Latest / INSPIRE STORY / #0114 _STORY INSPIRE: Decisions that transforman, with Julia Mossbridge
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- 0:04Speaker 1: The Joe Rogan Experience. Train by day, Joe Rogan podcast
- 0:08by night, all day. Hello, Julia. Hello, Joe.
- 0:14Speaker 2: Pleasure to meet you.
- 0:16Speaker 1: Yeah, I'm very excited.
- 0:17Speaker 2: So you said you had questions for me?
- 0:18Speaker 1: Yeah.
- 0:19Speaker 2: We can start with your questions.
- 0:20Speaker 1: Excellent.
- 0:22Speaker 2: First of all, tell everybody what you do.
- 0:23Speaker 1: Okay, let me just change the angle of this.
- 0:25Speaker 2: Just so folks just tune in right now. Who is
- 0:28this young man?
- 0:30Speaker 1: Thank you. What do you do? I'm a year younger
- 0:31than you.
- 0:32Speaker 2: A year younger than you're young.
- 0:35Speaker 1: Nice. What do I do? I was trained as a scientist,
- 0:41cognitive neuroscience and computer science, and did some AI stuff,
- 0:46did some stuff with the human brain in terms of
- 0:48trying to understand how time works in the human brain.
- 0:52And then I got really interested in how funky time
- 0:55works in the human brain, like precognition. Hmm. Which is,
- 0:59of course, predicting future events in ways that we don't
- 1:02normally think about.
- 1:02Speaker 2: That's how I found out about it.
- 1:04Speaker 1: That's you as the Popular Mechanics article.
- 1:06Speaker 2: Yeah, I believe so.
- 1:06Speaker 1: Yeah.
- 1:07Speaker 2: And then a bunch of other stuff that I looked at.
- 1:09Speaker 1: And then a bunch of other stuff, yeah.
- 1:10Speaker 2: Yeah.
- 1:10Speaker 1: And then I got interested in just the idea of
- 1:12what we call exceptional human performance. So I actually don't
- 1:16think it's that exceptional. I think people have these capacities
- 1:19and they've been dampened down. And they're in us. And
- 1:23they can be developed. And some people have them just
- 1:25sort of naturally developed. I'm a person who has some
- 1:28of them just naturally, not all of them. But there
- 1:30are people all over who have these different gifts. And
- 1:33how does that work? And so that became a question
- 1:35that was interesting to me.
- 1:36Speaker 2: Well, it's always interesting when this question is asked by
- 1:40an actual scientist. So you approach it by let's try
- 1:43to gather data. Let's try to find out what we
- 1:45can actually show. Because so many people have feelings that
- 1:50there's something else. Like you have intuition. You have thoughts.
- 1:54some sort of pre-knowledge of events and some feeling of something.
- 1:59You're thinking of someone and they call you. Is that real?
- 2:03That kind of stuff has always puzzled people. So it's
- 2:07always fascinating when someone like yourself actually spends a lot
- 2:11of time studying it and trying to gather data and
- 2:14trying to show what's real and what's not and what
- 2:16you can actually show.
- 2:16Speaker 1: I agree it's fascinating. I'm not sure it matters. So,
- 2:21I mean, my experience has been That sort of regardless
- 2:26of how much time I spend studying it and how
- 2:27much I see it and how much I can test
- 2:30different controls to make sure it's not this, that, or
- 2:32the other thing and that it really is getting information
- 2:34from the future or it really is telepathy, people still
- 2:39kind of don't, in the science world, tend to just
- 2:43ignore it. Or it actually is actively suppressed. I mean,
- 2:46there's some papers that I've published that just won't get
- 2:49listed in Google Scholar, even though they're in peer-reviewed journals
- 2:51with other articles listed. that do get listed in Google Scholar.
- 2:55So it's frustrating and who cares because it's just an
- 2:59academic complaining. But I'm also not an academic. I also
- 3:02want to build things. I'm into making stuff. So I
- 3:05got my PhD at these tier one research institutions like Northwestern.
- 3:09I got my master's at UCA San Francisco. I did
- 3:12my postdoc at Northwestern. So fancy dancy institutions. So I
- 3:18learned a lot about how to think and how to
- 3:20write and how to do these kind of experiments. And
- 3:22I know what I'm seeing. And I keep seeing it.
- 3:24And other people who study the same stuff keep seeing it.
- 3:28But it is inside of me or there's something inside
- 3:33of me that wants to create things with this. Okay.
- 3:35So this is happening. People have these capacities. They're actually useful.
- 3:40What can we do with them? And it turns out
- 3:42you can do a lot. with them if you feel
- 3:48like you are allowed to have them, if it doesn't
- 3:50feel like it's verboten, if it doesn't feel like shameful,
- 3:54which is part of the cultural piece.
- 3:55Speaker 2: Or foolish.
- 3:56Speaker 1: Or foolish, which is part of the questions I wanted
- 3:58to ask you.
- 3:58Speaker 2: Okay.
- 4:00Speaker 1: So what I notice when you talk with people is
- 4:04you're like, you seem like a tough guy, but you're
- 4:08really sensitive. Like you're an incredible, obviously an incredible listener.
- 4:12And you learn all these things. And you're putting together,
- 4:17just this is my impression, you're putting together a kind
- 4:22of a map of the world, like a map of
- 4:24knowledge of the world through all these different people's eyes.
- 4:28And my question for you is, how do you see
- 4:31culture shifting? Because I think you're really sensitive to it.
- 4:35And I think you're kind of like one of these
- 4:37signal fish that are at the, you notice what's happening
- 4:40in the environment and you're going to guide a school
- 4:43of fish accordingly. So do you think that the culture
- 4:48is shifting towards sort of better use of these– I
- 4:56guess exceptional or these natural capacities that we already have?
- 5:01Or do you think that we're shifting away from it
- 5:03and we're going to run away in fear?
- 5:06Speaker 2: That's a good question. OK. So I think that because
- 5:13of conversations– like the ones that you've had and the
- 5:16ones that I've had, the ones that are available online,
- 5:19I think people get a much deeper understanding of so
- 5:24many different topics and so many different things than has
- 5:27ever been available through whatever you want to call the
- 5:30mainstream media. And when you have these inherent prejudices in
- 5:37higher learning, whether it's people that don't want to be
- 5:41foolish or So they don't want to entertain certain notions
- 5:44or they don't want to accept certain things because it
- 5:47goes against things that they've taught and things they wrote about.
- 5:51We have a problem of ego and ego becoming a
- 5:56wall to gathering more information or getting a better detailed
- 6:01map of the landscape. And I think there's way more
- 6:05people that are pondering these ideas. And having these conversations
- 6:12and thinking about these things than has ever been before.
- 6:15And I think that's one of the really beautiful things
- 6:19about the internet. The internet has made much more information
- 6:22available and many more people are thinking about these things
- 6:28in ways that– If you were in an environment where
- 6:34your career depended upon you following certain lines and certain narratives,
- 6:38you wouldn't pursue that because that would be detrimental to
- 6:42your own personal interest. Like if you wanted to get
- 6:45ahead in academia and all of a sudden you're talking
- 6:47about psychics and premonition and people are like, oh, Julie
- 6:51is a fucking loon. But you're courageous and you– see
- 6:57value in these things. And because you can come on
- 7:01here and talk about it instead of just addressing a
- 7:04class or selling a book, that's going to reach a
- 7:06few thousand people. We can have a conversation where 10
- 7:10million people are going to listen. And so then those
- 7:1310 million people are going to go to work and
- 7:15they're going to tell their friends at work, like, Hey,
- 7:17this is, you know, you know how that feeling that
- 7:20you get, or sometimes, you know, something's going to happen
- 7:22and it happens like that might be real. And there
- 7:25was this lady. She was on the Joe Rogan podcast.
- 7:28And so that opens up people to this idea that
- 7:31you don't have to worry about being a fool because
- 7:36that's what a lot of people are worried about. It
- 7:39was a big hurdle talking about aliens, UFOs. Like all
- 7:44my life, all my life, I've always been fascinated by
- 7:48UFOs and aliens. But I don't mind being a fool.
- 7:51Like I was fascinated by Bigfoot forever. Kind of abandoned
- 7:55that for the most part. But I like weird stuff.
- 7:59I'm interested in it. And I don't– I'm not a
- 8:01person that needs to be taken seriously. It's not my job.
- 8:03I'm literally a comedian. Like you can make fun of me.
- 8:06I'll make fun of me. It's fine. I don't– it
- 8:09doesn't– my future doesn't rely on people taking me seriously.
- 8:13So I think having that ability to have conversations– about
- 8:20all kinds of different things has really changed the way
- 8:23the entire world is discussing just reality. Like everything about
- 8:30reality from quantum computing to alien life to international politics
- 8:39to the way human beings misrepresent each other purposefully for
- 8:43their own gains. Like what is all this? Like and
- 8:47why– Why has it taken so long to have so
- 8:50many discussions about this? So I think that's– if I
- 8:54have a purpose in this world, it's like I'm an
- 8:57antenna for that.
- 8:59Speaker 1: Yeah. I'm just clapping because it's such a great purpose
- 9:02because the reason I fell in love with science was
- 9:06it's about discovery. It's about not knowing. It's about being foolish.
- 9:11I had this– I was just thinking today I had
- 9:13this amazing high school biology teacher. who had us go
- 9:18outside and he gave us these little note cards. And
- 9:20he said, on one side of the note card, I
- 9:22want you to write a question about your environment. Look around,
- 9:24you know, the plants or whatever. Pick something, the dirt, whatever.
- 9:28And write a question you think Einstein would ask about this.
- 9:31And then he said, okay, now flip it over and
- 9:33I want you to write a question that like a
- 9:35two-year-old would ask if a two-year-old could, you know, write.
- 9:38And my favorite side was the two-year-old. And at the
- 9:40end he said, now Einstein was more like the two-year-old.
- 9:44He said Einstein was full of wonder and confusion and uncertainty.
- 9:50And he just asked questions and imagined things. And that's
- 9:54how I want you all to learn to be. And
- 9:55I was just like, yes.
- 9:57Speaker 2: That's a good teacher.
- 9:58Speaker 1: That's an amazing teacher. And so then I went to
- 10:02graduate school and I went in the world of academia.
- 10:04And I was like, there's all this pressure to, you know,
- 10:08you write your grant after you've done about, three-quarters of
- 10:12the work so that as soon as you get the grant,
- 10:14then you can publish the papers that go with the grant.
- 10:17So you're not really discovering anything. You're kind of talking about,
- 10:19here's what I already know, but I'm acting like I
- 10:20haven't looked at it yet. And there's pressure to follow,
- 10:25as you said, follow the line of thinking for both
- 10:29funding and for your career. And I was told very
- 10:34nicely by wonderful people who wanted to support me that
- 10:38if I took the stuff about psychic stuff off my resume,
- 10:40I would have a perfectly good resume for academia. And
- 10:44I was like, are you crazy? This is the stuff
- 10:46that's actually interesting? Why would I want to take it off?
- 10:49But that's what took me away from academia and made
- 10:51me realize I had to put one foot in building things.
- 10:54I could leave a foot in academia, but I had
- 10:57to bilge it because academia is so slow. They can
- 11:00learn something And then 10 years later, they're like, do
- 11:03you think it's true? And then 20 years later, they're like,
- 11:05maybe we can make something with it. And it's like,
- 11:09but at the same time, you have to be careful.
- 11:11You don't get to just say, well, I just know
- 11:13people are psychic and therefore, you know, screw it. So yeah,
- 11:19there's this dance. There's this dance there. But when you
- 11:22were saying this thing about people afraid to be foolish,
- 11:27I wonder how much it helps me to come from
- 11:30a family of Very foolish, eccentric people.
- 11:34Speaker 2: I'm sure it helps a lot.
- 11:35Speaker 1: Because I'm not afraid to be foolish. In fact, I
- 11:38just know that I am.
- 11:39Speaker 2: Well, I think intelligent, kind people don't mind talking to
- 11:44people that occasionally say foolish things or things that could
- 11:50be perceived as foolish because they're willing to take chances
- 11:53and look at these obscure topics and strange phenomenon and
- 11:58just– and not– Not worry about the stigma that's attached
- 12:03to these subjects that keeps supposedly intelligent or serious people,
- 12:08people that want to be considered as serious people.
- 12:10Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah.
- 12:10Speaker 2: From discussing.
- 12:11Speaker 1: Well, like when you said the thing about Bigfoot.
- 12:15Speaker 2: Yeah.
- 12:15Speaker 1: And I laughed a little bit. That was like a
- 12:18reflex laugh from academia.
- 12:20Speaker 2: Well, it's a fun one. Bigfoot's a fun one.
- 12:22Speaker 1: It is. And I have– friends who study Bigfoot and
- 12:25other cryptids and, and in a, in a scholarly way. And,
- 12:29and I had to learn not to laugh. Like, it's
- 12:31like we have our little discomfort and then we laugh because, Oh,
- 12:35I want to be taken seriously and stuff. But, you know, interestingly,
- 12:39the UFO whole world got accepted into the mainstream land
- 12:45of things that possibly exist before the psychic world. But
- 12:48the psychic world has been studied like by the intelligence community,
- 12:52et cetera, since, openly since like the 50s right whereas
- 12:57the UFO world was supposed to be oh we don't
- 12:58care about that and then only recently has come to
- 13:00the fore so it's really interesting to see this balance
- 13:02they're both related and they're both have their own processes
- 13:06of disclosure but it's just interesting the culturally it's interesting
- 13:10to see this instinct to be right as you called
- 13:15it and I feel like that's I was there's the
- 13:18PBS convention is in town right now in the hotel
- 13:22where I'm staying And I got to say, I think
- 13:26that's still largely a very left-leaning organization. And I was
- 13:30raised up in a really left-leaning household. But the thing
- 13:33that really pisses me off about the left is this
- 13:37wanting to be smart and proving that you're smart. And
- 13:42the thing that pisses me off about the right is
- 13:44wanting to be right. And I feel like both of
- 13:48those things fail.
- 13:49Speaker 2: Yes.
- 13:50Speaker 1: I mean— Neither of them allows us to just discover, okay,
- 13:53what's next? Like how can we actually solve the problems
- 13:57that are going on instead of just wanting our team
- 13:59to win? And so it's interesting to me how the
- 14:03cultural change with science also relates to our politics.
- 14:08Speaker 2: Yeah, I grew up in a very left-leaning household as well.
- 14:11My parents are still very left. And I think that
- 14:15there is a real problem with ideologies where– Especially in
- 14:22this country where we're so polarized, we have a right
- 14:24and a left. And I think most people are kind
- 14:26of in the middle somewhere. And I'm certainly in the middle.
- 14:29I'm probably like middle left. That's where I kind of
- 14:32see myself. But if you like read about me, I'm
- 14:34like far right somehow or another, which.
- 14:36Speaker 1: Is very weird.
- 14:36Speaker 2: I know.
- 14:36Speaker 1: It's interesting. I'm now independent. I'm officially independent because I'm
- 14:40like screw it. I don't– I do think most people
- 14:44are in the center. And I think we need to
- 14:47get clarity here. On that you get to say something
- 14:51that's different from what either side is saying.
- 14:53Speaker 2: Yeah, the problem with either side is you have to
- 14:56accept– if you're going to accept– if you're going to
- 14:58join one of their– I had a bit about it
- 15:00in my last comedy special. That if you're going to
- 15:02join their team, you have to believe all the things.
- 15:06Speaker 1: Right. And you have to kind of display them, like
- 15:09you're performing.
- 15:11Speaker 2: Very good point. Right?
- 15:12Speaker 1: You have to say all the right words. And if
- 15:14you say the wrong words, you're canceled. And that happens
- 15:16on both sides. 100%.
- 15:17Speaker 2: And, you know, the right was always complaining about the
- 15:19left doing it, but now the right's doing it. They're
- 15:21canceling each other about all kinds of stupid things. And
- 15:23it's just a— it is a— it' s— you know, Marc Andreessen's talked about this,
- 15:28that they display all of the behavior that you get
- 15:32from cults. It's the same thing. Totally.
- 15:35Speaker 1: Totally.
- 15:35Speaker 2: Excommunication.
- 15:36Speaker 1: Yeah.
- 15:38Speaker 2: Extreme following of doctrine with no deviation whatsoever. Everyone's very
- 15:43performative that they are more in line with the doctrine
- 15:47than you are. Ew.
- 15:50Speaker 1: Yeah. And by the way, academia is a lot like that.
- 15:52Speaker 2: Oh, it's very much like that. That's very disturbing.
- 15:55Speaker 1: It is disturbing because these people, you're supposed to be
- 15:58open-minded because how are you going to get to truth?
- 16:00I mean, the idea is to get to truth, right?
- 16:02Speaker 2: Yes.
- 16:02Speaker 1: How are you going to get to truth? If you've decided, well,
- 16:05that person is asking this question, that's an inappropriate question.
- 16:08Speaker 2: Yeah. And it's also– there's this thing about people being
- 16:12gatekeepers of information. So like if you're an expert in
- 16:16a very particular subject and someone disagrees with that, people
- 16:20are like, I am a PhD in this subject. Let
- 16:22me tell you about this and I know what's going on.
- 16:24Fuck that.
- 16:25Speaker 1: It's so irritating. And actually that bothers me when I
- 16:28go on shows and people say, oh, but you're a
- 16:29scientist and you study this. And it's like, yeah, but
- 16:32could we not revere me for that reason? Could we
- 16:34instead ask the question like, does she do good work?
- 16:37Does she have interesting thoughts? Does this seem reasonable? Does
- 16:42it seem like she's moving towards the good? Those are
- 16:45really the standards regardless of your degree. And so- It
- 16:50worries me that we put so much reverence in scientists
- 16:53or whatever, or experts. And I also see that there
- 16:57can be this problem where you go, oh, experts are
- 16:59all full of shit. And then you have to get
- 17:01like brain surgery and you're like, I would like a
- 17:03really good neurosurgeon.
- 17:04Speaker 2: So there's kind of both. Oh, 100 percent. There's both.
- 17:10I think the problem is human ego. And the problem
- 17:13is that even people that have like deeply studied subjects,
- 17:16the wanting– the reverence and wanting people to defer to
- 17:23you wholly with no questions whatsoever, like as if you
- 17:26have the entire database on whatever this thing is. This
- 17:29thing is settled. This is settled science. We know everything
- 17:32about it. And that doesn't seem to be the case
- 17:35very often. There's very few things that seem to be
- 17:37completely settled. And it's much more interesting to me when
- 17:42I talk to someone that their perspective is I'm a
- 17:45person that has spent an inordinate amount of time going
- 17:49over this stuff. And this is what I know. I
- 17:51might not know all of it, but this, this is,
- 17:53this is what we know. And this is why we
- 17:55think this is what it is. And this is, so
- 17:57instead of like having this ego and I see it, God,
- 18:02I see it from so many, it's a very male
- 18:04thing too. It's a very male ego thing to be
- 18:07like the, you know, the dominant force of the narrative,
- 18:14you know, that they're the enforcer of the narrative and,
- 18:17you know, very, dismissive and very rude and saying, you know,
- 18:24just insulting things about anybody that deviates from it instead
- 18:28of just saying, this is why I think this is
- 18:32the case. And this is what we've learned over the years.
- 18:35And this is, but having humility when you're dealing with,
- 18:39especially when you're dealing with something like cognitive, like anything
- 18:44involving consciousness or anything involving the human mind, it's so complex.
- 18:49There's so much going on and it's so biologically variable.
- 18:53There's so many different people that have different ways of
- 18:56thinking and their mind works differently. One of the more
- 19:00illuminating things about doing this podcast is having so many
- 19:04different people in here and so many different conversations, so
- 19:07many unique and fascinating people, but they're all different.
- 19:10Speaker 1: Yeah.
- 19:11Speaker 3: Yeah.
- 19:11Speaker 1: You're like, you're like, Tasting from all the different flavors
- 19:15of humanity. And it's a delight to listen to. But
- 19:18I sort of want to know what it's like to
- 19:21be in your brain as you start to– it's like
- 19:23you're a sponge and you're soaking in all these points
- 19:25of view. So the model that you're building, I just–
- 19:28I wonder a lot about what it's like to be
- 19:29different people. And I imagine the model that you're building
- 19:32of the world is really well-informed. Hey, Jamie, could you
- 19:35turn down my– Oh.
- 19:36Speaker 2: You could do it. There's a little thing right there.
- 19:38Speaker 1: Oh.
- 19:40Speaker 2: We're like professionals.
- 19:42Speaker 1: It's like you have a whole show. But yeah, I
- 19:47think the model that you're building could be put to.
- 19:50some really powerful use. So I'm here to convince you
- 19:53to run for president.
- 19:54Speaker 2: Oh, God. Trying to get me killed, Julia? How dare you? No,
- 19:57I'm not interested in any job, in any government whatsoever.
- 20:01Speaker 1: I like doing this. Okay, I get it. But what
- 20:05you said about– it's a really male thing. I think
- 20:07it's better said to say– It's a really insecure male thing.
- 20:13Speaker 2: Yes.
- 20:14Speaker 1: It's an insecurity thing that happens more probably to men
- 20:17because there's such a standard of you're supposed to be alpha.
- 20:19Everyone's supposed to be alpha.
- 20:20Speaker 2: Right.
- 20:21Speaker 1: And for women, there's not that standard. Right. And so
- 20:25there's more insecurity because everyone can't be alpha. And what
- 20:28the heck is alpha? And so I feel like I
- 20:34have a desire for someone who has a sense of
- 20:38their own. Like it's secure in their own masculinity and
- 20:42their own femininity, which I think you have both. I
- 20:45hope you don't mind me calling you out on that.
- 20:48I know that you have this reputation of being like
- 20:50a total guy guy. But you have this– I mean
- 20:54because you're a deep listener, that's already a feminine trait.
- 20:58Speaker 2: Is it really?
- 20:58Speaker 1: Yeah. Oh, yeah. OK. Yeah.
- 21:01Speaker 2: I didn't know that. I never thought of listening as
- 21:03being masculine or feminine.
- 21:05Speaker 1: Listening is a deeply feminine trait because you have to
- 21:08be relatively humble to want to listen.
- 21:10Speaker 2: And humility is a feminine trait?
- 21:13Speaker 1: No, it's just I don't think of it as a
- 21:15feminine trait.
- 21:15Speaker 2: Yeah, I don't think listening is a feminine trait.
- 21:18Speaker 1: Yeah, maybe I'm wrong.
- 21:19Speaker 2: I think it's a kind.
- 21:20Speaker 1: Women are generally better listeners.
- 21:22Speaker 2: Really?
- 21:23Speaker 1: Yeah. It depends on if you're in a relationship with
- 21:26them or not.
- 21:26Speaker 2: It depends on who you're talking to. I don't know
- 21:30if that's true. I don't know if that's true.
- 21:32Speaker 1: Let me see where I'm getting that.
- 21:33Speaker 2: I think curious people, genuinely curious people are better listeners.
- 21:37That's what I think. And I don't think women or
- 21:40men are genuinely more curious.
