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Get Uncomfortable, Get Stronger: David Goggins’ Ultimate Challenge for YOU · Motivation Mindset Podcast

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  Speaker 1: I was watching these guys going through hell week class
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  Speaker 1: to twenty four and these guys ringing the bell, quitting,
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  Speaker 1: dropping their helmet down, rolling out, a lot of guys
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  Speaker 1: just leaving. And it made me reflect on my fears,
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  Speaker 1: my insecurities, and I saw real men when I thought
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  Speaker 1: were real men who are staying, who were overcoming adversity,
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  Speaker 1: who were overcoming all these different things that I had
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  Speaker 1: blamed so many people in my life, my dad, my
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  Speaker 1: mom from not being there. When I was fourteen years old,
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  Speaker 1: my mom was gonna get remarried to this great guy.
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  Speaker 1: He got murdered. And then I moved back to that
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  Speaker 1: small town in Brazil, and everybody was blame. I learned disability,
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  Speaker 1: my skin color, you know, me being everything. And so
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  Speaker 1: I sat there for a while and I was like, man,
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  Speaker 1: I gotta I've got it. No one's gonna can come
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  Speaker 1: to help me. No one's gonna come to help me,
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  Speaker 1: me against me, period. And so I had the man
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  Speaker 1: up and I said, of course. The guy started doing
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  Speaker 1: his face and every fear I had, no matter what
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  Speaker 1: the fuck it.
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  Speaker 2: Is, man, and these things would keep me up.
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  Speaker 1: And I know one people who are hearing this, they
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  Speaker 1: will never really understand and grasp when you face these
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  Speaker 1: things and so many things.
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  Speaker 2: How they keep you up and haunt you at night.
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  Speaker 1: I had two options to either be that three hundred
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  Speaker 1: pound guy who's prayed for cockroaches and made one thousand
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  Speaker 1: dollars a month and at twenty four years old, knowing
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  Speaker 1: when I'm fifty years old, I can reflect on this
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  Speaker 1: and think about what guy never became. Or I can
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  Speaker 1: totally just sack it up and fail and fail and
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  Speaker 1: fail until I succeed. So I started calling recruiters up.
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  Speaker 1: I said, I'm going to be a Navy seal. So
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  Speaker 1: the waiting height limit to get in the military, and
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  Speaker 1: I was six foot one and two ninety seven and
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  Speaker 1: I had a prior service, which was a big deal.
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  Speaker 1: So I called all these recruiters up, and all of
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  Speaker 1: them and said, hey, how tall are you?
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  Speaker 2: Blah blah blah blah.
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  Speaker 1: They got into conversations and see if I was even qualified,
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  Speaker 1: And by the time I got to my weight, phone
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  Speaker 1: would hang up pretty much like, hey, you know what,
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  Speaker 1: call somebody else, you know, try to get in the reserves.
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  Speaker 1: So I tried to get in the reserves, and I
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  Speaker 1: called this guy named Steven Salajo. A recruiter up and
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  Speaker 1: he said, hey, come on in. He saw me, put
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  Speaker 1: me through the weight standard all this other stuff. And
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  Speaker 1: to get into the class I had to get into,
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  Speaker 1: I had to lose one hundred and six pounds in
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  Speaker 1: less than three months. So I was like, fuck that,
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  Speaker 1: I can't do that. I grabbed my Chrucolate milkshake and
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  Speaker 1: went back to Eco Lab. I'm going back to work, man,
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  Speaker 1: this is my life. So in this job, you know,
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  Speaker 1: you're looking for cockroaches, looking for rodents and stuff like that.
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  Speaker 1: And this next morning or this next night, I went
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  Speaker 1: to work and I hit the I don't like cockroaches
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  Speaker 1: too much.
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  Speaker 2: I hit the mother load of cockroaches.
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  Speaker 1: And this restaurant got full of cockroaches and rodents and
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  Speaker 1: everything else. And I sat there, I said, this is
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  Speaker 1: my life. I said, this is my life. You are
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  Speaker 1: exactly who the this is it. And I said this
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  Speaker 1: ain't going to be it for me. So in that restaurant,
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  Speaker 1: I quit my job, left my canister in that restaurant,
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  Speaker 1: my spray canister, got back in my Eco Lab truck,
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  Speaker 1: and I went home and I started working out like
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  Speaker 1: somebody I was. I became the most obsessed person on
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  Speaker 1: the planet Earth, and I was basically I had to
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  Speaker 1: invent a guy that didn't exist. I had to invent
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  Speaker 1: a guy that can take any pain, in any suffer
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  Speaker 1: and any kind of judgment, be called or be called
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  Speaker 1: whatever the in the world, and be able to stand
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  Speaker 1: up Koma, say go yourself.
