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My Preparation Arc · Dad Needs To Talk

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What's up y'all? And welcome back to Danny's to
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talk. I am your host.
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Robert and today. I am tired.
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So I'm tired y'all by the time. Y'all are seeing and or
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listening to this, I should be on my little break should be.
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But I wanted to do this, and kind of do a shorter version of
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this, cuz I already recorded this wants to eat yesterday and
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kind of just spilled my heart and everything for almost an
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hour. And, you know, that one, like it
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was a lot of like interruptions and stuff and just disjointed
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All That Jazz and so while trying to piece it together,
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it's have a problem. So I just kind of just sat on
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the Day. And I'm like, you know what?
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Let me just do a different one and just see how this goes.
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So, like I said, I come to you, like she just kind of just to
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talk because that, that is the base of what this is, is why I
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started this to give myself a place to talk into the void and
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hey, if somebody else does on the other side listening and can
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either relate or Or find something, useful out of this,
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whatever. Then then, hey, cool.
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Otherwise, I can say this is just me, just talking, for
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myself, for future self for future Roberts, the maybe,
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hopefully the back on, but I am, you know, I am wearing one of my
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comfort shirts. Those are watching the video.
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This is one of my all-time favorite shirts.
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Shout out to my old friend Kelly.
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Oh, Deers back, we just work together.
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Work together at a GameStop and she got me.
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This very awesome blood-borne shirt.
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From one time, she went to a convention and it has the maiden
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from blood-borne. And at the bottom it says Made
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You may you find your worth in the waking world and just like I
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said, just something about just that saying and this sure just
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brings me Comfort. And I was like, you know what,
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let me put this on for this recording.
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But yeah, like I said, y'all I am I'm tired, I have been tired
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for a while and so decided I'm like, you know what I needed?
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I need to take this break to kind of recenter myself
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refocused myself because it is just like, so much stuff this
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going on. And the fact that I've continued
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to push forward and continue to put out content and episodes and
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do collaborations at all this stuff, whatever through it all.
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I'll give myself a big round of applause, pat on the back, but
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also looking back of my head, I should have, should have taken
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this break sooner, I should be doing breaks, more frequent more
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often, because I was a shout-out to the Aussie on the community.
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That know, when it's time to hate it, sounded like a break
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and step away. Like so, that is something that
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I am learning the hard way the Percussions of not doing that.
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So shout out to three weeks in a podcast.
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They're on a break right now. The common house crew.
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Y'all know I always love y'all. Y'all on a break doing what
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y'all do, the crew over blind of May Grant, I know they've had
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some stuff for their. I don't know the full situation
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around us, some stuff came up, but they've been on Hiatus since
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like November of last year and then you know, I saw a podcast
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post last week that We're going on break and I'm thinking that
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as a month or whatever. And they were like, hey now
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we're done for the rest of 2022. We'll see y'all in 2023.
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We got we got slides and stuff. We need to take care of.
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And so like I said stuff. So I really admire people that
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kind of have That end down to just know, like, hey, that's
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self-awareness like, Hey, we're getting tired.
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We're getting burnt out or whatever.
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Let's take a week off or whatever.
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Let's take a month off, you know, six months, whatever.
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Because y'all ready. No, no, I'm like a broken record
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but I know I have I have a lot a lot that I deal with.
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I'm just a normal day to day basis, a lot of my lot of weight
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on my shoulders, on my mind and my heart, a lot of
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responsibilities because you know, not just regular adulting,
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not just regular being a husband.
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Not just regular having kids in the family, it is all that amped
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up. You Okay.
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This like you know with with you know, four of my five kids being
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active athletes and we do Sports all year round to, you know,
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having freaking little Stampede Vash running through running
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amok, you know, leaving Devastation in his wake
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everywhere he goes and just knowing that like man, like
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there's about to be a busy summer and we bout to just goes
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Zero to 100 once the fall comes because, you know, like I said,
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before my three oldest will be transitioning, the middle
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school. This fall Vash will be
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transitioning into school and then my middle son, Andre is
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like having also working with him on changing his role as
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well. Because you know, all the years
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he's been in school, he's been in school with my three oldest
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and so he's always been hey little brother on campus or
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whatever. Got three other siblings,
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whatever no helping him out. Over.
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But now he's going to be Big Brother on campus.
