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Almost Famous In Depth: Hannah B · The Ben and Ashley I Almost Famous Podcast

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  Speaker 1: This is Ben and Ashley I almost famous in depth. Hey, guys,
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  Speaker 1: it's Ashley and I'm joined here by the woman of
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  Speaker 1: the hour, one of my favorite bachelorets ever, and there's
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  Speaker 1: only been two episodes thus far, Hannah Brown. Hey, al right, Hannah,
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  Speaker 1: Before we get into it, my first question to you
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  Speaker 1: is I keep equating you to that girl in high
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  Speaker 1: school who like, was not smooth with guys, who like
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  Speaker 1: would see her crush walking down the hallway and you'd
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  Speaker 1: like another way, yeah, and then you'd like, you'd like,
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  Speaker 1: look into your locker, You're like, I don't see him coming.
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  Speaker 1: But was this you? Or am I making up this
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  Speaker 1: illusion of you? Okay, I'll tell you high school, Hannah.
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  Speaker 1: High school, Hannah was s a president, homecoming queen, all
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  Speaker 1: these things, but so not that shy, so not shy.
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  Speaker 1: But when it came to boys, No, I didn't have
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  Speaker 1: my first kiss. Tell seventeen. I only had one boyfriend,
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  Speaker 1: one and a half boyfriends in high school and and
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  Speaker 1: it would take everything in me to actually look at
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  Speaker 1: them go down the hall when I first like them,
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  Speaker 1: And in class I was known as that. My whole
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  Speaker 1: I mean the whole school talks about me. Is like
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  Speaker 1: untouchable because I just would like, don't talk to me,
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  Speaker 1: turn the other way. They're looking at me. They're looking
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  Speaker 1: at me. I should start writing my name. It was
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  Speaker 1: so bad. Okay, so my dream is a reality. Yeah,
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  Speaker 1: you are that relatable girl. Yeah, I was. I put
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  Speaker 1: them in friends in, like I would be friends with
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  Speaker 1: the guys. When they started flirting with me, No, no, no, no,
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  Speaker 1: I got awkward. Really, yeah, you friend zone guys that
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  Speaker 1: you liked, Yeah, because I would just like, I would
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  Speaker 1: just like hang out with them, shoot the bull, you know,
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  Speaker 1: and then when they started flirting, I'm like, oh, go ahead. Ever, so, then,
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  Speaker 1: how did it happen that you started dating your first
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  Speaker 1: boyfriend wasn't seventeen? Yeah? Uh. He was best friends with
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  Speaker 1: one of my best girlfriends, and so we would all
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  Speaker 1: hang out together and then somehow he told the friend
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  Speaker 1: that he liked me and he started texting me. And
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  Speaker 1: then I don't really remember our first date. If I
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  Speaker 1: had texting in high school, yeah, it was. It was,
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  Speaker 1: but it was all because I was hanging out in
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  Speaker 1: a group and then realized that he liked to me,
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  Speaker 1: but also his friend liked me to his very you know,
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  Speaker 1: I just had to pick the favorite. You had that
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  Speaker 1: one serious boyfriend though for a while, and that was
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  Speaker 1: your only serious boyfriend going into the Bachelor right, too
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  Speaker 1: serious boyfriends, but one for like a really like for
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  Speaker 1: a while. And I met him in high school. I
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  Speaker 1: remember the first time I saw him in ninth grade
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  Speaker 1: and I turned around and his name was called in
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  Speaker 1: class and I was I came home and I said, Mom,
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  Speaker 1: I'm gonna marry him, and she was like, oh my gosh.
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  Speaker 1: So then how we started flirting was playing cards in
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  Speaker 1: Spanish class and both boyfriends in high school. Uh no,
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  Speaker 1: just this. That was the first boyfriend we don't talk
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  Speaker 1: about because he was nothing, yeah, nothing and stupid um.
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  Speaker 1: And then after that we didn't talk at all because
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  Speaker 1: his I don't know, his girlfriend, weird stuff. He started
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  Speaker 1: dating a girl that didn't like me. So I didn't
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  Speaker 1: talk to him from ninth grade until senior year in
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  Speaker 1: high school. And then we had our next class together.
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  Speaker 1: We didn't have any other classes together until then, and
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  Speaker 1: he would just stare I would be he would just
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  Speaker 1: his eyes were like attacking me. And so then he
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  Speaker 1: just texted me one day randomly and I was like,
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  Speaker 1: oh my gosh. Anyway, we started dating in high school.
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  Speaker 1: We broke up for like a summer, and then we
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  Speaker 1: were together for like three years, and it was you
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  Speaker 1: didn't marry him, but I thought I was going to,
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  Speaker 1: Oh my god, I broke up the next series. Really,
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  Speaker 1: I have been trouble. The next serious relationship I had,
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  Speaker 1: I ended up breaking that one off because I still
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  Speaker 1: I loved him. I loved that guy, but I knew
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  Speaker 1: I still loved the one that I dated for so
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  Speaker 1: long and went back and told him and then he's
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  Speaker 1: a nice So it's fine, I'm here now. And how
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  Speaker 1: far was that from when you signed up for Colton
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  Speaker 1: Susan Like a year and a half, I think so Honestly,
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  Speaker 1: after that, after I put my heart on the line
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  Speaker 1: and like ended a relationship that was going to be
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  Speaker 1: like he was amazing, um, I I like, I was like,
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  Speaker 1: I cannot date right now, Like I need to get
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  Speaker 1: over both of these relationships now, because I just ruined
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  Speaker 1: one for another guy that didn't deserve me. And so
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  Speaker 1: I was just like not dating, not doing this, focusing
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  Speaker 1: on Hannah. And so I then won Miss Alabama USA
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  Speaker 1: like two months afterwards, and then I was just like
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  Speaker 1: this is my year, and so I just focused on
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  Speaker 1: myself and like what I needed, what I wanted, and
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  Speaker 1: then the call for Colton seasons came and I was like,
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  Speaker 1: you know what, I'm finally ready to date. And do
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  Speaker 1: I want to do this this way? I don't know yet,
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  Speaker 1: but we'll just see where it goes. And obviously it
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  Speaker 1: went well. But yeah, I'm so glad that I had
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  Speaker 1: that time by myself because I think since I was
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  Speaker 1: like seventeen years old, I was always attached to a
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  Speaker 1: guy in some way, and it was the first time
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  Speaker 1: in my life that I was It wasn't Hannah and somebody.
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  Speaker 1: It was just Hannah and figuring out what do I
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  Speaker 1: like to do on Saturday and what type of movies
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  Speaker 1: do I like? And like just me and I just
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  Speaker 1: let a lot of guys validate who I was and
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  Speaker 1: what I did, and so it was really really important
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  Speaker 1: to meet important for me to have that time and
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  Speaker 1: then be ready to go into this. I'm super thankful
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  Speaker 1: that I had that now, knowing where I am now
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  Speaker 1: because I learned from all those experiences but also took
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  Speaker 1: the time to really dive into who I am, what
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  Speaker 1: I want, and what I want my life to be, Like,
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  Speaker 1: what does Hannah do on a Saturday and what kind
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  Speaker 1: of movies do you use? Okay, my perfect Saturday would
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  Speaker 1: probably be to do some type of workout, but not
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  Speaker 1: too long, like a kickboxing wake up, have breakfast. Then
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  Speaker 1: probably if it's summer, I'd want to lay out for
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  Speaker 1: a little while because I feel like that's an actual,
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  Speaker 1: like job. I like, it's like, Okay, I'm doing something productive.
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  Speaker 1: I feel like I'm doing something So read a little bit,
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  Speaker 1: maybe go on a boat whatever with one of my friends. Um,
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  Speaker 1: But then honestly, I would rather pour a glass of wine,
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  Speaker 1: be in my bed and just watch Netflix. That's my
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  Speaker 1: would you consider yourself an introvert? Because I've been doing
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  Speaker 1: a lot of research between being an introverted extrovert and
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  Speaker 1: for all my life, I was like, oh, you're an extrovert. Obviously,
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  Speaker 1: You're like pretty social, you like to be you like
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  Speaker 1: the attention, but socially, especially as I get older, I
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  Speaker 1: realized that I'm such an introvert, like I need my
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  Speaker 1: alone time and I can't go too long with socializing
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  Speaker 1: until I start getting really agitated. Oh my gosh. So
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  Speaker 1: I've taken all those tests and I'm like on the
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  Speaker 1: line of introvert extroverts, So like, I know, I know
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  Speaker 1: when I have to turn it on to be an extrovert,
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  Speaker 1: like when I have because society is like made for extroverts.
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  Speaker 1: So I'm like, sorry, I can do this. But when
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  Speaker 1: I'm really a boy myself, my friends know that they
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  Speaker 1: come over, I'll be like, all right, I love you,
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  Speaker 1: but I'm going into my room now. They're going to sleep,
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  Speaker 1: Like I just like, I have to have my alone
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  Speaker 1: time and it's necessary for me to function. So I
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  Speaker 1: feel like I really am like on the line of
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  Speaker 1: introvert extrovert. But if I can choose and nobody's around me,
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  Speaker 1: I'm introverted. So yeah, I guess it's so same. Yeah.
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  Speaker 1: I think like successful people have to have like a
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  Speaker 1: certain component of extrovert extroversion, right Yeah. Um, I guess
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  Speaker 1: there's some exceptions to that rule, however, Um yeah. I
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  Speaker 1: was in Nashville Jerry this weekend at a wedding, and
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  Speaker 1: I was with his friends for ten hours, and I
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  Speaker 1: was like putting on that smiley happy face from over
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  Speaker 1: all the small talk and at like on dirt in
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  Speaker 1: the morning, I was like, I am, I'm I'm going
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  Speaker 1: to freak out. You know, I need, I need that
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  Speaker 1: hole to go into right now. I can't do like
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  Speaker 1: this smiley happy anymore. You know what I realized now,
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  Speaker 1: it's like I probably look more extroverted than I actually am.
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  Speaker 1: But I can't do the small talk for a few hours.
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  Speaker 1: So what I'll do is there's music on, I'm like,
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  Speaker 1: I'm gonna go dance by myself because it's like I
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  Speaker 1: don't want anybody around me. I'm fine, please stop talking
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  Speaker 1: to me. I love you. By I figured you're like this.
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  Speaker 1: So how was the Bachelor process? How is being the bachelorette?
