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Why You're Still Procrastinating | EP159 · Jess Ask

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  Speaker 1: Yo, it's your girl Jessica and Smith, and you already
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  Speaker 1: know that you've entered the safe space for influencers to decompress,
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  Speaker 1: have fun and just ask God for another Do you
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  Speaker 1: already know what it is?
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  Speaker 2: And then you know it's about to get real, So be.
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  Speaker 1: Sure to show your girl the love and like coming
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  Speaker 1: subscribe God.
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  Speaker 3: For another day. Hey, hey, I know we could be
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  Speaker 3: another way.
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  Speaker 2: It's a new weeknd, just as the podcast the safe
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  Speaker 2: space where transparency means transformation. It's your girl Jessica as Smith,
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  Speaker 2: and you know I do nothing without my girl. Desirate. Hey,
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  Speaker 2: DELI rate, Hey, alrate, deliorrate right right, DELI rate. I'm here, y'all,
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  Speaker 2: I'm here. What's going on? You don't want to be seen?
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  Speaker 2: You know? Sometimes you know the stuff ain't sticking the
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  Speaker 2: sticky sticky we did press recording on that road, then
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  Speaker 2: we don't record on the road. Oh but it's just
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  Speaker 2: it's not muted. Okay, okay, it's not muted. It's not muted.
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  Speaker 3: It's not muted.
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  Speaker 2: Because if I'm here feeling like I am right now,
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  Speaker 2: looking like, first of all, let's give it up for her,
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  Speaker 2: all hers her. If y'all have never seen a retwist. Listen,
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  Speaker 2: Oh my goodness, Kindle and I were going back and forth.
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  Speaker 2: That's Kindle is the one that does my hair. She's
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  Speaker 2: that's her sister, is my sea stir friends sitting in
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  Speaker 2: a chair and she's got on saying, oh, Jessica, you
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  Speaker 2: got a lot of hair, don't you know? I know
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  Speaker 2: that it's I feel it every day. It's not heavy,
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  Speaker 2: but I can feel like, okay, col wait till look
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  Speaker 2: it down there. So as she's going through my hair,
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  Speaker 2: she's like, she's really good at estimating the time frame
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  Speaker 2: had had hair done locked and so I go, she goes,
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  Speaker 2: what you even had your have a lot for like
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  Speaker 2: three years? I was like, no, I think it's four,
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  Speaker 2: and I genuinely thought it was four. And she got
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  Speaker 2: an attitude girl, because she's an expert in this. So
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  Speaker 2: I was like, you know it, Actually it was twenty
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  Speaker 2: twenty three. So it's only been three years. And it's
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  Speaker 2: I and I remember because I think I've been here,
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  Speaker 2: been with with with the company, the brand, the brand,
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  Speaker 2: y'all three years. I got everything the same thing Like
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  Speaker 2: Lucy kind of I was. I thought I was sick,
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  Speaker 2: then I thought I was sixty if y'all, y'all just
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  Speaker 2: peeped uh the intro video, y'all can see some of
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  Speaker 2: the some of the early, the early, Oh, y'all can
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  Speaker 2: go back and catch up. Like we have plenty of episodes.
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  Speaker 2: I mean, you know, just one hundred and fifty something.
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  Speaker 2: We might be in the sixty sixty one something like that.
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  Speaker 2: We're in there. Like when we get to two hundred,
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  Speaker 2: we haven't we having something big. We having something big.
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  Speaker 2: I believe in celebrating doing something special every fifty episodes
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  Speaker 2: because being consistent with the this is not easy. You
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  Speaker 2: do have to make a daily decision. Like today, we
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  Speaker 2: decided to just record because we realized that as much
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  Speaker 2: as we bast record, we were missing about a month
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  Speaker 2: of episodes. Technically, technically we were missing a month of episode.
