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31| How I Went From Feeling Like the Weakest Link to Discovering My Inner Strength · The Wild Woman Within: Recover from Burnout & Achieve True Work-Life Balance Through Feminine Energy

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SPEAKER_00: Hi! Uh welcome to the Fitsin project.
0:05
SPEAKER_00: Hope you had a really awesome Halloween and a really great weekend.
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SPEAKER_00: I know I did and it was super amazing here.
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SPEAKER_00: So as most of you know, if you don't, now you do.
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SPEAKER_00: I live in Kentucky in the central part of the state.
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SPEAKER_00: And it is such a sweet time of year to be here because like the fall foliage is everywhere.
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SPEAKER_00: It is so beautiful here.
0:31
SPEAKER_00: But Halloween is also kind of like its own romance because you do have like the perfect fall weather, the perfect um, everything is just beautiful.
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SPEAKER_00: Libra set up the entire month for Halloween just because you have everything is just showing off in the month of October, not just the costumes, not just the people walking around feeling all great and silly within themselves, but like also just like the kids, man, that are just having a blast.
1:05
SPEAKER_00: And that fine line between letting your kid have all the candy and go go get more, go get more.
1:13
SPEAKER_00: And then also, like, you can't eat that much candy in a day.
1:17
SPEAKER_00: So yeah, Halloween is like now my um favorite holiday to hate because of the candy and the unruliness, but then also it's like my favorite holiday to love because it's just so pretty, and it's like the turning of the seasons, everything's coming into itself, and everything gets to come back home.
1:37
SPEAKER_00: It gets to come back home, and um the changing of the leaves are really what does it for me.
1:43
SPEAKER_00: Everything's turning back inward, so it's what this podcast is about today, and I'm happy to share this moment with you because it has been something that I've yet to really process through, and I'm still kind of processing my time, but I'm gonna do that in real time with you today, and also while acknowledging that we are our most important project, right?
2:13
SPEAKER_00: Like it's the whole reason of the season being in the business of ourselves, really like fortifying ourselves and coming into full fruition, maybe us turning into the beautiful leaves that we know that we are and that we know that we create, and letting it go all in the same breath, all in the same root system.
2:32
SPEAKER_00: How amazing is that! So before I get started, I want to talk through some ways that you can check out some things that I'm doing.
2:41
SPEAKER_00: I have a really awesome free guide for you guys, and I just created it is it fits into prioritize.
2:50
SPEAKER_00: I set up four quadrants so that you can acknowledge where you are in life and what it is you desire, and make some tiny, tiny movements to get into that desired state and start receiving all the things that you desire by these tiny little movements.
3:10
SPEAKER_00: So, like I broke it down.
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SPEAKER_00: This is exactly kind of how I move through life, and it is really fun to do just to even acknowledge like one small thing.
3:19
SPEAKER_00: I mean, let's say you really want to get your car washed, for example, and you don't have the time.
3:24
SPEAKER_00: Well, this is gonna help you identify where you can make the time for something so small as to wash your car, right?
3:30
SPEAKER_00: So it all starts with baby steps.
3:33
SPEAKER_00: And with the baby steps, uh, I can't even begin to explain the theme of all of this that's going on in my life, even with the fits and quadrant and noticing where I'm at and where I'm going and how life is going.
3:48
SPEAKER_00: And man, it's just juicy right now.
3:51
SPEAKER_00: It's really juicy.
3:52
SPEAKER_00: And but before I dive into that even more, um, wanted to give a big shout out to my mentor, Kathy Heller.
4:00
SPEAKER_00: Of course, I talk about her in every single podcast because honestly, if it wasn't for her, I wouldn't be doing it.
4:05
SPEAKER_00: And I'll say that till the day I die.
4:07
SPEAKER_00: But maybe doing it right now.
4:09
SPEAKER_00: How about that?
4:10
SPEAKER_00: I wouldn't be doing it right now.
4:12
SPEAKER_00: Maybe I'd be doing it like five years or so, but I wouldn't be six months in this amazing project.
4:19
SPEAKER_00: Like the Fitzin project has six months of life.
4:22
SPEAKER_00: You guys are my little Fitsies, and you've like brought this into life for six months, and how freaking cool is that?
4:29
SPEAKER_00: Like, I don't know that I when I started this, I was gonna be like, Yeah, in six months I'm gonna be celebrating really cool, really cool stuff.
4:38
SPEAKER_00: But I am, and it's exciting, man.
4:42
SPEAKER_00: It's exciting to keep it going and keep it um moving, keep the trade moving, so to speak.
4:48
SPEAKER_00: And I am creating even more now, you know?
4:52
SPEAKER_00: So there's a wait list right now.
4:55
SPEAKER_00: I'd love for you to jump in on it, I'd love for you to come on into the community even deeper than what this podcast offers.
5:04
SPEAKER_00: And it's the Fitz and Revolution wait list, and that starts January 1st.
5:08
SPEAKER_00: And I'm gonna tell you all about it.
5:11
SPEAKER_00: It's basically a monthly subscription starting out at$33 a month.
5:17
SPEAKER_00: And when you're in it, I'll be dropping you some yoga downloads.
5:23
SPEAKER_00: You'll have a specialized email list straight from me to you, full access on.
5:29
SPEAKER_00: And I have my uh lighthouse.
