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Canaries in Coal Mines with Therapist Lori Gottlieb · Dear Chelsea

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  Speaker 1: Hi, Hi Catherine, and how are you, hi, Chelsea. I'm great.
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  Speaker 1: It's kind of freezing today. I'm kind of freezing saying
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  Speaker 1: it's a perfect time for me to go to Whistler.
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  Speaker 1: I'm going. No, I can stop me. I can't fucking
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  Speaker 1: wait to go skiing. Oh my gosh, how long do
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  Speaker 1: you stay up there? Well, this year is going to
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  Speaker 1: be a little different because I'm gonna come back to
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  Speaker 1: do some more podcasts and then I have some stand
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  Speaker 1: up dates up there. But all my Canadian dates are
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  Speaker 1: January through March, and then I have some Seattle in
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  Speaker 1: between February three and second i have Seattle in Portland,
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  Speaker 1: and but I'm going to stay up there for the
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  Speaker 1: majority of the winter time, and Joe Coy will be
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  Speaker 1: introduced to Whistler. I was gonna ask, will you go
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  Speaker 1: for the whole time or while he's on tour still too,
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  Speaker 1: so he will use that as his home base. Oh,
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  Speaker 1: I love that. This is great. Yeah, I can't wait
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  Speaker 1: for all my friends to come visit me up there
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  Speaker 1: now that we're not well, hopefully down through the thick
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  Speaker 1: of it. But who knows what the hell is on
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  Speaker 1: the horizon? Yeah, it was. It was actually like terrifying.
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  Speaker 1: In one of the ads that we recorded to day
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  Speaker 1: where they said, well, it's that time of the year.
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  Speaker 1: Whether those sniffles are you know, sniffles are COVID nineteen,
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  Speaker 1: I was like, oh, so it is just that time
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  Speaker 1: of the year now. Somebody said to me COVID will
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  Speaker 1: go about be going on for the next three to
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  Speaker 1: five years, and I was like, that sounds about right. Yeah, Well,
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  Speaker 1: I have some brighter news for you. A follow up
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  Speaker 1: from t who called in last season. She was on
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  Speaker 1: our episode Open to Happy Endings and she had had
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  Speaker 1: some sexual trauma and was dealing with that while she
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  Speaker 1: was with her current partner and having some some issues
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  Speaker 1: related to that. So we got ahold of her afterward
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  Speaker 1: and I gave her a recommendation for a therapist to
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  Speaker 1: see and this is what she said, Hi, Catherine, I
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  Speaker 1: just wanted to thank you again for your help in
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  Speaker 1: finding a therapist. I contacted Healthy Relationships b C and
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  Speaker 1: have found a therapist I connected with who's accommodating to
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  Speaker 1: my limited budget as a student. Today I had my
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  Speaker 1: first session of E. M. D R Therapy and it
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  Speaker 1: went really well and I'm so optimistic about the healing
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  Speaker 1: that is going to come from this. I can't believe
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  Speaker 1: this all came about because I happened to see Chelsea's
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  Speaker 1: Instagram story asking for questions and missions. Anyway, I wanted
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  Speaker 1: you and Chelsea to know how grateful I am for
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  Speaker 1: the opportunity to share my struggle and your help and
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  Speaker 1: encouragement and finding supports to start healing. Thanks again, t Oh,
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  Speaker 1: that's a great update. Thank you. I was doing that.
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  Speaker 1: I was so happy to get that email from her.
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  Speaker 1: And yeah, because it is, it's sort of it's one
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  Speaker 1: step at a time. You take those baby steps, you
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  Speaker 1: get started, and I think e M d R will
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  Speaker 1: be a really have you tried that I have? And
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  Speaker 1: you know who was just talking about that publicly with
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  Speaker 1: Sandy Bullock on the Red Table Talk. She was talking
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  Speaker 1: about e M d R. She had an intruder into
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  Speaker 1: her like come into her house and she had PTSD
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  Speaker 1: from that and that she did a lot of a
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  Speaker 1: M d R and she said it was so healing. Yeah,
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  Speaker 1: I think especially for any sort of physical trauma like
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  Speaker 1: that where it's someone invading your space or you know,
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  Speaker 1: as t had sexual trauma, I think it's so so helpful.
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  Speaker 1: So that actually leads us right into our guest today.
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  Speaker 1: Oh yes, it was also a therapist. Yeah, we have
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  Speaker 1: a real therapist. You guys, don't be jealous if you're
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  Speaker 1: not on this episode. Our guest today Lori Gottlieb, who
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  Speaker 1: is a psychotherapist and a New York Times bestselling author
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  Speaker 1: of Maybe You Should Talk to Someone. That's the title
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  Speaker 1: of the book that I read, and it's sold over
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  Speaker 1: a million copies and it's currently being adapted as a
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  Speaker 1: television series and there's also a new workbook version of this.
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  Speaker 1: She is also the co host of the very popular
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  Speaker 1: Dear Therapist podcast. She writes a weekly column in advice
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  Speaker 1: column for The Atlantic called Deer Therapist, and her Ted
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  Speaker 1: Talk was one of the top ten most watched of
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  Speaker 1: the year. So please welcome Laurie Gottlieb. Hello, Hello, Hello, Hello,
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  Speaker 1: how are you. I'm well? How are you? I'm well?
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  Speaker 1: Thank you. This is my co host, Catherine. Hello. Hi there, Hi,
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  Speaker 1: it's very nice to speak with you. First of all,
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  Speaker 1: congratulations on all of your success. Well, thank you. Yeah,
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  Speaker 1: it's nice, right, nice to be successful, it is. I
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  Speaker 1: can't I can't argue with that, especially when you are
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  Speaker 1: helping people while you're achieving that success, I would imagine
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  Speaker 1: that is an even greater victory. I came up across
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  Speaker 1: your book right after I think my book came out
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  Speaker 1: shortly before your book, and then I was reading your book,
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  Speaker 1: and then everyone was reading your book, and there were
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  Speaker 1: so many similarities from my therapy experience with my psychologist
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  Speaker 1: that I was able to relate to in your book
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  Speaker 1: and your book, that book, Maybe You Should talk To
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  Speaker 1: Someone is a collection of many couples and people that
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  Speaker 1: you worked with, right, Yeah, So basically in the book,
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  Speaker 1: I follow the lives of four of my patients as
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  Speaker 1: they go through various struggles, and then, uh, there's a
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  Speaker 1: fifth patient in the book, and the fifth patient is
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  Speaker 1: me as I go to my own therapist because I'm
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  Speaker 1: going through an unexpected breakup, and so you see kind
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  Speaker 1: of therapy with me as the therapist and me as
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  Speaker 1: the patient. And it was very insightful to see that
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  Speaker 1: because I guess as a therapist, I think a lot
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  Speaker 1: of people always forget we assume that therapists have all
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  Speaker 1: the answers. You know, that you guys are there to
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  Speaker 1: help us kind of navigate everything, and I think people
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  Speaker 1: can sometimes forget that you're a human being. As well
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  Speaker 1: and need your own guidance. Yeah. I mean I say
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  Speaker 1: at the beginning of the book that my most significant
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  Speaker 1: credential is that I'm a card carrying member of the
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  Speaker 1: human race. That I think, you know, I know what
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  Speaker 1: it's like to be a person in the world. And
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  Speaker 1: I think that there's this idea that when you go
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  Speaker 1: to a therapist, that they're like these perfectly put together people.
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  Speaker 1: And I think the other trope that people have of
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  Speaker 1: therapist is that they're like the hot mess, you know,
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  Speaker 1: like the person who's like like an in treatment, you know,
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  Speaker 1: where they're like breaking boundaries and having sex with their patients.
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  Speaker 1: And it's not like that. It just we are exactly
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  Speaker 1: like you, except that we're trained to help you deal
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  Speaker 1: with your struggles, and then we go to people who
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  Speaker 1: are trained to help us deal with our struggles. And
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  Speaker 1: do you find yourself as a professional, Do you find
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  Speaker 1: yourself or another outlet that you can kind of get
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  Speaker 1: that feedback from. Do you have a community of other
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  Speaker 1: therapists that you work with or meet with or anything
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  Speaker 1: like that. Yeah, so, and maybe you should talk to someone.
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  Speaker 1: You get to see something that a lot of people
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  Speaker 1: don't realize, but most therapists have consultation groups. So every
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  Speaker 1: week we meet with a group of our colleagues and
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  Speaker 1: we go over our cases and so we talk about,
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  Speaker 1: you know, where we're stuck, or we want advice, or
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  Speaker 1: we want feedback. So it's not just us alone in
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  Speaker 1: a room with somebody. But if we really want, you know,
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  Speaker 1: to run by somebody else, we we have that option.
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  Speaker 1: And I think when it comes to our personal lives,
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  Speaker 1: you know, I think that I really think that therapy
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  Speaker 1: can be so valuable for people. And I'm not saying
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  Speaker 1: that because I'm a therapist. I'm saying that as a patient,
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  Speaker 1: because I feel like, you know, I talked in the
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  Speaker 1: book about the difference between idiot compassion and wise compassion.
