Latest / Classic Adventure Books - Daily / 03 - Heart of Darkness - Joseph Conrad
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- 0:01Speaker 1: Part one of chapter two of the Heart of Darkness.
- 0:05Speaker 1: One evening, as I was lying flat on the deck
- 0:08Speaker 1: of my steamboat, I heard voices approaching, and there were
- 0:12Speaker 1: the nephew and the uncle strolling along the bank. I
- 0:16Speaker 1: laid my head on my arm again and had nearly
- 0:19Speaker 1: lost myself in a doze when somebody sat in my ear.
- 0:23Speaker 1: As it were. I am as harmless as a little child.
- 0:27Speaker 1: But I don't like to be dictated too. Am I
- 0:30Speaker 1: the manager? Or am I not? I was ordered to
- 0:33Speaker 1: send him there? It's incredible. I became aware that the
- 0:39Speaker 1: two were standing on the shore alongside the fore part
- 0:42Speaker 1: of the steamboat, just below my head. I did not move.
- 0:47Speaker 1: It did not occur to me to move. I was sleepy.
- 0:52Speaker 1: It is unpleasant, granted the uncle. He has asked the
- 0:56Speaker 1: administration to be sent there, said the other, with the
- 0:59Speaker 1: eye idea of showing what he could do. And I
- 1:02Speaker 1: was instructed accordingly. Look at the influence that man must have.
- 1:07Speaker 1: Is it not frightful? They both agreed it was frightful,
- 1:12Speaker 1: then made several bizarre remarks make rain and fine weather.
- 1:17Speaker 1: One man the council by the nose. Bits of absurd
- 1:22Speaker 1: sentences that got the better of my drowsiness, so that
- 1:25Speaker 1: I had pretty near the whole of my wits about
- 1:28Speaker 1: me when the uncle said, the climate may do away
- 1:31Speaker 1: with this difficulty for you. Is he alone there? Yes,
- 1:36Speaker 1: answered the manager. He sent his assistant down the river
- 1:40Speaker 1: with a note to me in these terms, clear this
- 1:43Speaker 1: poor devil out of the country, and don't bother sending
- 1:46Speaker 1: more of that sort. I had rather be alone than
- 1:49Speaker 1: have the kind of men you can dispose of with me.
- 1:53Speaker 1: It was more than a year ago. Can you imagine
- 1:56Speaker 1: such impudence anything since? Then asked the other hoarsely. Ivory
- 2:03Speaker 1: jerked the nephew. Lots of it, prime sort, lots most
- 2:08Speaker 1: annoying from him, And with that questioned the heavy rumble
- 2:13Speaker 1: invoice was the reply fired out, so to speak. Then
- 2:18Speaker 1: silence they had been talking about Kurtz. I was broad
- 2:25Speaker 1: awake by this time, but lying perfectly at ease, remained
- 2:30Speaker 1: still having no inducement to change my position. How did
- 2:35Speaker 1: that Ivory come all this way? Growled the elder man,
- 2:39Speaker 1: who seemed very vexed. The other explained that it had
- 2:43Speaker 1: come with a fleet of canoes in charge of an
- 2:46Speaker 1: English half caste clerk. Kurtz had with him that Kurtz
- 2:50Speaker 1: had apparently intended to return himself, the station being by
- 2:54Speaker 1: that time bare of goods and stores, but after coming
- 2:57Speaker 1: three hundred miles, had suddenly decided to go back, which
- 3:02Speaker 1: he started to do alone in a small dugout with
- 3:05Speaker 1: four paddlers, leaving the half caste to continue down the
- 3:08Speaker 1: river with the ivory. The two fellows there seemed astounded
- 3:13Speaker 1: at anybody attempting such a thing. They were at a
- 3:16Speaker 1: loss for an adequate motive. As to me, I seemed
- 3:22Speaker 1: to see Kurtz for the first time. It was a
- 3:25Speaker 1: distinct glimpse, the dugout, four paddling savages, and the lone
- 3:31Speaker 1: white man turning his back suddenly on the headquarters on relief,
- 3:35Speaker 1: on thoughts of home, perhaps setting his face towards the
- 3:39Speaker 1: depths of the wilderness, towards his empty and desolate station.
- 3:44Speaker 1: I did not know the motive. Perhaps he was just
- 3:48Speaker 1: simply a fine fellow who stuck to his work for
- 3:51Speaker 1: its own sake. His name, you understand, had not been
- 3:55Speaker 1: pronounced once. He was that man half caste, who, as
- 4:01Speaker 1: far as I could see, had conducted a difficult trip
- 4:04Speaker 1: with great prudence and pluck, was invariably alluded to as
- 4:08Speaker 1: that scoundrel. The scoundrel had reported that the man had
- 4:13Speaker 1: been very ill, had recovered imperfectly. The two below me
- 4:18Speaker 1: moved away then a few paces, and strolled back and forth.
- 4:21Speaker 1: At some little distance I heard military posts. Doctor two
- 4:27Speaker 1: hundred miles quite alone. Now unavoidable delays, nine months, no news,
- 4:34Speaker 1: strange rumors. They approached again, just as the manager was saying,
- 4:39Speaker 1: no one, as far as I know, unless a species
- 4:43Speaker 1: of wandering trader, a pestilential fellow snapping ivory from the natives.
- 4:49Speaker 1: Who was it they were talking about? Now? I gathered
- 4:53Speaker 1: in snatches that this was some man supposed to be
- 4:56Speaker 1: in Courts's district, and of whom the manager did not
- 5:00Speaker 1: not approve. We will not be free from unfair competition
- 5:04Speaker 1: till one of these fellows is hanged. For an example,
- 5:08Speaker 1: he said, certainly grunted the other, get him hanged? Why
- 5:12Speaker 1: not anything? Anything can be done in this country, That's
- 5:17Speaker 1: what I say. Nobody here, you understand here can endanger
- 5:22Speaker 1: your position, And why you stand the climate, you outlast
- 5:28Speaker 1: them all. The danger is in Europe. But there before
- 5:32Speaker 1: I left, I took care to They moved off and whispered.
