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Uncertainty and the Starting Gun · That Old Trope with Nathaniel Kressen

• 0:33
  Jacksonville
• 0:34
  parallel.
• 0:55
  I
• 0:55
  am
• 0:55
  in
• 0:56
  a
• 0:56
  moment
• 0:56
  of
• 0:56
  uncertainty
• 0:59
  and
• 0:59
  for
• 1:00
  anyone
• 1:00
  listening
• 1:00
  that
• 1:01
  sees
• 1:01
  me
• 1:01
  peacocking
• 1:02
  around
• 1:02
  and
• 1:02
  talky
• 1:03
  talking
• 1:03
  and
• 1:03
  all
• 1:03
  that
• 1:04
  stuff.
• 1:04
  Yeah,
• 1:05
  that's
• 1:06
  not
• 1:06
  bravado,
• 1:07
  it's
• 1:08
  sure
• 1:08
  footedness.
• 1:09
  But
• 1:09
  there
• 1:09
  is
• 1:10
  a
• 1:10
  heart
• 1:10
  center
• 1:11
  that
• 1:11
  profoundly
• 1:12
  questions
• 1:14
  how
• 1:14
  to
• 1:14
  tactically
• 1:15
  do
• 1:15
  the
• 1:15
  bigger
• 1:16
  scope
• 1:16
  things
• 1:16
  that
• 1:17
  I've
• 1:17
  decided
• 1:17
  on.
• 1:18
  So
• 1:19
  I'm
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  going
• 1:19
  to
• 1:19
  start
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  out.
• 1:20
  I
• 1:20
  got
• 1:20
  three,
• 1:21
  let's
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  see,
• 1:22
  three
• 1:22
  big
• 1:22
  things
• 1:24
  that
• 1:24
  I'm
• 1:25
  going
• 1:25
  to
• 1:25
  cover
• 1:26
  this
• 1:26
  episode.
• 1:28
  That
• 1:28
  old
• 1:28
  trope
• 1:29
  is
• 1:29
  brought
• 1:29
  to
• 1:29
  you
• 1:30
  by
• 1:30
  cold
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  brew
• 1:31
  coffee.
• 1:32
  Cold
• 1:32
  brew
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  coffee
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  at
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  home
• 1:33
  is
• 1:34
  easier
• 1:34
  on
• 1:34
  the
• 1:34
  stomach.
• 1:36
  It
• 1:36
  enhances
• 1:37
  joy,
• 1:38
  it
• 1:38
  has
• 1:38
  a
• 1:38
  light,
• 1:39
  airy
• 1:39
  quality.
• 1:40
  And
• 1:40
  really
• 1:40
  all
• 1:41
  you
• 1:41
  got
• 1:41
  to
• 1:41
  do
• 1:41
  is
• 1:42
  put
• 1:42
  some
• 1:43
  grinds
• 1:44
  in
• 1:44
  a
• 1:44
  jar
• 1:45
  if
• 1:45
  you're
• 1:46
  in
• 1:46
  New
• 1:46
  York,
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  use
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  filtered
• 1:47
  water.
• 1:48
  Always
• 1:48
  use
• 1:48
  filtered
• 1:49
  water.
• 1:50
  The
• 1:52
  antidepressants
• 1:53
  will
• 1:53
  still
• 1:53
  be
• 1:53
  in
• 1:53
  there,
• 1:53
  trust
• 1:54
  me.
• 1:56
  Leave
• 1:56
  it
• 1:56
  overnight,
• 1:58
  pick
• 1:58
  it
• 1:58
  up
• 1:58
  first
• 1:58
  thing
• 1:58
  in
• 1:58
  the
• 1:59
  morning
• 2:00
  and
• 2:00
  strain
• 2:00
  it.
• 2:02
  Strain
• 2:02
  the
• 2:02
  grinds
• 2:03
  into
• 2:03
  whatever
• 2:03
  contraption.
• 2:04
  In
• 2:04
  my
• 2:05
  case,
• 2:05
  going
• 2:05
  from
• 2:05
  one
• 2:06
  bigger
• 2:06
  glass
• 2:07
  jar
• 2:07
  to
• 2:08
  a
• 2:08
  smaller
• 2:08
  glass
• 2:09
  jar
• 2:10
  in
• 2:10
  order
• 2:10
  to
• 2:11
  drink
• 2:11
  my
• 2:11
  cold
• 2:11
  brew
• 2:12
  coffee
• 2:12
  each
• 2:12
  morning.
• 2:13
  This
• 2:14
  coming
• 2:14
  courtesy
• 2:15
  of
• 2:16
  lovely
• 2:16
  influences
• 2:17
  in
• 2:17
  one's
• 2:17
  life.
• 2:18
  Thank
• 2:18
  you.
• 2:18
  Lovely
• 2:19
  influence
• 2:19
  in
• 2:19
  my
• 2:19
  life.
• 2:20
  Quite.
• 2:20
  Cold
• 2:21
  brew
• 2:21
  is
• 2:21
  wonderful.
• 2:23
  So
• 2:25
  we're
• 2:26
  going
• 2:26
  to
• 2:26
  take
• 2:27
  this
• 2:27
  iced
• 2:27
  coffee
• 2:28
  straight
• 2:29
  into
• 2:29
  today's
• 2:30
  outline,
• 2:30
  which
• 2:31
  goes
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  uncertainty,
• 2:34
  prioritization,
• 2:36
  Accountability,
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  and
• 2:38
  Turtle
• 2:38
  and
• 2:38
  hare.
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  So
• 2:41
  if
• 2:41
  you
• 2:41
  think
• 2:42
  you
• 2:42
  can
• 2:42
  skip
• 2:42
  ahead
• 2:42
  and
• 2:43
  get
• 2:43
  the
• 2:43
  Cliff
• 2:43
  Notes
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  or
• 2:44
  you
• 2:44
  know,
• 2:45
  ground
• 2:45
  into
• 2:46
  this
• 2:47
  synergistic
• 2:48
  corporate
• 2:48
  speak
• 2:49
  as
• 2:49
  though
• 2:49
  you've
• 2:49
  heard
• 2:50
  it
• 2:50
  before,
• 2:51
  let
• 2:51
  me
• 2:51
  tell
• 2:51
  you
• 2:52
  this.
• 2:53
  Be
• 2:53
  a
• 2:53
  mind
• 2:53
  that
• 2:54
  kind
• 2:54
  of
• 2:54
  ticks
• 2:55
  to
• 2:55
  its
• 2:55
  own
• 2:55
  clock.
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  So
• 2:57
  now
• 2:57
  that
• 2:57
  I
• 2:57
  have
• 2:58
  braggadocio'd
• 2:59
  myself
• 2:59
  into
• 2:59
  humility.
• 3:00
  Here
• 3:00
  we
• 3:01
  go.
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  Uncertainty
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  in
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  life.
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  Uncertainty
• 3:04
  in
• 3:05
  life.
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  So
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  I've
• 3:06
  had
• 3:07
  a
• 3:07
  dream
• 3:07
  of
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  being
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  the
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  big
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  swingin
• 3:10
  dick
• 3:10
  fuckin
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  artist
• 3:11
  that
• 3:11
  makes
• 3:11
  the
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  world
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  better.
• 3:12
  For
• 3:12
  a
• 3:12
  little
• 3:12
  while
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  now
• 3:14
  I
• 3:14
  wanna
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  live
• 3:15
  a
• 3:15
  peacock
• 3:15
  life.
• 3:16
  I
• 3:16
  wanna
• 3:16
  be
• 3:17
  complimented
• 3:17
  on
• 3:17
  my
• 3:18
  plumage
• 3:18
  while
• 3:18
  I
• 3:19
  am
• 3:19
  in
• 3:19
  fact
• 3:19
  making
• 3:20
  the
• 3:20
  world
• 3:20
  better
• 3:20
  for
• 3:20
  every
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  fuckin
• 3:21
  buddy
• 3:21
  that
• 3:21
  I
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  can.
• 3:23
  All
• 3:23
  that
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  lives
• 3:24
  in
• 3:24
  me.
• 3:24
  It's
• 3:24
  a
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  big
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  fucking
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  ambition.
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  And
• 3:26
  it
• 3:26
  comes
• 3:27
  down
• 3:27
  to
• 3:27
  tactical
• 3:28
  steps.
• 3:29
  Now
• 3:29
  what
• 3:29
  I
• 3:29
  am
• 3:30
  realizing
• 3:30
  is
• 3:30
  tactical
• 3:31
  steps
• 3:31
  are
• 3:33
  they're
• 3:33
  not
• 3:33
  glamorous,
• 3:35
  they
• 3:35
  are
• 3:35
  not
• 3:36
  necessarily
• 3:36
  romantic,
• 3:37
  they
• 3:37
  aren't
• 3:37
  necessarily
• 3:37
  fun.
• 3:39
  Pretty
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  much
• 3:39
  all
• 3:39
  the
• 3:40
  time.
• 3:40
  I
• 3:40
  would
• 3:40
  rather
• 3:41
  be
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  doing
• 3:41
  something
• 3:41
  creative
• 3:42
  and
• 3:42
  joyous
• 3:43
  and
• 3:43
  all
• 3:43
  this
• 3:43
  stuff.
• 3:44
  But
• 3:45
  you
• 3:45
  ever
• 3:45
  hear
• 3:45
  of
• 3:45
  getting
• 3:45
  an
• 3:46
  ein
• 3:46
  buddy?
• 3:47
  You
• 3:47
  ever
• 3:47
  follow
• 3:48
  up
• 3:48
  on
• 3:48
  getting
• 3:49
  that
• 3:49
  bank
• 3:49
  account
• 3:49
  opened?
• 3:50
  You
• 3:50
  ever
• 3:51
  kind
• 3:51
  of
• 3:51
  think
• 3:51
  about
• 3:52
  all
• 3:52
  the
• 3:52
  things
• 3:52
  that
• 3:53
  you
• 3:53
  need
• 3:53
  to
• 3:53
  fucking
• 3:53
  do
• 3:54
  in
• 3:54
  order
• 3:54
  to
• 3:56
  grow
• 3:56
  a
• 3:56
  business?
• 3:57
  Figure
• 3:58
  out
• 3:58
  monetization,
• 3:59
  Figure
• 3:59
  out
• 3:59
  right
• 4:00
  manpower
• 4:01
  for
• 4:01
  everything.
• 4:01
  Figure
• 4:02
  out
• 4:02
  that
• 4:02
  not
• 4:02
  everything
• 4:02
  is
• 4:03
  going
• 4:03
  to
• 4:03
  happen
• 4:03
  at
• 4:04
  once.
• 4:04
  Whatever
• 4:04
  happened
• 4:05
  to
• 4:05
  our
• 4:05
  mantra
• 4:06
  about
• 4:07
  making
• 4:07
  sexy
• 4:08
  bedfellows
• 4:09
  of
• 4:09
  patience
• 4:09
  and
• 4:10
  discernment?
• 4:10
  See
• 4:11
  this
• 4:11
  previous
• 4:11
  episode.
