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80: you are the perfect gift · Soul Salon with Ayandastood

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  You have magic to share, and when you are not sharing it, it is not sharing you.
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  When you are not sharing your magic, the magic of the universe is not able to share you.
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  You came here as a generosity, not as a gatekeeping, not as a hoarding, and human beings
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  are the only species that can repress, minimize, reduce, hide from the gifts of our being,
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  from the inherent generosity of what we are here to express, to share, to teach, to embody
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  and to offer.
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  This is all by design. We have, on a systemic level, been taught to shrink ourselves, to
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  reduce and minimize and repress ourselves, to find and seek a false kind of safety in
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  hiding, in silence.
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  And you know that sensation when it's someone's birthday, or maybe it's Christmas or some sort
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  of celebration, and you spend weeks or months thinking up the perfect gift hand and heart
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  made for them. It's not about how much it costs. It's about the thoughtfulness of the
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  gift. Maybe you spend so long sort of studying what they're saying that they are seeking
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  or wanting. Maybe you know that they have this musician that they love, and they would
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  love to go to their favorite concert, but they kind of for the tickets. So you have friends
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  and family all contribute to be able to give them the gift of this concert ticket for their
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  birthday. Or maybe you know that they love a certain kind of food. So you learn how to cook it
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  from their hometown, from their home city. You learn how to make this meal for them. Or maybe
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  they're an avid reader and you get them a book that you just know they'll love and that they've
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  mentioned time and time again. And you get them this book and on the first page you write
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  them a beautiful note. And to anyone on the street, they would maybe see a book being exchanged,
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  but because of your specific relationship with this person, all the stories they've told you about
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  their childhood with reading or all the insight you have into their inner world, into the specificity
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  of their heart, their desires, their needs, their longings. You and that person know, wow,
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  that was the most thoughtful gift. This isn't just a concert ticket. This means the world to me.
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  This is the concert that I always dreamed of going to when I was a child listening to this
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  music in my room singing my lungs out. So you see how the thoughtfulness of that gift is like
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  an intimate conversation between you and that person. You, my darling, have been sent as such a gift,
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  as a deeply thoughtful, planned out, purposeful, prophetic gift for the people who are here to
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  receive exactly what you are here to give. Your curiosities, which you think, oh, my word,
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  I'm all over the place. I care about this and I care about that and isn't it going to be confusing
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  to people? Your specific desires, your specific teachings that call you call to you that you want
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  to express and then maybe you're in the spiritual closet hiding from just how spiritual a person
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  you are or hiding from a belief system you hold, hiding from your astrology gifts or hiding from
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  your ability to be a channel, your ability to see signs because you were taught that it's not
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  safe to express that side of yourself. And yet for the people who are meant to hear your voice,
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  meant to receive your teachings, meant to see your beautiful art or read your stories, be in your
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  worlds. You are a hand and heart mate. You are specifically designed as the perfect gift for those
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  people as the most thoughtful synchronous, magical experience they could ever have hoped for.
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  And so you're overthinking yourself. You're in analysis mode thinking. It's not good enough.
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  I didn't do what this person did. I didn't say it as this person would have said it. I'm not as
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  this is that person comparing yourself to other people, comparing yourself to other people's
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  frequency rather than owning your frequency and allowing that to be magnetic to the people it's meant
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  for. Instead you silence yourself and you repress yourself all tied to trauma, social conditioning,
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  systemic oppression, white supremacy, sexism, homophobia, all the isms, so you know all the isms,
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  colonialism, many different systems that taught you to hide from your true self and that taught you
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  that what you have to share is never going to is never going to be enough in a consumerist culture.