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  Speaker 2: So we had to make a decision to say. I said, okay,
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  Speaker 2: we can do two episodes in a podcast something. If
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  Speaker 2: you're not going into the podcast something, I don't know
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  Speaker 2: what you're doing. July. You'll see your girl. She's gonna
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  Speaker 2: be on stage and stuff, talking and stuff. I was
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  Speaker 2: just I'm gonna be like this. You gotta tell the
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  Speaker 2: audio people what you just doing. I'm sorry, I had
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  Speaker 2: my camera moving around. No, but I'm really excited and
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  Speaker 2: I think, I think with our topic today is gonna
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  Speaker 2: be quick. Something that I've had to realize in this
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  Speaker 2: podcast game is that either I be, I have to
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  Speaker 2: choose progression over perfectionism. That's good. I have to choose
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  Speaker 2: progression over perfectionism, and progression will have ugly moments. Oh yeah,
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  Speaker 2: they will have. It has ugly attacked progression. He has
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  Speaker 2: ugly attached to my mind Desireright, you wanna tell them
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  Speaker 2: how perfect how much of a perfectionist I am when
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  Speaker 2: it comes to things. You know, you you are s
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  Speaker 2: like And it's the funny thing like, so I know, uh,
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  Speaker 2: I always tell like as we're working with people, even
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  Speaker 2: with you, Jessica was the first. I was the first,
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  Speaker 2: the first witnessing, uh of this thing, Like, yes, it's podcasting,
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  Speaker 2: but when you're connected to a space that's a man,
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  Speaker 2: I'm gonna say it's a ministry, Like it's this is
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  Speaker 2: a more of a calling, This is an assignment. It's
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  Speaker 2: a little bit different than your traditional podcasting because what
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  Speaker 2: I've learned for myself and as well as Jessica, it's
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  Speaker 2: really more so the Lord uses things for us. Yeah, okay,
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  Speaker 2: so yes, he he gave Jessica of the assignment to
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  Speaker 2: start a podcast, and she's like, I don't know what
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  Speaker 2: that is. I'm just gonna start by. So she starts
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  Speaker 2: to go do the natural things that you would do,
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  Speaker 2: which is to learn how to do a podcast. But
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  Speaker 2: really the Lord was like, but I'm coming for all
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  Speaker 2: of this things. Yeah, I need all this to get
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  Speaker 2: out because you know there's something in there that it's
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  Speaker 2: not opp I didn't put it in there. Yeah, I
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  Speaker 2: didn't do I didn't do that. I didn't do that. Right,
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  Speaker 2: So we're gonna use this because you know this is
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  Speaker 2: what you think. I'm gonna use this to get it
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  Speaker 2: out and then allow my glory to be shown. Yeah.
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  Speaker 2: I think that being a podcaster has taught me that
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  Speaker 2: it is okay for everything not to be in place
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  Speaker 2: for you to start executing, right, Like I mean, I
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  Speaker 2: guess it was. I think sometimes knowledge can be used
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  Speaker 2: against us, right, That's why he told us not to
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  Speaker 2: eat from that tree. Right, that's a good point. I
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  Speaker 2: think we the knowledge that we digest can be used
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  Speaker 2: against us instead of being the fuel fueling station of
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  Speaker 2: our progression. Right. What I mean by that is if
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  Speaker 2: we I I coach every week and I have people
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  Speaker 2: that tell me, well, I gotta I gotta wait to this,
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  Speaker 2: I gotta way to trademark, dad, I gotta wait to
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  Speaker 2: get this bank account. I got the I got, I
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  Speaker 2: got the But if you wait for all that stuff,
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  Speaker 2: it's gonna be more stuff that you find out later
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  Speaker 2: that you got to do, and you're gonna keep waiting.
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  Speaker 2: So why not make the influence, make the have the impact,
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  Speaker 2: make the money while you're still progressive. And that's something
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  Speaker 2: that does Aray and I are doing right now shout
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  Speaker 2: out to increase me that wow? Does are and I
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  Speaker 2: have a business together and we started real ugly and
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  Speaker 2: it's still ugly, but we started, but we're not making
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  Speaker 2: ugly money though we started and we found out this
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  Speaker 2: is a solution for clients that we have, and we're
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  Speaker 2: getting more and more and more clients. And so the
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  Speaker 2: thing about it is, it's like if we if we
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  Speaker 2: were so, if let me let me be accurate, if
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  Speaker 2: desil Ray did not help me become resolved in the
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  Speaker 2: progressive measure, right, I would still be I wouldn't I
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  Speaker 2: still I wouldn't have the experiences that I've had like
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  Speaker 2: you know, even talk about podcasts, summit and being willing
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  Speaker 2: because I did it. I was willing to put my
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  Speaker 2: pride to the side, because perfection has an ingreey of pride. Right,
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  Speaker 2: Perfection tells you that you're the one that has to
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  Speaker 2: do the thing. But that people that battle with perfectionism
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  Speaker 2: battle with the delegation. They battle with delegating things to
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  Speaker 2: others because they think that they're the only people that
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  Speaker 2: can do it, and they don't want to experience the
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  Speaker 2: disappointment from others. If I'm stepping on your toe, I
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  Speaker 2: understand because this is coming from Holy Spirit, and Holy Spirit,
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  Speaker 2: alon't you don't want to experience the disappointment from others? Right? Also,
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  Speaker 2: when I when I when I started thinking about us
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  Speaker 2: talking today Desirae the Lord, I said, Lord, what is
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  Speaker 2: it about this perfectionism thing? Right? He said, the question
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  Speaker 2: is are you willing to surrender? That's the question, y'all,
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  Speaker 2: are you willing to surrender? And we can have areas
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  Speaker 2: of perfection we have. It don't have to be like
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  Speaker 2: a whole generalized thing like people that are over the
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  Speaker 2: top o CD all that stuff, Like, yes, they just
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  Speaker 2: have a generalized idea of I have to be perfect
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  Speaker 2: in everything, right, But what if it's an area that
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  Speaker 2: God wants to touch and you say, m m, it's
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  Speaker 2: not ready yet. Mm hmm. I can't. I can't do that.
