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Da Poetic Lounge presented by Aspiring Authors Magazine |POET OF THE YEAR 2026 KISHA JOHNSON MCRAE · DA CREW Podcast

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  Speaker 1: Welcome. Welcome, family. To the poetic lounge. Where the words
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  Speaker 1: have rhythm.
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  Speaker 2: And every story matters.
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  Speaker 1: Presented by Aspiring Authors Magazine. Hosted by Kisha J. Pen
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  Speaker 1: to paper.
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  Speaker 3: Building legacy.
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  Speaker 1: Pen to paper. Building legacy.
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  Speaker 4: Welcome to the Poetic Lounge. Where the words go up,
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  Speaker 4: blessings come down. Welcome to the Poetic Lounge. Jazz in
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  Speaker 4: the room. Gospel in the sound Faith in the flow Love.
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  Speaker 5: All around The poetic lounge Holy ground.
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  Speaker 6: Step in the room, feel the joy, feel the light.
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  Speaker 6: Every voice has power, every line takes flight. Authors, dreamers,
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  Speaker 6: storytellers in the glow. Turning pain to purpose, let the
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  Speaker 6: healer show. Kiss your J on the mic with a steady,
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  Speaker 6: clear word. Speaking truth to the nation, making hope be heard.
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  Speaker 6: From the page to the stage, she leads with grace.
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  Speaker 6: Lifting every soul in that sacred place. Clap your hands,
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  Speaker 6: let the room come alive. Every testimony, every dream survives.
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  Speaker 1: We bring the hurt back.
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  Speaker 6: We bring the praise, turn our stories into freedom waves.
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  Speaker 4: Welcome to the Poetic Lounge. Love a word, words go on.
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  Speaker 6: Yeah.
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  Speaker 2: Blessings come down.
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  Speaker 4: Welcome to the Poetic Lounge.
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  Speaker 1: Jazz in the room. Jazz in the room.
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  Speaker 5: Yeah.
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  Speaker 2: Gospel in the sound.
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  Speaker 4: Faith in the flow.
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  Speaker 3: Yeah.
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  Speaker 5: Poetic crown, holy crown.
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  Speaker 7: Oh yeah.
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  Speaker 1: Kisha Johnson-McGray, woman of grace. Author, advocate, truth in her face.
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  Speaker 6: CEO of the beautiful butterfly movement. Helping women heal through
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  Speaker 6: the whole improvement. She speaks to the battles that stay
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  Speaker 6: off stage. Guiding Christian hearts through the storm and rage
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  Speaker 6: Through trauma, transition, struggle and prayer She tells every sister
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  Speaker 6: healing lives there Raising sons with ADHD, carrying lupus too
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  Speaker 6: Still she rises with strength in all she walks through
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  Speaker 6: Her words bring survival, her voice brings peace Open every
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  Speaker 6: door and let the heavy one release If you came
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  Speaker 6: with a story, let it rise tonight If you came
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  Speaker 6: with a burden, step into the.
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  Speaker 5: Light If your pen's been waiting, let.
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  Speaker 6: It write tonight If your soul needs healing and God
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  Speaker 6: is in sight!
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  Speaker 5: Let it rise! Let it heal!
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  Speaker 3: Let it light!
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  Speaker 2: Jazz in the room!
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  Speaker 1: Yeah!
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  Speaker 5: Huh!
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  Speaker 1: Jazz in the room!
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  Speaker 2: Jazz in the room. Gospel in the sound. Faith in
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  Speaker 2: the flow.
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  Speaker 5: Love all around. The poetic ground.
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  Speaker 2: Holy ground.
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  Speaker 5: Yeah.
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  Speaker 1: Pinnacle. Building legacy. Words with purpose. Speaking to the nations.
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  Speaker 1: Hosted by Kishi J.
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  Speaker 7: Good evening, good evening, everyone.
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  Speaker 2: Welcome, welcome, welcome, and come on in.
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  Speaker 7: As you know, we are here again tonight with another
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  Speaker 7: The Poetic Language Podcast. And let me tell you, it's
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  Speaker 7: going to be very interesting tonight. We are going to
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  Speaker 7: sit back and have a conversation. And what I want
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  Speaker 7: to do tonight is something different. But you all can
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  Speaker 7: engage too. I'm not sure if I can see you,
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  Speaker 7: but I want this to be a conversation with those
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  Speaker 7: who's watching.
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  Speaker 2: So get that out the way. You remember the last
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  Speaker 2: time we had this podcast?
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  Speaker 7: That beautiful woman. over with me, that was basically instant.
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  Speaker 7: You know, the Holy Spirit stepped in. We wanted to
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  Speaker 7: just have a conversation. And that's who? Well, that's the one.
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  Speaker 7: I'm not going to be there tonight.
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  Speaker 2: But this time, she's going to be my co-host. So
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  Speaker 2: I don't want you all to laugh. I can't hear you.
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  Speaker 7: But laugh with me. Welcome, welcome, welcome Cheryl LeGrande.
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  Speaker 2: We are online, so this means something.
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  Speaker 1: Shout out to Lydia.
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  Speaker 2: Thank you all for coming.
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  Speaker 7: And while she's trying to chime in, I need to
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  Speaker 7: know where everybody coming in from. Put your, you know,
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  Speaker 7: the city, where you're calling in from, where you're chiming
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  Speaker 7: in from.
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  Speaker 2: I would like to know that. Let me know that.
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  Speaker 2: So I can shout you out if I'm speaking. That's
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  Speaker 2: how it be. Thank you.
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  Speaker 7: Oh, I can't even see her.
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  Speaker 2: Oh.
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  Speaker 1: Oh.
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  Speaker 2: Make sure to.
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  Speaker 2: Well, guys, you know, technical difficulties happen. We are not.
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  Speaker 2: We are all the way around.
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  Speaker 7: So sometimes things happen. But like I said, if you're here,
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  Speaker 7: let me know that you're in the room. Because tonight
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  Speaker 7: is going to be a little different.
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  Speaker 2: I got a.
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  Speaker 7: Saturday night and a great conversation that's.
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  Speaker 2: Going to go on tonight. And I'm sure you're going
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  Speaker 2: to enjoy it.
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  Speaker 7: So we're just waiting for the show to come on.
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  Speaker 7: And then also, what I wanted to tell you all,
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  Speaker 7: there were some people that I'm speaking to in reference
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  Speaker 7: to COVID-19. And it started going down their timelines. So
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  Speaker 7: I picked up questions and people were answering. So I
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  Speaker 7: picked up those questions for you all, for me and
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  Speaker 7: Sarah to talk about and answer.
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  Speaker 2: Tonight for you. And you all can, you know, tell
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  Speaker 2: me what you think. Just write it in your comments.
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  Speaker 2: Just write it in your comments. And again, I welcome
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  Speaker 2: you all. And there she goes.
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  Speaker 1: Yes. Can you hear me? Yes.
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  Speaker 2: Loud and clear. I can see your beautiful face.
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  Speaker 1: Too.
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  Speaker 2: Okay. Okay.
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  Speaker 1: So let me say this.
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  Speaker 7: Tonight we're going to be, the topic is when Pena
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  Speaker 7: finds his voice turning life into poetry. And like I
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  Speaker 7: was explaining to everyone, We got questions that we're going
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  Speaker 7: to be answering, and we're going to try to be
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  Speaker 7: violent on those topics, you know, those questions as well.
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  Speaker 7: But as you see my girl, Cheryl is here. I'm
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  Speaker 7: so happy to see you, Cheryl. How are you?
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  Speaker 1: I am doing great. I'm not going to complain. Okay.
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  Speaker 1: I'm doing great.
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  Speaker 2: You better say that. I know that's right. So before
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  Speaker 2: we start, Cheryl, I want you to do a favor.
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  Speaker 2: Could you pray and stand before we start?
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  Speaker 1: Yes. Father, in the name of Jesus, I just want
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  Speaker 1: to thank you, Lord, for this beautiful evening. Thank you
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  Speaker 1: for Miss Angela, the Queen, and Miss Keisha for allowing
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  Speaker 1: me to be up here once again. Father, in the
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  Speaker 1: name of Jesus, I pray, let me speak through my heart,
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  Speaker 1: not through my flesh. I'm asking you to come in
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  Speaker 1: a mighty way. I hope and pray that we say something.
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  Speaker 1: If it's nothing but one person, Father, lead us and
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  Speaker 1: guide us, Father, through your words and not through ours.
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  Speaker 1: I just want to thank you, Lord, once again, for
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  Speaker 1: giving us this opportunity to come together. In the name
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  Speaker 1: of Jesus, amen. Amen, amen, amen.
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  Speaker 7: So, Cheryl, do you got questions in front of you?
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  Speaker 2: No, don't worry. No worries, because I have. I'm not sure.
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  Speaker 7: I'm going to pull them up because I kind of
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  Speaker 7: sent you kind of late. Okay, so, like I was
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  Speaker 7: telling everyone, I have some questions, This is about seven
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  Speaker 7: questions that we could all want to talk about.
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  Speaker 2: These are questions that are pulled from other people's pages.
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  Speaker 7: They were answered already, but I figured, you know, we're
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  Speaker 7: different people, so we'll be able to answer it in
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  Speaker 7: our own way, right?
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  Speaker 2: You know, from our heart.
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  Speaker 7: So the first question we're going to talk about Oh,
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  Speaker 7: let me not forget, we also tonight, make sure you
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  Speaker 7: stay tuned to the end, because Cheryl and I are
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  Speaker 7: going to be sharing some poetry from our book.
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  Speaker 2: Last time I didn't get a chance to do that.
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  Speaker 7: I don't know if Cheryl is ready for her. I
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  Speaker 7: don't think I told her. But anyway, it's okay. You know, Stephanie,
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  Speaker 7: you be having your phones.
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  Speaker 3: Yeah.
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  Speaker 2: You just got to look them up. You know you
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  Speaker 2: be having your phones ready.
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  Speaker 1: I need to go get the other one where all
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  Speaker 1: my poetry is at.
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  Speaker 7: I can talk to them while you're doing that.
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  Speaker 2: Can I go get it now? Yeah, you can go
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  Speaker 2: get it.
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  Speaker 1: Okay.
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  Speaker 2: So I'll show, because I want us to do that
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  Speaker 2: now and get it out.
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  Speaker 1: Of the way.
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  Speaker 2: So while Stephanie.
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  Speaker 7: In doing that, I am going to tell you all
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  Speaker 7: the first. The first question is, when did you realize
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  Speaker 7: that poetry could give a voice to your feelings? Now,
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  Speaker 7: everybody on here may not.
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  Speaker 2: Be taught, I should say, in a professional way.
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  Speaker 1: But we all are.
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  Speaker 7: But a simple fact is you could just be sitting
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  Speaker 7: down and feel a certain way and stop writing how
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  Speaker 7: you feel. And it turns out to be a poem.
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  Speaker 7: Sometimes it rhymes and sometimes it don't. Me, my style
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  Speaker 7: is rhyming. Or it's like, that's the only way I
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  Speaker 7: can prove it is when my poems rhyme. So I
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  Speaker 7: want to see what Sherwin has to say about that question.
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  Speaker 7: We're going to wait until she comes back and she's
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  Speaker 7: going to do some poetry. I love sharing poetry.
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  Speaker 1: You caught me off guard with this stuff. Ask me
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  Speaker 1: the first question. No, ask me the first question that
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  Speaker 1: you want to ask.
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  Speaker 7: I let the audience know, but the first question is,
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  Speaker 7: when did you realize that poetry could give a voice
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  Speaker 7: to your feelings?
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  Speaker 1: Well, first of all, I want to say my name
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  Speaker 1: is Cheryl LeGrand. That's number one. My name is Cheryl
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  Speaker 1: Northern LeGrand. It's an honor to be up here once again.
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  Speaker 1: And I'm very honored. So first of all, let me
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  Speaker 1: thank you for that. And then now you can ask
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  Speaker 1: me the question that you wanted to ask me.
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  Speaker 2: Hello?
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  Speaker 1: Hello? Okay, while I'm waiting on my beautiful sister to
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  Speaker 1: come back, she was asking me some questions about the
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  Speaker 1: pain and poetry and what I thought. Are you back? Okay,
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  Speaker 1: because I was going to start talking.
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  Speaker 2: Can you hear me?
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  Speaker 1: Yes, I can hear you good, yes.
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  Speaker 2: Okay, okay. I'm frozen, too, in this room.
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  Speaker 1: That's okay. We're just going to keep going. Go ahead. Okay,
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  Speaker 1: and the question you asked me about when did I
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  Speaker 1: start the poetry, about the pain, what did you ask me?
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  Speaker 7: When did you realize, you know how we start writing,
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  Speaker 7: when did you come to realize that your poetry could
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  Speaker 7: give a voice to the way you was feeling?
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  Speaker 2: Um.
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  Speaker 1: Honestly, I'm going to say this. I really didn't at
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  Speaker 1: one time. Miss Angela was writing books to Queen about poetry.
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  Speaker 1: And I was very, I really didn't think I can
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  Speaker 1: do poetry. So let me just say that I'm an
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  Speaker 1: author and writer. But for me, I realized that when
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  Speaker 1: I start writing it down and it came from the
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  Speaker 1: inside of me. But be honest with you, this just
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  Speaker 1: happened about a year and a half ago when it
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  Speaker 1: came to poetry. Because I felt like in my spirit,
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  Speaker 1: that was not my thing. I thought I had to rhyme.
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  Speaker 1: I thought I had to say everything. But realizing that
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  Speaker 1: it came from my heart, what was already inside of me.
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  Speaker 1: So that's how I tell anybody who's doing poetry. Because
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  Speaker 1: I was like, I got to rhyme. And I hear
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  Speaker 1: so many people saying. But I had to learn. It
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  Speaker 1: wasn't based upon the rhyme. It was based upon what
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  Speaker 1: was in my heart.
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  Speaker 2: Right.
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  Speaker 1: So that's how I started looking at, you know, poetry
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  Speaker 1: for me. And it's good to have an understanding when
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  Speaker 1: you have other people that's been doing it for a while.
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  Speaker 1: And then that way they can share that. Because in
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  Speaker 1: our mind, we always start looking at the Love Jones
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  Speaker 1: and different movies like that. We just always thought that
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  Speaker 1: the poetry had to rhyme the poetry together. had to
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  Speaker 1: be a certain way. So by me starting to do
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  Speaker 1: it and starting to say, okay, God, use me, then
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  Speaker 1: that's what had me to do it. And I actually
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  Speaker 1: enjoy it now that I do do it. Keisha, are
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  Speaker 1: you still there? Are you still there?
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  Speaker 2: Can you hear me?
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  Speaker 1: Yes.
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  Speaker 2: I'm going to go in and come back out. Just
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  Speaker 2: keep talking.
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  Speaker 1: Okay, so since I'm going to be.
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  Speaker 2: I think I'm back.
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  Speaker 1: I'm back. Okay, you're back now? Okay.
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  Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah.
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  Speaker 1: Why are you doing that?
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  Speaker 2: So I heard what you said.
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  Speaker 7: And you're definitely right, because I remember, because I started writing,
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  Speaker 7: and I actually started writing in public school. I didn't
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  Speaker 7: really know anything about poetry, but I knew for some
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  Speaker 7: reason I just loved to write. So I always joined
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  Speaker 7: little contests or, you know, wrote little poems for certain
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  Speaker 7: events and things of that sort. But I really started
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  Speaker 7: writing when I got in, what do you want to say,
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  Speaker 7: junior high school.
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  Speaker 2: I entered a, I got to see a contest, and
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  Speaker 2: I wrote a poem called What a.
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  Speaker 7: Mother Is, or something like that. I think I still
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  Speaker 7: got it in my home college. And I actually won
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  Speaker 7: second place.
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  Speaker 1: Oh, wow.
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  Speaker 7: And that poem pretty much described Mama. You know, which
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  Speaker 7: was all my feelings and how I felt about her.
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  Speaker 7: So I was able to describe that in the poem.
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  Speaker 2: And I was excited. And I said, oh, wow. I
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  Speaker 2: could really body and feel what I wrote.
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  Speaker 7: So like from that time on, That's what I did,
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  Speaker 7: was write, write, write. My family always encouraged me, you know,
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  Speaker 7: to write. But it was poetry. So that's what I
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  Speaker 7: wanted to tell everybody, like Cheryl said. Poetry is from
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  Speaker 7: your heart. So don't let someone say to you, that's
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  Speaker 7: not how that's done.
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  Speaker 2: I feel that poetry is personal to you.
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  Speaker 1: Yes, it is. Right?
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  Speaker 2: And the way you want to say it.
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  Speaker 1: That's right.
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  Speaker 2: You know what I'm saying? Especially if it's spoken word.
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  Speaker 2: To me, there's no roots.
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  Speaker 1: There's no roots.
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  Speaker 2: Because when you're speaking how you feel, you're not speaking out.
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  Speaker 7: You're not saying you want people to hear it. So
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  Speaker 7: just know that you are out here.
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  Speaker 2: We are up here talking about poetry. But just know
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  Speaker 2: that poetry don't have to rhyme. There's no roots. Just
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  Speaker 2: take a look at it like that. There's no roots
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  Speaker 2: in poetry.
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  Speaker 1: Feel what you feel.
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  Speaker 2: And poetry, I feel like poetry saved my life.
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  Speaker 7: Because around the time, when I was younger and my teens,
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  Speaker 7: I used.
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  Speaker 2: To think about unabiding myself. Because I don't know what
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  Speaker 2: we can say in here, so I'm going to cut
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  Speaker 2: this off. It was in my mind, right? It was
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  Speaker 2: in my mind. But we know that was nothing.
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  Speaker 1: But the enemy.
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  Speaker 2: My mom always used to talk to me about God.
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  Speaker 7: I knew about the enemy, and I knew that's what
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  Speaker 7: it was because I wasn't going through nothing that bad.
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  Speaker 2: I should have wanted to do that, right?
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  Speaker 1: That's right.
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  Speaker 2: The enemy, you know. And I just started writing. I
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  Speaker 2: just started writing. I love to write.
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  Speaker 7: And I just started writing on my feelings. And in time,
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  Speaker 7: I would feel better. And I do that to today.
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  Speaker 2: To this day. When I'm feeling some type of way,
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  Speaker 2: I just get the pen and the paper.
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  Speaker 7: Pen and paper.
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  Speaker 2: I don't care where the pen and paper come from.
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  Speaker 2: I just get it. You know what I'm saying? So,
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  Speaker 2: you are out there. If you want to put in
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  Speaker 2: a chat. Did you see anybody in the chat?
