunity for
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  Speaker 3: you to reflect within self. It's almost as if the
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  Speaker 3: universe is having that person in whatever relationship.
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  Speaker 1: It could be with your.
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  Speaker 3: Kids, your coworkers, your spouses, whatever. But it's that opportunity
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  Speaker 3: to step back and be able to process what you're
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  Speaker 3: feeling without dragging the other person into it. Now, I
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  Speaker 3: don't always do that, so but I also see the
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  Speaker 3: repercussions of not doing that, and so it's just the learning.
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  Speaker 3: It's just learning to because I don't like the way
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  Speaker 3: it feels, and so it's just learning how to navigate
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  Speaker 3: through that in every moment. But if we can recognize
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  Speaker 3: it's not always it's not our fault. We didn't do
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  Speaker 3: anything wrong, there's no reason to judge ourselves. It's this
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  Speaker 3: is just an opportunity to retreat, go within self process
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  Speaker 3: and sometimes if you can, you just got to call
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  Speaker 3: off work, You just don't go in, You just don't
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  Speaker 3: do the thing that day. It's recognizing where you're at,
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  Speaker 3: what you're capable of, and knowing that maybe you needed
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  Speaker 3: that time that day for yourself, but also maybe you
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  Speaker 3: needed all that to happen in order for you to
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  Speaker 3: process other things so you could evolve from it. Maybe
• 18:51
  Speaker 3: there was such a want and desire or that we're
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  Speaker 3: jumping into such a into timelines or whatever.
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  Speaker 1: We can't carry that stuff with us anymore.
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  Speaker 3: It's almost like we have to do a massive dump
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  Speaker 3: of everything. And then I say all that stuff and
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  Speaker 3: I'm talking to one of my very close friends, you know,
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  Speaker 3: she was telling me how she had gone through her
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  Speaker 3: phone and started deleting stuff, and it's like I had
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  Speaker 3: crap in my phone that if someone was to say something,
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  Speaker 3: I had backed up, like I had proof right here.
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  Speaker 3: This is how the conversation went. This is the truth
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  Speaker 3: right here. And then I thought, who fucking cares? Who
• 19:32
  Speaker 3: fucking cares? Why am I keeping myself in the story
• 19:34
  Speaker 3: that makes me unhappy? Why am I reading that old chapter?
• 19:38
  Speaker 3: So I started going through and deleting stuff. Now I'm
• 19:41
  Speaker 3: not telling everyone to delete everything, but if you can
• 19:44
  Speaker 3: save it so you.
• 19:45
  Speaker 1: Don't have it on your phone, and then later on.
• 19:47
  Speaker 3: You can delete it so that way you still have it.
• 19:50
  Speaker 3: But it's not something you have to look at all
• 19:51
  Speaker 3: the time. It's not something you have to experience or
• 19:55
  Speaker 3: just cut cold turkey. Because I'm in the process of
• 19:58
  Speaker 3: selling all, you know, all my husband's stuff. I'm just
• 20:02
  Speaker 3: getting rid of it, and I'm at the point now
• 20:04
  Speaker 3: where it's like, well, if people aren't going to buy it,
• 20:06
  Speaker 3: I'm just gonna have to donate it because I'm I'm
• 20:08
  Speaker 3: tired of carrying this old stuff. It was his stuff
• 20:12
  Speaker 3: and he doesn't care about this stuff anymore. Why should
• 20:14
  Speaker 3: I carry this stuff anymore? Processing pictures? Why do I
• 20:18
  Speaker 3: have all these pictures and stuff. I've got a huge
• 20:20
  Speaker 3: box of pictures.
• 20:21
  Speaker 1: I don't look at them, they're just there.
• 20:24
  Speaker 3: I'm going to take them down to my kids and
• 20:26
  Speaker 3: tell them take what they want, and whenever they don't want,
• 20:30
  Speaker 3: I'll go through it. If there's some things that I
• 20:32
  Speaker 3: want to keep, i'll keep. But it's going to be
• 20:33
  Speaker 3: narrowed down toward it's not a huge box anymore, and
• 20:36
  Speaker 3: it can go somewhere else. It's not something that has
• 20:38
  Speaker 3: to be there, or maybe I save it for whatever,
• 20:40
  Speaker 3: because at some point someone in the future isn't going
• 20:44
  Speaker 3: to recognize any of these people and it's not going
• 20:47
  Speaker 3: to matter to them at all. And it's like, why
• 20:49
  Speaker 3: are we carrying all this stuff forward, all the stuff
• 20:52
  Speaker 3: filling up our spaces and carrying all the stuff.
