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Teen Top Golfer to Hawaii’s most wanted - Kyle Quilausing · Nightmare Success In and Out

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What happens when your worst fear becomes your reality?
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Hi. I'm Brent, Cassidy.
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Welcome to the nightmare success in and out podcast, where we
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explore, how to overcome your fears and Nightmares to set
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yourself free. We're going to be exploring this
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topic with guys that was in Leavenworth with and others who
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served at other prisons. We're going to be talking about
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life before prison life in prison life out of prison.
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These stories can be inspiring. Sometimes sad, there's some
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humor. But hopefully, you can come away
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with a nugget of something that will help you knock down some of
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the prisons you've built up in your own mind.
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So today, folks, I have something I am really excited
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about because I had a fraternity brother of mine that listens to
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the podcast. And he sent me an article, Chris
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Stegall, by the way, Chris, Shout out to you.
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And this is, I mean that just the headline of this.
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This article that was said it was.
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And I think it was in Yahoo news and This is, I went from being
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one of the top 10 golfers to Hawaii's Most Wanted now, I try
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to help kids out of the dark hole.
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I fell into and Kyle was killed housing calculus and he would,
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he played golf against Tiger? Woods was ranked fourth in the
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world. Is teen is promising career?
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As a golfer was derailed as a teen and he ended up in prison
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until age 39. Nine.
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This is an incredible Story. I mean it's in the thing that I
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love about this and I love the fact that Kyle's on here today
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because this guy is making a difference, he's taking this
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like journey of a story that he has and he's going out and he's
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talking to kids about how you need to be watching where you
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step and he's using that and he's using all the elements of
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what he has and it's really inspiring.
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Kyle. Welcome and man, thank you for
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being here. Aloha, brother bread from
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Hawaii. Thank you so much for having me,
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and I'm super grateful for man. Next time we'll have to go do
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this in Hawaii face-to-face. Should bring a golf club.
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All right, Carl, so let's talk about this.
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You you growing up in Hawaii, I mean golf had to be a big part
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of your life to be as good as you were.
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Frank, fourth is a teenager. How did you get, how did this
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all happen for you as a kid? I'm born and raised in Hawaii.
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All my life, my parents got divorced at the age of three.
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So I moved in with my grandpa and my grandma.
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My grandpa's name was George Martin, he was a chief of police
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at the time, okay. And just so happens my grandpa
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his backyard. You walk over one.
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Stone wall is the golf course. Wow it's the golf course and it
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was just a matter of time before my grandfather was a pub in my
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hand and he was my father figure during out.
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So I followed him wherever wherever he went.
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And he was in a golf course whenever he could and I followed
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him and he showed me on swing and he taught me golf and he
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told me, That everything that comes with golf with etiquette
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and morals and all that good stuff.
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Yeah, and I had on beautiful upbringing, despite my parents
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being divorced. And at the age of 10, he entered
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me into my first date. Permit, which I want you won
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your first tournament. My first experiment, at 10 years
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old. He said boy, I want to sign you
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up for this tournament because that that tournament was at the
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golf course right in the backyard.
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It was perfect. You doing playing it?
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I knew I knew. Every Green.
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I knew every slope. I know everything about that
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course. Wow that was like my playground
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is your backyard. He signed me out and I want I
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was Well, kids your been thinking Kyle as a kid?
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I know, I mean like I know when I want that State title, it
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allowed me to jump on a plane two months later to go to San
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Diego. California to play in the junior
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World Championships at Presidio Hills, California.
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Wow. Well, I met eldrick Tiger Woods
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with a very first time because he want his State.
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I want my state. So everybody who won this States
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is now in? In San Diego at pursue Hills.
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Golf Course. How Wild is that?
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Yeah, I remember looking at him and I'm thinking hold this kid
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is good and I was watching him and this tournament was three
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days. Three days long.
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The first two days I had on lead and I remember the camera crew
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and wasn't thinking right at Forest Hills and I'm not blaming
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a camera crew and sauce but I I got pressured Allah and the last
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day I choked and tiger came first.
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First. I came for, and I remember I was
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playing with him in the same group and he was talking about
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Hawaii bra. He was telling me Hawaii,
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Hawaii, and he started calling me pineapple pineapple because a
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point. Yeah, and why I came for it and
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I flew back home to Hawaii. And I went on my grandpa's wall
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and I sat on the wall, looking into the golf course, 10 years
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old state champ, and it's the first time I was ranked for you
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in the world and I'll sitting on the wall looking into the golf
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course. Young Kyle and I made on goal
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for myself that day and this was my goal to play.
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Junior golf beat everybody and Ringo.
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Go to high school beat everybody in high school.
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Go to college. Be everybody in college graduate
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turned Pearl. And buy me a mansion there.
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It is. That was my goal at 10 years
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old. That's a 10 year old that's a
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ten-year-old is thinking. Uh, yeah.
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So every day I woke up before before the sun was up, I would
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get up. I have my golf bag ready as soon
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as I could see, little bit light outside.
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I would jump over that wall and I will start golfing until I
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hear my grandpa yell boys school.
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Then I'll run home. Jump over the wall, put my golf
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clubs down. Put my backpack on school so you
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Had a real passion for it. Kyle, since watching my grandpa
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hit that ball bra, when this rule was like everything.
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And all and I know for achieve my goal at ten years old.
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I got to be smart in school because that's not my grandpa
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told me, right? You Gotta Be, You gotta be
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respectful. You gotta learn.
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You gotta have good grades. So I was honor.
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Roll student, I'll come home from school and my golf clap.
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My golf bag. Jump over a worn-out golf till
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dark. So that was my schedule.
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Bro, are we did every day is doing it, Junior.
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I want 60 titles and I was doing it wrong.
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I went into high school and I was beating Everybody in high
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school and we fast forward the tape to my senior year.
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Every day, I would come home from school, I'll open the
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mailbox and will have numerous college applications.
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Scholarships come to here. Come to here, come to him.
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Did you have it last Kyle that you wanted to go?
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No, I had no idea. I am I want Island Boy.
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Local boy, I don't know anything, but Golf and Hawaii,
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that's it. And I remember going through two
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envelopes in my mom, my grandpa already had passed away.
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Way. And I remember looking at the
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envelopes and whole, where's this, where's this awesome?
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That's too far. Is too far from home, son.
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And I remember this going through that with my mom and
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then high school high school, senior year, Might have had a
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lot of friends who would be able dabbled in with drugs and they
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would that boat in alcohol and we read is a big thing here in
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Hawaii. And but I stayed focused, I
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stayed focused and everybody knew that I was going to put
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Hawaii on the map and Hawaii is on close-knit community and
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everybody. Everybody was proud of me and
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everybody else telling me Kyle, you stay on this path.
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You can you can put Hawaii on the map and you're going to be
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famous and you can be written. Rich and well, all these things
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about people telling me a lot to think about as a kid.
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Yeah, I put in panty work to, you know, planning work, bra,
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the honor, roll student high school, I know, I know do
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anything jogs, nothing, and I physically strong.
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And I am smart and I can go. So my senior year of high
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school, I sitting in class behind me in the speaker.
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Said Kyle closing, please come to the office.
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So I understand up, I told the teacher Miss, I go into the
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office. Okay, I walk to the office and
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not going to do her, my principles Voice, come in and
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open up. Do I my I seen my principal and
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somebody that I never did see before in my life.
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You can stand up, you should Kyle.
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I've been following you and this is this.
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And I'm here to offer you a full ride scholarship.
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And I'm speak out my hand and I shook his hand like this and the
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reason why I shook his hand because he took the initiative
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of jumping on a plane around and coming all the way to an island
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for me and talk to me. So, with that being said, that
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showed a lot of character were so I shook his hand and I said,
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I see you in six months, bro. He said I see you in six months,
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bro. Oh, and turn around and shake my
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principles. And I turn around and my head.