• 4:12
  If
• 4:12
  you
• 4:12
  have
• 4:12
  not
• 4:12
  listened
• 4:13
  to
• 4:13
  this
• 4:13
  year's
• 4:14
  mantras,
• 4:14
  please
• 4:15
  do
• 4:17
  make
• 4:17
  sexy
• 4:18
  bedfellows
• 4:19
  of
• 4:19
  patience
• 4:19
  and
• 4:19
  discernment
• 4:20
  is
• 4:21
  indeed
• 4:22
  something
• 4:22
  that
• 4:22
  is
• 4:22
  required
• 4:23
  when
• 4:23
  you
• 4:23
  want
• 4:23
  to
• 4:23
  build
• 4:24
  something
• 4:24
  long
• 4:24
  lasting
• 4:25
  that
• 4:25
  actually
• 4:25
  maps
• 4:26
  to
• 4:26
  what
• 4:26
  you
• 4:26
  want
• 4:26
  to
• 4:26
  be
• 4:26
  doing.
• 4:28
  And
• 4:30
  I
• 4:30
  kind
• 4:30
  of
• 4:31
  suck
• 4:31
  at
• 4:31
  minutia.
• 4:32
  I
• 4:32
  kind
• 4:32
  of
• 4:33
  suck
• 4:33
  at
• 4:33
  minutia
• 4:33
  because
• 4:35
  I'm
• 4:35
  already
• 4:36
  60
• 4:36
  yards
• 4:37
  down
• 4:37
  the
• 4:37
  field.
• 4:37
  Give
• 4:38
  me
• 4:38
  the
• 4:38
  fucking
• 4:38
  ball,
• 4:39
  Coach.
• 4:39
  I'm
• 4:39
  running
• 4:40
  here
• 4:41
  and
• 4:41
  I'm
• 4:42
  both
• 4:42
  the
• 4:42
  coach,
• 4:43
  the
• 4:43
  quarterback,
• 4:43
  the
• 4:43
  receiver,
• 4:44
  all
• 4:44
  of
• 4:44
  it.
• 4:45
  So
• 4:45
  maybe
• 4:46
  I
• 4:46
  could
• 4:47
  Slow
• 4:47
  the
• 4:48
  fuck
• 4:48
  down.
• 4:50
  Slow
• 4:52
  the
• 4:53
  fuck
• 4:53
  down.
• 4:55
  That's
• 4:56
  the
• 4:56
  respect
• 4:57
  that
• 4:57
  makes
• 4:58
  calamity
• 4:58
  of
• 4:59
  so
• 4:59
  long
• 4:59
  life
• 5:02
  so
• 5:03
  See
• 5:03
  previous
• 5:03
  episode
• 5:04
  to
• 5:04
  be
• 5:04
  or
• 5:04
  not
• 5:05
  to
• 5:05
  be
• 5:05
  ain't
• 5:05
  noise
• 5:05
  pollution.
• 5:08
  Uncertainty
• 5:09
  in
• 5:09
  life
• 5:09
  comes
• 5:10
  down
• 5:10
  to
• 5:10
  simply
• 5:11
  knowing
• 5:12
  the
• 5:12
  direction
• 5:12
  I
• 5:12
  want
• 5:12
  to
• 5:12
  go
• 5:13
  to
• 5:13
  and
• 5:14
  then
• 5:14
  wondering
• 5:14
  if
• 5:14
  I
• 5:15
  can
• 5:15
  manage
• 5:15
  to
• 5:15
  slow
• 5:16
  down
• 5:16
  and
• 5:16
  knock
• 5:16
  these
• 5:17
  tasks
• 5:17
  out
• 5:17
  the
• 5:17
  way
• 5:17
  they
• 5:17
  need
• 5:18
  to
• 5:18
  be
• 5:18
  knocked
• 5:18
  out.
• 5:19
  Because
• 5:19
  historically
• 5:20
  I
• 5:20
  have
• 5:20
  not
• 5:20
  done
• 5:20
  the
• 5:21
  work
• 5:21
  that
• 5:21
  I
• 5:21
  needed
• 5:22
  to
• 5:22
  do
• 5:22
  in
• 5:22
  the
• 5:22
  way
• 5:22
  I
• 5:22
  needed
• 5:23
  to
• 5:23
  do
• 5:23
  it
• 5:23
  all
• 5:23
  the
• 5:23
  time.
• 5:24
  I'm
• 5:25
  not
• 5:25
  alone
• 5:25
  in
• 5:25
  this.
• 5:26
  I'm
• 5:26
  not
• 5:26
  castigating
• 5:27
  or
• 5:27
  shaming
• 5:27
  myself
• 5:28
  or
• 5:28
  feeling
• 5:28
  guilty
• 5:29
  about
• 5:29
  what
• 5:29
  I
• 5:29
  have
• 5:29
  gone
• 5:30
  through
• 5:30
  to
• 5:30
  get
• 5:30
  where
• 5:30
  I
• 5:31
  am
• 5:31
  today.
• 5:31
  I'm
• 5:32
  proud
• 5:32
  of
• 5:32
  where
• 5:32
  I
• 5:32
  am
• 5:32
  today
• 5:33
  and
• 5:33
  I
• 5:33
  do
• 5:33
  the
• 5:33
  best
• 5:33
  I
• 5:33
  can
• 5:34
  with
• 5:34
  what
• 5:34
  I
• 5:34
  got.
• 5:36
  Do
• 5:36
  I
• 5:37
  ever
• 5:37
  end
• 5:38
  up
• 5:39
  stopping
• 5:40
  things?
• 5:41
  Yes,
• 5:41
  I
• 5:41
  do.
• 5:43
  Because
• 5:43
  uncertainty
• 5:45
  isn't
• 5:45
  always
• 5:46
  unfounded.
• 5:47
  It's
• 5:47
  not
• 5:47
  like
• 5:48
  every
• 5:48
  intuition
• 5:49
  I
• 5:49
  have
• 5:49
  is
• 5:49
  right.
• 5:50
  It's
• 5:50
  not
• 5:51
  like
• 5:51
  every
• 5:51
  relationship
• 5:52
  I
• 5:52
  get
• 5:52
  into
• 5:53
  is
• 5:53
  right.
• 5:57
  Doesn't
• 5:57
  mean
• 5:58
  there's
• 5:58
  not
• 5:58
  joy.
• 5:59
  Doesn't
• 5:59
  mean
• 5:59
  there
• 6:00
  isn't
• 6:00
  heart
• 6:00
  connection
• 6:01
  and
• 6:01
  very
• 6:02
  real.
• 6:04
  Say
• 6:04
  it.
• 6:04
  Love
• 6:06
  doesn't
• 6:06
  mean
• 6:06
  there
• 6:06
  isn't
• 6:07
  love.
• 6:09
  But
• 6:09
  it
• 6:09
  doesn't
• 6:10
  necessarily
• 6:10
  fit
• 6:10
  if
• 6:11
  it
• 6:11
  doesn't
• 6:11
  fit.
• 6:12
  And
• 6:12
  if
• 6:12
  it
• 6:12
  doesn't
• 6:13
  fit,
• 6:13
  it
• 6:13
  is
• 6:13
  not
• 6:14
  something
• 6:14
  that
• 6:14
  fits.
• 6:15
  And
• 6:15
  I
• 6:15
  have
• 6:16
  not
• 6:16
  gone
• 6:16
  through
• 6:16
  fire
• 6:17
  and
• 6:17
  brimstone
• 6:19
  to
• 6:20
  come
• 6:20
  out
• 6:20
  to
• 6:21
  our
• 6:21
  second
• 6:21
  part
• 6:22
  of
• 6:22
  this
• 6:22
  outline,
• 6:23
  which
• 6:23
  is
• 6:23
  uncertainty
• 6:23
  and
• 6:24
  romance.
• 6:24
  In
• 6:25
  case
• 6:25
  you
• 6:25
  can
• 6:25
  guess,
• 6:27
  I
• 6:27
  am
• 6:27
  a
• 6:28
  man
• 6:28
  who
• 6:28
  loves
• 6:29
  people.
• 6:30
  I
• 6:30
  love
• 6:31
  people.
• 6:32
  I
• 6:32
  love
• 6:32
  connection.
• 6:33
  I
• 6:33
  love
• 6:33
  potential.
• 6:34
  I
• 6:34
  love
• 6:37
  being
• 6:38
  known,
• 6:38
  being
• 6:39
  understood,
• 6:39
  being
• 6:40
  seen,
• 6:42
  being
• 6:42
  treasured.
• 6:45
  And
• 6:47
  you
• 6:47
  know,
• 6:47
  I'm
• 6:47
  sure
• 6:47
  everybody
• 6:48
  does,
• 6:49
  but
• 6:50
  I
• 6:50
  kind
• 6:50
  of
• 6:50
  feel
• 6:50
  like
• 6:50
  it
• 6:51
  took
• 6:51
  me
• 6:51
  a
• 6:51
  while
• 6:51
  to
• 6:52
  get
• 6:52
  to
• 6:52
  a
• 6:52
  place
• 6:52
  where
• 6:53
  I
• 6:53
  treasured
• 6:53
  me
• 6:54
  and
• 6:55
  knew
• 6:55
  who
• 6:55
  I
• 6:55
  was
• 6:56
  through
• 6:56
  and
• 6:56
  through
• 6:56
  and
• 6:58
  could
• 6:58
  take
• 6:58
  ownership
• 6:59
  over
• 6:59
  things
• 6:59
  I
• 6:59
  can
• 7:00
  do
• 7:00
  better,
• 7:00
  can
• 7:01
  take
• 7:01
  ownership
• 7:01
  over
• 7:01
  things
• 7:02
  I
• 7:02
  do
• 7:02
  well
• 7:02
  and
• 7:03
  not
• 7:03
  let
• 7:03
  go
• 7:03
  of
• 7:03
  those.
• 7:03
  If
• 7:04
  I'M
• 7:04
  told
• 7:04
  differently.
• 7:07
  I.
• 7:10
  I
• 7:10
  like
• 7:10
  me.
• 7:10
  I
• 7:10
  love
• 7:11
  me
• 7:11
  these
• 7:11
  days.
• 7:11
  And
• 7:11
  listen
• 7:12
  to
• 7:12
  that
• 7:12
  siren
• 7:12
  in
• 7:12
  the
• 7:12
  background
• 7:13
  if
• 7:13
  you
• 7:13
  can
• 7:13
  hear
• 7:13
  it.
• 7:14
  Careful,
• 7:14
  Nate.
• 7:14
  Nathaniel,
• 7:16
  careful.
• 7:17
  What
• 7:17
  hubris.
• 7:22
  If
• 7:22
  you
• 7:22
  haven't
• 7:22
  listened
• 7:23
  to
• 7:23
  Growl
• 7:23
  Honey,
• 7:24
  look
• 7:24
  up
• 7:24
  the
• 7:25
  song
• 7:25
  comeuppance.
