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- WEBVTT 00:00:19.710 --> 00:00:24.969 Dear Diary, I had the full intentions of doing 00:00:24.969 --> 00:00:30.679 a real episode where It was going to be, the 00:00:30.679 --> 00:00:34.719 topic was going to be the neuroscience of the 00:00:34.719 --> 00:00:37.679 Lord's Prayer. And I've been doing a lot of research 00:00:37.679 --> 00:00:40.439 the last week and was so excited to start working 00:00:40.439 --> 00:00:45.640 on it and fully thought between not working or 00:00:45.640 --> 00:00:49.840 ending work on Saturday to today that I would 00:00:49.840 --> 00:00:54.780 have time. But let me tell you, I overestimated 00:00:54.780 --> 00:00:59.600 myself and underestimated this topic. That it's 00:00:59.600 --> 00:01:02.859 not happening clearly because y 'all just got 00:01:02.859 --> 00:01:06.040 another Dear Diary episode. And these are not 00:01:06.040 --> 00:01:07.900 my fluffs or my fillers because there's definitely 00:01:07.900 --> 00:01:10.900 things to like update you on and talk about. 00:01:11.599 --> 00:01:14.579 I just knew I couldn't do that episode to the 00:01:14.579 --> 00:01:17.439 depth and the fullness that I wanted to. And 00:01:17.439 --> 00:01:21.260 I did not want to give you a half, like a half 00:01:21.260 --> 00:01:24.500 -ish done episode. That just wouldn't be fair 00:01:24.500 --> 00:01:29.390 to you. Wouldn't be fair to me. yeah, there's 00:01:29.390 --> 00:01:31.469 just so much that goes into it. And so I was 00:01:31.469 --> 00:01:33.950 like, you know what, let's just update and talk 00:01:33.950 --> 00:01:36.890 about why this is the way that it is, which is 00:01:36.890 --> 00:01:38.950 the elephant in the room that most people already 00:01:38.950 --> 00:01:43.790 know being, I leave today. I moved today. I am, 00:01:43.790 --> 00:01:47.129 as you're listening to this, I am, if it's Thursday 00:01:47.129 --> 00:01:49.750 and you're listening to this, I am in the car 00:01:49.750 --> 00:01:54.629 headed to Florida to go live with my bestie Serena. 00:01:55.269 --> 00:02:01.579 So yeah there was not a lot of time to get everything 00:02:01.579 --> 00:02:04.540 done between packing because I hadn't packed 00:02:04.540 --> 00:02:08.240 and started packing till Sunday and even then 00:02:08.240 --> 00:02:11.719 it was like I half packed and then Monday let 00:02:11.719 --> 00:02:14.060 me just tell you where I'm at right now because 00:02:14.060 --> 00:02:16.280 you're listening to this on Thursday this is 00:02:16.280 --> 00:02:22.500 Wednesday morning for me and um my closet 95 00:02:22.500 --> 00:02:25.259 % done I just have to pull the boxes out and 00:02:25.259 --> 00:02:31.289 put them In the hallway. The bedroom? I would 00:02:31.289 --> 00:02:38.330 say about 95 % done. Kind of. The bathroom? Zero. 00:02:39.750 --> 00:02:43.590 Zero percent done. Bathroom is not done. Haven't 00:02:43.590 --> 00:02:46.210 even attempted. All I've done is clean the bathroom. 00:02:46.370 --> 00:02:48.289 And by clean the bathroom, I mean all I've done 00:02:48.289 --> 00:02:50.569 is clean the sink, the mirror, and the tub. Haven't 00:02:50.569 --> 00:02:54.229 even touched the toilet. So, not done. I haven't 00:02:54.229 --> 00:02:57.780 vacuumed. I need, I'm staring at my giant TV 00:02:57.780 --> 00:02:59.740 trying to figure out, do I take it with me? Do 00:02:59.740 --> 00:03:03.139 I not take it with me? I don't really know. I 00:03:03.139 --> 00:03:05.419 don't really need a big TV, but I don't want 00:03:05.419 --> 00:03:09.360 to leave it in storage. And yeah, that just, 00:03:09.500 --> 00:03:12.939 I don't know. Maybe I will take it with me. So 00:03:12.939 --> 00:03:16.659 this episode is coming out this way because of 00:03:16.659 --> 00:03:18.960 that. And you could think it's poor planning. 