5:33
SPEAKER_00: That's right.
5:34
SPEAKER_00: I have a lighthouse of my my besties.
5:36
SPEAKER_00: We're in this lighthouse, performing this lighthouse.
5:39
SPEAKER_00: We've got Gwen Fitzpatrick and Celeste No, and both of them offer their own special touches in this membership, and they'll be dropping in once a month to give you uh Reiki and group coaching sessions.
5:53
SPEAKER_00: So, with this in this lighthouse, they just will be part of the Fitz and Revolution when they drop in on their monthly drops.
6:01
SPEAKER_00: But we have, if you want to meet them, you want to be part of it, you want to see what even this is about, we've got a special presence over presence coming out November 15th.
6:11
SPEAKER_00: And I would love you guys to do this with us.
6:17
SPEAKER_00: It is um a coaching call, basically, that Gwen will be doing, and it will have some yoga led by me and meditation, and we'll tap into the energy segment with the Reiki and Celessa.
6:33
SPEAKER_00: So I have the link in the show notes to sign up for that.
6:36
SPEAKER_00: You are going to walk away with so much as far as a transformation, as far as how to come into the holidays and be fully yourself, how to be authentic around people you've never been allowed to be authentic around.
6:51
SPEAKER_00: Like, how empowering does that feel?
6:54
SPEAKER_00: Right?
6:54
SPEAKER_00: Like it feels really good to even say that out loud, to even pose the question how to feel authentic around people you've never been allowed to be authentic around.
7:05
SPEAKER_00: Oof, drink that in.
7:09
SPEAKER_00: You'll be getting more of that.
7:10
SPEAKER_00: We're gonna let you walk away with these tools, these techniques, and give you this reset you need November the 15th.
7:17
SPEAKER_00: So I would love to see you there.
7:19
SPEAKER_00: And the best part about it is you pay in to get into that um coaching call November 15th, 10:30 to noon, and 10 people get to walk away with free, five free sessions of one-on-one coaching with Gwen.
7:38
SPEAKER_00: The first 10 people to sign up get five free sessions of one-on-one coaching with Gwen to the end of the year.
7:46
SPEAKER_00: So it's kind of like a no-brainer.
7:48
SPEAKER_00: I don't know what you're waiting for.
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SPEAKER_00: You could go ahead and pause, and then you can go down the show notes.
7:52
SPEAKER_00: You can sign up for November 15th, and boom, you'll be in.
7:55
SPEAKER_00: And then you'll get to meet all of the beautiful people in this lighthouse that are going to be dropping into the FITS and Revolution coming at you January 1st.
8:04
SPEAKER_00: So that's that, y'all.
8:06
SPEAKER_00: All right.
8:06
SPEAKER_00: So getting into the beef of this podcast today, like coming back into those baby steps, right?
8:13
SPEAKER_00: Like the whole thing about the FITS and quadrant and like how to prioritize your time.
8:18
SPEAKER_00: Really cool um way to identify your do's, don'ts, what lights you up, what doesn't.
8:23
SPEAKER_00: And what I mean, just by looking at what you did and just by feeling into the feeling of where you at or and where you are with those things that you did do.
8:32
SPEAKER_00: So that's what that is.
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SPEAKER_00: But what and how that resonates with today.
8:37
SPEAKER_00: All right.
8:38
SPEAKER_00: So my birthday was mid-October.
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SPEAKER_00: So beyond blessed to have had this time.
8:46
SPEAKER_00: I got to have a yoga retreat.
8:48
SPEAKER_00: I got to pick out um, just like the best ways to spend my birthday with people who really love me and love to be around me, and that I love also in return to be around.
9:06
SPEAKER_00: So it was one of those like amazing, like I can't believe this is my life moments, but this is my life, and I'm so excited and so happy moments.
9:17
SPEAKER_01: Like it's just like this is real.
9:21
SPEAKER_00: So that's kind of exactly how I felt after the retreat, which I'm sure if you listen to part one and part two, uh, you could probably just feel it in your bones.
9:31
SPEAKER_00: But if you haven't listened to it, go for it.
9:34
SPEAKER_01: It's a little bit rusty because we were in a tree house, but please know the energy and the love was all real and it was all like felt and like times 10.
9:45
SPEAKER_00: So yeah.
9:47
SPEAKER_00: Um, with that, Josh got me some tickets and we went to see my morning jacket.
9:53
SPEAKER_00: So if you know me, you know that my morning jacket from Louisville, one of my favorite bands of all time.
9:58
SPEAKER_00: I've seen them so many times.
10:02
SPEAKER_00: So I turned 39.
10:03
SPEAKER_00: I would say maybe I'm guessing here, guesstimation.
10:06
SPEAKER_00: I've seen them 39 times, just to say it out loud.
10:09
SPEAKER_00: And then Josh, that was his first time, so it was even more special, and it was just the perfect fall night under the fall stars, and it was a Monday, and it was just amazing that we got to go see them in um Newport, Kentucky.
10:29
SPEAKER_00: So I was very happy about that, and then I was offered to go backpacking.
10:38
SPEAKER_00: So I spoke about this a little bit at the intro of Daniel Kane's podcast last week, and I want to bring it back into what I'm gonna talk about today and how this has really helped me process like life right now and what that looks and feels like right now, and how it kind of like resonates with the whole collective, right?