- 5:37Speaker 1: Then their voices rose again. The extraordinary series of delays
- 5:42Speaker 1: is not my fault. I did my best. The fat
- 5:46Speaker 1: man sighed very sad, and the pestiferous absurdity of his
- 5:52Speaker 1: talk continued. The other he bothered me enough when he
- 5:56Speaker 1: was here. Each station should be like a beacon on
- 6:01Speaker 1: the road towards better things, a center for trade, of course,
- 6:06Speaker 1: but also for humanizing, improving, instructing. Conceive you that ass
- 6:13Speaker 1: and he wants to be the manager. No, it's here.
- 6:17Speaker 1: He got choked by excessive indignation, and I lifted my
- 6:21Speaker 1: head the least bit. I was surprised to see how
- 6:26Speaker 1: near they were right under me. I could have spat
- 6:30Speaker 1: upon their hats. They were looking on the ground, absorbed
- 6:34Speaker 1: in thought. The manager was switching his leg with a
- 6:38Speaker 1: slender twig. His sagacious relative lifted his head. You have
- 6:43Speaker 1: been well since you came out this time, he asked.
- 6:47Speaker 1: The other gave a start. Who I oh, like a charm,
- 6:53Speaker 1: Like a charm. But the rest, oh, my goodness, all
- 6:58Speaker 1: sick that I so quick too, that I haven't the
- 7:01Speaker 1: time to send them out of the country. It's incredible, HM,
- 7:06Speaker 1: trust so grunted the uncle. Oh, my boy, trust to
- 7:12Speaker 1: this I say trust to this. I saw him extend
- 7:17Speaker 1: his short flipper of an arm for a gesture that
- 7:20Speaker 1: took in the forest, the creek, the mud, the river
- 7:24Speaker 1: seemed to beckon with a dishonoring flourish before the sunlit
- 7:27Speaker 1: face of the land, a treacherous appeal to the lurking death,
- 7:31Speaker 1: to the hidden evil, to the profound darkness of its heart.
- 7:36Speaker 1: It was so startling that I leaped to my feet
- 7:40Speaker 1: and looked back at the edge of the forest, as
- 7:42Speaker 1: though I had expected an answer of some sort to
- 7:45Speaker 1: that black display of confidence, You know, the foolish notions
- 7:50Speaker 1: that come to one sometimes. The high stillness confronted these
- 7:54Speaker 1: two figures with its ominous patients, waiting for the passing
- 7:58Speaker 1: away of a fantastic invasion, they swore aloud together, not
- 8:04Speaker 1: of sheer fright, I believe, then, pretending not to know
- 8:08Speaker 1: anything of my existence, turned back to the station. The
- 8:13Speaker 1: sun was low, and leaning forward side by side, they
- 8:17Speaker 1: seemed to be tugging painfully uphill their two ridiculous shadows
- 8:22Speaker 1: of unequal length that trailed behind them slowly over the
- 8:26Speaker 1: tall grass, without bending a single blade. In a few days,
- 8:32Speaker 1: the El Dorado expedition went into the patient wilderness that
- 8:36Speaker 1: closed upon it as the sea closes over a diver.
- 8:40Speaker 1: Long afterwards, the news came that all the donkeys were dead.
- 8:44Speaker 1: I know nothing as to the fate of the less
- 8:47Speaker 1: valuable animals. They, no doubt, like the rest of us,
- 8:52Speaker 1: found what they deserved. I did not inquire. I was
- 8:57Speaker 1: then rather excited at the prospect of me eating courts
- 9:00Speaker 1: very soon. When I say very soon, I meet it comparatively.
- 9:06Speaker 1: It was just two months from the day we left
- 9:09Speaker 1: the creek when we came to the bank below Kurtz's station.
- 9:15Speaker 1: Going up that river was like traveling back to the
- 9:18Speaker 1: earliest beginnings of the world, when vegetation rioted on the
- 9:22Speaker 1: earth and big trees were kings. An empty stream, a
- 9:28Speaker 1: great silence, an impenetrable forest. The air was warm, thick, heavy, sluggish.
- 9:36Speaker 1: There was no joy in the brilliance of sunshine. The
- 9:39Speaker 1: long stretches of the waterway ran on, deserted into the
- 9:43Speaker 1: gloom of overshadowed distances. On silvery sandbanks, hippos and alligators
- 9:50Speaker 1: sunned themselves side by side. The broadening waters flowed through
- 9:54Speaker 1: a mob of wooded islands. You lost your way on
- 9:58Speaker 1: that river as you would in a day desert, and
- 10:01Speaker 1: butted all day long against shoals, trying to find the channel,
- 10:05Speaker 1: till you thought yourself bewitched and cut off forever from
- 10:08Speaker 1: everything you had known once somewhere far away, in another existence.
- 10:15Speaker 1: Perhaps there were moments when once past came back to one,
- 10:20Speaker 1: as it will sometimes when you have not a moment
- 10:22Speaker 1: to spare for yourself. But it came in the shape
- 10:26Speaker 1: of an unrestful and noisy dream, remembered with wonder amongst
- 10:31Speaker 1: the overwhelming realities of this strange world of plants and
- 10:35Speaker 1: water and silence. And this stillness of life did not,
- 10:40Speaker 1: in the least resemble a peace. It was the stillness
- 10:45Speaker 1: of an implacable force brooding over an inscrutable intention. It
- 10:50Speaker 1: looked at you with a vengeful aspect. I got used
- 10:55Speaker 1: to it. Afterwards, I did not see it any more.
- 10:58Speaker 1: I had no time. I had to keep guessing at
- 11:01Speaker 1: the channel. I had to discern, mostly by inspiration, the
- 11:06Speaker 1: signs of hidden banks. I watched for sunken stones. I
- 11:11Speaker 1: was learning to clap my teeth smartly before my heart
- 11:14Speaker 1: flew out when I shaved by a fluke, some infernal,
- 11:19Speaker 1: sly old snag that would have ripped the life out
- 11:22Speaker 1: of the tin pot steamboats and drowned all the pilgrims.
- 11:26Speaker 1: I had to keep a look out for the signs
- 11:28Speaker 1: of dead wood we could cut up in the night
- 11:30Speaker 1: for next day's steaming. When you have to attend to
- 11:34Speaker 1: things of that sort, to the mere incidence of the surface,
- 11:38Speaker 1: the reality, the reality, I tell you, fades. The inner
- 11:43Speaker 1: truth is hidden, luckily, luckily, But I felt it all
- 11:49Speaker 1: the same. I felt often its mysterious stillness watching me
- 11:53Speaker 1: at my monkey tricks, just as it watches you fellows,
- 11:57Speaker 1: performing on your respective tight ropes. For what is it
- 12:01Speaker 1: half a crown a tumble. Try to be civil, Marlowe
- 12:07Speaker 1: growled a voice, and I knew there was at least
- 12:09Speaker 1: one listener awake besides myself. I beg your pardon. I
- 12:16Speaker 1: forgot the heartache which makes up the rest of the price.
