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Episode #268: Needing a Signier Sign · Tea Time w/Amie & Bev

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  Speaker 1: Hi, everybody, Welcome to tea time with Amy and Bev, look.
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  Speaker 2: Back, welcome back, good day.
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  Speaker 1: Some fun things. I think to me, it was fun.
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  Speaker 1: I went on a I went on a trip this
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  Speaker 1: weekend and went to a conference for a region, our
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  Speaker 1: region conference for organization that I'm in. And you know,
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  Speaker 1: when you asked the universe for signing your signs, they
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  Speaker 1: send you a sign and you're like, oh, I need
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  Speaker 1: a signing your sign than that man. They were everywhere
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  Speaker 1: this weekend. It was so wild, It was so fun.
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  Speaker 1: I see four four four a lot. My room was
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  Speaker 1: four four three. So every day, for from Friday to Sunday,
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  Speaker 1: every time I went in and out of my room, across.
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  Speaker 2: The hallway was four four four.
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  Speaker 1: So four for four plus four plus four is twelve.
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  Speaker 1: One plus two is three. So you reduce the numerology
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  Speaker 1: down to one number from one to nine, and so
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  Speaker 1: three three is significant in my life path numbers and numerology.
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  Speaker 2: My we.
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  Speaker 1: Our organization. It was celebrating on May twentieth. We had
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  Speaker 1: our seventy fifth anniversary of our club being from time
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  Speaker 1: it began so in nineteen fifty and so at this conference,
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  Speaker 1: we wore crowns that said seventy five and fabulous. So
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  Speaker 1: seven plus five is twelve plus one plus two is three,
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  Speaker 1: so there's a three. And then we have assigned tables
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  Speaker 1: for each meal, so you just you have it's on
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  Speaker 1: your your card, your dinner and lunch cards, what table
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  Speaker 1: you're assigned to, and it starts on Thursday or Friday,
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  Speaker 1: starts like Friday morning. So I didn't get there till
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  Speaker 1: Friday evening, and so out of three meals, two of
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  Speaker 1: my meals was at table twelve. And so it was
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  Speaker 1: just like that all weekend, just this number that came
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  Speaker 1: up to three, right, So anyway, that was fun. I
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  Speaker 1: just wanted to share that because I thought that was exciting.
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  Speaker 1: I got my signing signs, and I did have a
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  Speaker 1: couple times over the weekend like a deja vu moment,
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  Speaker 1: and it's it's funny because I'll do something and I
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  Speaker 1: and I might be in the middle of saying something
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  Speaker 1: and I go in my head, think I've already done this,
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  Speaker 1: and I have to pause, and then I'll keep going
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  Speaker 1: with the conversation or whatever I'm doing. But I had
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  Speaker 1: a couple of those before I left for the conference,
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  Speaker 1: and then a couple times while I was there and
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  Speaker 1: it was like, okay, and to me, just to put
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  Speaker 1: it out there, Yeah, I read this in a Sylvia
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  Speaker 1: Brown book many many many years ago that when you
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  Speaker 1: have a dejon vu moment, it's that you're you're on
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  Speaker 1: the path of what your spirit came to do. And
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  Speaker 1: so I might be on the path for now, and
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  Speaker 1: then I might get sidetrack and veer off, but then
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  Speaker 1: when I come back, I'll have a deja vu moment
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  Speaker 1: to be like, oh, okay, I'm back and we're gonna
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  Speaker 1: walk this path for a while until I get distracted
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  Speaker 1: again or I wander off and some other.
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  Speaker 2: Whatever comes up.
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  Speaker 3: So I think that's awesome. You talked about all the
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  Speaker 3: numbers and stuff, and I've had four four four. I mean,
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  Speaker 3: I have a notebook that I journal in almost every day,
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  Speaker 3: and I really just go with whatever I see. What
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  Speaker 3: I'm getting messages all day long, in fact, whether it's
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  Speaker 3: a message that I'm sitting there and all of a sudden,
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  Speaker 3: I might maybe I hear a song, or I'm getting
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  Speaker 3: the numbers four four four, fourteen fourteen, like all these things.
