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Episode #223: Finding Your Voice · Tea Time w/Amie & Bev

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  Speaker 1: Hey, everybody, welcome to tea time with Amy and Bev.
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  Speaker 1: What's happening girl?
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  Speaker 2: You know there's always stuff happening, seriously all the time.
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  Speaker 1: We just are keeping where. Bev and I have plans
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  Speaker 1: coming up that we are not going to be available
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  Speaker 1: to do videos together. She's got an amazing trip coming up.
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  Speaker 1: I have a trip coming up, So timing for us
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  Speaker 1: is not going to be in alignment over the next
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  Speaker 1: couple of weeks. So we are doing a few short
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  Speaker 1: videos pre recorded we do. We pre record and then
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  Speaker 1: post them out there. So if you watched another video,
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  Speaker 1: we're wearing the same exact thing. It's because we are
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  Speaker 1: all right, same day, different videos because we have to
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  Speaker 1: work around our schedules, which is actually a lot of
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  Speaker 1: fun because I'm excited to be able to come back
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  Speaker 1: together and have conversations about what we've experienced in what
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  Speaker 1: we have coming up. So I would like to talk
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  Speaker 1: about using your voice and confidence because this is something
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  Speaker 1: that Shah has showed up a couple times this week,
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  Speaker 1: and one scenario has been kind of in my brain
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  Speaker 1: every day since it's happened. But another one the fact
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  Speaker 1: that I just I used my voice, which is huge
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  Speaker 1: for me, especially in the dynamics and with the people
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  Speaker 1: I did it with, So you know, you get that
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  Speaker 1: little oh my god, did I just say that, and
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  Speaker 1: that nervousness of oh my god, how are they going
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  Speaker 1: to react type of thing, but then also realizing I'll
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  Speaker 1: give fuck, Like I'm just kind of at that point
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  Speaker 1: that all these people use their voice in ways that
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  Speaker 1: they want to be voic sterous, and they want to
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  Speaker 1: make their point by raising their voice or being very.
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  Speaker 2: It's all controlling and manipulative relative yeah.
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  Speaker 1: Aggressive in the way they say it. Yeah, and me
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  Speaker 1: being able in those situations to use my voice and
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  Speaker 1: say this isn't okay because just for understanding of the audience,
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  Speaker 1: in my history, lack of self confidence, lack of self esteem,
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  Speaker 1: not using my voice which created other issues in my
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  Speaker 1: life and being people's doormats and all the things which
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  Speaker 1: none of it was okay, but it was something I'm
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  Speaker 1: going to say because I believe in things happen for
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  Speaker 1: a reason, that I went through those lessons of life
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  Speaker 1: so I could be where I am today, and at
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  Speaker 1: my age of fifty four, to be able to use
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  Speaker 1: my voice and not give a fuck is like huge,
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  Speaker 1: like so huge, so how do you feel about that?
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  Speaker 1: How does that show up for you? And then I
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  Speaker 1: can share stories if we have the time.
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  Speaker 2: So I'm in the same space. I'm in the same
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  Speaker 2: space that you are. And I'm sitting here thinking we're
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  Speaker 2: fifth we're both fifty four, and I'm thinking fifty four
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  Speaker 2: or nine. You know, we're at completions of things. We're
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  Speaker 2: at finale, you know, finalities, and it's we're it's a
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  Speaker 2: different space to be in this place where we're at
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  Speaker 2: right now. I feel like and I don't think, I
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  Speaker 2: don't know that it's so much an age thing beyond
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  Speaker 2: a number thing. Do you know what I mean when
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  Speaker 2: we talk about numerology and stuff and it's looking at
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  Speaker 2: the number nine and stuff and what does that mean.
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  Speaker 2: Jim passed away when he was fifty four, so that
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  Speaker 2: was the that was he was like, Piecel, I'll see
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  Speaker 2: see you guys, like beb, you got this. You're gonna
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  Speaker 2: go through a lot of stuff right now, and you're
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  Speaker 2: gonna grow and it's you're gonna evolve from the space.
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  Speaker 2: So I fifty four is kind of sat with me
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  Speaker 2: kind of kind of quite a bit actually this year.
