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Episode 28 - Remembering my Mom and Dad, Real Talk! · RealTalkwithMikeD

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  Speaker 1: Welcome to Real Talk with Mike D. Alright, welcome back
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  Speaker 1: to Real Talk with Mike D. I am Mike D.
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  Speaker 1: Thank you for being here. Thank you for listening. And
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  Speaker 1: as always, I appreciate you being here. Today I want
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  Speaker 1: to remember my mom and dad. Yesterday was the date
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  Speaker 1: that my father passed away. And I'll be real. I
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  Speaker 1: was a little sad. I was upset. I cried a lot.
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  Speaker 1: And it was a rough day, rough night, and a
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  Speaker 1: rough morning. So I wanted to get on here and
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  Speaker 1: just remember my mother and father, talk about my feelings,
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  Speaker 1: talk about how I cope with it, and just talk
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  Speaker 1: without crying, without Being too vulnerable, I guess you could say. But,
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  Speaker 1: let's get to it. So, like I said earlier, yesterday
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  Speaker 1: was the date that my father passed away. Now, my
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  Speaker 1: father was my best friend. He was everything to me.
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  Speaker 1: As a young boy, we would go fishing. We would
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  Speaker 1: go shoot guns. We would talk about tools. We would
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  Speaker 1: fix things. Work on cars. Just everything a father and
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  Speaker 1: son do. And I feel like he was taken away
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  Speaker 1: from me way too early. I was younger when he
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  Speaker 1: passed away. I think I might have been late 20s,
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  Speaker 1: early 30s. And I was angry. I felt like I
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  Speaker 1: didn't get to spend enough time with my dad. I
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  Speaker 1: felt like he was taken away from me way too early.
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  Speaker 1: And that bothers me still to this day. You know,
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  Speaker 1: I sit here and think, would you want him to
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  Speaker 1: suffer or would you want him to be in a
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  Speaker 1: better place where he's not suffering? And I fight with
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  Speaker 1: myself about that because I'll be honest with you, part
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  Speaker 1: of me wants to be selfish and say, I want
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  Speaker 1: him still here. I want him to be here. I
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  Speaker 1: want us to still have that time together. I want
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  Speaker 1: us to go fishing one more time. I want us
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  Speaker 1: to work on cars. I want us to go shoot
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  Speaker 1: guns one more time. I want that. I want him
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  Speaker 1: to see my daughter grow up. But then I think,
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  Speaker 1: I don't want him to be in pain anymore. I
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  Speaker 1: don't want him to suffer. I want him to live
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  Speaker 1: the rest of his life in peace. And if that
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  Speaker 1: means Going to heaven. So be it. You know. My mom.
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  Speaker 1: She passed away. Years after my dad. And not easier.
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  Speaker 1: Not any easier. She was my best friend too. I
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  Speaker 1: had an awesome relationship with my mom and dad. My
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  Speaker 1: mom was a sweet lady. The sweetheart would do anything
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  Speaker 1: for you, for anybody. She was loved in the community.
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  Speaker 1: She did the best she could for myself, my brother,
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  Speaker 1: and my sister. You know, she loved my daughter. You
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  Speaker 1: could just see by the smile on her face. I
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  Speaker 1: just wish she could see her now and see how
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  Speaker 1: big she's gotten, how beautiful she's gotten. And just a
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  Speaker 1: woman that she's become. But I know they're both looking
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  Speaker 1: down from heaven. I know they're both here with me.
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  Speaker 1: They're both here with all of us. And some people
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  Speaker 1: might be thinking, why are you sharing so much information
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  Speaker 1: about your mother and father? Well, because I have to.
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  Speaker 1: Because I live alone. I don't have anybody to talk to.
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  Speaker 1: All these thoughts stay in my head until they don't.
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  Speaker 1: And this podcast is real talk. And this is real talk.
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  Speaker 1: This is what I go through. This is the feelings
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  Speaker 1: that I feel. This is the life that I live.