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Having a hip out, Vashon lookout for imagine, all this stuff,
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whatever. So, a lot of changes happening
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there and, like, saying with the sports stuff is like now we're
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transitioning for. It would not just your round AAU
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sports with both basketball and track, but also with school
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sports and stuff like that. So, yeah, so, all of that stuff
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is going on, family wise and it's like, I guess I'm kind of
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calling this phase, my preparation orc and like.
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So because I'm preparing my kids for a lot of stuff, whatever.
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But in my family over all but preparing myself just because I
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you know, I've kind of had some moments recently tourists like
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okay I know like this situation is putting on man.
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Now granted some of it is of my own Doing.
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But, you know, it's like, I gotta make some moves and stuff
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for there, because it's like, it's like, I can't continue to
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be doing and in the state that I'm in.
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Now, what stuff? My edges because it's like, you
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know, I've but the last couple of years have been a
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rollercoaster, the state of least and I am grateful for
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where I am currently, you know, with my job and world work and
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where I'm at career-wise, but I know I can be doing more.
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I should be doing More, you know, with my Knowledge and
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Skills that I've gained over the years.
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I could be in a way better position, you know, then what I
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currently am so, but, you know, some talking about talking to a
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buddy of mine recently and he made a very astute points and
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I've been reminded of this by a couple people that were by like,
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hey, you know, you know, we we we are where we are.
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We got the danger, he got there were at the places where ADS for
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those moments in our lives of hey this is what you need right
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now or this is what you needed for this phase of your life.
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And it is very true because, you know, like I've told her before,
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it's like I went through so much he'll and my last job because
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it's like it's like I left a really good company and stuff
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whatever to to take a chance on, hey this is this location is
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closer to my House. My.
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And so, you know, I made that leap of faith and wow, it was
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very beneficial in some ways. As far as I, hey, I was doing
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good financially, or whatever to wear.
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Hey my home and my family, everybody.
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They were straight there, but man, I was going crazy.
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I was Depressed, my mental state, that that, you know
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nothing about for, but it's like that is the job that truly made
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me understand the importance of mental health.
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Because it was not good, you know?
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Because you have told us that before but I like how you know I
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was always on call I was more or less the only and House tech guy
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for a company that had like 10 to 15 locations all across DFW,
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which I didn't know about all the locations when I started
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working there and then you know sometimes working on weekends
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going in the middle of the night.
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Work on staff for, you know, one time when we were moving and
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pulleys from one building to another, I worked like
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20-something days straight, you know, weekends acrylic.
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Hey, straight 20 days and it during the drove me, mad.
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And so I found my escape and you know where I'm at now.
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And so it has brought me peace of mind while I'm at work but it
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was like a total opposite swing shift because whereas I like
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like the other John wild things were crazy with it.
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Were but because of the environment I was in, I was for
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better or worse. I always always Challenged with,
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hey. My skills.
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What do I know? How can I improvise?
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Because I hate this company. They not wanting to give me the
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budget or an eye help. No pay for me to get somebody to
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help me out with the stuff whatever.
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So hey, I got to make work with what I have and you know, my
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tech skills went higher because I am learning everything, how to
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do the phone systems networking and everything in between To
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where now it's like a very minimalist job where I'm at now
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and so I'm kind of chill, I'm at peace.
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That's what's giving me the ability to kind of work on and
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grow my podcast and stuff as much as I have and this last
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year because I have the freedom in the flexibility during my
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work hours. So you know, I ain't going to
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important project. I'm working on let me Tinker
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around with some of the stuff whatever and so but you know,
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now I've done that for a couple of years and it's like because
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of these holes. Other swing in the opposite
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direction. Whatever don't really do too
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many like take intensive things. And so now whenever the
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repercussions that things come up, whatever I might have
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anything like, how do I do that again or what was the process
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for that? You know, I'm not feeling, you
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know, as competent certain answers of like, hey, I should
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be knowing this stuff, you know. A so you know it I just know
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that I need to figure out something and so like I said,
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whether it be hajus, you know, other opportunities within where
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I'm at or looking elsewhere, whatever.
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But I know that the time is coming, I'm not trying to
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immediately rush you know, I'm not trying to hate next week.
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I'm going to be bouncing and going nowhere else know.