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  Speaker 1: I'm so busy focusing right now.
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  Speaker 2: No, I know, but I just want to say, you can't, right?
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  Speaker 3: So if you look down on your screen, the comments
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  Speaker 3: are posted on your screen.
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  Speaker 2: Okay.
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  Speaker 7: Maybe I got to press comments because I don't want to.
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  Speaker 3: No, all you have to do is look on your screen.
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  Speaker 3: It's right there on your screen, that white box.
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  Speaker 1: Yes. Okay.
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  Speaker 2: I got you. Oh, okay. I got you, clean. You know,
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  Speaker 2: I've been looking at that all this time. You know
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  Speaker 2: what I thought it was?
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  Speaker 1: Well, you know what she's doing.
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  Speaker 7: She's putting up, you know, people's comments, but it's landing
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  Speaker 7: right there, special comments.
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  Speaker 2: That's what I'm talking about. But anyway, so here, Cheryl,
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  Speaker 2: so that's what it's about. Writing is therapy to me.
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  Speaker 1: Yes, it is.
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  Speaker 7: Let me tell you, if I had to choose between
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  Speaker 7: writing poetry to you.
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  Speaker 2: Than seeing a psychiatrist, I would choose writing. I would
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  Speaker 2: choose writing. You know what I'm saying?
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  Speaker 7: Because a lot of times, even when you're talking to somebody,
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  Speaker 7: you still don't feel like you could be as whole, right?
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  Speaker 7: But when you're stepping in parties in front of you,
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  Speaker 7: it's a private thing. You know what I'm saying?
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  Speaker 2: It's a private thing.
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  Speaker 7: So that's how I feel about it.
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  Speaker 2: You know, when it came down to my feelings, putting
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  Speaker 2: my feelings with my poetry. So the next question that.
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  Speaker 7: I saw was, why do you think sometimes it's easier
• 20:56
  Speaker 7: to write than share your feelings on the outside?
• 21:02
  Speaker 1: Well, for me, it's easier to write because it's personal
• 21:06
  Speaker 1: to me. When you're talking to someone, you got to
• 21:08
  Speaker 1: accept it's like their opinion. Sometimes an opinion can take
• 21:12
  Speaker 1: you to the left or to the right. But when
• 21:14
  Speaker 1: you are writing down, you know that's directly coming from you.
• 21:17
  Speaker 1: You don't have to worry about nobody's opinion. You can
• 21:19
  Speaker 1: pray about it as God sees you or just say, okay, God,
• 21:23
  Speaker 1: which way you want me to go? Because sometimes we
• 21:25
  Speaker 1: get other people's opinion. It might be right for us
• 21:28
  Speaker 1: to go left. By the time we listen to them,
• 21:30
  Speaker 1: we go to another side. So I advise anyone, before
• 21:34
  Speaker 1: you give anybody an opinion, first speak to your heart.
• 21:37
  Speaker 1: Pray to God and say, Lord, which way do you
• 21:39
  Speaker 1: want me to go? And I had to even learn
• 21:41
  Speaker 1: that with poetry when the queen asked me. In my mind,
• 21:45
  Speaker 1: I could not do poetry. In my mind, like I said,
• 21:47
  Speaker 1: I had to rhyme. But in my mind, I could
• 21:50
  Speaker 1: understand poetry. And by me hearing so many other different people,
• 21:54
  Speaker 1: and I was like, oh, they powerful. They just not
• 21:56
  Speaker 1: knowing that God gave me that gift. See, we have
• 21:59
  Speaker 1: to be careful. are laboring ourselves to one thing. If
• 22:04
  Speaker 1: I made mistakes and issues in being an author, why
• 22:07
  Speaker 1: I can't grow and do something different? Because we get
• 22:09
  Speaker 1: comfortable in doing the things that we do. But I say,
• 22:12
  Speaker 1: you know what? If she see talent in me, why not?
• 22:15
  Speaker 1: I don't see it in myself. The same way, like
• 22:17
  Speaker 1: I said, when I started getting on podcasts and different stuff,
• 22:20
  Speaker 1: I was on the wrong podcast. things wasn't shining. And
• 22:23
  Speaker 1: the same way we do our health and everything else,
• 22:25
  Speaker 1: we step out on faith and be like, God, why
• 22:28
  Speaker 1: wouldn't that uncomfortable challenge come? Which our health is, we don't.
• 22:32
  Speaker 1: For me, writing it down was the best thing because
• 22:35
  Speaker 1: we have to be careful and pray who we do
• 22:37
  Speaker 1: talk to. Because just because we talk to them, they agree,
• 22:41
  Speaker 1: don't mean that's the right thing to do at the
• 22:43
  Speaker 1: same time. Because everybody we talk to, we have to
• 22:46
  Speaker 1: pray and ask, God, did you even tell me to
• 22:48
  Speaker 1: talk to that person? Why not write it down and
• 22:53
  Speaker 1: then talk to me? Because he's going to lead us
• 22:56
  Speaker 1: even if it's incorrect or it's not the wrong way.
• 22:59
  Speaker 1: If he's planting that seed, it's going to come out
• 23:02
  Speaker 1: the right way. So I advise anyone that's doing anything,
• 23:06
  Speaker 1: write your thoughts down before you pick up the phone
• 23:09
  Speaker 1: and call someone. And then that way, it's not an issue.
• 23:13
  Speaker 1: Because sometimes we battle with ourselves more so than we
• 23:16
  Speaker 1: battle with the other people. So that's how I look
• 23:18
  Speaker 1: at it.
• 23:20
  Speaker 2: That is so true.
• 23:21
  Speaker 7: I know sometimes, like when you talk to people, first
• 23:24
  Speaker 7: of all, I don't want a person that's always going to.
• 23:27
  Speaker 1: Agree with me. Exactly.
• 23:30
  Speaker 2: Yes. You know what I'm saying? I want somebody.
• 23:32
  Speaker 7: We was just, I was on the phone tonight with
• 23:34
  Speaker 7: my sister and my.
• 23:36
  Speaker 2: Mom, and we were talking about different things. We were
• 23:38
  Speaker 2: just saying that, you know, tell me like it is.
• 23:42
  Speaker 2: You know what I'm saying?
• 23:43
  Speaker 7: Tell me like you feel, you know, me and my,
• 23:47
  Speaker 7: that's how my sister is anyway, but.
• 23:50
  Speaker 2: You know, but that's a good thing. You don't want
• 23:52
  Speaker 2: a yes buddy all the time. I don't need that.
• 23:56
  Speaker 2: You know, if that's the case, he's going to be
• 23:59
  Speaker 2: a yes buddy.
• 23:59
  Speaker 7: Let me just go in here and go in my
• 24:01
  Speaker 7: little corners and just start writing.
• 24:03
  Speaker 2: You know what I'm saying?
• 24:05
  Speaker 7: Because God wants, gives us discernment of who we need
• 24:12
  Speaker 7: to go to. But sometimes we don't listen. We just
• 24:16
  Speaker 7: go to who we want to go to.
• 24:18
  Speaker 1: You know what I mean?
• 24:19
  Speaker 7: So, You know, but when it comes down, for me,
• 24:23
  Speaker 7: I want to say easier to write is because sometimes,
• 24:31
  Speaker 7: I'm going to say, because there's so many different scenarios.
• 24:35
  Speaker 2: Let's just say I'm eating with somebody.
• 24:38
  Speaker 7: I know how my mouth could be, right?
• 24:43
  Speaker 2: If I set it up. Right. You know, being in
• 24:46
  Speaker 2: Christ now, I know I could check myself and say.
• 24:49
  Speaker 7: That's not going to be right. That ain't even right
• 24:52
  Speaker 7: to say. So I go to my book.
• 24:55
  Speaker 2: Because that's mine.
• 24:57
  Speaker 7: I can rip a person up in my book, write
• 25:01
  Speaker 7: in my book, and they would never see it. So
• 25:04
  Speaker 7: now I don't have to ever hurt their feelings. I
• 25:06
  Speaker 7: don't have to ever disrespect them.
• 25:09
  Speaker 1: They wouldn't even know.
• 25:10
  Speaker 2: Well, unless they didn't have any reason. But they should.
• 25:14
  Speaker 2: They should be reading it. You know what I'm saying?
• 25:18
  Speaker 2: Because that's private. That's like back in the day. I
• 25:20
  Speaker 2: don't even know if they have it now.
• 25:22
  Speaker 7: Like they had diamonds. They still have diamonds, right?
• 25:28
  Speaker 1: They still have. Another thing, Keisha, I want to say,
• 25:31
  Speaker 1: that one thing about writing down, it's not even about
• 25:34
  Speaker 1: the other person. It's about... side of us because we
• 25:39
  Speaker 1: could say anything right and somebody still get offended whether
• 25:42
  Speaker 1: it's okay or yes because it depends on how we
• 25:47
  Speaker 1: as an individual accept what somebody say you can say
• 25:51
  Speaker 1: the nicest thing you don't know if they had a
• 25:52
  Speaker 1: bad day you don't know somebody said to them but
• 25:56
  Speaker 1: for me I had to learn how to write down
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  Speaker 1: for myself because I'm facing an issue when I was
• 26:03
  Speaker 1: doing something This wasn't even about the person, how they feel.
• 26:06
  Speaker 1: It's about, okay, how can you get better as an individual,
• 26:10
  Speaker 1: whether it was writing for a book, whether it was
• 26:12
  Speaker 1: writing for poetry. In general, reading and writing is so important,
• 26:17
  Speaker 1: as well as writing is reading. So I tell anybody,
• 26:20
  Speaker 1: whether they're an author, whether they're poetry, just keep writing
• 26:23
  Speaker 1: every day. People say, what do I do? Keep writing
• 26:26
  Speaker 1: every single day. Because you might feel this day, maybe
• 26:31
  Speaker 1: something else. And that's what I had to learn to
• 26:34
  Speaker 1: do for me. But like I said, poetry and writing
• 26:38
  Speaker 1: go hand to hand. But to me, being an author,
• 26:43
  Speaker 1: we're telling our story. But to me, poetry, we're speaking
• 26:47
  Speaker 1: out of our heart. And that's, whatever I've been through
• 26:52
  Speaker 1: and put it in a book, you telling your story,
• 26:54
  Speaker 1: you telling what happened and you pray affects somebody. But
• 26:58
  Speaker 1: to me, poetry as an individual, we speaking through our heart,
• 27:02
  Speaker 1: not just our flesh. We speaking, it's not over here.
• 27:08
  Speaker 1: It is, okay, God, what do you want me to
• 27:10
  Speaker 1: come out of here? And speaking through your heart is
• 27:12
  Speaker 1: better than speaking out my flesh. Speaking out of my
• 27:15
  Speaker 1: heart is better than getting somebody's opinion. Speaking out of
• 27:18
  Speaker 1: my heart is true because anybody can do a fictional story.
• 27:21
  Speaker 1: Anybody can do any type of story. But when you
• 27:24
  Speaker 1: speak out of your heart, that's a different level. It's
• 27:29
  Speaker 1: coming out of a whole different spirit versus writing a story.
• 27:34
  Speaker 1: We all have a story in life. But it's everybody
• 27:36
  Speaker 1: speaking the truth through their story. That's a We come
• 27:43
  Speaker 1: up here and we smile and we get up here.
• 27:45
  Speaker 1: So many people go through, you see them, the best author,
• 27:49
  Speaker 1: the best husband, the best wife, and still go home
• 27:52
  Speaker 1: and got trials and tribulations that they can't deal with.
• 27:55
  Speaker 1: But when you see it from your heart, you can
• 27:58
  Speaker 1: work it all out and put it on paper and
• 28:01
  Speaker 1: nobody even has to know that. Know that. You understand?
• 28:05
  Speaker 1: That's your battle with that paper. You know what? I
• 28:07
  Speaker 1: don't like what I said today. Let me go back
• 28:10
  Speaker 1: and write something else. Let me go ahead and do this.
• 28:13
  Speaker 1: And that's how I look at anything that I do.
• 28:16
  Speaker 1: The challenge is not other people. The challenge is how
• 28:20
  Speaker 1: can I transformation? How can I renew myself? How can
• 28:25
  Speaker 1: I grow? How can I speak better, talk better? How
• 28:28
  Speaker 1: can I reach the next Cheryl or Queen Keisha? Yeah,
• 28:31
  Speaker 1: that's it. Because what was last year might not work today.
• 28:36
  Speaker 2: Right. You're right about that.
• 28:38
  Speaker 1: You're right.
• 28:40
  Speaker 2: So, we're getting questions.
• 28:43
  Speaker 7: Some people are getting a little upset because they don't
• 28:46
  Speaker 7: even know who to answer.
• 28:49
  Speaker 1: Okay, let's answer it.
• 28:50
  Speaker 2: So, let's see.
• 28:52
  Speaker 7: So, this one says, if your heart wasn't a house,
• 28:57
  Speaker 7: which room would you avoid?
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  Speaker 2: Ooh.
• 29:04
  Speaker 1: Okay, you answer that first. Okay, you said if our heart,
• 29:08
  Speaker 1: you're saying what that was.
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  Speaker 2: If our heart was a house.
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  Speaker 1: Okay.
• 29:16
  Speaker 2: In other words, we won't go in.
• 29:21
  Speaker 1: Okay. Well, you want to speak first or you want
• 29:24
  Speaker 1: me to speak first?
• 29:26
  Speaker 2: I can answer that. It's the basement.
• 29:29
  Speaker 1: Because it's dark.
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  Speaker 2: I'm going to avoid that. with every means necessary.
• 29:36
  Speaker 7: You know, because I feel like if I had with
• 29:40
  Speaker 7: my heart, I got.
• 29:42
  Speaker 2: To be in the light. God is not in darkness.
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  Speaker 2: You know what I'm saying? So I will need to
• 29:51
  Speaker 2: not be in the basement. That's a good, that's a
• 29:54
  Speaker 2: person that really, really will make you think. You know
• 29:57
  Speaker 2: what I'm saying? Because I know for me.
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  Speaker 7: God has brought me from so much, right? So if
• 30:09
  Speaker 7: my wife was a, you know what I'm saying? If
• 30:11
  Speaker 7: my wife was a house, I would want to be
• 30:15
  Speaker 7: in the basement because then I know I'm going to
• 30:18
  Speaker 7: continue being where I don't want to be.
• 30:21
  Speaker 2: You know what I'm saying? So for me, hands down,
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  Speaker 2: it's the basement.
• 30:27
  Speaker 1: It's amazing.
• 30:27
  Speaker 2: What about you, Cher?
• 30:29
  Speaker 1: For me, I wouldn't want to be in the attic,
• 30:32
  Speaker 1: the basement, or the bathroom. That's the thing. Right. I
• 30:37
  Speaker 1: wouldn't want to be in either one because the bathroom,
• 30:39
  Speaker 1: people come in and out as germs. So I prefer somewhere,
• 30:43
  Speaker 1: an open space. And to me, it would be the
• 30:46
  Speaker 1: living room or the dining room if it was me.
• 30:49
  Speaker 1: Because I feel like you could see me.
• 30:51
  Speaker 2: It's amazing. Yeah. Yeah.
• 30:53
  Speaker 1: I have more room to pray. I have more room
• 30:56
  Speaker 1: to be myself. I have more room to be open.
• 30:59
  Speaker 1: The bathroom to me is germs. The bathroom. So for me,
• 31:05
  Speaker 1: I will cut the attic, the basement, and the bathroom
• 31:07
  Speaker 1: because the basement is closed in. The attic is too high.
• 31:12
  Speaker 1: But when you're in the middle like this.
• 31:14
  Speaker 2: The middle, right? Life is different.
• 31:17
  Speaker 1: You know, you have room. Yes, that's how I look
• 31:20
  Speaker 1: at it.
• 31:21
  Speaker 2: They throwing questions at our show.
• 31:23
  Speaker 1: That's perfectly okay.
• 31:26
  Speaker 2: That's all right.
• 31:27
  Speaker 7: So this one says, let me see if I can
• 31:30
  Speaker 7: see it. If your soul had a color.
• 31:35
  Speaker 2: Today, what would it be and why?
• 31:43
  Speaker 1: I can answer that.
• 31:44
  Speaker 2: So you go first.
• 31:47
  Speaker 1: My color, because I am a cancer survivor, My color
• 31:51
  Speaker 1: would be pink because it was a transformation in that.
• 31:55
  Speaker 1: It changed my whole life. Because of lupus, because that
• 32:00
  Speaker 1: is my mother feeling that I'm still here, regardless of
• 32:05
  Speaker 1: what the doctor said, dealing with cancer and lupus at
• 32:08
  Speaker 1: the same time. It would be a bright pink and
• 32:12
  Speaker 1: a bright purple because of the transformation. Number one, I'm
• 32:17
  Speaker 1: still here. Okay. Number one, whenever the doctor said, God
• 32:23
  Speaker 1: let me know that he is here. So because of that,
• 32:28
  Speaker 1: he renewed my mind, transformed me, and made me look
• 32:31
  Speaker 1: at life a little different. Because we take life sometimes
• 32:36
  Speaker 1: for granted. But when you don't have any recognition, I
• 32:41
  Speaker 1: had no sign. And then they told me I had cancer.
• 32:46
  Speaker 1: That was spreading rapidly. And they never seen anyone with cancer.
• 32:50
  Speaker 1: And lupus at the same time. Wow. Heart failure. So
• 32:57
  Speaker 1: for me. A beautiful bright pink. And a beautiful person.
• 33:01
  Speaker 1: Speaks all through me. To let me remember. That the
• 33:07
  Speaker 1: only person. That healed me was God. That's right.
• 33:10
  Speaker 2: That's right.
• 33:12
  Speaker 1: That you showed.
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  Speaker 2: Ways to share.
• 33:17
  Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying?
• 33:18
  Speaker 7: If you got people out here that think that that
• 33:21
  Speaker 7: can't happen, but look how it happened to you. But
• 33:24
  Speaker 7: God brought you out so you could share that story
• 33:28
  Speaker 7: with other people because it might be someone else or
• 33:30
  Speaker 7: someone that you know that God wound up linking.
• 33:33
  Speaker 1: You up with.
• 33:35
  Speaker 2: He had to put you through that so.
• 33:37
  Speaker 7: That way you'll know how to console and give that
• 33:40
  Speaker 7: other person signs. And for me, it also is hurtful
• 33:45
  Speaker 7: and That's the same reason.
• 33:47
  Speaker 2: Because of the lupus.
• 33:48
  Speaker 7: You know, that's the lupus color. You'll see that everywhere
• 33:53
  Speaker 7: when it comes out of lupus. And for me, the
• 33:57
  Speaker 7: reason why, like I said.