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  Speaker 2: So it's really I am gaining more confidence. It's and
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  Speaker 2: it's confidence outside with people, but it's confidence within selves
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  Speaker 2: because even still, let's say when when I first started group,
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  Speaker 2: I would I would leave there feeling like shit because
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  Speaker 2: I'm like, fuck, I shouldn't said that, and I shouldn't
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  Speaker 2: said that, and I said the F word, and I
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  Speaker 2: shouldn't have done that. You know, all these should have
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  Speaker 2: could have would is. And it's like I would sit
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  Speaker 2: and beat myself up old patterns, right old that was
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  Speaker 2: the way that I knew, that was my that was
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  Speaker 2: my autopilot. And it's like I've trained myself away from
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  Speaker 2: all that stuff. But in the process of all that,
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  Speaker 2: I'm gaining more confidence that I'm it's okay for us
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  Speaker 2: to stand up for ourselves. And it's like, you don't
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  Speaker 2: realize it's okay because you we It kind of sucks,
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  Speaker 2: but when we're children, we're not given the choice. A
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  Speaker 2: lot of times, most kids are not given the choice
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  Speaker 2: to have it, to be able to make a decision,
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  Speaker 2: to have a choice, because they're being told what they've
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  Speaker 2: got to do in this moment. Well, you've got to
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  Speaker 2: get ready right now, we're leaving. Right now, I'm leaving.
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  Speaker 2: I'll see you later. I'm just going to leave you here.
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  Speaker 2: You know, there's all these things, and that's and that
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  Speaker 2: goes to the part of the conversation you're talking about.
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  Speaker 2: That's manipulation, that's bullying, that's like all these things. But
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  Speaker 2: we don't realize we're doing a lot of these things
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  Speaker 2: because we were trained by people we have to. They
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  Speaker 2: gave us these tools. We put them in our toolback,
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  Speaker 2: our bag or box or whatever you have, your toy box,
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  Speaker 2: and it's like we had them all in that space
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  Speaker 2: and that's what we knew until we start exploring more.
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  Speaker 2: And I remember thinking my voice, I'm getting so loud.
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  Speaker 2: I remember thinking that I always I know how to
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  Speaker 2: do this, and it's like, no one could tell me
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  Speaker 2: how to raise my kids or anything. And I can
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  Speaker 2: tell you right now, I wish I had listened a
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  Speaker 2: little bit more, not just to the people, but to
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  Speaker 2: the kids. I wish I would have listened through this
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  Speaker 2: vessel which we talked about in the last video. It's
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  Speaker 2: listening through the through all of us, not just the
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  Speaker 2: ears or the eyes or anything. It's just listening through everything.
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  Speaker 2: When someone says something and like I, and you know this,
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  Speaker 2: I used to always have I have I would have
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  Speaker 2: to sit and think about OOO, she said something, and
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  Speaker 2: I gotta have I got a response right now. I
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  Speaker 2: gotta answer. I gotta say something.
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  Speaker 1: And I'm not that.
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  Speaker 2: I'm not in that space anymore. And the more that
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  Speaker 2: I'm not, the more that you hear, the more that
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  Speaker 2: you feel. I don't have to do massage to pick
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  Speaker 2: up information from somebody, but massage was one way for
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  Speaker 2: me to slow down enough so I could receive the information.
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  Speaker 2: So I would shut up and listen, and then he
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  Speaker 2: received the information. And now I'm learning to do that
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  Speaker 2: even more without doing all that, you know, the beating
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  Speaker 2: up with myself, having that confidence to stand in my
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  Speaker 2: power into kind of flex those muscles. You talked about
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  Speaker 2: in the last video about gifts, and we do use
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  Speaker 2: gifts a lot, but it's like it's not something that's
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  Speaker 2: outside of us. It's something that's withinside of us. We
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  Speaker 2: have have it all the time. And then what came
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  Speaker 2: into my mind is a library. We've got this huge
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  Speaker 2: library withinside of us, and each book has information that
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  Speaker 2: we already have withinside of us. We can call them gifts,
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  Speaker 2: we can call them whenever we want to, but it's
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  Speaker 2: something we already have, and it's like, do you want
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  Speaker 2: to read this book? Do you want to grab the
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  Speaker 2: workbook and learn some more information about this, because, like
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  Speaker 2: you said, we all have these abilities, every single person.
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  Speaker 2: There is nothing that's different from all us. We all
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  Speaker 2: have these capabilities. Some decided they were going to come
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  Speaker 2: in with the information already there, which didn't always make
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  Speaker 2: their life journey easier, and so now we have the
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  Speaker 2: opportunity to take an easier path on it, really because
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  Speaker 2: we've had the experience of life here on planet Earth,
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  Speaker 2: and now we have the experience of inn Oh, I'm
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  Speaker 2: going to grab this book in this book and this
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  Speaker 2: book and start reading them. And the thing is we
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  Speaker 2: don't even have to read them. Just by acknowledging that
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  Speaker 2: we've grabbed that book that intention, we're already opening that
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  Speaker 2: up within the sight of us like a flower, Like
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  Speaker 2: all these amazing things are happening for us all the time.
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  Speaker 2: All it has to do is be curious, have a curiosity.
