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22325-B.A.D.D.-2-BUSINESS NEW SHOW ALERT WELCOME TO DA CREW · DA CREW Podcast

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  Speaker 1: P left taft the lift TIFTI left tree left.
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  Speaker 2: The ladies and gentlemen, may I have your attention please?
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  Speaker 2: The show starts in ten line eight seven, six, five,
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  Speaker 2: four three two one go.
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  Speaker 3: Hey, hey, welcome everybody to Bad to Business. I am
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  Speaker 3: your host, Shining. Thanks for tuning in with me tonight.
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  Speaker 3: Happy Sunday Funday to everybody. I hope everybody had a
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  Speaker 3: wonderful weekend getting ready to start a new week. So
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  Speaker 3: let's go into this new week with a new perspective,
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  Speaker 3: a new state of mind. Again. Let me introduce myself.
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  Speaker 3: My name is Shining. Welcome to Bad to Business. Bad
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  Speaker 3: to Business again is bringing all diverse discussions to business.
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  Speaker 3: I talk about everything from politics and entertainment to what's
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  Speaker 3: going on in our community. And I take a lot
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  Speaker 3: of different discussions and see what we can bring to
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  Speaker 3: the table to business and see if there's some type
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  Speaker 3: of resolution or even some type of information we can
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  Speaker 3: give out to other people. So continue this journey with me.
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  Speaker 3: As I said on my first podcast, today is a
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  Speaker 3: special one for me. Just getting back into town yesterday,
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  Speaker 3: It's been a long trip. If you can't see, I
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  Speaker 3: am representing LA I just came back from home, I
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  Speaker 3: went to my father's home gum going and it was
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  Speaker 3: again quite a trip from beginning to end. But I
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  Speaker 3: wanted to talk to you guys today about that journey and.
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  Speaker 4: Kind of share some things with y'all.
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  Speaker 3: And I hope you learn something and you know, be
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  Speaker 3: fed to go feed somebody else. If it ain't for you,
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  Speaker 3: maybe it's for somebody else. So one thing I wanted
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  Speaker 3: to say is that when my dad first passed, the
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  Speaker 3: first thing I asked God was what's going on? You know?
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  Speaker 3: He passed shortly before my mom's fourth year anniversary of passing,
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  Speaker 3: and that was a really hard hit. But God has
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  Speaker 3: his own plans. Me and my dad had our own plans.
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  Speaker 3: They just didn't mix. So that's okay. God is better
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  Speaker 3: at this than I am. So, like I said, when
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  Speaker 3: my dad passed, the first thing I asked God was
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  Speaker 3: what's going on?
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  Speaker 4: You know this this was not supposed to be this way.
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  Speaker 3: I know I'm not necessarily questioning God, but it was
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  Speaker 3: more so like, okay, what next? Now I'm really looking
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  Speaker 3: for guidance. When my mom passed, kind of walked away,
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  Speaker 3: didn't really want to listen to anything, had to go
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  Speaker 3: my own way. Get a different understanding. I did lean
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  Speaker 3: on my own understanding of feeling better. I needed to
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  Speaker 3: feel better immediately, and.
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  Speaker 4: So I went on that.
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  Speaker 3: But I went to God and I told him, you know,
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  Speaker 3: this hit differently, so I need to walk away a
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  Speaker 3: little bit.
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  Speaker 4: I need to do something else. And he allowed me
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  Speaker 4: that time.
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  Speaker 3: It was almost like I heard him say, Okay, I
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  Speaker 3: get it, I understand, and so I walked away a
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  Speaker 3: little bit, did my own thing, and just I really
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  Speaker 3: I guess when I say all I walked away. I
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  Speaker 3: really didn't communicate with God too much, try to see
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  Speaker 3: what was really going on or look for comfort from him.
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  Speaker 3: I figured that if he could provide comfort, he wouldn't
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  Speaker 3: have taken it in the first place. That's where my
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  Speaker 3: mind was at that time. But he allowed me to
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  Speaker 3: walk away. He still covered me in everything I did.
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  Speaker 3: I still maintained a job, even though my mind wasn't
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  Speaker 3: really right. I still was able to raise my children,
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  Speaker 3: even though I wasn't in the perfect state of a mother.
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  Speaker 3: He covered me. He did what he needed to do
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  Speaker 3: this time. However, when my dad passed, I told him
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  Speaker 3: I'm not walking away. I gotta see what this means.
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  Speaker 3: Something is going on. So this time I'm upset, I'm hurt,
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  Speaker 3: but I'm gonna rock with you this time. I want
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  Speaker 3: to see what you got planned. I want to see
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  Speaker 3: what comes out of this. I don't think I think
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  Speaker 3: I wasted time with my mom's passing and not seeing
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  Speaker 3: what the message was, the blessing was, the blessing was.
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  Speaker 3: I wasn't sticking around for that. I didn't think that
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  Speaker 3: that really had a purpose. But this time I wanted
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  Speaker 3: to see. I didn't want to waste any time. I
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  Speaker 3: told God, I'm upset, I'm hurt, but let me see
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  Speaker 3: what you got in store. Let me see what your
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  Speaker 3: plan could possibly be for this to happen. At this time,
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  Speaker 3: just starting a new podcast, starting a new chapter in
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  Speaker 3: my life, telling my dad about it. We talked about
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  Speaker 3: different things. He gave me different perspectives on a couple
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  Speaker 3: of things I'll be talking about in my show. So
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  Speaker 3: I thought that things were set. It was good, you know,
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  Speaker 3: at least for the next couple of months or however
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  Speaker 3: timing goes.
