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This finds you when you're ready for peace. · Council of Kings

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  SPEAKER_00: There is no wrong emotion.
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  SPEAKER_00: There is no wrong sensation.
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  SPEAKER_00: Human life can be very painful.
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  SPEAKER_00: I'd imagine we've all felt that pain.
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  We are living on a planet that has been steeped in war and many
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  forms of violence
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  SPEAKER_00: and abuse for millennia.
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  SPEAKER_00: Most of our ancestors were
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  traumatized in one form or another and that pain and the
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  momentum of those karmic
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  inheritances lives in our bones lives in our cells and we are
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  presently being
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  SPEAKER_00: invited I would suggest there's an ever-present invitation to
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  SPEAKER_00: begin to reverse those millennia of momentum through awareness.
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  SPEAKER_00: Through awareness.
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  SPEAKER_00: And that is...
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  SPEAKER_00: No small task.
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  SPEAKER_00: No small task.
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  Because it involves literally peeling back so many layers and
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  leaving no stone
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  SPEAKER_00: unturned as we endeavor to bring loving awareness to all aspects
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  SPEAKER_00: of reality of being of ourselves.
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  SPEAKER_00: It's a very deep journey.
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  SPEAKER_00: And again,
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  it can be very challenging a lot of a lot of pain and
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  challenging emotions can
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  SPEAKER_00: occur can come up.
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  SPEAKER_00: And one of the deepest
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  tendencies that we have as human beings in our culture at least
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  is to make certain
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  emotions wrong certain sensations wrong oh I shouldn't be
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  feeling this I shouldn't
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  SPEAKER_00: be experiencing this pain right now maybe someday I can
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  SPEAKER_00: heal or awaken or transform.
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  SPEAKER_00: And then I'll be the person who doesn't feel this.
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  SPEAKER_00: And so we place our fulfillment and our dreams,
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  SPEAKER_00: our aspiration of healing or awakening on the horizon,
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  SPEAKER_00: on some ever-receding horizon.
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  SPEAKER_00: We often do this unconsciously.
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  SPEAKER_00: We don't realize the degree to which we're carrying this deep,
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  SPEAKER_00: deep unconscious resistance to the present moment and a deep,
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  SPEAKER_00: often unconscious belief that the present moment is not enough as it is.
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  SPEAKER_00: The present moment needs to change.
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  SPEAKER_00: We need to get somewhere else.
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  SPEAKER_00: The present moment is not enough in some way.
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  And this is one of the most fruitful areas for investigation in
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  my experience.
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  SPEAKER_00: After many years of deep journeying in the realms of healing,
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  SPEAKER_00: transformation and awakening,
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  it's really worth looking at that belief that something is
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  missing in this moment
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  SPEAKER_00: or that we need to get somewhere else.
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  because it can completely shift your orientation toward
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  everything if you really
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  start to deeply internalize that there is no wrong emotion
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  there is no wrong
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  sensation however this wholeness of now is showing up however
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  it's shining forth
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  SPEAKER_00: that's it that is the ocean that is
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  freedom in a profound sense,
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  expressing itself as whatever it happens to look like.
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  SPEAKER_00: And if you look closely at whatever that heaviness or that emotion is,
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  SPEAKER_00: if you close your eyes,
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  SPEAKER_00: for example,
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  SPEAKER_00: and you go into it,
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  SPEAKER_00: you go into it with a sense of HD clarity,
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  SPEAKER_00: you're almost zooming in on the naked vibratory sensations of
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  SPEAKER_00: whatever that emotion is,
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  you'll notice you've never experienced it before and you'll
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  never experience it
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  SPEAKER_00: again.
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  You'll discover that there is this continual dynamism where
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  whatever the present
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  SPEAKER_00: sensation is,
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  it is literally vibrating and undulating through itself with an
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  infinity of
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  SPEAKER_00: subtlety,
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  SPEAKER_00: an infinity of detail,
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  SPEAKER_00: an amount of detail that
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  SPEAKER_00: cannot be captured or pinned down or encapsulated.
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  SPEAKER_00: And it is shifting in every moment.
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  SPEAKER_00: It's not the same from one moment to the next.
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  So there is this continuous dynamism or what the Buddha called
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  impermanence.
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  SPEAKER_00: And if you go deeply,
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  SPEAKER_00: deeply into that impermanence as a moment to moment reality,
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  SPEAKER_00: you know,
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  SPEAKER_00: usually we think of impermanence in this kind of
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  SPEAKER_00: more abstract way of like,
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  SPEAKER_00: oh yeah,
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  someday the trees won't be here and someday my house won't be
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  there anymore.
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  SPEAKER_00: Someday my body won't be there anymore.
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  SPEAKER_00: I guess it's not necessarily abstract to say that,
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  SPEAKER_00: but it's a more far removed form of impermanence.
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  SPEAKER_00: It's like, oh, maybe someday I'll experience impermanence.
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  SPEAKER_00: But you are experiencing impermanence
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  SPEAKER_00: right now, in every moment.
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  SPEAKER_00: You've never seen this moment before.
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  SPEAKER_00: You've never seen me in this particular way.
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  SPEAKER_00: You've never felt yourself in this particular way.
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  SPEAKER_00: The room you're in has never looked precisely this way to you.
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  The way the light is playing upon the curtains,
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  the way the dust has accumulated on your desk.
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  SPEAKER_00: Different details have never been in that precise configuration.
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  SPEAKER_00: And there's a
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  There's a deep shift that can occur there because usually we
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  don't attend to that
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  SPEAKER_00: level of impermanence,
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  SPEAKER_00: even though there is this total dynamism,
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  SPEAKER_00: even though experience itself literally never stops changing.
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  SPEAKER_00: If you look closely, your entire field of awareness
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  is a vibratory field of continual percolating buzzingness you
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  know you can't really
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  say what it is but you can notice this if you just if you just
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  close your eyes and
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  you feel your body and you feel that dancing aliveness within
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  the body there is
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  SPEAKER_00: this kind of
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  SPEAKER_00: again,
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  SPEAKER_00: undulating,
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  SPEAKER_00: percolating,
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  SPEAKER_00: vibratory quality,
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  SPEAKER_00: this buzzingness,
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  SPEAKER_00: this aliveness,
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  SPEAKER_00: and it's not standing still,
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  SPEAKER_00: is it?
