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What the version of you LIVING your DREAM already KNOWS. · Soul Salon with Ayandastood

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That's why I'll back myself to the end of the moon because I have the courage to flop.
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I will flop.
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I will flippity floop, floop, floop.
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I will flip, flop, floop.
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I will launch something that no one buys.
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I will make a video that no one watches.
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I will be flopping because I will flip, flop into my dream reality.
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I know it, babes.
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Okay.
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And I want you to know it as well.
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Your soul is on a quest to reclaim the unsung song of your spirit.
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Oh my word, leave that in.
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You know, I was going to redo that, but you know what?
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Unsung song.
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Why did I choose to say that?
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Because this had to happen.
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This moment of witnessing the divine imperfection of creation, of transmission, of channeling.
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On this quest, messages are sent to you.
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And if there's one message I want to provide, babes, it's that you are doing so incredibly.
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You're doing magnificently.
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You are moving as poetry.
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And what you are allowing yourself to envision as possible for your life, it's a work of art.
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As humans, we are artists of consciousness.
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And part of your life's work is also the vision and imagination that you are bringing into this experience.
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You're beginning to feel into possibilities that you thought might take, that you never thought were possible, that you never thought were yours to claim.
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And now suddenly you're like, why not me?
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Why not us?
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Okay, that's the vibe in the Soul Salon.
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Why not us?
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You see someone doing something that you think, whoa, that would be amazing.
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Why not you?
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Why not us?
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Why not you performing on that stadium?
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Why not you having a Netflix deal?
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Why not you?
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Why not you having your own...
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universe that is of service okay we are here to be big dreamers in a way that is about giving as well as receiving if we give in alignment with our soul's gifts we will receive in alignment with the infinite capacity of the universe to give love abundance freedom community money okay so i know that you're the kind of person whose dreams and desires are not just about you
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You having more in the way that you feel called is actually going to unlock so much more abundance, freedom and possibility.
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So much more service, so much more alignment, thriving.
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for the collective.
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That's why I need you to believe in your dreams because I love the ripple effects of you living your dreams.
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I love them.
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Oh, I wanna live in that montage where you get to live your dreams because look at the ripple and community around you.
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Look at the fans in the audience.
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Look at the people who see you on the stage and think, oh, if she can do it, if they can do it, I can as well.
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Look at the identities you hold and how inspiring you are to your communities.
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Look at that.
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Look at the ripple effects of your spirit.
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Look at how when people are in your energy, their lives change, their lives shift.
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So I just need you to know that your dreams have a higher purpose.
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They are part of the collective awakening.
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that I believe is happening through hearts, souls, spirits like you, like us babes.
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So along this path, because we are here to hold the infinite vision and dream and also the humbling reality, along this path, what happens?
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Okay, sometimes the evidence isn't evidencing.
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The numbers aren't numbering.
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The results are not resulting.
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And we're looking on YouTube analytics or we're looking on TikTok or we're looking at the crowd of two people.
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We're thinking, what's going on?
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Because in my head, it's a stadium.
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In my head...
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It's whatever your dream is.
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It's a million followers on Instagram, whatever your dream is.
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I don't know what your dreams are.
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I highly do not recommend numbers based follower goals, but you know your your desires and you know what beacon you need in order to flow towards that beacon in the most expansive way.
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But we all go through these seasons where the numbers don't number, the results don't result.
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And we look outside of ourselves for evidence that it is working.
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So as an expansive dreamer, it can be difficult to hold the...
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I want to say humility and the humbling and the mundanity of the day to day process.
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OK, but in that gap, we find what the seed knows to be true.
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You don't look at a seed every single day and think, is it going?
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Is it going now?
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Is it going now?
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Is it going?
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You trust you, you nurture the seed.
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Then you trust that the seed is growing in its own divine timing.
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And you trust that there is a kind of growth that you cannot observe from up close.
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It's like a parent and a child.
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Often a parent is sort of the last to notice that their child is growing because they see the child every day.
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But then they see the auntie or they see someone, ah, you've grown.
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And the parents is like, oh, yeah, actually, you have grown, you know, because the parent is there day by day by day, minute by minute by minute, hour by hour by hour.
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So they're not witnessing the big leaps in growth.
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And I just want you to be that be that aunt.
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OK, to yourself, who's like, wow, you've grown.
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Notice the ways you have grown, even if it feels like there's a lack of evidence.
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So.
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The message that came to me last week that I wanted to share with you, and I haven't really found the words for it, babes.
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I'm like, I'll share it as it is, but I feel like there's more delicious language.
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But it is the courage to flop.
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And few people have it.
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I know I have it.
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That's why I'll back myself to the end of the moon.