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  Speaker 1: So we go to our friends with a problem and
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  Speaker 1: we're like, listen to what my partner did, or my
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  Speaker 1: boss did or my sister did, and we're like, yeah,
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  Speaker 1: they're wrong, You're right. You go girl, you know, because
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  Speaker 1: we think we're supporting them, but really, you know, when
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  Speaker 1: you listen to your friends over time, it's almost like
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  Speaker 1: you'll hear that maybe it's with a different person, or
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  Speaker 1: maybe it's even with the same person that they're sort
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  Speaker 1: of describing the same thing over and over, and the
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  Speaker 1: common denominator is them. It's kind of like if a
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  Speaker 1: fight breaks out in every bar you're going to, maybe
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  Speaker 1: it's you, but we do not say that to our friends.
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  Speaker 1: And so when you go to therapy, instead of getting
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  Speaker 1: idiot compassion, you get wise compassion where we hold up
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  Speaker 1: a mirror to you and we help you to see
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  Speaker 1: something about yourself that maybe you haven't been willing or
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  Speaker 1: able to see. And the word compassion is in there
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  Speaker 1: because it's done in a very compassionate way. But it's
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  Speaker 1: really important for us to see our own role in
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  Speaker 1: our own lives, and you know what we might be
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  Speaker 1: doing that is getting in our way. Yeah, I mean
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  Speaker 1: that was very clear to see with one of your patients,
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  Speaker 1: who I would describe as an asshole upon reading it.
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  Speaker 1: Obviously you use more careful language because you are a
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  Speaker 1: compassionate therapist, but you know this guy who was so
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  Speaker 1: clearly stuck in his own bullshit and his own narrative
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  Speaker 1: and just repeating the rep Titian of his of his
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  Speaker 1: behavior basically and not being able to see outside of yourself.
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  Speaker 1: And I think that is the gift of self awareness
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  Speaker 1: is pretty much the one tangible. Not the one tangible,
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  Speaker 1: but the most prominent tangible thing that I walked away
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  Speaker 1: from therapy with is the gift of self awareness. Well,
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  Speaker 1: that's right, And I think when you talk about him
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  Speaker 1: being an asshole, I think, you know, he was incredibly
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  Speaker 1: insulting and unlikable at the beginning of the book, but
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  Speaker 1: he becomes the person that I think most people like
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  Speaker 1: the most by the end of the book because once
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  Speaker 1: you see why he's acting that way, and I think sometimes,
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  Speaker 1: you know, we don't take the time to figure out, well,
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  Speaker 1: why is someone acting that way because they're speaking with
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  Speaker 1: their behaviors if they don't have the words, or something
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  Speaker 1: is so unspeakable, as there was something in his life
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  Speaker 1: without spoiling it, you know, if something is so unspeakable,
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  Speaker 1: we speak with our behavior. It comes out in other ways.
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  Speaker 1: So once he started talking about it, he started to
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  Speaker 1: change his behavior and and he becomes like incredibly lovable
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  Speaker 1: and somebody that that I think people are drawn toward. Yeah. Absolutely,
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  Speaker 1: I recognize a lot of myself and him too. That's
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  Speaker 1: why I feel so free to be able to call
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  Speaker 1: him an asshole, because that's what I was before I
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  Speaker 1: went to therapy. So this podcast. Well, I mean, I
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  Speaker 1: know you're good at giving advice obviously, so we're very
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  Speaker 1: excited to have a professional on the podcast because we
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  Speaker 1: are not. But I like to give advice anyway. We
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  Speaker 1: have people call in, you know, with life problems, we're
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  Speaker 1: going to give them just some feedback. So we're so
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  Speaker 1: happy to have you here today, Laurie, Thank you great, great,
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  Speaker 1: excited to do this. Yeah, well, before we get to
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  Speaker 1: all the fun stuff, we'll take a quick break. Okay,
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  Speaker 1: sounds good. We'll be right back. Our first call comes
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  Speaker 1: from Lizzie. She is a clinical psychologist. She says, Dear Chelsea,
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  Speaker 1: I'm having a hard time with my family. I've always
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  Speaker 1: felt a little different, and I've been labeled the emotional one.
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  Speaker 1: I've been a crier since I was a kid, and
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  Speaker 1: my mom could never handle it. Well, i just completed
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  Speaker 1: my doctorate in psychology, and I've also been really trying
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  Speaker 1: to put the work in for myself. I feel the
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  Speaker 1: older I get and the more I learn, the more
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  Speaker 1: I see my family's toxic traits, their tendency toward judgment
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  Speaker 1: and criticism, their old school ideas. For example, you're turning
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  Speaker 1: thirty soon, when are you going to get married and
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  Speaker 1: start having kids. I feel so frustrated because I wish
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  Speaker 1: they could see how damaging some of the things they
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  Speaker 1: say and do can be. But they're my family and
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  Speaker 1: I love them, and I'm just not sure I like
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  Speaker 1: them right now. I know I'm biased because I'm a
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  Speaker 1: new psychologist, but I'm also not trying to therapyze them.
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  Speaker 1: How do I reconcile this, How do I manage healthy
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  Speaker 1: relationships with people who are unwilling to look inward on themselves?
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  Speaker 1: And how do I communicate these things without sounding like
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  Speaker 1: the know it all family member who just got their
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  Speaker 1: doctorate in psychology. Lizzy, Hi, Lizzie, Hi, Lizzie. Well, so
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  Speaker 1: I'll just jump in if that's okay. So I was thinking,
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  Speaker 1: you know, when a lot of people grow up and say,
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  Speaker 1: my family said I was too sensitive, or my family
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  Speaker 1: said that I overreacted to things, or my family said
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  Speaker 1: I was just I couldn't just let things go, and
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  Speaker 1: I was very differ cult. Right, So we talk about
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  Speaker 1: the identified patient in the family, and they identified patient
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  Speaker 1: is the person who kind of holds all the symptoms
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  Speaker 1: for the family that nobody is talking about, and that
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  Speaker 1: person becomes like the canary in the coal mind. That
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  Speaker 1: person becomes first says, wait a minute, there's there's a
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  Speaker 1: problem here, right, So it's not that the other people
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  Speaker 1: in the family are bad people. It's that they never
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  Speaker 1: learned how to talk about emotions. They were they're very
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  Speaker 1: uncomfortable with emotions. So if your child starts having these
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  Speaker 1: normal human emotions and you're uncomfortable around them, you might
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  Speaker 1: say to your child, Oh, don't be so sensitive, Oh
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  Speaker 1: just let it go, right. And then sometimes these people
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  Speaker 1: grow up to become adults who are very depressed, and
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  Speaker 1: we have this saying, you know, before diagnosing someone with depression,
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  Speaker 1: make sure they aren't surrounded by assholes. Right. Um. I'm
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  Speaker 1: not saying, by the way, Lizzie, that your family is that,
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  Speaker 1: but I am saying that I think that maybe you
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  Speaker 1: you didn't learn a lot about what it means to
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  Speaker 1: validate your own feelings, right you're shaking your head now,
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  Speaker 1: and and then what it means to talk about that
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  Speaker 1: in a way where you're not accusing your family of anything,
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  Speaker 1: but you're you're holding your ground, And I think that's
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  Speaker 1: the first place to start with us. Yeah, I think
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  Speaker 1: you're exactly right with that, and that's right struggle. It
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  Speaker 1: feels like they don't hear me, hear what I'm trying
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  Speaker 1: to say? What are you trying to say? What would
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  Speaker 1: you like to say to them? Sometimes it's just basic things,
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  Speaker 1: like I said, when I feel like my views are
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  Speaker 1: different than there's, it's not okay for them to say
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  Speaker 1: some things like oh, why is there a black Annie?
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  Speaker 1: Or when I am upset and I expressed a feeling, well,
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  Speaker 1: yeah I feel sad about that. Oh, well, you're making excuses.
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  Speaker 1: I'm like, what, how is that an excuse? I'm sharing
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  Speaker 1: a feeling with you all, and that's an excuse for something.
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  Speaker 1: It just it's really hard. Yeah, I see this in
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  Speaker 1: couples a lot to I see between parents and children,
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  Speaker 1: but I all so see it in couples where people
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  Speaker 1: try to argue with somebody else's feeling, like, oh, why
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  Speaker 1: would you feel sad about that? Or don't feel sad
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  Speaker 1: about that? Like, you can't argue with the way someone feels.
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  Speaker 1: You might not agree with some content around that, but
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  Speaker 1: you can't argue with the fact that they feel the
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  Speaker 1: way they feel, because that's just nobody can own that
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  Speaker 1: except you. I think about parents who say to their
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  Speaker 1: kids are really uncomfortable with feelings, and their kid comes
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  Speaker 1: to them and says like, I'm really sad about what
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  Speaker 1: happened in school today, and the parents like, don't be sad.
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  Speaker 1: Let's go get some yogurt, you know, let's go get
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  Speaker 1: frozen yogurt, let's go to Disneyland, or you know, I'm
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  Speaker 1: really scared about this, and they're like, really, there's nothing
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  Speaker 1: to be afraid of. So they kind of try to
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  Speaker 1: talk you out of your feeling because they are uncomfortable
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  Speaker 1: with your feeling, and then the kids learns, oh, maybe
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  Speaker 1: it's not okay to feel sad or angry or anxious
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  Speaker 1: or whatever you happen to be feeling, right, So it
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  Speaker 1: sounds like you are afraid that if you were to
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  Speaker 1: say to them now, actually I do feel sad about this,
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  Speaker 1: that they would do what they just kind of brushed
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  Speaker 1: me off. Lizzie the politically correct one, Oh, we can't
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  Speaker 1: say that around her because she's sensitive and that will
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  Speaker 1: upset her or that will make her angry. And it's
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  Speaker 1: just like, I the problem here, right, You're not the problem,
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  Speaker 1: but the problem is that you feel like they get
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  Speaker 1: to make the rules and you have to follow them,
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  Speaker 1: as if you're still a child, but you're allowed to
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  Speaker 1: say whatever you want to say, and you're also allowed
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  Speaker 1: you get to choose whatever response you want to choose.
