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"I DON'T LOOK LIKE WHAT I HAVE BEEN THROUGH" · WOMEN MAJORING IN MARRIAGE

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Welcome to the women, majoring in marriage podcast with your
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host Janice L. Vance.
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Girl, if you are a married woman that desire is not just to have
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a surviving marriage, you know, the kind that's just on cruise
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control but actually want a thriving marriage.
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You are in the right place. If you are engaged, this show
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can inspire you to prepare for your marriage, before preparing,
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for that expensive, wedding day. Oh, and all my single ladies out
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there. There that are in their season
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of waiting on God, to send your husband.
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We've got something for you as well, girl, marriage is not
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hard, but it certainly is work. So relax.
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Get your pen and paper, and let us major in marriage.
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Well, hello to all my queens and welcome to the women.
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Majored in marriage podcast, we're doing episode number 15.
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I Just Want to Thank You Queens for continuing to rock with me.
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I'm noticing how you are listening to the other podcast
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and I do appreciate you because I do know that it's so much
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information out there and there's other things you could
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be doing but you take the time to look and I am so grateful.
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I'm Excited today to have a guest with.
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I am so excited to have this gift.
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For me, her name is Tiffany Weaver, Tiffany Weaver and the
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what she will be talking about today is I don't look like what
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I have been through and you can look at it and she don't look
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like she been in a thing. Do you take a look at her?
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But I'ma tell you a little bit about Tiffany because she has a
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lot going on Tiffany. /. She's also known as
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one-of-a-kind. I love that.
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She is a wife to Henry. She's a mother of two, beautiful
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daughters and a daughter of the king.
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That's a a lot within itself. The daughter of the king, she is
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the owner and founder a one-of-a-kind girls
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one-of-a-kind ta LLC and sisters.
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She is a published author. Of eight, books, eight books and
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a motivation and inspiration to speaker, she's a mentor for
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young girls in her community college students.
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And those who graduated, who attend the school that she
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graduated cum laude from. Wow, that does.
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That's awesome. She earned the spirit of Of
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service award she's a double master in business and
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healthcare administration and management.
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And lastly, that I would say about her.
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Tiffany was a u.s. veteran that served our country for eight
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years. And I just want to bring to you
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all Tiffany Weaver. I'm so excited, we never ever
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met in person. I have the Facebook group if
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you're not a father, Group women major in your marriage.
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I would love for you to go there where I post and they prove
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every every day I show up every day and that group.
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But I post things that are encouraging to people and I have
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the soup and chat from time to time and Tiffany came on one of
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my sip and chat while we just laid it, just sit and talk.
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And she told some of her story and I made about a month.
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That ago, somebody asked me about her.
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And I see she said she said, you know what you think, you don't
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have somebody going through something she said, but that
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lady that told she told me part of the story and she's begin to
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tell me her story and she was like, I'll never forget I'll
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never forget that. I would never forget that store
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so you never you never know who your story is for and I say if
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not, but one person gets up Something from these podcast,
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then I know that my job is not in vain is not in vain in there.
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So many people have stories and they sit back on their stories.
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They don't tell their stores, but your story not always for
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you. It could be for the other
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person. So don't sit back, sit back on
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your story. We're gonna sit here and we're
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going to let Tiffany just however the lordly her.
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She gonna tell her story as to how she chose that topic.
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That she don't look like what she been through.
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Tiffany tell us about yourself and what have you been through,
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and how you came up with that store and then you are pop.
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You published, eight Bulls, you are mother your Mentor.
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You you so encouraging so inspired and if you don't mind
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how old are you Tiffany? I just had a birthday.
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So I'm now 44. Wow what?
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What a blessing To be where you are at such a young age.
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That is a bit sensitive. Such a blessed, I follow you.
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I see your girls I see what they doing.
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I see how you porn into their lives which is a blessing.
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I see the other one, she ran their cooking.
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I'm like, okay, so it's just a blessing to have you.
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So Just Have Your Way. Well, again, thank you for this
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opportunity. I'm just so honored and blessed
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every single time I have the opportunity to just bring glory
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to God's name. As you just mentioned, our
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stories are important. In Revelation, reminds us of
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that because he tell us our stories, Our Testimony have
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power, he tells us, how do we overcome the Enemy by the blood
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of the lamb and the word of Our Testimony?
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So the fact that our testimonies have power is testimony in it.
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Itself, right? So just in choosing I don't look
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like what I've been through. I just think you know just like
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I shared with you in the Sip and chat when I just look back over
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my life, I am just and I'm pretty sure many of you can
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relate just elated to see you know you think about your scars
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and your trauma and your trials of your tribulation and then you
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look back and there's no evidence you don't smell like
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the residue of smoke is such a blessing.
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So when I think about me and I was just No, talking to my pops
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earlier and just always mentoring, you know, talking to
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my daughters. And I just thank God for
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allowing me. I don't have any regrets.
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I suffered a lot of trauma at a very, very young age.
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So I always say everything that you could probably go through by
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the age of nine. I probably experienced it so at
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the age of nine, my mom did go to prison, she was removed from
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my life abruptly and for taking someone else's life and, you
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know, it's just that it but I she often testifies that her
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going to prison is say, changed her life, but it's saved ours.
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So a lot of No Love, No hugs, no, nurturing, no.
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You know, the heights of abuse, lots of police.
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Lots of moving. I mean, I often testified that
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little girl. I had experienced so much evil.
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She had to die. So that I can.
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You see today could live? Because she had been exposed to
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so much verbal. Sexual mental psychological
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abuse. I just don't see, you know, and
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I thank God for it. I thank God for him.
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And then again, and maybe 2015, 2016, the book I have been
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writing since I was nine years old, he finally gave me an
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opportunity to publish that book.
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And at first, I was a little hesitant, but I was in school to
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be a healthcare administrator, and he was telling me and I had
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been meant for 14 years. I started mentoring even in
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college, you know, I started volunteer and he said, you know,
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you try to help these young people but he'll people help
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people hurt, people hurt people. So oftentimes, you think you're
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coming from a good place? You're like, oh and he showed me
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that I needed to areas. There were some areas I need to
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go back. Can healing and I mean, I
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thought it was good. I never really, I was never a
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Pity story. I didn't like to tell people
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where I've been been through. I came to Texas.
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I ran away from Oklahoma because of a lot of the bad things that
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was going on in my life. And so, a lot of my friends,
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they didn't know I was a ward of the state.
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I was homeless, but I went to school made good grades
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graduated top of my class played for it.
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To no one knew. Like, where did this girl come
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from? Where her parents?