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  SPEAKER_00: It's continually morphing, it's continually shifting.
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  SPEAKER_00: Similarly,
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  SPEAKER_00: if you go into the light dancing immediately behind your eyelids,
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  or in the space we would usually think of as behind our eyelids
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  with our eyes
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  SPEAKER_00: closed,
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  SPEAKER_00: you can notice unimaginably intricate,
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  SPEAKER_00: unpindownable patterns of
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  SPEAKER_00: light energy,
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  SPEAKER_00: light information,
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  SPEAKER_00: continually dancing,
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  SPEAKER_00: morphing,
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  SPEAKER_00: shifting in the space immediately behind the eyes.
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  SPEAKER_00: And good luck ever trying to say what that is.
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  You could write a million treatises about one moment of it and
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  you wouldn't be able
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  SPEAKER_00: to pin down what that infinity of light information and detail is.
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  SPEAKER_00: And before you could ever hope to pin it down,
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  SPEAKER_00: it's already something else,
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  SPEAKER_00: now and now and now.
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  SPEAKER_00: This becomes very clear with the light-behind-the-eyes example, I find.
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  SPEAKER_00: If you just look at that,
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  SPEAKER_00: it's obvious that there's an almost...
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  SPEAKER_00: Not an almost,
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  SPEAKER_00: there is an infinite degree of pixelation,
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  SPEAKER_00: a non-finite,
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  SPEAKER_00: unquantifiable degree of detail...
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  SPEAKER_00: and pixelation there,
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  and it is continuously morphing and shape-shifting into
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  fathomless patterns,
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  SPEAKER_00: patternless patterns of strangeness,
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  SPEAKER_00: and we don't know what that is.
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  SPEAKER_00: You usually just write it off as noise in the machine,
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  SPEAKER_00: some kind of function of my optic nerve or something,
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  SPEAKER_00: you know,
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  SPEAKER_00: we assume the scientists have figured it out,
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  SPEAKER_00: but nobody...
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  SPEAKER_00: Nobody knows what that is.
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  SPEAKER_00: Nobody knows what anything is in a very, very deep sense.
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  SPEAKER_00: As Carl Sagan put it,
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  SPEAKER_00: in order to bake an apple pie from scratch,
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  SPEAKER_00: you must first invent the universe.
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  SPEAKER_00: In order to truly say what this is,
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  SPEAKER_00: something we would usually just say,
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  SPEAKER_00: oh yeah,
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  SPEAKER_00: that's a stick,
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  SPEAKER_00: I know what that is.
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  SPEAKER_00: But do you really know what it is?
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  SPEAKER_00: Because the stick could not exist without the tree.
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  SPEAKER_00: And the tree could not exist without the earth.
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  SPEAKER_00: And the earth could not exist without the galaxy.
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  SPEAKER_00: And the galaxy could not exist without the cosmos.
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  And the cosmos could not exist without whatever the mysterious
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  substratum is that
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  SPEAKER_00: exists as and holds everything.
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  SPEAKER_00: You know, this infinite energy.
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  SPEAKER_00: this infinite oceanic wholeness.
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  SPEAKER_00: And so in order to truly say what this stick is,
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  SPEAKER_00: you would have to actually say what this total infinite mystery is,
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  SPEAKER_00: this totality,
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  SPEAKER_00: this vastness.
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  SPEAKER_00: Because the stick is not separate from the vastness.
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  SPEAKER_00: The stick is a function of the vastness, an emanation of the vastness.
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  It came forth from the vastness like a wave on the ocean,
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  and it is the ocean.
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  SPEAKER_00: So to say what anything is, you'd really need to say what everything is.
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  SPEAKER_00: And I would suggest to you that no one can do that,
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  not because we don't have sufficiently sophisticated
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  instruments yet to be able to
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  SPEAKER_00: measure it and pin it down,
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  SPEAKER_00: but because it cannot be pinned down.
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  SPEAKER_00: There is a
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  SPEAKER_00: an intrinsic quality within this nowness,
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  SPEAKER_00: within whatever this is,
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  SPEAKER_00: that prevents it from ever being pinned down or encapsulated.
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  It is unpindownable,
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  you could say,
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  or transpindownable,
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  beyond what could be pinned down.
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  SPEAKER_00: It is inherently and fundamentally mysterious.
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  SPEAKER_00: Inherently and fundamentally mysterious.
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  SPEAKER_00: And...
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  SPEAKER_00: This type of thing becomes apparent in direct experience when you,
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  SPEAKER_00: for example,
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  look at that dancing light behind the eyelids or you just
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  really notice the taste
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  of chocolate or the taste of a slice of pizza and you notice
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  how it doesn't just
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  SPEAKER_00: have one taste,
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  there's a continual morphing and shifting and it's an
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  effulgence and an explosion
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  SPEAKER_00: of richness
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  from all angles dancing through itself continuously gyrating
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  morphing shifting
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  dynamically and those are those might be some of the spaces
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  where it's easier to
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  notice but as you start to notice this you can notice that it
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  applies to the full
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  SPEAKER_00: field of experience if you look closely at anything
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  SPEAKER_00: If you look at your hand for five minutes,
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  SPEAKER_00: your hand's going to start doing a whole bunch of weird morphy things.
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  SPEAKER_00: If you look at your face in the mirror for five minutes,
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  SPEAKER_00: your face is going to start doing a whole bunch of weird morphy things.
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  But even if you just look at your hand for a moment and you
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  really look and you
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  SPEAKER_00: really open yourself to the level of detail,
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  SPEAKER_00: you can notice that
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  SPEAKER_00: it doesn't stay precisely the same from moment to moment.
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  SPEAKER_00: Of course,
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  SPEAKER_00: through a scientific lens,
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  we have this understanding that what you're looking at is
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  mostly empty space and
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  that there's atoms and electrons and whatever else continuously
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  bouncing around.
