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BELIEVE IN THE JOURNEY WITH TRIVEDA HARRIS 11/28/24 · DA CREW Podcast

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  Speaker 1: At Wings of Transformation Publishing, we are committed to helping
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  Speaker 1: our authors reach their goals and pursue their dreams of
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  Speaker 1: becoming published authors. We work closely with each author to
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  Speaker 1: ensure a successful publishing experience, and we are dedicated to
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  Speaker 1: helping them tell their stories in the most meaningful and
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  Speaker 1: impactful ways. We look forward to putting you on the
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  Speaker 1: path to writing your book. I think you guys because
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  Speaker 1: they welcome to believe in the Journey podcast where I
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  Speaker 1: am your host Tribda Harry and Happy Thanksgiving. Thank you
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  Speaker 1: guys for tuning in and being part of the Thanksgiving episode.
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  Speaker 1: I usually have the show on Thanksgiving, so I'm very
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  Speaker 1: grateful and thankful for you guys tuning in. And before
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  Speaker 1: we do anything, we always have to go to God
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  Speaker 1: in prayer. Dear Heavenly Father, thank you for bringing us
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  Speaker 1: together on this thankful Thursday. Not only is it Thanksgiving,
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  Speaker 1: but it is a day of gratitude and we are
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  Speaker 1: thankful that you kept us in the number today. Let
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  Speaker 1: us continue to make memories with our family or friends
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  Speaker 1: that we still have here and those that we have lost.
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  Speaker 1: Help them to under help us to understand that they
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  Speaker 1: are in a better place. Because they are with you.
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  Speaker 1: Let us not dwell on the fact that they are
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  Speaker 1: not here, because they are at peace and we are
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  Speaker 1: still waiting for our day to be with you. It's
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  Speaker 1: just a holy name, Jesus, I pray Amen. All right, listen,
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  Speaker 1: I have five, well four women that are coming on
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  Speaker 1: tonight and they're gonna talk about the book from their
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  Speaker 1: eyes anthology. Each one of these women are truly amazing women.
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  Speaker 1: And not only did I have the luxury of being
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  Speaker 1: a part of this book by being a co author,
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  Speaker 1: I was able to be the editor and publisher for
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  Speaker 1: this book. So I played many roles in this book,
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  Speaker 1: but my role is very insignificant compared to the roles
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  Speaker 1: that these other ladies have. So I have Latanya little John,
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  Speaker 1: I have Harley Quinn, I have Natasha Robinson and lay
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  Speaker 1: Tanya le Fair. So these women are part of this
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  Speaker 1: book and this is part of us talking about this
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  Speaker 1: book tonight. So ladies, okay, well we can hear you. Harley, Hey, Harley, Okay,
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  Speaker 1: she's moving around. Okay, hey girl, can you hear me? Okay, Okay,
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  Speaker 1: how you doing this evening? Mm hmmm mm hmmm. No,
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  Speaker 1: I can hear you. I could earlier.
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  Speaker 2: How about now?
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  Speaker 1: Okay, I can who was that?
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  Speaker 2: Hmm?
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  Speaker 1: Okay, I can see Nati, I can't hear.
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  Speaker 2: Mhm. I was frozen. I don't know why it's frozen
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  Speaker 2: like that.
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  Speaker 1: Well, you're not frozen now, Carley's moving around.
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  Speaker 2: Well, it looks thro. It just looks frozen to me.
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  Speaker 2: And I can barely hear you. Guys, I'm going to.
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  Speaker 1: Nobody's really saying anything except for me right now.
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  Speaker 2: You're here.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah, I can hear you now, Okay, Natasha, I can
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  Speaker 1: hear you. Can you hear me?
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  Speaker 2: Okay?
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  Speaker 1: Well, anyway, I want everybody to take a moment to
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  Speaker 1: introduce yourselves, and then we'll get started with talking about
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  Speaker 1: the book. Telling you want to go first?
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  Speaker 3: Okay?
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  Speaker 4: I am on your little John. I am and Arthur
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  Speaker 4: wrote my first book in eighteen.
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  Speaker 3: I'm for Jesus best friend. Let's see, let's see, let's see.
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  Speaker 4: I'm also the host of Delay but Not Denied podcast,
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  Speaker 4: which fears.
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  Speaker 3: Every second Monday and fourth Friday every month's end of time.
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  Speaker 3: That's all o that?
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  Speaker 1: Okay, do you want to go next? M okay? Who
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  Speaker 1: wants to go next? Can y'all hear me? I think
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  Speaker 1: everybody's just moving around and not really able to hear anything. Okay,
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  Speaker 1: not just said said yes, she said. She was saying,
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  Speaker 1: I'm not sure what's going on. I told lay Tanya
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  Speaker 1: to go out and come back in and see if
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  Speaker 1: that helped her audio. But anyway, you guys, listen, it's
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  Speaker 1: always gonna be some technical difficulties. We were ran into
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  Speaker 1: so many technical difficulties trying to get this book done anyway,
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  Speaker 1: and so with us trying to even talk about this book,
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  Speaker 1: lets me know just further how impactful this book is
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  Speaker 1: about to be because it's all about from their eyes,
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  Speaker 1: and it's basically where each one of the ladies, including myself,
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  Speaker 1: talked about our experience as being raised by family members
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  Speaker 1: and being in system and being adopted and a lot
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  Speaker 1: of experiences that we each one of us had was
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  Speaker 1: things that we had to overcome and it started the
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  Speaker 1: healing journey for each individual person. So for myself, me
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  Speaker 1: writing my story, I can hear you.
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  Speaker 3: I hear you.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah, we can hear you. I'm just not sure what's
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  Speaker 1: going on with your phone. But I want to give
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  Speaker 1: everybody an opportunity to share their experience through writing their
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  Speaker 1: part for the book. Tanya let's talk about your journey
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  Speaker 1: to writing for this book. What led you to even
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  Speaker 1: be a part of this book?
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  Speaker 3: Okay, well, Natasha.
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  Speaker 1: Invited mute your phone.