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Do she have siblings? And then it wasn't until like
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2015, 2016 I have Friends have known me for years and they're
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just learning my story. And they're like, how the heck
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did you go to school? You kept all that in?
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I did, I had a fight in me. I, you know, I came into the
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world, the more I learn about my story that use and, you know,
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people often say, you know, you came in a bit and to the world
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as a baby and your parents try to take you out, you know, and
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you fought. So I had a fighter Spirit to
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always fault. So I remember when my mom went
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to prison, I remember the counselor she Your black and
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white Bible and I remember the in seeing was blue and I
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remember a gold cross on it, but I also remember what she said to
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me. It was almost as if she was
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saying because of all the abuse, the trauma my mama going to
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prison. It was a great opportunity that
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I was going to become. I was going to go down that same
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path. So at nine years old, I made up
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in my mind, I wasn't going to become a victim.
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I was going to fight, but in doing, so I kind of learned how
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to cope through life, I had to keep it, keep it moving tight.
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Right Spirit, you know, I didn't cry.
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I didn't you know what are you going to cry for life?
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Doesn't have sympathy for you. Got to keep it moving.
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And one thing about publishing that first book and getting that
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healing, it took me about three years to like, go through the
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entire process. And that was really going back
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to those places where, you know, my my innocent was taken, it
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innocence was taken at two years old, you know.
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And this person was allowed to continue and what can you do?
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Two years old. Wow.
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And it continued and even felt point to where when I was about
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15 16 and I was here in Texas, as a homeless, ward of the
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state, I was diagnosed with cancer because of it and they
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told me I would never have children.
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And so when I tell you, the testimony gets continues because
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they were able to tell me because of the sexual violation
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that started so young. It was, you know, the cancer and
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I just remember praying and I just like, I was like, Lord if
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you just give me an opportunity to be to some children, what I
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never got and I remember rolling into parking, which is like the
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community hospital here and I mean, I had prepared for the
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surgery, I didn't, I was so young, I did understand the
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chemo, and what the cancer me, I just begin to pray to God.
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To say, Lord, I just want to opportunity to have children.
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And as you mentioned in my bio, I do have two beautiful
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daughters. College student, that's 22 and I
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have a 13 year old. And I tell you my I'm just I'm
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just so thankful that I experienced motherhood as it
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should be through my children, right?
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Not perfect. You know, don't know everything.
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I had my first daughter out of wedlock.
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So all those, you know, I was, I was very upset with myself
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because I was in college and I fought and I had all these
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dreams and aspirations, and I talked about that becoming a
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statistic, right? What if you don't have a baby in
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high school, then early college, and I was so mad at myself
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because I'm like, you fall so hard, you know, but it was
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always this desire to fit. Look perfect, you know, because
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life was so imperfect to. You just had this desire.
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If I do be good enough, if I just do enough, that people will
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love me and it wasn't until I wrote the book, I got the
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healing and God, I learned that God, truly loved me.
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I began in early on, in my mentorship, even when I was
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modeling, I was a model I work with celebrities.
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I have pictures of working with Chris Brown and Vivica Fox, and
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Floyd Mayweather, and Steve Harvey.
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I've had opportunities, but that wasn't the path God had for my
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life. Once I learned, I was loved.
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I began my healing process and God showed me that I was truly
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one of a kind that's kind of where, my Ministry, everything
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kind of evolved from. I remind my girls that they are
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Fully in one of one wonderfully made, they're created in God's
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likeness and His Image. They are exactly who God created
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them to be. That is my motto.
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So when I teach them, I'm one of a kind Tiffany you're one of a
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kind Janice. So I try to teach them.
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I don't care what the life throws at you, your parents,
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don't love you. Mama, do God loves you and
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wants, you understand that part? Everything kind of extends from
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there. So that became that transition
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in life for me, where R. I never imagined, I was such my
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luck, my self-esteem was so low. I could never even read a
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picture in front of the class. So now that I'm having this
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conversation with you, my beautiful sister that I have
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never met in person. I still stages I've heard from
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women of all Races all over the world.
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I just never imagined me, sharing my story, how we
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suffered so much abuse. We got into the system.
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I remember going in foster care and and nobody wanted me and
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they giving me back Mama, I remember being locked in closets
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and just a suicide attempts because the pain was so bad.
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I just wanted to stop the rape, the set the set up in high
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school the cancer. So I would tell people baby
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anything you can tell me about the time.
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I was nine year old new years old, I experienced it but God,
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so when I say and I tell you, I didn't have much of a
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relationship with my mom before I wrote the book.
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And, you know, and I tell of my quotes in the book is, sometimes
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you're going to have to forgive with no apology.
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I truly believe. If me as a person that came in
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this world, a mother who did not?
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I mean, my mother hated me. This is how I felt me and my
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mother have a great relationship.
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Now you know that book me choosing to get my healing
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without her coming to you know because what we're waiting for
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is them to get their healing right?
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Because in order for her to come and really acknowledge all the
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hurt that House and all she got a children and we all got a
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book. Wow, to try to to kind of come.
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I couldn't imagine, right? So I've learned to have
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compassion for my mother. I children by the time she was
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20, her rape her and you know her abuse and all of that to
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have compassion. Now, does it take away from my
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experience? No, does it take away from I'm
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talking about, you know, the hair ripped from my head.
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I remember one time I was locked in a closet for months and to
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this day, you know, I don't even closed doors in my house because
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I was locked in the car. Then I could just always
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remember looking under one end to eat.
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I'm hungry. You know, my hair is ripped from
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my head. I was just in and I and she let
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me out to go to a carnival and I told me that they ended up
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taking a picture of me and I ended up on the Billboards in
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Oklahoma, under the feed, the hungry children Network, they
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thought that they had seen, they probably thought I was a little
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African. They can, you know, because of
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my auntie say now we're driving. Driving down the street in
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Oklahoma and your face is plastered on the feed.
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The hungry children at work at, you know, for years people used
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to tease me and say oh that's why you were on the feed, the
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hungry children Network and you know so all those things that
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just played into you know my self-esteem and not seeing it
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seeing my words and always seeing myself at the bottom and
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more. So, like the black sheep, you
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know, I'm one of those people that realize It's not how I
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feel. It is a fact.
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I was the black sheep, you know, and it's so sad because a lot of
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stuff happened to me and I even talked about not having identity
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and not even have a name. So, at one point, we were just
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known as her kids, right? Her oldest, her middle, her
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youngest. So it was always understood.
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They see an echo that soothes young is, right?
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Because that's the one that's in prison, that's her kid.
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And it was always Oh, you know, there's no explanation.
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It was no like hey, you should quit, do you?