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  But even without that more zoomed-in microscope perspective,
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  can you notice that
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  SPEAKER_00: For one, your hand doesn't sit completely still.
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  SPEAKER_00: It's moving.
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  SPEAKER_00: Like your body is likely slightly moving, at least microscopically.
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  SPEAKER_00: But on top of that...
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  SPEAKER_00: the subtle coloration of the hand,
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  the subtle way the light plays upon the hand is not sitting
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  completely still.
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  SPEAKER_00: And really the whole field of vision,
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  SPEAKER_00: the whole field of vision,
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  SPEAKER_00: if you look very,
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  SPEAKER_00: very closely,
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  SPEAKER_00: it all has this buzzing quality that is,
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  it's easiest to see if you close your eyes and look at the
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  space behind the
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  SPEAKER_00: eyelids,
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  SPEAKER_00: you see this,
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  SPEAKER_00: these infinite degrees of
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  unpatterned patternness,
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  these infinite degrees of pixelation,
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  morphing,
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  shifting,
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  and dancing.
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  But if you look closely at your hand or at anything,
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  you find that same phenomenon there.
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  SPEAKER_00: You find it in the field.
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  of sound you find it in the field of touch you find it in the
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  field of smell you
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  find it in every sense field that we arbitrarily designate you
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  know we we use
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  categories to divide everything up and claim oh yeah there's
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  the field of vision
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  SPEAKER_00: and the field of sound but really
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  SPEAKER_00: There's just one continuum,
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  one continuum of buzzing vibratory aliveness that includes all
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  the different sense
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  SPEAKER_00: fields we usually acknowledge and includes
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  vast bandwidths of other sense dimensions that are not usually
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  acknowledged in the
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  SPEAKER_00: kind of default paradigm.
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  SPEAKER_00: You know,
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  whole vistas of subtle vibes and revelatory and mystical and
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  astral and strange
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  SPEAKER_00: phenomena.
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  I mean,
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  it's possible to have experiences as a human being where you
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  literally feel like
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  you've died and the universe has died and everything has
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  completely dissolved into
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  a field of pure vibrating infinite light love intelligence
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  beyond all reckoning or
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  SPEAKER_00: even a sense of dissolving beyond that into a into a spaceless space of
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  SPEAKER_00: pre-vibratory stillness just utter and total purity beyond all
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  beyond all description and all those different all those
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  different sense dimensions
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  are all present here now it's just a question of what what are
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  we tuning into you
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  know these these dimensions of of subtle vibes and mystical
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  phenomena um revelatory
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  SPEAKER_00: and samadhi and cessation type of experiences
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  They're all literally present right now in and as this
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  mysterious field of nowness
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  SPEAKER_00: that,
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  SPEAKER_00: again,
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  SPEAKER_00: we don't know what it is.
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  SPEAKER_00: So there are vast,
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  vast vistas of this vibratory field that are outside of the
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  usual bandwidth of
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  perception that most people live within because our society
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  deeply conditions us to
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  SPEAKER_00: pay attention only to a very narrow bandwidth of perception.
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  SPEAKER_00: And even that bandwidth, we don't really pay attention to it.
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  SPEAKER_00: We really kind of dumb it down in a sense.
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  We layer it with all of these conceptual overlays such that we
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  turn it into something mundane.
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  SPEAKER_00: Like, oh yeah, this is just a forest.
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  SPEAKER_00: These are just trees.
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  SPEAKER_00: This is just a stick.
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  SPEAKER_00: This is just a pine cone.
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  SPEAKER_00: I'm just me.
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  SPEAKER_00: Life is life, whatever.
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  SPEAKER_00: And it's like,
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  no no you know look around you no one knows what this is what
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  what is going on here
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  this is this is not just a tree it's a it's a textural
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  experience and effulgence a
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  SPEAKER_00: uh an anomalous enigmatic gesturing uh that is that is
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  presenting itself or imposing itself upon apparently some
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  floating field of
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  SPEAKER_00: lucidity,
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  SPEAKER_00: some form of lucidity,
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  SPEAKER_00: some form of clarity,
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  SPEAKER_00: some form of awareness.
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  SPEAKER_00: And, you know, again, we usually really...
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  dumb that down and we just say oh yeah i'm a human being and
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  you know somehow my
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  brain has awareness and i'm just looking through my eyes right
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  now and this is just
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  another day but if you if you start to go to the direct
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  experiential reality things
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  SPEAKER_00: get a lot weirder really fast i mean you can notice for example that
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  SPEAKER_00: The past is nowhere to be found.
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  SPEAKER_00: The future is nowhere to be found.
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  SPEAKER_00: It's always only now.
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  You never actually see your own head unless you're looking in a
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  mirror or looking
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  SPEAKER_00: in a camera,
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  SPEAKER_00: looking at your reflection somewhere.
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  SPEAKER_00: Your actual experience most of the time is more like
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  SPEAKER_00: Like if you look down, you see, you know, what appears to be a body.
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  SPEAKER_00: And otherwise,
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  there's just this kind of space of pure openness where
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  phenomena are kind of
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  SPEAKER_00: kaleidoscopically moving and morphing around.
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  SPEAKER_00: And the continual dynamism,
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  the continual impermanence becomes even more clear if you're on
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  a train or you're
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  SPEAKER_00: going for a walk.
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  And you can really just look at how everything is continuously
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  melting away all around you.
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  SPEAKER_00: And where does it go?
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  SPEAKER_00: Where does it go when it melts away?
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  SPEAKER_00: You know,
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  SPEAKER_00: we usually think,
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  SPEAKER_00: oh yeah,
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  SPEAKER_00: you know,
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  SPEAKER_00: that's just in the past now or that's still there.
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  SPEAKER_00: I'm just not seeing it now.
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  SPEAKER_00: It's still somewhere over there.
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  SPEAKER_00: But do you actually know that?
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  SPEAKER_00: What is the empirical fact of your experience?
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  And I'm not even trying to make any metaphysical claim now
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  about whether...
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  SPEAKER_00: things are still there when they're not in our immediate awareness.