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  Speaker 3: It's like it's there's a lot of repetitiveness that's going on,
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  Speaker 3: and it's because there's they're trying to get messages to you. Yeah,
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  Speaker 3: they're not trying to They're sending out messages all the time,
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  Speaker 3: and it's up to us to kind of look at
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  Speaker 3: them and figure out what they're what it means to us.
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  Speaker 2: And I'll see things.
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  Speaker 3: That like kind of it shows itself over and over
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  Speaker 3: and over again, so that I know those are messages
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  Speaker 3: and I'm getting I'm having an understanding about that. But
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  Speaker 3: it's it's it's kind of fun because it's it's it
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  Speaker 3: makes life a little bit exciting in that, And so
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  Speaker 3: I'll stop and jot down maybe I saw a penguin falcon,
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  Speaker 3: or maybe I saw, like the other day, I saw
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  Speaker 3: two horn toads, you know, having a conversation. I was
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  Speaker 3: driving to work, like the Friday, and I and I'm
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  Speaker 3: driving past this bush outside and there was probably like
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  Speaker 3: fifteen or twenty freaking ravens underneath the bush. They aren't
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  Speaker 3: eating anything. And I sent a message to my girls
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  Speaker 3: and I said, I think I just passed the board meeting.
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  Speaker 3: And then my daughter said, they do actually come together
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  Speaker 3: like that and communicate and then they go off and
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  Speaker 3: do whatever. So I thought it was pretty fascinating because
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  Speaker 3: I really felt like I was passing a meeting. There
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  Speaker 3: was a meeting of the mindset was happening there, which
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  Speaker 3: I find is fantastic. But it's like all this information
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  Speaker 3: that we have around us all the time, even down
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  Speaker 3: to the bugs, like we've had waldpite tigers and I
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  Speaker 3: haven't looked up the message yet, but we've had.
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  Speaker 2: Quite a few.
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  Speaker 3: But it's like being aware of all that stuff, the
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  Speaker 3: snakes or the whatever whatever is coming into your experience
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  Speaker 3: because it wasn't an accident. Everything was there for a reason.
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  Speaker 3: Everything showed up, just like we showed up. But are
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  Speaker 3: we are we aware of it? And like even recently
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  Speaker 3: songs like a miracle, miracles on miracles, so many miracles
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  Speaker 3: I can't count.
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  Speaker 2: I can't, I don't, I don't.
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  Speaker 3: I have to look at that, I have to sing
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  Speaker 3: the song and I'm not singing a song, but it
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  Speaker 3: it's a lot of those words. And even just like
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  Speaker 3: this today, Jesus is asking me to come come to
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  Speaker 3: the altar or whatever.
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  Speaker 2: That was the song that was in my head this morning.
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  Speaker 3: So it's like being aware of the information that's flowing
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  Speaker 3: to us at all times, because it's those are the miracles.
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  Speaker 3: That is the that is the path, Like it's a
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  Speaker 3: constant guidance that's there. And I can tell you when
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  Speaker 3: I get wrapped up in my emotions and stuff, maybe
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  Speaker 3: I don't always I can't. I really can only at
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  Speaker 3: that time just deal with whatever I'm feeling in the
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  Speaker 3: moment and then questioning it and being like.
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  Speaker 2: What the hell or you know, or how can I
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  Speaker 2: get past this?
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  Speaker 3: Or just just sitting and crying, just sitting and crying,
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  Speaker 3: just sitting and feeling what feeling that emotion in the body.
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  Speaker 2: Okay, so I feel like crying, where is that coming from?
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  Speaker 3: Like feeling it in the body, where it's at, and
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  Speaker 3: then just letting it be, just letting it release. It's
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  Speaker 3: like we don't have to we get so caught up
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  Speaker 3: and thinking we have to do something all the time,
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  Speaker 3: we have to fix something. And that's a big learning
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  Speaker 3: process too. Well it's not even a learning process. I
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  Speaker 3: feel like I'm just shedding a lot of stuff. I'm
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  Speaker 3: so much more mellow, and I'm not even my I
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  Speaker 3: just I'm not even my same person that I used
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  Speaker 3: to be. And that's okay, it's okay because I'm figuring
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  Speaker 3: out who I am. Minus all the other stuff, minus
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  Speaker 3: all the expectations and the once and everybody else's desires,
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  Speaker 3: because a lot of times I'd want what somebody else
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  Speaker 3: wanted and it's like it didn't make sense, But it's
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  Speaker 3: because I was connected into them with what they were getting,
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  Speaker 3: and it seems like maybe that felt like satisfaction to them,
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  Speaker 3: but doesn't mean it necessarily was, and it doesn't mean
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  Speaker 3: it would be satisfying to myself either. So there's there's
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  Speaker 3: so many there's just so much stuff that's happening for
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  Speaker 3: me to process and to kind of look at, and
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  Speaker 3: I know that I'm going through I'm feeling all this
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  Speaker 3: stuff because there's ever other people out there that.
