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S5 119. Anita Sileoni Pt. 2 – Visions, Dreams & Pulsating Light · Millennial Mustard Seed

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  Hello folks. This is Princess.
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  You are listening to the Millennial Mustard Seed Podcast.
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  Thanks for listening. Don't forget to share with your
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  friends. That's tough.
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  We're in a very tough spot. I think that what we're doing
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  right now is a great benefit and virtue because it's an end
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  around between this whole corrupt informational system,
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  media system. We claim to believe in a God who
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  spoke the universe into existence and literally raised
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  himself from the dead, and yet we're not going to believe that
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  anything else exists in the spirit realm, even though His
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  word tells us that they do. Their bodies weren't permitted
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  to go to sleep like humans do, and they weren't permitted to go
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  to heaven. So they wander the earth, you
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  know, I've seen the eyes turn black to unknown tongues being
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  spoken. These giants would love way up
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  in the Highland. The young Braves, The young men
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  would hide up in the trees and wait for one of these 12 footers
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  to come walking down the path, and they would jump on them and
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  kill them, drag them back to the village and the village would
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  feast on the body. Freedom.
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  Then people start to get weapons.
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  They start to get armor. They start to build cities.
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  They start to fortify their cities.
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  Now God looks down and there's violence everywhere.
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  The battle, this war that we are at, is not against each other.
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  It's against these principalities and these rulers
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  and these archons in the high places.
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  It's. Really worthwhile to read the
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  Bible yourself. Fear is one of the primary
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  drivers of mind control, because we have to take every thought
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  captive and resist fear. You're going to have a testimony
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  that is a justice case against the Kingdom of Darkness.
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  Welcome back to the Millennium Mustard Seed.
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  I am your host Rod and thank you for being here with me for
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  another awesome episode. I'm joined by Anita and we have
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  quite an interesting conversation.
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  We dive into supernatural dreams and visions that she has been
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  having ever since 2020. There was a supernatural
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  experience one of her children had in 2020 that kind of
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  launched the whole family into becoming more sensitive to what
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  God was showing them through the supernatural realm and
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  encounters. This episode is filled with
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  insights and wisdom and fascinating experiences that
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  Anita has had and her children who are having experiences as
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  well that are gifted and sensitive in the spirit.
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  And these are the kind of episodes that are really
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  important and close to my heart, because it's always refreshing
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  to have a deep believer who was not afraid or ashamed to testify
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  on some of the stranger things that they experience relating to
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  dreams and visions. It's kind of unchartered
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  territory for most people, but it flows naturally with Anita,
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  and the whole conversation is just built around building up
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  and sharing this light. One of the portions of this
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  vision, or a dream it might be that a friend of hers had, was
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  every time Anita spoke that light was pulsating and surging
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  out from her mouth because God was using her to reach the
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  people that only she can reach. So much has happened behind the
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  scenes, but she was on season four, episode 66.
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  I titled that one My Supernatural Life and Worship Is
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  My Weapon, just to fill you guys in on how cool God is and how he
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  works behind the scenes when it doesn't always make sense to us
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  and we don't realize what's going on.
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  In a nutshell, what happened is Doctor Laura prophesied over the
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  book. Anita comes on the podcast,
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  Carly hears that episode that encourages her to pray and to
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  reach out to me to see if she can get on the podcast.
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  Carly ends up coming on, and Carly is one of the driving
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  factors in helping me finish the book.
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  As soon as the book arrives, Anita takes it with her to
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  minister to women who have been sexually abused and who have
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  been rescued from human trafficking.
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  That's such a powerful testimony.
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  All of this happened behind the scenes.
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  I didn't find out and connect all these pieces together until
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  recently, and my mom was just kind of blown.
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  I was praising God and just marvelling and it was causing me
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  to wonder what else are you doing?
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  God behind the scenes that we just don't get.
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  We don't always need to understand everything but when
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  we get a glimpse of it, in my opinion it is super encouraging
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  and just fascinating to see how he webs and weaves all of this
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  together. Quick shout out to bro David and
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  his wife Jalisa. I play a song at the end of this
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  episode that they did together and it is a banner.
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  Also if you guys have not left me a five star rating and review
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  on your favorite podcast catcher, do that helps the
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  algorithm. It helps us find one more person
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  just like me and you and I think it's about time to get into this
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  episode because I am ready. Are you guys ready?
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  Let's go. Let's.
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  Go. Hi everyone.
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  My name is Anita, and I am here with Rod on the millennial
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  mustard. Anita, it is an honor to be back
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  with you for a Part 2. This is a long time coming.
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  It's just my honor that you reached out to me a second time.
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  I really love sharing and I really hope that the Lord is
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  able to use me as we get caught up and also just as His word
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  goes forth. You know, it's the willingness
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  and the humility that qualifies us in so many ways.
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  And it's God who works in and through us to bring His will to
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  come about and just what we were talking about off air, which
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  will fill the audience in. We're kind of going with the
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  flow, allowing the spirit to just lead this conversation.
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  You were mentioning some really cool stuff going on with your
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  son's school. You were talking about, you know
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  some feedback from the words are salt book and then you had
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  shared a dream. So let's just kind of lay that
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  as a quick premises to get into this conversation.
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  Let's recap on all of that. All right, so my son was
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  accepted for his first semester, for his first year at Jesus
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  Image College in Orlando, FL. And it's been an adjustment.
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  He's our first born, and he's just like the heart of our
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  family. Not to say anything about my
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  other sins. They all have their they add so
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  much to each one of them and they're so unique.
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  And it's just something about your first son going away that
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  kind of rips your heart out. But we knew that he had such a
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  calling in his life. Two years before I even had
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  heard about Jesus image, he had a word spoken over him and they
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  said Jesus image, and I didn't even know what that was.
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  But then as I heard a preaching from Michael Corleanos and I, it
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  pulled me in so much. It was in 2020 that the Lord was
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  already opening my eyes to so much more and showing me who I
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  was in the Spirit. And I think that we kind of
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  don't realize who we are until we have this awakening.
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  And it was. It was a pretty harsh awakening.
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  It was just full, full speed since 2020.
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  But as we launched him out, that the years from 2020 to now, even
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  the Lord has just been pouring out prophecy, but also teaching
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  us how to walk in humility with what we're learning and what
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  we're seeing. And it's an honor to even have
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  any kind of dream vision or, you know, word from the Lord because
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  it just shows that he trusts us. And so it's like, well, God,
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  thank you because you trust me with this.
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  And even though I don't understand and, you know, I
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  don't ever want to speak a word over somebody and that it comes
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  from me, and then he's just purifying us as a family over
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  the years. And so it's been really good
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  experience to, you know, FaceTime our son and just find
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  out what God is doing in him. And he's such a man of God, and
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  he's so young. My other son, my 17 year old,
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  That's home. We kind of been on this road to
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  where the Lord is just purifying us.
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  And then we give that to the rest of my two younger boys and
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  then to my husband and my husbands.
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  Not a stranger to prophetic things.
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  I never thought that it was something that the Lord was
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  going to give me. He's the one that gets the
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  words. He's the one that gets the
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  dreams. And then when it started
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  happening to me in 2020, I was like, God was showing me this is
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  who you are, you know, this is who you've always been.
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  You just didn't know that some of the things you did, those
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  were things that were in you. But I do feel like he had me
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  hidden, even for myself, for my own self, if that, if that makes
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  sense. And I do think it was for my
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  protection. And so there's a lot of times in
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  your childhood you'll you'll see things, experience things, but
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  you don't really understand or know.
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  And I really do believe that it's because he gives us these
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  different stages and different seasons, but he knows what we
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  can handle. And he knows when we're really
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  like walking with him, He really does protect us from things that
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  could harm us so badly in the future.
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  But there are things that we do pass through because without
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  going through those things, we would not be prepared for what
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  he has for our future. And so just walking through
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  that, knowing that the Lord has His hand on my family and on our
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  kids, there's just so much. But I just even just encouraging
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  others to If there's things that you're holding on to that the
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  Lord is saying to let it go. It's it's really for your
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  benefit. And so it was really hard to let
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  my son go. I'm like of all the schools you
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  have to go all the way on the other side you know and but I
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  just I know that that's what he needed not just worse his you
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  know his calling but also to grow and become a man and the
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  the man of God that that he is meant to be.