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  I'm just inviting a looking at the direct empirical fact that
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  we really don't know
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  SPEAKER_00: because you've never stepped outside of your immediate experience.
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  SPEAKER_00: Have you?
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  SPEAKER_00: You know, look for yourself and see.
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  SPEAKER_00: This is an invitation to look for yourself.
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  This is not a dispensation of dogmatic beliefs that I'm asking
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  you to take on.
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  SPEAKER_00: This is an invitation to explore freshness.
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  SPEAKER_00: to explore freshness.
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  SPEAKER_00: Um, cause this moment is fresh.
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  SPEAKER_00: This moment is new.
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  SPEAKER_00: This moment has never been seen before.
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  SPEAKER_00: And it's, it's utterly astounding and we don't know what it is.
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  And going back to the very beginning of this video and how this
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  all connects to
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  SPEAKER_00: like,
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  SPEAKER_00: Oh,
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  SPEAKER_00: well,
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  SPEAKER_00: yeah,
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  SPEAKER_00: that's all fine and good,
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  SPEAKER_00: but I feel like shit right now.
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  SPEAKER_00: What if I'm having a shitty day?
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  SPEAKER_00: Then
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  SPEAKER_00: The invitation is to get curious about that.
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  SPEAKER_00: What does that actually mean?
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  SPEAKER_00: I'm having a shitty day.
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  SPEAKER_00: Maybe you are on some level,
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  but that's an optional story that you're latching onto that's
• 21:46
  then coloring your
• 21:47
  SPEAKER_00: whole experience.
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  SPEAKER_00: What if you go into the detail more?
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  SPEAKER_00: What if you pick up a pine cone and you just stare at it for a while?
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  minutes and just let it reveal itself to you as a pure mystery
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  i mean there's a
• 22:03
  tiny there's a tiny mushroom growing on this pine cone it looks
• 22:08
  like something from
• 22:09
  another planet and it has almost a snowflake like pattern on
• 22:13
  the underside of it
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  and there's something that looks almost like seaweed growing
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  here on this pine cone
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  SPEAKER_00: and oh that looks like possible uh
• 22:24
  bird defecation or something probably don't want to touch that
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  and there's a tiny
• 22:28
  tiny insect crawling on the pine cone and you know the the gist
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  of what I'm saying
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  there is that you're locked into a story that you're having a
• 22:39
  shitty day meanwhile
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  an infinite mystery of richness is exploding forth all around
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  you at all times and
• 22:48
  SPEAKER_00: you have the option always to redirect attention away from
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  a little kind of pity party story of,
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  oh,
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  my life sucks and I don't feel good right now.
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  SPEAKER_00: And you can just redirect it toward freshness.
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  SPEAKER_00: Go to immediate experience as a mysterious wellspring of bizarreness,
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  SPEAKER_00: of strangeness,
• 23:13
  SPEAKER_00: and bask in the weirdness.
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  SPEAKER_00: Get curious about the weirdness.
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  SPEAKER_00: Let yourself be seduced by...
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  SPEAKER_00: Anything and everything.
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  SPEAKER_00: Go stare at a cloud.
• 23:23
  SPEAKER_00: Go hug a tree.
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  SPEAKER_00: Go look at the sky.
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  And that can really start to open something up because so much
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  of our pain and
• 23:39
  suffering in this life comes from being locked into these very
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  small stories that
• 23:44
  SPEAKER_00: we grab onto,
• 23:45
  SPEAKER_00: that we fixate onto,
• 23:46
  SPEAKER_00: that we get really stuck inside of.
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  SPEAKER_00: where we're like,
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  things are definitely this way and I'm holding it so tightly
• 23:54
  that it's definitely
• 23:55
  SPEAKER_00: this way.
• 23:56
  SPEAKER_00: And because it's so tightly this way,
• 23:59
  I have to feel really bad about it because this means that I
• 24:02
  suck and I'm an idiot
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  SPEAKER_00: and I messed up and I did the thing again and I'm no good.
• 24:08
  SPEAKER_00: And do you know that any of that is really true?
• 24:14
  SPEAKER_00: Can you be absolutely sure that those stories are true?
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  what are the unexamined beliefs that are underlying so much of
• 24:21
  your suffering?
• 24:22
  SPEAKER_00: And are you sure that those are true?
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  And are you sure that those are even a big part of your actual
• 24:30
  experience?
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  Or are they just like a tiny little piece of dust going on at
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  the level of mental activity?
• 24:39
  SPEAKER_00: Meanwhile, there's a
• 24:40
  there's a shebang of cosmic nectar literally presenting itself
• 24:45
  to you as a,
• 24:47
  SPEAKER_00: as a,
• 24:52
  SPEAKER_00: as a vista of pure gorgeousness,
• 24:55
  SPEAKER_00: as a pure Monet hyper fresco,
• 24:59
  SPEAKER_00: a Michelangelo at all times,
• 25:02
  SPEAKER_00: hyper immersive tapestry,
• 25:05
  of immediacy and you are that tapestry everything you've ever
• 25:09
  taken to be yourself
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  is that tapestry and who is the one truly witnessing that
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  tapestry is it just you
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  SPEAKER_00: as as a small being in a monkey suit is is this phenomena of
• 25:33
  apparently all-encompassing continuous lucidity really just
• 25:38
  localized here in the
• 25:41
  brain is it just an emergent property of brains or is is there
• 25:46
  a field of lucidity
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  SPEAKER_00: here that goes beyond what a
• 25:56
  finite brain could produce is there a field of lucidity that
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  when when when you
• 26:02
  kind of drop back out in a sense out it can then go back in too
• 26:08
  but there's a
• 26:09
  period of time where it can be helpful to almost feel like
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  you're stepping out of
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  the world and stepping into this transcendent witnessing
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  consciousness and when you
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  start to learn how to just rest as that pure awareness that
• 26:22
  pure consciousness
• 26:24
  SPEAKER_00: You can discover a level of repose,
• 26:27
  SPEAKER_00: of neutrality,
• 26:29
  SPEAKER_00: of all-embracing light shining as that pure consciousness.
• 26:36
  SPEAKER_00: And it's ever-present.