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So if anybody from work happens to come across this, no, hey
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Rob. Not bailing but I do also like
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side just I realized the, the reality of my life and where
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things are at we're like, hey I'm a dude that's got seven
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people in his house. They got to take care of and you
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know my kids you know for the most part they're like they they
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you know especially my my older ones right now like they perform
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at a very high level. level with what they do and it's like, I
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want to be able to help Continue to push that forward because I
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know a lot of times because think I even know like back
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where I came from grown-up. Whatever it was like, there are
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so many talented people out there in the world but sometimes
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because of you know, your family circumstance where you grow up,
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you know, you have supporting you or whatever, you might not
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be able to fully flourish and all your talents and things and
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showcase your skills. And so it's like I want to make
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sure that I am able to do that for them towards I.
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Hey you wanna travel go, you know, there's opportunity for
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you to go play at a more advanced level or whatever.
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Hey, cool. We can do that or whatever and
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not just be like you know, we can't afford to do that.
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So you missing out on these on these incredible opportunities
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and stuff. So, but aside from that, That,
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you know, I've, you know, things just kind of just work out, you
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know, sometimes you read something, you watch, something
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you hear side conversations that happen to be perfect timing for
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you because that, that's why, you know, I met you.
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And I would, when I read Magus of the library recently, how
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that was something that I needed to read right now just like this
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character. I'm going on this journey, but
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just like that part in like volume 1 where he mentions to
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Sedona the guy that kind of basic, like I mentioned before,
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Sedona is kind of like the shanks to his Luffy. 444 Theo
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and the main character Magus and it's like, you know, Theo kind
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of had this idea of like, like, man, when when is this one, is
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the hero going to come and save me.
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And take me out of this situation that I'm in now.
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And then like him being told like, no the hero is never going
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to come. You have to be your own hero.
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You have to bring yourself out of this because we all see and
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go through experiences that everybody else might not be able
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to see or understand. And so I basically just I hate.
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Don't you can't just sit around waiting for somebody to save
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your to pull you out of this hole.
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You know, it might be long. Long a long hard road, but you
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have to put in time, you have to put in work to get yourself out
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of the situations and stuff. So, and, you know, I know that
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like, I've seen the potential of what I can do just as a person
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in general and tag, you know, as a, you know with podcast and
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content creation, stuff, whatever, but I can't be the
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best I can be and execute to my best to potential.
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All these things. If I am a person I'm not okay.
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You know, if if my mind isn't right, if my body is and well
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then Can't think, I can't plan. I can't focus and be active and
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these things. And so that's why I was like,
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okay now is the perfect time to take this little break for a few
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weeks and just kind of just just refocus myself recenter myself
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because I, like I said, I hate summer time.
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Maybe we going to watch a thousand.
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We already have. You know, we already have my
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oldest son's tournament basketball tournament scheduled
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for now through the end of July the other day, we just got my
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daughter's track meet schedule. So now we know what that's going
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to like, from now through the end of July.
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And, you know, so I like saying, of course, like trying to work
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and prepare Vash to enter into school and stuff.
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Whatever, you know, because, you know, like I talked about before
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he is like so and of course, by the name he is Always moving,
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boom, boom boom, boom. And so the hey buddy.
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Hey, sit down chill, let's slow down a second buddy.
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You know, and kind of work through stuff with it because
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it's like, you know, has those moments were as I want, he's
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talking way faster than his nose.
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His mouth is moving faster than his brightness process and
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stuff, and he's just like talking like he's no Jibber
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jabbering and it's like has no concern here.
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But then, as I know if you actually slowed him down like
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hey, you know, No XYZ. He can speak plain and clear for
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synthesis, all that stuff when you slow him down and get him to
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focus. So, you know, so So, yeah.
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So and you know, some, some some other stuff that recently that
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I've been watching and listening to this, I really helped me is
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like various interviews with, you know, athletes celebrities
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and stuff like that are because it's like, it's okay, these
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people, you know, They, you know, they're famous, they're
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doing all these different things, whatever, but it's like
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at the core of it, they are still people and they had to go
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through certain things, certain experiences, certain Journeys to
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get to where they are now. And so, just kind of hearing
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those things kind of help can can only speak for myself, has
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kind of helped like me, refocus my mind because it's like,
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sometimes you can see and Things that relate to use our.
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Okay, I've gone through that or I'm going through that and it's
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like, okay here are some ways of how, you know, they tackled the
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they are pro sure. They thought about the situation
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and that my can kind of help you sew a couple that I listened to
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that. I've gone through recently was
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so all wrong Bleacher Report on YouTube.
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Her name is a tailor Rook. She does very dope interviews
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and so I listened to one that she did recently with Shaq And
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then early 2002 and as she did with Michael B, Jordan.
