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SEASON 2 DA CREW PODCAST_ BONUS EPISODE _ VISIONARY ANGELA SIT IN FOR ..............................HOST DR CHENIZRA AKA DR CHEN · DA CREW Podcast

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  Speaker 1: Well. Hello Hello, Hello, Hello every one. It is the Queen.
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  Speaker 1: to another episode of The Crew Podcast. I am the
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  Speaker 1: Visionary and tonight we're just gonna be having a conversation.
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  Speaker 1: I have one of the amazing hosts here on the
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  Speaker 1: and y'all, we're just gonna be having a conversation tonight.
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  Speaker 1: We're gonna just be talking about some things that you know,
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  Speaker 1: have crossed my mind and I just want to get
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  Speaker 1: these things out and let's talk about them. I of
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  Speaker 1: course am a part of a prayer line and that's
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  Speaker 1: just been a lot going on, and I just want
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  Speaker 1: to talk about those things because there may be somebody
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  Speaker 1: out there that may be experiencing some of these things
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  Speaker 1: as well. Y'all know that I just love to educate,
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  Speaker 1: empowering and encourage anybody wherever they may be. Sometime we
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  Speaker 1: go through things and we feel like we don't have
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  Speaker 1: someone that we can talk to, someone that we could
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  Speaker 1: that may be able to relate to the things that
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  Speaker 1: we're going through. And then sometimes we get put in
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  Speaker 1: situations where we're that person on the other end of
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  Speaker 1: that phone call and we may be having to listen
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  Speaker 1: to something that we may have not gone through or
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  Speaker 1: had to deal with, and sometimes we don't know how
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  Speaker 1: to deal with those things. And that's a lot of
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  Speaker 1: what I've been dealing with here lately. But today we're
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  Speaker 1: just gonna talk. We're just gonna have a conversation. So
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  Speaker 1: I'm gonna bring set up. For those that do not
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  Speaker 1: know who I am, let me do a brief introduction
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  Speaker 1: of myself. I am effectually known as the Queen of Collaborations.
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  Speaker 1: That name was spoken over my life and I just
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  Speaker 1: had to live up to it, just had to stand
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  Speaker 1: up and own it. I love bringing people together. I
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  Speaker 1: love our thrive off of working in that village mentality.
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  Speaker 1: I believe that it takes a village to raise a family,
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  Speaker 1: a child, a family, So I truly operate on that mentality.
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  Speaker 1: I believe that everyone, if given the opportunity through learning, loving,
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  Speaker 1: and the opportunity to lead, they can walk into their
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  Speaker 1: true potential and all those things that God has gifted them.
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  Speaker 1: So I'm gonna move walk the way, and I'm gonna
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  Speaker 1: bring my guests up and we're gonna we're just gonna
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  Speaker 1: jump in that conversation. However we're led that's where we're
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  Speaker 1: going tonight. So I'm gonna bring up my guests and
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  Speaker 1: allow her to introduce herself. Welcome, Welcome.
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  Speaker 2: Ye don't know I'm doing I'm doing good. We got
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  Speaker 2: a little delayed, but I can hear you. I'm doing well.
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  Speaker 1: How about yourself, I'm doing great. Everybody always know. If
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  Speaker 1: you're not familiar with spiritual warfare, I tell you. Since
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  Speaker 1: I have been working in podcasts and just diving into
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  Speaker 1: the Internet, that has been one of my big issues.
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  Speaker 1: Anytime I'm involved with the Internet, there's always some pushback.
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  Speaker 1: There's always something that tries to hinder me. And I've
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  Speaker 1: come to realize that if I don't prepare when it's
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  Speaker 1: time for me to go on the internet and make
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  Speaker 1: sure that I have my ducks in a row, then
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  Speaker 1: usually I have issues. And if I allow those issues
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  Speaker 1: to consume me, they normally take over. And if I
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  Speaker 1: give up, they usually win. But I refuse to give up.
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  Speaker 1: So we have these difficulties. We don't quit. We keep pushing.
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  Speaker 1: So it may be delayed, we may get kicked off,
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  Speaker 1: we may get booted out. They may cut our our
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  Speaker 1: stream out sometimes, but that's what we deal with. So
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  Speaker 1: and and and I want to encourage those hosts when
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  Speaker 1: when these things like this happened to you, know that
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  Speaker 1: you're doing something right, Know that you're on the right path,
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  Speaker 1: because the enemy does not attack those that are not
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  Speaker 1: doing something against his will. See, when you're operating in
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  Speaker 1: the wheel of God and you're doing what you're supposed to,
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  Speaker 1: then you're going against what he wants. So you know
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  Speaker 1: he gonna act up because you're not not going along
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  Speaker 1: with what he wants. So I've come to realize that
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  Speaker 1: the Internet is the enemy's folk, that is his friend.
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  Speaker 1: So he always get me that way. I don't stop.
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  Speaker 1: I never stopped. I listened to Minister album of the
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  Speaker 1: other night on her podcast, and she was talking about commitment,
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  Speaker 1: com commitment. What does that word? What does that word
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  Speaker 1: mean to you?