• 26:38
  SPEAKER_00: It is the light of your own experience right now.
• 26:42
  SPEAKER_00: It's what is illuminating your experience right now.
• 26:46
  SPEAKER_00: Look at what is looking.
• 26:48
  SPEAKER_00: Look at what is looking, you know.
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  Yeah,
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  like Meister Eckhart said something like,
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  God is the one who looks through my eyes.
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  SPEAKER_00: And,
• 27:05
  SPEAKER_00: you know,
• 27:05
  SPEAKER_00: you don't need to take a pointer like that and concretize it into like,
• 27:08
  SPEAKER_00: oh,
• 27:08
  SPEAKER_00: okay,
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  I need to have a new dogmatic belief system that God is like
• 27:12
  looking through my
• 27:13
  SPEAKER_00: eyes.
• 27:14
  SPEAKER_00: It's just like, it's a pointer that can be an opening.
• 27:18
  SPEAKER_00: It can open something.
• 27:19
  SPEAKER_00: You can be like, wait, what is me?
• 27:22
  SPEAKER_00: I've taken myself to be this small skin encapsulated person
• 27:26
  SPEAKER_00: monkey ego,
• 27:27
  SPEAKER_00: this kind of homunculus living inside of this monkey suit,
• 27:31
  SPEAKER_00: kind of pulling levers and moving around.
• 27:34
  SPEAKER_00: But is that really what I am?
• 27:36
  SPEAKER_00: Is that all that's going on here?
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  And is it possible that that way of seeing that that belief is
• 27:42
  actually causing me
• 27:43
  SPEAKER_00: to feel like a perpetually afraid and insecure and unworthy
• 27:50
  SPEAKER_00: slave who has to jump through 8,000 hoops to maybe someday be enough?
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  Is it possible that I could start to question my deepest
• 28:01
  assumptions and identities
• 28:03
  SPEAKER_00: and I could start to
• 28:05
  experience life freshly not from a place of adding new
• 28:09
  spiritual beliefs but from a
• 28:11
  place of subtracting beliefs identities and ideas and seeing
• 28:15
  what remains what
• 28:17
  remains when you're not believing anything what remains when
• 28:21
  you're not believing
• 28:22
  anything or identifying as anything things start to get really
• 28:25
  really interesting
• 28:29
  And this is kind of the good news that when you do this
• 28:32
  immediate experience starts
• 28:35
  SPEAKER_00: to feel less like a cage where you're a small being in a,
• 28:42
  SPEAKER_00: in a giant cold void and you've got to,
• 28:46
  SPEAKER_00: you know,
• 28:48
  SPEAKER_00: Hunker down and straighten up,
• 28:52
  SPEAKER_00: put on your,
• 28:54
  SPEAKER_00: you know,
• 28:54
  put on your costume and go check all these boxes and what does
• 28:58
  this all mean?
• 28:59
  SPEAKER_00: And it starts to feel more like, whoa, I don't even know.
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  SPEAKER_00: I don't even know what I am.
• 29:06
  SPEAKER_00: I don't know what any of this is.
• 29:08
  SPEAKER_00: But it's juicy, it's effulgent, it's luscious, it's rich, it's dripping.
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  There seems to be an infinity of artistry all around me that is
• 29:19
  greeting and
• 29:21
  SPEAKER_00: pummeling and whamboozling awareness continuously.
• 29:29
  SPEAKER_00: Wow, can I just drink that in?
• 29:31
  SPEAKER_00: Can I get a little bit drunk on astonishment?
• 29:37
  SPEAKER_00: And you start to discover that there is a...
• 29:42
  SPEAKER_00: When our fixed beliefs and ideas about what this is are relinquished,
• 29:48
  SPEAKER_00: we start to discover this intrinsic,
• 29:52
  SPEAKER_00: primal quality of this nowness that feels like wholeness.
• 29:59
  SPEAKER_00: That feels like rest.
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  SPEAKER_00: That feels like repose.
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  equipoise,
• 30:07
  intrinsic enoughness,
• 30:10
  intrinsic overflow,
• 30:12
  intrinsic plenitude.
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  SPEAKER_00: Nothing missing in this moment.
• 30:15
  SPEAKER_00: This moment is complete.
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  And you don't have to turn this into a new belief system or a
• 30:22
  new metaphysics,
• 30:24
  SPEAKER_00: and yet you can begin to
• 30:28
  have a very deep emerging sense in your heart and in your
• 30:32
  experience that it just
• 30:35
  SPEAKER_00: resounds experientially to the degree that it changes you deeply.
• 30:39
  And it doesn't matter if it's codified as a belief system
• 30:43
  because you're just like,
• 30:43
  SPEAKER_00: whoa,
• 30:47
  SPEAKER_00: life is good.
• 30:48
  SPEAKER_00: I trust life.
• 30:49
  SPEAKER_00: I can trust life.
• 30:50
  SPEAKER_00: Life is complete now.
• 30:53
  SPEAKER_00: Life is okay now.
• 30:55
  SPEAKER_00: I don't even know if I'm really here anymore.
• 30:59
  I seem to just be this space of vastness where everything is
• 31:06
  percolating and
• 31:07
  SPEAKER_00: occurring of its own accord.
• 31:10
  SPEAKER_00: I can just be still and everything continues to happen.
• 31:13
  SPEAKER_00: Life is doing itself.
• 31:14
  SPEAKER_00: No maintenance required.
• 31:15
  SPEAKER_00: There seems to be an unimaginable,
• 31:18
  SPEAKER_00: intrinsic imagination and intelligence at play within this space
• 31:26
  SPEAKER_00: hyperfield of dimensionality, texture, and artistry.
• 31:31
  SPEAKER_00: I seem to be utterly at one with this oceanic artistry.
• 31:36
  SPEAKER_00: I am this artistry.
• 31:37
  SPEAKER_00: This artistry is me.
• 31:40
  SPEAKER_00: I am the ocean.
• 31:41
  SPEAKER_00: The ocean is the wave.
