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From Breaking Up to Getting Engaged: My Love Story | Taylor Krause & Isaac Mitchell · Coffee and Bible Time Podcast

• 1:01
  Ellen Krause: At the Coffee and Bible Time podcast.
• 1:03
  Ellen Krause: Our goal is to help you delight in God's Word and thrive in Christian living.
• 1:07
  Ellen Krause: Each week we talk to subject matter experts who broaden your biblical understanding, encourage you in hard times and provide life-building tips to enhance your Christian walk.
• 1:18
  Ellen Krause: We are so glad you have joined us.
• 1:23
  Taylor Krause: Hello and welcome back to the Coffee and Bible Time podcast.
• 1:27
  Taylor Krause: I'm your host, Taylor.
• 1:30
  Taylor Krause: I know you guys were not expecting to hear that.
• 1:33
  Taylor Krause: Mentor Mama usually is the one hosting our amazing podcast.
• 1:37
  Taylor Krause: She's really the person who has made it what it is.
• 1:42
  Taylor Krause: And so, Mentor Mama, thank you for giving me a chance to take the stage today, because I think that this podcast is going to be a special one.
• 1:53
  Taylor Krause: It is going to be a once-in-a-lifetime podcast, if you will.
• 1:58
  Taylor Krause: because today we're going to be sharing, me and my special guest, Isaac Mitchell, about our relationship and the story of our relationship, so I would like to welcome Isaac.
• 2:17
  Taylor Krause: Hello Isaac, how do you feel being here on the podcast?
• 2:19
  Isaac Mitchell: I feel great.
• 2:20
  Isaac Mitchell: Thank you so much for having me.
• 2:22
  Taylor Krause: It's kind of fun talking into microphones, isn't it?
• 2:24
  Isaac Mitchell: Yeah, I always enjoy it, unless it's in front of a group of people, then I don't like it.
• 2:29
  Taylor Krause: Oh yeah.
• 2:30
  Isaac Mitchell: Then it's a little bit, but for recording purposes I like it.
• 2:33
  Taylor Krause: Nice, amazing, I'm so glad to have you.
• 2:35
  Taylor Krause: It feels very special.
• 2:36
  Taylor Krause: We're not actually together in the same room right now, so we're kind of doing this digitally.
• 2:41
  Taylor Krause: But, like I said, today we're going to be sharing our story and, as many of you guys know those of you that have been in successful relationships or maybe you've been in several relationships that are not with your person you know that love has its ups and downs and I believe that our story is no different.
• 3:00
  Taylor Krause: We had a lot of ups and downs and I think that our story is no different.
• 3:01
  Taylor Krause: We had a lot of ups and downs and I think that there's a lot of power in sharing our story and anybody sharing their love story and how God has worked through that, how God has really worked through the brokenness of our own depravity, and really, I think any successful relationship is all by the grace of God and by his strength.
• 3:24
  Taylor Krause: And, yeah, so, needless to say, I think that we are so thankful, so grateful, that love ultimately prevailed in our relationship, and love is a gift from God.
• 3:39
  Taylor Krause: So I'm really glad to be able to share that with you, isaac, especially despite a breakup.
• 3:45
  Taylor Krause: So today we're going to be talking about our story and here's kind of a tiny little breakdown preview.
• 3:52
  Taylor Krause: We're going to be sharing how we met.
• 3:54
  Taylor Krause: I think we're going to share a little bit of our rose colored glasses phase, you will and uh, how they came off, how the rose colored glasses came off and, of course, why we chose to break up.
• 4:08
  Taylor Krause: Um, for many of you guys you know we did end up breaking up in the middle of our relationship, as well as what we did during that time and then how we knew it was time to get back together.
• 4:19
  Taylor Krause: And, of course, now that I am recently engaged which did I mention that that's probably I don't think you did.
• 4:26
  Taylor Krause: Oops.
• 4:27
  Taylor Krause: Well, you know what?
• 4:28
  Taylor Krause: Here I'll say this If you follow us on Instagram, then you know that I got engaged.
• 4:32
  Taylor Krause: If you don't, then hey, I'm engaged.
• 4:36
  Isaac Mitchell: Who'd you get engaged to?
• 4:39
  Taylor Krause: You.
• 4:39
  Taylor Krause: I'm really thankful.
• 4:43
  Taylor Krause: Let's just say I've been waiting for this for a long time.
• 4:45
  Taylor Krause: I knew you were the one immediately, but anyways.
• 4:50
  Isaac Mitchell: I will just.