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And so, you know, in the Michael B, Jordan one, it was like, you
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know, some points that kind of came up with him as like, you
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know, he has or he, I guess, I one thing he does always on his
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mind or whatever. It's like his legacy, the
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Legacy, he's leaving behind and then like what Shack just
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hearing like, you know, him talking about how, you know,
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when he gets up in the morning. And stuff whatever.
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He's going to do what he needs to do because you think about is
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like manchac. I speaking everywhere, you know,
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you see him in commercials for food stuff, you seen my
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commercials for printers, you know, he's a you know of course
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the NBA analyst all the and everything in between but he
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still always know going out there giving back to his
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community and stuff whatever and it's like just like hearing him
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talk about what he went through before, he was an athlete while
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he was no permanent playing. And then even now post, you
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know, Ben No been active parent stuff whatever and it's like and
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even like some point he talked on with like you know his
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relationship with his dad and how certain things that his dad
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said or did that changed his course of how he became.
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And it's like one story that I really stuck out with me.
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And of course, my stuff like this always think about like,
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you know, with how I'm kind of talking to, and teaching my kids
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and stuff for the Bears. Like he said, one time when he
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was in high school, Cool. Okay, he's coming to the house
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Taylor about how, you know, back in the day, he used to be more
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of a ball handler and like shooting jump shots and stuff.
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Whatever he said, until one day, during one of his games, you
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know, he made a move, went past the guy and went for a finger
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roll and he missed and he says, Dad came out the bleachers to
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crowd, whatever and told her coach hate calling timeout, like
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no call a timeout and tell. Tikka masala.
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Hey, come on Sonny. Talk to you and basic as I what
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the hell you doing and then he said he knocked says Dad, smack
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the crap out of them and to tell them like, hey, I want to see
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you take no more jump shots, like dunk it.
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Go back in there and dunk it. And Shaq say, he went back in
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there and he dunked it. He said he continued to dunk it.
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And he said every time, you know, he would look over in the
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crowd out the, he dunked it, he was just know, his dad was just
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standing there just like Mmm. Yep.
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Yep. No.
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Not in an approval and he said that, he explained the mentality
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behind why he said. He said, he said he said, y'all
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have seen me over the years whenever I dunk and I'm kicking
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and stuff. Whatever.
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He said because he's I'm trying to touch the rim down because of
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the anger he had towards his father because he had this anger
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and so he was like you know what, he's taking that up taking
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it out on the rim and that is something that, you know, back
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in my youth like, Shooting around and like when I used to
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just just be in the gym or have just solo access to a basketball
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goal and I could just dunk man. That was so freeing just like
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the Jazz Fest flying through the air and just just mashing it
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down. Just felt so good and just like
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relieved so much Hank. Maybe I need to get back in
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shape for maybe I can give my knees back to I can dunk in the
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hell release, some of the stress off of me, but but yeah, by
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anybody, I just hearing things like that.
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I watched Viola Davis talked with The Breakfast Club crew,
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you know, in relation to, like her new book by just like
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certain life experiences that she had and how that's helped
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her with acting and forgiving. You know, some people first of
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the day did, And and there was a tortoise Pace that I was in on
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Friday just listening to. There's this kind of a business
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coach lady that I fall name diary and she was doing a space
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talking about how she recently overcame or the stuff that she
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did recently when she was going through burnout and stuff like
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that or whatever. And a point that she made was,
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you know about like how you know, being kind to ourselves
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and as far as know how how we talk to ourselves and things
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like that, whatever and they're never really hit me because it's
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like I know if I really think about is like, yeah, I am not
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necessarily like the kind of person, you know, to myself, you
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know, when when I'm struggling with certain things or certain
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situations, I'm not, I'm definitely not always the nicest
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person to myself and so just here talking about that and then
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just hit people in general talking about Keno letting go of
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certain baggage and stuff, whatever of the past, which is
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very true because it's like, it's like, it's like, I do
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definitely still carry certain things, thoughts people,
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whatever that I've suffered through that.
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I've heard me or whatever. And the past, whether it be
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something from last few months or years to decades ago type of
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stuff in It's like, it's like I have to just make peace with
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those situations and fully move forward and leave them behind
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just like, of course, don't forget to the stuff that they
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taught me or that I learned from those situations.
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But I have to move on just because it's like I feel like I
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have taken up so much space in my heart and in my mind carrying
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hurtful things to where it's like, hey it is what it is to
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wear no. Like sometimes it's like me Then
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my mouth only one, you know, they were members the situation
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that you put me through or that we went through or whatever.