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Because I have the courage to flop.
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I will flop.
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I will flippity, floop, floop, floop.
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I will flip, flop, floop.
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I will launch something that no one buys.
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I will make a video that no one watches.
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I will be flopping.
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Because I will flip, flop into my dream reality.
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I know it, babes.
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Okay.
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And I want you to know it as well.
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I want you to be so devoted.
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Oh, every time the word devotion.
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Every time it enters the space.
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you tap into a deeper frequency of creation.
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You are a channel and you're channeling something so beautiful from the divine, from source, from your ancestors, from your higher self, from your consciousness, from whatever you believe in, from your higher power, from this divine earth, we've been gifted and given.
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Okay.
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That we need to steward with so much more love and care.
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And that's also why I believe in you.
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Because you are part of a paradigm shift of heart-led leadership.
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Heart-led creativity.
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Because you know we all say, oh I just want to be more creative.
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Oh if only the world was more creative.
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Wait.
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Okay, because sexism is a form of creation.
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Racism is a form of creation.
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White supremacy is creative.
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Oh my word, have you thought of something?
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They came and they said, we are better than you, therefore we'll take all of this.
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And we will treat you as though you are not...
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divine, sacred, worthy of protection, love, respect.
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Okay, that is creative.
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So I, it's not just about creativity.
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I don't want Coca-Cola to be more creative.
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I don't want that.
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In fact, I don't want that.
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The corporations maybe need to be a little bit less creative.
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I want the kind of creativity that is rooted in love.
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in soul, in is this the kind of world I would want my own children to live in?
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Because a lot of these corporations, they're not creating things that they would want their people in their own lives to have to live with the consequences of.
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OK, so it's a loving kind of creativity.
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We are coming as a sacred mother or father or parent to the world.
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And we're saying, what can I birth that makes this world more gorgeous?
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What can I birth that makes this world more beautiful?
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And you specifically as a creator, you have values for your creativity.
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These are actually the truest rule guidebook, lighthouse beacon that you could follow is what you value.
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Do you value beauty?
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Oh, I have working on my first song and it's taking longer because I just know it could be more beautiful.
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And at some point you have to stop.
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And I was also thinking that this is the other side of perfectionism is just wanting something to be more beautiful.
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But we also have to be aware of, you know, there are limits.
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You know, there's there's a loving place to say, you know what, you could always edit something more.
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But this is what you had to give.
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And this is divided and beautiful.
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So do you value beauty?
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Do you value beauty?
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Spirit.
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So you want it to feel in your art like spirit is there.
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God is there.
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The divine is there.
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Do you value humor?
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So you'll go to the ends of the world if it's funny to make people laugh.
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To say something in a way that creates this joy of laughter.
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Knowing your values is going to be your own natural fuel for your creativity.
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So I really value generosity.
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What am I going to do if it could help one person?
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I'm going to flop.
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I'm so devoted to that person and the possibility that I could be of service to them, that I'm going to flip flop into their backyard and say, hello, I hope this helps.
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But it has to come from within.
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So I could tell you generosity is a good thing, but you need to know what you already value.
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We're not here to impose values on you.
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Your spirit came with all the codes it needs.
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And write this down.
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Your values are what you are willing to be inconvenienced for in order to experience.
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I'm going to say it again.
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Your values aren't what you wish.
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Oh, I value family.
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But then where's the calendar?
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Where's the time with you?
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Oh, I value honesty.
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Oh, but you are a liar.
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I'm a liar.
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You're a liar.
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You're a liar.
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You're a liar.
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Oh my gosh.
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So good.
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Anyways, if you know it, you know love is blind.
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Okay, so your values are not... Africa Brooke speaks about this in her book.
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What's that book called?
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Oh, Brave Expression.
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I forgot the name of the book, but I didn't forget the name of me.
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OK, thank you for writing that book.
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OK, so she distinguishes between your desired values and your embodied values, your desire.
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values what you say you value oh i really value creativity i really value generosity i really value service but then your embodied values is like look at your behavior and assess what that demonstrates that you value okay so for me values are what you're willing to be in convenience for so someone who values freedom
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is going to be willing to maybe make, in comparison, less money so that they can be free.
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You can have both.
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But basically, values are often, you have to sacrifice something, but you're so in love with the thing that you get on the other side that you make that sacrifice.
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Okay, so those are your natural values.
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So we want you so fueled by those values that you are your natural most creative self because you're the kind of creativity that leads us to more love.
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more light, more beauty.
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Okay.
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And when you're in touch with your own values, you are fueled in the direction of them.
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Now, the problem is we have imposed values from our society.
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So it's all coming together.