- 12:20Speaker 1: And indeed, what does the price matter if the trick
- 12:23Speaker 1: be well done. You do your tricks very well. And
- 12:27Speaker 1: I didn't do badly either, since I managed not to
- 12:31Speaker 1: sink that steamboat on my first trip, it's a wonder
- 12:36Speaker 1: to me. Yet, imagine a blindfolded man set to drive
- 12:40Speaker 1: a van over a bad road. I sweated and shivered
- 12:45Speaker 1: over that business considerably. I can tell you, after all,
- 12:49Speaker 1: for a seaman to scrape the bottom of the thing
- 12:52Speaker 1: that's supposed to float all the time under his care
- 12:55Speaker 1: is the unpardonable sin. No one may know of it,
- 12:59Speaker 1: but you never forget the thumb, pay a blow on
- 13:04Speaker 1: the very heart. You remember it, you dream of it,
- 13:09Speaker 1: you wake up at night and think of it years after,
- 13:12Speaker 1: and go hot and cold all over. I don't pretend
- 13:16Speaker 1: to say that steamboat floated all the time. More than
- 13:20Speaker 1: once she had to wait for a bit with twenty
- 13:23Speaker 1: cannibals splashing around and pushing. We had enlisted some of
- 13:28Speaker 1: these chaps on the way for a crew. Fine fellows
- 13:32Speaker 1: cannibals in their place. They were men one could work with,
- 13:36Speaker 1: and I am grateful to them. And after all they
- 13:40Speaker 1: did not eat each other before my face. They had
- 13:43Speaker 1: brought along a provision of hippo meat, which went rotten
- 13:47Speaker 1: and made the mystery of the wilderness stink in my nostrils. Phuh,
- 13:52Speaker 1: I can sniff it now. I had the manager on board,
- 13:57Speaker 1: and three or four pilgrims with their staves all complete.
- 14:01Speaker 1: Sometimes we came upon a station close by the bank,
- 14:05Speaker 1: clinging to the skirts of the unknown, and the white men,
- 14:08Speaker 1: rushing out of a tumble down hovel with great gestures
- 14:12Speaker 1: of joy and surprise and welcome, seemed very strange, had
- 14:17Speaker 1: the appearance of being held there captive by a spell.
- 14:22Speaker 1: The word ivory would ring in the air for a while.
- 14:25Speaker 1: And on we went again into the silence, along empty reaches,
- 14:29Speaker 1: round the still bends, between the high walls of our
- 14:33Speaker 1: winding way, reverberating in hollow claps, the ponderous beat of
- 14:38Speaker 1: the stern wheel. Trees, trees, millions of trees, massive, immense,
- 14:45Speaker 1: running up high and at their foot, hugging the bank
- 14:49Speaker 1: against the stream, crept the little begrimed steamboat, like a
- 14:54Speaker 1: sluggish beetle crawling on the floor of a lofty portico.
- 14:58Speaker 1: It made you feel very small, very lost, And yet
- 15:03Speaker 1: it was not altogether depressing that feeling. After all, if
- 15:08Speaker 1: you were small, the grimy beetle crawled on, which was
- 15:12Speaker 1: just what you wanted it to do. Where the pilgrims
- 15:16Speaker 1: imagined its crawl too, I don't know, to some place
- 15:21Speaker 1: where they expected to get something. I bet for me,
- 15:25Speaker 1: it crawled towards kurts exclusively. But when the steam pipe
- 15:30Speaker 1: started leaking. We crawled very slow. The reaches opened before
- 15:35Speaker 1: us and closed behind, as if the forest had stepped
- 15:39Speaker 1: leisurely across the water to bar the way for our return.
- 15:44Speaker 1: We penetrated deeper and deeper into the heart of darkness.
- 15:48Speaker 1: It was very quiet there at night. Sometimes the roll
- 15:53Speaker 1: of drums behind the curtain of trees would run up
- 15:56Speaker 1: the river and remained sustained faintly, as if hovering in
- 16:01Speaker 1: the air, high over our heads, till the first break
- 16:04Speaker 1: of day. Whether it meant war, peace or prayer, we
- 16:09Speaker 1: could not tell. The dawns were heralded by the descent
- 16:13Speaker 1: of a chill stillness. The woodcutters slept, their fires burned low.
- 16:19Speaker 1: The snapping of a twig would make you start. We
- 16:23Speaker 1: were wanderers on a prehistoric earth, on an earth that
- 16:27Speaker 1: wore the aspects of an unknown planet. We could have
- 16:31Speaker 1: fancied ourselves the first of men, taking possession of an
- 16:34Speaker 1: accursed inheritance, to be subdued at the costs of profound
- 16:39Speaker 1: anguish and of excessive toil. But suddenly, as we struggled
- 16:44Speaker 1: round a bend, there would be a glimpse of rush,
- 16:47Speaker 1: walls of peaked grass, roofs, a burst of yells, a
- 16:52Speaker 1: whirl of black limbs, a mass of hands, clapping of feet,
- 16:56Speaker 1: stamping of bodies, swaying of eyes, rolling under the droop
- 17:02Speaker 1: of heavy and motionless foliage. The steamer toiled along slowly
- 17:07Speaker 1: on the edge of a black and incomprehensible frenzy. The
- 17:11Speaker 1: prehistoric man was cursing us, praying to us, welcoming us.
- 17:16Speaker 1: Who could tell we were cut off from the comprehension
- 17:20Speaker 1: of our surroundings. We glided past like phantoms, wondering and
- 17:25Speaker 1: secretly appalled that sane men would be before an enthusiastic
- 17:30Speaker 1: outbreak in a madhouse. We could not understand because we
- 17:35Speaker 1: were too far and could not remember. Because we were
- 17:39Speaker 1: traveling in the night of first ages, of those ages
- 17:42Speaker 1: that are gone, leaving hardly a sign and no memories,
- 17:49Speaker 1: The earth seemed unearthly. We were accustomed to look upon
- 17:55Speaker 1: the shackled form of a conquered monster. But there there
- 17:59Speaker 1: you could look at a thing monstrous and free. It
- 18:03Speaker 1: was unearthly, and the men were no they were not inhuman. Well,
- 18:11Speaker 1: you know, that was the worst of it, the suspicion
- 18:14Speaker 1: of their not being inhuman. It could come slowly to one.