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  Speaker 2: Okay, thank you.
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  Speaker 3: She invited me to be on the first book.
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  Speaker 5: However, just going back to tell the stories which just
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  Speaker 5: too much for me at the time, some of them,
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  Speaker 5: to be a part of this one jumped on.
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  Speaker 3: Because I feel like.
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  Speaker 4: I can't be the only person that has endured, you know,
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  Speaker 4: what I've gone through.
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  Speaker 3: In the system.
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  Speaker 2: Uh huh.
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  Speaker 3: I was adopted at eighteen months old.
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  Speaker 2: Uh huh.
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  Speaker 3: My biological mother.
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  Speaker 4: Was told that I would not live past the age
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  Speaker 4: of nine, and they said it in order for me
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  Speaker 4: to get the help that I needed, you know, she
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  Speaker 4: would have to, you know, give me up or whatever.
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  Speaker 4: She already had my brother, and she herself had a disability,
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  Speaker 4: so she did what she thought was best for me,
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  Speaker 4: you know, so that I could get the life that
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  Speaker 4: she felt like I deserved.
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  Speaker 3: I got adopted as an only child.
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  Speaker 2: Kay.
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  Speaker 4: My My parents didn't get foster children until I was twelve,
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  Speaker 4: and by then I was over having cibils.
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  Speaker 1: I didn't, you know, but.
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  Speaker 3: Yes, m but the.
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  Speaker 1: You're fine.
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  Speaker 4: But I wasn't told the truth about my adoption. My
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  Speaker 4: mom didn't want me to know that I was adopted.
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  Speaker 4: She she didn't share that. He did get an information
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  Speaker 4: until my son came along, and when he was a
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  Speaker 4: year old, he started having seizures and they were trying
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  Speaker 4: to find.
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  Speaker 3: Out if it was her libitary or it was you know,
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  Speaker 3: just something he was going through. Well, that that is
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  Speaker 3: when I learned that I was out.
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  Speaker 4: So from that moment until twenty ten, I searched high
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  Speaker 4: and low looking for my biological family.
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  Speaker 3: I came to Facebook and I saw two ladies. I
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  Speaker 3: already knew my.
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  Speaker 4: Mama's name because I found some information at the house
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  Speaker 4: because of listen, I do better work than the FBI.
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  Speaker 3: So I already knew my mama's name and started looking.
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  Speaker 6: Up people with that last and I saw two ladies
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  Speaker 6: that I felt like I.
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  Speaker 4: Looked like, and I reached out to them, and one
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  Speaker 4: of them responded back, And so she told me that
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  Speaker 4: if I am indeed you know, her sister's daughter, you know,
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  Speaker 4: she was gonna have to have a moment to break
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  Speaker 4: it down to it because she was already in the
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  Speaker 4: hospital dealing with some things. And so she told her
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  Speaker 4: and my brother was in Afghanistan at the time, and
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  Speaker 4: he called me, and immediately I just broke down frin
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  Speaker 4: because I knew that, I mean, that voice was just
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  Speaker 4: out of this world to me. But you know, fast
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  Speaker 4: forward twenty fourteen. I was supposed to go back to
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  Speaker 4: see my mom after my birthday, but it snowed and
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  Speaker 4: we couldn't go anywhere until the snow somewhat melted. And
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  Speaker 4: then when we got there, she was placed in hospice
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  Speaker 4: and she wasn't given very long to live.
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  Speaker 2: And I.
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  Speaker 4: Had no idea what hospice was, like, I did, you know,
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  Speaker 4: my dad did a house was carried home, but you know,
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  Speaker 4: being in an actual facility, I didn't know what to
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  Speaker 4: expect and what they do and how they operate.
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  Speaker 3: So I was.
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  Speaker 4: Trying to figure out why they hadn't brought anything in
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  Speaker 4: there to feed my mom or you know, nobody came
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  Speaker 4: to check her her.
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  Speaker 3: Her ivs and stuff. It's like she was just laying there.
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  Speaker 4: And so I asked the chaplain and he was telling me,
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  Speaker 4: you know, she's trying to to go, and.
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  Speaker 3: He said, and I feel like you're the one keeping
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  Speaker 3: her here.
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  Speaker 4: And so I I went out into the hall and
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  Speaker 4: called my husband and told him. I was like, listen this,
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  Speaker 4: Manden told me my mama was about to pass and.
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  Speaker 3: That I need to stay.
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  Speaker 4: And as I'm telling him this, I see the the
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  Speaker 4: priest and my aunt coming up the hall, and by
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  Speaker 4: the looks on their face, I already knew, you know,
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  Speaker 4: she had already passed or whatever. And for me, it
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  Speaker 4: took me thirty one years to find her, and now
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  Speaker 4: she's been gone longer than I've known her. And I'm
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  Speaker 4: trusting God with it. Although I don't I don't find
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  Speaker 4: the fairness in it.
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  Speaker 3: Because we didn't even get four years.
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  Speaker 4: We got three years and eleven months, ten months before
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  Speaker 4: she passed.
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  Speaker 1: And but.
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  Speaker 3: It has definitely been a challenge.
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  Speaker 4: It makes me look at foster care different being in
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  Speaker 4: the way that I was brought up. I feel like
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  Speaker 4: if they should do, definitely do something deeper than just
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  Speaker 4: background checks. People should be evaluated mentally, because even if
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  Speaker 4: you pass a.
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  Speaker 3: Background check, if you're not there mentally.
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  Speaker 4: Then that child is still gonna come up missing something
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  Speaker 4: that you know that they need to process through life.
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  Speaker 4: So you know, it's been crazy, Like my my mom
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  Speaker 4: hoddled me that didn't want to teach me how to cook.
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  Speaker 3: She didn't want to teach me how to drive.
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  Speaker 4: She didn't want me doing anything because I had a disability.
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  Speaker 4: So she used that to make me feel like if
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  Speaker 4: you breathe on me, I'm gonna break.
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  Speaker 3: And you know, but I am thankful for.