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  Speaker 2: I had to grab the Confidence Book and I will
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  Speaker 2: probably have to look at that a couple of different
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  Speaker 2: times because it's just a it's a different filling universe, right,
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  Speaker 2: It's not the same thing that I grew up with
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  Speaker 2: because I didn't have confidence. Oh my god, I've never
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  Speaker 2: had confidence. I haven't. I'm I'm fifty four years old
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  Speaker 2: and I'm gaining confidence only now.
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  Speaker 1: Thank you bad welcome to the group.
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  Speaker 2: It's true.
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  Speaker 1: In learning confidence, and I remember this because I mean,
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  Speaker 1: in my history, with all the anger I had and everything, man,
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  Speaker 1: I was bitchy, like I was a bitch seriously, and
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  Speaker 1: I didn't say things very nicely. So in learning to
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  Speaker 1: navigate confidence, of course, that was all a mask, right,
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  Speaker 1: You're no, it wasn't a confidence mask. It was this
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  Speaker 1: is my survival mask. Yes, very very different. When I
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  Speaker 1: was learning to use my voice, it wasn't so good
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  Speaker 1: about expressing myself because it was something new. Again, It's
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  Speaker 1: just another muscle we gotta utilize, we gotta practice, we
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  Speaker 1: gotta recognize. You know, what I said it this way,
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  Speaker 1: it still came out harshly and bitchy, and it didn't
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  Speaker 1: mean to for it to come across that way. But
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  Speaker 1: I'm learning. I mean, I had to give myself some
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  Speaker 1: ease and grace so many times after a conversation and
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  Speaker 1: the same thing that should have could have would it, Man,
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  Speaker 1: I shouldn't have said it that way. Man boy was
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  Speaker 1: that I can't even imagine what my face.
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  Speaker 2: Looked like that. Oh God, we won't even go there, Jesus.
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  Speaker 1: So and even in this past week, there was a
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  Speaker 1: couple of situations where where one, when I think about it,
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  Speaker 1: what I said was legitimately uh oh. From my perspective,
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  Speaker 1: it was okay to say. However, the body language, which
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  Speaker 1: was my face kind of put on more of that
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  Speaker 1: bitchy tone to it.
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  Speaker 2: I'll say stassy if.
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  Speaker 1: That makes sense, right, Yeah, So I'm thinking, okay, we
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  Speaker 1: need to be aware of our facial expressions what we're
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  Speaker 1: saying things, because yeah, I can be like and you know,
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  Speaker 1: I mean that type of body language, you're just like bitch,
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  Speaker 1: back off, right, So just recognizing I'm still practicing, there's
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  Speaker 1: still and it I notice too depends on the person
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  Speaker 1: I'm talking to, because I still am navigating learning to
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  Speaker 1: be in my confidence around people who I'm going to
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  Speaker 1: use the words like above me meaning more educated, they
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  Speaker 1: very confident, they know how to stand in their power,
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  Speaker 1: and I am still learning to navigate that. So feeling
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  Speaker 1: like I need to put on that mask that I
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  Speaker 1: am used to from my programming, from my past, so
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  Speaker 1: that to come across in a way that they understand
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  Speaker 1: you're not gonna fuck with me, but it's not in
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  Speaker 1: a graceful manner, if that makes sense. I'm trying to
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  Speaker 1: explain that so people understand the difference.
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  Speaker 2: It makes perfect sense.
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  Speaker 1: To be so. So yeah, so it's been interesting. And
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  Speaker 1: then just last night something happened and I we were
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  Speaker 1: in an environment where it was supposed to be a
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  Speaker 1: fun and playful environment and two people were having a
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  Speaker 1: conversation that was about something else and not a conversation
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  Speaker 1: to be having in the mix of the people that
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  Speaker 1: were present. And they kept talking and I said, this
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  Speaker 1: is not a place for this conversation. You need to
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  Speaker 1: take it out of this room. And they both looked
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  Speaker 1: at me, and I looked at them, and they start talking.
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  Speaker 1: I said, this is not the place for this conversation,
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  Speaker 1: and then they stopped. I mean I was I was
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  Speaker 1: like standing in you need to go somewhere else, You
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  Speaker 1: need to fucking leave. Like I didn't say it that way,
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  Speaker 1: but I was bringing that message across it stop right
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  Speaker 1: now type of thing, And that might come across controlling,
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  Speaker 1: but for the environment that we were in and for
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  Speaker 1: something that we've been building up for past like four months.
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  Speaker 1: Don't bring that energy in this room with that, you know.