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  Speaker 1: And I choose to share some of it with all
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  Speaker 1: of you. You all have mothers and fathers. Some of
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  Speaker 1: them may still be with us. Some of them may not.
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  Speaker 1: The only thing I wish and I ask of you,
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  Speaker 1: if you have your mother and father still here and
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  Speaker 1: maybe you're not on the best terms, try to resolve
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  Speaker 1: those issues because I promise you one day, you're going
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  Speaker 1: to regret that. Spend as much time as you can
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  Speaker 1: with your mother and father, your brother and sister. Even
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  Speaker 1: if you don't get along, spend time with them because
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  Speaker 1: one day they're not going to be here and you
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  Speaker 1: can't go back. You can't say, I wish I would have.
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  Speaker 1: While they're still here, you still can and you should.
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  Speaker 1: Resolve those issues. You know, I had a fantastic relationship
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  Speaker 1: with my mom and dad. I can't relate in that
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  Speaker 1: respect to having problems with my mom and dad or
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  Speaker 1: my brother and sister because we all get along great.
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  Speaker 1: I love them dearly. They love me dearly. And I'm
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  Speaker 1: thankful for that. You know, my mom and dad passed
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  Speaker 1: away from smoking. They smoked their entire life. I did too.
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  Speaker 1: I smoked for many years. I quit many, many, many
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  Speaker 1: years ago. I haven't had a cigarette in probably 25,
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  Speaker 1: 30 years. But I wish I would have taken those
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  Speaker 1: cigarettes away from my mom and dad. Just said, listen,
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  Speaker 1: you're killing yourself. But You know, you can't make them
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  Speaker 1: do something that they don't want to do. You can't
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  Speaker 1: make them quit smoking. They're going to do what they
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  Speaker 1: want to do. And my brother still smokes. And God
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  Speaker 1: knows I wish he would quit. Anybody who smokes, I
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  Speaker 1: wish he would quit. If you only knew the dangers
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  Speaker 1: of smoking. And I'm sure you do. You hear about it.
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  Speaker 1: You've got to know about it. But if you smoke, rethink.
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  Speaker 1: Rethink that. Try to get some help. Try to quit
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  Speaker 1: smoking because it will ultimately kill you, which it did
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  Speaker 1: to my mom and dad. But anyhow, I remember my
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  Speaker 1: mom and dad. I remember the beautiful people that they were.
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  Speaker 1: I remember the kind souls that they were. I remember
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  Speaker 1: how they would help anyone in need. They would give
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  Speaker 1: their shirt off their back to help anyone. And I'm
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  Speaker 1: thankful that my mom and dad instilled those same values
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  Speaker 1: in me. But I'm not going to lie. I'm a
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  Speaker 1: little angry that God took them away from me. I'm
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  Speaker 1: angry that That they're not here with me right now.
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  Speaker 1: I'm angry that I have to go through the rest
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  Speaker 1: of my life alone. I'm angry about that. And I'm
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  Speaker 1: selfish because I want them here with me. I want
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  Speaker 1: to spend one more day with them. I want to
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  Speaker 1: hug them one more time. I want to go fishing
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  Speaker 1: with my dad one more time. I want to go
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  Speaker 1: shoot guns with my dad one more time. I want
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  Speaker 1: to go visit my mom one more time. I want
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  Speaker 1: to hug my mom. I want to kiss my mom.
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  Speaker 1: I want to tell them both how much I love them. Yeah,
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  Speaker 1: I'm selfish. I want that. But I can't. Sometimes that
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  Speaker 1: kills me. But like I said earlier, we all have
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  Speaker 1: to die. It's inevitable. But I won't ramble on anymore.
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  Speaker 1: I love my mom and dad more than anything in
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  Speaker 1: this world. And if you still have your mom and
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  Speaker 1: dad here, spend as much time as you can with them.
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  Speaker 1: Because once they're gone, they're gone. All you'll have is
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  Speaker 1: to remember. But anyhow, I'm going to leave you with that.
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  Speaker 1: I appreciate you all listening. I appreciate you all being here.
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  Speaker 1: And I'll see you all on the next episode. Thank you.