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  Speaker 4: But didn't happen.
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  Speaker 3: So my dad passes, I ask God, Okay, I'm sticking
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  Speaker 3: with you. What are we doing here this time? I
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  Speaker 3: want to see I'm seeking you. I want to see
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  Speaker 3: your works. I'm listening for whatever word you have for me.
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  Speaker 3: I'm looking for whatever opportunity. And my request with him
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  Speaker 3: was a little funny this time, because I said, I
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  Speaker 3: need you to show up. I need you to show
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  Speaker 3: up for me. I don't want you to talk through people.
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  Speaker 3: I don't want to see you know, just little gems.
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  Speaker 3: I need you to show up in a big, miraculous way.
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  Speaker 3: I got to see that this is the grand plan,
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  Speaker 3: this is what I wanted to see, and that way
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  Speaker 3: I would have known. Okay, this is why I had
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  Speaker 3: to see it in a big way. This was my
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  Speaker 3: small request, if you will. And so when I started
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  Speaker 3: on that, Okay, Lord, I'm mad, I'm hurt. But what
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  Speaker 3: are we doing? What are we doing here? The first
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  Speaker 3: response I got when I said, Lord, what do you
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  Speaker 3: want me to do now? He said, or it came
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  Speaker 3: to me and said go show up, said go show up.
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  Speaker 4: That was it.
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  Speaker 3: And I remember saying, go where and show up for who?
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  Speaker 3: Because I'm asking for me. I'm asking you to show
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  Speaker 3: up for me, So go where, show up for who.
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  Speaker 3: I didn't hear too much more than that, And as
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  Speaker 3: I'm coming to learn, and respect and honor. Understand that
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  Speaker 3: God's word is what it is. He is one of
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  Speaker 3: those He said what he said, go show up.
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  Speaker 4: So I continue to ask go and show up where?
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  Speaker 3: So I guess once it kind of settled in my spirit,
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  Speaker 3: it was kind of like, go where you're needed to
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  Speaker 3: show up how you need to, So kind of taking
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  Speaker 3: that into perspective, I was more aware of my surrounding,
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  Speaker 3: if you will, I got less angry with him. I
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  Speaker 3: tried to understand what that meant. So I didn't want
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  Speaker 3: to miss anything by being angry, by being so hurt.
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  Speaker 3: As my brother taught in a Bible study, don't let
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  Speaker 3: your purpose get in the way of your feelings. You know,
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  Speaker 3: God doesn't care as much about your feelings as you
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  Speaker 3: care about your purpose. So I didn't want my feelings
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  Speaker 3: to get so much in a way. So if he
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  Speaker 3: told me go show up, let me see what that meant.
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  Speaker 3: What opportunities must you be allotting for me to go
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  Speaker 3: and show up for? So again, I've looked for those opportunities.
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  Speaker 3: And so when it was time to go home for
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  Speaker 3: this homeome going, I was very mindful and very watchful
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  Speaker 3: of what things would come up. You know, what what
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  Speaker 3: people I would run into again going back home. It's
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  Speaker 3: got to some comfortable opportunities. It's got to be something there,
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  Speaker 3: it's got to be this. So okay, then let's do that.
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  Speaker 3: It's time to go home. I have an open mind
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  Speaker 3: about going to this homegoing. I'm not going to be
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  Speaker 3: too upset to uptight. I don't want to have too
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  Speaker 3: much emotion, too many feelings, especially about flying with everything
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  Speaker 3: going on with these airplanes.
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  Speaker 4: But let's see.
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  Speaker 3: But when I tell y'all this was a journey from
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  Speaker 3: beginning to end, I wish I could give you every detail.
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  Speaker 3: But some things are just meant for you to experience.
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  Speaker 3: Some things you're able to give a testimony on. And
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  Speaker 3: so I'm going to try to give y'all as much
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  Speaker 3: of the testimony as I can and what a little
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  Speaker 3: bit of the experience.
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  Speaker 4: So so I go home, and.
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  Speaker 3: One of my first things I can say was a
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  Speaker 3: blessing for me is that you know, when I when
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  Speaker 3: I fly, I try to do any layovers.
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  Speaker 4: I try not to do you know, a NonStop and.
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  Speaker 3: Just so that I don't get any baggage issues and
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  Speaker 3: stuff like that. So you know, I know it's cheaper
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  Speaker 3: to do it whatever way, but I just try to
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  Speaker 3: get straight through. Well, this particular time, you know, I
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  Speaker 3: was flying with my sister and it was last minute,
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  Speaker 3: so we had to get what we could get, and
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  Speaker 3: one of the stops we were able to stop in
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  Speaker 3: was Denver, Colorado, and that's gone that happens to be
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  Speaker 3: one of the places that I've always wanted to go
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  Speaker 3: visit live since I was a teenager.
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  Speaker 4: So I thought that was pretty cool.
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  Speaker 3: And immediately, you know, we thank God for all things
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  Speaker 3: and all experiences. So when I was like, dang, I
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  Speaker 3: get to go to Denver, Colorado. See how it is,
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  Speaker 3: you know, look at some things. I got a little
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  Speaker 3: stop there, I was like, well, thank you got for
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  Speaker 3: letting me experience that.