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  Speaker 2: Commitment? You know? With me, when I commit to something,
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  Speaker 2: I try to see it through, you know, I try
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  Speaker 2: to persevere, I try to push through it and just
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  Speaker 2: you know, just get through it, Just just get through it.
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  Speaker 2: I try to reach my mark. I try to reach
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  Speaker 2: my goal and be dedicated.
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  Speaker 1: Wow, And that's one thing about me commitment. I feel
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  Speaker 1: like I have to show up when no one else
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  Speaker 1: shows up, you know, I feel like I commit to something.
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  Speaker 1: I don't care who else is showing up that I
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  Speaker 1: have to show up no matter what what what happens,
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  Speaker 1: and if I cannot show up. I believe in communicating.
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  Speaker 1: I believe in contacting, you know, staying connected with those
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  Speaker 1: that I have commitments to. Like, for example, we just
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  Speaker 1: released amazing book project. You know, I have to say
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  Speaker 1: connected to every single person that is in this book
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  Speaker 1: project so that they know that this book has been
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  Speaker 1: it has been released, that it's rated, that I needed,
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  Speaker 1: their their their documents, all those things. You know, I
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  Speaker 1: had to stay connected to them. And then I had
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  Speaker 1: a commitment to make sure that this book was out
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  Speaker 1: on September the first. I couldn't because I had other
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  Speaker 1: stuff going on. You know, you can't say because something
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  Speaker 1: come up. I could have made all kind of excuses,
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  Speaker 1: because things have happened along this journey of making this
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  Speaker 1: book come to fruition, and I could have allowed any
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  Speaker 1: excuses or anything that have come up to take me
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  Speaker 1: from dropping this. I could have allowed any of those excuses.
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  Speaker 1: I could have made excuses about you know, being in
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  Speaker 1: California and not being home. I could have made excuses
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  Speaker 1: of you know, moving and transitioning. I could have came
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  Speaker 1: up with all kind of excuses, but I'm reminded of
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  Speaker 1: what my mentor all the time doctor Ola day m
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  Speaker 1: e Gosye. He always said excuses are for the in company.
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  Speaker 1: He said, are you in competent? No, I got up
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  Speaker 1: this morning, I put my pants on, I took my childer,
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  Speaker 1: I broke my teeth. So i had enough sense to
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  Speaker 1: do all that. So I'm provenent enough to do that.
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  Speaker 1: Then I'm confident enough to do that I'm supposed to do.
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  Speaker 1: So I can't make excuses. But I've come to realize
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  Speaker 1: that a lot of people excuses is just it's just
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  Speaker 1: another thing for them. You know. We we make it
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  Speaker 1: excuses about any and everything. We make its excuses about
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  Speaker 1: things that even don't even deserve an excuse, but make
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  Speaker 1: an excuse about it just so we feel good. And
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  Speaker 1: that's how I'm looking at a lot of people operate,
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  Speaker 1: you know. And and it's not just it don't matter
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  Speaker 1: what level you on, because I'm seeing professional people move
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  Speaker 1: like that too. So it makes me wonder, you know,
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  Speaker 1: it truly makes me wonder the commitments, the level of
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  Speaker 1: commitment that people truly have, you know, I had a
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  Speaker 1: situation where an individual wanted to be a part of
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  Speaker 1: an event where they decided that they wanted to be
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  Speaker 1: a part of another event. But because they fail to
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  Speaker 1: read the policy and guidelines, then you you're not able
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  Speaker 1: to recoup a refund. So then they filed fraudulent charges.
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  Speaker 1: So you lie. We lying. Now, we bringing false allegations
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  Speaker 1: on people. We deferre making people characters because we don't
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  Speaker 1: want to keep to our commitment. That's the kind of
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  Speaker 1: world that we're living in now. You know, people they
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  Speaker 1: don't honor their commitments, and then when they can't honor
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  Speaker 1: their commitments, they don't care who they who they hinder,
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  Speaker 1: or who they come against, as long as they are vindicated.
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  Speaker 1: And that's the word colonel, we're living in. So what
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  Speaker 1: are your thoughts on tonight? Well, what is person on
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  Speaker 1: your mind tonight? That was that was my vent for tonight,
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  Speaker 1: that was my letout. That's what's been pressing on my
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  Speaker 1: mind tonight. What's on your mind tonight? And hear from
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  Speaker 1: those that are tuned in. You tune in and you
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  Speaker 1: got something that's Princeton. You want to let out that
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  Speaker 1: you get out. This is the night to do that.
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  Speaker 1: Come on, come on through and let it out.
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  Speaker 2: And you know what, while you were just talking, I
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  Speaker 2: was just trying to gather my thoughts. Every time I
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  Speaker 2: come on the podcast, all always have like a slight
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  Speaker 2: anxiety attack. And so you know, I was just sitting
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  Speaker 2: up here while you were speaking. I was just sitting
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  Speaker 2: up here and I was just praising God to get
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  Speaker 2: it to move, because I know that's an attack of
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  Speaker 2: the enemy, the enemy trying.
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  Speaker 1: To take my voice from me.
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  Speaker 2: I know that I have a voice, and I want
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  Speaker 2: to know and I want to use my voice to
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  Speaker 2: bring glory to God.