• 4:50
  Isaac Mitchell: Why don't you explain how you came to that conclusion?
• 4:54
  Taylor Krause: Oh, I totally will.
• 4:56
  Taylor Krause: I totally will.
• 4:57
  Taylor Krause: But I want to say really quickly yeah, we'll talk a little bit about the proposal and then plans for the future.
• 5:02
  Taylor Krause: So that's kind of what we were thinking about going for the direction of this podcast.
• 5:06
  Taylor Krause: But why don't we first start off by sharing how we met Isaac?
• 5:11
  Taylor Krause: You can take the stage.
• 5:14
  Isaac Mitchell: Sure, well, I had just, with my friends at Moody Bible Institute, we all had just created a record label.
• 5:26
  Isaac Mitchell: Um, there's a lot of on-campus talent at Moody, um, and at the time and I think it's still kind of like this if you're not on worship collectives or part of the music department at Moody, it's kind of hard to play instruments, it's kind of hard to be at Moody, it's kind of hard to play instruments, it's kind of hard to be in a band, it's kind of hard to do all that stuff.
• 5:45
  Isaac Mitchell: And we wanted to change that.
• 5:47
  Isaac Mitchell: So we launched our kind of like own record label type thing and our goal was to just make sure that that on-campus talent that wasn't being seen or utilized was going to be given recognition.
• 6:01
  Isaac Mitchell: So you were one of our first takers, if you will, I'm honored.
• 6:12
  Isaac Mitchell: Part of your deal was that we would produce your song that you had already written and also film you a free music video with that.
• 6:20
  Isaac Mitchell: And we also collabed with people from Moody Radio to make sure the production was as good as it could possibly be.
• 6:27
  Isaac Mitchell: Um, and I think that worked out.
• 6:31
  Isaac Mitchell: But, um, so you were came to do your song Anxious Devotion, uh, which is a great song, and that was the first time I'd heard it, and that was the first time I'd ever met you um, or seen you on campus, and I think at this point we're like two and a half semesters in, maybe two semesters no, not two and a half semesters um, two and a half years in, I think, um, do you remember?
• 6:57
  Taylor Krause: I feel like it was the end of my.
• 6:59
  Taylor Krause: It was the end of my sophomore year because I didn't know yet that I was going to graduate early sure that makes sense.
• 7:07
  Isaac Mitchell: Um, yeah, so it would have been the same for me then, because we were the same grade.
• 7:12
  Isaac Mitchell: Um, anyway, so I remember you walking into that room we were all ready to rehearse the first recording and the first music video shoot and I remember thinking you were pretty.
• 7:28
  Isaac Mitchell: But also I heard you that you had this Coffee and Bible Time thing and I was like I have no idea what that is.
• 7:35
  Isaac Mitchell: I'd never heard about it, and so I was like, is this girl famous?
• 7:40
  Isaac Mitchell: But I, that was a very quick thought.
• 7:44
  Isaac Mitchell: I didn't really dwell on that too long.
• 7:47
  Isaac Mitchell: Uh, because then you sat down and started singing and I was like, oh, this is a really good song.
• 7:52
  Taylor Krause: Um, I was really nervous to sing.
• 7:54
  Taylor Krause: By the way I I felt complete imposter syndrome being there, I mean it all worked out and, just so everybody knows, that song is still.
• 8:04
  Taylor Krause: It's still out there, it's on like basically anywhere where you can stream music, and if you want to see Isaac's amazing talent of him recording the music video, that's on Youtube too, so you can look through Isaac's lens as he's recording.
• 8:21
  Isaac Mitchell: Literally.
• 8:22
  Isaac Mitchell: Yes, it's true.
• 8:23
  Isaac Mitchell: Um, I helped film that video and was kind of like the visual director of that video.
• 8:31
  Isaac Mitchell: But also I edited that video and I remember distinctly before I even knew like I liked you, before any of this stuff happened with us, I sat down and cried editing that video because it was such a beautiful song and it was just a great experience to be part of that.
• 8:49
  Isaac Mitchell: So that's kind of our initial like how we met.
• 8:54
  Isaac Mitchell: But, later that summer.
• 8:56
  Isaac Mitchell: This was the spring semester when all this was happening, and so the end of the semester, um slash, end of school was like maybe a month away at that point, like it was pretty close.
• 9:08
  Isaac Mitchell: And so, uh, I was living on summer, I was living on campus over the summer and I was, um, working a lot and and during that time I was like having a really good summer.
• 9:23
  Isaac Mitchell: I was like really content in my singleness.