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  And so when he when he shares things with me, I'm all ears.
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  Even when my youngest comes up to me and he shares things I I
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  really believe that we can learn from anybody that we should
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  never be above ourselves when when a child comes and gives us
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  a word or a child comes in and wants to give us wisdom And so I
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  live in that daily I mean there is as a mother I do have I mean
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  there's where OK you're let me you're you're being
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  disrespectful or you know you're going over the crossing the
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  line. But I always make it open to
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  where it's not like, oh, I said so because I said so no.
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  If there's something I need to say, I'll explain it.
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  But then I'll also let them tell me how they feel about it.
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  And I think just at a young age, keeping them close like that to
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  me has flourished into such a beautiful relationship with both
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  of my sons. And so even though my oldest is
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  far, it's been really nice to he'll send us voice voice memos.
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  He'll FaceTime us and just it's incredible what God is doing and
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  how he's he is really establishing, establishing him
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  in the word and in the Lord. And it was it's so beautiful to
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  watch because he in 2021, he really God prepared him even to
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  go to school. So it wasn't like where he's
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  experiencing change there. He God was already preparing him
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  here. And so it's just, but like I
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  said, it's not easy, but it really is part of that letting
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  go and and really letting God, trusting God that he has the
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  best for our kids, especially when they go off to college.
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  Just at a prayer meet this past weekend.
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  So when we get together as a body, we have people coming from
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  different states, from New York, from Virginia, all over PA And
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  it's like the book of Acts. We don't do any teaching.
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  There's no reading from the Bible.
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  We get together and we humble ourselves and we pray.
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  And during this, we have some soft music on in the background.
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  And my son Adam is literally doing interpretive dance in the
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  middle of this prayer. And we're marvelling and just
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  praising God, because right away it also reminded me of your part
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  one that did so much behind the scenes.
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  And you know, I labeled that episode.
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  You know, worship is my weapon, you know, And it's like I'm
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  reflecting a little bit, remembering, you know, some
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  climactical points from the first time you were on air with
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  me. And you know how you grew up,
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  everything that you went through.
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  And now to see you as a mother releasing your, your eldest,
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  your first born, into the hands of the Lord, trusting that God
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  has a plan for his life. I can only imagine if this
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  reaches 1 or 100 women or fathers out there who are in a
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  similar situation. We are doing the right thing
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  here. So it's just beautiful to hear,
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  you know, your journey and heart on what's been going on recently
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  with your eldest boy, literally a future Kingdom shaker and
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  Kingdom builder, so. He said his favorite thing is
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  not just the worship part, but I'm going out to evangelize on
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  the streets. And he says he's seen, so he's
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  seen God heal like instantly and he's like, this is amazing.
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  But he said it, it was just him and his friend.
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  After they started seeing like the fruit of it.
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  Then they had more people go out with them.
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  So he plays, he's, he plays a lot of instruments, but he tried
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  out for the worship team. He's like mom, I got in.
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  He doesn't know yet for what if it's for voice or for the
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  guitar. But I'm like, it's just
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  beautiful to see that because it's something that he's wanted
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  to do, but he didn't. He went in so humbly and really
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  like God prepares us because when we take on a platform in in
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  ministry, we have to have that solid foundation.
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  Because then, you know, just going into to worship, we were
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  never meant for worship. We're meant to actually usher in
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  the presence of the Lord. And the way that you build an
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  altar that, well, what we're supposed to do is we're supposed
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  to build an altar. And then when that altar is
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  built, that's when the Spirit comes in.
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  That's when Jesus can come and set on his throne.
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  And we have to have that oil. We have to have that intimacy.
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  And actually it's not for the people.
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  We're not there for the people because we can't give people
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  anything. We can give our oil poor, our
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  oil of worship. And the oil is our time, right,
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  what we give our attention to. And it's like that intimacy in
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  the secret place is what produces that fragrance, that
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  the suffering that we go through produces the fragrance of our
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  worship through our obedience. And that's a huge thing.
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  And I don't think it's talked about very much just through our
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  obedience that is worship to the Lord And and that's a fragrance.
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  And so I had one of my mentors tell me the the things that that
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  I walk through, the suffering, everything that all the things
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  that I walked through, it's like she said she saw this vase and
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  there was a top covering the oil that was in the vase.
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  But there's going to come a time where he lifts up the cork
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  that's holding in the fragrance of that oil, and it's going to
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  pour out and the fragrance it will release in its time.
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  If you think about what you walk through, the suffering, the
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  tears, the labor, and when you're doing it unto the Lord,
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  and and in the times where we don't understand what he's
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  doing, it's like he's holding all that in a jar.
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  He's saving all of that in our obedience, you know, as as we
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  worship him, not just through music but through everything
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  else. He holds that and it becomes a
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  beautiful fragrance and in his time he releases that.
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  It's really a wonder and how all of these things work and.
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  You had shared this heartwarming, prophetic thing
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  that was spoken to you from a mentor about a dream that they
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  had. Now, this person in particular
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  didn't know that you were coming back on the podcast, but can you
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  just kind of take it from there and tell us about this?
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  Was it a dream or a vision? She said that she had a dream
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  that I was on this podcast, the Millennium Mustard Seed, and
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  that I was sharing. And then all of a sudden as I
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  was speaking, I was speaking on just the visions and the
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  obedience to the Lord that you know, things that I've walked
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  through. And all of a sudden she saw just
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  these bursts, bright, vibrant color, just color.
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  And as I continue to speak, they were just flashing different
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  colors everywhere and it looked like a rainbow.
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  The more I spoke, the more of the colors got more vibrant and
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  there were just sporadic bursts all over the place.
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  And then towards the end of the dream, it was just a really big
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  black, like just rays of color just blasting.
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  And it was almost blinding to the eyes.
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  She actually just today told me this dream because she told me
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  about it after I had said, hey, I'm going to be, you know, doing
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  a Part 2, would you pray for me? And she said yes.
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  And then she says I had a dream about you a few weeks ago before
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  you told me that you were going to be on for Part 2.
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  So it's pretty amazing. And so I was sharing with my son
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  and I told him, I said, would you pray for me, I'm going to do
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  a Part 2. And I just wanted to be all for
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  the Lord. And I want every single word
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  that I speak to be for the Lord. And then I shared the dream that
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  my friend had about me with him. And he says, Mom, he's like
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  those bursts that the colors. He's like, that's the glory.
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  So when you speak, it is the Lord.
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  You're speaking words at his glory in the Spirit.
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  That's what's happening. His glory is coming out through
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  the words that you speak. And so it was just this
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  beautiful confirmation. And you know, it reminds me,
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  Doctor Robert talked about the power of our voice when we're
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  fulfilling our scroll, this heavenly scroll that's written
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  about us. And the more that the Father is
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  trusting us because, you know, we're walking these things out.
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  We're suffering in in certain ways and we're being obedient
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  and we're following the call. And many are called, few are
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  chosen, right. So there's like this process and
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  the closer we get, the more of the Father's voice comes through
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  us. You know, Carly's been on the
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  show, Carly Tebs and her husband Prince was on a couple episodes
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  back, but it was your part one that Carly testified to me,
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  Anita, that caused her to pray and then end up reaching out to
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  me. Now behind the scenes, most
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  people don't actually know, but Carly helped me with spelling in
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  the book. Her and her husband have been
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  just unparalleled and just continual support and prayer and
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  just encouragement through some really crazy stuff.
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  You know, I lost my job about four or five months ago.
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  Not to share too many details on air, but I went through some
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  stuff. I've been going through some
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  stuff people don't always understand.
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  The cost of walking in humility, getting refined by the fire,
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  going through this fire in order to have his fire burning down
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  inside of us and for that to pour out.
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  So I just wanted you to know that your obedience, your
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  willingness, your humility for part one, that opened a whole
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  ripple effect of getting me connected with with ministries
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  and and prayer warriors, prayer teams and halfway across the
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  country. So praise God for that humbling.