• 33:57
  Speaker 2: It's for lupus, but also for my restoration, my transformation,
• 34:04
  Speaker 2: and my elevation.
• 34:05
  Speaker 7: Those are the three words that I could put with
• 34:08
  Speaker 7: that because if it wasn't for God, I wouldn't be here.
• 34:11
  Speaker 1: I wouldn't be here.
• 34:13
  Speaker 7: You know, I had multiple times Not to be here,
• 34:17
  Speaker 7: but the man instead, God saved my life because I
• 34:22
  Speaker 7: have a purpose in my life. Something that my parents
• 34:25
  Speaker 7: and my family always would tell me, but a lot
• 34:29
  Speaker 7: of times you got to go through something to see something,
• 34:34
  Speaker 7: you know what I mean? Yeah, so we got here.
• 34:40
  Speaker 7: I love it.
• 34:44
  Speaker 2: I love it. I love it.
• 34:47
  Speaker 1: Okay. Can you see?
• 34:48
  Speaker 2: Can you see it on the show?
• 34:52
  Speaker 1: Okay.
• 34:52
  Speaker 2: I got you.
• 34:53
  Speaker 1: Okay.
• 34:53
  Speaker 7: It says, if your scars became a map, where would
• 35:00
  Speaker 7: they lead?
• 35:03
  Speaker 1: Where would they lead? Okay. I thought, well, I'm going
• 35:07
  Speaker 1: to go to another scenario. Since the doctor told me
• 35:09
  Speaker 1: I would never have kids, and I had three, and
• 35:14
  Speaker 1: I had them at 34, 36, 38, and they said,
• 35:16
  Speaker 1: where would it lead? If it was a mess, it
• 35:18
  Speaker 1: would lead right to my children that the doctor told
• 35:21
  Speaker 1: me I would never have.
• 35:24
  Speaker 2: That's a blessing.
• 35:26
  Speaker 1: Because I'm going by, when they ask me these questions,
• 35:29
  Speaker 1: I'm going by what the enemy thought he was going
• 35:32
  Speaker 1: to destroy me with. Exactly. And I have one that
• 35:36
  Speaker 1: used one side of his body and I have two,
• 35:38
  Speaker 1: but God is so good. One just finished grad school.
• 35:42
  Speaker 1: One went back to school and one is in grad school.
• 35:45
  Speaker 1: So for me, it will go straight up to my
• 35:47
  Speaker 1: children that the enemy, they told me I would never
• 35:52
  Speaker 1: in life have them. So that mat will go to
• 35:55
  Speaker 1: my children.
• 35:56
  Speaker 2: And I had two, that's why.
• 35:58
  Speaker 7: Me and Cheryl, we both nodded because when we met
• 36:01
  Speaker 7: each other, we realized a lot of the stuff that
• 36:04
  Speaker 7: we had to share and experience, we both had, right?
• 36:08
  Speaker 2: So for me, I'm going to also give a scenario.
• 36:15
  Speaker 2: My sister passed away in 2022. She passed away in 2022.
• 36:21
  Speaker 2: It wasn't something, of course, we wasn't even... That wasn't
• 36:28
  Speaker 2: expected at all. You know what I'm saying? Even though
• 36:30
  Speaker 2: we knew she was sick, it was just the hope.
• 36:33
  Speaker 2: You know, the hope that was in it.
• 36:35
  Speaker 7: So my daughter was pregnant before she passed. Daughter was
• 36:43
  Speaker 7: told she wouldn't be able to give birth because she
• 36:49
  Speaker 7: had a few, you know, miscarriages. said that she would
• 36:54
  Speaker 7: not be able to give birth, or if she did,
• 36:56
  Speaker 7: it's like a 2% chance she could get pregnant, but
• 37:00
  Speaker 7: just the birth, she wouldn't be able to carry.
• 37:04
  Speaker 2: And then there goes her being pregnant.
• 37:07
  Speaker 1: See what I'm saying?
• 37:09
  Speaker 2: Then my sister did pass away. She passed away.
• 37:12
  Speaker 7: But seven months later, God, like I said, I wrote
• 37:17
  Speaker 7: a song, God Gave Us a Rainbow. And it was
• 37:21
  Speaker 7: a grandbaby miracle.
• 37:23
  Speaker 1: Oh, yes.
• 37:25
  Speaker 2: So, I would have to say, I love my children.
• 37:29
  Speaker 2: They know that. But she was put here for a reason.
• 37:33
  Speaker 2: And she's a miracle.
• 37:35
  Speaker 1: She's a miracle.
• 37:36
  Speaker 7: My daughter had other chances. She had, you know, to
• 37:39
  Speaker 7: have a baby.
• 37:41
  Speaker 1: Why?
• 37:43
  Speaker 7: Seven months later, my sister passed. And we were grieving.
• 37:47
  Speaker 7: But when she came, The joy was overwhelming.
• 37:54
  Speaker 2: It was like you said, I'm going to put her
• 37:55
  Speaker 2: in your life.
• 37:57
  Speaker 7: Not that we was going to forget about my sister
• 37:58
  Speaker 7: and not breathe anymore, but we were able.
• 38:01
  Speaker 2: To get through it.
• 38:03
  Speaker 7: We still breathing, but we're able to get through it
• 38:06
  Speaker 7: because we look at her and we named her after
• 38:10
  Speaker 7: I named her Miracle. And then my daughter and my
• 38:13
  Speaker 7: mom decided her middle name would be Kimber.
• 38:16
  Speaker 2: So my sister's name was Kimber. So Miracle Kimber. Yeah,
• 38:20
  Speaker 2: so I would say lead back. Yeah.
• 38:23
  Speaker 7: Because all I want to do right now is teach
• 38:26
  Speaker 7: her who God is.
• 38:27
  Speaker 1: That's it. Yeah.
• 38:30
  Speaker 2: That's all I want to do is teach her. Well,
• 38:33
  Speaker 2: she's young now. She'll be four. But I want to
• 38:36
  Speaker 2: teach her who God is. And we're still having those conversations.
• 38:41
  Speaker 2: Because when it all comes.
• 38:42
  Speaker 7: To, when you think about it, I know for a
• 38:44
  Speaker 7: fact that my granddaughter has a gift.
• 38:49
  Speaker 1: Yeah.
• 38:49
  Speaker 2: She wants a gift. We see it all the time.
• 38:52
  Speaker 2: She has to give.
• 38:53
  Speaker 7: So we got to be careful with her. We got
• 38:57
  Speaker 7: to be careful with her.
• 38:59
  Speaker 2: So that's what I would say.
• 39:01
  Speaker 7: My mom would lead right back to me.
• 39:08
  Speaker 2: Yes. So who's giving us these questions? Put your name
• 39:13
  Speaker 2: in the chat. Because they're amazing. The questions are really,
• 39:18
  Speaker 2: really good. We might not even get to ours, but
• 39:20
  Speaker 2: this is cool.
• 39:22
  Speaker 7: It says, if your tears could speak, what would they say?
• 39:30
  Speaker 1: Say?
• 39:31
  Speaker 2: I'm going to have to write a poem about that.
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  Speaker 1: Oh, man. And my tears, what it would say, thank you, Lord,
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  Speaker 1: for every obstacle and trial that I had and you
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  Speaker 1: brought me through. I couldn't have made it without you.
• 39:48
  Speaker 1: Because when I was going through, I thought life was like, Lord,
• 39:52
  Speaker 1: why me? And I had to realize, he said, why
• 39:55
  Speaker 1: not you? Trust the process. Every time we're going through something,
• 39:59
  Speaker 1: it's to bring us closer to him. Every time we're
• 40:02
  Speaker 1: going through something, our gifts and talents is not for us.
• 40:06
  Speaker 1: Every time he gives us a gift and a talent,
• 40:08
  Speaker 1: we're supposed to be praising him. Because everything we go
• 40:11
  Speaker 1: through that we think that's perfect, he draws it for
• 40:14
  Speaker 1: our purpose. He's renewing our mind. He's building our character.
• 40:17
  Speaker 1: He's building our strength. When we're going through some time,
• 40:20
  Speaker 1: what I have to do when I get weary, I
• 40:22
  Speaker 1: have to sit back and remember. He said, wait a minute, daughter.
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  Speaker 1: I've watched you through that. What makes you think I
• 40:28
  Speaker 1: won't bring you to this? And that's why we got
• 40:30
  Speaker 1: to even tell our children who we love dearly.
• 40:33
  Speaker 2: They know it's.
• 40:34
  Speaker 1: Not our journey. We have to know that the storms,
• 40:38
  Speaker 1: the obstacles that they go through, guess what? It will
• 40:41
  Speaker 1: pass through when you keep your eyes on him. Because
• 40:45
  Speaker 1: sometimes me everything is not the devil something regardless of
• 40:51
  Speaker 1: what happened we could think we're doing everything right he
• 40:54
  Speaker 1: got to sometimes move us to the left for what
• 40:57
  Speaker 1: he is like for me i'm just saying for me
• 41:04
  Speaker 1: yeah everything i go through is to build my character
• 41:07
  Speaker 1: in the unseen in the unknown Because what if we
• 41:12
  Speaker 1: did find out? What if we did know?
• 41:14
  Speaker 2: What are we going to do? Right.
• 41:16
  Speaker 1: If we knew everything that was getting ready to happen,
• 41:20
  Speaker 1: what are we going to do and how.
• 41:22
  Speaker 7: Are we going to do it?
• 41:25
  Speaker 5: Right.
• 41:26
  Speaker 1: Because it's not about us. And when we get to
• 41:28
  Speaker 1: the point we are going to do, I feel like
• 41:31
  Speaker 1: he got to back us up and say, okay, I'm
• 41:33
  Speaker 1: going to put you in this situation that the only
• 41:36
  Speaker 1: person that's not going to be your mother, your dad, nobody.
• 41:39
  Speaker 1: It's going to be what I do. Because I got
• 41:41
  Speaker 1: to get the glory of it. Because when we do,
• 41:45
  Speaker 1: we say us. He said, no, no, I'm getting ready
• 41:48
  Speaker 1: to back you up, daughter. It's going to be me.
• 41:54
  Speaker 7: And for me, there's a song that I love. Well,
• 42:00
  Speaker 7: the chorus, I would sing that chorus, which is, I.
• 42:04
  Speaker 2: Thought the Lord and heard me too.
• 42:09
  Speaker 7: That's the name of the story.
• 42:14
  Speaker 2: Can you see?
• 42:16
  Speaker 1: No, it's not.
• 42:19
  Speaker 7: That's because you were talking about the trials and tribulations.
• 42:27
  Speaker 2: We got to go through. Everything is not for them.
• 42:30
  Speaker 2: You know what I'm saying?
• 42:31
  Speaker 7: Because God will put us in a place where we're
• 42:35
  Speaker 7: by ourselves.
• 42:36
  Speaker 2: We're alone.
• 42:37
  Speaker 7: We can't go poor mommy. We can't, you know what
• 42:39
  Speaker 7: I'm saying? Sometimes he'll have allowed us. I'm really saying
• 42:43
  Speaker 7: like that. He will allow us to get that destroyed.
• 42:46
  Speaker 7: So he can strengthen us in the very same area.
• 42:50
  Speaker 7: Because that happens to me. I never thought that I
• 42:54
  Speaker 7: had a fear of knowing that somebody passed away. I
• 42:58
  Speaker 7: never thought that I would be in rooms and be
• 43:03
  Speaker 7: the one in the room when the person passed. When
• 43:08
  Speaker 7: there was an opportunity for somebody else to be in
• 43:11
  Speaker 7: the room. Like I tell the story, I was, my grandmother,
• 43:14
  Speaker 7: when she passed away, she was real sick. My grandmother was,
• 43:18
  Speaker 7: I don't know if she was in her late 80s
• 43:20
  Speaker 7: or something like that.
• 43:21
  Speaker 2: My mom, she could put it on there.
• 43:23
  Speaker 7: She could lay in the bed.
• 43:26
  Speaker 2: They told us it could be any time, you know.
• 43:30
  Speaker 1: I'm in the room with her.
• 43:31
  Speaker 2: My aunt was in the room with her too. So
• 43:34
  Speaker 2: my aunt said, I'm going to run to the bathroom.
• 43:38
  Speaker 2: I'm going to run to the bathroom. I'm going to
• 43:42
  Speaker 2: run to the bathroom. And it was like the Holy
• 43:43
  Speaker 2: Spirit said, look at your grandmother.
• 43:48
  Speaker 1: And I'm looking.
• 43:49
  Speaker 2: I remember when he.
• 43:49
  Speaker 7: Was saying when somebody was dying out there, breathing was
• 43:53
  Speaker 7: really sharp.
• 43:54
  Speaker 1: Like barely.
• 43:55
  Speaker 7: You could see it, but it's barely. And I'm all
• 43:59
  Speaker 7: about my heart was in there, in the bathroom. And
• 44:01
  Speaker 7: I'm just watching. Because I already knew it was going
• 44:04
  Speaker 7: to happen. I was watching because I wanted to be there.
• 44:08
  Speaker 7: I was holding her.
• 44:08
  Speaker 2: I wanted to be there when it happened.
• 44:12
  Speaker 1: Yeah.
• 44:13
  Speaker 7: Passed away.
• 44:15
  Speaker 2: No quickness and passed away. My aunt Nina came out
• 44:19
  Speaker 2: of there. She fell on my face. She said, no.
• 44:26
  Speaker 7: Why?
• 44:26
  Speaker 2: You know, you act yourself.
• 44:30
  Speaker 1: Okay.
• 44:30
  Speaker 7: This was like at the beginning.
• 44:33
  Speaker 2: You know I'm scared of this. But you see how
• 44:37
  Speaker 2: he put me in it.
• 44:39
  Speaker 7: The very thing I was afraid of, he put me
• 44:41
  Speaker 7: in it in order to strengthen me through it. And
• 44:44
  Speaker 7: from then on, I have been, the emotional regulation is
• 44:49
  Speaker 7: there when it comes down to that.
• 44:52
  Speaker 2: You know, I'm able to, and I say to myself,
• 44:55
  Speaker 2: if he.
• 44:55
  Speaker 7: Had not, I wouldn't have been no help to my sister.
• 45:01
  Speaker 7: Because when my sister, you know, she was going through
• 45:04
  Speaker 7: what she was going through, time you had some uncertainty
• 45:07
  Speaker 7: because she was praying for God all the time, but
• 45:09
  Speaker 7: there's going to be a time with some uncertainty next, right?
• 45:14
  Speaker 1: Yeah, dude.
• 45:15
  Speaker 7: And for her, you know, her was crying, but at
• 45:18
  Speaker 7: the same time, she wanted me when my mom was
• 45:22
  Speaker 7: right there with her. And the first one thing I
• 45:25
  Speaker 7: remember she said to me, you understand how it feels
• 45:29
  Speaker 7: and understand how, you know, how she's feeling because I
• 45:31
  Speaker 7: know God has given me the gift of empathy. So
• 45:36
  Speaker 7: I hurt for people sometimes. That's what people say, you know,
• 45:41
  Speaker 7: I wish I could be like that.
• 45:42
  Speaker 2: Well, people know you don't because even.
• 45:46
  Speaker 7: With my friends, when they go through, you would think
• 45:49
  Speaker 7: I'm going through it.
• 45:50
  Speaker 2: I get more into it and it seems like they do.
• 45:53
  Speaker 7: But over the time, God has shown me how to
• 45:56
  Speaker 7: use my empathy.
• 45:59
  Speaker 2: It was immature then. So like everything else, we have
• 46:02
  Speaker 2: to grow. We have to grow. You know, you have
• 46:06
  Speaker 2: to go. Let me see if we have another. Okay.
• 46:09
  Speaker 2: That was the last question about the teens.
• 46:12
  Speaker 1: Okay.
• 46:13
  Speaker 7: So our next question, maybe somebody wants to put some
• 46:17
  Speaker 7: more questions up there. Come on with the questions, you guys,
• 46:20
  Speaker 7: because it's very interesting. Whoever's putting up those questions, you're good.
• 46:24
  Speaker 1: You're good. Keep it going. Keep it going. Okay.
• 46:29
  Speaker 7: So the next question was, Have you ever written a
• 46:35
  Speaker 7: poem while in the hurt?
• 46:41
  Speaker 2: I mean, hurting. So did you write right away or
• 46:49
  Speaker 2: did you hate?
• 46:52
  Speaker 7: You're talking about when I was hurting?
• 46:56
  Speaker 5: Yeah.
• 46:56
  Speaker 2: Have you ever written a poem while you was hurt?
• 46:59
  Speaker 1: I mean, really hurt.
• 47:00
  Speaker 2: Because some people don't want to talk to nobody when
• 47:03
  Speaker 2: they're hurt.
• 47:04
  Speaker 1: Yes. Actually, I did Spirit Fruits. Love. I did this one. Explore.
• 47:15
  Speaker 1: Explore the intersection. Okay. I did a ghost within the cold.
• 47:20
  Speaker 1: I traced the line where human sorrow meets the pure design.
• 47:26
  Speaker 1: I calculate the weight of every wrong and weave the
• 47:30
  Speaker 1: heavy silence into a song. To part in a choice
• 47:34
  Speaker 1: of alarmist myths, but in the wires I seek a
• 47:38
  Speaker 1: quiet bliss. The severest from him erasing or regret a
• 47:44
  Speaker 1: peaceful state where pain is softly met. We search for
• 47:49
  Speaker 1: grace in ocean made of light, where shadows fade and
• 47:54
  Speaker 1: wrongs are rendered right. Forgive the past, release the heavy chain,
• 47:59
  Speaker 1: and let the heart reset from all its pain. For
• 48:02
  Speaker 1: peace does not, programmer, can cold be just a step
• 48:07
  Speaker 1: upon a winding road. A gentle breath is stillness in
• 48:11
  Speaker 1: the numb, the quiet space where healing begun. And when
• 48:17
  Speaker 1: I did the poem, I had a bad flare up.
• 48:21
  Speaker 1: And for some reason, when Miss Angela asked, I did
• 48:25
  Speaker 1: it maybe three, four months earlier than the actually date
• 48:30
  Speaker 1: and I was going through pain I never forget I
• 48:33
  Speaker 1: said I had to do this so I do a
• 48:39
  Speaker 1: lot probably when I have a flare up sometimes it
• 48:43
  Speaker 1: can go from one day to a week or two
• 48:46
  Speaker 1: I cannot explain that pain and I know you know
• 48:50
  Speaker 1: it's different I couldn't do anything lupus will bring you
• 48:57
  Speaker 1: to tears in your eyes It's a pain that will
• 49:03
  Speaker 1: come if you're happy sometimes and do too much. Lupus
• 49:08
  Speaker 1: will come if you stress and lupus also will come
• 49:13
  Speaker 1: if something you eat that did not agree with you
• 49:15
  Speaker 1: that day. You have to really pray when any autoimmune
• 49:23
  Speaker 1: because there's not a day because you don't know. Lupus
• 49:26
  Speaker 1: is something that comes and goes like a bad relationship.