11:00
SPEAKER_00: So I was invited to go backpacking by this group.
11:06
SPEAKER_00: Uh, the ambassador, Wendy Berg, she is the Kentucky ambassador for uh Women Who Explore.
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SPEAKER_00: She's an amazing person and just the sweetest soul ever.
11:16
SPEAKER_00: And I teach her in yoga, in like in in real life.
11:20
SPEAKER_00: I teach her yoga.
11:22
SPEAKER_00: And when I get to teach at Plank, she will come to my class.
11:26
SPEAKER_00: And it's always such a treat because she's like, we kind of like energetically we align, right?
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SPEAKER_00: Like it's really cool.
11:36
SPEAKER_00: So one day she was like, We're going backpacking.
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SPEAKER_00: I would love for you to go.
11:40
SPEAKER_00: Well, I have never been backpacking in my life.
11:43
SPEAKER_00: I've gone camping, I've done that, I've done I've deer hunted when I was growing up.
11:48
SPEAKER_00: I've been pretty outdoorsy, um, on and off my whole life, but never really backpacked.
11:55
SPEAKER_00: But I had a backpack and I was like, how hard could it be?
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SPEAKER_01: Sounds like a great idea.
12:02
SPEAKER_01: I think I'll do it.
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SPEAKER_00: Yeah, I have a backpack because I bought it for Europe, and then it turned out to be a pain in my ass because it was too large for what I wanted to pack around in Europe.
12:12
SPEAKER_00: So I took it to the Kentucky Yoga Festival.
12:15
SPEAKER_00: Then I hated it because it didn't fit me right and all this other stuff.
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SPEAKER_00: And I'm like, this is the worst backpack in the world.
12:20
SPEAKER_00: But when I was offered to go backpacking, I'm like, oh yeah, I've got a backpack.
12:24
SPEAKER_00: Let's go.
12:25
SPEAKER_00: Let's let's rub, let's just fill it up with a bunch of shit and get out there and yeah, go me.
12:36
SPEAKER_00: So I was the only one that didn't really know what I was doing.
12:39
SPEAKER_00: And I committed to this.
12:41
SPEAKER_00: And thank God I have a Josh in my life, my MacGyver, is what I love to call him because he literally knows all things about all things when it comes to you know, basically planning anything um that's not technology.
12:57
SPEAKER_00: If if it's planning like finances, technology, career moves, I got you.
13:01
SPEAKER_00: If it's planning anything outside of those three categories, I'm probably leaning on a lot of other people who are a lot smarter than me because like, you know, being resourceful is the best part about being a great leader.
13:13
SPEAKER_00: So I asked Josh, like, I don't really know what I'm supposed to be packing.
13:18
SPEAKER_00: I just know I'm gonna go, I'm gonna have a blast.
13:21
SPEAKER_00: Don't you have all the things?
13:22
SPEAKER_00: Like, you've got everything, right?
13:23
SPEAKER_00: And he's like, uh, no, but here's some articles.
13:27
SPEAKER_00: Read, read some articles.
13:29
SPEAKER_00: So he sends them to me, and so does Wendy, to be fair.
13:32
SPEAKER_00: And um, I didn't read any of them.
13:34
SPEAKER_00: And I was like, yeah, okay.
13:36
SPEAKER_00: First of all, I was really busy.
13:38
SPEAKER_00: And second of all, I was like, I'm just really looking forward to just getting out in nature.
13:43
SPEAKER_00: And I really just need help packing, I think.
13:47
SPEAKER_00: Uh the rest I can handle, right?
13:49
SPEAKER_00: Because like I can trust my body.
13:51
SPEAKER_00: I do yoga every day.
13:53
SPEAKER_00: I can do this.
13:54
SPEAKER_00: So we get out there, and Josh is like, all right, he packs me up the night before.
14:01
SPEAKER_00: We he takes me shopping and helps me get all of my stuff from A to Z.
14:06
SPEAKER_00: Literally, he packs my bag, and then he shows me how to use this first aid kit.
14:11
SPEAKER_00: And I mean, he's got me in there with like sterile gauze and a splint.
14:16
SPEAKER_00: Like the man, I mean, there's reasons of marrying the man, and like this is definitely one of them.
14:21
SPEAKER_00: It's the most attractive thing if they come just like, oh my god, you're so cute, keep going.
14:26
SPEAKER_00: But he like sets me up and he takes me, shows me how to buy, or what not how to buy, but like that I need like freezer food meals and stuff like that, which is really hilarious because like I've never even heard of these things before.
14:42
SPEAKER_00: And then I just think about like all the movies and stuff that I've seen, and I'm like, oh, this is what the army people eat.
14:49
SPEAKER_00: That's right.
14:50
SPEAKER_00: When they're out in the middle of Afghanistan or something like that, they do hard stuff like this.
14:56
SPEAKER_00: So this is just a barely introduction, like not even on the same plane.
15:02
SPEAKER_00: But in my mind, I'm like, I'm eating what army people will eat when they're out in Afghanistan.
15:07
SPEAKER_00: So that's okay, and they are strong, and they are all they have a lot of muscles, so like it can't be that bad, right?
15:15
SPEAKER_00: So freezer food, it is freezer drive freeze packs of food, it is.