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  Speaker 4: That's kind of cool. So we get there, we have
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  Speaker 4: that layover. It was Denver, Colorado is big airport.
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  Speaker 3: We didn't know that at the time, but when we
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  Speaker 3: get there, the guy somehow I booked my ticket to
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  Speaker 3: where I have wheelchair service. I'll say that I don't
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  Speaker 3: believe in coincidences. I just believe in perfect timing, and
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  Speaker 3: that's all in God's plan too. So where I see
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  Speaker 3: this perfect timing, coincidences or whatever, I know that that's
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  Speaker 3: God in the miss. So we are in Denver, Colorado,
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  Speaker 3: this guy, you know, we it's a short layover, but
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  Speaker 3: we get to pass through season things and we get
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  Speaker 3: to the gate and the guy somehow my sister passes
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  Speaker 3: me and she says, you know, my name Shining, and
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  Speaker 3: the guy says, yeah, I have her, and he has
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  Speaker 3: me on this little name monitor thing and I'm like, really,
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  Speaker 3: you have me and he has my name on there
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  Speaker 3: and he's like, okay, you guys need wheelchair service. Okay,
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  Speaker 3: well definitely, because one this is our first time there,
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  Speaker 3: and two trying to hurry up and get to this
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  Speaker 3: next gate, and we got to use the bathroom all
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  Speaker 3: these things. So he said, well, come on, sit down.
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  Speaker 3: I'll get you guys straight there. He takes us to
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  Speaker 3: the bathroom, go to the bathroom. Shout out to Barron,
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  Speaker 3: if you get to watch the show, thank you very
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  Speaker 3: much for what you did. But he gets us on
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  Speaker 3: there and we go to the bathroom and he said, well,
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  Speaker 3: come on, because it looks like your plane is actually
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  Speaker 3: boarding now or layover somehow got cut short, whatever the
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  Speaker 3: case may be.
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  Speaker 4: He runs us through the airport. He gets us there.
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  Speaker 3: Of course he knows it and as my sister confirmed,
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  Speaker 3: we wouldn't have been able to get there without him,
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  Speaker 3: especially with his expeditious service he gave us. So that
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  Speaker 3: was a good experience. Like I said, I got to
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  Speaker 3: visit Denver and we had curbside service if you will,
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  Speaker 3: where we needed it, right on time as he is.
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  Speaker 4: So we go through Denver.
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  Speaker 3: Denver is our one stop before we get to La.
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  Speaker 3: So we're in La, we start to experience things. We
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  Speaker 3: get there, it's the time for the wake, and it.
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  Speaker 4: Was a beautiful service.
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  Speaker 3: It was everything we could have expected, being the fact
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  Speaker 3: that it was on the other side of the world.
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  Speaker 3: And when I say that, we couldn't have too much
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  Speaker 3: of our hands in it. And that can sometimes give
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  Speaker 3: you some anxieties not being in the know of some
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  Speaker 3: things when it comes to your family, but when you
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  Speaker 3: trust God, there's nothing that you really got to be
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  Speaker 3: worried about. Once our family accepted on this end that
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  Speaker 3: there was only so much we can do while things
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  Speaker 3: are being handled in California. We're here where we are
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  Speaker 3: in a different state, we were able to kind of
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  Speaker 3: calm it down. So God was really good with that.
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  Speaker 3: So we get there.
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  Speaker 4: It was a beautiful service. I meet a lot of people.
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  Speaker 3: It was really emotional, and one thing I asked God
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  Speaker 3: was give me the strength to not just break down again,
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  Speaker 3: not trying to let my feelings getting away of my purpose,
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  Speaker 3: because me breaking down is going to make me angrier,
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  Speaker 3: make me feel things I don't want to do those things, right.
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  Speaker 3: So I get there and I'm kind of able to withstand,
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  Speaker 3: and I have this thing where, see, the last time
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  Speaker 3: I saw my dad, he was laughing and smiling and breathing,
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  Speaker 3: and that's the way I wanted to remember him, and
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  Speaker 3: I didn't want to see him in any other form.
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  Speaker 3: Same way I felt about my mom. I don't want
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  Speaker 3: to see them. I don't want my last memory of
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  Speaker 3: them to be or anyone to be where I don't
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  Speaker 3: see them at their happiest or at their best condition
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  Speaker 3: or ment condition, whatever, just I can't see nothing. So
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  Speaker 3: I didn't want to be emotional, and for the most part,
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  Speaker 3: God was able to hold me together as much as possible.
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  Speaker 3: But I did feel the emotion of anger coming over again,
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  Speaker 3: because now you know, of course, I'm dealing with the
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  Speaker 3: reality of It's one thing to kind of expect one thing,
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  Speaker 3: but it's another thing to be there dealing with it.
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  Speaker 3: So it was a little hard, but I do know
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  Speaker 3: that God was in the misty showed up. I met
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  Speaker 3: some really good people, good comforting things, and I got
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  Speaker 3: to see that things were under control.
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  Speaker 4: Again, this is at the wake, So this is a day.
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  Speaker 3: Before we prepare for the finale, if you of the
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  Speaker 3: homegoing service actual actually so again, I get there, get
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  Speaker 3: everything under control, and.
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  Speaker 4: The next day so we get there.