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Because. Okay, everybody has to move down
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and happy smiling like no. This thing happened while I
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know, but it's like I got to let it go and so it make peace with
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it and let it go. And so it's like that.
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That is why like, Sonny I need to take this time.
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Take a step away because it's like, you know, I thought about
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was you know, what? A lot of content that I've put
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out the last week or whatever. I was, I could have just
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schedule that out over the next couple of weeks, whatever.
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But I'm like, I know how I am even if it was like, Hey, and
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two weeks drop on a Friday blahblahblah.
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I know I would still be tempted to like looking at.
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Okay, did it upload correctly? Did it come out?
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Did it published? And so as I know, I'll just do
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just a couple of few weeks just like with nothing and it's like,
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after I finish this, I need to just say hook, my microphone, my
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webcam put it away in a drawer. I'll unpack it in June and cuz
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like I said, II really need to like disconnect from everything
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because, you know, I've even been trying to plan out like,
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you know, my phone activity stuff.
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Whatever. I've you know, I've talked about
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before how I had it 11:30. Then I moved to strike 11 and
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earlier today decides like, you know what, let me just move it
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to like to 10:30 just because it's like, okay.
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Sorry thing is Bob by that point in the day, whatever.
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Hey, You know, I have my mic or people like my wife kiss, no
27:19
brother-in-law, sister-in-law nieces and nephews stuff like
27:23
that or whatever. Like hey, I know these core
27:26
people reach out to me past a certain point.
27:28
It is an emergency. But otherwise hey emails texts
27:33
or whatever DM stuff can wait till tomorrow because I need to
27:39
Get myself on a better routine. Better regimen, I've talked
27:43
about it before. I have chipped away at it but
27:45
then I fell right back off and it's like no, I need to have
27:49
these couple hours at the end of the day at the end of the night
27:53
for me to like, okay I'm off the phone, I'm off, social media,
27:58
all this stuff, and heck even with social media, I'm thinking,
28:01
maybe, just muting everything and eat, maybe even hiding those
28:05
apps or whatever, just so I won't be tempted.
28:09
You know, suggest they do the do, the, the mollusc rolling and
28:14
start that kind of comes with that, but Maya, just a staff.
28:18
And and I also kind of want to like, you know, rethink like how
28:25
I'm also doing like some of this content stuff because it's like
28:29
I found myself caught up in doing a lot of stuff that I
28:34
never really intended for things to go this way to where it's
28:38
like, you know I am considered by some people, a manga tuber
28:42
which I am happy, glad to be part of that community and be to
28:45
be considered one of, you know, one amongst many.
28:50
But, you know, it's like now. A lot of people think, oh, he
28:54
just how many does manga stepping is like now, you know,
28:57
this is really just promised would be for me to be venting
29:00
and talking about life stuff, sharing family stories and you
29:05
know, TV and engineer thing between rare.
29:07
But it was like, it's like 90% what I'm putting out is like
29:10
Manga reviews. Just up for there with a couple
29:12
of anime reviews here and there, but it's like now I want to get
29:16
back to doing like other stuff, more wider variety of stuff
29:19
that's not to say that. Hey, I will still do the manga
29:23
stuff cuz Hey, how could I not see this too much?
29:25
Good stuff out there, whatever. But being in this space,
29:28
whatever sometimes kind of get you caught up and Beings
29:33
whatever. And it's like, even like with
29:36
buying manga, it's like, there's some stuff I'm looking at
29:38
myself. And I'm, like, like, recent
29:41
months when I was like, hey, I had some extra money to spend.
29:45
Oh, that looks cool. Bye-bye, bye-bye, bye-bye,
29:47
bye-bye. And like I said, it's very easy
29:49
to get company. Especially you seeing every
29:51
month, but manga, haul videos, we all do to his like five
29:55
hundred dollar manga Hall. Oh, you know, you know, April
30:00
manga Hall, Volumes picked up, you know, it's easy to get
30:06
caught up in the numbers and stuff, whatever.
30:08
But then it's like, okay, how about 50?
30:11
But it's like I'm looking at half of it.
30:13
I'm like, yeah. You probably not going to
30:16
actually even re though, so you just don't wasted money, you
30:21
know? But it is what it is.
30:23
It's lesson learned. But like psychologist, get back
30:25
to doing stuff for. I want to go back because want
30:27
one thing that I want, one fun thing that I did last year, I
30:31
would love to do it again. What?