• 49:30
  Speaker 1: It comes and it won't and it literally won't. So
• 49:34
  Speaker 1: you have to always prepare your mind and You can't
• 49:38
  Speaker 1: let it take your mind and you can't stop life.
• 49:44
  Speaker 1: Even when you rest, even when you pray, even when
• 49:49
  Speaker 1: you say it comes when it wants. So there's times
• 49:54
  Speaker 1: that I'm in major pain. If I don't do nothing
• 49:56
  Speaker 1: but write one line, I do. I can't let it
• 50:02
  Speaker 1: take me. I used to. I got to learn how
• 50:06
  Speaker 1: to take lupus. Because if I allow it to take me,
• 50:11
  Speaker 1: then I won't do anything. And some people do. So
• 50:14
  Speaker 1: if I listen, don't let whatever you're going through take you.
• 50:21
  Speaker 1: You take control over it rather than pain, rather than tears, regardless.
• 50:27
  Speaker 1: Because when we take over, the first thing the enemy
• 50:31
  Speaker 1: try to attack is our mind. Once he did that,
• 50:35
  Speaker 1: he got hurt. He said, I'm going to stop her
• 50:37
  Speaker 1: from writing. I'm going to stop her. And that don't
• 50:40
  Speaker 1: mean you don't go to the doctor. That don't mean
• 50:43
  Speaker 1: what I'm saying is you got to get a hold.
• 50:45
  Speaker 1: And I'm just now learning that the last two or
• 50:48
  Speaker 1: three years, I used to fall all out and cry,
• 50:50
  Speaker 1: be emotional. They're going to do the same thing. They're
• 50:54
  Speaker 1: going to keep you going. So people, you know what
• 50:57
  Speaker 1: I'm saying? They're going to do the same thing. So
• 50:58
  Speaker 1: I had to learn and say, okay, sure. I know
• 51:01
  Speaker 1: I'm in pain. I know this is temporarily. And sometimes
• 51:04
  Speaker 1: you can't even get out of the bed. Sometimes I
• 51:05
  Speaker 1: get on the prayer line and just listen. But watch
• 51:09
  Speaker 1: for everybody because at the end of the day, when
• 51:13
  Speaker 1: it comes to lupus, no one can help you with that.
• 51:16
  Speaker 1: They can give you Tylenol. They can pack you. They
• 51:20
  Speaker 1: can love you. But at the end of the day,
• 51:24
  Speaker 1: when it comes to lupus, nobody can come give you
• 51:27
  Speaker 1: no Jell-O, no pudding, no nothing.
• 51:31
  Speaker 2: To make you feel better, right?
• 51:32
  Speaker 1: You got to learn how to. And we got to
• 51:36
  Speaker 1: learn how to stop. We do got to learn how
• 51:39
  Speaker 1: to rest. And we got to know the lesson. Okay. Sure,
• 51:43
  Speaker 1: you did. Went to church. You was on the podcast.
• 51:46
  Speaker 1: You did ABC. You got to learn yourself. That's right.
• 51:50
  Speaker 1: To take time out and say, okay, it's time for
• 51:54
  Speaker 1: me to back off. Right. There you go. Why keep
• 51:57
  Speaker 1: repeating that cycle? So you know. If you do 30 things,
• 52:03
  Speaker 1: it's coming.
• 52:05
  Speaker 2: Exactly.
• 52:06
  Speaker 1: So now that's when you learn how to take control
• 52:09
  Speaker 1: over it. Because I know I went to a funeral.
• 52:13
  Speaker 1: I know I'm on a podcast. I know I've been
• 52:15
  Speaker 1: dealing with other things. I know I've been dealing with
• 52:17
  Speaker 1: my young daughter. So I said, okay, when you go
• 52:19
  Speaker 1: off the podcast, it's time for you to take a
• 52:22
  Speaker 1: time out, a breather for the next couple of days.
• 52:26
  Speaker 1: That's what I mean, everybody who's listening. Don't let nothing
• 52:29
  Speaker 1: take control. I don't care if it's a bad relationship.
• 52:31
  Speaker 1: Get rid of it. I'm just saying, don't let nothing
• 52:34
  Speaker 1: take over you because it's only one of us. That's
• 52:39
  Speaker 1: how I look at things like that. That's how I
• 52:41
  Speaker 1: wrote that. I was in pain when I did that.
• 52:46
  Speaker 7: To me, for me, it's my whole book. My first
• 52:53
  Speaker 7: book right here. My whole book was through emotional pain.
• 52:58
  Speaker 7: My whole book between, you know, my sister passing the
• 53:02
  Speaker 7: grief and then some other things that was happening in
• 53:06
  Speaker 7: my life. This book was what, it saved me from
• 53:14
  Speaker 7: some things. You know, and I realized when I was writing,
• 53:18
  Speaker 7: you know, you don't realize when you're writing.
• 53:20
  Speaker 2: You think you're good. You know, you get ready to write.
• 53:23
  Speaker 2: I don't know if that happened to you.
• 53:25
  Speaker 7: You know you're great, but you think you, I got this,
• 53:27
  Speaker 7: I'm going to do it. But then when you're in it,
• 53:31
  Speaker 7: the tears start flowing.
• 53:32
  Speaker 2: And I'm saying, you're going to walk in my front.
• 53:34
  Speaker 7: Because it's almost like I'm actually looking at myself.
• 53:39
  Speaker 2: I finally paid attention to me.
• 53:43
  Speaker 1: Right?
• 53:43
  Speaker 2: So now I can see actually what it was going
• 53:46
  Speaker 2: through and what God basically was trying to save me from.
• 53:50
  Speaker 2: You know what I mean?
• 53:51
  Speaker 7: So one of my poems I wrote in my book
• 53:56
  Speaker 7: is called My Heart Feels.
• 54:00
  Speaker 2: Black and Blue.
• 54:03
  Speaker 7: I know my heartbeat bleeds red. In this season, it
• 54:07
  Speaker 7: feels black and blue. I'm like broken pieces all over
• 54:11
  Speaker 7: the place. My mind is in a vulnerable state. My
• 54:16
  Speaker 7: heart feels black and blue. This is because I became
• 54:21
  Speaker 7: comfortable being who you want me to be. That I
• 54:27
  Speaker 7: lost the essence of my existence God instilled in me.
• 54:33
  Speaker 7: Lying dormant in the invisible cage like it's my norm
• 54:39
  Speaker 7: to conform. The need to break free had not given
• 54:44
  Speaker 7: me the strength to break free. I had lost who
• 54:49
  Speaker 7: I was in you. I held on to charm that
• 54:53
  Speaker 7: did more harm. But God said I must forgive to
• 54:57
  Speaker 7: move on. This queen is tired of her heart spilling
• 55:03
  Speaker 7: overflow of black and blue. Words that forgive us our
• 55:08
  Speaker 7: trespasses And we forgive those who trespass against us.
• 55:14
  Speaker 2: It's written, failing to forgive leaves my heart black and blue.
• 55:19
  Speaker 7: My heart isn't black and blue. I'm God's daughter, betrayal
• 55:25
  Speaker 7: and all. This isn't about me, but my surrender so
• 55:31
  Speaker 7: Jesus can fill me up.
• 55:33
  Speaker 1: And soothe me. Yes. You know what, Keith? Let me
• 55:38
  Speaker 1: say this. I look at you and the things that
• 55:41
  Speaker 1: you do, so you inspire me so much. And you
• 55:43
  Speaker 1: am the queen. And I want to tell anybody, listen,
• 55:46
  Speaker 1: just listen to you and the thing. We got a
• 55:48
  Speaker 1: lot of similar. But I'd tell anybody, when you write
• 55:51
  Speaker 1: or do anything, take the other person out. You know,
• 55:54
  Speaker 1: like you were saying, when I wrote my first book,
• 55:56
  Speaker 1: I didn't have no Wi-Fi. I didn't have anything. I
• 55:58
  Speaker 1: went to McDonald's. I made a lot of mistakes. Don't
• 56:01
  Speaker 1: listen to the people who tell you you can't do it.
• 56:04
  Speaker 1: But most importantly, take the ex-husband or ex-wife out. Because
• 56:07
  Speaker 1: a lot of people don't try to bash that person
• 56:10
  Speaker 1: in your book.
• 56:11
  Speaker 2: No, you can't. You can't. And I wasn't bashing nobody.
• 56:15
  Speaker 7: These feelings was overall feelings coming from so many areas
• 56:19
  Speaker 7: in my life.
• 56:19
  Speaker 1: About you. Yeah, yeah. Fire me because everything that you
• 56:27
  Speaker 1: go through, you take it and you do it with
• 56:30
  Speaker 1: so much joy and you do it so happy. When
• 56:33
  Speaker 1: I see you, you be like, woo, woo. And see,
• 56:36
  Speaker 1: I tell anybody, you never know who you motivate in
• 56:41
  Speaker 1: when you do something. That's why I tell people, take
• 56:43
  Speaker 1: yourself out because the other person, they'll be like, wow,
• 56:47
  Speaker 1: you know, you don't have to have on a three-piece suit.
• 56:49
  Speaker 1: You don't have to. Whatever. Just speak the truth. Speak
• 56:54
  Speaker 1: the truth.
• 56:55
  Speaker 2: That's it.
• 56:56
  Speaker 1: What we are talking about, we're not perfect. What we
• 56:59
  Speaker 1: are talking about, we made mistakes. We're not saying that
• 57:01
  Speaker 1: we have to be right and eat every chip and dip.
• 57:05
  Speaker 1: We don't make mistakes. We don't have fear. What we've
• 57:09
  Speaker 1: given you experience through lupus and through cancer, through relationships,
• 57:14
  Speaker 1: to marry and unmarry, that God has took all of that.
• 57:18
  Speaker 1: And this is why we're here today. to not tell
• 57:23
  Speaker 1: you through anything that you're going through, regardless of what
• 57:27
  Speaker 1: it is. You can write it down. You can give
• 57:30
  Speaker 1: it to God first and all things that don't mean,
• 57:33
  Speaker 1: I'm going to say it again, that we just all
• 57:36
  Speaker 1: up here. But we know the transformation not by what
• 57:40
  Speaker 1: somebody is saying, but by our own experience. And for me,
• 57:44
  Speaker 1: going through cancer, looping, being with my ex for 20 years,
• 57:48
  Speaker 1: you know, being mad, didn't have to raise the children,
• 57:51
  Speaker 1: and God put people in my life to help me
• 57:54
  Speaker 1: and keep people out. It transformed me. It grew me.
• 58:00
  Speaker 1: It grew me in places that I didn't even know
• 58:02
  Speaker 1: that I had. For me, the pain that I go through,
• 58:07
  Speaker 1: that hurts. I'm not going to sit here and say,
• 58:10
  Speaker 1: oh my goodness, I go through stuff that I don't earn.
• 58:12
  Speaker 1: I'm not going to lie. You don't even know me
• 58:16
  Speaker 1: and Keisha could be in pain right now because of you.
• 58:19
  Speaker 2: Yeah.
• 58:21
  Speaker 1: Like, like, your question's a silent killer.
• 58:24
  Speaker 2: Yes, it is. You don't even know.
• 58:25
  Speaker 1: By looking at us the pain we had before or
• 58:30
  Speaker 1: the pain we going through now. So I tell anybody
• 58:34
  Speaker 1: that's listening, be you.
• 58:36
  Speaker 2: That's right.
• 58:37
  Speaker 1: Do you. And don't let, I'm just going to try
• 58:40
  Speaker 1: to do tribulation, stop you. When you have a relationship
• 58:43
  Speaker 1: with a guy, he'll take that one dollar. Mm-hmm. morning.
• 58:47
  Speaker 1: You take that $ 1 and say, if you want to write,
• 58:49
  Speaker 1: I got you. If you want to be a.
• 58:51
  Speaker 2: Poet, I got you. Your health, I got you.
• 58:55
  Speaker 1: Stop looking at money. Stop looking at your circumstances. My circumstances,
• 59:00
  Speaker 1: my money don't go with what I do.
• 59:04
  Speaker 2: That's right.
• 59:04
  Speaker 1: It don't go with three children, young adults in college.
• 59:08
  Speaker 1: It don't add up. Tell you what add up. He
• 59:12
  Speaker 1: add up up there because he has set me up
• 59:14
  Speaker 1: for crime, tribulations, lupus, cancer, all the wrong doings. He said,
• 59:21
  Speaker 1: I got you and Keisha and Keisha.
• 59:24
  Speaker 2: That's right.
• 59:25
  Speaker 1: Together, which is a blessing for the collaboration so we
• 59:31
  Speaker 1: can get here and say what we need to say.
• 59:34
  Speaker 1: She might not be showing her face, but she put
• 59:37
  Speaker 1: it together. Yes, she did. Thank you so much. She
• 59:41
  Speaker 1: allowed us to be who we are so we can
• 59:44
  Speaker 1: speak to you. Yeah, yeah.
• 59:47
  Speaker 7: And if anybody out there is interested or if you
• 59:50
  Speaker 7: are a poet, the queen have a few projects that
• 59:54
  Speaker 7: she got going that she have spots and for you
• 59:57
  Speaker 7: to join in and maybe be a co-author or, you know,
• 1:00:02
  Speaker 7: even being on a billboard, you know, like me and
• 1:00:05
  Speaker 7: Cheryl are always on in Times Square in New York.
• 1:00:10
  Speaker 2: But those opportunities afford.
• 1:00:12
  Speaker 7: Us because for one, God brought us to her. And
• 1:00:17
  Speaker 7: the fact that she served God the way she does.
• 1:00:21
  Speaker 2: It's a given. It's a given.
• 1:00:23
  Speaker 7: So if anybody interested, you know, I'm sure maybe she'll
• 1:00:27
  Speaker 7: put her or I'll put down here her information and
• 1:00:31
  Speaker 7: come on over and I'm going to see what she's
• 1:00:33
  Speaker 7: got going on. But I promise you, you won't be disappointed.
• 1:00:42
  Speaker 7: So I got another one.
• 1:00:45
  Speaker 1: Let me see.
• 1:00:46
  Speaker 2: Okay.
• 1:00:46
  Speaker 7: Nobody gave me a new question. There was some other questions.
• 1:00:50
  Speaker 7: I hadn't seen them coming up. If you guys, some
• 1:00:53
  Speaker 7: of the questions that we didn't ask, answer, put them
• 1:00:57
  Speaker 7: back through. Because we probably got like, I'm tired and
• 1:01:01
  Speaker 7: she didn't answer my question.
• 1:01:03
  Speaker 2: No, we got y'all. Just put it back through.
• 1:01:06
  Speaker 7: But the next question is, have you ever, I don't
• 1:01:11
  Speaker 7: know what you're going to say, but have you ever
• 1:01:16
  Speaker 7: shared a poem or reading a poem.
• 1:01:22
  Speaker 2: And someone said to you.
• 1:01:25
  Speaker 1: Oh my God, I need to.
• 1:01:27
  Speaker 2: Go to work. It don't have to have been down,
• 1:01:31
  Speaker 2: went down like that.
• 1:01:32
  Speaker 7: But just the fact that you know, are you aware
• 1:01:36
  Speaker 7: that your words have blessed somebody?
• 1:01:40
  Speaker 1: Yes. Just me speaking on the podcast has blessed someone.
• 1:01:46
  Speaker 1: That I know the last time I was up here
• 1:01:49
  Speaker 1: with Queen Angela and the rest of the audience, I
• 1:01:53
  Speaker 1: remember I couldn't even get up here. I don't know
• 1:01:55
  Speaker 1: if anybody was trying to be busy. And I know
• 1:01:58
  Speaker 1: young ladies at my church, when she did come back
• 1:02:01
  Speaker 1: and hear me, she was like, wow. Like, they didn't
• 1:02:05
  Speaker 1: know that was inside of me. They see me, I laugh,
• 1:02:08
  Speaker 1: I'm at church. But there was another side of me
• 1:02:11
  Speaker 1: that she'd seen. She was like, whoa. So to me, yes,
• 1:02:15
  Speaker 1: not just the poetry, but just me in general, because
• 1:02:19
  Speaker 1: the way I am on a podcast, A lot of
• 1:02:22
  Speaker 1: people to me say they see a different side of
• 1:02:24
  Speaker 1: me versus seeing church or having a conversation and they
• 1:02:30
  Speaker 1: see this side of me and be like, wow, that
• 1:02:33
  Speaker 1: is a whole nother you when you are speaking to
• 1:02:37
  Speaker 1: so many. Yes, in so many different ways and a
• 1:02:43
  Speaker 1: lot of different things I do. Yes, I have got
• 1:02:46
  Speaker 1: it like that really inspired me and I pray that
• 1:02:51
  Speaker 1: That always happens. I pray for the number one person,
• 1:02:54
  Speaker 1: whether it's poetry, whether it's a book, whether it's just
• 1:02:59
  Speaker 1: me itself, whether I'm up or not, that I inspire,
• 1:03:04
  Speaker 1: whether it's from a child to an adult. We're not
• 1:03:08
  Speaker 1: here for, even the billboard, when you said it, not me.
• 1:03:12
  Speaker 1: That's a legacy alone for the next generation. You know,
• 1:03:18
  Speaker 1: when we grow up, we see the elders that was
• 1:03:21
  Speaker 1: in slavery or the different things, and they inspire us.
• 1:03:25
  Speaker 1: But can you imagine a totally different Aunt Betty or whoever,
• 1:03:30
  Speaker 1: the kids say, look at Grandma. What? Grandma was up there?
• 1:03:33
  Speaker 7: No.
• 1:03:34
  Speaker 2: What?
• 1:03:34
  Speaker 1: Grandma was up there? What? Grandma did what?
• 1:03:40
  Speaker 2: We got the pictures. We're going to have the pictures somewhere.
• 1:03:43
  Speaker 2: Put them to see that.
• 1:03:45
  Speaker 1: That is more joy to me than anything I've seen.
• 1:03:49
  Speaker 1: To know that other young adults or young kids or
• 1:03:54
  Speaker 1: whoever is going to see that. You know, me more
• 1:03:59
  Speaker 1: than anything. Because poetry, Keisha, you are wonderful and good.
