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The Journey of a Healed Wife | FT SunRay | EP109 · Jess Ask

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  Speaker 1: Yo, it's your girl, Jessica and Smith, and you already
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  Speaker 1: know that you've entered the safe space for influencers to decompress,
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  Speaker 1: have fun and just ask God for another do you
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  Speaker 1: already know what it is? And then you know it's
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  Speaker 1: about to get real. To be sure to show.
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  Speaker 2: Your girl the love and like coming subscribe God.
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  Speaker 3: For another day. Hey, hey, I know we could be
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  Speaker 3: another way.
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  Speaker 2: The lights, camera action, malarina on them. You know how
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  Speaker 2: to do the micarrena. Yeah, but this is one little
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  Speaker 2: You don't look like that, right, all right? Little man?
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  Speaker 2: Ain't yeah? Hill right, baby, you know that you gotta
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  Speaker 2: turn around. You know, I got a little misgan in me. Yes,
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  Speaker 2: So shout out to my Hispanic sisters and brothers. If
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  Speaker 2: you don't know where you've landed, you've landed to save
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  Speaker 2: space where influences and deeper press have fun and just
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  Speaker 2: a girl, just as Smith and I am accompanied by
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  Speaker 2: the lovely does Hey, Hey does does?
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  Speaker 1: Es does?
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  Speaker 2: Doesn't you know I'm in the building, you know, in
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  Speaker 2: the building, But when when I'm not on the screen,
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  Speaker 2: you just can't imagine, you know. We we step into
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  Speaker 2: a different space, We step into the virtual space today.
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  Speaker 2: Let me tell you something. We're not just stepping into
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  Speaker 2: the virtual space. The guests here go take us to
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  Speaker 2: the third heaven. You hear me, listen, and if you
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  Speaker 2: expect me to be asking questions and all stuff like that,
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  Speaker 2: I don't know what's going to happen. So this right
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  Speaker 2: now is your warning. Okay, I obey God. We're having
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  Speaker 2: these guests on at the time, and we have it
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  Speaker 2: on because I just knew when the time came, it
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  Speaker 2: was gonna be what we needed. Okay, but before we
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  Speaker 2: get into the gifts, you already know what time it is?
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  Speaker 2: What time is it? Desirae? Community highlight? Community highlight? My
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  Speaker 2: voice went highlight that kind of like that, and you know,
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  Speaker 2: I mimicked. You know we're we're gonna get some on
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  Speaker 2: the gigg on the community hi like time another jingle?
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  Speaker 2: I know. All right, today's community highlight. If you're on YouTube,
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  Speaker 2: you know you've been you've been commented or whatever. I
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  Speaker 2: literally read every comment that comes through. Okay. I get
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  Speaker 2: excited because I get excited about doing community and so
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  Speaker 2: this community highlight. Her name is Laquita Perry. Laquita Parry
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  Speaker 2: is Laquita Perry seven eight eight six. All right, Yes,
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  Speaker 2: I'm talking to you, Boo. I can hear you in
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  Speaker 2: my Yes, I am talking to you. Listen, Liquita, the
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  Speaker 2: Lord highlighted you for me. You specifically commented on the
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  Speaker 2: let's see on the episode with Tamika, My girl. Tamika
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  Speaker 2: is a learning to love yourself. And I heard the
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  Speaker 2: Lord say when I was reading this, I heard the
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  Speaker 2: Lord says, I'm giving you room to love yourself more
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  Speaker 2: in this season. I want you to know that God
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  Speaker 2: appreciates you, God vows you you, God loves you. Dearly. Oh,
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  Speaker 2: I just feel a sense of my heart. God loves
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  Speaker 2: you so much that He is making room for you
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  Speaker 2: in this season. I'm just getting so happy. I'm so
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  Speaker 2: excited about what is about to be in store for you,
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  Speaker 2: what God is about to reveal to you in this season,
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  Speaker 2: Miss Perry, it shall come to pass. Thank you Holy Spirit.
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  Speaker 2: Miss Perry. It shall come to pass. And the answer
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  Speaker 2: in this season is yes and a man. And so
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  Speaker 2: we encourage you to go forward, continue to give God
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  Speaker 2: your yes every day. This is Yes three sixty five campaign.
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  Speaker 2: We love you here in Liquida.
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  Speaker 4: Pair.
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  Speaker 2: Let's give it up for a liquita, pair of for
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  Speaker 2: being the community I like of the week. I love
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  Speaker 2: doing community highlights. It gets me so excited. I hope
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  Speaker 2: y'all love it. I hope you guys love it does
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  Speaker 2: the way you like it. Yeah, it's just God just
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  Speaker 2: is so intentional about who he wants to highlight at
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  Speaker 2: the time he wants to highlight it because when it's
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  Speaker 2: coming out, she's probably gonna need that encouragement. I just
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  Speaker 2: I just thank God for just proactively encouraging his people.
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  Speaker 2: For sure, you get what I'm saying. But speaking speaking
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  Speaker 2: of encouragement, let me let me have some etiquette. Okay,
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  Speaker 2: there's oil coming up. Oh baby, listen. Let me tell
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  Speaker 2: y'all something. I met this young lady last year, so
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  Speaker 2: we haven't even known each other full year yet, and
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  Speaker 2: the the reckoning that she has provided in my life. Personally,
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  Speaker 2: she's definitely what I consider accountability, especially spiritually. But my
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  Speaker 2: girl praised for me. She has uplifted me, and not
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  Speaker 2: just me, she has uplifted her entire community. Y'all. When
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  Speaker 2: I tell you this, this this lady is the example
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  Speaker 2: of Yes, three sixty five come on, and we can
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  Speaker 2: multiply that by her age. That's the number we would give.
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  Speaker 2: But we ain't got time to pull out the calculator.
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  Speaker 2: She is the lady, the lady, I'm saying, the lady.
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  Speaker 2: But she's my friend for real, my friend here, that's
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  Speaker 2: coming on. Stay, She's really I don't know where God
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  Speaker 2: is going to leave this conversation. I'm I'm desirating. I mean,
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  Speaker 2: I just I told God, I said, I'm not even
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  Speaker 2: gonna play with you like that, because the way our
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  Speaker 2: conversations turned real quick. I just I'm just open. I'm available, right.
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  Speaker 2: And So this woman is the CEO of the Healed Wife. Okay,
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  Speaker 2: she has a community called the Healed Wife. Okay, and listen,
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  Speaker 2: this is a community you want to enjoy. She's an author,
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  Speaker 2: she's an educator. I'm gonna say education because she be
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  Speaker 2: teaching us. Okay, she's been teaching us the word of God.
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  Speaker 2: But most importantly, she's a woman after God's heart. Man,
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  Speaker 2: and I had to have her on this platform. So
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  Speaker 2: I introduced to some and present to others my friend,
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  Speaker 2: my sister, miss Sunray.
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  Speaker 4: You so, girl, can you hear me?
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  Speaker 2: Yeah?
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  Speaker 4: I can, well, I can hear the echo in the
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  Speaker 4: building I'm in, but I don't know, like I can't
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  Speaker 4: hear it through my ear.
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  Speaker 2: It's okay, but I can't. I can hear you. I
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  Speaker 2: can hear the echo too, but it's fine because you
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  Speaker 2: you be in a lot of buildings old not nay
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  Speaker 2: by girl. Tell us how you're doing. Sunray. First of all,
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  Speaker 2: let's go ahead and get this out the way. It's Sunray,
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  Speaker 2: your real name. My about to ask your base question. It's Sunray,
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  Speaker 2: your real name.
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  Speaker 4: Mm hmm.
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  Speaker 2: That's sun Ray. Really gets this question a lot, so
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  Speaker 2: I just wanted to go ahead and get that out
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  Speaker 2: of the way. That's that's legit her name. Some Ray.
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  Speaker 2: Tell the people how you feel and how you're doing,
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  Speaker 2: because you come in here looking like you're finna give
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  Speaker 2: us the word of the Lord. I mean, she's for serious. Okay, listen.
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  Speaker 4: I know because I'm like just you know, usually when
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  Speaker 4: I call it, I'm like super like ha ha. That
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  Speaker 4: is not what God is own with me today. Yeah,
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  Speaker 4: I'm sitting here and I'm like Jesus. But normally I'm
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  Speaker 4: super ha ha ha. But today there is a word
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  Speaker 4: of the Lord, and I just believe that he does
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  Speaker 4: want to speak, and he wants to move and shift
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  Speaker 4: the room, but also he wants to ensure that our
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  Speaker 4: hearts are properly aligned to receive you know what this
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  Speaker 4: season represents, not just for his body as a whole,
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  Speaker 4: but specifically for you just because well and so yes,
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  Speaker 4: that's why I'm just being a little bit more because
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  Speaker 4: it's the Holy Spirit.