- 18:19Speaker 1: They howled and leaped, and spun and made horrid faces.
- 18:23Speaker 1: But what thrilled you was just the thought of their
- 18:26Speaker 1: humanity like yours, the thought of your remote kinship with
- 18:31Speaker 1: this wild and passionate uproar. Ugly, yes, it was ugly enough.
- 18:38Speaker 1: But if you were mad enough, you would admit to
- 18:40Speaker 1: yourself that there was in you just the faintest trace
- 18:44Speaker 1: of a response to the terrible frankness of that noise,
- 18:48Speaker 1: a dim suspicion of there being a meaning in it,
- 18:52Speaker 1: which you, you so remote from the night of first Ages,
- 18:56Speaker 1: could comprehend. And why not? The mind of man is
- 19:01Speaker 1: capable of anything, because everything is in it, all the
- 19:06Speaker 1: past as well as all the future. What was there
- 19:10Speaker 1: after all? Joy, fear, sorrow, devotion, valor, rage. Who can
- 19:17Speaker 1: tell but truth, truth stripped of its cloak of time.
- 19:23Speaker 1: Let the fool gape and shudder. The man knows, and
- 19:28Speaker 1: can look on without a wink. But he must at
- 19:32Speaker 1: least be as much of a man as these on
- 19:35Speaker 1: the shore. He must meet that truth with his own
- 19:38Speaker 1: true stuff, with his own inborn strength. Principles won't do acquisitions. Clothes,
- 19:46Speaker 1: pretty rags, rags that would fly off at the first
- 19:50Speaker 1: good shake, no, you want a deliberate belief and appeal
- 19:56Speaker 1: to me in this fiendish row? Is there very well,
- 20:01Speaker 1: I hear, I admit, but I have a voice too,
- 20:06Speaker 1: and for good or evil, mine is the speech that
- 20:09Speaker 1: cannot be silenced. Of course, a fool, what with sheer,
- 20:14Speaker 1: fright and fine sentiments, is always safe. Who's that grunting?
- 20:20Speaker 1: You wonder I didn't go ashore for a howl and
- 20:23Speaker 1: a dance. Well, no, I didn't. Fine sentiments, You say,
- 20:30Speaker 1: fine sentiments be hanged. I had no time. I had
- 20:35Speaker 1: to mess about with white lead and strips of woolen blanket,
- 20:39Speaker 1: helping to put bandages on those leaky steam pipes. I
- 20:43Speaker 1: tell you, I had to watch the steering and circumvent
- 20:47Speaker 1: those snags, and get the tin pot along by hook
- 20:50Speaker 1: or by crook. There was surface truth enough in these
- 20:54Speaker 1: things to save a wiser man. And between whiles I
- 20:59Speaker 1: had to look after the savage who was fireman. He
- 21:03Speaker 1: was an improved specimen. He could fire up a vertical boiler.
- 21:08Speaker 1: He was there below, and upon my word, to look
- 21:11Speaker 1: at him was as edifying as seeing a dog in
- 21:14Speaker 1: a parody of breeches and a feather hat walking on
- 21:17Speaker 1: his hind legs a few months of training had done
- 21:21Speaker 1: for that really fine chap. He squintered at the steam
- 21:25Speaker 1: gage and at the water gage with an evident effort
- 21:28Speaker 1: of intrepidity, and he filed teeth too, the poor devil,
- 21:33Speaker 1: and the wool of his pate shaved into queer patterns,
- 21:36Speaker 1: and three ornamental scars on each of his cheeks. He
- 21:40Speaker 1: ought to have been clapping his hands and stabbing his
- 21:43Speaker 1: foot on the bank, instead of which he was hard
- 21:46Speaker 1: at work a thraw to strange witchcraft, full of improving knowledge.
- 21:52Speaker 1: He was useful because he had been instructed. And what
- 21:56Speaker 1: he knew was this, that should the water in that
- 22:00Speaker 1: transparent thing disappear, the evil spirit inside the boiler would
- 22:05Speaker 1: get angry through the greatness of his thirst and take
- 22:08Speaker 1: a terrible vengeance. So he sweated and fired up, and
- 22:14Speaker 1: watched the glass fearfully with an impromptu charm made of
- 22:18Speaker 1: rags tied to his arm and a piece of polished
- 22:20Speaker 1: bone as big as a watch stuck flatways through his
- 22:24Speaker 1: lower lip. While the wooded bank slipped past us slowly,
- 22:28Speaker 1: the short noise was left behind the interminable miles of silence,
- 22:34Speaker 1: and we crept on towards kurts, but the snags were thick,
- 22:40Speaker 1: the water was treacherous and shallow. The boiler seemed indeed
- 22:44Speaker 1: to have a sulky devil in it, and thus neither
- 22:47Speaker 1: that fireman nor I had any time to peer into
- 22:51Speaker 1: our creepy thoughts. Some fifty miles below the inner station,
- 22:57Speaker 1: we came upon a hut of reeds and inclined and
- 23:00Speaker 1: melancholy pole, with the unrecognizable tatters of what had been
- 23:05Speaker 1: a flag of some sort flying from it, and a
- 23:08Speaker 1: neatly stacked wood pile. This was unexpected. We came to
- 23:13Speaker 1: the bank and on the stack of firewood found a
- 23:16Speaker 1: flat piece of board with some faded pencil riding on it.
- 23:20Speaker 1: When deciphered, it said, would for you hurry up? Approach cautiously.
- 23:26Speaker 1: There was a signature, but it was illegible, not kurtz,
- 23:31Speaker 1: a much longer word, hurry up? Where up the river?
