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TWOCPT, Eps 86, What is Consciousness Series , Part 3 of 6, Thought Becomes Power · Military Broadcast Radio | MBR Talk

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  numbers because we got Part 3 and I think this will be some
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  interesting and intriguing information for you.
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  So today, August 31st, 2026, that number 083126, it equals
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  A2. We're in the two branches today.
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  The angels are assisting you to feel balanced and harmonious.
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  security and stability to all. The Angel power Word.
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  Today is time. I just said that.
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  Where's time going? Angel number contains the number
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  26. That is our year.
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  It's always there every time we do this.
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  The angels know that you feel empowered when you feel
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  compassion for others. They now ask the two feel the
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  same compassion for yourself, little self love action.
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  It is very important that you say no to request that make you
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  feel uneasy. Trust these sensations in your
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  body as these are your inner compasses.
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  Today's number is also has 83 in it.
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  Archangel Michael, we love that here with the Veterans Arm, he
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  and delivers the gift of time. Your time is a valuable
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  resource, one that can bring you great abundance.
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  He is here to relieve time pressures and will assist you to
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  make wise choices regarding the use of your time.
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  This gift also empowers you to be fully present in time,
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  thereby allowing you to give undivided attention to clients,
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  family, friends and yourself too when you require it.
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  Angel number also contains the number 12.
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  It is now time to ask the angels to show you the complete
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  picture. When you do so, the angels will
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  deliver great knowledge of the finer details regarding any
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  situation. Archangel Michael is also around
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  you, giving you the strength to stand up and be true to
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  yourself. Lastly, the number is 31.
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  It's time to retreat from the hustle and bustles of life.
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  When you seek serenity and solitude, you'll be gifted with
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  ingenious ideas to restore your health.
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  Relax, it's OK, you have time to do it.
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  Nature is calling you. Well look at that.
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  That is one heck of a. That right there is just one
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  heck of a an outstanding little gift that we all have here going
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  on. And that to me is phenomenal.
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  Just phenomenal. OK, here we go.
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  Woo. What is consciousness series?
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  This is now Part 3 of 6 where thought becomes power.
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  Did you realize that your thoughts could actually be your
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  superpower? Hmm let's get into it.
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  Let's see what's happening here. So as you know, we know
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  ourselves here as two cap right? TWOCPT goes.
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  Who the hell wants to keep writing out the world of
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  conscious boss? My typing so bad I always screw
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  it up and then it never gets found.
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  So 2 cap is a much easier way and here for anybody who's new
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  on this station. I heard, never heard it.
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  When I say man, I'm not talking about male, I'm not talking
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  about testosterone, I'm not talking I'm talking humanity,
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  man, right? It's man because man controls
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  our thoughts when we get labeled.
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  So everything's a label. Science, psychology, philosophy,
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  math, you name it, English, geography, everything is labeled
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  by man. So that's why I always say, and
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  who says that, man? So if you see me say that,
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  that's what it's about because everyone goes, why you keep
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  picking on the men? I'm not picking on the men.
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  Wait. Ironically, quite frankly, it's
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  not man. It's man, not men.
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  So anyhow, I just thought I'd let you all know that one again.
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  So for the last two shows, we've been asking 1 enormous question.
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  What is consciousness? What is it?
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  Right? Part 1, we explored the mystery
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  of consciousness, right? What is awareness?
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  What is perception? What is attention?
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  What is observing our thoughts? And then last week in Part 2,
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  man discovers the mind. We looked at humanity's attempt
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  to understand the name and the mind.
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  We went through Freud, we went through Young, we went through
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  Maslow, we went through Skinner, We went through ego, beyond
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  conscious mind, the subconscious mind, the conscious mind.
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  And then we actually talked about boxes and labels.
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  What man labels and how those boxes form inside the brain.
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  We talked about how consistency and experience help us recognize
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  name and understanding of what we're experiencing.
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  And we kept coming back to air Air.
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  Air is always there and I simply wasn't aware of it until I
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  started creating these things. And I left you with one of my
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  old expressions. I leave in every class when we
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  talk about the awareness and how our consciousness is.
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  And I've always said when you become aware of air, you've
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  reached creation because how difficult is it to see air?
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  We know it's there, we're breathing it in, but to
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  literally come face to face with air, I know there's a there's
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  man. Well, look at man, humanity,
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  somebody out there who is going MJ, you see air, it's right in
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  front of you. No, I see nothing besides
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  something else, a screen or energy that's in front of me.
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  I don't necessarily see the air. So if you say, well, fog, when
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  it's rain, well that's not air, that's water.
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  Think about it. So today we're going to take
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  those next steps. Just keep that on the back
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  burner. You'll be in a HA here sooner or
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  later. Because once we become aware of
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  a thought, what do we do with it, right?
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  And that's where our Part 3 begins.
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  Thought becomes power. So today we are exploring the
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  relationship between thought, language, belief, intention,
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  imagery, emotion, and conscious choice.
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  And I'm not going to sit here and I'm not going to tell you
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  that every thought magically creates your reality.
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  No, I'm going to be asking you something different.
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  Do thoughts create your reality? Or do thoughts influence the
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  choices, perceptions, and actions through which we
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  experience reality? Now that's our ponder for today.
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  Do thoughts create a reality? Or do thoughts influence the
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  choices, perceptions, and actions through which we
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  experience reality? I know it's deep, but it's fun
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  to go deep every once in a while.
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  So here's today's seed. A thought may arrive without
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  permission. What we feed, repeat, speak and
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  act upon becomes our conscious responsibility.
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  So let's why this to death? Because I love these wives and
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  this is what in my classrooms. I just.
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  I go deep. I go really deep.
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  A thought arrives. What do we do?
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  Have you ever been sitting just quietly?
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  Nothing, just for the day, just kind of sat down and a thought
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  pops in, you're like, where the hell did that come from?
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  And it might not even be a thought about anything today or
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  anything that had to do with the day.
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  It might have been about, I don't know, 30 years ago, 20
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  years ago. And you're like, OK, where did
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  that come from? Right.
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  So I have, I mean, most people in life, they're like, yeah, I
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  have done that as well. And I was like, OK, well, where
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  did it come from? I didn't consciously call that
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  thought in. I wasn't looking for it.