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Don't you worry.
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If you haven't been in a soul salon before, it's a journey.
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It's a vibe.
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We wonder.
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We're meandering.
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We're taking a walk.
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If there is a butterfly, best believe.
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I'm not going to say, oh, but this is the path we said we were taking.
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That is the colonizer speaking.
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I will look at that butterfly.
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What is time?
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Okay.
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What is the point?
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Anyone who's asking themselves, what's the point of my art?
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What's the point of this essay?
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There's so many essays on Substack.
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What's the point of starting another podcast?
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What's the point of another TikTok?
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So many TikToks.
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What's the point of another video?
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What's the point of a tree?
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What's the point of a leaf?
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It's such an unimaginative question that we have been imposed.
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It's been imposed on our spirit by capitalism, by supremacy, culture, capitalism, efficiency.
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What does efficiency have to do with making art?
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What is the point?
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No, who taught us that question?
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Who taught us to ask unimaginative, soul destructive questions?
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Oh, because doesn't the system want to destroy your soul?
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Doesn't it want to destroy your soul?
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Yes, it does.
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Yeah, yeah.
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Yes, it does.
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So it's not going to give you a framework that is soul expanding.
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And what's the point of making?
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Is that a soul expanding question?
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If you sit down to write an essay on Substack and you think, oh, but what's the point?
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Who taught us that?
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You know, because the irony is we don't even know what the point is.
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I could think the point of this video is to teach you about the courage to flop.
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Meanwhile, the lesson you derive from it is, oh, I need to give myself more permission to just speak and meander and look at the butterflies.
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You know what I mean?
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I can't tell you what the point is.
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We're co-creating an experience.
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So the point emerges through the meeting place of our consciousness.
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So you could read an essay and the essayist is like, this is about breakups.
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And you read one sentence and you're like, oh my God, wow, that's exactly the answer I was looking for in my business.
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We don't know the point of anything.
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Like the hubris.
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The hubris to think we know.
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So make the art because you feel called to it.
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Because it fuels...
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you from that place of your values curiosity could be a value and another thing your values aren't fixed you can develop a relationship with certain values it's like energetic dating i have a video on this break up with the energies that are not serving you and re-partner like a relationship you deserve a higher frequency and energy okay anyways so we looked at the butterfly and we're we're on this walk and we're like going where it takes us and one of the places we're being
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is the idea of being so devoted to something, that you are willing to sacrifice the approval and validation that the system has got us hooked upon to serve something deeper, which is the devotion that we felt into earlier.
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Devotion to your craft, devotion to your calling, devotion to God.
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Spirit, source, the divine, the messages you've been given, devotion.
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to your vision, devotion to who you are here to serve.
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Like I have to be so obsessed with finding you that I don't mind if I flop on the way to the destination because there's no destination.
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But like if my goal is to find people who resonate with this energy and who receive it and then take it and do magical things in the world with it, people will message me like, I'm writing a book.
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And thanks, like not thanks to you.
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I would never say that.
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But thanks to them and their divine alignment and action and bravery and courage.
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But like they say, oh, you played a role on my path.
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And I really thank you for that.
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So I am so committed to that journey.
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I'm like, listen, you all have the codes to the freedom we all want.
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Like freedom is a place we create together.
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Freedom is a possibility we birth into being and insist upon.
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So freedom is also a place with all our gifts unlocked.
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You know what I believe?
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I feel like there's a dormant world in our consciousness, but there's so much shame and fear that we don't access it.
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OK, so like if everyone on Earth, we know that one of the biggest regrets is living a life.
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That is not basically in alignment with what your soul actually wanted because you sacrifice that for ego approval.
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OK, just repackage because you've heard it said so many times.
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Let's say it a new way, which is basically people choose.
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Oh, my ego is accepted from.
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Oh, my soul is expressed.
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OK, so we are here to flip the paradigm, express our soul, even if we have to sacrifice egoic validation, even if the numbers are numbering, even if the results aren't resulting.
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We say my soul doesn't care about results.
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My soul doesn't care about an analytics dashboard.
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Okay, my soul doesn't care about virality.
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Okay, it cares about resonance, yes.
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But my soul understands that sometimes all it can do is express.
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Like the soul cannot control.
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The soul cannot control, okay.
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The soul cannot control what happens next.
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The soul has no interest in controlling.
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The soul wants to give and express and be.
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Actually, it's a frequency of being.
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So the soul doesn't care that the videos are not popping off the same way that person you're comparing yourself to.
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Am I speaking to myself?
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I would never.
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Listen, so the soul is here to express, okay?
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The soul is here to express.
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So we're going to be the ones who choose the path of soul expression.