• 20:54
  Speaker 1: It doesn't make sense. So I'm in the middle.
• 20:57
  Speaker 3: Of a I would say, a great purge, and it's
• 21:01
  Speaker 3: necessary for me. I'm not saying it's necessary for everybody else,
• 21:04
  Speaker 3: but it's necessary for me because I'm not I'm not
• 21:07
  Speaker 3: going to continue reading that book anymore. I'm done with
• 21:10
  Speaker 3: that book.
• 21:15
  Speaker 2: As you were talking, uh, I was remembering that this
• 21:19
  Speaker 2: is a one year of new beginnings, so creating a foundation.
• 21:25
  Speaker 2: In that foundation, we got to clear out some shit.
• 21:29
  Speaker 2: We got to clear it out when you when you're
• 21:33
  Speaker 2: when you're when they're getting ready to build a house,
• 21:36
  Speaker 2: they level out the dirt, like we got to clear
• 21:41
  Speaker 2: the boulders and the stuff that's in the way to
• 21:46
  Speaker 2: set that foundation that's going to allow us to build
• 21:52
  Speaker 2: on it and it be strong and sturdy and supportive.
• 21:57
  Speaker 2: And like you're saying when you're, when you're holding on
• 22:01
  Speaker 2: to the stuff, whether it is material stuff, energy stuff, mental, emotional,
• 22:09
  Speaker 2: physical stuff that your foundation is not going to is
• 22:19
  Speaker 2: going to be built on the old and the old, yes,
• 22:22
  Speaker 2: has provided information for us to grow on, but that's
• 22:28
  Speaker 2: not the foundation we wanted to be built on. So
• 22:35
  Speaker 2: clearing the stuff that no longer is serving you. Even myself,
• 22:41
  Speaker 2: I was so proud, like all this stuff behind me,
• 22:45
  Speaker 2: the decoration, the all the things like trying to make
• 22:49
  Speaker 2: it all beautiful and I appealing. And now I'm like,
• 22:56
  Speaker 2: now I'm ready to get rid of it. Have a
• 22:58
  Speaker 2: different color on the wall and just put a few
• 23:03
  Speaker 2: things back there. Good, I'm good. I'm picking up stuff
• 23:09
  Speaker 2: around my house where I'm looking at it like, yeah,
• 23:13
  Speaker 2: I don't need a hold it and it goes in
• 23:15
  Speaker 2: the trash and just being done with the stuff that
• 23:20
  Speaker 2: is contributing to something that is no longer serving me.
• 23:25
  Speaker 2: And then it's the same as that internal stuff that's
• 23:28
  Speaker 2: coming up. This stuff is no it is okay. So
• 23:31
  Speaker 2: we got to different differentiate the difference between it being
• 23:36
  Speaker 2: a benefit and not being a benefit. It's not a
• 23:39
  Speaker 2: benefit in me. This emotional and mental stuff that I'm
• 23:43
  Speaker 2: hanging on to from my history is not a benefit
• 23:46
  Speaker 2: to me because it is still stored in my body
• 23:49
  Speaker 2: and I'm getting triggered by it and meaning that somebody
• 23:53
  Speaker 2: outside of me does something and it creates discord within
• 23:57
  Speaker 2: me because of the stored emotional mental stuff in me.
• 24:02
  Speaker 2: So my buttons are still getting pushed where that aggression
• 24:05
  Speaker 2: or anger or frustration still is being exposed. Now that
• 24:11
  Speaker 2: is for me, the benefit of me digging into that
• 24:16
  Speaker 2: if I so choose to decide or figure out or
• 24:20
  Speaker 2: reveal what it is that I am still storing within
• 24:25
  Speaker 2: me experiences, memories, words, physical expressions, what is it in
• 24:34
  Speaker 2: me that I'm still hanging on too. And the benefit
• 24:36
  Speaker 2: is that I can look at that and go, oh, yep,
• 24:39
  Speaker 2: I see how that has affected me. And now I
• 24:44
  Speaker 2: can see it differently, and I can do my healing
• 24:46
  Speaker 2: around it. That is the benefit. But when that happens,
• 24:51
  Speaker 2: that comes out, it's no longer stored, it's no longer
• 24:56
  Speaker 2: in me. That piece now multiple. A single experience can
• 25:03
  Speaker 2: cause multiple layers of mental and emotional storage. There's a
• 25:13
  Speaker 2: level of frustration, anger, irritation, judgment, guilt, criticism, love, joy, excitement, blessings, miracles.