• 7:26
  The
• 7:26
  same
• 7:26
  exact
• 7:27
  police
• 7:27
  siren
• 7:28
  root
• 7:28
  that
• 7:28
  you
• 7:29
  just
• 7:29
  heard
• 7:30
  that's
• 7:30
  kind
• 7:30
  of
• 7:31
  laid
• 7:31
  down
• 7:31
  as
• 7:31
  a
• 7:32
  backbeat
• 7:33
  on
• 7:33
  that
• 7:33
  track
• 7:34
  comeuppance.
• 7:36
  And
• 7:36
  someday
• 7:36
  I
• 7:37
  will
• 7:37
  reveal
• 7:37
  to
• 7:37
  you
• 7:37
  guys
• 7:38
  what
• 7:39
  the
• 7:40
  album
• 7:40
  Yonder
• 7:40
  Lies
• 7:41
  was
• 7:41
  recorded
• 7:42
  to.
• 7:42
  There
• 7:42
  was
• 7:43
  a
• 7:43
  famous
• 7:43
  cult
• 7:44
  movie
• 7:44
  from
• 7:44
  the
• 7:45
  1990s,
• 7:45
  one
• 7:46
  of
• 7:46
  my
• 7:46
  favorites
• 7:47
  growing
• 7:47
  up,
• 7:48
  that
• 7:48
  I
• 7:48
  used
• 7:48
  to
• 7:48
  be
• 7:48
  able
• 7:49
  to
• 7:49
  quote
• 7:49
  verbatim,
• 7:50
  start
• 7:50
  to
• 7:50
  finish
• 7:52
  pinnacle
• 7:53
  90s
• 7:53
  cult
• 7:54
  movie.
• 7:56
  I
• 7:56
  timed
• 7:57
  out
• 7:57
  my
• 7:57
  entire
• 7:58
  album
• 7:58
  Yonder
• 7:59
  Lies
• 7:59
  under
• 7:59
  the
• 7:59
  name
• 7:59
  Growl
• 8:00
  Honey,
• 8:00
  Available
• 8:01
  anywhere
• 8:01
  you
• 8:01
  listen
• 8:02
  to
• 8:02
  music.
• 8:03
  Shameless
• 8:04
  plug.
• 8:05
  I
• 8:05
  timed
• 8:06
  it
• 8:06
  out
• 8:06
  to
• 8:06
  the
• 8:06
  second
• 8:07
  of
• 8:07
  the
• 8:07
  first
• 8:07
  44
• 8:08
  minutes,
• 8:09
  whatever
• 8:09
  it
• 8:09
  is,
• 8:09
  of
• 8:09
  this
• 8:10
  movie.
• 8:11
  And
• 8:11
  someday
• 8:11
  I'll
• 8:12
  reveal
• 8:12
  it
• 8:12
  on
• 8:13
  a
• 8:13
  jacknoid
• 8:13
  parallelope
• 8:14
  thing.
• 8:18
  Back
• 8:18
  to
• 8:18
  uncertainty
• 8:19
  and
• 8:19
  romance.
• 8:23
  I
• 8:24
  stopped
• 8:24
  dating
• 8:24
  for
• 8:24
  a
• 8:25
  while
• 8:26
  because
• 8:28
  I
• 8:28
  realized
• 8:29
  I
• 8:29
  was
• 8:29
  repeating
• 8:30
  patterns
• 8:30
  wherein
• 8:31
  I
• 8:31
  would
• 8:31
  start
• 8:31
  going
• 8:31
  down
• 8:32
  a
• 8:32
  certain
• 8:32
  road
• 8:33
  and
• 8:33
  realize
• 8:34
  it
• 8:34
  wasn't
• 8:35
  the
• 8:35
  right
• 8:35
  road.
• 8:36
  And
• 8:36
  I
• 8:37
  turned
• 8:37
  blind
• 8:38
  eyes
• 8:38
  to
• 8:38
  left,
• 8:39
  right,
• 8:39
  whatever.
• 8:41
  And
• 8:42
  just
• 8:42
  to
• 8:42
  be
• 8:42
  seen,
• 8:43
  just
• 8:43
  to
• 8:43
  be
• 8:43
  held
• 8:44
  for
• 8:44
  a
• 8:44
  minute,
• 8:45
  to
• 8:45
  feel
• 8:45
  some
• 8:45
  affection
• 8:46
  for
• 8:46
  a
• 8:46
  fucking
• 8:47
  minute.
• 8:48
  And
• 8:50
  having
• 8:50
  to
• 8:50
  turn
• 8:51
  around
• 8:51
  hurt
• 8:51
  people.
• 8:52
  And
• 8:53
  I
• 8:53
  could
• 8:53
  have
• 8:53
  seen
• 8:54
  misalignments
• 8:55
  earlier,
• 8:58
  but
• 8:58
  I
• 8:58
  didn't.
• 8:58
  I
• 8:59
  chose
• 8:59
  not
• 8:59
  to.
• 9:00
  And
• 9:00
  once
• 9:00
  I
• 9:00
  realized
• 9:01
  all
• 9:01
  this,
• 9:01
  I
• 9:01
  took
• 9:01
  a
• 9:02
  long
• 9:02
  time
• 9:02
  away
• 9:02
  from
• 9:02
  dating
• 9:03
  because
• 9:03
  I
• 9:03
  was
• 9:04
  realized
• 9:04
  I
• 9:04
  was
• 9:04
  driven
• 9:05
  by
• 9:05
  the
• 9:05
  wrong
• 9:05
  fucking
• 9:06
  chakra.
• 9:07
  Funny
• 9:08
  enough,
• 9:08
  in
• 9:09
  when
• 9:09
  I
• 9:09
  went
• 9:09
  to
• 9:09
  nyu,
• 9:10
  I
• 9:10
  was
• 9:10
  in
• 9:11
  this
• 9:11
  Dante
• 9:12
  class
• 9:12
  where
• 9:13
  I
• 9:13
  just
• 9:13
  wanted
• 9:13
  a
• 9:14
  deep
• 9:14
  read
• 9:14
  of
• 9:15
  Paradise
• 9:15
  Lost.
• 9:16
  But
• 9:16
  we
• 9:17
  focused
• 9:17
  on
• 9:17
  those
• 9:17
  earlier
• 9:18
  work
• 9:18
  which
• 9:18
  are
• 9:18
  heavily
• 9:19
  Christian
• 9:19
  influenced
• 9:20
  or
• 9:20
  just
• 9:21
  Christian,
• 9:22
  and
• 9:24
  we
• 9:25
  never
• 9:25
  got
• 9:25
  around
• 9:25
  to
• 9:25
  Paradise
• 9:26
  Lost
• 9:27
  or
• 9:27
  not
• 9:27
  paradise
• 9:27
  lives.
• 9:28
  I'm
• 9:28
  sorry,
• 9:28
  Divine
• 9:28
  Comedy,
• 9:29
  obviously
• 9:29
  Milton
• 9:30
  is
• 9:30
  Paradise
• 9:30
  Lost.
• 9:30
  I
• 9:31
  love
• 9:31
  that.
• 9:31
  In
• 9:31
  high
• 9:31
  school
• 9:31
  though,
• 9:32
  we'll
• 9:33
  do
• 9:33
  a
• 9:33
  future
• 9:33
  episode
• 9:34
  where
• 9:34
  I
• 9:34
  go
• 9:34
  back
• 9:34
  to
• 9:35
  that.
• 9:35
  That
• 9:35
  would
• 9:35
  be
• 9:35
  fun.
• 9:35
  That'd
• 9:36
  be
• 9:36
  fun
• 9:36
  to
• 9:36
  read.
• 9:38
  So
• 9:39
  I
• 9:39
  wanted
• 9:39
  to
• 9:39
  read
• 9:39
  Divine
• 9:40
  Comedy
• 9:40
  in
• 9:41
  real
• 9:42
  fucking
• 9:43
  depth.
• 9:43
  Instead,
• 9:44
  we
• 9:44
  focused
• 9:44
  on
• 9:44
  his
• 9:45
  earlier
• 9:45
  heavily
• 9:45
  Christian,
• 9:46
  moralistic
• 9:46
  work.
• 9:47
  And
• 9:47
  as
• 9:48
  a
• 9:48
  young,
• 9:48
  you
• 9:49
  know,
• 9:50
  actor
• 9:50
  in
• 9:50
  New
• 9:50
  York
• 9:50
  City
• 9:51
  who
• 9:52
  had
• 9:52
  hot
• 9:52
  blood
• 9:52
  in
• 9:53
  his
• 9:53
  veins
• 9:53
  and
• 9:53
  all
• 9:53
  this
• 9:53
  stuff
• 9:54
  and
• 9:54
  zero
• 9:55
  experience
• 9:55
  or
• 9:55
  awareness
• 9:56
  of
• 9:56
  anything,
• 9:57
  I
• 9:58
  was
• 9:58
  like,
• 9:59
  this
• 10:00
  is
• 10:00
  pretty
• 10:00
  prude.
• 10:03
  I
• 10:03
  felt
• 10:03
  shame
• 10:04
  around
• 10:04
  sexuality
• 10:05
  my
• 10:05
  whole
• 10:05
  life.
• 10:06
  And
• 10:06
  now
• 10:06
  I
• 10:06
  have
• 10:06
  to
• 10:07
  come
• 10:07
  to
• 10:07
  the
• 10:07
  city
• 10:08
  to
• 10:08
  read
• 10:09
  this
• 10:09
  famous
• 10:09
  Italian
• 10:10
  author.
• 10:11
  Tell
• 10:11
  me
• 10:11
  that.
• 10:12
  No,
• 10:12
  no,
• 10:13
  no.
• 10:13
  Those
• 10:13
  lower
• 10:14
  chakras,
• 10:14
  they
• 10:14
  are
• 10:15
  not
• 10:15
  the
• 10:15
  holy
• 10:15
  road.
• 10:16
  The
• 10:16
  holy
• 10:16
  road
• 10:16
  is
• 10:17
  through
• 10:17
  the
• 10:17
  head.
• 10:17
  The
• 10:18
  head
• 10:18
  fucking
• 10:18
  chakra.
• 10:19
  Look
• 10:19
  at
• 10:19
  you
• 10:20
  elevating
• 10:20
  to
• 10:21
  a
• 10:21
  higher
• 10:21
  being
• 10:22
  by
• 10:22
  doing
• 10:22
  that.
• 10:23
  Well,
• 10:24
  now
• 10:24
  I'm
• 10:24
  42.
• 10:26
  I'm
• 10:26
  42
• 10:27
  fucking
• 10:27
  years
• 10:27
  old.
• 10:28
  And
• 10:28
  I'm
• 10:29
  pretty
• 10:29
  proud
• 10:29
  of
• 10:29
  being
• 10:29
  in,
• 10:30
  you
• 10:30
  know,
• 10:30
  the
• 10:30
  higher
• 10:31
  chakras.