• 9:27
  Isaac Mitchell: I mean, I had tried, like the semester, I had asked someone out and it didn't go far and that's okay, I wasn't that upset about it.
• 9:36
  Isaac Mitchell: But because I was really content with my singleness and content with where I was in my relationship with the Lord, and, um, I just had decided to reach out to you when you had launched your the music video for Anxious Devotion, I just sent you a quick text and was like, hey, I really loved working with you on that video, it was such honor.
• 9:59
  Isaac Mitchell: And um, I guess we never stopped texting since then yeah, and that's the start.
• 10:07
  Taylor Krause: That was that was the start I will say that although you and I technically didn't really hit it off during the music video, I still feel like we look back with a lot of fondness over the fact that we met during a creative project over music, because him and I really, him and I really like, uh, music individually and then together.
• 10:31
  Taylor Krause: We also like making music.
• 10:33
  Taylor Krause: He's really good at um writing music parts and I like I like writing music parts too, but I also like to do kind of more of the lyric stuff, so it's been fun to do projects with him as well.
• 10:45
  Taylor Krause: We have a song out, our song, that we did um also when we were at Moody.
• 10:49
  Taylor Krause: It's called Neither Do I and that's also out too shameless plug.
• 10:55
  Taylor Krause: Um, but yeah, that's, that's out too, and there's also a music video for that, I think, on my YouTube channel.
• 11:01
  Taylor Krause: But anyways, but yeah, that's out too, and there's also a music video for that, I think, on my YouTube channel.
• 11:05
  Taylor Krause: But anyways.
• 11:05
  Taylor Krause: So yeah, like he said, like, if we want to fast forward here, we started dating that summer after we talked for a little bit, and I will say that there was definitely a period of rose-colored glasses and I say that because I think everybody has that in the initial phase of relationships.
• 11:19
  Taylor Krause: And I feel like I remember it's funny because I had a conversation with your mom earlier on in our relationship and she asked me like oh, this is I'm not literally quoting her, but I'm summarizing basically like, oh, like, have you guys had any problems together yet?
• 11:36
  Taylor Krause: And oh yeah, we were out early on and that was really early on and I remember sitting there being like, no, we haven't had any problems.
• 11:43
  Taylor Krause: And I was kind of feeling like, oh no, should I be having problems?
• 11:48
  Taylor Krause: And all that to say.
• 11:49
  Taylor Krause: I think she was just gauging like like how deep have you guys gone?
• 11:54
  Taylor Krause: I think the more time you've been in a relationship with somebody Like how real is this.
• 11:58
  Taylor Krause: Yes, I think actually that's exactly what it is, because I mean, I couldn't say anything at that point.
• 12:02
  Taylor Krause: I was like we don't have any problems and and I could hardly think of anything that was wrong, even about you as a person or me, and I think that came a little bit later.
• 12:13
  Taylor Krause: But our feet, I do feel like our relationship, uh it, it progressed quickly and, um, we, I feel like the rose-colored glasses came off.
• 12:26
  Taylor Krause: Maybe, I mean probably right around the time it does for a lot of people, but when do you think they came off for you?
• 12:32
  Isaac Mitchell: For me, probably around the six to seven month mark, which I think is very normal.
• 12:43
  Taylor Krause: Yeah.
• 12:44
  Isaac Mitchell: I think that's around this period that most couples start fighting.
• 12:50
  Isaac Mitchell: Maybe don't make it period or something like that um, but at that time I had never, I didn't have any thoughts of like, oh, we're starting to fight or argue more often, that means we need to break up.
• 13:01
  Isaac Mitchell: I never had that thought um back then, like at that that point, because I knew it was pretty normal.
• 13:07
  Isaac Mitchell: But we were also working through a lot individually just with school, your personal life, back around that time.
• 13:15
  Taylor Krause: So yeah, I feel like it's a tricky, tricky time.
• 13:19
  Taylor Krause: I agree not to cut you off peanut.
• 13:21
  Taylor Krause: Um, I was gonna say I feel like I remember us having a conversation where we're like is it normal to be arguing this much?
• 13:31
  Taylor Krause: Or is it normal for like the like really intense warm and fuzzy feelings to be gone right now, because it kind of felt like we settled into just like a regular relationship, you know, where it felt very routine, very safe, I'll say um, and so I think also, there were, for me at least, nerves of like oh no, where we've only been dating for six months and we already have fights, like I I don't think I really grasped that that was normal and that fighting is okay.
• 14:09
  Isaac Mitchell: Like you're saying, you had some.