• 31:44
  And the intrinsic experiential quality and flavorfulness of
• 31:51
  this kind of direct noticing is
• 31:56
  kind of like a the proof is in the pudding type moment the
• 31:59
  experiential quality of
• 32:03
  this is one which really really deeply feels like life is
• 32:10
  affirming and confirming
• 32:12
  to you that yes it is an infinite transcendental loving
• 32:17
  intelligence you are a
• 32:19
  SPEAKER_00: child of that intelligence you are an emanation of that intelligence and
• 32:24
  SPEAKER_00: You are that intelligence.
• 32:26
  SPEAKER_00: You just purely are that field of indestructible light intelligence.
• 32:33
  SPEAKER_00: You are beyond birth and death, beyond time and space.
• 32:36
  SPEAKER_00: You will exist for all of eternity, which is beyond time and right now.
• 32:43
  SPEAKER_00: Eternity is now.
• 32:44
  SPEAKER_00: This is totality now.
• 32:47
  If you're touching any part of the ocean,
• 32:49
  you're touching the whole ocean.
• 32:51
  And there's just this sense of vastness and a melting into what
• 32:57
  feels like a direct
• 33:00
  SPEAKER_00: confirmation of experiential truth.
• 33:04
  SPEAKER_00: And again, it's really lovely that this doesn't need to be
• 33:13
  codified as a belief system it doesn't need to be turned into a
• 33:17
  new dogma you know
• 33:18
  that's been the the historic shadow of a lot of religious
• 33:23
  systems is that they're
• 33:24
  always based on the direct realization of some great sage or
• 33:29
  mystic who realized
• 33:31
  SPEAKER_00: transcendental vastness right now as an experiential reality
• 33:35
  SPEAKER_00: But then the words of that great sage,
• 33:39
  SPEAKER_00: mystic,
• 33:39
  SPEAKER_00: seer,
• 33:40
  SPEAKER_00: or avatar are then codified and believed in as a dogma,
• 33:45
  SPEAKER_00: and they get heavily misinterpreted.
• 33:48
  SPEAKER_00: As soon as you believe in a statement as a dogma,
• 33:51
  SPEAKER_00: and you feel like,
• 33:52
  SPEAKER_00: yes,
• 33:52
  SPEAKER_00: it's this way,
• 33:53
  SPEAKER_00: yes,
• 33:54
  SPEAKER_00: it's just this way,
• 33:55
  SPEAKER_00: and we've fixed it down,
• 33:56
  SPEAKER_00: and yes,
• 33:59
  SPEAKER_00: there's this one way to truth,
• 34:00
  SPEAKER_00: and we found it,
• 34:01
  SPEAKER_00: we have a monopoly on it.
• 34:05
  SPEAKER_00: That misses the mark.
• 34:10
  SPEAKER_00: That's coming from a sense of fear and grasping.
• 34:15
  SPEAKER_00: It's not coming from the direct openness to vastness.
• 34:18
  SPEAKER_00: And then it propagates itself as...
• 34:24
  neurosis within that religious system and very often tragically
• 34:29
  it has led to many
• 34:31
  people killing one another just because those you know they're
• 34:34
  killing people who
• 34:35
  have other religious systems or who don't align with their
• 34:39
  religious system or who
• 34:40
  feel like a threat to their religious system so yeah it's it's
• 34:45
  very sad how that
• 34:47
  SPEAKER_00: happens it's also
• 34:51
  understandable and I don't condemn it because there's this deep
• 34:55
  mystery of karmic
• 34:59
  SPEAKER_00: proclivities unfolding as they will.
• 35:02
  SPEAKER_00: There are these deep cycles of separation and unity,
• 35:06
  SPEAKER_00: forgetfulness and remembrance that we seem to be,
• 35:10
  SPEAKER_00: that seem to present themselves within the deep time of this
• 35:16
  SPEAKER_00: of what feels like an ultimately timeless emanation of pure infinity.
• 35:20
  SPEAKER_00: There are these deep cycles and for whatever reason,
• 35:24
  SPEAKER_00: this transcendent intelligence,
• 35:30
  SPEAKER_00: this field of now seems to have a propensity for
• 35:34
  going on these kind of grand hyper shakespearean journeys of
• 35:39
  looking at itself from
• 35:40
  infinite angles forgetting itself from infinite angles and
• 35:44
  playing every role in a
• 35:46
  in an elaborate theater play of epic epic proportions only to
• 35:50
  then eventually
• 35:51
  SPEAKER_00: remember itself time and again um
• 35:58
  SPEAKER_00: And,
• 35:59
  SPEAKER_00: you know,
• 36:00
  it seems to be exploring itself through this and to be learning
• 36:04
  deep lessons
• 36:05
  through this about what is possible to learn through journeys
• 36:10
  of sacramental
• 36:12
  SPEAKER_00: incarnation and apparent separation and forgetfulness and
• 36:19
  SPEAKER_00: And who knows what this is all driving toward, you know?
• 36:23
  Sometimes I've had very deep feelings that it's all driving
• 36:26
  toward some kind of
• 36:28
  SPEAKER_00: apokatastasis,
• 36:29
  SPEAKER_00: to use the ancient Greek word,
• 36:30
  SPEAKER_00: a universal redemption,
• 36:33
  SPEAKER_00: universal salvation,
• 36:34
  SPEAKER_00: universal liberation,
• 36:36
  SPEAKER_00: where everything is subsumed fully back into creation.
• 36:40
  SPEAKER_00: the inmost burning heart of grace,
• 36:43
  SPEAKER_00: the inmost burning heart of God,
• 36:44
  and we all utterly and fully return home to pure and total God
• 36:50
  realization and God
• 36:52
  SPEAKER_00: remembrance?
• 36:55
  SPEAKER_00: Who knows?
• 36:56
  SPEAKER_00: Maybe.
• 36:57
  SPEAKER_00: Maybe that's happening right now as well.
• 36:59
  Maybe on a deep level,
• 37:01
  apokatastasis is every moment through a great paradox.