• 10:32
  Because,
• 10:33
  ladies
• 10:33
  and
• 10:33
  gentlemen,
• 10:34
  it
• 10:34
  will
• 10:34
  come
• 10:34
  as
• 10:35
  no
• 10:35
  surprise.
• 10:35
  I
• 10:35
  have
• 10:35
  been
• 10:36
  led
• 10:36
  around
• 10:36
  by
• 10:36
  the
• 10:37
  dick.
• 10:37
  I
• 10:38
  have
• 10:38
  been
• 10:38
  led
• 10:38
  around
• 10:38
  by
• 10:38
  the.
• 10:39
  I've
• 10:40
  been
• 10:40
  led
• 10:40
  around
• 10:40
  my
• 10:41
  fair
• 10:41
  amount.
• 10:42
  And
• 10:43
  what.
• 10:44
  So
• 10:44
  there's
• 10:45
  a
• 10:45
  book
• 10:45
  I'm
• 10:45
  working
• 10:45
  on
• 10:46
  where
• 10:46
  there's
• 10:46
  a
• 10:46
  line
• 10:47
  and
• 10:47
  it
• 10:47
  says,
• 10:48
  I've
• 10:48
  had
• 10:48
  sex.
• 10:49
  I've
• 10:49
  had
• 10:50
  sex.
• 10:50
  What
• 10:51
  I
• 10:51
  have
• 10:51
  not,
• 10:51
  however,
• 10:52
  had
• 10:52
  is
• 10:53
  calm.
• 10:56
  I
• 10:56
  like
• 10:56
  calm.
• 10:57
  I
• 10:57
  value
• 10:58
  calm.
• 10:59
  I
• 10:59
  want
• 11:00
  so
• 11:00
  much
• 11:00
  calm
• 11:00
  in
• 11:01
  my
• 11:01
  fucking
• 11:01
  life
• 11:02
  and
• 11:02
  I
• 11:02
  need
• 11:02
  it.
• 11:04
  And
• 11:04
  I
• 11:04
  still
• 11:05
  have
• 11:06
  so
• 11:06
  many
• 11:06
  urges
• 11:07
  that
• 11:07
  drive
• 11:07
  me
• 11:08
  toward
• 11:08
  whatever,
• 11:09
  but
• 11:09
  I
• 11:09
  don't
• 11:10
  act
• 11:10
  on
• 11:10
  them
• 11:11
  to
• 11:11
  the
• 11:11
  extent
• 11:11
  I
• 11:12
  used
• 11:12
  to.
• 11:12
  I'm
• 11:13
  getting
• 11:13
  smarter
• 11:13
  and
• 11:13
  smarter
• 11:14
  by
• 11:14
  the
• 11:14
  day.
• 11:14
  I'm
• 11:14
  getting
• 11:15
  really
• 11:15
  fucking
• 11:15
  discerning
• 11:16
  patience
• 11:16
  and
• 11:17
  discernment.
• 11:18
  And
• 11:19
  I'm
• 11:19
  being
• 11:19
  safe,
• 11:21
  being
• 11:21
  good
• 11:21
  to
• 11:22
  me.
• 11:22
  I'm
• 11:22
  being
• 11:22
  good
• 11:23
  to
• 11:23
  others
• 11:23
  to
• 11:23
  the
• 11:23
  best
• 11:23
  of
• 11:23
  my
• 11:24
  ability.
• 11:25
  And
• 11:25
  the
• 11:26
  uncertainty
• 11:26
  factor
• 11:27
  of
• 11:27
  going
• 11:27
  down
• 11:28
  the
• 11:28
  roads
• 11:29
  and
• 11:29
  having
• 11:29
  to
• 11:29
  turn
• 11:29
  around,
• 11:30
  that
• 11:30
  doesn't
• 11:31
  go
• 11:31
  away
• 11:31
  just
• 11:31
  because
• 11:31
  one
• 11:32
  is
• 11:32
  safe
• 11:32
  and
• 11:32
  one
• 11:33
  is
• 11:34
  open
• 11:34
  and
• 11:34
  thinks
• 11:35
  more.
• 11:35
  And
• 11:35
  all
• 11:36
  these
• 11:36
  things,
• 11:36
  I've
• 11:36
  gone
• 11:36
  down
• 11:37
  roads
• 11:37
  and
• 11:37
  had
• 11:37
  to
• 11:37
  turn
• 11:37
  them
• 11:38
  back.
• 11:38
  I
• 11:38
  have.
• 11:39
  And
• 11:39
  they've
• 11:39
  been
• 11:40
  with
• 11:40
  wonderful
• 11:40
  people
• 11:40
  who
• 11:41
  I
• 11:41
  care
• 11:41
  about
• 11:41
  deeply.
• 11:42
  And
• 11:42
  there
• 11:42
  was
• 11:42
  love
• 11:42
  there,
• 11:44
  but
• 11:44
  it
• 11:44
  was
• 11:45
  misaligned.
• 11:47
  And
• 11:47
  I
• 11:47
  have
• 11:47
  not
• 11:47
  gone
• 11:48
  through
• 11:48
  everything
• 11:48
  I've
• 11:49
  gone
• 11:49
  through
• 11:50
  to
• 11:51
  shy
• 11:51
  away
• 11:52
  from
• 11:52
  my
• 11:52
  own
• 11:52
  truth.
• 11:54
  And
• 11:54
  when
• 11:54
  it
• 11:54
  becomes
• 11:55
  clear
• 11:55
  when
• 11:55
  those
• 11:55
  misalignments
• 11:56
  happen,
• 11:57
  where
• 11:58
  something
• 11:58
  core
• 11:58
  that
• 11:59
  I
• 11:59
  need
• 12:00
  is
• 12:00
  not
• 12:00
  going
• 12:00
  to
• 12:00
  be
• 12:01
  there
• 12:01
  or
• 12:01
  met
• 12:02
  or
• 12:02
  valued
• 12:03
  in
• 12:04
  what
• 12:04
  I'm
• 12:04
  giving,
• 12:06
  then
• 12:06
  it
• 12:06
  has
• 12:06
  to
• 12:07
  stop.
• 12:08
  It's
• 12:08
  just
• 12:08
  the
• 12:08
  kind
• 12:09
  thing
• 12:09
  to
• 12:09
  stop
• 12:13
  uncertainty
• 12:13
  in
• 12:13
  business
• 12:14
  decisions.
• 12:17
  The
• 12:18
  thing
• 12:18
  is,
• 12:19
  is
• 12:20
  I
• 12:20
  have
• 12:20
  not
• 12:20
  done
• 12:20
  what
• 12:21
  I'm
• 12:21
  doing
• 12:21
  before.
• 12:23
  I
• 12:24
  have
• 12:25
  only
• 12:27
  my
• 12:27
  better
• 12:28
  judgment,
• 12:28
  which
• 12:29
  is
• 12:29
  ever
• 12:29
  expanding
• 12:30
  and
• 12:30
  learning
• 12:33
  my
• 12:33
  curiosity,
• 12:34
  which
• 12:35
  feeds
• 12:35
  that
• 12:35
  knowledge,
• 12:38
  my
• 12:38
  affability,
• 12:39
  which
• 12:40
  allows
• 12:40
  me
• 12:40
  to
• 12:41
  genuinely
• 12:42
  care
• 12:43
  and
• 12:43
  talk
• 12:43
  to
• 12:44
  people
• 12:44
  about
• 12:44
  what
• 12:44
  they
• 12:45
  care
• 12:45
  about
• 12:46
  and
• 12:46
  learn
• 12:46
  and
• 12:47
  just
• 12:47
  sponge
• 12:48
  it
• 12:48
  up,
• 12:48
  ask
• 12:49
  questions
• 12:49
  that
• 12:49
  are
• 12:49
  core
• 12:50
  to
• 12:50
  what
• 12:50
  I
• 12:50
  want
• 12:50
  to
• 12:50
  explore
• 12:51
  and
• 12:51
  understand.
• 12:52
  And
• 12:52
  when
• 12:53
  there
• 12:53
  are,
• 12:54
  you
• 12:54
  know,
• 12:56
  when
• 12:56
  there
• 12:56
  are
• 12:57
  intuitive
• 12:58
  connections
• 12:59
  in
• 12:59
  that
• 12:59
  way,
• 13:01
  really
• 13:02
  talk
• 13:02
  about
• 13:02
  shit
• 13:02
  that
• 13:02
  matters
• 13:03
  and
• 13:03
  learn
• 13:03
  a
• 13:03
  lot
• 13:03
  in
• 13:03
  the
• 13:03
  process,
• 13:08
  I.
• 13:09
  I
• 13:10
  still
• 13:10
  don't
• 13:10
  know
• 13:10
  what
• 13:10
  the
• 13:10
  fuck
• 13:11
  I'm
• 13:11
  doing,
• 13:11
  though.
• 13:13
  And
• 13:13
  this
• 13:13
  kind
• 13:13
  of
• 13:13
  bleeds
• 13:14
  into
• 13:14
  the
• 13:14
  next
• 13:14
  category,
• 13:15
  which
• 13:15
  is
• 13:15
  prioritization.
• 13:16
  There
• 13:17
  is
• 13:18
  no
• 13:18
  one
• 13:18
  forcing
• 13:19
  you
• 13:19
  to
• 13:20
  do
• 13:20
  this,
• 13:20
  is
• 13:20
  what
• 13:21
  I
• 13:21
  wrote
• 13:21
  under
• 13:21
  there.
• 13:22
  There's
• 13:23
  no
• 13:23
  one
• 13:23
  forcing
• 13:23
  you
• 13:24
  to
• 13:24
  do
• 13:24
  this.
• 13:26
  And
• 13:26
  the
• 13:27
  Uncertainty
• 13:27
  in
• 13:27
  business
• 13:27
  decisions
• 13:28
  is.
• 13:30
  I'm
• 13:30
  the
• 13:30
  only
• 13:30
  one
• 13:31
  here.
• 13:31
  Let's.
• 13:32
  Let's
• 13:32
  get
• 13:32
  this
• 13:32
  out
• 13:32
  of
• 13:32
  the
• 13:33
  way.
• 13:33
  Prioritization.
• 13:33
  No
• 13:34
  one
• 13:34
  is
• 13:34
  forcing
• 13:34
  you
• 13:34
  to
• 13:35
  do
• 13:35
  this.
• 13:35
  No
• 13:35
  one
• 13:36
  knows
• 13:36
  except
• 13:36
  you
• 13:37
  what
• 13:37
  doesn't
• 13:37
  exist
• 13:37
  yet.
• 13:38
  You
• 13:38
  get
• 13:38
  to
• 13:39
  decide
• 13:39
  how
• 13:39
  it
• 13:39
  looks.
• 13:41
  All
• 13:41
  of
• 13:42
  this
• 13:42
  is
• 13:42
  prioritization
• 13:45
  that
• 13:45
  doesn't
• 13:45
  have
• 13:45
  a
• 13:46
  correct
• 13:46
  answer.