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Instantly got this big, but my head got so big and got filled
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with arrogance. Nah, Kyle, where did you say he
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was wrong? Where did you say the?
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Get the man was from what college.
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I don't remember what kind so much schools wrong.
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Well, it was just a big school that you, you were way out to.
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And at that time, I never did even care of, on a plane to
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come, see you. Yeah.
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And everything happened so fast by Brad.
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I couldn't even walk out of the office.
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My head got so big instantly and everybody's voices in my head
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are telling me Kyle. You're gonna be famous.
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You can be that you can be a millionaire.
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Yeah, I just watered that feedback, and my head got big,
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and I was walking around campus on different person, but my
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mindset was sense of entitlement.
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You cannot tell me nothing. I will be a millionaire and I
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want I will be on Pearl. So the teachers they took notice
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bruh, instantly they took notice and they're telling me to be
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honest. I'd Kyle, you better humble
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yourself? You never graduate yet my
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response to them was brown. I'll tell me what for dooba.
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You just don't each other. I won't be a millionaire called
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oh come on to do Kyle. You better watch them until you
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watch yourself from and my summer mentality was and it came
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to a point. Well, it got out of hand Rock.
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And I did something bad to an email one, man teacher and I
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threw something, when object at him and because I wanted for
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impressed everybody that I will be better than him.
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And And I got expelled, bruh. Hmm.
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So we just before graduation, it's six months of graduation,
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two weeks. After the guy left, I got kicked
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out her and I, my mom, I went to the office.
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The teacher was in there and the princess went looking me shake
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his head. He said Kyle I could charge you.
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I could call the police right now and we could charge you with
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assault with a weapon because what you did to him.
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Then I look at that picture and I said I'm sorry but I just was
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trying to impress my friends and that girl and I'm sorry.
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Well, I never nothing personal. He never liked nothing to do
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with me and look at the prints of I said, but I just wasn't
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here two weeks ago with the guy. You saw me shake his hand, bro.
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Should have thought about that first bra.
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You see that phone Kyle. Pick him up.
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Call somebody for pick you up. I said I'm sorry give me a
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chance. No pick up the phone.
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I pick up the phone. I call my mom and I said Mom I
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got kick all we gotta come, pick me up.
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She was what you so dumb. Sound wait, right there.
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She drive down to the school. She said, wait outside, she went
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in office. I thought everything was gonna
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be. Okay, she came home, she was
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crying. You should get in a costume.
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I got in a car. She said you so dumb son.
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What you been doing all over? I don't know, I don't know
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nothing about golf but I never, I never, I never picked that
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time for learn anything else wrong.
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Just called and no, my dreams got shattered wrong.
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And what the word, the word got out, faster you call that in
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Hawaii, coconut Wireless Point heard about Kyle raw.
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He do, you know, probably I mean, obviously really well
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known because you're gone. Yeah, we live on an island bra.
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And every time all the window, put me on the news Kyle, kill a
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single Prodigy. Bang boom calculus.
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See ya. So now the word got out bruh and
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wherever I went a supermarket in my mom.
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People, people would actually come up to me and tell me the
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whole time. We heard what happened?
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You so dumb wrong. He had on bright future, I know.
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I will do the beach barbecuing in my family.
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People would come up to me all kind of we heard what happened?
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He's so dumb. What do you think this constant
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constant? Then one day I said I owe their
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home and I was in my room. And I started crying.
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Then I came out of my room and I said, Mom, she said, yes and
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what's the matter? She said I got to get out of
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Yellowstone. I'm on my gotta get out of here.
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I gotta leave. She said what you're talking
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about. I said, I tied wherever I go,
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my, you heard you heard these people telling me I da mi da my
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dumb. I know I made a bad choice Rock
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but I cannot handle her anymore. I just turned 18 years old.
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She said, what did I do? Then I said, I want, I want to
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Alaska. She said, who are, you know
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what? I'll ask them.
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I said, nobody wrong. Nobody, I just gotta go, and
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nobody can call me stupid and dumb over there.
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And at that time, my mom has like two jobs and she had her
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financed was it wasn't good. So she said someone ticket is
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expensive. So tonight, we better go in your
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room and think about this ra. And the next day, if you still
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feel the same way, I started, I won't buy you a ticket bought a
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one-way ticket. And if I do Buy on one-way
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tickets on, you better not walk to Alaska and he called me and
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he told me you stopped, you understand son.
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So you better go in your room and think about this one. so,
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all night I couldn't sleep, but it was thinking about thinking
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about the next day came. I woke up.
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I told my mom and going to see the show.
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I said, I sure she bought me a one-way ticket to Alaska, 18
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years old, just on the, what it called me dumb anymore.
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I had two backpacks that I left. I was in Alaska for five years.
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I had three, beautiful kids, Three Sons, And in Alaska.
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I just I just want the existing, I found some indoor golf stuff.
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I used to go golf and I still not need to lick on.
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I still not into drugs. They're still good wrong.
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Then, one day, I woke up and the Eskimo Girls, wait at the time.
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I wake her up. She said what's the matter I
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said I'm going home? She said you go back to sleep.
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You home. I said no this is not my home
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run. I don't take my kids and I can
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go back to Hawaii and when you're ready you come I won't
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have on face loss. She said, you should I said, I
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sure. So she said, okay, and my little
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sister from Hawaii flew up to Alaska because my kids were
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small She held me my kids we went back to Hawaii as soon as
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my plane and land in Hawaii. Ian land right into the crystal
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meth epidemic. I don't know nothing about
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Crystal, man. I don't know nothing about drugs
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but that's why our land back home.
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The first thing is first day home, I jump in my sister's
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Honda Civic and I enjoyed on the beach but they don't why you
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always have to be truck. So the first feature, when I
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seem like I see my friend, I was looking at him like that FEMA
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want my friend looks so ugly bra before I left, he was unhealthy,
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he was a football player, he was big and he was strong, then I
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was looking at him. He was he looked broken hint of
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griddle. He looked frail and I call his
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name. He turned around.
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He said, who Kyle I said, hey, what's up bro?
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What happened to you? But you look ugly wrong.
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He bought someone crystal meth pipe and he said, radio calls,
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you gotta try this Brian. I'll get that on my face.
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Well, I went wrong all my friends was skinny, those ugly
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and they don't crystal meth pipe.
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And was just a matter of time wrong.
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To see everybody. Everybody around, there was in
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one way everybody when using them.
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And I'm not blaming anybody bra. I made the choice.
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One day, I was surfing, I put my surfboard in the back of the
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truck and turn around my friend, had on crystal meth pipe.
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Radio, it come on, Barry calls. This will let me steal.
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This thing is all about and when I, when I am blow that crystal
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meth smoke Brent I blew out everything that was instilled in
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me as on child, every ounce of goodness in my body came home.
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And I instantly became an addict Rock and I did what was
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necessary for few my addiction right there.
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Holy I, I did plenty bad things wrong to people my home, my
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home. Oh boy.
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And they put me back on the news again.
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But this time it's not for gold because they labeled me Hawaii's
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Most Wanted and they said, you're telling the public.
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If you guys see Kyle closing, please do not try and apprehend
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Call 911 in all this bad stuff about me.
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Blasting me all over. I brought plenty of Shame upon
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my family. I brought Penny shame upon
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myself. An addiction is.
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Is. Not good.
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An addition, I had no control over my addiction.
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And I like I said, I did what was necessary for feel my
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addiction and crystal meth had his grip Sami and had no
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intentions of letting me go. So I'm curious car when you got
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into that. You felt like you'd pretty much
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just kind of your the rest of your life of shut off your skin
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and you got into stealing cars and things that would basically
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fill your addiction to Method. If what was in your mind.
