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Deepening of Realization in Sauna. · Council of Kings

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SPEAKER_00: There was a deepening of realization today.
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In the story of JB,
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I was at Sauna Village doing sauna and ice bath and taking a
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nap and
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SPEAKER_00: often have deepenings or immersions in this,
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SPEAKER_00: essentially just recognizing,
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SPEAKER_00: realizing this ever-present vastness,
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SPEAKER_00: freshly or deeply at that particular place
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SPEAKER_00: often during and after the ice baths coming out of the sauna,
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SPEAKER_00: something very activating about that,
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SPEAKER_00: that seems to pretty reliably occasion bufo-like or samadhi-like,
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SPEAKER_00: um,
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SPEAKER_00: openings,
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SPEAKER_00: openings to this,
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SPEAKER_00: this ever present,
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SPEAKER_00: uh,
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God nature,
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whatever you want to call this,
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uh,
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wordless,
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nameless silence.
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SPEAKER_00: And the, the feeling tone, the quality of the realization, um,
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SPEAKER_00: was a profound sense of an eternal presence,
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SPEAKER_00: um,
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an eternal presence that is always here being revealed more
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profoundly coming to
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SPEAKER_00: the forefront in a profound way.
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SPEAKER_00: Um, replacing
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the usual personality and mentation to a more all-encompassing
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degree than is
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SPEAKER_00: usually,
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SPEAKER_00: than usually seems to be experienced over here.
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SPEAKER_00: Yeah, and it was just, it was just gorgeous.
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SPEAKER_00: It felt, felt gorgeous.
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SPEAKER_00: I remember writing a few words like from that space,
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SPEAKER_00: just all is well and all is well and all shall be well.
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SPEAKER_00: All is, all is grace, all is peace, all is
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SPEAKER_00: cozy bonfire home.
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SPEAKER_00: And even as God's appearance here ever changes,
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SPEAKER_00: His essence abides unchanging as pure love, as allness, as totality.
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SPEAKER_00: And God is all.
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SPEAKER_00: God alone is.
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SPEAKER_00: All is God.
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SPEAKER_00: And this is God here now.
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SPEAKER_00: when we become still and silent within,
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SPEAKER_00: when we cease to grasp after thoughts,
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SPEAKER_00: when we cease to believe our thoughts and assumptions about what this is,
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SPEAKER_00: it allows for that ever-present recognition to dawn,
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SPEAKER_00: to reveal itself.
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SPEAKER_00: So yeah, from that space, the quality, the feeling tone was no past.
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SPEAKER_00: There is no past.
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SPEAKER_00: There is no future.
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SPEAKER_00: There is no now in a deep sense.
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SPEAKER_00: All words totally miss.
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SPEAKER_00: There is no world.
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SPEAKER_00: There is no humanity.
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SPEAKER_00: God alone is.
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SPEAKER_00: And everything you're seeing
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SPEAKER_00: everything that looks like a world,
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SPEAKER_00: that looks like human beings,
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SPEAKER_00: that looks like your family and friends,
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SPEAKER_00: that's all still there,
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SPEAKER_00: keeps showing up.
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SPEAKER_00: It's just that you know that it's God, it's you.
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SPEAKER_00: It is the one oceanic being shining forth as this
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SPEAKER_00: this display as this experience of apparent duality and multiplicity.
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SPEAKER_00: And yeah,
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SPEAKER_00: the nice thing is I feel like at earlier stages,
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SPEAKER_00: I felt more of a need to take those types of realizations and try to
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turn them into a metaphysics or in a way,
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create a new non-dual belief system out of them.
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SPEAKER_00: But there's less of a, of an urge or a need to do that now.
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So what I'm describing is not intended to be put forth as a
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belief system or
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SPEAKER_00: grasped onto as a metaphysics or like,
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SPEAKER_00: this is the way things are.
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SPEAKER_00: It's just pointing to
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SPEAKER_00: The feeling tone,
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the experiential quality of what has been called realization or
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non-dual awakening,
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SPEAKER_00: illumination.
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SPEAKER_00: And just felt and feels so just so restful, so peaceful.
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SPEAKER_00: And it's always, always here.
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SPEAKER_00: It's always here.
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SPEAKER_00: It's what the now is.
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is what the now is made of and you already know it in your
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heart of hearts you know
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SPEAKER_00: that peace you rest as that peace so
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SPEAKER_00: Yeah, that's it pretty much.
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SPEAKER_00: Just felt like sharing that that occurred.
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SPEAKER_00: And it's not about special experiences.
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SPEAKER_00: In a certain sense, anything that comes and goes is not it.
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SPEAKER_00: It's not what's being
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pointed at of course everything is it in another sense but the
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invitation is to
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SPEAKER_00: realize what does not come and go in those kinds of deepening realization
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experiences doesn't really feel like an experience in a way
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because it's not really
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SPEAKER_00: happening to someone it just feels more like
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SPEAKER_00: everything is dropping away and there's just clarity or silence,
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SPEAKER_00: allness,
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SPEAKER_00: Godness,
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SPEAKER_00: cozy peace and love.
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SPEAKER_00: Those kinds of, those kinds of, uh, Samadhi type spaces can, uh,
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show you more deeply,
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though,
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what is always here and what does not come and go.
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SPEAKER_00: And then,
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SPEAKER_00: in my experience,
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those types of noticings and those types of recognitions are
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cumulative over time.
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SPEAKER_00: And it kind of sinks in more and more deeply that this is always this.
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SPEAKER_00: This is always what you could call God.
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SPEAKER_00: This is always God.
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SPEAKER_00: the presence, um, and increasingly you feel yourself to be rooted there.