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  Speaker 2: The Lord is asking us to surrender. All that's so good.
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  Speaker 2: All I'm thinking about. So one of the communities that
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  Speaker 2: I'm that I'm in knew I'm actually started. I started
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  Speaker 2: with them on the back end, started helping them on
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  Speaker 2: the back end. And then now the Lord is just
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  Speaker 2: showing me why I'm connected in this space. But the
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  Speaker 2: but the they do it. They do devotionals like on
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  Speaker 2: Tuesday and Thursday mornings, and right now we're pretty much
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  Speaker 2: in the space of either today it was Ezekiel said Issa. Anyway,
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  Speaker 2: it's about the part where the vision where he goes
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  Speaker 2: into the water and he goes ankle deep, knee deep,
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  Speaker 2: wais deep, and then it's like a full submersion. Yeah,
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  Speaker 2: and that's exactly what that is. It's like, we will
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  Speaker 2: we can most most of us still being like ankle deep.
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  Speaker 2: We may even walk a little bit until it gets
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  Speaker 2: to our knees. We're like, okay, Lord, this is good.
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  Speaker 2: It's good. I can control it. As I can see
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  Speaker 2: I can control it and control it. I can still
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  Speaker 2: walk back this way, you know, I can still move
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  Speaker 2: around a little bit. Then we go walk a little
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  Speaker 2: bit deeper in the water, start getting a little bit higher,
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  Speaker 2: you know, start getting to your waist. You still got
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  Speaker 2: some control there, right, But now you may you may
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  Speaker 2: start feeling more of the waves, right, you may start
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  Speaker 2: feeling more of the push up the current of the ocean.
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  Speaker 2: But the Lord, won't you weigh out there? Right? Yeah?
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  Speaker 2: Like where you like, Yeah, that's that full that's that
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  Speaker 2: full surrender that it's scary, yeah, because once you out there,
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  Speaker 2: then with you out there, like you flow you out there,
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  Speaker 2: then whatever the waves go, you going. So it's been
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  Speaker 2: really dope to watch Jessica step into this water. But
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  Speaker 2: she was kind of ain'tkle deep at first because she
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  Speaker 2: was like, no, we gotta we gotta record. You gotta
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  Speaker 2: be the same, the background gotta look the same. We
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  Speaker 2: gotta have these certain mics. I said, well, I don't
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  Speaker 2: got them mics. We got we got these little road Yeah,
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  Speaker 2: the road square mice right here. But if I was
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  Speaker 2: like that too, I wouldn't If I stayed like that,
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  Speaker 2: we wouldn't have had interviews with Rica. Yeah, we want
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  Speaker 2: to have the two episodes with all mar El Ta Corey.
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  Speaker 2: When we have episodes, that's coming up with two women
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  Speaker 2: that I just deemed phenomenal. I can't We've been trying
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  Speaker 2: to get them for a year. Because we about to
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  Speaker 2: be in the same space, I say, hey, let's record
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  Speaker 2: right there. Yeah, you get what I'm saying. Like the Lord,
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  Speaker 2: thank you, Holy Spirit. The Lord gives us mobile tools.
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  Speaker 2: Right even with our business, right we are a virtual
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  Speaker 2: recording option that that manages the systems and the upfit
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  Speaker 2: of your entrepreneurs podcast. That's what we do. And if
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  Speaker 2: we if I had not learned how to open myself
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  Speaker 2: up to the degree where God was like, Okay, this
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  Speaker 2: is not gonna always look like this. One day you
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  Speaker 2: might have a tree in the background. The next day,
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  Speaker 2: you're gonna be at bg TV the next day. If
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  Speaker 2: you recording the dog on changing closet in the baby God,
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  Speaker 2: I forgot about that. We were shout out because my goodness,
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  Speaker 2: we were in a changing room and all her people
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  Speaker 2: were like, what are they doing?
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  Speaker 1: Right?