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Did it feel like that you were out of control?
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Did you? Feel like you were addicted or
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did it feel like you were still in control and that you
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everybody else was crazy. I felt I had to do all of the
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necessary, but I felt like nobody could touch me.
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I felt like And nobody could wrong.
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And like I said, I live on an island.
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And the police was trying to get in wagon, run, Brent, in
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circles, run. So when I came home from Alaska,
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I was like, 24, maybe 20, 40 low.
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So, I was addicted to Crystal Meth like 45 years and I ran
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amok. And I did quite well as a
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fugitive for being on an island. I would take it would be really
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hard to be a fugitive on an island.
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It is it is that's why my story is soul.
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Different. Because Everybody knows me.
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Everybody knew me and the police know me personally and when they
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caught me I was 29 years old, 98 pounds full-blown, crystal meth
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addict, Hawaii's, Most Wanted, and I this is my mug shot.
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I will show you a picture. Wow.
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For once my mug shot, you look like a different person.
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Yep. If you Google my name, this
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picture will pop up. There's everybody can see that?
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Because it is what goes to YouTube.
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You can see his picture and we'll make sure that that's a
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credible. You don't look like the same
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person. You believe this guy. 168 titles
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ring fort in the world and golf against I go.
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Would you believe that? It's crazy as yeah.
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That's why I stole Cash. Number what I do, bro.
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So go ahead. So Kyle we take it.
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So you're at you're basically living life as a fugitive you
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finally get caught. They take you in and now you're
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experiencing this world of a prison.
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Our youth. Are you thinking?
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Because I know what happens. I mean I'm going to let you
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explain it but you don't stay in there.
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Okay. So this is the first time I've
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ever talked to somebody who did this.
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So you're going to have to walk me through, I don't know nothing
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about jail. I don't know nothing about the
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system, I don't know nothing about nothing.
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All I know is I in the Helo journalist right by my house.
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So I all I did for the first two weeks of eat and sleep, cuz
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there's two things I didn't do well on my addiction.
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Finally, I got, I came to my senses wrong.
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So my weight, I'm at my weight came back.
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I was physically strong but the my addiction to Crystal Meth was
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even stronger over and the jail at that time was over
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overwhelmed with people like at three men to a sale just was
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packed to the gills so they made a makeshift dorm out of an old
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cafeteria and they put all of us inside your head. 40 of us.
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And at the top of this dorm 40 feet up, there's a little
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Skylight round triangle window. Then I remember looking at the
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sky light way up on the ceiling and one of my friends came out
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to me and say bro what you looking at I see the see that
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window. Well, don't you said?
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Yeah, I'm going to escape course.
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Any in Hawaii, you eat a sir, your Waterman, or you want to
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Convoy around and you go to the mountains or two main things in
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Hawaii, and the guy I was talking to he, he was like one
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rodeo guy ever. I just got, he win buckles bra
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and I told him you and your friends, bro, you can kick
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everybody off. You guys off the mattresses, you
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can strip the sheets from and you guys will make me on a rope
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like what cowboys do bruh. And you can last all that light
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that is dangling up there. So you guys gonna do and at that
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time of my life being The Fugitive that I was in a dark
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Road Penny people in respect me around so when I told him that
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he was on it right him and his friends started kicking
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everybody in the head, get off, get off, get off.
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They got the sheets, they rip them.
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They make a braid they made on roll.
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My friend brought the Rope to me.
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I can see that light right now, laughs so long, bro.
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Like you do it on Rodeo in laughs Total light.
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Boom! That was it.
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Give me the Rope. I am climb up the rope and grab
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onto the light and climb up the cable made my way up.
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Like, when ninja, I will meet him through the window and broke
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the window of my elbow. I squeeze my way out of the
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window. I was on the roof.
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I jumped off the roof. 40 feet. Oh my gosh, first player.
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The first Toyota truck I saw its toll Them and I found Crystal
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men once again. Wow.
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Yep. 40 feet, a long ways to jump, but I guess if you're
23:36
relying waited, you gotta have it wrong way to jump, but I
23:39
forgot to tell you that being. It caught me.
23:43
The data called me, a pulled me back on the news and they put me
23:47
back in the papers, the front page, you put my picture and
23:52
they put the big catch captured. So one of the public they wanted
23:58
the public to know that I'm in custody so they can breathe a
24:02
sigh of relief. Yeah.
24:04
The police department had a party because they're the
24:06
hottest time catching Mira. So when I an escape hole there
24:12
wasn't good, there wasn't good and they came they came full
24:17
force bro and every day on my skateboard go to one house and
24:22
I'll take the newspaper out of the mailbox and I'll read them
24:25
and they'll write me messages. We know what do you say?
24:28
We will get you and well, I gotta ask I gotta ask you Kyle.
24:32
Okay. You escaped from prison.
24:34
I mean that's something that, you know, you just and I mean I
24:36
watched Shawshank Redemption and so So Andy Dufresne knock
24:39
through 19 years of wall. You got out of a window jump 40
24:43
feet stole a car. Where did you go?
24:46
What did you do? Because it was like 12, or was
24:49
it like 12 days of being on the Run whole days, right?
24:53
How did you Heist? How did you call days?
24:55
Tree? High-speed chases.
24:57
Wow, yeah, so like I said, in the criminal world of people
25:01
wouldn't look up to Mira for what I did.
25:04
So I would go to like Auto red light districts now, go to where
25:07
I know. Many addicts.
25:09
Yeah. And they would see media be like
25:11
oh yeah I did they would help me and go get the drugs for me and
25:16
said that couldn't be seen at. All right.
25:19
And God is good bra. So finally they caught me
25:24
finally. They caught me like a cheetah.
25:27
Oh man, somebody told them they had like There's offering money
25:34
for capturing me and the once an offer money Rah.
25:39
There was it, that was it, people they knew and they call
25:43
the cops and I gave them a run for their money, bruh.
25:48
And they caught me. It, took me back to the same
25:52
jail that I escaped from, but this time I was Shackled from
25:56
head to toe belly, chains, everything I couldn't, I
25:59
couldn't even move properly, I got to ask because I hate being
26:03
Shackled, that's like the most dehumanizing thing.
26:05
But at that time and you've been this kid that everybody knew and
26:11
thought that you were going to be the guy that made, you know,
26:14
the island proud because you were going to be that
26:16
professional golfer from Hawaii and now An escapee.
26:20
You've been captured again, what?
26:23
That grandfather and your mom and what was going on in that
26:27
world. I my grandfather had passed
26:30
away, okay? And I wasn't even.
26:37
Thinking about that, to be honest, I was I was in a world
26:40
where not familiar with and I don't know what is going on now,
26:44
bro. so, they caught me, and I Shackled down.
26:52
And they put me on a violin desk, they turn on our phone.
26:58
They had him on speaker. And they call this place called
27:01
halawa correctional facility that some prison on a wall, it's
27:05
called halawa. Correctional Facility AKA
27:09
Thunderdome. All the do in halawa prison is
27:12
white bar. The Hawaiians the Samoans, the
27:14
Tongans, all this They fight you fight and you put me on
27:21
speakerphone. and it said, guess who we get sitting down over
27:25
here The guy said, who Kyle kill all seeing growing catch up on
27:30
my Escape? Oh oh!
27:32
You guys got on bruh. Yeah, and we're gonna, we're
27:35
gonna send them up to you guys because we cannot control him.
27:38
Run. He won't pump run with.
27:39
We will send them to you guys today.
27:43
And the guy said, the guy in the auto on the auto lines, it Kyle,
27:47
I never answer the garden najma said, you better answer.
27:51
I said, yeah you said, hey, what's up punk from big island.
27:55
So you coming to her lover in a little bit.
28:00
We see you in a little bit bro. Okay.
28:02
Hang on, boy. And he hang up on me.