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  Very humbling. Wow, that's beautiful.
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  And it's just through our obedience that he works through
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  that. And it's like, there's even
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  things that I'm like, we're so focused on.
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  I just want to obey God. I just want to be.
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  I can't believe I'm doing this or I don't want to do this
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  anymore or help me through this struggle that I'm that I'm
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  having. I just want obedience,
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  obedience. But then it's like, once you
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  realize that it's just surrendering, that's all it is.
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  It's not like, oh, I got to try so hard.
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  I got to be perfect. I have to do this.
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  I have to do. And just kind of like putting
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  shame on your own self, it's actually just laying it down at
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  his feet and saying, God, I trust you, I trust you.
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  The solution is intimacy. Just that time alone with the
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  Lord, just pointing out to him through through our groaning and
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  you know, just sometimes the cry, the ugly cries that you
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  can't even get words out, just like those sounds of of just
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  laying it down and just bringing all that to the feet of Jesus.
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  And really that's that's how we overcome, because then we are no
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  longer fighting for ourselves and we're actually giving it
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  over to Jesus because he's already has victory.
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  So then the enemy, he can't fight us anymore because we're
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  not fighting in our own strength.
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  We're actually saying no, God is fighting my battle and he
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  already has the victory and you tremble before him.
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  So you can't come at me because he's my defender, because I'm
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  not fighting my own battles anymore.
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  I I laid that down at the feet of Jesus.
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  So now you aren't my enemy anymore.
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  You're God's enemy, and he's already defeated you.
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  And so when you put it into perspective like that, it's like
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  you don't have to be afraid. You don't have to strive.
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  You can just go and rest in the arms of the Father.
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  You can just go and rest in that place of hiddenness.
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  And so I did want to talk a little bit.
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  There's so much going on with people calling other people out
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  and church hurt and people leaving the church and leaving
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  the body. And it's like, I get that.
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  I mean, I grew up, my parents were leaders in the church and
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  I've seen all the things. I mean all the things.
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  I could blame the church for my dad leaving because he had
• 22:29
  nobody, like he would always fight and be there for other
• 22:33
  people through their stuff. But then when it came to him, he
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  was deserted. He just was lost.
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  And I could blame the church for that, but but I people are
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  broken and people a lot of times don't understand.
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  And it's like I'm, I chose not to have that offense, not to
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  carry that on my shoulders because people are broken and
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  sometimes you can do things that are hurtful to others and not
• 22:56
  even realize it. And so I tread lightly because
• 23:00
  talking about that only because I don't know how many times I've
• 23:04
  hurt somebody or said something and not meant it that way or in
• 23:07
  my ignorance, you know, did something that that really
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  wounded someone else. And so I'm always asking God to
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  show me our Holy Spirit to make me really sensitive to those
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  things so that I don't use my words to harm the body.
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  And I've heard you say that before that we're we're not
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  meant to to harm the bride. We don't want that.
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  We're not the voice of the accuser.
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  We should never stand on the line of bringing shame.
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  That's one of the things that I've been walking through too
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  because there's a lot of millennials that are going
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  through a church or and there is a line.
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  There is there is a point if you're experiencing spiritual
• 23:47
  abuse or any kind of abuse, there is definitely where where
• 23:52
  you have to sometimes walk away. But I do believe that God leads
• 23:56
  us in that and that he does bring us people that will that
• 24:00
  can mentor us into that and brings us really close with
• 24:03
  people that we can trust. And but really I heard this
• 24:06
  recently where if you need a vent to somebody, go to the feet
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  of Jesus and tell him everything because he knows.
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  And then you can get it out and then you can move on with
• 24:17
  because because the enemy wants to divide us.
• 24:20
  The enemy wants us to have misunderstandings and hurt each
• 24:23
  other. And the biggest thing you can do
• 24:26
  for church, church, her immunity is Jesus.
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  That is the immunity because we no longer have our identity or
• 24:34
  it's not about what we can do, but it's about what he can do
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  and what he gave us. The best example?
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  People didn't even know that Judas was the one that would be
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  trained because he did the same thing.
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  He treated him just as much as with much love as He did with
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  all the other disciples, but he knew that he was the one that
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  would betray him, and yet he still loved him.
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  Wow, it's powerful. You know, an open rebuke is
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  better than a hidden love. I have a lot of love for the
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  bride, and I've been learning and trying to have the humility
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  and connect this together. You know, using language to get
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  other people to open their eyes. That, and I and I have been
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  rough in the past on this topic, Anita, where I I was angry at
• 25:22
  churches on every single corner in my local cities all across
• 25:26
  the country. But yet, you know, there's no
• 25:29
  positioning to actually help God's people.
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  It's like a selective club. And I kind of was being a little
• 25:35
  bit rough about it. And I got a rebuke from a
• 25:37
  brother in Christ. You know, my brother Klaus, he
• 25:40
  says to me, it would be better to actually be the example of
• 25:44
  what's right instead of talking about what you see that's wrong.
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  And I'm going, bro, that's what I live by, like.
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  But I didn't see it. I was just in this place of
• 25:52
  frustration. I'm going, they're poisoning our
• 25:55
  food, They're poisoning our culture, all this all this
• 25:57
  different stuff. The churches are taking in
• 25:59
  tithes that, like, if you go to one church service at certain
• 26:03
  places, you'll see, oh, they have this huge budgets, right?
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  Oh, we, we got this much money, but there's no actual land for
• 26:09
  us to grow our food on. There's no actual place where we
• 26:12
  can have peace and rest, right? Every It's like every man for
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  himself. There's no unity.
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  And I was disturbed by that. But when Klaus rebuked me, he
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  did it in love, and he did it in a way that I already knew.
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  I agreed with him because of the spirit that's in me.
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  And I'm like, man, we have to show by example and just do it
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  and be what God is calling us to be, and other churches will
• 26:35
  follow suit. That's what we believe is going
• 26:37
  to happen. But the humility is like this.
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  It's a funny thing because it's not wrong what I was saying.
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  It's just about how I was delivering it.
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  And I'm like, man, So just because we have a revelation on
• 26:51
  something doesn't mean that we can just get away with having
• 26:55
  whatever spirit on us. We want a spirit of anger about
• 26:58
  it or frustration. No, we have to bring everything,
• 27:00
  like you said, Anita, to the feet of Jesus and rest in him,
• 27:04
  because if it's God's will, it's God's bill.
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  I've heard Marcus say that before, right?
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  You know, and I've been saying stuff lately like if God is
• 27:12
  pleased with it, God will breathe on it and grow it.
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  And so all of this is making sense in that way.
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  But I I felt compelled to share that, to make myself vulnerable
• 27:22
  and show some humility because that that literally just
• 27:24
  happened the other week. That's really good and and I
• 27:27
  think that's such a key vulnerability and I have a story
• 27:31
  about that. But before I share that I want
• 27:34
  to I can go back to just what we're talking about the humility
• 27:38
  and and how to stay above that. The immunity for church hurt.
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  And my son actually he was talking about how Saul threw the
• 27:48
  spirit at David and the only way to dodge that spear of offence
• 27:55
  is to go low. That's the only way.
• 27:58
  And so we don't carry armor on our back, right?
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  So the only way that we can dodge the arrows that are that
• 28:07
  are coming for us through our, you know, to the back where we
• 28:10
  can't see is really to go low, 'cause you go low and you dodge
• 28:13
  all of it. It's all that you can't.
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  It can't touch you. And that's also the place of
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  rest and and hiddenness. And so I want to read it's First
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  Samuel, Chapter 18, verse 10 and 11.
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  And this is the new King James Version.
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  It says, and it happened on the next day, that the distressing
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  spirit from God came upon Saul and he prophesied in the house.
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  So David played music with his hand, as at the other times.
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  But there was a spear in Saul's hand, and Saul cast the spirit,
• 28:46
  for he said, I will pin David to the wall.
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  But David escaped his presence twice.