00:03:19.120 --> 00:03:21.800 It's not. When I tell you I've been busy all 00:03:21.800 --> 00:03:26.300 day, every day I have because Friday night, the 00:03:26.300 --> 00:03:28.560 that I worked because I worked Friday and I worked 00:03:28.560 --> 00:03:30.740 Saturday Friday night we had my friend Kate's 00:03:30.740 --> 00:03:33.539 birthday and we went to satellite then Saturday 00:03:33.539 --> 00:03:36.400 I worked all day and I came home and I started 00:03:36.400 --> 00:03:42.080 packing um Sunday woke up to church and stuff 00:03:42.080 --> 00:03:45.379 kept packing then went to a going away party 00:03:45.379 --> 00:03:51.479 for myself and went line dancing Monday packed 00:03:51.479 --> 00:03:57.210 all day and got dinner with friends Tuesday, 00:03:57.210 --> 00:04:01.590 woke up, packed in the morning, got coffee with 00:04:01.590 --> 00:04:04.530 friends, then went to paint some pottery, which 00:04:04.530 --> 00:04:06.689 we'll see how that turned out because painting 00:04:06.689 --> 00:04:10.129 pottery was just a stressful activity. Me and 00:04:10.129 --> 00:04:11.810 Nikki didn't talk to each other like that all 00:04:11.810 --> 00:04:14.110 the whole time. I think we both were very stressed 00:04:14.110 --> 00:04:18.509 in the moment of what was happening. But then 00:04:18.509 --> 00:04:21.689 came home, packed even more, ran out of tape. 00:04:22.240 --> 00:04:24.819 Went to the grocery store to get more tape. Tape 00:04:24.819 --> 00:04:27.779 is expensive. Packing tape at the Harris Theater 00:04:27.779 --> 00:04:31.019 is expensive. Can't recommend. Just go back to, 00:04:31.120 --> 00:04:33.759 where did I get it last time? Walmart. Just go 00:04:33.759 --> 00:04:38.620 to Walmart. Um, sorry, y 'all. Me and my yawning. 00:04:40.459 --> 00:04:46.060 Um, got home. This is like 8 p .m. last night. 00:04:47.279 --> 00:04:51.040 Kept packing. Older brother also comes over. 00:04:51.979 --> 00:04:55.399 talks to him, takes a break from packing, gets 00:04:55.399 --> 00:04:58.800 back into the packing groove, takes a bath to 00:04:58.800 --> 00:05:00.860 relax. Because I said, you know what? If you 00:05:00.860 --> 00:05:04.540 finish the closet to this point, which is like 00:05:04.540 --> 00:05:06.160 you can't really pack anything else, it's just 00:05:06.160 --> 00:05:09.199 boxes now, you can take a bath. So I had some 00:05:09.199 --> 00:05:14.300 Epsom salt, oatmeal, something, bath, whatever. 00:05:14.720 --> 00:05:18.920 Took a bath, watched a little show, relaxed, 00:05:19.240 --> 00:05:25.410 got up, packed some more. So that's what I've 00:05:25.410 --> 00:05:27.709 been doing. That's why there's no actual real 00:05:27.709 --> 00:05:31.589 episode. And listen, the move is going to be 00:05:31.589 --> 00:05:34.949 beautiful. It's going to be great. And I realized 00:05:34.949 --> 00:05:37.769 like talking to Jesus this morning, I wanted 00:05:37.769 --> 00:05:41.430 to put this episode out more for the girl who 00:05:41.430 --> 00:05:45.490 is doing a big move or is worried about a big 00:05:45.490 --> 00:05:48.779 life change that they made. or deciding to make 00:05:48.779 --> 