28:05
I don't know what the hell is going on, bro.
28:08
So they put me on a Plane by myself.
28:10
They flew me to halawa Correctional Facility where I
28:13
was greeted by the Goon Squad. And they took me to this place
28:18
called the shoe special holding unit and they put me in on 7x7
28:26
cell, that's the size of a closet.
28:30
The other seven by seven and all I was on the ground floor.
28:35
And I remember looking out the window, one little skinny window
28:39
out into the halawa valley, just looking at the beautiful Lush
28:43
Green, Valley, Brown and wondering.
28:45
What, what? What?
28:46
What's going on. Next thing, you know, I see two
28:49
guards around the other side of the window standing outside.
28:52
My window looking at me and I'm looking at them and I I'm
28:55
confused they had on pain camera.
29:01
The two paintbrushes. And they started painting the
29:05
window from outside from the top.
29:08
And those making their way down and then waving at me and
29:11
smiling and laughing and until they reach the bottom and it's
29:16
the last time I saw one human. That's the last time I saw.
29:18
So I for a while. And what they did to me in
29:26
halawa Correctional Facility was was inhumane, bruh.
29:32
And all the tell you, it was just, you were right, Kyle.
29:35
You were just in there. Yeah.
29:37
And what they tell you in the future is next time.
29:40
No comparison. So now I sent on 7x7 window,
29:44
less blacked-out cell would just sunlight on 24 hours.
29:50
No, reading material know writing material.
29:53
Just me and my toilet and my stink bro and my mattress.
30:00
That's it. Kyle, and how in your mind.
30:05
I mean, I can't imagine I've been to prison and it's not like
30:10
that because that is a lockdown. I mean, Solitaire solitary
30:17
confinement. What what did you do?
30:22
I mean your mind the reason why you put me in that situation
30:25
because of what I did wrong. Yeah cuz I was a minister and
30:29
all the punk from the big island and I the people in Hawaii we
30:34
supposed knit community and I did Patty bad things to people
30:40
that know people in prison. And they gave me the treatment
30:45
and everyday I would wait by my door.
30:49
At 4:00 in the morning. When little trap door would open
30:52
and my own plate with slide through and I'll grab my plate,
30:56
I eat on the ground. And then I'll slide my pic back
30:59
out and I trap door will close. That's breakfast.
31:04
Did you keep track of time that way the way they fed, you really
31:08
like in your mind? I can't imagine how you just
31:10
didn't go insane. I don't know.
31:13
So after I would eat, I would stand up and I'll paste.
31:17
I'll take three steps. I'll touch the wall.
31:19
Turn around three steps touch my door and I'll paste.
31:23
That was my that was my routine bruh.
31:25
Peace until the next plate come in And I'll do the same thing,
31:30
I'll eat and I'll slide my feet back out the Trap those clothes
31:33
and I'll paste again, that was launched.
31:36
One more time that was dinner and paste and paste and paste.
31:42
That's what I did. And do push-ups brow.
31:45
And upside down is against my wall.
31:47
And, and I'm not care who you are by brand.
31:50
You spend that much time. In isolation things up, taking a
31:53
pony on mine. Oh, yeah.
31:55
And my mind was drifting into a place that I cannot describe
32:02
unless you experience them firsthand.
32:05
I remember watching my hair girl, my face.
32:10
I could see my hair on my face, bro.
32:13
Cause they never give me an appraisal due to suicide.
32:16
And I remember every week, they would shove one piece of toilet
32:20
paper. To my trap door, bruh.
32:25
Went to brush on my toothpaste, to inch to grass.
32:30
And I was losing my mind bra. And like I said, I don't care
32:34
who you are, but you How long were you in there?
32:37
Kyle? I'll get to the Opera.
32:43
Soul. Also, as humans we were built,
32:46
we were designed to communicate with each other.
32:50
That's part of being a human much sir.
32:52
And I yearned I yearn for conversation with anybody, bro.
32:56
So all the weight but my trap door because I know my take on
33:00
come true as soon as my trap don't open, I'll say hello.
33:04
Hello, hello? Who's out there?
33:05
Hello. We just closed and I losing my
33:10
mind. So I tried that for a while.
33:14
So my next strategy was with my prey come in.
33:16
I want chases wherever in hopes that whoever bringing me my
33:20
food. So we're back.
33:21
So waiting for my chapter open like a dog, because I know he
33:24
won't come. I know I'm going to open soon.
33:26
Rock right there. I think open IL, fufufu, nothing
33:31
close. I losing my mind.
33:35
And one morning. I woke up red.
33:39
And the voices in my head was so loud and did the voices of
33:44
screaming wrong, and this is the voice.
33:46
The voices were saying, Kyle used on six times.
33:48
They champy, was ranked 4th in the world, yet on beautiful life
33:51
of beautiful future. Look, what you stayed on 7x7
33:53
window. Let's celebrate, Remy hitting
33:56
the wall by Remy hitting the wall, bro.
33:59
His voice is. This was hitting me bruh.
34:02
Kidding me bro. Every single sin.
34:04
I did bro. Was hitting Mira that there.
34:09
Sai Hua was talking to me with seemed like a good idea at the
34:12
time, bruh. So I remember back pending as
34:14
far as I could run, I guess my wall and I was going to launch
34:18
for and I was on smash my head into a wall.
34:21
But I couldn't bring something was holding me against my wall.
34:24
Run. I couldn't run on any direction.
34:25
I could go was gone wrong. To my knees.
34:29
Cause. Yeah.
34:31
And I remember as a child, I saw this show of one guy, he was on
34:36
his knees, bro. And he's asking you this guy
34:37
named God, for help those images started flashing through my
34:42
head, bro. And I remember, I could
34:44
literally see me my back of my head watching the same TV and my
34:47
grandpa's house from obvious guy on his knees.
34:50
Asking this guy. Need God for help.
34:53
And all I did was copy what I saw but I was already there.
34:55
I was already on my knees and I said, God, my name is Kyle,
34:59
kilos Tigre. I need help cause I started for
35:04
what I did brought to all those people.
35:07
I sorry bro. And if you really, really,
35:10
really, really, really out there, bro.
35:13
Help me. Help me.
35:17
And when I said that word, amen. my whole body cause I could feel
35:23
the warmth to my whole body rock and when I stand up off my
35:27
knees, bro, I was free. I was still with him, seven by
35:31
seven windowless isolation cell, But I was free ver.
35:38
All my worries, all my anxieties.
35:41
Talk to suicide, every everything was gone.
35:46
And that's a, that's a big favor.
35:49
That's powerful Nails. No turning back, cause there's
35:51
no turning back. And the first thing I wanted for
35:54
Dura was apologize to. Whoever else wearing that on
35:58
other side of the door, that's the first thing that I wanted
36:01
for Dura actually waiting by my door again for my food.
36:06
Soon as my trap doing open. I said hello hello?
36:08
Who's out there? but this time I heard on Place,
36:11
bro, Hulk, I'll stop by your right.
36:16
We're all tripping on, I say, ho, ho, ho, ho wait, wait wait,
36:19
wait, wait, wait, wait, no, no, leave that I said, but you know
36:23
what, but I'm sorry. Rock is like taste.
36:27
Sorry for staring at you, but a past ottoman.
36:29
Ha Long by sorry, bro. He said, you're right on in
36:33
there. I said, all right, I just like
36:34
she has star Iraq and I know this is our first conversation
36:38
one, I can ask your favor. He said, brother, first time I
36:41
talked to you to ask you, if you want to see what you like, what
36:45
you said, I said, it's can I can have one piece paper on, and on
36:49
pan Bao, please. He said I'll see what I can do.