- 23:37Speaker 1: Approach cautiously? We had not done so, But the warning
- 23:42Speaker 1: could not have been meant for the place where it
- 23:44Speaker 1: could be only found after reproach. Something was wrong above,
- 23:49Speaker 1: but what and how much? That was the question. We
- 23:54Speaker 1: commented adversely upon the imbecility of that telegraphic style. The
- 24:00Speaker 1: bush around, said nothing, and would not let us look
- 24:04Speaker 1: very far either. A torn curtain of red twill hung
- 24:08Speaker 1: in the doorway of the hut and flapped sadly in
- 24:11Speaker 1: our faces. The dwelling was dismantled, but we could see
- 24:15Speaker 1: a white man had lived there not very long ago.
- 24:18Speaker 1: There remained a rude table, a plank on two posts,
- 24:22Speaker 1: a heap of rubbish reposed in a dark corner, and
- 24:25Speaker 1: by the door. I picked up a book, but had
- 24:28Speaker 1: lost its covers, and the pages had been thumbed into
- 24:31Speaker 1: a state of extremely dirty softness. But the back had
- 24:35Speaker 1: been lovingly stitched afresh with white cotton thread, which looked clean.
- 24:40Speaker 1: Yet it was an extraordinary find. Its title was an
- 24:46Speaker 1: Inquiry into some points of Seamanship by a man Towsered tousand,
- 24:52Speaker 1: some such name, master in his Majesty's Navy. The matter
- 24:57Speaker 1: looked dreary reading enough, with illustrative diagrams and repulsive tables
- 25:02Speaker 1: of figures, and the copy was sixty years old. I
- 25:07Speaker 1: handled the amazing antiquity with the greatest possible tenderness, lest
- 25:12Speaker 1: it should dissolve in my hands. Within towsand Or Towser
- 25:18Speaker 1: was inquiring earnestly into the breaking strain of ships, chains
- 25:21Speaker 1: and tackle, and other such matters. Not a very enthralling book,
- 25:27Speaker 1: but at the first glance you could see there was
- 25:30Speaker 1: a singleness of intention, an honest concern for the right
- 25:33Speaker 1: way of going to work, which made these humble pages,
- 25:38Speaker 1: thought out so many years ago, luminous with another than
- 25:41Speaker 1: a professional light. The simple old sailor, with his talk
- 25:46Speaker 1: of chains and purchases, made me forget the jungle and
- 25:50Speaker 1: the pilgrims in a delicious sensation of having come upon
- 25:53Speaker 1: something unmistakably real. Such a book being there was wonderful enough.
- 25:59Speaker 1: But still more astounding were the notes penciled in the
- 26:03Speaker 1: margin and plainly referring to the text. I couldn't believe
- 26:08Speaker 1: my eyes. They were in cipher. Yes, it looked like cipher.
- 26:14Speaker 1: Fancy a man lugging with him a book of that
- 26:16Speaker 1: description into this nowhere and studying it and making notes
- 26:21Speaker 1: in cipher at that it was an extravagant mystery. I
- 26:27Speaker 1: had been dimly aware for some time of a worrying noise,
- 26:30Speaker 1: And when I lifted my eyes, I saw the woodpile
- 26:34Speaker 1: was gone, and the manager, aided by all the pilgrims,
- 26:37Speaker 1: was shouting at me from the river side. I slipped
- 26:41Speaker 1: the book into my pocket. I assure you that to
- 26:44Speaker 1: leave off reading was like tearing myself away from the
- 26:48Speaker 1: shelter of an old and solid friendship. I started the
- 26:53Speaker 1: lame engine ahead. There must be this miserable trader, this intruder,
- 26:58Speaker 1: exclaimed the manager, looking back malevolently at the place we
- 27:02Speaker 1: had left. He must be English. I said, it will
- 27:07Speaker 1: not save him from getting into trouble if he is
- 27:09Speaker 1: not careful, muttered the manager darkly. I observed, with assumed innocence,
- 27:15Speaker 1: that no man was safe from trouble in this world.
- 27:20Speaker 1: The current was more rapid now. The steamer seemed at
- 27:23Speaker 1: her last gasp. The stern wheel flopped languidly, and I
- 27:27Speaker 1: caught myself listening on tiptoe for the next beat of
- 27:31Speaker 1: the boat. For in sober truth, I expected the wretched
- 27:35Speaker 1: thing to give up every moment. It was like watching
- 27:39Speaker 1: the last flickers of a life. But still we crawled.
- 27:45Speaker 1: Sometimes I would pick out a tree a little way
- 27:47Speaker 1: ahead to measure our progress towards kurtz By, but I
- 27:51Speaker 1: lost it invariably before we got abreast. To keep the
- 27:55Speaker 1: eye so long on one thing was too much for
- 27:58Speaker 1: human patience, The manager displayed a beautiful resignation. I fretted
- 28:05Speaker 1: and fumed, and took to arguing with myself whether or
- 28:09Speaker 1: no I would talk openly with Kurtz. But before I
- 28:13Speaker 1: could come to any conclusion, it occurred to me that
- 28:16Speaker 1: my speech, or my silence, indeed any action of mine,
- 28:20Speaker 1: would be a mere futility. What did it matter what
- 28:24Speaker 1: anyone knew or ignored, What did it matter who was manager?
- 28:30Speaker 1: One gets sometimes such a flash of insight. The essentials
- 28:35Speaker 1: of this affair lay deep under the surface, beyond my
- 28:39Speaker 1: reach and beyond my power of meddling. Towards the evening
- 28:44Speaker 1: of the second day, we judged ourselves about eight miles
- 28:47Speaker 1: from Kurtz's station. I wanted to push on, but the
- 28:51Speaker 1: manager looked grave and told me the navigation up there
- 28:55Speaker 1: was so dangerous that it would be advisable, the sun
- 28:58Speaker 1: being very low already, to wait where we were till
- 29:02Speaker 1: next morning. Moreover, he pointed out that if the warning
- 29:06Speaker 1: to approach cautiously were to be followed, we must approach
- 29:10Speaker 1: in daylight, not at dusk or in the dark. This
- 29:15Speaker 1: was sensible enough. Eight miles met nearly three hours of
- 29:19Speaker 1: steaming for us, and I could also see suspicious ripples
- 29:23Speaker 1: at the upper end of the reach. Nevertheless, I was
- 29:27Speaker 1: annoyed beyond expression at the delay, and most unreasonably too,
- 29:33Speaker 1: since one night more could not matter much after so
- 29:36Speaker 1: many months, as we had plenty of wood, and caution
- 29:41Speaker 1: was the word I brought up in the middle of
- 29:43Speaker 1: the stream. The reach was narrow, straight, with high sides,
- 29:47Speaker 1: like a railway cutting. The dusk came gliding into it
- 29:52Speaker 1: long before the sun had set. The current ran smooth
- 29:55Speaker 1: and swift, but a dumb immobility sat on the banks.