00:05:50.879 your goal or they're working towards, which is 00:05:50.879 --> 00:05:56.800 no matter what you do, God is there. Whether 00:05:56.800 --> 00:05:59.560 you're like, is this from God? Am I obeying God? 00:05:59.800 --> 00:06:02.139 Am I listening to God's voice? Is this for me? 00:06:02.220 --> 00:06:06.180 Am I doing this for myself? First off, if you're 00:06:06.180 --> 00:06:10.279 seeking God, he's there. Think about David. Like 00:06:10.279 --> 00:06:12.100 David, we talk about this when we go through 00:06:12.100 --> 00:06:16.319 the lineage of Jesus, like David would make or 00:06:16.319 --> 00:06:18.660 want to make a decision and he would ask God 00:06:18.660 --> 00:06:21.540 and God would answer him and then he would move 00:06:21.540 --> 00:06:24.360 forth. But it's the fact that he asked God and 00:06:24.360 --> 00:06:26.779 God blessed it. It was when David didn't ask 00:06:26.779 --> 00:06:31.319 God that the decisions were really bad and things 00:06:31.319 --> 00:06:35.339 did not work out well. So just, you know, as 00:06:35.339 --> 00:06:38.319 long as God is part of your mindset with it, 00:06:38.379 --> 00:06:42.810 honestly too, like take that off too. If you're 00:06:42.810 --> 00:06:44.949 a child of God, he's going to bless it. Like 00:06:44.949 --> 00:06:46.829 he loves you. He wants what's best for you. So 00:06:46.829 --> 00:06:48.970 me moving to Florida, I could be like, listen, 00:06:49.149 --> 00:06:52.310 I love my friends in Wilmington. My family's 00:06:52.310 --> 00:06:55.329 only two hours away. I get to see everybody I 00:06:55.329 --> 00:06:57.750 love and care about outside of Serena all the 00:06:57.750 --> 00:07:00.110 time. These are the best friends I've ever had. 00:07:00.689 --> 00:07:04.050 Why would I leave? You know, but I'm moving to 00:07:04.050 --> 00:07:05.970 Florida and I could be like, this isn't from 00:07:05.970 --> 00:07:08.930 God. I'm making a mistake. This is wrong. But 00:07:08.930 --> 00:07:10.990 the thing is, is like God is going to meet you 00:07:10.990 --> 00:07:14.670 where you are. He is. And as long as you're being 00:07:14.670 --> 00:07:17.569 like faithful to him, he's going to meet you 00:07:17.569 --> 00:07:20.189 where you are, which is I'm not doing anything 00:07:20.189 --> 00:07:23.709 out of my own fleshly desires. And I'm just going 00:07:23.709 --> 00:07:26.209 to continue to honor him with my life. How could 00:07:26.209 --> 00:07:29.110 this be a bad thing? The second thing is, girl, 00:07:29.129 --> 00:07:32.350 people move every day. People move. People get 00:07:32.350 --> 00:07:35.790 new jobs. People start new lives. So if you're 00:07:35.790 --> 00:07:38.209 feeling hesitant to make a change, make the change. 00:07:38.389 --> 00:07:41.819 People make a change every single day. And Abraham 00:07:41.819 --> 00:07:45.060 literally was with his family that had probably 00:07:45.060 --> 00:07:47.079 been in that land for generations. And God was 00:07:47.079 --> 00:07:51.079 like, hey, Abraham, you're going to just start 00:07:51.079 --> 00:07:53.980 walking. Take your wife, Sarah, and your nephew, 00:07:54.060 --> 00:07:56.360 Lot, and just start walking. And I'll tell you 00:07:56.360 --> 00:07:57.939 when to stop because once you're there, you're 00:07:57.939 --> 00:08:00.519 there. I got you. Don't worry about it. You know, 00:08:00.600 --> 00:08:04.319 Abraham just started walking. It was great. And 00:08:04.319 --> 00:08:10.490 he now is the father