36:53
And I kept throwing clothes, my body had so much emotion, going
36:57
through my body, I have nobody for Express them to nobody for
37:00
talk to. I had to get them out wrong, by
37:03
any means necessary. So that's why I asked for
37:07
something to write with. So I pasted a pace that do
37:10
push-ups, I pasted, I waiting I'm waiting for the go against
37:13
Pulpit because it would open pretty soon.
37:16
I've been doing it for a while. Next thing you know what?
37:18
A trap door open. I Heard a Voice the same way.
37:21
The guy said, look under your race.
37:24
I am grab my plate. Put them on the ground.
37:26
I move my rice ball and move my chicken patty.
37:29
And I saw a little ziplock bag bra with three notebook Peppers
37:33
inside and a little suicidal bendable pain.
37:37
The pain was like jelly was 4 inches long.
37:40
I could stab myself on my neck posing times and nothing would
37:43
happen. That's a suicidal person.
37:45
So I brought about receiving that suicidal pain and those
37:48
three sheets of notebook paper. Was like Christmas, bro.
37:54
Was like Christmas, bro. And I started writing.
37:57
I started writing on every piece of the pep.
38:00
I started writing vibrant. I'm writing how I felt how I
38:05
feel. And this is what I wrote.
38:09
I have a friend and we're like two, peas in a pod and just so
38:13
happens. He's an awesome.
38:14
God, I'm thankful for the bond that is shared between us.
38:17
Please, let me take this time to introduce Jesus.
38:20
My friend, I have is like no other because the relationship
38:23
we share is closer than a brother love and compassion, he
38:26
would never lack and my friend, Jesus would never turn his back.
38:30
Some things about him, you probably heard.
38:32
You can read more about him in the book, called the word.
38:35
If he open your Bible, you see what I mean and if you don't
38:38
believe me, go to John. She's 16 except my friend to be
38:41
a savior and watch your life. Get a whole lot better.
38:44
He gave sight to the Blind and he cured the lane and he
38:47
answered your prayers. If you pray in his name he'll
38:50
clear your path so you won't stumble and if you asked to make
38:54
you humble, Jesus will be there at any cost because he's the one
38:57
that got nailed to the cross. He was ridiculed as tormented
39:01
and his ways were rejected but all that changed when he
39:04
resurrected, Jesus has the power and authority to save and my
39:08
very best. And even conquered the grave
39:11
Jesus has the ability to heal as men and I'm proud to say that.
39:15
He's my friend so turn from Evil and sin no more and heaven will
39:20
await you an Open Door. The glory of God, I want people
39:23
to see so they can experience firsthand, what my friend did
39:27
for me and this is what he did wrong.
39:30
He entered a 98-pound crystal meth addict Hawaii's.
39:32
Most Wanted put me in an isolation cell for cheers to the
39:36
point of suicide losing my mind. So I Surrender and get saved
39:40
three years. That's a pretty big, well
39:43
acquainted. So now I favor.
39:45
Like I said, I agree. Finally, I hear one Russell at
39:49
my door. One tassel at the door.
39:50
I back up. As far as I could, and I watch
39:52
my door. The thing that opens, And I
39:56
start to Big Polynesian God's Brown looking at me and I
40:00
looking at them. You say, come on cloud as well.
40:05
I said we're going home. Say brah.
40:09
No let's go. I said before I leave this cell,
40:12
I like ask you guys some questions.
40:14
You said what how long I was in here, bro?
40:20
He said, Kyle using here for three years and two weeks.
40:25
I don't know how you did it, bro.
40:27
I put my head down. I knew, I know a long.
40:32
Never knows what's to that extent, bruh.
40:37
It's hard to believe my own perfume on my not going to break
40:41
these cheap Christmas is being bing, bing bing.
40:44
Yeah. And I wiped my tears.
40:49
And I said, waggling, as I walking towards them.
40:55
You don't know where you're going.
40:55
I said, no, this is my first time in prison.
40:58
He said you should first time in prison.
40:59
You just did two years in two weeks in the hole.
41:02
Yes sobre, he said well, you know, cuz you and Escape Kyle,
41:06
you are high-risk inmates, you know, else is high risk.
41:10
I said no, you can see people do lose kill people, their life was
41:15
well. They put in high custody because
41:17
it never gonna see the light of day.
41:19
So they high risk. People.
41:22
Gang leaders who get Penny influence on other inmates.
41:26
We put them in high custody because they high risk to us.
41:30
We will put you over. How can L say six times state
41:33
champ, right? For in the world, we heard about
41:35
you escapee with the Umbra. You ready?
41:42
I getting scared, bro. I never get into a fight in my
41:46
life, that's not how I was raised.
41:50
I was raised with respect. I was raised for he won't go
41:53
watch hundred yards from So now I'm going to one high, custody
41:58
prison. And I reached the high custody,
42:02
prison front, door Aurora, and it's glass wood, metal gates.
42:08
And I look inside the building, I see 179.
42:11
Guys were looking at me through the glass.
42:15
And all I see is tattoos and muscles and no more teeth.
42:22
That's what I saw and the take the front door and slide open.
42:28
And a guard told me go. Going around.
42:32
I couldn't move by Brent. I couldn't move I was so scared
42:38
by this guys. Do this looking at me and he got
42:39
to be my shoes for experience that look the way they look
42:42
right at you. Yeah and I put my head down.
42:46
And that's the wrongest thing I did I don't know nothing about
42:50
prison is nothing but Pi learning.
42:52
Everything from scratch bro. Regarding kind of nudge me.
42:57
I went in the going close, boom, that they would Echo.
43:00
The whole pod. Everybody would stop.
43:03
We'll see who was coming in and they saw the neighbor.
43:08
And I was walking looking for cell 9.
43:11
Looking up so to so true self or still 50 60, 70 80 90, I run
43:17
inside, I take a big breath. Not even one minute.
43:24
Ra3 you guys run into myself. Close the door and beat the shit
43:29
out of me, bruh. All my front teeth got kicked
43:33
out. And I was laying in the middle
43:38
of my cell on my back. To I shot swollen.
43:42
No more mighty and it took my toilet paper.
43:49
It took my towel. It took my soap.
43:54
But most importantly, they want to find out if all the prey or
43:58
predator. And, you know, they found out
44:03
real quick. That I was on prayer.
44:08
Fight back. All of those Colombian on
44:12
Barbara. Because it's not Mira.
44:21
So that was my first day in a high-cost City, prison goes And
44:27
every day rise, you can beat up. My mom is sending nice shoes.
44:33
I know that my shoes more than five minutes.
44:37
You'll come take my food. And I was pulling hard time
44:42
wrong. Yeah.
44:44
And My Bunkie at the time. I loved him.
44:48
He was on quadruple lifer. He killed one family in Hawaii.
44:53
Him time, one or two him, set them on fire.
44:57
That's My Bunkie. I live with and then and one
45:00
night, the going close at night. For in the day, he told me Kyle,
45:06
something different from what you were, What is your story?
45:11
Cuz in prison, he learned everything you learn for, pick
45:13
up things wrong. I thought they survive.
45:16
Good and bad in your energy and I told him my story wrong.
45:21
And he said, I knew it, I knew it, I knew it cause I knew
45:25
there's something good about you bro.
45:29
That was it everyday? I get beat up every day.
45:31
I get robbed every day. I get beat up, bro.
45:35
And then, if you don't issue in prison with somebody, you call
45:37
them to yourself. You guys go in a cell and you
45:39
guys handle your business. That's all you.
45:41
That's how you do things in prison.
45:44
So one day I was sitting by myself in the corner of the pod.
45:48
And My Bunkie was calling for me from across the building Kyle
45:51
come and he was standing in front of the door and that's an
45:55
indication of Fight You can fight.
45:58
So, everybody is looking like hole.
46:02
So I'd stand up and walk to myself.
46:05
You said, get inside? I walked in he close the door.
46:11
He told me sit down and sit down at the edge of the bed.