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  Speaker 2: Are struggling too, they're out you know.
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  Speaker 3: And it has felt like a struggle at times, it
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  Speaker 3: really has, And then all of a sudden it lifts
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  Speaker 3: and it's like, oh, well, this feels great, and I
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  Speaker 3: have a few hours, or maybe I might have a
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  Speaker 3: few minutes, or maybe I have a few days that
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  Speaker 3: it feels light and uplifting, and then I might be
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  Speaker 3: back into it again, and it's okay, because I have
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  Speaker 3: a lifelong of stored emotions, I really do. Just my
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  Speaker 3: only you've talked about before, but our only emotion that
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  Speaker 3: we had was anchor.
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  Speaker 2: That was That was it.
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  Speaker 3: And and when you said in the past video, when
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  Speaker 3: you said it's grieving of self, it is grieving because
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  Speaker 3: it is grieving, it's I'm not that same person anymore.
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  Speaker 3: I don't I don't feel those same emotions. And it
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  Speaker 3: was all facilitated by a person that was no longer
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  Speaker 3: going to be in my life. And then in hindsight,
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  Speaker 3: now I look at things and it's like even my
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  Speaker 3: our twelve month spread, we always do and even for
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  Speaker 3: this month, one of the names up in the corner
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  Speaker 3: was Grace, and I thought, I knew who that was.
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  Speaker 3: I knew that this person was coming into my life
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  Speaker 3: and the other person then I had an understanding why
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  Speaker 3: the other person left because I needed a new guide,
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  Speaker 3: I needed a new teacher, new confirmations.
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  Speaker 2: It's a new energy and new flow. It's a different direction.
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  Speaker 3: And it's and it's not bad at all, it's actually
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  Speaker 3: even better. But we get so wrapped up in ripping
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  Speaker 3: onto whatever is there in front of us that we
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  Speaker 3: actually can lose sight of what's coming to us instead
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  Speaker 3: of you know what I mean, when we're holding onto
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  Speaker 3: something so tightly we don't get to see what's coming
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  Speaker 3: our way. And so it's I've had I've let go,
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  Speaker 3: I let go completely, you know, cut chords and have
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  Speaker 3: shifted my energy and I feel good. And then also
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  Speaker 3: recognizing codependency and right relationships honestly, and that would be
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  Speaker 3: from childhood because I was not a person that had
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  Speaker 3: a lot of friends.
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  Speaker 2: I didn't.
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  Speaker 3: I had people I hung out with. I party with
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  Speaker 3: a lot of people. But I can tell you right now,
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  Speaker 3: I don't know any of those people. I don't I
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  Speaker 3: don't hang around those people. I don't even know if
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  Speaker 3: any of them are alive anymore. There's because a lot
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  Speaker 3: of them passed away over time. So it's kind of
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  Speaker 3: an interesting it's an interesting journey to go on this
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  Speaker 3: in this space. And it's funny when if I would
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  Speaker 3: have known when I was the kid keeping myse self
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  Speaker 3: still protected, I probably would maybe shifted a little bit earlier.
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  Speaker 2: Honestly, maybe I don't know.
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  Speaker 3: It's all divine timing, But when you think about that,
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  Speaker 3: with the hindsight, right, I think my life could have
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  Speaker 3: been so much better. I was holding on too, I
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  Speaker 3: was keeping myself in places that really weren't beneficial for
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  Speaker 3: my soul, but it was beneficial for my my three
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  Speaker 3: D growth, for my for my ego growth, for understanding,
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  Speaker 3: because I didn't have that understanding as a child.
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  Speaker 2: And so it's like Freeman told me just recently, it's
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  Speaker 2: like I've.