• 14:11
  Isaac Mitchell: Like you had some doubts, or maybe not doubts, but like red flags.
• 14:16
  Taylor Krause: I feel like I was concerned, yeah, like oh no, we're fighting.
• 14:22
  Taylor Krause: But here's what I'm also going to say gently, is that and maybe I'm just not following the right type of influencing type things, but I feel like not.
• 14:31
  Taylor Krause: A lot of Christian influencers talk about the rough patches of their relationships and so it kind of makes you worried, especially going to a really intense Christian college, like, no, our relationship isn't all rainbows and butterflies.
• 14:47
  Taylor Krause: We're struggling with, you know, learning how to have good conflict management and how to be the best people on our own, even before we come to each other.
• 14:59
  Taylor Krause: And I struggled, I think, with being really clingy.
• 15:03
  Isaac Mitchell: Yeah, Well, I think we both kind of did.
• 15:05
  Isaac Mitchell: Yeah so also there's a that's a product of us having different upbringings as well.
• 15:10
  Isaac Mitchell: Like you were, you grew up like not really fighting a ton at all with your family, um and I I love my family to death, but like we fought a lot, so maybe not like a lot a lot.
• 15:24
  Isaac Mitchell: Like I grew up like fighting with my siblings and having arguments with my parents yeah.
• 15:30
  Isaac Mitchell: I was a troublemaker so I like had to get used to conflict pretty fast and I'm not saying I know how to do it well at all, but there's just a that difference just in our upbringing right, you're not afraid of conflict yeah, not really.
• 15:49
  Isaac Mitchell: And I think it was around that time of like six or seven months of our first relationship, of our relationship to, for us to really see that, oh, like I fight differently than you do and just learning how to do that in a way that is God honorable, which, to be honest, we're still figuring out.
• 16:09
  Isaac Mitchell: I don't know if anyone other knows how to do correctly.
• 16:11
  Taylor Krause: Yeah.
• 16:12
  Isaac Mitchell: Whether they're six months into the relationship or 60 years into their marriage or something.
• 16:17
  Taylor Krause: Yeah.
• 16:17
  Isaac Mitchell: There's still going to be troubles with their conflict.
• 16:51
  Taylor Krause: So, and I just want to be totally satisfying and your partner's never going to hurt you and they're always going to uplift you.
• 16:57
  Taylor Krause: And it's going to be this perfect fairy tale experience to be met with real life, realizing you're dating somebody who also struggles with sin, somebody that is going to hurt you, somebody that isn't going to always control their temper or we're selfish, you know and so I want to encourage anybody that's in a relationship and they're feeling like man, we just can't get things right.
• 17:21
  Taylor Krause: Like God will give you strength, you can ask for help, and I think something for us was we needed a time to take a break, we needed a time to break up, which is kind of why I wanted to segue into that.
• 17:38
  Taylor Krause: Why did we choose to go on a break or break up?
• 17:43
  Taylor Krause: And you can kind of talk about that.
• 17:46
  Isaac Mitchell: Yeah Well, I well, I mean it's.
• 17:47
  Isaac Mitchell: It's pretty subjective between the two of us on our different reasonings, but because, technically, you didn't break up with me, I broke up with you, um, and the reason that I did that was a product of a ton of different things that were just perfect storm of blah that's really what it was, I mean.
• 18:09
  Isaac Mitchell: I was coming out of the best summer I'd ever had.
• 18:11
  Isaac Mitchell: Um, I was doing my internship, um at a place that I absolutely loved the work I was doing.
• 18:20
  Isaac Mitchell: But throughout the work there I kind of realized that like I was not perfect in terms of like my sin issues that I was dealing with, um, and I felt a lot of shame with that and um.
• 18:33
  Isaac Mitchell: So I was dealing with that personally, but then also you were going through the worst really like not relationship worst summer of your life and that caused a ton of anxiety between both of us, where I'm going to a nine to five internship every single day but I have to take time away from my work in order to talk to you about your anxiety or help you through things.
• 19:02
  Isaac Mitchell: And I really did like I enjoyed doing that because I liked feeling that I was helpful and I liked feeling that I was like helping you towards something better, but that something better never really came, and it kind of just became this pattern of like I am going to work and I I took a lot of community time away so I could be with you and talk to you, and we were doing long distance.
• 19:28
  Isaac Mitchell: So like that, that was tough for sure, um, I have no doubts about that, um, but at the same time it was like I think you were starting to treat me as your therapist, um, and that just wasn't a great thing for the both of us.
• 19:48
  Isaac Mitchell: You weren't getting the help that you needed and I didn't have the capacity to help in the way that we both wanted.