- 21:43Speaker 1: You're right. And I think that there's a thing if
- 21:47you're always trying to prove that you're alpha, and I
- 21:50think men are more susceptible to that, where you could
- 21:53not be a good listener because you want to make
- 21:55sure you say the right thing.
- 21:56Speaker 2: That's an insecurity thing.
- 21:57Speaker 1: And then I think there's more insecurity among men because
- 22:00of those standards that are ridiculous. And so maybe that's
- 22:03what I'm talking about. But you're definitely right. I can
- 22:05definitely think of men and women who are both crappy listeners.
- 22:09Speaker 2: And good listeners.
- 22:10Speaker 1: So it's about the insecurity. It's about the emotional maturity.
- 22:13Speaker 2: I think it's also a learned thing that people have
- 22:17this desire– To show everyone how intelligent they are and
- 22:22how dominant they are in any particular subject. And it's
- 22:25one of the most infuriating things about having conversations where
- 22:27people aren't really talking to you. They're just trying to
- 22:30win whatever little verbal game you're playing. They're trying to
- 22:35one-up you and they're trying to.
- 22:37Speaker 1: I've seen that. Yeah.
- 22:39Speaker 2: It's gross.
- 22:40Speaker 1: And also just like it makes you want to leave. Yeah.
- 22:42Speaker 2: It's not fun. It's not a fun conversation. Like I
- 22:45love talking to people way smarter than me. It's fun.
- 22:49I can't be the smartest person. I'm friends with Elon.
- 22:52I'm definitely not the smartest person.
- 22:54Speaker 1: I know that.
- 22:55Speaker 2: I'm friends with a lot of people that are fucking
- 22:57way smarter than me. So I'm just curious. And I
- 23:00think the world would be a lot better place if
- 23:03more people were curious. And if you embraced it and
- 23:08just squash that insecurity that makes you want to puff
- 23:13your chest up and.
- 23:15Speaker 1: See, I don't think you can squash it. I also
- 23:18think the world would be a better place if more
- 23:19people were curious. But I think the solution is– I
- 23:22don't think squashing anything works. Like I think you have
- 23:28to work through it.
- 23:29Speaker 2: That's a better way to say it than squashing it, right?
- 23:32Speaker 1: Squashing it just means it's going to come up later
- 23:34as garbage.
- 23:35Speaker 2: Yeah. No, you said it better. Yeah. It's really just
- 23:39addressing why you're insecure. And for a lot of men,
- 23:43there's– There's just physical insecurity. And the physical insecurity is
- 23:47a real problem. But some of my favorite people are
- 23:50martial artists. And one of the reasons why is because
- 23:53they're the least insecure. Everyone's insecure in some way. But
- 23:58martial artists are dealing with that insecurity literally on a
- 24:02daily basis. So like say jiu-jitsu for instance. If you're
- 24:06training jiu-jitsu– If you go from white belt to black belt,
- 24:09you have to get humiliated thousands of times. You have
- 24:13to get– there's no ifs, ands, or buts about it.
- 24:16If you're a white belt and you train with a
- 24:18black belt, you're going to get humiliated or dominated. You're
- 24:22going to lose. You have no chance. And so by
- 24:25learning over and over and over and over again that
- 24:28you're not really special and it's really just about the
- 24:30time you put in and then about getting better and
- 24:33having the ability to objectively assess– Your position, who you
- 24:38are in this room of people that are trying to
- 24:41strangle each other, who you are in the world itself.
- 24:44And I think a lot of people don't ever address that.
- 24:47And so they run around trying to posture and pretend
- 24:52they're something they're not, pretend they're smarter than they are.
- 24:55They're more of an expert, a subject. They're the one
- 24:57who should talk. You should listen. There's a lot of that.
- 25:01Whenever people say, just shut up and listen, I'm like,
- 25:04that's not– I'm not going to do that and I
- 25:07don't want to talk to anybody that wants to. I
- 25:08don't ever want anybody to do that if I'm talking.
- 25:10Speaker 1: Well, yeah, because then you're not having a conversation. That
- 25:13person doesn't exist.
- 25:14Speaker 2: Exactly.
- 25:14Speaker 1: You've just decided that person doesn't exist.
- 25:16Speaker 2: They don't matter. You've asserted dominance in the dumbest way possible,
- 25:20which is intellectual dominance.
- 25:23Speaker 1: Yes. That is the dumbest way possible.
- 25:26Speaker 2: Sure.
- 25:26Speaker 1: And the funny thing is culturally we kind of think
- 25:29that it's the smartest way possible.
- 25:31Speaker 2: It's just a bunch of fools.
- 25:32Speaker 1: Well, yeah, yeah, yeah.
- 25:34Speaker 2: Fools with a lot of information. Okay.
- 25:36Speaker 1: But let's talk about what a better world would be.
- 25:40So in a better world, if you're going to assert dominance,
- 25:44you would– like the martial art. What I love about
- 25:46martial art is first of all, it's all mental, almost
- 25:50all mental. And then second. it's very similar to what
- 25:54happens when you go through and get your PhD. You
- 25:56get beaten down and you realize you're not the smartest
- 25:59person in the room and you're hanging out with all
- 26:01these other super smart people. And then you've got to
- 26:04learn to be like, okay, that's not what matters. So
- 26:06that's the good part of going nuts with school. But
- 26:11there's this false information that reminds me of when I
- 26:16was at UCSF and I went to go see this
- 26:18talk by this famous scientist. I think he won a
- 26:20Nobel Prize. I forget his name. But he was an asshole.
- 26:25And he gave his brilliant talk, but I couldn't pay
- 26:28attention to it because he was an asshole. He was
- 26:30being rude to people who asked questions. He was just dickish.
- 26:35I mean, I don't know how else to say it.
- 26:36Just like arrogant. Yeah. And I walked out and someone
- 26:40said to me, one of my mentors said to me,
- 26:43you know, you have to learn to separate the personality
- 26:46from the information that they're giving. And I said, you know, no,
- 26:50I don't. He's giving me all the information in his personality.
- 26:55I don't need to learn to listen to that. I
- 26:58need to learn to say, unlike all of you all,
- 27:01I need to learn to say, I'm not going to
- 27:04hang out with people and put myself in the presence
- 27:06of people who are rude like that. That's more important
- 27:09than their amazing intellect. Somehow, we got to a place
- 27:15culturally where we think you can be really mean or
- 27:20dismissive or rude and arrogant and that's fine because you're
- 27:27winning and I feel like a better world would acknowledge
- 27:31that what's more important is love which is this connection
- 27:37where you actually acknowledge there's someone else there even if
- 27:39you like think they're an asshole but still yeah you
- 27:43know like I wasn't practicing love I wasn't accepting him
- 27:46who he was but I was in a place where
- 27:49the environment wanted me to just ignore sort of the
- 27:53information I was getting about who this guy was and
- 27:56just say, no, all that matters is his intelligence.
- 27:58Speaker 2: Yeah. So sometimes you can learn a lot from people
- 28:03that are gross, you know, and it's valuable to be
- 28:07able to put their personality aside and listen to the
- 28:10actual information. But still in that moment, though, I don't
- 28:14want to.
- 28:15Speaker 1: Well, in that moment, in that moment, I was like
- 28:1724 and And I was a woman in a field
- 28:20where there are a lot of guys and I was
- 28:23feeling like I have to have boundaries, you know, I
- 28:28have to learn to have boundaries. And then later when I'm,
- 28:30you know, like now I'm post-menopausal and you know how
- 28:33post-menopausal women are, we have much more confidence.
- 28:38Speaker 2: But you're not playing that game anymore.
- 28:40Speaker 1: Yeah, no, right. Exactly. It's just like, now I'm like,
- 28:43I can listen to, you know, some asshole listen to
- 28:46what he's saying. But at the time it's like, no, like,
- 28:48I have to stand up for something that I think
- 28:50is important.
- 28:50Speaker 2: Right.
- 28:51Speaker 1: You know? I'm not saying I'm better than. I'm saying
- 28:55I had that experience that made me see that there
- 28:58was this level of like sort of import placed on
- 29:03the intellect. And that had always been the case. My
- 29:06family had always placed all this level of import on
- 29:08the intellect. And I just kind of walked out of that.
- 29:12Speaker 2: Well, it has to be balanced. Like I think putting
- 29:15all of the– emphasis on the intellect itself and ignoring
- 29:20the personality is kind of like the messenger is important.
- 29:25Like the message is important, but the, the messenger sucks that, that,
- 29:29you know, if, if someone was yelling out the most
- 29:33amazing information in the world, but they were singing it
- 29:36like a Slayer song, I don't know if that's a
- 29:39bad example, but you know what I mean? Like, you know,
- 29:40those death metal bands where they just scream and you're like, oh, geez,
- 29:44I got to get out of here. It's not my thing.
- 29:46Speaker 1: Right.
- 29:46Speaker 2: But it could be like the most interesting information. But
- 29:49the messenger sucks. It's not fun to listen to. It's
- 29:52not exciting. Or the messenger's arrogant or the messenger's rude or.
- 29:58It ruins the message.
- 29:59Speaker 1: Yeah, you need both.
- 30:00Speaker 2: Human beings need to communicate. And in order to communicate,
- 30:03we need to establish that we're just two people. And
- 30:08if you have some information that I don't have, I
- 30:10want to hear it. I don't want to like, oh,
- 30:12she's saying too many smart things. I want to say
- 30:14something smart to show I'm smarter than her. Well, hold
- 30:16on there. There's a lot of that. And that's a
- 30:20lot of that in academia because that is their entire identity.
- 30:23Speaker 1: It's a chess game.
- 30:24Speaker 2: Yes.
- 30:25Speaker 1: Yeah.
- 30:25Speaker 2: But it's a chess game with pieces that are stunted.
- 30:28Like they're not allowed to freely move. No kidding.
- 30:31Speaker 1: Yeah, it is a cult. I mean that's the cult part.
- 30:33That's where you leave and people feel sorry for you.
- 30:36And you're like, I have my freedom. I'm so excited.
- 30:38And they're like, I'm so sorry for you.
- 30:41Speaker 2: It's social hierarchies. It's gross. And I mean I think
- 30:46that's going to exist whenever there's ego, whenever there's these–
- 30:52the human dynamics of these– bizarre creatures that we are.
- 30:56We're territorial apes with weapons. We're weird. And we're always
- 31:01establishing some kind of dominance, whether it's intellectual dominance or
- 31:05wealth dominance or social hierarchy dominance. People love that stuff.
- 31:11They love it.
- 31:13Speaker 1: Do we?
- 31:15Speaker 2: They love to play it. They love to pretend.
- 31:17Speaker 1: We love to pretend it. But do we really.
- 31:20Speaker 2: Well, that's why people name drop. That's why people want
- 31:22to have the fanciest cars and the nicest watches.
- 31:26Speaker 1: I know, but is that really making them happy?
- 31:28Speaker 2: No, it's not.
- 31:29Speaker 1: So I don't know that people love it. I think
- 31:31people do it because they think it's going to make
- 31:33them happy. But I don't think they love it.
- 31:34Speaker 2: Yeah, there's something to that. There's probably something that some
- 31:38sociopaths feel if they show up with a million-dollar watch
- 31:42and a million-dollar car and they pull up in front
- 31:45of a giant house that's bigger than anybody. It's like, wow,
- 31:47look at me. I did it. But I think– yeah.
- 31:50But that's rare.
- 31:51Speaker 1: I think that's rare.
- 31:52Speaker 2: Yeah. I think it's not lasting either. And then there's
- 31:54also a bunch of people that are on fucking pills.
- 31:57They don't even know what they like. They're just running
- 31:59around in the fog of pharmaceutical cloud.
- 32:01Speaker 1: But that's the way they're dealing with it. So it's
- 32:04like– I guess if we see it as like there's
- 32:06this big problem, which is that– I call this the
- 32:09human problem. No one knows how to be with themselves
- 32:12or others in any kind of harmony. Right. Harmony.
- 32:15Speaker 2: That's a good word.
- 32:16Speaker 1: We don't know how to get to harmony. Right. right?
- 32:19And so one way is for drugs, and one way
- 32:22is prayer, and one way is the big car and
- 32:26the dominance, and one way is, you know, being addicted
- 32:30to your phone. I mean, you know, none of them work. Right.
- 32:34But all of, I mean, that's not true. I think
- 32:36prayer works. But I think the only one that works
- 32:40is love, and I think that's what prayer is about.
- 32:41But earnest prayer. But We have to try. I mean,
- 32:47we're built to try to get to harmony, apparently, because
- 32:51we keep trying. And so part of me wants to say,
- 32:54I'm of two minds. Part of me just says, like,
- 32:58we're trying the best we can and we have all
- 32:59these faults. And then there's a part of me that says,
- 33:02and we can do better.
- 33:04Speaker 2: Well, we definitely can. And I think that's one of
- 33:05the reasons why people hunger for conversations, because we're all
- 33:08trying to figure out how to do better. The human
- 33:11mind is one of the most extraordinary things that's ever
- 33:15been studied and yet there's no guidebook on how to
- 33:17use it.
- 33:18Speaker 1: Because we still don't know. Do you know how much
- 33:20we don't know? We know about as much about the
- 33:22human mind now as we knew in 1991 when I
- 33:26first went to graduate school. I mean, in neuroscience. I mean,
- 33:30the brain, we know a lot more about the brain.
- 33:32We still don't know that much about it. We're still
- 33:34missing some basic pieces of like things like what's the
- 33:37neural code? How do these neurons actually communicate? How do
- 33:41we actually learn? How do we actually represent things in memory?
- 33:44But we know more. But in terms of the mind, wow,
- 33:49we're just beginning. I mean, I guess I'm differentiating the
- 33:52brain and the mind. Like the brain is this like
- 33:53physical chunk of stuff that's related to the mind. But
- 33:57the mind is what we are doing. Right. Thinking, feeling, emoting, wondering,
- 34:05all that stuff is mind stuff. And that's Super mysterious.
- 34:10Speaker 2: And super difficult to manage for almost everybody. And again,
- 34:15no guidebook. You're giving the most complex instrument known to man,
- 34:20which is the human mind. And everybody's like, figure it out.
- 34:23And you're like, fuck, maybe I'll become a Mooney. Maybe
- 34:26I'll go into Scientology. What do I do? I have
- 34:28to do something. I have to do something. Someone knows.
- 34:30I know. I'm the one who knows. Follow that guy.
- 34:34You know, that's what we do.
- 34:35Speaker 1: Do these 10 things and you'll be okay. Yes. That's
- 34:38how cults get started. I'll do those 10 things because
- 34:39we're so nervous. We can't figure it out.
- 34:41Speaker 2: Exactly.
- 34:42Speaker 1: Yeah.
- 34:43Speaker 3: Yeah.
- 34:44Speaker 1: Have you ever seen a baby be born?
- 34:46Speaker 3: Sure.
- 34:47Speaker 1: Yeah. Yeah. So have I. My own, but also I
- 34:50was a doula for a couple of friends who were babies. Oh, wow.
- 34:54You know, everyone should just see a baby be born.
- 34:57Speaker 2: It's very psychedelic.
- 34:58Speaker 1: It's psychedelic and it's also– it puts you in that
- 35:01liminal space where it's like you've seen beyond the veil.
- 35:05You've seen the borderland between life and death. And it
- 35:08feels to me like that experience, which is much more
- 35:12rare for people to have now. Most people can avoid
- 35:16seeing a baby being born. But that experience is– and
- 35:21also seeing someone die. That experience– I think helps train
- 35:26us in– it is the instruction book for the human mind.
- 35:30I don't know why I'm saying that. I look at you.
- 35:32You're wrinkling your brow and I'm like, also, why am
- 35:35I saying that?
- 35:35Speaker 2: No, I'm only wrinkling my brow because I'm listening. I
- 35:38have the face of someone who's always upset, but it's
- 35:41not true.
- 35:43Speaker 1: No, I don't know why I said that. Like, I've
- 35:45never had that thought before. But I guess I was
- 35:47looking at this little, like, you've got this little, like,
- 35:50idle thing.
- 35:51Speaker 2: Oh, that is a death whistle. That's an Aztec death whistle.
- 35:54Don't do it. Last time we did it, the pandemic started. Yeah,
- 35:57I got rid of it close enough.
- 35:59Speaker 1: Okay.
- 36:00Speaker 2: Yeah, and with the hentavirus thing going on, don't blow it.
- 36:03Speaker 1: Okay.
- 36:04Speaker 2: Yeah, it is a meme online because my friend Brian
- 36:07Cowan was in the podcast studio and he blew this
- 36:09Aztec death whistle, like, literally everywhere. It was like a
- 36:12week before the fucking pandemic kicked off. It was way
- 36:15too close. And the meme was Brian Callen kicking off
- 36:19the pandemic with the Aztec death whistle.
- 36:21Speaker 1: OK, well, I didn't blow it. I saved everybody.
- 36:25Speaker 2: Do you know what Aztec death whistles are?
- 36:27Speaker 1: I imagine it's really scary.
- 36:28Speaker 2: It sounds horrible. And they would play them at night
- 36:31while their enemy was like camped at night. And so
- 36:36they would haunt them so they couldn't sleep. They would
- 36:39stand on the mountaintops and make that noise.
- 36:43Speaker 1: Wow.
- 36:43Speaker 2: And it's very high pitched and it carries.
- 36:45Speaker 1: Like a crying baby.
- 36:46Speaker 2: Well, no, it's very, it's like demons. It sounds like demons.
- 36:49Like people screaming. And you just think, this is the
- 36:52last day of my life. Here's what it sounds like.
- 36:54Speaker 4: Aztec soldiers will blow while charging into battle and during
- 36:57human sacrifices. But how does a whistle make that horrifying sound?
- 37:01When air is blown into the tube, the airflow splits
- 37:04into a big and small chamber, each making a different
- 37:07noise you're about to hear. Click here to see me
- 37:12try the world's loudest.
- 37:13Speaker 1: Did that guy survive this video?
- 37:15Speaker 2: I don't know. He might not even be real in
- 37:17this world. That might be AI.
- 37:19Speaker 1: Well, that's true. So no wonder I was thinking about
- 37:22like the veil between life and death. Cause I was
- 37:24looking at that thing and there's something that is like
- 37:27a reset, you know, when you, um, when you see
- 37:32a baby be born or you see someone die, it's
- 37:35like a, um, it's like you get to what matters
- 37:40and it's, And it's not whatever the dominance thing and
- 37:44it's not the insecurity thing and it's not the– it's
- 37:48not any of that.
- 37:49Speaker 2: Yeah.
- 37:50Speaker 1: You know? So I think that's the instruction book. And
- 37:53so we're sort of given these little resets that allow
- 37:57us to get in touch with what really matters. But
- 37:59the more we get away from them in the modern world,
- 38:04maybe the fewer instructions we have. I don't know. Never
- 38:09had that thought before. Yeah.
- 38:11Speaker 2: I think it would benefit almost everyone to do something
- 38:16that takes you out of your own thoughts. And I
- 38:21think that physically difficult things are the very best at that.
- 38:25Like yoga is one of the very best things at
- 38:27that because it's very physically difficult to do. It requires
- 38:33a lot of willpower and concentration while you're doing it.
- 38:37You're balancing yourself. You're sweating. You're straining. And because it's
- 38:42so difficult, you can't think of anything else other than
- 38:45it while you're doing it. And I think that cleans
- 38:47your mind out and that it purges you of all
- 38:53this weirdness that's inside of you that is constantly battling
- 38:58with everything around you and allows you to just be. Yeah.
- 39:01Just exist.
- 39:02Speaker 1: Yeah. Yoga. I mean childbirth is very physical. Dying is
- 39:06very physical. Yeah.
- 39:07Speaker 2: But the thing is you can't voluntarily do that every day.
- 39:09Speaker 1: No, you can't.
- 39:10Speaker 3: You know what I mean?
- 39:10Speaker 2: You can't.
- 39:11Speaker 1: But I do sort of think like childbirth for women
- 39:13who go through it or are lucky enough to go
- 39:15through it is kind of like boot camp for men.
- 39:19I mean it really pushes you to your limit and
- 39:25then puts you in an altered state.
- 39:28Speaker 2: Where oh for sure you just had a human come
- 39:30out of your body now it's alive and you love
- 39:33it more than anything.
- 39:34Speaker 1: Yeah and it brings this like incredible i'm looking at
- 39:36this ufo guy behind you it brings this incredible self-transcendent
- 39:39experience of like whoa right this is not about me
- 39:43you know and so yeah same with people who play
- 39:47team sports, I was never one of them. But I
- 39:48hear that that experience happens.
- 39:51Speaker 2: Yes.
- 39:52Speaker 1: Or like when you're practicing a musical instrument.
- 39:54Speaker 2: Well, I think anything difficult. I think when I was
- 39:57talking about martial arts, martial arts will help you in
- 40:01that regard. But I think kind of anything that's hard
- 40:03to do gets you out of your head and helps you.
- 40:06And just getting an understanding that Whatever you're doing in life,
- 40:13if you concentrate on it and focus on it and
- 40:16you'll get better at it and that gives you confidence
- 40:19and an understanding of kind of how the world works.
- 40:22And then you could also apply that to being a person.
- 40:25You're not the same person you were when you were
- 40:2720 years old, right?
- 40:28Speaker 1: Why?
- 40:28Speaker 2: Because you're better at being a person because you've lived
- 40:31a lot. You've had a lot of experiences. You made
- 40:34a lot of mistakes and you're constantly practicing and learning.
- 40:39And I think other things that you can do other
- 40:41than just being a person will enhance your ability to
- 40:44be a person.
- 40:45Speaker 1: Yeah. Being a person who is applying yourself to something.
- 40:49Speaker 2: Yes. My martial arts instructor had this thing that he
- 40:51told me when I was very young. He said that
- 40:53martial arts are a vehicle for developing your human potential.
- 40:58Speaker 1: Yeah.
- 40:59Speaker 2: But I think that could be guitar playing. That could
- 41:02be tennis.
- 41:03Speaker 1: When I used to teach remote viewing, we used to
- 41:04call it a mental martial art. It's anything that's hard.
- 41:10on which you have to concentrate that puts you in
- 41:12that space of flow. And the flow means that, you know,
- 41:16you know, that Holly chicks at Mahali idea. I don't
- 41:19know if I pronounced his name right, but this idea
- 41:21of timelessness and you're just sort of having to surf
- 41:25whatever's happening. And that could happen. It could happen in
- 41:30any field, right? Whatever, whenever you have to apply your
- 41:35whole self to something, then what's a, It's so ironic
- 41:38because you apply your whole self to something and then
- 41:41what that allows to happen is that you become selfless.
- 41:44You're almost like a tube. Right.
- 41:46Speaker 2: You're not thinking about you anymore. You're thinking about the thing.
- 41:49Speaker 1: Yeah, and there's neuroscience to back that up, right? Yeah.
- 41:52Speaker 2: Yeah. I think anything difficult, I feel that when I
- 41:57practice archery. I feel that when I play pool. I
- 42:00feel that when I work out. Anything difficult where you
- 42:03lose yourself emotionally. But in doing that, you have a
- 42:07better understanding of yourself, which is odd.
- 42:11Speaker 1: Yeah. And it's almost like you come into consciousness more. Yeah.