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  There's always this notion that we could have done more, we could have said more and we then
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  define ourselves in terms of lack instead of in terms of what is present. And I would invite you
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  where in my life am I defining myself and my experience based on what is missing. This is
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  something we do as humans. So because you are this delicious and divine gift for the people who
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  are meant to receive you, but then what happens? We start to see ourselves in the eyes of the people
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  who were never even meant to receive our gifts. We define ourselves based on what bullies have said
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  or what unsupported family members or parents have said, which is a deep pain because that's
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  ultimately who we wanted acceptance from and needed acceptance from in our most critical stages
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  of early childhood and development. But now not all of you have parents who you came here to be the
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  perfect gift for in terms of your message and your magic and your art, but now you're defining your
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  work based on people who didn't come to earth to receive it. What would it mean to define your
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  voice based on the loving listeners who are hot made like their hearts are so open to exactly what
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  you are here to drop in, what you are here to mirror back to them, what you are here to reflect and
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  help them remember and return to. So whose voice, whose opinion are you allowing to shape who you
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  then and how you then share your magic? Not every frequency is for everyone and that's by design,
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  but are you limiting the power of yours, the power of your expression based on people who didn't
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  even come to earth to receive it? You know what I mean? Like there are people who would think why
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  when you get me a concert ticket, I don't even like concerts, but does that mean that wasn't the
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  most magical gift in the world to give to that specific person? So babes, we are no longer defining
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  ourselves based on people who didn't even come to earth to receive what we are here to give and
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  there's no shade to that. I think we all came into earth school with specific gifts, specific
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  lessons were here to teach, embody, receive, experience. And if you think about it, for example,
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  when I see a full moon, I stop in my tracks, I stop in my tracks, I'm with the moon in that moment,
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  I'm like, oh my word, that is breathtaking. And I've been with people who just keep walking and
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  then I'm like, oh my word, look, the moon, like, isn't that so magnificent? And they're kind of in
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  different to it, no shade, no superiority. There are other things that they would see that I would
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  look past. So what does it mean? Does that make the moon any less magical that one person walked
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  past it and thought I was kind of weird for wanting to have a moment with the moon? Or is the moon
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  magical pulling in the tides, giving us cycles, giving us, I actually don't know the science of
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  the moon so much, but huge astrological and energetic power, she knows this, of course.
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  And some people just didn't come to earth to have a moment with the moon. Does that make the moon
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  any less magical? Should the moon say, you know what I'm going to do? If that person can't appreciate
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  me, then no one will. I'm just going to hide. I'm just never going to show myself. I'm never going
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  to be a full moon. Why would I be full when I could be not full? Why would I show myself when I could
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  hide? Because some people may think what I do doesn't even matter. Some people may think it's
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  just another rock in the sky. No, no, no, no, no. Some souls have come to earth to be in reverence
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  of the moon, to devote themselves to the study of the astrological and moon canndan cycle. I don't
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  know about the moon, but I think the metaphor can stand. Some souls have come here to walk into a room
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  and think, oh my word, the lighting. I'm always like this in place. I'm like, the lighting, like,
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  wow, I love amber lighting. I'm like, ooh, it's a cozy vibe here. It's a sensual vibe here. I've
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  come here for this. Now the people just walk into the room like it's just a room. You know what I mean?
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  That's okay. That's okay, but does the lighting? That's okay. Some souls have come here to be in
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  awe of different forms of music, and that music is completely, prophetically designed for those souls.
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  So we need to be careful to not define ourselves, our gifts in terms of people who again didn't
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  come here to receive them. But no, you, my love, people have come here to receive you.
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  And this metaphor came to me that I hope serves you. You know how when you love a song, you like,
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  ooh, what's that song? Shazamit and you added to a playlist sometimes. Like you curate a mood
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  through a playlist and a lot of algorithms now do this, but I like to do that. I love creating
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  and curating playlists. And you know that feeling when you hear a song and it feels so essential,
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  it feels like it said everything that you didn't know how to say, or it gave you a frequency,
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  you didn't even know you needed. This is how I feel about the musical group Beautiful Chorus,
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  who I mentioned often, because I didn't even know I was looking for music like this. I couldn't
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  have, I wasn't walking around the streets like I wonder how I can find loving, soulful,
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  affirming music that always returns me to love, returns me to this glistening, glittering feeling
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  that I'm more than enough and I am divine and I'm loved and I'm just sacred and my inner child
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  is safe and I deserve to be loved. Like I didn't know I was looking for that until it presented itself
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  to me. And I thought to myself, oh my word, what is me, why haven't I been listening to this?
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  And they returned something essential to me. They brought me into a deeper relationship with what
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  actually my soul actually came here to experience, oh my word, what a gift. So my love,
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  I save their songs to the playlist. I'm like, okay, I can listen to this, I can journal with this,
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  I can, when I'm feeling down, I can listen to this, when I'm feeling up, I can listen to this.