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  And so I mean the perfect example of humility when dealing
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  with people that have more authority than you do is really
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  to go low. There have been times where the
• 29:05
  Lord, like, literally words came out of my mouth, not really in
• 29:10
  my defense, but but I felt the Holy Spirit on it because there
• 29:14
  was this, like, almost righteous anger.
• 29:16
  And although it may not in that moment people recognize it, I
• 29:21
  knew what it was in my belly and I spoke it and I don't regret
• 29:24
  it. I didn't even feel any shame
• 29:27
  about it. And those are the times where I
• 29:30
  know that God has used me to stand up and speak and say
• 29:33
  something. But right now the season that he
• 29:35
  has me in is he wants me to go even lower than I've gone
• 29:38
  before. And because that's where I'm
• 29:41
  going to stay away from the Spears, you know, the arrows of
• 29:44
  the enemy. Because if I see somebody
• 29:46
  hurting somebody else, I want to speak justice over that.
• 29:50
  And I want to defend, especially if it's something coming against
• 29:55
  any youth that I know like from church or in the community, like
• 29:59
  I will fight tooth and nail for them for their protection.
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  But. And there are times where God
• 30:05
  has used me in that way, but what he's wanting me to do in
• 30:08
  this season is to even go lower. And so there's some big things
• 30:12
  that I actually felt the Holy Spirit tell me to let go of.
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  And it's kind of like, but God, that's like my baby.
• 30:20
  You know, you gave me this vision, You gave me this dream,
• 30:23
  and now you want me to just let it go and let somebody else put
• 30:27
  their name on it. And maybe.
• 30:28
  And then they're going to change the vision that you gave me for
• 30:31
  it. And it was kind of this
• 30:33
  conversation that I was having. Like the parent, when you're
• 30:35
  explaining, when they're saying it's time to let this go because
• 30:39
  I have something else for you, have something new for you.
• 30:41
  But it was kind of like that conversation of but I don't
• 30:44
  understand, like, why this is not even finished.
• 30:47
  It's not even a finished project.
• 30:48
  But you want me to let it go. I was like, hurt by it.
• 30:52
  But then the more that I prayed about it, I understand it's for
• 30:55
  somebody else to pick up. It's for me to start it.
• 30:58
  And yeah, maybe it's a different vision, but I don't know what
• 31:01
  God's going to do with it. I also don't want to stay in
• 31:03
  something that he hasn't ordained for me to stay in.
• 31:06
  It's easy to be comfortable with the things that I'm gifted in,
• 31:10
  but it takes courage and strength to move on to things
• 31:14
  that I'm uncertain of. That's kind of where I've been
• 31:18
  at. And so when my son was speaking
• 31:19
  to me today about this and it was just, it's perfect because I
• 31:23
  made that decision and I know it's the right decision.
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  I know the enemy will come and try to throw these arrows of her
• 31:29
  in a fence and wanting me to like, stand up for myself when
• 31:33
  the Lord is telling me no, I'm your protector.
• 31:36
  You just go low. And so it's been wild.
• 31:42
  I concur. We're going.
• 31:44
  We're all going through it right now.
• 31:46
  I love hearing this. And it's beautiful though
• 31:49
  because it is through it as a body, right.
• 31:52
  So we can all jump on it and say we can jump on this and say yes,
• 31:57
  this is the season and and that's that's the beauty of
• 32:00
  being united even in different areas of, you know, of the world
• 32:04
  even. Because because it's where his
• 32:06
  bride and he's refining us. So we all have different
• 32:09
  positions. We have different roles that we
• 32:11
  have to play in order for his will to be done on the earth.
• 32:15
  And so the more we understand that, the more that all of the
• 32:18
  other petty stuff just falls to the wayside.
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  And it's what I teach the the youth.
• 32:23
  It's it's what I teach them because they're going to have
• 32:26
  such a big part to play. And I'm just honored that God
• 32:29
  would trust me with his children, that he would trust me
• 32:32
  to go in front of it, to be on the front lines of what?
• 32:35
  Of the movement that he's doing. And I'm like, it's hard
• 32:39
  sometimes because I get so many ideas all the time and I'm like,
• 32:42
  God, I don't, I don't have enough space.
• 32:44
  Like, what do you want me to do with this?
• 32:46
  And like, write it all down. And I'm like, I know the time
• 32:50
  will come. Like I love doing theatre and
• 32:52
  doing it for the Lord and through dramatic, through dance,
• 32:56
  through anything creative and artistic.
• 32:59
  The one thing that I've also learned just through over the
• 33:02
  years, is that you have to find that thing that you're not
• 33:06
  necessarily that you're good at or your gifts because that can
• 33:09
  actually go away. But the the thing that you What
• 33:13
  are you passionate about? What are you passionate about?
• 33:16
  Because that's what's going to drive you.
• 33:18
  What is your drive? Because those are the things
• 33:21
  that will last. And when you find that, that's
• 33:24
  that's where. OK, yeah.
• 33:26
  Now I know what my destiny is like.
• 33:28
  I know for a fact that I'm a pioneer, that God gives me these
• 33:33
  wild ideas for a reason. But it's not necessarily that
• 33:37
  I'm going to always do it. It's just he's gracing me for
• 33:40
  that season really because I'm going to give it away because
• 33:43
  it's it's for me to start and for somebody else to come in and
• 33:46
  pick it up and keep running with it.
• 33:48
  There's been so many times where I had opportunities, but I
• 33:51
  really felt like the Lord was saying give that away.
• 33:54
  I can fully recognize when youth come and they have the next
• 33:58
  thing and they have the new wine and the wineskin, and all I want
• 34:02
  to do is step aside and say go, and then help equip them to face
• 34:07
  the things that I've already faced that they don't know yet.
• 34:10
  And so I believe that that's what drives me.
• 34:13
  That's my passion. Not necessarily always singing,
• 34:16
  always being the lead of something, but really just being
• 34:19
  able to say I will do what I can and everything I've learned.
• 34:23
  I'll give you and I'll give it with my hands open.
• 34:26
  Like I'm not scared that I won't get the credit or that I won't
• 34:30
  be in the spotlight, because that's not my passion.
• 34:32
  My passion is Jesus and and the obedience to him.
• 34:36
  You know what's so deep and beautiful and convicting about
• 34:40
  what you're saying? Jesus tells us the greatest
• 34:44
  among you is the servant and the people who want power or they
• 34:49
  want position or authority, or they want to be famous or they
• 34:51
  want to buy, you know, their way into success for or bully their
• 34:56
  way into a position. Those people have no idea what
• 34:59
  it's like to go low and to make themselves a servant.
• 35:03
  And I'm just sitting here. I don't want to get on the
• 35:05
  pedestal again. I want, I want you to keep
• 35:07
  talking, but just reflecting. There's so many times where I
• 35:11
  went low just because of the tugging, and other times where I
• 35:14
  knew, you know what, God, it's wiser not to fight this battle
• 35:20
  and to honor your name, to turn the other cheek, to give a fresh
• 35:23
  piece of skin that hasn't been hit yet and offer that back up.
• 35:28
  Like, actually lower my position and lower who I am.
• 35:32
  And man, people will do some funny things.
• 35:33
  I see some funny stuff. Go on.
• 35:35
  I'm telling you, I've I talk with people behind the scenes
• 35:39
  and different ministries and this and that, and I hear stuff
• 35:42
  and sometimes I'm just like, I'm sorry, I can't.
• 35:44
  I got to go. But funny stuff happens.
• 35:47
  But you can never go wrong with loving.
• 35:51
  That's like the secret weapon the enemy never sees coming.
• 35:56
  You said something there about how, you know, going low and but
• 35:59
  there's also this middle area that God wants us to be in where
• 36:04
  we can recognize when it's time to step aside and then when it's
• 36:08
  time for us to actually take that platform and use it for his
• 36:12
  glory, so. Praise.
• 36:14
  God, you know. So there will be times he will
• 36:16
  say you're going to take that and you're going to give me the
• 36:19
  glory for it. And I trust you with it.
