Latest / Dits & Dahs / no booze = no bluez
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- Sue: I'm thinking this morning about all the years and the amount of alcohol I consumed and how now when I don't consume much more than a social drink and I don't socialize, so maybe beer a month compared to my previous life. As I've come into balance with my widow's life and coming out of destitution and trying to make my own way, I hadn't really thought about the lack of alcohol. I've come to a place this morning of Looking back at the times when I had alcohol in my life, but would nonetheless be consuming a cider or two a night and enjoying it with my husband. in that time period, as I'm looking back now, I had a lot of negative thoughts. I had a lot of worries, anxieties, what ifs, the dark, da-da-da-da, ⁓ God, what would happen if I lost my job? What would happen if the What would happen if my husband died? What would happen? You know, I think things that are so general but dark enough in their target that they build a sort of undercurrent of anxiety. And we all understand as logical reasoning people that those kind of thoughts are irrational and you process them in whatever way that you see fit. Maybe add some alcohol into the mix and go on to something else that you're worried about that hadn't risen to the surface in your mind yet. Displacement. I don't have those thoughts anymore at all. The fact that I'm speaking them, yes, I'm manifesting those thoughts, but I don't put my attention nor do I feel I'm receiving a barrage of those worries any longer. I attribute that, in my experience, to not imbibing in alcohol. And I'm not. saying that what I've experienced and sharing with you now is going to be consistent with everybody else's lives. But I think it's notable from the standpoint that it's one less thing to create an imbalance in your life. And for me, I value balance in my life more than the distraction of negative thoughts. I don't want to have a way to get so subsumed with negative thoughts. Again, I know how to deal with negative thoughts. I make great music. It may not be your taste. But if you're interested, there's a couple playlists on my YouTube channel that you can check out. Confirmation with my watch. And of course, these videos, as I'm circling back on this discussion of this mundane awareness that I have, is that it's one of the ways that spiritual attacks can persist for a long time. Because if you're always in this energy of having these low-level anxieties floating around yourself, knowing that, okay, I can pat this down from bothering me a little bit by doing this and medicating that or whatever. Doesn't even have to be alcohol, just, you know, ⁓ I'll go on to another project and think about this other thing later. Whatever displacement that you employ is the very easy cover that the incoming negative energies can use to exist in your energy. Because you're not going to notice, you've already got the negative energies floating around you. What's another one? Well, the thing is, that incoming one might be diabolic. Why would you allow it in, in the first place? Sometimes in my posts talk about being a toddler and touching the hot stove. And once you learn not to do that, you never do that again. But if you're so distracted with having orbit of negative energies lurking around you, just as your daily existence, and you may be somebody who doesn't drink a lot. I didn't. Just enough for me to realize several years later with how impactful it was. Maybe it's the same kind of reflection that you will come to in your life. And if you do, all I can tell you at this point is, I've been there, done that, I'm standing aside you. It's simply the understanding that sometimes we allow ourselves to have socially acceptable vices lurk around us. It could be in the person that you're sharing your life with. It might not even be you. But nonetheless, those energies... and the negative side are going to be prevalent. And depending on the behaviors, could be really, really difficult to keep a balance. And it's that kind of thing that timeline for me creates a ripple that it took me over four years to finally come to this revelation. And I find it valuable because it helps me better grasp the importance of being positive, down to the deepest part of your core. because it's the strength and the unconditional love. It's that energy, that life force energy helps drive your positivity to higher places, whatever that is. In my case, I channel it into music. This is something that you can do for yourself. And the reason to do it for yourself is that you sort of, confirmation, train that muscle of a life force to do what you need it to do in the best way possible. And that's going to get you to a place where eventually all of that ripples of Your life jiggling around you finally settle into a calm, peaceful balance. You're not bored. You're just seeing things a lot further distance so that you can do the stuff that makes you happy. Having a job and earning a living is part of what makes me happy. Being able to subsist on rice and beans and tinned fish and not get bored of it makes me happy. Having a safe roof over our heads, that makes me super. You know, I can go down a long list of blessings if you want to call them that. I'm not trying to brag it or show off. I'm just suggesting that there are issues that get clouded when you have an excess of dark energies floating around you that you can't control. I don't think people understand how easily your life is out of control when you are allowing those negative energies to persist and not fully process them out of your system. Because you know you're never going to get rid of them. You just have to be able to keep a balance of them and to know that there are people out there who are bored. And the reason why they're bored is because they're not in control. Whatever that reason is, I believe it could potentially be diabolic in nature. That stuff's got to go. And the only way it goes is to have a combination of inner strength, unconditional love, faith, hope, all things that we possess. All of the tools, the life force to be strong. I've documented it in my journal in those places. My website is good place to start, to Sinclair.com. What I've gone through is nothing special that's happening to other people. They're unaware of it because they just figure they're feeling off and it's okay. You may find that there are energies around you lurking that needn't be there and you can get rid of them. I did it on my own. Why? I had no money. What else was I going to do but do it on my own? Maybe it's just a matter of understanding that instead of looking at my life and not taking anything away from it, you should look at it again and see if there's anything there you may find useful to employ in your own life. I'm not your mentor. I'm not your guru. I'm not anything other than someone documenting what I went through, understanding that maybe others will read it or listen to it and resonate in a way that says, I know what that feels like. Okay. Let me figure out what I need to do. I hope you resonate with this. Just know, I'm right here by your side. I've got your back. No one goes down. Thanks. Thanks for having patience to listen this far. I appreciate you.