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  Speaker 2: I had to build it.
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  Speaker 1: I had to build this callous mind, and I built
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  Speaker 1: it through suffering.
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  Speaker 2: I built it through downright and just crushing myself.
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  Speaker 1: If it was raining outside three o'clock in the morning,
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  Speaker 1: it was snowing, the first thing I think is don't
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  Speaker 1: go out there and do sh My.
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  Speaker 2: Instinct was, we gotta go out there.
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  Speaker 1: Anything that was horrible in my life that I would
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  Speaker 1: normally say no, that was inhumane and most people, I
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  Speaker 1: had to go do it. And I started callous in
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  Speaker 1: my mind at this point in my life, and I
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  Speaker 1: lost the weight. I lost the weight and and I
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  Speaker 1: went back to recruiter. I got into that class and
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  Speaker 1: I went through three maybe still hell weics in one year.
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  Speaker 1: Only guy to ever be in three hell weeks and
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  Speaker 1: one year to my knowledge. The first one I didn't
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  Speaker 1: make it through the next two I did, and that
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  Speaker 1: I just.
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  Speaker 2: I didn't stop anymore from there.
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  Speaker 1: And I started realizing through this, through this process.
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  Speaker 2: That the fucking mind is what you created.
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  Speaker 1: And I started opening different doors that I didn't think
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  Speaker 1: were even there, they didn't think even existed. And the
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  Speaker 1: more doors I opened up, the more I started realizing
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  Speaker 1: that my potential is damn near endless. And it changed
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  Speaker 1: my whole mindset. So I went from David Goggins and
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  Speaker 1: I created Goggins. The one thing that made me who
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  Speaker 1: I am today is being vulnerable. It's breaking myself down
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  Speaker 1: to the absolute rock bottom and being able to tell
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  Speaker 1: people who I am.
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  Speaker 2: And that's how I fixed it. Literally, you know, looks
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  Speaker 2: somebody in the eyes. You know what, Man, I have.
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  Speaker 1: A whole bunch of character problems, character flaws. I've lied
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  Speaker 1: about this, I've cheated here, I'm insecure here. This isn't
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  Speaker 1: the real me I lied to you about that. I
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  Speaker 1: wanted your acceptance in life. All those things happen. But
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  Speaker 1: the thing about it is that we get judged so
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  Speaker 1: quickly by who we are. We don't know, we don't
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  Speaker 1: go to the to where it happened. You know, life
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  Speaker 1: created this person me life, Life created me to be
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  Speaker 1: this person that was back in the day, and I
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  Speaker 1: had to realize, Man, that's okay, man, it's not my fault.
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  Speaker 1: Now you go back and fix this though, So a
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  Speaker 1: lot of this isn't your fault. Why you do some
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  Speaker 1: things you do, why you feel the way you feel,
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  Speaker 1: But no one's coming back to save your ass. You
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  Speaker 1: have to go back to where the started, wherever that
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  Speaker 1: place is for everybody. And had the courage to go
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  Speaker 1: back there and start fixing what broke you. And that's
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  Speaker 1: and that's why I was like, Hey, I'm up, I'm
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  Speaker 1: gonna go back and fix this. Though.
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  Speaker 3: You gotta be honest with yourself.
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  Speaker 2: Like that. Oh is ugly.
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  Speaker 1: And what's funny about it is that as you're trying
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  Speaker 1: to fix yourself and dig yourself out of this deep
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  Speaker 1: hole that life society and you helped. You helped also
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  Speaker 1: those people who you saw down there in that hole,
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  Speaker 1: who were there with you, who are your friends and
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  Speaker 1: people who you counted on. Because you meet the people
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  Speaker 1: in the same situation that you're in in life, those
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  Speaker 1: people become your friends, and second you try to get
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  Speaker 1: out of that situation and become better. Those people are
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  Speaker 1: in that in that grave, in that dungeeness, yanking at
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  Speaker 1: your heels, man saying get the back.
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  Speaker 3: Oh no, getting old, Come out back here, mother.