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  Okay, lovely. So I have a theory that we all came here as soul songs. We all are an embodiment
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  of a specific frequency message, a specific vibration and this shifts, this is okay.
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  And there are some people who, when they receive your soul song, the frequency of your being,
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  your essence, ah, are they not going to shazam that so quickly? Are they not going to say,
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  who made that song? What song is that? How can I listen to more? They're going to go to the
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  radio of the song, you know, where the algorithm says, oh, if you like the song, you'll like these
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  songs. There is something so essential about what you came here to say to them, what you came
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  here to offer them, what you came here to embody, just your essence, just your presence. I have
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  people who, just literally their energy, I'm like, oh, I don't even have to say a word, it's their
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  essence. And I wrote about this on my newsletter, which is a vibe, I must say, so please do join us
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  there. But there are people who, when they experience what you came here to embody, give, share,
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  teach, draw, paint, metaphorically, and literally they are going to save that onto their soul
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  playlist and they are going to feel more themselves because of it. They're going to feel closer to
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  all the things that their soul actually came here to experience. They're going to feel closer to
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  love, closer to light, closer to truth. Whatever they came here to experience, we're not all seeking
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  the same vibration. So someone is seeking, they don't even know, just like, I didn't know I was
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  seeking for beautiful chorus, I did not know, I could not have told you, I could not have told you,
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  I could not have said, I could not have thought, I could not have thanked until it was revealed to me
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  and I thought, oh, my word, this is everything that I've been looking for that I didn't even know I
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  needed. So when you create more surface area for people to connect with you through whatever
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  that means to you, someone is going to experience your voice, we don't know when it's going to be
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  some Tuesday in November 20th, we don't know, but they're going to experience you, you're going to
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  tell a story, you're going to say something, you're going to do something, it might not even be the
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  thing that you thought you were doing, this is the trick, we never know that random thing that
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  sticks with us forever that someone says and they think the point was this, but what you receive
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  from it was just that tiny little story they told that they didn't even think was the point,
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  they thought they were going off on a tangent. Someone finds your tangents essential, they're so
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  sung. So if people are seeking resonance, which was what we're all seeking, I feel like in the
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  collective there's a huge even the language, oh, she really resonates with me, she didn't
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  really resonate with me, that really resonated with me. Resonance is very alive right now and has
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  been for a few years I feel in the collective consciousness, we are seeking resonance.
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  Someone is seeking a resonance that only you can bring them. Someone is seeking to add your soul
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  song to their soul playlist and they will never fully feel or that they came here to feel all the
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  magic, all the light, all the miracles, all the blessings, all the remembrance, all the love,
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  all the healing, they will never fully feel the full capacity of what they came here to feel
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  if you do not offer them your soul song. There will always be more joy left on the table that they
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  could have felt, more abundance they could have experienced, more resonance they could have tapped
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  into. Had you offered them your soul song, which in turn is also in a sense, they're soul song,
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  we make this musical playlist together. So my loves, I know it can feel daunting to speak your
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  voice into the world, whatever you feel called, however you feel called, maybe you want to start a
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  podcast, maybe you want to write a book. I believe we all long to express something, doesn't
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  mean we all long for a certain number of followers or that we all want to be seen in the digital realm,
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  but each of us came here to be seen. And I could mean that in conversation, you're in conversation
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  with someone and they just see you, oh my goodness, and the opposite is our wound, is our pain,
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  is the feeling of not feeling seen, not feeling heard, not feeling recognized, that's one of the
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  core wounds, that's one of the core wounds we experience is not feeling seen, there's many,
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  but that's one of them is being alone in the crowd, right? You're surrounded by people, but you
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  don't resonate with them. So you feel even more lonely, you feel even more isolated. You offer a
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  bit of connection, you tell a little story, and what do they do? Maybe they make it about themselves.
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  So there's a lack of resonance is a lack of understanding, we also haven't been socialized,
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  we haven't been taught how to listen, we've only been taught really how to speak.