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  Speaker 2: Yes, okay, So I'm gonna I'm gonna ask Holy Spirit
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  Speaker 2: permission before we get I know how the prophetic operates,
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  Speaker 2: and so I'm gonna release you. And this is not
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  Speaker 2: normally what we do, y'all if this is your first
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  Speaker 2: time here, Normally it's more communication. I believe that we
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  Speaker 2: will have communication and dialogue or whatever. But I believe
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  Speaker 2: in the prophetic. I believe in God bringing people, bringing
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  Speaker 2: voices for time such as this, and she is a
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  Speaker 2: voice I trust. Okay, So for me to do this,
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  Speaker 2: I just I knew just to let God do what
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  Speaker 2: he's gonna do. But I would love for you to
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  Speaker 2: explain your community right the heal wife, because right now
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  Speaker 2: you're still waiting for the time where it's supposed to
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  Speaker 2: be here and on earth as your wife, But you
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  Speaker 2: also teach your people like you can't love a husband
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  Speaker 2: when you don't love God. I love I love that
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  Speaker 2: about you, so can you give us a little bit
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  Speaker 2: more information on the heal wife journey.
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  Speaker 4: Well, just overall what the heal wife is. It's a
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  Speaker 4: revelation that the Lord had given me discerning what the
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  Speaker 4: true posture of the Bride of Christ should be, which
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  Speaker 4: is to be one that is actively healing. And so
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  Speaker 4: I just remember him taking me down this long journey.
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  Speaker 4: And it started with mirth. I don't know if I
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  Speaker 4: pronounced it right, but it's m y our age. And
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  Speaker 4: as I look throughout scripture, I began to see this
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  Speaker 4: constant reminder that with Christ, there's this presence of mirth,
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  Speaker 4: there's this fragrance of mirth, but what it really does
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  Speaker 4: in real life, we know that it connects to healing.
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  Speaker 4: And so this is when the Lord began to minister
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  Speaker 4: through me that the besides, you know, going to church,
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  Speaker 4: singing the songs, fast and praying, you know, all the things,
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  Speaker 4: a large responsibility for us is to receive the healing
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  Speaker 4: that Christ already, that Christ already secured for us on
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  Speaker 4: the cross, And because we're so focused on doing, so
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  Speaker 4: focused on appearing, we have not transitioned into that place
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  Speaker 4: of just receiving. And even this morning, you know, I
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  Speaker 4: was communicating to my community about the importance of God
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  Speaker 4: never asked us to perform for him. Whenever Israel will
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  Speaker 4: begin to perform, God will begin to have an issue
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  Speaker 4: with that. He's like, your heart is not right. Because
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  Speaker 4: from the very beginning the relationship was based off here,
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  Speaker 4: take this. God didn't say give me this. He said, no,
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  Speaker 4: take this, take my son, take this sacrifice before the
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  Speaker 4: earth was even worm right, and so ideally around the
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  Speaker 4: time actually that we had met during what's his name's community,
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  Speaker 4: David Shan, Remember the phone call that we had where
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  Speaker 4: I told you it had to deal with the twenty ninth,
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  Speaker 4: and I said, in a couple of days, the Lord
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  Speaker 4: wants you to like whatever. Whatever. The instructions were the instructions,
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  Speaker 4: but the main purpose was for an encounter with the Lord.
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  Speaker 4: And I didn't know me speaking this to you, God
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  Speaker 4: was also saying that was for me as well. And
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  Speaker 4: so on the twenty ninth I went to the mountain
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  Speaker 4: with the Lord. And it was in that place that
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  Speaker 4: the hell Wife was already a thing, but it was
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  Speaker 4: where the heal life experience was birthed, right because the
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  Speaker 4: hill Wife Academy, that's where you know, we walk them
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  Speaker 4: through showing them the four important things about becoming the
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  Speaker 4: Bride of Christ, which is about service, which is about healing,
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  Speaker 4: which is about intimacy, which is about becoming right. But
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  Speaker 4: that's when it transitioned into the real focus about healing
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  Speaker 4: and going through like this twenty one day journey, and
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  Speaker 4: so on and so forth. So if I could sum
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  Speaker 4: up what the healed wife is, the heal wife is
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  Speaker 4: the Bride of Christ. It's just a new revelation, not
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  Speaker 4: even a new revelation, I say, a remix revelation. This
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  Speaker 4: is got like the joh Quees version of songs. This
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  Speaker 4: is a sun ray version of the song that has
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  Speaker 4: already been sung. But if it's our generation, if it's
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  Speaker 4: our time period, right, things move so fast and we're
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  Speaker 4: always pursuing something. But I really learned that the true bride,
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  Speaker 4: she rests, she receives, She has a soft life because
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  Speaker 4: she understands that her husband already risk it off for
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  Speaker 4: her right. And so that's ideally what I teach. And
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  Speaker 4: so in the community, the focus is really sisterhood because
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  Speaker 4: a lot of people are alone on the journey to
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  Speaker 4: become a hell wife or to become the truth, like
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  Speaker 4: the Bride of Christ. They're alone. They don't all of
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  Speaker 4: a sudden they're isolated from the activities and hobbies that
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  Speaker 4: they once did. The people all of that, and they
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  Speaker 4: just want to have a space where they could feel
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  Speaker 4: understood that the things that are happening within them that
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  Speaker 4: it's normal that you know. So that's ideally what the
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  Speaker 4: community is for, just creating that sisterhood and bypassing the
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  Speaker 4: spirit of depression and of loneliness and of heaviness, all
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  Speaker 4: the things that come along with walking away from an
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  Speaker 4: old version of you and embracing who you truly are.
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  Speaker 4: So that's how old was some it up?
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  Speaker 2: That's yeah, No, it's it's so much because because when
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  Speaker 2: you start talking, because you have a great community of
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  Speaker 2: supporters and people that believe in what you're saying. Like
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  Speaker 2: we ain't talking about no little sun ray, this big
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  Speaker 2: sun ray. You know what I'm saying because she believed
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  Speaker 2: in the big God. Look, let me lett let people
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  Speaker 2: know that you you got a whole audience. You clock it,
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  Speaker 2: But know what I'm interested in and want to let
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  Speaker 2: the people know. If they go back on your YouTube
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  Speaker 2: page and even pay attention to you on social media,
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  Speaker 2: they'll see that you are in different places and the
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  Speaker 2: most unique thing that I found out about, like I'm.
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  Speaker 5: Just gonna fly, but no, lot, it's for a good
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  Speaker 5: reason and that's why.
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  Speaker 2: But before I even this thing about I didn't know
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  Speaker 2: Some Ray. Before I didn't know who she was. And
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  Speaker 2: the beautiful thing about it, we was at the podcast
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  Speaker 2: and that's where we met, and my best friend Brie,
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  Speaker 2: she was like, oh my gosh, I think that are
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  Speaker 2: you some Ray? And I was like, oh what was
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  Speaker 2: that funny? Funny, funniest thing, funniest thing happened to where
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  Speaker 2: she was like, I said, Okay, well connect with her. Well,
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  Speaker 2: I didn't know that was the connection that I needed.
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  Speaker 2: I didn't know some Ray because I don't. I don't
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  Speaker 2: really deal with too many new people for for multiple reasons.
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  Speaker 2: I just I like new people as far as that,
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  Speaker 2: but not in my inner circle, not knowing my business.
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  Speaker 2: In some raise somebody, I'll tell my business. And so
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  Speaker 2: it was interesting to me that that Brie was there
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  Speaker 2: and she knew who Sun Ray was. Because God knew
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  Speaker 2: that I was, I would have been blocked, like I
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  Speaker 2: would have had this wall up because I just have,
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  Speaker 2: you know, things that I'm healing from, right, And so
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  Speaker 2: one of the conversations that we had some ray is
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  Speaker 2: that when I found out that, I was like, I
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  Speaker 2: don't know how we got on this conversation, but you
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  Speaker 2: revealed to me that you were in Airbnb, and I
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  Speaker 2: was like, why are you in the Airbnb?
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  Speaker 1: What?
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  Speaker 2: What's going on with your apartment? You know, what's going
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  Speaker 2: on with your house? You know what I'm saying. He
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  Speaker 2: was like, No, I live out my suitcase. I go
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  Speaker 2: where God tells me to go. And I think that's
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  Speaker 2: that is a yes three sixty five moment that I'm like, God,
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  Speaker 2: could I really submit to you like that? To where
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  Speaker 2: I am traveling out of a suitcase. I don't even
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  Speaker 2: have a like a home to go to, but wherever
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  Speaker 2: you tell me go, I'm flexible enough to go to.
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  Speaker 2: It Like, how did that even start with you?
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  Speaker 4: Long story short, but it's still a long story. I
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  Speaker 4: was in Milwaukee, so originally my journey started in Milwaukee
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  Speaker 4: in twenty twenty and the Lord he gave me a
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  Speaker 4: vision of Houston. That's what I call it. It's called
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  Speaker 4: a vision of Houston. And y'all know what the Hollywood
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  Speaker 4: sign looks like. So in this vision, he showed me
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  Speaker 4: the Hollywood sign, but it said Houston. And I said,
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  Speaker 4: oh no, Lord, well you want me to go where?
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  Speaker 4: Because in my mind we're from Milwaukee. So all we
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  Speaker 4: know is that Houston got a lot of floods. I said, God,
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  Speaker 4: if you wanted to kill me in a flood, like
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  Speaker 4: just like the people in the Bible, if you wanted
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  Speaker 4: to take me, I don't unto this wilderness to die.