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  Speaker 1: And every.
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  Speaker 2: Time it never fails. I have to settle My heart
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  Speaker 2: started being real fast, and I start sweating and my
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  Speaker 2: words started leaving and I'm just all over the place.
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  Speaker 2: So I just sat here here and I was just
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  Speaker 2: telling my spirit, you gotta settle down, no no matter what.
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  Speaker 1: Exactly exactly.
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  Speaker 2: You know, everybody knows my story, everybody knows what I've
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  Speaker 2: been going through these.
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  Speaker 1: Last past nine months.
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  Speaker 2: But I want to speak a person's that lost their
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  Speaker 2: their child that you was telling me about, and I
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  Speaker 2: know that feeling. I didn't have to get a phone
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  Speaker 2: call sam My child has transitioned. Our hurry up, get
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  Speaker 2: to the hospital. I didn't get that them calls. I
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  Speaker 2: walked into the room and I saw to my child,
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  Speaker 2: but not thinking that he had transitioned, just thinking he
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  Speaker 2: was sleep And so I know them their pain. I
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  Speaker 2: know what they're going to deal with as they begin
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  Speaker 2: to start making preparations for to lay their child to rest. Thankfully,
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  Speaker 2: I had my mother on a day when I went
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  Speaker 2: to start making arrangements for my son and also my
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  Speaker 2: cousin Eric. I had them three with me, and when
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  Speaker 2: it came down to signing the papers, I had a problem.
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  Speaker 2: I couldn't sign my name. I can sign his name.
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  Speaker 2: So I know they're gonna struggle with that. Luckily, the.
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  Speaker 1: The funeral home.
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  Speaker 2: Director, Lance, he was there and he knew and he
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  Speaker 2: asked me, he said, would you like for me to
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  Speaker 2: do it? And I said yes, and he felt out
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  Speaker 2: the papers for me and I just signed it.
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  Speaker 1: Well, my heart, yeah, I have not experienced it's no
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  Speaker 1: time limit on grief. And we have a couple right
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  Speaker 1: now from the prayer line that they just lost their baby.
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  Speaker 1: You know, they took their baby to the hospital and
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  Speaker 1: you know now they're going home from the hospital and
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  Speaker 1: their baby's not going home with them. You know, their
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  Speaker 1: baby was five years old and now they having to
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  Speaker 1: prepare to lay their five year old son the rest.
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  Speaker 1: You know, I don't know what that feels like, and
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  Speaker 1: I don't wish that. Don't nobody, you know, but those
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  Speaker 1: that are experiencing that and that have gone through that.
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  Speaker 1: You know, I feel like there's somebody out there that
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  Speaker 1: needs to hear yourself that it needs to you know,
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  Speaker 1: know how how you get through it. But everybody will
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  Speaker 1: tell us that it's gonna get easier, it's gonna be okay.
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  Speaker 1: But you know, I've never lost a son or not.
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  Speaker 1: I I lost a parent, I lost both parents, and
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  Speaker 1: I lost my mother over thirty years ago. And when
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  Speaker 1: people say it gets easier, no, it did not get easy.
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  Speaker 1: It did not get easy. There's still days and it's
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  Speaker 1: still days when you know, I cry, you know, because
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  Speaker 1: I have truly miss my mom and I'm like I
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  Speaker 1: used to think that, you know, how would things be
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  Speaker 1: if my mom was here? You know, I always have
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  Speaker 1: these things in the back of my mind, wondering, you know,
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  Speaker 1: what this would be like, what this would have been,
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  Speaker 1: how this would have been, and if my life would
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  Speaker 1: have been different, if my mom was here, you know,
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  Speaker 1: thirty years without your mom. But I thank God again
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  Speaker 1: who he said he would be in my life. He
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  Speaker 1: said he would be a mother for the motherless, a
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  Speaker 1: father for the fatherless. And he's truly been that for me.
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  Speaker 1: But for that person that may not understand, or they
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  Speaker 1: may be just experiencing this, going through this, well, what
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  Speaker 1: is one thing that you would say to them too?
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  Speaker 1: Because we hear a lot and somebody may have said something,
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  Speaker 1: get over it. You know a lot of people say
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  Speaker 1: you gotta move on, you got this. Well, what is
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  Speaker 1: one thing that you would say to a grieving mom
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  Speaker 1: that that would.
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  Speaker 2: You know what.
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  Speaker 1: It's words came? Really say.
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  Speaker 2: What I can say to that mother? But I can
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  Speaker 2: just tell her just you know, with me, luckily I
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  Speaker 2: had my mom, my aunties, and my cousins now all
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  Speaker 2: around me talking to me. And you know, I grew
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  Speaker 2: up in a my My family was very close knitted,
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  Speaker 2: are close knitted, and we all feel each other pain
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  Speaker 2: and the way we was raised, our first cousins. You
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  Speaker 2: would think that we're actually brothers and sisters, but we're
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  Speaker 2: just first cousins. That's how close we are are. And
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  Speaker 2: just to get that support number one, Lena, God, that's
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  Speaker 2: where you're gonna draw your strength from. I know it's
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  Speaker 2: hard to say lean on him because now you're saying, Lord,
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  Speaker 2: why you took my child.