30:33
Was that that review discussion. I did with my kids where we all
30:37
watch the Mitchells versus the machines movie.
30:41
And we washed it, then we talked about it, together.
30:43
Whatever, that was so fun. I want to do more stuff like
30:45
that. I want to continue to do these
30:48
collaborations and stuff that I've been doing with other
30:50
people or whatever because it's like, there's so many, don't
30:52
people out there doing so many amazing things and it's like, I
30:56
want to continue to have those conversations with them
31:00
highlight, the work that they're doing and just how I People in
31:03
general that are behind a lot of dope stuff out there because
31:07
there's so many people that I've met and talked to that, I'm
31:09
better like, hey, nobody has ever even asked me to be on a
31:11
podcast. This is very cool and so it's
31:15
like, our, I just love that I love being able to help shine a
31:22
spotlight, other do people in the community and stuff
31:25
whatever? So I different paint on continue
31:27
to doing more of that going forward because I already have
31:31
stuff, scheduled and planned out And yeah, and just being more
31:34
active from overall cuz you know, I have something very cool
31:41
and the works right now, that fingers crossed, I hope
31:44
everything goes through. Y'all will know when the time
31:46
comes, but I am working on something, which could be
31:52
something, potentially very big for my podcast and stuff,
31:55
whatever, depending on how things shake out, or whatever.
31:58
But just, you know, I just ask for whatever whatever you do
32:02
believe, You for whatever is I hate, send me all your prayers,
32:06
all your positive energy, Positive Vibes, chakras from the
32:10
universe, you know, Spirit energy, whatever.
32:14
Send it out to me in the hopes that I am able to pull through,
32:22
get the rest, I need and find what I'm you know find what that
32:29
next step is for me and prepare for a better.
32:33
Future for myself and for my family.
32:36
And so, yeah, that that that, you know, I can really ask for
32:42
for, for too much more beyond that.
32:43
But, you know, I truly appreciate.
32:46
You know, everybody that has been on this journey with me up
32:53
to this point in this last year. My friends and family that have
32:58
stuck by me over the years. Even before I was doing this
33:00
podcast and content creation stuff, whatever If I truly love
33:04
and appreciate all of y'all out there and hope that, you know,
33:10
future Robert that when you look back on this six months, or a
33:14
year from now that we are in a better place in a better
33:20
position and that you are better.
33:24
Because like I said, it's like the stress.
33:27
Is so real, it is so heavy to where it's like I can physically
33:32
feel it. You know that, that's why,
33:34
that's how I know. Okay, I really got to take this
33:37
seriously because as I walk, I can physically feel it.
33:41
You know, I feel my knocking film us again, easily agitated
33:46
and even heard irritated by certain things just because it's
33:50
like, I'm not resting and taking as much care of myself, as what
33:56
I as what I should be and what I need to be by, I just need to
34:01
find My peace, my mom routine, my regimen.
34:07
Something that will work for me. I know, you know, I am truly
34:13
looking forward to the day to wear, you know?
34:18
I am able to move outside of the space that I'm in now because it
34:21
is truly. I thought it was before but it
34:23
is truly too small for us because like I said you know
34:29
when we moved in here, six years ago, yes, summer 2016.
34:34
We moved in here, you know my oldest for kids, they were Well,
34:40
liked. Six.
34:45
Well, the old the old is through maybe like seven or eight six,
34:50
seven eight somewhere in there and then we're hold on.
34:56
Yeah yeah the oldest for they were they were three Six and
35:06
seven, something like that. And now they're 9 12 and 13 and
35:15
bachelor's and even even a thought six years ago and now
35:18
he's for so it was like not only did the the older for they're
35:23
already here. Get older and bigger freaking
35:26
preteens and teens but now we have a whole other person that
35:30
wasn't even in the equation when this all began, and it's just
35:34
like, you know, It's lot of stepping on each other's toes
35:39
and stuff for. They were a lot of slipping each
35:41
other space because it's like, you know, different schedules
35:44
and stuff because it's like, you know, it's like, you know, I'm
35:47
going for bed, but then my wife, she's still kind of a night owl.
35:51
So that so then like I'm trying to sleep and then she's on apex
35:56
and I've told you before like when she on apex should be
35:58
beasting and stuff or whatever and it's like hey babe I'm glad
36:05
y'all got the dub but I Can't go to sleep.