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  Speaker 4: You could have just did it like in a desert,
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  Speaker 4: so like you know something else. But long story short,
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  Speaker 4: that's where the journey began, is the Lord. He told me,
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  Speaker 4: and he stripped me. You know. He had me leave
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  Speaker 4: my college apartment. I was there for like six years.
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  Speaker 4: He had me move in with one of my friends
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  Speaker 4: and her two kids. I was staying with her, living
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  Speaker 4: on a little bitty couch for like five months, living
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  Speaker 4: out of my bags. And then he told me to
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  Speaker 4: apply for this grant. It was five thousand dollars and
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  Speaker 4: he said, I provided down go went to Houston without
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  Speaker 4: a house, car, a job, just got found the airbnb,
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  Speaker 4: got rented a car, and I got there and within
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  Speaker 4: three months he blessed me with my own job, my
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  Speaker 4: own apartment, and my own car. And then from there
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  Speaker 4: I stayed in Houston for about a year, well actually
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  Speaker 4: I do know a year and eleven months exactly to
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  Speaker 4: the day. And then once that happened, he said, it's
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  Speaker 4: time to go to Hollywood. It's time to go to
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  Speaker 4: the next part of the vision. So I stayed in
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  Speaker 4: LA until May of twenty twenty four, which was a
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  Speaker 4: secret thing because a lot of people thought that I
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  Speaker 4: was still in LA last year. But one thing that
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  Speaker 4: I learned about moving with the Lord is that you
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  Speaker 4: have to move with You have to move with discretion.
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  Speaker 4: You have to be wise about what you speak because
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  Speaker 4: there are atmospheres and things that are shifting. When the
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  Speaker 4: Lord has certain people's like has them transition into a place,
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  Speaker 4: and so their journey has to be protected. But if
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  Speaker 4: you're talking too much to people or telling people too
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  Speaker 4: many plans, you're opening the door for just stuff that
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  Speaker 4: just don't need to be So I went from LA
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  Speaker 4: to then living in Atlanta. I stayed in Atlanta from
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  Speaker 4: May until the beginning of this year, and then the
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  Speaker 4: Lord called me to my mentor's house in Dallas. I
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  Speaker 4: stayed there for three months, and now he moved me
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  Speaker 4: here to Chicago, and so I said all of that
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  Speaker 4: to say that during that time, I had to sleep
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  Speaker 4: in my car. At certain periods of time, I had
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  Speaker 4: to move literally every other night. Sometimes it would be nice,
• 18:29
  Speaker 4: He'll give me a break and I'll be able to
• 18:31
  Speaker 4: stay in a place for like a week, But then
• 18:33
  Speaker 4: it's moving somewhere else. And at the time we can
• 18:36
  Speaker 4: smile about it now, but it was heavy because I'm like, God,
• 18:42
  Speaker 4: this ain't what you showed me. But I always tell
• 18:45
  Speaker 4: people God never tells you what the process will look like.
• 18:48
  Speaker 4: He just tells you how the end will be. And
• 18:51
  Speaker 4: that's why we have to remember and always write down
• 18:54
  Speaker 4: what God said when you're walking into something new, because
• 18:57
  Speaker 4: the process will make you begin to teeter or waiver
• 19:01
  Speaker 4: in your faith. And so towards the end of my journey,
• 19:04
  Speaker 4: I've lived in over eighty plus airbnbs, and the Lord
• 19:08
  Speaker 4: provided for every bit. And now my journey has routed
• 19:13
  Speaker 4: me where my journey first began. In twenty twenty. My
• 19:17
  Speaker 4: goal was to go to medical school. The Lord told
• 19:20
  Speaker 4: me to quit my job. He has we quit February
• 19:23
  Speaker 4: twenty twenty one. The road shut down March twenty twenty one.
• 19:27
  Speaker 4: So it was God's grace that saved me. But baby,
• 19:29
  Speaker 4: I'm trying to go to medical school. What's you doing?
• 19:31
  Speaker 4: And he said no, And so I laid everything down.
• 19:35
  Speaker 4: I laid my tutoring company down, I laid the dream
• 19:38
  Speaker 4: that I had for my life. And I just served
• 19:40
  Speaker 4: the Lord through ministry the last five years. And at
• 19:43
  Speaker 4: the beginning of this year, when I told him yes
• 19:45
  Speaker 4: to go to my mentor's house, that was when he
• 19:48
  Speaker 4: gave me a vision of the night and he said,
• 19:51
  Speaker 4: you laid it all down for me. Now I'm giving
• 19:53
  Speaker 4: it all back to you. And that's when he told
• 19:55
  Speaker 4: me you can go to medical school. And now it
• 19:57
  Speaker 4: was meant to be now, not then you're ready. And
• 20:00
  Speaker 4: so I think the testament that I share with people
• 20:03
  Speaker 4: now and what I've been telling them is that what
• 20:05
  Speaker 4: appears to be dead is not really dead, is just sleeping.
• 20:09
  Speaker 4: And God loved me so much that he wouldn't allow
• 20:12
  Speaker 4: me to go down the path to a journey that
• 20:15
  Speaker 4: would have killed me. So he would have rather had
• 20:19
  Speaker 4: me feel like it died than to actually kill myself.
• 20:22
  Speaker 4: And that's how loving he is as a father, right,
• 20:26
  Speaker 4: And so it's like that Lazarus moment, and I think.
• 20:29
  Speaker 2: You before you go too fast, sun rain, before I
• 20:38
  Speaker 2: got to rewind you you said, did you hear what
• 20:44
  Speaker 2: she said?
• 20:45
  Speaker 1: Ray?
• 20:45
  Speaker 2: You said that he would rather you feel like he
• 20:48
  Speaker 2: killed it rather than it killing you.
• 20:54
  Speaker 4: M h.
• 20:56
  Speaker 2: I think I think they got to sit on somebody,
• 20:58
  Speaker 2: because when when you when you, when I hear that,
• 21:03
  Speaker 2: it's almost like God is like showing you. It's not
• 21:07
  Speaker 2: even almost. God is really showing you the value that
• 21:10
  Speaker 2: he has on you. That he would move you from
• 21:12
  Speaker 2: a place of your plan. Oh oh I know this God,
• 21:15
  Speaker 2: he would move you from a place of your plan,
• 21:18
  Speaker 2: your what you want to do with how you saw it.
• 21:21
  Speaker 2: He's not saying we've just talked about this not too
• 21:23
  Speaker 2: long ago, the no no understanding, the no versus the
• 21:27
  Speaker 2: not now right, and so what you're speaking to is
• 21:32
  Speaker 2: our souls right now, because it's like, Okay, God, if
• 21:35
  Speaker 2: I do this now, it's gonna kill you. But when
• 21:37
  Speaker 2: I bring you back to it, you're gonna you're gonna
• 21:39
  Speaker 2: kill it. Like we talk about speaking of language. Oh
• 21:42
  Speaker 2: you're finna kill it. Do you want it to kill
• 21:44
  Speaker 2: you or do you want to kill it? Okay? Thank you,
• 21:47
  Speaker 2: thank you, son ring, thank you so much. So we're
• 21:51
  Speaker 2: here in a place where you're about to go to
• 21:53
  Speaker 2: medical school. Congratulations, what way Paul to go to medical
• 22:00
  Speaker 2: school because of the journey. So if I would have
• 22:06
  Speaker 2: applied back then, and this is also for somebody, If
• 22:09
  Speaker 2: I would have applied back then, I would have been
• 22:11
  Speaker 2: directly accepted. Everything would have been fine. But because I.
• 22:14
  Speaker 4: Graduated in twenty sixteen, my coursework is expired. So now
• 22:19
  Speaker 4: I have to retake everything I got to retake. All
• 22:21
  Speaker 4: the chemistry, got to retake, all the biology, all the physics,
• 22:25
  Speaker 4: all the psychology. Everything I have to retake. And for
• 22:28
  Speaker 4: some people that would be disheartening. But for me, I
• 22:31
  Speaker 4: rejoice because I walked. Even though I lean on you know,
• 22:37
  Speaker 4: I would pray to God and things like that, and
• 22:39
  Speaker 4: I had somewhat of a relationship with him, I carry
• 22:42
  Speaker 4: most of that burden, which is why I ended up
• 22:44
  Speaker 4: being so stout and so anxious, and so fearful and
• 22:47
  Speaker 4: so afraid and so doubting I was going. I would
• 22:49
  Speaker 4: have went to medical school back then, it would have
• 22:51
  Speaker 4: doubted if I would have gotten through. But because I
• 22:55
  Speaker 4: surrendered during that five years, I believe that now I
• 22:58
  Speaker 4: said God, we can do this together partnership. But not
• 23:01
  Speaker 4: only that, I have an assured confidence I'll be a doctor.
• 23:04
  Speaker 4: I'm not even worried. I told my mama. I said, look,
• 23:07
  Speaker 4: they'll be like, oh sorry, you feel one of your too. End.