• 13:47
  It's
• 13:47
  me
• 13:48
  going
• 13:48
  on
• 13:48
  my
• 13:48
  gut,
• 13:49
  choosing
• 13:49
  one
• 13:49
  thing
• 13:50
  over
• 13:50
  another.
• 13:50
  And
• 13:50
  there
• 13:51
  is
• 13:51
  never
• 13:51
  going
• 13:51
  to
• 13:52
  be
• 13:52
  certainty.
• 13:53
  There's
• 13:54
  just
• 13:54
  never
• 13:54
  going
• 13:54
  to
• 13:54
  be
• 13:54
  full
• 13:55
  certainty.
• 13:55
  And
• 13:56
  it's
• 13:56
  dawned
• 13:56
  on
• 13:56
  me
• 13:57
  that
• 13:57
  where
• 13:58
  I'm
• 13:58
  at
• 13:58
  might
• 13:58
  be
• 13:58
  as
• 13:58
  certain
• 13:59
  as
• 13:59
  I
• 13:59
  am
• 13:59
  about
• 14:00
  any
• 14:00
  of
• 14:00
  this
• 14:00
  stuff.
• 14:01
  And
• 14:01
  I'm
• 14:01
  just,
• 14:01
  like,
• 14:02
  making
• 14:02
  it
• 14:02
  up.
• 14:04
  I'm
• 14:04
  asking
• 14:05
  all
• 14:05
  the
• 14:05
  questions.
• 14:05
  I'm
• 14:05
  using
• 14:06
  my
• 14:06
  better
• 14:06
  judgment.
• 14:06
  I'm,
• 14:07
  you
• 14:07
  know,
• 14:07
  like,
• 14:07
  testing
• 14:08
  things
• 14:08
  out
• 14:08
  and
• 14:08
  all
• 14:08
  this
• 14:08
  stuff.
• 14:09
  And
• 14:09
  I'm
• 14:10
  kind
• 14:10
  of
• 14:10
  realizing,
• 14:10
  like,
• 14:11
  that's
• 14:11
  what
• 14:11
  it
• 14:11
  is.
• 14:13
  And
• 14:14
  there's
• 14:14
  nobody
• 14:15
  who's
• 14:15
  gonna
• 14:15
  tell
• 14:15
  me
• 14:16
  that
• 14:16
  it's
• 14:16
  right
• 14:16
  or
• 14:16
  wrong
• 14:17
  because
• 14:18
  it's
• 14:18
  my
• 14:18
  thing.
• 14:19
  No
• 14:20
  one
• 14:20
  knows
• 14:20
  except
• 14:21
  me
• 14:21
  what
• 14:21
  doesn't
• 14:21
  exist
• 14:22
  yet.
• 14:22
  No
• 14:22
  one
• 14:22
  knows
• 14:23
  what's
• 14:23
  in
• 14:23
  my
• 14:23
  head.
• 14:24
  I
• 14:24
  can
• 14:24
  talkie
• 14:24
  talky,
• 14:24
  talky
• 14:25
  my
• 14:25
  ears
• 14:26
  off
• 14:26
  about
• 14:26
  it.
• 14:29
  And
• 14:29
  at
• 14:29
  some
• 14:30
  point,
• 14:31
  maybe
• 14:31
  some
• 14:31
  of
• 14:31
  it
• 14:32
  strikes
• 14:32
  a
• 14:32
  chord
• 14:32
  and
• 14:33
  latches
• 14:33
  on
• 14:34
  and
• 14:34
  other
• 14:34
  people
• 14:35
  become
• 14:35
  excited
• 14:35
  about
• 14:35
  it
• 14:36
  too.
• 14:37
  That's
• 14:37
  fucking
• 14:37
  cool.
• 14:38
  And
• 14:38
  it's
• 14:38
  wonderful
• 14:38
  when
• 14:39
  that
• 14:39
  happens
• 14:40
  and
• 14:40
  they
• 14:40
  still
• 14:41
  don't
• 14:41
  know
• 14:41
  the
• 14:41
  full
• 14:41
  picture.
• 14:45
  I'm
• 14:45
  prone
• 14:45
  to
• 14:45
  grandiose
• 14:46
  thoughts
• 14:46
  and
• 14:46
  grand
• 14:47
  statements,
• 14:47
  grand
• 14:48
  proclamations
• 14:48
  I
• 14:48
  was
• 14:49
  accused
• 14:49
  of
• 14:49
  recently.
• 14:51
  And
• 14:51
  yeah,
• 14:51
  all
• 14:51
  that's
• 14:51
  true.
• 14:54
  But
• 14:55
  here's
• 14:55
  the
• 14:55
  thing.
• 14:55
  That's
• 14:55
  how
• 14:55
  I
• 14:56
  walk
• 14:56
  through
• 14:56
  the
• 14:56
  world,
• 14:56
  and
• 14:56
  that's
• 14:57
  how
• 14:57
  I
• 14:57
  look
• 14:57
  at
• 14:57
  things.
• 14:58
  So
• 14:59
  you
• 14:59
  can
• 14:59
  say
• 14:59
  I'm
• 15:00
  full
• 15:00
  of
• 15:00
  shit.
• 15:00
  You
• 15:01
  can
• 15:01
  say,
• 15:02
  tone
• 15:02
  it
• 15:02
  down,
• 15:03
  bud.
• 15:03
  You
• 15:03
  can
• 15:03
  see
• 15:03
  whatever
• 15:04
  the
• 15:04
  fuck
• 15:04
  you
• 15:04
  want.
• 15:04
  I'm
• 15:05
  happy
• 15:05
  being
• 15:05
  laughed
• 15:06
  at.
• 15:06
  Like
• 15:06
  I
• 15:06
  said
• 15:06
  in
• 15:06
  the
• 15:06
  first
• 15:07
  episode
• 15:07
  of
• 15:07
  this
• 15:07
  thing,
• 15:09
  that's
• 15:09
  just
• 15:10
  how
• 15:10
  I
• 15:10
  think.
• 15:12
  So
• 15:14
  let's
• 15:14
  go
• 15:15
  to
• 15:15
  the
• 15:15
  last
• 15:15
  one.
• 15:15
  Accountability.
• 15:16
  Moving
• 15:17
  from
• 15:17
  you
• 15:18
  to
• 15:18
  I.
• 15:18
  This
• 15:18
  is
• 15:18
  simply
• 15:19
  me
• 15:19
  riffing
• 15:20
  on
• 15:20
  one
• 15:20
  of
• 15:20
  the
• 15:20
  mantras
• 15:21
  from
• 15:21
  that
• 15:21
  previous
• 15:22
  episode.
• 15:22
  Because
• 15:23
  I
• 15:23
  realized
• 15:23
  as
• 15:23
  I
• 15:23
  was
• 15:24
  writing
• 15:24
  prioritization
• 15:24
  that
• 15:25
  I
• 15:25
  kept
• 15:25
  on
• 15:25
  saying
• 15:25
  you.
• 15:25
  No
• 15:26
  one
• 15:26
  is
• 15:26
  forcing
• 15:27
  you
• 15:27
  to
• 15:27
  do
• 15:27
  this.
• 15:28
  No
• 15:28
  one
• 15:28
  knows
• 15:28
  except
• 15:29
  you
• 15:29
  what
• 15:29
  doesn't
• 15:29
  exist.
• 15:30
  Yet
• 15:30
  you
• 15:31
  get
• 15:31
  to
• 15:31
  decide
• 15:31
  how
• 15:31
  it
• 15:32
  looks.
• 15:32
  So
• 15:32
  moving
• 15:33
  from
• 15:33
  you
• 15:33
  to
• 15:33
  I
• 15:34
  means
• 15:35
  basically,
• 15:35
  in
• 15:36
  my
• 15:36
  mind,
• 15:37
  it
• 15:37
  kind
• 15:37
  of
• 15:37
  intuitively
• 15:38
  leads
• 15:38
  to
• 15:38
  accountability
• 15:39
  and
• 15:39
  ownership
• 15:40
  over
• 15:40
  what
• 15:40
  I'm
• 15:41
  talking
• 15:41
  about.
• 15:41
  I'm
• 15:42
  not
• 15:42
  outcasting
• 15:43
  it.
• 15:43
  Oh,
• 15:44
  I
• 15:44
  want
• 15:44
  to
• 15:44
  listen
• 15:44
  to
• 15:44
  Rosa
• 15:45
  Parks.
• 15:46
  I'm
• 15:46
  not
• 15:47
  outcasting
• 15:47
  it
• 15:48
  to
• 15:49
  other
• 15:49
  people,
• 15:50
  presumably
• 15:51
  with
• 15:51
  you
• 15:52
  and
• 15:52
  all
• 15:52
  this
• 15:52
  stuff
• 15:52
  like,
• 15:53
  as
• 15:53
  though
• 15:53
  it's
• 15:53
  a
• 15:53
  shared
• 15:54
  responsibility.
• 15:54
  I'm
• 15:55
  saying,
• 15:55
  no
• 15:55
  one
• 15:56
  is
• 15:56
  forcing
• 15:57
  me
• 15:57
  to
• 15:57
  do
• 15:57
  this.
• 15:59
  No
• 15:59
  one
• 16:00
  knows
• 16:00
  except
• 16:00
  me
• 16:01
  what
• 16:01
  doesn't
• 16:01
  exist
• 16:02
  yet.
• 16:03
  I
• 16:03
  get
• 16:03
  to
• 16:04
  decide
• 16:04
  how
• 16:05
  it
• 16:05
  looks.
• 16:07
  I
• 16:07
  would
• 16:08
  invite
• 16:08
  you,
• 16:08
  dear
• 16:08
  listener,
• 16:09
  to
• 16:09
  look
• 16:10
  yourself
• 16:10
  in
• 16:10
  the
• 16:10
  mirror
• 16:11
  sometime.
• 16:11
  Know
• 16:11
  what,
• 16:12
  actually
• 16:12
  next
• 16:13
  time
• 16:13
  you
• 16:14
  leave,
• 16:15
  wherever
• 16:15
  you
• 16:15
  are,
• 16:16
  walk
• 16:16
  into
• 16:17
  the
• 16:17
  little
• 16:18
  room
• 16:19
  and
• 16:19
  do
• 16:19
  the
• 16:19
  thing
• 16:20
  and
• 16:20
  you're
• 16:20
  washing
• 16:21
  your
• 16:21
  hands,
• 16:21
  always
• 16:21
  wash
• 16:22
  your
• 16:22
  hands,
• 16:23
  look
• 16:23
  in
• 16:23
  the
• 16:23
  mirror
• 16:24
  and
• 16:24
  say,
• 16:24
  first
• 16:24
  of
• 16:25
  all,
• 16:25
  say
• 16:25
  your
• 16:26
  name,
• 16:26
  give
• 16:27
  yourself
• 16:27
  a
• 16:27
  hug
• 16:27
  and
• 16:28
  say,
• 16:29
  I
• 16:29
  love
• 16:29
  you.
• 16:30
  So
• 16:30
  in
• 16:30
  my
• 16:30
  case,
• 16:30
  it
• 16:31
  would
• 16:31
  be
• 16:31
  Nathaniel,
• 16:33
  I
• 16:33
  love
• 16:34
  you.