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  Speaker 1: Because I think when you're on the Bachelor, even Bachelor
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  Speaker 1: in Paradise, you can go like fake a nap or
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  Speaker 1: whatever and get your alone time. You're like, I'm going
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  Speaker 1: to go right in my diary. That was my go
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  Speaker 1: to I'm gonna like go journal. But as the bachelorette,
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  Speaker 1: you have to be on like sixteen hours a day. Okay,
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  Speaker 1: this was You're getting into my biggest struggle. Yeah, I
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  Speaker 1: figured it. I thought this was gonna be on the Bachelor.
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  Speaker 1: I was. I had great friends and like I was
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  Speaker 1: always like in in the group if I wanted to be,
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  Speaker 1: but they would they knew that. I'd be like, all right,
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  Speaker 1: if we're just sitting in chat chatting, which is probably
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  Speaker 1: gonna lead to gossiping, I just want to go into
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  Speaker 1: my room. And I would be in my room or
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  Speaker 1: out by myself. I had this certain couch I used
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  Speaker 1: to like, it's called my it's my couch, um and
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  Speaker 1: the Bachelor mention, and I would go and I would journal,
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  Speaker 1: Like I journal every single day, my thoughts, what I
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  Speaker 1: wanted in a husband, what was going on, Like, I
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  Speaker 1: truly did have to have that time to journal. When
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  Speaker 1: I was an I loved interviews on the bachelor's side
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  Speaker 1: because that was just my time. I would go in
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  Speaker 1: there with a producer and I would be like, let's
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  Speaker 1: do the stuff we have to do, and then I
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  Speaker 1: see the talk talk through it. I don't so what
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  Speaker 1: you and I probably liked. And this is a sign
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  Speaker 1: of introvert introversion. As I've recently read that deep conversation
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  Speaker 1: is actually totally finally we can do that for a
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  Speaker 1: long period of tether, but it's little chit chat that
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  Speaker 1: we can't do for a long time. I like, zone out,
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  Speaker 1: don't care. I hate it. So on that side, as
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  Speaker 1: a contestant, you have a lot of time to be
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  Speaker 1: able to do that. And then I would go hang
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  Speaker 1: out with the girls. But like all my friends knew,
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  Speaker 1: it's like up there, she goes, she's out, she's taking
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  Speaker 1: a nap, she's about to journal. So I had that time,
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  Speaker 1: but I didn't really realize until I got there that
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  Speaker 1: I don't have any of that time. I barely journaled
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  Speaker 1: I never had a loan time. There was no off days.
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  Speaker 1: There was no really therapy in my um interviews like
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  Speaker 1: it ever was. I mean, we had a few days
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  Speaker 1: where we had to have therapy because Homegirl was losing
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  Speaker 1: her mind, but it was more narration and it was yeah, like,
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  Speaker 1: I am, this is my story. I want to narrate
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  Speaker 1: my story, and I am. I mean, I would say
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  Speaker 1: I'm pretty good at it, so they wanted me to
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  Speaker 1: do it all the time. But then I was like,
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  Speaker 1: I need to talk about my actual feelings, like not
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  Speaker 1: even like why do I react this way? Is because
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  Speaker 1: of this in my past, Like that is what I
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  Speaker 1: need to talk about right now because I'm spiraling, and
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  Speaker 1: I think it was all the times that I struggled
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  Speaker 1: so much. We're really because I didn't have the time
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  Speaker 1: that I needed a way by myself, and we we
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  Speaker 1: had to come to Jesus with everybody and realized that
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  Speaker 1: like Hannah has to have thirty minutes, like I have
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  Speaker 1: to or honestly, I'm a pain and asked to deal
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  Speaker 1: with so thirty minutes one in the morning in the
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  Speaker 1: middle of a period of time we were just says,
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  Speaker 1: I'm going to need thirty minutes. So there was this
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  Speaker 1: one time. Can I had to tell this one story?
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  Speaker 1: It's fine. There was this one day in l A
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  Speaker 1: was probably my biggest struggle, and I was getting ready
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  Speaker 1: for a UM for a cocktail party after group day,
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  Speaker 1: cocktail party, and everybody is just always staring at you.
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  Speaker 1: Everybody's staring at you while you get ready, you're eating,
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  Speaker 1: while somebody's doing your makeup. I mean, there's just no time.
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  Speaker 1: And we had like two hours, but there's like fifteen
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  Speaker 1: people in your room while you're trying to get ready,
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  Speaker 1: so it takes forever. Well, I was doing my hair
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  Speaker 1: and my producers were looking at me. I was like,
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  Speaker 1: why are you looking at me? I'm trying to do
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  Speaker 1: my hair right now, and I go, I'm just like
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  Speaker 1: being a crazy woman, which I am. And so my
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  Speaker 1: one of my producers, Sam looked at me and goes,
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  Speaker 1: I think you need ten minutes, ten minutes to do whatever.
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  Speaker 1: Just go stare at a wall or something. Do you
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  Speaker 1: know what I did? I stared at a wall for
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  Speaker 1: ten minutes. It was great. I came back out and
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  Speaker 1: I was like, I'm sorry for whatever I just said.
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  Speaker 1: I really don't know. Um, let's go do this thing,
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  Speaker 1: but I there's a picture that she took of me
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  Speaker 1: staring at a wall. I didn't talk. I stared at
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  Speaker 1: a wall for ten minutes. So after that they're like, okay,
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  Speaker 1: like that helps, so maybe we should give her, like
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  Speaker 1: just some room. So like when Gina would do my makeup,
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  Speaker 1: nobody I went and allow anybody else in there, because
• 18:57
  Speaker 1: I would also say, if I was you, that was
• 19:00
  Speaker 1: like my personal silent time. It I'd be like, I'm sorry,
• 19:02
  Speaker 1: you're wonderful. I need you to not talk to me.
• 19:05
  Speaker 1: And she was great until I wanted if I wanted
• 19:06
  Speaker 1: to talk out, Gina's my my girl, and then it
• 19:10
  Speaker 1: would like I had breakfast by myself, and then it
• 19:12
  Speaker 1: was like as soon as Carrie got finished, everybody could
• 19:16
  Speaker 1: come in. And so that helped a lot. So more
• 19:18
  Speaker 1: more in the mornings, there really wasn't that much time
• 19:21
  Speaker 1: after that. I mean, it was go, go go. I
• 19:24
  Speaker 1: didn't sleep. It was awesome. What was the average wake
• 19:28
  Speaker 1: up time? I can't really remember because I never had
• 19:34
  Speaker 1: a phone, and I asked, I asked them not to
• 19:37
  Speaker 1: tell me. I would be like, don't even tell me,
• 19:39
  Speaker 1: don't tell me what time it is, just wake me
• 19:41
  Speaker 1: up because I knew I was only getting like three
• 19:43
  Speaker 1: to four hours of sleep, and I didn't even want
• 19:45
  Speaker 1: to know what time it was because it's obviously adding
• 19:48
  Speaker 1: to your breakdowns. Yeah, but I mean until we got
• 19:52
  Speaker 1: to like the last few places, I started getting a
• 19:55
  Speaker 1: little bit more sleep. But the first two three weeks
• 19:58
  Speaker 1: are crazy. They have a tendency of waking you up
• 20:04
  Speaker 1: before you really have to wake up, and like that
• 20:07
  Speaker 1: hurry up and wait type thing. But for the bachelorette,
• 20:09
  Speaker 1: it's it's not her. It's not hurry up and wait.
• 20:12
  Speaker 1: It's it's not most of the time you're hurry up
• 20:14
  Speaker 1: and wait. On the other side, is because I was
• 20:17
  Speaker 1: having a breakdown because they were rushing me, and then
• 20:19
  Speaker 1: I was like, you're rushing me, um, I need to
• 20:23
  Speaker 1: have a chat right now, Benet, where are you? What's chat?
• 20:25
  Speaker 1: Because I'm frustrated and you do not want me to
• 20:28
  Speaker 1: go on this state right now. Calm down, I'm good, Megan,
• 20:33
  Speaker 1: um are one of our beloved producers is right here
• 20:36
  Speaker 1: sitting around did was she? Was? She a troublemaker? At
• 20:41
  Speaker 1: the beginning? Was the was the was Hannah? He used
• 20:45
  Speaker 1: out like in full force in the beginning, This is
• 20:49
  Speaker 1: the thing with me is I don't hold anything back,
• 20:53
  Speaker 1: and I think it's actually respected because they don't have
• 20:56
  Speaker 1: to question where I'm at my feelings. I'm gonna say, like,
• 20:59
  Speaker 1: if I have a problem, I'm just like, hey Bill, Julie,
• 21:03
  Speaker 1: this is not working. UM when need to fix we
• 21:07
  Speaker 1: need to fix it. And hey, I don't need a middleman.
• 21:09
  Speaker 1: I want to talk to the big dog myself. So
• 21:12
  Speaker 1: I'll be like they said, that's not working, I don't
• 21:14
  Speaker 1: I need to talk to him, and I think, yes,
• 21:17
  Speaker 1: sometimes I pay the ask and they said that, They're like,
• 21:20
  Speaker 1: you know, we knew when you we chose you that
• 21:23
  Speaker 1: you weren't going to be the easiest bachelorette. You were
• 21:28
  Speaker 1: going to be the most difficult. But we knew that,
• 21:30
  Speaker 1: but we love you like everybody. I'm so thankful for
• 21:38
  Speaker 1: the producers, the handlerds, the the UM production team, everybody,
• 21:45
  Speaker 1: because I feel so loved and they get me. They understand,
• 21:49
  Speaker 1: they laugh with me, they talk with me like I
• 21:53
  Speaker 1: as much as I calls them so much crap and
• 21:56
  Speaker 1: they probably wanted to pull every single one of their
• 21:58
  Speaker 1: hair out of their head or they have forty more
• 22:02
  Speaker 1: gray hairs. Now we all love each other and I'm
• 22:04
  Speaker 1: just so team Bachelor. I'm team Bachelor. I would I
• 22:08
  Speaker 1: would get a tattoo that said team Bachelor because I
• 22:11
  Speaker 1: love them, because they put up with me, They let
• 22:15
  Speaker 1: me cry, let me have my breakdowns. But ultimately we
• 22:18
  Speaker 1: got it done, and I'm really proud of everything that
• 22:22
  Speaker 1: you'll get to see. So do you think that your
• 22:25
  Speaker 1: difficultness was because of just like your personality and like
• 22:31
  Speaker 1: the kind of structure you need your life, or do
• 22:33
  Speaker 1: you think that the guys and there were like some
• 22:36
  Speaker 1: like it's just like issues with the guys that were
• 22:38
  Speaker 1: making you angry or or agitated a little bit of both. Um,
• 22:43
  Speaker 1: it's hard daily thirty men. Wow, I don't know why
• 22:46
  Speaker 1: I didn't think it was going to affect me emotionally. Um,
• 22:50
  Speaker 1: and then when you're having feelings for guys and everything's
• 22:54
  Speaker 1: not going like you wanted to, it's really hard. And
• 22:56
  Speaker 1: I feel like what happened was all those emotions went
• 23:00
  Speaker 1: into how like I reacted to the schedule or to
• 23:05
  Speaker 1: not having enough sleep or too oh my god, why
• 23:07
  Speaker 1: do I have to do another interview right now? I
• 23:09
  Speaker 1: know I knowed it the first time, but it was
• 23:12
  Speaker 1: really because I hadn't those emotions weren't exactly dealt with
• 23:16
  Speaker 1: like I felt like I wanted them to be at first,
• 23:19
  Speaker 1: because my interviews were very much so narrating my story
• 23:23
  Speaker 1: and not really getting too much into my feelings and
• 23:26
  Speaker 1: having those breakdowns as breakdowns are really important for me
• 23:30
  Speaker 1: to have to have my little cry session to vent,
• 23:33
  Speaker 1: to get it all out so that I can move forward,
• 23:35
  Speaker 1: because I don't really hold onto things. I am one
• 23:38
  Speaker 1: that if something makes me mad, if I'm upset, I
• 23:40
  Speaker 1: need to talk about it. And then after I've talked
• 23:42
  Speaker 1: about it, I like brush my hands off and I'm
• 23:44
  Speaker 1: like I'm done, let's go the next thing. We're cool. Now.