• 23:10
  Speaker 4: God showed me the end, so I don't care what's
• 23:12
  Speaker 4: happening during the process. And I've gone through the journey
• 23:15
  Speaker 4: of moving place to place and carrying these things and
• 23:18
  Speaker 4: doing the ministry and sewing and da da da da dah, right,
• 23:21
  Speaker 4: doing all of those things to prepare me for this one,
• 23:26
  Speaker 4: the one that's gonna take longer because we're gonna be
• 23:28
  Speaker 4: in school ten plus years. But guess what, I'm ready
• 23:31
  Speaker 4: for it, and I'm excited for it. And so I think,
• 23:34
  Speaker 4: like I said before, what I would want to encourage
• 23:38
  Speaker 4: people is to know is that when you're doing things
• 23:41
  Speaker 4: with the Lord who cares about time. As soon as
• 23:44
  Speaker 4: God gave me that dream, the next day, when I
• 23:47
  Speaker 4: tell you the things that begin to open up, He's like,
• 23:50
  Speaker 4: you thought it was dead, but it was It still
• 23:52
  Speaker 4: had a heartbeat, and how could it? And you know
• 23:55
  Speaker 4: something has a heartbeat because it instantly goes back to
• 23:57
  Speaker 4: like you ain't got to press it, you ain't got
• 23:58
  Speaker 4: to do nothing. That opportunities begin to open up. The
• 24:03
  Speaker 4: door opened up, It was so easy for me to
• 24:04
  Speaker 4: get into my program. I applied to a program that
• 24:07
  Speaker 4: was hard to get into, got into it, and God said,
• 24:09
  Speaker 4: you still can't go there, because this is the way.
• 24:11
  Speaker 4: Now it will be ease. So what once tried to
• 24:14
  Speaker 4: bring disease to your body because it was so difficult,
• 24:17
  Speaker 4: because it was so hard, Your victory will be in
• 24:20
  Speaker 4: the ease of it. Your victory will be that you're
• 24:22
  Speaker 4: resting in Me. So yes, when you study, you'll have
• 24:25
  Speaker 4: late nights. It may seem difficult, but now you understand
• 24:28
  Speaker 4: the fullness of Matthew eleven twenty eight through thirty, that
• 24:31
  Speaker 4: you are walking this thing out in the physical. But
• 24:34
  Speaker 4: as you walk in the physical, your husband, my husband Jesus,
• 24:38
  Speaker 4: he's walking alongside me in the spirit, and he's carrying
• 24:40
  Speaker 4: the heavier part of it. He's the one that's paving
• 24:43
  Speaker 4: the role that can't anyone see. I tell people that
• 24:46
  Speaker 4: it's a cost to become a pioneer. It's a cost
• 24:49
  Speaker 4: to become a visionary, because when we think about it,
• 24:52
  Speaker 4: what is a visionary. A visionary is someone when God says,
• 24:56
  Speaker 4: I'm behold, I'm doing a new Do you not see?
• 25:00
  Speaker 4: The thing is? Is that only the visionary can see
• 25:03
  Speaker 4: what God is showing in the spirit. Everybody else sees
• 25:06
  Speaker 4: that you're just standing before. They're like, why that girl
• 25:08
  Speaker 4: looking at that forest like that? But what you're seeing
• 25:11
  Speaker 4: is the business. You're seeing the enterprise. You're seeing this
• 25:14
  Speaker 4: because God is giving you the pioneer, the eyes to
• 25:17
  Speaker 4: see and to go ahead and do it. But you
• 25:19
  Speaker 4: have someone that's yoped to you. And what I think
• 25:21
  Speaker 4: even that I mentioned that that's so prophetic is I
• 25:24
  Speaker 4: said God, I've never researched what the name Jessica means,
• 25:28
  Speaker 4: but the name Jessica means to behold, to see. And
• 25:32
  Speaker 4: this past week I was doing a teaching about how
• 25:35
  Speaker 4: until Abraham released a lot, because a lot the name
• 25:38
  Speaker 4: means to theil. Remember they got to the land, but
• 25:43
  Speaker 4: God only told him Abraham miss the land I'm giving you.
• 25:45
  Speaker 4: He didn't show it to him until he got rid
• 25:47
  Speaker 4: a lot. And so even when we're on this journey,
• 25:51
  Speaker 4: one thing that I learned easily is to let go,
• 25:54
  Speaker 4: release and move forward. And so I think about it, Hmm, Jessica,
• 25:59
  Speaker 4: her name needs succeed to behold. It also correlates with wealth,
• 26:04
  Speaker 4: I said, God, when it comes to her, has that
• 26:08
  Speaker 4: been her fight because usually what your name is, what
• 26:10
  Speaker 4: you're going into is the area that you fought the most.
• 26:13
  Speaker 4: And I'm like, well, she is blind. God she wears glasses,
• 26:16
  Speaker 4: so we know one part of prophecy to see them.
• 26:27
  Speaker 4: That's funny, but also it's just it made me think
• 26:33
  Speaker 4: about that, and so yeah, there's more there. But long
• 26:36
  Speaker 4: story short, I said all that to say that just
• 26:39
  Speaker 4: when it looks like it's over, it's actually about to
• 26:43
  Speaker 4: get started, you know. And so yeah, so that's the
• 26:48
  Speaker 4: moving thing.
• 26:49
  Speaker 2: Bro. Enjoying what you just said. I'm just gonna say,
• 26:57
  Speaker 2: she's Jesus. I don't even look. I told you, I
• 27:03
  Speaker 2: don't know how many questions I would gonna have because
• 27:05
  Speaker 2: I just feel like the Lord is really doing something.
• 27:08
  Speaker 2: But you but you started to speak on like things
• 27:11
  Speaker 2: that you've learned through this journey, right, And one of
• 27:14
  Speaker 2: the things I am. I do struggle with letting go.
• 27:18
  Speaker 2: I literally just told Deliberates, I struggle with the idea
• 27:22
  Speaker 2: of letting go. And I think, if I'm honest with you,
• 27:25
  Speaker 2: so Ray, I think that I have this struggle is
• 27:28
  Speaker 2: because I deal with abandonment issues. Fast forward, just real quick.
• 27:34
  Speaker 2: People know that my parents was divorced, my dad raised
• 27:37
  Speaker 2: me and my sister. My mom was going through being
• 27:41
  Speaker 2: a woman in her thirties, trying to figure things out
• 27:44
  Speaker 2: or whatever. Not knowing that part. I felt abandoned by
• 27:48
  Speaker 2: my mom, right and then once my dad got remarried,
• 27:51
  Speaker 2: if I'm honest, I felt abandoned by him because my
• 27:54
  Speaker 2: place in the house was, oh I was I was
• 27:57
  Speaker 2: wasn't his wife, but I was doing you know, cleaning,
• 28:01
  Speaker 2: cooking and everything like. So it's like I don't know
• 28:03
  Speaker 2: where I fit anymore, you know what I'm saying. And
• 28:05
  Speaker 2: so once I find somewhere I fit and God says,
• 28:08
  Speaker 2: I need you to release this thing, It's like I
• 28:11
  Speaker 2: don't know God, because I just, you know, I just
• 28:14
  Speaker 2: got this, and I don't want to leave it because
• 28:16
  Speaker 2: I know how I felt to be left. If i'm if,
• 28:19
  Speaker 2: I'm if we're gonna be honest, you get what I'm saying.
• 28:22
  Speaker 2: And so I struggle with the idea of letting go people, places,
• 28:26
  Speaker 2: and things because it's not that I don't trust God
• 28:29
  Speaker 2: and that he hasn't improven to me that there's more,
• 28:32
  Speaker 2: but like, what do I do with what's not anymore?
• 28:37
  Speaker 2: You know what I'm saying? And so and I'm like, oh,
• 28:39
  Speaker 2: I think about other people's feelings and all that good stuff.
• 28:41
  Speaker 2: So I'm just kind of like in this space of
• 28:44
  Speaker 2: the fact that you brought that go. I was like, okay, God,
• 28:46
  Speaker 2: you're you're you're attacking me. Attack But I get it.
• 28:54
  Speaker 2: I get it. And so what what has brought you
• 29:00
  Speaker 2: to a place of I guess in my mind, I'm like,
• 29:04
  Speaker 2: you moved with so much ease in the obedience of God,
• 29:09
  Speaker 2: had it all? What brought you to that place of
• 29:12
  Speaker 2: just moving with ease? Like was there a moment where
• 29:15
  Speaker 2: you was like, Okay, God, if this is it, then
• 29:17
  Speaker 2: I'm all in Like, what would you say there was
• 29:20
  Speaker 2: a moment for you? Or have you always been like okay,
• 29:22
  Speaker 2: if it's the Lord, it's nothing.