of many nations. Noah was 00:08:10.490 --> 00:08:12.209 kind of told from the start, like, hey, build 00:08:12.209 --> 00:08:15.810 an ark. And so he did. But to everybody else, 00:08:15.829 --> 00:08:19.790 that seemed crazy. You know, so there's that 00:08:19.790 --> 00:08:22.910 example. I just think like when you're reading 00:08:22.910 --> 00:08:25.430 your Bible, there's a lot of examples and that 00:08:25.430 --> 00:08:28.050 God can use you where you are or whatever's going 00:08:28.050 --> 00:08:32.409 on. You know, Ruth, I don't know why I'm yawning 00:08:32.409 --> 00:08:36.370 so much. Ruth decided to stay with her mother 00:08:36.370 --> 00:08:38.940 -in -law. Instead of going back to what was comfortable 00:08:38.940 --> 00:08:41.320 and what was her normal and what was her family 00:08:41.320 --> 00:08:44.580 and decided to take on a new journey and start 00:08:44.580 --> 00:08:47.539 a whole new life. So if you're hesitant to do 00:08:47.539 --> 00:08:49.759 something, if you're hesitant to take that leap 00:08:49.759 --> 00:08:52.460 or that next step, just do it, girl. Really just 00:08:52.460 --> 00:08:54.759 do it. What are you going to be missing out on? 00:08:55.220 --> 00:08:58.980 You know, do you serve a good God? Yes. Do you 00:08:58.980 --> 00:09:01.700 have a heavenly father? Yes. Does he not want 00:09:01.700 --> 00:09:05.000 what's best for you? Of course he does. So like, 00:09:05.059 --> 00:09:08.179 why would you not? So for me, it's this move. 00:09:08.240 --> 00:09:11.960 And obviously, a move like this is big. It's 00:09:11.960 --> 00:09:14.980 not the largest move I've ever made. But it's 00:09:14.980 --> 00:09:17.259 still a big move, which means it can still be 00:09:17.259 --> 00:09:20.740 scary because you're making new friends and a 00:09:20.740 --> 00:09:23.720 new job and new places. And that's all very intimidating. 00:09:24.899 --> 00:09:27.379 But that's the beauty of life is it's a new chapter, 00:09:27.539 --> 00:09:30.779 you know. And when you do things like this, it 00:09:30.779 --> 00:09:34.559 creates new like neuropathways, which is causing 00:09:34.559 --> 00:09:37.080 you to grow. And I think that's really cool. 00:09:37.159 --> 00:09:39.539 Like you get to grow, you get to mature, you 00:09:39.539 --> 00:09:42.679 get to learn new things about yourself that yes, 00:09:42.720 --> 00:09:44.720 you would have learned eventually, but when you 00:09:44.720 --> 00:09:48.519 do stuff like this, it happens even faster, you 00:09:48.519 --> 00:09:52.059 know? So be ready for that. Be ready for difficulties. 00:09:52.120 --> 00:09:55.899 Be ready for frustration because there is a lot 00:09:55.899 --> 00:09:57.799 of good and beauty that comes out on the other 00:09:57.799 --> 00:10:03.120 side. Yeah, those were the only Bible examples 00:10:03.120 --> 00:10:06.480 I had in the topic of conversation I have on 00:10:06.480 --> 00:10:09.620 that. I don't really think I have anything else. 00:10:09.700 --> 00:10:11.820 I know this is like a short episode because it 00:10:11.820 --> 00:10:14.980 is just a Dear Diary episode. I did have a hot 00:10:14.980 --> 00:10:18.000 topic that I wanted to bring up earlier, but 00:10:18.000 --> 00:10:20.399 I don't remember it now. It was on my mind last 00:10:20.399 --> 00:10:23.879 night and I was like, wow, that's really crazy. 