• 25:21
  Speaker 2: It could store all of that in one experience, But
• 25:27
  Speaker 2: the pieces that typically get triggered the most is the
• 25:30
  Speaker 2: drama and the trauma, and that's what comes up. And
• 25:32
  Speaker 2: then that surfaces and causes the internal discord within myself.
• 25:39
  Speaker 2: Whereas if that wasn't in me, this past week would
• 25:42
  Speaker 2: not have happened in the way that it did. It
• 25:46
  Speaker 2: would not have happened. I would have sat back. I
• 25:48
  Speaker 2: would have processed it, moved through it, sailed through it
• 25:54
  Speaker 2: like on roller skates, just like who here we go?
• 25:57
  Speaker 1: Right?
• 25:58
  Speaker 2: Nope, I sat in it. I dramatized and traumatized over it,
• 26:02
  Speaker 2: and got angry and frustrated and criticized and judged, and
• 26:07
  Speaker 2: I did all the things. But then what BEV said was,
• 26:14
  Speaker 2: but it was for a day, not three years, and
• 26:17
  Speaker 2: That is an absolute factual statement because in the past,
• 26:23
  Speaker 2: it was years of holding onto things. It was years
• 26:26
  Speaker 2: of not knowing because I didn't know then what I
• 26:28
  Speaker 2: know now, not knowing how much we store within our
• 26:34
  Speaker 2: mind and body of all these trauma and drama experiences.
• 26:38
  Speaker 2: I know that now, and it was a day. It
• 26:41
  Speaker 2: wasn't years, because if it was, if I was still
• 26:46
  Speaker 2: hanging onto it, we wouldn't be able to have this
• 26:49
  Speaker 2: conversation in the way that we're having it. There's no way,
• 26:52
  Speaker 2: no how, you probably need to come over and do
• 26:56
  Speaker 2: an exorcism on me because it wouldn't be or of all, girl,
• 27:01
  Speaker 2: I would be like, I'm not doing this anymore like
• 27:04
  Speaker 2: two times off right. No, I want to come I
• 27:08
  Speaker 2: want to talk about it. I want to hear perspective
• 27:12
  Speaker 2: like what Bev brings. I want to be engaged in
• 27:15
  Speaker 2: this conversation to be like, okay, and there's this side
• 27:19
  Speaker 2: of it too. Thank you for exposing that. Thank you
• 27:22
  Speaker 2: for having the conversation. Thank you for saying these things.
• 27:25
  Speaker 2: Because I know all these things. I've been practicing them
• 27:30
  Speaker 2: for years, these techniques, these tools, these healing, the growing,
• 27:34
  Speaker 2: the personal development, and there's still moments in time the
• 27:40
  Speaker 2: A button gets pushed and I lose my shit, And
• 27:45
  Speaker 2: it's okay because it was a moment in time, and
• 27:51
  Speaker 2: it's not forever. It's been hours, it's not been weeks,
• 27:56
  Speaker 2: months or years.
• 28:00
  Speaker 3: And it's all resistance, that's all. When I was thinking
• 28:03
  Speaker 3: about the all the messages that I've saved, it's all
• 28:07
  Speaker 3: I've got messages from Gemini from over six years ago,
• 28:11
  Speaker 3: from years ago. This is all resistance from keeping us
• 28:15
  Speaker 3: into allowing ourselves to be in our own happiness and
• 28:18
  Speaker 3: our own joy. And then it's the question is why
• 28:21
  Speaker 3: am i? And I'm getting goosebumps, why am I keeping
• 28:23
  Speaker 3: myself in the struggle? Because I grew up with other
• 28:26
  Speaker 3: people that learned how to keep themselves in the struggle,
• 28:28
  Speaker 3: and that was the way that I back to the
• 28:30
  Speaker 3: same old thing, fight or flight. This is how you,
• 28:33
  Speaker 3: this is how you survive in life. And I don't
• 28:36
  Speaker 3: want to be a survivor. I want to be a thriver.
• 28:39
  Speaker 3: I've been a survivor. I want to thrive down and
• 28:44
  Speaker 3: it's time. It's time, and the only way we can
• 28:47
  Speaker 3: do that is by allowing all this stuff to happen.