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  Speaker 3: Gone, I've been born again, and so now I'm learning
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  Speaker 3: all these new I'm learning how to walk again.
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  Speaker 2: I'm learning how to communicate, and I'm learning how.
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  Speaker 3: To experience emotions, and I'm learning all these things are
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  Speaker 3: like brand new to me.
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  Speaker 2: Everything is brand new.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah, And you in the last one, last video we
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  Speaker 1: just did, you talked about snakes, and this time you've
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  Speaker 1: talked about seeing snakes, and then later you said something
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  Speaker 1: about shedding the old, which is what snakes do. And
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  Speaker 1: it reminded me that this is for the Chinese year,
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  Speaker 1: this is the year of the snake, and it is
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  Speaker 1: also the year of numerology, numerologically number nine. So twenty
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  Speaker 1: twenty five two plus zero plus two plus five is nine.
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  Speaker 1: So it's the end of a cycle. It's the end
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  Speaker 1: of a it's wrapping up, Bennie Loosens, wrapping up unfinished
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  Speaker 1: business and taking care of that so then we can
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  Speaker 1: go into the next year. Refreshed and starting a new
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  Speaker 1: So next year, twenty twenty six will be a one
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  Speaker 1: which is new beginnings. And so a lot of people
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  Speaker 1: are probably feeling what you're feeling as far as shedding
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  Speaker 1: the old, shedding the skin, shedding like ready for that rebirth,
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  Speaker 1: which is what the snake does when it's coming out
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  Speaker 1: of that old shell of the skin and the death
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  Speaker 1: so nine like that, that's the death to the old,
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  Speaker 1: it's the end of the cycle. It's whatever that looks like.
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  Speaker 1: And as we talked about in the previous video, the
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  Speaker 1: death of the ego. And so there's a lot still
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  Speaker 1: It's been happening since twenty the end of twenty nineteen
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  Speaker 1: and then amped up in twenty twenty. But since then
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  Speaker 1: it's just this constant, height heightened amount of energy with
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  Speaker 1: different things happening around the world, different changes happening, different shifts,
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  Speaker 1: different people, different people of power, just all the things.
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  Speaker 1: And we're sensitive to that. And we when we look
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  Speaker 1: at the snake and just shedding and the nine year,
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  Speaker 1: and then you look at what's going on around the world,
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  Speaker 1: it's like, oh, kind of get it, like it all
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  Speaker 1: kind of in a sense makes sense. We can't completely
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  Speaker 1: wrap our head around the things that are happening and
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  Speaker 1: why they're doing what they're doing in all things, but
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  Speaker 1: just thinking about the symbolic symbolism of the nine and
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  Speaker 1: the snake and the shedding and all that. And if
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  Speaker 1: you're going, if you've decided to be on that journey
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  Speaker 1: of personal development or spiritual awakening or just ready to
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  Speaker 1: shift something in yourself, then yeah, you're going to be
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  Speaker 1: even more emotional, most likely not only because of your
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  Speaker 1: own experience, because but also with that amount of heightened
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  Speaker 1: energy that's happening right now or has been happening actually,
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  Speaker 1: and you gotta figure you gotta, I'm sorry, you gotta
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  Speaker 1: figure also that in all of that that's happening around
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  Speaker 1: the world, right, all the things that are happening, that
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  Speaker 1: the earth is shifting too energetically and we are energy
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  Speaker 1: and we're going to feel that also.
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  Speaker 2: So it's just there's just a lot.
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  Speaker 1: Happening that we're feeling. And then you add add that
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  Speaker 1: transformation for yourself and it's like how kind of ride
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  Speaker 1: did I decide to get on?
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  Speaker 3: And it's even let go the karmic stuff, right, it's
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  Speaker 3: not letting go of that, it's it's recognizing and learning
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  Speaker 3: from the karmic stuff because I've had that have I've
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  Speaker 3: had experiences come up, you know, and it's like it
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  Speaker 3: was like a domino effect. I had that one person
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  Speaker 3: leave and then I was like telling my group like, hey,
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  Speaker 3: group's done, and it's like then I pulled group together
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  Speaker 3: and and ask them, I say, hey, let's get together
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  Speaker 3: one last time for now, because I didn't even know
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  Speaker 3: I was going to be going through all this, but
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  Speaker 3: I don't I didn't have any more to give anyways.