• 29:27
  Speaker 4: Well that part right, because it's like, well, Gods, we're
• 29:30
  Speaker 4: gonna get your way. So I would rather just I
• 29:32
  Speaker 4: don't want to be like Jonah and I don't want
• 29:34
  Speaker 4: to encounter the resistant wins of the Lord. So we're
• 29:36
  Speaker 4: gonna go. But I think the shift happened for me
• 29:42
  Speaker 4: sometime last year when I was in Atlanta. Now, mind you,
• 29:46
  Speaker 4: at this point, my journey of moving place to place
• 29:49
  Speaker 4: started in December of twenty twenty two, so we're talking
• 29:54
  Speaker 4: about almost two years of going through it and moving
• 29:58
  Speaker 4: and doing all of that. When I was in Atlanta,
• 30:00
  Speaker 4: I think the realization that hit me was God, you
• 30:05
  Speaker 4: First of all, the abandonment. I definitely could relate to that, Jessica,
• 30:11
  Speaker 4: because I was born adopted, right, and so a large
• 30:15
  Speaker 4: part of my whole journey one began with feeling abandoned
• 30:20
  Speaker 4: from birth. And that's not even me trying to feel
• 30:22
  Speaker 4: that way. That's the circumstance already, right. But then from
• 30:26
  Speaker 4: the circumstance when I went to college, it was this
• 30:30
  Speaker 4: great isolation that happened from even my adopted family and
• 30:34
  Speaker 4: then at some point even my birth family. So it's
• 30:36
  Speaker 4: like all of like it was just always me and
• 30:40
  Speaker 4: that's it. And so and the people that I made family.
• 30:43
  Speaker 4: That's why I tell people I truly value the non
• 30:47
  Speaker 4: blood connections. I realized that blood don't really mean much.
• 30:53
  Speaker 4: It really doesn't. And I know some people, Oh, that's
• 30:54
  Speaker 4: so kind of Hardlet No, it really blood what we got.
• 30:58
  Speaker 4: Some we might share some metic diseases or things like that,
• 31:03
  Speaker 4: but really what matters is love. And it was people
• 31:08
  Speaker 4: that I would meet, one of whoul advocate me. Now
• 31:10
  Speaker 4: I'm going too far left. The whole point that I
• 31:11
  Speaker 4: want to make is that there came a point when
• 31:15
  Speaker 4: I was in Atlanta, and I don't know specifically, I'll
• 31:17
  Speaker 4: have to like sit down and remember, but what I'll
• 31:19
  Speaker 4: say in this moment is there came a point in
• 31:22
  Speaker 4: time where I realized that God, I have been struggling
• 31:28
  Speaker 4: because my struggle during the time of moving was I
• 31:31
  Speaker 4: was gonna be homeless. The hardest thing for me was
• 31:35
  Speaker 4: sleeping in my car. That was the hardest thing for me.
• 31:38
  Speaker 4: Now I know some people you know sleep on the street,
• 31:40
  Speaker 4: but for me, I said, God, I remember that day.
• 31:44
  Speaker 4: At first, I was like, okay, Lord, you come through,
• 31:46
  Speaker 4: singing all the songs praising him. I am on Redondo Beach,
• 31:52
  Speaker 4: Long Beach, California, with my dog in the back seat,
• 31:56
  Speaker 4: sitting in this car is getting darker and darker, and
• 31:59
  Speaker 4: I'm like, God, You're gonna come through. Then I started
• 32:01
  Speaker 4: getting angrier, and it was a moment where people are like, oh,
• 32:06
  Speaker 4: you curse got baby I said, or some things that
• 32:08
  Speaker 4: don't need to be repeated nowhere, and the things that
• 32:13
  Speaker 4: I said, I heard the Holy Spirit said this, this
• 32:17
  Speaker 4: is what we wanted to come up because one of
• 32:21
  Speaker 4: the things I think about abandonment, rejection and all of
• 32:25
  Speaker 4: that is that you kind of create like this little
• 32:28
  Speaker 4: foss bubble where you're like, oh, i'll pray for you,
• 32:31
  Speaker 4: Oh I'll do this, but really you're the one that
• 32:33
  Speaker 4: needs prayers. Oh, everything's fine, but really everything's not fine.
• 32:37
  Speaker 4: It's like this thing, and the Lord is like, I'm
• 32:40
  Speaker 4: not concerned with your representatives. I'm concerned with what truly
• 32:44
  Speaker 4: is in your heart. And you know, some people want
• 32:47
  Speaker 4: agree because they're like, oh no, you can't talk to
• 32:49
  Speaker 4: God like that. You can't do this. Look, I've had
• 32:51
  Speaker 4: dreams where I'll have a moment and I'll curse in
• 32:54
  Speaker 4: a dream, and the Lord when I wake up, the
• 32:56
  Speaker 4: Holy Spirit to stay. See, we got to deal with that.
• 32:59
  Speaker 4: Pull it up. It's literally like a file. Pull it up.
• 33:03
  Speaker 4: You've hidden something deep and now you're cursing. I don't
• 33:06
  Speaker 4: curse in real life, but even in the fact of
• 33:09
  Speaker 4: me cursing in my dream, in that moment, it reveals
• 33:12
  Speaker 4: that there's something in me that offends God. And God's like,
• 33:15
  Speaker 4: I need you to pull it up. We need to
• 33:17
  Speaker 4: sit and talk about this because until you shine light
• 33:20
  Speaker 4: on it, the gents will continue to overcome you. But
• 33:23
  Speaker 4: John one and five, that tells us that when you
• 33:25
  Speaker 4: shine light in the darkness, the darkness can no longer
• 33:27
  Speaker 4: overcome it. And so from that time right, that was
• 33:32
  Speaker 4: my biggest spirit Like even though I only slipt. Look,
• 33:36
  Speaker 4: I am an exaggerator. You probably thought I slept in
• 33:38
  Speaker 4: my car for months. I slept in my car like
• 33:40
  Speaker 4: maybe like three full times. But that was enough. Yeah,
• 33:43
  Speaker 4: that was enough for me because it's like God, you
• 33:46
  Speaker 4: caught me here. He had me leave my apartment. I
• 33:49
  Speaker 4: had just fully furnished my apartment, my first apartment since
• 33:55
  Speaker 4: my college one. I had a roommate in my first
• 33:57
  Speaker 4: apartment in Houston, and he had let me give everything away,
• 34:02
  Speaker 4: and you had me go to a place with three
• 34:04
  Speaker 4: hundred dollars. You said, go to LA. He didn't tell
• 34:07
  Speaker 4: me where I was going. He said, wherever the downtown
• 34:10
  Speaker 4: sign leads you, that's where you go. So when you
• 34:12
  Speaker 4: type in LA, that's exactly where sun Ray ended up
• 34:17
  Speaker 4: with three hundred dollars. And as soon as I got
• 34:19
  Speaker 4: to the central part of the city, someone said, I
• 34:21
  Speaker 4: feel led to sew and see you. It was my
• 34:24
  Speaker 4: spiritual mom one thousand dollars. I was able to have
• 34:27
  Speaker 4: a place to stay a few nights, and that's when
• 34:28
  Speaker 4: journey started. But look, during the time, the fear was
• 34:31
  Speaker 4: the abandonment, like you know, like dang, God, like I'm
• 34:34
  Speaker 4: not gonna have a home. So mind you, mind you.
• 34:39
  Speaker 4: That is an undercurrent. So I'm going backwards so you
• 34:41
  Speaker 4: can see where we got to the point where, you know,
• 34:44
  Speaker 4: during that time, it was like, even though I had
• 34:47
  Speaker 4: no longer, God told me You're not gonna sit in
• 34:49
  Speaker 4: your car no more. I'm always gonna provide for you.
• 34:51
  Speaker 4: It was the fact of like I just kept worrying.
• 34:54
  Speaker 4: I'm like, God, I gotta leave this airbnb in like
• 34:57
  Speaker 4: an hour and they only gonna give me this. And
• 34:59
  Speaker 4: then the Lord's like do you trust me? Like that
• 35:02
  Speaker 4: being on the edge of a thing constantly like oh
• 35:04
  Speaker 4: my gosh, God, am I gonna have this? Am I
• 35:06
  Speaker 4: gonna have what I need? And he would always come through.
• 35:08
  Speaker 4: After that, I didn't have to sleep in my car again.
• 35:10
  Speaker 4: But in the back of my mind, it's like, God,
• 35:12
  Speaker 4: you're doing this to me. You're hurting me. Da da Right.
• 35:15
  Speaker 4: The whole little thing just keeps playing, but it's the enemy,
• 35:18
  Speaker 4: and so hold on one second. Did it come back?
• 35:29
  Speaker 2: Yeah, you're coming back? You coming back? Yeah? That see this,
• 35:33
  Speaker 2: how I know is good. We've been good. We've been good.
• 35:36
  Speaker 2: Won't have interruptions. Keep going, keep going because you're tearing
• 35:40
  Speaker 2: hell up.
• 35:41
  Speaker 4: But mind you with the constant because you got to
• 35:48
  Speaker 4: think about it. It ain't like I just got a
• 35:50
  Speaker 4: little suitcase in a little book bag. Everything that I have,
• 35:56
  Speaker 4: every journal, everything that I have from home, everything is
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  Speaker 4: with me, and I have to pack it up every day,
• 36:08
  Speaker 4: every other day. So I'm carrying that along with carrying God,
• 36:11
  Speaker 4: I don't know. We're getting close to the time da
• 36:14
  Speaker 4: da right. So I'm carrying all of this for two years.