15:20
SPEAKER_00: That's basically what it was called.
15:23
SPEAKER_00: So, anyway, got some of that stuff, got some um packing utensils, and he had everything else, like he had his uh tent because he's kind of like this.
15:36
SPEAKER_00: Um he's in a motorcycle club and he has to sleep outside sometimes when they go and do motorcycle stuff.
15:43
SPEAKER_00: And it's really fun to like listen to his stories, and then he sends me pictures when he's gone and he's like, Oh, I'm all set up, I'm all cozy in my tent.
15:51
SPEAKER_00: And this whole time he's out and about, I'm like really cozy in my house.
15:54
SPEAKER_00: And I'm like, that must suck.
15:56
SPEAKER_01: You're like in your tent by yourself, and like I know it's cold and rainy, but whatever.
16:03
SPEAKER_01: So that's the tin I took, and it was great.
16:06
SPEAKER_00: So I was sleeping at and um I had a bag uh or uh what did I have?
16:12
SPEAKER_00: A sleeping bag.
16:13
SPEAKER_00: Yeah, I bought a really awesome sleeping bag off Amazon.
16:16
SPEAKER_00: I was very happy that I had that thing, and it was absolutely amazing.
16:21
SPEAKER_00: It was a Kelty and it was Gelch down to 20 degrees and a down.
16:24
SPEAKER_00: I did not freeze, by the way.
16:26
SPEAKER_00: Anyway, the sleeping bag of school.
16:28
SPEAKER_00: That was the only other thing that I actually needed to buy.
16:31
SPEAKER_00: And then he had all the other stuff.
16:32
SPEAKER_00: So lo and behold, he packed my shit and then I got to go.
16:35
SPEAKER_00: And then I was a bit late meeting the ladies the next morning, and mainly because I timed the time, but in my mind, I read that it was two and a half hours away, and I would have an extra 10 minutes if I left two and a half hours early, or then the meet time.
16:55
SPEAKER_00: But in reality, it was I was two hours and 40 minutes away with no extra time.
17:02
SPEAKER_00: It was just straight two hours and 40 minutes.
17:04
SPEAKER_00: So there's where um problem one probably happened.
17:09
SPEAKER_00: Um, I mean, before all the other problems that I just mentioned about me being a ding dong signing up for something I had no idea what I was getting into, and you know, no need to rehash.
17:20
SPEAKER_00: So yeah, so I was a bit late meeting the ladies, and I was like, I promise you're not gonna wait on me the whole entire time.
17:26
SPEAKER_00: I'm pretty, I'm pretty strong.
17:27
SPEAKER_00: I got this, I can do this.
17:29
SPEAKER_00: Yeah, so I did.
17:31
SPEAKER_00: They seemed real chill, nobody cared that I was about I was eight minutes late.
17:36
SPEAKER_00: I made good timing.
17:37
SPEAKER_00: My mom's Cadillac drives like a little race car, it was a little bit uh Mario Andre getting there, but hey, it was a good time.
17:43
SPEAKER_00: And when we got there, we drove to the other side, and I went to the restroom, got another snack because I was a bit hungry, got another water, downed it, because you know, what if I run out of water?
17:56
SPEAKER_00: I might as well fill up in my belly right now.
17:59
SPEAKER_00: So could have been another mistake, I don't know.
18:03
SPEAKER_00: But uh, we get to the thing and we s take our picture at the beginning of the trail, and we go and look at the map, and she goes, We're here, and we are gonna go all the way down here.
18:17
SPEAKER_00: And I'm like, that is a lot of footsteps, it's a lot of miles.
18:25
SPEAKER_00: So um, all right, I'm here, let's go.
18:29
SPEAKER_00: Let's let's do it.
18:30
SPEAKER_00: So we get to start and uh we start talking and um yeah, I'm out of breath.
18:40
SPEAKER_00: Like my bag is 35 pounds, we're in it for like 10 minutes.
18:45
SPEAKER_00: I'm so winded.
18:48
SPEAKER_00: So immediately I'm starting like my yoga mantras, just breathe, you know.
18:53
SPEAKER_00: What would I tell myself if I was on my mat and I was the teacher?
18:57
SPEAKER_00: And that's how that came into play.
18:59
SPEAKER_00: Like, breathe.
19:01
SPEAKER_00: It's okay.
19:02
SPEAKER_00: You're fine, your body's just moving in an uncomfortable situation.
19:06
SPEAKER_00: I wasn't in pain, I was just never, I had just never done this before, especially with 35 pounds on my back.
19:13
SPEAKER_00: So I'm walking, talking, and then noticing like I'm really out of breath because I'm the only one talking.
19:21
SPEAKER_00: Like, I don't even really know these people.
19:23
SPEAKER_00: Also, I just had met uh Rita, super sweet lady.
19:27
SPEAKER_00: Like I met her when I showed up, and then I met um Wendy at Yoga for sure.
19:32
SPEAKER_00: Um we did, you know, I was her teacher, but um, that was pretty much it.
19:37
SPEAKER_00: That was really the only interactions we had.
19:39
SPEAKER_00: So, you know, basically just meeting these women and they're great, and knowing that they're part of a bigger organization was comfort enough.
19:48
SPEAKER_00: I didn't really need much.