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  Speaker 1: I was just like no, So I felt very good
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  Speaker 1: about that. Good even the people that I was talking
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  Speaker 1: to because they are of status with positions with my employment,
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  Speaker 1: they are in status with their positions in the public,
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  Speaker 1: and I'm like, this is.
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  Speaker 2: Not acceptable.
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  Speaker 1: And they knew it, and I'm okay with it because
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  Speaker 1: I felt it in my body spirit, even spirits like
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  Speaker 1: you need to stop this now. It wasn't me trying
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  Speaker 1: to control that. It was me saying not here, not now.
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  Speaker 1: If you need to do it, you need to go yeah, so.
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  Speaker 2: Nice and so then it's twice saw it should be
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  Speaker 2: proud of yourself. Honestly, that's that's something to be proud of.
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  Speaker 2: It really is. It's evolution right there, It really is.
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  Speaker 2: And to be able to not only say it one time,
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  Speaker 2: but to say it again the second time, because what
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  Speaker 2: happens to us when we don't have that confidence and
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  Speaker 2: the first time we say it because we know that
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  Speaker 2: that's what we're supposed to say, but we don't have
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  Speaker 2: that energy to back it up, or we're a little
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  Speaker 2: shaky or whatever. Do you have the confidence to speak
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  Speaker 2: up again? And more firm to let them know this
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  Speaker 2: is this is not the place, like it's this is
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  Speaker 2: not the place. And sometimes, hey, we've all been there.
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  Speaker 2: We've gotten caught in the heat of the moment and
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  Speaker 2: got wrapped up and stuff. But it's like it's recognizing
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  Speaker 2: that this is an opportunity for us to go ahead
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  Speaker 2: and stop us right now, or hey, we should go
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  Speaker 2: talk about this outside or not outside, like to go
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  Speaker 2: box each other, but go talk about it in a
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  Speaker 2: different environment, better way to stay. Because that's growth. That's
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  Speaker 2: not something that would have happened before, because maybe before
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  Speaker 2: you'd be like, listen here, motherfuckers, it's time for you, you
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  Speaker 2: guys to get out. You guys are throwing up a
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  Speaker 2: bunch of shit and it's not our shit. You know,
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  Speaker 2: it could have came across so different and it didn't
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  Speaker 2: be because it didn't have to.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah, well, and then that brings that could bring my
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  Speaker 1: energy down, and all of it affects the environment, all
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  Speaker 1: of it affects the people who are showing up to
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  Speaker 1: have a good time. And then if they feel that energy,
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  Speaker 1: it's not even hearing the conversation, even though I know
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  Speaker 1: that some of the people heard the conversation that the
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  Speaker 1: energy that was being brought into this room by two
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  Speaker 1: people and then me contributing to it. From my standpoint,
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  Speaker 1: the energy shifts. And when the energy shifts, the people
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  Speaker 1: that start coming in Now I'm talking like forty people
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  Speaker 1: are in this room or starting come in. You can
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  Speaker 1: tell like some people coming in with kind of a
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  Speaker 1: gruff look, some people kind of being knit, you know.
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  Speaker 1: And I'm I'm like, this got change. This energy has
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  Speaker 1: got to change. It has got to change right now.
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  Speaker 2: And it changes from you because you change it.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah.
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  Speaker 2: So that's what I'm here for. Anybody else ouse that
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  Speaker 2: is listening. It starts from right here, from you. All
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  Speaker 2: of it starts from you. Yeah, because otherwise I could
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  Speaker 2: have turned into a freaking mob mentality really yeah.
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  Speaker 1: And you know, and when you're when you're coming into
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  Speaker 1: an environment to have a good time on a Friday
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  Speaker 1: night to relax, enjoy yourself, be with your friends or
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  Speaker 1: your family, and then you come into a room and
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  Speaker 1: this conversation is happening or you feel this energy. It's
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  Speaker 1: the energy. The's huge. People feel that energy when they
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  Speaker 1: come into a room and they might be up here
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  Speaker 1: and that it will or could not will, but it
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  Speaker 1: could if they allow it, bring them down into not
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  Speaker 1: feel good energy and then sit there for the next
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  Speaker 1: three three and a half hours we know, oh it's
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  Speaker 1: not okay.
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  Speaker 2: And the interesting thing is, too, is just what if
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  Speaker 2: you were sitting back, anybody that was a witness to
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  Speaker 2: all this, to sit back and just kind of watch,
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  Speaker 2: Like you said, some people were coming in with this energy.
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  Speaker 2: Some people were coming in this energy, and they were
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  Speaker 2: going to come in and where they're at and they're
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  Speaker 2: gonna meet whoever else is in there with that energy.