• 36:21
  A lot of people that know me from, like, growing up, that I
• 36:24
  mean, even high school, like, I I thought that I was gonna, I
• 36:29
  think we've talked about this before, but I thought that I was
• 36:31
  gonna do all these like, big things and like you know, be a
• 36:35
  recording, like Christian artist and like do all this stuff.
• 36:38
  And it's like I had a choice that I made before I got married
• 36:42
  and I could have went down that road, but I really felt the Lord
• 36:46
  call me to Idaho and to the man that I'm married to now.
• 36:49
  So I mean I did like some demo work, but I also was involved
• 36:54
  with Spanish, Spanish worship. And I had some open roads that I
• 36:59
  could have gone through that way.
• 37:00
  But I really felt like the Lord said no.
• 37:03
  And I was just so drawn to my husband in Idaho.
• 37:07
  It's crazy that I'm here, but you know what?
• 37:09
  I I just. I don't want the glam and the
• 37:12
  glory. I don't want that.
• 37:13
  Like I want to be in His will and I want to push other people
• 37:17
  to be what they're passionate about but give it to the Lord.
• 37:20
  I love so many different creative ways of expression
• 37:24
  through worship. And one of my mentors told me
• 37:27
  she's like Anita, don't ever try to put that basket over the
• 37:31
  light that God has given you, over the creativity that he's
• 37:33
  given you. Because people, like, are afraid
• 37:36
  of it or because people don't understand it because it's not
• 37:39
  for them. It's for the Lord.
• 37:41
  And she says he, he sees it as a kiss.
• 37:44
  All of the things like you're giving it back to him in a kiss.
• 37:47
  I want to be in the feast of the wedding.
• 37:49
  I want to be in the inner courts.
• 37:51
  I don't want to be on the outer courts, not preaching, but I
• 37:54
  don't want to minister to people on the outer courts.
• 37:57
  I want to be in the wedding supper, you know, I want to be
• 37:59
  in the intimacy of the Lord. That's why I want to be because.
• 38:04
  And I always want to build that altar wherever, wherever it is
• 38:08
  for worship leaders. It's it's so important to
• 38:10
  remember that youth worship team is at my local church, is who I
• 38:14
  mentor, and that's what I tell them.
• 38:15
  I said, well, you don't ever want to be caught, you know,
• 38:18
  outside of the wedding supper. We don't worship for the people.
• 38:22
  We do what's pleasing to the Lord because then we want him to
• 38:25
  come to sit on the throne of worship that we give him.
• 38:29
  I always keep going back to worship, but I did.
• 38:32
  I did want to touch on the first encounter as a family that
• 38:38
  included all like all of our kids.
• 38:41
  In 2020, that kind of started this domino effect of what we've
• 38:45
  been experiencing. If there's time for that, I'd
• 38:48
  like to share that quickly. It was in the year 2020 when the
• 38:51
  whole all the stuff with the masks and the mandates and
• 38:55
  everything, and we had already planned a family trip, and so we
• 38:59
  went to Oregon and we got this Airbnb.
• 39:01
  It was like really cool, 'cause it was kind of in the farm area
• 39:05
  and I automatically felt that it was like an open space,
• 39:09
  spiritually. The last night that we were
• 39:11
  staying there, my oldest son, he pulled out his guitar and he did
• 39:14
  some worship and we just worship the Lord there in the living
• 39:17
  room. My oldest and my 17 year old
• 39:20
  were staying in the room downstairs, and then my other
• 39:23
  two boys were upstairs in one room and then my husband and I
• 39:27
  in another. Well, I always kind of have my
• 39:29
  phone silence because I want to sleep.
• 39:31
  And all of a sudden I just woke up.
• 39:33
  It was about two in the morning. I just felt I just woke up and I
• 39:37
  felt like it. I just picked up my phone and I
• 39:39
  saw like 6 missed calls from my 17 year olds.
• 39:43
  And I was like, what is going on?
• 39:46
  And then like all these messages like, mom, hurry, come
• 39:48
  downstairs, tell Dad to come downstairs, you have to see
• 39:51
  what's going on with his brother.
• 39:53
  And so I wake my husband up and he's like, Oh my gosh, so he
• 39:56
  runs downstairs and I'm still, I'm upstairs.
• 39:59
  I just went to go check on the other boys.
• 40:02
  And at this point, we don't know what what's going on or what
• 40:04
  happened. We're just like, frantic.
• 40:06
  And so I'm putting on my slippers, getting ready to walk
• 40:11
  down the stairs to the basement area, and my hands all the way
• 40:17
  down to my elbow feel like they're on fire.
• 40:21
  But it's not painful. It's just, it's just they got
• 40:24
  very hot and tingly. And I was like, Oh my gosh,
• 40:27
  like, what's going on? What?
• 40:29
  First, my first thought was, what's happening downstairs and
• 40:32
  what is like, what's going on with my hands?
• 40:35
  So I go downstairs. It turns out that he had an
• 40:39
  encounter and he saw something. So he had worship music on.
• 40:43
  And he was just like praying, kind of like in his bed, just
• 40:46
  praying. And all of a sudden he heard God
• 40:49
  tell him, get on your knees and worship me on your knees.
• 40:54
  So he did. He was on his bed kneeling on
• 40:57
  his bed and just like worshipping the Lord.
• 40:59
  And all of a sudden he saw this black image on the corner of the
• 41:05
  ceiling just staring at him, and he felt a huge pressure coming
• 41:10
  against his chest. And he heard the voice of the
• 41:14
  Lord say, just keep your focus on me and and keep worshipping
• 41:17
  me. And eventually as it went by,
• 41:20
  like the image disappeared. And so he was just shook by it
• 41:25
  because that was the very first time that he had ever
• 41:27
  experienced anything like that, where he could actually see.
• 41:32
  And so the day after this happened, the encounter
• 41:37
  happened. We were, you know getting ready
• 41:38
  to leave and all of a sudden my oldest, who had just had the
• 41:43
  encounter the night before, broke out in hives.
• 41:46
  It was just this weird hives all over his, just everywhere on
• 41:49
  his, especially on his arms and his neck and and it we were
• 41:53
  just, I'm thinking OK, what did he eat?
• 41:55
  Like what happened? And all of a sudden I heard the
• 41:58
  Holy Spirit tell me go lay hands on him.
• 42:01
  And so I put, I laid hands on him, and I prayed for healing.
• 42:05
  And he was healed. And we were just, like, amazed.
• 42:09
  And when we came back from our vacation, I was telling my close
• 42:12
  friend about it, and she told me, she's like, Anita, that what
• 42:16
  you felt, that fire that was the anointing to heal.
• 42:20
  And so God gave you that 'cause he knew what was going to
• 42:22
  happen, what was going to, what the enemy was going to throw at
• 42:26
  you. And so I was like, whoa, but
• 42:29
  it's just that actually was the very first kind of encounter
• 42:35
  experience that we had as a family that really started.
• 42:39
  Everything else came so quickly after that.
• 42:41
  I mean, there's so many dreams, encounters and things that that
• 42:46
  the Lord is has done with us. Another dream that actually goes
• 42:51
  along with kind of what I was talking about earlier about
• 42:54
  giving away something that God has given me vision for.
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  So I had a dream about I was having a baby.
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  This baby was a boy. I felt like the birth pains of
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  it. When the baby came out, he was
• 43:09
  just really loud and crying. And I mean, very joyful, but
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  just like very loud and like kind of like like a fighter is
• 43:16
  kind of what it. But there was a lot of pain in
• 43:20
  the delivery of that baby. Then I had eight more babies and
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  they were all girls and they all came out very quick, no pain.
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  And they were just like wrapped, swaddled right away.
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  And they were just very peaceful.
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  And there was no work I had to do, no work.
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  They just came quickly and it was eight of them.
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  And so I saw my husband pacing the floor and he, he was telling
• 43:44
  the nurse, he's like, I don't know what we're going to do to
• 43:48
  take care of these babies. I don't know.
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  There's too many. And he was just pacing the floor
• 43:54
  and very concerned. And and the nurse was so calm
• 43:58
  and she said it's OK. God is going to provide.