- 42:15Speaker 2: I'm really fascinated by the remote viewing and I want
- 42:17to get to that. But I want to start with
- 42:18like how did you begin studying this stuff? So you're
- 42:24involved in neuroscience. You're trying to pick which lane you're
- 42:30going to really pursue all your interests in. How did
- 42:33you get involved in? This idea of premonition and psychic
- 42:37ability and that there's a real something there.
- 42:41Speaker 1: Yeah. I sort of hid it from my– I hid
- 42:46my agenda from myself. Really?
- 42:48Speaker 2: Yeah.
- 42:49Speaker 1: I discovered later in life.
- 42:51Speaker 2: Yeah.
- 42:52Speaker 1: Because when I was a kid, my first precognitive dream
- 42:56that I remember was when I was seven. And it
- 43:00was very clear. I dreamt that my friend, I knew
- 43:04which friend, Yishan, would, what would happen? She would lose
- 43:08her watch. Where would it happen? On the playground. And
- 43:10then the next day that happened. It was very specific.
- 43:13You know, it wasn't like you don't have to be
- 43:15metaphorical about it. What does it mean? It meant that
- 43:17Yishan lost her watch on the playground the next day.
- 43:20Speaker 2: Right, right.
- 43:21Speaker 1: And so.
- 43:22Speaker 2: Did you tell your parents?
- 43:23Speaker 1: Yeah. And they said, my mom, so my very eccentric family.
- 43:31We'd always talk about dreams at the breakfast table. My
- 43:33mom was a therapist and a learning disability specialist. My
- 43:37dad was a physicist. My sister's an artist. And we
- 43:40would all talk about dreams. And so I would– I
- 43:43mentioned this. And my dad, the physicist, says, well, that's
- 43:47a coincidence. And my mom, the therapist, says you should
- 43:50get a dream journal and write them down. And so
- 43:52I did that.
- 43:54Speaker 2: Your dad just dismissed it as a coincidence?
- 43:57Speaker 1: You know, he– He has come around.
- 43:59Speaker 2: That's a very specific coincidence.
- 44:02Speaker 1: It's three factors. And I always like to say if
- 44:05you have two or more factors, it's likely precognitive.
- 44:07Speaker 2: But just the one. Lost the watch. And then she
- 44:10loses her watch.
- 44:11Speaker 1: But she did just get her watch. We were seven
- 44:14years old. She got her watch from her father. You
- 44:17could predict that as someone who's good at figuring out
- 44:19what kids do is that they might lose the.
- 44:21Speaker 2: Watch, right?
- 44:21Speaker 1: So that could be a coincidence. You have to think
- 44:24about all the possible things that could happen to a
- 44:25seven-year-old on the watch that they just got. Losing it
- 44:28is up there.
- 44:29Speaker 2: Yeah, but you thought about it the day before she
- 44:31lost it.
- 44:31Speaker 1: I dreamt it the day before she lost it. Yeah. Yeah.
- 44:35So he did dismiss it as a coincidence. But we
- 44:37also had ball lightning and like weird orbs in our house.
- 44:39And he also dismissed that as not actually having happened.
- 44:42Speaker 2: Wait, you had ball lightning in your house?
- 44:45Speaker 1: Yeah, we were in this old farmhouse in Libertyville, Illinois,
- 44:48where I grew up. And we lived with my grandparents there.
- 44:52And ball lightning came inside the house. And my mother
- 44:56stood up for it. My mother said, Ed, my dad's name.
- 45:02Didn't she see that lightning zipping around the house last night? Lightning.
- 45:06And my dad said, that couldn't have happened.
- 45:11Speaker 2: Did he see it?
- 45:12Speaker 1: Of course he saw it.
- 45:13Speaker 2: But he just wanted to dismiss it.
- 45:13Speaker 1: But he didn't have an explanation for it.
- 45:15Speaker 2: What does your dad do?
- 45:16Speaker 1: He was a theoretical physicist for his dissertation. He was
- 45:19at University of Chicago. He discovered or showed somehow the
- 45:23electron layer on the moon, that there's this atmosphere of
- 45:26electrons on the moon.
- 45:28Speaker 2: How can he say that that couldn't happen?
- 45:31Speaker 1: So one of the reasons, so people are so complex
- 45:35with the reasons they go into particular fields. My experience
- 45:38with physicists, my dad included, is they tend to go
- 45:41into this field of physics because the whole job of
- 45:45physics is to simplify everything into a few equations, right?
- 45:49Let's like, there's the funny, there's the, I don't know
- 45:51if it's funny, but there's the standard physics joke of like,
- 45:54all right, let's figure out the volume of a cow.
- 45:56You know, let's just estimate it. It's a sphere, right?
- 45:59And so it's like you cut off the legs and
- 46:02the head and the tail and all of a sudden
- 46:04you're just calculating a sphere which doesn't give you the
- 46:06volume of the cow. And so I think there's a
- 46:10desire to simplify everything and I think there's a desire
- 46:12to control things. And many, many, many physicists have OCD
- 46:18and have control issues. My dad had severe, severe OCD.
- 46:22And so in his mind, it couldn't have happened because
- 46:28it would– all those circuits would fry because he didn't
- 46:31know how to explain it. And my mother just stood
- 46:33up for it and said, well, it did happen and
- 46:35you saw it and I saw it and it hit
- 46:37the edge of my room and then went out and
- 46:40there was still like the brown mark where it was
- 46:43burned in the corner of the room. So like we
- 46:45had plenty of evidence. So there was stuff going on
- 46:51and there was a, there was this push pull with
- 46:55my mom who just, believed in the primacy, I guess,
- 46:59or the importance of experience like we saw it. And
- 47:03the pull from my dad who believed in, if you
- 47:07didn't understand, if you didn't have a theory for something,
- 47:09it couldn't exist. And so I was living in that.
- 47:12So what I did was I kept a dream journal
- 47:16sort of the rest of my life. I still write
- 47:18every morning my dreams and started to notice that I
- 47:22was really good at precognitive dreaming. And it would happen
- 47:24again and again and again. And I would have experience.
- 47:29We can get into later the weird school stuff. But
- 47:32experiences at school that reminded me that I had this capacity.
- 47:36And then I hid it from myself when I realized
- 47:41I wanted to go to graduate school and actually be
- 47:43a scientist. So by which I mean I just sort
- 47:48of said, well, all of that stuff's crap. Even though
- 47:50I was still having those experiences, I had to kind
- 47:52of split off. this is a thing that you have
- 47:54to do if, if you think, okay, I have to
- 47:56ride the academic train. Right. And the academic train says like,
- 48:01I'm going to do hard science. I'm going to go
- 48:03to the best neuroscience school. I'm going to, you know,
- 48:05and then by the time I was in my late
- 48:08twenties and I was in my second graduate school, getting
- 48:13my PhD at Northwestern, I started to remember. And the
- 48:16reason I started, and it's not like I had really forgotten,
- 48:19but it's like, it just wasn't allowed to be real.
- 48:22I started to, study timing in the auditory system because
- 48:27I was into understanding how the auditory system managed things
- 48:30in time. And then I started to ask myself, why
- 48:33am I so interested in time? Why am I so
- 48:35interested in the nature of time and how it works?
- 48:38And then boom, oh, right, because I keep having these
- 48:41precognitive dreams. There's obviously something we don't understand about how
- 48:44time works because these are so consistent and clear. And
- 48:48at that point, I knew that was happening immediately. Because
- 48:51I knew I wasn't making it up. I could look
- 48:53at my journal and I could see it. So that's
- 48:55when I started saying, all right, you know, I'm old
- 48:58enough to choose my own path and I'm going to
- 49:00start asking these questions.
- 49:03Speaker 2: And when you started asking them and trying to apply
- 49:06it in using the scientific method, how did you first
- 49:10attempt to do that?
- 49:12Speaker 1: Well, I called, I was, I'm kind of fearless when
- 49:17it comes to cold calling people, especially science. because very
- 49:20few people call scientists. So I called up Dean Radin.
- 49:24I had read some of his work from the Institute
- 49:27of Nautic Sciences. I called him up and I said, um, hi,
- 49:31my name's Julia. And I was thinking of going into
- 49:33this field and I think precognition is real. And he's like, oh, okay. And, uh,
- 49:38And I remember where I was sitting when I caught him.
- 49:42And he said, the thing you have to do is
- 49:44get your PhD in a field that is not this.
- 49:47So finish your PhD and then as a postdoc, start
- 49:51to investigate it. So I did. I finished my PhD
- 49:54while I was studying all this other stuff and understanding
- 49:56the field. And then as soon as I got into
- 49:58my postdoc years, I found a sympathetic advisor at Northwestern
- 50:02in the cognitive neuroscience program. And, um, And just said,
- 50:07I want to start studying this stuff. So at the
- 50:09same time, I had one foot in more mainstream stuff
- 50:12about timing and the auditory and the visual system. And
- 50:15then the other foot was in this purely basically psychic stuff,
- 50:19trying to understand it. And I made an experiment. There's
- 50:23a foundation called the Bial Foundation in Portugal. And I
- 50:25wrote an application to them. And they funded my postdoc
- 50:30so I could study the sense of being stared at
- 50:33with closed circuit TV monitors. And I could study how
- 50:37the skin physiology, skin conductance or sweat changes just before
- 50:43you get a response right on a random psychic task.
- 50:48And so that's kind of precognition or pre-sentiment. And then
- 50:51I just pulled from, I got really interested in pre-sentiment
- 50:55because I saw that it was real. And I also
- 50:56saw there was a big gender difference that was fascinating
- 50:59to me, which is that before men got their first
- 51:04trial correct, and this is just a guessing game, so
- 51:07it's randomly selected, their skin conductance would go crazy, like
- 51:11they just won the lottery. And before they didn't get
- 51:15it correct or they were incorrect, it would just kind
- 51:17of like peter along. So they were anticipating at a
- 51:20very high level what the future was going to bring,
- 51:23whether they were going to win or not. Whereas women
- 51:26practically but not totally showed the opposite, but regardless of
- 51:31what happened, whether it was correct or incorrect, They were
- 51:34much lower than men. So men were really excited about
- 51:38the future correct thing. At least their physiology showed that.
- 51:43So I got fascinated by that and pulled together a
- 51:46bunch of– worked with a couple other people at different
- 51:50institutions and pulled together 26 studies over the past– or
- 51:53the prior, I guess, 40 years that looked at this
- 51:57kind of physiological change that predicts essentially a random future event.
- 52:03And just analyzed it.
- 52:04Speaker 2: Do you have a theory as to why men have
- 52:07that response and women don't?
- 52:09Speaker 1: You know, I kind of think it's cultural. You were
- 52:12talking about the importance of winning. And I think, I mean,
- 52:20we know that gambling addicts are twice as likely or
- 52:22maybe three times as likely to be men as women.
- 52:24Speaker 2: Really?
- 52:26Speaker 1: Yeah.
- 52:27Speaker 2: And.
- 52:29Speaker 1: The importance of winning– I don't know if it's biological
- 52:31or cultural. But in any case, the importance of being
- 52:35alpha or the importance of winning, I think it's a
- 52:37big deal. It's a big deal to men.
- 52:42Speaker 2: Do you think that goes back to tribal war?
- 52:45Speaker 1: I think it goes like back to like chimpanzees.
- 52:49Speaker 2: Yeah, which do tribal war.
- 52:51Speaker 1: Yeah. Yeah.
- 52:51Speaker 2: I mean it kind of makes sense that the importance
- 52:54in winning is literally survival or death.
- 52:56Speaker 1: You will get kicked out of your little chimpanzee colony.
- 52:59Speaker 2: Not only that, the ability to predict things that are
- 53:02going to happen would probably keep you alive.
- 53:06Speaker 3: Yeah.
- 53:06Speaker 2: Like if you were running into an ambush, you know, like,
- 53:09I don't like this or something is wrong, something's off
- 53:12or now's the time to go. Like, I feel it. Mm-hmm.
- 53:15Speaker 1: Yeah. Yeah, so those combined. But, you know, there's other
- 53:18tasks that aren't about winning that are just about, you know,
- 53:21are you going to see a picture that's scary versus
- 53:23a picture that's neutral, where women and men both show
- 53:26the effect. But in this particular task, it was just, like,
- 53:30very clear. And then I replicated it in heartbeat. So
- 53:33that first one was in skin conductance. And then I
- 53:35looked at heart rhythms. And I replicated that same thing
- 53:39where men are like, oh, yeah, here we go. And
- 53:41women are like, da-da-da-da. It doesn't. If something doesn't matter
- 53:46so much to you in the future, I don't think
- 53:48it matters so much to you in anticipating it.
- 53:53Speaker 2: Now, here's the question about this stuff. Do you think
- 53:56that this is an emerging phenomenon in human consciousness or
- 54:01do you think it's something that has atrophied that was
- 54:04available before language?
- 54:07Speaker 1: It's very clearly available. I mean before language. OK.
- 54:11Speaker 2: That's what I think. I've been thinking that a lot lately.
- 54:14And one of the things that I've been thinking is
- 54:16one of the things that we've noticed– like I think
- 54:19phones and the internet and computers are an amazing thing.
- 54:24You can acquire so much information. You can learn about things.
- 54:27You can encounter new people. There's so much stuff that's
- 54:31great about the internet. The bad thing is– A lot
- 54:35of people have a much shorter attention span now because
- 54:38of social media. And then now they're demonstrating that through
- 54:42use of large language models, a lot of people are
- 54:45actually getting dumber.
- 54:46Speaker 1: Yes.
- 54:46Speaker 2: I've noticed it already. Well, it's– they've studied it and
- 54:50they– especially children. They're actually less capable of solving problems
- 54:56themselves because they always turn to a computer and have
- 54:59the computer solve a problem. Right. The more I think
- 55:02about that, the more I look at that, I go, well,
- 55:04what is language? Language is a technology, and language is
- 55:06a technology that allows you to say things with your mouth,
- 55:10and I know what you're thinking. Maybe before that existed,
- 55:14we had an understanding of what we were thinking. Maybe
- 55:17there's some sort of a weird psychic connection that we
- 55:23all believe that people have with each other in some
- 55:26way or form, and some of it you could demonstrate,
- 55:29some of it, but Most of it is just intuition
- 55:33and feeling. And I always wonder, like, is this atrophied?
- 55:35Like before we could talk when we were just these
- 55:38bipedal hominids with, you know, larger brains and all the
- 55:41other mammals and these weird abilities to be curious and
- 55:45figure out things and develop tools. Like what was consciousness
- 55:49like before language, before written language? You didn't have a
- 55:53word for dog and tree and like what was it
- 55:57that was going on in your head? If you don't–
- 56:00like you think in your head. I think in my
- 56:02head in a voice. Yeah. And they say some people
- 56:05don't have.
- 56:06Speaker 1: An internal voice. I don't have that.
- 56:07Speaker 2: You don't have an internal voice?
- 56:08Speaker 1: I have pictures.
- 56:09Speaker 2: Oh, that's interesting.
- 56:11Speaker 1: Yeah.
- 56:12Speaker 2: Really? Yeah.
- 56:13Speaker 1: I sometimes wonder about that if that's why I can
- 56:16do the remote viewing stuff. Only pictures? Feelings?
- 56:20Speaker 2: Oh, I have a whole dude in my brain.
- 56:22Speaker 1: Yeah. I've heard that most people have that.
- 56:25Speaker 2: No, I don't think it's most people.
- 56:26Speaker 1: Really?
- 56:26Speaker 2: I think it's kind of, well.
- 56:28Speaker 1: Is it your voice?
- 56:30Speaker 2: Oh, it's not me.
- 56:31Speaker 1: No.
- 56:31Speaker 2: Is it like your dad? No, no, no, no.
- 56:33Speaker 1: Is it a guy?
- 56:35Speaker 2: Yeah, it's like a general.
- 56:37Speaker 1: Oh.
- 56:37Speaker 2: It's like someone's going, shut the fuck up. Go to work.
- 56:41Do this. What are you talking about? Why are you
- 56:43being such a bitch?
- 56:43Speaker 1: So he's kind of a jerk.
- 56:45Speaker 2: No, no, no, no, no. He's right. Always. My inner
- 56:49voice is never wrong. My inner self-correcting voice is always correct.
- 56:54It's always right. It's always like– it's– I mean if
- 56:59you wanted to get really crazy, you would say it's
- 57:02like a guardian angel in your brain that's steering you
- 57:05in the right direction. But if I've done something wrong
- 57:09in my life, made a mistake in my life, said
- 57:11something I shouldn't have said, that voice berates me.
- 57:14Speaker 1: Wow. So that seems hard. No, it's good.
- 57:17Speaker 2: It's great. I mean like– No, you got to get
- 57:19over it. Well, but– But that's how you learn.
- 57:21Speaker 1: Well, I mean– Let's talk about that. Because when people
- 57:29go through hard things, one way to learn is like berating.
- 57:34But that's kind of like not as sustainable as forgiving
- 57:37yourself and deciding that you can figuring out how you
- 57:41can do better. I mean, is berating really the best?
- 57:44Speaker 2: I think you have to feel pain from mistakes.
- 57:47Speaker 1: But don't you already feel the pain?
- 57:48Speaker 2: No, you got to really feel it. Do you feel
- 57:51like the only way? I don't like making mistakes twice.
- 57:53And the best way to not make a mistake twice
- 57:55is have the first one suck so bad that you
- 57:58never want to go through that again.
- 57:59Speaker 1: For sure.
- 57:59Speaker 2: And if it doesn't really suck, make it suck in
- 58:01your head.
- 58:02Speaker 1: But does it already– I feel like it already sucks
- 58:05without a guy telling you that it sucks.
- 58:07Speaker 2: Well, it's not– I mean I'm kind of exaggerating. It's
- 58:10not just that. But it's like– it's not even like
- 58:13you're– it's not pejoratives. It's not insults. You're a fucking loser.
- 58:18It's like you fucked up. You did this. You were
- 58:22supposed to do that. You were supposed to get something done.
- 58:26You didn't get it done. You were supposed to do this,
- 58:28but you fucked it up. Like, don't fuck it up again.
- 58:31This is what you did wrong. Don't do that again.
- 58:33Speaker 1: I get it.
- 58:34Speaker 2: This is what you could have done right.
- 58:36Speaker 1: It's like your conscience.
- 58:37Speaker 2: It is like a conscience, but it's very strong. It's
- 58:40very loud.
- 58:42Speaker 1: Yeah.
- 58:42Speaker 2: Yeah. And I have to learn how to sometimes ignore
- 58:46it and just calm. Otherwise, I won't sleep.
- 58:48Speaker 4: Right.
- 58:48Speaker 1: It can be too harsh.
- 58:49Speaker 2: Yeah. But it doesn't like I don't hate myself or
- 58:52anything like that. It's not that. But it's just like honest.
- 58:57Speaker 1: Yeah.
- 58:57Speaker 2: It's just an honest assessment of everything that I've ever done.
- 59:01Speaker 1: Ever.
- 59:02Speaker 2: Yeah.
- 59:03Speaker 1: That's like instant karma.
- 59:05Speaker 2: Yeah. In a way. Yeah. But it works. It works.
- 59:09and I think it made me makes me a better
- 59:11person I'm better than I would have been if I
- 59:13didn't have that self-correcting mechanism.
- 59:16Speaker 1: There's this poem by this mystic and I forget her
- 59:18name but at the end of it she says at
- 59:23the end of the day I always bring to my
- 59:25mind all the people that I was kind to and
- 59:30then I can fall asleep. And so if you know,
- 59:32that's another way to do it, right? If you know
- 59:34that at the end of the day, you have to
- 59:36look in the face of all the people that you
- 59:39were kind to so you can fall asleep, then that
- 59:42kind of makes your day. Yeah.
- 59:45Speaker 2: No, definitely. And I think I always tell people that
- 59:48being kind and being generous is kind of selfish.
- 59:52Speaker 1: Yeah. Because you feel better. Yeah, you do.
- 59:55Speaker 2: You feel better about yourself. You feel better about life.
- 59:57You feel better about everything. It's actually a good thing
- 59:59to do to be kind and And generous. And that's
- 1:00:02like counter to like you shouldn't think that way. No,
- 1:00:04you should just be kind and generous. I agree. But
- 1:00:08also you benefit from it. And I think the more
- 1:00:11people understand that you benefit, the more people are likely
- 1:00:14to behave in that way and it would be better
- 1:00:16for everybody.
- 1:00:17Speaker 1: So back to the language thing. So this actually to
- 1:00:20me relates to the language thing. If you develop language,
- 1:00:25you are more aware of what you're thinking in a
- 1:00:28certain sense if you think linguistically. But you also, in
- 1:00:34a way, sort of dampen down, as you say, and
- 1:00:37I agree with you that there's a tradeoff there. You
- 1:00:40dampen down the sort of instant knowledge of how people
- 1:00:44around you are feeling, like that telepathy thing. So I
- 1:00:46keep looking at this skull, right? And so what we know,
- 1:00:50I don't think, but I don't think we've lost it.
- 1:00:52So you had this idea that we've lost that psychic stuff.
- 1:00:56I think it's absolutely there and I think it's neuroscientifically
- 1:01:00defensible that it's there. But that language actually suppresses it.
- 1:01:04Speaker 2: Yeah, atrophies it.
- 1:01:05Speaker 1: It doesn't atrophy it. It's like you can actually use– so, okay.
- 1:01:10So there's this cool result from this guy in Baycrest.
- 1:01:13His name is Morris Freeman. And he's a neurologist there
- 1:01:18up in Canada. And he noticed in his stroke patients
- 1:01:24that if they have lesions here– So their stroke kind
- 1:01:27of messed up this area here, left frontal orbital area
- 1:01:31of the brain in the cortex, that they seem to
- 1:01:36be more psychic. Like he didn't know how to explain it.
- 1:01:38So he did an actual experiment where he tried to
- 1:01:41get people to move with their minds an arrow on
- 1:01:45a computer screen. So there was no mouse. There was
- 1:01:48no way to move it. They just had to look
- 1:01:50at the arrow and say, move to the left or
- 1:01:52move to the right and wish it to happen. And
- 1:01:55using their intention, right? So the people who had the
- 1:01:59strokes there were able to do it statistically significantly. People
- 1:02:03who had the strokes over here were not able to
- 1:02:05do it.
- 1:02:06Speaker 2: So can I pause you here? What was actually moving
- 1:02:08the cursor?
- 1:02:09Speaker 1: So he had a random number generator hooked up to
- 1:02:11the drive. So the cursor was kind of like shaking.
- 1:02:14And the random number generator would make it deviate to
- 1:02:16the left or to the right. So the person was
- 1:02:19effectively changing the random number generator. How often? Enough so
- 1:02:23that it was statistically significantly.
- 1:02:24Speaker 2: What is statistically significant in terms of numbers?
- 1:02:26Speaker 1: So what you would do is, sure, you would have
- 1:02:28a control. So you have the try period where you
- 1:02:32say to the person, try to move it to the left,
- 1:02:34try to move it to the right. And then you
- 1:02:36have the control period where you say, you know, read
- 1:02:38a book like you're not trying. And you compare the amount,
- 1:02:41the distance and the amount of time it's spent in
- 1:02:42the intended direction to the reading a book time. And
- 1:02:46if it's, you can, you know, there's statistical tests you
- 1:02:49can use to determine whether it was spending time in
- 1:02:52the intended direction more often when it was intended.