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  Speaker 1: You ain't gonna make me feel like shit while you
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  Speaker 1: getting out of this hole you are so I get
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  Speaker 1: that all the time now. People would constantly remind me
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  Speaker 1: of who I used to be back in the day,
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  Speaker 1: and they always come out of the woodworks man versus.
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  Speaker 3: Much still happening.
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  Speaker 1: You know what, when you come from a small small
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  Speaker 1: town and you come from a place that a lot
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  Speaker 1: of people don't want to come out of it and
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  Speaker 1: get out of it, and all you want to do
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  Speaker 1: is become somebody. When you have small town mentalities of
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  Speaker 1: real mentality, you've got to be able to get out
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  Speaker 1: and let your mind see open mindedness because a small
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  Speaker 1: town what it does to you is it closes your
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  Speaker 1: mind completely, close your mind out to everybody. This isn't
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  Speaker 1: everybody a lot of people. You have to be able
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  Speaker 1: to go out there and create open mindedness.
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  Speaker 3: You need space. You need space to see the world.
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  Speaker 1: Like a lot of racism, a lot of ignorance in
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  Speaker 1: the world, it comes from people not being out and seeing.
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  Speaker 3: Other things, seeing other people, seeing all kind.
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  Speaker 1: Of That's why we judged so harshly because our minds
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  Speaker 1: are so closed to the reality of life.
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  Speaker 3: Period. Have you been back to Brazil.
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  Speaker 1: I went back to Brazil a couple of times, and
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  Speaker 1: I have nothing wrong with Brazil because once again, another
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  Speaker 1: thing about growth is you can't hold on the hate.
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  Speaker 3: You can't hold on the hate and see once you
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  Speaker 3: take a different step.
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  Speaker 1: So I didn't take a step out of my life,
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  Speaker 1: because once you're in that hell, that's all you see
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  Speaker 1: is what's in front of you. When I stepped out
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  Speaker 1: of it, I saw Brazil very differently. There were a
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  Speaker 1: lot of great people in Brazil. The best people I
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  Speaker 1: knew were from Brazil. But when you're in hell, all
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  Speaker 1: you see is a little patch in front of you,
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  Speaker 1: of the kids that are calling you, of the people
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  Speaker 1: that spray painted.
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  Speaker 3: Nigga were gonna kill you on your car.
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  Speaker 1: People put that in your locker, people put that shit
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  Speaker 1: on your on your notebook in Spanish class, That's.
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  Speaker 3: All you see. You didn't see that my got.
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  Speaker 2: A lot of people feel like me here.
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  Speaker 1: So once you take a step back and see the
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  Speaker 1: reality of the true ignorance that you're dealing with from
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  Speaker 1: a small group of people, that's when you get growth
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  Speaker 1: because you know, I went through a phrase in the
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  Speaker 1: book I talked about man. I was all about you know,
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  Speaker 1: I was all about black and only black. When I
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  Speaker 1: was a junior in high school, I was so beat down.
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  Speaker 1: I was the most ignorant I've ever been in my life.
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  Speaker 1: When I went there, I totally took everything, all the hurt,
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  Speaker 1: all the pain, and just put it in one fucking filter.
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  Speaker 3: I gotta find people who look just like me and act.
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  Speaker 1: Just like me to find acceptance the brain that I
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  Speaker 1: was given as a child, it was easy to go
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  Speaker 1: home and think about how do I want to be
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  Speaker 1: a freak today?
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  Speaker 2: How do I want to show up to school today
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  Speaker 2: and be a freak.
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  Speaker 1: It didn't require me going home and open a book
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  Speaker 1: up saying it's gonna.
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  Speaker 2: Take me all year to learn this fucking page.
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  Speaker 1: So instead of learning that page, I learned how to
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  Speaker 1: become a character. And maybe that character that I created,
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  Speaker 1: that three hundred pound insecure guy that used to fake
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  Speaker 1: fake it time, make it type of guy. You know,
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  Speaker 1: let me become your friend, let me lie to you.
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  Speaker 2: Until you like me. Type of guy.
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  Speaker 1: When you have any kind of any manhood, womanhood, a
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  Speaker 1: human being, a soul of spirit any I had, no,
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  Speaker 1: I must have just this much pride, because that's exactly
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  Speaker 1: what opened the door for me. Because every day you
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  Speaker 1: were a character. Every day you were a clown. Every
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  Speaker 1: day you open that Spanish book or that science book
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  Speaker 1: or English book, and you like you looked at it.