19:49
SPEAKER_00: I plus, like, you know, Josh packed my case, I was totally fine.
19:54
SPEAKER_00: So as we're walking and I'm out of breath, I'm I tripped and like I don't know if I've I was just like really comfortable walking on the edge, but my whole left side slid down and I was like, oh get down before I like rolled off the cliff.
20:10
SPEAKER_00: But then I got down and I got down on my right knee, and then I'm like, oh shit.
20:15
SPEAKER_00: I you know, try to get back up and it's fine.
20:17
SPEAKER_00: It hurt a little bit, mainly my pride, and we just kept going.
20:22
SPEAKER_00: So as we're going through, I'm noticing a whole lot.
20:27
SPEAKER_00: No one else is really talking.
20:29
SPEAKER_00: I'm actually the one on the struggle bus and like the weakest link of all of us.
20:34
SPEAKER_00: And I um started getting into my head about being uh not good enough for this and underqualified and oh damn, I shouldn't have done this.
20:47
SPEAKER_00: Like playing playing the the mean Rachel games in my head that I can be so good at playing.
20:55
SPEAKER_00: So um as I'm talking to myself in a negative way, I'm also realizing what that's doing to my body.
21:05
SPEAKER_00: And I'm wanting to stop more, wanting to get more drinks.
21:10
SPEAKER_00: I mean, not to also mention y'all, we were um trekking the goal for the first day was nine miles, and um overall total of this hike was 4400 feet in elevation.
21:26
SPEAKER_00: I didn't really know any of this going in.
21:29
SPEAKER_00: I was sent the information, I was just the dumb dumb that didn't read any of it because you know I didn't have time, right?
21:39
SPEAKER_00: Is it all coming back and all trying to make sense?
21:42
SPEAKER_00: Probably should have done my own fits and quadrant.
21:45
SPEAKER_00: Yes, I should have because I could have been a little bit more mentally prepared for the rest of what was going on.
21:54
SPEAKER_00: So as I'm talking shitty to myself, I realized that my body is acting up and I need to stop.
22:02
SPEAKER_00: Like I just needed to quit.
22:04
SPEAKER_00: So I took off my coat, took off my vest, took off my hat, you know, and put on an actual hat and just kind of ponied up.
22:14
SPEAKER_00: You know what I mean?
22:15
SPEAKER_00: Like, enough is enough.
22:17
SPEAKER_00: You're in it already.
22:18
SPEAKER_00: We were about three miles in at this point, and I was like, I'm just gonna change my socks, and I did, and I'm just we're just gonna keep going, and I'm not gonna talk to myself like this anymore.
22:34
SPEAKER_00: You know why?
22:34
SPEAKER_00: Because my body is here and I'm doing it and it's strong, and that's the the key.
22:39
SPEAKER_00: The key is it's mental awareness when I'm when I'm out here, because now there's nobody really coming to get me.
22:48
SPEAKER_00: If I'm getting out of here, it's on my own two feet.
22:51
SPEAKER_00: And you know what?
22:52
SPEAKER_00: It's gonna be tomorrow when we're all done and we're all getting out together.
22:56
SPEAKER_00: So that was the new game plan that I had made in my head and the new conversation that I was having.
23:03
SPEAKER_00: And I'm so thankful that I did that because that made the biggest difference.
23:10
SPEAKER_00: Moving through one of the hardest, most physical, physically hard things I've ever done in my life.
23:16
SPEAKER_00: Now I've had a child, but it was a C-section, not that physically hard to get cut open on medicine.
23:22
SPEAKER_00: The recovery part, definitely physically hard, raising a kid, emotionally hard.
23:26
SPEAKER_00: Physically, this is the most physical I've ever done anything on anything on anything.
23:36
SPEAKER_00: This is the epitome of all of the things I've ever done.
23:40
SPEAKER_00: So three miles in, we're going, and we're getting it.
23:45
SPEAKER_00: We get to this um shack, and at the shack it's the Aena.
23:52
SPEAKER_00: It was a the Adena Shack or something like that.
23:54
SPEAKER_00: I don't know, probably should have still read the thing, but I didn't even still read the thing because it's over now, it's pointless.
24:00
SPEAKER_00: Like go back and rehash it.
24:02
SPEAKER_00: But anyway, went to this Adena Shack and it was cool, but also kind of creepy.
24:08
SPEAKER_00: And then I felt my intuition hitting in in different places, in different steps, and it was really bizarre being so aware, like in this like chakra awareness for so long.
24:25
SPEAKER_00: Like I can get there when I meditate and I can sit in it for 15, 20 minutes.
24:31
SPEAKER_00: But this was hours of being in this awareness.
24:35
SPEAKER_00: Like I could feel my solar plexus, I could feel my throat, I could feel my heart, I could feel my third eye, I could feel the crown, like every bit of it from the crown to the root, like all of that was just so open.
24:50
SPEAKER_00: And it had me so in tune and so aware.
24:53
SPEAKER_00: And it was because I was beginning, I was speaking nice to myself.
24:57
SPEAKER_00: I was doing it, I was breathing the cleanest oxygen air in the state of Kentucky.
25:03
SPEAKER_00: It was so wonderful.
25:06
SPEAKER_00: But when we got to this shack, some things felt really weird.