• 16:35
  I
• 16:35
  love
• 16:35
  you,
• 16:36
  Nathaniel.
• 16:37
  I
• 16:37
  love
• 16:38
  you,
• 16:38
  Nathaniel.
• 16:40
  I
• 16:41
  did
• 16:41
  that
• 16:41
  during
• 16:41
  very
• 16:41
  dark
• 16:42
  times.
• 16:42
  And
• 16:42
  let
• 16:42
  me
• 16:42
  tell
• 16:43
  you,
• 16:43
  as
• 16:43
  woo
• 16:43
  as
• 16:43
  it
• 16:44
  fucking
• 16:44
  sounds,
• 16:44
  as
• 16:45
  sappy,
• 16:45
  blah,
• 16:45
  blah,
• 16:46
  blah,
• 16:47
  fucking
• 16:47
  works.
• 16:49
  Fucking
• 16:50
  works.
• 16:50
  And
• 16:51
  I
• 16:51
  say
• 16:51
  it
• 16:51
  a
• 16:51
  lot
• 16:51
  easier
• 16:52
  these
• 16:52
  days
• 16:52
  than
• 16:52
  I
• 16:52
  used
• 16:53
  to.
• 16:54
  Food
• 16:55
  for
• 16:55
  thought.
• 16:56
  So
• 16:57
  moving
• 16:57
  from
• 16:57
  you
• 16:57
  to
• 16:57
  I,
• 16:58
  I
• 16:58
  get
• 16:58
  to
• 16:58
  decide
• 16:58
  how
• 16:59
  it
• 16:59
  looks.
• 17:00
  You
• 17:00
  look
• 17:00
  in
• 17:01
  the
• 17:01
  mirror
• 17:01
  after
• 17:01
  you've
• 17:02
  done.
• 17:02
  After
• 17:02
  you're
• 17:03
  done
• 17:03
  loving
• 17:03
  yourself
• 17:05
  rare,
• 17:06
  and
• 17:10
  that
• 17:11
  one's
• 17:11
  silly.
• 17:13
  Look
• 17:14
  yourself
• 17:14
  in
• 17:14
  the
• 17:14
  mirror
• 17:15
  and
• 17:16
  say,
• 17:16
  I
• 17:16
  get
• 17:16
  to
• 17:17
  decide
• 17:17
  how
• 17:17
  this
• 17:17
  looks.
• 17:19
  Think
• 17:20
  about
• 17:20
  something
• 17:20
  you
• 17:20
  want
• 17:21
  to
• 17:21
  do.
• 17:22
  Think
• 17:22
  about
• 17:22
  something
• 17:23
  that
• 17:23
  means
• 17:24
  a
• 17:24
  lot
• 17:24
  to
• 17:24
  you,
• 17:25
  that
• 17:25
  maybe
• 17:25
  doesn't
• 17:26
  make
• 17:26
  sense.
• 17:27
  Maybe
• 17:27
  is
• 17:28
  something
• 17:29
  that
• 17:29
  other
• 17:29
  people
• 17:29
  call
• 17:29
  irrational
• 17:30
  or
• 17:31
  unnecessary
• 17:32
  or
• 17:32
  risky
• 17:33
  or
• 17:33
  whatever.
• 17:34
  Just
• 17:35
  look
• 17:35
  yourself
• 17:35
  in
• 17:35
  the
• 17:35
  eyes
• 17:36
  and
• 17:36
  be
• 17:36
  like,
• 17:36
  I
• 17:36
  get
• 17:37
  to
• 17:37
  decide
• 17:37
  how
• 17:37
  this
• 17:37
  looks.
• 17:40
  There's
• 17:41
  power
• 17:41
  in
• 17:41
  it.
• 17:42
  There's
• 17:43
  power
• 17:43
  in
• 17:43
  saying
• 17:43
  I.
• 17:46
  So
• 17:46
  since
• 17:46
  I
• 17:46
  like
• 17:47
  to
• 17:47
  riff
• 17:47
  sometimes
• 17:47
  on
• 17:48
  language,
• 17:48
  even
• 17:49
  when
• 17:49
  it's
• 17:49
  more
• 17:49
  clever
• 17:50
  than
• 17:50
  true,
• 17:51
  thereby
• 17:53
  breaking
• 17:54
  rule
• 17:54
  number
• 17:54
  12
• 17:55
  or
• 17:55
  mantra
• 17:56
  number
• 17:56
  12,
• 17:57
  Nate.
• 17:58
  Nathaniel,
• 17:58
  what
• 17:58
  are
• 17:59
  you
• 17:59
  doing?
• 18:00
  I
• 18:01
  do
• 18:01
  sometimes
• 18:01
  like
• 18:01
  a
• 18:02
  turn
• 18:02
  of
• 18:02
  phrase.
• 18:02
  So
• 18:02
  the
• 18:03
  second
• 18:03
  one
• 18:03
  under
• 18:03
  accountability,
• 18:04
  is
• 18:04
  moving
• 18:05
  with
• 18:06
  long
• 18:06
  obedience
• 18:07
  in
• 18:07
  the
• 18:07
  same
• 18:07
  direction.
• 18:09
  The
• 18:09
  road
• 18:09
  to
• 18:10
  success
• 18:11
  is
• 18:11
  long
• 18:11
  obedience
• 18:12
  in
• 18:12
  the
• 18:12
  same
• 18:12
  direction.
• 18:14
  So
• 18:14
  that
• 18:14
  means
• 18:16
  there
• 18:16
  are
• 18:17
  small
• 18:17
  minutia
• 18:18
  tactical
• 18:19
  steps
• 18:19
  that
• 18:19
  need
• 18:19
  to
• 18:19
  be
• 18:19
  taken.
• 18:21
  And
• 18:22
  on
• 18:22
  any
• 18:22
  given
• 18:22
  day,
• 18:23
  I
• 18:23
  could
• 18:24
  make
• 18:24
  a
• 18:24
  little
• 18:24
  headway
• 18:25
  on
• 18:25
  column
• 18:25
  A,
• 18:25
  a
• 18:25
  little
• 18:26
  bit
• 18:26
  on
• 18:26
  column
• 18:26
  B,
• 18:26
  a
• 18:27
  little
• 18:27
  bit
• 18:27
  on
• 18:27
  column
• 18:27
  C,
• 18:27
  and
• 18:28
  it's
• 18:28
  all
• 18:28
  moving
• 18:28
  down
• 18:28
  the
• 18:29
  field.
• 18:29
  Little
• 18:29
  bits,
• 18:29
  little
• 18:30
  bits,
• 18:30
  little
• 18:30
  bit.
• 18:31
  It's
• 18:31
  always
• 18:32
  useful
• 18:33
  to
• 18:33
  move
• 18:34
  slowly
• 18:35
  because
• 18:36
  even
• 18:38
  in
• 18:38
  my
• 18:38
  surest
• 18:39
  of
• 18:39
  sure,
• 18:41
  specifically
• 18:41
  with
• 18:42
  the
• 18:42
  thing
• 18:42
  I
• 18:42
  was
• 18:42
  dealing
• 18:42
  with
• 18:42
  today,
• 18:45
  even
• 18:45
  if
• 18:45
  I'm
• 18:45
  surest
• 18:46
  of
• 18:46
  sure
• 18:47
  about
• 18:47
  the
• 18:47
  direction
• 18:48
  I
• 18:48
  need
• 18:48
  to
• 18:48
  go
• 18:48
  in,
• 18:49
  more
• 18:50
  options
• 18:50
  become
• 18:50
  available
• 18:51
  the
• 18:51
  longer
• 18:52
  I
• 18:52
  think
• 18:52
  about
• 18:52
  it.
• 18:54
  And
• 18:55
  so
• 18:55
  it's
• 18:55
  important
• 18:55
  for
• 18:56
  me
• 18:56
  at
• 18:56
  least,
• 18:56
  and
• 18:57
  probably
• 18:57
  for
• 18:57
  everybody,
• 18:58
  to
• 18:58
  move
• 18:58
  slow,
• 19:00
  to
• 19:00
  learn
• 19:00
  what
• 19:00
  it
• 19:00
  is
• 19:01
  to
• 19:01
  move
• 19:01
  slow
• 19:02
  and
• 19:02
  with
• 19:03
  strategery,
• 19:05
  shout
• 19:05
  out
• 19:06
  to
• 19:06
  W,
• 19:06
  friend
• 19:07
  of
• 19:07
  the
• 19:07
  pod,
• 19:08
  Check
• 19:09
  out
• 19:09
  his
• 19:09
  paintings.
• 19:10
  They're
• 19:10
  so
• 19:10
  cool.
• 19:11
  Speaking
• 19:11
  of
• 19:11
  Dubya's
• 19:12
  paintings,
• 19:13
  there
• 19:13
  is
• 19:13
  a
• 19:13
  book
• 19:14
  I
• 19:14
  want
• 19:14
  you
• 19:14
  all
• 19:14
  to
• 19:14
  check
• 19:14
  out.
• 19:15
  It's
• 19:15
  called
• 19:15
  Alternative
• 19:16
  Facts
• 19:17
  by
• 19:17
  Emily
• 19:18
  Greenberg.
• 19:18
  She
• 19:19
  is
• 19:19
  a
• 19:19
  longtime
• 19:19
  friend
• 19:20
  of
• 19:20
  mine,
• 19:20
  writing
• 19:20
  group
• 19:21
  friend
• 19:22
  and
• 19:22
  she
• 19:22
  wrote
• 19:23
  a
• 19:23
  kick
• 19:23
  ass
• 19:24
  fucking
• 19:24
  book
• 19:25
  and
• 19:25
  it
• 19:26
  like
• 19:26
  got
• 19:26
  on
• 19:26
  some
• 19:26
  lists
• 19:27
  and
• 19:27
  like
• 19:27
  she
• 19:27
  hustled
• 19:28
  the
• 19:28
  fuck
• 19:28
  out
• 19:29
  of
• 19:29
  it.
• 19:29
  It's
• 19:29
  called
• 19:30
  Alternative
• 19:30
  Facts.
• 19:31
  It's
• 19:31
  truly
• 19:32
  fantastic.
• 19:35
  Yeah,
• 19:37
  I'll
• 19:37
  just
• 19:37
  say
• 19:37
  the
• 19:38
  first
• 19:38
  story
• 19:39
  is
• 19:40
  a
• 19:41
  never
• 19:42
  ending
• 19:43
  sentence,
• 19:43
  one
• 19:44
  sentence
• 19:44
  monologue
• 19:45
  from
• 19:45
  Kellyanne
• 19:45
  Conway
• 19:47
  at
• 19:47
  a
• 19:47
  very
• 19:47
  pivotal
• 19:48
  moment
• 19:48
  that
• 19:49
  minds
• 19:49
  on
• 19:49
  a
• 19:50
  lot
• 19:50
  of
• 19:50
  personal
• 19:50
  information
• 19:51
  to
• 19:51
  craft
• 19:51
  an
• 19:51
  entirely
• 19:53
  bamboozling
• 19:54
  fantastic
• 19:55
  vision
• 19:55
  of
• 19:55
  a
• 19:56
  person
• 19:56
  while
• 19:57
  not
• 19:57
  letting
• 19:57
  go
• 19:58
  of
• 19:58
  how
• 19:58
  we
• 19:58
  think
• 19:59
  about
• 19:59
  Kellyanne
• 19:59
  Conway.