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  Speaker 2: But it was it was unique situations that prepared and
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  Speaker 2: opened our hearts, especially mine, for things that God wanted
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  Speaker 2: to to blow our mind in And I think that
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  Speaker 2: when we when we when we say God, I can't
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  Speaker 2: surrender to you, that that does not doesn't just break
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  Speaker 2: God's heart, but it puts more pressure on you to
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  Speaker 2: figure it out. You don't know why, because it's it's
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  Speaker 2: it's there's a there's a like this line between like excellence,
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  Speaker 2: perfection and the idolize it, idolatry, idolatry, thank you. It
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  Speaker 2: just it was there, but it wasn't there. Okay, hey,
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  Speaker 2: don't do that because you know, you know, I you know,
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  Speaker 2: sometimes the words like to escape. Yeah, but I didn't
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  Speaker 2: think idolatry was going to be because I yes, I
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  Speaker 2: just keep going, thank you, thank you, sister, thank you.
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  Speaker 2: There's a fine line right between us trump want to
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  Speaker 2: get it right and want to do, you know, make
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  Speaker 2: sure we store things right, versus like, I can't it
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  Speaker 2: gotta be a certain type of way. I can't release this,
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  Speaker 2: I can't surrender to God because it's not a certain
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  Speaker 2: type of way. We're almost we're almost in this idolatry
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  Speaker 2: idolatrist space where it's like we're viewing our feelings and
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  Speaker 2: our things more than the release of what God is
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  Speaker 2: telling us. To do. That's now that that is good.
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  Speaker 2: It's we become our own focal points. And it's like
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  Speaker 2: literally this you really just put language to what we
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  Speaker 2: were experiencing. Right Like when I experienced like, oh, just
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  Speaker 2: as it has to be. Yeah, I was doing it
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  Speaker 2: for God? But how was I doing it for God?
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  Speaker 1: Like?
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  Speaker 2: Okay, the what is? Okay? I know what the Lord
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  Speaker 2: told me to do, and then I took what the
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  Speaker 2: Lord told me to do and made it just because responsibility, right,
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  Speaker 2: And so when we make the thing the thing that
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  Speaker 2: God ordained us to do, our responsibility. Watch this that
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  Speaker 2: even that's even the same thing when we come to ministry,
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  Speaker 2: Oh Lord, I need to deliver this word or I
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  Speaker 2: gotta make sure this prayer hit. You gotta wait, you
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  Speaker 2: got you gotta do what That's so much like I'm
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  Speaker 2: at this point in my life, I am so afraid
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  Speaker 2: to do it without God. Come on, I am. I
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  Speaker 2: am terrified to live my life without God. I just
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  Speaker 2: got to the phone with somebody not too long ago,
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  Speaker 2: and I had to tell them, Hey, you might be
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  Speaker 2: in this marketplace world or whatever, but let's not discredit
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  Speaker 2: faith based opportunity. We're not gonna discredit faith based platforms.
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  Speaker 2: We're not gonna do that because what what we're supposed
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  Speaker 2: to do, right is fuel the thing in you that
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  Speaker 2: keeps you as healthy as possible for that marketplace thing. Right,
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  Speaker 2: it's building upon your foundation with the Lord. Right. If
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  Speaker 2: I had no relationship with Door, I don't even know
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  Speaker 2: if I would have a podcast because that was not
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  Speaker 2: my interest. I didn't want to. I didn't want people
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  Speaker 2: to see me. I didn't want to talk to me. Y'all.
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  Speaker 2: Do y'all see I don't have a makeup on today,
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  Speaker 2: Like I don't have a dime of makeup or lash
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  Speaker 2: or just bell faced. Y'all can see all the can y'all.
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  Speaker 2: I know y'all can see this. I know y'all can
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  Speaker 2: see this. And I'm bringing this up because the perfection,
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  Speaker 2: the perfect perfector in me wanted to say, at least
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  Speaker 2: put some eyelashes on. I put a look glass song,
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  Speaker 2: you know, because you're not gonna get ash you lip,
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  Speaker 2: that's what that's what you're not gonna do. But I
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  Speaker 2: was like, you know what, what's more, what's more important
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  Speaker 2: being consistent showing up. Now. I'm not saying you should
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  Speaker 2: look busting and discuss it all the time. I'm not
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  Speaker 2: saying that. However, I had to wait. Roots. My roots
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  Speaker 2: is rooting you and me. The color is coloring. But
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  Speaker 2: I had to release the moment of self condemnation. I
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  Speaker 2: was condemning myself. If I allow myself not to show
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  Speaker 2: not to show up because I don't have makeup on, right,
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  Speaker 2: I don't allow God's perfect will to happen. Yeah. Right.
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  Speaker 2: It's like if we say God is perfect, then we're perfect.
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  Speaker 2: Then we're trying to say we're God, or we're trying
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  Speaker 2: to be like God. And that's why it's trying. We're
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  Speaker 2: trying to be God. Not even just like God. We
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  Speaker 2: try to be God. And that's a weight that none
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  Speaker 2: of us could ever carry. And I think that the
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  Speaker 2: enemy would put us in a position to think and
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  Speaker 2: believe that if we're not to a certain degree, that
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  Speaker 2: God can't use us, if we're not to a certain
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  Speaker 2: standard a certain place, that God can't blow on this.