36:07
I got work in the morning. So I the language may be chill a
36:13
bit baby but you know, but you know, where's it's like, you
36:18
know, if we had more spaces, like I had, we have a dedicated
36:22
gaming room or the or gaming Den, or whatever because that,
36:28
that is one thing that I love chance my friend Brie and Aaron,
36:32
that's one thing I love about their houses.
36:34
Like they have like, you know, Cool setup, living room area but
36:39
then they also have they have like this separate bin area that
36:43
you know the hell I some gaming stuff, whatever in there.
36:45
And it's like I want that type of setup tour as I okay.
36:49
Hey, if I just need space to myself to record or just watch
36:53
TV, whatever I can do that there or like I said if if I'm if I'm
37:00
trying to go to bed for work and my wife still want to be a
37:03
painting game, whatever she can go in that space, whatever.
37:06
So but I Is I know I know it will come in due time, but my
37:14
yeah, like I said, it's just, you know that there's this is
37:17
like Siam dubbing this, my my preparation or but like said
37:22
before I can, you know, make the best decisions I need to as a
37:29
father husband for my job, my career for this podcast and
37:36
content. Creation, I need to get myself
37:39
right, you know, and just kind of just reset and ReDiscover and
37:48
yeah, but like I said, for anybody, that actually listen to
37:53
this whole thing, I truly appreciate you for just
37:58
listening because you know and then that is something else.
38:02
Honey, I need to get better at doing again and I've done little
38:07
bit, but I need to do it more but it's like, Finding more of
38:12
my life outside of my, my family that I live in this house with
38:18
because no, nobody, no, not my wife, not my kids.
38:22
Nobody here told me like, hey, stop hanging out with people
38:25
stop, you know, visiting family, and that it does.
38:30
Nobody told me, that whatever is just like, I just secluded
38:34
myself on my own and it's like there's so many do people even
38:39
just an area. I So many family that's in the
38:41
area that it's like, you know, a scene and -, you know, some
38:47
years, you know? Heck I have a cousin that is
38:50
somewhere in the area that we have not seen each other since
38:53
we were kids, and it's like, no excuse.
38:58
Hey, I've been living up here in the DFW area for 10 years.
39:05
Now, since I finished college and I moved the person
39:09
delivering my sister's family. A for a couple years and then
39:12
moved out on my own and now where I'm at now it's like hey
39:15
had a Whole Decade man. And so yeah but that that adjust
39:20
something else like I said that that and that is also why.
39:23
Like I said it's like I've thought of like okay hey I've
39:26
had these couple years and meet me being in this job, it's not
39:28
that I'm at now was so key and beneficial for.
39:34
When I went to the stuff with, you know, with, you know, losing
39:36
my mom and my sister a couple of years ago, Because if I was at
39:42
the old job when that happened, ain't no telling, what stay I
39:46
would be in today. If I had to go through that,
39:50
while being in that toxic work environment, whereas here it
39:54
was. Okay.
39:54
I was able to kind of like tape somewhere, take time.
39:57
And it's a little bit slower Pace, whatever but it's not.
39:59
Okay, I've had a couple of years to kind of chill and recoup but
40:06
I can't allow myself to get too complacent.
40:10
Like I said, especially One is I hey I got I have stuff that I'm
40:13
trying to do stuff that I'm trying to achieve and you know
40:18
me kind of twirling my thumb's or kind of just I do.
40:21
Well I put in you know five years here and we'll get there
40:26
eventually whereas I Knight you know I got the skills I got the
40:30
knowledge to where I can pursue pursue other things and you know
40:38
make leaps Now versus waiting and dragging out time of Lyle,
40:45
maybe in five years by, you know, continue doing I'm doing,
40:49
I'll get their Adventures. Like I know, you know, you know,
40:55
because like I said, it's like, you know, these next eight to
40:59
ten years are probably going to be some of the most crucial to
41:06
me as a person to my family because like I said, like, hey,
41:11
things is about to Things is about to wrap up to a whole
41:18
another level over these years. Cause like I said, like, I got
41:22
kids that are becoming teenagers.
41:25
Now, you know, Vashon turning school, he's a bench might be
41:30
going doing sports and stuff too, and it's like, guy got some
41:36
work to do, whatever to make sure that we can be okay while
41:40
we go through this Gauntlet you know asked me on a front along
41:44
the way but I want to be able to make sure and know that I'm
41:49
providing a stable environment for my family and stuff to where
41:57
it's like yeah cuz it's one thing to work like crazy or be
42:03
busy like crazy but it's a hey At least the stuff.