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And so I just made it a point to take all of the experiences and
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be open. I finish honest with my children
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about everything that I've gone through to teach them how to
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keep pushing. Keep fighting no matter what you
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know, life throws at you, that they are one-of-a-kind.
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They are fearfully and wonderfully made.
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And always try to let them know like if I can do it.
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You do it because you hate experienced.
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So so, so so much the enemy. Had my oldest sister as
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handicapped. She got hit by a car when she
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was four and maybe like a year ago.
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She was locked up in John Hopkins, because she's had a lot
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of mental. She's basically diagnosed as
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mentally retarded and she apologized to me when she was
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locked up in John Hopkins. And I said, why are you
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apologizing? She said I'm apologizing that.
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I was physically disabled. and because of my mental, I was
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never able to help you when you were being You know, abused I
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could never. I could never help you and I was
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just, you know, that just peers my heart, that here it is, my
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sister, that was physically and mentally incapable.
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Wow. And she saying, as my little
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sister, I saw you, you know, being thumped and being kicked
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and being treated like a dog, you know, and the constant taken
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out of schools because of this is the levels of, you know,
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abuse. This is not just a whooping,
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these are aware. I was constantly taken out of
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the school. Because they would see bruises
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and they would see stuff and they would always take me out of
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the school and then I wasn't physically good enough for
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someone to want to take me. So I would watch kids be taken
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and then you know, I would never be taken.
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And you have to go back to that process of going back to your
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mother because now, no one else wanted use.
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This is still a lot of times when.
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Yeah. So when you see me, you know,
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you just have to understand. I know I understand, you know.
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I just and I try Tell people because I've had counselors tell
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me like you're not possible and you shouldn't be in your right
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mind and it's no way they call me because you have different
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levels of abuse victims. So I'm like a multi.
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I have about eight pages of Statistics that they giving me
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about myself where I was. You know, I was doing for prison
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in because I was abused. It was it was a greater
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likelihood that I was going to use my children that I was going
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to do the same things I was going to be in prison.
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I was going to be diagnosed with some talk.
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Remember, Mental illness because of all I endured and I had a
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council to me one time and she said, what do you who do you?
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Give credit to? And I say it has its God.
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Yes, nobody would know. And they kept telling because I
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never did counseling because I remember that counselor.
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And my any said you never spoke again after the.
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And I said, because I saw this white woman as a counselor
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trying to tell me this little black child, she had an
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experience anything that I ever experienced.
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They had no idea what I was going to, and then she thinks
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she had Power to tell me that statistically, I was, I had a
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greater chance of being absolutely nothing in life.
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Because of everything that was it.
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And I made up in my mind, I never spoke again.
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And then I made up in my mind, I was like I'm gonna fight, so I
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used it more. So as motivation, I went through
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a period of time where I was, I was a fighter, you know, people
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didn't even think I was gonna make it in the army.
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They say, yeah, they say you not going to make it an army,
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everybody had been. So you going, you going to be
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put out the, you know, and it's crazy because I was a leader.
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I was leader when I went into the army and I am You know, but
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it was, it was a good thing for me because I needed the
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discipline. When I had my daughter, I needed
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to, I need it. Everything that happened, and
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God allow the good, the bad, the ugly, it all played a role in
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who I am today and so I don't have any regrets.
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I don't, I try to use my experiences, my education to
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pour into young people. I've been mentoring as a
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healthcare administrator, educate them health.
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And I talked About the necessity for forgiveness and healing.
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Because what happens in the body stays in the body, you don't
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release it. And that's why a lot of us as
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African Americans are experiencing all sorts of
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diseases because we were taught things in slavery and they kept
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us in slave. I'm working on my first movie.
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Now, I have a book project called are light-skinned
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dark-skinned and I finish my movie trailer, so I'm working
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on, so everything that I have is awesome.
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I'm just taking everything and it's been motivation for me and
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you know, I have I'm not a sympathetic person.
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I don't have pity parties, lightning had pity for me, but I
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am a better person. I can put myself and I can say,
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I understand, because if that was me, I could understand.
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And then I must encourage her. What do we have to do to
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motivate you? What do you have to?
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And I try to, you know, use different things even as a life
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coach, I'm a Master Certified life coach.
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It's you know, trying to challenge because especially
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with these Millennials and the newer kids It's a different
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approach. They're dealing with all kinds
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of other things, but to kind of teach them little tricks to
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where they can use these trials and tribulations as stepping
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stones you know go to work. Go to work for them and make
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make them pay you so you can Live Your Dream instead of
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looking like I want to work for the person you know.
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So everything is been and so when I say I don't look like
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what I've been through, I know I'm a living and walking
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testimony because of things that happened.
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God allowed. I said, I am Joseph.
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I'm a little David, you know? Because you're not David, you
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know? If I always thought a job is it
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and then when God took me through Joseph, he said Joseph,
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but yeah, Joseph didn't even understand the call it.
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He'd understand the calling on his life.
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See, joke was grown and he knew God to be good, Jerusalem had to
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learn young. And so when I said, I said, oh,
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because I felt like that, I had sisters and siblings and she
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wants my sister's realize they really hate her.
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Everybody. I started getting these Body.
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So, you know, I'm just thankful that I started the healing
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process and that's something I encourage, you know, it ignited
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on the brink of my divorce. So this isn't I'm in my second
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marriage and so that first the book was given birth doing.
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I mean that's the opening of the book I talk about when I had
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reached that point in my marriage, but I also knew, you
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know, fast forward that there were some things that I need to
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heal from because when we don't heal from those childhood hurts
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and that trauma we carry that on into our life and it's in our
23:38
marriages and it's in our jobs and it's on our careers.
23:42
And I'm so thankful that I got that healing because it has and
23:47
I think you heal for the rest of your life, right?
23:49
I think soon as you master one thing, God show you, something
23:52
else that you can work, right? But as a mother, you know, as a
23:57
mother and a wife, I'm so elated that I It to to realize like you
24:02
need help and you need help in the sense that you can't keep
24:06
pretending what you went through.
24:08
Didn't happen. Yeah.
24:10
Right. You know I have a sister
24:11
battling cancer and I told her I said, I truly believe the way
24:15
you process. Our childhood trauma is the
24:18
reason for this because if you don't get it out, It puts poison
24:23
in your body. That's what people to understand
24:25
about Stress and Anxiety. There's a part of my book where
24:28
I talk about how unprocessed emotions impact, your health.
24:31
It's amazing to see how different emotions, you know,
24:34
just think about one as a parent.
24:36
You feel that heartbreak, right? Exactly.
24:39
I do feel it like if it's a bad news or some with your kids, you
24:42
feel it. We'll just think about it's
24:45
impacting your heart for real when you're nervous in your
24:48
stress. What do you feel in your
24:50
stomach? They say all this.