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  Speaker 1: I went through that.
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  Speaker 2: Oh, I went through that. I was so angry and
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  Speaker 2: I was so mad. I even called my uncle that's
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  Speaker 2: a minister, and I asked him, I said, Uncle, Marvin,
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  Speaker 2: can I be mad? And he was like, what would you?
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  Speaker 2: You know? What's the problem, what's going on? And I
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  Speaker 2: told him, I said I'm mad, I'm upset, I'm angry.
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  Speaker 2: And he stopped me writing my tracks, and I knew
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  Speaker 2: what the next word he was gonna say, It's okay
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  Speaker 2: to be mad, but don't you blasphem me.
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  Speaker 1: And you know, and I was really there before.
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  Speaker 2: I was really there at that point because I was
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  Speaker 2: angry and I'm starting to release that anger. But I
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  Speaker 2: know that Kyle was on loan to me at that point.
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  Speaker 2: At this point, when you're going through the grieving process,
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  Speaker 2: you don't want people saying, oh, he was on loan
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  Speaker 2: to you, or he's in a better place. You don't
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  Speaker 2: want people coming up to you telling you that because
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  Speaker 2: you want your child, you go into that selfish.
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  Speaker 1: Mote that was my child. And you know God, Me
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  Speaker 1: and God had that conversation one day.
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  Speaker 2: It was raining and I'm in my car and I'm
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  Speaker 2: just crying and I'm just yelling. I'm like, Lord, you
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  Speaker 2: took my son from me. How can you do that
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  Speaker 2: to me? Why would you take my baby baby from me?
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  Speaker 2: And soon as I got quiet, I kid you not.
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  Speaker 2: He told me he was mine. That's what he told me.
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  Speaker 2: He said he was mine. I told him before I
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  Speaker 2: loaned him to you, that I was gonna go way
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  Speaker 2: and I was going to prepare a place for him
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  Speaker 2: and I was gonna come back and I was going
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  Speaker 2: to receive him. Unto me, you did your job. You
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  Speaker 2: was the surrogate. I gave you custody of him. You
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  Speaker 2: did what you were supposed to do. This is my
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  Speaker 2: conversation with God.
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  Speaker 1: I kid you not.
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  Speaker 3: I had.
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  Speaker 1: This is what he told me. I written it, damn
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  Speaker 1: what he told me.
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  Speaker 2: And all I can do was cry because now once
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  Speaker 2: I had that conversation with him, once he told me that,
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  Speaker 2: I felt a little better because I know my child
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  Speaker 2: was resting. I know that his father, his heaveny father,
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  Speaker 2: came and got him, just like he promised. Him.
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  Speaker 1: You know, Kyle, Kyle came in here quick.
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  Speaker 2: He wouldn't even the doctor wasn't didn't even make it
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  Speaker 2: into the room.
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  Speaker 1: Before Kyle made his grand entrance.
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  Speaker 2: He was out.
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  Speaker 1: The nurse had to get it. He was here.
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  Speaker 2: Kyle came in for something like about between four and
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  Speaker 2: four thirty in the evening. Because I was watching the news.
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  Speaker 2: They had the news playing in the background. When I
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  Speaker 2: found my baby at his peaceful rest, it was between
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  Speaker 2: them same time zone. So I knew it was God
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  Speaker 2: that came and got it. I knew it was God
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  Speaker 2: that came to Gotti.
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  Speaker 1: So that's what I would tell.
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  Speaker 2: A mother, a father. Lean on your faith. You gonna
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  Speaker 2: have where you questioning God, but don't go over. Don't
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  Speaker 2: step over that boundary. But you can't go back. You
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  Speaker 2: have your conversation with Him and you all that's the
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  Speaker 2: only person you.
• 24:02
  Speaker 1: Need to talk to.
• 24:03
  Speaker 2: At point.
• 24:05
  Speaker 1: Family gonna come around you. You let them love on.
• 24:09
  Speaker 2: You, because I could you not. My family loved on
• 24:13
  Speaker 2: me and they still love on me. Five o'clock in
• 24:18
  Speaker 2: the morning, four thirty in the morning, I get a
• 24:21
  Speaker 2: phone call from my sister while she on her way
• 24:24
  Speaker 2: to and we talk in some moments. Some days she
• 24:28
  Speaker 2: let me vent and I cried, and I can hear
• 24:33
  Speaker 2: her crying as well. Yesterday me and my mom had
• 24:37
  Speaker 2: a conversation and sometimes I forget that, you know, she
• 24:45
  Speaker 2: was even though she was his grandmother, she was all
• 24:49
  Speaker 2: she's also his mother, because that's what my grandmother would
• 24:52
  Speaker 2: tell us.
• 24:53
  Speaker 1: Oh, I'm your mom, I'm your mother too.
• 24:57
  Speaker 2: You know. I had the the uh. I may be
• 25:03
  Speaker 2: getting off track just a little bit, but the worstest thing.
• 25:11
  Speaker 1: That I had to do was tell my mother that.