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SPEAKER_00: You experience life more and more as the presence from presence,
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SPEAKER_00: um,
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SPEAKER_00: rather an experience that less and less as
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SPEAKER_00: know,
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SPEAKER_00: a linear time bound story,
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SPEAKER_00: you know,
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SPEAKER_00: again,
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SPEAKER_00: the story,
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SPEAKER_00: the sacramental human journey is included and continues to appear.
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SPEAKER_00: Yet that's seen in a different light.
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SPEAKER_00: It's seen more as an emanation,
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SPEAKER_00: an apparition that is appearing,
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SPEAKER_00: flickering,
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SPEAKER_00: ever shifting and changing within
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This,
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in a sense,
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rock solid,
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immovable presence,
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this eternity that is here,
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this totality.
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SPEAKER_00: And in a certain profound sense,
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doesn't matter if that shift occurs or not because this is
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already this and all is
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well and this is always this and God alone is and at the same
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time you know on
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another level it's nice to share it's nice to let other
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emanations of God know that
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SPEAKER_00: This is available for thousands of years.
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SPEAKER_00: All the great sages and saints and mystics and avatars,
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SPEAKER_00: they've been talking about something,
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SPEAKER_00: something real,
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SPEAKER_00: something that is ever present as the essence of every experience,
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SPEAKER_00: the presence,
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SPEAKER_00: the silence in which all experience,
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SPEAKER_00: all apparition,
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SPEAKER_00: or shines forth.
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And if life seems to be going really well and you're really
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happy as the person in
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SPEAKER_00: the story of you,
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SPEAKER_00: then there may be no calling and no need to look into this.
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SPEAKER_00: But for some of us,
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For some of us at some point due to either a lot of suffering
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or simply an innate
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SPEAKER_00: burning curiosity to explore life more deeply,
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SPEAKER_00: to know ourselves on deeper levels,
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SPEAKER_00: this inquiry,
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SPEAKER_00: this exploration opens up and
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Yeah,
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just sharing this as an experiential confirmation that it's not
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a wild goose chase.
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SPEAKER_00: There is a there there and it's right here.
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SPEAKER_00: There is peace beyond description available here now.
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SPEAKER_00: There is an experiential
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SPEAKER_00: a direct realization of an unspeakable peace,
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SPEAKER_00: a sense of unspeakable at-homeness,
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SPEAKER_00: unity with all that is,
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SPEAKER_00: that is available in and as your direct experience.
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SPEAKER_00: It is there in and as your experience now.
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SPEAKER_00: It just may not be being noticed like the sun behind the clouds.
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SPEAKER_00: It's always there.
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The main thing that prevents us from noticing it are simply all
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the clouds of
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calcified beliefs and ideas and identities that tell us that we
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already know what
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life is and we already know what we are and the moment is just
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a blip on the radar.
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SPEAKER_00: It's just a means to an end.
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SPEAKER_00: Who cares about the moment?
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I've got to do this and this and this and this and this and
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8,000 items on my to-do
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SPEAKER_00: list and then we're
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SPEAKER_00: off to the races, caught up in this endless busyness.
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SPEAKER_00: And there's no, yeah, there's nothing inherently wrong with that.
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SPEAKER_00: That's life.
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SPEAKER_00: If that's the game you're playing, then go for it.
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SPEAKER_00: If that's what's showing up and that's what calls out to you.
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SPEAKER_00: And yeah, at the same time,
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SPEAKER_00: If we want to,
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if we feel that calling to discover the sun behind the clouds
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and discover true,
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what I would say is true peace or a deeper peace than what the
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world can give,
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SPEAKER_00: it's about slowing down in a sense.
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SPEAKER_00: Even if we're, you know, we might still be walking or moving around.
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SPEAKER_00: You can do this at any time.
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SPEAKER_00: You might be on the city bus, but it's about
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SPEAKER_00: slowing down internal internally relinquishing relinquishing thoughts and
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descriptions ceasing to treat this moment as a means to an end
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treating it as an
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end in itself treating it as this openness opening to the full
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field of experience
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letting yourself feel yourself not as something limited to a
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body but as this full
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SPEAKER_00: all present field of aliveness
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SPEAKER_00: feeling how there is no boundary or border of your experience.
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It just kind of melts away into this uncontained vastness and
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letting yourself feel
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SPEAKER_00: that,
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SPEAKER_00: letting yourself notice that.
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SPEAKER_00: And anytime you notice that, that is realization.
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SPEAKER_00: That is a glimpse of realization.
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SPEAKER_00: And those moments of non-conceptual noticing, non-conceptual
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SPEAKER_00: beingness,
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SPEAKER_00: where you're just being,
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SPEAKER_00: naked experiencing,
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SPEAKER_00: naked being,
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SPEAKER_00: naked presence,
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SPEAKER_00: as it is here and now,
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SPEAKER_00: with no story,
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SPEAKER_00: with no ownership,
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SPEAKER_00: just as it is.
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SPEAKER_00: Those moments are cumulative over time,
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SPEAKER_00: and they gradually shift your foundational orientation such that
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SPEAKER_00: The sun becomes ever more felt as a continual presence,
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if only kind of in the background and can increasingly come
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more to the foreground
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more often and gradually your orientation can shift such that
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you are rooted more
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SPEAKER_00: and more in that sun of pure presence and
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SPEAKER_00: It's a beautiful,
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it's a beautiful sinking in a beautiful melting in a beautiful
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falling away of
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layers and snake skins that may not really be so relevant or
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useful anymore.
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SPEAKER_00: And there's coming into lightness, clarity, simplicity.
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ever-present,
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ever-present wholeness,
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ever-present love,
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unconditional love.
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SPEAKER_00: So that's what I wanted to share.
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SPEAKER_00: Thank you for listening.
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SPEAKER_00: God bless you.