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  There it was. It just kind of bam, popped in
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  your head. So the first thing I want to
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  separate is having a thought is not the same as consciously
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  choosing a thought. Does that make sense?
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  Because thoughts can arise from something like something we're
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  seeing, right? Something we're hearing, maybe a
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  smell, a memory, an experience, a word, an emotion, something
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  somebody said 30 years ago, something.
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  Sometimes we may recognize the connection and sometimes we just
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  don't recognize that. And sometimes, like I've been
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  doing while preparing for these series, they suddenly make a
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  connection and go, oh, mind blow, wow, mind blow.
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  How the hell did I not see that or how did I not know that?
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  That's awareness. That's when that light bulb
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  comes on. That right there, you That
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  experience or information may have already existed, but
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  awareness recognized it with something about it.
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  And once I become aware of that thought, now I have something
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  that I didn't have a second later because I didn't have that
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  thought to connect it. Yeah.
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  A choice about what to do next then comes in, right, Because we
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  have to talk about that now. We have to have a choice of what
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  we're doing with that thought. So let's talk about words,
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  because man, but it's words, they label them.
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  So words become very influential.
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  For instance, my father, you, I always tell you about my father.
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  Nope. He was in the military, but he
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  was a very a very strict, he was very authoritative and he was a
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  very disciplined man and he was raising what he considered good
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  citizens, right? So his philosophy in our
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  household was always and he we were very sports minded as well.
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  Let me just give you that information.
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  And he would always write winners never quit and quitters
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  never win. That was huge.
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  That was installed very little because very little when you get
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  frustrated, whether it was playing a piano, whether it was
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  playing a clarinet, whether it was trying to shoot hoops in a
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  basketball or trying to learn a flick on your hockey stick or
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  trying to figure a knuckleball out when you're the pitcher and
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  Sapa, let me tell you, there was a lot of times this little girl
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  here wouldn't go. I just don't care.
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  I don't care. I don't want to do it anymore.
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  Just and my father would be very upset and saying quitters never
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  win and winners never quit. Keep going.
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  That was installed at such a young age.
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  And another word that he installed at such a young age is
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  the word can't. Little girl is not in our
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  family's dictionary or our vocabulary, so remove it.
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  Can't. So they were kind of like the
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  little 2 strict words. Every time he said can't, he
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  goes, what did you just say can't, right.
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  So I didn't know anything about consciousness theory.
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  Obviously at 4:00 and 5:00 and growing up and I wasn't studying
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  affirmation. I was a child.
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  I was a kid. I was just loving life.
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  I was exploring the nuance of life, right?
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  Why does this trees bark grow like this and you can RIP it.
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  Obviously I was talking about whatever it is, I just lost my
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  thought. Or you have the barks that go up
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  and down, right? So now you're looking at it
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  going, what's he talking about? Right?
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  I was a kid. However, my father gave me
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  language. And I'm sure your father gave
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  you some type of language that you used your whole life.
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  And through consistency and experience, that language stayed
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  with me. Stayed with me.
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  He was just a man who made sure that our goals would be
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  accomplished by a quality of the brain that says I can and I
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  will. And that was my father.
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  He he beautifully established, I believe, the will that nobody
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  could take from me. The soldier with the little
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  block on her shoulder that I dared somebody.
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  The will, the audacity. I had it mixed up probably
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  because that's kid, right? So now think about all that.
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  Just just I want you to ponder on words, something like that
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  that your, your mom or your dad or your grant somebody in your
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  family has a child. But it was constantly spoken and
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  nailed in almost like a coffin to the day I die.
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  I should put on my my epitaph, right?
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  Quitters never win and winters never quit.
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  And there I am and I right. Wow, someone else had a thought,
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  right? And they turned that thought
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  into words. I heard those words and I
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  processed them with every little might that I had as a young
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  little Mary Jo, right? And eventually those words
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  became part of my internal language.
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  No matter what I tried, no matter what I did, like if I
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  tried to play oboe right, the mouth was different than the
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  other's mouth. So it was, it was a harder like
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  force for air to come to the air.
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  Use that example. So it was just one of those
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  things where when I wanted to at 12 or 13, say I can't play this
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  thing, I heard my dad winners never win, Winters never quit.
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  So it was the will that I had to constantly keep moving forward.
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  And I believe today that was really important because many
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  thoughts running around inside of us started somebody else's
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  words and patterns and how they were going to project themselves
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  through life. So you could have heard them.
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  Maybe a parent, maybe a teacher, a constant something with the
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  teacher, a coach, a doctor, a commander, a minister, a
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  partner, a friend, right, an uncle, aunt, something, someone
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  says anything, you know. So let's say that my dad didn't
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  teach me the word. You can't, right?
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  But somebody kept saying to me as a child, well, you can't do
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  that because you don't know how. Well, you can't do that because
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  you don't know how to speak properly.
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  Well, you can't do that because you don't know how to read.
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  Well, you can't do that because you can't jump high enough.
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  Well, you can't do that because you're only 5, four.
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  And eventually then what would happen?
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  I would eventually say I just can't and I would be that person
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  as an adult saying no, I just can't.
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  So I praised my father for that. I was never an I can't person.
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  It's and I'm not sure I know how to yet.
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  I haven't developed the skills yet.
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  Everything's a yet. Maybe it didn't have the
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  experience. Maybe it didn't have the
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  instructions. Everything is a yet, but it's
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  not as yeah, I can do this. However I need some further
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  instructions. However at this time is not
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  going to allow me to do this, so I'll do it next week.
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  Do you see how every single word pattern I got around that word
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  can't? Does that make sense?
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  So when did like their language become my thought?
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  If somebody else said I couldn't, when would that have
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  happened? And when does when does my
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  repeated thought become something even stronger than
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  that? That's called belief.
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  Let's go through this. I'm going to bring in.
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  Remember, I tell you I always have a table when I do my
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  classrooms and I and I start pondering.
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  So the first chair I'm bringing into my table, her name is
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  Louise Hay. She gets a chair at my table.
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  Louise Hay became widely known for teachings involving
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  affirmations, self talk, emotional patterns and healing.
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  I really didn't learn by sitting down and reading all of Luis's
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  Hayes. Trust me.