24:52
He's begins in the good think about the Stress and Anxiety.
24:56
So now I take my education as a healthcare administrator and in
25:02
a healthcare administrator is the person that is studied
25:04
Health past present and future. And then I've studied health and
25:08
its entirety you know where psychiatrist the psychology just
25:11
did the mind, a doctor did the body, I've collectively, and it
25:14
don't help that. I'm sold out for Jesus.
25:16
So I got the spiritual heart. You know what I mean?
25:27
so, every, every time I have to give glory to God's name for my
25:32
testimony, I mean, because that's, that's it, I don't look
25:36
like what I've been through and I know, it's because God, he
25:40
allows some things, but to know, he was with me because there
25:43
were times I couldn't sleep, I couldn't sleep a lot when I was
25:46
younger because of all the abuse, all the chaos, all that,
25:50
and I remember calling his name, just to To sleep.
25:53
Wow so I knew you know and it's like she always made sure the
25:57
church bus you know, it comes to your apartments, we was on the
25:59
bus and I recognize that peace and that love and that joy that
26:03
I felt In God's Presence, which is why in the Army, I served on,
26:07
he wanted use going to church back then doing all of this
26:11
trauma and that all alone. Oh yeah.
26:16
And I even had a I just got to get from my aunt and she wrote a
26:20
poem in there and you know, in a creative way she was you know,
26:24
because that's one of the things, you know, I used to ask,
26:26
why does our family not help us. Like, why would they see her
26:29
getting the acting of food? Everybody leave.
26:31
Okay, like we were rubrics, we were babies.
26:36
We were innocent, and nobody, you know, but God allowed her to
26:43
be removed from our life and then you Think about I kill
26:45
people, like I was a pain attic, right?
26:48
You got to think. I all I knew I didn't play with
26:50
dolls. I don't remember coloring.
26:51
I don't remember like a normal. I don't remember doing anything
26:54
the child did, right? I can't reflect back on any of
26:57
those memories. So then one day, she's just
27:01
taken, right? It's early in the morning,
27:03
police is in our house and it's just a big mess because they're
27:06
coming and getting all these kids out of the house and your
27:08
mom and coming home. And like the next day, the pain
27:12
just stops. So now you're like everything I
27:17
knew to be right is wrong because you're knowing this.
27:22
That was your life. You thought it was normal to get
27:24
kicked. Like, if you, you know, to get
27:26
kicked across your head and it's something happened, he was
27:28
outside on the concrete. Use get stumped right there,
27:30
like on-site, you thought stuff like that was normal to get
27:34
kicked or punched or just knocked out and extension cords
27:37
with you. No bruises all surgeries because
27:40
of all of you thought this stuff was normal and it wasn't.
27:43
And so you know for I became that angry I went from Billy and
27:48
Billy to the bully, you know, because now I'm reaching out for
27:52
help. Why?
27:54
Because we don't understand that in our black families and our
27:57
communities, those kids are written off as bad.
28:01
They're written off as and they're just hurting.
28:04
You know, those kids are hurting and we were hurting, you know,
28:09
and I commend my aunt, she was 25 years old when she took in,
28:12
you know, all my mother's kids. To ensure that we stay together.
28:15
So I always call her, I always talk about us is 10:51 because,
28:19
you know, sometimes she would try to send the kid here for the
28:21
summer or something. So but at the most we had 11
28:25
kids in the house. Wow.
28:28
At 25 years old. So you know, I'm trying to call
28:30
over a long time ago and then I got Help this woman.
28:36
But you know, II can't say of all the children.
28:39
I'm probably, you know, the book I made the decision because I
28:43
remember going through the divorce the first time and I
28:45
said Lord, why so much but suffering and why so much pain.
28:49
And in one of my now I have a problem where I tell my story
28:52
and I say, why me? And then at one doctor, at one
28:55
point and not in my poem, God is saying, okay, is that it?
28:59
And, you know, and then he said why my son?
29:02
So he was able to tell me I was chosen, I was called I was
29:06
allowed because he knew just like the lepers somebody was
29:10
going to come back and say thank you.
29:11
So, every opportunity that I have to let somebody know who
29:15
the good, the bad, the ugly God was with me, he's kept me.
29:21
And I have to always give Glory, it's not a title, it's not an
29:24
education is not a degree, it's not nothing.
29:27
I have I'm nothing without him and I try to give him glory and
29:32
everything I say and do. And so that's, that's really why
29:36
I chose that title because I think it just sums up.
29:40
They want a family where I come from.
29:43
Yes, wow, what a powerful story. That really that riddle.
29:47
Oh, you've been through a lot, I can't even imagine, you know, I
29:50
think about my children. I think about my grandchildren,
29:53
I have a granddaughter. That's 14.
29:56
I can't even imagine her having that have to go.
30:00
Through all of this, you went through all of that and you came
30:03
out and now you're able to tell your story when you married when
30:08
you got married again, the Time was you totally heal at that
30:12
time. You know what I say healed, but
30:16
I kind of feel like this. I feel like you heal for the
30:20
rest of your life. I think for the most part I had
30:23
got to because I remember being in that back that Wilderness
30:27
where God was telling me there was some things he needed.
30:30
It's almost like the children of Israel, right?
30:32
They came out and they thought oh we wanted to the promised
30:35
land. He like wait a minute, we gotta
30:37
clean you up here, right? So, depending on your levels of
30:45
offense, that's how long, you know, that's how much cleanup
30:48
that I got to do. And I think I did because I feel
30:50
like, I'm like, who's like three years?
30:51
I'm like, that I want to some stuff because guys, like and I
30:54
need you to understand where you sit like this, you had you, and
30:57
why you don't closed doors and why, you know, and understand.
31:00
So now I thank God for allowing me that and I wish so many more
31:05
women. I wish my mama, I wish her
31:07
siblings. I wish, you know, All of my
31:10
elderly black women and fathers would go.
31:13
You know, realize ask God to show them themselves and allow
31:18
him because he always works from the inside out right here on
31:21
just dress you up here, everybody, he called, if you
31:24
look into this word, he always did some work inside of them
31:29
before he did or bless anything on the outside of them.
31:32
And so, I knew that I was, you know, it's a better marriage and
31:39
it's a very experienced and I understand a lot of things
31:41
better. Yeah, I got my healing in
31:46
between those and like I was saying, even with my mother, I
31:48
couldn't I couldn't because there was, there was no
31:53
relationship established as a child.
31:56
I didn't have that natural intuition to like call my mom
31:59
or, you know. So I wrote the book and like now
32:03
I always talk to my mom every day.