- 1:02:55Speaker 2: But how much more often?
- 1:02:59Speaker 1: A number that's statistically significant. So I guess– so it's like.
- 1:03:03Speaker 2: Imagine– Like 5 percent, 10 percent?
- 1:03:05Speaker 1: Oh, I forget what the actual quantitative number is.
- 1:03:07Speaker 2: But that would be interesting to know.
- 1:03:09Speaker 1: It totally would. I just forget.
- 1:03:10Speaker 2: And whether or not it would change with different humans.
- 1:03:13Speaker 1: I agree. But then he replicated it. Instead of looking
- 1:03:17at stroke patients– He used transcranial magnetic stimulation, which turns
- 1:03:23down activity. So he put that over here. So he's
- 1:03:26putting that over the left area. And to turn that down.
- 1:03:31And again, these are not people who have had strokes,
- 1:03:33just regular people, you and I. They were able to
- 1:03:36do this with their minds. So it's just sitting there.
- 1:03:39His explanation is that the left orbital frontal area is
- 1:03:47We know that it inhibits the right frontal area and
- 1:03:50we know that the right orbital frontal inhibits the left.
- 1:03:53And his explanation is this stuff is going on in
- 1:03:56the right hemisphere or at least is dominated by that.
- 1:04:00And when you suppress it, you're not as psychic. And
- 1:04:03when you release the suppression, you are more psychic. And
- 1:04:06it's just right under the surface. It's right there. And
- 1:04:09so when I work with non-speaking autistic kids, it feels
- 1:04:15to me like– That's a pretty good explanation of what's
- 1:04:18going on. They're not activating this part as much. Not
- 1:04:23that I've proven this. This is a hypothesis. And I'm
- 1:04:27not the only one with a hypothesis. But they're not
- 1:04:29activating this part as much. We know that because this
- 1:04:31is where speech is over here, right? These areas in
- 1:04:35the left. And so therefore this area can be a
- 1:04:38little bit more free. So the psychic stuff is coming out. Huh.
- 1:04:43Speaker 2: Well, that's one of the weird things that they've demonstrated
- 1:04:45about certain psychedelics like psilocybin you would think that it
- 1:04:49just like turns on your mind and all the synapses
- 1:04:51are firing no dampens yeah yeah which is very weird
- 1:04:55yeah because it makes you think like what are we
- 1:04:57doing with the mind yeah the brain i should say
- 1:05:00not the.
- 1:05:00Speaker 1: Mind well and the brain is related to the mind
- 1:05:03yeah in ways we don't understand and then it's sometimes
- 1:05:05not related to the mind right like in the psilocybin
- 1:05:07results you're having all these experiences But the brain is dampened.
- 1:05:12What's going on? And there's the filter theory of consciousness says, well,
- 1:05:16consciousness is kind of like out there, almost like a
- 1:05:19radio signal. And your brain is kind of filtering it. Yes.
- 1:05:22So that then you have this simple like, oh, pick
- 1:05:25up the cup and say the words. And, you know,
- 1:05:27you can kind of live your life without realizing that
- 1:05:29person over there is having this experience and that's going on.
- 1:05:32And then in the future, this will happen. So it
- 1:05:35makes sense to me that it's like our conscious minds
- 1:05:38in order to just deal with daily life. Have to
- 1:05:41be kind of stupid.
- 1:05:44Speaker 2: And then– Because otherwise you'd be overwhelmed by all the
- 1:05:47data and possibilities. It's so much– You're in the universe.
- 1:05:51Speaker 1: It's so much data.
- 1:05:52Speaker 2: Multicellular creatures all around you and subatomic particles.
- 1:05:56Speaker 1: Well, yeah. And then– and that's– and when we're working
- 1:05:59with– I work with a whole team that works with
- 1:06:01non-speaking autistic kids like in telepathy tapes and when we're
- 1:06:04working with them, Like they get distracted by that stuff.
- 1:06:07Like they'll say, you know, I'm distracted. When I say say,
- 1:06:11I mean they're, you know, typing on a letter board
- 1:06:14or a keyboard. You know, there's spirits in the room or,
- 1:06:17you know, I'm thinking about what you did earlier today
- 1:06:20that I didn't know about but I do know about
- 1:06:22because I'm telepathic. And so it's like a lot of
- 1:06:25information that makes it pretty hard to be in the
- 1:06:27here and now.
- 1:06:28Speaker 2: Have any of those nonverbal autistic kids ever wrote something
- 1:06:32down where they couldn't possibly have known it?
- 1:06:36Speaker 1: Yeah.
- 1:06:36Speaker 2: Like what?
- 1:06:37Speaker 1: Oh, I can give you many examples. In fact, do
- 1:06:40you want to, I have a video of that.
- 1:06:42Speaker 2: Oh, sure. Okay.
- 1:06:43Speaker 1: I have to walk you through the video.
- 1:06:44Speaker 2: Okay.
- 1:06:45Speaker 1: Yeah. Do you have that over there?
- 1:06:46Speaker 2: I don't know.
- 1:06:48Speaker 1: I gave you like 18 things. Oh, give me a second.
- 1:06:52Speaker 2: Sorry. Okay.
- 1:06:54Speaker 1: So let me explain the context. Okay. So I met
- 1:07:00my research team partially through people I had already worked
- 1:07:04with and partially folks who Kai Dickens, creator of the
- 1:07:08telepathy tapes, introduced me to.
- 1:07:09Speaker 2: I had her on.
- 1:07:10Speaker 1: Yeah, I know. It was a great show. Very interesting.
- 1:07:12And so I wanted to ask that question. Can we
- 1:07:16use rigorous methods to have folks write down non-speakers or spellers,
- 1:07:22whatever we want to call them? I think non-speakers or
- 1:07:24spellers are preferred. Non-verbal kind of implies that they don't
- 1:07:28have language at all. But the reality is they may speak,
- 1:07:32but they don't speak to communicate. They use letter boards.
- 1:07:35Speaker 2: Got it.
- 1:07:36Speaker 1: Or keyboards. I wanted to understand, like, they're doing all
- 1:07:40these tests where they're repeating numbers and letters. And that's interesting.
- 1:07:46But it doesn't really, to me, I mean, the whole
- 1:07:50world of testing people for psychic abilities, it's not very interesting.
- 1:07:55And if we presume that these students are actually pretty smart,
- 1:07:59it's got to be boring for them. And so I thought, well,
- 1:08:02let's give them an opportunity to really show their stuff.
- 1:08:06And so I set up this whole rigorous trial set
- 1:08:10and even the non-speakers came on board and actually told
- 1:08:14us what they would like to see the stimuli be.
- 1:08:16We want videos, we want music, we want words in
- 1:08:18the videos that are sung. I mean, they just told
- 1:08:20us all these things that they wanted. And by, by again,
- 1:08:23using the letter boards and we said, okay, we can
- 1:08:25do all that. But the catch is the person who's
- 1:08:30sending the, The information is going to be in another room,
- 1:08:33maybe like 30 yards away with a closed door. And
- 1:08:37you can work with your communication partner, but she is
- 1:08:40not going to know what the target is. And she's
- 1:08:41going to have no idea what the target could be
- 1:08:43because she's never going to see any of the target
- 1:08:46videos that we'll use. And so we were preparing for
- 1:08:50this and we were getting our software ready. We were
- 1:08:54preparing for the formal trials that would be filmed for
- 1:08:57the documentary. And so we were doing that on Zoom.
- 1:09:01We weren't yet in person. But the non-speaker that I'm
- 1:09:04about to tell you about was with his communication partner,
- 1:09:07Maria Welch, who's a speech and language pathologist. And he
- 1:09:13was getting ready to do the trial. We were explaining
- 1:09:16it to him. And I was in Virginia. Maria and
- 1:09:20the student were in, um, in Illinois. And then Jeff Tarrant, uh,
- 1:09:26another co-investigator, another neuroscientist was in Oregon. And so the
- 1:09:33person who was going to send the video, in other words,
- 1:09:36just intend to send the video, like in a telepathy
- 1:09:39experiment was going to be Jeff. Uh, the non-speaker chose Jeff.
- 1:09:43And then, um, We did it. We turned off our cameras.
- 1:09:48We were on Zoom. We turned off our cameras. We
- 1:09:49turned off our microphones. Jeff sent the video. Maria and
- 1:09:54the student started, I don't know, intending to receive it.
- 1:09:58And then the student said he was ready. He spelled
- 1:10:00that he was ready. And then Maria asked the question
- 1:10:04that I thought I had put in the Zoom chat
- 1:10:07for her because we didn't have our software set up.
- 1:10:09So I had to send her a question in the
- 1:10:10Zoom chat. And the way we traditionally did it at
- 1:10:13that time was I asked– multiple choice. Is it a this, this, this,
- 1:10:19or this? But the thing is, by mistake, I sent
- 1:10:22that to Jeff because I had a private chat with
- 1:10:24him going. So I didn't realize that she didn't have
- 1:10:27the questions. Meanwhile, the student starts to spell on the letterboard.
- 1:10:32He says, I'm ready. He says, it's a beautiful sky.
- 1:10:37And she had not seen the questions. It was a
- 1:10:42beautiful sky. Of all the videos in the world that
- 1:10:44he picked to describe that way, It was a video
- 1:10:47of the tops of trees and then above them like
- 1:10:51northern lights that had been colored like by an artist
- 1:10:54to look even more cool. And then there's like a
- 1:10:57time lapse. And he said it's art of a beautiful sky.
- 1:11:02And that was a really great description. And statistically, there's
- 1:11:07almost no way to calculate how statistically likely that is
- 1:11:09because it could have been any video in the world.
- 1:11:11And we didn't even give him the multiple choice. Whoa. Yeah. Yeah.
- 1:11:15So actually, that's not the video I'm going to show you.
- 1:11:17I just realized that I wanted to answer the question
- 1:11:19more directly. The video I want to show you, if
- 1:11:22you can find it, is one of what we call
- 1:11:24a telepathy train, where the students, and this happened more
- 1:11:28than once when we were physically in town, in Chicago
- 1:11:33as a team, where one student comes in and says something, leaves,
- 1:11:38and the next student comes in with their mom, and
- 1:11:41they check in. You know, Maria always asks them, would
- 1:11:44you like to check in? And then they refer to
- 1:11:46the thing the last student was talking about. And it
- 1:11:51happened in a really compelling way in this video because
- 1:11:55there was also a discussion that the first student who
- 1:11:58comes in, which I believe I'm calling participant four just
- 1:12:01for anonymity. So participant four comes in and says he
- 1:12:04wants to go on a double date with participant five
- 1:12:07and his girlfriend. And then he says, tell his mom.
- 1:12:12And then when participant five comes in, He says, tell
- 1:12:17my mom I want to go on a double date
- 1:12:18with participant four and his girlfriend. So they clearly had
- 1:12:23already discussed this telepathically because they're non-speakers. They're not talking
- 1:12:27to each other. Their parents haven't talked to each other
- 1:12:29about this. The parents don't know each other. And so
- 1:12:35that happened. And then they also passed on this. I mean,
- 1:12:39so this stuff kept happening. They also passed on this
- 1:12:42idea of slamming a beach ball on the ground in
- 1:12:45order to identify each of the videos because they wanted
- 1:12:50to get the telepathy signals right, but they were missing
- 1:12:54them on the formal trials. So they discussed between themselves
- 1:12:57apparently telepathically, if you slam a beach ball on the
- 1:13:00ground before we do the trial, then we'll focus on
- 1:13:04it in time and we'll go to the right timeline
- 1:13:06to talk about this is what they write down to
- 1:13:10get to the video in our minds. And so that's
- 1:13:13the video that I wanted to show you if it's here.
- 1:13:16Because I don't include the double date stuff in it
- 1:13:18because it's too private and they say too many names
- 1:13:20of other students.
- 1:13:22Speaker 3: Here's a link, but there's no link that I can find.
- 1:13:26Speaker 1: Oh, you know what? If you go back to what
- 1:13:29you just saw and then say, I worked with my
- 1:13:32team to get out this response right away. It includes
- 1:13:35a link to this video as well. Yeah. So that's the...
- 1:13:41On the inalienable right. Then if you go down.
- 1:13:44Speaker 2: I didn't see a video.
- 1:13:47Speaker 1: Go up. Go down. You're going too fast here.
- 1:13:50Speaker 2: Sorry, I'm just going to the top and then.
- 1:13:52Speaker 1: Yeah, so that's my mom and my other mom. All right,
- 1:13:55scroll all the way down. You got it. Keep going.
- 1:14:02This is all about the science stuff. Okay, now stop
- 1:14:04right there. Slow down. And then now go a little
- 1:14:08bit more down. okay go up.
- 1:14:13Speaker 2: Yeah video the debrief you got it all right this
- 1:14:20is it yeah okay.
- 1:14:25Speaker 1: And that's jeff and me on the right and that's
- 1:14:27maria maybe someone else has questions to ask i.
- 1:14:30Speaker 3: Was wondering if that was the best way to present
- 1:14:34the video so that the timing doesn't become a factor.
- 1:14:38Like maybe he saw a video at a different time,
- 1:14:41but how could we make this one stand out so
- 1:14:43you know that's the one we're talking about?
- 1:14:45Speaker 1: Yeah, great. That's kind of what I was going to ask.
- 1:14:49And that's Natalia on the very left.
- 1:15:03Speaker 2: And so he's typing something into a keyboard right now?
- 1:15:06Speaker 1: He's typing into the keyboard. It's got electronic voice. And
- 1:15:13the electronic voice is hard to hear, so she'll repeat it,
- 1:15:16and then I also have a little slide that shows
- 1:15:17what he said.
- 1:15:19Speaker 2: What did the voice say?
- 1:15:20Speaker 1: Slam. Slam. Slam.
- 1:15:23Speaker 2: Slam. Slam a ball?
- 1:15:41Speaker 1: This is where he's giving us this idea to slam
- 1:15:45a ball on the ground to get him to the
- 1:15:47right timeline in telepathy trials. It was his idea. It
- 1:15:50never occurred to us. Before that. That's before. I picked
- 1:15:55up the F. I don't know why. Before that. Right.
- 1:16:05By the way, Maria has a big crush on you.
- 1:16:10She knows you're married, but she told me not to
- 1:16:12tell you. Thanks.
- 1:16:15Speaker 2: Tara said thanks. Video.
- 1:16:24Speaker 4: Okay.
- 1:16:25Speaker 1: Which person would be helpful to do that for the video?
- 1:16:34Speaker 2: Okay, so this is the transcript of it. Slam a
- 1:16:37ball before sending. That's what he's saying. Natalia says, who
- 1:16:41should do that before the video is sent? He says sender.
- 1:16:45What kind of ball? Slam a beach ball. Why would
- 1:16:49that draw your attention to this timeline? He says, because
- 1:16:53I could see and hear it when looking in the future.
- 1:16:57Does it matter how many times she slams it? He
- 1:16:58says before each video once.
- 1:17:01Speaker 1: Yeah.
- 1:17:01Speaker 2: So the slamming of the ball allowed him to look
- 1:17:05into the future is what he was saying?
- 1:17:06Speaker 1: He was hoping that would work because he had just
- 1:17:08failed a telepathy trial and he said, I was on
- 1:17:11a different timeline. And we said, so how can we
- 1:17:13get you on this timeline? And he said, he made
- 1:17:17up this idea of slamming a beach ball. And what
- 1:17:20we found fascinating about it was, you know, that's an
- 1:17:23original idea that none of us thought about. But then
- 1:17:26we also found it fascinating because of what you'll see next,
- 1:17:29which is the next person who comes in who, of course,
- 1:17:32hadn't heard any of this. This is another participant, Participant 5, and.
- 1:17:37Speaker 2: Natalia's... Participant 4 arrives after Participant 5 leaves. He has
- 1:17:43to go on a double date with Participant 5 and
- 1:17:45his girlfriend, something Participant 5 asked about Participant 4 already.
- 1:17:50He also brings up something Participant 5 mentioned about how
- 1:17:53to make the telepathy work better. Mm-hmm. What is that voice?
- 1:18:10Speaker 1: That's him. He's able to type and do this sort
- 1:18:16of sing-song talking at the same time. Did you see
- 1:18:21how Natalia just does that little shrug?
- 1:18:25Speaker 2: It would be good to try the beach ball slam.
- 1:18:26So now he didn't hear that other conversation at all.
- 1:18:29He wasn't in the room. Where was he?
- 1:18:32Speaker 1: So he was at home with his mom. So he
- 1:18:33came in after we had a 20-minute break between the participants.
- 1:18:36Speaker 2: So he wasn't anywhere near the building. There's no way
- 1:18:40he could have known.
- 1:18:40Speaker 1: That's why Natalia gave that shrug. Like, see, she and
- 1:18:44Maria see this all the time where students will all
- 1:18:47be talking about the same thing. Yeah.
- 1:18:50Speaker 2: Just comes in and says the beach ball slam would
- 1:18:52be a good idea.
- 1:18:53Speaker 1: Yeah.
- 1:18:53Speaker 2: So he somehow or another.
- 1:18:54Speaker 1: It's as if he was in that conversation.
- 1:18:56Speaker 2: Whoa. Yeah.
- 1:18:57Speaker 1: And this is, it is like they are all in
- 1:19:02the same conversation. And it is so, it's hard to
- 1:19:08think about what it would be like But it's becoming
- 1:19:10more and more clear to me that it would be
- 1:19:12very difficult to just be in this conversation where the
- 1:19:16words are coming out of our mouths, if you also
- 1:19:19are just having all these conversations with other people. I mean,
- 1:19:22it's like an incredible focus. And so the work that
- 1:19:24he has to do to type, and then he's also
- 1:19:27using his sing-song voice, and he's clearly having some kind
- 1:19:31of conversation. In his head, it's incredible focus that they're
- 1:19:35actually having to do. And many of them have dyspraxia.
- 1:19:38So their bodies– it's hard for them to control their bodies,
- 1:19:42which is part of the speech issue. And so I
- 1:19:46just think they're all gifted. I mean at this point. Right.
- 1:19:49Speaker 2: But there's that thing that they kept talking about in
- 1:19:51the telepathy tapes where they all meet.
- 1:19:54Speaker 1: On the hill.
- 1:19:54Speaker 2: Psychically on the hill. Yeah.
- 1:19:56Speaker 1: Yeah.
- 1:19:57Speaker 2: And they all talk about it independently? Like it's not
- 1:20:00something that has been taught to them? Like, do you
- 1:20:02meet on the Hill? Oh, yeah, I do. No, they've
- 1:20:05talked about it independently, which is very weird. Right. And
- 1:20:08one way– Odd concept.
- 1:20:09Speaker 1: Well, I turn on my scientist hat when I think
- 1:20:13about that and I think, okay, well, they could have
- 1:20:15heard it on the telepathy tapes and then they started
- 1:20:17talking about it. But that's not how it seemed to
- 1:20:20have worked. But I have my own experience of that
- 1:20:24particular student. I forget whether I called him participant four
- 1:20:26or participant five at the end. He and I became,
- 1:20:29I had a good understanding of his mind and we
- 1:20:32had some good conversations. And I had a dream one
- 1:20:36night where he came to me and all he did
- 1:20:40was show me this like, it was like a sun
- 1:20:44where you could see the sunspots. And it was just
- 1:20:47slowly turning. And it was beautiful. And he just gave
- 1:20:50it to me. And then the next day I was
- 1:20:52working with him over Zoom. And so I asked Maria,
- 1:20:55I said, can I ask him a question? You know,
- 1:20:57and she said, sure. And I said, you know, last
- 1:20:59night you gave me something. You gave me a shape.
- 1:21:04What was the shape? Because I hadn't told Maria about
- 1:21:07the dream or anyone else. It was just my dream
- 1:21:08that I wrote in my journal. And I was thinking
- 1:21:12he would say ball or sphere, and that would either
- 1:21:14be a good guess or it would be telepathy. But
- 1:21:17he goes, I still can't get over this. I sent
- 1:21:24you a pre-revolutionary orb with four stars on it slowly rotating.
- 1:21:34Speaker 2: What is a pre-revolutionary orb?
- 1:21:35Speaker 1: I don't fucking know. I don't know.
- 1:21:37Speaker 2: With four stars on it?
- 1:21:40Speaker 1: With four stars on it slowly rotating.
- 1:21:42Speaker 2: But that's not exactly what you saw in the dream.
- 1:21:44Speaker 1: Well, there were these sunspots. So see, there's a poetic
- 1:21:50license that they have. I would say that's 80% correct.
- 1:21:57So it was slowly rotating. And there were these sunspots
- 1:22:00that I was calling sunspots. He was calling stars. And
- 1:22:04it was definitely an orb. What does pre-revolutionary mean? I
- 1:22:07don't know. They talk about, and I talk about in
- 1:22:10my book, The Love Revolution, this idea that we're moving
- 1:22:13towards a time when we can actually use love in
- 1:22:16our lives to communicate and to connect people. But maybe
- 1:22:21that's what he means. So that's one instance. So I
- 1:22:25sort of go, okay, that was interesting. And it kind
- 1:22:28of blew my mind that he used that language. He's
- 1:22:30just gifted at interesting language. And then... This other non-speaker
- 1:22:36who worked with Natalia, who was the young woman you
- 1:22:38saw on the left who also works with a lot
- 1:22:40of spellers, just decided to start reading my mind like
- 1:22:46we did. He started, I asked Natalia, I said, can
- 1:22:49we just do an experiment where I'll be doing something
- 1:22:52and I'll know what I'm doing at that time. And
- 1:22:55you just ask one of your students to read my
- 1:22:57mind and then no one else will know what I'm
- 1:22:59doing and she won't know what I'm doing. And so
- 1:23:01what I was doing was doing this remote viewing for
- 1:23:04a friend. And so I knew exactly what I was
- 1:23:07doing during that time and what I was thinking. But
- 1:23:09what I was thinking about was, remember that comet, 3I Atlas?
- 1:23:15So I was thinking, I was kind of obsessively thinking
- 1:23:17about 3I Atlas. Like, what is it? What's the deal?
- 1:23:19It was during that exact time in December last year.
- 1:23:23And he comes back with some stuff I don't understand.
- 1:23:29Like poetic license. I call it poetic license or just
- 1:23:31it's wrong. That I don't understand where it came from.
- 1:23:33And then he says, oh, and three-eye atlas. And he
- 1:23:38talks about this owl that I saw in a video
- 1:23:40when I was doing the remote viewing. And I was like,
- 1:23:45so Natalia didn't even know what three-eye atlas was. She
- 1:23:47had to look it up. And the parent didn't know
- 1:23:49what three-eye atlas was. And he spelled it three-e-y-e atlas.
- 1:23:54Speaker 2: Right?
- 1:23:54Speaker 1: Wow. So it was phonetic.
- 1:23:57Speaker 2: Yeah.