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  Speaker 3: I know I'm missing some of the experience and stuff
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  Speaker 3: I got in there from renting the car and how
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  Speaker 3: it seemed like things weren't gonna work out, and how
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  Speaker 3: somehow the guy I wasn't able to find my boarding
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  Speaker 3: past at the time, the guy needed it for the
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  Speaker 3: rental car and he wasn't going to rent it to me.
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  Speaker 3: And then he said, you know what, all types of
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  Speaker 3: things were going on that actually opened the doors open.
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  Speaker 3: Those are little things, but like I said, I'll try
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  Speaker 3: to share as many testimonies and experiences with you in
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  Speaker 3: this little time I have as possible.
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  Speaker 4: But so we did the way. Now we're preparing for
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  Speaker 4: the homegoing.
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  Speaker 3: I get to see a little bit of my family,
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  Speaker 3: see my sisters. I love you all. Thank you all
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  Speaker 3: for your support. And everything that you do and we
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  Speaker 3: do for each other, God is just really in the
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  Speaker 3: midst of this. So the next day we head there
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  Speaker 3: and we go to the service, and there were i'd
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  Speaker 3: have to honestly say, more people there than I thought
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  Speaker 3: there would be. I didn't know that my dad meant
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  Speaker 3: so much to other people as he did to me.
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  Speaker 3: And I will tell y'all that that was a sign
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  Speaker 3: to me from God. Again, nothing that anyone else could
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  Speaker 3: have done for me shown me told me was how
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  Speaker 3: much my dad meant to other people. So being able
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  Speaker 3: to be there and I see that these people showed
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  Speaker 3: up for him, friends and coworkers, that was a blessing.
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  Speaker 3: That was again, to say the least, so comforting to
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  Speaker 3: see that.
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  Speaker 4: I was amazed.
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  Speaker 3: Because I didn't know the other end. Again, my dad
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  Speaker 3: he worked in California while he lived in Atlanta, Georgia,
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  Speaker 3: so two separate lifestyles, I can say. So these people
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  Speaker 3: that he knew on the outskirts were strangers to me.
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  Speaker 3: But anyway, it was comforting. And then out of the blue,
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  Speaker 3: I was asked to do his eulogy. I was not
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  Speaker 3: asked prior to do it, but in the program it
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  Speaker 3: had my name to do so, as though it was
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  Speaker 3: already planned for me to do so. So I said, okay, well,
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  Speaker 3: you know I have no problem his sister asked me
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  Speaker 3: to do it. Said I have no problem with that,
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  Speaker 3: and she said, well, if you feel uncomfortable, you know,
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  Speaker 3: we can go ahead and get somebody else do I said, no,
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  Speaker 3: I feel very comfortable and I feel very honored to
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  Speaker 3: do so so, and thank you for including me anyway,
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  Speaker 3: because I know again they had things handled over there,
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  Speaker 3: but they somehow included me in that. So I said, well,
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  Speaker 3: I thought that I was just, you know, sitting to
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  Speaker 3: enjoy the homegoing. But let me go get my reading glasses,
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  Speaker 3: go do what I need to do. So I went
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  Speaker 3: outside and I told God, okay, this is where you
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  Speaker 3: show up, right, because I was barely prepared to read
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  Speaker 3: the poem that I had prepared to read, dealing with
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  Speaker 3: my emotions, not wanting to cry.
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  Speaker 4: So you.
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  Speaker 3: Opening the door to an opportunity for me to read
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  Speaker 3: this eulogy. This this is big, right, this is big,
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  Speaker 3: So you must be here in the midst of this.
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  Speaker 3: I can't say no, so I said, you know, one
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  Speaker 3: thing that I've been praying for is the confidence to
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  Speaker 3: speak more and do more, especially with starting a new podcast.
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  Speaker 3: It is a dream of mine come true. One of
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  Speaker 3: the reasons why is because and always talking to my
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  Speaker 3: friends and family, I can talk about everything. I can
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  Speaker 3: talk about anything and everything, you know, So being able
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  Speaker 3: to just be more comfortable with speaking to any and
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  Speaker 3: everybody at that point is a challenge for me. But
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  Speaker 3: so I've been asking God to show up there, so
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  Speaker 3: he knows that I've been asking for the blessing, the confidence,
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  Speaker 3: the strength for Him to show up in my life
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  Speaker 3: on this podcast as well. So I said, okay, so
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  Speaker 3: you're giving me this opportunity to speak at this eulogy,
• 21:26
  Speaker 3: I'm definitely going to do what I can do. Okay,
• 21:32
  Speaker 3: here's the opportunity. This is what we're doing. But I
• 21:36
  Speaker 3: also saw it as an opportunity to read that poem
• 21:38
  Speaker 3: without crying. I said, well, if I got to read
• 21:40
  Speaker 3: this eulogy, right, I'm just gonna read these words Asis,
• 21:44
  Speaker 3: I'm just gonna read these words.
• 21:46
  Speaker 4: I'm just going to and then I'm gonna go straight
• 21:48
  Speaker 4: into the poem.
• 21:49
  Speaker 3: So cool. You plan this well, again, your plan, not mine.
• 21:53
  Speaker 3: You plan this well. I got up there and I
• 22:02
  Speaker 3: read the eulogy, and it was so short, because you know,
• 22:10
  Speaker 3: it's on a program, and it was so short to
• 22:13
  Speaker 3: describe the beginning, the middle, and the end. And I
• 22:19
  Speaker 3: felt compelled to speak.