32:05
Wow. And you know, it's not because
32:08
it's not because you know, she got her healing or she
32:11
apologized for, are they? I made a decision to say, I
32:14
don't want to be bound. I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings.
32:18
But when you start to realize, like, forgiveness is for you,
32:21
you forgive easier. When you start to love people as
32:25
God loves people, you'll start to see that's benefits you.
32:30
So when I read, I couldn't stay bound because she had not gotten
32:35
her healing. It's been, it's been a it's been
32:39
a blessing ever since and so now I like I said, I communicate
32:42
with her but I would love to see her get her healing, you know?
32:46
And I tell all the time, I said the enemy has tricked us into
32:49
feeling shame and guilt about our testimonies and what it is
32:53
is keeping us to feed it because the word already told us.
32:56
We can defeat the enemy with our testimony.
32:58
But instead we be quiet, we keep it to ourselves.
33:03
We stressed out we angry we unforgiving Harbor.
33:07
Treat everything that goes against God's will.
33:10
Wow. So I just I just thank him for.
33:14
So when you see me and you see, Miss one-of-a-kind, you truly
33:17
know, you know what it is. Yes.
33:23
And you too, you know, that's what I teach my girls.
33:24
I called, everybody is one-of-a-kind.
33:26
Giant one-of-a-kind see an activity.
33:27
It's like, do you mean we all got who all he created us?
33:30
All different or unique, or beautiful word and that's why
33:34
anytime I have those down moments, I always go to the
33:36
word. Word to remind me to get that
33:39
encouragement to get that. Reminder.
33:41
Because, you know, and like I said, but you're beautiful.
33:43
Why do I say? Yeah, but I've been through a
33:45
lot. So, I have moments where I need
33:46
to remind myself. Every man here.
33:57
I guess I was right at 40 grand mother on my dad's side.
34:00
She always stayed she's actually, Earl Grant.
34:04
He was a famous singer. He's my uncle, that was her.
34:07
There and I don't know if you know, Earl Grant was his music.
34:11
I think because he reminds me of Nat King Cole but his his music,
34:15
I think he's the singer on Imitation of Life.
34:17
I think he's the theme song that says music and so like meeting
34:22
like, when my grandmother died, I flew to La, she only had two
34:25
sons left and I was like, my grandmother always took care of
34:27
people. She was a traveling nurse.
34:29
I was like, I got to go down here, make sure she gets buried,
34:32
she had a few and so that's what I did on.
34:34
My uncle was tired him as and then my dad is not Not mentally
34:38
all the way there. So I said he needed somebody to
34:41
ensure. So I went down there.
34:42
I found her life insurance policy.
34:44
I did the obituaries. I help them do the funeral, but
34:47
everybody was like, you've never met your dad and your uncle and
34:49
you're going to go down here. I said this is a faith trip.
34:53
So it was just even amazing being where they were like,
34:56
where did you come from? Like, we never knew.
34:58
Sue had another baby. And, and then his girlfriend
35:01
decided, my, but Dad's girlfriend decided that she was
35:04
going to tell me she's like my sister a writer, you know.
35:07
Dad wanted you to know. And then if she sent me an email
35:09
and it said your dad found out, he was your mom was pregnant
35:13
with you. He tried to kill you in her
35:14
stomach. I thought, who would tell
35:18
exactly who would tell somebody that but I'ma tell you those are
35:22
the things and those are the time that the enemy always tries
35:25
to take me back to that place but that's when I have to remind
35:29
him with the words, right? I was even formed in the womb.
35:32
God had a plan for me. Yeah, you know but it doesn't
35:35
negate and that's why Why I tell people if it wasn't for that
35:39
peace and that joy, and it was always something.
35:41
When I was an Army, I was in. Good God, I was in college, I
35:44
would live in the whole life, but I served, you know, we sung
35:47
in the choir and we so I was always attached to church before
35:52
I was sold out for Jesus because I knew who allowed me to go to
35:56
sleep at night, because they say that my any said, when you got
35:59
with me used to, I used to, I used to shake my leg and beat my
36:04
head. So she saying that's how you put
36:07
yourself to sleep because you was beaten so often.
36:11
That's how you put yourself to sleep.
36:13
I will shake my leg and beat my head.
36:16
Wow, and it took me years to get away from beating my head to get
36:21
to sleep because that was what I knew to be normal.
36:26
So when I look at those statistics and I say I'm not I'm
36:29
not diagnosed with any sort of mental, any type of mental
36:33
illness, I have you know, sisters and brothers who have
36:36
been diagnosed with stuff and I just thank God.
36:38
And when I see what is the difference?
36:40
It's only God. Wow, that is the only difference
36:43
between what should have happened.
36:46
What could have happened with would have happened?
36:48
I don't know, but I thank him every day that I chose him and
36:52
he's been keeping me every since every since.
36:58
So, it's just in. That is, that is so so awesome.
37:04
So awesome. Wow!
37:07
I'm just sitting here. I just listening.
37:09
So you met your, you Mitchell? A father for the first time when
37:13
he was when you was how I was 40.
37:18
You met him recently. So yes, not that long ago,
37:22
right? So I just met him in 2019.
37:27
Wow. Yeah and he and he, you know, he
37:30
didn't really, he got injured in an accident and it's so it
37:33
messed up his nervous system. But he always, you know, he just
37:36
always say, I wanted to try to be there for you guys and I was
37:39
not able and I don't, I don't Harbor any unforgiveness.
37:42
So I just know, I still have all my respect for him because he
37:45
was my father. And, you know, sometimes we
37:48
hope, you know, grudges for against our parents and it's
37:51
like well he and his right mind he made all these bad choices.
37:54
What, what example, what would he have been in my Right, you
37:58
know, so you just gotta it's your perspective.
38:01
And so I'm just, I have a sister.
38:03
We have the same dad and, you know, she's not her experiences
38:06
at the same, you know. It's a lot of anger and a lot of
38:09
forgiveness and a lot of. So, but I just chose to be.
38:13
I just choose Joy. I choose peace.
38:15
I choose happiness, and it's been a blessing for me, you
38:18
know, I just closed on house a couple of months ago, I never
38:20
imagined you saw very, you know, it's funny, I still like, in the
38:26
midst of Covid and all this happening, I just never, you
38:29
know, because when you go through so much trauma, I
38:32
remember listening to interview with Keyshia Cole and Jeezy and
38:35
they're actually singing a song and it's like they made it.
38:39
And he said, where do you see yourself in 10, 20 years and he
38:42
said alive and I think because I just wanted to be alive.
38:46
I was fought on I fought. I never thought past you know
38:52
much pads just being alive. Wow.