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And what's that going to do for the rest of the collective?
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What's that going to do for your siblings, for your parents, for everyone around you?
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It's going to help them serve their soul mission in this life in their way, their unique way.
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It doesn't look the same.
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Everyone knows that thing on their heart that they feel called to.
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And often it makes no sense.
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Whose paradigm is that?
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Once again, it's the colonizer.
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What is sense?
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This is also why I hate the word woo-woo.
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Oh, I hate it.
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I hate it.
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I hate it.
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I hate it.
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Because who said that spirit, the unseen world, the stars, the moon, energy, ancestors, who said that's a lower form of knowing?
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Who said, oh, not to be woo-woo, but who said, oh, no, science is the truth.
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Proof.
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evidence, research, that's a higher form of knowing.
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Who said that?
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Whose words are you speaking?
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So every time people say that, they either say it, and they always say it in this derogatory way, I'm saying, you know what they colonize is our spiritual practices because they knew how powerful they were.
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So when we say woo-woo, there's a colonial legacy there, babes, and it needs to be, if it was up to me, you know, I would never, it was up to me, you know, no one would say that anymore unless they were saying it to critique it because it's not a lower form of knowing to critique.
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tap into the spirit realm it's what we've done for literal centuries and it's also why any of us are here because we've relied upon where was the research studies when we needed to know which way to go where was it where was the institution that is founded on slavery where was it where was it no we look to the stars we look to the guides we look to the people who had spiritual gifts we also looked to the rain you know the elements we looked to the spirit world there were spirits all around us
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Okay.
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Every.
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Okay.
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You see.
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So I feel very passionate about this.
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Okay.
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It's not a lower form of knowing.
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We wouldn't be here if it weren't for faith.
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If it weren't for the faith of people who had no reason.
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Ha.
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Whose word is reason?
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No logic to have faith.
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So we choose love over logic.
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We choose magic over like what is the other word?
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Ha.
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It's going to come.
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Magic of a mind.
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Because whose invention is the mind?
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Okay, whose invention is the mind?
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Whose invention?
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Patriarchy and colonialism.
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It's both, okay?
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Because now you've created a form of knowing and you say it's higher.
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So you say, oh, you're a hysterical woman.
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You say, oh, you're irrational for believing that the moon has anything to do with anything.
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You say, who's you?
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Okay, it's the colonizer.
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But then what happens?
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We internalize this voice of patriarchy and colonialism.
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And then we start to demean woo-woo-ness.
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But who are the people who are most spiritual on earth?
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It's typically people who are...
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indigenous black brown asian people who are women in each culture because this also happened within within okay so this has happened where spirituality has been demonized and that is a colonial and patriarchal and it's also because you thought i would stop i feel it's also it's also homophobic and transphobic because in a lot of deep
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indigenous and ancestral and ways of people queer peoples and trans peoples are carriers of spiritual wisdom or have been thought you know i had the episode with henneke patel and she spoke about the hijras
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who are a trans community in India.
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We know two-spirit people.
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So there's a through line to the divine.
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Okay, so who said this is a lower form of knowing?
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Something's in the room now.
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You can feel it.
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But, you know, I don't need someone to create a research paper for me to know what I know.
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Okay.
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Wow, something just moved through me and I'm glad I let it move.
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So, okay.
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where were we honestly i wish i knew the thread but i trust that part of what i was seeking and where i was going on this walk we're taking is that results and evidence and numbers and analytics they cannot hold a big enough container for the
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gift of your spirit and soul that wants to be breathed breathed breathing broathed breathed into the collective spirit so yeah you know for me my videos have they been popping off no not in the not in the material realm but the spirit realm is pleased
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The spirit rabble say, oh, she's doing her work.
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Don't worry about results.
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I'm building an archive, okay?
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One day, it's going to be like, oh my word, have you seen what she made in 2026?
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You weren't there in 2026, but that's okay.
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It found you when it was meant to find you, okay?
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Because it's a mosaic.
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I have a video called Mosaic Mindset.
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Now, I know there was a thread and I will find it.
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But we are trying to...
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To reclaim the gifts of our deepest expression.
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Which is going to ask us to hold a lot of paradox.
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Paradox is how spirit speaks.
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Paradox is how the divine communicates.
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Okay, the both and.
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Okay, the contradiction.
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Again, it's a colonial paradigm.
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Contra, against.
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So, binaries.
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You know?
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You know?
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You know.
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So...
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The soul has something much deeper to say.
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And the soul is actually a more patient frequency.
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The ego wants results now.
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It wants it now.
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Now.
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It wants it yesterday.
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It's counting the days to whatever you are reaching towards.
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It's always reaching.