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  You don't have to do anything. And he's going to bring you a
• 44:05
  bus to like how to carry, I think.
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  I can't remember if she said a van or a bus, but he's going to
• 44:12
  provide everything for these babies and your family.
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  So that was pretty wild. That was also like back in that
• 44:19
  was 2021. I believe that I got that one.
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  I really believe that that first baby was just the worship part
• 44:26
  of it. And the because that was fierce.
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  I mean the things that I faced to pave the way for freedom in
• 44:34
  that area, like even in my local church for freedom to nail down
• 44:38
  while you're praying like through worship.
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  And everybody might not understand, but I know that, you
• 44:43
  know, just in that obedience and so just paving the way for that,
• 44:48
  did I I'm sorry, I cannot remember if if I shared, did I
• 44:52
  share last time about the thing that happened in my church where
• 44:56
  I ran the room in the middle of service?
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  Yeah, I think it was. You were feeling the pressure
• 45:03
  like the religious spirit being like, no, that's out of order,
• 45:06
  but you put the microphone down. Yeah, yeah.
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  Well, you know, it's crazy. I got, I know, a girl that she
• 45:15
  actually, God brought her, you know, as a friend.
• 45:17
  He says, you know, this is someone I I want you to be
• 45:20
  friends with. Well, I started talking to her
• 45:22
  and she's like, Anita, do you remember that one time you ran
• 45:25
  the room And I was like, yeah, she's like, that was for me.
• 45:29
  And she's like every time that you would worship and I always
• 45:34
  just like love, like what God is doing.
• 45:36
  She said that that one time that you ran the room and you were
• 45:39
  encouraging the congregation to jump or just like move.
• 45:44
  She said that she jumped and she just felt the weight of
• 45:48
  everything that she was going through just fall and that
• 45:51
  freedom. And so she's like, I want to
• 45:53
  tell you that that matters. Like those things that you do in
• 45:56
  obedience, they matter and they make a difference.
• 45:58
  So I was like, that's really cool to hear those kind of
• 46:01
  stories. For a lot of us, that's more
• 46:04
  real and alive than sitting through 100 dry sermons.
• 46:08
  Right, Yeah. One experience like that, it's
• 46:12
  something that I think about and ponder quite often about.
• 46:15
  We always remember the emotion, but we don't always remember the
• 46:18
  words, right? But your dreams are amazingly
• 46:22
  cool because you're so spiritual and you sharing them.
• 46:25
  I just like, I'm an empath too. So I like, I feel and like you
• 46:29
  see like a little mini movie clip in my head of like what
• 46:32
  you're talking about. I'm like, this is powerful.
• 46:34
  These are these scenarios that I find myself in where people keep
• 46:38
  reaching out and saying, hey, these are these end time stories
• 46:42
  of encouragement. These are the this is this
• 46:43
  remnant voice awakening up other people because the religious
• 46:48
  spirits out there, they don't want you asking questions, They
• 46:50
  don't want you running the church.
• 46:51
  They don't want you setting the captives free.
• 46:54
  If they were actually trying to do that, well, let's just say it
• 46:59
  wouldn't. It wouldn't be governed the way
• 47:01
  that it is. And the spirit is coming in and
• 47:04
  doing a new thing and using the most unlikely people to confound
• 47:09
  the wise, I think. Oh, there's so much power to
• 47:12
  that. There's so much power.
• 47:14
  End times, voices, you know, we're in this unique season
• 47:17
  right now where each testimony, all the beams of light that are
• 47:22
  coming out, as we grow closer to the father and he speaks and
• 47:25
  moves through us and our voices align, it's setting more
• 47:29
  captives free. It's giving people a license to
• 47:31
  go there, to not be afraid to talk about their encounters or
• 47:35
  their dreams or visions because it's been silent for too long.
• 47:39
  It reminds me of the scripture before I give the mic back to
• 47:41
  you. It says make a loud noise unto
• 47:44
  the Lord. And I'm thinking, man, when
• 47:46
  we're dancing and celebrating, we make a loud noise.
• 47:50
  And it's not a show, you know, It's like, we do this for him.
• 47:54
  It's this breaking chains of this claustrophobic feeling of
• 47:58
  like, Oh well, nobody else is doing it.
• 48:00
  We'll be the first one to go out there and blaze the trail.
• 48:02
  Be a pioneer. Even if you're misunderstood,
• 48:05
  just be the pioneer. Because if you do it for God and
• 48:09
  he's pleased with it, he will grow it.
• 48:12
  Amen. That is so.
• 48:14
  Anita, I want to ask you about beautiful pieces, ministry and
• 48:19
  what you got yourself into. God's got you on these secret
• 48:22
  missions out there. So just take the mic and just
• 48:25
  fill us in. What happened?
• 48:27
  Yeah, OK, so last year I had the privilege of meeting Sarah and
• 48:33
  Shawna from Beautiful Pieces and Her Story.
• 48:36
  I mean, they both have these amazing stories and I don't want
• 48:40
  to tell their stories because I think they would tell it better.
• 48:44
  You can find Beautiful Pieces on Facebook, and Sarah does share
• 48:48
  what the Lord has done for her. But it's basically they've held
• 48:51
  hands in the community and they've been able to go and give
• 48:56
  things to women that are coming out of human trafficking or just
• 49:01
  really bad situations with abuse.
• 49:04
  And so they were able to reach these women through safe houses.
• 49:09
  And they in the community here in Idaho, I know that we are
• 49:13
  probably one of the highest in the US for human trafficking.
• 49:18
  It's it's really bad. I mean, Idaho's a great place to
• 49:21
  raise a family, but there's also danger in in some of those
• 49:25
  things 'cause they go unnoticed. And So what God has placed in
• 49:29
  Sarah's hands is this, this ministry where she goes.
• 49:33
  It's periodically throughout the year, but there's this one
• 49:36
  specific thing that she does for Valentine's Day.
• 49:40
  She has two events, one the day before Valentine's Day and one
• 49:43
  on Valentine's Day. And what they do is they go and
• 49:46
  they take the word and they also they bring music and they just
• 49:51
  shower these women with a night of crafting, like doing a craft.
• 49:55
  Like this year they did tie dye shirts and they just take the
• 49:59
  word of the Lord to them, but in such a beautiful way where it's
• 50:02
  so gentle. And Tuesday night she was
• 50:05
  preparing me. She's because the first night is
• 50:07
  always the ones that are actually really vulnerable.
• 50:12
  And so it's a very they're very sensitive to words and phrases.
• 50:17
  And when Sarah, when I got to meet Sarah last year, she told
• 50:22
  me, you know, I, God lend me to you.
• 50:24
  And she, through a mutual friend who's a Christian rapper, said,
• 50:28
  oh, I know this this girl and she does music and she would be
• 50:31
  a good fit. And because I am the way that I
• 50:34
  am, I just felt the Lord say not to go in alone.
• 50:36
  So I actually called two other singers that I know and
• 50:41
  musicians. And we did a very intimate
• 50:43
  worship set where it was more encouragement but also worship
• 50:47
  to the Lord. So I'm very careful just in the
• 50:51
  wording and those things, but it was beautiful because it was
• 50:53
  just so intimate. And then we went to the women's
• 50:57
  and children's homeless shelter that's the on Valentine's Day,
• 51:00
  we did a a shorter set. And then they let me bring my
• 51:03
  sons last year. Well, this year she called me
• 51:07
  and I was like, yeah, that's great.
• 51:08
  I want to do it. And it just turned out that I
• 51:11
  couldn't find, of all the people that I know, I could not find
• 51:15
  any women that that played instruments that were available
• 51:20
  for the Tuesday night 1. So I was like, OK, I don't
• 51:24
  really play an instrument, but I can get by on the keys with like
• 51:28
  basic chords and really just right-handed playing with just a
• 51:31
  tiny bit of the left hand. I was like I don't think I can
• 51:36
  do this and I I really seriously thought about just not doing it
• 51:39
  this year. But I really felt the Holy
• 51:41
  Spirit say no, like go sit down and practice.