• 23:46
  Speaker 1: Did I ever tell you that um, a very special
• 23:49
  Speaker 1: producer once told me that I'm a goldfish and that
• 23:52
  Speaker 1: I would like want eating my feelings. I'd be like
• 23:55
  Speaker 1: crying one second, then he could make me laugh, and
• 23:57
  Speaker 1: then I'd be like all better. Yeah, oh and I
• 23:58
  Speaker 1: didn't like that this Yeah yeah, no, totally, Like I
• 24:04
  Speaker 1: I gotta get the cry out. I'm good, and then
• 24:06
  Speaker 1: it's like make me laugh, let's go do some of
• 24:08
  Speaker 1: the fun. So I mean it made for an entertainment
• 24:13
  Speaker 1: for everyone. So why do you think it got better
• 24:17
  Speaker 1: after four weeks or so. I think we all got
• 24:19
  Speaker 1: in the groove, like you're I'm on a different team. Um,
• 24:25
  Speaker 1: everybody is new. I mean, yes, everybody has done this before,
• 24:29
  Speaker 1: but it's a new season, new people, new Bachelor at
• 24:32
  Speaker 1: trying to I am was different on this side than
• 24:35
  Speaker 1: I was as a contestant in a way. Um, and
• 24:39
  Speaker 1: I think it was just finally we all got on
• 24:41
  Speaker 1: the same page with everything. But it took a little
• 24:45
  Speaker 1: while because I had a new team that hadn't been
• 24:49
  Speaker 1: on the Bachelor, like Bachelor Bachelor at lead side, and
• 24:53
  Speaker 1: we just all had super comfortable So just to explain
• 24:57
  Speaker 1: to the audience, there are some Bachelor producer is that
• 25:00
  Speaker 1: deal with the cast and they become like your very
• 25:02
  Speaker 1: best friends there and then you never really got to
• 25:05
  Speaker 1: know the producers that handle the lead And I've always
• 25:10
  Speaker 1: wondered how they would do that, because even in Paradise,
• 25:15
  Speaker 1: I'd be like, oh, I don't want to talk to
• 25:16
  Speaker 1: so and so because I don't really know them. And
• 25:19
  Speaker 1: in Winter Games, like especially since I was like four
• 25:21
  Speaker 1: years removed, you know, four years ingrained with some of
• 25:25
  Speaker 1: these people, I was like, I can't talk to the
• 25:27
  Speaker 1: new person. I will be able to give you what
• 25:29
  Speaker 1: you want. Yeah. So I got super close with my
• 25:33
  Speaker 1: producers when I was on Colton season and even like
• 25:38
  Speaker 1: on and like I was just close with like the
• 25:40
  Speaker 1: the execs that like have other jobs to do too
• 25:43
  Speaker 1: and can't just go into my sessions of breakdowns. But
• 25:48
  Speaker 1: so I did not. When I got the call that
• 25:51
  Speaker 1: it was me but I would have different producers, I
• 25:54
  Speaker 1: was like, well, why can't this person interview me? Like
• 25:57
  Speaker 1: we had to literally have a meat like a conversation
• 26:00
  Speaker 1: and of like I'm handing you over, but I'm working
• 26:03
  Speaker 1: to find I know you the most, so like I
• 26:05
  Speaker 1: want to work with your guys to help you. And
• 26:09
  Speaker 1: so then I had to have a phone call with
• 26:11
  Speaker 1: my new producers and it was like a two hour
• 26:13
  Speaker 1: phone call about like I'm really struggling with this. I'm
• 26:17
  Speaker 1: really struggling with you being my producer. Yeah, Like I
• 26:19
  Speaker 1: was very honest. I was like, I'm really struggling with
• 26:21
  Speaker 1: you being my producer and like me being able to
• 26:23
  Speaker 1: really give you what you want. But after it took
• 26:28
  Speaker 1: a little while and them to understand like I'm not
• 26:32
  Speaker 1: like why I do, why I react certain why I
• 26:35
  Speaker 1: react some ways to certain things. But then after that
• 26:38
  Speaker 1: it was smooth sailing, and I am like I love
• 26:41
  Speaker 1: my family, like I love everybody that helped me throughout
• 26:46
  Speaker 1: the entire thing. Like we have such a bonding experience
• 26:49
  Speaker 1: that like never will take away from the people that
• 26:52
  Speaker 1: I was close to. Um on the other side on
• 26:55
  Speaker 1: Colton season, but we just lived through some together. Let
• 26:59
  Speaker 1: me tell you, like, yeah we did, and so just
• 27:03
  Speaker 1: I think it helped me be more successful and then
• 27:07
  Speaker 1: be more successful at their job. Really like digging in
• 27:10
  Speaker 1: and figuring out, like, all right, this is where we
• 27:13
  Speaker 1: need to change things. Yes, maybe this is how it's
• 27:15
  Speaker 1: been done before for fifteen years, but I'm a new
• 27:18
  Speaker 1: I'm an individual, I'm different, and let's do this because
• 27:22
  Speaker 1: this is how Hannah works better. And is there an
• 27:25
  Speaker 1: example of something that they've been doing for fifteen years
• 27:27
  Speaker 1: that you were just like that doesn't work for me?
• 27:30
  Speaker 1: Oh my god, let me think. Um, so, I I
• 27:38
  Speaker 1: feel like I'm I'm I don't want to be like, oh,
• 27:40
  Speaker 1: I'm so good at this, but like I'm pretty good
• 27:41
  Speaker 1: at my interviews, like I know what to say. Never
• 27:45
  Speaker 1: somebody who dreaded going into interviews. I never did before.
• 27:48
  Speaker 1: But then on this side, when it became very like
• 27:52
  Speaker 1: narration and I felt like they were putting. I felt
• 27:55
  Speaker 1: like words were being put in my mouth. I was like, uh,
• 27:58
  Speaker 1: asked me a question, let me roll, Like, let me roll,
• 28:01
  Speaker 1: I will tell you about how fun this date is.
• 28:03
  Speaker 1: I'll be happy, I'll be excited, I'll be in I'll
• 28:06
  Speaker 1: be a little lovey dovey. Then I'll have sass, like
• 28:10
  Speaker 1: just let's make it a conversation. Don't put words in
• 28:13
  Speaker 1: my mouth of what like, we know that post wants
• 28:15
  Speaker 1: to hear. They just wanted to be concise so that
• 28:18
  Speaker 1: they can just like clip it and it makes sense
• 28:20
  Speaker 1: in the episode, but they don't need you to roll forever.
• 28:22
  Speaker 1: But I told all right, we gotta let her do
• 28:26
  Speaker 1: her thing, and then it was it was great, Like
• 28:29
  Speaker 1: I loved it. Um it just took and yeah, that
• 28:32
  Speaker 1: was just I think the interviews were what we had
• 28:34
  Speaker 1: to kind of get back on, like, Okay, some people
• 28:39
  Speaker 1: weren't better with us feeding of like this is what
• 28:41
  Speaker 1: we're gonna talk about. I don't need that. I want
• 28:44
  Speaker 1: the speed. Some people want to get in and get
• 28:46
  Speaker 1: out of there and you're like, no, I need this
• 28:47
  Speaker 1: thing that honestly. Um. I was talking to Sam and
• 28:50
  Speaker 1: she was like you're one that can hit all the
• 28:52
  Speaker 1: things that we need in like ten minutes. And so
• 28:56
  Speaker 1: I'd be like, they'd be like, all right, we have
• 28:57
  Speaker 1: a thirty minutes after this uh date that ended at
• 29:01
  Speaker 1: four o'clock. I'm like, I don't need I don't need
• 29:03
  Speaker 1: twenty minutes. I promise you I can get it to
• 29:04
  Speaker 1: you in ten and I would. And so like there
• 29:07
  Speaker 1: are certain things that like I was like, I need
• 29:09
  Speaker 1: I can do all this stuff to like narrate, but
• 29:12
  Speaker 1: then give me my thirty minutes to actually process my feelings.
• 29:16
  Speaker 1: So and then when once we work that out, it's like,
• 29:17
  Speaker 1: all right, we're gonna give you ten here, thirty here.
• 29:20
  Speaker 1: I was like, perfect, let's do it. That's when you
• 29:22
  Speaker 1: started getting rolling with it. Yeah. Do you see how
• 29:25
  Speaker 1: it's been thirty minutes and how I can literally go
• 29:27
  Speaker 1: on for another hour hour and a half. Yeah, no,
• 29:30
  Speaker 1: I mean see, I just was telling her that sometimes
• 29:32
  Speaker 1: he's in depths last for two hours and over, and
• 29:37
  Speaker 1: she's like, no way, what are you talk about for
• 29:38
  Speaker 1: that long? Because yeah, just everything, Well I think it's
• 29:42
  Speaker 1: you've been on this sidem so we can't we have
• 29:44
  Speaker 1: like this understanding. Um, And so it makes it any
• 29:48
  Speaker 1: like you're interested and somebody like understands. I wouldn't have
• 29:53
  Speaker 1: talked to people who actually understand it. It's been hard
• 29:55
  Speaker 1: to go back. I haven't talked to hardly anybody back
• 29:57
  Speaker 1: home because it's like we're don't even begin You don't
• 30:01
  Speaker 1: even know my everything, you don't know anything that's happened
• 30:04
  Speaker 1: to me. It's really hard to get back into normal
• 30:07
  Speaker 1: life with people who don't know this world. And I
• 30:10
  Speaker 1: think that's why we get so close, because nobody will
• 30:13
  Speaker 1: understand what we've been through except for each other. And
• 30:17
  Speaker 1: I remember when I got back from Crystals this season.