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  Speaker 4: When I got to Atlanta, the Lord had to sit
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  Speaker 4: me down and said, we got a heal from this.
• 36:24
  Speaker 4: And that's the part of the healed wife. Is the
• 36:26
  Speaker 4: healed wife is really the Lord gave me a commission.
• 36:29
  Speaker 4: He said, there's people that are just like you, and
• 36:33
  Speaker 4: I need you to come back down from the mountain
• 36:35
  Speaker 4: because I was in the mountain. Come back down from
• 36:38
  Speaker 4: the mountain, and I need you to give them this
• 36:39
  Speaker 4: text and I need you to give this to them
• 36:42
  Speaker 4: to bring them out too. And so the thing that
• 36:45
  Speaker 4: happened though during that time was he had me address
• 36:51
  Speaker 4: what the elephant was. He said, you've had a place
• 36:54
  Speaker 4: to stay. I provided for you for you ain't been
• 36:56
  Speaker 4: sleeping in your card off, why do you keep going
• 36:58
  Speaker 4: to that? So? What would happened? This is now I'm
• 37:00
  Speaker 4: fast and I'm praying, I'm reading the word, I'm doing
• 37:03
  Speaker 4: this and blah blah blah, because I'm like, Lord, I
• 37:05
  Speaker 4: don't know if you're gonna provide for me, but he's
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  Speaker 4: I've been providing for you for a year plus strengths.
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  Speaker 4: You haven't had to sleep in your car for a year,
• 37:15
  Speaker 4: plush straight, So why do you keep going back to this? Okay,
• 37:18
  Speaker 4: so long story shirt. That was when the breakthrough happened.
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  Speaker 4: Is I realized, I said, this is the enemy not
• 37:24
  Speaker 4: allowing me to receive the fullness. And this is why
• 37:27
  Speaker 4: I did a teaching the other day about foolish fasting
• 37:30
  Speaker 4: oaths where people are stuck in these toxic cycles. Why
• 37:34
  Speaker 4: is it that as soon as something happens, you instantly, Oh,
• 37:36
  Speaker 4: I gotta go on the three days fast. Oh I
• 37:38
  Speaker 4: got it fast, Oh I gotta do this.
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  Speaker 2: You're talking.
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  Speaker 4: My thing is is that I and the Lord taught
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  Speaker 4: me this, but he didn't give me the revelation to
• 37:49
  Speaker 4: teach it out until the other day, and I was
• 37:52
  Speaker 4: telling the people, I said, you know, we've done ourselves
• 37:55
  Speaker 4: a disservice with leaders, and we've done hey other people
• 37:59
  Speaker 4: at this evers as well, because what happens is is
• 38:02
  Speaker 4: that you got people doing foolish fast and oaths. Specifically,
• 38:07
  Speaker 4: Saul did a foolish fast and oath, and it caused
• 38:11
  Speaker 4: long story short, it just caused a lot of things
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  Speaker 4: to happen. So what I'm staying right now in this
• 38:15
  Speaker 4: moment is is that I had to come to the
• 38:19
  Speaker 4: posture of a daughter. The Lord was like, I'm not
• 38:21
  Speaker 4: doing all these things because you're fast and you're praying,
• 38:23
  Speaker 4: you're reading your word, you're doing these things. I'm doing
• 38:26
  Speaker 4: it because I'm a good father. And I'm oh God
• 38:30
  Speaker 4: that if my father and my mother abandoned me, that God,
• 38:33
  Speaker 4: you would never forsake me. That's what David said. So
• 38:36
  Speaker 4: I'm twenty seven and ten and the Lord had to
• 38:38
  Speaker 4: show me. He's like, yeah, your parents are still alive, whatever,
• 38:41
  Speaker 4: but you're an orphan in the spirit and know how
• 38:44
  Speaker 4: God feels about orphans. Do you see what he did?
• 38:47
  Speaker 4: For esther, and so it's like he cares about the widows,
• 38:52
  Speaker 4: he cares about the marginalized people in society. And so
• 38:56
  Speaker 4: when I had that realization, I have to keep telling
• 38:59
  Speaker 4: it to myself. I had to keep repeating it to myself.
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  Speaker 4: I had to make it my truth. And once I
• 39:04
  Speaker 4: did that, it became strength. So what once was me
• 39:08
  Speaker 4: struggling moving place to place, it was like, all right, God,
• 39:10
  Speaker 4: I know you got it. The beginning of the hill
• 39:13
  Speaker 4: Wife experience, which you know September first, I was staying
• 39:17
  Speaker 4: in places that whole. I didn't have no worries that day.
• 39:19
  Speaker 4: I didn't know where I was going to go. But
• 39:21
  Speaker 4: I got up and I got on that line and
• 39:24
  Speaker 4: I gave it my awe and I said, Lord, I
• 39:27
  Speaker 4: was able to afford to get a rental card. So
• 39:29
  Speaker 4: me and Jay that's when I started moving slow. I
• 39:32
  Speaker 4: started packing up my stuff, getting strategic, putting everything together,
• 39:35
  Speaker 4: doing it with piece of ease, because God you got me.
• 39:38
  Speaker 4: By the end of the day, we had some place
• 39:39
  Speaker 4: to stay and it didn't take stress to get there.
• 39:42
  Speaker 4: I didn't have to fast and pray to get there.
• 39:45
  Speaker 4: God did it because he's a good father. And so
• 39:49
  Speaker 4: I said all of that to say that that was
• 39:54
  Speaker 4: the moment the shift happened for me, was when I
• 39:56
  Speaker 4: realized this journey has never been about me doing. This
• 40:00
  Speaker 4: journey has been about me receiving, because from when I received,
• 40:05
  Speaker 4: that's when I am. I'm doing stuff now purely because
• 40:09
  Speaker 4: I've received so much. And so that's the moment I
• 40:13
  Speaker 4: truly became a daughter.
• 40:16
  Speaker 2: When you and just like you, you, you, you, you
• 40:23
  Speaker 2: just said so much. But I do want to It's
• 40:27
  Speaker 2: two points I want to make. First of all, y'all here,
• 40:30
  Speaker 2: did she know the addresses to these locations in the Bible? Yeah?
• 40:34
  Speaker 2: Like I want to grow up and be like her.
• 40:36
  Speaker 2: Doesn't she know the Lord? You know the addresses to
• 40:40
  Speaker 2: these lakers? We be like, look, sorry, we'll be able to.
• 40:42
  Speaker 2: Like the Bible says something about it's a story about
• 40:48
  Speaker 2: somebody that I know it is. But no, you kept
• 40:54
  Speaker 2: you brought this up twice. And I don't want to
• 40:56
  Speaker 2: discredit people. People's match your in the spirit, right, and
• 41:01
  Speaker 2: so I don't want people to be confused. And what
• 41:03
  Speaker 2: you mean by the mountain that you had to come
• 41:06
  Speaker 2: down from the mountain or you had to go to
• 41:08
  Speaker 2: the mountain, What does that mean?
• 41:13
  Speaker 4: So the mountain represents a place of encounter, it represents
• 41:18
  Speaker 4: a revelation, it represents a place of light. And so
• 41:22
  Speaker 4: I well, first of all, God did physically send me
• 41:25
  Speaker 4: to the mountain. Once. I say in the mountain to
• 41:27
  Speaker 4: let that happened. But when I talk about going to
• 41:30
  Speaker 4: the mountain, I speak about pulling back from everything. You
• 41:35
  Speaker 4: go on that fast and you allow the Lord to
• 41:39
  Speaker 4: do a work in you. See, I was on the
• 41:42
  Speaker 4: mountain and didn't realize I was on the mountain until
• 41:44
  Speaker 4: it was time to come down. What happened. The Lord
• 41:47
  Speaker 4: told me step away from sun Ray, which was a
• 41:50
  Speaker 4: YouTube channel. So look, I don't care about numbers, but
• 41:53
  Speaker 4: I'm gonna say this. That channel has almost thirty thousand subscribers.
• 41:59
  Speaker 4: And the Lord said, give it up. He said, Sunray worships.
• 42:03
  Speaker 4: I was posting every day at let it go. Everything
• 42:07
  Speaker 4: he said stop. So when God begins to call you
• 42:10
  Speaker 4: to a mountain and he says stop, everything must stop
• 42:13
  Speaker 4: and you have to listen. I didn't know why he
• 42:14
  Speaker 4: was calling me to Atlanta. I didn't know why he
• 42:17
  Speaker 4: had me doing a lot of things covertly. But that
• 42:20
  Speaker 4: whole time, as I was letting go and I was
• 42:24
  Speaker 4: ascending higher and had no clue until there was time
• 42:26
  Speaker 4: to come down. So when I say that I was
• 42:28
  Speaker 4: on a mountain, I wasn't physically on a mountain. I
• 42:31
  Speaker 4: was just such in a secret place with the Lord,
• 42:35
  Speaker 4: such a place of encounter, such a place of just
• 42:39
  Speaker 4: go here, do this, not knowing what was going. But
• 42:43
  Speaker 4: I was ascending a mountain. So when I got to
• 42:46
  Speaker 4: the top of a mountain, I finally realized. I said,
• 42:49
  Speaker 4: oh my gosh, Lord, this is what this is. And
• 42:51
  Speaker 4: he gave me a clear instruction. He said, now I
• 42:54
  Speaker 4: want you to go back down, and I need you
• 42:55
  Speaker 4: to go make more hell wives. And so I came
• 42:58
  Speaker 4: down with two tablets in my hand, come on fireworks,
• 43:03
  Speaker 4: down with two tablets in my hand, which was the
• 43:09
  Speaker 4: Healed Wife Experienced, the book, and also the journal. And
• 43:13
  Speaker 4: I didn't even understand what any of this stuff meant.