• 51:44
  And I did. And when I was practicing at
• 51:46
  home, it just came together and my 17 year old was like, mom,
• 51:49
  you can just use this software and it actually will enhance
• 51:52
  what you're doing on the keyboard.
• 51:54
  And I was like, OK, so it sounded great at home.
• 51:58
  It was it wasn't as hard as I thought, Well, I get there and I
• 52:02
  just feel so much pressure, like immediately Tuesday night and
• 52:06
  I'm like, OK, did I make the right decision or am I going to
• 52:08
  get up there and just like absolutely make a fool of
• 52:11
  myself? I was talking to the director of
• 52:14
  of every of the safe house and she was telling me that they had
• 52:17
  just picked up one of the girls from a city here close by where
• 52:22
  I live to like the same day. And they brought her to this
• 52:25
  event and she was telling me how vulnerable these women were on
• 52:30
  the way to the event. They all got in a van and some
• 52:34
  of them were already like fighting anxiety from because
• 52:37
  these women, the things that they go through are just
• 52:39
  unimaginable and everything is a trigger to them.
• 52:43
  Even the neighborhood that the church was in was a trigger.
• 52:46
  But she said, she said that when they opened the doors and walked
• 52:49
  in, they felt immediate peace. And I was like praise God, she
• 52:53
  said some of them even were abused in in church and so
• 52:57
  church in itself is a trigger. But she said that she was so
• 53:01
  thankful that when they walked into the place where we had the
• 53:05
  event, they just felt a piece come over them and and to be
• 53:09
  able to be a part of that was just incredible.
• 53:13
  Going back to my piano skills, I was so nervous because I didn't
• 53:17
  know where some of the things needed to be plugged into and I
• 53:20
  couldn't hear the keys and there was some audio problems and I
• 53:24
  was like, Oh my gosh, God, what did I do?
• 53:27
  What did I say yes to? I'm reading the words and using
• 53:32
  this auto scroll feature on guitar tabs.
• 53:35
  And right as I started the song, I didn't do my timing correctly.
• 53:40
  And the auto auto scroll was a little bit, I mean not a little
• 53:43
  bit, but quite a bit behind what I was playing.
• 53:47
  So I was like holding notes a little bit longer.
• 53:50
  I just felt so embarrassed. But actually I missed the part,
• 53:54
  Let me rewind. So before I started playing, I
• 53:57
  just felt, you know, these women go through so much, they see so
• 54:01
  much fakeness and they see so many people just putting up
• 54:05
  walls. So I was like, I'm going to go
• 54:07
  and and be vulnerable. And so I told them, I said
• 54:10
  playing the keyboard is not a skill that I have perfected.
• 54:14
  It's like, I'm very like entry level.
• 54:16
  And they were just all laughing. And so I'm like, yes, that broke
• 54:19
  the ice. And then I told them, I said,
• 54:21
  but, you know, sometimes God really puts you in situations
• 54:24
  where you just have to do it and you have to be brave and you
• 54:27
  have to just say, I can do the things that God has asked me to
• 54:30
  do, even if I look like a fool because there's a purpose in
• 54:34
  that. And so I shared that.
• 54:37
  And then I really, like, messed up the first song, like, really
• 54:40
  bad. A lot of it had to do with outer
• 54:42
  scroll. But I was really nervous, too.
• 54:45
  Right after I did the first song, there was a little bit of
• 54:47
  a break. And so the pastor's wife, she
• 54:50
  comes up to me and she's like, hey, she's like, I can play the
• 54:52
  next song for you. She's like, I play piano.
• 54:54
  And I was like, thank you. And so the night continued and
• 54:57
  she played the second song and I was like, this is good.
• 55:02
  And then there was some testimonies that came out later
• 55:05
  on about how they really appreciated like the
• 55:08
  vulnerability and just and so I'm like if if I have to be a
• 55:12
  fool, if I have to look like a fool in order for God's purpose
• 55:16
  to be fulfilled, then I'll do it.
• 55:18
  It had been such a really like rushed it was like probably the
• 55:22
  busiest week ever. I had saw you advertising your
• 55:27
  book. The words are salt.
• 55:29
  I ordered it and I remember just telling you about what the event
• 55:35
  and just to keep it in prayer. And you, you told me to check
• 55:38
  out the poem on bodies, which I had heard that before, 'cause
• 55:42
  you read it one time live on air.
• 55:43
  And I and I loved it. And so I actually read it and I
• 55:46
  was like, this is, this is perfect, 'cause I had just got
• 55:50
  the book, the the Tuesday, that same day of the event, and I
• 55:54
  shared it with the women and they were just in tears.
• 55:56
  And they're like, who wrote this?
• 55:58
  Where did you get this? And I just shared a little bit
• 56:01
  about the ministry that God has put in your hands.
• 56:04
  And I had met. She's actually a social worker
• 56:07
  for the state. And she was reading that.
• 56:11
  And she's like, wow. She's like, I love this.
• 56:13
  And I thought that I was going to read that poem, but I felt
• 56:17
  the Holy Spirit's like, tell her to read it.
• 56:20
  And so her name is Jasmine. And so she read it.
• 56:23
  And she was kind. I kind of put her on the spot.
• 56:25
  And I'm like, you don't have to. It's just, I know that it
• 56:27
  resonated with you. And I feel like that's something
• 56:30
  that you should share with the women.
• 56:33
  And so she did. She got up there and she said
• 56:35
  she was nervous, but she was, she appreciated that I gave her
• 56:38
  the space to do that, even though it was last minute.
• 56:41
  So I think it's incredible to see how God knits everything
• 56:46
  together. And it's like, I don't really
• 56:48
  believe that there's, oh, that was a coincidence.
• 56:50
  I don't. I believe that it's something
• 56:52
  that God really stitches together to just make this
• 56:55
  beautiful piece and and that's also part of the ministry
• 56:59
  beautiful pieces just the knitting together of what God
• 57:02
  does and he he takes broken things and puts them together
• 57:05
  and but each piece is is so beautiful and it on its own but
• 57:09
  together it becomes this beautiful picture.
• 57:13
  The messy masterpiece, The ripple effect of what God is
• 57:19
  doing. And you said how God is fitting
• 57:21
  stuff together. Yeah, he is.
• 57:24
  And it's just so uplifting to hear the anointing you have on
• 57:27
  you, Anita, as you share your dreams and your heart.
• 57:30
  You know from sharing about your son all the way to dreams and
• 57:33
  visions and then sharing about how God is using you in these
• 57:36
  secret places. Your heart for the young ones
• 57:39
  teaching kids, we need to be magnifying voices like yours in
• 57:44
  this day and age. More men and women who are doing
• 57:46
  what you're doing. Because it brings hope.
• 57:49
  It challenges the narrative of fear mongering, and it exposes
• 57:54
  that the darkness plays the same hand over and over again, but
• 57:58
  those who follow the Lord will do great exploits.
• 58:02
  There is one thing of encouragement I would like to
• 58:05
  say. It's actually a vision that one
• 58:09
  of my youth kids, he's actually, he graduated a few years ago and
• 58:13
  he's gone on missions and he's just this crazy wild pioneer and
• 58:17
  I love it. And he told me one time he says
• 58:19
  I saw you and you were like barely had your head above water
• 58:24
  and you were like just in distress.
• 58:27
  But God showed me the other side of the water.
• 58:30
  And from behind the scenes, you were actually in a boat and you
• 58:34
  were pulling up youth. You were saving them from the
• 58:38
  storm. You were you were pulling them
• 58:39
  out of the water and saving them.
• 58:42
  When he gave me that, what he saw it, I was going through just
• 58:46
  some really, really tough warfare and like we might feel
• 58:50
  that we're drowning and that we're just have our head above
• 58:54
  water. But you don't know how God is
• 58:56
  using you on the other side. What the other view looks like.
• 59:00
  You just see maybe your mess and where you're in, but you don't.
• 59:03
  You don't see the other side and how God is using you.
• 59:06
  I would say whatever you're going through, ask for God's
• 59:10
  perspective. Say God, show me how you see me.