• 30:19
  Speaker 1: I think it took my took me six hours to
• 30:21
  Speaker 1: explain the entire four weeks to my mom. Took me
• 30:23
  Speaker 1: four hours. Okay, yeah, So I was like, I'll tell
• 30:25
  Speaker 1: the first two weeks here and then we'll go to sleep,
• 30:27
  Speaker 1: and then I'll tell you the rest of the morning,
• 30:29
  Speaker 1: I said, my mom, her best friend, and then my
• 30:31
  Speaker 1: two best friends. I said, all right, I'm doing this
• 30:34
  Speaker 1: one time. Here we go block block your day off
• 30:38
  Speaker 1: because I had my journal and said journal all the time.
• 30:40
  Speaker 1: So I had my journal. They're like, you should write that,
• 30:42
  Speaker 1: you should make a book of your journal because it
• 30:44
  Speaker 1: was hilarious, like the way that I wrote about things,
• 30:47
  Speaker 1: but it would be so in depth but then also
• 30:49
  Speaker 1: have like my funny. They're like, this is amazing. I
• 30:51
  Speaker 1: was like, I know, do I have that for this season? No?
• 30:55
  Speaker 1: Because it was either journal, sleep, work out, and I
• 30:58
  Speaker 1: was always sleep every time. So okay, of course, have
• 31:02
  Speaker 1: you given your parents the lowdown now? Because you didn't
• 31:05
  Speaker 1: get back into the States until like a week ago.
• 31:09
  Speaker 1: And what I think is so crazy and I think
• 31:11
  Speaker 1: kind of wonderful about this season is that you guys
• 31:14
  Speaker 1: actually finished filming just a couple of days before it
• 31:17
  Speaker 1: started airing, and it's never been I wasn't back when
• 31:21
  Speaker 1: you weren't even back for the first day, so I
• 31:22
  Speaker 1: didn't even get to watch it on like actual television.
• 31:26
  Speaker 1: I watched like an old cut no way. Yeah, that's
• 31:29
  Speaker 1: so crazy. I loved it because it leaves us spoiler free.
• 31:32
  Speaker 1: I still don't know what happens in the end, and
• 31:35
  Speaker 1: oftentimes for like us especially, I can't avoid the spoilers.
• 31:40
  Speaker 1: I'm going to try my very hardest to not know
• 31:42
  Speaker 1: who you end up with or if you end up
• 31:44
  Speaker 1: with anyone. Yeah, but I'm very excited and I like
• 31:47
  Speaker 1: the way that this has happened for you, But is
• 31:49
  Speaker 1: it weird that you haven't gotten any break because you
• 31:53
  Speaker 1: have gone straight from filming too, straight to your season
• 31:55
  Speaker 1: airing and how little family time have you had? Um? So,
• 31:59
  Speaker 1: I from the end of my season, I went straight
• 32:03
  Speaker 1: to New York to start press, Like it did your
• 32:05
  Speaker 1: parents met there? No, I haven't talked. I haven't seen
• 32:07
  Speaker 1: my parents yet. And honestly, wait what she says, rub
• 32:14
  Speaker 1: it in like they're awful? Yeah, I'm like whatever, um,
• 32:19
  Speaker 1: But honestly, I I like it because I'm used to
• 32:23
  Speaker 1: this schedule of like go, go, go go, and I
• 32:25
  Speaker 1: think if I whenever I take a break, I'm gonna crash.
• 32:29
  Speaker 1: But right now I'm loving I'm like, here we go,
• 32:31
  Speaker 1: give me my go go juice. I'm up six am. Perfect.
• 32:36
  Speaker 1: That's like speaking in now, you know. So I've really
• 32:40
  Speaker 1: enjoyed it, and I think my excitement from and everything
• 32:44
  Speaker 1: so fresh that I can go and to press and
• 32:46
  Speaker 1: I can talk about it because it just happened to me.
• 32:48
  Speaker 1: It's not like I'm having to think back of like
• 32:51
  Speaker 1: what was that, Um, how did that feel? It's like
• 32:53
  Speaker 1: I have all those feelings still, and so I think
• 32:57
  Speaker 1: it's been really great for me. I love doing press,
• 33:00
  Speaker 1: I love talking to people about my season, and I
• 33:05
  Speaker 1: think I get to go home in a few days
• 33:07
  Speaker 1: for a little while, but not for long. And I'm
• 33:09
  Speaker 1: okay with that because they're gonna want to know everything.
• 33:12
  Speaker 1: And I haven't told really anybody about the end of
• 33:15
  Speaker 1: my season. My parents kind of no, but not everything,
• 33:19
  Speaker 1: like like know who possibly, but they don't know like
• 33:22
  Speaker 1: how you got to that. They don't know really anything. Um,
• 33:26
  Speaker 1: and my friends, I've just told them. I just they
• 33:29
  Speaker 1: keep texting me and I'm like, I can't talk so busy,
• 33:32
  Speaker 1: I love you. And then they can see, oh wait,
• 33:34
  Speaker 1: she really is busy. But I just need time to
• 33:36
  Speaker 1: like decompressed myself first, and then they can watch that
• 33:40
  Speaker 1: seasons and then the whole season and the yeah explain
• 33:44
  Speaker 1: along the way of like, hey, this is what happened.
• 33:46
  Speaker 1: But I just I don't want to do that. I
• 33:48
  Speaker 1: want this. I want everybody to be surprised. I don't
• 33:50
  Speaker 1: want somebody to slip up and say something. I want
• 33:54
  Speaker 1: people to see my season the way that it kind
• 33:57
  Speaker 1: of happened for me. So all right, yeah, just do
• 34:00
  Speaker 1: a week by week. My last serious question, because I
• 34:14
  Speaker 1: think we usually go and reverse. We do the fun
• 34:16
  Speaker 1: stuff first, but we kind of just jumped right into
• 34:18
  Speaker 1: it since you are like in the depths already. Um,
• 34:23
  Speaker 1: what was like talk about that big realization that you had.
• 34:26
  Speaker 1: We've talked about it before. I think Demi helped you
• 34:29
  Speaker 1: get to that point, but it was the home It's
• 34:32
  Speaker 1: basically what taking the crown off symbolizes. You have like
• 34:36
  Speaker 1: that entire that amazing preview for your season about like
• 34:39
  Speaker 1: how like you stripped yourself of like that pageant queen
• 34:43
  Speaker 1: um persona, and then you're just like, this is me.
• 34:46
  Speaker 1: I Am just going to be true to myself. I
• 34:49
  Speaker 1: don't care what people think anymore, So like tell us
• 34:52
  Speaker 1: about how that happened and how it has progressed over
• 34:55
  Speaker 1: your Bachelor seasons. Well, it's first about the premier. Like
• 34:59
  Speaker 1: I'm so I was floored because that day I was like,
• 35:04
  Speaker 1: there's no way I don't understand this. I just like
• 35:06
  Speaker 1: a princess. And then when I finally watched it, I
• 35:09
  Speaker 1: was like, all right, that was amazing. It was the
• 35:12
  Speaker 1: coolest thing I've ever seen. You were Taylor Swift in
• 35:16
  Speaker 1: a music video. It was Yeah, I had I feel
• 35:18
  Speaker 1: like I have my own movie trailer. But even without
• 35:22
  Speaker 1: all that, I feel like they really did hit the
• 35:25
  Speaker 1: nail on the head of like the music, the how
• 35:30
  Speaker 1: how everything was put together, like everything and about just
• 35:34
  Speaker 1: like who I am, And I feel like it kind
• 35:37
  Speaker 1: of goes back to even like my relationships of I
• 35:40
  Speaker 1: let other people kind of I realized what people liked
• 35:44
  Speaker 1: about me and like what worked, and so I would
• 35:47
  Speaker 1: be that person in relationship in a room, um, for
• 35:52
  Speaker 1: an audience. But the thing is people always know a
• 35:57
  Speaker 1: little bit that something maybe off. Everybody was always like, oh,
• 36:01
  Speaker 1: she's great, she's this, But like I was always playing
• 36:04
  Speaker 1: for a crowd and not being completely myself because I
• 36:08
  Speaker 1: didn't know how people would actually respond or like who
• 36:11
  Speaker 1: I am, because they really like the person that I crafted,
• 36:14
  Speaker 1: but I didn't know if they would actually like me.
• 36:16
  Speaker 1: And um, I feel like I I always everybody talks
• 36:23
  Speaker 1: about my smile. It's like almost like creepy hall A
• 36:25
  Speaker 1: smile all the time. But I've always so genuine always
• 36:28
  Speaker 1: and it's not fake. But when I really was hurting
• 36:31
  Speaker 1: or upset, it's almost just like natural to have a smile,
• 36:35
  Speaker 1: and so nobody ever would ask like are you okay
• 36:39
  Speaker 1: or what's going on? Because it was just oh my god,
• 36:40
  Speaker 1: you seem so happy, and so I just kind of
• 36:43
  Speaker 1: lived in that for a while and it really took
• 36:46
  Speaker 1: me going through a depression anxiety stuff that I started
• 36:51
  Speaker 1: being like, Okay, what in my life is making me
• 36:55
  Speaker 1: feel this way? Who are the people in my life
• 36:58
  Speaker 1: that don't help? Who? Who do? Who encouraged me? And
• 37:02
  Speaker 1: really kind of I mean, I've always been my faith
• 37:04
  Speaker 1: has always been important to me, but really just like
• 37:07
  Speaker 1: gave it all up because I tried to control everything.
• 37:10
  Speaker 1: And then from there I took time off being and pageants.