• 19:54
  Isaac Mitchell: And so that, on top of the shame that I was dealing with and the guilt I was dealing with between all of that, plus with just a lot of big life decisions coming up in terms of, like we both were trying to graduate early, I needed to find a job.
• 20:11
  Isaac Mitchell: We were entering on our last semester before our actual college career ended.
• 20:18
  Isaac Mitchell: There was just a lot of things that I needed.
• 20:27
  Isaac Mitchell: Feeling very overwhelmed at the thought of like us continuing down the path that we were going in terms of anxiety, counseling like each other instead of actually seeking real therapy or counseling like all of that on top of each other, I just got super overwhelmed and it got to a point where, literally, I had gotten off of work or something, or I was right about to go to work and we were having a like an argument, um, over the phone, and I just kind of decided right then.
• 20:59
  Isaac Mitchell: And there I was, like I I can't do this anymore.
• 21:01
  Isaac Mitchell: Um, and I regret that every day, that conversation that followed after that, the actual breaking up part, was like just brutal and I felt peace about it for approximately 24 hours before I was like that was a mistake.
• 21:19
  Isaac Mitchell: I should not have reacted like that.
• 21:21
  Isaac Mitchell: And that wasn't even like an anger, it was more of just like I didn't know what else to do anymore, like I felt empty and I, I was just sad, basically, and so I my my resort was, instead of making it better, was to just leave altogether.
• 21:40
  Isaac Mitchell: And that was the start of the worst semester I've ever had, the worst three months I've ever had.
• 21:48
  Isaac Mitchell: Like it was crazy, the dichotomy between the best summer, worst period of my life right next to each other.
• 21:56
  Isaac Mitchell: So, yeah, that was my.
• 22:01
  Isaac Mitchell: That was kind of like the initial why.
• 22:05
  Taylor Krause: Yeah, yeah, thanks for sharing that.
• 22:07
  Taylor Krause: I think you kind of have it spot on and I see everything like every I see, totally see where you're coming from, out of my worst summer ever and into probably my best semester at college.
• 22:33
  Taylor Krause: After I was still dealing with a lot of anxiety, but I feel like God really met me after our breakup um.
• 22:37
  Taylor Krause: I really clung to him and it felt like a spiritual revival for me and I think Isaac is being he's being gentle with his words about that summer too, because I mean it was.
• 22:53
  Taylor Krause: It was a very unhealthy pattern that I had put us into and I I had massive expectations on him and I was every day putting, continuing to make him feel broken for not being able to fix my anxiety problems and for those of you that have OCD struggles, you kind of understand a little bit about what rituals are and I don't think I'm the person to explain it very well but, um, essentially, with my phobia that I had that that summer which caused me so much anxiety, I created a ritual or a practice.
• 23:38
  Taylor Krause: I'm unconscious, it's not something you know, that you realize you're doing, but it for me.
• 23:44
  Taylor Krause: It was reaching out to Isaac every time that I felt afraid and asking him to pray.
• 23:49
  Taylor Krause: So I was constantly asking him to pray for me, which like, yeah, prayer is great, but the reality is is I didn't.
• 24:00
  Taylor Krause: I felt so out of control.
• 24:01
  Taylor Krause: I don't even believe that I really felt like I trusted God in asking Isaac to pray, because if I did, it would be I ask you to pray and I leave it.
• 24:13
  Taylor Krause: But it was constantly can you pray for this, can you pray for that?
• 24:17
  Taylor Krause: But also with that dumping all of my fears and panic onto him and getting frustrated when you weren't always there for me 24-7.
• 24:26
  Taylor Krause: So I think you were being gentle.
• 24:29
  Taylor Krause: But also I did get counseling help for it and I did see a doctor too, which really helped me kind of sort out like what I could do to help me get help from there on.
• 24:46
  Taylor Krause: So that is a little bit of why we ended up breaking up and, like Isaac said, it was very painful.
• 24:52
  Taylor Krause: It was very painful for both of us.
• 24:53
  Isaac Mitchell: There was a lot of hurt on both sides and a lot of, a lot of miscommunication in between, times of we both couldn't figure out how to like communicate to each other in a way that made sense to the other person you're talking about after the breakup after the breakup yeah, well, after the I mean after the breakup like literally as soon as I realized that I shouldn't have broken up with you, which was like again 24 hours after I actually broken up with you, I realized that I made a mistake and I literally felt like I started operation get you back, um, and that was kind of like my entire semester.