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  Speaker 1: It was like it looked like a foreign language, and
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  Speaker 1: you're saying, where do I start? Where do I start?
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  Speaker 1: And obviously it was necessary. The more I talk about it, it
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  Speaker 1: wasn't necessary. Because what happened is I became haunted by
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  Speaker 1: the mere fact that this is my existence, and.
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  Speaker 2: You got to live with that. I lived it for
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  Speaker 2: a lot of years. And so I sat back and said, okay,
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  Speaker 2: all right, I know what this takes.
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  Speaker 1: And when you sit back as stuck as I was,
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  Speaker 1: and I had a laundry list, a table like this
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  Speaker 1: of what I have to do to become just a
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  Speaker 1: human being that can make ends me, that can make a.
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  Speaker 2: Thousand dollars a month just to.
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  Speaker 1: Get there, it was like, oh my god, dude, Like
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  Speaker 1: how they I'm sixteen seventeen, I can't read, I can't write,
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  Speaker 1: and I, oh my god, I'm so behind the power
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  Speaker 1: curve and my brain is about being depressed and my
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  Speaker 1: dad beat my mom's not home, and kids are calling
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  Speaker 1: me nigger at school and I'm like, oh my god, man,
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  Speaker 1: what the do I do? And it wasn't like someone
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  Speaker 1: came around and said, hey man, you.
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  Speaker 2: Can do this.
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  Speaker 1: This is all me.
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  Speaker 2: Some people wnt know where's this cold man come from.
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  Speaker 1: I'm not trying to be cold. It's the reality of
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  Speaker 1: my life. It's the reality of a lot of people's lives.
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  Speaker 1: And so yeah, that had to happen for me to
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  Speaker 1: be haunted, to be haunted, to pull out, to extract
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  Speaker 1: the guy in today.
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  Speaker 2: That haunting is something that's still there.
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  Speaker 1: Today because no matter how much you improve, no matter
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  Speaker 1: how much you change who you are, it's not permanent.
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  Speaker 1: You just wake up and say, oh my god man,
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  Speaker 1: you're you're David Godains, You break records, you do this,
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  Speaker 1: you do that.
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  Speaker 3: People don't know.
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  Speaker 2: How are you? How are you able to just be
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  Speaker 2: so hard?
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  Speaker 1: Can? I never turned the thing off, because once it
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  Speaker 1: turns off, I go right back to the David Gargins
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  Speaker 1: that is, and that's the guy that I'm.
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  Speaker 2: Constantly fighting every day.
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  Speaker 1: And it's the choice, and that choice makes you misunderstood.
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  Speaker 2: It makes you crazy. That's why I hate in social media.
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  Speaker 1: In twenty thirteen, people wanted me to write my book.
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  Speaker 2: I did it in twenty eighteen. Took five years.
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  Speaker 1: And the reason why I didn't do it, I set
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  Speaker 1: the table on Jennifer was there this before I actually
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  Speaker 1: started working for me, I started dating or whatever, and
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  Speaker 1: all these people were there and they're like, man, you
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  Speaker 1: gotta go on social media.
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  Speaker 2: And I was like you man, like I'm not. It's poison.
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  Speaker 1: It's poisoned because I knew what I did to get
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  Speaker 1: where I am, and I'm gonna have these people, these
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  Speaker 1: normal everyday people. Fat lazy is exactly who I was
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  Speaker 1: judging me because I know it because I.
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  Speaker 2: Was once them.
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  Speaker 1: All my hard work, all my dedication, I'm to have
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  Speaker 1: so normal dude, get his little brownies, little ding dong
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  Speaker 1: ho tweakye sit there with this coffee picking me apart
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  Speaker 1: at Oh, he must be unhappy.
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  Speaker 2: He's just you know how hard it is to put
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  Speaker 2: these shoes on every damn morning. I don't have you
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  Speaker 2: pick me apart.
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  Speaker 1: So yeah, there's there's so much that goes into this
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  Speaker 1: that I was like this, I never wanted anything to
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  Speaker 1: do with it. In fact, By the time I figured
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  Speaker 1: it out, it was almost impossible for me to become
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  Speaker 1: a seal. I was so heavy that if I had
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  Speaker 1: been even a few pounds heavier, I would not have
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  Speaker 1: been able to lose the necessary weight in the allotted time.