46:15
As soon as I sit down him, turn the hand slap me as hard as he
46:18
could buy right across my face. Who.
46:25
And I got hurt because I thought that was my friend calls.
46:30
And I started crying. He said, look at me cuz look at
46:35
me and look at him. He said, Kyle, I cannot see
46:39
these people doing this to you, bro.
46:41
You're good guy calls. You don't date for go home, bro.
46:44
Okay. I kind of see these guys doing
46:45
this to you gotta fight where you understand, cause didn't
46:49
slap me one more time as hard as he could pah.
46:54
You can look at me again. Look at me and look at him.
46:58
He said, remember when you stabbed her You understand
47:02
remember what you stay gonna fight, bro.
47:06
Can open up doors and lock me in a room.
47:10
Does the best advice I ever got calls?
47:16
Remember what you said? I see my god Ra but I got to
47:22
remember, where is Tara And he not going to be Reba.
47:28
So the next day came the same guy came for.
47:31
Take my food, I said welcome to my room cause it was scrapped My
47:36
Bunkie. When stand up, he said, I watch
47:38
the door and I was in my room. That guy came here in lock us in
47:42
a room and we'd fight calls. I wasn't fighting for my food
47:46
was fighting for my life. I'm Brent.
47:48
Yo difference. Yeah.
47:51
And that was my first physical altercation.
47:55
And wasn't my last row. And there's my car.
48:00
Did it feel different? Kyle.
48:01
I mean the fact that you've were now fighting for yourself.
48:05
Oh yeah. If you fight in prison as you
48:10
know, and if you win Somebody like fight, you have to that.
48:15
So no matter what, bro? and, In prison, when I first
48:20
wanted to prison, I was timid. I got beat on.
48:27
And then after I started winning fights, I started acting crazy.
48:33
It hopes to leave me alone. But got worse.
48:39
Why I got beetle. So in prison, I learned one
48:42
circuit balance, bro. And learn how for speak to
48:46
people, you know, where why not commit an aggressive.
48:49
I call that Stern. You got to find a way for look
48:53
at people. We're not pushing aggression,
48:55
but you're not pushing being timid.
48:58
You have certain way, you look at them, ballads, So I learned
49:02
that prison, and before I went to prison, my heart would like
49:08
one killed Garden row, beautiful, with one rolls,
49:12
inside that someone heart was before addiction before prison.
49:16
And in prison where I was the gangs run the prison, right?
49:20
Not not the guards. The prisoners.
49:25
And I work out like a machine wrong but I got to be strong
49:30
every day. I wake up like golf I had that
49:33
ethic, bruh. Before my door open, I'll be
49:36
doing. Burpees told him Berkeley
49:37
hundred breakfast It Up, full bloom, but I kind of don't open
49:40
for breakfast. I already had one record in
49:42
already. What everybody just waking up.
49:47
Same ethic and my working. All, when I track the gang is
49:52
wrong. So, one day I was working on
49:55
one. When guy came up to me.
50:00
He said, o call? You were called pania.
50:02
You like to join us? Oh man.
50:05
No disrespect to you guys won. Please.
50:08
No disrespect but I good to see you.
50:11
Sure. I said, yeah.
50:16
Well, he left. The next day.
50:21
Three other gang members coming to me.
50:24
One guy was speaking. He said, Kyle, you see that guy
50:26
Under the Stairs? I said, yeah.
50:31
Walk up to him hit him as hard as you can and when he fall you
50:37
jump on him and he's stomping ground.
50:41
Or you see the other guy is I'm not upstairs, the six guys
50:45
looking at you. Yeah, if you don't do that to
50:49
that one guy, these guys will come to your room right after
50:51
this. And they will do that to you
50:54
brr. So I look at that one guy Under
50:57
the Stairs. I look at the six, guys, I'm not
50:59
a choice of made Brown. Walk up straight to the guy.
51:04
Sorry brother, boom. Because I gotta do what I gotta
51:08
do. I saved by God, but I gotta
51:10
remember waste there, bruh. And every time I'll do something
51:14
like that to survive prison, I'll pan Wheezy mahant.
51:18
So that's not me, bro. That's not me.
51:20
I kind of never walk up to somebody just whack on that,
51:23
bro. I could never see myself doing
51:25
that cold but I appreciate on high custody prison now and
51:30
every time I'll do that weeds weeds, I'll pan weeds.
51:33
And as the years went on, bro, My love in my heart was being
51:40
suffocated. But a weeds.
51:45
I was becoming like them. My whole body is covered.
51:50
No, it tattooed animal teeth like everybody else but this is
51:53
this is fate. And I fitting in with them, bro.
51:59
But God is good. You see my shirt?
52:02
You see my shirt? Brett love it.
52:03
Stay humble. Pray.
52:04
Hawaii is this terrible prayer? So I got a routine in prison at
52:10
the end of the night after I fall fight.
52:12
Paul exercise, whatever's I shower and I played cards ra.
52:16
We will guide my friend and we online.
52:19
So I playing cards, bruh. 66 guys, raping one guy ever right
52:25
on the side of me in a corner. And this guy is yelling for help
52:30
at the top of his lungs burn. I never did.
52:33
He want Man Cry for Help like that before in my life, bro.
52:38
And I've been raised for help people.
52:42
If you see, someone is called stuck on the side of the road
52:44
and they pushing them, you jump out of your truck and you push
52:47
and you help right? You see what old man?
52:50
Old lady in a supermarket, getting hard time with the
52:52
groceries, you help, that's how I was raised.
52:56
So now, this guy yelling for help at the top of his lungs.
52:58
Bronchi well, six guys getting their way with him.
53:05
I got to remember why I stay over.
53:08
Maybe that guy did something wrong to Somebody's Daughter.
53:12
Maybe that guy did something wrong to somebody's mom and they
53:15
pay the price now you let things go over.
53:19
So, I remove myself, I tell my friend, I come back, I will use
53:23
the bathroom. I walk to my cell, I close my
53:26
door. I take on big bread. and I tell
53:30
myself, Stay humble Kyle. You get six years left.
53:35
This is temporary bra. This is not your home.
53:38
I dropped to my knees and I prayer.
53:40
Father God, thank you for the breath of life.
53:42
Thank you for everything that you do.
53:43
Please watch over me and guide me, protect me for my God.
53:46
Amen. It's a first time I was just
53:49
double bread stomach breath after I did that.
53:52
I wipe my tears. Open my door, boom sits on play
53:54
cards. The guy not even yelling
53:56
anymore. Yeah, that's right.
53:59
You guys eat? Yeah, routine, I see you guys.
54:01
Get shanked in than that. Blood shooting.
54:04
I go to my room. Stay humble prayer, but you get
54:07
said you get five years left. This is temporary.
54:09
This is not your home, bruh. Drop to my knees.
54:11
Father God, thank you for the breath of life.
54:13
Thank you for everything that you do, bro, Watch Me, Guide Me,
54:15
protect me a mess. That's how I came up with
54:18
several prayer, devil bear. I like it, but I do my whole 10
54:21
younger. I did my whole ten years bra.
54:26
Yeah, I forgot to mention that I did five in halawa and in Hawaii
54:29
to get sentence over 10 years, they fly you to Arizona.
54:33
So I was in Arizona. I finished my time in Arizona, I
54:36
did five at halawa five in Arizona.
54:39
So I say, in Arizona, well guard, come up to me.
54:42
He told me Kyle, you going home on the next flight, your time is
54:45
up. Okay.
54:49
I mean, what would you what were you thinking?
54:51
Kyle after all this time, after everything that you had to live
54:53
through everything in my body just lifted?
54:57
Yeah, they almost like the same feeling when I got surrendered
55:00
bro. Yeah it's already had a better
55:02
feeling ever. Yeah.