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  Speaker 4: The people that have stepped into my life throughout the
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  Speaker 4: years to teach me certain things. And you know, I
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  Speaker 4: got my license although she didn't want me to drive.
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  Speaker 3: I'm getting a car Sunday.
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  Speaker 1: Congratulation.
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  Speaker 4: And I've gotten to a place where I don't put
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  Speaker 4: myself on anybody else's timetable.
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  Speaker 3: That's for me.
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  Speaker 4: It's for me, and whether it be or for one,
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  Speaker 4: you know, nobody can stop where He has planned for,
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  Speaker 4: ordained for my life.
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  Speaker 3: So, you know, being forty five and just now.
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  Speaker 4: Getting a car, you know a lot of people look
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  Speaker 4: at me like, you know what you've been doing all
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  Speaker 4: your life?
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  Speaker 1: And that's one thing you got to understand in this
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  Speaker 1: life is that everybody has a certain timetable and that's
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  Speaker 1: according to what God's will is and his planing for
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  Speaker 1: our lives. And so it doesn't matter what man says,
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  Speaker 1: it's always what in that day. And so we oftentimes
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  Speaker 1: try to give her sales a timeline, but if it's
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  Speaker 1: not on why I was playing, it does matter. So
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  Speaker 1: you've got to be mindful of that. But so too Harley,
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  Speaker 1: and have her tell us why she decided to be
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  Speaker 1: part of this book. Harley, are you there?
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  Speaker 6: Hey?
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  Speaker 1: Girl?
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  Speaker 6: Guilty?
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  Speaker 1: Are you guys talking to me now?
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  Speaker 2: Yes?
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  Speaker 7: Okay, I've been trying to get everything all set up.
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  Speaker 7: I finally can hear you, hear you properly, And I
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  Speaker 7: don't know if you could see me.
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  Speaker 1: I'm still.
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  Speaker 7: Your microphone is I think?
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  Speaker 2: I her podcast? Happy?
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  Speaker 7: Thanksgiving everyone.
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  Speaker 2: To you?
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  Speaker 1: All right about yourself? And why do you decide?
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  Speaker 2: Well? I believe in signs.
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  Speaker 7: I actually have a mutual friend with Natasha, and I
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  Speaker 7: happened to be on her page and then Natasha's post
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  Speaker 7: came up and that's how I ended up finding out
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  Speaker 7: about the book and through that I was like, you know,
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  Speaker 7: this is this is something that I've in that time
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  Speaker 7: I have been talking about doing. So I felt like
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  Speaker 7: it was time to do make the move.
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  Speaker 8: I am.
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  Speaker 7: I initially have been raised by family. Yeah, family that
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  Speaker 7: words still kind of sort of is being defined for.
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  Speaker 1: Me, Deliers.
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  Speaker 7: I don't usually I don't know I'm people. I feel
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  Speaker 7: like I'm just peopophobic because I've been let down so much,
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  Speaker 7: like in my inner circle. That is just I don't know.
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  Speaker 7: I hold I hold the word like treasure. It's not
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  Speaker 7: blood that makes this family at all, you know. So
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  Speaker 7: I like have a nursing family and like outside family,
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  Speaker 7: but the bloodline is just it's a little it's a
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  Speaker 7: little yep. So I feel like the syllabus, it just
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  Speaker 7: definitely spoke to me. It's something that I needed help
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  Speaker 7: on in the first place. And I had just came
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  Speaker 7: to a point where I had a code nurse and
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  Speaker 7: she just kept saying, just write your story.
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  Speaker 2: Just write your story, girl, just write your story.
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  Speaker 7: And sure enough I would write it, but I didn't
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  Speaker 7: like do anything with it. So on the opper, Choose
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  Speaker 7: Me came about through you guys, I definitely was like this,
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  Speaker 7: this is my moment.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah, okay, okay, well let's go. Let's and asked her
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  Speaker 1: while she decided decided to be part of the book.
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  Speaker 9: Okay, okay, late time you are you there?
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  Speaker 1: Okay?
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  Speaker 2: Well, okay, can you hear me now? Can you hear
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  Speaker 2: me now?
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  Speaker 1: Yeah?
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  Speaker 2: Okay, okay, I'm na go pressed the mute button. I'm sorry.
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  Speaker 2: About that well. Initially, when I was asked to do
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  Speaker 2: the book, to be part of the book, I was like, okay,
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  Speaker 2: And then when I got off the phone, I said
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  Speaker 2: what did I just say? I was like, what did
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  Speaker 2: I just do? And then I have been told for
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  Speaker 2: years that I should write a book. I've always been
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  Speaker 2: told that because people tells me the person that I
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  Speaker 2: am is not a reflection of what I've been through.
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  Speaker 2: And so I was like, I was like, well, okay,
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  Speaker 2: I'm gonna go hear and write it because I know
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  Speaker 2: there's people out there right now, especially young girls coming up,
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  Speaker 2: that have been through what I've been through, and you
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  Speaker 2: just can't let it get to you now. Don't get
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  Speaker 2: me wrong. It's a fighting battle just about every day.
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  Speaker 2: It's not something that I just transition over. It's like,
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  Speaker 2: oh yeah, it's all flower and roses. No, but it's
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  Speaker 2: something I have to learn how to cope with, coping
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  Speaker 2: mechanisms just a lot, and believe it, I'm still healing.
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  Speaker 2: And by me writing the book, it just me writing
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  Speaker 2: my story. I apologize. It just has me relive things
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  Speaker 2: that I thought that I had just forgot about. And
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  Speaker 2: as I was writing, I was crying plenty of days
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  Speaker 2: I cried. It was days I was just embarrassed. But
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  Speaker 2: that's okay. It's not where you been, it's where you're going.
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  Speaker 2: So that's why I thought it was important for me
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  Speaker 2: to do it. But like I said, I was going
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  Speaker 2: back and forth with myself plenty of days, like Okay,
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  Speaker 2: do I want to get out of this? But I'm
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  Speaker 2: glad I didn't. It was very therapeutic for me. It
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  Speaker 2: helped me heal a lot. I'm not totally healed, but
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  Speaker 2: I know that by it helped. By me helping myself
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  Speaker 2: writing it, writing my story, I know someone else can
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  Speaker 2: be like, wow, I've been through the same thing and
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  Speaker 2: look at her. So that's why I felt as though
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  Speaker 2: that it was very important because I've been through the trenches.