38:56
So I never In a house or myself walking down the aisle.
39:00
So I just I just I'm just so thankful that God saw fit to
39:05
bless me and my family, and to allow me and my children to, you
39:09
know, have a home. And yeah, we were paying home,
39:13
prices to rent, right? But we expand somebody else.
39:17
So now, it's just, it's truly troubling.
39:21
You home out of God has blessed you.
39:23
That's, that's so awesome. That's so awesome.
39:26
You know, Tiffany, There is so many women.
39:30
There are suffering in silence that have stores that went
39:34
through things. More people are coming out now
39:37
because a lot of people going to counseling, you know, that he's
39:41
taboo. Where people, okay, client
39:43
counseling, one good play with other people being in church and
39:48
they even being in being in church, they still was broken
39:53
and they still was hurt. They still was a shame.
39:56
They never was delivered from Um, it because they felt that it
40:01
was all their fault, and there's a lot of women today.
40:05
I promise you, I get women that I do not know they eat that
40:10
email me and I'll say, I just love being a grew.
40:14
I love the women that's in your group.
40:16
I love and courage words, you're saying and I've got a long ways
40:21
but I'm not where I need to be. I never told my story because of
40:25
Shame. And what would you say?
40:29
That person there. Suffering in silence.
40:36
They've gotten married. They see in that mirror because
40:41
it was looking for love to my just love and they actually have
40:46
a person to actually love them but they see themselves.
40:54
Like you said, how you at the Rock yourself to sleep?
40:57
Or you said a certain way you was always tense?
41:00
They find themselves that way because they never was set free
41:07
and to heaven. From this into the marriage.
41:11
Now they bleed in on the man who never cut them.
41:16
Yep, because of things that happened in the past.
41:22
What would you say to the person that feel that they are shamed?
41:26
Well, I don't want the other person to be known or I don't
41:29
want nobody to know the other person did this.
41:32
I want to keep quiet but you're not healed, right?
41:36
Well, I would say for me, Even like when you list you mentioned
41:41
being shamed and the guilt and you know, I had to look at
41:45
myself and say how has this been working for me, right?
41:48
How is me keeping this in? You know, I'm going to tell you
41:51
when I wrote the book, you already know them.
41:54
My family came for me, right? Because we have that mentality,
41:58
and this is why I say to the young people.
41:59
I said, you know, it's amazing. How something was invited into
42:03
our race. But then they do the exact
42:05
opposite, right? They made us feel shame about
42:07
counseling but they go to counseling.
42:09
Bigger campaign trips. They ripped our families apart.
42:12
But they, that is the way they move, they teach their kids go
42:15
to school, get an education, get married.
42:18
Get to the very things that they taught us the opposite of, and
42:22
their race is thriving and being blessed and being favored.
42:26
If you look around, it's our race that still struggling with.
42:30
So at some point I had to get to where I was and opening my book,
42:34
I talk about being angry, with God, not really being angry with
42:37
God but but in a Sense of, but why so much suffering?
42:41
So much pain. I'm asking him all these
42:42
questions. Then he said you're done and
42:44
then he began to show me different things.
42:46
So, what I would say is, I always promote healing, however,
42:49
you have to get your healing. I was always writing, maybe you
42:54
can't afford counseling, like, you have to find a way to ignite
43:00
your healing process. Like, like I said, I feel like
43:02
you can heal but because we're we were created in perfect like
43:08
because Not going to reach perfection in this lifetime.
43:11
So that means you're always, I tell you, I posted one day, I
43:14
said you realize, that is the only solution.
43:16
So, you're either the problem or part of the problem, you always
43:20
be working on yourself, right? I'm always be working on
43:23
yourself, but if you don't. So my thing is just from being
43:28
that person I can say from personal experience of being in
43:32
those very places. A shame never telling your story
43:37
bound not free. And when I tell you, I have
43:41
never felt so physically spiritually free to be.
43:46
Even if you don't want to stand on a stage or put it in the
43:49
book, you can put in a book like me, I didn't mention names, but
43:52
hey, it's a lot. I got a big family.
43:55
I got a lot of resistance, so if you say the old, did you say the
43:58
middle? You say my mom, you said Mom
43:59
that everybody understood, but God had to show me that my
44:04
testimony was beyond me. You say it was not for me and
44:11
that's when you start to think about what Jesus did on the
44:13
cross, right? He could have any point said
44:16
don't hit me another time, I'm not doing it but because he
44:20
surrendered, I'll be decently to the Cross.
44:24
He already paid a debt for us. He already paid a debt whatever
44:28
you have to do because like like I said, the Forgiveness with no
44:32
apology. Well, if you're looking for
44:35
someone to apologize to take ownership, you have to change
44:38
your perspective to see that was on the things that God did he
44:41
showed me? I was loved and he changed my
44:43
perspective from looking at a glass half empty to have full.
44:47
So it's all about changing your mind.
44:48
So if you want to continue to be the victim or that person owes
44:51
me, see God paid that debt. We still trying to get people to
44:55
pay a debt that God already paid.
44:57
So if your mama never apologize if your daddy never apologized,
45:00
guess who went to the cross and paid their debt.
45:04
Why you get this forgiveness and you start to get the hit?
45:08
And like you said, like I said, if you're financially able to do
45:11
counseling, I encourage like I have a program in my mentor
45:14
program called shut up and write.
45:15
That means you have times where you just frustrating your
45:17
computer and you feel like they're not understanding me,
45:19
right? Right.
45:22
Why'd it out, but get it out, get it out.
45:26
And then, you know, one thing with my book, my first book Is
45:30
before, when I was writing, I was journaling, I was Hiring
45:33
you? It didn't have purpose.
45:34
It wasn't going to help anyone, right?
45:36
So then you have to take your hurt and your child and because
45:39
goddamn waste our pain. And now you have to find purpose
45:42
in it and you have to say, Okay, so it but it all works for you.
45:46
The enemy is just the enemies already been defeated, right?
45:50
And when you learn that, we don't were in the flesh, we were
45:52
in the spirit. So what I started looking at
45:56
things different, so my part had to change.