25:10
SPEAKER_00: There was a man there, and he was there alone, looked like he'd been there for a day or a day, maybe more.
25:19
SPEAKER_00: I don't know, definitely a bit.
25:20
SPEAKER_00: I mean, to have his clothes hung up and stuff like that was really kind of odd and like a public place that like no tent or anything, and like it's okay, like go sleep in the shack.
25:32
SPEAKER_00: That's what they're for, or for hikers without tents.
25:35
SPEAKER_00: But it was just kind of weird, and like the minimal eye contact that this man would make while having a conversation.
25:42
SPEAKER_00: But all three of us women, we had to go to the outhouse, use whatever.
25:46
SPEAKER_00: But it was just very odd, and we were supposed to stay there for a minute and eat, get our bearings, and like just kind of rest, but we didn't.
25:55
SPEAKER_00: Like, all three of us were like, this is weird.
25:59
SPEAKER_00: We are going to go now, and we did, so we left.
26:03
SPEAKER_00: And I took a picture of this and this, and like I was a bit far away, and as I took the picture, I just left.
26:10
SPEAKER_00: I was taking the picture of the shack.
26:12
SPEAKER_00: Well, the guy was in the picture, the picture wasn't of him at all, or to be of him at all.
26:17
SPEAKER_00: But when I zoomed in on him, he's like looking, his head is down, but his eyes are up, looking at me, taking the picture.
26:25
SPEAKER_00: And now I'm like, does he think we were weird?
26:30
SPEAKER_01: More than likely, he thought we were really weird, as weird as we thought that maybe he we thought about it.
26:39
SPEAKER_00: So yeah, we just kept going, and then we ran into a couple of men, and they had lost their bottle, and they looked like they were having a struggle of a time, much like I was three miles back.
26:54
SPEAKER_00: And I'm like, man, I feel for both of you.
26:57
SPEAKER_00: I didn't tell them that because like I didn't want to look weak, but I did send them that energy, like I feel for you all, because um, I know what I just walked through, and you all look like you're struggling, and I know what is ahead of you, and you're just gonna be struggling a little bit more until you get up to that strange man at that shack, and then you're gonna be okay, but it's um because you got each other, but uh yeah, God speed on y'all.
27:29
SPEAKER_00: So they had lost a water bottle um along the way, and they let us know.
27:37
SPEAKER_00: Well, water was very, very limited from where we had been.
27:42
SPEAKER_00: As a matter of fact, I struggled so much walking from where we had been that I was like, hmm, I would love to have a walking stick.
27:53
SPEAKER_00: And as we were going, I looked down on the trail right in front of me, boom, a walking stick, perfect height, even had like a little V in it cut out for my hand to actually rest in it.
28:05
SPEAKER_00: It was like it was literally dropped from the heavens made for me.
28:09
SPEAKER_00: Okay.
28:09
SPEAKER_00: I start walking with this stick, and then I'm like, mmm, it'd be really nice to have two.
28:16
SPEAKER_00: I'm really feeling out of balance in my back.
28:19
SPEAKER_00: I was just feeling it everywhere.
28:21
SPEAKER_00: I would love to have another walking stick.
28:23
SPEAKER_00: Look down, boom, there it is, on the trail, right in the middle.
28:27
SPEAKER_00: Would have had to walk over it.
28:28
SPEAKER_00: It would have tripped me if I didn't pick it up.
28:30
SPEAKER_00: So I picked it up, and then I had two amazing walking sticks.
28:35
SPEAKER_00: And that's actually when my head just flipped when I started finding ease, when I was receiving the ease of the forest of the hike.
28:45
SPEAKER_00: It was beautiful, and that was before that was uh in between the three miles and that Adina shack.
28:51
SPEAKER_00: So backing up the story a little bit, that's when that happened.
28:55
SPEAKER_00: Like understanding that I had clean air, my lungs, my organs, everything.
29:01
SPEAKER_00: They don't get to breathe this.
29:03
SPEAKER_00: And then I got to have sticks that were provided by the forest that I didn't have to buy or come with, but I'm like, this is exactly what I needed to make these steep hills, like walking up the big elevations and walking down the steep elevations, all within miles of content, really.
29:25
SPEAKER_00: So fast forward through the shack to the men, they're struggling.
29:30
SPEAKER_00: I'm like, oh godspeed, but wish they had walking sticks, but they did have one.
29:35
SPEAKER_00: They each had a real one, probably bought from Dix, that they brought with them.
29:40
SPEAKER_00: So they had dropped their water bottle.
29:44
SPEAKER_00: We told them we'd find it and try to get it back to him.
29:48
SPEAKER_00: So though they gave Wendy, our leader, her his number and we carried on.
29:53
SPEAKER_00: Well, we made it to our swindle campsite and it was nine and a half miles.
30:01
SPEAKER_00: And it was one of the most glorious, momentous, revolutionary feeling of like, I cannot believe I just did this and I'm here and I did it.
30:15
SPEAKER_00: We were standing on the tallest mountain in Kentucky, 4,400 elevation in Appalachia.
30:24
SPEAKER_00: And we had crossed the state line twice and from Kentucky to Virginia in this nine and a half miles to get us to the first stop to our to our campsite.
30:33
SPEAKER_00: And then realizing exactly what that even meant, what that did for me for our for the three of us, like coming together from different parts of the world and working together.