• 37:14
  Speaker 1: And then when I won Miss Alabama USA, I was
• 37:18
  Speaker 1: completely myself for the first time ever, and like I was,
• 37:22
  Speaker 1: I was getting inside. I was like, like, Canna, you
• 37:24
  Speaker 1: could win. I was like, I'm already fourth throwner. This
• 37:27
  Speaker 1: is awesome. Like I just went on the stage and
• 37:30
  Speaker 1: like was was myself and I feel like once I
• 37:32
  Speaker 1: went again, it was so easy for me to go
• 37:35
  Speaker 1: back into Oh people were telling me to do this,
• 37:37
  Speaker 1: people were telling me to do that, And it wasn't
• 37:39
  Speaker 1: as bad as it had been before, but I still
• 37:41
  Speaker 1: let a lot of things. I lived twenty two years
• 37:47
  Speaker 1: in my life that way, so people telling me what
• 37:50
  Speaker 1: I should and shouldn't do for something that I wanted.
• 37:52
  Speaker 1: I allowed that to kind of affect me, and Miss
• 37:55
  Speaker 1: USA was great for me, like pageants. I'm so thankful
• 37:59
  Speaker 1: for them, but it did. Pageants on top of relationships
• 38:04
  Speaker 1: the people I had in my life, it did really
• 38:09
  Speaker 1: cause me to find my worth and recognition and what
• 38:15
  Speaker 1: accolades I had because it had been successful and then
• 38:18
  Speaker 1: I wasn't successful, so then I felt like I wasn't
• 38:20
  Speaker 1: worthy and then I was like, oh I got something, Okay,
• 38:22
  Speaker 1: now I'm worthy again, you know, And then it's like
• 38:26
  Speaker 1: you can't live your life that way. You just can't
• 38:28
  Speaker 1: live your life that way because there's always gonna be
• 38:30
  Speaker 1: somebody better than you. There's always gonna be um times
• 38:35
  Speaker 1: where you fail it doesn't work out, and then you're
• 38:37
  Speaker 1: gonna have times where you're successful. But like you, I
• 38:40
  Speaker 1: have no control of that, Like I can only be
• 38:43
  Speaker 1: the best that I can be and be completely myself
• 38:46
  Speaker 1: because when you win or when you have something and
• 38:49
  Speaker 1: then you're like I got that, but it doesn't feel
• 38:52
  Speaker 1: right because did I win or did my persona that
• 38:56
  Speaker 1: I put together win or get and I inc It
• 39:02
  Speaker 1: took losing everything that I thought my life was gonna be,
• 39:06
  Speaker 1: which was the badget, which was married, babies with my friends.
• 39:11
  Speaker 1: I wanted to win Miss Alabama USA three years before
• 39:14
  Speaker 1: I ever did. When I won that, it was like
• 39:16
  Speaker 1: I was excited, but I also was like, this is
• 39:18
  Speaker 1: not where I want to be. I wanted this three
• 39:20
  Speaker 1: years ago. I want to be engaged, I want to
• 39:23
  Speaker 1: be with how all my friends are. And then when
• 39:25
  Speaker 1: I realized, you know what, this is exactly where I'm
• 39:28
  Speaker 1: supposed to be. I started my breakthrough um and then
• 39:35
  Speaker 1: realized being Miss Alba. Like when I got Miss Albama
• 39:38
  Speaker 1: USA and it didn't still feel like I thought it
• 39:41
  Speaker 1: would feel. It was like, oh, it's because my worth
• 39:47
  Speaker 1: is not come from recognition. It's like that doesn't make
• 39:51
  Speaker 1: me feel I got the thing that I wanted for
• 39:52
  Speaker 1: years and years, but it still doesn't make me feel better.
• 39:57
  Speaker 1: And so it took me getting it to be like,
• 39:59
  Speaker 1: oh wait, this is actually not satisfying. So that was
• 40:02
  Speaker 1: really when I started like working on myself. Didn't have
• 40:06
  Speaker 1: a relationship, didn't everything that I wanted didn't have anymore.
• 40:09
  Speaker 1: And then I had the thing that I wanted and
• 40:11
  Speaker 1: it didn't feel like I thought it was going to be,
• 40:12
  Speaker 1: and I was like, Okay, this is starting to make sense.
• 40:15
  Speaker 1: So then I just really like started focusing on what
• 40:21
  Speaker 1: do who am I? Because I don't think I knew
• 40:24
  Speaker 1: And it was it was hard, Like there were days
• 40:27
  Speaker 1: where I was like crying in my bed, like how
• 40:29
  Speaker 1: have I lived my life like this all along? But
• 40:31
  Speaker 1: then it was then I started going back into the
• 40:34
  Speaker 1: world and just being like, you don't like this and
• 40:36
  Speaker 1: I don't really care, like I want the people that
• 40:39
  Speaker 1: are around me that loved me, loved me, and those
• 40:41
  Speaker 1: are the people I want to be around. So so
• 40:45
  Speaker 1: that continued, and the progression that you had happened a
• 40:49
  Speaker 1: lot on the show too, happened a lot on the show. Um,
• 40:52
  Speaker 1: just like I said, going back when I was when
• 40:56
  Speaker 1: Miss v Musa got into Miss U s A, I
• 40:59
  Speaker 1: still kind of went back into that rut for like
• 41:01
  Speaker 1: a little bit, kind of leaned into it because it's
• 41:03
  Speaker 1: all I knew of like other people telling me what
• 41:05
  Speaker 1: to do. Same thing when I got into The Bachelor
• 41:08
  Speaker 1: the first couple of weeks, the first couple of weeks,
• 41:09
  Speaker 1: I started like going back into my shell, like oh
• 41:12
  Speaker 1: my gosh. First with the first date with Colton, it
• 41:14
  Speaker 1: was like, oh, I like him, but I don't even
• 41:16
  Speaker 1: know what to say. Who am I do? I want
• 41:18
  Speaker 1: to show him like the real me or the one
• 41:19
  Speaker 1: that I think he'll actually like better. And then I
• 41:21
  Speaker 1: was like in this like middle ground of like paralyzed, um.
• 41:27
  Speaker 1: And you know, I've had so much people thinking I'm
• 41:31
  Speaker 1: a dummy. Can articulate myself? Um awkward and yeah, like
• 41:36
  Speaker 1: I was in those moments, but I can't articulate myself.
• 41:39
  Speaker 1: I am intelligent these Um. That was just a moment
• 41:43
  Speaker 1: for me, and it was a real moment and it
• 41:46
  Speaker 1: was entertaining for other people, but it was really hard
• 41:48
  Speaker 1: for me to realize, like I don't know who I
• 41:52
  Speaker 1: want to be right now. And then after that it
• 41:56
  Speaker 1: was like, Okay, I'm just gonna have to let go
• 41:59
  Speaker 1: and see how people respond. And honestly, it doesn't really
• 42:03
  Speaker 1: matter because this is my real life and I need
• 42:06
  Speaker 1: to live my real life right now, regardless of what's
• 42:09
  Speaker 1: about to be shown in a few months, Like this
• 42:11
  Speaker 1: is my time to keep exploring who I am. And
• 42:13
  Speaker 1: I'm really proud of even that for me, because I
• 42:17
  Speaker 1: did grow so much and ultimately allowed me to be here.
• 42:20
  Speaker 1: It was that realness that did crown you as the Bachelorette.
• 42:25
  Speaker 1: Then you have crowned with something else. Did you have
• 42:28
  Speaker 1: like a moment there where you hesitated? You're like, nope,
• 42:31
  Speaker 1: I've seen how being real gets me further. I think
• 42:35
  Speaker 1: because I have been the producers and the people of
• 42:41
  Speaker 1: the Bachelor, I believe in me so much and really
• 42:44
  Speaker 1: invested in me. Anytime I ever tried to do that,
• 42:46
  Speaker 1: they were like, what are you doing? I'm like, you're right,
• 42:49
  Speaker 1: so not really, But I had people, like I said,
• 42:52
  Speaker 1: I peet the people in my life that loved the
• 42:54
  Speaker 1: real me, the real Hannah, and that will encourage me
• 42:58
  Speaker 1: and regardless of what anybody thinks in the show, like,
• 43:02
  Speaker 1: they want my happiness first, and they want this to
• 43:05
  Speaker 1: be my story and so I think that it was
• 43:10
  Speaker 1: really um but uh, That's why I knew I wanted
• 43:14
  Speaker 1: to be the Bachelor and could be the Bachelor, because
• 43:16
  Speaker 1: I knew I had people on my team that we're
• 43:18
  Speaker 1: going to allow it to be my story in me awesome.
• 43:22
  Speaker 1: You said that you basically created a person for twenty
• 43:25
  Speaker 1: two years of your life. Who is that person that
• 43:27
  Speaker 1: you created and who is the person that you really are? Um? Like,
• 43:33
  Speaker 1: I mean even like in high school and stuff, like
• 43:35
  Speaker 1: I was the the miss perfect Like I didn't. I
• 43:42
  Speaker 1: didn't go out, I didn't get I would have fun,
• 43:44
  Speaker 1: but not too much fun. I always had a man
• 43:48
  Speaker 1: on my by my side, and except when you were
• 43:51
  Speaker 1: awkward and yeah, but but that would be I was
• 43:55
  Speaker 1: folks when I was awkward in high school folks, not
• 43:57
  Speaker 1: with guys. I was focused on literally I thought if
• 44:00
  Speaker 1: I didn't have a ninety fiber above that, like life
• 44:03
  Speaker 1: was going to be like an end all. Like I
• 44:05
  Speaker 1: was very um focused on my like my academia. I
• 44:13
  Speaker 1: um just pushed myself in that way. I danced and
• 44:17
  Speaker 1: even though I didn't even really like dancing, was also
• 44:21
  Speaker 1: one of those things that like hurt my self esteem.
• 44:24
  Speaker 1: My mom wanted me to do it. Um, everybody told
• 44:27
  Speaker 1: me we were the dancer. So I continue to do
• 44:29
  Speaker 1: it and like not just like have a dance class.