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But not reaching within.
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And not reaching for connection.
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You know, I get this image of the soul as reaching within to reach through.
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So I'm doing this.
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Okay, so I have this moment that really hurts my feelings in a relationship.
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And it strikes a chord within me.
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And I can feel something wants to be created through this feeling.
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I reach within.
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Oh, it's painful.
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I'm afraid.
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Oh, my word.
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I don't want to say this.
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This is embarrassing.
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This is shameful.
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Oh, my gosh.
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Who am I to be making this?
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And then I make a song or a video or an essay.
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And then who am I reaching for?
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I'm reaching for you.
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I'm reaching for you.
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So I'm reaching within to reach through.
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And that within is because that within is not just my within.
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There is a collective spirit and consciousness.
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And there are people who are so brave.
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I'm looking at you.
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That they are willing to excavate the truth of their spirit.
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So that they can hold up a mirror to...
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The spirit of others.
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To our collective spirit.
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They're willing to say what most people wouldn't be willing to say.
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You know a lot of songs that are very popular.
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Someone is saying something that everyone feels but most people are too afraid to say.
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So the song is a vessel of that expression.
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They've given language.
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Not that someone didn't have.
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But that.
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Well sometimes.
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But that.
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That mirroring hadn't happened.
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So someone reached within.
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The crevices of their soul.
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They fetched something.
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That we all need.
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In the library of life.
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We all need it.
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In the whatever.
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They reached it through.
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I don't like the word whatever.
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I do care.
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It does matter.
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So not whatever.
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The poet in me is like no.
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That's not the case.
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So they reached into.
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This church.
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I'm looking for the metaphor.
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What is it?
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What is it?
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Hmm.
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Maybe it's the cave of their soul to retrieve the crystal, the crystallized expression, which is the essay, which is the poem, which is the point.
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OK, which is the video.
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They reached in, they found the crystal and then they held it up.
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It shimmered in the light and it showed you to yourself.
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It showed you the gems of your own spirit.
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It showed you perhaps what you feel called to excavate from within you, because aren't we most triggered by the people who we see ourselves in?
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We're like, oh, my word, she is me.
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And actually, that's what I've really tapped into with comparison is now I'm like, oh, my word.
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Everyone I was comparing myself to, they're just a different expression of me and they are me.
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So, like, sometimes I take breaks and I'm so glad that they're not taking a break because the collective needs this voice to be spoken.
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You know what I mean?
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And it's one voice with many different, like...
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Voices like a choir, you know, but it's it's the togetherness that makes it so resonant.
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OK, so reach in to reach to.
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So we're not going to be the ones, not us, who let validation, approval results stop us.
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We're not going to be those ones.
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And, you know, this is this is not easy.
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This is brave.
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You are brave.
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You know of all the beliefs that I would wish that you had, that I would wish for you, and you may already have this belief, is that you are brave.
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Because when you believe you are brave, you can leave a relationship that doesn't serve you.
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You can speak up in a moment where your voice shakes.
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You can feel the fear and do it anyway because you have the belief that you are courageous, that you are bravery, okay?
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Now, I still lost the thread just before the woo-woo moment, and I wish I could, uh,
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I wish I could find it, but maybe I just need to release what I thought was supposed to happen and step into the possibility of what is happening.
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What is happening is this beautiful transmission of energy.
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You know, that is such a gift.
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And that's part of why I love video creation.
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Now, every medium.
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has a gift and it also has a shadow and video is a newer medium of expression okay and you know i could say okay writing has its own gifts of the written word okay it's incredible you read these words they leap into your consciousness you're reading a book it was written 30 years ago audrey
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50, what?
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10, 10, 15 years, whatever it is.
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I'm reading these words as though they're right here, right now.
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Like I'm having tea with you.
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I'm imagining things.
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I'm linking.
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It's a magic.
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It's alchemy.
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So writing is alchemy.
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Okay.
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And it has its gifts.
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Poetry, another kind of alchemy.
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The visceralness, the imagery of it.
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It's so potent, so powerful.
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A song, another kind of alchemy.
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Oof, the beauty, the melody, the repetition, the hook, the way that it stays in your consciousness.
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Alchemy.
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okay so video is this transmission of energy that's the gift of it is you're seeing an embodied person expressing their energy into the world and so for me i don't need to worry about flopping flopping needs to worry about me like i don't need to worry about flopping i'm transmitting energy you know what i mean i'm
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The shadow of video is you want the instant validation.
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You could, I mean, it's happening to all mediums now with how online and social media works.
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But part of the shadow that we are all within is the feeling that it has to happen now.
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Okay, it's the feeling that it has to happen.