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  Speaker 2: So yeah, that's why.
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  Speaker 1: All right, Well, did let's talk to you about yourself?
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  Speaker 1: Introduce yourself to the listeners, and then tell us why
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  Speaker 1: you decided to be part of this book. Did can
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  Speaker 1: you hear us? All right? Well, let's go to the
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  Speaker 1: woman who basically put this all together, and that's Natasha.
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  Speaker 1: She had the idea for this anthology. And let's go
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  Speaker 1: to Natasha.
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  Speaker 2: I know some people was having a hard time, like
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  Speaker 2: myself hearing.
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  Speaker 1: Uh, well, listen, I don't know what's going on tonight,
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  Speaker 1: but I will say this, this book has so many
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  Speaker 1: powerful stories in it, and from the very beginning, it
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  Speaker 1: has been a delay with getting the book even done
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  Speaker 1: because there were different authors who had originally signed up
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  Speaker 1: and then most of them backed out and then came
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  Speaker 1: to a new group of people. And all of these
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  Speaker 1: people have a different, different experiences than different stories, but
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  Speaker 1: their stories are so so powerful that whenever you glorify
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  Speaker 1: what God has brought you through, it tends to make
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  Speaker 1: the devil very upset and make him angry to where
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  Speaker 1: he tries to block everything that you're doubling and anything
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  Speaker 1: that's attached to it, because he wants you to stay
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  Speaker 1: where he's had you for so long, and you'll be
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  Speaker 1: will and to just stay in that space and be like, man,
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  Speaker 1: I don't even want to do this no more. It's
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  Speaker 1: not even meant for me to do. And I'm grateful
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  Speaker 1: that each one of you stuck to it to make
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  Speaker 1: this part of your first journey of healing and to
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  Speaker 1: be in a space to where sharing your story with
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  Speaker 1: someone else to begin that healing process, because I know
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  Speaker 1: it took a lot of courage for each person to
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  Speaker 1: share that intimate part themselves and to share their most
• 26:35
  Speaker 1: vulnerable spot and not even knowing if anybody else was
• 26:38
  Speaker 1: going to work. I know we're worried about the judgment
• 26:42
  Speaker 1: that comes with this kind of stuff. Okay, Natasha, are
• 26:50
  Speaker 1: you able? Can you hear me? Yes? Yes? Don't okay, yes,
• 27:14
  Speaker 1: I can see you. All right, you are the visionary
• 27:20
  Speaker 1: behind this book. Tell us what made you want to
• 27:24
  Speaker 1: do this book? Mm hm m.
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  Speaker 2: Hm hm.
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  Speaker 1: Nine. Well, thank you for having the vision to ask
• 30:00
  Speaker 1: Sally put it out there. And it was always God's design,
• 30:06
  Speaker 1: God's plan for the right people to be able to
• 30:10
  Speaker 1: execute the vision that you back. Ned. Can you hear us?
• 30:17
  Speaker 1: I don't know if she can hear us, d d no,
• 30:25
  Speaker 1: can you hear me? Let me try to text her.
• 30:49
  Speaker 1: I don't know. See so I don't know, but I
• 30:59
  Speaker 1: want to be able to hear from her as well.
• 31:02
  Speaker 1: But you know, guys, it's it's been a challenge all
• 31:06
  Speaker 1: the way through from the beginning with this book and
• 31:09
  Speaker 1: to where we are right now and all of the
• 31:12
  Speaker 1: things that we have to say about this book and
• 31:16
  Speaker 1: the powerful stories. Listen, just go and go to Amazon
• 31:22
  Speaker 1: and buy the book. That's all I'm gonna say, each
• 31:25
  Speaker 1: one of us, myself to be the Harris, Latanya Litlison,
• 31:30
  Speaker 1: Natasha Robinson, Latania Lafair Queen, and Nagic Scott. All of
• 31:37
  Speaker 1: us are part of this book and it is available
• 31:39
  Speaker 1: on Amazon. So just don't get the book because I'm
• 31:44
  Speaker 1: telling you the Devil doesn't want anybody to read this book.
• 31:52
  Speaker 1: It doesn't want anything to it don't want want nobody
• 31:58
  Speaker 1: to know what these stories are are. I didn't introduce
• 32:03
  Speaker 1: myself to y'all, but you know my role in this book.
• 32:07
  Speaker 1: But I shared my story, and my story is basically this.
• 32:12
  Speaker 1: I wasn't raised by my mother or my father. I
• 32:16
  Speaker 1: spent maybe one year at the age of eight with
• 32:19
  Speaker 1: my mom. Outside of that, I was raised my mom, sister,
• 32:25
  Speaker 1: and my great great aunt. So with them it was
• 32:30
  Speaker 1: an experience. And you know, oftentimes, you know in the
• 32:34
  Speaker 1: black household, it is what happens in this house stays
• 32:37
  Speaker 1: in this house. That is actually the mentality. Growing up
• 32:43
  Speaker 1: in the household was one of those things where they
• 32:49
  Speaker 1: wasn' very nice to my mom and so with that
• 32:52
  Speaker 1: they trickled down to me. They were able to break
• 32:56
  Speaker 1: my mom in the sense of calling her crazy. So
• 33:00
  Speaker 1: my mom turned to drugs and alcohol. That was my thing.
• 33:06
  Speaker 1: That still isn't my thing, but being consistently told that
• 33:12
  Speaker 1: I was going to turn out to be a drunk,
• 33:15
  Speaker 1: I was going to be addicted to drugs and all
• 33:20
  Speaker 1: of those things. But it didn't work because I'm none
• 33:25
  Speaker 1: of those things. So all of the things they told
• 33:30
  Speaker 1: me that I would not do, They said I wouldn't
• 33:32
  Speaker 1: graduate high school, because I had my daughter. I graduated
• 33:35
  Speaker 1: high school. None of them showed up for my graduation.