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  Speaker 1: So just because they label you something doesn't mean you
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  Speaker 1: have to accept it. It's like I always say this,
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  Speaker 1: like when parents send guilt to you know, I always say, like,
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  Speaker 1: just because she sends guilt doesn't mean you have to
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  Speaker 1: sign for the package, doesn't mean you have to accept delivery.
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  Speaker 1: So just because they're sending you this message doesn't mean
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  Speaker 1: you have to accept the message. You don't have to
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  Speaker 1: sign for the package. So you can say whatever you
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  Speaker 1: want to say, and you don't have to argue with
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  Speaker 1: them or try to convince them of something. But you
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  Speaker 1: can just tell them this is how I feel about it,
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  Speaker 1: and they can call you whatever they want. We just
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  Speaker 1: had on on my podcast, have this podcast called Dear Therapist,
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  Speaker 1: and this this woman was saying she talked to her brother,
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  Speaker 1: and her brother said to her, you know everything you're
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  Speaker 1: you're always so sensitive, you're so emotional, You're you know,
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  Speaker 1: everything is so emotional with you. And she said, yeah,
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  Speaker 1: I have emotions. That's my superpower. And it stopped her
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  Speaker 1: brother right, because all of a sudden. It was like
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  Speaker 1: it was a reframe of how they think about her.
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  Speaker 1: Brother might not change his mind on that conversation, but
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  Speaker 1: it's a different way. Instead of saying no, I'm not sensitive,
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  Speaker 1: it's own it, say I am sensitive. I like that
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  Speaker 1: about myself. I feel things. I'm not racist, right, um,
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  Speaker 1: And you might use different words for that, but to say, like,
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  Speaker 1: you know, I feel differently about this, I think about
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  Speaker 1: this differently. Yeah, I'm so scared of rocking the boat,
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  Speaker 1: of messing with the status quo. I'm so bad at confrontation.
• 15:55
  Speaker 1: I'm so bad at standing up for myself, and I
• 15:57
  Speaker 1: wish I were better at it, and I wish I
• 16:00
  Speaker 1: were better at just saying yeah, being sensitive and having
• 16:03
  Speaker 1: emotions is my superpower, because I think it is, but
• 16:07
  Speaker 1: it feels like it gets shut down a lot. How
• 16:10
  Speaker 1: do they feel about your career choice to be a
• 16:13
  Speaker 1: clinical psychologist? Um, I mean they're there's really they're proud
• 16:17
  Speaker 1: of me for what I'm doing and getting my doctorate,
• 16:20
  Speaker 1: and they've been really supportive. But then sometimes they're like, oh,
• 16:24
  Speaker 1: well the doctor over here. Oh if you guys aren't
• 16:27
  Speaker 1: ever going to take me seriously, how am I supposed
• 16:29
  Speaker 1: to take myself seriously. You need to take yourself seriously
• 16:34
  Speaker 1: and then other people will take you seriously and or
• 16:37
  Speaker 1: may or may not, But the point doesn't really matter.
• 16:39
  Speaker 1: The point is you need to start taking yourself seriously. Yeah.
• 16:42
  Speaker 1: And even my mom, she came to visit and she
• 16:45
  Speaker 1: saw something that was gifted to me by a supervisor
• 16:48
  Speaker 1: that said, oh, you did X, Y, and Z so well.
• 16:51
  Speaker 1: And my mom was like, oh, you can do that.
• 16:54
  Speaker 1: And I was like, yeah, I believe it or not.
• 16:56
  Speaker 1: I learned some stuff these last few years. It's like
• 17:00
  Speaker 1: everyone's surprised. Yeah, and again it's that reframe because I'm sensitive,
• 17:04
  Speaker 1: I function really well in the world. Yeah, I think
• 17:07
  Speaker 1: you need to stand in your power a little bit
• 17:09
  Speaker 1: more than you are. You know, give yourself a lot
• 17:11
  Speaker 1: of credit. You went out there and got that doctorate,
• 17:13
  Speaker 1: and just because your family doesn't understand what that means
• 17:16
  Speaker 1: and what that entails, you have every right to explain
• 17:19
  Speaker 1: it to them, to demonstrate, to show them how much
• 17:22
  Speaker 1: knowledge that you've gleaned, that you're part of the future,
• 17:25
  Speaker 1: not the past in terms of their old school ideas
• 17:29
  Speaker 1: and you know, racial judgments and whatever. You know, you
• 17:32
  Speaker 1: don't have to defend yourself you can talk about the
• 17:35
  Speaker 1: way you feel in a way that isn't defensive. You
• 17:38
  Speaker 1: can say, yeah, I know you guys feel that way,
• 17:40
  Speaker 1: but that's that's old school thinking. I've been introduced to
• 17:42
  Speaker 1: a new way of thinking. You know, I'm a newer generation.
• 17:46
  Speaker 1: This is what I believe, this is what I know
• 17:48
  Speaker 1: to be true. These are the things that I've learned
• 17:50
  Speaker 1: and own it instead of looking at them for your value.
• 17:55
  Speaker 1: That's not where you're going to get your value. Your
• 17:57
  Speaker 1: value comes from within you. You went out in did
• 18:00
  Speaker 1: these things. Your family didn't go and get their doctorate
• 18:02
  Speaker 1: for you. You did that, and now you get to
• 18:04
  Speaker 1: talk about it because it's another experience that you've added
• 18:07
  Speaker 1: to your life, you know, to your shelf of experience
• 18:11
  Speaker 1: in life. You know what I'm saying, Like, you get
• 18:13
  Speaker 1: to talk about all of your experiences because it's not
• 18:16
  Speaker 1: anything that they've had. So yeah, I understand that people
• 18:20
  Speaker 1: have problems with confrontation, but family gets very stuck in
• 18:23
  Speaker 1: patterns of behavior, and who better to change that pattern
• 18:26
  Speaker 1: of behavior than somebody who just got their doctorate in
• 18:29
  Speaker 1: one of the social sciences. It's so important what you're
• 18:32
  Speaker 1: doing and the exploration that you've done so you have
• 18:35
  Speaker 1: everything to be proud of. And I think if you
• 18:37
  Speaker 1: just exercise that muscle a little bit more, especially in
• 18:41
  Speaker 1: your family dynamic, you'll be surprised the things that come
• 18:44
  Speaker 1: out of your mouth in the way that you feel
• 18:45
  Speaker 1: about yourself. Families try to create a system that that
• 18:49
  Speaker 1: stays in homeostasis, meaning like they don't want any one
• 18:53
  Speaker 1: piece to change, right, So it's kind of like, oh,
• 18:56
  Speaker 1: if one person changes and doesn't, let's say it at you.
• 18:59
  Speaker 1: There's a difference between sensitivity and reactivity. So it sounds like,
• 19:02
  Speaker 1: right now, you're very reactive. So and that's different from
• 19:06
  Speaker 1: the power that you have of being sensitive. And so
• 19:08
  Speaker 1: if you are less reactive with them, if you try
• 19:12
  Speaker 1: less to gain their approval, if you try less to
• 19:14
  Speaker 1: kind of convince them of something, but you still stand
• 19:17
  Speaker 1: in your own place, that's going to throw them off.
• 19:20
  Speaker 1: It's kind of like people do a dance with each other,
• 19:22
  Speaker 1: and if one person changes their dance steps, then the
• 19:24
  Speaker 1: other person is either going to fall on the dance
• 19:26
  Speaker 1: floor or they're going to have to adjust their dance
• 19:28
  Speaker 1: steps too. That's what's gonna happen with your family when
• 19:30
  Speaker 1: you react differently to them. And so you're not so
• 19:33
  Speaker 1: much the child trying to get their approval, but you're
• 19:36
  Speaker 1: the adult almost their teacher, right but not. You're not
• 19:39
  Speaker 1: teaching them in an overt way. You're just saying, I
• 19:42
  Speaker 1: know who I am, this is what I believe, and
• 19:44
  Speaker 1: you're going to stop reacting to them in that way
• 19:46
  Speaker 1: of like, please don't call me that, Please don't tell
• 19:49
  Speaker 1: me that that's not true. Right, Just you know how
• 19:52
  Speaker 1: you feel, you know what you believe, and you can
• 19:54
  Speaker 1: say it and not be reactive if they have a
• 19:56
  Speaker 1: different way of thinking about it. Yeah, thank you. It's
• 20:00
  Speaker 1: hard to communicate sometimes with people when they feel like
• 20:03
  Speaker 1: when it feels like they don't want to listen, trying
• 20:05
  Speaker 1: to figure out when is the right time to say
• 20:08
  Speaker 1: something or when is the right time too. It's not
• 20:11
  Speaker 1: that they don't want to hear it's that they're afraid
• 20:13
  Speaker 1: to hear it, because you, Lizzie, are a reminder that
• 20:16
  Speaker 1: emotions exist, and they are terrified of emotions. They are
• 20:21
  Speaker 1: terrified of the kind of things that you think about
• 20:23
  Speaker 1: that that you feel. They feel them too, but they
• 20:28
  Speaker 1: find other ways to kind of push them out, They
• 20:30
  Speaker 1: numb them out, right, And so for you to come
• 20:34
  Speaker 1: forward with these feelings and they have to look at
• 20:36
  Speaker 1: feelings right away, and that triggers feelings in them and
• 20:39
  Speaker 1: then they get terrified. So it's not personal to you,
• 20:43
  Speaker 1: it's that you are just a symbol of emotions to them,
• 20:45
  Speaker 1: and they get very afraid of emotions, yes, very afraid
• 20:49
  Speaker 1: of crying in tears and feeling yeah. Yeah, I mean
• 20:55
  Speaker 1: a perfect example of them bringing up the Black Annie.