• 28:50
  Speaker 3: Yesterday was Lion's Gate, because this is Sunday. It was
• 28:53
  Speaker 3: eight eight yesterday, and I know it lasts to like
• 28:55
  Speaker 3: eight twelve, is from what I understand. I did this
• 28:59
  Speaker 3: meta that started at four forty five, and during the meditation,
• 29:05
  Speaker 3: I went in and out of my space, which will.
• 29:07
  Speaker 1: Happen to me.
• 29:08
  Speaker 3: I just watched the dragonfly going by, which happens to me.
• 29:12
  Speaker 3: And I got to a point where like, how come
• 29:15
  Speaker 3: that she's still talking? And I'm like, she's still this
• 29:18
  Speaker 3: whole flow is going through her, and I'm like, when
• 29:19
  Speaker 3: is this gonna freaking end? And I started noticing all
• 29:23
  Speaker 3: this anger in myself and I started getting more and
• 29:25
  Speaker 3: more angry about it. And I stopped for a second
• 29:28
  Speaker 3: and realized, because I want my heart open, and I
• 29:30
  Speaker 3: felt all this anger in my chest. And I just
• 29:33
  Speaker 3: felt all that anger in my chest and I just
• 29:35
  Speaker 3: laid there and felt it and then it went away.
• 29:38
  Speaker 3: And then by the end of it, she was saying
• 29:40
  Speaker 3: I love you. She said it over and over again,
• 29:43
  Speaker 3: and I just sat and bald, just sat and cried
• 29:47
  Speaker 3: to really to have that moment of release, to feel that,
• 29:51
  Speaker 3: And that's the relief when I tell people to stop
• 29:54
  Speaker 3: and breathe and find it where it's at in your body.
• 29:57
  Speaker 3: And I've tried to explain this to you, even my
• 30:00
  Speaker 3: my grandson, because he tells me the other day. We're
• 30:03
  Speaker 3: driving home and he says, Grandma, he's sitting on my
• 30:06
  Speaker 3: lap and he's driving and he says, Grandma, have you
• 30:09
  Speaker 3: been getting my messages? Because we telepathy or telepathically send information.
• 30:14
  Speaker 3: I've been in my own shit so much that I
• 30:18
  Speaker 3: wasn't receiving the messages, and that right there was like
• 30:22
  Speaker 3: a that was like an awakening moment for me to
• 30:25
  Speaker 3: be like, it's my responsibility. Goes back to what you
• 30:28
  Speaker 3: were talking about. It's my responsibility to really manage my energy,
• 30:33
  Speaker 3: to really take the time to be steadfast and stand
• 30:39
  Speaker 3: in my power and not get taken over by all
• 30:42
  Speaker 3: this other stuff because otherwise I'm missing the messages. And
• 30:46
  Speaker 3: it's like there's been a couple of times that I
• 30:48
  Speaker 3: know that I had kid popped into my head, but
• 30:51
  Speaker 3: it's like I was not in space mentally, emotionally to
• 30:55
  Speaker 3: be able to process or handle any of that kind
• 30:57
  Speaker 3: of stuff.
• 30:58
  Speaker 1: But when he said that, it was like, oh, okay.
• 31:00
  Speaker 3: So then I tried to explain to him, like this
• 31:02
  Speaker 3: process of breathing into it and I haven't I haven't
• 31:05
  Speaker 3: been very clear because he wasn't. He's like, I'm not
• 31:07
  Speaker 3: really sure I understand, and that part of it. But
• 31:10
  Speaker 3: I loved it because we can have these conversations because
• 31:13
  Speaker 3: he's nine.
• 31:14
  Speaker 1: And he's going to be ten pretty soon.
• 31:16
  Speaker 3: And I'm talking to his parents on Tuesday and I'm
• 31:20
  Speaker 3: telling them, hey, I got these free minute spot as
• 31:24
  Speaker 3: these linen sheets, and they're amazing. The first night I
• 31:28
  Speaker 3: slept in them, I could feel the vibration. And I'm
• 31:31
  Speaker 3: telling my kids this. I'm telling my daughter and my
• 31:34
  Speaker 3: son in law, I'm telling him this. I could feel
• 31:38
  Speaker 3: my whole body was vibrating from these sheets. It was incredible.