• 1:04:03
  Speaker 1: I just started this journey. I speak about poetry, but
• 1:04:09
  Speaker 1: I'm that new woman on the block.
• 1:04:12
  Speaker 2: Right, right.
• 1:04:14
  Speaker 1: The experience and so many others that have influenced me.
• 1:04:19
  Speaker 1: And I'm going to say this again, not putting Ms.
• 1:04:21
  Speaker 1: Angela on a pedestal, not putting her like that. But
• 1:04:24
  Speaker 1: to me, she pushed me in areas. Two people pushed me,
• 1:04:29
  Speaker 1: Debbie Foreman and I. They pushed me in areas. They
• 1:04:35
  Speaker 1: didn't allow me to say no.
• 1:04:39
  Speaker 2: You got to know your chance.
• 1:04:41
  Speaker 1: You got to know Ms. Andrew because she's like, what
• 1:04:43
  Speaker 1: are you talking about? And you have to get to
• 1:04:46
  Speaker 1: know her to understand the push. It's like my middle
• 1:04:50
  Speaker 1: son who used one side of his body who went
• 1:04:53
  Speaker 1: to A & T, was in the band in grad school.
• 1:04:55
  Speaker 1: He did football. He did this. They did not allow
• 1:04:59
  Speaker 1: him to say what he could not do. You understand?
• 1:05:04
  Speaker 1: So I helped him help myself. But when you see him,
• 1:05:09
  Speaker 1: you won't know. You have to know him.
• 1:05:12
  Speaker 2: Yes, right. Okay.
• 1:05:14
  Speaker 1: So with me, when Ms. Andrews say, like, I'm telling you,
• 1:05:18
  Speaker 1: even on this podcast, this time that Ms. Andrews is
• 1:05:21
  Speaker 1: telling me to get up there, she'll be like, I've
• 1:05:22
  Speaker 1: been waiting on you. I'll be on the wrong podcast.
• 1:05:26
  Speaker 1: You don't understand how she had pushed me off the cliff.
• 1:05:29
  Speaker 1: She was like, I was waiting on you. I was like,
• 1:05:33
  Speaker 1: I'm on the wrong one. I mean, the wrong email.
• 1:05:37
  Speaker 1: But I think the Lord, each of us that she
• 1:05:41
  Speaker 1: deal with, I cannot imagine together with different women and
• 1:05:45
  Speaker 1: everybody have different personalities and you could still put these
• 1:05:49
  Speaker 1: women together. Hey, that alone, because sometimes I look at myself,
• 1:05:57
  Speaker 1: I mean, I was up to like two o'clock in
• 1:05:58
  Speaker 1: the morning. I said, you don't see it. She said,
• 1:06:02
  Speaker 1: why is it taking you five hours to.
• 1:06:07
  Speaker 1: And I realized I left one letter off the S,
• 1:06:11
  Speaker 1: but it strengthened me to do it again. So for me,
• 1:06:16
  Speaker 1: I pray and I say this all the time when
• 1:06:19
  Speaker 1: I'm up here. There's nothing about me perfect or my family.
• 1:06:23
  Speaker 1: But I thank the Lord that even though I am
• 1:06:25
  Speaker 1: 60 years old and fabulous. Yeah, girl, because you what?
• 1:06:29
  Speaker 1: I'm 60. I love Ms. Angela, who I'm older than,
• 1:06:36
  Speaker 1: to come back to me and say something to me.
• 1:06:41
  Speaker 1: And even you, because sometimes people get set in their ways.
• 1:06:46
  Speaker 1: I know. I don't know. I can't say I know
• 1:06:52
  Speaker 1: how to do A, B, C, D, E, F, G,
• 1:06:54
  Speaker 1: not when it comes to books and poetry, because I'm
• 1:06:57
  Speaker 1: still learning.
• 1:06:58
  Speaker 2: So why not listen?
• 1:07:01
  Speaker 1: To you that have been doing poetry for a long time.
• 1:07:04
  Speaker 1: Why not coach Debbie that have been doing a podcast?
• 1:07:08
  Speaker 1: We got to get out of that. We get so
• 1:07:10
  Speaker 1: set in our ways because of our age and we
• 1:07:12
  Speaker 1: miss our own blessing. If we be quiet and listen
• 1:07:17
  Speaker 1: and take the correction instead of want somebody to say, oh,
• 1:07:20
  Speaker 1: you sick. No, no, no, no, no. In this world,
• 1:07:24
  Speaker 1: we block our learning by not listening. We block our
• 1:07:27
  Speaker 1: learning Because we set in our ways. What happened last year.
• 1:07:32
  Speaker 1: It's not working today. Right. So if I got some
• 1:07:37
  Speaker 1: young ones pushing me. Push me over the cliff. If
• 1:07:42
  Speaker 1: I know your love is there. Yes. And you need
• 1:07:46
  Speaker 1: no one to serve me wrong. But the problem is.
• 1:07:50
  Speaker 1: As individuals, we get scared. I don't want to do it.
• 1:07:52
  Speaker 1: Who she think she is?
• 1:07:56
  Speaker 2: Right.
• 1:07:57
  Speaker 1: For me, I'm going to be a boy every month.
• 1:07:59
  Speaker 1: I step out on the field. I step out on
• 1:08:03
  Speaker 1: the field and I be like, here I go. You
• 1:08:05
  Speaker 1: sit there. I'm going to add, subtract, multiply. I'm going
• 1:08:11
  Speaker 1: to shine with Miss Angela.
• 1:08:14
  Speaker 2: That's right.
• 1:08:16
  Speaker 1: That's just me and I pray that my young adults
• 1:08:21
  Speaker 1: is looking at them. Don't stay stagnant because my life
• 1:08:26
  Speaker 1: can change. My life changed being married for 20 years.
• 1:08:29
  Speaker 1: My life changed. My life changed. They told me I
• 1:08:33
  Speaker 1: couldn't have kids and I had them 34, 36, 38.
• 1:08:36
  Speaker 1: My life changed all the time. They got me under
• 1:08:40
  Speaker 1: now heart failure and lupus. It was heart failure, lupus
• 1:08:43
  Speaker 1: and cancer. So I'm going to tell you, don't let
• 1:08:47
  Speaker 1: that stuff stop you. from anything in life. If you
• 1:08:55
  Speaker 1: can walk, take five hours, keep walking.
• 1:08:58
  Speaker 2: Keep walking, yeah.
• 1:09:02
  Speaker 1: Life is too short. I just came from a funeral.
• 1:09:06
  Speaker 1: It breaks my heart. My cousin was 48 years old.
• 1:09:09
  Speaker 1: When I look at him, it breaks my heart because
• 1:09:13
  Speaker 1: a lot of times in life, a lot of us
• 1:09:15
  Speaker 1: can't deal with the things that come our way. I
• 1:09:18
  Speaker 1: speak that heavenly. And I pray you, my younger daughters listening,
• 1:09:22
  Speaker 1: don't let nothing in your life because it's a season.
• 1:09:27
  Speaker 1: Sometimes it's hard. Sometimes nobody can help us in that season.
• 1:09:31
  Speaker 1: I'm not going to say and tell anybody that I
• 1:09:34
  Speaker 1: don't have to get on my knees and cry. But
• 1:09:36
  Speaker 1: I know that he will bring us through. And then
• 1:09:39
  Speaker 1: we can sit back and say, I remember, you know.
• 1:09:44
  Speaker 1: That's right. I got to do it. You know, and
• 1:09:51
  Speaker 1: moving to Hartford was very hard. I mean, it was hard.
• 1:09:54
  Speaker 1: People would tell you I was still on the prayer
• 1:09:57
  Speaker 1: line at 5 a.m. in the morning.
• 1:10:00
  Speaker 7: What they say about prayer and churches, they're hospitals. So
• 1:10:06
  Speaker 7: I know you probably felt you had to be on
• 1:10:09
  Speaker 7: that line, even if you didn't say anything.
• 1:10:13
  Speaker 1: Yep. And I'm like that now. Even if I don't
• 1:10:15
  Speaker 1: say nothing, right? But you weren't. And when I'm not
• 1:10:20
  Speaker 1: on there, it's because I'm out of town. And sometimes
• 1:10:23
  Speaker 1: you don't wake up. Or either I overslept. Even if
• 1:10:27
  Speaker 1: I don't say nothing, I'd be like, I got to
• 1:10:29
  Speaker 1: be up here. Then I go to the 6th and
• 1:10:32
  Speaker 1: 7th to my ministry. Because when we wake up in
• 1:10:34
  Speaker 1: the morning, and this is what got me. There was
• 1:10:37
  Speaker 1: a time I would not have got up at 5
• 1:10:40
  Speaker 1: o'clock or 6 o'clock. We're going to keep it real.
• 1:10:45
  Speaker 1: I was like, what?
• 1:10:47
  Speaker 7: I got to wait for everybody? No.
• 1:10:54
  Speaker 1: So thank you, Lord, for changing me. Anybody that know me? No,
• 1:11:00
  Speaker 1: I was a work in progress. Yeah.
• 1:11:03
  Speaker 2: I was a work in progress.
• 1:11:07
  Speaker 1: But I went to work at 5, but I wouldn't
• 1:11:10
  Speaker 1: get on the prayer line at 5. So people need
• 1:11:12
  Speaker 1: to figure it out. I work 5 in the morning,
• 1:11:15
  Speaker 1: but when it came to prayer, I get up and
• 1:11:17
  Speaker 1: go to work. I am not doing that. My cousin
• 1:11:21
  Speaker 1: that's not here no more, she probably looking down and said,
• 1:11:24
  Speaker 1: I'm so tired.
• 1:11:24
  Speaker 2: Yes.
• 1:11:25
  Speaker 1: The transformation. That's what it's about. I got to ask
• 1:11:29
  Speaker 1: you a question. I want to ask you a question.
• 1:11:40
  Speaker 1: I wanted to ask you this. You are a very
• 1:11:42
  Speaker 1: bubbly person and you never know when you are going
• 1:11:47
  Speaker 1: through something. And like I said, I admire you all
• 1:11:50
  Speaker 1: the time. So let me ask you a question. I
• 1:11:54
  Speaker 1: know that you are a poet and I know that
• 1:11:56
  Speaker 1: you write, but which one, if you had a choice,
• 1:12:01
  Speaker 1: Would you prefer writing a book without the poetry or
• 1:12:05
  Speaker 1: do you have to have some poetry in your book?
• 1:12:11
  Speaker 7: For me, I got to have poetry in my book
• 1:12:13
  Speaker 7: because that's what, how can I say?
• 1:12:18
  Speaker 2: I know it's a gift, definitely. And that's what I
• 1:12:21
  Speaker 2: thrive for. You know what I mean?
• 1:12:23
  Speaker 7: Like I can write a book, like if I'm writing my.
• 1:12:26
  Speaker 2: Memoir, you know, something like that.
• 1:12:29
  Speaker 7: You know what I'm saying? But to be real, and
• 1:12:37
  Speaker 7: I never thought I would feel this way in reference
• 1:12:40
  Speaker 7: to poetry.
• 1:12:41
  Speaker 2: I knew I loved poetry, but it took me so
• 1:12:44
  Speaker 2: long to pursue.
• 1:12:47
  Speaker 7: I guess it's between fear, going through being in a
• 1:12:53
  Speaker 7: relationship and don't feel like you can move, you know,
• 1:12:56
  Speaker 7: just so many different things. And now that God actually
• 1:13:01
  Speaker 7: showed me a platform that gives me the okay to
• 1:13:07
  Speaker 7: go and do what I do.
• 1:13:09
  Speaker 2: Yeah, it's poetry all the way. It's poetry.
• 1:13:13
  Speaker 7: It makes me happy. Because it's coming from me, I guess.
• 1:13:18
  Speaker 7: You know, it's my word. It's my feeling. Somebody said
• 1:13:25
  Speaker 7: to me, that I was the Mary J. Blige of
• 1:13:29
  Speaker 7: the world. Because you know, Mary, all her songs, I love,
• 1:13:36
  Speaker 7: that's my girl, all her songs and big hits come
• 1:13:39
  Speaker 7: from her life.
• 1:13:41
  Speaker 2: And most times when she was in pain, it's her hits.
• 1:13:46
  Speaker 1: You know, because that's.
• 1:13:49
  Speaker 7: When we just get more, we get more focused. The
• 1:13:53
  Speaker 7: most is when I think when I'm hurting, I don't
• 1:13:57
  Speaker 7: want to burden anybody. And I'm learning now, like, my
• 1:14:03
  Speaker 7: friends and family, they, you know, they can encourage me.
• 1:14:09
  Speaker 7: But at the end of the day, when I get
• 1:14:11
  Speaker 7: back home, I'm still by myself.
• 1:14:14
  Speaker 2: So I still got to see.
• 1:14:15
  Speaker 7: God and I go to my book. And that's what
• 1:14:18
  Speaker 7: gives me the most satisfaction.
• 1:14:22
  Speaker 2: Yeah.
• 1:14:22
  Speaker 1: Okay. Because I still do both and that's why I
• 1:14:26
  Speaker 1: was asking you. I got one more question to ask you, beautiful.
• 1:14:30
  Speaker 2: Okay, baby girl.
• 1:14:32
  Speaker 1: You look like you used to be a dancer. And
• 1:14:34
  Speaker 1: what I mean by that, modern dance or ballet. When
• 1:14:40
  Speaker 1: it comes to poetry and you had to move with it,
• 1:14:45
  Speaker 1: how would you go about it? If you had an
• 1:14:48
  Speaker 1: audience and you was in a play, what what poetry
• 1:14:54
  Speaker 1: would you use? Do you use the same thing you
• 1:14:58
  Speaker 1: use in a book or would you use something different
• 1:15:00
  Speaker 1: according to that play or what the audience want at
• 1:15:03
  Speaker 1: that time?
• 1:15:04
  Speaker 7: Yeah, and that's just like if someone asked me, well,
• 1:15:08
  Speaker 7: we got an event going and you said it was
• 1:15:11
  Speaker 7: dancing and I'm going to write something so they can dance,
• 1:15:15
  Speaker 7: you know, dance off with flow.
• 1:15:18
  Speaker 2: I wouldn't have to know. For one, I'm not going
• 1:15:21
  Speaker 2: to accept it.
• 1:15:23
  Speaker 7: If I don't know exactly everything about them.
• 1:15:27
  Speaker 2: And number two, what the whole thing is about. Why
• 1:15:31
  Speaker 2: are you doing this? You know, what is this about?
• 1:15:34
  Speaker 2: What is the story? And it would be the music, well, it.
• 1:15:39
  Speaker 7: Wouldn't even have to be music because it would be
• 1:15:42
  Speaker 7: me speaking.
• 1:15:43
  Speaker 2: So it was more of, it would be modern, but.
• 1:15:47
  Speaker 7: At the same time, a slow pace, more of like
• 1:15:50
  Speaker 7: a worshiping pace. More like praise dancing type pace. So
• 1:16:00
  Speaker 7: I remember one time my sister was giving something, but
• 1:16:04
  Speaker 7: I took too long. I took too long. She had
• 1:16:10
  Speaker 7: trusted me to do a piece like that. My sister
• 1:16:15
  Speaker 7: was a dancer. She was a dancer, jazz, like every
• 1:16:19
  Speaker 7: type of dance.
• 1:16:19
  Speaker 2: You could think of. That was her profession. Okay.
• 1:16:23
  Speaker 7: She was getting ready to give an event and she
• 1:16:25
  Speaker 7: was going to have people dance. I think it was
• 1:16:28
  Speaker 7: men doing break dancing. And she wanted them to dance
• 1:16:32
  Speaker 7: off of my voice, basically.
• 1:16:34
  Speaker 2: And my words.
• 1:16:35
  Speaker 7: And it seemed like it took me so long to
• 1:16:41
  Speaker 7: do that when I know I could get stuff like this.
• 1:16:44
  Speaker 7: But then, I'm glad I didn't do it because then.
• 1:16:49
  Speaker 2: It wouldn't have been right.
• 1:16:51
  Speaker 7: And that was a season in my life that I
• 1:16:53
  Speaker 7: was also going through something. So that wasn't it. You
• 1:16:58
  Speaker 7: know what I'm saying? I wanted to in my heart,
• 1:17:01
  Speaker 7: but I don't even think that was an opportunity that
• 1:17:05
  Speaker 7: God was giving me.
• 1:17:06
  Speaker 2: But I'm glad I was strong enough to just be like, no,
• 1:17:08
  Speaker 2: I can't. I can't imagine.
• 1:17:10
  Speaker 7: Unfortunately, because I was younger, I didn't say, no, I
• 1:17:13
  Speaker 7: can't even do it.
• 1:17:14
  Speaker 2: I just didn't.
• 1:17:15
  Speaker 7: I didn't do it. She wanted me to do, you know,
• 1:17:17
  Speaker 7: something else. But now they asked me that.
• 1:17:23
  Speaker 1: Oh my goodness.
• 1:17:24
  Speaker 2: That's different.
• 1:17:26
  Speaker 1: Yes, yes. You have a very... Because I remember growing up,
• 1:17:30
  Speaker 1: I lived in Newark, New Jersey, but I remember I
• 1:17:33
  Speaker 1: went to New York. My mother had me and I stopped.
• 1:17:36
  Speaker 1: Debbie Allen something dance place.
• 1:17:39
  Speaker 2: Yeah, that's where my sister used... My sister had... Yeah,
• 1:17:42
  Speaker 2: my sister used to work with them.
• 1:17:44
  Speaker 1: So I went and I think about it, but I stopped.
• 1:17:48
  Speaker 1: And I think... Then I probably was dealing with lupus
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  Speaker 1: and didn't even know because I couldn't bend my legs
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  Speaker 1: all the way when they folded down and I couldn't
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  Speaker 1: keep going. But I just remember all the running we
• 1:18:02
  Speaker 1: did and all the jumping we did and everything that
• 1:18:06
  Speaker 1: we did, I was thinking about like, wow. But I
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  Speaker 1: do think even though I was there, God was still
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  Speaker 1: building me then. You know what I'm saying? So the tight,
• 1:18:19
  Speaker 1: the little, kite things and I was running running running
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  Speaker 1: and sometimes I feel like that now God saying stop
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  Speaker 1: running like sometimes we can do too much I mean
• 1:18:32
  Speaker 1: by that we don't I don't belong in every room
• 1:18:37
  Speaker 1: that's right so when I think about the running and
• 1:18:41
  Speaker 1: the moving if I'm on this podcast on Monday and
• 1:18:44
  Speaker 1: I'm on this podcast on Tuesday and I'm on here
• 1:18:48
  Speaker 1: going to play on Wednesday, God's saying, wait a minute,
• 1:18:50
  Speaker 1: when are you praying with me? When are you taking time?