• 20:58
  Speaker 1: Like a perfect response would be, like, I think it's
• 21:00
  Speaker 1: a great don't what's your issue with having a black
• 21:03
  Speaker 1: woman have the opportunity to star in this classic film
• 21:07
  Speaker 1: that everybody knows about. Why why would you have a
• 21:10
  Speaker 1: problem with that? Or I think it's wonderful, Like I
• 21:13
  Speaker 1: think it's so wonderful that a black woman has an opportunity,
• 21:16
  Speaker 1: that this isn't just now a white story, that we're
• 21:18
  Speaker 1: opening this up so that everybody can participate in this
• 21:21
  Speaker 1: and that that this this issue, and that the crux
• 21:24
  Speaker 1: of that movie is something that every little girl has seen.
• 21:29
  Speaker 1: Why not have that be somebody that a small black
• 21:33
  Speaker 1: girl can relate to more than as a white person
• 21:35
  Speaker 1: starring in it. You know, there's so many avenues to
• 21:38
  Speaker 1: do it without the defensiveness, without the just to say,
• 21:41
  Speaker 1: I'm proud of that. I'm proud that Annie has a
• 21:43
  Speaker 1: black cast now and that there's a black Annie like
• 21:45
  Speaker 1: that means to me progress is being made and black
• 21:48
  Speaker 1: people are being representative in a more fair way. Yeah,
• 21:51
  Speaker 1: I think I need to get better at taking myself
• 21:53
  Speaker 1: more seriously so they take me more seriously and so
• 21:57
  Speaker 1: I can convey those things. It sounds like you kind
• 22:01
  Speaker 1: of lose yourself around them. Yeah, you know, it's almost
• 22:04
  Speaker 1: like I think sometimes we have these stories that we
• 22:06
  Speaker 1: tell ourselves about ourselves that were our roles in the family.
• 22:09
  Speaker 1: And you just said what your role was, like the
• 22:11
  Speaker 1: silly little girl, right, And it's almost like wearing clothes
• 22:14
  Speaker 1: that don't fit anymore, Like you're still walking around in
• 22:17
  Speaker 1: those childhood clothes, but they don't fit anymore. They don't
• 22:19
  Speaker 1: fit who you are. They didn't fit who you are then,
• 22:21
  Speaker 1: but you didn't know how to articulate that. That's why
• 22:25
  Speaker 1: your mother said, oh, really you do all those things
• 22:27
  Speaker 1: when she saw that, because I think I think that
• 22:29
  Speaker 1: it's hard because you haven't accepted that you are not
• 22:34
  Speaker 1: that role that was assigned to you in the family,
• 22:37
  Speaker 1: and so it's really important for you to get out
• 22:39
  Speaker 1: of that role and to take on a new role,
• 22:41
  Speaker 1: not just in your family, but in your life. That
• 22:43
  Speaker 1: role is going to follow you in relationships, in your
• 22:46
  Speaker 1: professional world, is going to follow you everywhere unless you
• 22:49
  Speaker 1: start redefining your role. Yes, exactly, it's only with my family,
• 22:53
  Speaker 1: I worry. I don't really care what other people think.
• 22:56
  Speaker 1: It's just I don't know why it's so hard with family. Well,
• 22:59
  Speaker 1: your family's done a number on you. You know, your
• 23:01
  Speaker 1: family dynamic has probably just had an impact on you,
• 23:03
  Speaker 1: And obviously it has, because you know you don't. I
• 23:06
  Speaker 1: was just thinking while you were talking, do I ever
• 23:08
  Speaker 1: feel uncomfortable bringing anything up to my family? And and
• 23:11
  Speaker 1: I'm the emotional one in my family for sure, and
• 23:14
  Speaker 1: I don't when I talk they listen because I've never
• 23:18
  Speaker 1: ever regarded their opinion as more important than my own.
• 23:23
  Speaker 1: So maybe if you can think about it that way,
• 23:26
  Speaker 1: you know you you are as important as you think
• 23:28
  Speaker 1: you are, and you are valid and your feelings should
• 23:31
  Speaker 1: be validated. So I think as soon as you just
• 23:34
  Speaker 1: start exercising that muscle a little bit more, you're going
• 23:36
  Speaker 1: to realize how much more easily it will come to you. Yes, yeah,
• 23:42
  Speaker 1: I need to get better at practicing that well, you will.
• 23:45
  Speaker 1: You will start and you will just make a little step,
• 23:49
  Speaker 1: but baby step in the right direction. That's usually all
• 23:51
  Speaker 1: it takes is one step, and then there's a domino effect,
• 23:53
  Speaker 1: you know, of a new habit and you know, bodily,
• 23:57
  Speaker 1: something I do when I'm on stage performing or when
• 23:59
  Speaker 1: I'm nervous, or I just kind of really try to
• 24:01
  Speaker 1: try to center myself, Like if that kind of interaction
• 24:04
  Speaker 1: with your family makes you nervous and you're going to
• 24:06
  Speaker 1: say something to stand up for what you believe in,
• 24:08
  Speaker 1: or just try to get your body like think about
• 24:11
  Speaker 1: tightening your your abs, your muscles and just having a
• 24:14
  Speaker 1: center of gravity so that you're solid and that you're
• 24:16
  Speaker 1: on solid footing, and just think about I'm strong, I'm okay,
• 24:20
  Speaker 1: I'm allowed to say how I feel. I'm allowed to
• 24:22
  Speaker 1: say these things without getting flustered or getting too scared.
• 24:26
  Speaker 1: You know, stand in your own body and be aware
• 24:28
  Speaker 1: of your body, and just think about the fact that
• 24:31
  Speaker 1: you've walked a long way to get where you are,
• 24:34
  Speaker 1: and you did the work and you deserve an opinion.
• 24:36
  Speaker 1: There are a lot of voices in your head that
• 24:38
  Speaker 1: aren't yours, but we all have this right and I
• 24:41
  Speaker 1: think that's why a lot of us are so unkind
• 24:43
  Speaker 1: to ourselves, and we don't even realize it. You know,
• 24:45
  Speaker 1: a lot of times I'll say to people, like, you know,
• 24:47
  Speaker 1: who's the person that you talked to most in the
• 24:49
  Speaker 1: course of your life. And they might say, it's my
• 24:51
  Speaker 1: mother or my partner, or my sister or my best friend.
• 24:54
  Speaker 1: But actually the person that we talked to most in
• 24:56
  Speaker 1: the course of our lives is ourselves. And what we
• 24:58
  Speaker 1: say to ourselves isn't always kind or true or useful.
• 25:01
  Speaker 1: And so I had this therapy client and I said
• 25:04
  Speaker 1: to her, listen, I want you to go home, and
• 25:05
  Speaker 1: I want you to write down everything you say to
• 25:08
  Speaker 1: yourself over the course of a week and come back
• 25:09
  Speaker 1: and let's talk about it. And she came back and
• 25:12
  Speaker 1: she started crying, and she said, I am such a
• 25:14
  Speaker 1: bullied to myself. I had no idea. You know, that
• 25:17
  Speaker 1: voice that was her parents voice, like you have your
• 25:19
  Speaker 1: parents voices and your your mom's voice in your head
• 25:21
  Speaker 1: or family's voice. And there were things like, you know,
• 25:24
  Speaker 1: she was typing an email and she made a typo
• 25:26
  Speaker 1: and she said to herself, you're so stupid, right, that's
• 25:29
  Speaker 1: not her voice. That was someone else's voice. She passed
• 25:32
  Speaker 1: herself for reflection in the mirror, and she said, oh,
• 25:34
  Speaker 1: you look terrible today, not her voice. So I think
• 25:38
  Speaker 1: it might be a really good exercise for you to
• 25:39
  Speaker 1: really listen for that voice and write down what that
• 25:42
  Speaker 1: voice is saying, and then to distinguish is that my
• 25:45
  Speaker 1: voice or is that somebody else's voice? Because I think
• 25:47
  Speaker 1: you know what your voice is, but I think you
• 25:50
  Speaker 1: start to it gets very very quiet around all the
• 25:54
  Speaker 1: noise of the other voices that are rattling around in
• 25:57
  Speaker 1: your head, and I think you really need to start
• 25:59
  Speaker 1: writing some of this down to really become more aware
• 26:02
  Speaker 1: of it. Yeah. It's like, I'm so worried about upsetting
• 26:05
  Speaker 1: everybody if I express what I want or think or
• 26:09
  Speaker 1: feel whatever it might be. But that's not fair to
• 26:12
  Speaker 1: me anymore for ever. No, And what you're really doing
• 26:16
  Speaker 1: is instead of you know, you're so worried about disappointing them,
• 26:18
  Speaker 1: but you're really disappointing yourself. And at the end of
• 26:22
  Speaker 1: the day, I think that's really dangerous. Yeah, so that's
• 26:26
  Speaker 1: why I wrote it. Yeah, Well, thanks for calling in, Lizzie. Yeah, Lizzie,
• 26:31
  Speaker 1: did you feel like you've got some good advice that
• 26:33
  Speaker 1: you can work off of. Yeah, I'm thank you for
• 26:37
  Speaker 1: taking my call. It's really been awesome and I can't
• 26:41
  Speaker 1: believe I got to talk to you all. And Laura
• 26:43
  Speaker 1: Golli by the universe is so weird. I was buying
• 26:46
  Speaker 1: a gift for somebody at the book store the other
• 26:49
  Speaker 1: day and your book was like facing out, Maybe you
• 26:52
  Speaker 1: should talk to something, And I looked at the title
• 26:55
  Speaker 1: and I thought, yeah, I really need to and well
• 27:00
  Speaker 1: do you Well, I hope that this is helpful for you,
• 27:03
  Speaker 1: at least it gives you a start. Yeah, thank you, guys.