55:03
Thought as soon as the guard told me that he walk away I went
55:06
to my cell. I went on my knees.
55:11
And I pray about this is my prayer.
55:14
I said father God, thank you for this journey bra.
55:16
Thank you for allowing me for see the things that I have to
55:19
see. So I guess to what I have to
55:20
feel for the God, but God, I workshop and I praise you for.
55:23
I got when I get released from this Prison Walls, but I got
55:26
used me in any way that you need me for the God, to help people
55:29
with addiction to help people. And just use me for the gods to
55:32
show your love, your mercy. Forgiveness in your grace.
55:36
Thank you. Father God.
55:37
Amen. Does my last prayer over well in
55:41
prison in prison? Yeah.
55:44
And now, I free Rah. So I cream, okay?
55:48
Kyle tell me because you just took me through a hell of a
55:52
journey there with. I mean, I don't know if I'm
55:55
usually not speechless when I'm on these podcasts but you spent
55:59
that amount of time doing that the hard way, knowing how to
56:04
adapt and survive, getting home and being back to your Island.
56:11
What, what, how are you adjusting?
56:14
Seeing how are you feeling? What's going on with you and
56:16
your mind getting back? You know, the first when I first
56:21
came home release freedom. I left on bad taste, bro, in
56:28
people's mouth when I left And when I came home, the word got
56:32
out, bruh. Because I live on an island. and
56:36
people's opinions and perceptions about me, wasn't
56:41
still good and I don't blame them ra I will feel the same way
56:45
to tell you the truth, but none of these people Sabra.
56:50
Well, you know what? I went through three years in
56:51
isolation to the point of suicide surrendering.
56:54
Going to the high watching, people get raped watching.
56:56
People get killed, Rob getting beat up and nobody saw that.
56:59
Right? Nobody saw it up the problem
57:02
progress process. Nobody saw that calls. honest, I
57:07
was on he back and people wasn't afraid to let me know how they
57:14
felt by the way they look discussed.
57:21
Was it was rough bra transitioning back home.
57:24
It's not easy to get out of prison.
57:26
You know, and in order for live, we all need money, bro.
57:33
So, I needed on job. The first place I went and asked
57:40
one application the guide. Look at me.
57:44
He crumpled up the paper and if you Kyle get the F audio And
57:50
turn around and walk out. I was digging a hole.
57:52
What if I do something bad to him?
57:55
And the percentage is high living on island.
57:57
All right, you're on an island. So I strike out every
58:02
application was was torn and ripped and I was ready to give
58:07
up. and, Those are off it when I was working out at this park by
58:16
my house is like on beautiful Park.
58:18
I was doing like my exercising. One of my childhood friends came
58:22
up to me and he said, Kyle right?
58:25
Look, good, bro, when he came out of prison as holy a week ago
58:29
over You said Frank, I speak to school, but I don't know if you
58:34
know, by speak to school. That's your mama.
58:36
What he said by my friend get Ms. And he go around, he speak
58:40
to schools and he shared with kids about not giving up.
58:44
He said by giving school next week.
58:46
But why not? Why not come with me.
58:48
And she started, I'm not gonna share my story with these kids.
58:51
You're not so hot. He said, Bryce story can help.
58:54
People tell them how you go with Tiger Woods.
58:55
You super good. Tell him I got super bad.
58:58
Hello, you free. Yeah, that was his word.
59:01
Yeah you free. And I said what?
59:04
Okay, I will. And then we went to the school.
59:09
But I hadn't planned bro. I've been walking around with
59:12
shackles and chains for so long. I went to the hardware store the
59:17
day before I got me some change, bro.
59:19
And one of my police officer, friends give me on shackle on
59:22
handcuffs. And when I went to the school,
59:24
my friend said, what is that? He said, don't worry bro.
59:28
Just when you introduce me, as I got to do is introduce me.
59:31
So I send out of sight out of gym.
59:33
Bareback. No more shoes.
59:35
Know. Most people just shorts with
59:37
chains. And it with the security guard
59:40
final school then my friend introduced me to the kids.
59:42
All my friend Kyle I talked to you this guy golf with Tiger
59:45
Woods but his serve it is that everybody.
59:47
Welcome Kyle. And all the kids clap 2,000 of
59:50
them Fixing a noise that kicking the Dora.
59:54
Like how I kicking when I run out of toilet paper.
59:56
All these, My Bunkie, getting a heart attack.
59:58
I kicking a door that shaking the gym ra, I told his crew to
1:00:02
God, open the door. Now he opened the door.
1:00:04
I walk into a gymnasium full of 2,000 people bareback tattoos.
1:00:09
No more teeth with my chains. And the kids were they got so
1:00:14
quiet, you could hear a pin drop because of the picture that my
1:00:19
friend in pain for them is not never match of what they saw a
1:00:22
bra, right? So I walked by and I make sure
1:00:26
every kid can see me, but I wanted to give the kids on
1:00:28
visuals on bad choice. Well, I reached a microphone,
1:00:33
one bad choice. Pulling the situation one bad
1:00:36
choice, I take off my shackles, put on my shirt, put on my
1:00:38
shoes, clear my head. But now I got a new lease on
1:00:42
life and I choose for be here today for talk to all of you
1:00:45
guys. And that's how I start my
1:00:47
presentations Brown, I love that.
1:00:48
And I went to OfficeMax, I brought I go on Google, I get my
1:00:54
mug shot and I'm making poster. And I brought that poster with
1:00:57
me and I share my story bra. and, When I came out of prison,
1:01:03
I came out of prison with prison slippers prison shots.
1:01:06
And I'm pretty sure that's it. Not one cent to my name, bro,
1:01:11
but I came on Save and I came over sobriety, and I came up
1:01:15
with passion for help people grow and right there.
1:01:19
That's, that's what it is, bro. Mans getting through this.
1:01:23
Yeah, I was gonna say call this kind of fill you up so much
1:01:26
after you've done all that you've done and they are able to
1:01:29
share that and use it and those kids are able to experience.
1:01:32
It and I love what you say to is your you're just one bad
1:01:36
decision away from a fucking your whole life because really
1:01:40
that one decision that you had was way back in high school you
1:01:44
got expelled and you fall off a pedestal and yep you felt like
1:01:48
you couldn't get back up off and off the ground to get on back on
1:01:51
the pencil that everybody puts you on and man, whatever.
1:01:57
I mean your kids listen to you have to just be me You know, you
1:02:03
know, Brent, I dedicated myself, bro, who helped as many kids as
1:02:06
I can, and educate them about the power of the choices room.
1:02:09
Yeah. And to remind them that there
1:02:11
are one choice Away From a Different Light.
1:02:13
Yeah. And Hawaii, I've been free of
1:02:17
crystal meth for 18 years. Yeah, I've been free from prison
1:02:20
for eight in those eight years. I spoke to 95 percent of the
1:02:25
schools here in Hawaii right now.
1:02:27
It's awesome and I did that for free.
1:02:29
Yeah, that's how I gaze back. Give back.
1:02:32
To the community to the state that wants to destroy it wrong
1:02:36
because I'm a crystal meth addiction and people thought I
1:02:38
was crazy, you know? Yeah, so you go to the island of
1:02:41
Kauai for the people out there. I did every school on the island
1:02:44
of Kauai ra for free, not knowing wagon sleep, not knowing
1:02:48
anything. But for help my intentions were
1:02:50
help. People were kids.
1:02:52
Yeah. But I'm like anybody go well
1:02:53
with bro? Yeah, well, I do one Island.
1:02:56
Come home to Big Island. I go to another island.
1:02:58
People ask me. Oh, Kyle, what you doing, you?
1:03:00
How much you getting paid? I said zero, bruh.