• 25:35
  Isaac Mitchell: And I was also in the middle of graduating, getting all my final classes sorted out, part of which was getting my drone license, which is like the hardest test I've ever taken, and then so studying for that, working two jobs, taking 21 credits on top of getting you back and working through my own emotions and sin issues and stuff like that own emotions and sin issues and stuff like that.
• 25:58
  Isaac Mitchell: Like it was a brutal semester for me, which is why I think it's interesting how you were having like the closest semester like with the Lord that you've had and I would say, in a way, I did too, but it was more, much more of like a lament type relationship with the Lord, of just like why did you allow this to happen?
• 26:18
  Isaac Mitchell: I was complaining like, journaling, every day, like I was close to God, but it wasn't like a happy close, if you will.
• 26:27
  Isaac Mitchell: It was more of like a.
• 26:29
  Isaac Mitchell: I'm torn and I don't know what else to do, like cause I mean I had a lot of friends come by me that semester but a lot of my friends at that time were single and it was kind of hard to talk to them about certain stuff because it was like, well, you just don't understand.
• 26:47
  Ellen Krause: Yeah.
• 26:48
  Isaac Mitchell: That's not saying to say that like single people don't understand what it's like to be like in a relationship.
• 26:53
  Isaac Mitchell: Like they can still bring a lot to the table and help me think like and they did the table and help me sink like and they did.
• 27:02
  Isaac Mitchell: but there are certain things that it's just best to go to somebody who's been married or a mentor who's been in a relationship or something like that, and that's what I really tried to do was I sought out a lot of professors, a lot of professional help to help me get through this.
• 27:12
  Isaac Mitchell: I talked to my parents a lot.
• 27:13
  Isaac Mitchell: I kind of I feel like I rekindled my relationship with my parents throughout that time, which is why there is so many ways I can see the fruits of our breakup and meaning, like I don't think I would have passed my drone license test without breaking up with you.
• 27:29
  Isaac Mitchell: I don't think I would have done as well on school that I did, like if we had broken up, if we hadn't broken up, or something like that.
• 27:40
  Taylor Krause: Um, you paid off so you got to pay off college by working all of that time too.
• 27:47
  Taylor Krause: Yeah, like there's just like.
• 27:51
  Isaac Mitchell: There was a lot of ways that I can see the fruits of like.
• 27:54
  Isaac Mitchell: Yes, it was a hard semester for both of us, but I do think that it was the lord's timing for sure of like this needed to happen, and he really was putting us through the ringer of like you know he was sustaining us through the ringer, maybe yeah, and I think you want to.
• 28:15
  Isaac Mitchell: I mean, like, who am I to know exactly what the Lord was thinking during that time?
• 28:20
  Isaac Mitchell: I don't know, but what I speculate was happening was just, it seemed like the Lord wanted to see how serious we were about each other but, more importantly, how serious we were about him, because I think in our relationship before we were just shoving him out the window, we weren't really livingving him out the window, like we weren't really living for him, with him, like it was just kind of like I wouldn't say I don't want to say spiritually dead relationship, but it was not a like super fruitful relationship that we had had, and I think throughout the whole process, I think it was more like a reset thing, where it's like God was like you two are the people that I chose for each other, but, like, now is not the time and you need to figure yourselves out with my help, before you can get back together again.
• 29:11
  Isaac Mitchell: And I think that's exactly what he did, because I feel a lot closer to you now that we had.
• 29:16
  Isaac Mitchell: I feel a lot closer to closer to the Lord now, to you now that we had.
• 29:23
  Isaac Mitchell: I feel a lot closer to closer to the Lord now, and you know.
• 29:26
  Isaac Mitchell: I think that's only because of the semester that we had and the season we were in.
• 29:29
  Taylor Krause: I think that you did a great job of explaining that and actually that's a really key point that I forgot to mention is that we we struggled to bring our own personal relationships with god to each other, like we were living our own spiritual lives separately.
• 29:45
  Taylor Krause: It was hard to figure out a way to merge that together in a way where it felt safe for both of us to share how we were feeling, not feel judged, not feel like one person's trying to be the teacher to the other person or not one person's trying to play the role of holy spirit in the other person's life, and it's still, uh, still a something that we're learning every day as well.
• 30:09
  Isaac Mitchell: Um, but I mean because we still have a lot of things to work on.
• 30:12
  Isaac Mitchell: That was also a product of last semester a lot of trust issues, a lot of communication issues that we're still working through, which, again, a lot of stuff is like that, stuff is still normal, like 100, but it still shed light on the areas that we needed to work on.