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It does not have to happen now.
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It does not have to happen in any way.
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Trust a higher unfolding.
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And what we are working in this whole transmission, part of it has been how can we remove, how can we be aware of some of the voices we have within us that come from systems of collapse.
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These are systems of collapse, okay?
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They are intentionally...
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in a way, forces of crisis and collapse, which is the poly crisis we're in now.
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So these are forces of colonialism, patriarchy, all the phobias, the antis.
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Okay, why be anti anything except anti-anti?
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You know what I mean?
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So there's a constructive capacity for us to all build the world as we wish to see it.
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And I believe in you.
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I believe in you.
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I believe in you.
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I believe in us, actually.
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Because I believe when magical souls come together, oh, world's changed.
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We've already been beneficiaries of this.
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It's already been, I don't even, it's already happened.
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Movements, protests.
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communities, people coming together.
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So that's why this podcast was sponsored.
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So that's why I'm hosting the permission portal.
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The permission portal is an event that is happening on October 16th.
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And I'd love to formally invite you to come.
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If I am speaking your language, if I'm reaching within and reaching through for you and you're feeling like, Oh, I feel roached.
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I feel roached.
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I feel reached.
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I feel, I feel,
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Rizion.
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I feel like we are one.
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You know we are one in the same.
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Like we're different.
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But we're like in the same house of being.
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Okay.
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We are soul siblings.
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We're on the same frequency.
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It means we are unique expressions.
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But of.
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Hmm.
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You feel?
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So the permission portal is a live event on October 16th.
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You can sign up at the link below.
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And it is all about giving ourselves.
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I wanted to say our souls because that's also true.
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Permission to step into our expression.
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To step into our possibility.
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To step into being a beginner.
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Trying something new.
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Starting something.
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Returning to something.
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Creating something.
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Launching something.
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Selling something.
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Whatever you feel called to give yourself permission for.
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Okay.
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trust, the space is designed for all of us to expand the permission that we give to ourselves and to each other, because permission is like a, well, we all draw from the permission.
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We've seen other people give to themselves, especially people with similar identities to us.
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So we draw from that.
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Well, we say, Oh, well, I saw someone do this.
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I saw another, I saw another black woman give herself permission to speak.
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I saw another spiritual person give themselves permission to own their spirituality and not, uh,
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allow the forces no actually the wrong kind of this the the forces of collapse the forces of doom to stop them from claiming that they're spiritual okay so we're going to be stepping into the permission
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And you know, if you just trust a container, we don't know what's going to happen.
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I'm very much for the present moment.
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I don't know.
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I'm very much like I don't script things, you know, because I've tried.
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We have to find our own process.
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There's benefits to scripting things.
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Like I wouldn't forget.
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I wouldn't have forgotten what thread I was on.
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But that's not who I am as a creator.
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I've tried it because that's what you're supposed to do, right?
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You're supposed to have a plan.
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Because that's what they tell you.
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I don't have a plan.
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I have a seed.
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I have a seed and I don't know how it's going to grow.
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I don't know how it's going to flow.
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I have an energy and I have a seed and I have a vision for this as a body of work.
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But for the specific transmission, I'm like, who knows what could happen?
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And that's how my spirit feels most alive.
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It's like we're having tea and you know, you have you know what's so funny?
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So I have this podcast partly because I think it's important to give your voice a space for it to just luxuriate, you know, if that's your gift.
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And if you have a hunch that it is your gift, it absolutely is.
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So to give yourself the permission to not have to walk a tightrope of how you're supposed to be allowed to express.
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And I have this space so that when I show up for one-on-ones and two-on, you know, multiple conversations, I don't have to take up that much space relative to other people because I have a space.
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But what I find is so many people don't have a space for their voice.
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So they just...
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burden, like overlook, like give you so much and leave no room for you.
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And while it's so important to feel heard in this life, it's also so important to hear it's a give and a take.
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It's an energy exchange.
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And I've had so many one sided conversations that I thought, OK, first of all, let me create a space.
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This is not actually this is not how the podcast started, but like with interviewing, I'm like, this is perfect because now this is what I signed up for.
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I signed up for me to hear you and you not to hear me.
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That's great.
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That's like it's not you disrespect.
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It's just the energy exchange is an alignment.
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But what I find is this.
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The gift of this form of expression is it's in alignment with who I am, with my my being is that I am I love I do improv, you know, I love and that's new because that was already in me.
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I just expressed I'm now expressing it through improv.
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I love the present moment.
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Like, I'm just like, what's going to happen next?
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I actually I love like I just I'm like, who knows, you know?
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Where are we going to go?
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That to me energizes me.
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I'm energized by that.