• 33:38
  Speaker 7: You know.
• 33:39
  Speaker 1: My mother was drunk. She showed up for my graduation,
• 33:43
  Speaker 1: you know. So, And it's one of those things that
• 33:46
  Speaker 1: people want to see you down and out and broken.
• 33:51
  Speaker 1: Sometimes are the ones that is closest to you to
• 33:56
  Speaker 1: be the better version of that in them, because they
• 33:59
  Speaker 1: didn't from the I'm gonna say it this way, the
• 34:03
  Speaker 1: personal hell that they created for themselves. They want everyone
• 34:07
  Speaker 1: else to be in that hell too, And you can
• 34:11
  Speaker 1: either choose to stay in that hell or you can
• 34:13
  Speaker 1: choose to get out. My thing is whatever we meant
• 34:16
  Speaker 1: for you, that's your plan, that's not mine, and I'm
• 34:19
  Speaker 1: not gonna stay there, so's they can mean some time
• 34:22
  Speaker 1: to understand, but I'm not what they called me. I
• 34:27
  Speaker 1: am only what I choose to answer to. And that's
• 34:30
  Speaker 1: one of the things that I need everybody to understand.
• 34:33
  Speaker 1: You only answer to what you've been called. And if
• 34:36
  Speaker 1: God has not called you by your name to do
• 34:39
  Speaker 1: anything else. What other people got to say about you,
• 34:41
  Speaker 1: that ain't even your business, It ain't got nothing to
• 34:44
  Speaker 1: do with you, because their opinion of you means nothing.
• 34:48
  Speaker 1: You know, you have people who truly love you and
• 34:50
  Speaker 1: care about you, and they are always gonna speak life
• 34:54
  Speaker 1: into you. You're gonna pour into you so that you
• 34:57
  Speaker 1: can pour into other people. So if you have people
• 35:00
  Speaker 1: around you her constantly trying to deplete your cup, those
• 35:03
  Speaker 1: are people that you need to stay away from because
• 35:06
  Speaker 1: if you have somebody that's consistently pourn in, your cup
• 35:09
  Speaker 1: will flop soon overflow, and so it can overflow to
• 35:13
  Speaker 1: someone else. And that's what I'm grateful that I'm able
• 35:18
  Speaker 1: to do. My overflow goes to other people. It doesn't
• 35:21
  Speaker 1: stay with me. But I also learned not to deplete myself,
• 35:25
  Speaker 1: and that was hard listen to learn. One of the
• 35:29
  Speaker 1: lessons from myself that I'm learning is to celebrate me
• 35:33
  Speaker 1: and to celebrate my accomplishments, because as I was reading
• 35:37
  Speaker 1: the blog for the magazine, I was in awe and
• 35:42
  Speaker 1: I was in tears of the things that I've been
• 35:44
  Speaker 1: able to accomplish that I was told I would never accomplish.
• 35:48
  Speaker 1: But I them now, so I'm so far from that
• 35:53
  Speaker 1: little girl that they told me I would never amount
• 35:55
  Speaker 1: to anything, that I was just dumb and stupid and
• 35:58
  Speaker 1: was just gonna be a get to the drugs, just
• 36:00
  Speaker 1: like my mom. I wasn't gonna do anything except for that.
• 36:05
  Speaker 1: And all I can say is you try out, So
• 36:14
  Speaker 1: you did. Can you hear us now?
• 36:19
  Speaker 2: Yeah?
• 36:20
  Speaker 1: I think Okay, if your own speaker, I think that's
• 36:23
  Speaker 1: probably why I won't work. But tell us a little
• 36:27
  Speaker 1: bit about yourself and why you decided to be part
• 36:30
  Speaker 1: of this book.
• 36:34
  Speaker 6: Okay, my name is got Bed everybody, and I wanted
• 36:42
  Speaker 6: to be a part of this because it was time
• 36:46
  Speaker 6: for me to do something and to write something that
• 36:50
  Speaker 6: I've been trying to do since I was probably my lad.
• 36:53
  Speaker 6: Every time I would tell my stories to people, they
• 36:56
  Speaker 6: would just say that needs to be in a book.
• 36:57
  Speaker 6: That needs to be in a book.
• 36:59
  Speaker 1: And every time I try around.
• 37:00
  Speaker 6: Like okay, father, when we're going to do this, we'll
• 37:03
  Speaker 6: go through this, and the time final became and it
• 37:06
  Speaker 6: was time for me to tell my story.
• 37:12
  Speaker 1: Well, are you happy that you made the decision to
• 37:15
  Speaker 1: be part of.
• 37:19
  Speaker 8: Almost?
• 37:20
  Speaker 6: Definitely, most definitely. I mean it's a very real feelings
• 37:25
  Speaker 6: to see your name on the course.
• 37:28
  Speaker 1: I mean, a doctor.
• 37:31
  Speaker 6: Parents will be very proud because this is my bottom
• 37:34
  Speaker 6: book about me. But it's a foot to honor them.
• 37:37
  Speaker 6: If I wanted to get to let people or adoption
• 37:41
  Speaker 6: stories and be great, and mine was great. I went
• 37:46
  Speaker 6: from being in a court to care child to the
• 37:50
  Speaker 6: nurse who was caring for me to be an adopted soul,
• 37:54
  Speaker 6: and it all just like God had his hands all
• 37:56
  Speaker 6: over the fire story for myself.
• 38:02
  Speaker 1: Okay, Well, this question for everybody whoever chooses take first
• 38:08
  Speaker 1: is when you realize that you have completed your chapter
• 38:16
  Speaker 1: for this book, what was the feeling that you got?
• 38:24
  Speaker 1: For me, it was.
• 38:28
  Speaker 3: A feeling of healing.
• 38:30
  Speaker 2: Mm hmm.
• 38:31
  Speaker 4: I mean, everything pertaining to my adoption and my disability
• 38:40
  Speaker 4: together like they're like the building that queens I can't
• 38:43
  Speaker 4: talk about what I'm talking about the other. And this
• 38:49
  Speaker 4: gave me an opportunity to expound on things that I.