• 27:07
  Speaker 1: I appreciate you taking the time today. Good and Leslie
• 27:10
  Speaker 1: follow up with us. Let us know how it works
• 27:12
  Speaker 1: out with your family and if anything interesting happens, Oh yeah,
• 27:15
  Speaker 1: I'm sure, take care. I yeah. I mean, how do
• 27:21
  Speaker 1: you get out of old family dynamics? I mean, what
• 27:24
  Speaker 1: do you do, Laurie when you have a family like that,
• 27:27
  Speaker 1: or like any family that is stuck in a like
• 27:29
  Speaker 1: how do you change the dynamic? Yeah? I think it's
• 27:33
  Speaker 1: less about changing them and really taking ownership of your
• 27:36
  Speaker 1: own life and realizing that you're an adult with agency
• 27:39
  Speaker 1: and you have choices. So many people feel like they're
• 27:42
  Speaker 1: trapped by their families that they feel like, you know, well,
• 27:45
  Speaker 1: this is what this person always does, and then I'm helpless.
• 27:48
  Speaker 1: It's like, you're not helpless. You have lots of choices
• 27:50
  Speaker 1: in terms of how you respond. So you can't control
• 27:54
  Speaker 1: what they do, but you can control what you do.
• 27:57
  Speaker 1: And if the old pattern of responding is not king,
• 28:00
  Speaker 1: it's not effective. And and and by the way, we
• 28:02
  Speaker 1: develop these patterns because as children, we had to find
• 28:06
  Speaker 1: creative ways to manage with family members who maybe couldn't
• 28:09
  Speaker 1: see us in the way that we needed to be seen. Right. Um,
• 28:13
  Speaker 1: But as we get older, we find that those ways
• 28:16
  Speaker 1: of protecting ourselves in the past don't protect ourselves as
• 28:19
  Speaker 1: adults because we have so much freedom now that we
• 28:22
  Speaker 1: have many more options and we're just not aware of
• 28:24
  Speaker 1: the options because we didn't know about them. We didn't
• 28:27
  Speaker 1: learn about them. And I think that's what therapy can
• 28:29
  Speaker 1: be really helpful for people is to learn what are
• 28:31
  Speaker 1: these options. I can respond in a different way, I
• 28:34
  Speaker 1: can set boundaries, I can do all these things. What
• 28:36
  Speaker 1: does that look like? And that's where I think it
• 28:39
  Speaker 1: comes in handy again, that wise compassion versus the idiot
• 28:42
  Speaker 1: compassion of what our friends say, not that our friends
• 28:44
  Speaker 1: aren't helpful, but I think our friends don't help us
• 28:46
  Speaker 1: to really go to that deeper place. Right Well, our
• 28:51
  Speaker 1: next call comes from Taylor. She says, Dear Chelsea, I've
• 28:56
  Speaker 1: been with my partner for eight years. We laugh, we
• 28:58
  Speaker 1: care for each other, we have common interests. He's truly
• 29:01
  Speaker 1: my best friend. About three years ago, we stopped being
• 29:05
  Speaker 1: intimate with each other. After the first year of suppressing
• 29:08
  Speaker 1: my needs, I came to him honestly and told him
• 29:10
  Speaker 1: I didn't want to be in a sexless relationship anymore.
• 29:13
  Speaker 1: Then he confided in me and said he has always
• 29:15
  Speaker 1: had this problem with relationships. The conversation evolved, and finally
• 29:18
  Speaker 1: he told me he had childhood trauma that prevents him
• 29:21
  Speaker 1: from having healthy intimate relationship. So what do we do
• 29:24
  Speaker 1: while our relationship is in turmoil? Buy a house together?
• 29:27
  Speaker 1: Of course, another year goes by. I decided I'm going
• 29:30
  Speaker 1: to talk with therapists and learn how to uncouple. Then
• 29:33
  Speaker 1: COVID nineteen, all my problems seemed so small. As the
• 29:36
  Speaker 1: world was shutting down, people losing lives and jobs. I
• 29:39
  Speaker 1: decided I should be grateful I have someone who loves
• 29:41
  Speaker 1: me to go through this pandemic. Our relationship barely survived
• 29:45
  Speaker 1: the pandemic. We decided it's time to finally get a
• 29:48
  Speaker 1: couple's therapist. We had a blow up and after the
• 29:50
  Speaker 1: first fifteen minutes, the therapists separated us. He recommended we
• 29:54
  Speaker 1: both see our own therapist to work on stuff separately.
• 29:57
  Speaker 1: My partner started working one on one with the original therapist.
• 30:00
  Speaker 1: I was supposed to get a recommendation. However that never happened.
• 30:03
  Speaker 1: Thank goodness for this podcast. I have seen huge improvement
• 30:07
  Speaker 1: in his behavior and our relationship has been much better
• 30:09
  Speaker 1: since he started working on his issues. However, we still
• 30:12
  Speaker 1: don't have sex. Now it's been so long, I feel
• 30:15
  Speaker 1: like I don't even know how to put the moves on. Also,
• 30:18
  Speaker 1: knowing what I know now about his childhood, I almost
• 30:21
  Speaker 1: feel inappropriate wanting this need of mine to be met.
• 30:24
  Speaker 1: What advice can you give me for getting back in
• 30:26
  Speaker 1: the bedroom with my bow Taylor? Wow? Well, first of all,
• 30:30
  Speaker 1: what I what I was hearing originally was a lot
• 30:33
  Speaker 1: of avoidance. Um, she said, you know, after a year
• 30:36
  Speaker 1: of this, it's like, wait a minute, you didn't have
• 30:39
  Speaker 1: sex for a year and it took you a year
• 30:41
  Speaker 1: to talk about it, and I think, you know, I'm
• 30:44
  Speaker 1: really glad that they decided to go to therapy, but
• 30:48
  Speaker 1: it does seem a little strange that he's seeing the
• 30:51
  Speaker 1: original therapist that they went to for couples, and she's
• 30:54
  Speaker 1: sounds like not maybe going to therapy because yes, these
• 30:59
  Speaker 1: are individual issues, but it affects the couple, and I
• 31:02
  Speaker 1: think it's really important for both people to have somebody
• 31:05
  Speaker 1: to understand this better with. They have two things going on.
• 31:09
  Speaker 1: One is that they need to figure out what is
• 31:11
  Speaker 1: the day to day of this relationship right now as
• 31:14
  Speaker 1: these things are happening, what are they learning about themselves
• 31:16
  Speaker 1: and what are they learning about each other? But then
• 31:18
  Speaker 1: the other question I think she has for herself is, yes,
• 31:21
  Speaker 1: he has this trauma, Yes he brings us to the relationship.
• 31:24
  Speaker 1: Is this something that she is signing up for? Yeah,
• 31:29
  Speaker 1: and we have Taylor with us. She and I actually
• 31:31
  Speaker 1: unpacked a few of those things on our original call
• 31:34
  Speaker 1: together as we sort of explored this question. And I know, Taylor,
• 31:37
  Speaker 1: you mentioned that kind of your day to day feels
• 31:39
  Speaker 1: a little bit like roommates. Correct. Yeah, we're definitely just
• 31:43
  Speaker 1: in this like dale platonic state. I would say, yeah,
• 31:48
  Speaker 1: so are you going to therapy too right now or
• 31:51
  Speaker 1: is just he going to therapy. No, therapy is currently
• 31:55
  Speaker 1: happening right now for either of you. Correct, Okay? And
• 31:59
  Speaker 1: why did he stop going to therapy? So I was
• 32:02
  Speaker 1: told like his therapist went on vacation and then just
• 32:06
  Speaker 1: never reached back out after vacation, and then he never
• 32:13
  Speaker 1: followed up with him either. And did you follow up
• 32:17
  Speaker 1: with your boyfriend and ask him why he didn't follow up?
• 32:22
  Speaker 1: I think a big part of it for him was
• 32:25
  Speaker 1: it was talk therapy, which I could tell was like
• 32:27
  Speaker 1: good for him, but he wanted something that was more
• 32:30
  Speaker 1: like action based, Like he started looking into micro dose
• 32:34
  Speaker 1: thing and like maybe getting on some sort of medication.
• 32:37
  Speaker 1: He just felt like keeping talking about it wasn't really helping.