30:46
SPEAKER_00: They stopped for me, they stopped with me, they understood that I was super novice at this, but we made it before dark.
30:56
SPEAKER_00: We got to put our tents up and we got to watch the sunset.
31:00
SPEAKER_00: And that was the whole goal.
31:02
SPEAKER_00: And we did it.
31:03
SPEAKER_00: And it was just like, wow, this is one of the coolest things I think I might have ever done.
31:09
SPEAKER_00: But I know it wasn't by myself.
31:11
SPEAKER_00: And I got to do this.
31:14
SPEAKER_00: I got to do this fully supported, you know, with Josh helping me get there, with Wendy guiding us, with Rita supporting in her positivity, with Theo, you know, being as sweet as possible.
31:31
SPEAKER_00: I mean, just being fully supported so I can rise to the tallest mountain in this most beautiful state.
31:40
SPEAKER_00: I wish I had more words to really capture in the moment, to get to see like an overlook these cities and what looks like mums of rolling hills of Kentucky in the most beautiful fall foliage you've ever could imagine.
31:57
SPEAKER_00: I am just still reeling from getting to even see it all.
32:03
SPEAKER_00: Like taking it all in.
32:05
SPEAKER_00: Almost as if we could reach up and like, there's the star.
32:08
SPEAKER_00: How about I just put it in my hand and give it to you like a present?
32:11
SPEAKER_00: That's what this felt like.
32:13
SPEAKER_00: Like it was just so wow.
32:15
SPEAKER_00: So we put up our camp.
32:17
SPEAKER_00: That's easy.
32:18
SPEAKER_00: That's stuff I know how to do.
32:20
SPEAKER_00: I know how to get the water boiling and do all the stuff, and don't really have to train me to eat.
32:27
SPEAKER_00: So I figured out the army food pretty quickly.
32:32
SPEAKER_00: And we slept very nicely, nug as a bug.
32:38
SPEAKER_00: And it probably got down to 30-something degrees.
32:43
SPEAKER_00: But none of us were cold.
32:44
SPEAKER_00: We were in the most unique place where the bed or of the the ground was just covered in pine needles, so it was kind of like laying on hay.
32:56
SPEAKER_00: And it was such a gift, like such a gift from God, from source, from the universe, whatever you want to call it.
33:07
SPEAKER_00: Like we were cradled.
33:08
SPEAKER_00: It was such a gift.
33:13
SPEAKER_00: No rain, no wind, just our three tents just right there on top of this gorgeous mountain, the most beautiful view.
33:26
SPEAKER_00: So the next morning we get up and we try to watch the sunrise.
33:30
SPEAKER_00: It was a bit cloudy, but still beautiful.
33:33
SPEAKER_00: We made it, we did it, packed our stuff up and worked on our descent.
33:38
SPEAKER_00: Well, on our way out, we got to see Mars Rock and views that I again cannot put into real words, like these boulders we were on top of.
33:51
SPEAKER_00: We walked to the edge of the boulders just to like see down.
33:54
SPEAKER_00: And we are so high up that we are looking down at 100-year-old treetops just below our feet, but we wouldn't be able to touch, but that's how high up the cliff was.
34:06
SPEAKER_00: And it was there was nothing else higher than us around that we could see in a 360 degrees.
34:12
SPEAKER_00: It was bizarre.
34:14
SPEAKER_00: So while we're up there, it's just one of those like freeing moments, you know, these moments of clarity.
34:23
SPEAKER_00: My body at this state is spent.
34:31
SPEAKER_00: And we're all three just really just happy.
34:37
SPEAKER_00: It's the weirdest thing.
34:39
SPEAKER_00: Like we're really just reveling in the beauty of all of it in the most beautiful day we could have asked for.
34:49
SPEAKER_00: The clouds were perfectly aligned, everything, the breeze wasn't windy, so we could be up there safely.
34:56
SPEAKER_00: It was just so beyond anything.
35:00
SPEAKER_00: And MSM was sitting up there, like it hit me how much goes into planning something like this, or how much goes into doing it.
35:12
SPEAKER_00: It wasn't just about me and my baby steps because I was shuffling my feet.
35:17
SPEAKER_00: I was hurt so bad because not being prepared, not being in shape, all of the things just hurt and feeling broke, but at the same time feeling so much strength, knowing I could make it, baby steps, baby steps.
35:34
SPEAKER_00: And I mean, just shuffling my feet still meant movement.
35:39
SPEAKER_00: And I think that's what I tend to forget.
35:44
SPEAKER_00: And that was the biggest lesson that I learned was that I didn't have to go fast to get out of there.
35:52
SPEAKER_00: I didn't have to go real hard or make big moves to go miles.
35:58
SPEAKER_00: You know, there's a lot to be said in the story of the tortoise and the hare, and how, you know, the tortoise finishes the race slow and steady, right?
36:10
SPEAKER_00: And that's exactly how I felt when we were moving through and out through the forest, slow and steady.
36:16
SPEAKER_00: And while we were all kind of out of water and we still had three miles according to the map left on our hike, it ended up being four and a half miles, because the maps are wrong.
36:30
SPEAKER_00: And anyway, we found the watering hole.
36:33
SPEAKER_00: We get down there.
36:34
SPEAKER_00: We had actually found that man's water cup on the way to the watering hole.