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  Speaker 3: I couldn't have done group. Could it have benefited me
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  Speaker 3: in some ways? Yeah, but it was I needed to
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  Speaker 3: be where I'm at right now. And it's like I said,
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  Speaker 3: I'm you know, so, how did you guys feel when
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  Speaker 3: I said that to you? And one of the girls says,
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  Speaker 3: I felt like you punched me in the stomach. And
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  Speaker 3: I thought that's how I felt. But I thought my
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  Speaker 3: feeling wasn't valid you know, I did, so she kind
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  Speaker 3: of validated my feelings. But with all that happening now,
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  Speaker 3: one of the persons that was following a certain path,
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  Speaker 3: she's actually done this school, doing this stuff on the
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  Speaker 3: weekends to further her education and go do it and
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  Speaker 3: the other ones do it, you know, it's like, and
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  Speaker 3: then I'm going through my processes and stuff.
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  Speaker 2: It's like it's so.
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  Speaker 3: In that instant you don't know, but I found out karmically,
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  Speaker 3: So I bring up the karma stuff because I felt it.
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  Speaker 2: And then in turn, it's like, I've got one of
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  Speaker 2: my kids that are going to.
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  Speaker 3: Be going off to Hawaii at the end of June
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  Speaker 3: and a portion of July, a big portion of the
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  Speaker 3: front of the beginning.
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  Speaker 2: Then they'll be gone for nine days.
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  Speaker 3: But it's like, so we'll have the kids and you know, figuring,
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  Speaker 3: trying to figure out all that. And then all of
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  Speaker 3: a sudden, I was like, well, I don't know if
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  Speaker 3: I'm gonna be able to stay the nights because then
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  Speaker 3: I was going through so much here and I just
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  Speaker 3: want to I needed this structure of home and the
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  Speaker 3: safety of home in a lot of ways. And then
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  Speaker 3: I was like back now that and then that ricocheted
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  Speaker 3: down and now and then I'm affecting someone else kind
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  Speaker 3: of the same way that I was affected, so as
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  Speaker 3: being aware of how the decisions and the words that
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  Speaker 3: we use and the decisions that we make do have
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  Speaker 3: effect on other people. So it's like now I'm learning
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  Speaker 3: from all that. How can I better show up? How
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  Speaker 3: can I have these conversations? How can I be the
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  Speaker 3: best partner that I can possibly? How could I be
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  Speaker 3: the best grandmother? But how can I show up, you know,
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  Speaker 3: for my kids.
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  Speaker 2: And for their partners and for all that stuff.
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  Speaker 3: It's like, there's such a bigger picture, you know, how
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  Speaker 3: can I show up for the people that come to
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  Speaker 3: see me? And it's it's really been a lot of
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  Speaker 3: a process to look at a lot of this stuff
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  Speaker 3: and then to feel that to be in that space
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  Speaker 3: and recognize immediately that, oh, this is exactly how that
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  Speaker 3: person felt. Where I even reached out to other people
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  Speaker 3: because I had had closed off the group from a
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  Speaker 3: lot of other people earlier on until minimal because I
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  Speaker 3: was guided by spirit. I mean, that's what I was
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  Speaker 3: told to stop, and then I was told to people
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  Speaker 3: and that's exactly what I did, and then it got
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  Speaker 3: me all the way to this moment.
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  Speaker 2: So it's like I'll go back to the same thing.
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  Speaker 2: It's not holding onto things. Don't hold onto things.
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  Speaker 3: Know that everything's constantly changing because that's what it's supposed
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  Speaker 3: to do. Because I've wanted change. I have wanted this change,
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  Speaker 3: and so now I'm going through the process of what
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  Speaker 3: this change looks like, and then we'll see what it
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  Speaker 3: looks like once once I go through. You know, a
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  Speaker 3: lot of this, I would say, some of it's heavy
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  Speaker 3: and dense, you know, but it's but it's okay. I
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  Speaker 3: feel I feel grounded, even when I burned today. When
• 17:41
  Speaker 3: I went out today, which ironically we're around the full moon, right,
• 17:44
  Speaker 3: it's like, of course, of course this is coming up
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  Speaker 3: to the head like this. But I went out there
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  Speaker 3: and I burned it. I took off my.