45:58
My mind, had to change, my words, had to change, they got
46:01
to be in alignment. Wait, so when you begin to speak
46:05
things, even with getting the house and get in paying off my
46:08
car and everything I began to speak, I began to change I felt
46:11
when people call I begin to change, I began to ask so
46:14
everything. So then when I fast forward and
46:16
said, we just got a house in the midst of a crazy where I know
46:18
couples met, my husband hadn't been married two years and it
46:21
was couples that have started the process and a lot of people
46:24
that did one able to get a house Knew that we had prepared, I
46:28
knew that my healing, I knew a lot of that was a part of the
46:32
blessings that had. So when I had I had to look at
46:36
all of the different. So you have to change your heart
46:39
in your mind from the victim. And then who is it going to
46:43
benefit? Do you want God to get Glory, or
46:46
are you wearing about offending, your mother for finding your
46:48
sister? Because now, you're looking at
46:51
God is taking that in blessing, so many more people than you
46:56
ever to my Imagine that every time you speak, that's more
46:59
healing. You're getting, every time you
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write every opportunity, you have to get it out, you have to
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get it out. You have to find like Miss
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Janice is group, the mentoring and marriage like be and we have
47:18
to find and create safe spaces where people feel safe to share,
47:23
you know, safe to share. So whether it's a counselor, you
47:26
know, I didn't have cancer because I never opened up to a
47:28
counselor, but God is a counselor, right, right?
47:32
He is the best healer. He's a bit and so I didn't have
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a counselor, I had Jesus. Right.
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And so I had to have that authentic experience with him
47:42
because he was the mother and father I didn't have.
47:45
So I just encourage, you know, get selfish about your
47:47
blessings. Realize this healing that you
47:50
need this forgiveness, you need to give it's for you.
47:54
So now you can release those people.
47:56
They live in your heart, rent-free they live in your mind
47:59
room three a lot of don't even know the incapable so they don't
48:04
even know. They were they may know but they
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don't got to a place where they They told they self.
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I got in. Forgave me I moved past and you
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still stuck with your walking around down.
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Wow, that's powerful. It's just that, you know, the
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the it was just a made-up mind. I had a mate of mine and I made
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of hard to say, I didn't want to continue to struggle.
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I don't want to continue down this path.
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Lord showed me me. And that's the biggest thing we
48:31
got to stop looking. Yes, I know the things that
48:34
happened to me and you heard my testimony, there were some awful
48:37
things that happen to me, but then I began to ask God to show
48:41
me me, and show me the purpose and what Hugh allowed.
48:45
Me to go through. But when I tell you it's the
48:47
benefits for me, I'm like that piece.
48:49
I can go to bed, my husband so much, every time you hit the
48:51
pillow, you go to sleep. You know when I think about the
48:55
fact that I could sleep when I was a little sad, you couldn't
48:58
sleep and stress and different stuff you like.
49:05
And I'm like, thank you, Lord, that I can sleep at night.
49:08
So I've not even in the material, take away the material
49:10
blessings, just the peace and the joy in the That you have
49:16
I'ma tell you who is the dr. Miles right.
49:18
Monroe say die. Empty and I say die free.
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So use are your gifts. Make sure you don't want to take
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all your gifts to the grade but that's three.
49:29
And how do you die free? Christ, pay the debt.
49:34
He paid the debt that you trying to get your mama to pay.
49:37
Yo, daddy to pay. Yo, sex offender.
49:39
I was set up in high school. I know and right by my friend's
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brother. So I've experienced it, but you
49:45
got to release them. Why?
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Because God paid that day. And then ask him to now he'll
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and work on you because it's for you.
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So, when I began to, I had to change.
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My whole mindset is hey, wait a minute, this healing is
49:58
forgiveness with me. Wow, we thinking because you
50:03
giving them power they got power over you, take your power back.
50:09
When you speak on these things, when you forgive when you guys
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say God help me try to love and how to understand how
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compassion. And if that person walk in the
50:17
room, I'm not even impacted like that.
50:20
I ain't got no anger in my heart.
50:22
I'm not going to look at him crazy.
50:23
I'm not gonna do help me. Give me peace to wear.
50:25
What do you say? Well, you can ask him to bless
50:27
your enemies. Matter of fact, use me to bless
50:29
my enemy why. Wow.
50:32
Can you imagine? People met at this point.
50:40
What's your excuse? Mmm, mosquitoes, when you hear
50:44
stories like mine, when you see stuff like that, and they didn't
50:47
have anything. No love.
50:50
No nothing. I hear people that old when I
50:52
was five and I'm not negating because all of that is a
50:55
violation. Those are spiritual violations.
50:58
Yeah. What is it on our Kelly?
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All of my heart goes out for them.
51:03
But it's some point we are responsible and we got to be
51:08
responsible because you waiting on them people for the rest of
51:11
your life and they just like we said your power.
51:13
So I encourage them to reclaim their power.
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Look at it differently. Look at it.
51:19
Like it's for You look at as you're getting your your intent
51:22
because God deals with matters of the heart.
51:23
My intent is not to be to expose you to hurt you and all that,
51:28
but it's also to give glory to God.
51:32
Yes. Yes.
51:33
So that's what your testimony. That's what your healing is
51:36
doing. Its reclaim your power and
51:38
giving God glory. It'll work out for you good,
51:40
too. So that's what I can say cuz I
51:41
can have honest conversations with my daughters.
51:44
I still can't have on and conversation with some of the
51:47
elderly women in my family because they have It got their
51:50
healing. Well, I can smell my daughter.
51:52
I love you, and you're beautiful but you're wrong.
51:56
Right? Right.
51:57
Because there's no, there's no, there's no I if I'm wrong I
52:01
apologize to them. If there's something they
52:04
experience I say mama mama got it wrong.
52:07
Let's relearning, that's relearn some things?
52:09
I talked to some things I told him they need people.
52:11
I taught him how to suck it up and keep it moving and I'm
52:13
trying to reverse. We do need people, you know,
52:17
because, and I told her that not know Because that's how I
52:20
learned how to deal in life. So I feel like you never get too
52:23
old. I don't care how old your
52:24
children aren't he was when you've offended your brother and
52:29
sister he didn't say if they was 10 or if they was 15 of they was
52:32
20. So when you offend you you go to
52:34
them, he tell you before you bring your gift to the offer and
52:37
Altar. And you know you got out with
52:38
your brother sister. Why go fix it and then come
52:43
back. So there you go.
52:44
I'm like who would make this investment in church?
52:46
All these years and then count. Exactly.
52:50
So what makes down make you pay? Make it work for you, make you I
52:55
didn't go through all this for nothing.
52:57
Why is that? So it has been a pleasure.
53:02
I just hope something that was said or you know, it encourages
53:06
and inspires someone to reclaim their power in and live.
53:10
He didn't create us the fight. He said he'll fight our battles.
53:13
I know because I was fighting. I had to learn how to control my
53:16
hands. I went through a period where I
53:20
was testing it by some old hippie.
53:21
I know, back in the day, you would fight that was the process
53:24
of learning self control. You don't always have to respond
53:27
to react, you know, like you used to, and he and I fought
53:30
because I, they follow me. So, all I knew was the right.