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  I had a reading deficit, which meant I had scarring, which
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  means I am not, I'm not gonna just pick up a book even today
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  as an adult and read it. That's like the funniest thing.
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  People would give me stuff and I'm like, I don't read.
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  Do you have it in an audio or a or a documentary or?
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  I watch, I listen, I experience and I take a lot of notes.
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  So everything that I'm telling you about these philosophers are
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  pretty much Cliff notes or already experienced when
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  somebody goes, oh, that reminds me of Louise Hay and right here.
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  This is why I'm telling you this.
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  So I did not sit down and read Louise's hey books.
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  However, I know who she is. I have learned about her in
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  class. And so I learned through living
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  of the experience what that she was talking about.
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  And especially when other masters or teachers or even my
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  Cliff notes in my classroom doing my philosophies pointed
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  out by listening right classes, teachers watching, doing and
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  experiencing, I'll guarantee you could do the same thing when
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  somebody points it out, they're like, do you know, blah, blah,
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  blah. And you're like, no.
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  And then you encounter something like the Louise Hay thinking and
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  I was like, wait, I've experienced pieces of what she's
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  talking about. There it was.
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  So I'm not asking you to accept any claim attached to any of her
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  affirmations. I'm asking just something very
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  simple, which is if I continue to tell myself that I can't do
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  this, what happens to my behavior?
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  Do I walk through the door? Do I ask the questions or do I
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  attempt something unfamiliar? And do I even notice another
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  possibility? Now change one sentence.
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  I don't know how to do this yet. We just talked about it, right?
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  Change the words and then same situation, different language.
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  And then that language gives consciousness something
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  different to process. Then Nope, I can't and shut it
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  down right. I didn't have the word can't
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  meant because my father wouldn't allow us to use it.
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  However, I was always a can girl.
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  I can, I can. I got to find it.
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  I got to dig, even if I have to go to the library and research
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  it, right. My libraries weren't beautiful
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  computers like this today. They were Dewey decimals and it
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  took hours to research it. But when you finally figured it
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  out and you finally learned it, you're like, I can do it.
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  And it wasn't an empowering. It was so empowering as a child.
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  So yes, language gives consciousness something
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  different to process. And that's interesting to me
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  because we're going to move forward now and we're going to
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  go from thought to the language to a belief system.
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  And this one I love, because when does a thought then become
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  our belief? A thought isn't automatically a
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  belief. A thought can enter and
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  disappear, or I can return to it, repeat it, speak it and
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  attach experiences to it. I can also feel something when I
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  think it. And eventually, eventually I may
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  begin accepting that thought as truth.
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  Imagine that. So now we're we're going to,
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  we're going to move somewhere else.
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  So my question now is merely what am I thinking?
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  What am I thinking? And my why is, what did I do
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  with that thought after it arrived?
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  Did I repeat it? Did I speak about it?
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  Did I create an imagery around it?
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  Did I draw it out and try to think about that?
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  Did an emotion attach to it and did I begin making choices from
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  it? This goes back a little bit to
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  part. I don't think it was 1.
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  I came on with my sunglasses on. People couldn't figure out the
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  box, the label, they couldn't figure out the emotion.
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  They couldn't. This is part of this, that
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  thought, their thought went straight to the glasses, but
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  they couldn't have a box for marriage of studio glasses.
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  See what happened there? They created now a box because
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  now we're getting closer to understanding how thought
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  becomes power. So now, now we're how how far
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  are we in here? 25 minutes.
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  I got to take a break. So when we come back, I'm going
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  to give you one of the greatest parental backfires of my
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  childhood. I told you I was a handful as a
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  child and my poor mom and dad. But my backfire here is my mom
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  thought she was giving this beautiful young Mary Jo a
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  warning. Apparently this one turned it
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  into an entirely different belief system, and that teaches
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  us something very, very important.
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  I'm gonna leave you with what somebody intends to communicate
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  is not always the thought we received.
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  We'll be right back on that one because that's gonna be real
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  fun. You're listening to military
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  broadcast radio, and veterans always get to have a voice.
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  And on that station, this is my show, The World of Conscious
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  Positive Thinking. And we call it to Cap.
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  And I'm your host, MJ. And we're going to return right
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  after we hear some messages from Old Beaker Squeaker.
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  Every set back is just a setup for a comeback.
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  Keep quacking forward. 90% of what we worry about in future
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  never happens. Whenever things get rough or it
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  feels like you're at the edge, remember this.
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  Storms pass. Tough times don't last, but
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  tough people do. The station where our veterans
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  voices are heard. MBR talk.
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  Hey, thanks for supporting our channel by watching and
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  listening. All right, here we are.
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  Welcome back. So right before the break, we
• 27:36
  had that question. What somebody intends to
• 27:39
  communicate is not always the thought we receive.
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  All right, All right. So we have a thought.
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  We have language, and we're moving toward belief.
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  Now we need another word. I'm going to choose the word
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  interpretation. I love that word.
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  And apparently I need something to come up on the screen.
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  Now let me see how to do this. And I know Jewel's in the
• 28:14
  studio. He's going to help us.
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  So I'm going to try to put this up on the stage.
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  OK? And now I'm really tiny.
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  Well, he can fix it, but I want you to see this, this card here,
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  this, this right there. I want to show you this.
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  That is the fool, I guess. I apparently we need to put that
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  up because the fool, what was said isn't always what we
• 28:45
  received. My mother used to compare me.
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  Now before I do this, let me just give you an idea of little
• 28:53
  MJ 31 broken bones, seven major illnesses, infections and
• 28:59
  stitches. My body is like a railroad track
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  with scars. The guy singer would literally
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  call my mom and I had other brothers and sisters and my
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  mother would always say what did Mary Jo break scrap or do now
• 29:15
  always they loved me. Everybody knew every time the
• 29:18
  phone rang where she was in the OR there and she would be like
• 29:22
  what Mary Jo do now. She'd be surprised if it was one
• 29:25
  of my other brothers and sisters.
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  But she goes, truly, it never was.
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  She goes always see you. So if you don't know Tara, This
• 29:32
  is why I'm putting it on. This is the Tara card.
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  And let me explain the picture because this really matters.