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But to someone else, it's like, that's so chaotic.
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Or like they feel like that's so, that chaotic wasn't it.
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I wasn't disrespecting myself.
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I was saying that some people may feel like it's chaotic to not know.
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Or they may feel like, well, my voice is such a way that I need the, it's like a riverbank.
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I need the riverbanks for my river to flow.
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That's divine.
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That's beautiful.
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And also I've done this 120 times.
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Oh my gosh, that is sexy.
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Not me being prolific in an anti-capitalist, you are not what you produce kind of way.
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But damn, I've made some things.
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Okay, I've spoken.
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I've spoken.
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I've given my voice to the world.
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at a cost, at a cost, okay?
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Anyways, not that it has to be at a cost.
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So I feel like,
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Part of the, okay, so we had the polarity.
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The gift of this is it's the presence, it's the energy, who knows?
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The downside is I don't know, you know, I could have picked something back up that would have been very potent.
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The other thing that I've had to accept is sometimes what you think I'm going to say doesn't end up being said.
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And that can be disappointing.
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But you know what?
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We trust eventually all that needs to be said will be said.
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And also, I also trust that maybe you are the one
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It's like a call and response.
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So I made the call and you've already responded.
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So take that with you.
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You know, it's a co-created experience.
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When I listen to podcasts, I'm like having a conversation in my head with the host.
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I'm like, oh, yeah.
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And I was expecting you to say this, but you didn't.
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And that's OK.
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So we're going to honor that.
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We're going to honor the season.
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The intention of this video was to be about the courage to flop.
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And with that, all I want to say is that we are so devoted to the world trying to emerge through us that we are willing to put up with a little bit of the discomfort of not receiving the kind of results yet that we are seeking because we get to have both.
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The world just takes some time to catch up.
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It's a very beautiful idea.
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Yeah.
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That we are, the people we envy are different expressions of us.
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And so we can choose to feel like when they're winning, we are winning.
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Because the resonance we feel with them is our own spirit mirrored back.
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Okay?
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And of course, a desire seeking to be followed.
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So you know what, babes, this has been a vibe.
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This has been a time.
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This has been a journey.
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I hope you've enjoyed this walk.
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The permission portal, we're going to step into releasing perfectionism because that's a huge permission block.
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block because you know why did I choose permission these words came to me because I feel there is a huge gap between the vision some of us hold and the permission we allow ourselves to start and to continue them so sometimes your permission is like this forest oh it's beautiful there's oak trees there's
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roses, there's green grass, there's soil, there's dirt, there's mud, there's a river, there's an ecosystem, there's animals, there's picnics happening.
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There's so much there.
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But then I say, well, why don't you plant a seed today?
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And you're like, oh, but it has to be planted perfectly.
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Hmm.
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And why is that?
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Because we've internalized these systems of collapse that want to collapse and destroy our souls.
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So they give us soul destroying inclinations.
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The soul destroying inclination is expecting a level of perfection we haven't grown into yet.
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This is the other thing, you know.
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There's things you can expect of yourself on your thousandth song that maybe on your first song.
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Am I speaking to myself?
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Maybe.
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Maybe.
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Yeah, yeah, yeah.
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Maybe on your first song, you could just let it go.
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You know?
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So...
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If we have an ecosystem of dreams, we also need to give ourselves an ecosystem of permission and give ourselves so much permission to start, to try to be a beginner, to express, to not be brilliant yet, to take up space, to ask questions, to ask for help.
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So I felt passionate about like, okay, there are these inner gates of the spirit that are locked because we've internalized the outer gates of society.
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So there's both.
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I'm not saying all we need to do is give ourselves permission.
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We live in systems of collapse, systems of control.
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So they need to dissolve so that we can all have a more wider collective permission.
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But at the same time, there is an internal permission script and gates.
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where all these beautiful places in the forest of our soul want to be entered, but the gate is locked from within.
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And we're saying, we don't get to go in there.
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I don't get to try that.
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I don't get to call myself that.
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I don't get to claim that.
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Who am I to do?
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Who am I to do?
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And it's the voice of trauma, oppression, systems of control, collapse,
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Othering, colonialism, white supremacy, patriarchy, all the, all the, all the, all the, all the, all the, all the.
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I don't have the voice that gets to speak.
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I don't have this that gets to do that.
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So it's a both and.
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But I just want to unlock some of those permission gates within myself and within all of us so that we can blossom this beautiful world trying to be born through us.
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Because honestly, babes, imagine the world we'd live in if every soulful person with an idea made the idea happen.
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And then when you start an idea journey, you're going to alchemize and attract the support that that idea craves.
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So if every person who leads from a place of heart
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created the vision on their heart.