00:10:23.980 --> 00:10:26.200 I can't believe I just thought about that. And 00:10:26.200 --> 00:10:29.279 now I don't remember it at all. I wonder what 00:10:29.279 --> 00:10:34.389 that was. That's what it was. Y 'all, this is 00:10:34.389 --> 00:10:39.009 my hot take, okay? I have to put one in in like 00:10:39.009 --> 00:10:41.389 every single Dear Diary episode because like 00:10:41.389 --> 00:10:44.210 what else would I be doing? Can we please, when 00:10:44.210 --> 00:10:46.549 we have people trapped in a room as Christians, 00:10:46.629 --> 00:10:49.549 specifically, I keep seeing it on planes. When 00:10:49.549 --> 00:10:52.450 we have people trapped on planes, can we stop 00:10:52.450 --> 00:10:54.909 trying to shove the love of Jesus down their 00:10:54.909 --> 00:10:58.600 throat? Please. It makes me not want to claim 00:10:58.600 --> 00:11:01.820 being a Christian. Every time I see a video of 00:11:01.820 --> 00:11:04.679 the plane being stalled and someone gets up and 00:11:04.679 --> 00:11:06.840 is like, you know, we're all here. Let me share 00:11:06.840 --> 00:11:10.419 the love of Jesus. It's not even cringeworthy. 00:11:10.419 --> 00:11:13.659 It's not coming off loving. It's really not. 00:11:14.179 --> 00:11:16.940 So first off, if you see people doing that online 00:11:16.940 --> 00:11:19.460 and you're like, wow, I wish I was cool and ballsy 00:11:19.460 --> 00:11:21.200 like that, babe. It's actually not that cool, 00:11:21.240 --> 00:11:24.450 not that ballsy. Like it's really genuinely not 00:11:24.450 --> 00:11:26.570 because if they genuinely cared about people 00:11:26.570 --> 00:11:29.950 and saving them, they wouldn't approach it like 00:11:29.950 --> 00:11:32.250 that. Because listen, have you ever been trapped 00:11:32.250 --> 00:11:36.490 on a plane? I have. I have. The last thing you 00:11:36.490 --> 00:11:39.970 want is to be stuck in your seat, not being able 00:11:39.970 --> 00:11:43.190 to get up, either waiting to leave or just arriving. 00:11:43.710 --> 00:11:47.279 Okay. You don't know how long you've been sitting 00:11:47.279 --> 00:11:49.759 there and someone else gets up and says, now 00:11:49.759 --> 00:11:52.559 that I have everybody here, or I really felt 00:11:52.559 --> 00:11:55.200 like it was laid on my heart to tell you about 00:11:55.200 --> 00:11:58.539 the love of Jesus. Nobody's in the mindset to 00:11:58.539 --> 00:12:03.399 be receiving. Okay? They're just not. And you're 00:12:03.399 --> 00:12:06.080 never going to be able to force someone in that 00:12:06.080 --> 00:12:09.879 instance to come to know Jesus Christ as their 00:12:09.879 --> 00:12:11.940 Lord and Savior because they're already frustrated. 00:12:12.730 --> 00:12:14.629 you know and you might think but it could take 00:12:14.629 --> 00:12:17.129 away the frustrations I'm letting you know now 00:12:17.129 --> 00:12:21.450 it's not going to and it's not if we saw Muslims 00:12:21.450 --> 00:12:26.090 doing that we would lose our minds okay if we 00:12:26.090 --> 00:12:27.710 saw Muslims staying up on a plane and be like 00:12:27.710 --> 00:12:29.509 I want to tell you about the love of Allah we 00:12:29.509 --> 00:12:33.970 would lose our minds nobody else wants to hear 00:12:33.970 --> 00:12:35.889 you do that I don't think people really walk 00:12:35.889 --> 00:12:37.710 away from those planes and go I think I'm gonna 00:12:37.710 --> 00:12:39.610 go to church now that this little 20 year old 00:12:39.610 --> 00:12:43.820 girl told me that Jesus loves me while I was 00:12:43.820 --> 00:12:45.940 already stuck on that plane just waiting to leave 00:12:45.940 --> 