53:36
Say you fight, if you find who find your battles, why is that?
53:42
So yeah. Yeah, it's so much fun.
53:45
Even God, he's so amazing. He's so sorry.
53:47
He's so whole he's dope, you know, he strategic, he has a
53:50
sense of humor. I just love him so much and I'm
53:52
thankful, you know, just to be able to have a relationship with
53:57
him. Wow, that is awesome.
54:00
Tiffany, I have certainly. So I feel like we just missed
54:04
it. I feel like we just missed
54:06
sitting across from each other sitting in my living room.
54:09
We just been chatting and when they don't.
54:13
These don't happen, you're going to take your Sip and chat on the
54:16
road and your women meijin and marriage and you won't have
54:19
conference and we going to get to, you know, we don't get to
54:21
link up with the sisters. That's something I look forward
54:24
to. Oh wow.
54:26
Wow. I appreciate it.
54:28
That's what I asked you. That's actually what I've been
54:31
praying about because you know, I do travel agent, I retired,
54:34
I've been retired exactly 10 years now and then I start doing
54:39
the women major and marriage because I've always been
54:42
passionate about mayor. I married my junior, high school
54:45
sweetheart. And last month, we've been
54:48
married 44 years and I just met a girl.
54:53
Besides, I was trying to get a hold of and you were being born.
54:59
But you know, that's encouraging to me because I'm trying to
55:02
start a marriage group now, just kind of like in the community
55:04
where we can, you know, have couples come together because US
55:07
general couples, we need the mentorship, you know, we need
55:10
more. We didn't have those examples
55:12
going up of Saint marriages and stuff.
55:15
So I really want that community that, you know, that Sisterhood
55:19
that Brotherhood praying for our marriages, our spouses and our
55:22
children. Yeah.
55:24
And I think I feel you definitely be good for that.
55:28
You would definitely good there. Yeah we gon crime it for you.
55:31
We going to claim we're going to explain.
55:35
I'm here thinking next year of some type of look.
55:38
I've done Workshop before butter doing a like a little Retreat.
55:43
I do not something, I'm just praying about it a little while
55:45
being prayed with you get together something
55:49
meet-and-greet something, you know what it is.
55:53
It's been so awesome here in your story and your entire
55:58
store, I As some of you store in this, here you go into a store
56:03
and just knowing that God still has more for you.
56:08
The best is yet to come and I admire you being young.
56:14
I'll just imagine, I'm 62 when you get to be my age.
56:18
What will you be doing, girl? Wow, wow, how many, how many
56:26
people were you have impact bad? Then, wow.
56:31
Awesome, Tiffany, I don't see you back to him.
56:34
I don't get it twisted long as they get back to him, like, I'm
56:37
like, okay, scared of nobody, but God.
56:41
Yes, yes. Yes I am.
56:43
I am so proud of you all so proud.
56:46
When I saw your clothes on your house just just proud just
56:50
really, really proud and how you Mentor young girls and how you
56:55
set the standard for your girls and then you have a young girl.
56:59
That you're raising and then I saw the other day, she was bacon
57:03
and and I felt the joy that you feel seeing ever do that.
57:11
It's a blessing, it's a blessing but thank you for this
57:14
opportunity and your mentorship and your example because you
57:18
know we need to and especially like I said with marriage.
57:21
I'm like you, I'm in favor of marriage and I really want to
57:25
see. So what you're doing, it's a
57:27
blessing. And even though I did And I've
57:29
never met you, it's just been a blessing me to you, you know,
57:32
through social media, and being able to attend or women,
57:36
majoring in marriage and listening to your podcast.
57:39
It's all been a blessing. So I thank you more more than
57:43
welcome. And ladies, my queen.
57:45
This episode number 15 come out on, October the 26th, I told the
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26th begin today, you'll be reminded every day.
57:56
The flyer will be posted in the group.
57:59
In a few minutes and this episode will be out and I pray
58:04
that it be a blessing to you. And if you feel that you know,
58:07
and if you feel that you have a story that you would like to
58:10
share, you can reach out to me at Janice Vance at gmail.com
58:16
Janice Vance at gmail.com, but the women majoring in podcast
58:21
was was birthed from my women and major Marriage group that I
58:29
began to grow and just begin to when I wrote my book, that was
58:34
something that wasn't playing. But when God has something you
58:38
to do, and you build beat and do that and then it was a park, a
58:42
so this is just episode 15, I'm just getting started only due to
58:47
a month so far. And I had said that, I
58:49
eventually wanted to once a month interview, a young lady
58:55
who want to tell her story. Spare not just Maori women,
58:59
those that engage of those, in their seasonal waiting, or those
59:03
women that just single to encourage them, because that's
59:08
what the group is all about inspiring married women to
59:12
continue to major in marriage. I've been married, 44 years and
59:18
44 years. I am still majoring, I have not
59:22
graduated. I have not graduated.
59:25
I'm still learning because I'm I'm not the same person.
59:29
I was he not the same person. He was 20 years ago, 15 years
59:33
ago. And that's not a bad thing that
59:36
we haven't graduated because we that give us something to work
59:40
on the strive for and we are striving for excellent.
59:45
Hey, maybe it's something. I'm married to be an example to
59:49
other people because there are so many marriages out there just
59:53
on life support and, and, and, and Bear.
59:57
I live breathing and want to let people know.
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And young people who don't want to get married, they choose to
1:00:04
shack up or not, get married, whatever.
1:00:07
Let them know that marriage is a covenant is a blessing.
1:00:11
So that's what that's what actually inspired me with all of
1:00:16
this. I Pray ladies that you all have
1:00:18
been blessed with you mean Miss Tiffany one-of-a-kind and don't
1:00:25
forget to check out that. At episode, I will have the link
1:00:29
out there, it's on Spotify. If you don't have that app,
1:00:33
download the app and you can see some of my past episode women,
1:00:38
majoring in marriage. And, again, Tiffany I want sad.
1:00:41
Thank you. I appreciate you.
1:00:42
I love you. I pray.
1:00:43
God bless you all. Thank your life and just know
1:00:47
that The Best Is Yet To Come A man.
1:00:50
Thank you and likewise to you. Thank you.
1:00:54
Bye Janice on our website. . Janice Vance.com where you can
1:01:00
order her book, women, majoring in marriage and for more fun
1:01:03
content, be sure to check out our Facebook group at women
1:01:06
majoring in their marriage. Also, if you have any questions
1:01:09
or would like to reach out, feel free to send us an email at the
1:01:13
marriage, major at gmail.com. Thanks again for tuning in and
1:01:17
we'll catch you in the next episode.