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And honestly, it doesn't have to look like it could be a tiny little book club.
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It could be so small.
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You know, it could be you just singing a song in church.
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Like there's so many things that create huge ripple effects.
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That's huge, by the way.
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That's incredible.
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The singing the song in church to sing in front of your own community.
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That's beautiful.
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But I just mean like whatever your action is, imagine all of us heart-led people were taking those actions.
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We would live in a different world.
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We would live in a more loving world.
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And so if we give ourselves more permission, we can co-create heaven on earth.
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I believe it.
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Not just that.
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Not only more permission, more collapse of harmful systems, more mutual thriving, more abundance for all, universal basic income, deeply believe.
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Why basic?
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It's giving why basic.
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Make it abundant.
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You know what I mean?
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All the things that, the structural things that need to happen, the collapse of these systems,
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the collapse of a capitalist system to create something more beautiful.
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But what I find with, with, with society creation is it's not, you know, if you have a partner and you just say to your partner, this is what's wrong with you.
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This is what's wrong with you.
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This was, you're not going to inspire them to change.
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But if you say, you know, I have a dream that you could be such an incredible father and your kids could look up to you and think, wow, like he's my hero.
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Yeah.
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Huh, suddenly, whoo, I like that much more.
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You know what I mean?
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I have a dream that you could show up for this friendship.
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With so much courage.
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That that ripples out to your creativity.
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And you're.
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Huh.
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Suddenly.
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But if you say to someone.
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You're not brave with your voice.
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And you don't ever tell me the truth.
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And you're never honest.
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So we do that with society.
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Yes there's so much to complain about in society.
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There's so much that needs to be torn down.
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And we need both.
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Right.
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But if all we do is destroy.
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What are we creating towards?
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So we need both.
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And there's some of us.
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you know, who are more inclined to do that firework of, okay, let's burn this so that we can recreate.
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And there's others of us who came here as seeds.
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And sometimes you cross over.
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I feel like I started more as a fire and now I'm more of a seed.
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And you can be both at the same time as well.
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Okay, anyways, that is what this journey had to offer us.
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I hope that this experience has served you.
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I hope that it has supported you.
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I hope that it has unlocked something within you or returned something to your spirit that was already there and just seeking to be roached.
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seeking to be reached for okay i hope that something has crystallized and i hope you give yourself more permission and if you want to do that together i'd love that come join the permission portal the link is below and oh i'm just so excited for all the things that are unfolding for all of us i really feel like although there's so much to not have hope in
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I trust in our creative spirit to rebirth this world in alignment with love.
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And this is a legacy that we've inherited.
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We didn't start it.
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We're continuing the legacy of artists, always daring to believe that more is possible.
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Okay, dreamers, activists, change makers.
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We are part of such a beautiful inheritance of creativity, the most loving, soulful kind.
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And we all have a different role to play.
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Some of us.
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And we all have a different role to play.
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I'm sending so much love to you.
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I'm sending so much love through you.
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Go and create your art, your magic, and also go and celebrate all that you already have created, all that you are, your soul frequency.
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And don't look for ego validation in the place that soul expression and soul truth is most vital.
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Okay, because you are vital.
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You are life-giving.
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You are medicine.
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You are poetry.
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You are magic.
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And we cannot wait to receive and experience you.
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And we may just take a little bit of time to catch up.
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to catch up to your vision, to catch up to what you know is possible.
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Okay?
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I'm sending so much love to you, and I'll see you on the next Soul Session.
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I love you.
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Bye.
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Oh, that's a wrap.
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That's a wrap.
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My darling, my love, my soul sibling, thank you for stepping into the soul salon.
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If you are still hearing or watching this, we are soul siblings.
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We are resonating on the same frequency.
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And so something you may struggle with that I struggle with is the fear of being seen.
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You know that visibility is involved in you living your creative purpose and being in your power.
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serving the collective through your gifts, through your magic, through your medicine.
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In order to do that, you know you need to be more seen than you are allowing yourself to be right now.
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I have a gift just for you, heart made for us on this frequency.
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And it is a free ebook called the soulful visibility guide that is soulful visibility.
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Like we don't just want to be seen.
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We want to be felt.
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We want to be heard.
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We want to move and be moved.
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So I do have a free gift for you.
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And all you need to do is go to my website.
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I understood.com and there you will be able to input your email address and receive this directly to your inbox.
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This is such a juicy and delicious guide.
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And I change the free offering every few months.
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So, you know, get it while you can.
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All the links are in the show notes.
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So thank you so much.
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I love you.
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And I will see you on the next Soul Session.
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Okay?
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I love you.
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Bye.