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  The fool represents the beginning of a journey.
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  Traditionally we see a traveller moving forward, carrying very
• 29:47
  little, always approaching the edge of a Cliff.
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  There are positive meanings associated with the Fool.
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  Beginnings, openings, trust, possibility.
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  You can see them there on your screen and it's always moving
• 29:59
  into the unknown. Now there is also a warning
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  sitting right there in that picture.
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  See the warnings and that means when it's turned upside down.
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  So this I have to laugh because when you see the upside downs on
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  this day, let me just read it here.
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  It is recklessness, not naivety, foolishness, carelessness,
• 30:31
  boredom, stagnation. I really think that she wanted
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  this. And I laughed because I know
• 30:40
  what she was saying. You're the fool.
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  You're always stepping on. You had you're, you're always.
• 30:44
  Now she was right. I would try to do like, you
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  know, the high wire acts, except I would do them on the farm.
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  Pastures, barbed wire. I know as a kid, OK, As a kid, I
• 30:58
  had No Fear, literally No Fear. I would climb the highest tree
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  and see if I couldn't balance on a limb.
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  I, I know reckless, reckless, just reckless.
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  Or I would be on a Cliff walking the side and she'd be like the
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  fool. You just get down.
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  My poor mother. I'm surprised she didn't have a
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  heart attack with me because she is a mother who absolutely loves
• 31:24
  her kids and she would constantly just go marry Joe,
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  get down, marry, get down from there.
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  What are you doing now? It was a circus.
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  You ever see the little, the little round comic, the the
• 31:38
  family circus? Oh my gosh.
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  Like, I can laugh now and so can my mom.
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  But literally, she always compared me to that fool.
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  And what? And what you now realize is my
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  mother, it was probably meaning to me, stop jumping off the damn
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  bridge. Right.
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  How many times you're not jumping off the bridge because
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  everybody else is jumping off You don't, you know, look,
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  before you leave, watch what you're doing.
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  Come on, girl. Have some caution.
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  Get some pain, you know, get some fear in you.
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  Something. Because she was getting ready to
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  wait for that phone call. Yeah, but that young Mary Jo
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  actually received because of faith was such a huge part of my
• 32:23
  mom's teaching. My mom, from the time that we
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  were Christian, always taught us faith.
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  You must have faith. You have to keep moving forward.
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  Have faith to know that if a door shuts, a window opens, have
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  faith. No matter what you do, God's
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  going to be there. You must have the faith.
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  And my dad, quitters never win winners.
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  Never quit. Keep moving.
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  We cannot use the word. Can't.
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  So you see how the two philosophies my mother taught me
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  Faith. Keep.
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  Just keep moving. Go forward.
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  Have the faith. Have the faith.
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  Faith, faith, faith. My dad, quitters never win.
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  Winners never quit. And the word isn't you can't.
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  OK. And This is why I said I think
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  parental backfired realizations here.
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  And I was going through the classroom, one of the classroom
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  teachers go, you realize what they installed and then what how
• 33:24
  they tried to get through to you.
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  Because trust me, my mom used to be a broken record.
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  Get down, get down. Get down.
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  Get Mary Jo. Get that.
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  Mary Jo, get that. How many times can you say Mary
• 33:35
  Jo get down? And then it was get the hell
• 33:37
  down. And then she was like, you're
• 33:40
  just like that card that that Fool card.
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  Because she was at her wit's end.
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  Now let this one breathe in and laugh with it, folks.
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  OK? Because now keep looking at that
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  card. She meant for the upside down
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  Fool. This is why I'm telling you the
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  story. And I'm laughing today because I
• 34:01
  became aware of that whole scenario in my memory while
• 34:04
  putting this together. And this right here is why I'm
• 34:08
  telling you the story. My mother had a thought and she
• 34:12
  had an intention and a very demanding intention behind it
• 34:16
  because she wanted what I why ever I didn't have fear.
• 34:20
  She wanted to install it to protect me, to get it.
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  But her words, I didn't interpret her words.
• 34:29
  She had massive attention behind it, and she used language and
• 34:33
  imagery to communicate it. Look at that, the fool.
• 34:37
  It looks like someone's going to step off the edge, right?
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  I heard her. But sometimes, let's just face
• 34:44
  it, as a child, what are children generally here?
• 34:48
  Wah wah wah, right, That's what they hear.
• 34:54
  They hear the wop wops like Snoopy and the Peanuts, right?
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  The adult. However, I did listen because I
• 35:02
  told you I had a reading deficit.
• 35:04
  So my acuities for how I learned was by listening and I had I was
• 35:11
  very sharp and listening and I received the language.
• 35:15
  I understood the image, yet what she intended it was not
• 35:21
  necessarily what I interpreted. Now, why was that?
• 35:27
  Because I wasn't an empty box. I already had experiences.
• 35:32
  I already had meanings, I already had labels, and all of
• 35:37
  these things were by man telling me the word.
• 35:41
  After I experienced something, I was like Dora, the damn
• 35:44
  explorer. As a kid, I would lift up
• 35:47
  things. I would look at insects.
• 35:48
  And if it would bit me, you know, then I'd be mad at the
• 35:50
  insect. And mostly as a kid, I'd
• 35:52
  probably stop on the insect because it bit me or I'd kill
• 35:55
  it. And then I'd go home and I'd say
• 35:56
  this stupid bug that I killed, look, it bit me, my mother.
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  Well, what were you doing? Well, nothing.
• 36:02
  I was just pulling up rocks and, you know, by the crack.
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  Yeah. And most importantly, partly
• 36:10
  because my mother's own teaching, I already had faith.
• 36:16
  She embedded faith in me so much that it was just a bug bite.
• 36:23
  It wasn't anything more. It was just a bite.
• 36:25
  We'll keep moving on, right, Because I had the faith.
• 36:29
  That was the first teaching. So Mom's message and entered my
• 36:36
  consciousness and passed through something.
• 36:39
  Young Mary Jo already understood my mom's intentions, which was
• 36:45
  look where you're going. Except she taught me faith and
• 36:50
  my father taught me never to quit and keep moving forward.
• 36:54
  So what do I do? I just keep walking.