• 43:16
  Speaker 4: But as I was coming, the Lord just made it
• 43:18
  Speaker 4: so clear. And so when I speak to people, even
• 43:20
  Speaker 4: people that don't know what I'm talking about, when God
• 43:23
  Speaker 4: is calling you, if even if you just accept the
• 43:25
  Speaker 4: CRISTI yesterday, but he begins to call you to just
• 43:27
  Speaker 4: start separated from stuff. Look at that as even though
• 43:31
  Speaker 4: you're pulling back. Vertically, you are even though you're pulling back,
• 43:35
  Speaker 4: I'm sorry, horizontally, you're ascending. Vertically. Every step you take
• 43:40
  Speaker 4: backward from something that's not of God, you are going
• 43:43
  Speaker 4: higher in Him. And so even if you can't see it, spiritually,
• 43:48
  Speaker 4: you're ascending. And when you get to that place, the Lord,
• 43:52
  Speaker 4: he begins to speak to you, He shows you who
• 43:55
  Speaker 4: you are. I didn't, I had no clue what the
• 43:58
  Speaker 4: hell Wife Academy was. When I did, I just was
• 44:00
  Speaker 4: following the Holy Spirit, and I got to the end
• 44:04
  Speaker 4: and one seed of a teaching, which is the Hill Wife,
• 44:07
  Speaker 4: I used to do Encounter Knights online. One seed of
• 44:11
  Speaker 4: a teaching turned into an academy, turned into a podcast,
• 44:16
  Speaker 4: turned into a community, turned into an experience. And now
• 44:20
  Speaker 4: also we're going live around the nation and eventually the
• 44:24
  Speaker 4: world doing these encounter nights from one scene multiplied. Right now,
• 44:33
  Speaker 4: that's this whole nother side conversation. But that's what I
• 44:36
  Speaker 4: mean when I talk about the mountain is it's just
• 44:38
  Speaker 4: a place of just intimacy. But the lore opens your eyes.
• 44:42
  Speaker 4: You have no choice but to see, Yeah, and when
• 44:44
  Speaker 4: you see, you can't you can't just be like okay, God,
• 44:47
  Speaker 4: and I could have said I ain't gonna do it. No,
• 44:49
  Speaker 4: you don't get to that type of a place until
• 44:51
  Speaker 4: God knows. You said absolutely, yeah, and you trust her.
• 44:56
  Speaker 4: And so that's what I mean by that.
• 45:00
  Speaker 2: I don't know. I don't know what I'm experiencing right now.
• 45:05
  Speaker 2: I can't I don't have language for this conversation just yet, Desiree.
• 45:10
  Speaker 2: I want to. I want to check in on you
• 45:12
  Speaker 2: even I'm just listening, you know, I have. I'm listening
• 45:19
  Speaker 2: to her journey and I'm seeing myself in my own journey,
• 45:21
  Speaker 2: and it just makes it makes sense, right because I've
• 45:24
  Speaker 2: probably moved. I had moved as often as you have,
• 45:28
  Speaker 2: but I've moved, i know, four times in the last
• 45:30
  Speaker 2: two years, you know, and it's been each move has
• 45:33
  Speaker 2: been the Lord saying, hey, it's time to you know, go,
• 45:37
  Speaker 2: it's time to do these things. And each time. The
• 45:39
  Speaker 2: first time was was was probably the toughest because I
• 45:42
  Speaker 2: sold my my town home that I had been in
• 45:44
  Speaker 2: for about eleven years. And this was twenty four. This
• 45:48
  Speaker 2: was no. Twenty three, This was August of twenty three,
• 45:51
  Speaker 2: and so since then it's been moving to these different places.
• 45:56
  Speaker 2: I stayed with my friend who had two girls. She
• 45:57
  Speaker 2: had twin girls. When into my own apartment after that,
• 46:01
  Speaker 2: after last six months, and then in the middle of
• 46:04
  Speaker 2: a lease last year, the lord was like, all right,
• 46:06
  Speaker 2: it's time to move again. I'm like, wait a minute,
• 46:08
  Speaker 2: the lease ain't even up yet, and so he moved
• 46:11
  Speaker 2: me into this place with a couple. I stay in
• 46:14
  Speaker 2: there in the basement now, and I now understand why.
• 46:17
  Speaker 2: I didn't understand why then. But it's been such a
• 46:19
  Speaker 2: place of healing for me. Like you said, I was
• 46:22
  Speaker 2: always in a posture of doing, like trying to do
• 46:25
  Speaker 2: the most, you know, hustle, hustle, hustle culture, you know,
• 46:28
  Speaker 2: booked and b's and all these things, and in this
• 46:31
  Speaker 2: space that's not been the case. And it's been so
• 46:33
  Speaker 2: uncomfortable because I'm like, I don't even know how I
• 46:35
  Speaker 2: fit in here. And they are so sweet and have
• 46:37
  Speaker 2: been so loving and kind, and it's almost been like
• 46:41
  Speaker 2: the Lord showing me his love in human form. That's
• 46:44
  Speaker 2: that's the best I can put it. And they've just
• 46:46
  Speaker 2: been preparing me, i know, for a next season.
• 46:48
  Speaker 1: Right.
• 46:49
  Speaker 2: They've been married for over twenty four years, you know,
• 46:51
  Speaker 2: so I've gotten to see something in marriage that I
• 46:55
  Speaker 2: have never seen before, you know, and the Lord no
• 46:58
  Speaker 2: knew I didn't want to be married because of what
• 46:59
  Speaker 2: I saw. So I thought it was very beautiful that
• 47:01
  Speaker 2: he allowed me to see something different in that space.
• 47:04
  Speaker 2: And so that's what I'm learning. It's it's it's coming
• 47:08
  Speaker 2: into a posture of daughttership and just receiving, like there's
• 47:11
  Speaker 2: nothing that you can do. Like I'll be trying to
• 47:14
  Speaker 2: do the most. They'd be like, girl, now did you hungry?
• 47:16
  Speaker 2: I'll be like, yeah, what you need? They'd be like,
• 47:18
  Speaker 2: we don't need nothing, just come eat. You know what
• 47:20
  Speaker 2: I'm saying. And so it has been tough, but it
• 47:22
  Speaker 2: has as I look back, the journey has definitely definitely
• 47:26
  Speaker 2: been preparing me for what I know He's already shown me.
• 47:29
  Speaker 2: So it's just been beautiful to hear your hear your testimony,
• 47:33
  Speaker 2: and people who have not journeyed or had that type
• 47:36
  Speaker 2: of experience may not understand. So I understand when you
• 47:39
  Speaker 2: say you can't share that with everybody because everybody's just
• 47:42
  Speaker 2: not gonna understand how God deals with you because of
• 47:45
  Speaker 2: what's on your life. You know. So I've enjoyed you
• 47:48
  Speaker 2: so much. Thank you for gracing us with your with
• 47:51
  Speaker 2: your testimony, with your voice today. Yeah, most definitely some
• 47:55
  Speaker 2: ray like you have a I've never met someone like
• 47:58
  Speaker 2: you before, Like you are just symblem. You enhance my
• 48:01
  Speaker 2: life so much. It's just you challenge me when I
• 48:05
  Speaker 2: think about certain things spiritually or whatever. There there are
• 48:08
  Speaker 2: certain people that come up in mind on my friend level.
• 48:11
  Speaker 2: Like it's different. You know, we have mentors and stuff
• 48:14
  Speaker 2: like that, but it's different when you have friends that
• 48:16
  Speaker 2: really operate in what're you're going through. And Brie has
• 48:20
  Speaker 2: always been that for me. And then I got to
• 48:23
  Speaker 2: add you. I was like, Okay, So when Brie told
• 48:26
  Speaker 2: me she followed you, I said, well, maybe she's trustworth
• 48:30
  Speaker 2: because Bree just don't follow anybody. Okay, that's my friend.
• 48:33
  Speaker 2: She just don't. She's just not that girl. Okay, she's
• 48:37
  Speaker 2: discernment field. Okay. So I'm just so happy and so
• 48:42
  Speaker 2: honored that God will even allow you or us to
• 48:45
  Speaker 2: cross each other's path and allow me to be as
• 48:48
  Speaker 2: intimate as we have in our friendship. And so I
• 48:51
  Speaker 2: know that I kept hearing the LAWD say wrap this up,
• 48:54
  Speaker 2: because she got something that she needs to say, she
• 48:56
  Speaker 2: needs to release. So normally, traditionally, I guess have the
• 49:01
  Speaker 2: final word anyway. And so whatever the Lord is dealing
• 49:04
  Speaker 2: with you on, I'm just gonna sit back and be quiet,
• 49:07
  Speaker 2: and when you're done, I'm gonna let you do. It's simple. Okay,
• 49:14
  Speaker 2: give it now, don't want my face. I'm so tickled.