36:40
SPEAKER_00: So we were able to at least tell him about it that we were gonna return it.
36:44
SPEAKER_00: And then when we get to the watering hole, and we're and our leader, she's got the UV light to um clean the light or clean the water with the light, realizes that the UV light's dead.
36:57
SPEAKER_00: Well, I don't have anything to clean the water.
37:00
SPEAKER_00: That's the one thing that Josh did tell me to get, but they didn't have at the store.
37:04
SPEAKER_00: And when he went to the store, they didn't have it there either.
37:07
SPEAKER_00: So I was like, it's fine.
37:08
SPEAKER_00: She's got a UV light, and I she said I could use that.
37:12
SPEAKER_00: Well, lo and behold, the UV light was dead because it's battery operated and it got really cold the night before.
37:19
SPEAKER_00: So our friend Rita, she had a water bottle that had a filter in it, which was great.
37:25
SPEAKER_00: And the bottle that that guy lost was a filtered water bottle.
37:31
SPEAKER_00: Like, how much more divine can this trip get?
37:37
SPEAKER_00: Rita had a water filter bottle, so we were good either way.
37:42
SPEAKER_00: If worse comes to worse.
37:44
SPEAKER_00: But I was out of water, I didn't have a water filter cleaner, anything.
37:48
SPEAKER_00: Wendy had a light cleaner, but dead.
37:52
SPEAKER_00: So when we get our water, she we used her, we used that guy's water bottle.
37:59
SPEAKER_00: I cleaned it off with one of the sterile wipes that I had brought, and Rita had water, and then she let me use her water bottle.
38:07
SPEAKER_00: I was like, how much more could we ask for?
38:11
SPEAKER_00: You know, I got the walking sticks, we got the water, got the perfect view, the perfect weather, and all the support to get us here.
38:21
SPEAKER_00: It doesn't get any better than that.
38:24
SPEAKER_00: Like, and to notice and to be so self-aware and to be so present and to have like the intuition and the chakras just all open.
38:35
SPEAKER_00: Noticing that the little steps are what make the biggest moves.
38:40
SPEAKER_00: The little steps get you the nine miles in and the nine miles out.
38:45
SPEAKER_00: Our hike was 18.8 miles and 4,400 feet of elevation.
38:53
SPEAKER_00: That was my very first backpacking trip.
38:55
SPEAKER_00: Little steps got me in, and little steps got me out, and that's why it is so necessary to understand when you are your most important project and you are in this realm of like noticing and your self-improvement and your like your desires.
39:18
SPEAKER_00: It doesn't it doesn't take a lot, it doesn't take big moves, it doesn't take massive mountains to go, to do it, to have it, to be it.
39:35
SPEAKER_00: It just takes tiny steps to move forward, and I'm so grateful, like just beyond grateful for the opportunity to have gotten to go and for the support that Josh gave me.
39:55
SPEAKER_00: And it just all feels like a gift, like that was the best birthday gift I could have ever asked for.
40:02
SPEAKER_00: It was a very amazing way to begin 39, and I already want to go again and see what more I can do, and it's not about like what more I can do necessarily, but it was so cool seeing what I was made of and bringing back my own wisdom and wise words that I try to give and give and give to everybody else.
40:29
SPEAKER_00: But this was the first time I actually got to take it on myself, and I just am so grateful that I had the opportunity to learn that.
40:38
SPEAKER_00: So I hope that you feel the same and that you can walk away from this conversation, this story, understanding that it's the baby steps that get you to the big goals.
40:53
SPEAKER_00: It's the baby steps that's gonna get you 4,400 feet in elevation, 18.8 miles.
40:58
SPEAKER_00: It's the baby steps that's gonna bring you your desires.
41:01
SPEAKER_00: It's the tiny steps in the fits and quadrant that I'm providing in the show notes that's gonna help you get to where you need to be.
41:09
SPEAKER_00: It's the baby steps that you will discover in this presence over presence on November 15th of how to be around your family or people or through the holidays as your most authentic self.
41:24
SPEAKER_00: It's the baby steps is gonna help you come through the holidays as perhaps it might be your first without a loved one.
41:31
SPEAKER_00: It's the baby steps.
41:34
SPEAKER_00: So there's more to this for sure.
41:38
SPEAKER_00: On November 15th, we're gonna dive into it big time.
41:42
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41:45
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41:56
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42:24
SPEAKER_00: So thank you so much for listening today.
42:28
SPEAKER_00: I do not take that for granted.
42:30
SPEAKER_00: I just want you to know I appreciate this more than you know.
42:34
SPEAKER_00: Your time is the most valuable currency you have got, and it's not lost on me that when you spend it with me once a week, that I totally appreciate it.
42:48
SPEAKER_00: And I love having you here.
42:50
SPEAKER_00: So I hope to talk with you again next week.
42:55
SPEAKER_00: This was fun sharing my little story, and again, check out the show notes.
43:01
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43:06
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43:09
SPEAKER_00: And if you want help breathing through those, I got you.
43:13
SPEAKER_00: All right, until next time.
43:15
SPEAKER_00: Let's bring it in.
43:16
SPEAKER_00: I want to begin this.
43:18
SPEAKER_00: I want to start with all the rest of my podcast just ending and sealing it with an um.