• 44:31
  Speaker 1: Weate once or twice. You know. It was like fifteen
• 44:34
  Speaker 1: hours a week. Um that's just in the week, not
• 44:36
  Speaker 1: with weekends like after school and then I would stay
• 44:40
  Speaker 1: up till one am to do my homework so that
• 44:41
  Speaker 1: I made sure I got a hundred on it. Like,
• 44:43
  Speaker 1: I just pushed myself, kept myself so busy and it
• 44:47
  Speaker 1: looked like I had everything figured out and didn't let
• 44:51
  Speaker 1: guys or parties or anything like get blur my vision
• 44:55
  Speaker 1: of my path. And then started dating and then it
• 44:59
  Speaker 1: was like this person, whatever they want from me, Like
• 45:02
  Speaker 1: I can be that misstepford wife for them and do
• 45:05
  Speaker 1: all this because I can be a trophy wife. So
• 45:08
  Speaker 1: then I did that for a while, and then it
• 45:10
  Speaker 1: was oh, well she's sip, and then through that like,
• 45:12
  Speaker 1: oh she's the pageant queen. Oh she's so sweet, she's
• 45:15
  Speaker 1: this and that, and like, no, am I always sweet? No,
• 45:17
  Speaker 1: I'm not. Like I have a good heart and I
• 45:20
  Speaker 1: know that, but I would not show my frustration. I
• 45:24
  Speaker 1: would not show my real feelings. And it was just
• 45:28
  Speaker 1: I was somebody that everybody could easily understand and take,
• 45:33
  Speaker 1: not really myself, which is not always easy to understand
• 45:36
  Speaker 1: or take because I don't even understand myself sometimes. She's
• 45:40
  Speaker 1: sweet is a word that has got me a lot,
• 45:44
  Speaker 1: like I granted me a lot actually through the bachelor process,
• 45:47
  Speaker 1: because I've always felt like the girls that come across
• 45:49
  Speaker 1: as just sweet, they're sweet. Um, they're the ones that
• 45:54
  Speaker 1: always really good, but they're really holding back. And the
• 45:58
  Speaker 1: ones that are a little bit more like you and
• 45:59
  Speaker 1: I um where we have our moments or people aren't
• 46:03
  Speaker 1: gonna like like us or what we say. We have
• 46:06
  Speaker 1: our freak outs. We don't always come across as sweet.
• 46:10
  Speaker 1: We're just being real, but we're sometimes not villainized, but
• 46:15
  Speaker 1: like disliked at times. And you don't know, it's just
• 46:18
  Speaker 1: like the girls who hold back get the better look better.
• 46:21
  Speaker 1: It was really hard for me because I was like
• 46:23
  Speaker 1: I was being my like completely myself, and everybody was
• 46:27
  Speaker 1: having those freakouts. They just did it in the bathroom
• 46:30
  Speaker 1: for a second and came back out. But it's like
• 46:32
  Speaker 1: kind of like I said, like it's my real life.
• 46:35
  Speaker 1: I'm not I'm not an actress, this is reality TV.
• 46:39
  Speaker 1: And I was, and I was not going to allow
• 46:45
  Speaker 1: myself to tap back into that person that really calls
• 46:50
  Speaker 1: me a lot of sadness and emptiness just so that
• 46:53
  Speaker 1: I could be the sweet girl on TV that I
• 46:55
  Speaker 1: knew I could have been. I mean, that's where I
• 46:57
  Speaker 1: struggled a lot in that first UM one on one
• 46:59
  Speaker 1: with Alton, because I was like, I know what I
• 47:02
  Speaker 1: could do that would keep me safe, but I also
• 47:05
  Speaker 1: am not that and I don't know what to do,
• 47:07
  Speaker 1: and you know, regardless of all the main things that
• 47:10
  Speaker 1: have been said, the things that people think that I am,
• 47:13
  Speaker 1: that I'm not, people that I'll never went over just
• 47:16
  Speaker 1: because they just want to hate me. I'm so thankful
• 47:19
  Speaker 1: that I was my real self, Like that's why I grew.
• 47:22
  Speaker 1: And I don't know if everybody grows the way that
• 47:25
  Speaker 1: I did through the process. I'm not going to try
• 47:28
  Speaker 1: to get gossip or anything, but I'm going to for
• 47:30
  Speaker 1: a second. Um, Kalin and you are probably those people
• 47:36
  Speaker 1: that will never see I to I are probably never
• 47:38
  Speaker 1: gonna be best friends. She posted a picture on your
• 47:41
  Speaker 1: premier day that said eating the chip off my shoulder?
• 47:45
  Speaker 1: Do you think that was a dig I didn't know.
• 47:48
  Speaker 1: Uh oh, I didn't. I mean, um, I don't know.
• 47:55
  Speaker 1: We can Um wow, I don't know. I just not know.
• 48:00
  Speaker 1: I don't have no idea. But you know what, I
• 48:02
  Speaker 1: don't you know, at this point, it's like who cares
• 48:05
  Speaker 1: in a way like whatever she says, like, I'm like,
• 48:09
  Speaker 1: I truly am like wish her the best, and if
• 48:13
  Speaker 1: she wishes me the best, great, If she doesn't, it's
• 48:15
  Speaker 1: okay because at this point we were in a we
• 48:19
  Speaker 1: were we don't have to be together or we can,
• 48:23
  Speaker 1: and I'm fine being a ring with her. I'm fine
• 48:25
  Speaker 1: not being in a ring with her, Like I don't
• 48:28
  Speaker 1: really hold anything against her anymore, and I hope she
• 48:30
  Speaker 1: doesn't with me, Like we're good and this was you know,
• 48:36
  Speaker 1: I don't know, it's weird, weird, Okay, So let's get
• 48:40
  Speaker 1: into your guys now. You I think you kiss more
• 48:43
  Speaker 1: guy when you're like between forty eight hours of being
• 48:46
  Speaker 1: the batchel right than you ever had in your life.
• 48:48
  Speaker 1: Yeahs or was at night one uh night when I
• 48:51
  Speaker 1: kissed three guys we saw them, we saw kisses um
• 48:58
  Speaker 1: and then yeah, in forty hour definitely. Um. I mean
• 49:02
  Speaker 1: it would be so funny. They'd be like, all right,
• 49:04
  Speaker 1: you know you're up to twelve and I'd be like,
• 49:06
  Speaker 1: oh my goodness, And how many was it before you
• 49:09
  Speaker 1: were the Bachelorrette? I think like five or six? Think six,
• 49:14
  Speaker 1: I think that's what I was at. Yeah, and it was,
• 49:17
  Speaker 1: I mean most of them were my boyfriend or yeah,
• 49:21
  Speaker 1: I think I only kissed like one guy that wasn't
• 49:23
  Speaker 1: my boyfriend, but we were like talking, Yeah, well you
• 49:30
  Speaker 1: feel like did you feel really weird? Yeah? At first,
• 49:32
  Speaker 1: I was like it was hard for me honestly because
• 49:37
  Speaker 1: I would have momutes so like, oh my god, I
• 49:39
  Speaker 1: can't believe I kissed them. Did you kiss guys that
• 49:43
  Speaker 1: you didn't really want to kiss? Like they just kind
• 49:44
  Speaker 1: of went in for um. Yeah, I feel like that's
• 49:49
  Speaker 1: kind of the hardest part. That's the hardest part because like,
• 49:51
  Speaker 1: you're you have to be in a relationship with multiple people,
• 49:58
  Speaker 1: and sometimes you're not feeling some of the people there
• 50:00
  Speaker 1: as much as you're feeling another person, but you're you
• 50:03
  Speaker 1: are technically dating them, and so it's really it was
• 50:08
  Speaker 1: hard sometimes. But you can kind of tell the difference
• 50:12
  Speaker 1: of my kisses when I'm really feeling somebody and when
• 50:14
  Speaker 1: I'm not. If you're like, yeah, the kiss with Luke
• 50:18
  Speaker 1: p on night one was intense. It was really intense,
• 50:21
  Speaker 1: but it was good. My sister and are watching you. Guys.
• 50:23
  Speaker 1: Those aren't the kisses you have once you're in a relationship.
• 50:27
  Speaker 1: Enjoy them out the guy. Your guys got a lot
• 50:31
  Speaker 1: of flak, especially when they're green pictures came out. You
• 50:35
  Speaker 1: weren't even around. You weren't even around. Your guys got
• 50:39
  Speaker 1: a lot of flak during your first week of filming,
• 50:41
  Speaker 1: so you weren't around for social media, but everybody's looking
• 50:44
  Speaker 1: at their pictures and like, oh my goodness, these guys
• 50:48
  Speaker 1: don't look like bachelorette material. These guys look like I
• 50:51
  Speaker 1: kept saying, like they picked thirty guys that were in
• 50:55
  Speaker 1: line for a hot dog at a football game. But
• 50:58
  Speaker 1: then we saw their great picture and they looked better.
• 51:01
  Speaker 1: And then on night one they looked better. But I
• 51:04
  Speaker 1: still was like, I don't know about this bunch they
• 51:06
  Speaker 1: got For Hannah. I was like, I really don't know.
• 51:08
  Speaker 1: There's like a good three or four in there. How
• 51:10
  Speaker 1: did you honestly feel After Chris said, Hannah, those are
• 51:15
  Speaker 1: all your guys, I went, I mean, I went, I
• 51:21
  Speaker 1: didn't realize it had been thirty guys. I was having
• 51:23
  Speaker 1: the most fun. Oh my god, it was so fun.
• 51:26
  Speaker 1: The lima entrances, like I didn't realize, and so I
• 51:29
  Speaker 1: was like, oh, wait, that's it, that's what I said.
• 51:32
  Speaker 1: I was like, oh, that's them, okay, And honestly, I
• 51:37
  Speaker 1: had to let it go. But I didn't really like
• 51:40
  Speaker 1: a lot of their fashion, and that was the first
• 51:41
  Speaker 1: thing I would notice. I was like, that's what really.
• 51:46
  Speaker 1: I was like, Okay, their faces are cute, but like
• 51:48
  Speaker 1: they have some serious fashion issues. I'm not even a
• 51:52
  Speaker 1: fashion girl, Like I don't get like, I don't I
• 51:54
  Speaker 1: don't understand like being obsessed with it, but I've noticed
• 51:58
  Speaker 1: that it was bad. It was bad. I was like,
• 52:00
  Speaker 1: why can't every guy just wear like a nice dark
• 52:03
  Speaker 1: blue suit or a black suit with a black tie,
• 52:06
  Speaker 1: or a blue tie, blue gray tie. They were all
• 52:09
  Speaker 1: trying to be wacky with their fashion, and their faces
• 52:11
  Speaker 1: weren't looking that great in them. And then episode two
• 52:14
  Speaker 1: came around and I was like, these guys in their
• 52:17
  Speaker 1: casual clothes without their hair ridiculously dye, it looks so
• 52:21
  Speaker 1: much better. Trust me. I felt the same way like
• 52:23
  Speaker 1: the first night. I was a little bit like, Okay,
• 52:28
  Speaker 1: a guy's outfit can really change the way his face. Yeah,
• 52:31
  Speaker 1: so it did. It was like a butt his face.
• 52:36
  Speaker 1: But but in the opposite way, I was like, oh
• 52:40
  Speaker 1: my god, what I need to help them so much,
• 52:43
  Speaker 1: but like this is them and like, oh this is scary.