• 59:14
  Show me how you see me in the Spirit and laying down the
• 59:19
  shame, just not listening to the voice of the accuser and just
• 59:24
  knowing who we are to the Lord and who we are in the Spirit.
• 59:29
  We left the audience with a cliffhanger on your part one.
• 59:34
  Yes. And we need to finish that up.
• 59:37
  OK, so the dream that I had, that was a Tuesday night and so
• 59:41
  Wednesday night we're at church. All of a sudden my 17 year old
• 59:48
  son comes up and he's like, mom, I have to tell you what just
• 59:51
  happened. He's like, I was in the hallway
• 59:54
  talking with friends. He's like Giovanni turns around
• 59:58
  because he hears a conversation with this man that was kind of
• 1:00:02
  strange with one of our youth kids.
• 1:00:04
  And the youth kid was about believe he's 13 years old and
• 1:00:09
  the conversation was a little odd.
• 1:00:10
  So he's like, hi, you know, I'm a youth leader.
• 1:00:13
  My name's Giovanni and he's like, I think it's very
• 1:00:15
  inappropriate that you're asking for a 13 year old boy's phone
• 1:00:19
  number. That's something that we don't
• 1:00:20
  do here, He says. Well, I'm just, I'm asking.
• 1:00:25
  Him for his phone number. Because I need a mentor.
• 1:00:27
  And then my son replies, this is not, this is inappropriate.
• 1:00:31
  And if you need a mentor, I can direct you to someone that that
• 1:00:35
  can do that for you. And so the man got extremely
• 1:00:38
  angry and he's like, are you calling, calling me a
• 1:00:40
  pedophiler? My other son who's much taller,
• 1:00:44
  even though he's younger, hears the commotion and he comes over
• 1:00:47
  and he says, what's going on here?
• 1:00:49
  And the guy get like puffs up his chest and gets really close
• 1:00:54
  to my son and he's like what? And he puts his hands up and and
• 1:00:59
  he's and my son's like, you need to leave.
• 1:01:01
  You need to leave us. You need to leave this boy.
• 1:01:04
  The security guard kind of sees you know what's going on and he
• 1:01:08
  he kind of intervenes and talks to the guy, you know, and and so
• 1:01:13
  that was it. And so my son was telling me,
• 1:01:15
  kind of recounting the story to me and he's like, mom, it's that
• 1:01:18
  guy over there with the hat, with the camo hat.
• 1:01:21
  I didn't think anything of it. And so I looked and I was just,
• 1:01:25
  I was really mad, honestly, because I was like, what the
• 1:01:28
  heck is going on? This is church.
• 1:01:30
  This is also a place where anybody can come because it's
• 1:01:34
  church. And so I was just looking at him
• 1:01:36
  and he turned around and and we lock eyes and immediately I can
• 1:01:40
  see that he's got lots of things on him.
• 1:01:43
  I felt automatically, I felt a spirit of intimidation.
• 1:01:47
  I felt anger, rage, and murder. He starts walking and as he's
• 1:01:51
  walking closer, he stands right in front of me and he's just
• 1:01:56
  staring at me and he says nothing.
• 1:01:59
  And so as he's staring at me out right up in my face saying
• 1:02:03
  nothing, I see one of our security guards and I and I call
• 1:02:08
  his name the same amount of times that I called my husband's
• 1:02:12
  name in the dream. And I literally felt like I was.
• 1:02:16
  I felt like dizzy. I felt like there's something
• 1:02:18
  going on here in the spirit, like, and I'm like, God, what do
• 1:02:21
  I do? Like, I couldn't even speak.
• 1:02:22
  And so the man that was in front of me, he says what he's like,
• 1:02:26
  you shouldn't judge, 'cause you're in church and I'm not a
• 1:02:29
  pedophiler. And this and that.
• 1:02:31
  I was frozen. And all I could think of was I
• 1:02:34
  was yelling out the security guard's name and he finally
• 1:02:37
  came. But what's crazy about this,
• 1:02:40
  what connects it to the dream, is that it was the same feeling
• 1:02:44
  I had in the dream and I was calling out to my husband the
• 1:02:48
  same amount of times. And so finally the security
• 1:02:51
  guard comes over and he, you know, gets in betweens us.
• 1:02:54
  And he said you need to leave. Our security guards are armed
• 1:02:57
  for for the church safety. But he leaves, but he leaves
• 1:03:01
  disgruntled and he's like calling me names and stuff on
• 1:03:04
  his way out. I still don't have clarity of
• 1:03:07
  that last part of the dream. I don't know if the man in the
• 1:03:11
  dream that threw the coin and my ankle, if that was the hat man
• 1:03:15
  or if it I don't know who it was.
• 1:03:18
  But he just had this evil smile and that same feeling that I
• 1:03:24
  that I had in the dream just kind of came and met me in the
• 1:03:27
  natural and I'm like, Oh my gosh, what do I do with this?
• 1:03:31
  And I was kind of I was shook. But at the same time I'm like
• 1:03:34
  it's I've never had that happen where something happens in the
• 1:03:38
  dream and then it you feel it in the natural and and it just
• 1:03:42
  reminded me you know I got I cannot let my guard down.
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  I have to be always like in the spirit.
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  So church is a safe place but at the same time it's also a place
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  where anybody can come in and so we just really have to be on the
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  lookout for all of those things but also being safe at the same
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  time knowing where the security is, knowing where you can go for
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  that. But it's just pretty.
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  It's just crazy because I've had a lot of experiences in that
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  church and I at first didn't know there's just something
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  wrong with this church because I'm getting all these things.
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  But I really think that as the Lord has taken taken me through
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  this journey of the supernatural, I see it's it's
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  because he's showing me things in me and he's equipping me.
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  And so who knows what has happened prior to my awakening
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  in 2020 at that church that I never really saw or I never
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  understood that were happening in the Spirit.
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  But I do feel like the Lord has awakened me and my family for
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  such a time as this and This is why we're now more sensitive to
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  what's happening. And and there is a group of
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  youth that are extremely sensitive to the spirit.
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  They have dreams, they have encounters at the church, and I
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  just felt honored to be able to to be in this with them.
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  Hey, we test the spirits. And if you get that gut feeling
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  like yo, something is wrong. I've had some dreams that
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  partially came true and have an emotional connection to the real
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  world. And then I've also had dreams,
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  Anita, where it came to pass exactly like what I've seen in
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  my dream. And it's so strange.
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  So that feeling, yeah, that's that's the roller coaster rod.
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  It's hard to explain because it's like 2 worlds colliding.
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  You know what? We need to talk more about
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  dreams in the future as well. Kind of like a round table
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  discussion on the topic because there's yeah, there's so much
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  there. I'd like to get just like
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  dreamers. I'd like to get maybe an
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  interpreter if they're legit, and then maybe get a doctor, you
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  know, somebody who's well versed and and with dreams and and
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  psychology of that sort and just have a round table discussion.
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  I think that would be really helpful for all of us actually.
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  And I can't thank you enough. Yeah.
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  Likewise. Coming to you from southeastern
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  Pennsylvania, God bless and goodbye
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  by grace through faith in His love.
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  Just no one understands faith. Faith does the road turn narrow,
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  it's paved and his blood and it's flames on the marrows that
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  rain like stray slugs. I pray shit keep me near the
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  cross. Let your ways be my ways.
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  When I'm staying, the loss 'cause I be seeing they face
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  exhausting. I'm reminding itself when I be
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  hearing them talk. Show them perfect love.
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  Cast fear from the heart like the wave for a stray.
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  When the season is dark. Season's Christ is the life.
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  Belief is the start and the other gospel preaching to see
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  from the start. Keep your money, your fame.
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  And saying it came to me. I'm going to speak the truth.
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  Whether I'm loved, the day that fame in me nothing.
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  Change the fact that the sun is who he claimed to be.
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  And I'm gonna run with that without a word.
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  Who Estrane? You're in a breaking me though I
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  walk through. The valley there's.
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  A place for me. You've been away from me on me.
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  I love that. But you're in a.
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  Breaking me though I walk through the valley.
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  There's a place for me. You've been away.
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  I love it.