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  Speaker 2: So it's up to it's up to each individual to
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  Speaker 2: be like, I'm gonna stay in the space and it's
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  Speaker 2: going to go higher. I'm raising I'm calling on the angels,
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  Speaker 2: like whatever you've got to do to raise that frequency,
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  Speaker 2: because we can do. That's how powerful we are. And
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  Speaker 2: it only takes one person, right, it's you. It only
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  Speaker 2: took It only takes one person to have an effect
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  Speaker 2: on everybody and that or or two people that with
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  Speaker 2: that energy of a class that now you have flashing
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  Speaker 2: personalities and attitudes and stuff, because now whatever they've experienced
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  Speaker 2: in their daytime is now matching the energy but they
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  Speaker 2: came into and it doesn't have to be that way,
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  Speaker 2: because it when you're the when you're watching everybody, you
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  Speaker 2: can recognize everything, and then you can recognize the shift,
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  Speaker 2: and the shift can go either way. Right, the ship
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  Speaker 2: can feel good or it cannot feel good. I prefer
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  Speaker 2: the feel good. Let's go for the feel good. Sometimes
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  Speaker 2: we're not to not feel good and we want to
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  Speaker 2: stay there for a little bit, and so you kind
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  Speaker 2: of want to bring, you know, bring more to the party.
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  Speaker 2: So yeah, it's just a where it's just we've been
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  Speaker 2: really talking about awareness. Really you're really paying attention to yourself,
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  Speaker 2: and then we're giving you guys a bunch of tools
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  Speaker 2: to kind of look at things using this vessel, using
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  Speaker 2: your whole being as a navigational tools throughout all of this, honestly,
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  Speaker 2: because it's where you're giving out valuable information for them
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  Speaker 2: to process because we've all been in those experiences, whether
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  Speaker 2: it's a small group, whether it's a family just walked
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  Speaker 2: into the room with or whatever. You always know.
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  Speaker 1: And I felt like it was and I just remembered
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  Speaker 1: this because I thought about it after I had said
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  Speaker 1: that and I walked away. I felt like that, like
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  Speaker 1: that mother, hen like these are my people and I'm
• 18:58
  Speaker 1: protecting them and you need to shut the f up
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  Speaker 1: and get out right. It was like, I have this
• 19:04
  Speaker 1: room full of people and I'm going like pull my
• 19:06
  Speaker 1: feathers out and protect them and and and let you know,
• 19:10
  Speaker 1: this isn't okay to be this way in this room.
• 19:14
  Speaker 1: And I remember that because I kind of felt that
• 19:16
  Speaker 1: way in the middle of the conversation, like I my
• 19:22
  Speaker 1: energy and I am responsible for all these people, even
• 19:26
  Speaker 1: though I know that's not true on another level, but
• 19:29
  Speaker 1: that protecting the energy of that room, which felt good, like, hey,
• 19:38
  Speaker 1: these people to feel you get out. We don't.
• 19:44
  Speaker 2: And it's not it had nothing to do with the people,
• 19:46
  Speaker 2: like you said, It had to do with the energy.
• 19:47
  Speaker 2: You just had to do with the energy. We did
• 19:48
  Speaker 2: just didn't want that energy in that space. And that's
• 19:52
  Speaker 2: all so awesome.
• 19:56
  Speaker 1: So I mean then, and you can we're talking about this.
• 20:01
  Speaker 1: It's just similar. You could walk into a room where
• 20:07
  Speaker 1: there are people in the room and nobody's talking each other,
• 20:10
  Speaker 1: but man, can you feel that heaviness so you know
• 20:13
  Speaker 1: that there was some kind of confrontation, argument, harsh words,
• 20:20
  Speaker 1: or just people just being mad at each other, not
• 20:23
  Speaker 1: even talking, but just being mad at each other. That's
• 20:25
  Speaker 1: why they say, you know, you can cut the air
• 20:27
  Speaker 1: with a knife, like you could just feel that tension.
• 20:30
  Speaker 1: That's what That's what I was tempting to avoid for
• 20:36
  Speaker 1: this room of people so that they weren't feeling that
• 20:39
  Speaker 1: and to shift that as quickly as possible. So nice, crazy, awesome,
• 20:48
  Speaker 1: But the whole idea, you know, it is coming back
• 20:50
  Speaker 1: around to listen. If you're learning to use your voice,
• 20:55
  Speaker 1: just keep practicing. It's gonna be messy, it's gonna be
• 21:00
  Speaker 1: comical sometimes, or sometimes that I've walked away from things,
• 21:03
  Speaker 1: I'm like just shake my head at myself and laugh
• 21:06
  Speaker 1: at myself, just like I can't believe you just did that.