• 32:42
  Speaker 1: And so since he wanted to try a different approach,
• 32:45
  Speaker 1: did he do anything proactive to pursue that. No? Right, So,
• 32:51
  Speaker 1: so that's the thing, So he doesn't want to just
• 32:53
  Speaker 1: talk about it, but actually he's just talking about it,
• 32:56
  Speaker 1: even if he's not going to a therapist. He's just
• 32:58
  Speaker 1: talking to himself about it. You know, well, maybe I
• 33:00
  Speaker 1: should do this, or maybe I should do that, but
• 33:02
  Speaker 1: he's not. It's it's ironic that he wants some kind
• 33:04
  Speaker 1: of action, but he's not willing to sort of take action,
• 33:07
  Speaker 1: even though he has ideas about how he might want
• 33:09
  Speaker 1: to take action. Yes, that's a very good point. I
• 33:13
  Speaker 1: wonder about you two, Taylor. You're not going to therapy either,
• 33:17
  Speaker 1: And this sounds like a really difficult situation. And it's
• 33:21
  Speaker 1: been going on for quite a long time. Why do
• 33:23
  Speaker 1: you think you haven't gone to talk to somebody about this?
• 33:26
  Speaker 1: I guess I feel guilty for feeling that it's like
• 33:32
  Speaker 1: somehow something bad that's happened to me, when it really
• 33:36
  Speaker 1: isn't something that's happened to me. It's just something that
• 33:39
  Speaker 1: I am have exposure to because of who I'm in
• 33:43
  Speaker 1: a relationship with. So who you're in a relationship with
• 33:47
  Speaker 1: is happening to you, right, You're acting like this this
• 33:51
  Speaker 1: is his issue and and that and that you're not
• 33:55
  Speaker 1: allowed to feel anything about it because he's the one
• 33:58
  Speaker 1: who had the trauma. He's the one who struggle. He's
• 34:00
  Speaker 1: the one who's suffering, But you're suffering too. It's almost
• 34:03
  Speaker 1: like I I see this a lot. We had someone
• 34:05
  Speaker 1: on our podcast where she was this young couple and
• 34:08
  Speaker 1: she was her husband had this chronic illness and she
• 34:10
  Speaker 1: was taking care of him, and she said, I don't
• 34:12
  Speaker 1: feel like I can really talk about how this is
• 34:14
  Speaker 1: affecting me, because he's the one who's sick, right, He's
• 34:18
  Speaker 1: the one who sometimes is in pain. He's the one
• 34:20
  Speaker 1: who has to deal with the illness, and I don't
• 34:22
  Speaker 1: really have the right to complain about anything. And we
• 34:25
  Speaker 1: see that so often when somebody seems like they're the
• 34:28
  Speaker 1: one struggling more and the other person feels like, well,
• 34:32
  Speaker 1: you know, I have a lot of compassion for what
• 34:33
  Speaker 1: they're going through, and so I'm going to be the
• 34:36
  Speaker 1: person who stands by their side, but I'm I really
• 34:38
  Speaker 1: my feelings. It's sort of like the hierarchy of pain, right,
• 34:41
  Speaker 1: we make this up in our heads, like this hierarchy
• 34:44
  Speaker 1: of pain, that his pain is worse than mine, so
• 34:46
  Speaker 1: I'm not allowed to feel mine. We do this all
• 34:50
  Speaker 1: the time, you know, with our with our friends, with
• 34:52
  Speaker 1: our families, you know, like whose pain gets too gets
• 34:55
  Speaker 1: to be aired, and then it's almost like a contest.
• 34:58
  Speaker 1: But pain is not an test. It's not a hierarchy.
• 35:01
  Speaker 1: Pain is pain. And so if you're struggling and it
• 35:04
  Speaker 1: sounds like you are, by the way, anybody would be
• 35:08
  Speaker 1: having lots of feelings about what's going on. It's a
• 35:10
  Speaker 1: really challenging situation. You need a place to go as
• 35:14
  Speaker 1: well to talk about what's going on for you. It
• 35:16
  Speaker 1: will also help you not only talk about what's going
• 35:18
  Speaker 1: on with you, but it will help you to communicate
• 35:21
  Speaker 1: with him about what's going on between the two of you,
• 35:23
  Speaker 1: because it sounds like the two of you don't really
• 35:25
  Speaker 1: know how to communicate. I feel that's accurate. The guy
• 35:30
  Speaker 1: that we started to talk to originally, he gave us
• 35:33
  Speaker 1: like these handouts and they were really super helpful. And
• 35:37
  Speaker 1: because we were in the moment of therapy, it was
• 35:40
  Speaker 1: easy to like say, oh, hey, let's use that worksheet
• 35:43
  Speaker 1: around this listener speaker moment because we were in it,
• 35:49
  Speaker 1: and now that we're not in it, it's like, oh, yeah,
• 35:52
  Speaker 1: remember that thing we did over the summertime, Like, let's
• 35:55
  Speaker 1: try that again. I don't I don't know. I guess
• 35:57
  Speaker 1: I don't really do a good job of like speaking
• 35:59
  Speaker 1: up for myself and my needs, and so I mean,
• 36:02
  Speaker 1: I guess that's also how I've probably gotten to this point. Yeah,
• 36:06
  Speaker 1: And that's why I think you'll you would get a
• 36:08
  Speaker 1: lot of tools out of going to talk to someone.
• 36:11
  Speaker 1: But I also think you'd get some clarity on how
• 36:13
  Speaker 1: you feel about being in this particular relationship and what
• 36:17
  Speaker 1: will happen if things don't change, Because a lot of
• 36:21
  Speaker 1: times we think about what's happening right now, but we
• 36:23
  Speaker 1: don't think, how will I feel if I'm in the
• 36:25
  Speaker 1: same exact place in five years. So I just saw
• 36:28
  Speaker 1: your face fall. It was not subtle. Um, you know,
• 36:34
  Speaker 1: how will I feel if I'm in the same place
• 36:36
  Speaker 1: in ten years? It sounds like if you look back,
• 36:40
  Speaker 1: you said you've been together. I think eight years? It's
• 36:42
  Speaker 1: all right? Yeah, so October was nine, okay, so so
• 36:48
  Speaker 1: and at some point you know this wasn't the beginning,
• 36:50
  Speaker 1: but it it's been going on for quite a while.
• 36:53
  Speaker 1: And so if you thought back then nothing will have
• 36:56
  Speaker 1: changed and I will be in the same exact place.
• 36:58
  Speaker 1: How would you have felt about that? Helpless? I guess hopeless,
• 37:02
  Speaker 1: Helpless and hopeless maybe. So, what what you and your
• 37:06
  Speaker 1: boyfriend have in common is that you both want something
• 37:09
  Speaker 1: to change, but you're both not doing what you need
• 37:12
  Speaker 1: to do to make things change. And I would want
• 37:16
  Speaker 1: you to ask yourself, why are you not meaning if
• 37:20
  Speaker 1: you want to see if this relationship has potential to
• 37:24
  Speaker 1: be fulfilling for both of you, and I don't just
• 37:26
  Speaker 1: mean in the physical intimacy, but just in general, the communication,
• 37:30
  Speaker 1: the connection, the closeness. Then you're going to have to
• 37:34
  Speaker 1: do something other than nothing because things magically change. No, absolutely,
• 37:39
  Speaker 1: And you look like you're in pain, you know what
• 37:41
  Speaker 1: I mean. You look like you're an emotional turmoil and
• 37:43
  Speaker 1: like this is where you know you are. It's okay,
• 37:46
  Speaker 1: that's okay to admit to yourself, you know, I mean,
• 37:49
  Speaker 1: maybe that's the fire that you need to to recognize
• 37:52
  Speaker 1: that you have to do something proactive here. You can't
• 37:55
  Speaker 1: just sit wait for him to fix himself or to
• 37:57
  Speaker 1: fix whatever issues that you guys are working on. You
• 38:00
  Speaker 1: have to be part of that solution. And I know
• 38:02
  Speaker 1: it's probably scary to think about the fact that, oh,
• 38:05
  Speaker 1: you know, if I go to therapy, maybe I'll learn
• 38:07
  Speaker 1: that I'm going to have to leave him. You're putting
• 38:09
  Speaker 1: your everything on hold for a relationship that isn't bringing
• 38:12
  Speaker 1: you that much joy. Yeah, it's really hard because we
• 38:17
  Speaker 1: do have fun together, Like he is hilarious. I know
• 38:22
  Speaker 1: that he loves me and all these things, and it's
• 38:24
  Speaker 1: just like I look at like the thought of being
• 38:29
  Speaker 1: single again is terrifying, Like can I just like have
• 38:33
  Speaker 1: this little bit of happiness and not have it all
• 38:37
  Speaker 1: because I'd rather have that than be on my own again.
• 38:41
  Speaker 1: This is so common. I see this all the time
• 38:44
  Speaker 1: in therapy, where people say, you know, I'm getting some
• 38:48
  Speaker 1: crumbs in this relationship and they're delicious. They're delicious crumbs.