- 30:00Speaker 1: The living trees lashed together by the creepers, and every
- 30:03Speaker 1: living bush of the undergrowth might have been changed into stone,
- 30:07Speaker 1: even to the slenderest twig, to the lightest leaf. It
- 30:12Speaker 1: was not sleep. It seemed unnatural, like a state of
- 30:17Speaker 1: trans Not the faintest sound of any kind could be heard.
- 30:22Speaker 1: You looked on amazed and began to suspect yourself of
- 30:26Speaker 1: being deaf. Then the night came suddenly and struck you
- 30:30Speaker 1: blind as well. About three in the morning, some large
- 30:35Speaker 1: fish leaped, and the loud splash made me jump as
- 30:39Speaker 1: though a gun had been fired. When the sun rose,
- 30:42Speaker 1: there was a white fog, very warm and clamming, and
- 30:46Speaker 1: more blinding than the night. It did not shift or drive.
- 30:52Speaker 1: It was just there standing all round you, like something
- 30:56Speaker 1: solid that eight or nine. Perhaps it lifted as a
- 31:01Speaker 1: shutter lifts. We had a glimpse of the towering multitude
- 31:05Speaker 1: of trees, of the immense mattered jungle, with the blazing
- 31:09Speaker 1: little ball of the sun hanging over it, all perfectly still.
- 31:14Speaker 1: And then the white shudder came down again, smoothly, as
- 31:19Speaker 1: if sliding and greased grooves. I ordered the chain which
- 31:24Speaker 1: we had begun to heave in to be paid out
- 31:26Speaker 1: again before it stopped running with a muffled rattle. A cry,
- 31:32Speaker 1: a very loud cry as of infinite desolation, soared slowly
- 31:37Speaker 1: in the opaque air. It ceased. A complaining clamor modulated
- 31:42Speaker 1: in savage discords filled our ears. The sheer unexpectedness of
- 31:48Speaker 1: it made my hair stir under my cap. I don't
- 31:52Speaker 1: know how it struck the others. To me, it seemed
- 31:55Speaker 1: as though the mist itself had screamed so suddenly, and
- 31:59Speaker 1: apparently from all all sides at once, to this tumultuous
- 32:02Speaker 1: and mournful uproar arise. It culminated in a hairried outbreak
- 32:08Speaker 1: of almost intolerably excessive shrieking, which stopped short, leaving us
- 32:13Speaker 1: stiffened in a variety of silly attitudes and obstinately listening
- 32:17Speaker 1: to the nearly as appalling an excessive silence. Good God,
- 32:23Speaker 1: what is the meaning? Stammered at my elbow. One of
- 32:26Speaker 1: the pilgrims, a little fat man with sandy hair and
- 32:30Speaker 1: red whiskers, who wore side spring boots and pink pajamas
- 32:34Speaker 1: tucked into his socks. Two others remained open mouthed a
- 32:38Speaker 1: whole minute, then dashed into the little cabin to rush
- 32:42Speaker 1: out incontinently and stand darting scared glances with winchesters at
- 32:48Speaker 1: ready in their hands. What we could see was just
- 32:53Speaker 1: the steamer we were on, her outlines blurred as though
- 32:56Speaker 1: she had been on the point of dissolving, and a
- 32:59Speaker 1: misty strip of water perhaps two feet broad around her.
- 33:03Speaker 1: And that was all. The rest of the world was nowhere,
- 33:08Speaker 1: as far as our eyes and ears were concerned, just nowhere, gone, disappeared,
- 33:15Speaker 1: swept off without leaving a whisper or a shadow behind.
- 33:20Speaker 1: I went forward and ordered the chain to be hauled
- 33:23Speaker 1: in short so as to be ready to trip the anchor,
- 33:26Speaker 1: and move the steamboat at once. If necessary, will they attack,
- 33:31Speaker 1: whispered an awed voice. We will all be butchered in
- 33:35Speaker 1: this fog, murmured another. The faces twitched with a strain,
- 33:41Speaker 1: the hands trembled slightly, the eyes forgot to wink. It
- 33:46Speaker 1: was very curious to see the contrast of expressions of
- 33:49Speaker 1: the white men and of the black fellows of our crew,
- 33:52Speaker 1: who were as much strange as to that part of
- 33:54Speaker 1: the river as we, though their homes were only eight
- 33:57Speaker 1: hundred miles away. The white, of course, greatly discomposed, had
- 34:02Speaker 1: besides a curious look of being painfully shot by such
- 34:06Speaker 1: an outrageous row. The others had an alert, naturally interested expression,
- 34:13Speaker 1: but their faces were essentially quiet, even those of the
- 34:17Speaker 1: one or two who grinned as they hauled out the chain.
- 34:21Speaker 1: Several exchanged short, grunting phrases, which seemed to settle the
- 34:25Speaker 1: matter to their satisfaction. Their headman, a young, broad chested black,
- 34:31Speaker 1: severely draped in dark blue fringed claws with fierce nostrils,
- 34:36Speaker 1: and his hair all done up artfully in oily ringlets,
- 34:39Speaker 1: stood near me. Aha, I said, just for a good
- 34:44Speaker 1: fellowship's sake, catch him he snapped, with a blood shot
- 34:48Speaker 1: widening of his eyes and a flash of sharp teeth.
- 34:52Speaker 1: Catch him, give him to us, to you, eh, I asked,
- 34:57Speaker 1: And what would you do with him? Eat em? He
- 35:01Speaker 1: said curtly, and leaning his elbow on the rail, looked
- 35:05Speaker 1: out into the fog in a dignified and profoundly pensive attitude.