42:06
This needs to be taken. Care of, is getting taken care
42:08
of, but it's not. Okay.
42:09
Where can I crazy? Whatever?
42:10
And it's like, you still struggling that, that's not
42:13
where it's at. And so, so, yes, like I said,
42:16
yeah, I'm just trying to figure out.
42:19
Do, do, what's necessary and stuff, whatever.
42:21
So you know, could that? That is truly something that I
42:25
admired from, you know, my sister and you know her family
42:30
whatever toy was like hey they saw something needs to be done.
42:34
Down or they see. Okay.
42:35
Hey, we're in the situation. We need to get out at the drop
42:38
of a dime. They would pivot move, do
42:42
whatever, you know. Cuz I still never forget the
42:44
story of like my brother-in-law years ago.
42:46
I was like, or we did go back on him when I was freaking in high
42:50
school, some over 15 years ago, whatever.
42:54
But it's like, you know, he got presented with the opportunity
42:59
to do something or whatever, but it was like, hey, you need to
43:02
make this choice now. Or tomorrow he made the choice
43:07
and it was a life-changing decision, you know, for for for
43:13
you know, him and my sister and their family and stuff whatever.
43:16
And yeah. And then they continue to do
43:20
that over the years, whatever, you know, making moves and
43:23
stuff. Whatever Twirls like, you know,
43:24
people on the outside, was kind of a man, like, what are y'all
43:27
doing? What is going on, but it's like,
43:29
he's not everybody, that's on the outside, looking in, we'll
43:34
Able to understand why you moving the way you move, while
43:38
you doing the things that you're doing.
43:40
And sometimes it's, you know, it is what it is.
43:42
Sometimes you have to make moves and do what is best for you
43:47
mean, a regardless of what friends and family, or whoever
43:50
else might say you might refer, some, some feathers whatever
43:54
here and there, but sometimes we have to do what's needed for
43:59
ourselves for our peace for our security and with that.
44:04
Stop rambling because I'm not going on 45 minutes with this.
44:08
But but like I said, I am going away for a little while.
44:12
I need to go away for a little while.
44:15
It's going to be hard but like until these first few days, I
44:19
maestas me, pecking around online here and they're liking
44:22
stuff whatever, but I truly need to Breakaway and figure some
44:28
stuff out, because if I don't, you know, then then the burnout
44:33
and the Crash is going to be, it can be something vicious and I
44:37
don't want to get to that point. And so yeah, but for those of
44:41
y'all been needs to reach me, y'all know how to reach me.
44:45
Like I said, I might periodically like check to see
44:47
if there's any DNA or whatever, but otherwise, I will see you on
44:51
the other side of this. Thank y'all so much for the love
44:54
and support and just know. That's when I come back in June,
45:00
I'm coming back with some with some Thunder and with that, I am
45:06
done. Like, I always say, treat
45:09
yourself to some nice. Read some manga watch some anime
45:14
and TV. Play some video games and live
45:17
your best life and treat yourself like truly be nice to
45:23
yourself and that's what a point on the gaming thing to.
45:26
That's something else. I want to get back.
45:28
I want to ReDiscover my love and my connection for gaming because
45:33
I have done so little of that, but I feel like now is the
45:36
perfect time because I'm going into June, you know, even though
45:41
III got They're still gonna be the gaming press conferences and
45:45
announcements and stuff whatever.
45:46
And it's like I want to rekindle that side of things because I
45:51
have I have a passion project in my mind that is gang-related
45:55
that I want to do a video and content stuff around.
45:59
And it's like I wanted to I want to get back to that place to
46:02
where I'm, you know, bouncing out to where I'm not just 100%
46:06
on manga and stuff. Whatever drama, you know,
46:09
balancing things out or whatever.
46:10
And so, but And if not for me rambling, thank y'all again.
46:15
I love y'all so freaking much. Yeah.
46:19
Hey, if y'all have any ideas or any tips or advice, feel free to
46:23
hit me up. You know, DME email me, you
46:28
know, the email all the links to everything is always in my
46:31
description box and my bio all that stuff.
46:34
You already know what it is. Robbed at Dan least talk on
46:38
Twitter Instagram, patreon YouTube, Everything.
46:43
But I am done and I am tired. I am also tired, but I will
46:49
catch all soon. Love y'all, but I'm out.
46:55
Peace.