• 37:06
  SPEAKER_00: Maybe the
• 37:07
  SPEAKER_00: the pure sun of Apocatastasis,
• 37:09
  universal liberation is always ever presently shining and just
• 37:15
  simply seems to be
• 37:16
  SPEAKER_00: veiled by these wispy clouds of Maya,
• 37:20
  SPEAKER_00: these clouds of essentially concretized beliefs,
• 37:25
  SPEAKER_00: frozen belief systems that lock us into small boxes and prevent us from
• 37:32
  opening opening to vastness opening to radiance um opening to
• 37:39
  the diamond heart of
• 37:41
  SPEAKER_00: of buddha nature of christ's nature hmm
• 37:55
  SPEAKER_00: And who knows,
• 37:56
  SPEAKER_00: maybe there will be some eventual moment of total salvation,
• 38:01
  SPEAKER_00: total liberation,
• 38:02
  SPEAKER_00: total redemption beyond what could have ever been imagined.
• 38:05
  SPEAKER_00: And we'll all be subsumed into a completely unthinkable heaven realm.
• 38:13
  SPEAKER_00: And we'll abide there in a state of unbelief.
• 38:20
  unheard of repose and peace and love and harmony for endless
• 38:26
  eons until the moment
• 38:29
  SPEAKER_00: where this totality,
• 38:32
  SPEAKER_00: our heart of hearts,
• 38:33
  SPEAKER_00: spontaneously chooses,
• 38:37
  SPEAKER_00: chooses,
• 38:37
  SPEAKER_00: we all choose spontaneously once again to
• 38:41
  SPEAKER_00: Well,
• 38:42
  maybe let's have another mega cycle of incarnating as infinite
• 38:49
  universes of
• 38:50
  SPEAKER_00: forgetfulness and remembrance.
• 38:52
  SPEAKER_00: That was kind of fun.
• 38:54
  It was pretty intense,
• 38:55
  but it was interesting,
• 38:57
  and we learned a lot from that.
• 39:02
  SPEAKER_00: Who knows?
• 39:03
  SPEAKER_00: Who knows?
• 39:04
  SPEAKER_00: But again, the nice thing is you don't have to know.
• 39:09
  SPEAKER_00: In a way, non-knowing is the deepest freedom.
• 39:13
  SPEAKER_00: When you're free from grasping after beliefs and feeling like,
• 39:17
  SPEAKER_00: I need this crystallized,
• 39:20
  SPEAKER_00: fixed,
• 39:20
  SPEAKER_00: frozen belief system in order to feel okay.
• 39:24
  SPEAKER_00: What if you just pop that bubble?
• 39:28
  And the belief systems crack like an egg on top of your head
• 39:34
  and the yolk just runs
• 39:35
  SPEAKER_00: down and they just dribble and drift away and you let the light in,
• 39:41
  SPEAKER_00: unadulterated,
• 39:43
  SPEAKER_00: unencapsulated.
• 39:46
  luminosity of pure vastness you let it in through the crown and
• 39:49
  through the heart
• 39:50
  down into the solar plexus down into the belly down into the
• 39:54
  root down through your
• 39:55
  legs and feet and you kiss the earth with every step as all of
• 39:59
  this old karma and
• 40:02
  density leaks out of your body down into the earth and you
• 40:05
  gradually experientially
• 40:08
  SPEAKER_00: feel more and more like pure light pure radiance pure luminosity
• 40:15
  SPEAKER_00: What if?
• 40:16
  SPEAKER_00: What if?
• 40:18
  So,
• 40:21
  essentially all of this is to say there's a different way of
• 40:25
  living life.
• 40:25
  SPEAKER_00: There's a different possibility available.
• 40:28
  An unimaginably simple freedom that is ever present in your
• 40:32
  experience right now.
• 40:36
  SPEAKER_00: I did happen to write a book about this at one point.
• 40:39
  called simple freedom so feel welcome to look into that if
• 40:42
  you're curious um it's a
• 40:45
  short book of poetry and um yeah there is a different way of
• 40:54
  living life a
• 40:55
  SPEAKER_00: different um a different possibility and it begins with
• 41:05
  opening to immediate experience as a finality,
• 41:10
  as an end in itself,
• 41:11
  not as a means to an end.
• 41:12
  We're so habitually conditioned to overlook the now and just
• 41:16
  see it as a means to a
• 41:17
  SPEAKER_00: future end that never arrives.
• 41:20
  SPEAKER_00: Allow the now to be felt as an end in itself.
• 41:23
  SPEAKER_00: However it's showing up,
• 41:25
  even if it's showing up as heaviness and grief and hardship and
• 41:30
  density and
• 41:32
  SPEAKER_00: caramelized
• 41:34
  SPEAKER_00: you know, guttural, swampy flavors of stuckness.
• 41:39
  SPEAKER_00: You know, I've been there.
• 41:42
  SPEAKER_00: Trust me,
• 41:43
  SPEAKER_00: I've wallowed in the mud plenty,
• 41:45
  SPEAKER_00: my fair share,
• 41:47
  SPEAKER_00: had my child heart shattered in this lifetime.
• 41:55
  So I'm there with you and I feel sincere and honest compassion
• 42:00
  for what you're going through.
• 42:01
  SPEAKER_00: If you're going through something really hard,
• 42:04
  SPEAKER_00: Insofar as it's possible and accessible for you,
• 42:10
  allow even the most difficult sensations to be seen as an end
• 42:14
  in themselves.
• 42:16
  SPEAKER_00: Get curious.
• 42:17
  SPEAKER_00: What are they really?
• 42:18
  SPEAKER_00: What are they really?
• 42:19
  Very likely the stories you're telling about them are
• 42:22
  perpetuating the suffering.
• 42:24
  SPEAKER_00: Drop the story as much as possible.
• 42:26
  SPEAKER_00: See...
• 42:28
  the immediate experience as a kind of sacramental emanation of
• 42:32
  a kind of living
• 42:34
  poetry a living fresco of vibratory nature that you've never
• 42:39
  seen before go into
• 42:41
  SPEAKER_00: the vibratory nature feel
• 42:45
  SPEAKER_00: your feelings in HD clarity as deeply as you can as a living,
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  SPEAKER_00: percolating artistry and notice that you've never seen them before.