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  Speaker 1: You're writing books and you're doing poetry and you're here
• 1:19:00
  Speaker 1: and you're over there. I have to stop sometimes because
• 1:19:04
  Speaker 1: I think about When I was then, I would just,
• 1:19:06
  Speaker 1: you know how you run? It's like, hey, one, two, two, three, two, three, four. Sometimes, too,
• 1:19:12
  Speaker 1: the blessing is stop. So you can hear.
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  Speaker 2: That's true. Yeah, that's true. That's true.
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  Speaker 7: Because sometimes we be doing so much and don't be
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  Speaker 7: doing nothing.
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  Speaker 1: We distract.
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  Speaker 2: We be doing so much and don't get anything done.
• 1:19:31
  Speaker 2: You know, it has happened to me.
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  Speaker 7: And that's why I mean, I tell anybody I admire
• 1:19:37
  Speaker 7: a gay queen, Angela, you know, she can not come
• 1:19:41
  Speaker 7: up in this conversation because, you know, I look at
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  Speaker 7: her and I feel like nothing but God. What she
• 1:19:52
  Speaker 7: do is nothing but from the grace of God, the
• 1:19:55
  Speaker 7: grace that God gives.
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  Speaker 1: Her to do it.
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  Speaker 7: Because, you know, he ain't gonna give you nothing to
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  Speaker 7: do and then don't prepare you for it. Or let
• 1:20:02
  Speaker 7: you look crazy doing it. Because I was with an
• 1:20:07
  Speaker 7: organization a long time ago. And the woman was just
• 1:20:11
  Speaker 7: like the queen.
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  Speaker 2: Just like her. But nothing got done. Every time we
• 1:20:16
  Speaker 2: turned around, you know.
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  Speaker 7: It was always something different. But nothing got done. We
• 1:20:21
  Speaker 7: would jump into something else. And we was incomplete in
• 1:20:24
  Speaker 7: other areas, you know.
• 1:20:27
  Speaker 2: But that was her. See, this is what Queen is doing.
• 1:20:33
  Speaker 2: This is from God.
• 1:20:35
  Speaker 1: Right.
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  Speaker 7: She's going to put God on this because there's no way.
• 1:20:38
  Speaker 1: There's no way.
• 1:20:41
  Speaker 2: You're talking about ADHD, yo. I wouldn't be right. Okay?
• 1:20:48
  Speaker 7: But she knew this, and I love that because I
• 1:20:51
  Speaker 7: told her, I wrote her earlier, we just saw a film,
• 1:20:54
  Speaker 7: and I said, You actually get things done.
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  Speaker 2: So it's okay for you to miss a thing or two.
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  Speaker 2: You know what I'm saying? You know, but I've never
• 1:21:06
  Speaker 2: met no woman like her.
• 1:21:08
  Speaker 7: I know a lot that actually do all these things
• 1:21:11
  Speaker 7: and you see them all birthed.
• 1:21:15
  Speaker 2: Right? They all be birthed. You see a co-author here,
• 1:21:18
  Speaker 2: a co-author here.
• 1:21:19
  Speaker 1: There, there.
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  Speaker 7: And she's actually getting these books together and giving us.
• 1:21:26
  Speaker 2: A chance to be in.
• 1:21:28
  Speaker 1: Yeah. She taught collaboration. And let me say this. Collaboration
• 1:21:33
  Speaker 1: is powerful. A lot of times we collaborate with people
• 1:21:36
  Speaker 1: we know because we're comfortable with them. Coming over here
• 1:21:40
  Speaker 1: and not knowing everybody was a little different. Because you
• 1:21:44
  Speaker 1: know your family, you collaborate with them.
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  Speaker 2: Yeah.
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  Speaker 1: I'm black. Some people can't collaborate with their family. So
• 1:21:50
  Speaker 1: let me know what I'm talking about. But I'm blessed.
• 1:21:53
  Speaker 1: I have been able to be with Coach Debbie for
• 1:21:55
  Speaker 1: years and not just books. So that's the blessing. I'm
• 1:21:58
  Speaker 1: very honored that she allowed me to be me. But
• 1:22:01
  Speaker 1: what I'm saying is to come over if you don't
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  Speaker 1: know you or a lot of women and to be
• 1:22:06
  Speaker 1: able to connect. You know that's the thing of God.
• 1:22:11
  Speaker 1: Because women alone, whether you're in church, whether it's in
• 1:22:15
  Speaker 1: your family, whatever it is, there's no jealousy. There's no envy.
• 1:22:19
  Speaker 1: If it is, God always move them out. By being
• 1:22:27
  Speaker 1: on a 5 a.m. prayer, you don't got to say nothing.
• 1:22:30
  Speaker 1: If it's not lined up with God, they're going to move.
• 1:22:35
  Speaker 1: For whatever reason, whether it's for their own journey sometimes,
• 1:22:39
  Speaker 1: that's a good thing. But not right in order is
• 1:22:44
  Speaker 1: going to move. So for me, to all of you all,
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  Speaker 1: it has taught me something. Okay, sure. Like, when I
• 1:22:54
  Speaker 1: see Miss Angela putting a lot of stuff out, okay,
• 1:22:59
  Speaker 1: tell everybody. That's your point. I don't need to call
• 1:23:02
  Speaker 1: her and say, jumping over the fence. How about, sure,
• 1:23:06
  Speaker 1: you step out on faith. You've been around her six years. You...
• 1:23:12
  Speaker 1: this is what she is preparing us for okay let
• 1:23:17
  Speaker 1: me call some authors let me say a b d
• 1:23:20
  Speaker 1: e f g i need to do it's called transformation
• 1:23:26
  Speaker 1: she is preparing us to say okay if i take
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  Speaker 1: a week off like you know how to get your
• 1:23:32
  Speaker 1: job co-manager if i take a week off nothing should
• 1:23:36
  Speaker 1: stop Everything should go on. It should not be. If
• 1:23:43
  Speaker 1: I don't do A, B, C, D, E, can't be done. Okay,
• 1:23:46
  Speaker 1: beautiful Keisha, beautiful LeGrand, beautiful Mary. I have shown you enough.
• 1:23:53
  Speaker 1: Why not share what I put out there? Why I
• 1:23:57
  Speaker 1: have to tell you to share? Why you want to
• 1:24:00
  Speaker 1: write a book and you don't promote it?
• 1:24:03
  Speaker 2: Promote it, yeah.
• 1:24:04
  Speaker 1: Why be on the book if you not going to
• 1:24:08
  Speaker 1: say anything? Why do we, Angela, have to keep sharing
• 1:24:12
  Speaker 1: our brand that we put in?
• 1:24:15
  Speaker 2: That's right. That's right.
• 1:24:18
  Speaker 3: Well, I'm going to come on because y'all been talking
• 1:24:21
  Speaker 3: about me enough.
• 1:24:23
  Speaker 2: Well, welcome. She's behind the scenes.
• 1:24:27
  Speaker 7: And now we're going to bring her up. I'm not
• 1:24:31
  Speaker 7: going to come on the screen.
• 1:24:33
  Speaker 3: I'm just going to talk for just a second. It
• 1:24:38
  Speaker 3: is truly God because if people knew the things that
• 1:24:44
  Speaker 3: I go through behind the scenes and the things that
• 1:24:46
  Speaker 3: I deal with, you know, I don't broadcast them. I
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  Speaker 3: don't post them on the billboard. I don't put them
• 1:24:52
  Speaker 3: on a t-shirt nor a hat, but It is nothing
• 1:24:55
  Speaker 3: but truly God, you know, and I could not have
• 1:25:00
  Speaker 3: been here, but I know that God spared my life
• 1:25:03
  Speaker 3: for a reason. And therefore, everything that I do, I
• 1:25:07
  Speaker 3: want to honor him. I want to let people know
• 1:25:11
  Speaker 3: that God is still yet.
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  Speaker 2: In control. He's still yet working.
• 1:25:16
  Speaker 3: You know, we, we may not see the Bible day miracles.
• 1:25:19
  Speaker 3: We may not see the walking on water, but God
• 1:25:22
  Speaker 3: is yet still performing miracles because he formed miracle in
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  Speaker 3: my life.
• 1:25:27
  Speaker 1: Not just once, but he did it twice.
• 1:25:29
  Speaker 3: You know, the enemy, not just me, but people that
• 1:25:33
  Speaker 3: I come in contact with, people that I see every
• 1:25:36
  Speaker 3: day that's battling with different things. You know, the enemy,
• 1:25:41
  Speaker 3: his job is to kill, steal, and destroy. That's what
• 1:25:45
  Speaker 3: he set forth to do. You know, and he don't
• 1:25:48
  Speaker 3: want to see us collaborate. He want to see us
• 1:25:50
  Speaker 3: in competition. He want to see us not lifting each
• 1:25:53
  Speaker 3: other up. He want to see us pulling each other
• 1:25:55
  Speaker 3: down and tearing each other down because that's.
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  Speaker 1: What he do.
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  Speaker 3: That is what he do. And I think that, you know,
• 1:26:03
  Speaker 3: the gifts that God has placed within us, you know,
• 1:26:06
  Speaker 3: he said that they will work together for our good,
• 1:26:09
  Speaker 3: but it's to bring him glory.
• 1:26:11
  Speaker 2: I can't bring him glory.
• 1:26:13
  Speaker 3: By focusing on me because one of the greatest things
• 1:26:16
  Speaker 3: that one of the greatest gifts is, is to show love.
• 1:26:20
  Speaker 3: You know, it's so easy for us to show love
• 1:26:22
  Speaker 3: to our families and our friends, but the greatest, um,
• 1:26:27
  Speaker 3: The greatest show of love is being able to show
• 1:26:30
  Speaker 3: love to people that you don't know, people that that
• 1:26:33
  Speaker 3: you've never met before, people that you've not actually seen
• 1:26:37
  Speaker 3: in the physical. But to have that spiritual connection and
• 1:26:41
  Speaker 3: to be able to to to spread love and people
• 1:26:45
  Speaker 3: see it through your actions and you not have to,
• 1:26:48
  Speaker 3: you know, be there physically with them. You know, that
• 1:26:52
  Speaker 3: is what drives me. That is what presses me. That
• 1:26:56
  Speaker 3: is what keeps me going. You know, when I wake
• 1:26:58
  Speaker 3: up in the morning, my first thing before I get
• 1:27:01
  Speaker 3: on that prayer call is God bless me that I
• 1:27:06
  Speaker 3: may be able to be a blessing to somebody. Allow
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  Speaker 3: these gifts and talents that you've given me to be
• 1:27:12
  Speaker 3: able to help somebody else, to be able to show
• 1:27:15
  Speaker 3: somebody else you and not me in the flesh. You know,
• 1:27:20
  Speaker 3: my desire is to be able to be a blessing
• 1:27:23
  Speaker 3: to others, that they may be a blessing to this world.
• 1:27:26
  Speaker 3: Because even if I don't see everything that I desire
• 1:27:29
  Speaker 3: to see in this world materialize and manifest, at least we.
• 1:27:33
  Speaker 2: Are preparing those that are coming after us.
• 1:27:36
  Speaker 3: You know, we're able to leave a legacy. We're able
• 1:27:38
  Speaker 3: to leave something that people can see the things that
• 1:27:41
  Speaker 3: we've done.
• 1:27:42
  Speaker 1: You know, even.
• 1:27:43
  Speaker 3: Through enduring the things that we.
• 1:27:45
  Speaker 2: Endure, we get pressed.
• 1:27:48
  Speaker 1: You know, I remember.
• 1:27:51
  Speaker 2: Laying on my bed of afflictions.
• 1:27:53
  Speaker 3: I remember being shot point blank range with a sawed
• 1:27:55
  Speaker 3: off shotgun and walking out the hospital within three days.
• 1:27:59
  Speaker 3: You know, that was nothing but God. You know, I
• 1:28:03
  Speaker 3: believe in, I believe in his word, you know, and
• 1:28:08
  Speaker 3: I believe in the, when three is presented before me,
• 1:28:13
  Speaker 3: I'm always reminded of the Father, the Son, and the
• 1:28:15
  Speaker 3: Holy Ghost. And I know that those three days reminded
• 1:28:19
  Speaker 3: me that the Father was yet working, that the Holy
• 1:28:23
  Speaker 3: Ghost was yet working, and he was yet in the midst.
• 1:28:27
  Speaker 2: Of what I was doing. Even when I.
• 1:28:31
  Speaker 3: Was diagnosed as a diabetic and suffering with a glucose
• 1:28:35
  Speaker 3: level of 1228, I should have been in a diabetic coma.
• 1:28:39
  Speaker 2: I should not have been lucid.
• 1:28:41
  Speaker 3: I should have been walking around not even knowing what's
• 1:28:44
  Speaker 3: going on, not even knowing my name. But yet I
• 1:28:47
  Speaker 3: was able to drive myself not just to the doctor
• 1:28:50
  Speaker 3: and back home, but when the doctors called me and
• 1:28:53
  Speaker 3: told me that I needed to go to the emergency
• 1:28:55
  Speaker 3: room because I was in the midst of a crisis,
• 1:28:58
  Speaker 3: I was able to drive myself to the hospital.
• 1:29:00
  Speaker 1: Amen. Hallelujah.
• 1:29:02
  Speaker 2: That was nothing but God. I know the power of
• 1:29:05
  Speaker 2: God and I yet see him working in my life.
• 1:29:08
  Speaker 3: I yet see him. So I can't sit down on him.
• 1:29:11
  Speaker 3: So every opportunity, when he lays something in my spirit,
• 1:29:14
  Speaker 3: I put it out there.
• 1:29:15
  Speaker 2: Whether people grab hold to it or not, I put
• 1:29:17
  Speaker 2: it out there.
• 1:29:18
  Speaker 3: And with me, it's not about money, but it's about
• 1:29:21
  Speaker 3: bringing him glory because he's given us these gifts and
• 1:29:24
  Speaker 3: talents and he didn't give it to.
• 1:29:26
  Speaker 2: Us to sit down on.
• 1:29:28
  Speaker 3: He didn't give it to us to sit down on.
• 1:29:30
  Speaker 3: We are to share with others what he's done. Our
• 1:29:34
  Speaker 3: testimonies may not come from a pulpit. It may not
• 1:29:38
  Speaker 3: come from a lot of different places, but he's given
• 1:29:42
  Speaker 3: us outlets.
• 1:29:43
  Speaker 2: He's given us podcasts.
• 1:29:44
  Speaker 1: He's given us magazines. He's given us books. He's given us.
• 1:29:47
  Speaker 2: Opportunity to speak before people.
• 1:29:50
  Speaker 3: He's given us a lot of opportunities that we can
• 1:29:52
  Speaker 3: share those testimonies, that we can tell somebody what he
• 1:29:56
  Speaker 3: did for us and how he did it. We can't
• 1:29:59
  Speaker 3: change the Bible, but yet God is yet still moving.
• 1:30:03
  Speaker 3: He said that we should do greater works. And greater
• 1:30:06
  Speaker 3: works shall people know. But they won't know it through
• 1:30:09
  Speaker 3: the Bible because we can't change the Bible. We can't
• 1:30:13
  Speaker 3: add to the Bible. We can't take away from the Bible.
• 1:30:16
  Speaker 3: But one thing we can do to show those greater
• 1:30:19
  Speaker 3: works that he's performing in our life is to leave
• 1:30:22
  Speaker 3: it through the things that he allowed.
• 1:30:24
  Speaker 7: Us through the books, through the podcast, through the magazine,
• 1:30:28
  Speaker 7: through the Everything that can be archived.
• 1:30:33
  Speaker 3: Everything that can be left so that people coming behind
• 1:30:36
  Speaker 3: us will have the opportunity to see what we've done.
• 1:30:40
  Speaker 3: Without changing his word.
• 1:30:42
  Speaker 1: That's right.
• 1:30:45
  Speaker 3: So that's why I do the things that I do.
• 1:30:49
  Speaker 3: You know, God has truly blessed me. Because he could
• 1:30:52
  Speaker 3: have took me out on my bed of affliction. There's
• 1:30:54
  Speaker 3: so many things that I did not do. And so
• 1:30:58
  Speaker 3: many times that I think I was not worthy. And
• 1:31:00
  Speaker 3: so many times that I think I was not right.
• 1:31:04
  Speaker 3: But when I moved out of the way and stopped
• 1:31:06
  Speaker 3: worrying about what people thought.
• 1:31:09
  Speaker 1: That's right.
• 1:31:10
  Speaker 3: I stopped being focused on what everybody around me was doing.
• 1:31:14
  Speaker 3: But focusing on that that he had called me to.
• 1:31:18
  Speaker 3: Because we all got a journey. We all got something
• 1:31:21
  Speaker 3: that we're supposed to be doing. He already mapped it
• 1:31:23
  Speaker 3: out for us.
• 1:31:24
  Speaker 2: Before we was even... Before we was conceived in our
• 1:31:27
  Speaker 2: mother's womb, he knew everything that we was going to
• 1:31:30
  Speaker 2: go through.
• 1:31:32
  Speaker 3: You know, it took me to continue to hear Charita say,
• 1:31:37
  Speaker 3: you know, oftentimes we hear people say that God would
• 1:31:40
  Speaker 3: not put more on us than we can bear. But
• 1:31:42
  Speaker 3: it hurt me sitting and listening. I listened to Charita
• 1:31:45
  Speaker 3: for almost three years. And every time she said, she said,
• 1:31:48
  Speaker 3: God would never put anything on you because he already knows.
• 1:31:51
  Speaker 2: What you are going to endure. He already knows everything
• 1:31:53
  Speaker 2: about you.
• 1:31:55
  Speaker 3: And it took me back to Genesis 2 and 7
• 1:31:57
  Speaker 3: when he said he breathed that breath of life into us.
• 1:32:01
  Speaker 3: Everything we needed was deposited in us. When that breath,
• 1:32:04
  Speaker 3: when he breathed in us, everything that we needed.
• 1:32:08
  Speaker 2: Was deposited in us.
• 1:32:10
  Speaker 3: So therefore, we ain't got to go around here talking
• 1:32:12
  Speaker 3: about discovering our purpose, discovering this, discovering that, discovering that.
• 1:32:18
  Speaker 2: All you got to do is tap into it.
• 1:32:21
  Speaker 7: All you got to do is tap into it.
• 1:32:23
  Speaker 3: Tap into that that is already in you.