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  Speaker 2: Shoes, I put my feet in the dirt.
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  Speaker 3: I made sure I had my hair all braided up
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  Speaker 3: in a butt on top of my head, all wrapped,
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  Speaker 3: and it's like I took it all the way down
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  Speaker 3: because I wanted to clear. I didn't want to hold
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  Speaker 3: onto anything. I want to let go of everything because
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  Speaker 3: it doesn't serve me. It doesn't serve me any longer.
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  Speaker 2: And I and I.
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  Speaker 3: Embrace whatever or however I'm going to be in the future.
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  Speaker 3: But I just know that my higher self will be
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  Speaker 3: guiding the show a little bit more than than.
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  Speaker 2: Than the ego BIV. Yeah, that's awesome.
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  Speaker 1: Kudos to you, sister, for going through that. And it's
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  Speaker 1: the it's the it's the again, as we talked in
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  Speaker 1: the previous recording, was about the ego, and it's the ego,
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  Speaker 1: the two year old temper tantrum saying don't leave me,
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  Speaker 1: don't let me go, hang on to me, you need me,
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  Speaker 1: I need you, right and and uh, and learning to
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  Speaker 1: not be in that space as often, to be in
• 18:56
  Speaker 1: that more loving, kind, compassionate space for yourself first and foremost, absolute,
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  Speaker 1: first and foremost. And that's a it's a learning process
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  Speaker 1: if you've not been in that space for like you've
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  Speaker 1: lived in the ego space for your entire life or
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  Speaker 1: most of your life, and that desire to change something
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  Speaker 1: like the internal is asking for a change, but the
• 19:22
  Speaker 1: ego doesn't want you to change, can't handle that, So
• 19:27
  Speaker 1: that temper tantrum comes out of dole. May give me
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  Speaker 1: what I want?
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  Speaker 3: Right, Yeah, And knowing that it was never about me
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  Speaker 3: in the first place, That was never about me, but
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  Speaker 3: it facilitated my growth, right, it really did it.
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  Speaker 2: And then also.
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  Speaker 3: Recognizing if people look at Kundalini, I'm also having a
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  Speaker 3: Cundalini rising at the same time. So I think it's
• 19:50
  Speaker 3: all interconnected. Because I've had just things that have happened
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  Speaker 3: for me and I know where I'm at. I'm in
• 19:56
  Speaker 3: the lower Chapras right now, and it's because what it's
• 19:58
  Speaker 3: clearing out and purging on a So I mean, that's just.
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  Speaker 2: My individual journey that I feel that it's going on.
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  Speaker 3: If anyone else is feels they resonate with that, they
• 20:08
  Speaker 3: can do some of their own research on a lot
• 20:10
  Speaker 3: of that information.
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  Speaker 1: But right and I don't want to go down this
• 20:15
  Speaker 1: rabbit hole because we have to wrap this up, but
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  Speaker 1: I just wanted to hit upon the the idea of
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  Speaker 1: when you're saying that you have you're wanting to show
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  Speaker 1: up better for other people. Sometimes that looks like pulling
• 20:33
  Speaker 1: back and focusing on you and regrouping and rejuvenating yourself
• 20:41
  Speaker 1: so then you can show up better for other people
• 20:44
  Speaker 1: and on the on the another point to that is
• 20:48
  Speaker 1: that when you said, you know, you had to let
• 20:53
  Speaker 1: the people know that I'm I'm stopping group, and when
• 20:57
  Speaker 1: you ask them how they felt about that, it's their
• 21:04
  Speaker 1: reaction and that's on them to discover why did I
• 21:09
  Speaker 1: feel that way? And it probably has to do with
• 21:11
  Speaker 1: abandonment and rejection and things like that based on their experience,
• 21:16
  Speaker 1: and at the same time, you're not responsible for their reaction.
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  Speaker 1: Maybe they needed that reaction so that they could go oh.
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  Speaker 1: So Like for me, for instance, I would look at
• 21:28
  Speaker 1: that and go, wow, I was really triggered by this.
• 21:30
  Speaker 1: Why did I feel like I got a gut punch?