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  SPEAKER_00: Notice they only exist in this moment now.
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  SPEAKER_00: Notice they vanish in the moment they appear in a profound sense.
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  SPEAKER_00: What has appeared is already gone now and now and now and now.
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  SPEAKER_00: Notice the instant refresh rate.
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  SPEAKER_00: Notice the dynamism.
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  Noticing that openness begins to bring the openness into
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  whatever the feelings are.
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  SPEAKER_00: It reveals the feelings as pure openness.
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  SPEAKER_00: So that can be one mode of working with pain.
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  And if that is too difficult,
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  if that feels impossible,
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  another option is to
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  SPEAKER_00: in a sense, literally distract yourself.
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  You've probably gotten locked into a loop of bodily sensation
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  and mentalization,
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  SPEAKER_00: storytelling,
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  SPEAKER_00: that are feeding upon each other like a demon gnawing upon your body,
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  SPEAKER_00: and you need to
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  break the loop somehow you need to go to the moreness and
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  otherness notice that
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  your immediate experience is always more vastly more and other
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  than whatever you're
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  currently locked into whatever you think it is is an
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  inexpressibly narrow bandwidth
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  SPEAKER_00: of what it actually is so
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  SPEAKER_00: Open to the vastness,
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  SPEAKER_00: gaze upon the sky,
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  SPEAKER_00: stare at a tree,
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  SPEAKER_00: stare at a wall,
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  SPEAKER_00: stare at your dog,
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  SPEAKER_00: stare at your cat.
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  SPEAKER_00: Open to these experiential realities as
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  freshness drop the labels let them be a pure mystery let your
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  cat be like whoa what
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  is this alien jaguar feline spirit that has somehow imprinted
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  itself upon immediate
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  wavy uh weirdness right now how is this uh how is this ancient
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  egyptian uh
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  SPEAKER_00: meowing spirit gracefully drifting through this aura right now.
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  These are ways that I can point at what experience feels like
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  as you increasingly
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  SPEAKER_00: cease to label it,
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  SPEAKER_00: as you increasingly drop the labels so much
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  frozenness and mundaneness melts away and the living river of
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  endless fluidity and
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  enchantment is revealed we are we've been born into a living
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  river of endless
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  fluidity and enchantment and it's here it's available feast
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  your eyes upon it it's
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  simply what blocks us from seeing it is all of our fixed frozen
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  crystallized
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  Ideas that say that we already know what it is,
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  but you don't know what it is.
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  SPEAKER_00: So throw those in the dumpster fire,
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  SPEAKER_00: open to vastness,
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  SPEAKER_00: be with anything and everything as a living vector of astonishment,
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  SPEAKER_00: a living channel of grace,
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  SPEAKER_00: inexplicable artistry,
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  SPEAKER_00: and let that seduce you.
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  SPEAKER_00: Let that seduce you and open you to vastness.
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  unpinned down ability freshness wholeness texture artistry
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  start to just let
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  yourself be with immediate experience as an end in itself and
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  this will gradually
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  completely reorient your way of relating to life it's
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  cumulative over time it
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  accumulates and you gradually cease to endlessly live in the
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  past and future and in
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  SPEAKER_00: abstraction and you start to actually be rooted
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  SPEAKER_00: on deep,
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  SPEAKER_00: visceral,
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  SPEAKER_00: many-dimensional,
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  SPEAKER_00: textural,
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  SPEAKER_00: tactile,
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  SPEAKER_00: multi-sensory levels,
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  SPEAKER_00: in and as this big bang of freshness now.
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  SPEAKER_00: This now, as the razor's edge of...
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  billions of years of timeless time of cosmic artistry ascribing
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  itself upon
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  SPEAKER_00: freshness,
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  SPEAKER_00: like writing on water that is just being scribed and then dissipating.
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  SPEAKER_00: You've never seen this moment before.
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  SPEAKER_00: This is the juice.
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  SPEAKER_00: This moment is the juice.
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  SPEAKER_00: This moment is the whole point.
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  SPEAKER_00: It's the whole point of life.
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  SPEAKER_00: It's all we have.
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  SPEAKER_00: Have you ever seen anything other than the now moment?
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  SPEAKER_00: Really check in.
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  Has anything you've ever experienced occurred anywhere other
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  than right now?
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  SPEAKER_00: So if you're going to find the treasure, you're going to find it now.
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  SPEAKER_00: Look for it now.
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  SPEAKER_00: Don't look for it somewhere else.
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  SPEAKER_00: It's here.
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  SPEAKER_00: It's with you.
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  SPEAKER_00: It's your heart of hearts.
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  SPEAKER_00: It's your heart of hearts.
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  SPEAKER_00: It's your inmost heart.
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  SPEAKER_00: Wisdom,
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  SPEAKER_00: your inmost light of Christ,
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  SPEAKER_00: of Buddha,
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  SPEAKER_00: of Lao Tzu,
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  SPEAKER_00: of Ananamai Ma,
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  SPEAKER_00: the Great Mother,
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  SPEAKER_00: the Great Father,
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  SPEAKER_00: they're with you always.
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  SPEAKER_00: They hold you.
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  SPEAKER_00: They enfold you.
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  SPEAKER_00: They hold you in their arms.
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  SPEAKER_00: Like the purest child of grace, you are so loved.
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  SPEAKER_00: You are eternally loved by this nowness, and it's trying to reach you.
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  SPEAKER_00: It's trying to reach you.
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  SPEAKER_00: It's tapping on your window.
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  It's patiently waiting for you to remember that you are held
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  and you can rest here.
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  SPEAKER_00: You can rest as now.
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  SPEAKER_00: You are not limited to being a human being.
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  SPEAKER_00: You are the ocean.
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  SPEAKER_00: You are the cozy, omniblanket of pure grace resting within itself.
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  SPEAKER_00: Let yourself feel that.
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  SPEAKER_00: Let yourself be held by love.
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  SPEAKER_00: Thank you for listening.
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  SPEAKER_00: Family, much love to you.
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  SPEAKER_00: God bless you.
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  SPEAKER_00: Be well.