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  Think about that. She's she's telling me how do I
• 37:02
  get to this child? So she randomly says that I'm
• 37:06
  the fool, like that Major Arcana card is how she said it.
• 37:09
  And I go, the fool. She goes, yeah, you're right
• 37:11
  there off the Cliff. You're always walking on the
• 37:13
  edge of life, always at risk. And Bah, Bah, Bah.
• 37:15
  I said no, I just keep walking. Now the wire.
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  I figured she was telling me, yes, I have faith.
• 37:25
  Go, girl, keep moving. Go explore like Dora the
• 37:30
  Explorer, you know, go experience life.
• 37:34
  So how often does that really happen?
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  Let me take the full card down. Now let's see if I can do it.
• 37:42
  Here we go. There we go.
• 37:45
  Here we're back. OK, so how often does somebody
• 37:52
  actually say something believing they're communicating one
• 37:57
  thought and the person receives it something completely
• 38:01
  different and which thought becomes the belief and what they
• 38:11
  intended or or what I interpreted?
• 38:18
  Think about that. It happens a lot if you actually
• 38:22
  stop and ponder. You say something and somebody
• 38:25
  goes and does it tell you another quick story.
• 38:28
  I didn't know Spanish. Here's a great interpretation.
• 38:31
  All's I knew is that all of my a new law in Guatemala had come
• 38:34
  out and I needed to have a headshot of all my workers and
• 38:39
  to get them into the trade shows in the United States.
• 38:42
  I had to get like these little visa things and I had to have
• 38:46
  the head shots and whatever. So I did the best I could in
• 38:48
  trying to tell all the different varieties of people in Guatemala
• 38:54
  about I need a headshot. Well, however it was
• 38:57
  interpreted, however I use Google, I don't even know what I
• 39:00
  did. They feared me.
• 39:03
  They feared me because how I wrote it was next time I see
• 39:08
  you, we're going to get, we're going to take a headshot.
• 39:10
  But however, it was written in Spanish, said the next time I
• 39:13
  see you, I'm shooting your head off.
• 39:18
  Imagine these Guatemalan people when I when I'm like, oh, I'm
• 39:22
  coming next week. And they're like, you're scaring
• 39:24
  the shit out of people. And I go, what are you talking
• 39:26
  about? And one of the people who knew
• 39:28
  me, well, they're like MJ, dude, you really got to brush your
• 39:32
  either up on Spanish or put it in English and they'll try to
• 39:34
  interpret it. I go, what are you talking
• 39:36
  about? I would never threaten somebody
• 39:38
  like that. He goes, well, this is how you
• 39:41
  wrote. I don't remember what it said in
• 39:42
  Spanish. Well, that was like the biggest
• 39:45
  joke. Again, interpretation, right?
• 39:49
  Like of that. And I'm shooting everybody's
• 39:51
  heads off. You know, there's my mom.
• 39:53
  Get off that damn thing. Stop ticking on the bridges, you
• 39:55
  fool. On the fool.
• 39:57
  Oh, yeah. I'm just gonna keep going
• 39:58
  forward. I know the bridge.
• 39:59
  The bridge is an arc. I know.
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  Keep going. You see?
• 40:03
  How beautiful words by man label can interpret so much of our
• 40:08
  life by our own experiences. Now the message passes through
• 40:15
  us and we have to think about it.
• 40:17
  A parent says something to a child, a doctor says something
• 40:20
  to a patient, the commander says something to the airmen, a
• 40:25
  minister says something to its congregation, and a teacher says
• 40:29
  something to a student. And the speaker begins with a
• 40:34
  thought the the translation that that thought into language, and
• 40:41
  the listener hears the language. And then the listener processes
• 40:46
  those words through their own experience, labels, memories,
• 40:53
  imageries, emotions, beliefs, and others they trust.
• 41:02
  Think about today's newscast. Think about today's social
• 41:07
  media. What is happening right there?
• 41:11
  Interpretation. I beg everybody, before they get
• 41:16
  angry and before they start posting bullshit, can you please
• 41:21
  look up your facts? Because if somebody desperately
• 41:26
  wants something to happen, they're going to twist a
• 41:29
  narrative and their interpretation and their thought
• 41:32
  pattern, no matter what. It's human deliverance by man's
• 41:40
  labels and man's experiences. It's not trying to piss another
• 41:45
  person off. It's trying to say this is what
• 41:48
  I, you know, I took from it. Well, did you listen clearly?
• 41:51
  Did you see the facts beforehand?
• 41:52
  Were you missing some information?
• 41:55
  OK, This is the awareness center.
• 41:59
  So now what do they do now? It creates this interpretation
• 42:03
  now, creates a meaning. So communication may not be.
• 42:08
  I think I speak. You received my thought.
• 42:12
  Yeah, it may be. I think I translate my thought
• 42:17
  into words, and you hear those words and your consciousness
• 42:23
  interprets them through what you have already experienced or knew
• 42:29
  or know. So then you created your own
• 42:33
  interpretation for that meaning. Mind blow, right?
• 42:39
  Why would our mind do that? It's not an intention, it is
• 42:43
  filing the labels of the boxes of what we already know.
• 42:47
  And the minute you heard something your brain
• 42:50
  automatically went there it is. Bam.
• 42:53
  And everything else that was said disappeared.
• 42:59
  MJ with her glasses. There was no box inside of the
• 43:03
  brain why she would be wearing those glasses.
• 43:07
  And then that thought went nuts. Nope.
• 43:11
  Maybe hash eye infection. Maybe she has puffy eyes, maybe
• 43:13
  this, maybe that, maybe something.
• 43:14
  Bah Bah Bah Bah Bah Bah Bah. It was the awareness I think 4
• 43:20
  shows ago right before the show I was drinking coffee and I it
• 43:26
  was 2 minutes before the show. I literally spilt coffee all the
• 43:29
  way down the front of me and I joked around and said no.
• 43:34
  I said I have my my protective pillow today, not to allow
• 43:38
  anybody to be aware that I spilled coffee all the way down
• 43:40
  the shirt that you it was very obvious that I did it.
• 43:44
  And there's only one person who realized I was squeezing a
• 43:46
  pillow, maybe more, but only one said something.