• 31:42
  Speaker 3: I feel things though. And then I watched them, haven't
• 31:45
  Speaker 3: they looked at each other. You know how couples will
• 31:47
  Speaker 3: like stop and they'll look at each other and if
• 31:49
  Speaker 3: they have a moment. Well, I know my daughter understands.
• 31:52
  Speaker 3: I think she understands where I'm coming from a lot,
• 31:55
  Speaker 3: but I know my son in law doesn't get where
• 31:57
  Speaker 3: I'm at.
• 31:57
  Speaker 1: And that's okay.
• 31:58
  Speaker 3: But I also had an emotional reaction from that too,
• 32:02
  Speaker 3: because a little girl and me noticed that, you know,
• 32:05
  Speaker 3: oh I did something wrong. Somebody, somebody doesn't like the
• 32:07
  Speaker 3: way I showed up and it's like they think I'm
• 32:09
  Speaker 3: crazy or they think I'm weird. And then it reminded
• 32:11
  Speaker 3: me of being a kid. And so it's it's it
• 32:14
  Speaker 3: was an opportunity. It's not for me to be upset
• 32:17
  Speaker 3: with them because they can only understand. It's not their
• 32:20
  Speaker 3: job to understand where.
• 32:21
  Speaker 1: I'm coming from. It's not if they get it what
• 32:24
  Speaker 1: I'm saying, they get it.
• 32:25
  Speaker 3: If they don't, they don't if they have an experience
• 32:27
  Speaker 3: some day, some day down the road because they're they're
• 32:30
  Speaker 3: like think they know she's freaking crazy, Well, that just
• 32:32
  Speaker 3: gives them the opportunity to have the same experience and
• 32:35
  Speaker 3: to recognize it wasn't crazy. Now they're feeling something, and
• 32:38
  Speaker 3: then they may come back to me, or maybe they'll
• 32:41
  Speaker 3: he'll talk to his wife about it, do you know
• 32:43
  Speaker 3: what I mean. So it's just this whole whole thing
• 32:46
  Speaker 3: is happening. But I see the dynamics of why my
• 32:48
  Speaker 3: grandson might have these conversations. And I asked if I said,
• 32:53
  Speaker 3: what was going on that you're you're reaching out so much,
• 32:57
  Speaker 3: And he says, he says, I actually felt I was
• 32:59
  Speaker 3: just kinda say that I kind of kind of felt depressed.
• 33:01
  Speaker 3: I don't know if he actually used the word depressed,
• 33:02
  Speaker 3: but I almost feel like he did, which would be
• 33:04
  Speaker 3: a learned behavior.
• 33:05
  Speaker 1: He could learn it from someone else.
• 33:07
  Speaker 3: And this is what this feels like, right, because we
• 33:10
  Speaker 3: learn these things from the people that are around us.
• 33:12
  Speaker 3: These we feel what they feel, and he feels he
• 33:16
  Speaker 3: he and he knows that. So he talks to me
• 33:18
  Speaker 3: about these things. And not everybody in his family feels
• 33:21
  Speaker 3: things like that. Not everybody understands those things. And that's
• 33:24
  Speaker 3: okay because it gives us the opportunity to have these conversations,
• 33:28
  Speaker 3: you and I, him and I. It's it's it's there's
• 33:33
  Speaker 3: such a domino effect, the butterfly effect. There's all these
• 33:36
  Speaker 3: things that are happening that it may seem like it's
• 33:40
  Speaker 3: not going in.
• 33:40
  Speaker 1: The direction that we want things to go, but it
• 33:43
  Speaker 1: always is. It always is, even the days that are.
• 33:47
  Speaker 2: Shit, it all serves a purpose, and it's all the
• 33:53
  Speaker 2: purpose or another.
• 33:56
  Speaker 3: That day.
• 33:56
  Speaker 1: I don't know.
• 33:59
  Speaker 2: All of it. There's a purpose in one way or another.
• 34:01
  Speaker 2: It's really about the perspective of is it serving the
• 34:05
  Speaker 2: purpose to keep you stuck in the lower vibrational energies
• 34:09
  Speaker 2: or is it serving the purpose for you to heal, grow, learn, expand,
• 34:16
  Speaker 2: and allow your light to shine a little brighter. Doesn't
• 34:20
  Speaker 2: have to be a lot brighter, just a little brighter.