• 38:56
  Speaker 3: Didn't put in my original book, you know.
• 38:59
  Speaker 4: So I was able to go back and you know,
• 39:03
  Speaker 4: reread some things and just you know, you know, I
• 39:09
  Speaker 4: got the spirit of procrastination. So I had a minute
• 39:13
  Speaker 4: to sit with myself and say, Okay, we got to
• 39:17
  Speaker 4: get this done. And because somebody's.
• 39:19
  Speaker 3: Healing, maybe.
• 39:45
  Speaker 2: Let it go. Because I got tired of changing it
• 39:47
  Speaker 2: because I was like, ooh, I want to take this
• 39:51
  Speaker 2: part and put this part in. Take this part and
• 39:53
  Speaker 2: put this part in, take this out and put this in.
• 39:56
  Speaker 2: And so when I started it in, I was so happy.
• 40:00
  Speaker 2: I was so excited, and I was just like, I
• 40:03
  Speaker 2: can't wait until people read it. So that those were
• 40:07
  Speaker 2: my my emotions because it was like, oh yeah, yeah,
• 40:11
  Speaker 2: I'm gonna do this, like change this and changed that,
• 40:14
  Speaker 2: and I was like, huh, okay, this is this is it.
• 40:17
  Speaker 2: And then I was just I felt so released. I
• 40:20
  Speaker 2: can't describe it, but me writing it and let it go,
• 40:24
  Speaker 2: it just felt really good and uh and I was excited.
• 40:28
  Speaker 2: So I had a lot of good emotions.
• 40:31
  Speaker 1: Okay, Okay, who's next.
• 40:40
  Speaker 7: I've already knew I'd be the third one, sure enough.
• 40:43
  Speaker 1: Huh.
• 40:45
  Speaker 2: Yeah.
• 40:45
  Speaker 7: By the time I finished my my part of the anthology.
• 40:50
  Speaker 2: I felt that thing since relief, more so that.
• 40:55
  Speaker 7: I got some of it off of my chest, like
• 40:57
  Speaker 7: this is the first step, I gom on. I don't
• 41:00
  Speaker 7: want to say that as young or that I felt accomplished.
• 41:05
  Speaker 7: I just felt a sense of beginning, like all right,
• 41:09
  Speaker 7: y'all better be prepared because this is the first step.
• 41:13
  Speaker 7: You know, there is way more to be told, more
• 41:16
  Speaker 7: in depth, had in order for me to heal. So
• 41:22
  Speaker 7: it's just kind of sort of taking that accountability that
• 41:25
  Speaker 7: there's healing to be had.
• 41:33
  Speaker 1: I think the last person we haven't heard from with
• 41:36
  Speaker 1: that question is Dad.
• 41:40
  Speaker 6: Well, for me, it was that's a real feeling because
• 41:45
  Speaker 6: it was like God was calling it needed to get
• 41:47
  Speaker 6: out there and to be able to know that the
• 41:51
  Speaker 6: start for me to complete my story because it's nothing
• 41:57
  Speaker 6: but God, because I never thought I have a resume
• 42:01
  Speaker 6: that an awsome. You never thought that would be a
• 42:04
  Speaker 6: possibility in my fire life, so that there's nothing but
• 42:08
  Speaker 6: God has I'm on this anxise situation and I just
• 42:11
  Speaker 6: I'm so blessed to be a part of it with
• 42:12
  Speaker 6: you all because it's just amazing meause what it's gonna
• 42:16
  Speaker 6: do is going to touch so many people. I believe,
• 42:19
  Speaker 6: and I am so thankful and grateful to be a.
• 42:21
  Speaker 1: Part of this group. M well you're good.
• 42:31
  Speaker 6: H m hm h.
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  Speaker 2: M kah, yeah, kah.
• 43:00
  Speaker 9: Kah kay.
• 43:31
  Speaker 2: Mm hmm.
• 43:38
  Speaker 8: Yeah.
• 43:40
  Speaker 2: Yeah.
• 43:40
  Speaker 1: Everybody did their their fair share of this book. I've
• 43:48
  Speaker 1: had the the honor and.
• 43:57
  Speaker 3: We can't hear you.
• 44:01
  Speaker 1: Okay, there we go. My computer just did an update
• 44:05
  Speaker 1: or something. I have no idea in the middle of
• 44:07
  Speaker 1: all of this, so, you know, like I said, the
• 44:11
  Speaker 1: devil want to play when we got other things to do,
• 44:13
  Speaker 1: and I'm not even you know, interested in what you
• 44:16
  Speaker 1: got to talk about. But I played major, many different
• 44:21
  Speaker 1: roles with putting this book together. And we had a
• 44:25
  Speaker 1: hurricane that came through, Hurricane tornado, all of these things
• 44:29
  Speaker 1: that once so I was without power for ten and
• 44:32
  Speaker 1: a half days, and so it's always a challenge. I
• 44:38
  Speaker 1: will say that that guy always puts me in a
• 44:41
  Speaker 1: space to where it's like, Okay, you're gonna be with ty,
• 44:46
  Speaker 1: gonna even work with our power. Like the last book
• 44:50
  Speaker 1: when me and Tasha did together, my mom was in
• 44:53
  Speaker 1: the middle of transitioning over and I didn't have laptop
• 44:57
  Speaker 1: with me, so it was so many anything that we're
• 45:01
  Speaker 1: playing against me to make sure that that deadline was
• 45:05
  Speaker 1: meant and then this deadline was met, and then we
• 45:09
  Speaker 1: had the issue with Amazon and so many different things
• 45:12
  Speaker 1: that were playing against making this book available. That let
• 45:17
  Speaker 1: me know just how powerful the stories are. And with
• 45:21
  Speaker 1: me just getting the stories and reading them and putting
• 45:24
  Speaker 1: them together, it was one of those things where it's like, Okay,
• 45:28
  Speaker 1: this book has the power to change lives, to let
• 45:32
  Speaker 1: people know that they don't have to be ashamed of
• 45:34
  Speaker 1: the things that they've gone through in life. Everything that
• 45:37
  Speaker 1: they have gone through was necessary. That you may be
• 45:41
  Speaker 1: hitting with some roadblocks and some things and things like, Okay, God,
• 45:47
  Speaker 1: I pray it for this, but I'm trying to go upheel,
• 45:50
  Speaker 1: but you got me going down in the valley to
• 45:52
  Speaker 1: get to where I'm going when I see my destination
• 45:56
  Speaker 1: is straight ahead. But now you done took me down
• 45:58
  Speaker 1: in the dirt. Why am I in the dirt? Well,
• 46:01
  Speaker 1: you gotta be down in the dirt, and you gotta
• 46:03
  Speaker 1: be dirty sometimes because God is taking you through some
• 46:07
  Speaker 1: things to understand that you have to go through this
• 46:10
  Speaker 1: in order for him to see if you're really worthy
• 46:13
  Speaker 1: of what it is that you've been praying for. Because
• 46:16
  Speaker 1: sometimes we pray for things that is not even in
• 46:18
  Speaker 1: God's plans for us, and we try so hard to
• 46:22
  Speaker 1: make those things happen, and when it doesn't happen, you
• 46:25
  Speaker 1: want to get mad at the world and you want
• 46:27
  Speaker 1: to get mad at God. And God Like, I never
• 46:29
  Speaker 1: intended for that to be yours in the first place.