• 25:19
  Speaker 2: One of her grandchild's grandchildren had transition. That was the
• 25:26
  Speaker 2: hardest thing to do. The let me go back to
• 25:31
  Speaker 2: once they came in. Once they came in the house
• 25:33
  Speaker 2: and they pronounced my son. I called my sister and
• 25:38
  Speaker 2: she was, you know, and I tell her everything, Shane.
• 25:43
  Speaker 2: They think that we're twins, where we're not. And I
• 25:46
  Speaker 2: tell her everything, and just to listen to her. She
• 25:49
  Speaker 2: was real calm, real calm about it, and she said, okay, Snet,
• 25:57
  Speaker 2: But I know deep down the site that that was
• 26:01
  Speaker 2: killing her, that that was hurting her because Kyle was
• 26:06
  Speaker 2: her baby.
• 26:08
  Speaker 1: Then I had to call and tell my mother.
• 26:14
  Speaker 2: And when I heard my mother cry out, I couldn't
• 26:19
  Speaker 2: stay on the phone. I just hung up the phone
• 26:22
  Speaker 2: because I can hear her pain, her his siblings. I
• 26:28
  Speaker 2: can see the pain in there and their face. You know,
• 26:36
  Speaker 2: get around your family. Let your family love you. If
• 26:41
  Speaker 2: you have a church family, let them love on you.
• 26:47
  Speaker 2: These last months, I've been going in. I went to church,
• 26:52
  Speaker 2: but during that time, I was angry at God. I
• 26:56
  Speaker 2: would I wouldn't let it go. I couldn't let that go.
• 27:00
  Speaker 1: So I will go.
• 27:02
  Speaker 2: When I would walk into church, I will cry. I
• 27:06
  Speaker 2: would sit there and I would just cry and everything
• 27:09
  Speaker 2: because I'm so mad. But I'm hearing the word and
• 27:12
  Speaker 2: the pastor is speaking to me and stuff I walked
• 27:22
  Speaker 2: away from.
• 27:23
  Speaker 1: It is definitely a journey. And there are a lot
• 27:27
  Speaker 1: of people out there that is experiencing this and going
• 27:30
  Speaker 1: through this, and I want you to share with them
• 27:33
  Speaker 1: because I know you have a project that's going to
• 27:36
  Speaker 1: be coming up, that's gonna drop in twenty twenty five. Yeah,
• 27:39
  Speaker 1: if you would share about your project and how they
• 27:44
  Speaker 1: could be a part of your project, please take this
• 27:49
  Speaker 1: time to do that.
• 27:55
  Speaker 2: Well, you know, I know I went all over the
• 27:58
  Speaker 2: place and stuff. That's because I get a most you know,
• 28:00
  Speaker 2: sometimes speaking about.
• 28:01
  Speaker 1: That I decided to.
• 28:06
  Speaker 2: Do a book, a grief book, because I know we
• 28:11
  Speaker 2: all experience grief different. So I decided that's how I'm
• 28:19
  Speaker 2: getting to write how I feel. So if I can
• 28:23
  Speaker 2: put it in paper and on paper and another parent
• 28:28
  Speaker 2: can see that the different stages of grief, that it
• 28:33
  Speaker 2: doesn't go away no matter what anybody tell you, no
• 28:38
  Speaker 2: matter what anybody tell you.
• 28:40
  Speaker 1: So you guys out there, if you can't talk to
• 28:42
  Speaker 1: a person.
• 28:43
  Speaker 2: That just that a parent that's grieving, listen to him.
• 28:49
  Speaker 1: That's all we want you to do. Just listen to us.
• 28:53
  Speaker 2: Just do that, that one little thing.
• 28:56
  Speaker 1: Just listen.
• 28:58
  Speaker 2: And give them, give us a hug. Don't say nothing else.
• 29:02
  Speaker 2: Don't say your kid is in a better place, don't
• 29:05
  Speaker 2: say say that. Just be a listener. That's all we
• 29:11
  Speaker 2: need is for you to listen to us and pray.
• 29:16
  Speaker 2: Pray for us, because I'm telling you this journey is hard.
• 29:21
  Speaker 2: But I would like anybody that's experienced grief, if you
• 29:26
  Speaker 2: experienced a child, a loss of a child, a loss
• 29:30
  Speaker 2: of a spouse, a loss of a sibling, a loss
• 29:34
  Speaker 2: of anybody, a grandparent, I would like for you to
• 29:39
  Speaker 2: be a point. You know, I it's the words be
• 29:50
  Speaker 2: a part of this book program with me. Let's put it,
• 29:56
  Speaker 2: put it, this this project together, so we can sow
• 30:03
  Speaker 2: someone that has experienced these different types of grief, so
• 30:06
  Speaker 2: they will know that it's okay to grieve. You gotta
• 30:12
  Speaker 2: let it out, don't suppress it. You gotta let it out.
• 30:15
  Speaker 2: No matter what anybody said, you have to let it out.
• 30:19
  Speaker 2: But as Simone and Angela and them tell me, don't
• 30:25
  Speaker 2: stay there too long. Lets let it out, release it.
• 30:31
  Speaker 1: If want to be a part of your body, how
• 30:33
  Speaker 1: can they be a part of your project. They can't.
• 30:41
  Speaker 2: Let's see my link tree. Go to my link tree.