• 43:52
  Again, the experience to interpretation to a belief
• 43:57
  system to now our boxes of labeling now it creates our
• 44:01
  meaning. Does that make sense for
• 44:02
  everybody? OK, so if that meaning gets
• 44:10
  repeated enough, spoken, pictured, felt, or it's acted
• 44:15
  upon, then what happens now? It may become just part of our
• 44:20
  belief system and that belief system.
• 44:24
  Now think how this works. You know it to be true because
• 44:27
  you heard it first hand. You, you're the one who knew
• 44:31
  because you heard it. The problem is, is what you
• 44:37
  heard or saw or read. Did you go back to actually find
• 44:42
  out if it was factual? Did you find out if it was
• 44:46
  truth? I do a lot of that.
• 44:48
  I get a thought in my head and I know that I didn't read it
• 44:51
  somewhere. I may have experienced it.
• 44:53
  Nope, may have no where is this going?
• 44:57
  Why did this thought come in my head and then I have to Google
• 45:00
  it or I have to research it to figure out, is this true?
• 45:05
  I don't say anything to anybody. I just do my my own due
• 45:08
  diligence, which I believe if more people did, they would be
• 45:12
  making slanderous comments or repetitive comments about
• 45:18
  others. They would find out for
• 45:20
  themselves if it's true. And if it's not true, why does
• 45:23
  it affect us such in a way where we're that angry?
• 45:28
  You're not dying. Nobody's dying.
• 45:30
  Stop it. Where's that?
• 45:33
  That's that's belief in patterns and that's belief of intentions.
• 45:37
  And that is word recognition. That is your thought.
• 45:41
  So yes, now that belief system is called your thoughts become
• 45:47
  your power. And here's the beautiful part of
• 45:50
  what I just discovered about Mom.
• 45:53
  Adult MJ doesn't have to tell little MJ you were wrong, little
• 45:59
  girl. That's not what she was saying.
• 46:02
  And I can explain that. I understood.
• 46:06
  I understood. Mom was teaching me.
• 46:09
  Can you please pay attention where young Mary Jo received it
• 46:13
  as how faith. I'm moving forward, I'm
• 46:16
  listening, I'm going. Do you see the humor today?
• 46:25
  I hold both. I have faith.
• 46:28
  I move forward and look where the hell we're walking, right?
• 46:35
  Where have we been? The ironicy of putting that
• 46:41
  whole connection. I haven't thought about that day
• 46:43
  in such a long time, but yet it popped in my classroom just for
• 46:47
  this. Isn't that fun, The thought?
• 46:50
  Because maybe awareness doesn't always destroy an old labeled
• 46:56
  box. Sometimes awareness just makes
• 47:00
  that box even bigger, right? Because my label was a positive,
• 47:06
  a new beginning, a new adventure.
• 47:08
  And here we go. And look at me with my little
• 47:10
  bag. And here I come.
• 47:13
  The fool walking on the Cliff. No, the fool going.
• 47:16
  Look at that down there. Look at that over there.
• 47:18
  Look at the world I can explore, right?
• 47:22
  Yeah. And guess what?
• 47:25
  Today, that's all I know so far. It's really, that's all I know.
• 47:30
  When you go through it going, why can't she just say it?
• 47:33
  And then if you think about it, she did.
• 47:35
  How many times did she say it and you were listening to womp,
• 47:39
  womp, womp. But then she brings out
• 47:41
  something that completely out-of-the-box and my mind went
• 47:45
  hurt my dad, hurt my mom. Faith, go forward Faith.
• 47:49
  Yes, you can. Cutters don't work.
• 47:52
  That installation made me who I am today, but I'm very thankful
• 47:57
  for it. I love that little girl inside
• 48:00
  that. I love that little Dora Explorer
• 48:01
  girl because without her curiosity and without her
• 48:08
  wanting to experience everything she could possibly experience, I
• 48:13
  wouldn't be who I am today if I think about it, right.
• 48:18
  So imagery, imagery, imagery. How do you see the Fool, Right.
• 48:25
  How did I see that card just now upside down or moving forward
• 48:30
  and notice what just happened there?
• 48:32
  I described the Fool to those who didn't really know what that
• 48:36
  card was. And if you look at it, oh, look,
• 48:38
  they're traveling. They're having a journey.
• 48:40
  They're right there on the Cliff.
• 48:42
  You know, when I looked at that and experiencing Arizona's, you
• 48:45
  know, the the Grand Canyon, I was like, well, of course you're
• 48:48
  always on the edge and you look over it.
• 48:50
  When you're climbing the mountains and you're looking
• 48:51
  over the thing, you're always on the edge.
• 48:53
  So growing up in the mountains and you would climb to the top
• 48:57
  of the mountain, you're right there on the edge overlooking
• 48:59
  the beauty. Think of that, Ironicy.
• 49:04
  Yeah. So you see how my interpretation
• 49:09
  as a child really wasn't what my mom kind of was a backfire, but
• 49:14
  it was a backfire for good because she reinstalled what I
• 49:17
  already was doing. She reinstalled it.
• 49:20
  Keep going and my mom is probably listening going.
• 49:25
  Oh my God, that is not what I said.
• 49:27
  I is I I told you to get the hell down from there.
• 49:31
  Every time you turn around, you're falling out of trees,
• 49:33
  you're breaking your bones. It get down.
• 49:35
  I understand as a mom today in my mature, beautiful mji
• 49:41
  completely get that 100% get that.
• 49:44
  So you were able to put pieces together because those words
• 49:50
  already carry meaning for you. Last week we talked about how
• 49:56
  consistency and experience create labels in our boxes that
• 50:02
  we store in our brain. Right label box, label box,
• 50:06
  label box, O box, category box, category box, oh, category
• 50:10
  divide, category divide, category divide, right.
• 50:13
  That is man installing labels, increasing the patterns of the
• 50:18
  boxes for categories and division.
• 50:22
  So again, last week talking about how consistency and
• 50:26
  experience created labels and boxes.
• 50:28
  If a word has absolutely no meaning to me, I can't
• 50:32
  automatically create the same familiar picture from that that
• 50:37
  you can. Because if you experienced
• 50:40
  something and I didn't, you already have your imagery, you
• 50:44
  already have your box, you already have that knowledge,
• 50:47
  that experience. But if Dora the Explorer hasn't
• 50:50
  experienced it yet and you're telling her something and she
• 50:54
  gets to that apex of a crossroad and you experience going left,
• 50:58
  she was like, oh, but what's to the right?