• 20:01
  Emily
• 20:02
  Greenberg,
• 20:02
  Alternative
• 20:03
  Facts.
• 20:04
  Look
• 20:04
  it
• 20:04
  up.
• 20:08
  That
• 20:08
  came
• 20:08
  from
• 20:08
  W,
• 20:09
  who
• 20:10
  is
• 20:10
  another
• 20:10
  story
• 20:10
  about
• 20:10
  paintings.
• 20:14
  The
• 20:14
  last
• 20:14
  thing
• 20:14
  I'm
• 20:15
  going
• 20:15
  to
• 20:15
  leave
• 20:15
  you
• 20:15
  guys
• 20:15
  with
• 20:16
  is
• 20:16
  a
• 20:16
  little
• 20:16
  insight
• 20:17
  into
• 20:17
  my
• 20:17
  own
• 20:17
  writing.
• 20:29
  So
• 20:29
  this
• 20:29
  is
• 20:29
  from
• 20:29
  a
• 20:29
  book
• 20:30
  I'm
• 20:30
  writing
• 20:32
  and
• 20:33
  my
• 20:34
  friend
• 20:34
  Michael
• 20:35
  from
• 20:35
  the
• 20:36
  Beta
• 20:36
  Boy
• 20:36
  Breakdown,
• 20:37
  my
• 20:37
  longtime
• 20:38
  friend
• 20:39
  bestie,
• 20:43
  who
• 20:43
  somehow
• 20:45
  pushed
• 20:45
  me
• 20:45
  into
• 20:45
  a
• 20:46
  wonderful
• 20:46
  life
• 20:46
  phase
• 20:47
  through
• 20:47
  doing
• 20:47
  a
• 20:47
  podcast
• 20:47
  about
• 20:48
  the
• 20:48
  manosphere
• 20:48
  and
• 20:48
  masculinity
• 20:49
  called
• 20:49
  the
• 20:50
  Beta
• 20:50
  Boy
• 20:50
  Breakdown.
• 20:53
  It
• 20:53
  will
• 20:53
  be
• 20:53
  back.
• 20:54
  We
• 20:54
  are
• 20:54
  coming
• 20:54
  back,
• 20:55
  don't
• 20:55
  you
• 20:55
  worry.
• 20:56
  Seven
• 20:56
  episodes
• 20:57
  live
• 20:57
  now.
• 20:58
  They
• 20:58
  have,
• 20:58
  they
• 20:58
  cover
• 20:59
  some
• 20:59
  pretty
• 20:59
  cool
• 20:59
  shit.
• 21:02
  He
• 21:03
  has
• 21:04
  been
• 21:04
  instrumental
• 21:04
  in
• 21:05
  helping
• 21:05
  me
• 21:05
  through
• 21:05
  post
• 21:06
  divorce
• 21:06
  depression.
• 21:07
  And
• 21:09
  just
• 21:09
  he's,
• 21:10
  he's
• 21:10
  literally
• 21:10
  my
• 21:10
  consul
• 21:11
  Gary.
• 21:11
  You
• 21:11
  know,
• 21:12
  like,
• 21:12
  I
• 21:12
  talk
• 21:12
  to
• 21:12
  him
• 21:12
  about
• 21:12
  life
• 21:13
  shit
• 21:13
  and
• 21:13
  he
• 21:13
  helps
• 21:14
  me
• 21:14
  sort
• 21:14
  things
• 21:14
  out.
• 21:15
  I,
• 21:15
  I
• 21:15
  talked
• 21:15
  to
• 21:15
  him
• 21:15
  earlier
• 21:16
  today,
• 21:16
  so
• 21:17
  he
• 21:17
  heard
• 21:18
  me
• 21:19
  talking
• 21:19
  about
• 21:20
  what
• 21:20
  I
• 21:20
  was
• 21:20
  going
• 21:21
  through
• 21:21
  at
• 21:21
  a
• 21:21
  certain
• 21:21
  point
• 21:21
  on
• 21:22
  the
• 21:22
  phone.
• 21:24
  And
• 21:24
  I
• 21:24
  had
• 21:25
  mentioned
• 21:25
  having
• 21:26
  used
• 21:26
  ChatGPT
• 21:28
  back
• 21:28
  in
• 21:28
  the
• 21:28
  day
• 21:28
  to
• 21:29
  write
• 21:29
  three
• 21:30
  different
• 21:30
  versions
• 21:30
  of
• 21:31
  the
• 21:31
  Rabbit
• 21:31
  and
• 21:32
  the
• 21:32
  Turtle
• 21:32
  story
• 21:33
  in
• 21:34
  the
• 21:34
  style
• 21:34
  of
• 21:35
  these
• 21:35
  authors,
• 21:36
  threw
• 21:36
  them
• 21:37
  all
• 21:37
  together
• 21:37
  and
• 21:37
  everything
• 21:37
  and
• 21:38
  churned
• 21:38
  out
• 21:38
  three
• 21:38
  different
• 21:38
  versions.
• 21:39
  When
• 21:39
  I
• 21:39
  did
• 21:40
  it
• 21:40
  again
• 21:40
  and
• 21:40
  again
• 21:40
  and
• 21:40
  again,
• 21:42
  I
• 21:42
  was
• 21:42
  really
• 21:42
  enamored
• 21:43
  with
• 21:43
  this
• 21:43
  language.
• 21:43
  But
• 21:43
  I
• 21:43
  showed
• 21:44
  to
• 21:44
  somebody
• 21:44
  who
• 21:45
  wasn't
• 21:45
  Michael
• 21:46
  and
• 21:46
  they
• 21:47
  said
• 21:48
  that
• 21:49
  it's
• 21:50
  good
• 21:50
  all
• 21:50
  this
• 21:50
  stuff.
• 21:51
  And
• 21:51
  then
• 21:51
  I
• 21:51
  mentioned
• 21:51
  that
• 21:51
  it
• 21:52
  was
• 21:52
  AI
• 21:52
  and
• 21:53
  they
• 21:53
  were
• 21:53
  like,
• 21:53
  that's
• 21:53
  it.
• 21:53
  It
• 21:54
  just
• 21:54
  didn't
• 21:54
  feel
• 21:54
  right.
• 21:55
  It
• 21:55
  didn't
• 21:55
  feel
• 21:55
  like
• 21:56
  it
• 21:56
  had
• 21:56
  the
• 21:56
  human
• 21:56
  in
• 21:56
  it.
• 21:57
  I
• 21:57
  couldn't
• 21:58
  put
• 21:58
  a
• 21:58
  finger
• 21:58
  on
• 21:58
  it,
• 21:58
  but
• 21:58
  that
• 21:59
  was
• 21:59
  it.
• 21:59
  And
• 22:00
  so
• 22:00
  I
• 22:00
  was
• 22:00
  telling
• 22:01
  Michael
• 22:01
  about
• 22:01
  that
• 22:01
  and
• 22:01
  telling
• 22:02
  him,
• 22:02
  he's
• 22:02
  like,
• 22:03
  no,
• 22:03
  it'd
• 22:03
  be
• 22:03
  interesting
• 22:04
  if
• 22:04
  you
• 22:05
  wrote
• 22:05
  that
• 22:05
  story
• 22:05
  right
• 22:06
  now
• 22:06
  just
• 22:06
  with
• 22:07
  where
• 22:07
  you're
• 22:07
  at
• 22:07
  right
• 22:07
  now.
• 22:09
  And
• 22:09
  so
• 22:09
  this
• 22:10
  is,
• 22:10
  that
• 22:10
  this
• 22:10
  is
• 22:11
  from
• 22:11
  a
• 22:11
  book
• 22:11
  I'm
• 22:11
  writing
• 22:12
  and
• 22:13
  it
• 22:13
  sort
• 22:14
  of,
• 22:14
  you
• 22:14
  know,
• 22:15
  comes
• 22:15
  out
• 22:15
  of
• 22:15
  left
• 22:15
  field
• 22:16
  and
• 22:16
  then
• 22:16
  loops
• 22:16
  back
• 22:16
  around
• 22:17
  in
• 22:17
  A
• 22:17
  certain
• 22:17
  way.
• 22:18
  All
• 22:18
  right,
• 22:18
  so
• 22:19
  I'm
• 22:19
  just
• 22:19
  going
• 22:20
  to
• 22:20
  read
• 22:20
  this.
• 22:22
  A
• 22:23
  dreaming
• 22:23
  cat,
• 22:24
  a
• 22:24
  dreaming
• 22:24
  cat,
• 22:25
  a
• 22:25
  smiling
• 22:26
  in
• 22:26
  the
• 22:26
  sky,
• 22:28
  purring,
• 22:29
  purring
• 22:30
  ever
• 22:31
  after,
• 22:32
  the
• 22:32
  furriest
• 22:33
  of
• 22:33
  lullabies.
• 22:35
  Where
• 22:35
  are
• 22:35
  you
• 22:36
  going?
• 22:36
  What
• 22:37
  do
• 22:37
  you
• 22:37
  wish?
• 22:38
  The
• 22:38
  trite
• 22:38
  man
• 22:39
  asked
• 22:39
  the
• 22:40
  three
• 22:41
  I
• 22:41
  come
• 22:41
  to
• 22:42
  preen
• 22:42
  for
• 22:42
  the
• 22:42
  herring
• 22:43
  fish
• 22:43
  that
• 22:43
  fill
• 22:44
  this
• 22:44
  beauteous
• 22:45
  sea,
• 22:46
  Nets
• 22:46
  of
• 22:47
  silver
• 22:47
  and
• 22:47
  gold
• 22:48
  have
• 22:48
  we
• 22:49
  now
• 22:50
  quit
• 22:50
  the
• 22:50
  tide
• 22:51
  and
• 22:52
  see
• 22:54
  the
• 22:54
  tortoise
• 22:55
  and
• 22:56
  the
• 22:56
  rabbit,
• 22:58
  the
• 22:58
  turtle
• 22:58
  and
• 22:58
  the
• 22:58
  hare
• 23:00
  decided
• 23:00
  to
• 23:01
  run
• 23:01
  another
• 23:02
  race,
• 23:03
  less
• 23:04
  afoul
• 23:05
  of
• 23:05
  chickens
• 23:06
  in
• 23:06
  situations
• 23:08
  more
• 23:08
  in
• 23:08
  line
• 23:09
  with
• 23:09
  the
• 23:09
  heart.
• 23:11
  Scrub
• 23:11
  all
• 23:11
  carrots.