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  Speaker 1: I had to take extreme measures, like eating two tiny
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  Speaker 1: meals while working out six to eight hours a day
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  Speaker 1: for ten weeks. But when I started to shed weight
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  Speaker 1: and shift my mindset, I realized I had never been
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  Speaker 1: as a loan as I thought.
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  Speaker 2: I'd always told myself that.
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  Speaker 1: Nobody could possibly understand me or what I went through.
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  Speaker 1: But as I looked around, I noticed that there were
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  Speaker 1: a lot of motherfuckers out there with distracting injuries, stuck.
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  Speaker 2: Neck deep in their past.
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  Speaker 1: These days, I hear from them all the time. Some
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  Speaker 1: suffered child abuse or lost a parent very young. Others
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  Speaker 1: grew up feeling ugly or stupid. They were bullied and
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  Speaker 1: beaten down, or had no friends in school at all.
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  Speaker 1: It's not always the childhood mindfield that mix us up.
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  Speaker 1: There is no shortage of psychological and emotional snags in
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  Speaker 1: adult life. Every day people suffer bankruptcy, foreclosure, divorce, and
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  Speaker 1: catastrophic injury. They get cheated or robbed by their so
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  Speaker 1: called loved ones. They get sexually assaulted, they lose everything
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  Speaker 1: they own in a fire or flood, their children die.
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  Speaker 1: It's so easy to get lost in the fog of life.
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  Speaker 1: Tragedy hunts us all in any event that causes suffering,
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  Speaker 1: will linger longer than it should if you let it.
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  Speaker 1: Because our sad stories enable us to grade ourselves on
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  Speaker 1: a forgiving curve. They give us latitude and justification to
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  Speaker 1: stay lazy, weak minded motherfuckers, And the longer it takes
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  Speaker 1: for us to process that pain, the harder it is
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  Speaker 1: to reclaim our lives. Sometimes weakness and laziness are rooted
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  Speaker 1: in hate and anger, and until we receive the confession, apology,
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  Speaker 1: or compensation we believe we are owed, we stay stuck
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  Speaker 1: in our shit. As a form of self righteous rebellion
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  Speaker 1: against our tormentors or even against life itself.
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  Speaker 2: Some of us become entitled.
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  Speaker 1: We think our pain entitles us to feel sorry for ourselves,
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  Speaker 1: or that we are entitled to good fortune because we've
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  Speaker 1: survived hell. Of course, feeling entitled doesn't make it so.
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  Speaker 1: Understand is always ticking, and at some point your golden
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  Speaker 1: hour will expire unless you take action. People who get
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  Speaker 1: lost in their past, the ones who bore their friends
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  Speaker 1: and family with the same tragic story over and over
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  Speaker 1: without showing a hint of progress, remind me of a
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  Speaker 1: skydiver who becomes too fixated on their tangled parachute. They
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  Speaker 1: know they have a backup ready to go, but burn
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  Speaker 1: so much time trying to fix the primary shoot that
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  Speaker 1: they forget to track their altimeter, and by the time
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  Speaker 1: they cut the first shoot away and pull the second
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  Speaker 1: rip chord, it's too late.
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  Speaker 2: Part of the problem is that they.
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  Speaker 1: Have become terrified of pulling that second chord because if
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  Speaker 1: it's also stubb then they truly will be helpless. That
• 16:44
  Speaker 1: is a mental trap set by fear. We cannot afford
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  Speaker 1: to remain afraid of cutting away dead weight to save ourselves.
• 16:54
  Speaker 1: I was that skydiver for far too long. My father
• 16:58
  Speaker 1: was violent, my mom was broken. I was bullied, laughed at,
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  Speaker 1: and misunderstood check check and checkmate. And yet I was
• 17:06
  Speaker 1: breathing free, and I was not bleeding physically. I was
• 17:10
  Speaker 1: alive and well and perfectly capable of cutting all of
• 17:13
  Speaker 1: that bullshit away. I'd wasted way too much of my
• 17:16
  Speaker 1: life telling myself the same sad story. I needed to
• 17:19
  Speaker 1: move forward. It was time to write something new. If
• 17:22
  Speaker 1: an act of God or nature tore your life apart,
• 17:25
  Speaker 1: the good news is that you really have nobody to blame.
• 17:28
  Speaker 1: Yet the randomness of it all can feel so personal,
• 17:32
  Speaker 1: as if you've been marked for doom by the fates.