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  Speaker 2: We're about to celebrate four years in a few months.
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  Speaker 2: Four years, I'm what's it, Well, that's right, four years
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  Speaker 2: of ministry. Wow. I don't like that. The N word.
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  Speaker 2: I can't believe I said that, But you know, if
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  Speaker 2: you think about it, she's real cute over there. When
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  Speaker 2: I think about it. The idea of this podcast thing
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  Speaker 2: it perfection will keep you in the in the inconsistency
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  Speaker 2: of your success. You will never meet the better version
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  Speaker 2: of you if you keep saying, well, if it don't
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  Speaker 2: look like this, I can't move purpose thank you the spirit.
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  Speaker 2: Perfectionism makes you stagnant, It makes you immobile, it makes
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  Speaker 2: it keeps you stuck in a place. Say you're too
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  Speaker 2: you're looking too far down. Because the thing is things
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  Speaker 2: are ever, forever changing, forever changing. And so if the
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  Speaker 2: thing changes tomorrow and you didn't act on put on
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  Speaker 2: the thing today because you was waiting on to have
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  Speaker 2: something tomorrow, just walk into it. Just just let it
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  Speaker 2: slap you in your face. What you're thinking about over
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  Speaker 2: there because you're shaking. Oh so that that's just a habit.
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  Speaker 2: But I am thinking that this is good. That's you know,
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  Speaker 2: the leg thing, that's just a that's just a little habit.
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  Speaker 2: But this is really good because it really will make
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  Speaker 2: you immobile, right, which then you start walking in disobedience, Yeah,
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  Speaker 2: because you're not doing anything or releasing the thing like
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  Speaker 2: you think you're doing a thing, right, you think like, oh,
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  Speaker 2: I'm working on this. Well, you've been working on this
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  Speaker 2: thing for over a year now. You've been working on
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  Speaker 2: this thing for over two years now, because and what
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  Speaker 2: is working on it? Mean? Like folk say they working
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  Speaker 2: on it and don't be working on anything, just like
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  Speaker 2: I'm trying to get a good figure. But you ain't
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  Speaker 2: been to no gym, you ain't had no lettuce in
• 18:43
  Speaker 2: your dad, and you don't drink no water. You don't
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  Speaker 2: drink no water. You drink a bunch of kiki pool
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  Speaker 2: from wings plus dry dry. I'm working on it. That's it.
• 18:54
  Speaker 2: That's and then also perfectionism, perfection will will make you procrastinate.
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  Speaker 2: Oh absolutely, it will definitely have you procrastinating. Oh absolutely.
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  Speaker 2: I I'm trying to think. I don't sometimes I think
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  Speaker 2: sometimes I have the opposite issue. Mmm, not the opposite
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  Speaker 2: issue of I've always been like, do the thing, release
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  Speaker 2: the thing, and then if I gotta fix it, I'll
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  Speaker 2: fix it. Yeah, you know that happens often, you know,
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  Speaker 2: because my thing is if I don't do this now,
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  Speaker 2: I'm not I'm not gonna get it done. So let
• 19:37
  Speaker 2: me do it. You know, the bones, the base, the
• 19:41
  Speaker 2: foundation of the thing is here. If I got to
• 19:43
  Speaker 2: go in and shift and change. I'm okay with that.
• 19:45
  Speaker 2: Some people aren't. Aren't don't like change, don't like changing,
• 19:49
  Speaker 2: don't like the ref reformation, the reformation of the process.
• 19:53
  Speaker 2: You know, that's why in they mind they got to
• 19:55
  Speaker 2: get it all perfect before they release it. Yeah, but
• 19:57
  Speaker 2: I'm just like, hey, it's here now, let's now, let's
• 19:59
  Speaker 2: be the thing I can I can see. I feel
• 20:02
  Speaker 2: like I'm shifting to that. But I feel like also
• 20:05
  Speaker 2: that's the reason why I'm not. I haven't finished this book.
• 20:09
  Speaker 2: Like I'm having a real hard time with writing this
• 20:13
  Speaker 2: book because I'm looking at as if somebody's reading it
• 20:17
  Speaker 2: instead of me just going through the process of getting
• 20:19
  Speaker 2: it out. And I ain't gonna lie to you. So
• 20:24
  Speaker 2: you're trying to write, edit and all the things and
• 20:27
  Speaker 2: read all the things and cry out, crib me out
• 20:31
  Speaker 2: real bad, career bad. I think that and that, and
• 20:38
  Speaker 2: it's just being me being honest. I also think I
• 20:40
  Speaker 2: have an opportunity on like perfectionism when it comes to
• 20:44
  Speaker 2: my idea about marriage. Oh, this is the raw.