- 1:23:57Speaker 1: Yeah. And then later, a couple weeks ago, I get
- 1:24:00a text from Natalia that the same student, who apparently
- 1:24:03has now felt perfectly fine reading my mind, tapped into
- 1:24:08my mind when I was thinking about a medication that
- 1:24:10my stepmom was taking. And he used her name, which
- 1:24:13Natalia didn't know, and told me that she would be
- 1:24:16okay on the medication, that it would help her. And
- 1:24:19then told Natalia to text me, and so she did.
- 1:24:21Speaker 2: The three-eye atlas in... Writing it as E-Y-E is very strange.
- 1:24:27That's hard. Because that's not how it's written anywhere. Yeah. Right?
- 1:24:32So the fact that he wrote it I-E-Y-E means he
- 1:24:35was hearing you.
- 1:24:36Speaker 1: It's how you would hear it.
- 1:24:38Speaker 2: What the hell? Yeah. How weird.
- 1:24:40Speaker 1: So there's no way I can explain. Also, he came
- 1:24:43up with my son's name, which Natalia didn't know. So
- 1:24:46that could have been from her. But still, he read
- 1:24:48her mind.
- 1:24:48Speaker 2: Did you ask him more about this pre-revolutionary orb with
- 1:24:52four stars? Why did you give me that? What does
- 1:24:55that mean?
- 1:24:56Speaker 1: I wish I did. one thing I know with this
- 1:24:58particular participant is that he's so gifted and his family
- 1:25:03asks him a lot like about, um, to do mediumship stuff.
- 1:25:07Like what does grandpa think about this or whatever?
- 1:25:10Speaker 2: And in fact, grandpa's dead.
- 1:25:12Speaker 1: Yeah. Yeah. And to him, there's not a lot of difference.
- 1:25:15And so, and so, yeah. And, and they also like the,
- 1:25:20the grandmother, um, had a, had a lung transplant and
- 1:25:23they asked who the donor was. And he, I, identified
- 1:25:27a probable donor who lived in the area who had
- 1:25:29died that day. And they, they won't know for a
- 1:25:32year if it was the actual donor because it takes
- 1:25:34time to learn who the donor is, but they're pretty
- 1:25:36sure that it probably is. But so.
- 1:25:40Speaker 2: Boy, if they, if it turns out that he's right
- 1:25:42and you can't find out for another year.
- 1:25:45Speaker 1: Yeah.
- 1:25:45Speaker 2: But they won't release the information.
- 1:25:46Speaker 1: Well, you know, yeah, my husband had a double lung transplant.
- 1:25:48It just takes a while. Everyone has to agree that
- 1:25:51they want to release the information. But, um, In any case,
- 1:25:55he's just really good at this. Like, he's very skilled.
- 1:25:59And I didn't want him to feel like he was
- 1:26:01a show pony. And I wanted to get on with
- 1:26:03his lesson. And so I didn't want to ask other questions.
- 1:26:06I feel like, you know, he'll probably just show up
- 1:26:08in my dream and tell me at some point.
- 1:26:10Speaker 2: Yeah, but do you think that he even would think
- 1:26:13of himself as a show pony? Like, wouldn't it just
- 1:26:16be communication?
- 1:26:17Speaker 1: He doesn't. But I didn't—also, I wanted— like— I feel like.
- 1:26:22Speaker 2: I would want to know. Why did you give me
- 1:26:23a son?
- 1:26:23Speaker 1: Of course I wanted to know. But also I was–
- 1:26:25What's pre-revolutionary? What do you mean? I agree. I mean
- 1:26:28he's the kid who– I mean there are some– we
- 1:26:31worked with six kids. They're all gifted and amazing. But
- 1:26:34he's one that showed up in telepathy tapes as– I
- 1:26:38don't know if you remember this story. It's so wonderful.
- 1:26:42His teacher– so Maria, what she does is like they'll
- 1:26:45read a paragraph about a topic. And then he'll ask,
- 1:26:48you know, the students like, okay, let's, you know, talk
- 1:26:51about the topic just like in school. But he has
- 1:26:53to spell out his answers. And so I think the
- 1:26:55topic was like Gothic art. And so, excuse me, I'm
- 1:27:00going to have a drink of water. So the topic
- 1:27:05of the paragraph was Gothic art. And she says, so,
- 1:27:09you know, what was the purpose of Gothic art? And
- 1:27:12he said, oh, it aphorizes the masses. And she says,
- 1:27:17I don't think that's a word. And then she thinks, well,
- 1:27:20I better look it up because he says it's a word.
- 1:27:23And so she looked it up and it was only
- 1:27:25a word that was used in the 1600s.
- 1:27:27Speaker 2: Oh, my God.
- 1:27:34Speaker 1: And it means like it appeases them. That's crazy. So
- 1:27:37he wrote out it means it calmed them down. And
- 1:27:41she said, well, how do you know about the word?
- 1:27:43It was only used in the 1600s.
- 1:27:43Speaker 2: He said.
- 1:27:45Speaker 1: Or the 1400s or something. And he writes out, oh,
- 1:27:48I was talking with a magistrate from that time period. So, like,
- 1:27:57what do you do with that?
- 1:27:59Speaker 2: What do you do with that?
- 1:28:01Speaker 1: Except for maybe state that there's something going on we
- 1:28:06don't understand and it deserves more study and these students
- 1:28:09shouldn't be dismissed.
- 1:28:11Speaker 2: Now, is he... I don't know if you even asked this,
- 1:28:15but is he communicating with people in a different timeline
- 1:28:20or is he communicating with disembodied souls that no longer
- 1:28:25live in that timeline but still contain consciousness?
- 1:28:29Speaker 1: So my experience of him and several other people who
- 1:28:33are non-speakers is that there's really not a lot of
- 1:28:36distinct– like it's hard for them to know if someone
- 1:28:38is alive or dead. because they're not spending too much
- 1:28:41time in the physical– they're not spending too much time.
- 1:28:45We spend all this time in the physical and that's
- 1:28:47what seems to be real and important to us. But
- 1:28:50to them, it's like when I brought up that someone
- 1:28:53he mentioned, he said, oh, I was just talking to
- 1:28:55the JP who was another non-speaker. And I said, oh,
- 1:28:59were you sad when J.P.
- 1:29:00Speaker 2: Died?
- 1:29:01Speaker 1: And he said, oh, I didn't know he was dead.
- 1:29:04Because– Because you.
- 1:29:05Speaker 2: Were just talking to him. Because you were just talking
- 1:29:07to him.
- 1:29:08Speaker 1: And it does seem to be on this timeline because
- 1:29:12there's information that they say– well, again, this is their experience.
- 1:29:16But their experience is that they get contemporary information. Like J.P.
- 1:29:21saw his mother do this and he's happy that she's
- 1:29:24doing that and that happened two years after he died.
- 1:29:27Speaker 2: So– So JP was relaying information about his mom two
- 1:29:34years after he died.
- 1:29:38Speaker 1: He gets around.
- 1:29:43Speaker 2: God, it's so weird.
- 1:29:45Speaker 1: And that was the student's– it's so hard not to
- 1:29:48say his name. But that was the student's story about it.
- 1:29:51But like as we know from people who study mediumship
- 1:29:55like the Windbridge Institute or the Windbridge Research Center and
- 1:29:57places like that, that study mediumship. There's this big argument
- 1:30:01about their experiences. They're talking to dead people. Are they
- 1:30:04actually just tapping into some kind of informational substrate that
- 1:30:07underlies everything? Or are those the same thing? Right. Yeah.
- 1:30:12Speaker 2: Right. So we're trying to differentiate so we could exist
- 1:30:15in this consciousness, in this form, in this reality. And
- 1:30:19we think that this is it. This is it. It's
- 1:30:21locked down. This is the box. And it's not.
- 1:30:27Speaker 1: Apparently, it looks like it's not.
- 1:30:30Speaker 2: It seems like it's not to them. So then the
- 1:30:32question is, what is it about being non-speaking that allows
- 1:30:38them to have access to this?
- 1:30:40Speaker 1: Yeah.
- 1:30:41Speaker 2: Is it, you know, is it like one of those
- 1:30:44things where, you know, people that can't see, apparently they
- 1:30:47can hear much better? Yeah. You hear about that?
- 1:30:50Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, sure, sure. You know, there was this cool
- 1:30:54article recently came out in the New York Times about
- 1:30:57these singing mice. So Cold Spring Harbor researchers are studying
- 1:31:03these mice that sing at a frequency that we can hear,
- 1:31:05humans can hear. All mice vocalize at ultrasonic frequencies when
- 1:31:11they're close to each other. But when they're far away
- 1:31:13from each other, these singing mice will do this singing.
- 1:31:17And I guess they call it singing because it sounds
- 1:31:18like singing to us. It's really communication, of course. But
- 1:31:22they wait. They take turns singing. You know, I'll sing
- 1:31:26and then you sing. I'll sing and then you sing.
- 1:31:28Just like you would in a conversation. And they looked
- 1:31:31at what the difference was between regular laboratory mice who
- 1:31:34don't do this and these singing mice. Because they were
- 1:31:36thinking these ones have speech and these ones just do
- 1:31:38this other thing. And there was very little difference. They
- 1:31:42saw like some more fibers. But that's it.
- 1:31:45Speaker 2: So when you say singing mice, what do they do? Like,
- 1:31:49play this.
- 1:31:49Speaker 1: Here we go.
- 1:31:55Speaker 2: I don't hear anything. Do you hear it?
- 1:32:01Speaker 1: Yeah, you want to hear that chirping?
- 1:32:02Speaker 2: You want to hear that chirping? Watch with the audio
- 1:32:05wave here.
- 1:32:06Speaker 1: It'll pop up here. Look at the spectrogram on the phone.
- 1:32:09Speaker 2: It's like it starts right after the four-second mark.
- 1:32:13Speaker 1: That.
- 1:32:16Speaker 2: God, I barely hear that. I'm going to turn my
- 1:32:18thing up. I'll try it again. Oh, my thing's really low. Oh, yeah,
- 1:32:22I hear it. Okay. That's a, okay. My, my volume
- 1:32:28is really low. So that's singing mice. They just make
- 1:32:30a little chirp chirp.
- 1:32:32Speaker 1: Yeah. And so the reason I'm bringing that up is
- 1:32:34because if we can understand what gives mice the capacity
- 1:32:38to have this kind of communication and other, other mice,
- 1:32:41the capacity that they don't have it, maybe we can
- 1:32:43understand non-speaking autism versus, you know, sort of speaking autism
- 1:32:47or people who can are neurotypical, but it turns out
- 1:32:52that the difference just as in degree, in other words,
- 1:32:55Just a few more fiber tracks. And so that's why
- 1:33:00I keep saying I don't think it's about something that's atrophied.
- 1:33:03It's like a slight difference allows us to speak. Most
- 1:33:06people have that ability to speak. People who don't are,
- 1:33:09I think, very much like that. You get to be
- 1:33:13in contact with this information that is generally sorted out
- 1:33:17if you're using language more actively. Like, I almost think
- 1:33:22that babies... Are probably telepathic. I'm wondering if that's how
- 1:33:27we learn language. I keep thinking like we have so
- 1:33:30few exposures compared to an LLM. We have very few
- 1:33:33exposures of like, you know, death whistle. Like how many
- 1:33:36times do you hear that before you have to learn it?
- 1:33:38If you're a baby, I have to like know that
- 1:33:42when you say apple, you're talking about the thing in
- 1:33:44your hand and not the 8,000 other things that are
- 1:33:46going on. Right. And I don't hear it that many
- 1:33:48times before I get that that's what an apple is.
- 1:33:50Speaker 2: Can you imagine if you could just go back and
- 1:33:52be a baby again before you learned language just to
- 1:33:57exist and understand what thinking is like?
- 1:34:00Speaker 1: Well, I think– and then you wouldn't be able to
- 1:34:02understand it because everything would be like William James said,
- 1:34:04like blooming, buzzing confusion. Right.
- 1:34:06Speaker 2: But it would probably be– if you could just– I
- 1:34:09mean if you could access that memory to a time
- 1:34:12where you didn't understand language, but could you even do that?
- 1:34:16Speaker 1: I don't know.
- 1:34:16Speaker 2: The thing is like the problem is you already understand language.
- 1:34:19So how would you even be able to access it?
- 1:34:21Speaker 1: It's like those movie fantasies where you go back in
- 1:34:23time and you have all the wisdom you have now,
- 1:34:24but you get to experience being a kid again. Like
- 1:34:27that's the fantasy. That would be amazing.
- 1:34:29Speaker 2: That's a coward's dream.
- 1:34:32Speaker 1: But isn't it nice sometimes to be a coward?
- 1:34:35Speaker 2: No, that's a coward's dream because it's like no one
- 1:34:37wants to make the mistakes that they made in high school. Boy,
- 1:34:39if I could go back now, I'd be the king
- 1:34:41of the school. Yeah. You'd be a cheater. You'd be
- 1:34:45playing video games on God mode.
- 1:34:46Speaker 1: I mean that's how I made it through trauma as
- 1:34:50a kid. That's how I made it through abuse. I
- 1:34:52mean like that time travel therapy is a thing.
- 1:34:56Speaker 2: So going back and like reliving your life as an
- 1:34:59adult who knows better and has information.
- 1:35:01Speaker 1: It really helps people.
- 1:35:03Speaker 2: Interesting.
- 1:35:03Speaker 1: Because you can love yourself from the future.
- 1:35:06Speaker 2: I think you're talking about a different thing, right? You're
- 1:35:08talking about abuse and getting over abuse. What I'm talking
- 1:35:11about is just general sucking at life. Boy, if I
- 1:35:15could go back and do it again, I'd be so
- 1:35:17much better.
- 1:35:17Speaker 1: Oh, I understand. That's different. Now, this isn't going back
- 1:35:20and doing it again. This is almost like the opposite.
- 1:35:22This is like you're still there back experiencing it, making
- 1:35:26the bad choice or abuse or whatever it is. But
- 1:35:28then your wiser self who's survived and who gets that
- 1:35:32it was a bad choice or who gets that it
- 1:35:33was abusive, you go back in time mentally and you
- 1:35:36see yourself. So you're still there doing it, but you're
- 1:35:39like a second character is introduced in the timeline. You
- 1:35:43see yourself and you go, you know what? You're going
- 1:35:45to learn from this. Things are going to get better.
- 1:35:48You are loved. It's going to be okay. And that
- 1:35:51works regardless of whether it's a bad choice or whether
- 1:35:54it's abuse. It's like you're doing the best you can
- 1:35:59no matter what.
- 1:35:59Speaker 2: Right. That seems to make sense. Like you're a human
- 1:36:05being that understands language back then. If you go back
- 1:36:08to being a baby.
- 1:36:09Speaker 1: Oh, yeah.
- 1:36:10Speaker 2: Then you don't know language, but then people would be talking.
- 1:36:13So what would you hear?
- 1:36:14Speaker 1: I think you'd feel things telepathically.
- 1:36:18Speaker 2: You would probably feel their intention or feel where they're
- 1:36:20coming from.
- 1:36:21Speaker 1: You'd feel their vibes. It's like, you know, like, you
- 1:36:23know how babies and even dogs will like, someone will
- 1:36:26give off vibes and they'll just be like, nope. Yeah.
- 1:36:28You know?
- 1:36:28Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, yeah.
- 1:36:30Speaker 1: I think it's like that.
- 1:36:31Speaker 2: Yeah, dogs are really good at that. Some dogs, not
- 1:36:33my dog. I have a golden retriever. Everybody's the best.
- 1:36:36Speaker 1: Oh, everyone's awesome.
- 1:36:37Speaker 2: He thinks everybody's amazing.
- 1:36:38Speaker 1: Oh, no wonder you can have like a general in
- 1:36:40your brain. You have a golden retriever who will love
- 1:36:41you forever.
- 1:36:42Speaker 2: Oh, he's the best. Everybody's his best friend. Like if
- 1:36:45he was in the room, he would just go from you,
- 1:36:48get pet by you, go over to Jamie, get pet
- 1:36:50by Jamie, come over to me. He would just make
- 1:36:52the rounds.
- 1:36:52Speaker 1: You should bring him.
- 1:36:54Speaker 2: I do sometimes. He's on the floor. He's the carpet. Oh.
- 1:36:57See right there? That's Marshall.
- 1:36:59Speaker 1: Oh, he's wonderful. Golden Retrievers are the best emotional support animals.
- 1:37:03Speaker 2: Oh, they're so sweet.
- 1:37:04Speaker 1: They just love people.
- 1:37:05Speaker 2: Yeah, they love everybody. I have a little dog, too,
- 1:37:08a little King Charles Cavalier Spaniel.
- 1:37:11Speaker 1: Yeah.
- 1:37:11Speaker 2: And all he does is, like, attack Marshall, like, bite
- 1:37:15his face. And Marshall's so tolerant. He just lays there.
- 1:37:18This dog's licking his ear, licking his eyeballs, licking his face,
- 1:37:21and just kissing him and biting him. And he just
- 1:37:25never gets upset, never growls, never says, get off me,
- 1:37:28just deals with it.
- 1:37:30Speaker 1: I love that.
- 1:37:31Speaker 2: He's the sweetest.
- 1:37:32Speaker 1: Yeah. I want a dog.
- 1:37:33Speaker 2: They're the best.
- 1:37:34Speaker 1: I know.
- 1:37:34Speaker 2: I love them. I had a weird dream about my
- 1:37:37little dog. My little dog was so little that I
- 1:37:39could hold him in my hand. He's not that little.
- 1:37:42He's pretty little. He's like that big. But he was
- 1:37:44so little that I could hold him in my hand
- 1:37:46and he was running into traffic. And so I had
- 1:37:47to run into traffic and risk dying to grab this
- 1:37:51dog and pick him up and hold on to him
- 1:37:54and somehow not get hit by a car.
- 1:37:56Speaker 1: Oh, wow.
- 1:37:57Speaker 2: It was a very strange dream.
- 1:37:58Speaker 1: Was this recent? Yeah.
- 1:38:00Speaker 2: But he didn't even look like him. He looked like
- 1:38:02a chihuahua. But I knew it was Charlie.
- 1:38:05Speaker 1: Isn't that funny how in dreams you just know it's someone,
- 1:38:08even it could be someone else?
- 1:38:09Speaker 2: Yeah, I knew it was Charlie, but it didn't look
- 1:38:10like Charlie because he was so tiny. He was like
- 1:38:12a mouse. Like literally I was holding him in my
- 1:38:14hand like a little baby mouse.
- 1:38:16Speaker 1: You know, that reminds me of that dream quality of–
- 1:38:21of someone being someone, like having the essence of them,
- 1:38:24but not looking like them, reminds me also of something
- 1:38:27I've noticed in the non-speakers where they're not very good
- 1:38:29at labeling animals. Like, like, like camels and kangaroos might
- 1:38:34be the same. It's like, it's like the physical form.
- 1:38:39Speaker 2: It's not what's important.
- 1:38:40Speaker 1: It's just not what's important. It's like the feeling. Yeah.
- 1:38:43On the inside. To me, it's like proof of a
- 1:38:46soul or something. I don't, I really think we ought
- 1:38:47to start studying, Souls, scientifically. Because if we can show that...
- 1:38:53I didn't think we were going to talk about this, but... Wow,
- 1:38:57I'm sure that happens a lot. But if we could
- 1:39:01start understanding what a soul is.
- 1:39:04Speaker 2: Right. How would you quantify it?
- 1:39:05Speaker 1: Yeah, I don't know. Right. I mean, I think.
- 1:39:07Speaker 2: Maybe it's one of those things you just can't.
- 1:39:10Speaker 1: Maybe.
- 1:39:11Speaker 2: You can't study.
- 1:39:12Speaker 1: But if you understand... I guess I'm always coming back
- 1:39:14to the informational substrate because that's like my favorite concept.
- 1:39:17But if you understand... That underneath, if this is true,
- 1:39:22I sort of think this is true, that underneath all
- 1:39:24of what we call physical reality, so space, time, matter, energy,
- 1:39:29is this informational substrate that it's almost like has all
- 1:39:32the information from the beginning of the universe to the
- 1:39:35end of the universe, like all of it, including like
- 1:39:37what you're thinking, feeling, et cetera, at this moment or
- 1:39:39other moments. And if you could, I guess... insert information
- 1:39:49into it and read information from it, then I think
- 1:39:57maybe that means you have a soul. Maybe that's what
- 1:40:02a soul is, is that which inserts information into that
- 1:40:06informational substrate. So you change things in the world and
- 1:40:09read things from it. You perceive things in the world.
- 1:40:13And maybe if you can do both of those things,
- 1:40:15it means that's what a soul is.
- 1:40:18Speaker 2: What makes you think that there's an informational substrate that
- 1:40:21contains all the information from the beginning of time to
- 1:40:24the end of time?
- 1:40:25Speaker 1: Yes, that's a very good question. It's just a feeling
- 1:40:30I have.
- 1:40:33Speaker 2: I'm not saying you're wrong.
- 1:40:34Speaker 1: I'm not saying I'm wrong either, but I'm not saying
- 1:40:37I'm right. It's aesthetically pleasing to me to– okay. It
- 1:40:43does seem like people, whether they're– or people who are
- 1:40:47particularly gifted at remote viewing or whatever, can go to
- 1:40:50different times in space time or different places in space,
- 1:40:53different times in time, and get information that seems like
- 1:40:59in this physical world you shouldn't be able to get, right?
- 1:41:03I mean, that's what I've been studying, and I've shown
- 1:41:05that that's the case at a rate greater than chance,
- 1:41:09especially if people are in a place of self-transcendence or
- 1:41:12feeling love. And so— That suggests that there's this sort
- 1:41:19of link about what we call God or love or
- 1:41:23universal love or this ineffable force. I don't know what
- 1:41:28to call it. Universal love, I'll call it. It suggests
- 1:41:31that there's a link between sort of what happens in
- 1:41:34the universe and what we experience and what we do
- 1:41:37and what we intend and this universal love force. So
- 1:41:41I want to As a scientist, I'm like, how do
- 1:41:43you make a physics of love? So I want to
- 1:41:47think about it as something that I can think of
- 1:41:50as what I could do physics or math on. And
- 1:41:53the way that comes out is like this informational soup
- 1:41:57or something that has all that information there. And then
- 1:42:01it is– we play with it throughout our lives.
- 1:42:06Speaker 2: But how would it have all the information from now
- 1:42:09to the end?
- 1:42:10Speaker 1: Because time doesn't work. in this linear way that we're
- 1:42:13used to experiencing, right? Like that's what precognition is showing us.
- 1:42:18If you can get information about future events at a
- 1:42:20rate above chance, and I can do that and other
- 1:42:22people can do that. And, and actually most people can
- 1:42:26do that according to the statistics and they're just not
- 1:42:29conscious of it. If your physiology is changing, then that
- 1:42:32means that sort of information can leak backwards from the future. Right.
- 1:42:38Speaker 2: But can it leak backwards an infinite amount of time?
- 1:42:41Like could it link backwards all the way to the
- 1:42:43end of the universe where it dies of heat death?
- 1:42:45Speaker 1: And so Jamie is bringing up this.
- 1:42:48Speaker 2: Oh, the Akashic Records here. Right. I was going to
- 1:42:49bring that up.
- 1:42:50Speaker 1: Yeah.