• 22:22
  Speaker 4: To a room full of strangers excuse me, hm that.
• 22:32
  Speaker 3: I didn't know, and I asked God to be with me,
• 22:39
  Speaker 3: and he was. I was so comfort comfortable with doing this,
• 22:46
  Speaker 3: And what I said was, I know that this is
• 22:49
  Speaker 3: short for the program. I know this is how this goes.
• 22:54
  Speaker 3: But my dad was so much more than what this
• 22:57
  Speaker 3: these short paragraphs say. And being able to explain to
• 23:02
  Speaker 3: these people who my dad was and what he meant
• 23:05
  Speaker 3: to me and my family, how he was a hero,
• 23:08
  Speaker 3: and how he showed up for different things and you know.
• 23:13
  Speaker 4: Again, how you just showed up.
• 23:17
  Speaker 3: It was a blessing to not only be able to
• 23:19
  Speaker 3: tell people, but to be so comfortable with doing so
• 23:24
  Speaker 3: that confidence I felt with doing something so righteous in
• 23:30
  Speaker 3: my heart, It was a newfound thing for me. So
• 23:37
  Speaker 3: after saying that, after doing the speech, now it's time
• 23:41
  Speaker 3: to read my poem, which always brought me to tears.
• 23:44
  Speaker 3: When I got ready to read it, and I was
• 23:46
  Speaker 3: able to read it without a tear drop, what I
• 23:52
  Speaker 3: saw was that it needed to be said the words,
• 23:55
  Speaker 3: and it meant so much as far as just healing.
• 23:58
  Speaker 3: I won't go into it. Said some things are testimony
• 24:01
  Speaker 3: and some things are an experience, and it was definitely
• 24:04
  Speaker 3: just an experience for those who were there. But the
• 24:07
  Speaker 3: poem meant so much and the words meant so much
• 24:10
  Speaker 3: to healing and being able to move forward and being
• 24:14
  Speaker 3: able to let God do what he do, that it
• 24:19
  Speaker 3: needed to be said.
• 24:20
  Speaker 4: And then that led right into being comfortable.
• 24:22
  Speaker 3: So I will say that that right there, that experience
• 24:27
  Speaker 3: was God showing up for me. When I walked outside
• 24:30
  Speaker 3: and I told him, this must be where you show up.
• 24:32
  Speaker 4: He definitely did.
• 24:34
  Speaker 3: And that's one thing that I wanted to really talk
• 24:36
  Speaker 3: about on this show today, was you know when when
• 24:42
  Speaker 3: you ask God to show up and he actually does,
• 24:47
  Speaker 3: what an experience, How great it is, and so you
• 24:51
  Speaker 3: don't give up on calling on him doing things like that.
• 24:59
  Speaker 3: So that was It's great we did that. My dad
• 25:04
  Speaker 3: was laid with my mom. How they planned things to go,
• 25:07
  Speaker 3: They married each other and then they went with each other.
• 25:09
  Speaker 3: So that's how that went, and it again was a
• 25:13
  Speaker 3: beautiful service. Everything just went the way it was supposed to.
• 25:18
  Speaker 3: I got to see one of my uncles that I
• 25:20
  Speaker 3: hadn't been able to talk to and a couple of
• 25:23
  Speaker 3: years due to some family conflict between he and I.
• 25:27
  Speaker 3: I had had it in my mind before I went
• 25:29
  Speaker 3: to California that I wanted to talk to him. Didn't
• 25:32
  Speaker 3: know how, but I kind of wanted to end whatever conflict.
• 25:36
  Speaker 3: Whether this was the time to do it or not,
• 25:37
  Speaker 3: I just didn't want to leave there with things unsettled.
• 25:41
  Speaker 3: There's been so many times I've gone back home and
• 25:45
  Speaker 3: left with things unsettled and brought it back with me.
• 25:48
  Speaker 3: So side note, this was one of those journeys or
• 25:51
  Speaker 3: trips that I said, you know what, this time, when
• 25:53
  Speaker 3: I go, I'm gonna leave some stuff there. Some things.
• 25:56
  Speaker 3: It seems like every time I go and something bad
• 25:58
  Speaker 3: happens at home, I bring it back with me and
• 26:03
  Speaker 3: there's really nothing I can do with it in a
• 26:04
  Speaker 3: different state. And the people that I've taken it from,
• 26:07
  Speaker 3: the baggage and everything else, they're not dealing with it,
• 26:10
  Speaker 3: they're not carrying it. But I've brought it with me
• 26:13
  Speaker 3: to carry with my children and my family to not
• 26:16
  Speaker 3: be as happy as I can be because I'm carrying
• 26:18
  Speaker 3: some luggage that I should have left that you know
• 26:21
  Speaker 3: at the least that lax, but no I brought it,
• 26:26
  Speaker 3: so this time I wanted to leave it. I never
• 26:30
  Speaker 3: saw the right time to really talk to my uncle.
• 26:33
  Speaker 3: But God did as he does. God did, so I
• 26:42
  Speaker 3: got to talk to my uncle. We got to resolve
• 26:45
  Speaker 3: some things, and we realized that we really just misunderstood
• 26:48
  Speaker 3: each other. We came to a mutual understanding that he
• 26:52
  Speaker 3: could have handled some things differently and said some different
• 26:55
  Speaker 3: words as I could have, and we realized how important
• 26:59
  Speaker 3: it is to just really talk again, bring your diverse
• 27:03
  Speaker 3: discussions to business. It doesn't have to stay in conflict.