• 46:31
  Speaker 1: So if I never intended it for you, there's no
• 46:34
  Speaker 1: reason for you to be trying to fight for this.
• 46:36
  Speaker 1: I need you to let it go and move forward.
• 46:38
  Speaker 1: And what I'm telling you to do, we.
• 46:41
  Speaker 2: Get hard with it.
• 46:42
  Speaker 1: We want to say, Okay, God, look I want this,
• 46:45
  Speaker 1: and God like, I don't care what you want. Told
• 46:47
  Speaker 1: you this is what you're gonna get, So gonna do
• 46:49
  Speaker 1: what I told you.
• 46:51
  Speaker 6: You know.
• 46:51
  Speaker 1: It's those things that be mondful of. And I'm so
• 46:56
  Speaker 1: grateful to be a part of this book with you guys,
• 47:01
  Speaker 1: and to even be in this moment right now. It's
• 47:04
  Speaker 1: a moment of gratitude, it's a moment of things. It's
• 47:06
  Speaker 1: a moment of humbleness because without you, guys, there's no
• 47:12
  Speaker 1: mean and without me, there's no you guys. To get
• 47:16
  Speaker 1: this book done, you know, Yeah, of.
• 47:19
  Speaker 8: Course there's many other publishers out there to do all
• 47:23
  Speaker 8: of this, but I feel like I bring a special
• 47:26
  Speaker 8: touch to what I do simply because I'm always.
• 47:29
  Speaker 1: Available if you have any questions, and if I don't
• 47:32
  Speaker 1: know the answer, I'm gonna find somebody and I'm gonna
• 47:34
  Speaker 1: figure out the answer. You know, I'm not one of
• 47:38
  Speaker 1: those people to say, you know, I got all the answers,
• 47:41
  Speaker 1: I do it right the first time, because I don't.
• 47:44
  Speaker 1: I will tend to be quick fast in a hurt,
• 47:46
  Speaker 1: and I take up for y'all even when people be
• 47:49
  Speaker 1: wanting to say because I know. Tasha has sent me
• 47:52
  Speaker 1: a message one time where this lady was like, why
• 47:54
  Speaker 1: are you making people relive there trauma? Ma'am, this ain't
• 47:58
  Speaker 1: o business. If you don't want to relive your trauma,
• 48:01
  Speaker 1: that's fine. They ain't got nothing to do with what
• 48:04
  Speaker 1: other people want to share. You know. Some people like
• 48:08
  Speaker 1: to hold on to their trump and never blow from
• 48:11
  Speaker 1: it and never heal from it, and they wonder why
• 48:14
  Speaker 1: they're so heavy. When you start to live that stuff
• 48:17
  Speaker 1: off of you and unpack the baggage that you have,
• 48:21
  Speaker 1: you end up freeing yourself from somebody else's bondage. Because
• 48:25
  Speaker 1: I had to realize this, I was carrying the burdens
• 48:29
  Speaker 1: of my mother for so long, and I had to
• 48:32
  Speaker 1: give her her burdens back because they didn't belong to me.
• 48:35
  Speaker 1: They were hurst to carry and they were hurst to bear.
• 48:39
  Speaker 1: And the instant I was able to let go of
• 48:41
  Speaker 1: what I was carrying for her, I feel myself. But
• 48:45
  Speaker 1: I also learned to set boundaries with other people, and
• 48:49
  Speaker 1: being able to set those boundaries, being able to heal.
• 48:52
  Speaker 1: Doing all of that stuff was necessary. Now, before we
• 48:56
  Speaker 1: close out, does anybody want to say anything about the book,
• 49:00
  Speaker 1: where they can find it, how they can contact you guys,
• 49:03
  Speaker 1: because this is only the beginning for you, guys, especially
• 49:06
  Speaker 1: the new authors. This was her prelude to your next book,
• 49:11
  Speaker 1: to your next story, and this is just the beginning
• 49:14
  Speaker 1: for you to be able to share the completed version
• 49:18
  Speaker 1: of your story. This is just your dusk. So y'all
• 49:23
  Speaker 1: know I told you all that the first time. I'm
• 49:25
  Speaker 1: gonna tell you that again. So if you ain't working
• 49:28
  Speaker 1: on your next book, I don't know what you're doing.
• 49:32
  Speaker 1: So we need to get it together and start working
• 49:35
  Speaker 1: on the next week. You got ninety days, okay, three months, you.
• 49:44
  Speaker 2: Got so will it be like like like you see
• 49:49
  Speaker 2: the our chapters in a book. So will it be
• 49:53
  Speaker 2: that and it just be more added on to it?