- 1:42:50Speaker 2: It's a modern esoteric term. The idea of a cosmic
- 1:42:53library that stores every event, thought, feeling, and intention that
- 1:42:58has ever occurred often said to be accessible through psychic
- 1:43:00or mystical means. That has ever occurred. But what about
- 1:43:04forever in time in the future, the potential future?
- 1:43:07Speaker 4: Yeah.
- 1:43:08Speaker 2: So in theosophy and anthroposophy, what is that word?
- 1:43:16Speaker 1: Anthroposophy.
- 1:43:17Speaker 2: What is that word? What does it mean? Yeah, what
- 1:43:19does that mean?
- 1:43:19Speaker 1: I don't know. I don't get what anthroposophy is. There's
- 1:43:21all these anthroposophists and they're related to the Waldorf people,
- 1:43:25but I don't totally understand it.
- 1:43:26Speaker 2: It's perplexity. Our AI sponsor trying to flex. Oh, okay, cool.
- 1:43:30That's what it's doing. It's flexing on us, showing us
- 1:43:32how smart it is. They're described as non-physical compendium of
- 1:43:36all universal events, thoughts, words, emotions and intents spanning past,
- 1:43:40present and potential future. So potential future meaning forever. So
- 1:43:45the idea that we're somehow or another when these people
- 1:43:49are able to sense something that's going to happen or
- 1:43:53know about an image that's going to be displayed, that
- 1:43:57this small leap in the future of a few seconds
- 1:44:01or a minute or whatever it is, It's also accessible forever.
- 1:44:06It's like there's no distance.
- 1:44:10Speaker 1: If you just think about time as a landscape, imagine
- 1:44:15time as a landscape. There's a mountain, there's a waterfall,
- 1:44:17there's a tree. And we're used to just walking in
- 1:44:22single file in one direction in the landscape. But if
- 1:44:26you fly a plane above, you could say, oh, I
- 1:44:28see on the other side of the mountain, there's this waterfall.
- 1:44:31And so flying the plane above is like, doing any
- 1:44:34of these mystical practices like with the Akashic Records or
- 1:44:37doing remote viewing or accessing that information, accessing the landscape
- 1:44:42in a different way, not through this linear sort of
- 1:44:46physical dimension or reality or whatever you want to call it,
- 1:44:49but through some other– maybe you go to a different dimension.
- 1:44:52I don't know how to think about it mathematically. Maybe
- 1:44:54you go to a different dimension.
- 1:44:55Speaker 2: The thing about memory and consciousness and just the idea
- 1:44:58of future and time at all, everything– Is made out
- 1:45:02of matter, right? We are made out of atoms.
- 1:45:06Speaker 1: Ideas aren't made out of matter.
- 1:45:08Speaker 2: No, but I'm going to get to that. So the
- 1:45:10idea is that if we are made out of atoms, well,
- 1:45:14that means subatomic particles exist inside of us. Subatomic particles
- 1:45:19are made out of magic. Like what they do is
- 1:45:23they exist in superposition. They're moving and they're still at
- 1:45:25the same time. They– They can be quantumly connected to
- 1:45:30other particles that are nowhere near. So why wouldn't we
- 1:45:34think consciousness that exists supposedly at least if not exists
- 1:45:38is tuned in by our own minds. It's somehow or
- 1:45:42another that's probably connected in some weird spooky action in
- 1:45:47a distance way.
- 1:45:48Speaker 1: Well, it's not even weird. As you said, it's exactly
- 1:45:52what we're made of.
- 1:45:53Speaker 2: Right.
- 1:45:53Speaker 1: So we call it weird because– We're trapped in.
- 1:45:56Speaker 2: This– Monkey mind.
- 1:45:58Speaker 1: We're trapped in this like linear– Yeah. Oh, it works
- 1:46:00like this. Oh, the ball will always go in this direction.
- 1:46:03We're trapped in that but we are made of quantum
- 1:46:06particles as you said, quantum wave particles. And even by
- 1:46:10the way, at the larger level than the subatomic particles,
- 1:46:14you have chemicals in our body that are actually– You know,
- 1:46:17in quantum coherence or superposition. Yeah. And so– and in
- 1:46:22birds and in leaves. I mean that's how photosynthesis works.
- 1:46:24So don't get me started on quantum computing because I
- 1:46:29get a little pissed off about this because– OK. I
- 1:46:34know we were talking about consciousness.
- 1:46:36Speaker 2: Should I– Yeah. Go ahead.
- 1:46:37Speaker 1: All right. I'll just go on my little train. My
- 1:46:41heartbeat is going wild.
- 1:46:42Speaker 2: Is it?
- 1:46:43Speaker 1: Yeah, because this is really– Something that is really important
- 1:46:47to me for some reason that I don't understand.
- 1:46:49Speaker 2: Quantum computing is?
- 1:46:51Speaker 1: Our mistake. Our current mistake with quantum computing.
- 1:46:54Speaker 2: Okay.
- 1:46:55Speaker 1: What I believe to be the current mistake.
- 1:46:56Speaker 2: Okay.
- 1:46:57Speaker 1: Misunderstanding. So a leaf is using essentially quantum computing to
- 1:47:05do photosynthesis. in a way that we can't replicate right now.
- 1:47:12I mean, at room temperature, above room temperature, if it's
- 1:47:14out in the sun, right? It's keeping these chemicals in superposition.
- 1:47:22It is able to trap energy from photons better than
- 1:47:29anything that we have. It's doing quantum computing without a
- 1:47:36lot of expense whatsoever. So when we go and we
- 1:47:41decide that we want to be the first in quantum
- 1:47:43computing and we're going to invest all this money in
- 1:47:46like super cooling systems and very difficult to understand error
- 1:47:50correction methods and all these things, working on trapping single
- 1:47:53particles at the subatomic level. And that's how we're going
- 1:47:57to have to do it to make it, to force
- 1:47:59it into these patterns. Like, come on, we're doing something wrong.
- 1:48:03Like a leaf can do it outside in the sun
- 1:48:06and does it all the time. We're doing something wrong.
- 1:48:11So I started thinking that way like 12 years ago
- 1:48:17and got really passionate about it. photons and how photons
- 1:48:22are kind of like this– almost like a link. This
- 1:48:25is another thing that I'm going to say. You're going
- 1:48:27to be like, why do you think this? But regardless,
- 1:48:29it came into my mind that photons are kind of
- 1:48:31like a link between mind and matter. Like they're not
- 1:48:35really– Like you said, they're made of magic. They're not
- 1:48:38really matter. They don't have any mass. And they're actually–
- 1:48:44they're bosonic particles. So there's two types of particles. One
- 1:48:48is a fermionic named after Enrico Fermi. And those are
- 1:48:51things we're used to like protons, neutrons, electrons. And then
- 1:48:57there's bosonic particles, which are things that generally– I think
- 1:49:02none of them have any mass. And they're very different things.
- 1:49:06Like the Higgs boson is one. Photons is another example.
- 1:49:09Photons are another example. I think there's a version of
- 1:49:11helium that's also bosonic. But what makes it bosonic is
- 1:49:15it could be in the same place at the same
- 1:49:18time as another bosonic particle and then another one and
- 1:49:22another one and another one. So like they kind of
- 1:49:24don't exist in physical reality. It's like we have this
- 1:49:27idea that two electrons can't be in the same place
- 1:49:29at the same time and they can't. But these can.
- 1:49:33And so– It's almost like they're interacting in another dimension
- 1:49:37that's less physical. And it seems just interesting to me
- 1:49:44that we think a lot about what a photon would feel.
- 1:49:49And I just keep thinking that there's some connection between
- 1:49:53what we call mind and what we call brain that
- 1:49:55has to do with photons. So anyway, I got obsessed
- 1:49:59with photons and I started thinking about... The double slit experiment.
- 1:50:05Does your audience know what that is?
- 1:50:07Speaker 2: Probably, but a refresher would probably be good for everybody.
- 1:50:09Speaker 1: Okay. Yeah. So when I first told my husband about
- 1:50:13the double slit experiment, he's an artist. He's like, double slit.
- 1:50:21I'm like, that never occurred to me because I'm like, oh,
- 1:50:24I'm ready to explain it to him. And he's like,
- 1:50:25couldn't get off that. But anyway, it was- Peeves and buttheads. Yeah.
- 1:50:30You said double slit. So imagine there's like a flashlight
- 1:50:36at one end of a tube. And then there's like
- 1:50:39a photon detector at the other end of the tube.
- 1:50:42And in between the flashlight and the photon detector are
- 1:50:44two slits. And they could be in cardboard or metal
- 1:50:47or whatever. So there's two slits here. And they're very skinny.
- 1:50:50And the reason I say they're skinny is because they're
- 1:50:52so skinny that if you turn down the light enough,
- 1:50:56only one photon is going to get through. And it's
- 1:50:58going to have to choose between this slit or that slit.
- 1:51:01And the weird thing is if you do this over time,
- 1:51:05you'll see the pattern at the photon detector at the
- 1:51:07other end of the tube. It will look like an
- 1:51:10interference pattern. What does that mean? Oh, look at you.
- 1:51:13Speaker 2: Yeah, here it is. Yeah. So the electron beam gun
- 1:51:16electrons goes through the double slit and at the end
- 1:51:19of it, you get this very bizarre pattern.
- 1:51:22Speaker 1: Yeah, and this pattern– and so I was talking about photons.
- 1:51:25But yeah, you can do it with electrons. You can
- 1:51:26do it with larger particles. And that doesn't matter. But
- 1:51:33if you hear that one double slit up there is
- 1:51:38really good. That's a good one. Yes. So there's two
- 1:51:43pieces of it that are weird. The first bullet up
- 1:51:46there that you can't see on the screen but is
- 1:51:47going to say that when you send a single particle
- 1:51:51one at a time, it has to choose between the slits,
- 1:51:55but it still seems to interfere with itself in space.
- 1:51:58It's like it goes through both slits. One particle... goes
- 1:52:02in two places at once. It's called non-local in space.
- 1:52:06It's non-local. In other words, it's not behaving like we're
- 1:52:09used to. It's not behaving like a billiard ball. One
- 1:52:13thing is going through two slits. So I kept looking
- 1:52:15at this and saying, well, it might be non-local in space,
- 1:52:21but it could be non-local in time. And by that
- 1:52:25I mean that if you put an electron or a
- 1:52:27photon in there, it could be interfering from the future,
- 1:52:32like with another electron or another photon that happens in
- 1:52:35the future. And there's actually an experiment you can do
- 1:52:38to test that. And I wanted to do the experiment.
- 1:52:42So first of all, did you understand what I just said? Okay.
- 1:52:47So the way you could test that is, look, if
- 1:52:52the photon that's going to, if the photon, I'm just,
- 1:52:56now I'm going to pretend I'm a photon. I don't
- 1:52:57really like thinking of photons traveling because I don't think
- 1:53:00they really travel But anyway, I'm going to pretend I'm
- 1:53:02a photon. I just got shot out of this flashlight
- 1:53:05or this light bulb. I'm traveling towards a slit and
- 1:53:10I interfere with another photon that wasn't just shot out
- 1:53:14of the light bulb. It's going to be shot out
- 1:53:15of the light bulb in the future, but it's just
- 1:53:16sort of hanging out there because it's floating around in time.
- 1:53:20Speaker 2: Is the actual light able to do one photon at
- 1:53:23a time?
- 1:53:24Speaker 1: Yeah, if you turn it down enough, it is.
- 1:53:26Speaker 2: How could you measure whether it's one photon?
- 1:53:28Speaker 1: You calculate– you can just calculate the expected amount of
- 1:53:32light that should come through with the detector.
- 1:53:35Speaker 2: And is that accurate down to a single photon?
- 1:53:38Speaker 1: Yeah. You can calculate based on the speed of light
- 1:53:41and the emission and where the detector is.
- 1:53:44Speaker 2: Okay.
- 1:53:45Speaker 1: How much– yeah. So you can turn it down to
- 1:53:48that level. And– I think this experiment's like almost, I
- 1:53:54think it's 100 years old. So they were able to
- 1:53:58do that way back then. And so imagine this photon
- 1:54:02gets shot out of this flashlight. It interferes with another
- 1:54:05photon just like it from the future. Just imagine that's possible.
- 1:54:10If that's true, then in experiments where you have a
- 1:54:14lot of photons available to interact from the future, like
- 1:54:17in other words, the light is on for a long time. Mm-hmm.
- 1:54:20The interference pattern should show a different sort of pattern
- 1:54:25than if you don't have very many photons in the future,
- 1:54:29so the light's not going to be on a long time.
- 1:54:31So the experiment I wanted to do and that I
- 1:54:33did was, look, just randomly determine how long this experiment's
- 1:54:38going to last. How long are you going to leave
- 1:54:39this light on into the future? And then look at
- 1:54:43the very first period of time. Like, look at the
- 1:54:45first 30 seconds, right? And after 30 seconds, you randomly choose,
- 1:54:49are you going to turn this light off or are
- 1:54:51you going to leave it on for another two minutes?
- 1:54:53In the first 30 seconds, can you determine what the
- 1:54:56choice is going to be based on the pattern? If
- 1:54:58you can, that means this thing is interfering in time.
- 1:55:01And it turns out you could. So I ended up
- 1:55:06replicating that and replicating that and replicating that. And then
- 1:55:09a friend at UC Berkeley who teaches the advanced physics
- 1:55:13lab there said, I want to set up my own equipment.
- 1:55:17do the exact same experiment. I'm going to run it
- 1:55:19over a year and I'm going to see if I
- 1:55:21get the same result. So he sent me his data.
- 1:55:23He walked away. I analyzed the data and I figured
- 1:55:28out the equation that relates the amount of future time
- 1:55:33after the decision to the detection pattern before the decision.
- 1:55:41And so That's the kind of result that I think
- 1:55:44is going to actually shift quantum computing because you're working
- 1:55:48at room temperature with groups of photons rather than trying
- 1:55:51to trap them. And you're treating them more like a
- 1:55:55giant unit, this unit in time, rather than this unit
- 1:55:59in space. And so actually– can I name drop my
- 1:56:03new company? Yeah.
- 1:56:04Speaker 2: What was the results of his data?
- 1:56:06Speaker 1: Oh, that the same result happened? Yeah.
- 1:56:10Speaker 2: So it really was that somehow or another the photons
- 1:56:13were able to predict the future.
- 1:56:14Speaker 1: Yeah. Well, if you think of a box. Okay, so
- 1:56:18think of a really deep well. Let's think of a
- 1:56:21well with water in the bottom. You cannot see. You
- 1:56:24can't look over the edge. It's so deep you don't
- 1:56:26know how deep it is. So you might drop something
- 1:56:29in it. And then you listen for the ding. And
- 1:56:32you can have a sense of how deep it is.
- 1:56:34It's a little like this. You can't know in depth.
- 1:56:38sort of with our eyes, how long that experiment's going
- 1:56:43to last. But you're getting a little reverberation from the
- 1:56:46future in the photons. It's like they're telling on themselves. Like,
- 1:56:50we've got a lot of future photons to interfere with,
- 1:56:52so we're going to behave in this way. Or we
- 1:56:55don't have so many future photons to interfere with. We're
- 1:56:57going to behave in this other way.
- 1:56:58Speaker 2: One of the things that people are very familiar about
- 1:57:00that know about the double-slit experiment is the idea of
- 1:57:03the observer and how the observer changes reality. Yeah. What
- 1:57:10do you think is going on there?
- 1:57:13Speaker 1: The word change is super telling because when you think of,
- 1:57:16when you were asking about timelines before, so, uh, uh,
- 1:57:23can you pull, can you pull up like a picture
- 1:57:25of timelines and, and, and retro, like a picture of
- 1:57:29retro causality. Can you look at retro causality and put
- 1:57:32up a picture? I want to say something about the
- 1:57:34word change because we have this idea of It was
- 1:57:39supposed to be like this, whatever it is. It was
- 1:57:41supposed to be like, that's kind of a complicated one.
- 1:57:46Oh gosh, there's all these complicated ones. There's, look, that
- 1:57:54path diagram. No, that's, why are they all so complicated?
- 1:58:03Let's do this, no.
- 1:58:05Speaker 2: Well, what is it about them that's so complicated?
- 1:58:07Speaker 1: Well, because people don't really know how it works and
- 1:58:10so they make all these different pictures of it. Okay,
- 1:58:12I'm just– let's ignore that. I'm just going to make
- 1:58:14a picture.
- 1:58:14Speaker 2: Okay, okay.
- 1:58:15Speaker 1: Imagine a figure eight. So we normally think of things
- 1:58:18just going like this. Figure eight goes, oh, I go
- 1:58:21back like that. I get the information here and I
- 1:58:24bring it back. Exactly. And so it's more like time
- 1:58:27is doing that. Our events are doing that, right? So
- 1:58:31I guess, what was your original question though? I got
- 1:58:34obsessed with pictures of timelines, change.
- 1:58:37Speaker 2: Observer.
- 1:58:37Speaker 1: Yeah. So the thing about changing something is if it
- 1:58:43was all, if it was, I like to use the
- 1:58:45word influence because if it was already always going to happen,
- 1:58:51you didn't change anything. It's not like you're on a
- 1:58:53different timeline. It's that the future influenced the past. Right.
- 1:58:59Speaker 2: But the observer influences reality in the results of the tests.
- 1:59:05So if you do an experiment.
- 1:59:07Speaker 1: Yeah. So let me explain that effect. So with the
- 1:59:10double slit experiment, the result is if you– that indicates this.
- 1:59:15If you put a little detector by one of the
- 1:59:18slits because you say I'm going to trap one of
- 1:59:19those– I'm going to trap a photon or electron. I'm
- 1:59:22going to figure out which slit it's going through. So
- 1:59:25you put a detector at one of the two slits.
- 1:59:27If you get a bing, it means it went through that.
- 1:59:29If you don't get a bing, it went through the
- 1:59:30other one, right? What happens is the actual outcome now
- 1:59:35looks different. You don't get the same interference pattern. You
- 1:59:38get a single slit interference pattern. As if it didn't,
- 1:59:42it wasn't non-local in space or time. It didn't interfere
- 1:59:45with itself and it just kind of like went through
- 1:59:47like a billiard ball.
- 1:59:48Speaker 2: Right.
- 1:59:49Speaker 1: And so... That's where the observer effect comes in. There's
- 1:59:53this idea that you have observed– you've tried to trap
- 1:59:56the photon during its flight. So that's the other reason
- 2:00:00why I think that mind and photons are related is
- 2:00:04because there's something about the knowledge. I almost, again, think
- 2:00:09of it informationally. But it's like you just gained knowledge
- 2:00:12about this system as our knowledge mechanisms of our mind.
- 2:00:17You've just gained knowledge. And it has now changed. It's
- 2:00:20almost like the photons are part of mind. So, of course,
- 2:00:24mind is affecting mind.
- 2:00:26Speaker 2: And so mind observing the photon changes the path of
- 2:00:30the photon.
- 2:00:31Speaker 1: It changes mind.
- 2:00:32Speaker 2: It changes the behavior of the photon. It changes what
- 2:00:35we see as a result.
- 2:00:37Speaker 1: It's like... Like affects like. So if photons are like
- 2:00:41mind and mind interacts with mind, now both minds are different.
- 2:00:44You have gained this knowledge. The photon has gone into
- 2:00:47this different place.
- 2:00:52Speaker 2: It's– the problem with it, it's so weird and so
- 2:00:56weird to think of that and observing something changes it,
- 2:01:01that it makes people start to consider, OK, like if
- 2:01:05that's the case– How much of observing the known universe
- 2:01:12is a part of it existing? All of it.
- 2:01:16Speaker 1: It's like this figure eight. That's the thing is that
- 2:01:19that's just a great example, it seems to me, of
- 2:01:22mind observing mind. Your mind and my mind will never
- 2:01:25be the same after observing each other, just like with
- 2:01:27every other person we meet, right? We're constantly changing. I
- 2:01:31like influencing. We're constantly influencing each other.
- 2:01:34Speaker 2: Right.
- 2:01:35Speaker 1: And It is like this figure eight thing, carrying it back.
- 2:01:40So I don't think there's any difference. It's just that
- 2:01:44photons behave more like our minds, so they're showing it
- 2:01:48to us. But electrons and anything that's doing the quantum thing.
- 2:01:53Speaker 2: And so why do you think that we have a
- 2:01:57bad understanding of quantum computing?
- 2:02:00Speaker 1: Oh, I mean, no, I shouldn't.
- 2:02:01Speaker 2: This is how we started this.
- 2:02:02Speaker 1: Yeah, not that we have a bad understanding of quantum.
- 2:02:05We have a great understanding of what we are currently
- 2:02:07considering quantum computing.
- 2:02:09Speaker 2: Or maybe this is the way people are talking about it.
- 2:02:12Speaker 1: No, it's the approach. It's this approach of we're going
- 2:02:16to trap a single particle slash wave. We're going to
- 2:02:22trap a single photon. We're going to trap a single ion.
- 2:02:25We're going to have it. behave in ways repeatedly according
- 2:02:30to these commands, these gates, these gating functions that they do.
- 2:02:37We understand that. The problem is it seems to me
- 2:02:40it's forcing something that shouldn't behave that way, that doesn't
- 2:02:44naturally behave that way, to behave that way. It's like
- 2:02:46we're trying to imitate classical computers with quantum computers, and
- 2:02:52we're not taking into account these group classical level properties
- 2:02:56that clearly... A leaf uses when it's doing photosynthesis. It
- 2:03:01has to. It's not building a super cooling system and
- 2:03:04trapping ions. It's functioning in this really wet physiological environment
- 2:03:12and it's doing just fine with quantum computation. So it's
- 2:03:16more like the approach needs to become more naturalistic and
- 2:03:21I think it needs to take into account these non-local,
- 2:03:24temporarily non-local phenomenon like the one I discovered.
- 2:03:27Speaker 2: Well, aren't they considering that at least partially, at least
- 2:03:30it's being discussed, that this many worlds interpretation of the
- 2:03:34results of quantum computing, that something's happening that you can't
- 2:03:38account for in the known universe. Something's happening with the
- 2:03:42scale of the equations that it's able to solve in
- 2:03:45the time span in which it's able to solve. It's
- 2:03:48not possible that the same sort of process is going
- 2:03:52on that would occur if it was happening right here
- 2:03:55and right now, that it seems that it's gathering the
- 2:03:57computing power.
- 2:03:59Speaker 1: Yeah, that's great. That's the whole point of quantum computing
- 2:04:02is to capture that. And yes, it could be multiple universes.
- 2:04:05It could also be retrocausality. And some people don't like
- 2:04:09the retrocausality answer. I think that's actually more likely.
- 2:04:11Speaker 2: So the retrocausality thing would be that all time is
- 2:04:14happening in this figure-eight loop, and then somehow or another
- 2:04:17this quantum computer is able to tap into that And
- 2:04:20have this infinite access to all potential future and past information.
- 2:04:26Speaker 1: Right. And then I just think it's easier to do
- 2:04:29quantum computing if you take into account– excuse me. If
- 2:04:35you take into account this retrocausality piece and these group
- 2:04:40properties of particles at room temperature that can tell us
- 2:04:46about the future.