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  Speaker 1: I have.
• 20:53
  Speaker 2: This I was sharing in a community that I am
• 20:56
  Speaker 2: a part of with Joy Pittman. That's ammunity. I don't
• 21:00
  Speaker 2: I can just show up as j Justica. I don't
• 21:02
  Speaker 2: have to do anything. I told them last night, I
• 21:04
  Speaker 2: don't have to do anything. I can just be and
• 21:06
  Speaker 2: I can soak in the word in the community, right.
• 21:10
  Speaker 2: And I was sharing with them that I was, which,
• 21:14
  Speaker 2: by the way, i'm putting pain right here, that's very
• 21:15
  Speaker 2: important that as a leader, right, that you also have
• 21:20
  Speaker 2: a space that you're not necessarily responsible for. Yeah, you
• 21:24
  Speaker 2: know what I'm saying, A space that's just safe for
• 21:26
  Speaker 2: you to just be you be who you are, and
• 21:29
  Speaker 2: then just receive because a lot of times, as leaders,
• 21:32
  Speaker 2: as builders, when we don't have those spaces, we find
• 21:36
  Speaker 2: ourselves burnt out and raggedy more often because we're not
• 21:39
  Speaker 2: giving ourselves the opportunity to fill the feel back up.
• 21:42
  Speaker 2: So kudos to you for that, Jessica. Thank you, Because
• 21:45
  Speaker 2: she was she was not letting me not join the group.
• 21:47
  Speaker 2: I was like, why are you texting me all of this? Lady?
• 21:51
  Speaker 2: You know people find me. I don't know, but I
• 21:53
  Speaker 2: trust her like joy pitt me. If y'all didn't watch
• 21:56
  Speaker 2: that episode, go back and watch it. It was really
• 21:58
  Speaker 2: really good. She got my life together then. But what
• 22:02
  Speaker 2: I was saying was that I was telling the ladies
• 22:05
  Speaker 2: that I that earlier that day, I was experiencing, you know,
• 22:13
  Speaker 2: the chemistry of my body. I had that the same
• 22:16
  Speaker 2: day I was set down somewhere Jesus, I was experiencing
• 22:23
  Speaker 2: the chemistry of my body. And so I told them,
• 22:26
  Speaker 2: I said, listen, I don't I'm I'm struggling here, just
• 22:32
  Speaker 2: just today. And I had to tell somebody that I
• 22:35
  Speaker 2: was struggling so I wouldn't go experience somebody's son out
• 22:39
  Speaker 2: of wetlock. You get what I'm saying. And so I
• 22:41
  Speaker 2: was like, I had to put myself in a position
• 22:44
  Speaker 2: of I'm not perfect so the perfection can cover me.
• 22:49
  Speaker 2: It was what God's God's community was like, Okay, girl,
• 22:52
  Speaker 2: I feel you. Let's hold each other accountable when we
• 22:55
  Speaker 2: when we when we are so involved with ourselves and
• 23:03
  Speaker 2: say I can fix it. I can do that. Perfectionism
• 23:06
  Speaker 2: will tell you you can fix everything. I can't fix
• 23:08
  Speaker 2: my hormones. I cannot fix my hormones. But what I
• 23:14
  Speaker 2: can do is be honest about them and maybe look
• 23:17
  Speaker 2: like I'm not perfect in front of people so that
• 23:20
  Speaker 2: they can help me in my imperfection, so they can
• 23:23
  Speaker 2: help me navigate, so I won't make a mistake or
• 23:27
  Speaker 2: something not even necessarily a mistake, or make up a
• 23:30
  Speaker 2: decision that I will soon regret. Klee and Hill like
• 23:35
  Speaker 2: locked in at this point, I think it's been eleven
• 23:38
  Speaker 2: eleven yeah, June, yeah, June. Yeah, because the twelve months
• 23:45
  Speaker 2: it's July second, Okay, and we are going out and
• 23:49
  Speaker 2: having a cake when them TikTok cakes. Okay, I'll show
• 23:53
  Speaker 2: you later. Just be prepared. Okay, we might well all
• 23:56
  Speaker 2: black again. It's gonna be a big thing because this
• 23:58
  Speaker 2: is a big deal for me because I made a
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  Speaker 2: decision not thinking. I didn't listen. I just knew I
• 24:04
  Speaker 2: was gonna fail in this decision. But because I gave
• 24:07
  Speaker 2: that thought up to say, hey, God, if I don't
• 24:10
  Speaker 2: get carried through this, I'm not going to make it. Yeah.