• 21:12
  Speaker 2: Just a bunch of opportunities and we always have, Yeah, yeah,
• 21:17
  Speaker 2: they're always going to be around, just seeing where you're at,
• 21:19
  Speaker 2: and you know where you're at by how you feel.
• 21:23
  Speaker 1: And then you could, you know, you could have the
• 21:25
  Speaker 1: opportunity to practice, Like with BEB and I. You might
• 21:28
  Speaker 1: see us out and buy, you might say something. We
• 21:30
  Speaker 1: might be in a similar or same conversation. You say
• 21:33
  Speaker 1: something where people like us would kind of understand you're
• 21:39
  Speaker 1: not even really knowing anything about you actually, but we
• 21:42
  Speaker 1: would understand because we're listening to our intuition, and we
• 21:46
  Speaker 1: know enough about ourselves that when other people are expressing
• 21:50
  Speaker 1: themselves in certain ways, like we can just take a
• 21:53
  Speaker 1: breath and go. First of all, I've been there, right,
• 21:56
  Speaker 1: I've been there where you're at. I've had that attitude,
• 21:58
  Speaker 1: I've had those words, I've had those I've had those
• 22:00
  Speaker 1: I get where you're coming from. But for me to
• 22:04
  Speaker 1: understand you a little better, it's up to me to
• 22:07
  Speaker 1: ask you questions instead of getting defensive right away. It's
• 22:12
  Speaker 1: a let me understand this a little more so that
• 22:16
  Speaker 1: I'm not getting drawn into your energy and matching you,
• 22:20
  Speaker 1: which is my responsibility. My energy is my responsibility, and
• 22:24
  Speaker 1: so it would be up to me to say, Okay,
• 22:27
  Speaker 1: hold on, let me just take a breath here before
• 22:30
  Speaker 1: I suck into your level of energy and ask the
• 22:34
  Speaker 1: questions like, let me understand this a little better, right.
• 22:40
  Speaker 1: And so I feel like Bev and I are more
• 22:43
  Speaker 1: in that space because we understand ourselves more. And that's
• 22:48
  Speaker 1: just me and I'm saying this because this is where
• 22:51
  Speaker 1: a lot of misunderstandings come from, is because we don't
• 22:54
  Speaker 1: understand ourselves. We're not taking the time to get to
• 22:57
  Speaker 1: know ourselves. We're not taking the time to hear. We're
• 23:00
  Speaker 1: not taking the time to practice confidence and learn to
• 23:04
  Speaker 1: use our voice. We stay stuck in our victim mentality,
• 23:08
  Speaker 1: and then we step into conversations with other people and
• 23:11
  Speaker 1: because they're showing up in the same way and you're
• 23:14
  Speaker 1: showing up in your way, and then it just creates
• 23:17
  Speaker 1: more confrontation and arguments and all the things, because nobody's
• 23:20
  Speaker 1: taking the time, first of all, to understand themselves and
• 23:23
  Speaker 1: second to understand each other. We just dive in and
• 23:27
  Speaker 1: defensive and got to argue our points and then things escalate.
• 23:32
  Speaker 1: And and if it really comes down to understanding yourself
• 23:37
  Speaker 1: and how you're showing up in the world.
• 23:39
  Speaker 2: Yeah, because if you catch yourself being defensive, then you
• 23:43
  Speaker 2: understand that you're probably interpreting everything from a defensive standpoint,
• 23:47
  Speaker 2: so you're not processing any of this stuff. And that's
• 23:50
  Speaker 2: what I have done. I had done forever, honestly, for
• 23:53
  Speaker 2: as far as I can remember, probably since I was
• 23:56
  Speaker 2: a little kid, so it's all. It was probably always there.
• 23:59
  Speaker 2: But then recognizing it's like I've been talking to that
• 24:03
  Speaker 2: defensiveness that we're talking about. I've been talking to God
• 24:06
  Speaker 2: and you know, whatever I feel like talk whatever word
• 24:10
  Speaker 2: I use at the time that I'm communicating that I
• 24:13
  Speaker 2: don't like the way that I'm feeling. I don't want
• 24:14
  Speaker 2: to feel like this anymore. And I like, how do
• 24:16
  Speaker 2: I move beyond this? How do I purge this? How
• 24:19
  Speaker 2: do I love this? How do I whatever comes to you?
• 24:22
  Speaker 2: And it's like, really, you don't know what's going to
• 24:24
  Speaker 2: come to you. It's like another thing that I can
• 24:27
  Speaker 2: grab a hold of. Right then, is too is every
• 24:29
  Speaker 2: time we second guess ourselves, we catch ourselves asking questions
• 24:32
  Speaker 2: and then we start getting confused a lot more.
• 24:35
  Speaker 1: I do that.