• 49:23
  Speaker 4: So this is really for Jessica, but I believe it's
• 49:25
  Speaker 4: for everybody in crisis. Well, but.
• 49:31
  Speaker 2: She's gonna start with, well, this is for Jessica. Just
• 49:33
  Speaker 2: bring me back up. Be serious.
• 49:37
  Speaker 4: It's really it's really simple. It's so simple. So something
• 49:43
  Speaker 4: the Lord has continued to speak about is restoration. And
• 49:47
  Speaker 4: we know restoration because we hear it so much. I
• 49:50
  Speaker 4: think we've become desensitized to really understand that God does
• 49:54
  Speaker 4: not play when he says you're in a season of restoration.
• 49:57
  Speaker 4: And the quicker you realize it and moving alignment with it, right,
• 50:01
  Speaker 4: that's when you run into all of the blessings, all
• 50:04
  Speaker 4: of the past harvests that disobedience and previous seasons ate
• 50:08
  Speaker 4: up right. And so right before maybe like five minutes
• 50:11
  Speaker 4: we got on. I open my Bible and it's a
• 50:14
  Speaker 4: new Bible, and it fell on you know, Jeremiah thirty three,
• 50:17
  Speaker 4: which speaks about the promise of restoration. And we know,
• 50:20
  Speaker 4: like the three thirty three calling to me, I'll answer
• 50:23
  Speaker 4: be and show you great right all of those things.
• 50:26
  Speaker 4: And the Lord said, this is for her because she
• 50:29
  Speaker 4: doesn't believe that I am truly restoring her in this season.
• 50:33
  Speaker 4: And I need her to know that I said what
• 50:36
  Speaker 4: I said, that I'm not a man that I shall lie.
• 50:39
  Speaker 4: And you know this is the alignment God needs you
• 50:43
  Speaker 4: just to be in. That's why I said. It's simple.
• 50:45
  Speaker 4: He says, this is time for Jessica to be restored.
• 50:48
  Speaker 4: This is your year. And when you really not just
• 50:51
  Speaker 4: see how somebody say it, but you receive it in
• 50:53
  Speaker 4: your heart. Everything that you lost, will we restore, multiplied
• 50:59
  Speaker 4: every vision that He gave you, that you thought you faltered,
• 51:02
  Speaker 4: that you thought you messed up, multiplied, emplified bigger than
• 51:06
  Speaker 4: what you could ever think or imagine. And so what
• 51:09
  Speaker 4: God just wants you to know, Yes, he's proud of you,
• 51:11
  Speaker 4: He's proud of the work that it is that you've
• 51:13
  Speaker 4: been doing. But there's a step more, there's something a
• 51:18
  Speaker 4: little more. And that's something that's a little more is God,
• 51:21
  Speaker 4: this is my time of restoration. It's not gonna look
• 51:24
  Speaker 4: like how it did last time. It's not gonna fail.
• 51:27
  Speaker 4: Everything is working for my good. These aren't just words.
• 51:30
  Speaker 4: This is your time. This is your time. This is
• 51:33
  Speaker 4: your time, and you have to begin to walk like
• 51:36
  Speaker 4: it and begin to look back over what God has
• 51:38
  Speaker 4: shown you, even in this year so far, He says,
• 51:41
  Speaker 4: my hand has not been withheld from you. This year,
• 51:45
  Speaker 4: my hand has not been withheld from you. And so
• 51:48
  Speaker 4: begin to move in agreement with that. Like God, you said,
• 51:52
  Speaker 4: this restoration time. So it ain't even about oh I'm
• 51:55
  Speaker 4: stepping into this, I'm coming to. What my father said
• 51:58
  Speaker 4: is old to me because when it's a restoration, it's recompense, clocket,
• 52:04
  Speaker 4: It's time to get back everything, everything, everything heaviness tried
• 52:09
  Speaker 4: to take from you, everything darkness tried to take from you.
• 52:12
  Speaker 4: It's time that you get your recompense and you be
• 52:15
  Speaker 4: duly rewarded for your service. You're such a servant, you
• 52:19
  Speaker 4: have such a heart for people. But God says, see
• 52:22
  Speaker 4: my heart for you in this restoration. And so that's it.
• 52:26
  Speaker 4: See it was simple. Everybody happy, it's all done.
• 52:30
  Speaker 2: See because when the Lord thought I was talking to you,
• 52:37
  Speaker 2: I'll be getting nervous.
• 52:41
  Speaker 4: No, this is this is a good one. He just
• 52:44
  Speaker 4: wants you to. He just said, it's just basically I said,
• 52:47
  Speaker 4: but I said, that's it. That's it. And so I think,
• 52:51
  Speaker 4: if anything, I value when God does that for me
• 52:55
  Speaker 4: through people, because we hear so much right and we're like, God,
• 53:01
  Speaker 4: how do I know for real for real, for real,
• 53:03
  Speaker 4: for real? Well, God said, for real, for real, for real,
• 53:06
  Speaker 4: for real, for real, this is your time. This is
• 53:08
  Speaker 4: your time, This is your time. And so I'm excited
• 53:11
  Speaker 4: for you because I just know that. It says the
• 53:15
  Speaker 4: path of the righteous somewhere in Proverbs. See I don't
• 53:18
  Speaker 4: know where that is, but somewhere in the early parts
• 53:21
  Speaker 4: the Proverbs, it says that the path of the righteous
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  Speaker 4: get brighter and brighter, like the noonday sun. You've had
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  Speaker 4: some dark seasons, You've had this kind of dim that's
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  Speaker 4: a little light. But then it seemed like he puts
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  Speaker 4: you right back in the dark. But now you're on
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  Speaker 4: the path, it's gonna keep getting brighter and brighter and brighter.
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  Speaker 4: His glory gonna shine on you. You'll be made more beautiful
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  Speaker 4: and beautiful, and then gonna be like, thank God, look
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  Speaker 4: get this good, you get good. Look what are you doing?
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  Speaker 4: He's loving on you, His daughter his queen, right, and
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  Speaker 4: so I'm excited. That's it.
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  Speaker 2: I'm excited to separate. This has been a pleasure. It's like,
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  Speaker 2: I don't know, you're just a brother fresh heiressist, and
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  Speaker 2: I just I'm just so grateful for you. I'm grateful
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  Speaker 2: to have you on the platform that God gave you
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  Speaker 2: a year so you could be here. Because if she
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  Speaker 2: would have gladly gave your know the Lord, that's how
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  Speaker 2: much she don't with Gus.
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  Speaker 4: You're not gonna talk about that. That's a different episode.
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  Speaker 2: People know, baby baby because some rate know how to
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  Speaker 2: say no, okay, she do Okay, listen, you guys. I
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  Speaker 2: hope you guys really was able to take something from
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  Speaker 2: some rate and you might be in a season of transition,
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  Speaker 2: you might be in a season of healing and that
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  Speaker 2: you can take something from her and just say, hey,
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  Speaker 2: you know, God, this was for me. I appreciate you.
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  Speaker 2: DESI ray Listen. When she started talking, I was like, oh,
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  Speaker 2: this is resonating. So does a race started picking up
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  Speaker 2: her note her phone and put write down notes. You guys,
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  Speaker 2: but listen, I'm super excited about what God is doing
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  Speaker 2: in this season. We're half almost halfway through the year,
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  Speaker 2: and so it's not too late for you for you
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  Speaker 2: to go. It's not too late for you to obey God.
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  Speaker 2: It's not too late even in this moment for you
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  Speaker 2: to give God your yes. Okay, And so I love
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  Speaker 2: you guys, I honor you. Thank you for your time,
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  Speaker 2: thank you for showing back up. If you haven't light
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  Speaker 2: coming or subscribe, what are you doing? Like you made
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  Speaker 2: it to the end of the you come to the
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  Speaker 2: end of the road of this episode. But I would
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  Speaker 2: love for you to join the community so you can
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  Speaker 2: stay consistent on these types of conversations. But until next week,
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  Speaker 2: until next time, remember life could be much more simple
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  Speaker 2: if you just say.
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  Speaker 1: Thank you for tuning in to this week's episode. Since
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  Speaker 4: Smith.
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  Speaker 1: I know I won't see you back until next week,
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  Speaker 1: but until then, remember to love always yourself and always
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  Speaker 1: think thank God for one day.
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  Speaker 3: Hey, I know we could be another way. Hey, pray
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  Speaker 3: thank God for another day. Hey, Hey, I'm just thankful
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  Speaker 3: another day. Hey Hey, another day? Oh, another day wise,
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  Speaker 3: another day to get it right, another day to rise up,
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  Speaker 3: another day living another day. We loved ones I always
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  Speaker 3: remember hold it down for a ball one ye