• 24:13
  Speaker 2: But if I was a perfectionist, I was like, as
• 24:16
  Speaker 2: I've done it before, as I was trying to be
• 24:17
  Speaker 2: absolu before it. Maybe I failed in the third day
• 24:20
  Speaker 2: for thirty day it was a rap because I was
• 24:23
  Speaker 2: trying to depend on myself. But but the perfection of God,
• 24:28
  Speaker 2: the love of God will not only keep you but
• 24:31
  Speaker 2: cover you. And one way, like you just said, is
• 24:34
  Speaker 2: with community. Community. Yeah, I think also, and I think
• 24:40
  Speaker 2: we think that God don't know that he can't handle,
• 24:44
  Speaker 2: Like he don't got the solution, he ain't already made
• 24:46
  Speaker 2: the plan out, like we just be like, oh, I
• 24:48
  Speaker 2: just I can do this on my own cause I
• 24:50
  Speaker 2: don't want to bother him. I don't want to bother him.
• 24:54
  Speaker 2: I don't want to I don't want to bother him. No,
• 24:57
  Speaker 2: that's just me, okay. But the truth is, man, been
• 25:00
  Speaker 2: those those moments where I've tried, like, yeah, there are
• 25:04
  Speaker 2: there is a part that we do play. There's a
• 25:06
  Speaker 2: thing that we do do right. We do have to
• 25:08
  Speaker 2: do our part. But in those moments where like your
• 25:11
  Speaker 2: part done, it'd be like your part done, but you
• 25:15
  Speaker 2: still be trying to do the do the part right.
• 25:17
  Speaker 2: But in those those moments of surrender, man, the amount
• 25:20
  Speaker 2: of peace that just come in when the guy be like, ah,
• 25:22
  Speaker 2: I've been waiting, that's my turn. They put me in. Yeah,
• 25:25
  Speaker 2: you know, man, like I've seen the Lord like do
• 25:29
  Speaker 2: some some creative stuff like it's it be stuff that
• 25:31
  Speaker 2: I'm trying to figure out, busting my brain like how
• 25:33
  Speaker 2: did supposed to look? Like?
• 25:35
  Speaker 1: You know what Lord.
• 25:37
  Speaker 2: Tag you with? Yeah, and the idea like the solution
• 25:41
  Speaker 2: just be like, oh, boom, there it is when we
• 25:43
  Speaker 2: stop forcing the idea of us having an abusiness together.
• 25:49
  Speaker 2: It literally just came. It came. It came like, I
• 25:53
  Speaker 2: don't know, like water. It was just like drinking water
• 25:57
  Speaker 2: from the water founton like it was. It was like, Oh,
• 26:00
  Speaker 2: we're just gonna do what we've been doing for ourselves.
• 26:03
  Speaker 2: Oh okay, you're about to make room for us to
• 26:05
  Speaker 2: do that for other people. Oh okay, you get what
• 26:08
  Speaker 2: I'm saying. And so now not only are we impacting
• 26:11
  Speaker 2: people's lives, but we're impacting our legacy because we decided,
• 26:16
  Speaker 2: you know what, Lord, it does not oh thank you Lord,
• 26:19
  Speaker 2: it does not have to be my way exactly. And
• 26:24
  Speaker 2: we can't just be out here saying your way is
• 26:26
  Speaker 2: better as and live in a world where I have
• 26:30
  Speaker 2: to perfect everything, because if his way is better and
• 26:34
  Speaker 2: I navigate his way, then he's the one who's gonna
• 26:37
  Speaker 2: have to give me the instructions of his way. So
• 26:40
  Speaker 2: that means I don't know, you know, the gag is
• 26:44
  Speaker 2: what we do. There are other people and it's how
• 26:46
  Speaker 2: I felt about her too, like there are other people
• 26:48
  Speaker 2: that are in the same similar space that kind of
• 26:51
  Speaker 2: do the same thing, right. But the truth is, and
• 26:56
  Speaker 2: this is what I told Jessica. I said, we have
• 26:57
  Speaker 2: to make sure that we're very clear on we are
• 27:00
  Speaker 2: and what we do right, because otherwise we're going to
• 27:04
  Speaker 2: be doing this thing in our own strength and our
• 27:06
  Speaker 2: own understanding. And that's too that's too much, and there's
• 27:09
  Speaker 2: no way, there's no way that we're doing this in
• 27:13
  Speaker 2: the in the I know, I said, we're ugly right now,
• 27:16
  Speaker 2: but it's still at the level of excellence. Because one
• 27:19
  Speaker 2: of our clients, and y'all seen them. I won't call
• 27:22
  Speaker 2: him out right now, but he told me. He said
• 27:24
  Speaker 2: just he was like, do you think I would have
• 27:28
  Speaker 2: hired you if I knew what I was doing? He
• 27:32
  Speaker 2: was like, you're my coach, you're my podcast coach. I
• 27:34
  Speaker 2: don't know. I make millions of doubt now this this
• 27:37
  Speaker 2: man is a multi millionaire. We're not there yet, but
• 27:40
  Speaker 2: he says, I hired you for a reason because I
• 27:41
  Speaker 2: don't know what I'm doing and I don't have time
• 27:45
  Speaker 2: to do the portions of what you're doing. And we do. Listen,
• 27:49
  Speaker 2: the bill ain't light. I'm not even I'm not it's
• 27:52
  Speaker 2: not for the people that ain't really ready to do
• 27:54
  Speaker 2: it and invest in their pocket. This ain't something that
• 27:57
  Speaker 2: we're We had to step out on faith on neck
• 28:00
  Speaker 2: cause we had been rejected on a lower price that before.