• 24:35
  Speaker 2: I've done that withinside too. So if I'm doing that
• 24:38
  Speaker 2: constantly that I know that I'm not I don't know myself.
• 24:41
  Speaker 2: I'm not familiar with myself. I have no idea why
• 24:43
  Speaker 2: I'm interpreting these things the way that I'm interpreting them.
• 24:46
  Speaker 2: Why do I feel these ways? You know all these things,
• 24:48
  Speaker 2: and you're not gonna know until you start, until you
• 24:51
  Speaker 2: start getting to know yourself. And you had said that
• 24:53
  Speaker 2: a long time ago, and it kind of it kind
• 24:55
  Speaker 2: of awakened something in me like, oh yeah, I want
• 24:58
  Speaker 2: I'd like to get to know myself. It maybe didn't
• 25:00
  Speaker 2: go down exactly like that, but it was around you
• 25:03
  Speaker 2: know it. It created a wanting within sight of me
• 25:05
  Speaker 2: that I didn't know that I ever had a desire for.
• 25:08
  Speaker 2: And then as you start to do this, you start
• 25:11
  Speaker 2: recognizing you used to always say nuggets, all these nuggets
• 25:14
  Speaker 2: that kind of come forward, and it's like, how you
• 25:16
  Speaker 2: set yourself so free from all this stuff. Right now,
• 25:19
  Speaker 2: I don't know what's going on, but I'm getting like
• 25:21
  Speaker 2: a weird it's a sensation on this side. It's almost
• 25:25
  Speaker 2: like a it's almost like as if I was getting
• 25:28
  Speaker 2: goosebumps inside my brain or something. I don't know, there's
• 25:30
  Speaker 2: something going on, So I'm just telling you, let's go
• 25:32
  Speaker 2: what's happening right now. But it's fascinating when we start
• 25:35
  Speaker 2: paying attention to all this stuff, and see what I
• 25:38
  Speaker 2: just pointed out just now is not something I would
• 25:40
  Speaker 2: have recognized before because I didn't allow myself to even
• 25:44
  Speaker 2: pay attention to myself. I didn't allow myself to recognize myself.
• 25:47
  Speaker 2: I didn't allow myself to listen to the words that
• 25:50
  Speaker 2: I say that are coming out of my mouth. It's
• 25:51
  Speaker 2: not for someone else to hear, it's for me to
• 25:53
  Speaker 2: hear what am I saying? How am I saying, am
• 25:56
  Speaker 2: I saying from a space of love? Well back then,
• 25:59
  Speaker 2: I and I've set it from a space love because
• 26:01
  Speaker 2: I didn't know what love felt like, because I didn't
• 26:03
  Speaker 2: love myself. And I am loving myself more and more
• 26:06
  Speaker 2: every day. I am not perfect in that at all,
• 26:08
  Speaker 2: by any stretch of the means, because every once in
• 26:10
  Speaker 2: a while I get caught up in the body. But
• 26:13
  Speaker 2: you know, it's it is. I'm also fascinated where I've
• 26:17
  Speaker 2: gotten to as far as my the goals that I've
• 26:21
  Speaker 2: always had, always my life revolved around the gym. It
• 26:23
  Speaker 2: does not revolve around the gym anymore. I think I've
• 26:25
  Speaker 2: seen the gym like a couple times in the last
• 26:27
  Speaker 2: few months, just saying, but this is refreshing. And we're
• 26:31
  Speaker 2: talking about since two thousand, probably since two thousand or
• 26:34
  Speaker 2: nineteen ninety nine, that's how long I've been doing it.
• 26:37
  Speaker 2: And so for me to step beside, it's like it's
• 26:39
  Speaker 2: I'm letting go of the old stuff that was holding
• 26:42
  Speaker 2: that I was holding onto and keeping me in a
• 26:44
  Speaker 2: space to get to this point right now. Does it
• 26:47
  Speaker 2: mean I'm not ever going to work out again?
• 26:48
  Speaker 1: Now?
• 26:48
  Speaker 2: It doesn't mean that. It means that I'm shedding all
• 26:51
  Speaker 2: the other stuff because I was using it all for
• 26:53
  Speaker 2: different reasons and I don't need it for those reasons anymore.
• 26:56
  Speaker 2: So now it's like I'm just doing things. My working
• 27:00
  Speaker 2: out or my stuff might be running. I'm playing tag
• 27:02
  Speaker 2: with the kids, and I have to be kind of sharp,
• 27:04
  Speaker 2: but I have to be able to move pretty quick
• 27:06
  Speaker 2: because my grandson, my oldest grandson, is pretty fast, like
• 27:10
  Speaker 2: he's fast, so I have to put I have to
• 27:12
  Speaker 2: turn it up just to get away from him, which
• 27:14
  Speaker 2: is an awesome thing. And and I've been feeling better
• 27:16
  Speaker 2: and better. So it's like, there's do kids go and
• 27:20
  Speaker 2: work out? No, they don't not typically they run around constantly.