• 23:12
  Cried
• 23:13
  the
• 23:13
  specters
• 23:14
  on
• 23:14
  watching
• 23:16
  ever
• 23:16
  waiting
• 23:17
  dream
• 23:17
  within
• 23:18
  a
• 23:18
  dream
• 23:18
  within
• 23:18
  a
• 23:19
  dream
• 23:19
  that
• 23:19
  smelled
• 23:19
  of
• 23:20
  nothing
• 23:20
  but
• 23:21
  onions.
• 23:24
  Layers
• 23:24
  to
• 23:24
  it,
• 23:25
  remarked
• 23:25
  the
• 23:25
  Turtle.
• 23:27
  All
• 23:27
  in
• 23:27
  due
• 23:28
  time.
• 23:29
  The
• 23:30
  furbrain,
• 23:31
  meanwhile,
• 23:32
  had
• 23:32
  worked
• 23:32
  himself
• 23:33
  into
• 23:33
  a
• 23:34
  frenzy.
• 23:35
  Break
• 23:35
  all
• 23:36
  records,
• 23:36
  he
• 23:37
  muttered
• 23:37
  again
• 23:37
  and
• 23:38
  again.
• 23:38
  Spin
• 23:39
  the
• 23:39
  world
• 23:39
  off
• 23:39
  its
• 23:39
  axis
• 23:40
  with
• 23:41
  truth,
• 23:41
  with
• 23:42
  circumstance,
• 23:43
  with
• 23:43
  all
• 23:44
  knowing,
• 23:44
  all
• 23:45
  consuming
• 23:45
  pride.
• 23:47
  Your
• 23:48
  tail
• 23:48
  looks
• 23:49
  lovely,
• 23:51
  said
• 23:51
  his
• 23:51
  kin,
• 23:52
  shelled,
• 23:53
  shellacked
• 23:54
  and
• 23:55
  committed.
• 23:57
  Thank
• 23:57
  you.
• 23:57
  Cried
• 23:58
  the
• 23:58
  Rabbit.
• 23:58
  I
• 23:59
  was
• 23:59
  starting
• 23:59
  to
• 23:59
  think
• 24:00
  no
• 24:00
  one
• 24:00
  noticed.
• 24:02
  Astride
• 24:03
  himself
• 24:04
  like
• 24:04
  a
• 24:05
  fine
• 24:05
  cotton
• 24:06
  gin
• 24:06
  at
• 24:06
  plucking
• 24:07
  time,
• 24:08
  Rabbit
• 24:08
  huffed
• 24:09
  and
• 24:10
  puffed
• 24:11
  and
• 24:11
  stretched
• 24:12
  and
• 24:12
  found
• 24:13
  God.
• 24:14
  The
• 24:15
  music
• 24:15
  flipped
• 24:15
  and
• 24:15
  he
• 24:16
  adjusted
• 24:16
  accordingly.
• 24:18
  He
• 24:18
  was
• 24:18
  forever
• 24:19
  and
• 24:20
  always
• 24:21
  on
• 24:21
  the
• 24:22
  beat,
• 24:23
  never
• 24:23
  asking
• 24:24
  questions.
• 24:25
  He
• 24:25
  was
• 24:26
  forever
• 24:27
  and
• 24:27
  always
• 24:28
  his
• 24:29
  man,
• 24:30
  his
• 24:30
  race
• 24:31
  winner,
• 24:32
  his
• 24:33
  own,
• 24:33
  his
• 24:33
  very,
• 24:35
  very
• 24:35
  own
• 24:36
  special
• 24:37
  kind
• 24:38
  of
• 24:38
  boo.
• 24:40
  Before
• 24:41
  or
• 24:42
  after
• 24:42
  breakfast?
• 24:43
  Then,
• 24:44
  drolled
• 24:44
  his
• 24:45
  brother
• 24:45
  Turtle.
• 24:46
  What?
• 24:46
  Cried
• 24:47
  Rabbit
• 24:47
  bounced
• 24:48
  from
• 24:48
  his
• 24:48
  dream
• 24:49
  already
• 24:50
  forgotten,
• 24:51
  whilst
• 24:51
  reminiscing
• 24:52
  about
• 24:52
  future
• 24:53
  glory.
• 24:54
  His
• 24:54
  own,
• 24:55
  his
• 24:55
  very
• 24:56
  own
• 24:56
  to
• 24:56
  be
• 24:57
  shared,
• 24:57
  certainly
• 24:58
  forward,
• 24:59
  always
• 24:59
  a
• 24:59
  community
• 25:00
  asset
• 25:00
  of
• 25:01
  value
• 25:01
  and
• 25:01
  never
• 25:02
  to
• 25:02
  be
• 25:02
  hogged.
• 25:04
  Yet
• 25:05
  forever
• 25:06
  and
• 25:06
  always
• 25:06
  about
• 25:07
  him.
• 25:08
  An
• 25:09
  ice
• 25:09
  cream
• 25:09
  cone
• 25:10
  waits
• 25:10
  not
• 25:10
  for
• 25:11
  every
• 25:11
  tongue
• 25:11
  to
• 25:11
  lick
• 25:12
  it.
• 25:13
  I
• 25:14
  know
• 25:14
  not.
• 25:14
  Cried
• 25:15
  Rabbit.
• 25:15
  You
• 25:16
  decide.
• 25:17
  Let's
• 25:17
  do
• 25:17
  after
• 25:18
  breakfast,
• 25:19
  reassured
• 25:19
  Turtle.
• 25:20
  You
• 25:20
  will
• 25:20
  be
• 25:21
  more
• 25:21
  settled
• 25:22
  than
• 25:23
  able
• 25:23
  to
• 25:23
  rationalize
• 25:25
  the
• 25:25
  course
• 25:26
  at
• 25:26
  dawn,
• 25:27
  proclaimed
• 25:27
  Rabbit.
• 25:28
  It
• 25:28
  would
• 25:28
  be
• 25:29
  romantic.
• 25:31
  As
• 25:31
  you
• 25:32
  wish,
• 25:32
  said
• 25:33
  Turtle.
• 25:34
  The
• 25:35
  morning
• 25:35
  of
• 25:35
  the
• 25:35
  race
• 25:36
  was
• 25:37
  bleeding
• 25:38
  through
• 25:38
  the
• 25:38
  sky.
• 25:39
  Reds,
• 25:40
  yes,
• 25:41
  and
• 25:41
  oranges
• 25:43
  and
• 25:43
  purples,
• 25:45
  yellows
• 25:46
  and
• 25:46
  pinks
• 25:47
  and
• 25:47
  haphazard
• 25:48
  burgundy.
• 25:50
  Oh
• 25:50
  my,
• 25:51
  my,
• 25:52
  oh
• 25:52
  my.
• 25:52
  There
• 25:52
  were
• 25:53
  birds
• 25:53
  singing
• 25:53
  their
• 25:54
  celestial
• 25:54
  song,
• 25:55
  dissonant
• 25:56
  and
• 25:57
  harmonious,
• 25:58
  stacked
• 25:59
  and
• 25:59
  layered
• 25:59
  and
• 26:00
  individual.
• 26:01
  Single
• 26:02
  prayers
• 26:03
  to
• 26:03
  the
• 26:03
  sun.
• 26:04
  Solitary
• 26:05
  prayers
• 26:05
  of
• 26:06
  union
• 26:06
  and
• 26:07
  belonging.
• 26:09
  The
• 26:09
  brethren,
• 26:10
  the
• 26:11
  conjoined,
• 26:12
  the
• 26:12
  forever
• 26:13
  and
• 26:13
  always
• 26:14
  after.
• 26:15
  They
• 26:15
  approached
• 26:16
  the
• 26:16
  starting
• 26:17
  line
• 26:19
  in
• 26:19
  the
• 26:20
  dawn
• 26:20
  dusk.
• 26:21
  There
• 26:21
  gathered
• 26:22
  hangers
• 26:23
  on
• 26:23
  a
• 26:23
  sheep
• 26:24
  that
• 26:24
  sold
• 26:24
  its
• 26:24
  wool,
• 26:25
  an
• 26:25
  alpaca
• 26:26
  that
• 26:27
  sold
• 26:27
  its
• 26:27
  wool,
• 26:28
  a
• 26:28
  bull
• 26:29
  that
• 26:30
  sold
• 26:30
  its
• 26:30
  own.
• 26:32
  The
• 26:32
  competition
• 26:33
  is
• 26:34
  simple.
• 26:35
  That
• 26:35
  which
• 26:36
  crosses
• 26:36
  the
• 26:36
  finish
• 26:37
  line
• 26:37
  first
• 26:38
  wins.
• 26:40
  Worry
• 26:40
  not
• 26:40
  about
• 26:41
  devotion,
• 26:42
  about
• 26:43
  nothing.
• 26:43
  Worry
• 26:44
  not
• 26:45
  about
• 26:45
  God,
• 26:46
  about
• 26:46
  happenstance?
• 26:48
  Push
• 26:48
  on,
• 26:49
  push
• 26:50
  on?
• 26:51
  Dog
• 26:51
  on
• 26:51
  a
• 26:51
  surfboard
• 26:52
  maze
• 26:53
  that
• 26:54
  we
• 26:54
  are
• 26:54
  devoid
• 26:55
  of
• 26:55
  center?
• 26:56
  Devoid
• 26:58
  center?
• 27:01
  Why
• 27:01
  not?
• 27:03
  Why
• 27:04
  not?
• 27:07
  They
• 27:07
  take
• 27:07
  the
• 27:07
  stride,
• 27:10
  they
• 27:10
  lunge?
• 27:13
  It's
• 27:14
  colorful
• 27:14
  as
• 27:15
  fudge?
• 27:17
  A
• 27:17
  kiss
• 27:18
  in
• 27:18
  the
• 27:19
  wind
• 27:20
  reaches
• 27:21
  everyone?
• 27:23
  A
• 27:23
  kiss
• 27:24
  saved
• 27:24
  for
• 27:24
  one
• 27:26
  oft
• 27:26
  dies
• 27:27
  on
• 27:27
  the
• 27:28
  vine?
• 27:30
  They
• 27:30
  take
• 27:30
  the
• 27:31
  starting
• 27:31
  line
• 27:33
  and
• 27:33
  they
• 27:33
  race?
• 27:36
  And
• 27:36
  we
• 27:36
  know
• 27:38
  the
• 27:38
  outcome?
• 27:48
  If
• 27:48
  you're
• 27:49
  a
• 27:49
  fan
• 27:49
  of
• 27:49
  me
• 27:49
  blathering?
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• 27:52
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• 27:52
  want
• 27:53
  to
• 27:53
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• 27:53
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• 27:54
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• 27:55
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• 27:55
  together
• 27:55
  creativity,
• 27:56
  community
• 27:56
  and
• 27:57
  social
• 27:57
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• 27:58
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• 27:59
  to
• 27:59
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• 28:00
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• 28:01
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• 28:03
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• 28:10
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• 28:11
  Kresson,
• 28:12
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• 28:13
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• 28:13
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