• 51:01
  Well, I don't know, but I went left.
• 51:03
  I know. But what's to the right?
• 51:05
  If you experience that and this happened, what's on the right?
• 51:09
  That was me, that girl. Good.
• 51:14
  You take that experience because I can listen and I can hear your
• 51:17
  experience. And now I can put that in my
• 51:19
  filter of my brain. But let me go this way.
• 51:21
  Maybe we can encourage and enrich whatever boxes and enrich
• 51:26
  the the labels and enrich whatever knowledge and
• 51:29
  experience. Yeah.
• 51:31
  I would be MJ, always outside the box, always taking the other
• 51:35
  way. Always, Always.
• 51:38
  I just say always. I did.
• 51:40
  That's a good word. It's true though.
• 51:42
  Sometimes I have to hear my words and I go wait.
• 51:44
  Always. Yeah, but that is always me.
• 51:46
  It is always taken another way. And everything I have ever done,
• 51:52
  I came out of the boxes. I didn't.
• 51:54
  I don't like the swamp boxes of man.
• 51:56
  I don't. I love to be with man, but I
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  like to be on the outside because I get to experience
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  something different. So if a word has no meaning to
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  me, I can't automatically create the same familiar picture from
• 52:11
  it. If that, if, if you understand
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  that, if that is what you can. So I'm, I'm not, I'm not asking
• 52:21
  which came first thought or image, right?
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  Because we've already traveled further than that.
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  What I'm asking is what happens when language gives our
• 52:34
  imagination centers something to work with.
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  Now we have a picture with words, with imagery, with
• 52:45
  conscious. Now we have another one of my
• 52:49
  beautiful mind powers, the imagination center, right?
• 52:52
  That's what it's creating. That image now creates the
• 52:55
  imagination. And once imagination creates
• 52:58
  that picture, what happens if we just keep returning to it?
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  What happens if we add emotion to it?
• 53:06
  Now we have a picture and emotion.
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  Wait, let's think about that. Or what happens if we believe
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  it? Do we believe in what just
• 53:13
  happened? Do we believe in that image?
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  What happens if we begin moving toward it?
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  Well, OK, well, let's experience it.
• 53:21
  And now our thought isn't sitting by itself anymore,
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  right? Yeah.
• 53:30
  So in this part now, now that we have this and we're now in this
• 53:37
  thinking process and we're pondering and well, she's right.
• 53:39
  What where's where's this going? What's happening here?
• 53:43
  What is what is really happening?
• 53:46
  What box am I in? What imagery am I seeing?
• 53:48
  Who gave me this imagery? Did I experience the imagery?
• 53:51
  Did I think it did? Man, that is that is welcome to
• 53:54
  M JS life. Every word is dissect.
• 53:58
  Every event is dissect. That's how my brain works.
• 54:03
  Everything is a dissection. So This is why I, I, this is
• 54:10
  exactly why Pink. I don't know if you know the
• 54:12
  artist Pink, she's a singer. Her song I have repetitively
• 54:18
  played and sang to the top of my lungs.
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  That is all I know so far. It is.
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  If you never heard it, pick it up.
• 54:28
  Maybe it help you because it just keeps returning while we
• 54:34
  keep working with this episode. That's all I know.
• 54:37
  I don't know anymore. In the classroom, they kept
• 54:38
  going. MJ, go.
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  I don't know. I don't know where that took me.
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  I just had the thought and the thought became this.
• 54:43
  And then we looked it up. This was this.
• 54:45
  But I don't. That's all I know.
• 54:48
  Yeah. There's one belief line that
• 54:51
  matters to this teaching so much inside of her lyrics.
• 54:56
  One of those which brings me back to my mother and her faith.
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  Let the wall crack because it lets the light in.
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  I showed you the Divine Mercy. Let my chest open.
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  You'll see my light. Yeah, it's dark.
• 55:14
  But when I open it, what was coming out?
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  My heart right. Let those walls crack because it
• 55:20
  lets the light in. There it is again.
• 55:23
  So there. You don't need to know the song.
• 55:27
  Now you have an image, you have a wall and all of a sudden on
• 55:33
  the side of the wall is the outside.
• 55:35
  And now that wall has a crack and now you can see light
• 55:38
  through the crack. So you know that crack's pretty
• 55:40
  deep through the wall. You don't even now you, you just
• 55:43
  have that image coming in with those light, those beams of
• 55:45
  light coming in that crack. Or think of when you're sleeping
• 55:49
  and you close your curtains, but there's a crack near the window
• 55:53
  of the curtain and your circadian rhythm goes, hey, it's
• 55:57
  light out. Get up, baby boy.
• 55:59
  Get up, baby girl. So now we have this image.
• 56:02
  Really have this image. So that line, when you see that,
• 56:11
  it is like you don't need a whole wall to collapse to know
• 56:18
  that there's something coming in, right?
• 56:22
  You already know that there's light, and if we crack any more,
• 56:26
  we might be, we might be just destroying the whole wall.
• 56:31
  You already saw the crack, right?
• 56:34
  You don't need the whole wall to collapse on you.
• 56:37
  The crack allows you to see something you couldn't see
• 56:40
  before. Does that make sense?
• 56:43
  That right there. Hold on to that.
• 56:46
  That is the awareness connection.
• 56:49
  I'm well aware that wall has a crack, and I'm well aware it's
• 56:52
  deep because I'm well aware. I see that shining light, and
• 56:56
  that's telling me something, right?
• 57:01
  And what is the name of that song?
• 57:05
  The song's title? That's all I know.
• 57:09
  The wall's cracked, it's deep and there's light coming
• 57:11
  through. That's all I know so far.
• 57:15
  I saw something through the crack.
• 57:17
  I became aware, get it? That doesn't mean that I
• 57:23
  suddenly possess the entire answer and nor do you, right?
• 57:28
  It's impossible. Impossible.
• 57:30
  Well, for me right now, there's a lot of that's all I knows.
• 57:35
  That's all I know so far. I I don't know, but I got this
• 57:39
  far just like last week with Jung and Freud.