• 30:45
  Speaker 2: You'll find all my information there. It's called Cheanette's Voice
• 30:50
  Speaker 2: link tree Chanette's Voice.
• 31:01
  Speaker 1: All right, all right, but there y'all have it. I
• 31:04
  Speaker 1: want to for tuning in tonight. We just wanted to
• 31:09
  Speaker 1: take this opportunity to share again. That was something that
• 31:13
  Speaker 1: was yet person in my spirit. We are I am
• 31:17
  Speaker 1: a part of a prayer line, and that was one
• 31:20
  Speaker 1: of the conversations that we were having this morning, and
• 31:23
  Speaker 1: I just wanted to to come on and you know,
• 31:27
  Speaker 1: just be an outlet for that person that may be
• 31:29
  Speaker 1: going through because I know a lot of people are
• 31:31
  Speaker 1: going through right now, people are experiencing grief and in
• 31:35
  Speaker 1: different ways. So just wanted to be an out let
• 31:39
  Speaker 1: on today. Just wanted to use our platform to be
• 31:43
  Speaker 1: a voice. So if you're out there, you have someone
• 31:47
  Speaker 1: that is willing to assist you on this journey, willing
• 31:50
  Speaker 1: to allow you a platform and an outlet to express
• 31:54
  Speaker 1: that that you want to share in the way that
• 31:57
  Speaker 1: you want to share it that may help someone else.
• 32:00
  Speaker 1: So if you would like to be a part of
• 32:02
  Speaker 1: this anthology is going to drop in twenty twenty five.
• 32:05
  Speaker 1: Chanette is one of the amazing individuals that I'm going
• 32:08
  Speaker 1: to be working with to help them get their book out.
• 32:12
  Speaker 1: I am doing a self publishing coaching program in twenty
• 32:17
  Speaker 1: twenty five. I'm going to be helping individuals that want
• 32:19
  Speaker 1: to learn the process. I believe it that I believe
• 32:23
  Speaker 1: in if you teach a person how to fish, they'll
• 32:26
  Speaker 1: never be hungry. They'll be able to go out there
• 32:27
  Speaker 1: and throw that real life that they'll be able to
• 32:29
  Speaker 1: draw in fish and they'll be able to feed somewhere else.
• 32:32
  Speaker 1: So that's what I am on twenty twenty five, I'm
• 32:35
  Speaker 1: going to be helping those that want to self publish,
• 32:39
  Speaker 1: want to get those pieces out there. I want to
• 32:41
  Speaker 1: learn this process on their own. I believe in paying
• 32:44
  Speaker 1: it forward, So that's what I'm going to be doing.
• 32:47
  Speaker 1: Shout out to Shanette, Shout out to Shaniria Osborne in
• 32:52
  Speaker 1: Little Parker, Little Unique Parker, who is also going to
• 32:56
  Speaker 1: be producing their book Projects five. I'm excited. I cannot wait.
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  Speaker 1: Not only are they doing their own projects, these amazing
• 33:07
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  Speaker 1: meet thirty amazing poets that's sharing from their heart and
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  Speaker 1: soul through words. Y'all. We're touching on everything. I'm talking
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  Speaker 1: about everything that you can think of up under the
• 33:31
  Speaker 1: sun that will help you on this journey we call life,
• 33:36
  Speaker 1: and it's coming from our experiences, things that we have
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• 33:53
  Speaker 1: we do have some kings in this book. So go
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  Speaker 1: over and support these kings and queens that are sharing, y'all.
• 34:01
  Speaker 1: That's sharing from their heart, that's sharing their perspective, their words,
• 34:04
  Speaker 1: their thoughts. I'm excited. I'm excited for them. And not
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  Speaker 1: only that, y'all. We are currently working on the one
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  Speaker 1: hundred and twenty one Days a Prayer Devotion book. We
• 34:16
  Speaker 1: still have an opportunity for you to share inside of
• 34:19
  Speaker 1: this book. If you have something, if I've done something, y'all,
• 34:23
  Speaker 1: don't sit down on your testimony, share it with somebody else,
• 34:27
  Speaker 1: because that that that you may have that you are
• 34:31
  Speaker 1: holding on to, maybe that one thing that will help
• 34:33
  Speaker 1: somebody else come out. So I'm urging you. If you're
• 34:37
  Speaker 1: out there, you have a testimony and God has done
• 34:39
  Speaker 1: something for you, share it with the world. Go tell
• 34:42
  Speaker 1: it is what I call I say, go tell it
• 34:44
  Speaker 1: to the mountains. So y'all, share you have If you
• 34:49
  Speaker 1: have thirteen dollars and thirty three cent. If you don't
• 34:51
  Speaker 1: have thirteen dollars and thirty three cent, all you gotta
• 34:54
  Speaker 1: do is communicate with me, y'all, I'm telling you it's
• 34:56
  Speaker 1: not about the money. With me and anybody that has
• 34:58
  Speaker 1: worked with me on project, anybody it has been a
• 35:00
  Speaker 1: part of myself, with anybody that know me, know that
• 35:03
  Speaker 1: it's not about money, but it's about the message and
• 35:06
  Speaker 1: it's about God's goodness and that's what I'm about. So y'all,
• 35:10
  Speaker 1: thank you for tuning in tonight. I tell you, if
• 35:12
  Speaker 1: you've been blessed by anything that has been shared on
• 35:15
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  Speaker 1: out with someone in your circle of influence. Know that
• 35:22
  Speaker 1: the group podcast is over here. We're out here being
• 35:25
  Speaker 1: the change that we desire to see in this world.