1:03:04
What is not? So what wrong But they don't
1:03:07
know. They don't know what I went
1:03:08
through, bruh. Yeah, that's the right thing to
1:03:10
do about four. If I can go to one school Rah
1:03:13
and help at least one child, not go.
1:03:14
Where when with addiction or prison That's what it is, bro.
1:03:19
That's my whole mission close and right, I get one God backing
1:03:24
me up. That is the most powerful, God,
1:03:26
bra. And my faith.
1:03:29
It's like, sat tutor roof tile, is really an unbelievable story.
1:03:35
I'm, it's like a movie and how you've taken it to this point.
1:03:41
Tell me a little bit about, you know, you've got kids and tell
1:03:44
me about your personal life. What's going on now that you're
1:03:46
home? Okay, but when I went to prison,
1:03:50
my the kids that I had in Alaska, right, caught on my
1:03:52
Eskimos. That's gobos what I went to
1:03:55
prison. There was a little boy, is
1:03:57
brown, like, eight and six or whatever.
1:04:00
Yeah, and when I came home from prison Tails, never fix p over
1:04:03
six speed. And I was afraid that It was
1:04:07
going to hate me for leaving them at that crucial time of
1:04:10
their life but they forgave me because Grand like I have I have
1:04:15
a little Sun now Grayson two years old and I never did do the
1:04:19
things that I do in him now with my kids because my addiction.
1:04:22
Yeah. God's grace Parra and every day
1:04:27
I pray to one God to cleanse me and continue to use Mira as his
1:04:33
vessel. So I finish all the islands in
1:04:35
Hawaii, okay? My last Island.
1:04:37
I did I came home to the big island where I live and I felt
1:04:41
complete. I felt I could do what I can do.
1:04:47
So I prayed and I shared with God how I felt and I pray and I
1:04:51
said, father God, please grant me the people that I need to
1:04:56
further my story on Hawaii because just how I feel, I feel
1:05:00
I did what I could. I need your help Tammy the
1:05:04
people that I need So I can touch the lives of many more
1:05:08
kids, but next thing, you know, I get one, my phone, my phone is
1:05:14
agency. Called top youth speakers.
1:05:19
If schools in the entire nation need a motivational speaker,
1:05:22
that's where they go copied speakers and then reach out to
1:05:26
me and they say brought we follow you and we see what
1:05:28
you're doing wrong. and now I work for this organization
1:05:33
called top, you speakers and I just came home two weeks ago
1:05:35
from Georgia and West Virginia and I don't even know where I'm
1:05:42
going. Is he said, Alabama to you in
1:05:44
Alabama? I thought, yeah, Alabama and God
1:05:48
is good bro. Yeah I just grateful bra and
1:05:51
grateful. Well thank God.
1:05:54
You didn't lose your mind being in there for three years and and
1:05:57
you kept it together. I don't know.
1:05:59
I mean that the, you know I I know I was just thinking like
1:06:04
the discipline that you had as a kid to do what you did like to
1:06:09
have the passion that you had to for golf and and having to be in
1:06:13
that Rhythm. And and what you had to do is
1:06:16
your route teen probably played well for you in a time of a
1:06:21
nightmare situation, like being in a hold that you had Your mind
1:06:26
had kind of trained itself to be able to adapt to be in a routine
1:06:30
to be able to survive and not, everybody could do that.
1:06:34
It's amazing that you were able to survive.
1:06:37
You know, I watch a lot of prison documentaries.
1:06:39
Yeah and there's a lot of people like my wife, she doesn't know
1:06:43
nothing about crime. She don't know nothing about
1:06:46
inmates. She don't know nothing about
1:06:48
anything. Yeah.
1:06:49
So I always pay for her documentary so she can
1:06:52
understand understand why, I am the way I am, and why I do the
1:06:55
things I do. Yeah.
1:06:57
And I showed her. Some isolation documentaries
1:07:00
were guys, do. One year is a whole big crazy.
1:07:04
I said, look, babe, I did Trio. You had.
1:07:07
Yeah you do even though right here's that's the crazy part of
1:07:10
it. Yo Kyle would you know I've
1:07:16
never had somebody on like you that has gone through as much as
1:07:19
you've gone through the way that you've gone through it.
1:07:21
If you were a good impart, something to the listeners out
1:07:24
of here of your takeaways, from everything that you've
1:07:27
experienced. What would you tell them?
1:07:30
I want to pee. No threat, the small things in
1:07:34
life. Yeah, be grateful.
1:07:37
Be grateful for what? You get what you have being
1:07:40
around your family eating on home-cooked meal, being able to
1:07:44
walk outside and feel the breeze on your face.
1:07:47
Be grateful bra because there's one choice that can ruin your
1:07:50
whole life from. Just enjoy what you get now.
1:07:54
And life is too short round. Yeah, that's good.
1:07:56
And good advice. Yeah, Ryan me I think that's for
1:08:00
me in my face is true for what God did for me.
1:08:04
Yeah, if he can turn me into what I am today, bro.
1:08:09
You can do anything wrong. Yeah, it's powerful.
1:08:11
And when I go to the school, that tell the kids, this we live
1:08:14
in a most beautiful place in the world.
1:08:17
And if you guys like jeopardize, we live upon 10 x, 10, cm and
1:08:21
sell. What I'm guiding, Big Bill.
1:08:23
The audio mine bro. You better think.
1:08:25
Yeah and I see the wheels bra just turning and you know before
1:08:30
I leave every school, I tell the kids.
1:08:32
This never feel like you guys are alone, bro.
1:08:36
Could you guys give me if your dad In prison or your mom
1:08:39
running the streets addicted, vice versa, never feel alone.
1:08:43
You guys gave me bruh. My Instagram is stay humble
1:08:45
prayer, reach out. I wanted everybody knows that
1:08:48
stay high, these kids they reach a degree in anything by GD from
1:08:54
prison. You did, but I get ya and you've
1:08:59
affected obviously. So many lives from being able to
1:09:01
talk to that many kids and it just fills me up to be able to
1:09:06
talk to you. Kyle to know that you're
1:09:08
affecting people's lives using your experience, man.
1:09:13
I couldn't be more proud of how you've handled your situation
1:09:16
and what you're doing and that you're willing to take that and
1:09:19
give back and grow and experience other people into
1:09:24
trying to make a difference in their lives.
1:09:26
And they You are and it's so great.
1:09:28
I love it, love it. Thank you.
1:09:30
Thank you both everybody. Wow.
1:09:33
Okay, this has been this has been an experience of talking to
1:09:36
Kyle for all those. Hey I we love the likes and
1:09:42
subscriptions and leave a review out there especially on Apple
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podcast Spotify. There's a book out there
1:09:50
nightmare success that I wrote check it out, check us out on
1:09:52
YouTube. Check out Kyle.
1:09:55
Check out Colin Instagram. Stay humble, pray.
1:09:58
He's got really good stuff on there, and it's and he's just an
1:10:02
incredible guy. Really feel lucky to talk to you
1:10:05
today, Kyle. Thank you.
1:10:07
Thank you. And if any schools out there
1:10:09
would like me to speak at their school, you can go to my
1:10:11
Instagram and there's a link in my bio.
1:10:13
Help, you speakers. Press that link Rah, and I see
1:10:16
you there. Perfect, everybody.
1:10:19
Nightmares success in and out. Thanks for being here today.
1:09:56
Stay humble, pray. He's got really good stuff on
1:10:00
there, and it's and he's just an incredible guy.
1:10:03
Really feel lucky to talk to you today, Kyle.
1:10:06
Thank you. Thank you.
1:10:08
And if any schools out there would like me to speak at their
1:10:10
school, you can go to my Instagram and there's a link in
1:10:13
my bio. Help, you speakers.
1:10:14
Press that link Rah, and I see you there.
1:10:17
Perfect, everybody. Nightmares success in and out.
1:10:21
Thanks for being here today.