• 17:34
  Speaker 1: If you feel wronged by somebody else, you may be
• 17:37
  Speaker 1: waiting on a confession or an apology in order to
• 17:39
  Speaker 1: move forward. But I'm sorry to say the apology that
• 17:43
  Speaker 1: tearful confession you've been dreaming of will never come. The
• 17:48
  Speaker 1: good news is you don't need anybody else to free you.
• 17:52
  Speaker 2: From your trauma. You can do it on your own.
• 17:55
  Speaker 1: My father never apologized to me. Nobody ever said for
• 18:00
  Speaker 1: anything I went through. I had to come to the
• 18:02
  Speaker 1: conclusion that while I didn't deserve any of it, I
• 18:06
  Speaker 1: was my main problem and primary obstacle. I'd given Tronis
• 18:10
  Speaker 1: Googgins all of my power. I had to take it back.
• 18:14
  Speaker 1: I had to diffuse my demon. I had to shrink
• 18:17
  Speaker 1: him down to the lowly pathetic figure he was by
• 18:21
  Speaker 1: humanizing him. Just as there was no other way to
• 18:24
  Speaker 1: come out of the gauntlet that was my childhood except up,
• 18:28
  Speaker 1: I had to see that he was a mortally piece
• 18:32
  Speaker 1: of shit because of what.
• 18:33
  Speaker 2: He went through.
• 18:34
  Speaker 1: Once I understood that, it was up to me to
• 18:37
  Speaker 1: either do the hard work to break that cycle or
• 18:40
  Speaker 1: stay cursed. Like medics on the scene of a car accident,
• 18:44
  Speaker 1: we all must act with a sense of urgency and
• 18:47
  Speaker 1: tune into that ticking clock in the back of our
• 18:49
  Speaker 1: minds because there is a drop dead time on.
• 18:52
  Speaker 2: Everything we do in life.
• 18:55
  Speaker 1: All our dreams and visions come with expiration dates etched
• 18:59
  Speaker 1: in vision ink. Windows of opportunity can and do close,
• 19:04
  Speaker 1: so it is imperative that we do not waste time
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  Speaker 1: on bullshit. None of us have any clue what's coming
• 19:11
  Speaker 1: for us or when our time might run out, which
• 19:14
  Speaker 1: is why I do my best to.
• 19:17
  Speaker 2: Ignore anything that is counterproductive.
• 19:20
  Speaker 1: I'm not suggesting we act like robots, but we need
• 19:23
  Speaker 1: to understand that forward motion gives our lives momentum.
• 19:28
  Speaker 2: We need to remember that.
• 19:29
  Speaker 1: Sometimes chaos will descend and a clear highway can be
• 19:34
  Speaker 1: wiped out by a flash flood in the blink of
• 19:37
  Speaker 1: an eye. When that happens, a lot of motherfuckers look
• 19:40
  Speaker 1: for a cozy place to hunker down and hide out
• 19:43
  Speaker 1: until the storm passes. I'm only human, they say, when
• 19:49
  Speaker 1: Holy Hell rains down upon them and they feel drained
• 19:53
  Speaker 1: and powerless, they cannot conceive of a way to keep going.
• 19:57
  Speaker 1: I understand that impulse, but if I had come to
• 20:00
  Speaker 1: the I'm only human mentality, I never would have dug
• 20:05
  Speaker 1: myself out of the deep hole I was in at
• 20:07
  Speaker 1: twenty four years old, because the second you utter those words,
• 20:11
  Speaker 1: the white towel is fluttering in the air, and your
• 20:14
  Speaker 1: mind stops looking for more fuel. I didn't know for
• 20:18
  Speaker 1: sure if I'd ever find my way out of the darkness.
• 20:22
  Speaker 1: I just knew that I could not throw in the towel,
• 20:25
  Speaker 1: and neither can you, because there is no towel in
• 20:28
  Speaker 1: our corner. There is only water and a cut man.
• 20:32
  Speaker 1: And if those are your only options, you have no
• 20:35
  Speaker 1: choice but to keep fighting until you overcome every last
• 20:38
  Speaker 1: thing that once held you the back.
• 20:40
  Speaker 2: You've been preoccupied by bullshit for way too long.
• 20:43
  Speaker 1: It's time to switch your focus to the things that
• 20:46
  Speaker 1: will slingshot you forward.