• 27:07
  Speaker 3: Sometimes you'll be in conflict for so long with such
• 27:11
  Speaker 3: an easy resolution. It's not worth your time, the time
• 27:14
  Speaker 3: we don't have, or the time we don't know if
• 27:15
  Speaker 3: we have. So getting to talk to my uncle was
• 27:19
  Speaker 3: a whole blessing because it's been some years, and the
• 27:24
  Speaker 3: love that we got to exchange and reciprocate, and the
• 27:28
  Speaker 3: understanding that we came to. He's a really funny man,
• 27:32
  Speaker 3: a musician as well, so we got to talk about
• 27:35
  Speaker 3: a lot of different things and it was just it
• 27:37
  Speaker 3: was wonderful. It was everything I needed it to be.
• 27:43
  Speaker 3: So I left there in peace, with that. So again
• 27:46
  Speaker 3: God showing up where I didn't expect him to, but
• 27:48
  Speaker 3: I asked him to wherever show up and he did.
• 27:55
  Speaker 3: So I get to do that and I get to
• 27:58
  Speaker 3: finalize the When I say these, I get to do
• 28:02
  Speaker 3: it means what I was able to do with finding
• 28:04
  Speaker 3: peace in my spirit.
• 28:06
  Speaker 4: I get to.
• 28:08
  Speaker 3: Finalize my mom and my dad. I remember when they
• 28:12
  Speaker 3: sealed the things. I said, it is finished. I was
• 28:15
  Speaker 3: able to say that. For people who know me, they
• 28:18
  Speaker 3: know that I do honor my mom and my dad
• 28:21
  Speaker 3: a lot, and even in their passing, I do. And
• 28:26
  Speaker 3: there's some things that, as I've talked to my siblings about,
• 28:30
  Speaker 3: may hold a bondage over me, you know, not completely
• 28:35
  Speaker 3: letting go. One of the things that I learned with
• 28:38
  Speaker 3: at my dad's passing is when he was still alive,
• 28:41
  Speaker 3: I held to him a standard of still being my
• 28:45
  Speaker 3: mother's husband. So as long as he was my mother's husband,
• 28:48
  Speaker 3: there was still an existence of my mom. But letting
• 28:52
  Speaker 3: him go was like a double whammy to me because
• 28:54
  Speaker 3: it was like I'm sorry. Giving him back was like
• 28:59
  Speaker 3: a double whamy to me because it was like now
• 29:03
  Speaker 3: it is finished. You know, the marriage is what it is.
• 29:06
  Speaker 3: It's y'all too now, and I have nothing to do
• 29:09
  Speaker 3: with that, no communication, can't celebrate any anniversaries with you,
• 29:13
  Speaker 3: things like that. So that in itself was something to
• 29:19
  Speaker 3: deal with. So I had to leave that there and
• 29:25
  Speaker 3: being able to talk to my uncle and that baggage
• 29:28
  Speaker 3: that was so heavy that I even when I didn't
• 29:32
  Speaker 3: talk to him when I went back to California, I
• 29:33
  Speaker 3: still had that feeling of I can't go visit my
• 29:36
  Speaker 3: uncle who's there because I don't really talk to him.
• 29:38
  Speaker 3: I got to leave that alone. I got to leave
• 29:41
  Speaker 3: that wherever it lied dead. I got to leave it
• 29:45
  Speaker 3: dormant and not continue to travel with it, not continue
• 29:48
  Speaker 3: to bring it with me in my life. That was
• 29:50
  Speaker 3: great for me, And then you know, I get to
• 29:57
  Speaker 3: I got to spend some time with my family, got
• 29:59
  Speaker 3: to to see some people that I haven't seen in
• 30:02
  Speaker 3: a while. I didn't get to see my best friend.
• 30:04
  Speaker 3: Shout out to Genie. I wish I had saw your
• 30:05
  Speaker 3: baby girl. But next time. One thing my sister reminded
• 30:09
  Speaker 3: me of is that this wasn't that kind of trip.
• 30:11
  Speaker 3: You know. I wish we could have done more, seen more,
• 30:16
  Speaker 3: visited more people, but we did what was necessary to
• 30:23
  Speaker 3: replenish our spirit at this time, and sometimes you got
• 30:27
  Speaker 3: to realize you do what's necessary to replenish you don't
• 30:30
  Speaker 3: don't try to overdo it, don't get over stuff, don't
• 30:32
  Speaker 3: be a glutton, just do what's necessary to replenish your spirit.
• 30:36
  Speaker 4: And was definitely able to do that.
• 30:38
  Speaker 3: So got to see some family, talk to some people,
• 30:43
  Speaker 3: get some good information against things I'll be sharing with
• 30:46
  Speaker 3: you guys and further podcasts. It's always good to talk
• 30:50
  Speaker 3: to people, bring some diverse discussions into this thing, and
• 30:55
  Speaker 3: be able to talk to you guys about some things
• 30:58
  Speaker 3: I've learned.
• 31:00
  Speaker 4: Some things we get to talk about. I can't wait.