• 35:29
  Speaker 1: We're being a voice for those that think that they
• 35:31
  Speaker 1: don't have a voice or those that are voices. So y'all,
• 35:35
  Speaker 1: thank you for your support. Channette, you got anything that
• 35:38
  Speaker 1: you want to say before.
• 35:39
  Speaker 2: We leave, Yes, tune in tomorrow. I'll be back with
• 35:49
  Speaker 2: with another episode of Let's Talk About It eight pm
• 35:53
  Speaker 2: Eastern Standard time, five pm Specific Center time. We'll be
• 35:58
  Speaker 2: talking about what we was gonna be talking about, Angela.
• 36:05
  Speaker 1: We're gonna be talking about some of the injustice and
• 36:09
  Speaker 1: some of the things that are going on inside of TDCJ. Currently, y'all,
• 36:14
  Speaker 1: there's a lot of drug abuse going on behind these
• 36:18
  Speaker 1: prison walls, and it need to be light, needed to
• 36:22
  Speaker 1: be shedded on it. A lot of things that go
• 36:24
  Speaker 1: on behind these closed doors, and they try to keep
• 36:27
  Speaker 1: it under wraps and they try to keep it hid
• 36:30
  Speaker 1: from us, and then they make us look like things
• 36:33
  Speaker 1: are okay. But when you when you are in contact
• 36:38
  Speaker 1: with your loved one, you are in communication with your
• 36:40
  Speaker 1: loved one. You're having these conversations with your loved one,
• 36:44
  Speaker 1: you know, because we communicate with those that are behind
• 36:49
  Speaker 1: prison walls, and we talk to somebody every day, So
• 36:52
  Speaker 1: every day we're talking to somebody, so we know what
• 36:55
  Speaker 1: is going on behind these prison walls. And when five
• 36:57
  Speaker 1: and six and seven people are calling you and they're
• 36:59
  Speaker 1: telling you the same story, then something is going on
• 37:02
  Speaker 1: and something that is not right. And they don't have
• 37:04
  Speaker 1: to be in the same prison, but they're calling you
• 37:06
  Speaker 1: and telling so something and there's some things that need
• 37:10
  Speaker 1: to be addressed, and they are still not allowing these
• 37:13
  Speaker 1: things to be addressed. I'm not gonna be quiet. I
• 37:17
  Speaker 1: don't care if everybody that I'm helping right now get paroleed.
• 37:21
  Speaker 1: I'm still not gonna be quiet. I'm still gonna until
• 37:26
  Speaker 1: I see change. I'm not gonna stop. I'm not gonna stop.
• 37:32
  Speaker 1: So we're gonna be touching on. We're gonna be talking
• 37:34
  Speaker 1: about the drug abuse that's going on inside of TDCJ.
• 37:38
  Speaker 1: How are these people getting the drugs in? Inmates are
• 37:41
  Speaker 1: not going out to Walmart, They're not going out to
• 37:44
  Speaker 1: these drug dealers houses and getting these drugs. So how
• 37:47
  Speaker 1: are these drugs getting into the prison system? You will,
• 37:50
  Speaker 1: are we evaluating our country? We're doing these so were
• 37:56
  Speaker 1: checking these people before they come in. If you're doing
• 38:00
  Speaker 1: your job, then your facility can run great. See it
• 38:05
  Speaker 1: ain't nothing nobody told me. Because see what a lot
• 38:08
  Speaker 1: of people don't know too is I was a correction
• 38:10
  Speaker 1: officer in south Fordton County back in the nineties, So
• 38:13
  Speaker 1: I know what. I know what it is to work
• 38:16
  Speaker 1: behind those prison walls because I've done it and I
• 38:20
  Speaker 1: can you know what, in California, So I know what
• 38:29
  Speaker 1: can be done. So all this stuff that they tell
• 38:32
  Speaker 1: me and and and I write them and I tell them,
• 38:36
  Speaker 1: you know, I used these I used t d c
• 38:39
  Speaker 1: J as my project for for my for my classes
• 38:43
  Speaker 1: that that I'm taking I'm always talking about them. I'm
• 38:47
  Speaker 1: always talking about their policies. I'm always talking about their procedures.
• 38:53
  Speaker 1: Last semester, last quarter, my teacher he told me I
• 38:57
  Speaker 1: should be a consultant for then, he said, you should
• 39:00
  Speaker 1: be a consult for them. He said, because you can
• 39:03
  Speaker 1: turn that program around. I told T c J. I'm not.
• 39:09
  Speaker 2: For them. But you know, we also have a little
• 39:16
  Speaker 2: some things do in California that we're going to talk about.
• 39:19
  Speaker 2: Also tomorrow, we had it was a federal correctional officer.