• 27:23
  Speaker 2: They're doing things all the time. And it goes back
• 27:25
  Speaker 2: to being crawling around on the floor and all that stuff.
• 27:27
  Speaker 2: You're building up all these muscles that's stimulating your your
• 27:31
  Speaker 2: your bowels, your intestines, your your core, your everything. You're
• 27:37
  Speaker 2: using everything from a different perspective, and it's like we're
• 27:39
  Speaker 2: talking about all this stuff in the last video. I
• 27:41
  Speaker 2: don't think. I think after I got off the phone,
• 27:43
  Speaker 2: I'm i mean off the line, I'm going to probably
• 27:45
  Speaker 2: crawl around or for a while. Why not, you know,
• 27:48
  Speaker 2: what I mean, it's like, it's why not. But we're
• 27:52
  Speaker 2: all growing and learning, and that's paying attention to everybody.
• 27:54
  Speaker 2: We're how we're evolving, and it's like it's awesome because
• 27:57
  Speaker 2: we know we've we've gone through a lot of stuff,
• 28:00
  Speaker 2: so we can look back and love someone anyways because
• 28:02
  Speaker 2: they're going through stuff right now and it's okay. It's okay,
• 28:06
  Speaker 2: and we still get wrapped up in it sometimes, but
• 28:08
  Speaker 2: not like before because we've when you're paying attention, when
• 28:13
  Speaker 2: you have awareness, you're paying attention to how you feel,
• 28:14
  Speaker 2: and it's like you just don't kind of hang out
• 28:16
  Speaker 2: in those areas very long because it's almost like I
• 28:19
  Speaker 2: would use the hot stove analogy. Right as soon as
• 28:22
  Speaker 2: you get closer, you start feeling the heat and you're like,
• 28:25
  Speaker 2: I don't really like it like that unless you're cold.
• 28:27
  Speaker 2: You want to get a little bit closer more than
• 28:28
  Speaker 2: those hands up. But usually it's like, no, that doesn't
• 28:32
  Speaker 2: feel good, and we're more aware of that than we
• 28:34
  Speaker 2: would have been before.
• 28:36
  Speaker 1: Yeah, that's awesome. We've covered a lot of stuff in
• 28:41
  Speaker 1: this video, even though it's a short one, and so
• 28:43
  Speaker 1: I'd recommend that you go back and listen and just
• 28:47
  Speaker 1: know we always every day have plenty of opportunity to
• 28:51
  Speaker 1: practice a lot of this stuff. Okay, all of this stuff.
• 28:57
  Speaker 2: Every day, every single day.
• 29:00
  Speaker 1: So just ease and grace. I like to use those
• 29:03
  Speaker 1: words because we do need to have ease and grace
• 29:06
  Speaker 1: for ourselves as we're learning something new, learning to stand
• 29:09
  Speaker 1: in our power, have our confidence, use our voice, listen
• 29:12
  Speaker 1: to our intuition, listen to our navigation system. It takes practice,
• 29:18
  Speaker 1: and the more you practice, the better you get. And
• 29:20
  Speaker 1: so here I am, you know, thirty years later into
• 29:23
  Speaker 1: my twenty year sorry, twenty years later into my healing
• 29:29
  Speaker 1: process and reprogramming process, and still practicing and still you know,
• 29:37
  Speaker 1: tripping and falling sometimes, and it's okay, it's okay. As
• 29:42
  Speaker 1: long as I'm okay with that within myself, it's okay.
• 29:47
  Speaker 1: So keep practicing. That's what I encourage you to do.
• 29:50
  Speaker 1: Keep practicing and have these conversations with other people. Plant
• 29:55
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• 30:48
  Speaker 1: So any final words, misbev.
• 30:51
  Speaker 2: Second guessing yourself hold you in a stuck place. So
• 30:56
  Speaker 2: start embracing and knowing that you're making the right decisions
• 30:59
  Speaker 2: in every moment. And if it wasn't the right decision,
• 31:03
  Speaker 2: it was a navigational decision. It was a decision that
• 31:06
  Speaker 2: you helped to learn more about yourself and more about
• 31:10
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  Speaker 1: Nice. I love it all right, my friends, Thank you
• 31:16
  Speaker 1: so much for hanging out with us. Tea time with
• 31:18
  Speaker 1: Amy and Bed and we'll see you next time. Bye.