• 30:29
  Isaac Mitchell: Yeah, um, and it's stuff that everyone needs to work on so, totally.
• 30:35
  Taylor Krause: So now moving forward, um, I'll just briefly fly through this.
• 30:40
  Taylor Krause: But, uh, at the end of last the fall semester, which I ended up taking the semester to be intentionally for the lord, it was an intentional semester of singleness for me.
• 30:52
  Taylor Krause: Um, so I didn't really attempt to reach out to isaac at all, but at the end of the semester I definitely felt like my heart was softened towards coming back to him, which is interesting because I felt very content in God the whole semester.
• 31:05
  Taylor Krause: But at the end it was like just something was stirring in me, like to reach out to you to see if we could reconcile more deeply than I was ready for in the middle of the semester or even beyond that or before that.
• 31:18
  Taylor Krause: And so, yeah, at the end we kind of had a conversation with each other where I reconciled or I kind of apologized and shared my side of things, and then he had his time where he apologized and shared his side side with things, and I think there were.
• 31:35
  Taylor Krause: It wasn't an effort from both of us to rekindle a friendship first and from there see if that friendship led to something more, and it did so.
• 31:47
  Taylor Krause: Then in January I came to Indiana to see you when you were living at home for one month before your big move and big job change Surprised me on my birthday.
• 31:57
  Taylor Krause: Surprised you on your birthday and then we started dating and it really to me felt like we picked up right where we left off it felt very natural natural, yeah yep and so, um, we've just kind of been continuing to grow in a relationship with each other and making an effort to bring God more into it, and we've had to have like several conversations where it's like, okay, what are we doing?
• 32:25
  Taylor Krause: Are we following, falling back into old patterns where we're not prioritizing God in our relationship and how can we change that?
• 32:32
  Taylor Krause: And Isaac, you you've really like led the prayer side of our relationship by making sure that we have a routine of both praying for one another in the morning and then at night and as well as I realized, we forgot today um, yeah, we're not perfect, but then at the end of the night I did I bought him for his birthday a couple's devotional, and so we usually do that every night.
• 33:02
  Taylor Krause: It's like got one thing to do every day and we go through that and yeah.
• 33:07
  Taylor Krause: So my next question for you is when did you know, since getting back together, that you wanted to propose to me?
• 33:15
  Taylor Krause: And when did you know, like you know, I was the one you wanted to propose to me and when did you know, like you know, I was the one you wanted to spend the rest of your life with?
• 33:22
  Isaac Mitchell: Well, I mean I don't know if there was a specific time, but for me it's like I only date slash, dated people with the intent to marry.
• 33:35
  Isaac Mitchell: I believe that's the right way to do dating.
• 33:38
  Isaac Mitchell: The intent to marry, I believe that's the right way to do dating.
• 33:41
  Isaac Mitchell: I don't believe in, you know, finding people to just chat with, waste time with, and then it's like, oh, if something happens, it happens.
• 33:56
  Isaac Mitchell: I don't think that's a very loving way to date someone.
• 33:57
  Isaac Mitchell: So I pursued you with the intent to marry, or at least the intent to consider marriage, because if it doesn't work out, it doesn't work out.
• 34:06
  Isaac Mitchell: I mean, I've dated a lot of people with the same intent and then in the relationship realized, all right, I was wrong.
• 34:12
  Isaac Mitchell: And you know it's, it's and that's fine.
• 34:16
  Taylor Krause: Yeah, I think your intent is to not mess with someone's heart, or, yeah, waste their time yeah, I don't think that's very biblical.
• 34:25
  Isaac Mitchell: Um, so I, from the very beginning, had the intent to marry you.
• 34:31
  Isaac Mitchell: Um, it wasn't until, like, the relationship started getting better, like more deep, um, tying into, like, taking off the rose colored glasses and continuing to love one another daily was, and I was like all right, I can see myself with you.
• 34:48
  Isaac Mitchell: Um, but yes, I broke up with you and I regret that.
• 34:53
  Isaac Mitchell: But as soon as I figured out that I wanted to get you back, that was that was basically when I was like, but I wanted to marry you.
• 35:03
  Isaac Mitchell: That was kind of like a but God moment where I was like but what about marriage?
• 35:08
  Isaac Mitchell: Like, what about spending the rest of the life?
• 35:10
  Isaac Mitchell: Like?
• 35:11
  Isaac Mitchell: I realized I just didn't want to do that with someone else.
• 35:15
  Isaac Mitchell: And I mean, I, I think, I think it was pretty obvious, like for me at least, when I tried getting back and succeeded, by the way, I uh did that with the complete intent to marry you.