- 2:04:47Speaker 2: So the idea that this– Does that include a many
- 2:04:53worlds interpretation of the universe? Is that also there? Is
- 2:04:58it possible that not only do you get the time
- 2:05:02of all time available instantaneously because it is a part
- 2:05:07of a loop and somehow or another a quantum computer
- 2:05:10is able to tap into that, but not just this
- 2:05:13timeline and this loop in this universe, but multiple universes,
- 2:05:19infinite in fact. that all of their time is also available.
- 2:05:24Speaker 1: You know, maybe. The thing is— sorry, I'm just going to
- 2:05:27have to drink more water.
- 2:05:28Speaker 2: No, that's okay. There's water there in the glass, too,
- 2:05:30if you want some. There's coffee.
- 2:05:33Speaker 1: I get so excited about this stuff. The thing is— Good.
- 2:05:35Speaker 2: Great.
- 2:05:36Speaker 1: The thing is you don't need both. And so it
- 2:05:40could be both. I was just thinking this morning about
- 2:05:43how it could be both. It could be both. You
- 2:05:46could have these loops with the information retrocausally bringing it back.
- 2:05:51And you could have multiple universes of those loops.
- 2:05:53Speaker 2: Infinite loops.
- 2:05:54Speaker 1: But it's kind of like saying, like you know how
- 2:05:58physicists really like to simplify things? It's kind of like
- 2:06:02saying we could do whatever we want. We could paint
- 2:06:05a picture of a fairy who also does something, you know,
- 2:06:08and then there's a gnome over here that does something.
- 2:06:10But if you don't need those things, you throw them out, right?
- 2:06:15And so it's like usually either people talk about Multiple
- 2:06:19universes or retrocausality but not both because they're solving the
- 2:06:22same problem.
- 2:06:25Speaker 2: But it is possible that even with our little monkey
- 2:06:29minds trying to understand retrocausality that we're not taking into
- 2:06:33account the possibility that retrocausality might exist in infinite timelines.
- 2:06:38Speaker 1: Yep. Certainly. Certainly the universe works in ways that we
- 2:06:43don't understand.
- 2:06:44Speaker 2: And the deeper we look, the more confused we get.
- 2:06:46Speaker 1: Yeah, and also you find yourself looking right into mind.
- 2:06:50I really do think there's something to the more you
- 2:06:54look into physics, the more you look into mind. I
- 2:06:57mean all the physicists from– did you ever read that book,
- 2:07:00How the Hippies Saved Physics?
- 2:07:02Speaker 2: No. Sweet.
- 2:07:04Speaker 1: Yeah. Sweet, good book about like the 70s and Esalen
- 2:07:07and physicists.
- 2:07:08Speaker 2: Oh, OK.
- 2:07:09Speaker 1: Realizing like– That's the real hippies.
- 2:07:11Speaker 2: That's where the ass was flowing.
- 2:07:13Speaker 1: Yeah. They're all tripping. And they had this experience of
- 2:07:16like if we really understood quantum mechanics, we would just
- 2:07:19get it that it's mind looking into mind.
- 2:07:24Speaker 2: How do you think that aligns with this whole extraterrestrial thing?
- 2:07:30Speaker 1: You're pointing at my book. Yeah. Yeah. So this cover,
- 2:07:33my husband did the art.
- 2:07:34Speaker 2: Have a nice disclosure.
- 2:07:36Speaker 1: Yeah. It's like a little quirky like alien face engaging.
- 2:07:41It took him five minutes. I love it. Yeah, so
- 2:07:47this book is not about aliens. And some people get disappointed.
- 2:07:50It has an alien on the cover because people think
- 2:07:52of Disclosure with aliens right now. But it's really about
- 2:07:58what you know... what we can find out by going
- 2:08:01into our inner space. Like what we can find out
- 2:08:05by tapping into our own wisdom and our own experience
- 2:08:08and not waiting for some authority figure to say, hey,
- 2:08:11this is what's true. And now we will reveal the
- 2:08:14great secrets. Because honestly, when that happens, which could be
- 2:08:18literally tomorrow.
- 2:08:19Speaker 2: It might be today.
- 2:08:21Speaker 1: It might be today with the release of the files.
- 2:08:23Speaker 2: I don't know what they're going to tell us.
- 2:08:24Speaker 1: Yeah. I think there's going to be a lot of
- 2:08:26redacted stuff and flood the zone with shit. Yeah. But
- 2:08:31when that happens, it's not going to matter. Because when
- 2:08:34someone tells you something and they say it's true, it
- 2:08:37doesn't matter until you experience it. It doesn't matter until
- 2:08:42it matters to you. Right.
- 2:08:45Speaker 2: Yes, that's a good point.
- 2:08:46Speaker 1: And so I think that disclosure, if you want to
- 2:08:49have a nice disclosure, it's really about learning what matters
- 2:08:53to you and disclosing all your own weird shit to yourself.
- 2:08:59You know, all the weird thoughts like you're talking about
- 2:09:01that guy in your head. All those weird thoughts that
- 2:09:04we have and the weird experiences we've had in our
- 2:09:06lifetimes that we sort of bury. Like the thing about
- 2:09:10the ball lightning. I still forget that and I've talked
- 2:09:14about it several times. We sort of say, well, that's
- 2:09:18not normal. That's not usual. Maybe it didn't happen somehow,
- 2:09:21but it did. Or people who have experience seeing UAP
- 2:09:26or UFOs or people who are psionic assets or people
- 2:09:31like me who have psychic experiences all the time. And
- 2:09:35how I suppressed it so that I could go and
- 2:09:38get my PhD and then it came up as a
- 2:09:40flower later. I think that the movement has to switch
- 2:09:45like we need a Copernican revolution where we're not looking
- 2:09:48for some authority figure to tell us what's true.
- 2:09:53Speaker 2: I would agree with that. But I also think it
- 2:09:56really helps if someone who knows more than you, who's honest,
- 2:10:00can tell you what's true. What I was kind of
- 2:10:03getting into– I agree with that. But what I was
- 2:10:05kind of getting into is this idea of retrocausality. If
- 2:10:08all timeline exists in the future, these things that people
- 2:10:11keep experiencing– Which if you just extrapolated from what we
- 2:10:15understand about evolution from ancient hominids to current human beings
- 2:10:20to what do you think we're going to look like? Well,
- 2:10:23that's what I think we're going to look like.
- 2:10:25Speaker 1: Yeah.
- 2:10:25Speaker 2: Very frail things that don't need muscles. Big heads. Very
- 2:10:29big heads.
- 2:10:29Speaker 1: Kind of like weird arms.
- 2:10:30Speaker 2: And communicate telepathically.
- 2:10:32Speaker 1: Yeah.
- 2:10:32Speaker 2: And they don't have any gender. It seems like that's
- 2:10:35the direction that the human species is moving in. So
- 2:10:40if you thought of this whole idea– Of time going
- 2:10:43in this figure eight loop, then you would consider, oh,
- 2:10:46is that us?
- 2:10:47Speaker 1: Yeah. Well, so that hypothesis is one of the many hypotheses,
- 2:10:52but I think that's a really good one, at least
- 2:10:55for the grays. Yeah. At least for what people describe
- 2:10:59as the grays. I think people have described other kind
- 2:11:02of beings or creatures. And there's this guy, Michael Masters,
- 2:11:08who studies that.
- 2:11:09Speaker 2: Yeah, I've had him on.
- 2:11:10Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah. Yeah. And so we– if someone– the thing is, okay,
- 2:11:15so what if someone says that's the truth? It's still
- 2:11:19like– it's the same problem I have when I tell
- 2:11:23people like, look, all of us can basically get information
- 2:11:26from the future and so can photons. Like it doesn't
- 2:11:30matter until it matters. It doesn't matter until you make something.
- 2:11:33It doesn't– and that's– it doesn't matter until you make something.
- 2:11:38Like you show that something works. that uses this principle,
- 2:11:42then people believe it. It's like general relativity. Lots of
- 2:11:46people don't know what it is, but we have GPS.
- 2:11:49So we kind of have to say that's real. But
- 2:11:52someone saying something and making something with it are two
- 2:11:56different things. And so I'm very impressed with what people
- 2:12:01like Anna Brady Estevez, who used to be at the
- 2:12:03National Science Foundation, is doing. She made this company called,
- 2:12:07I guess I don't know much about money companies. It's
- 2:12:10like a Fund, some kind of fund, investment fund called
- 2:12:15American Deep Tech. And she's like, I'm going to reverse
- 2:12:18engineer UFOs because that's making something from these principles.
- 2:12:26Speaker 2: Well, there's a lot of people that believe that's already
- 2:12:27being done.
- 2:12:28Speaker 1: Well, yeah, but she wants to do it in the
- 2:12:30private sector outside of, you know, the big.
- 2:12:34Speaker 2: How is she attempting to reverse engineer?
- 2:12:37Speaker 1: Well, she's, she's not, she's building a fund that's trying
- 2:12:39to invest in different companies that are using these kinds
- 2:12:42of principles like alternative propulsion or, you know, informational time
- 2:12:45travel or these kinds of principles, space time metric. And
- 2:12:49so she's one of many people who recognize that we
- 2:12:54have to get sort of out of the top five
- 2:12:57contracting companies who are holding all the knowledge about this stuff. Um,
- 2:13:02We have to build things and just go forward. I know.
- 2:13:10What are you thinking?
- 2:13:11Speaker 2: Well, I mean if this retrocausality idea about aliens in
- 2:13:16the future does exist, one of the weirder things is
- 2:13:19the back engineering part because part of the back engineering,
- 2:13:24there's– do you know Diana Pasolka is?
- 2:13:28Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah.
- 2:13:28Speaker 2: Yeah. So her work is very interesting.
- 2:13:30Speaker 1: You've had her on the show.
- 2:13:31Speaker 2: Yes. Very interesting.
- 2:13:32Speaker 1: And I love her new book, too.
- 2:13:34Speaker 2: Yeah. Her books are great. One of the things that
- 2:13:37she talked about, though, was that the idea that these
- 2:13:38things are donations.
- 2:13:40Speaker 1: Yes. Yeah. Jacques Vallée talks about that. Yes.
- 2:13:43Speaker 2: Yeah.
- 2:13:43Speaker 1: Yeah.
- 2:13:43Speaker 2: And so does Gary Nolan.
- 2:13:46Speaker 1: Yeah.
- 2:13:46Speaker 2: So it's this weird– the people that have examined the
- 2:13:49physical characteristics of them, they're very strange.
- 2:13:51Speaker 1: Yeah.
- 2:13:52Speaker 2: Like when they've gotten these little samples.
- 2:13:54Speaker 1: Little bits, like weird metals that we don't have. Yeah.
- 2:13:57Speaker 2: Atomically layered. Yeah. Somehow or another printed in these very–
- 2:14:02strange alloys that would cost billions of dollars to make.
- 2:14:05And they found this crash in 1976. Like it doesn't
- 2:14:08make any sense.
- 2:14:09Speaker 1: They seem like little, to me, they seem like little
- 2:14:11acupuncture points, like in the history of humanity, like little,
- 2:14:16just little acupuncture, like, Oh, let's put a needle there.
- 2:14:18Maybe they could have an iPhone. Maybe they could figure
- 2:14:22out how to care cancer. You know, maybe they could
- 2:14:25figure out how to do faster than light travel. So
- 2:14:27it does feel like, yeah, a little acupuncture and it
- 2:14:31can be done with, with, with artifacts, like people find.
- 2:14:34And I'm, you know, reading Diana Posalka's book, American Cosmic.
- 2:14:39She talks about finding these artifacts and how she's like
- 2:14:41not even sure she believes in them. And I totally
- 2:14:43get it. I think I would feel the same way.
- 2:14:45But then there's this other side to it that's not artifactual.
- 2:14:50It's about consciousness. It's about some kind of mystical awareness.
- 2:14:56You can also do acupuncture that way, right? You can
- 2:14:59put into someone's mind, like I'm not sure how I
- 2:15:02had the idea as a cognitive neuroscientist to do this
- 2:15:04experiment with photons. I think you can put into someone's
- 2:15:08mind information that will be helpful to the future. And
- 2:15:14I think that happens to people all over, inventors all over.
- 2:15:17Speaker 2: That's the muse.
- 2:15:18Speaker 1: Yeah. And the muse could come from the future, right?
- 2:15:22Speaker 2: Yeah.
- 2:15:23Speaker 1: Eric Wargo talks about that.
- 2:15:25Speaker 2: I've thought about that with ideas that, It's almost like
- 2:15:28ideas are a life form and this is the thought
- 2:15:30that I had. Like if you think about everything that
- 2:15:33exists today that human beings have created, all that stuff
- 2:15:37came from an idea. Like the idea then manifests itself
- 2:15:40in physical form and we want to take credit for it.
- 2:15:43We want to say, oh, I made that steam engine
- 2:15:46and you did. Right. But how the fuck did you
- 2:15:48do that? Like where did the idea come from? Because
- 2:15:50ideas– Anybody that's really honest about their ideas will tell
- 2:15:54you like, boy, I don't even know if that's my idea.
- 2:15:56It just came out of the ether. Every great thought
- 2:16:00that I've ever had, every great joke that I've ever written,
- 2:16:02all that stuff just came out of space, came out
- 2:16:05of some weird place. And I've always thought of that like,
- 2:16:09what if ideas are a different type of life form?
- 2:16:12And it's a life form that manifests itself through us
- 2:16:16in physical space. And that's Marshall McLuhan's thought in a
- 2:16:21book from 1960s. He said, human beings are the sex
- 2:16:25organs of the machine world. Isn't that amazing?
- 2:16:28Speaker 1: That's amazing.
- 2:16:29Speaker 2: Isn't that an amazing quote?
- 2:16:31Speaker 1: It came into my head. So I love that idea.
- 2:16:33I always thought of science as like a living being,
- 2:16:36like it has its desire. And if you don't do
- 2:16:39the experiment, someone else is going to.
- 2:16:40Speaker 2: Do the experiment. Right, and it possesses you.
- 2:16:41Speaker 1: And songwriters talk about that too. If you don't write
- 2:16:43the song, someone else is going to write the song.
- 2:16:46And the image I had in my head because I
- 2:16:48think in images was of– do you remember those Play-Doh
- 2:16:52heads that would have holes in them and you would
- 2:16:54turn the crank and the Play-Doh would come up?
- 2:16:56Speaker 2: Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah.
- 2:16:57Speaker 1: Shave and haircut.
- 2:16:57Speaker 2: Give them haircuts.
- 2:16:58Speaker 1: That's right, yeah. That's what came into my head. Like
- 2:17:01it's just coming out of whatever hole is in blocked
- 2:17:03and it just has its own momentum. And then like
- 2:17:06what if one of those little holes said, oh, look
- 2:17:08what I did. I grew this hair. And it's like, well, okay.
- 2:17:11Speaker 2: Yeah, right? I know. That's what it's like. I mean
- 2:17:15most people that I've talked to that are singers– Songwriters,
- 2:17:20authors in particular, they'll tell you that these ideas just
- 2:17:23sort of come out of nowhere and you just got
- 2:17:25to be there to receive them. Pressfield wrote a great
- 2:17:27book about it called The War of Art. Steven Pressfield?
- 2:17:30Speaker 1: No, I don't know.
- 2:17:31Speaker 2: He wrote The Legend of Bagger Vance and he's a
- 2:17:33screenwriter and just a brilliant guy. But his book, The
- 2:17:37War of Art, is really like a masterpiece because I
- 2:17:39have a stack of them and I give them to comedians.
- 2:17:42I just read this because it talks about the muse.
- 2:17:44And it talks about like treating it as if it's
- 2:17:47like a real deity that you are summoning. And you
- 2:17:51do the work. You show up every day. You like
- 2:17:54have this intention to do this. And if you do that,
- 2:17:57it will be real. And it is like these are
- 2:18:02things that come from somewhere else into your head.
- 2:18:05Speaker 1: Especially in comedy because you have to be in the moment.
- 2:18:08You're not thinking– I mean– even if you write your
- 2:18:10whole show ahead of time.
- 2:18:11Speaker 3: Right?
- 2:18:12Speaker 1: Mike Birbiglia talks about this on Working It Out, right?
- 2:18:14Even if you write your whole show ahead of time,
- 2:18:16if you're not in the moment, the timing is going
- 2:18:18to be off.
- 2:18:19Speaker 2: Not only that, it's not just the timing's off, the
- 2:18:21audience knows. You could say things exactly correctly with the
- 2:18:25right timing, but they're animals. They smell it. If you're
- 2:18:29thinking about your laundry or something else, they know. They
- 2:18:33know if you're really thinking about a thing. It's hypnosis.
- 2:18:36Speaker 1: Yeah, or it's like telepathy. I.
- 2:18:40When I was– this morning, I'm like, oh, God, I
- 2:18:42just have to take a nap because I'm thinking too
- 2:18:44much about what I'm going to say on Joe Rogan's show.
- 2:18:47And that's just the worst when you're thinking about what
- 2:18:49you're going to say. Yeah. Because then if you say it,
- 2:18:52everyone could just tell you.
- 2:18:53Speaker 2: Well, you're thinking about a result.
- 2:18:54Speaker 1: It's like you're reading a line.
- 2:18:55Speaker 2: You're thinking about a result instead of thinking about the process.
- 2:18:58Speaker 1: Yeah. Or you're just not in the process. Right, right, right. Yeah, yeah.
- 2:19:03Which is so funny because we're sitting here talking about
- 2:19:05retrocausality and these figure eight things and the multiple worlds.
- 2:19:07And then we're talking about how important it is to
- 2:19:09be in the now, which kind of like doesn't exist
- 2:19:11physically but sure exists psychologically. Like it's all that exists.
- 2:19:15Speaker 2: And we were also talking before about ego. And I
- 2:19:17think that's a part of the problem with the way
- 2:19:18people can create or not create is that you've got
- 2:19:21to learn how to get out of your own way.
- 2:19:23And everybody talks about that. Writers always talk about that.
- 2:19:26Like you have to just get out of your own way.
- 2:19:28And that's really what's going on with this wrestling match
- 2:19:32with the mind.
- 2:19:33Speaker 1: Yes.
- 2:19:34Speaker 2: It's like we're trying to like just be clear. And
- 2:19:38I think that's where probably some of this nonverbal, these
- 2:19:42non-speaking people, that's where they have this advantage.
- 2:19:45Speaker 1: Yes.
- 2:19:46Speaker 2: They don't have the same perception of themselves the way
- 2:19:49we do, I bet.
- 2:19:50Speaker 1: Not at all. No.
- 2:19:53Speaker 2: So they're free in that regard. They don't have that
- 2:19:56monkey on their back, so to speak.
- 2:19:57Speaker 1: Well, but then they have another monkey on their back,
- 2:19:59which is they live in this culture in which people
- 2:20:01think they're idiots because we read each other's bodies and
- 2:20:04we say there's something wrong with the way you're moving
- 2:20:06your body. You can't talk. You're making these sounds. And
- 2:20:09so you're free in your mind, but you're not free
- 2:20:12in your body.
- 2:20:12Speaker 2: And we're giving off negativity. Oh, what's wrong with this guy?
- 2:20:14Speaker 1: And then they feel that. And they hear it.
- 2:20:16Speaker 2: Right, right, right.
- 2:20:16Speaker 1: And so when we were filming for Kai's documentary, we
- 2:20:21all got together with– The sound people and the camera
- 2:20:24people before our first non-speaker came in for their trial.
- 2:20:28And we said, you know, they're telepathic. So we're going
- 2:20:32to do a little prayer right now that we can
- 2:20:33all be in a proper positive state when they come in.
- 2:20:36And our first student came in and said it was
- 2:20:38really great walking through the hall and feeling that good.
- 2:20:43And not like we told them we did that, but
- 2:20:45it was just validation that that was there. And the
- 2:20:49getting out of your own way, like, God, I think
- 2:20:51that's less of a problem for these students.
- 2:20:53Speaker 2: Is that a part of the book?
- 2:20:54Speaker 1: Well, the reason I'm looking, I guess, at the book
- 2:20:56is that the first two chapters popped out of me.
- 2:21:00I didn't know I was writing a book until I
- 2:21:01was on the second chapter.
- 2:21:02Speaker 2: Which thing you were writing?
- 2:21:04Speaker 1: I'm like, I'm writing words on a page with this
- 2:21:06weird story about a guy who hears the walls start
- 2:21:09talking and he's like, what's going on? And And it's
- 2:21:13in the second person. Like I'm saying, you, this is
- 2:21:15happening to you. And like, why am I, I've never
- 2:21:17written like that before. And the second chapter, I'm like,
- 2:21:20I think I'm writing a book and I don't know
- 2:21:22what this is about. And by the third chapter, I'm
- 2:21:25finally like, what the fuck? I mean, what is going on?
- 2:21:28And so it was a discovery process. So the whole
- 2:21:30first half of the book is this discovery process of like,
- 2:21:33what am I trying to communicate? And I had to
- 2:21:37get everything out of the way in terms of all
- 2:21:39like the scholarly stuff. Like, well, I better not say that. Nope.
- 2:21:42Didn't get to, nope. Just had to say the things
- 2:21:44that were coming up. Had to do it all just
- 2:21:46exactly as it was. Like I was writing a song,
- 2:21:49you know? And then what it kind of did was
- 2:21:52work on me. Like, like it had its own process,
- 2:21:55but I didn't think it was going to have, like,
- 2:21:57I thought it would work on other people. I don't
- 2:21:59know what I thought. I just had to write the words.
- 2:22:01And then I just, I guess in the back of
- 2:22:03my mind, I'm like, it's going to make people feel
- 2:22:06their own inner space in a way that's going to
- 2:22:08be unique to them. And then it turns out I
- 2:22:12ended up feeling my own inner space in a way
- 2:22:14that was unique to me. And then I had to
- 2:22:15write about that. So I ended up talking about this
- 2:22:20gifted and talented program I was in and all the
- 2:22:23receipts I had from that and what the heck was
- 2:22:25going on with that. It's funny to me how sometimes
- 2:22:28I'll swear. Sometimes I'll say, heck.
- 2:22:30Speaker 2: I don't know why.
- 2:22:31Speaker 1: I was like, why? Sometimes I'll say, what the fuck?
- 2:22:33And sometimes I'll be like... gosh darn it I don't know.
- 2:22:38Speaker 2: What the difference is oh I think about that all
- 2:22:39the time.
- 2:22:40Speaker 1: Yeah but anyway it's a weird weird book but what
- 2:22:45it did was open up for a lot of people
- 2:22:49who were in these weird gifted and talented programs opened
- 2:22:53up a lot of memories and I ended up starting
- 2:22:56a support group for people who had these experiences and
- 2:22:59kind of don't know what to do with them and
- 2:23:02still feel the surveillance and the sort of the feeling
- 2:23:07of being studied throughout your whole life and not knowing
- 2:23:10if your, your gifts are your own or if they
- 2:23:12were taught to you in some kind of way that
- 2:23:14you've forgotten. And so anyway, I don't know why I
- 2:23:17brought that up. I guess about the, I guess about
- 2:23:19the getting out of your own way thing. I had
- 2:23:21to write all that down. It's the best book I've
- 2:23:22ever written. I've written other books. They're good, but this
- 2:23:26one is everything I wanted to say, nothing I didn't
- 2:23:28want to say. And I got it all out there. Um,
- 2:23:32And I have a security clearance and I was afraid
- 2:23:35that it would get taken away from me if I
- 2:23:38said all these things.