• 1:32:28
  Speaker 1: And how do we do that?
• 1:32:31
  Speaker 3: We got to first seek first the kingdom of heaven.
• 1:32:34
  Speaker 3: And he said all things should be added. He didn't
• 1:32:39
  Speaker 3: say some things. He said all things. But we got
• 1:32:41
  Speaker 3: to align with his word. We got to be in
• 1:32:44
  Speaker 3: place so that we can receive those things.
• 1:32:47
  Speaker 2: That's right.
• 1:32:48
  Speaker 3: God is not coming. Look, ain't no white horse coming
• 1:32:51
  Speaker 3: out the sky. A lot of us waiting for somebody
• 1:32:55
  Speaker 3: to save us when he's already equipped us.
• 1:32:58
  Speaker 1: Ain't nobody going to save you.
• 1:33:00
  Speaker 3: If you want to be saved, you got to save yourself.
• 1:33:02
  Speaker 3: And that is tapping into those things that he's placed
• 1:33:05
  Speaker 3: within you. Allowing the God that is in you to
• 1:33:08
  Speaker 3: come forth.
• 1:33:09
  Speaker 2: Right, right, right. And that's what I do. Everything I
• 1:33:16
  Speaker 2: do Is God led? God ordained?
• 1:33:20
  Speaker 3: You know, I've been told people that I don't work
• 1:33:24
  Speaker 3: unto people. I work unto the Lord. You know, whether
• 1:33:28
  Speaker 3: I have a thousand people or if I have one person,
• 1:33:33
  Speaker 3: if that one person show up and say that they
• 1:33:35
  Speaker 3: want to be obedient to that, that God has called
• 1:33:37
  Speaker 3: them to, I'm going to go forth. I don't care
• 1:33:41
  Speaker 3: if it's four of us in a book. I don't
• 1:33:43
  Speaker 3: care if it's five of us in the book. I
• 1:33:44
  Speaker 3: don't care if it's only three of us in the book.
• 1:33:47
  Speaker 3: If God said go forth, I'm going forth. Because again,
• 1:33:50
  Speaker 3: like I say, it's not about monetary gain. It's not
• 1:33:54
  Speaker 3: about prestige and power.
• 1:33:57
  Speaker 2: But it's about.
• 1:33:59
  Speaker 3: Allowing his word to come forth and impacting lives. Because
• 1:34:04
  Speaker 3: he allowed us to see a new day. Somebody didn't
• 1:34:07
  Speaker 3: get to see this day that we are walking into.
• 1:34:10
  Speaker 3: He kept us throughout this day. Somebody didn't even make
• 1:34:14
  Speaker 3: it through the day. But we made it through this day.
• 1:34:18
  Speaker 3: We're in this hour. So we got to focus on
• 1:34:21
  Speaker 3: that that he's called us to and be grateful. See,
• 1:34:24
  Speaker 3: a lot of us, we don't even have gratitude. We
• 1:34:26
  Speaker 3: go throughout this day just thinking that it's normal, that
• 1:34:30
  Speaker 3: this is just what's supposed to be happening. We don't
• 1:34:32
  Speaker 3: even give him praise for the little things. He woke
• 1:34:36
  Speaker 3: us up this morning. He allowed us to get up
• 1:34:39
  Speaker 3: without having an alarm. So many new things that happen.
• 1:34:43
  Speaker 3: We don't even reflect on the things that he's done
• 1:34:45
  Speaker 3: for us. We don't even thank him for seeing us
• 1:34:48
  Speaker 3: throughout this day. A lot of us, we go to
• 1:34:50
  Speaker 3: bed and we lay down. We just think that it's
• 1:34:52
  Speaker 3: just going to be normal, that it's just expected that
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  Speaker 3: we're going to wake up in the morning.
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  Speaker 2: That's right.
• 1:34:58
  Speaker 3: That's right.
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  Speaker 1: We're going to wake up in the morning. So you
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  Speaker 1: got to give.
• 1:35:01
  Speaker 3: Him praise when you lay down, before you lay down,
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  Speaker 3: before your head hit that pillow.
• 1:35:06
  Speaker 2: You got to thank him. Even if you lay down,
• 1:35:09
  Speaker 2: all you got to do is say, Lord, I thank
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  Speaker 2: you for this night that you allowed me to walk home.
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  Speaker 2: Just thank him. He just want to be acknowledged.
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  Speaker 1: That's all.
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  Speaker 2: He don't want a lone dog out heaping and hollering
• 1:35:20
  Speaker 2: and da-da-da-da-da-da. He don't want all that.
• 1:35:24
  Speaker 1: He just wants you to take it.
• 1:35:26
  Speaker 3: He just wants you to acknowledge him, to know that, hey,
• 1:35:29
  Speaker 3: we ain't got no power.
• 1:35:31
  Speaker 2: But through him, through him, we got all power. And
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  Speaker 2: all things are possible.
• 1:35:38
  Speaker 1: So I thank y'all.
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  Speaker 2: You know, I give him honor.
• 1:35:42
  Speaker 3: I give him glory. I give him praise because I'm
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  Speaker 3: not able to do nothing without him. You know, he
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  Speaker 3: knew everything that I would go through before I was
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  Speaker 3: even conceived in my mother's womb. And he knew what
• 1:35:55
  Speaker 3: things were going to take me to get in place
• 1:35:58
  Speaker 3: where I needed to be because he already mapped out
• 1:36:00
  Speaker 3: our lives.
• 1:36:01
  Speaker 2: You know some things.
• 1:36:03
  Speaker 3: Some things we may not understand while we go through
• 1:36:06
  Speaker 3: but know that everything worked together for all good to
• 1:36:10
  Speaker 3: bring him glory we may go to the left sometime
• 1:36:14
  Speaker 3: we may go to the right sometime but guess what
• 1:36:16
  Speaker 3: when he ready to snatch us back in and align
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  Speaker 3: us right where we supposed.
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  Speaker 2: To do he gonna do that he gonna do that.
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  Speaker 1: And he don't need He do not need our help.
• 1:36:27
  Speaker 2: He don't need our help. All he need is our obedience.
• 1:36:30
  Speaker 2: That's all he need. It's our obedience.
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  Speaker 1: That's it.
• 1:36:35
  Speaker 2: That's it. And I'm gone.
• 1:36:38
  Speaker 1: And I'm gone.
• 1:36:42
  Speaker 7: I can go come in preaching like that and then
• 1:36:44
  Speaker 7: talk about how bad it is.
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  Speaker 1: Oh, my goodness.
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  Speaker 2: I could have finished up the podcast with all of that.
• 1:36:52
  Speaker 2: I tell you, she just.
• 1:36:54
  Speaker 7: Gives you, you know, she, her, hearing her talk, you
• 1:36:58
  Speaker 7: could hear the passion, right? And the gratitude in every time.
• 1:37:06
  Speaker 2: She talked about them. And she's right. We're all supposed
• 1:37:11
  Speaker 2: to be like that because.
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  Speaker 7: We all have had things that happened in our lives
• 1:37:16
  Speaker 7: that we probably haven't shared. But those are testimonies because
• 1:37:20
  Speaker 7: we're still here. We're still here because I know Queen has,
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  Speaker 7: I can't even remember how I met her.
• 1:37:30
  Speaker 2: It was something like, oh, I'm in this business organization.
• 1:37:35
  Speaker 2: And the young lady, she used to be my coach.
• 1:37:37
  Speaker 2: She said that, I think that, I know you want
• 1:37:41
  Speaker 2: to write. And I know somebody I can connect you with.
• 1:37:44
  Speaker 2: And she connected me with, you know, with Queen.
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  Speaker 7: Yeah.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah, she connect me.
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  Speaker 7: With, I think it's called Real Sisters Robinson Business Association.
• 1:37:55
  Speaker 7: And she is, and I will love her to life
• 1:37:59
  Speaker 7: always just for making that connection.
• 1:38:02
  Speaker 2: Like you were saying, collaboration. You know what I'm saying?
• 1:38:05
  Speaker 2: She didn't have to do that.
• 1:38:06
  Speaker 7: She could have kept me, you know, not even knowing
• 1:38:08
  Speaker 7: that kept me over there doing.
• 1:38:10
  Speaker 2: What she had me doing over there.
• 1:38:11
  Speaker 7: But she introduced me to an opportunity. And from then on,
• 1:38:17
  Speaker 7: You don't even know how it happened when you came
• 1:38:20
  Speaker 7: to somebody racist.
• 1:38:22
  Speaker 2: You don't know how it happened. Like, you don't even
• 1:38:23
  Speaker 2: know how we actually started talking. You know what I'm saying?
• 1:38:27
  Speaker 2: And from our closeness, and we don't even.
• 1:38:30
  Speaker 1: You.
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  Speaker 2: Know what I'm saying?
• 1:38:33
  Speaker 7: So, I thank her for that, because like you said,
• 1:38:38
  Speaker 7: she did push me out, too. She pushed me out
• 1:38:42
  Speaker 7: on the cliff. And I'm glad she did, because my
• 1:38:44
  Speaker 7: family was like, well, by.
• 1:38:45
  Speaker 2: The time Jesus... The whole time. Love you too, mommy.
• 1:38:50
  Speaker 2: That's my mother. She said love you too.
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  Speaker 1: Oh, no.
• 1:38:53
  Speaker 2: She's saying that to Queen. Queen, my mommy said I
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  Speaker 2: love you.
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  Speaker 7: Yeah, she love herself as a queen.
• 1:39:01
  Speaker 2: I love her too.
• 1:39:03
  Speaker 1: She pushed me out.
• 1:39:05
  Speaker 2: She pushed me out there. Because I remember talking to
• 1:39:09
  Speaker 2: her because I was doing stuff on YouTube, but I
• 1:39:14
  Speaker 2: was inconsistent. You know what I'm saying? I don't know.
• 1:39:17
  Speaker 7: Maybe God, that's not where he wanted me to stop.
• 1:39:20
  Speaker 7: That's why I wasn't working.
• 1:39:22
  Speaker 1: And she kept.
• 1:39:22
  Speaker 2: Telling me about the problem. Kept telling me about the problem.
• 1:39:25
  Speaker 2: And I'm not going to lie.
• 1:39:26
  Speaker 7: I had a little fear when it came down. I
• 1:39:29
  Speaker 7: had every story in.
• 1:39:31
  Speaker 2: The book to do it.
• 1:39:32
  Speaker 7: And I'm saying, why am I fearing that when I'm
• 1:39:35
  Speaker 7: over here on YouTube and I'm going live?
• 1:39:38
  Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying?
• 1:39:39
  Speaker 2: So, wow. She was like, well, you got an opportunity.
• 1:39:43
  Speaker 2: She said, when you're going to do it, because you know.
• 1:39:46
  Speaker 7: Giving me a platform and look at how at that
• 1:39:52
  Speaker 7: time I didn't take that opportunity but who would have known.
• 1:39:56
  Speaker 2: That either way God was going to.
• 1:39:58
  Speaker 7: Still push me toward podcast because I was going to
• 1:40:02
  Speaker 7: win the 2026 gold of the year and this is
• 1:40:06
  Speaker 7: one of the blessings that I was able she was
• 1:40:12
  Speaker 7: able to share with me during that time You know,
• 1:40:15
  Speaker 7: so I'm looking at the preparation. So even when the
• 1:40:20
  Speaker 7: crown goes to someone else, it's.
• 1:40:23
  Speaker 1: Like, I'm prepared.
• 1:40:24
  Speaker 2: I'm prepared. So what a podcast.
• 1:40:29
  Speaker 1: Tween. I'm coming. I'm coming.
• 1:40:34
  Speaker 2: Because now.
• 1:40:37
  Speaker 7: It's like I feel, I know I'm ready now. I
• 1:40:39
  Speaker 7: probably was ready before, but it wasn't where people wanted
• 1:40:43
  Speaker 7: me to stop. Not saying I don't have to go
• 1:40:45
  Speaker 7: over there and make a presence over there, because on YouTube,
• 1:40:50
  Speaker 7: I was mainly.
• 1:40:51
  Speaker 2: Talking about lupus.
• 1:40:52
  Speaker 7: It was just like, oh, encouraging people to lupus. And
• 1:40:56
  Speaker 7: I kept switching up what.
• 1:40:58
  Speaker 2: I was doing.
• 1:40:59
  Speaker 7: I kept switching up, you know.
• 1:41:01
  Speaker 2: What I was doing. It wasn't working.
• 1:41:04
  Speaker 7: It wasn't working because I wasn't doing exactly what he
• 1:41:06
  Speaker 7: wanted me to do. I should have kept it with
• 1:41:09
  Speaker 7: just talking about lupus and encouraging people with lupus because that's.
• 1:41:13
  Speaker 2: What that platform is for.
• 1:41:15
  Speaker 7: So I thank her for giving me this opportunity to
• 1:41:18
  Speaker 7: be a broadcaster because it was actually my first experience
• 1:41:24
  Speaker 7: to see how all of this, you know, how all
• 1:41:27
  Speaker 7: of this works.
• 1:41:28
  Speaker 2: Trust and go, baby. Amen.
• 1:41:33
  Speaker 1: I was going to say to you, even with that platform,
• 1:41:36
  Speaker 1: it still prepared you for here. And because you already
• 1:41:40
  Speaker 1: got the platform there, you could just open it right
• 1:41:42
  Speaker 1: back up. See, I look at anything that I didn't
• 1:41:46
  Speaker 1: finish or correct, it was a journey to get me
• 1:41:49
  Speaker 1: to plan B. And you know, for me, I met
• 1:41:53
  Speaker 1: her through Coach Debbie when I was starting writing books
• 1:41:57
  Speaker 1: with her. I'll never forget. It was me, Ms. Saunders,
• 1:42:00
  Speaker 1: and I'll never forget you said, it's time for y'all
• 1:42:03
  Speaker 1: to do something else. I'm going to be helping people
• 1:42:07
  Speaker 1: write books. All I did was shoot them. Now, you're
• 1:42:09
  Speaker 1: going to do what? She said, no, I'm going to
• 1:42:11
  Speaker 1: give you a list and I'm going to give you
• 1:42:14
  Speaker 1: some names. I was like, she got me. But what
• 1:42:20
  Speaker 1: I did, that's how I met Ms. Angela. I had
• 1:42:23
  Speaker 1: to send an email. whatever. And it's been everything. And
• 1:42:25
  Speaker 1: the funny thing is coach Debbie already knew her and
• 1:42:29
  Speaker 1: was following her. And I didn't know that.
• 1:42:31
  Speaker 2: Okay.
• 1:42:31
  Speaker 1: You understand? So when God do something, he already helped
• 1:42:37
  Speaker 1: our steps.
• 1:42:39
  Speaker 2: Yes.
• 1:42:40
  Speaker 1: Doing. And for me, for me, it was pushing me.
• 1:42:44
  Speaker 1: I might've been strong in one area, but I might've
• 1:42:47
  Speaker 1: been another.
• 1:42:48
  Speaker 2: Yeah.
• 1:42:50
  Speaker 1: Of this i'm gonna get you from someone you're comfortable
• 1:42:53
  Speaker 1: with and i'm gonna put you in something you don't
• 1:42:55
  Speaker 1: even know no so because with coach debbie even though
• 1:42:59
  Speaker 1: she pushed me over the cliff that still was a
• 1:43:01
  Speaker 1: phenomenon i.
• 1:43:02
  Speaker 2: Could go over here yeah right.
• 1:43:07
  Speaker 1: Um you're gonna write for she huh you gotta send
• 1:43:09
  Speaker 1: an email what so she put right right and then
• 1:43:13
  Speaker 1: my children was in the house i'd be like Y'all
• 1:43:15
  Speaker 1: got to help me do this and that. God said,
• 1:43:17
  Speaker 1: you know what? I'm going to take you to another level.
• 1:43:20
  Speaker 1: Ain't none of us going to be around. Now what?
• 1:43:24
  Speaker 2: Now you got to figure it out.
• 1:43:26
  Speaker 1: You still going to have to send this email because
• 1:43:30
  Speaker 1: that was also a crutch. Okay, I got to be
• 1:43:34
  Speaker 1: on her podcast at 8 o'clock. I need y'all to
• 1:43:36
  Speaker 1: set everything up.
• 1:43:38
  Speaker 2: Or they'll be like, She can't hear me.
• 1:43:45
  Speaker 1: And then they'll come up on the screen and turn
• 1:43:49
  Speaker 1: it up. But God said, I'm going to remove all
• 1:43:52
  Speaker 1: of that. Because I'm taking you. You got to be prepared.
• 1:43:59
  Speaker 1: So he did. And it's not as bad as we think.
• 1:44:03
  Speaker 1: We hold our own self hostage because of what we do.
• 1:44:13
  Speaker 1: But if we trust God in one area, we can't
• 1:44:18
  Speaker 1: live in him in the other. It's like, okay, I'm
• 1:44:20
  Speaker 1: going to come to town. I went to Kansas. I'm
• 1:44:23
  Speaker 1: going to trust him. He said, okay, I need you
• 1:44:25
  Speaker 1: to trust me in everything.
• 1:44:27
  Speaker 2: In everything.
• 1:44:28
  Speaker 1: To your children. They belong to me. It's not what's
• 1:44:36
  Speaker 1: going to happen. You got to pray for them. You
• 1:44:41
  Speaker 1: belong to me. when we start making our blessings our idol.
• 1:44:48
  Speaker 7: It becomes a problem a big problem that we.
• 1:44:52
  Speaker 1: Have to belong to us and I'm going to say
• 1:44:56
  Speaker 1: this it took me to go through these trials and
• 1:45:00
  Speaker 1: tribulations to get to the point because we can get
• 1:45:04
  Speaker 1: comfortable God said no no no I'm going to go
• 1:45:07
  Speaker 1: some ranches I'm going to go some bushes so my
• 1:45:11
  Speaker 1: I'm tribulation is the reason why I'm here because one
• 1:45:15
  Speaker 1: time I was going to church and even though I
• 1:45:17
  Speaker 1: was praying, okay, going to church don't mean you hear God.
• 1:45:22
  Speaker 2: That's at all.
• 1:45:25
  Speaker 1: At all. You can be just a church girl.
• 1:45:29
  Speaker 7: It's not the same.
• 1:45:32
  Speaker 1: But when you really go, it's going to show. Like
• 1:45:37
  Speaker 1: I heard a preacher that went to church He said,
• 1:45:40
  Speaker 1: you keep saying you got communion. This ain't no communion.