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  So I know that it can sometimes feel daunting to speak your voice in the way you feel cold,
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  but please know that of all the music that the universe and cosmos could have offered,
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  it also offered you. Of all the divine sound and vibration that could have existed,
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  it chose to express itself through you, through the vibration of your frequency, your soul song,
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  your stories. You have been so chosen, and I know many of us carry the wound of like you don't
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  feel chosen. Like why is no one choosing me? When will it be my turn to be chosen? Life has already
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  chosen you. The cosmos has already chosen you. Earth has already chosen you. How many particles
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  of air are conspiring for you to be able to breathe right now? How many cells in your body
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  are doing the Lord's work, keeping you alive? Life has chosen you. We will never fully understand
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  how staggering the chances of each of us being alive right now are. It's actually unfathomable.
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  I do not think we can wrap our heads around it, but in that mystery, in that miracle of all the
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  possibilities that could have emerged, what emerged? You, your voice, your experiences, and what
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  you've made of them. Isn't that prophecy? Wouldn't you meant to be here? And if you were meant to be
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  here, wouldn't you meant to be here to make yourself known? And I don't mean that in this
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  you could choose that, but I don't necessarily want to impose that desire on anyone. It's kind of a
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  desire that is very alive to many of us growing up in this age of social media and such things,
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  but I just mean at the end of our lives, I just think we will want to have felt that we made ourselves
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  known and knowable in the ways that we felt called to. We said what we felt called to say.
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  We did what we felt called to do. We expressed what we felt called to express. And in that,
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  we became part of the chorus of healing, part of the chorus of loving, part of the chorus of change.
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  I'm going to close the soul session by saying you are prophetic, you have been chosen
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  and someone is seeking to reach for your vibration, to reach for your voice in ways that
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  you cannot fully see right now. Please hold the faith, hold the vision,
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  and keep believing in the prophecy, in the possibility, and in the deep purposefulness of what you
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  came here to say. I'm sending you so much love today. May you be brave with your voice. May you be
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  loving to yourself and to other sentient beings. And may you recognize your own cosmic divinity
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  because it is in that recognition that you will refuse to collaborate with anything or anyone
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  that makes you feel small, that makes you feel insignificant, that makes you feel like you are not
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  possible, and you will choose instead to co-create with people, voices, teachings, experiences
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  that bring you to life, that feel like home, and you feel like home, you are the home that someone
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  is longing to come home to, you are the coziness, you are the blanket that someone is just going to
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  and that sip of tea which just goes down so perfectly, you offer that to people, you are that to
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  people, and I hope that you recognize that, and I hope that you move from that place within you
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  that already knows this is true, and this is just a remembrance. It's nothing you don't already know.
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  Okay, I'm sending you so, so much love, so, so much expansion, so much possibility, so much faith,
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  so much bravery and courage, you've got this, whatever this is, and if your calling right now is
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  to rest and receive, may you feel eternally worthy of rest, someone in our community needed to hear
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  that. I'm sending you so, so much love, if you would like to stay in touch with me, and my teachings
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  and my voice, the best way to do that is to join my newsletter, there'll be a link below, but you
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  can visit my website, I understood.com, and you will receive a free ebook on visibility if this speaks
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  to you, and even if you don't feel called to be seen, there's a lot of gems on the newsletter that
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  can support and help you expand and shift into more of what you are seeking to remember that
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  you already are holding the paradox, holding the tension, because that's where we dance, that's
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  where we find rebirth, renewal, life, aliveness. I'm sending you so, so much love, and I will see you
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  on the next soul session. I love you, bye. My darling, my love, my soul sibling, thank you for stepping
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  into the soul salon, if you are still hearing or watching this, we are soul siblings, we are
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  resonating on the same frequency, and so, something you may struggle with that I struggle with
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  is the fear of being seen. You know that visibility is involved in you living your creative
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  purpose and being in your power, serving the collective through your gifts, through your magic,
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  through your medicine, in order to do that, you know you need to be more seen than you are allowing
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  yourself to be right now. I have a gift just for you, heart made for us on this frequency,
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  and it is a free ebook called the soulful visibility guide, that is soulful visibility. Like,
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  we don't just want to be seen, we want to be felt, we want to be heard, we want to move and be
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  moved. So I do have a free gift for you, and all you need to do is go to my website,
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  I understood dot com, and there you will be able to input your email address and receive this
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  directly to your inbox. This is such a juicy and delicious guide, and I change the free
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  offering every few months, so, you know, get it while you can. All the links are in the show notes,
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  so thank you so much, I love you, and I will see you on the next sole session, okay? I love you, bye!