- 2:23:39Speaker 2: Because you talked about remote viewing?
- 2:23:41Speaker 1: No, because I talked about the intelligence community potentially being
- 2:23:45involved in … Gifted programs? Yeah.
- 2:23:49Speaker 2: Yeah. Well, of course they are. I would imagine they are.
- 2:23:51I would imagine … I would imagine they were trying
- 2:23:53to get talent in any way they can, especially if
- 2:23:55they actually invested time and energy and we know they
- 2:23:57have in remote viewing and things along those lines.
- 2:24:00Speaker 1: Yeah. But the problem is … They were doing these–
- 2:24:02I mean, of course, I'm impressed with and know many
- 2:24:07good people in the intelligence community. And at the time
- 2:24:12that they were doing these programs and giving students these
- 2:24:15weird drinks and doing some kind of mechanism to remove
- 2:24:19memory of certain things, they were not asking for parental consent. So, yes,
- 2:24:25looking for talent, understood. Yes, yes. Trying to look for
- 2:24:28a psychic– I mean the intelligence community has always been
- 2:24:31interested in psychic capacities. Not asking for parental consent, bad.
- 2:24:36Speaker 2: And so they were giving you guys drinks? Do you
- 2:24:39know what was in it? No.
- 2:24:41Speaker 1: I remember a pink drink that was chalky. It's the
- 2:24:44same kind of drink everyone talks about.
- 2:24:47Speaker 2: And then what was the effect of that pink drink?
- 2:24:49Speaker 1: I don't know. So here's the– there's two memory lapses
- 2:24:53that are very consistent. One was in seventh grade when
- 2:24:56I was explicitly told I was in a gifted program
- 2:24:58rather than my earlier years when I just had these
- 2:25:01pullouts and things. So in seventh grade, I'm in what's
- 2:25:04called the SOAR program. This was in like 80, 81.
- 2:25:08This is before GATE, Gifted and Talented Education. I think
- 2:25:11it's just a predecessor to GATE. And I was pulled
- 2:25:17out every week, I think, about every week to go
- 2:25:19see a counselor. But the counselor was really two people.
- 2:25:25And a man and a woman, maybe it was sometimes
- 2:25:29just her, but I think it was both of them.
- 2:25:31And they would see me in the small rooms. But
- 2:25:33all I remember is walking. I remember walking down the
- 2:25:36hallway to the room, dreading that, opening the door. I
- 2:25:41know which door it was. I can picture it. Shutting
- 2:25:44the door. There's stuff over the window. And then I
- 2:25:49black out like every time. And I don't mean like
- 2:25:52I'm 57 years old and I don't remember what happened
- 2:25:54in the seventh grade. What I mean is when I
- 2:25:57would then leave, I remember going back to class and
- 2:26:01not remembering what happened in the room.
- 2:26:02Speaker 2: Wow.
- 2:26:04Speaker 1: So there's some kind of– and this is not– I
- 2:26:07mean this is not different from what many other people
- 2:26:11will report in that program. So some amnesia. Either– Either
- 2:26:16the drink was the amnesiac or the drink is something
- 2:26:18else and they did hypnosis to make us forget or whatever.
- 2:26:21The other time was when I was adult. I was adult-ish.
- 2:26:27I was 20-ish. And I took some time off of
- 2:26:31college to go hang out in Palo Alto because I
- 2:26:35had a boyfriend out there. I previously had a boyfriend
- 2:26:38out there and I was kind of into the Stanford world.
- 2:26:41I wasn't at Stanford, but I was just into hanging
- 2:26:44out there. And I needed a job. And so it
- 2:26:50was the time when word processing was like you could
- 2:26:52get paid to be a word processor. And I understood
- 2:26:57computers and I was like, I'll be a word processor.
- 2:27:00So I either saw an ad in the newspaper at
- 2:27:04Lockheed Martin or my dad told me, I know someone
- 2:27:07you should talk to at Lockheed Martin for a job.
- 2:27:09I end up at Lockheed Martin for an interview in
- 2:27:12the morning. They hire me on the spot. Then I
- 2:27:17remember sitting and talking to the guy during the interview.
- 2:27:19I could see the parking lot behind him. I see
- 2:27:22the desk. Behind me, I'm vaguely sensing in memory some
- 2:27:27kind of weird equipment, but again, no memory of that.
- 2:27:31Then I remember the end of the day. When I'm
- 2:27:34typing on a computer, my hands are shaking and I'm crying.
- 2:27:40And I don't remember what happened between the morning and
- 2:27:43the night in that moment.
- 2:27:44Speaker 2: I don't remember.
- 2:27:46Speaker 1: And I feel like I'm typing up a resignation letter,
- 2:27:51but in my memory, it could have just been the
- 2:27:54thing I was typing up, like word processing. But I
- 2:27:56hand it to the boss and I go, I can't
- 2:27:59work here. And he said, oh, I thought you would
- 2:28:02have a great future at Lockheed Martin. I'm like, why
- 2:28:04would you say that to a 20-year-old who you know
- 2:28:05is going back to college in like three months? What
- 2:28:08a weird thing to say to a word processor who
- 2:28:12you just hired on that day. And then I left.
- 2:28:18So I don't know what to say about those instances.
- 2:28:22My memory is usually pretty photographic and my auditory memory
- 2:28:25is excellent.
- 2:28:27Speaker 2: So do you think that the people at Lockheed Martin
- 2:28:30somehow or another had record of you being a part
- 2:28:33of this other program?
- 2:28:34Speaker 1: I figure.
- 2:28:34Speaker 2: And that's one of the reasons why they hired you?
- 2:28:36Speaker 1: I figure. Or my dad knew that. And maybe the
- 2:28:43memory of him telling me was a real memory. I mean,
- 2:28:46so he was working for Department of Energy when I
- 2:28:48was a kid. And I recently had a support group
- 2:28:51meeting like two days ago with the folks who were
- 2:28:53in these programs. And... Someone asked the question, who here
- 2:28:57had parents who worked for either the public school system
- 2:29:00or federal government? And everyone raised their hand. And then
- 2:29:03I said, who here didn't? Like, let's just make sure.
- 2:29:06And no one didn't. And so. Yeah.
- 2:29:11Speaker 2: So the federal government is mining people's children. It seems
- 2:29:15exceptional so that they can use them for whatever they're
- 2:29:18trying to accomplish.
- 2:29:19Speaker 1: Well, or their contractors. And maybe it's like. Excuse me.
- 2:29:27I get burpy when I talk about stuff that's hard. Um,
- 2:29:32you know, maybe like I've wanted, I've wanted to work
- 2:29:35for the federal government and I, and I got a
- 2:29:37job offer and everything went through the security clearance process
- 2:29:39and then doge happened. But, but I was recruited four
- 2:29:44days after I filed a FOIA to try to get
- 2:29:46information about that program. And then a couple of days later,
- 2:29:51no more burpy, a couple of days later, um, after
- 2:29:57I passed the first interview, um, I got a note
- 2:30:01from the FOIA people saying, are you sure you want
- 2:30:03us to continue this FOIA request? Four days later. I mean,
- 2:30:07that's not, that's fast for FOIA. Like FOIA is not
- 2:30:10super rapid. And then I said, no, I guess maybe
- 2:30:13not because I was thinking maybe the, um, people who
- 2:30:17were going to hire me maybe didn't want me to
- 2:30:18have an outstanding FOIA request. So I said, maybe not.
- 2:30:20And then three minutes later I got a call from
- 2:30:23the recruiter saying, um, Okay, you've passed to the next level.
- 2:30:27Speaker 2: Oh, wow.
- 2:30:29Speaker 1: Yeah. So I think that there's– now, so I don't
- 2:30:33mean to sound– so the thing that I think was wrong, unethical,
- 2:30:37was not giving students things to ingest and doing experiments
- 2:30:43that remove their memory without consent of parents and the students, right?
- 2:30:47Speaker 2: And this is universal amongst all the other students. They
- 2:30:50all said that they lost memory.
- 2:30:52Speaker 1: Not universal. Nothing is universal. Some actually remember horrible abuse
- 2:30:56that I can't repeat here. But many of them don't
- 2:31:01have amnesiac periods.
- 2:31:02Speaker 2: And was the same with all of them? Was it
- 2:31:07a similar result that they were trying to achieve? Was
- 2:31:09it some sort of exceptional powers that these children had
- 2:31:13or exceptional ability, exceptional cognitive ability? Like what was it?
- 2:31:18Speaker 1: It looks like they were looking for exceptional cognitive ability
- 2:31:21and leadership ability, creative ability, and psychic ability. But no,
- 2:31:28so that's, so, I mean, I just want to say like,
- 2:31:31that's not nefarious to want those things.
- 2:31:33Speaker 2: But it is from children.
- 2:31:35Speaker 1: Right. And so this is the thing that is just like, okay.
- 2:31:37Speaker 2: You're just taking children and making, doing experiments on them.
- 2:31:40It's like, you're fucking weirding them out. They're supposed to
- 2:31:43be playing with their friends and having fun and living
- 2:31:45a normal life. You've all of a sudden changed all
- 2:31:48of that by introducing them to scientific experiments and making
- 2:31:51them drink fucking Pepto-Bismol or whatever they're giving you.
- 2:31:54Speaker 1: Some amnesia.
- 2:31:54Speaker 2: Whatever pink.
- 2:31:56Speaker 1: Or some radioactive thing. I don't know. So I had
- 2:31:58this dream.
- 2:31:59Speaker 2: Radioactive. X-Men type shit.
- 2:32:01Speaker 1: Sorry. Well, right. And so the reason I bring that
- 2:32:04up is I had this. So I know already that
- 2:32:07I'm gifted at dreaming telepathically and precognitively, right? And so
- 2:32:12I know that's true. And then I have this dream.
- 2:32:17After I moved to Washington, D.C., and I'm starting to
- 2:32:19think about working for the federal government, I have this dream.
- 2:32:23I don't have a job yet or even a job offer,
- 2:32:25but this car is following me in the dream. It's
- 2:32:28a red convertible, and there's a guy in the convertible,
- 2:32:31and it has a little FBI badge on it, on
- 2:32:33the car. And I'm like, why are you following me?
- 2:32:35So I just speed up, and he keeps following me.
- 2:32:37He says, hey, we like how spunky you are, but
- 2:32:40call the office. And I go, call the office? I
- 2:32:43don't have a job. And he goes, call the office.
- 2:32:47He's very adamant. And so I'm pissed and I crawl
- 2:32:51up on the hood of the car and I look
- 2:32:53at him, you know, as he's driving, as one does
- 2:32:55in one's dream. I'm very aggressive. And I said, give
- 2:33:00me the phone number. So he gives me the phone
- 2:33:03number and I immediately wake up. I write it down.
- 2:33:06It's the only time it's ever happened to me in
- 2:33:07a dream that a phone number actually corresponds to a
- 2:33:09phone number of a government agency. So I look it up.
- 2:33:11It corresponds to a government agency that monitors radiation exposure.
- 2:33:16And the first document I find online is this document
- 2:33:20about these tests of radiation exposure in humans that started
- 2:33:25in the 70s. And they're like, look, we can't do
- 2:33:28these tests on animals. We have to do them on humans.
- 2:33:31It didn't say like let's give people radiation or it
- 2:33:35didn't say let's give people things that soak up radiation
- 2:33:37and help heal them. It didn't say either of those things.
- 2:33:39It just said we have to do this on humans.
- 2:33:41It was from the Nuclear Defense Agency. And so that
- 2:33:46made me start asking questions about whether this has to
- 2:33:49do with trying to understand the effect of radioactivity. And
- 2:33:53so I looked into a bunch of history, and I
- 2:33:57found out that my mom grew up really poor. Both
- 2:34:01her parents worked at a uranium mining facility in Denver. And,
- 2:34:06of course, her mother was a secretary, but her father
- 2:34:09was a miner. And he would come home with, you know,
- 2:34:12uranium dust on his boots. And so there's, there's intergenerational exposure, right?
- 2:34:20So if you're, if you're a parent, if your mother,
- 2:34:22especially because, you know, the eggs are, she was like
- 2:34:25seven or so, but the, if the eggs are in you,
- 2:34:27your whole life as a woman, right? And so if
- 2:34:29they get mutated, I could see now, oh, I would
- 2:34:33potentially be studied and my sister as well. So then
- 2:34:38I started looking at all these places where these programs developed.
- 2:34:41The very first SOAR program was in the 70s and
- 2:34:47started in Aiken, South Carolina. I found a bunch of
- 2:34:50newspaper articles about it. SOAR at the time stood for,
- 2:34:53get this, Students on Active Research. Like, let's just call
- 2:34:59it what it is. Out loud, publicly.
- 2:35:02Speaker 2: That's crazy. Yeah.
- 2:35:03Speaker 1: So by the time it got to me up in Illinois,
- 2:35:06it was called Scholarly Opportunities in the Academic Realm.
- 2:35:11Speaker 2: Active research is too creepy for people. Oh, yeah. What, baby? Yeah.
- 2:35:14Speaker 1: But anyway, Aiken, South Carolina is right next to the
- 2:35:18Savannah River nuclear facility that processed plutonium. And then there
- 2:35:24were a bunch of people who were in the SOAR
- 2:35:25program in Nevada, which is obviously a nuclear test site.
- 2:35:29And then I talked to a friend who– who knows
- 2:35:32a bunch of special forces guys, but he grew up
- 2:35:35in a place where they had these weird radioactivity, like
- 2:35:39actual containers, like in their school, like storage bins in
- 2:35:43their school, which is just weird. And he was in
- 2:35:46one of these programs and his friend was in one
- 2:35:47of these programs. And so I think there might be
- 2:35:50something related to that. And I don't know how all
- 2:35:52this stuff ties in, but the story I'm, again, this
- 2:35:56is just speculation and based on The receipts that I
- 2:35:59found and putting things together could all be wrong and
- 2:36:02some of the– my good friends in the intelligence community
- 2:36:04think it's pretty nuts. But regardless, I would want to
- 2:36:09understand the effects of radiation on the human mind. Maybe
- 2:36:13it could make positive things happen like the X-ray.
- 2:36:16Speaker 2: At low level.
- 2:36:16Speaker 1: At low levels.
- 2:36:17Speaker 2: Right.
- 2:36:18Speaker 1: Right? I mean I'm– as a cognitive neuroscientist, I get it.
- 2:36:22But you just have to ask for consent. You have
- 2:36:24to talk about the risks. You have to be clear
- 2:36:26about it. And you don't– it's clear that there's a
- 2:36:29file that kind of follows you, right, when you're in
- 2:36:31these programs.
- 2:36:32Speaker 2: Well, it's also very clear that if you look at
- 2:36:34the history of MKUltra, their whole motive operandi was just
- 2:36:38do everything you want to do. Don't ask for permission.
- 2:36:41Speaker 1: Well, yeah.
- 2:36:41Speaker 2: Just do it to people. Operation Midnight Climax, all those
- 2:36:44crazy things that they were doing.
- 2:36:45Speaker 1: But they shut it down. They were doing it to
- 2:36:47a lot of intelligence community officers. They said, OK, don't
- 2:36:49do that anymore. So let's do it to prisoners. Okay,
- 2:36:52don't do that anymore. Let's do it to children. Who's
- 2:36:55going to– it's the 70s. Who's going to say anything?
- 2:36:58Speaker 2: I bet foster kids.
- 2:36:59Speaker 1: Well, yeah, and people like me whose families were breaking
- 2:37:02up and also you're in the public school and your
- 2:37:06parents are trying to hold their shit together. So they
- 2:37:10don't know what's going on. So, yeah, it's unethical, probably illegal.
- 2:37:18And I understand that it may be for good reasons.
- 2:37:20I mean, I think all those things are true. And
- 2:37:23I think it's interesting that if you talk to kids
- 2:37:25who went to the gifted programs in the D.C. area
- 2:37:29in that same generation— they say none of this stuff
- 2:37:32happened to them, which is a red flag. It's like
- 2:37:36you wouldn't want to do it to the executives that
- 2:37:38are living in the D.C. area, right? The executives in
- 2:37:41the intelligence community and in those contractors. So you wouldn't
- 2:37:45want to do it to those kids because those are
- 2:37:47the kids of the executives.
- 2:37:48Speaker 2: Right. Ew.
- 2:37:51Speaker 1: I know.
- 2:37:51Speaker 2: Ew.
- 2:37:53Speaker 1: I know.
- 2:37:54Speaker 2: But, I mean, isn't that always the case? Like, that's
- 2:37:57also why those are the ones that don't get drafted? Yeah.
- 2:38:00Speaker 1: No, it's the privilege, yeah. Yeah.
- 2:38:02Speaker 2: It's creepy.
- 2:38:03Speaker 1: Yeah, I know. It can go down a really bad
- 2:38:05rabbit hole, but that's what made me want to, all
- 2:38:09this kind of, Difficulty in my early childhood brought some
- 2:38:15clarity and also, I guess, probably my psychic abilities or
- 2:38:19my precognitive abilities as an adult has brought some clarity
- 2:38:24around what really matters and what we can do to improve.
- 2:38:28make the world a better place and how we can
- 2:38:31heal all that. Because every single person in that equation
- 2:38:35was doing the best they could, even if they were
- 2:38:37making shitty choices. You know, like someone, I can imagine
- 2:38:42the counselor who knows what's going on, whatever they're doing
- 2:38:44to me in that room, I can imagine she, you know,
- 2:38:47felt like, okay, I have to do this for the country.
- 2:38:50Speaker 2: To get results, to find out.
- 2:38:51Speaker 1: Yeah, we need to do this for the country and
- 2:38:53we need to do this for humanity. You know? And so...
- 2:38:57there's a lot of forgiveness. Like every once in a while,
- 2:39:00I'll just send love back in time.
- 2:39:02Speaker 2: Well, that's a very balanced view. Now I understand why
- 2:39:05what you were talking about, like your youthful experience that
- 2:39:09you would want to live it over again so you
- 2:39:11could forgive people and get over the trauma of it.
- 2:39:14Now I understand.
- 2:39:15Speaker 1: Yeah. Yeah. Well, that's why I'm wearing the shirt because
- 2:39:18I started.
- 2:39:18Speaker 2: Applied Love Labs.
- 2:39:20Speaker 1: Yeah. I started that nonprofit in 2019. And what we
- 2:39:24do is we apply love, weaving it through time. In
- 2:39:29like technology and events and curricula. So I would love
- 2:39:33to show off one of our coolest things. Can you
- 2:39:36go to timemachine.love? We built a time machine. Whoa. So
- 2:39:43we actually use this with some native tribes and with
- 2:39:48some– there it is.
- 2:39:49Speaker 2: Enter your time machine.
- 2:39:51Speaker 1: Yeah.
- 2:39:51Speaker 2: So what is this?
- 2:39:52Speaker 1: So this is– it's like a journaling, an audio journaling app.
- 2:39:58that essentially prompts you to give messages to yourself. And
- 2:40:02it says it's going into your time machine. And then
- 2:40:04later it comes out and you hear yourself and it
- 2:40:06has a, in the future, it has a bizarre impact
- 2:40:10because what happens is we're not used to hearing, we're
- 2:40:14used to getting little messages from ourselves.
- 2:40:16Speaker 2: Like written, but not your actual self talking to yourself.
- 2:40:19Speaker 1: Yeah. And it changes people. And it seems to be
- 2:40:22a real favorite of veterans. And, uh, People who have
- 2:40:27experienced addiction and abuse and any kind of situation where
- 2:40:30they could say, like, I'm going to be here tomorrow
- 2:40:32and these are the choices I'd like to make. And
- 2:40:35I'd like to love myself and I'd like to feel
- 2:40:38love for other people. So we've used it at the
- 2:40:41Cook County Jail with a group of people there who
- 2:40:45really found it powerful and with a couple of Native tribes.
- 2:40:50who would like to change it a little bit and
- 2:40:52make it fit their culture a little better. But still,
- 2:40:57it looks like unconditional love itself, like from the math,
- 2:41:01if you look at the statistics of the results of
- 2:41:02this experiment we did, it looks like unconditional love itself
- 2:41:06caused a huge shift along with someone's time perspective in
- 2:41:12which they started to include more, like started to love
- 2:41:15themselves over time more. Like it's like a big bubble
- 2:41:17that extends over time.
- 2:41:19Speaker 2: That makes sense.
- 2:41:20Speaker 1: Yeah. Yeah.
- 2:41:22Speaker 2: Makes sense.
- 2:41:22Speaker 1: It totally makes sense. And it's how I handled– I
- 2:41:26sort of wanted to make that up because that's how
- 2:41:29I handled my childhood abuse.
- 2:41:32Speaker 2: Can I get your book again?
- 2:41:33Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah.
- 2:41:33Speaker 2: I feel like we just scratched the surface here. We've
- 2:41:35already killed three.
- 2:41:36Speaker 1: Hours, but I feel like– It's been three hours?
- 2:41:38Speaker 2: No. Close to it, yeah. I feel like you and
- 2:41:41I could do a bunch of these. So let's do
- 2:41:44another one.
- 2:41:44Speaker 1: I would love that.
- 2:41:45Speaker 2: Let's definitely– because I feel like we didn't even talk
- 2:41:47about remote viewings.
- 2:41:48Speaker 1: Oh, let's just do a whole show on that because
- 2:41:50I was a teacher of it and then I'm an
- 2:41:52experimenter and then I have a team.
- 2:41:54Speaker 2: Next time you come in, for sure.
- 2:41:55Speaker 1: Okay.
- 2:41:55Speaker 2: We'll do that.
- 2:41:56Speaker 1: Yeah.
- 2:41:56Speaker 2: Thank you very much. This was a lot of fun.
- 2:41:58I really enjoyed it.
- 2:41:59Speaker 1: Joe, excellent.
- 2:42:00Speaker 2: And the book is called Have a Nice Disclosure, Julian Mossbridge, PhD,
- 2:42:04right there. Go get it. Thank you. Did you do
- 2:42:06an audio book?
- 2:42:07Speaker 1: I did.
- 2:42:08Speaker 2: Did you read it?
- 2:42:08Speaker 1: I gave you a free copy. It's me. Yes. I
- 2:42:11don't like audiobooks where it's not the person.
- 2:42:13Speaker 2: I agree.
- 2:42:13Speaker 1: It's like so stupid. And the publishing companies will tell you, no,
- 2:42:17you have to have this actor do it. And I'm like, no,
- 2:42:19because you can hear when you listen if it's that person.
- 2:42:22Speaker 2: Exactly.
- 2:42:23Speaker 1: Yeah. I agree.
- 2:42:24Speaker 2: I'm glad you did it.
- 2:42:25Speaker 1: Yeah. All right.
- 2:42:25Speaker 2: I'll listen to it. Bye, everybody.
- 2:42:28Speaker 1: Bye. Bye.