• 52:47
  Speaker 1: But then after we started having dates and I was like, Okay,
• 52:50
  Speaker 1: all right, I can deal with this. This is good.
• 52:52
  Speaker 1: This is good. But ultimately, like, yeah, there was some
• 52:56
  Speaker 1: that I was like, huh, interesting, But I will say,
• 52:59
  Speaker 1: like I want an attractive guy. I want them to
• 53:01
  Speaker 1: be attractive, but I am okay with Like, they don't
• 53:09
  Speaker 1: have to be like a supermodel or anythink, like, I
• 53:11
  Speaker 1: just want them to have a good heart and be fun.
• 53:13
  Speaker 1: And so I think that was a lot of my
• 53:15
  Speaker 1: guys too, but it did. It was more of like
• 53:17
  Speaker 1: a growing too be attracted to some of them truthfully interesting. Yeah,
• 53:23
  Speaker 1: I like your honest. Yeah, I can't help it, Like
• 53:25
  Speaker 1: I'm like, I probably shouldn't say that, but I can't
• 53:27
  Speaker 1: help it, Like I don't know how to not be
• 53:29
  Speaker 1: honest about certain things. So yeah, the first night, I
• 53:31
  Speaker 1: was a little bit worried. Yeah, second night, I felt
• 53:35
  Speaker 1: so much better. Yeah, me, I felt better. I was like, Okay,
• 53:38
  Speaker 1: they look cute in their normal clathes. You don't like
• 53:44
  Speaker 1: guys that have necessarily a sense of mystery. You don't
• 53:47
  Speaker 1: like hard to get. We don't have to watch you
• 53:49
  Speaker 1: too much to know that you like a guy who
• 53:51
  Speaker 1: is aggressive and forthcoming about his feelings. Yeah, so how
• 53:57
  Speaker 1: do you You didn't think that Luke p was a
• 54:00
  Speaker 1: little bit too early with his feelings because you had
• 54:01
  Speaker 1: the biggest grin. You loved hearing every word of what
• 54:05
  Speaker 1: he was saying to you. Early on, within forty hours
• 54:08
  Speaker 1: of really knowing you. Um, do you think that you've
• 54:11
  Speaker 1: gotten like less naive throughout this process or do you
• 54:14
  Speaker 1: are you just like somebody who wants to hear those works? Okay?
• 54:18
  Speaker 1: I feel like with Luke, especially those first that that
• 54:22
  Speaker 1: first night, I think it kind of went back to
• 54:26
  Speaker 1: my past of the guy that I dated for forever.
• 54:32
  Speaker 1: I didn't know how he was feeling a lot. He
• 54:35
  Speaker 1: was mysterious and it hooked me, hooked mine and sinker
• 54:38
  Speaker 1: for a while. Then I dated the next guy that
• 54:40
  Speaker 1: I was really that I did love, and he was
• 54:43
  Speaker 1: more like I want to pursue you. I know it
• 54:47
  Speaker 1: hasn't been that long since your last relationship. I don't
• 54:49
  Speaker 1: care like I want to pursue you in that relationship
• 54:51
  Speaker 1: for me and like he was very like our faith aligned. Um,
• 54:56
  Speaker 1: that was a relationship that I realized, Okay, there are
• 54:58
  Speaker 1: guys like this out there that don't like beating around
• 55:00
  Speaker 1: the bush about their intentions, Like I want to know
• 55:03
  Speaker 1: somebody's here for me. And that was like what I
• 55:06
  Speaker 1: learned from that relationship from my that could be like
• 55:10
  Speaker 1: something that I wanted. And I feel like when Luke
• 55:12
  Speaker 1: was just like, hey, this is how I feel about you,
• 55:14
  Speaker 1: I'm really into you. I was into him, and I
• 55:17
  Speaker 1: liked that he was just like, look like, I like you.
• 55:21
  Speaker 1: I'm here for you. If it was if there was
• 55:23
  Speaker 1: anybody else here, I wouldn't be here. And I wanted
• 55:26
  Speaker 1: to know that. And I think also it came from
• 55:28
  Speaker 1: some insecurity of I wasn't. I feel like I was
• 55:32
  Speaker 1: a dark horse as a bachelorette, and so to know
• 55:35
  Speaker 1: that somebody truly wanted it to be me was like
• 55:40
  Speaker 1: almost like a sigh of relief of like, Okay, this
• 55:43
  Speaker 1: person really and one thousand percent that is that was
• 55:47
  Speaker 1: true about Luke like he it was. It was a lot,
• 55:50
  Speaker 1: but like he meant every word he was saying, and yeah,
• 55:55
  Speaker 1: I just it gave me hope for the rest of
• 55:58
  Speaker 1: the season. I feel like of like, okay, like this
• 56:01
  Speaker 1: could work. Um and like the first night they didn't
• 56:06
  Speaker 1: show it as much, but we really did talk about
• 56:07
  Speaker 1: like our faith a lot, and that was like the
• 56:10
  Speaker 1: one of the biggest thing that I needed to know
• 56:12
  Speaker 1: first and foremost that there was somebody that there that
• 56:16
  Speaker 1: had the same ideas and um faith that I did.
• 56:20
  Speaker 1: So that was like another thing. I was like, okay,
• 56:23
  Speaker 1: and then he just like was adamant about like making
• 56:26
  Speaker 1: coming up to me and talking to me, and I
• 56:28
  Speaker 1: want that. I don't want somebody to sit in a
• 56:31
  Speaker 1: corner and by the meatballs and be like whatever, you know,
• 56:37
  Speaker 1: like I want to be like, no, you're freaking hear
• 56:39
  Speaker 1: from me. I want to know. So I think, I know,
• 56:44
  Speaker 1: I think I need a good mixture. But I ultimately
• 56:47
  Speaker 1: think it came from a few insecurities of not knowing
• 56:51
  Speaker 1: if these guys really were here for me or we're
• 56:54
  Speaker 1: hoping it was somebody else. Because after the Final Rose,
• 56:56
  Speaker 1: they were already there before I was announced. That's right,
• 57:00
  Speaker 1: that's right. So you're not you weren't sure well they
• 57:03
  Speaker 1: or not these guys were going to be happy that
• 57:05
  Speaker 1: you because they're already sitting in the hotel room waiting
• 57:08
  Speaker 1: to hear who they're bout. They were signed up regardless,
• 57:11
  Speaker 1: So yes, so they were signed up regardless. And so
• 57:13
  Speaker 1: to have somebody like Luke be like if it was ant, like,
• 57:18
  Speaker 1: I'm so pumped, Like it was really great. And I
• 57:23
  Speaker 1: as soon as I saw him after the final Rose,
• 57:24
  Speaker 1: it was like, who do you like? I was like,
• 57:26
  Speaker 1: I mean, they were, they were all awesome, but I
• 57:28
  Speaker 1: was there was just something about Luke that I was
• 57:29
  Speaker 1: really excited to see, so yeah, all right, yeah, and
• 57:34
  Speaker 1: you all start so physically attracted to him, like right
• 57:37
  Speaker 1: off the back in episode two we see you shirtless,
• 57:41
  Speaker 1: he's shirtless, um, and I feel like I feel it.
• 57:45
  Speaker 1: I feel like this is probably a moment that you
• 57:47
  Speaker 1: were not looking forward to having to watch back. Well,
• 57:51
  Speaker 1: it depends it goes, but it was. You know, I
• 57:57
  Speaker 1: blushed a little bit when I watched it. I'm like, I, oh, my,
• 58:00
  Speaker 1: say this because you got caught by Jed, and I
• 58:02
  Speaker 1: think that you probably were like, oh man, when I
• 58:04
  Speaker 1: did this, I didn't think I was going to be
• 58:06
  Speaker 1: caught by anyone. That was probably the oh. I got
• 58:12
  Speaker 1: lit after that, and I was like, why did this
• 58:14
  Speaker 1: just happen? I really liked Luke, I really like Jed,
• 58:18
  Speaker 1: and I was like, that's not okay. It looks like
• 58:21
  Speaker 1: it was something more than it was, like this is
• 58:23
  Speaker 1: not cool, and I was like, don't mess with my guys, like,
• 58:27
  Speaker 1: don't mess with him. And but then Jed handled it
• 58:31
  Speaker 1: like a freaking rock star, like amazing, amazing, yeah, so adorable.
• 58:37
  Speaker 1: He's like, I guess it's really crazy. How many guys
• 58:39
  Speaker 1: are you know, I'm fighting with you. Yeah, yeah, so
• 58:44
  Speaker 1: it was that was that was a really hard moment
• 58:46
  Speaker 1: for me, like, oh so mad, so basically that you're
• 59:00
  Speaker 1: going to have to come back again right now as
• 59:03
  Speaker 1: we've seen it, Luke is a front runner. Um, I
• 59:07
  Speaker 1: feel who do you feel like? You're my front runners?
• 59:09
  Speaker 1: I feel like I really like Peter, I like Connor
• 59:17
  Speaker 1: s and I like Jed. Those are my three favorites
• 59:22
  Speaker 1: for you. I think everybody it was was not shocked,
• 59:27
  Speaker 1: but but sad to see Matt Donald go on Night one.
• 59:33
  Speaker 1: Can you believe how much attention that got? Fund to
• 59:36
  Speaker 1: like grocery store Joe, but like, let's be real, He's
• 59:38
  Speaker 1: not grocery He's not grocery store drive. And everybody's been
• 59:41
  Speaker 1: giving me heck about that. But I want to say
• 59:43
  Speaker 1: I got really excited about the tractor. I was like
• 59:46
  Speaker 1: if somebody I had said before, somebody comes out in
• 59:48
  Speaker 1: a tractor and I got I got a farmer, hot,
• 59:51
  Speaker 1: sexy country boy um all in and then I see him,
• 59:55
  Speaker 1: I'm like, oh my god, I think your tractor sexy.
• 1:00:00
  Speaker 1: And then come to found out he had never been
• 1:00:03
  Speaker 1: on a tractor and didn't have a farm, and I
• 1:00:05
  Speaker 1: was like, what other lives? Are you going to tell
• 1:00:07
  Speaker 1: me through this thing? So that was the reason. But
• 1:00:11
  Speaker 1: then he's so like when I was watching the episode back,
• 1:00:14
  Speaker 1: like such a sweet guy, just not my guy, you know.
• 1:00:17
  Speaker 1: The same with Chason, Like okay, so Chason was the
• 1:00:20
  Speaker 1: other one eliminated. Note when I was like, why did you?