- 35:10Speaker 1: I would no doubt have been properly horrified had it
- 35:14Speaker 1: not occurred to me that he and his chaps must
- 35:17Speaker 1: be very hungry, that they must have been growing increasingly
- 35:20Speaker 1: hungry for at least this month past. They had been
- 35:24Speaker 1: engaged for six months. I don't think a single one
- 35:28Speaker 1: of them had any clear idea of time, as we
- 35:30Speaker 1: at the end of countless ages have they still belonged
- 35:34Speaker 1: to the beginnings of time, had no inherited experience to
- 35:38Speaker 1: teach them as it were. And of course, as long
- 35:42Speaker 1: as there was a piece of paper written over in
- 35:44Speaker 1: accordance with some farcical law or other made down the river,
- 35:49Speaker 1: it didn't enter anybody's head to trouble how they would live.
- 35:53Speaker 1: Certainly they had brought with them some rotten hippo meat,
- 35:57Speaker 1: which couldn't have lasted very long anyway, even if the
- 36:00Speaker 1: pilgrims hadn't, in the midst of a shocking hullabaloo, thrown
- 36:03Speaker 1: a considerable quantity of it overboard. It looked like a
- 36:08Speaker 1: high handed proceeding, but it was really a case of
- 36:12Speaker 1: legitimate self defense. You can't breathe dead, hippo, waking, sleeping,
- 36:17Speaker 1: and eating and at the same time keep your precarious
- 36:21Speaker 1: grip on existence. Besides that, they had given them every
- 36:26Speaker 1: week three pieces of brass wire, each about nine inches long,
- 36:30Speaker 1: and the theory was they were to buy their provisions
- 36:33Speaker 1: with that currency in riverside villages. You can see how
- 36:38Speaker 1: that worked. There were either no villages, or the people
- 36:43Speaker 1: were hostile, or the director, who like the rest of us,
- 36:46Speaker 1: fed out of tins with an occasional old he goat
- 36:49Speaker 1: thrown in, didn't want to stop the steamer for some
- 36:53Speaker 1: more or less recondite reason. So unless they swallowed the
- 36:58Speaker 1: wire itself or made loop of it to snare the
- 37:01Speaker 1: fishes with, I don't see what good their extravagant salary
- 37:05Speaker 1: could be to them. I must say it was paid
- 37:08Speaker 1: with a regularity worthy of a large and honorable tracking company.
- 37:13Speaker 1: For the rest the only thing to eat, though it
- 37:16Speaker 1: didn't look eatable. In the least I saw in their
- 37:18Speaker 1: possession were a few lumps of some stuff, like half
- 37:22Speaker 1: cooked dough of a dirty lavender color. They kept wrapped
- 37:26Speaker 1: in leaves, and now and then swallowed a piece of
- 37:29Speaker 1: but so small that it seemed done more for the
- 37:32Speaker 1: looks of the thing than for any serious purpose of sustenance.
- 37:37Speaker 1: Why in the name of all the gnawing devils of
- 37:40Speaker 1: hunger they didn't go for us. They were thirty to
- 37:44Speaker 1: five and have a good tuck in for once. Amazes
- 37:47Speaker 1: me now when I think of it. They were big,
- 37:51Speaker 1: powerful men, with not much capacity to weigh the consequences
- 37:55Speaker 1: with courage, with strength. Even yet, though their skins were
- 37:59Speaker 1: no longer glossy and their muscles no longer hard, and
- 38:03Speaker 1: I saw that something restraining, one of those human secrets
- 38:07Speaker 1: that baffle probability, had come into play there. I looked
- 38:13Speaker 1: at them with a swift quickening of interest, not because
- 38:16Speaker 1: it occurred to me I might be eaten by them
- 38:19Speaker 1: before very long, though I owned to you that just
- 38:22Speaker 1: then I perceived in a new light, as it were,
- 38:26Speaker 1: how unwholesome the pilgrims looked. And I hoped, yes, I
- 38:30Speaker 1: positively hoped that my aspect was not so what shall
- 38:35Speaker 1: I say, so unappetizing, a touch of fantastic vanity, which
- 38:41Speaker 1: fitted well with the dream sensation that pervaded all my
- 38:45Speaker 1: days at the time. Perhaps I had a little fever too.
- 38:51Speaker 1: One can't live with one's finger everlastingly on one's pulse.
- 38:55Speaker 1: I had often a little fever, or a little touch
- 38:58Speaker 1: of other things, the playful paw strokes of the wilderness,
- 39:02Speaker 1: the preliminary trifling before the more serious onslaught, which came
- 39:06Speaker 1: in due course. Yes, I looked at them as you
- 39:10Speaker 1: would on any human being, with a curiosity of their impulses, motives, capacities, weaknesses,
- 39:17Speaker 1: when brought to the test of an inexorable physical necessity, restraint,
- 39:23Speaker 1: What possible restraint was it? Superstition, disgust, patience, fear, or
- 39:32Speaker 1: some kind of primitive honor. No fear can stand up
- 39:37Speaker 1: to hunger, no patience can wear it out. Disgust simply
- 39:41Speaker 1: does not exist where hunger is. And as to superstition, beliefs,
- 39:46Speaker 1: and what you may call principles, they are less than
- 39:50Speaker 1: chaff in a breeze. Don't you know the devilry of
- 39:54Speaker 1: lingering starvation, its exasperating torment, its black thoughts, somber and
- 40:00Speaker 1: brooding ferocity. Well, I do. It takes a man all
- 40:06Speaker 1: his inborn strength to fight hunger properly. It's really easier
- 40:10Speaker 1: to face bereavement, dishonor, and the perdition of one's soul
- 40:15Speaker 1: than this kind of prolonged hunger. Sad but true, And
- 40:20Speaker 1: these chaps too, had no earthly reason for any kind
- 40:24Speaker 1: of scruple restraint. I would just as soon have expected
- 40:28Speaker 1: restraint from a hyena prowling amongst the corpses of a battlefield.
- 40:33Speaker 1: But there was the fact facing me, the fact dazzling
- 40:37Speaker 1: to be seen, like the foam on the depths of
- 40:40Speaker 1: a sea, like a ripple on the unfathomable enigma, A
- 40:44Speaker 1: mystery greater when I thought of it, than the curious,
- 40:48Speaker 1: inexplicable note of desperate grief in this savage clamor that
- 40:53Speaker 1: had swept bias on the river bank. Behind the blind
- 40:57Speaker 1: whiteness of the fog, two pilgrims were quarreling in hurried
- 41:03Speaker 1: whispers as to which bank left. No, No, how can
- 41:08Speaker 1: you right? Right? Of course, it is very serious, said
- 41:12Speaker 1: the manager's voice behind me. I would be desolated if
- 41:16Speaker 1: anything should happen to mister Kurtz. Before we came up.