• 39:25
  Speaker 2: He worked in the mail room. Someone sent a packaging
• 39:31
  Speaker 2: but they tried to say it was legal mail, and
• 39:33
  Speaker 2: the guy opened it and it was it was lace
• 39:38
  Speaker 2: with fentanyl. Later on that night, the correctional officer passed away,
• 39:44
  Speaker 2: all because of some the somebody decided to send it
• 39:48
  Speaker 2: through mail.
• 39:50
  Speaker 1: So we have that.
• 39:52
  Speaker 2: We're gonna be talking about T D A TD. Yeah,
• 39:57
  Speaker 2: we're gonna be talking about Texas. We're gonna be talking
• 40:00
  Speaker 2: love about California. We're gonna be talking about a little
• 40:04
  Speaker 2: about everything. Also, I want to just in case I forget,
• 40:11
  Speaker 2: I want to congratulate being Spencer.
• 40:16
  Speaker 1: Being Spencer did.
• 40:19
  Speaker 2: Thirty four years wrongfully convicted in the state of Texicis
• 40:25
  Speaker 2: on this past Friday, he was exonerated from that. So
• 40:34
  Speaker 2: being congratulations, there's nothing else we can say.
• 40:43
  Speaker 1: And that's another one. That's that's another thing. I'm so
• 40:48
  Speaker 1: I'm so happy when when when that is the outcome,
• 40:51
  Speaker 1: because it makes no sense that our people have to
• 40:54
  Speaker 1: go through like they go through. And and when I
• 40:57
  Speaker 1: hear that part, when I hear that, in my heart,
• 41:01
  Speaker 1: just my heart just feels with joy because at least
• 41:06
  Speaker 1: they going through and and and they're enduring. It was
• 41:10
  Speaker 1: not in vain. So I praise God for for his
• 41:14
  Speaker 1: redemption and for restoring him and for forgiving him back
• 41:19
  Speaker 1: double for what he has lost. Never can replace the time,
• 41:24
  Speaker 1: but at least he can be paid for what they
• 41:27
  Speaker 1: put him through. He'll never he'll never be able to
• 41:31
  Speaker 1: erase the time or or what has been lost. At
• 41:34
  Speaker 1: least he can live a better life going on. HM, hallelujah,
• 41:39
  Speaker 1: Thank you Jesus. So yet we hope that wants that
• 41:45
  Speaker 1: are being held behind prison while unlawfully, wrongfully and overly incarcerated,
• 41:51
  Speaker 1: the fight continue and we journey on. So y'all join
• 41:55
  Speaker 1: us tomorrow night. And I'm telling you ain't no telling
• 41:58
  Speaker 1: what we may talk about if you have a loved
• 42:00
  Speaker 1: one that is behind these prison walls. I want you
• 42:03
  Speaker 1: to tune in and join in. Bring your questions, bring
• 42:07
  Speaker 1: your concerns.
• 42:08
  Speaker 2: Y'all.
• 42:09
  Speaker 1: We are the change that we want to see in
• 42:10
  Speaker 1: this world. And change start and then if you won't change,
• 42:15
  Speaker 1: you gotta be that change. And I don't got no drink,
• 42:19
  Speaker 1: but I want sipping on me an icy, y'all. I
• 42:22
  Speaker 1: have me an icy because it's hot out here and
• 42:24
  Speaker 1: they got two fires going out in California. Y'all new
• 42:31
  Speaker 1: to me, But anyway, I love y'all. I appreciate y'all,
• 42:35
  Speaker 1: and don't forget. October nineteenth, a A L A C.
• 42:39
  Speaker 1: The Chasing Your Dream Book Tour is gonna be touching
• 42:42
  Speaker 1: down in the great state of South Carolina, my hometown.
• 42:46
  Speaker 1: We're gonna be in Charleston, which is Patrece hometown. Y'all.
• 42:51
  Speaker 1: We're gonna be making our mark. We're gonna be doing
• 42:53
  Speaker 1: what we do and allowing God to be who he
• 42:57
  Speaker 1: said he will be in our lives, allowing us to
• 43:00
  Speaker 1: utilize our gifts and talents. We're gonna We're looking for authors,
• 43:03
  Speaker 1: business owners, community leaders, anybody that's ready to showcase their business,
• 43:07
  Speaker 1: ready to network, ready to come out and be a
• 43:10
  Speaker 1: part of the community, because that's what we are going
• 43:12
  Speaker 1: to be doing. We're gonna lock down at that community center,
• 43:16
  Speaker 1: inside and out. So I'm telling you, if you got
• 43:18
  Speaker 1: a business, we want you to come through. Represent your business,
• 43:21
  Speaker 1: allow your business to be in the place. If you
• 43:24
  Speaker 1: are a if you have a barbecue business, reach out
• 43:29
  Speaker 1: to me. I need to talk to you, or reach
• 43:32
  Speaker 1: out to Patrice. We need you in the building. We
• 43:35
  Speaker 1: need you at the community Center. Y'all were out of here.
• 43:38
  Speaker 1: We love y'all. Y'all have a good night. We'll see
• 43:40
  Speaker 1: y'all back here tomorrow. Night. Be blessed, Be blessed.