• 38:52
  Speaker 1: I really love these crumbs. Um, But if I leave,
• 38:55
  Speaker 1: I might start right. So I'm getting something here, but
• 38:59
  Speaker 1: if I leave, I might have nothing. And I think
• 39:03
  Speaker 1: that when you make decisions based on fear instead of
• 39:07
  Speaker 1: making decisions based on some inside place of knowing, and
• 39:11
  Speaker 1: you're not at that inside place of knowing because you
• 39:13
  Speaker 1: haven't explored it enough, you haven't done the work because
• 39:16
  Speaker 1: you're afraid to find out what that place of knowing
• 39:18
  Speaker 1: is going to tell you. It might very well lead
• 39:21
  Speaker 1: to a very fulfilling relationship with this person who is
• 39:24
  Speaker 1: hilarious that you love being around. Okay, it might lead there,
• 39:28
  Speaker 1: it might not. We know that if you do nothing,
• 39:33
  Speaker 1: you will be in this You will be having the
• 39:35
  Speaker 1: same conversation with somebody else five years, ten years, fifteen
• 39:39
  Speaker 1: years down the line. Yeah, I guess I also don't know,
• 39:43
  Speaker 1: like good time and place to start talking about things again,
• 39:46
  Speaker 1: because I feel like I do this thing where we're
• 39:50
  Speaker 1: in a good place, so I feel like that means
• 39:53
  Speaker 1: like this is a good time to start talking about
• 39:55
  Speaker 1: things again. But then it's like his perspective is we're
• 39:59
  Speaker 1: in a good place, like why are you bringing this
• 40:01
  Speaker 1: up now? So it's both and there are some good
• 40:04
  Speaker 1: things happening between the two of you, and these other
• 40:07
  Speaker 1: problems still exist, so it's not one or the other.
• 40:10
  Speaker 1: You're not in a good place, and that erases everything
• 40:13
  Speaker 1: that's not working, just like when things are not working,
• 40:15
  Speaker 1: it doesn't erase all the good things that you have
• 40:17
  Speaker 1: with each other. It's always both and And maybe one
• 40:21
  Speaker 1: way to do this to kind of structure this is
• 40:25
  Speaker 1: if you each come up with almost like a menu
• 40:28
  Speaker 1: of here's a list of things I want to talk about.
• 40:30
  Speaker 1: He has a list of things he wants to talk about.
• 40:33
  Speaker 1: You only do one at a time, maybe once a week, right,
• 40:37
  Speaker 1: And you give each other the menu, and they get
• 40:39
  Speaker 1: to pick from your menu the topic that they want
• 40:43
  Speaker 1: to talk about. And that's the only topic that you
• 40:46
  Speaker 1: guys talk about in that conversation. You don't bring up
• 40:48
  Speaker 1: anything else on the menu. You can only order one item.
• 40:51
  Speaker 1: There are no substitutions, nothing, nothing you know, doesn't come
• 40:54
  Speaker 1: with any other things. It's all all a heart. And
• 40:56
  Speaker 1: then the person has some control over it because they say, oh,
• 40:59
  Speaker 1: you have these five items, I'll pick number three. I'm
• 41:02
  Speaker 1: comfortable talking about that right now, And that might just
• 41:05
  Speaker 1: be a way to kind of start some conversations going
• 41:07
  Speaker 1: between the two of you, and then the next week
• 41:10
  Speaker 1: you choose off his menu. Right. But I really think
• 41:13
  Speaker 1: that you're going to need someone who can help kind
• 41:16
  Speaker 1: of hold you, support you, and guide you both of
• 41:20
  Speaker 1: you as you go through this. And and that means
• 41:22
  Speaker 1: that you each need to find somebody. You can either
• 41:26
  Speaker 1: go to couples therapy or you can go individually. Um,
• 41:30
  Speaker 1: but I think you need to find somebody to help
• 41:32
  Speaker 1: guide you through this process of really understanding who you
• 41:34
  Speaker 1: are to each other, with the hope that it brings
• 41:37
  Speaker 1: you closer to each other, with the hope that this
• 41:39
  Speaker 1: relationship becomes the kind of relationship that you both want. Okay,
• 41:45
  Speaker 1: So I guess a good question. Then. Part of the
• 41:47
  Speaker 1: reason I never got a therapist is because the guy
• 41:51
  Speaker 1: we were originally working with that we did like four
• 41:53
  Speaker 1: couple sessions with and then he moved to doing one
• 41:57
  Speaker 1: on one and then I I guess he was gonna
• 42:00
  Speaker 1: send your recommendations and you never did, and then I've
• 42:05
  Speaker 1: heard like it. I mean, this is an excuse for myself.
• 42:08
  Speaker 1: But that's kind of hard to find a therapist right now,
• 42:11
  Speaker 1: Like therapists are overwhelmed with stuff like people dealing with
• 42:14
  Speaker 1: pandemic and everything like that. So I just maybe I
• 42:17
  Speaker 1: don't I need like a resource or something. Sure, And
• 42:21
  Speaker 1: I'll tell you, you know what, what's harder than finding
• 42:23
  Speaker 1: a therapist is being in a really unhappy relationship. It
• 42:28
  Speaker 1: is far easier to find a therapist than it is
• 42:30
  Speaker 1: to be in an unhappy relationship. So you're already doing
• 42:34
  Speaker 1: the hard thing. So finding a therapist will be really
• 42:36
  Speaker 1: easy compared to what you're already doing. Okay, so um,
• 42:40
  Speaker 1: there are so many resources. You can look at whatever
• 42:43
  Speaker 1: city you're in. You can look at your local clinic
• 42:46
  Speaker 1: they have low fee or sometimes no fee therapy. You
• 42:50
  Speaker 1: can look at services like the online services, the apps
• 42:54
  Speaker 1: that you know where you can find a therapist. You
• 42:56
  Speaker 1: can do zoom sessions with. You can call your insurance
• 42:59
  Speaker 1: company and you can get a list of therapists in
• 43:01
  Speaker 1: your area, and then you can google them and look
• 43:03
  Speaker 1: at their Yelp reviews, um or their health grades reviews.
• 43:07
  Speaker 1: You can ask friends. There are so many ways to
• 43:10
  Speaker 1: find therapists. And you can call a therapist and if
• 43:12
  Speaker 1: they say I can't see I'm not seeing anybody right now,
• 43:15
  Speaker 1: I'm full, ask them if they have a referral for you,
• 43:18
  Speaker 1: and they probably will. Do you think we can like
• 43:21
  Speaker 1: go back to that guy we originally started seeing. I
• 43:24
  Speaker 1: think you should go to anybody that you feel comfortable with.
• 43:27
  Speaker 1: I will say it's unusual for somebody to start couples
• 43:30
  Speaker 1: therapy and then see somebody individually. It happens, but it's
• 43:34
  Speaker 1: it's not typical, and so you know, maybe you both
• 43:37
  Speaker 1: want a fresh start. I don't know, but those are
• 43:40
  Speaker 1: the details, and there's no reason you can't call that
• 43:42
  Speaker 1: guy and say, hey, I'm you know I I need
• 43:44
  Speaker 1: a referral of three therapists in the area that you
• 43:47
  Speaker 1: would refer me to. You know that you owe me
• 43:50
  Speaker 1: a referral. There's no reason you can't call back and
• 43:51
  Speaker 1: be persistent about getting the information that you need. You
• 43:54
  Speaker 1: know there, I mean, finding a therapist isn't gonna be hard.
• 43:56
  Speaker 1: You're gonna find somebody as soon as you do the
• 43:59
  Speaker 1: work to find somebody. It's I mean, she just gave
• 44:01
  Speaker 1: you so many ways to do it, so that that
• 44:04
  Speaker 1: should be your first point of action, you know, get
• 44:07
  Speaker 1: off this call and then make that make that call. Yeah,
• 44:11
  Speaker 1: And it sounds like your partner is sort of looking
• 44:14
  Speaker 1: a little bit for a quick fix. And as you've mentioned,
• 44:18
  Speaker 1: it's a trauma like it's we would love if there
• 44:21
  Speaker 1: was a quick fix, and we would love if just
• 44:22
  Speaker 1: like sure, like micro dressing might make them feel better,
• 44:25
  Speaker 1: but it's not going to deal with the underlying issue
• 44:29
  Speaker 1: and it's not going to help heal the underlying pain. Yeah,
• 44:33
  Speaker 1: but I feel you and I feel your pain, and
• 44:36
  Speaker 1: I hope that the next time we speak to you
• 44:38
  Speaker 1: that you're in a better place and that you've made
• 44:40
  Speaker 1: some strides in the right direction, because you have the
• 44:42
  Speaker 1: power to do that, you know what I mean, You're
• 44:44
  Speaker 1: in charge of your happiness. Nobody else is going to
• 44:47
  Speaker 1: come in and make you happy. You have to do that.
• 44:49
  Speaker 1: And and and lastly, I would just say, you can
• 44:51
  Speaker 1: have compassion for somebody's history, and you can have compassion
• 44:54
  Speaker 1: for their trauma, but that doesn't mean that that is
• 44:57
  Speaker 1: the right situation for you. And again, you won't know
• 45:01
  Speaker 1: until you, guys, understand more about who you are. But
• 45:04
  Speaker 1: I feel like, you know, like you're saying, well, he's
• 45:06
  Speaker 1: the one suffering, and I don't. I shouldn't really be
• 45:08
  Speaker 1: able to you know, I shouldn't have all these feelings.
• 45:10
  Speaker 1: You do have all these feelings, and you really, you know,
• 45:13
  Speaker 1: so many times I see people stay with somebody or
• 45:16
  Speaker 1: stay in a situation where someone's not getting helped for
• 45:18
  Speaker 1: their issue. It would be very different if he was saying,
• 45:20
  Speaker 1: I'm going to actively work on this trauma and healing
• 45:23
  Speaker 1: this trauma and I'm going to go do that work.