- 41:20Speaker 1: I looked at him and had not the slightest doubt
- 41:23Speaker 1: he was sincere. He was just the kind of man
- 41:26Speaker 1: who would wish to preserve appearances. That was his restraint.
- 41:32Speaker 1: But when he muttered something about going on at once,
- 41:36Speaker 1: I did not even take the trouble to answer him.
- 41:39Speaker 1: I knew, and he knew, that it was impossible. Were
- 41:43Speaker 1: we to let go our hold of the bottom, we
- 41:46Speaker 1: would be absolutely in the air in space. We wouldn't
- 41:50Speaker 1: be able to tell where we were going to, whether
- 41:53Speaker 1: up or down stream or a cross till we fetched
- 41:57Speaker 1: against one bank or the other, and then we wouldn't
- 42:00Speaker 1: know at first which it was. Of course, I had
- 42:04Speaker 1: no move I had no mind for a smash up.
- 42:08Speaker 1: You couldn't imagine a more deadly place for a shipwreck.
- 42:12Speaker 1: Whether we drowned at once or not, we were sure
- 42:15Speaker 1: to perry speedily in one way or another. I authorize
- 42:19Speaker 1: you to take all the risks, he said, after a
- 42:22Speaker 1: short silence. I refuse to take any, I said shortly,
- 42:28Speaker 1: which was just the answer he expected, though its tone
- 42:31Speaker 1: might have surprised him. Well, I must defer to your judgment.
- 42:37Speaker 1: You are captain he said, with a marked civility. I
- 42:42Speaker 1: turned my shoulder to him in a sign of my appreciation,
- 42:45Speaker 1: and looked into the fog. How long would it last?
- 42:50Speaker 1: It was the most hopeless look out the approach to this,
- 42:55Speaker 1: Kurt's grubbing for ivory and the wretched bush was beset
- 42:58Speaker 1: by as many dangers as though he had been an
- 43:01Speaker 1: enchanted princess sleeping in a fabulous castle. Will they attack,
- 43:06Speaker 1: do you think? Asked the manager in a confidential tone.
- 43:11Speaker 1: I did not think they would attack, for several obvious reasons.
- 43:16Speaker 1: The thick fog was one. If they left the bank
- 43:20Speaker 1: and their canoes, they would get lost in it, as
- 43:22Speaker 1: we would be if we attempted to move Still. I
- 43:27Speaker 1: had also judged the jungle of both banks quite impenetrable,
- 43:30Speaker 1: and yet eyes were in it, eyes that had seen us.
- 43:35Speaker 1: The riverside bushes were certainly very thick, but the undergrowth
- 43:40Speaker 1: behind was evidently penetrable. However, during the short lift, I
- 43:45Speaker 1: had seen no canoes anywhere in the reach, certainly not
- 43:49Speaker 1: abreast of the steamer. But what made the idea of
- 43:52Speaker 1: attack inconceivable to me was the nature of the noise
- 43:56Speaker 1: of the cries we had heard. They had not the
- 44:00Speaker 1: fierce character boding immediate hostile intention. Unexpected, wild and violent
- 44:05Speaker 1: as they had been, they had given me an irresistible
- 44:09Speaker 1: impression of sorrow. The glimpse of the steamboats had for
- 44:13Speaker 1: some reason filled those savages with unrestrained grief. The danger,
- 44:19Speaker 1: if any, I expounded, was from the proximity to a
- 44:23Speaker 1: great human passion let loose. Even extreme grief may ultimately
- 44:29Speaker 1: vent itself in violence, but more generally takes the form
- 44:33Speaker 1: of apathy. You should have seen the pilgrims stare. They
- 44:39Speaker 1: had no heart to grin or even to revile me.
- 44:42Speaker 1: But I believe they thought me gone mad with fright.
- 44:46Speaker 1: Maybe I delivered a regular lecture, my dear boys. It
- 44:51Speaker 1: was no good bothering keep a lookouts. Well, you may guess.
- 44:57Speaker 1: I watched the fog for the signs of lifting as
- 44:59Speaker 1: a cat watches a mouse, but for anything else. Our
- 45:03Speaker 1: eyes were of no more use to us than if
- 45:05Speaker 1: we had been buried miles deep in a heap of
- 45:08Speaker 1: cotton wool. I felt like it too, choking, warm, stifling. Besides,
- 45:15Speaker 1: all I said, though it sounded extravagant, was absolutely true
- 45:20Speaker 1: to fact. What we afterwards alluded to as an attack
- 45:24Speaker 1: was really an attempt to repulse. The action was very
- 45:29Speaker 1: far from being aggressive. It was not even defensive in
- 45:33Speaker 1: the usual sense. It was undertaken under the stress of desperation,
- 45:38Speaker 1: and in its essence was purely protective. It developed itself,
- 45:44Speaker 1: I should say, two hours after the fog lifted, and
- 45:47Speaker 1: its commencement was at a spot roughly speaking, about a
- 45:51Speaker 1: mile and a half below Kurtz's station. We had just
- 45:55Speaker 1: floundered and flopped round a bend when I saw an island,
- 45:59Speaker 1: a mere grass hummock of bright green in the middle
- 46:02Speaker 1: of the stream. It was the only thing of the kind.
- 46:05Speaker 1: But as we opened the reach more I perceived it
- 46:08Speaker 1: was the head of a long sand bank, or rather
- 46:11Speaker 1: of a chain of shallow patches stretching down the middle
- 46:14Speaker 1: of the river. They were discolored, just a wash, and
- 46:18Speaker 1: the whole lot was seen just under the water, exactly
- 46:22Speaker 1: as a man's backbone is seen running down the middle
- 46:25Speaker 1: of his back under the skin. Now, as far as
- 46:29Speaker 1: I did see, I could go to the right or
- 46:31Speaker 1: to the left of this, I didn't know either channel.
- 46:35Speaker 1: Of course, the banks looked pretty well alike. The depth
- 46:39Speaker 1: appeared the same, But as I had been informed the
- 46:42Speaker 1: station was on the west side, I naturally headed for
- 46:47Speaker 1: the western passage. End of part one of Chapter two