• 31:02
  Speaker 3: I can't wait to see your opinions on something, so
• 31:05
  Speaker 3: stick with me. But anyway, so now it's time to
• 31:08
  Speaker 3: come back home, and I got to spend the last
• 31:13
  Speaker 3: evenings with my sisters and what I call my safety
• 31:18
  Speaker 3: sister circle. It was awesome and amazing to be around
• 31:24
  Speaker 3: such comforting and loving women. Of course, you call a
• 31:29
  Speaker 3: lot of women your sisters who are like that, but
• 31:32
  Speaker 3: these were women who were like that and really my
• 31:34
  Speaker 3: blood sisters I love, y'all, and one of my sisters
• 31:38
  Speaker 3: I got to talk to about this. So this is
• 31:40
  Speaker 3: something that came on my heart. So when I talk
• 31:42
  Speaker 3: about go and show up. I was talking to her
• 31:46
  Speaker 3: and I said, you know, one of your friends calls
• 31:48
  Speaker 3: you and says, hey, girl, let's go out. Let's go
• 31:51
  Speaker 3: on this trip. I want to go to Jamaica. And
• 31:54
  Speaker 3: you're like, okay, yeah, definitely I want to go. You
• 31:57
  Speaker 3: get to call in the travel agent, get to save
• 31:59
  Speaker 3: them money, get to go and shopping.
• 32:02
  Speaker 4: I definitely want to go.
• 32:03
  Speaker 3: You prepare to go on this trip to Jamaica, Bahamas,
• 32:06
  Speaker 3: wherever you're gonna go. You prepare to go on this trip,
• 32:11
  Speaker 3: and you go. You have fun, you have experiences, you
• 32:13
  Speaker 3: have memories. Great, you had a great time. But what
• 32:20
  Speaker 3: about when God calls you to go to go somewhere,
• 32:25
  Speaker 3: to go on a trip, to go on a journey.
• 32:28
  Speaker 3: Do you start to prepare yourself? Do you answer him
• 32:32
  Speaker 3: and say, God, yes, I'll go. That sounds like that's
• 32:35
  Speaker 3: what I need to do. I feel it, That's what
• 32:38
  Speaker 3: I'm gonna do. Or do we hesitate? Do we you know,
• 32:44
  Speaker 3: do we tell him all the reasons why we can't.
• 32:46
  Speaker 3: I don't I don't have the money, I don't have
• 32:47
  Speaker 3: the resources, I don't have these things to do what
• 32:51
  Speaker 3: you're calling me to do, the trip you want me
• 32:53
  Speaker 3: to go on, the journey. I don't have the courage,
• 32:56
  Speaker 3: you know, the experience like Moses, I don't. I don't
• 33:01
  Speaker 3: have everything you want me to do to be able
• 33:04
  Speaker 3: to do this. And that was something that I really
• 33:11
  Speaker 3: had to ponder on how quickly we are to jump
• 33:14
  Speaker 3: to a person for a fun trip or for something
• 33:17
  Speaker 3: that feels good, or something that's gonna seem great for
• 33:22
  Speaker 3: an experience, and then when God calls us to go
• 33:25
  Speaker 3: and show up, we hesitate. We're not looking for what
• 33:29
  Speaker 3: experiences we can get out of it, what memories and
• 33:32
  Speaker 3: all those things. And you know what, one thing I've
• 33:37
  Speaker 3: learned with God is that you know, with your friends,
• 33:40
  Speaker 3: it may be all expenses paid, but with God, it's
• 33:44
  Speaker 3: like all equipped and slaved. Everything you need will be
• 33:49
  Speaker 3: already there. You know, God shouldn't have to reassure you
• 33:52
  Speaker 3: for that. If God's calling you to go somewhere, He's
• 33:54
  Speaker 3: already there. He's already prepared for your words, your strength,
• 33:58
  Speaker 3: your encouragement, the people you need to be there, to
• 34:00
  Speaker 3: people to rush you through the airport, those things. He's
• 34:03
  Speaker 3: already prepared those things for you. With your friend she's
• 34:07
  Speaker 3: telling you, y'all got to get some stuff together. But
• 34:09
  Speaker 3: with God, he's telling you, I got it all together.
• 34:11
  Speaker 3: He's already there. If he's asking you to go somewhere,
• 34:14
  Speaker 3: he's already there. It's kind of like, meet me there.
• 34:17
  Speaker 3: You don't even have to beat him there. You can
• 34:19
  Speaker 3: meet him there. And that's what I.
• 34:21
  Speaker 4: Learned in this journey.
• 34:22
  Speaker 3: When I ask God to show up, and I've been
• 34:25
  Speaker 3: asking him ever since my dad passed, what do you
• 34:27
  Speaker 3: want me to do? How does this work? Where are you?
• 34:31
  Speaker 3: I need you to show me something in a major way.
• 34:33
  Speaker 4: This time. It's got to be you.
• 34:35
  Speaker 3: It can't be somebody saying it's gonna be okay and
• 34:38
  Speaker 3: God said this, and it can't be like that this time.
• 34:41
  Speaker 3: This time, I need to see you show up in
• 34:43
  Speaker 3: ways that only you can comfort me, in ways that
• 34:46
  Speaker 3: only you can speak to me, in ways that only
• 34:48
  Speaker 3: you know how to speak to me. He did, He did,
• 34:53
  Speaker 3: and I can tell he's still cooking. He's definitely still cooking.