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  Speaker 1: And I would explore that. And the reason I already
• 21:37
  Speaker 1: said was abandonment and rejection would be because I would
• 21:42
  Speaker 1: have felt like you abandoned me or you're rejecting me,
• 21:46
  Speaker 1: And that's my internal programming from childhood based on abandonment
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  Speaker 1: of my biological father and abuse by two stepdads, right,
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  Speaker 1: And so that would just be another way for that
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  Speaker 1: stuff to come up for me to look at it
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  Speaker 1: and go, Okay, I recognize that's still in me. Now
• 22:03
  Speaker 1: I can let this go and thank you so much.
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  Speaker 1: Now beb for the experience because it helped me heal
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  Speaker 1: another freaking layer that I thought I had done all
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  Speaker 1: the work on, but no, it's still in there, and
• 22:13
  Speaker 1: now it came up again. And because you said no
• 22:15
  Speaker 1: more group, I had this reaction like it's just now
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  Speaker 1: it's a blessing that you said no more group.
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  Speaker 2: Yeah, one hundred percent, one hundred percent.
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  Speaker 1: And it was so worth it.
• 22:27
  Speaker 2: It was so worth it. It was everything had its benefit.
• 22:30
  Speaker 3: Honestly, everything had its benefit for all of our growth,
• 22:32
  Speaker 3: The way that it went, the way that it finished,
• 22:34
  Speaker 3: the way that we're where we're at right now, everything
• 22:37
  Speaker 3: was a blessing. So and that also reassures me that
• 22:40
  Speaker 3: no matter what I'm going through right now, it's a blessing.
• 22:43
  Speaker 3: It is because I'm I'm going to be surprised and
• 22:47
  Speaker 3: delighted by the person that's on the other side of this.
• 22:50
  Speaker 1: And that trust in the faith. Again, we can't there's
• 22:52
  Speaker 1: so many, so many directions we could go with the
• 22:56
  Speaker 1: conversation we had, and we could spend hours having the
• 23:04
  Speaker 1: trust in faith. It's happening for a reason. And even
• 23:08
  Speaker 1: though I have even recently have lost that, not lost it,
• 23:13
  Speaker 1: but am being reminded of. How's that I'm being reminded of.
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  Speaker 1: It's happening for a reason. It's happening for a reason.
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  Speaker 1: It's okay, it's happening for a reason. Let's just flow
• 23:23
  Speaker 1: through this and see what happens on the other side.
• 23:26
  Speaker 1: Stop getting all balled up about it, Let it flow,
• 23:30
  Speaker 1: let it unfold. Stop controlling it. Even though you can't
• 23:34
  Speaker 1: control it. You think you can, but you can't. But
• 23:38
  Speaker 1: it's happening for a reason, and let's just see what happens.
• 23:41
  Speaker 2: And I have have.
• 23:46
  Speaker 1: Had memory loss on that trust in faith, and now
• 23:50
  Speaker 1: I'm coming back to it. And it's been very in
• 23:54
  Speaker 1: my face over the past week. So I'm too am
• 24:00
  Speaker 1: being reminded.
• 24:02
  Speaker 3: So I'm on my lotus flower and I'm floating on
• 24:05
  Speaker 3: the river right now.
• 24:08
  Speaker 1: The lotus flower that started in mud has now blossomed
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  Speaker 1: in this amazing thing and I'm fluting on it like
• 24:15
  Speaker 1: a little ferry.
• 24:16
  Speaker 2: That's right. I love it all right.
• 24:20
  Speaker 1: Friends, thanks for hanging out with us. Tea time with
• 24:23
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• 24:45
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• 24:48
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• 24:52
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• 24:55
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• 24:57
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• 25:00
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• 25:04
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• 25:07
  Speaker 1: development journeys, spiritual journeys, however you want to label it,
• 25:12
  Speaker 1: any final words.
• 25:13
  Speaker 3: I was just going to say, enjoy your beautiful journey,
• 25:15
  Speaker 3: and as I was thinking that, you were saying journey
• 25:18
  Speaker 3: at the same time, so I thought that's hilarious.
• 25:20
  Speaker 2: So there we are.
• 25:21
  Speaker 1: Got it.
• 25:21
  Speaker 2: I got you, I got you covered, you got me.
• 25:26
  Speaker 1: All right, my friends, Thanks for hanging out tea time
• 25:28
  Speaker 1: with Amy and Bed.
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  Speaker 2: We'll see you next time. Bye.