00:12:49.620 I just don't I really truly don't believe it 00:12:49.620 --> 00:12:52.340 so that's my hot take is if you see people doing 00:12:52.340 --> 00:12:55.019 that please don't wish that was you if you have 00:12:55.019 --> 00:12:56.639 been doing that or wanting to do that please 00:12:56.639 --> 00:12:59.580 don't I just think that there's so many better 00:12:59.580 --> 00:13:04.320 ways to spread the gospel and the love of Jesus 00:13:04.320 --> 00:13:08.039 and honestly what for like what fruit is it producing 00:13:09.360 --> 00:13:11.759 what fruit is it producing? I don't believe it 00:13:11.759 --> 00:13:14.039 really produces fruit to do that. So if we could 00:13:14.039 --> 00:13:17.419 just stop, that would be great. I really do. 00:13:17.840 --> 00:13:21.600 Also, my other hot take right now is one of my 00:13:21.600 --> 00:13:23.320 friends was telling me about this girl who sold 00:13:23.320 --> 00:13:25.580 her business that was already in the red and 00:13:25.580 --> 00:13:27.360 she like sent it out in text. And she was like, 00:13:27.419 --> 00:13:29.399 I just really felt like God was calling me to 00:13:29.399 --> 00:13:32.720 sell it. And I just thank him for this opportunity 00:13:32.720 --> 00:13:35.200 to do so. And I'm just surrendered to his will, 00:13:35.320 --> 00:13:39.409 babe. This is going to come off as a hater. Hence 00:13:39.409 --> 00:13:42.389 why it's a hot take. You had a thought. You had 00:13:42.389 --> 00:13:47.509 an idea. And you decided to sell it. Okay? You 00:13:47.509 --> 00:13:50.409 saw an opportunity to sell. And you sold it. 00:13:50.990 --> 00:13:54.070 We don't have to like play Christianese all the 00:13:54.070 --> 00:13:58.649 time. And everything doesn't have to be God told 00:13:58.649 --> 00:14:01.250 me this. Because honestly, most of the time he 00:14:01.250 --> 00:14:04.210 didn't. It was a thought you had. And you decided 00:14:04.210 --> 00:14:06.879 to move forward. And can he bless that? And you, 00:14:07.019 --> 00:14:10.740 yes, he can bless that for you 110%. But don't 00:14:10.740 --> 00:14:12.759 have a thought and then be like, Jesus told me. 00:14:13.720 --> 00:14:15.919 Don't have an idea and be like, Jesus told me. 00:14:16.419 --> 00:14:18.940 Like, unless he has confirmed it for you, let's 00:14:18.940 --> 00:14:21.940 just not tap Jesus onto everything. I have thoughts 00:14:21.940 --> 00:14:25.919 every single day. And I don't say Jesus told 00:14:25.919 --> 00:14:29.620 me this every single day because he didn't. He 00:14:29.620 --> 00:14:31.940 really didn't. So that's my other hot take. Sorry. 00:14:32.570 --> 00:14:35.070 I know that's two in one episode. I have more 00:14:35.070 --> 00:14:37.090 actually that I'm just not going to get into 00:14:37.090 --> 00:14:41.009 today. But yeah, that's my hot take. Let's not 00:14:41.009 --> 00:14:42.830 preach to people on the planes where they're 00:14:42.830 --> 00:14:45.110 trapped because nobody's open to anything when 00:14:45.110 --> 00:14:49.210 they're trapped. And two, not every single thought 00:14:49.210 --> 00:14:52.409 that entered your brain is probably from the 00:14:52.409 --> 00:14:56.090 Lord. It's just chances are not. Chances are 00:14:56.090 --> 00:14:59.629 99 % are not. That's why we're told to take our 00:14:59.629 --> 00:15:01.970 thoughts captive. And yeah, that's it. All right. 00:15:02.440 --> 00:15:06.159 Thank you for listening. XOXO The Living Freed 00:15:06.159 --> 00:15:06.559 Podcast.