• 35:30
  Isaac Mitchell: And and then, the only way, no, the only reason that I waited to propose to you was simply because I wanted to try and find the right time.
• 35:47
  Isaac Mitchell: I would have proposed to you a long time ago if one, I had more money and also if the timing had been better.
• 35:58
  Isaac Mitchell: So I've had the ring for about a month and a half and I just got tired of waiting.
• 36:03
  Isaac Mitchell: So now we're engaged thank you, isaac.
• 36:09
  Taylor Krause: I'm so, I keep every.
• 36:10
  Taylor Krause: When he proposed to me, I just kept saying thank you over and over again.
• 36:13
  Taylor Krause: And he said why are you saying thank you?
• 36:15
  Taylor Krause: And I'm like I don, I don't know.
• 36:17
  Taylor Krause: I'm so thankful, I'm so.
• 36:20
  Isaac Mitchell: Well, you said that you were thankful that I chose you which I thought was a sweet response.
• 36:28
  Taylor Krause: Aw, thank you, isaac.
• 36:29
  Taylor Krause: I was thankful that you chose me and I'm sure for any of you guys that have taken breaks in between your relationship before you got married or whatnot, it does create some trust issues of like taking breaks in between your relationship before you got married or whatnot.
• 36:44
  Taylor Krause: It does create some trust issues of like will this person want to choose me later?
• 36:48
  Taylor Krause: And I think proposing is.
• 36:51
  Taylor Krause: It's a really sweet and also healing thing to say like, this ring is the beginning of a commitment to you for the rest of our lives.
• 37:02
  Taylor Krause: So yeah I'm really excited to explore marriage with you and to see more how we can be like jesus for one another.
• 37:14
  Taylor Krause: I already feel like I feel definitely the dichotomy between being in a relationship has most definitely 110% brought out the worst in me.
• 37:25
  Taylor Krause: I don't think anybody has ever seen me worse than you, but I also believe that it's an honor.
• 37:37
  Taylor Krause: Relations, relationships give you the opportunity also to become extremely sharpened, to see all the ways that you need to work on yourself and to lean into God's help because you need it.
• 37:52
  Taylor Krause: In a relationship, you realize just how sinful you are when you start to date somebody, and there's just something about singleness where you can't see how sinful you are until you start dating it's true, that's yeah yeah there are a lot of glasses that come off.
• 38:12
  Taylor Krause: It's like, uh, yeah, yeah so, anyways, I'm just so thankful that we are able to explore marriage and see how we can become more like Christ with one another.
• 38:29
  Taylor Krause: That said this.
• 38:44
  Taylor Krause: But somebody recently to us was praying for us and they were praying that in our relationship we would come to be a safe person to help heal with.
• 38:52
  Taylor Krause: And I know it sounds a little cheesy, but when you get into a relationship like, a lot of your issues come up and or in.
• 39:00
  Taylor Krause: A lot of your partner will trigger your issues to come out, but it's kind of like when you choose to be with that person forever, you do really want to become a safe person for that, for them to grow and to heal and to have a flourishing relationship where you can see the worst in each other and know that you'll still choose one another and grow and heal, so I'm excited to have you be that person for me, isaac me too there you go.
• 39:29
  Taylor Krause: I think marriage is on the horizon, hopefully 2025 and yeah thank you everybody for listening.
• 39:39
  Taylor Krause: Thank you, Isaac, for joining us today on the podcast.
• 39:42
  Isaac Mitchell: My pleasure.
• 39:43
  Taylor Krause: Really appreciate it.
• 39:44
  Taylor Krause: If you guys want to continue to keep in touch with our everyday lives, feel free to um check out our YouTube channels.
• 39:52
  Taylor Krause: We have two.
• 39:52
  Taylor Krause: We have a blog channel, Coffee Girls, and a main channel that we like to post a lot of videos on there to help you guys learn how to grow in your relationship with God.
• 40:00
  Taylor Krause: So, with that being said, thank you for listening to this almost 40 minute podcast.
• 40:06
  Taylor Krause: It was worth every second.
• 40:08
  Taylor Krause: It was, I think, filled with a lot of good stories and juicy insight into our relationship.
• 40:16
  Taylor Krause: Have anything else to say?
• 40:18
  Taylor Krause: peanut I love you and I love you peanut.
• 40:23
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• 40:29
  Isaac Mitchell: Bye you mean podcast?
• 40:32
  Taylor Krause: podcast.
• 40:33
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