• 49:56
  Speaker 1: No? No, no, no, you gonna start your store your book.
• 50:01
  Speaker 3: This is your book.
• 50:02
  Speaker 1: This is this your book. Okay, this was your introduction.
• 50:09
  Speaker 2: Wow.
• 50:12
  Speaker 1: I don't try to tell you now the hope but
• 50:15
  Speaker 1: the head. Yes.
• 50:20
  Speaker 2: Now now listen, why y'all go wan you?
• 50:24
  Speaker 1: I told you?
• 50:28
  Speaker 2: Why was it up here? Smiling hard, nervous though.
• 50:34
  Speaker 1: Yeah, you got three months?
• 50:37
  Speaker 2: But I like that, So yeah, is it gonna be?
• 50:43
  Speaker 2: Is it gonna be all? Our story is gonna be?
• 50:47
  Speaker 1: No? No, no, this is your individual book. This is
• 50:50
  Speaker 1: yours by yourself story of like Tanga fair girl.
• 50:55
  Speaker 2: You say, get the red carpet and.
• 50:57
  Speaker 1: Bring out the private jet for you.
• 51:00
  Speaker 2: You not just the fake long cigarette right right?
• 51:09
  Speaker 1: That is it, honey, So get you.
• 51:12
  Speaker 8: Now?
• 51:13
  Speaker 2: Okay, okay, Because I kept saying, even though we had
• 51:17
  Speaker 2: six thousand words to do, I know I had like
• 51:19
  Speaker 2: three more thousand ago.
• 51:21
  Speaker 1: So now you can go ahead and expand on that
• 51:25
  Speaker 1: because yeah, and you better come up with your title.
• 51:28
  Speaker 1: If you need some help with that, I got you too.
• 51:31
  Speaker 1: But you know this is what we at so you
• 51:34
  Speaker 1: got three months to eat it together.
• 51:37
  Speaker 9: I can do that Okay, all right, so I can
• 51:43
  Speaker 9: do that.
• 51:44
  Speaker 1: To start working on it because you already have so
• 51:47
  Speaker 1: like I said, this is your continuation to your book,
• 51:50
  Speaker 1: to your story. This was the beginning of your healing journey.
• 51:54
  Speaker 1: You still got a lot more to say, a lot
• 51:57
  Speaker 1: I do, So go ahead and your little pin and
• 52:01
  Speaker 1: your little paper together and get your book.
• 52:04
  Speaker 6: Yep.
• 52:05
  Speaker 2: So wow, I can do that.
• 52:09
  Speaker 1: You know, I'm gonna put you on the spot. You know,
• 52:12
  Speaker 1: I've learned from the best. Here she's listening, So it's
• 52:17
  Speaker 1: just a book paid Paige from her book. What I've
• 52:22
  Speaker 1: see in you is what I've seen in myself, and
• 52:25
  Speaker 1: whatever you need, I'm here to help you to bring
• 52:30
  Speaker 1: it forward. That little uncomfortable space. You can say that
• 52:35
  Speaker 1: for a little while, but just know that I'm around
• 52:38
  Speaker 1: to push you out.
• 52:39
  Speaker 2: And you know what, and you know what's so crazy too,
• 52:42
  Speaker 2: because you know, like I've been told that I should
• 52:47
  Speaker 2: just write my book and everything and one thing, and
• 52:50
  Speaker 2: I have to be honest. But it's okay, dub the
• 52:55
  Speaker 2: book like the first book where we put our story in.
• 52:57
  Speaker 2: I feel safe be nobody knows which one is my story.
• 53:03
  Speaker 2: You see what I'm saying. They will actually put a
• 53:07
  Speaker 2: face to the story and it's like, oh, but I
• 53:11
  Speaker 2: didn't take it on. I could take it on. I
• 53:15
  Speaker 2: think I can handle that.
• 53:17
  Speaker 1: Listen, it's okay. It's really taking the blinders off yourself
• 53:21
  Speaker 1: and actually being open and honest with yourself. When I
• 53:25
  Speaker 1: did overcome and childhood trauma my journey to healing, that
• 53:29
  Speaker 1: was a real eye opener for myself. For the simple right,
• 53:34
  Speaker 1: I went through the relationship with my mom, I went
• 53:39
  Speaker 1: through the relationship with my dad. I looked at how
• 53:42
  Speaker 1: it affected the raising of my children and so on
• 53:45
  Speaker 1: and so forth, and it allowed me to understand that
• 53:49
  Speaker 1: my children didn't get to see me. They didn't get
• 53:54
  Speaker 1: to see the softer side. My children is one superwoman
• 53:57
  Speaker 1: and I am, and so I had to apologize to
• 54:02
  Speaker 1: them for that because they needed to see the softer
• 54:05
  Speaker 1: version of their mom. They think I can do anything,
• 54:08
  Speaker 1: and I actually trying to tell them I have failed
• 54:10
  Speaker 1: so many times, and every time I try to tell
• 54:13
  Speaker 1: them I feel that something, they don't want to hear
• 54:14
  Speaker 1: none of that. So it's just nuddling for it. And
• 54:18
  Speaker 1: with a lot of the accomplishments that I had had
• 54:23
  Speaker 1: with these kids, what okay, okay, so what else? And like, Okay,
• 54:34
  Speaker 1: I didn't know you're gonna do. We don't know, and
• 54:44
  Speaker 1: I'm like I don't even want to tell me, and
• 54:50
  Speaker 1: so so you know, but I am great, guys, guy,
• 54:57
  Speaker 1: thank you for being.
• 55:00
  Speaker 2: If I.
• 55:03
  Speaker 1: Close, no no, no where hours, I think you guys.
• 55:20
  Speaker 6: With me.
• 55:22
  Speaker 1: You know, my closing statement is always this and it
• 55:26
  Speaker 1: will forever be this, and that is and that is.
• 55:35
  Speaker 1: I love y'all. Y'all, y'all have a good y'all.
• 55:41
  Speaker 2: Have a good one.
• 55:42
  Speaker 1: Good night, good night.