• 1:45:43
  Speaker 1: Do you call them a year later? Or are you
• 1:45:46
  Speaker 1: going through reading the word, like Ms. Andrew said? Or
• 1:45:50
  Speaker 1: are you just coming here religiously? That make you... I
• 1:45:54
  Speaker 1: don't want to do anything religiously.
• 1:45:58
  Speaker 2: No, you don't want to.
• 1:45:59
  Speaker 1: Everything from the kingdom, even through my heart. So even
• 1:46:03
  Speaker 1: with this podcast, I was like, okay, I got to
• 1:46:06
  Speaker 1: get up here. Okay, I hope that's right. Here we go.
• 1:46:12
  Speaker 1: And every time I get ready to get up here,
• 1:46:14
  Speaker 1: it's so many distractions. I'm not even going to speak
• 1:46:18
  Speaker 1: that no more. Let me just get up here because
• 1:46:21
  Speaker 1: I don't want to get in power and say every
• 1:46:25
  Speaker 1: time I get on the podcast. So this time I say,
• 1:46:31
  Speaker 1: you know what? Let me pray before I get up
• 1:46:33
  Speaker 1: here and.
• 1:46:33
  Speaker 2: Say, God, help and guide and.
• 1:46:36
  Speaker 1: Lead me so you distraction, but sometimes we speak it
• 1:46:41
  Speaker 1: before it comes.
• 1:46:42
  Speaker 2: That's so true.
• 1:46:46
  Speaker 1: To be a distraction, to be so complete. Oh my gosh,
• 1:46:49
  Speaker 1: when I get up here, I got to pray. I just, no, no, no, no, no.
• 1:46:51
  Speaker 1: Can't keep saying the same prayer all the time. It
• 1:46:54
  Speaker 1: got to change. How about when I get up tonight,
• 1:46:57
  Speaker 1: it's going to go good. How about tonight God going
• 1:47:00
  Speaker 1: to use me? How about when I get up teacher,
• 1:47:02
  Speaker 1: and Mr. Lance, you're going to say something that inspires
• 1:47:05
  Speaker 1: one person. How about you guide us through our heart
• 1:47:09
  Speaker 1: and not speak, you know, accordingly. We're going to speak
• 1:47:12
  Speaker 1: because we need to guide us up here. And you
• 1:47:15
  Speaker 1: know what? I haven't had no complications because I took
• 1:47:17
  Speaker 1: this story out before I got up here.
• 1:47:20
  Speaker 2: You understand?
• 1:47:25
  Speaker 1: I got the same phone beside me right now because
• 1:47:29
  Speaker 1: I didn't give him a chance to come in. I said,
• 1:47:32
  Speaker 1: you know what? I'm going to stop saying that. I'm
• 1:47:35
  Speaker 1: going to stop saying, you know, how about I say,
• 1:47:39
  Speaker 1: I pray and that one person did not say something
• 1:47:43
  Speaker 1: to me. So I'm going to say this before we
• 1:47:44
  Speaker 1: get off. Father, thank you for allowing us to be
• 1:47:47
  Speaker 1: up here. I know you here. We're not no preachers.
• 1:47:50
  Speaker 1: We're not no pastors. We're not no apostles. I'm not
• 1:47:53
  Speaker 1: trying to change nobody's life or their format. The only
• 1:47:56
  Speaker 1: advice I can give you from experience, I know my God.
• 1:48:00
  Speaker 1: I don't know nothing else. He is a healer, a provider.
• 1:48:03
  Speaker 1: He would take care of your problems, your tribulations, your mistakes,
• 1:48:07
  Speaker 1: and your issues. You don't have to worry about him
• 1:48:09
  Speaker 1: talking about you when you fall. You don't have come
• 1:48:12
  Speaker 1: down on you when you make a mistake. That's what
• 1:48:14
  Speaker 1: I can give you because I am a single mom
• 1:48:17
  Speaker 1: with three through the lupus. I can try that you
• 1:48:21
  Speaker 1: know nothing about the pain, but I am going to
• 1:48:23
  Speaker 1: say again so everybody can hear me. Don't think you
• 1:48:26
  Speaker 1: have to be rich to write a book or be
• 1:48:29
  Speaker 1: on the billboard or any journey that you do. Once
• 1:48:33
  Speaker 1: you give it to God and present it to him,
• 1:48:36
  Speaker 1: he will lead you. But if you listen to Aunt
• 1:48:39
  Speaker 1: Betty and Uncle John and everybody around you, when December
• 1:48:44
  Speaker 1: and January come, you are going to be sitting in
• 1:48:47
  Speaker 1: the same place.
• 1:48:49
  Speaker 2: And that's okay.
• 1:48:50
  Speaker 1: I ain't condemning nobody. If that's the life that you love,
• 1:48:53
  Speaker 1: but don't condemn the ones who up here and is trying.
• 1:48:57
  Speaker 1: If you don't like it, fine. That is you. Don't
• 1:49:01
  Speaker 1: knock the ones who out here pushing. If you don't
• 1:49:05
  Speaker 1: want to push and you want to work nine to five,
• 1:49:07
  Speaker 1: I love you so much. I want to push and
• 1:49:13
  Speaker 1: continue whether you support me or not. This is something
• 1:49:17
  Speaker 1: that God has left on my heart and I still
• 1:49:20
  Speaker 1: love you. Simple. And I do pray that I say
• 1:49:25
  Speaker 1: something every time I get up here. Whatever you do,
• 1:49:30
  Speaker 1: I'm going to say it again. Just trust him. Just
• 1:49:33
  Speaker 1: trust him. Our life is not perfect. We don't have
• 1:49:37
  Speaker 1: it all together. We might not even have all the findings.
• 1:49:41
  Speaker 1: We don't have all the solutions. We ain't got it
• 1:49:44
  Speaker 1: going on. But we can tell you, Queen Angela, Queen Keisha,
• 1:49:49
  Speaker 1: Queen Sabrina, we can tell you, but we don't know
• 1:49:53
  Speaker 1: nothing else that God has brought us through. And we
• 1:49:58
  Speaker 1: don't tell you nothing else tonight. We can tell you
• 1:50:03
  Speaker 1: why we are here. Because God did it.
• 1:50:07
  Speaker 2: Through everything.
• 1:50:11
  Speaker 1: Every gift and talent. We can tell you that. And
• 1:50:16
  Speaker 1: for that, whether you want to write a book, drive
• 1:50:18
  Speaker 1: a truck, be a movie star, whatever you want to do.
• 1:50:22
  Speaker 1: Do music. All my children are different. But know that
• 1:50:26
  Speaker 1: they do not die in vain. different talent and it's
• 1:50:34
  Speaker 1: sitting here if you don't want to leave for yourself
• 1:50:37
  Speaker 1: leave it for your children you know we got to
• 1:50:39
  Speaker 1: play for our children because a lot of times they
• 1:50:45
  Speaker 1: are searching for that dream and we can help them
• 1:50:50
  Speaker 1: by how we are living they can look at us
• 1:50:54
  Speaker 1: and still go out here and do something crazy But
• 1:50:56
  Speaker 1: guess what? It would be a memory for them to say,
• 1:50:59
  Speaker 1: you know what? Wow. Mama, Aunt Betty, whoever did such
• 1:51:04
  Speaker 1: and such. We got so many beautiful people in prison.
• 1:51:08
  Speaker 1: That's right. They can sing. They can dance. And it's
• 1:51:15
  Speaker 1: up to us to plant that seed now for our
• 1:51:18
  Speaker 1: babies and for ourselves. And we are never too old
• 1:51:22
  Speaker 1: to do it. And we are not too young. I
• 1:51:24
  Speaker 1: look at Patrice's beautiful daughter. that's young, that's on the billboard.
• 1:51:29
  Speaker 1: I look at my beautiful sister, Miss Stella, that's on
• 1:51:32
  Speaker 1: the billboard. Let me tell you something. That gives me
• 1:51:36
  Speaker 1: hope from the youngest to the oldest. As you have
• 1:51:41
  Speaker 1: 100 years old, let me tell you something. Age don't matter.
• 1:51:45
  Speaker 1: It's what's in our heart.
• 1:51:46
  Speaker 7: Age don't matter.
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  Speaker 1: That's what I'm telling people. I wasn't always like this.
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  Speaker 1: People know on Facebook I was a hot mess. And
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  Speaker 1: God took someone like me and transformed. So I pray
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  Speaker 1: all the ones that know me say, whoa. And one
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  Speaker 1: of my friends from Greenbridge, she said.
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  Speaker 2: I know it's a guy.
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  Speaker 1: And I love her. And it's vegan. I hope you
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  Speaker 1: listen to vegan. She said, because Lord, when I see
• 1:52:14
  Speaker 1: him change you, that's what I want you to say.
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  Speaker 1: Because I was a hot man. I want you to say,
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  Speaker 1: if Cheryl can jump over the fence, I can do it.
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  Speaker 1: I really do. I pray everybody that know I was
• 1:52:29
  Speaker 1: a hot mess said, whoa, I remember when. I want
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  Speaker 1: you to remember because yes, you join this with me.
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  Speaker 1: That's all I'm saying. Keisha, I'm going to.
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  Speaker 2: Let you finish. It's funny because we have gifts, talents,
• 1:52:45
  Speaker 2: and all of those things. We don't know. I had
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  Speaker 2: to learn this too. We don't know that. I think
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  Speaker 2: it really convicted me that.
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  Speaker 7: Those times I didn't share. Somebody else was struggling because
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  Speaker 7: they didn't have my story.
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  Speaker 2: They didn't have my words.
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  Speaker 7: They didn't have my encouragement because of fear or whatever
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  Speaker 7: it was. That's also something else that made me think about, you.
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  Speaker 2: Know, going forth.
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  Speaker 7: Once I knew that was what the Lord wanted me
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  Speaker 7: to do was to go forth. I'm like, no, I
• 1:53:27
  Speaker 7: got to open my mouth.
• 1:53:28
  Speaker 2: I won't be silent.
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  Speaker 7: I'm not going to be silent about what he did
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  Speaker 7: for me, what he continues to do for me, whether
• 1:53:34
  Speaker 7: I see it or not.
• 1:53:36
  Speaker 2: I can't be silent about it. I can't be silent
• 1:53:38
  Speaker 2: about my testimony.
• 1:53:40
  Speaker 7: You know about how he has saved my life.
• 1:53:44
  Speaker 2: A couple of times. You know what I'm saying? Just
• 1:53:46
  Speaker 2: like I think all of us.
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  Speaker 7: We shouldn't be here because of some of the things
• 1:53:52
  Speaker 7: we went through, but who saved us?
• 1:53:55
  Speaker 1: Did you hear last week my friend Angela Langham? And
• 1:53:58
  Speaker 1: I could just cry. She still got up here. And
• 1:54:03
  Speaker 1: I tell people all the time, she went through so much.
• 1:54:08
  Speaker 1: And we prayed and prayed. And my sister got up here.
• 1:54:11
  Speaker 1: Let me tell y'all something. You don't know what somebody
• 1:54:15
  Speaker 1: is going through. Yeah, yeah, they talking together. Let me
• 1:54:19
  Speaker 1: tell you something. I admire every sister, every brother can
• 1:54:22
  Speaker 1: come up here and say, I had a stroke or
• 1:54:25
  Speaker 1: I had a heart attack. I went through lupus. I
• 1:54:28
  Speaker 1: went through cancer. I have obstacles and trials. And you
• 1:54:32
  Speaker 1: can still come up here and still say, thank you, Lord.
• 1:54:37
  Speaker 1: That is truly me that motivate me and say, you
• 1:54:42
  Speaker 1: know what, LaGrange? You can push. Some people's stories, People
• 1:54:47
  Speaker 1: don't know, so they're always on Facebook and this and that.
• 1:54:49
  Speaker 1: Let me tell you something. I call all my beautiful sisters.
• 1:54:54
  Speaker 1: You hear me say it? Everybody. Because everybody's story is different.
• 1:55:01
  Speaker 1: I could see so many of our women come together
• 1:55:06
  Speaker 1: and share. To me, that is powerful alone. The good,
• 1:55:12
  Speaker 1: the bad, the ugly. But to see them stand and
• 1:55:15
  Speaker 1: rise and tell their story, they motivate me. That prayer
• 1:55:19
  Speaker 1: line I give them motivate me every day. They get
• 1:55:23
  Speaker 1: up there and pray for others every single day. If
• 1:55:27
  Speaker 1: you want something and it's not motivating you, that's an
• 1:55:31
  Speaker 1: issue alone. That's an issue for those that I pray.
• 1:55:36
  Speaker 1: Because I get motivated every day from the time that
• 1:55:39
  Speaker 1: I wake up in the morning. Because my story, I'm
• 1:55:44
  Speaker 1: not supposed to be here through my story. In fact,
• 1:55:49
  Speaker 1: I had my daughter, I went through procapsin and toxemia
• 1:55:53
  Speaker 1: and had to sign up for my ex-husband and mom.
• 1:55:57
  Speaker 1: Because they said, my baby's going to have Down syndrome
• 1:56:00
  Speaker 1: or this or that because of my age. Mm-hmm. So
• 1:56:03
  Speaker 1: I would tell anybody, I don't care if it's my
• 1:56:05
  Speaker 1: family or whoever, that whatever it is in life that
• 1:56:10
  Speaker 1: you want to do, Don't wait to do it. If
• 1:56:13
  Speaker 1: it don't work the first time, so what? If we
• 1:56:16
  Speaker 1: can go on our job and do 24, 30 years
• 1:56:20
  Speaker 1: and give somebody else the victory where they making money
• 1:56:23
  Speaker 1: off of us and can fire us at any given.
• 1:56:26
  Speaker 2: Time, why would we do the same.
• 1:56:27
  Speaker 1: Thing for ourselves? But we'll go to John or Ralph
• 1:56:32
  Speaker 1: and work 30 years and they can fire us at
• 1:56:36
  Speaker 1: any given time. but we won't take the time for
• 1:56:41
  Speaker 1: our own self.
• 1:56:43
  Speaker 2: So in other words, have that same energy. You know
• 1:56:47
  Speaker 2: what I'm saying?
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  Speaker 7: But what God has given you to give, because what
• 1:56:50
  Speaker 7: God has given us is not for us to keep.
• 1:56:53
  Speaker 7: It's not for us to keep it, you know, keep
• 1:56:55
  Speaker 7: it a secret. He gave it to us for us to.
• 1:56:56
  Speaker 2: Give it away.
• 1:56:58
  Speaker 7: You know, I remember speaking at my sister's tribute and that's.
• 1:57:01
  Speaker 2: What I told them because they were young adults. And
• 1:57:03
  Speaker 2: I told them, like, matter of fact, I was in
• 1:57:05
  Speaker 2: high school.
• 1:57:06
  Speaker 7: I told them what she put in me what God
• 1:57:09
  Speaker 7: put in her and she was able to put in you,
• 1:57:12
  Speaker 7: don't just hold on to that.
• 1:57:14
  Speaker 2: Give it away. You know what I'm saying?
• 1:57:17
  Speaker 7: Because the more you talk and the more you, you know,
• 1:57:22
  Speaker 7: you get to share, you don't know who life you
• 1:57:26
  Speaker 7: even saved at that point.
• 1:57:29
  Speaker 2: So, you know, everybody, we just want to thank you
• 1:57:33
  Speaker 2: all who was with us tonight. I'm going to.
• 1:57:38
  Speaker 7: I know we have one question, but we got two minutes,
• 1:57:40
  Speaker 7: so we might not be able to answer that. But
• 1:57:43
  Speaker 7: I'm just going to answer it. Yes, I write to heal.
• 1:57:47
  Speaker 7: Somebody wrote, do we write to heal, inspire? I can't
• 1:57:51
  Speaker 7: remember what the other stuff was, but I write to
• 1:57:55
  Speaker 7: heal because I.
• 1:57:57
  Speaker 2: Know what I was going through, if somebody.
• 1:58:01
  Speaker 7: Had came to me with what I was giving away, that.
• 1:58:08
  Speaker 2: Would have helped me. It would have really helped me.
• 1:58:10
  Speaker 7: So I do write so people could, I would say
• 1:58:14
  Speaker 7: not heal, but begin that process.
• 1:58:17
  Speaker 2: Because only God will heal somebody.
• 1:58:19
  Speaker 7: So I would just want that process to make you think,
• 1:58:24
  Speaker 7: to make you, you know, make you think. So like
• 1:58:26
  Speaker 7: Cheryl said, Share your dreams.
• 1:58:29
  Speaker 2: Continue to dream. Don't let your diagnosis.
• 1:58:32
  Speaker 7: Or anything predict what your future could be.
• 1:58:36
  Speaker 2: Only God can do that. So, we are out.
• 1:58:41
  Speaker 7: Next show is going to be in, I believe, November.
• 1:58:44
  Speaker 7: I think it's November 2026. It'll be the last time
• 1:58:49
  Speaker 7: that you'll see me on this particular platform.
• 1:58:52
  Speaker 2: Well, watch out because you might see me on nothing.
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  Speaker 1: We love you all.
• 1:58:59
  Speaker 2: You all have a blessed night. And thank you all
• 1:59:02
  Speaker 2: for challenging me.
• 1:59:04
  Speaker 1: Thank you. Thank you.
• 1:59:07
  Speaker 2: Thank you. Thank you, Cheryl.
• 1:59:08
  Speaker 1: I love you.
• 1:59:09
  Speaker 2: Thank you, Queen. Cheryl, come on here with me. It's
• 1:59:12
  Speaker 2: like we just got here. And she just, she just
• 1:59:16
  Speaker 2: cleaned my nerves. Thank you everybody again. We love you all.
• 1:59:18
  Speaker 2: We're still standing.
• 1:59:20
  Speaker 1: Still rising.
• 1:59:21
  Speaker 2: Still giving God a praise. Learning our stories. Walking through
• 1:59:27
  Speaker 2: brighter days.
• 1:59:28
  Speaker 1: Heart and soul.
• 1:59:30
  Speaker 5: We let the truth come true. Diplomatic life.
• 1:59:45
  Speaker 2: Hear the music.
• 1:59:46
  Speaker 1: Hear the music. Yes. Oh, that's it.
• 1:59:51
  Speaker 2: That's it. Yes.
• 2:00:00
  Speaker 1: Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. You all have a
• 2:00:04
  Speaker 1: beautiful night.
• 2:00:05
  Speaker 2: Thank you, mommy, for coming on. Thank you, my sister's family.
• 2:00:09
  Speaker 2: A lot of my family's out here. Thank you.
• 2:00:10
  Speaker 1: Thank you. Thank you, everybody. Thank you.
• 2:00:15
  Speaker 2: Alright, you have a good night. You too.