• 34:23
  Speaker 2: Just that little pinprick of light can now become the
• 34:28
  Speaker 2: head of the size of the head of a pin pushpin,
• 34:35
  Speaker 2: right like, just a little bigger, a little brighter. And
• 34:38
  Speaker 2: we keep practicing that and keep allowing our light to
• 34:41
  Speaker 2: get brighter and brighter and brighter. This is what the
• 34:46
  Speaker 2: darkness doesn't like. The darkness doesn't like the light because
• 34:52
  Speaker 2: there can't be darkness if there's light. And it would
• 34:57
  Speaker 2: be a practice of what are you going to do
• 35:00
  Speaker 2: to allow your light to shine brighter and be more consistent?
• 35:04
  Speaker 2: And I say that out loud, not just for whoever
• 35:08
  Speaker 2: is listening to this video, this recording, but to myself.
• 35:12
  Speaker 2: What am I going to do to allow my light
• 35:14
  Speaker 2: to shine brighter and keep growing in my light and
• 35:22
  Speaker 2: utilizing the tools that I know I have to help
• 35:25
  Speaker 2: me do that and lean on people around me and
• 35:29
  Speaker 2: lean on spirit. So Bev and I are not the
• 35:34
  Speaker 2: only ones having these conversations. Bev and I are not
• 35:37
  Speaker 2: the only ones who processing our personal development and our
• 35:40
  Speaker 2: growth and expansion. Many people are seeking guidance, information, knowledge, wisdom,
• 35:50
  Speaker 2: a direction, tools, techniques, and so by listening to this video,
• 35:57
  Speaker 2: maybe it wasn't for you. Maybe there was just a
• 35:59
  Speaker 2: little piece of it that was for you. Maybe this
• 36:02
  Speaker 2: is for you to know the information to share it
• 36:04
  Speaker 2: with somebody else. Maybe it's for you to know that
• 36:07
  Speaker 2: Bev and I even exist in having these conversations and
• 36:10
  Speaker 2: to share the link. Be resourceful, and it doesn't matter
• 36:16
  Speaker 2: if it's our information or a spiritual teacher, a book,
• 36:21
  Speaker 2: a song, doesn't matter. Be resourceful and share it because
• 36:25
  Speaker 2: the more light we shine, the less darkness there can be.
• 36:29
  Speaker 2: And the darkness is going to kick and screen it.
• 36:31
  Speaker 2: What it reminds me of is a two year old
• 36:33
  Speaker 2: having a temper tantrum in the grocery store who cannot
• 36:36
  Speaker 2: have a candy bar, and they get louder and louder,
• 36:41
  Speaker 2: and it's embarrassing, and it's a reflection. We take it
• 36:44
  Speaker 2: as a reflection of ourselves that I'm not a good
• 36:48
  Speaker 2: parent or I'm not doing something right. Like Bev said,
• 36:50
  Speaker 2: I'm like reminding me that I'm going to get in
• 36:52
  Speaker 2: trouble because this is happening. The darkness will kick and
• 36:57
  Speaker 2: scream and throw a temper tantrum and be loud, and
• 37:01
  Speaker 2: the light is steadfast, it shines bright, it keeps loving
• 37:06
  Speaker 2: and just having that expansion that there is goodness in
• 37:10
  Speaker 2: this world and we have to hold that vision and
• 37:13
  Speaker 2: that focus. So with that, we do strongly and very
• 37:18
  Speaker 2: much appreciate you listening and hanging out with us for
• 37:24
  Speaker 2: this time. And we know you could do anything with
• 37:27
  Speaker 2: your time, and you can't get back to time you
• 37:29
  Speaker 2: just spent with us. So we appreciate you, We honor you,
• 37:34
  Speaker 2: and we and I'm going, I am saying we Bev
• 37:38
  Speaker 2: and I we just you know, we hope, we pray
• 37:42
  Speaker 2: that you find the direction that feels better to you
• 37:45
  Speaker 2: and that you can keep walking that journey. And are
• 37:48
  Speaker 2: you gonna waiver? Absolutely, Bev and I waiver. We fall
• 37:52
  Speaker 2: off the ginormous curb into the gutter, and then we
• 37:55
  Speaker 2: got to pick ourselves back up, dust ourselves off, and
• 37:58
  Speaker 2: keep going. It's going to happen. It's going to happen
• 38:02
  Speaker 2: time and time again. We keep going and we keep
• 38:06
  Speaker 2: growing and we keep shining our light even more. So,
• 38:10
  Speaker 2: thank you, and we appreciate you.
• 38:13
  Speaker 1: Thank you,