• 1:00:22
  Speaker 1: Why did you eliminate those two because they seem to
• 1:00:24
  Speaker 1: have potential, but they did. Um, there's a lot of stuff,
• 1:00:27
  Speaker 1: you know. It's ultimately the first night is really hard
• 1:00:31
  Speaker 1: to decide because I don't know these jokers, Like, I
• 1:00:33
  Speaker 1: have no idea, I don't I don't know. I'm just
• 1:00:36
  Speaker 1: trying to just guessing at first. Big thing that got
• 1:00:42
  Speaker 1: a lot of attention Night one is the fact that
• 1:00:44
  Speaker 1: Luke didn't give you his jacket. Did he say I
• 1:00:49
  Speaker 1: thought that you didn't want to ruin your outfit with
• 1:00:51
  Speaker 1: his ugly jacket. Well, he did have a box. He
• 1:00:55
  Speaker 1: wore a square jacket. But also it's about a nuity.
• 1:01:00
  Speaker 1: I'll just be honest, like they need to have their
• 1:01:03
  Speaker 1: jacket on and I need to be in my pretty dress.
• 1:01:05
  Speaker 1: And so even though I was freezing, they're not really
• 1:01:08
  Speaker 1: allowed to give me their jackets because they need to
• 1:01:10
  Speaker 1: look fresh. Did he offer He did offer it like
• 1:01:13
  Speaker 1: fourteen times every guy offered me because I mean, I
• 1:01:18
  Speaker 1: guess you can't tell as much, but I'm literally like
• 1:01:20
  Speaker 1: shivering in every conversation, and they were like, I feel
• 1:01:22
  Speaker 1: so bad, I'm so sorry. But that was the one
• 1:01:24
  Speaker 1: they showed. Maybe I like, I'm cold. He did offer
• 1:01:26
  Speaker 1: me his jacket. I just said, your jacket is really
• 1:01:29
  Speaker 1: gonna miss at my outfit. Um okay, So I I
• 1:01:33
  Speaker 1: want to go back to those guys. Those four guys
• 1:01:35
  Speaker 1: are ones that I really feel strongly for, um strongly
• 1:01:38
  Speaker 1: four on behalf of you. I also really like Tyler G.
• 1:01:43
  Speaker 1: Tyler Tyler G looks more like Jared than I ever thought.
• 1:01:48
  Speaker 1: So weird. The bone structure is so weird, jawliney, yeah,
• 1:01:53
  Speaker 1: and the eye shape is so weird. But he would
• 1:01:55
  Speaker 1: talk about undercover. I didn't notice him until your first
• 1:01:59
  Speaker 1: day with him, um cutie. Yeah, he's really cute and
• 1:02:03
  Speaker 1: I really enjoyed my time with him. Um yeah, okay,
• 1:02:08
  Speaker 1: and I think everybody likes Everybody looked at those pictures initially,
• 1:02:13
  Speaker 1: and the first night everybody was talking about Tyler. See,
• 1:02:15
  Speaker 1: he looks like an f boy. He looks like you know,
• 1:02:20
  Speaker 1: he looks like that. So I'll say he didn't talk
• 1:02:23
  Speaker 1: to me the first night, and I was like, okay,
• 1:02:25
  Speaker 1: he's good looking. And then when he didn't talk to
• 1:02:26
  Speaker 1: me the first night, I was like, oh, you're on
• 1:02:29
  Speaker 1: my freaking radar. But I was like, night, well, I
• 1:02:33
  Speaker 1: didn't talk to eight guys. Oh my goodness. Yeah, that's
• 1:02:35
  Speaker 1: the most that's ever talked to talk to you. Because
• 1:02:38
  Speaker 1: when I'm in a conversation obviously, like now, I'm like,
• 1:02:41
  Speaker 1: I wasn't doing the whole thing, like what's your favorite color?
• 1:02:45
  Speaker 1: I was like invested. I'm very invested. When I'm in
• 1:02:48
  Speaker 1: a conversation with somebody, I want them to feel comfortable.
• 1:02:51
  Speaker 1: And it was all about for me the first night
• 1:02:53
  Speaker 1: making them feel comfortable because I felt comfortable. And so yeah,
• 1:02:56
  Speaker 1: I talked to the guys longer, and um, it was just, uh, yeah,
• 1:03:03
  Speaker 1: we just ran out of time. Ill said a really
• 1:03:05
  Speaker 1: funny story, Scott is really funny story time, and then
• 1:03:09
  Speaker 1: we're gonna have to wrap it up. I should think
• 1:03:11
  Speaker 1: I should tell her about Marcus. I think so too.
• 1:03:15
  Speaker 1: You're gonna love so Another reason why um, I got
• 1:03:21
  Speaker 1: y'areing about to love this is this hilarious okay. So
• 1:03:24
  Speaker 1: another reason why it took me so long, um was
• 1:03:26
  Speaker 1: because I had to get touch ups a lot because
• 1:03:28
  Speaker 1: I was on accurated. Well, my nose always is red
• 1:03:31
  Speaker 1: after every kiss or just one every every time, just
• 1:03:34
  Speaker 1: for everything, so my nose for sure. But I was
• 1:03:38
  Speaker 1: on accutane, i'ld talked very openly about mable you, thank you,
• 1:03:43
  Speaker 1: and it had it was great, it it was amazing. Well,
• 1:03:47
  Speaker 1: of course my first night, I start growing a bump
• 1:03:51
  Speaker 1: on my face and it was really small and then
• 1:03:54
  Speaker 1: like it's fine, like it'll cover up, and I'll say, Okay,
• 1:03:56
  Speaker 1: this freaking joker grew row at an astronomical rate throughout
• 1:04:02
  Speaker 1: the night. So we named it Marcus. Okay, and Marcus
• 1:04:07
  Speaker 1: w While we named it Marcus is because when before
• 1:04:10
  Speaker 1: I knew all the guys we would like talk about
• 1:04:13
  Speaker 1: like scenarios, and Marcus was the guy that, like you
• 1:04:15
  Speaker 1: didn't like that wind and go away, That was like
• 1:04:17
  Speaker 1: the annoying guy. There was Marcus and Mikey, and you
• 1:04:20
  Speaker 1: didn't want to be Marcus or Mikey. But these aren't
• 1:04:22
  Speaker 1: real guys. These aren't real guys. These were just like
• 1:04:24
  Speaker 1: before I knew the guy's names or whatever, we would
• 1:04:27
  Speaker 1: like be talking about scenarios and it was like Marcus
• 1:04:30
  Speaker 1: and Mikey, so like Marcus would be the gun that
• 1:04:32
  Speaker 1: did this. So when my z came, we named it Marcus. Okay,
• 1:04:37
  Speaker 1: so this thing it literally you can't even see it.
• 1:04:45
  Speaker 1: It grew and grew and grew, and it was like, Marcus,
• 1:04:49
  Speaker 1: go away. So after I sent Scott home or I
• 1:04:54
  Speaker 1: let him out, I went back to the room. I
• 1:04:56
  Speaker 1: mean I went back and I was like, you have
• 1:04:58
  Speaker 1: to park, you have to powder mark mark. It's like
• 1:05:00
  Speaker 1: he is going out of control right now. He's white.
• 1:05:02
  Speaker 1: Now he wasn't white. Why is he white? Can I
• 1:05:04
  Speaker 1: pop them know? Because he will bleed. It was terrible,
• 1:05:07
  Speaker 1: So I'm talking about Marcus. After I left Scott and
• 1:05:10
  Speaker 1: I walked back in the room and I went, well,
• 1:05:13
  Speaker 1: Marcus is a piece of to all the guys instead
• 1:05:17
  Speaker 1: of Scott, and I hear my producer and I just
• 1:05:20
  Speaker 1: started talking and they're all they all had this really
• 1:05:22
  Speaker 1: weird look on their face because I didn't even catch it,
• 1:05:25
  Speaker 1: and I had my producer go it's Scott and I
• 1:05:30
  Speaker 1: was like, I was like, or Scott whatever, his name
• 1:05:34
  Speaker 1: is irrelevant. So I yelled Marcus. I yelled Marcus to
• 1:05:42
  Speaker 1: all the guys, and then for weeks on people would
• 1:05:44
  Speaker 1: be like, yeah, he was Marcus, and I'd be like,
• 1:05:47
  Speaker 1: it doesn't matter. So I called Scott the name of
• 1:05:50
  Speaker 1: my zip, which actually made sense. He's a Pussy Girls
• 1:05:54
  Speaker 1: sky but yeah. So it was so funny. When I
• 1:05:59
  Speaker 1: got home that thing was ready to go. It was incredible,
• 1:06:02
  Speaker 1: but I was so up sad. I was like, of
• 1:06:04
  Speaker 1: course the night that was so important to me, I
• 1:06:09
  Speaker 1: haven't had acne and forever, Like I was like, this
• 1:06:11
  Speaker 1: is my moment, that's how it happens. I had this
• 1:06:14
  Speaker 1: huge Marcus that start forming. I used to have assist
• 1:06:18
  Speaker 1: that would just blow up every time. I'd be like,
• 1:06:20
  Speaker 1: I have to text him, I'm gonna text him'm going
• 1:06:22
  Speaker 1: to see him, and then i'd call it like his name. Yeahah,
• 1:06:25
  Speaker 1: it's like, oh it's the something's it um. But yeah,
• 1:06:27
  Speaker 1: I was really really flattered. When they asked me if
• 1:06:30
  Speaker 1: there was somebody to inject your sip that day. Yeah,
• 1:06:33
  Speaker 1: it was like, I'm so glad I could hook her
• 1:06:36
  Speaker 1: up with an injector, even though you didn't see that person,
• 1:06:39
  Speaker 1: but it's all good. I felt flattered. Actually helped me
• 1:06:42
  Speaker 1: marlp you on your big first week anyway. Okay, I
• 1:06:45
  Speaker 1: know you have other I Heart interviews you have to
• 1:06:47
  Speaker 1: run to, but Hannah, this has been the most incredible.
• 1:06:49
  Speaker 1: You're gonna have to come back because we're gonna have
• 1:06:51
  Speaker 1: to have more fun, more fun. This is so you're
• 1:06:55
  Speaker 1: the best for all your stories and um, we cannot
• 1:06:59
  Speaker 1: wait to get into watching your season and see what happened.
• 1:07:03
  Speaker 1: And I didn't even grill you about your guys and
• 1:07:05
  Speaker 1: like talk about what your face looked like. Okay, all right, bye, Hannah,
• 1:07:09
  Speaker 1: thank you, thank by