• 28:04
  Speaker 2: We had been rejected on a lower a lower, a
• 28:07
  Speaker 2: lower offer before, like maybe a year or two ago.
• 28:10
  Speaker 2: But we had to keep the faith that the you
• 28:12
  Speaker 2: know what, God perfixed all God we got. We got
• 28:15
  Speaker 2: more knowledge, we got more understanding, we got more community.
• 28:19
  Speaker 2: Like it's certain things I wasn't doing two years ago,
• 28:22
  Speaker 2: but now I can say, you know, it's a cost
• 28:24
  Speaker 2: for that, right God. Literally, we really walked out the
• 28:27
  Speaker 2: blueprint of God and not didn't even know it because
• 28:30
  Speaker 2: we just it's it saysn't a word, and I'm gonna
• 28:32
  Speaker 2: end of here. It saysn't a word. Give us our
• 28:37
  Speaker 2: daily bread. I think about when the Israelites were in
• 28:43
  Speaker 2: the wilderness and the Lord had told them, you know,
• 28:45
  Speaker 2: take take what you need for tomorrow, and then it
• 28:48
  Speaker 2: was one day. For today, it was one day, well, yes,
• 28:52
  Speaker 2: for today it was one day. Or it was people
• 28:56
  Speaker 2: that were trying to have the leftovers. But then they
• 28:59
  Speaker 2: end up you know, mold and spoiling and stuff like
• 29:02
  Speaker 2: that when you don't live on today's bread. When you
• 29:06
  Speaker 2: don't live on today's manner, you end up experiencing decay,
• 29:12
  Speaker 2: you end up experiencing mold, you end up experiencing just
• 29:19
  Speaker 2: the unnecessary options that you don't have to experience. Right,
• 29:24
  Speaker 2: And so I really think that as a perfectionist, the
• 29:28
  Speaker 2: one you want to denounce perfectionism, you want to give
• 29:31
  Speaker 2: that job back to God. And you say, you know what, Lord,
• 29:34
  Speaker 2: I'm gonna trust you with today's bread. And not only
• 29:38
  Speaker 2: am I going to trust you with today's bread, I'm
• 29:41
  Speaker 2: going to digest it. I'm going to be grateful for it.
• 29:45
  Speaker 2: And then when you give me the bread tomorrow, it
• 29:47
  Speaker 2: might be some I might have wheat bread today, I
• 29:50
  Speaker 2: might have Raising brand bread that I might have some
• 29:53
  Speaker 2: Walmart brand bread today. It's bread, though, but it's still good,
• 29:57
  Speaker 2: and it's gonna give me what I need. And I'm
• 29:59
  Speaker 2: gonna trust that and build off that. Amen. He hallelujah.
• 30:05
  Speaker 2: This was a quick one on purpose. We told y'all
• 30:06
  Speaker 2: we're gonna be quick. Okay, we love you. If you're
• 30:10
  Speaker 2: a perfection is, just call yourself out in the community.
• 30:14
  Speaker 2: But until next week, until next time, remember, life could
• 30:18
  Speaker 2: be much more simple if you just ask peace.
• 30:27
  Speaker 1: Thank you, for tuning in to this week's episode. Since
• 30:30
  Speaker 1: you've made it this far, you might as well connect
• 30:33
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• 30:34
  Speaker 2: Platforms at the Jessica S. Smith.
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  Speaker 1: I know I won't see you back until next week,
• 30:40
  Speaker 1: but until then, remember to love always yourself and always say.
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  Speaker 2: Thank God for one another day.
• 30:50
  Speaker 3: Thank Hey, I know we could be another way, he pray,
• 30:58
  Speaker 3: thank God for another day. Hey Hey, I'm just thankful
• 31:04
  Speaker 3: another day. Hey hey, another day, Oh, another day wise,
• 31:11
  Speaker 3: another day to get it right, another day to rise up,
• 31:14
  Speaker 3: another day living, another day we loved ones. I always
• 31:17
  Speaker 3: remember hold it down for a ball one yep