• 45:25
  Speaker 1: But it sounds like he's kind of just being very
• 45:28
  Speaker 1: passive about it right now. Yeah, And I think, Chelsea,
• 45:31
  Speaker 1: you're saying, I should I am in charge of my happiness.
• 45:34
  Speaker 1: But then now I'm like realizing on this call, like
• 45:37
  Speaker 1: how much pain it really is like for me. So
• 45:41
  Speaker 1: I think I needed to realize that to be more
• 45:45
  Speaker 1: action oriented for myself. So thank you, guys, Well, thank
• 45:50
  Speaker 1: you for thank you, and I wish you lots of
• 45:53
  Speaker 1: luck and and you know, and good vibes. I'm sending
• 45:56
  Speaker 1: you lots of good vibes. Thank you, And if we
• 45:59
  Speaker 1: ever do talk again, I'll try to figure out the
• 46:01
  Speaker 1: dog situation so she's not yapping all the time. You
• 46:05
  Speaker 1: could just put her down, that's fine, Thank you so much.
• 46:10
  Speaker 1: To figure out that therapist situation. Yeah, exactly, that's their
• 46:13
  Speaker 1: first point of interest. Okay, good, thank you do that.
• 46:19
  Speaker 1: She's so sweet. So hard to see someone in pain,
• 46:23
  Speaker 1: you know, and they don't realize that they're in pain
• 46:25
  Speaker 1: until you tell them, but you can and then you
• 46:28
  Speaker 1: see them tear up as we can see right now,
• 46:30
  Speaker 1: and it's kind of like, oh, your body is telling
• 46:32
  Speaker 1: you something that you are haven't been able to acknowledge. Well,
• 46:37
  Speaker 1: let's take a quick break and we'll be right back
• 46:40
  Speaker 1: with Lori Gottlieb. Okay, thank you. So to wrap up
• 46:48
  Speaker 1: today's episode, Well that was heavy, but you know, worthwhile.
• 46:53
  Speaker 1: I think I hopefully we lit a fire under her
• 46:55
  Speaker 1: butt to go do something about the situation that she's
• 46:58
  Speaker 1: found herself in. H Yeah. Yeah. Do you find yourself, Lauria, like,
• 47:04
  Speaker 1: how much time do you have to take in between
• 47:06
  Speaker 1: seeing people? Do you find yourself ever really impacted so
• 47:10
  Speaker 1: much that it's hard for you to go onto the
• 47:12
  Speaker 1: next thing? Yeah? I definitely take more than a like
• 47:15
  Speaker 1: a commercial break, right, that's a good way to end
• 47:18
  Speaker 1: a session that we have to go to commercial. Yeah,
• 47:20
  Speaker 1: unless you want to do ten minutes of commercial and
• 47:22
  Speaker 1: then we'll come back, because that's usually how much time
• 47:23
  Speaker 1: I have between sessions. Yeah. Well, LORI, did you have
• 47:28
  Speaker 1: any advice you wanted to ask from Chelsea? See? I
• 47:31
  Speaker 1: never get to do this, so this is my favorite part.
• 47:33
  Speaker 1: I was really excited for this part. One thing that
• 47:35
  Speaker 1: I was thinking about when you were talking earlier about
• 47:37
  Speaker 1: when you get ready, you know, to do something. You
• 47:38
  Speaker 1: were talking about centering yourself. I I'm wondering. You know,
• 47:43
  Speaker 1: you're on tour right now. You're getting up in front
• 47:46
  Speaker 1: of these very large crowds. Do you ever get nervous?
• 47:49
  Speaker 1: And if you do, what do you do with your anxiety?
• 47:52
  Speaker 1: You know what I did this this tour. I didn't
• 47:54
  Speaker 1: drink for the first probably four weeks of my shows.
• 47:58
  Speaker 1: I didn't do anything. I didn't use any crutch like
• 48:01
  Speaker 1: any like I sometimes would take a beta blocker, but
• 48:04
  Speaker 1: I didn't do that. I didn't do that. I had
• 48:06
  Speaker 1: to be completely present, and I noticed that the nerves
• 48:09
  Speaker 1: were there for about the first six or seven performances,
• 48:13
  Speaker 1: and then I just strolled right into what I do
• 48:17
  Speaker 1: for a living, Like I I took away all of
• 48:19
  Speaker 1: those things because I'm at a point where I'm constantly
• 48:21
  Speaker 1: trying to challenge myself to deliver the best show to
• 48:24
  Speaker 1: the people that paid money, that are taking time out
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  Speaker 1: of their schedule to see me. I there was a
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  Speaker 1: period of time where I would perform and I never
• 48:30
  Speaker 1: considered the people that were coming to see me. You know.
• 48:33
  Speaker 1: It was about me going out there, doing a great
• 48:35
  Speaker 1: show and then going on to the next thing. So
• 48:38
  Speaker 1: now my perspective has shifted to in a way that
• 48:40
  Speaker 1: I wanted to deliver the best stuff I have, you know,
• 48:42
  Speaker 1: and honor the people that are coming to see me. So, yeah,
• 48:45
  Speaker 1: I get nerves, but I I've noticed that challenging those
• 48:49
  Speaker 1: nerves and just walking through it has been the biggest
• 48:53
  Speaker 1: strength exercise that I've ever had. It's better than a drink,
• 48:56
  Speaker 1: it's better than a joint, and it's better than a
• 48:58
  Speaker 1: beta blocker. And some people really do need a beta
• 49:01
  Speaker 1: baker for ship, you know, people who aren't used to
• 49:03
  Speaker 1: public speaking. But my therapist said to me, you know,
• 49:06
  Speaker 1: when you're nervous about something, that means you care, and
• 49:08
  Speaker 1: I think about that every single time I walk out.
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  Speaker 1: I'm like, Okay, if I'm nervous about something, that means
• 49:14
  Speaker 1: I care. And that's a good reminder that that nerves
• 49:17
  Speaker 1: aren't necessarily the worst thing, you know, they fuel you. Yeah,
• 49:20
  Speaker 1: people say that about test taking too, or you know,
• 49:22
  Speaker 1: and you're like a job interview or a first date
• 49:24
  Speaker 1: that you're nervous about. That if you do feel nervous,
• 49:27
  Speaker 1: it does mean that you care. And I think what
• 49:30
  Speaker 1: you did was sort of like exposure therapy, you know,
• 49:32
  Speaker 1: where it's kind of like if you're afraid of something,
• 49:35
  Speaker 1: you do the thing and you find out the disaster
• 49:37
  Speaker 1: didn't befall you, and then you can do it again
• 49:39
  Speaker 1: and you're like, oh, look, catastrophe didn't happen. I can
• 49:42
  Speaker 1: do it again. Right, that's really helpful. Yeah. And then
• 49:45
  Speaker 1: a couple of weekends ago, I went and had a
• 49:47
  Speaker 1: drink before I performed, and I got off stage, I'm like, no,
• 49:50
  Speaker 1: I don't like that anymore. I like to be as
• 49:52
  Speaker 1: clear as possible. So that's a huge victory lap for
• 49:55
  Speaker 1: a number of reasons. Yeah. Yeah, No, that's really helpful
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  Speaker 1: I think for anybody with anxiety. Yeah, well, thank you
• 50:01
  Speaker 1: so much. Laurie was so nice to have a real
• 50:03
  Speaker 1: professional on today, somebody with a degree. Yeah, no, thank you,
• 50:07
  Speaker 1: thank you. I I love your show. I I listened
• 50:09
  Speaker 1: to it for advice all the time. So thank you
• 50:11
  Speaker 1: for helping all of the therapists and non therapists out there.
• 50:15
  Speaker 1: Oh well, thank you. I hope to see you again
• 50:17
  Speaker 1: in person sometime soon. Yeah, thanks so much, great to
• 50:20
  Speaker 1: see you. Take care bye. Well, that was really good.
• 50:24
  Speaker 1: And speaking of the tour that Laurie mentioned, Chelsea, do
• 50:28
  Speaker 1: you have some dates who'd like to tell us about? Oh?
• 50:29
  Speaker 1: My god, always, always, I have. February second and third
• 50:33
  Speaker 1: are my Seattle shows. We have added second shows to
• 50:36
  Speaker 1: a lot of markets, but those are the immediate dates
• 50:38
  Speaker 1: coming up. Oh also, were we added Philly? So come
• 50:41
  Speaker 1: to Philly or Honolulu or Kauai or no Maui ship
• 50:46
  Speaker 1: who knows? Anyway? Does that answer your question, Katherine, It
• 50:49
  Speaker 1: absolutely does. Um And also check Chelsea's website, so yeah,
• 50:53
  Speaker 1: go to chelsea dot com. I've never been to it,
• 50:55
  Speaker 1: but I think it's a good time. It's simple, it's visible,
• 51:00
  Speaker 1: it works well. Good. Thank you, Thank you, Catherine. If
• 51:03
  Speaker 1: you say so, I believe you. Well that's all we
• 51:06
  Speaker 1: have for today's episode. Okay, well that was a definite
• 51:09
  Speaker 1: therapy session. We will see you next week. Guys. Bye
• 51:13
  Speaker 1: by and if you like to get advice from Chelsea
• 51:16
  Speaker 1: and one of her guests, please write into Dear Chelsea
• 51:19
  Speaker 1: Project at gmail dot com.