• 34:56
  Speaker 3: He let me know that he's not done showing me
• 34:58
  Speaker 3: those things. There are something that he still needs me
• 35:02
  Speaker 3: to do. He one thing he told to me, or
• 35:05
  Speaker 3: the words came to me, the feelings came to me?
• 35:08
  Speaker 4: Is that.
• 35:10
  Speaker 3: Shanny, you want me to do some things, but I
• 35:12
  Speaker 3: can't move until you move some ways. So me telling
• 35:15
  Speaker 3: him I need you to show up, I need you
• 35:17
  Speaker 3: to do some things. With my arms cross ain't gonna work.
• 35:21
  Speaker 3: I gotta be open. So when I say I need
• 35:24
  Speaker 3: you to do this, I'm looking for big blessings. I'm
• 35:26
  Speaker 3: looking for miracles. I'm looking for you to show up
• 35:29
  Speaker 3: in big ways. So when he say okay, go show up,
• 35:31
  Speaker 3: and I'm like, go where or show up? Where? You
• 35:34
  Speaker 3: go where the opportunity calls you, you show up in
• 35:37
  Speaker 3: the ways that you want me to show up too.
• 35:41
  Speaker 3: Please remember to who much is given, much is required.
• 35:44
  Speaker 3: So you looking for big blessings, you got to show
• 35:48
  Speaker 3: up in big ways too. So that's what I'm looking at.
• 35:52
  Speaker 3: You know, my friends, not yet, we ain't planning no
• 35:55
  Speaker 3: trips to the Bahamas and Jamaica and stuff. But God
• 35:58
  Speaker 3: has already called me to go and show up. And
• 36:02
  Speaker 3: I don't know where, I don't know how, but best believe,
• 36:05
  Speaker 3: wherever the opportunity calls me to, I'm showing up. I'm
• 36:08
  Speaker 3: going because I expect him to be there already. He
• 36:11
  Speaker 3: wouldn't tell me to go and show up. If he
• 36:13
  Speaker 3: wasn't there, He wouldn't give me an assignment if I
• 36:18
  Speaker 3: wasn't already ready for it, or it wasn't already equipped
• 36:20
  Speaker 3: and slaved. I asked God to continue to be in
• 36:26
  Speaker 3: my life and for things that I know life isn't
• 36:32
  Speaker 3: gonna be easy, but for the things that I have
• 36:34
  Speaker 3: to do, please allow me to do it with ease,
• 36:37
  Speaker 3: because that's what he wants me to do.
• 36:40
  Speaker 4: So he's been showing up like that.
• 36:44
  Speaker 3: He's been doing that just in these last couple of weeks,
• 36:47
  Speaker 3: and I I am so grateful. And one thing I'll
• 36:52
  Speaker 3: I try to remember and I want you to remember,
• 36:54
  Speaker 3: is he doesn't call the unequipped. He equips the ones
• 36:59
  Speaker 3: he calls. So if you call you and you got
• 37:01
  Speaker 3: to pick up their phone the same way you would
• 37:03
  Speaker 3: to go to the party, or go to the club,
• 37:07
  Speaker 3: go to the Bahamas, go on a trip, y'all, make
• 37:12
  Speaker 3: sure that you show up for God the same way
• 37:14
  Speaker 3: y'all want him to show it for you. And like
• 37:17
  Speaker 3: I said, he's still showing up for me in ways
• 37:19
  Speaker 3: that I've asked him that only he can.
• 37:23
  Speaker 4: It's those.
• 37:26
  Speaker 3: It's those answered prayers, in those I'm sorry those yeah,
• 37:31
  Speaker 3: those answered prayers, in those whispered things I've asked him
• 37:35
  Speaker 3: for that nobody knows about, and I'm seeing him answer
• 37:40
  Speaker 3: those things for me. So I really hope that y'all
• 37:43
  Speaker 3: do what's necessary, show up for God, do what he's
• 37:48
  Speaker 3: asking you to do. You can't ask for God to
• 37:52
  Speaker 3: do something for you and you're not really doing it
• 37:54
  Speaker 3: for him. If you want him to show it big
• 37:57
  Speaker 3: for you, you got to show it for him too. So
• 38:00
  Speaker 3: today I just wanted to share with you guys about
• 38:02
  Speaker 3: how I've been asking God to show up for me
• 38:07
  Speaker 3: and he basically asked me the same thing, to show
• 38:11
  Speaker 3: up for him. So I'm here today again. I'm on
• 38:14
  Speaker 3: this new journey bad to business. I am your host,
• 38:17
  Speaker 3: shining calling. If you like what's going on, you know, listening,
• 38:24
  Speaker 3: be watching for me throughout the days, throughout the weeks.
• 38:26
  Speaker 3: I got some good things coming up, and I hope
• 38:28
  Speaker 3: that you guys can join in and talk to me
• 38:31
  Speaker 3: a little bit. If you're looking to be a guest
• 38:33
  Speaker 3: on my show, please DM me, message me. I'll put
• 38:37
  Speaker 3: some more ways out there to get in contact with me.
• 38:40
  Speaker 3: But this is going to be a great thing. So,
• 38:45
  Speaker 3: like I said, please stay with me. Bad to business,
• 38:50
  Speaker 3: bringing all diverse discussions to business. And today what we
• 38:53
  Speaker 3: brought to business is when you asking God to show up,
• 38:58
  Speaker 3: don't be surprised. If he asked you to show up
• 38:59
  Speaker 3: to if you don't answer his call, don't be surprised,