• 57:43
  Freud made a map. Jung made a map.
• 57:46
  Maslow made a map. Skinner made a map.
• 57:49
  See how that worked? Every foundation builds a map,
• 57:55
  and every foundation builds another, evolving to be.
• 58:04
  That's why I like philosophy. It's not right or it's not
• 58:08
  wrong. It's an experience.
• 58:11
  It's a thought. And if it works, great.
• 58:17
  If it doesn't, you're no better off than where you were, right?
• 58:23
  So here we go again. That's all I know so far.
• 58:29
  I saw a crack, became aware. That doesn't mean that I
• 58:33
  suddenly possess an entire answer.
• 58:34
  Maybe tomorrow another crack appears.
• 58:37
  Maybe more light gets through tomorrow.
• 58:39
  Maybe more light gets through today.
• 58:41
  Maybe something I believe expands and maybe I discover
• 58:44
  that something I thought I understood needs another look.
• 58:51
  And all I can say, that's all I know so far.
• 58:54
  That's all anybody can say. This is where the point I reach.
• 59:00
  So experience can come way before understanding.
• 59:06
  And now we're going somewhere really deep.
• 59:08
  Because when I look back over my own life, I see something
• 59:15
  repetitive always with me. Because I didn't read.
• 59:20
  Experience came first, then my awareness, then the questions,
• 59:27
  then the patterns, then understanding, and eventually my
• 59:33
  intention and conscious choice of what to do next.
• 59:38
  That wasn't how I would have described it when I was young.
• 59:44
  You know, young MJ wasn't walking around analyzing
• 59:47
  consciousness and choices and interpretation and labeled
• 59:49
  boxes. Trust me, I was not.
• 59:52
  I was too busy getting bit by whatever insect was underneath
• 59:55
  the rock. I was too busy climbing trees
• 59:58
  and mountains and and just exploring life experience.
• 1:00:05
  She wasn't walking into another event and then another, then
• 1:00:08
  another, then another, and then here we go.
• 1:00:10
  So, you know, here, that was just who I was.
• 1:00:13
  I experienced I had an event and experienced I had an event and I
• 1:00:16
  experienced I had an event and I experienced I had an event.
• 1:00:18
  See what I'm saying? It was the merry go round, the
• 1:00:23
  merry go round and round. It truly was.
• 1:00:28
  And over time, those experiences gave me what I call markers,
• 1:00:35
  right? So when you see something, every
• 1:00:40
  time I picked up a rock, I got bit.
• 1:00:42
  Well, that was OK, because it's just that guy.
• 1:00:44
  And then a little bit later I picked up a rock, I got bit, and
• 1:00:46
  I was like, Nah, well, that was just that spider.
• 1:00:48
  I picked up a rock and I got bit again.
• 1:00:50
  Well, that was that. Helgermite, At what point did I
• 1:00:56
  stop lifting rocks? Today, when I'm on the mountain,
• 1:00:59
  I actually have a hook. And now I take a hook.
• 1:01:03
  I pull the rock back if I want the rock for whatever decoration
• 1:01:07
  or whatever I'm doing in my right.
• 1:01:09
  But I know that now, 'cause I learned it.
• 1:01:13
  There could be copperheads, there could be pilgrimites,
• 1:01:15
  there could be, you know, silverfish, there could be
• 1:01:19
  whatever, right? This is a realization that has
• 1:01:24
  to happen through events. Once you experience something,
• 1:01:30
  your mind starts saying, MMM, well that hurt, let's not try
• 1:01:34
  that again, right? But as a kid, that mind center,
• 1:01:39
  that frontal lobe, that it wasn't there.
• 1:01:42
  So I had to experience all these things.
• 1:01:44
  I don't regret any part of my childhood.
• 1:01:45
  I don't really regret. Even I don't, I don't have a
• 1:01:48
  regret. These are learned experiences
• 1:01:51
  that has enriched my life so much that today I'm here talking
• 1:01:57
  to you and I'm writing philosophy books about
• 1:02:00
  conscious. If I didn't live it, I couldn't
• 1:02:04
  be sitting here. Does that make sense?
• 1:02:08
  There are so many aha moments in writing this episode.
• 1:02:12
  And sadly, the panic because all this was written maybe about two
• 1:02:17
  or three months ago and I went to change something because I
• 1:02:21
  had an awareness and I was like, oh, this really needs to go into
• 1:02:24
  this podcast. I went to delete a paragraph and
• 1:02:28
  it deleted the whole classroom, the whole book, the whole
• 1:02:31
  producers know everything. It it I Friday and Saturday was
• 1:02:37
  going nuts trying to put this show back together, that
• 1:02:43
  realization. And finally, it was my husband
• 1:02:50
  and the classroom teacher saying, this is all your words,
• 1:02:54
  you already lived it, you already know it.
• 1:02:57
  Get the outline, fill it in. Why are you panicking?
• 1:03:01
  Right, because the events were experiences for me to undergo,
• 1:03:06
  live, understand and process. They're my events.
• 1:03:10
  They're my truth. Nobody can take my past away
• 1:03:14
  from me. My earned living events and
• 1:03:17
  experiences from me, They're all mine.
• 1:03:20
  You have yours, right? Your events as a child or a
• 1:03:24
  teenager or early lessons in adulthood, they're your learned
• 1:03:29
  practice lessons for maybe someday that you, why you learn
• 1:03:32
  them is your aha moment. So I just had to breathe, calm
• 1:03:37
  down, put on my music. Everything's going to be all
• 1:03:40
  right. You're gonna be all right.
• 1:03:43
  I have enough material. Like I had to tell myself I
• 1:03:47
  couldn't just give up and say no, I'm taking a radio day.
• 1:03:50
  No, it was a series. So did each new health event in
• 1:03:56
  my shake some of my boxes, 'cause I had a lot of health
• 1:03:59
  events, I had to write them. Did it re establish old fear
• 1:04:05
  markers? Did it break 1?
• 1:04:09
  Right. These are patterns.
• 1:04:12
  These are patterns I had to look at and did everything that I
• 1:04:16
  learned before the event give me something different when that
• 1:04:19
  next event arrived. Yeah, I just told you I don't
• 1:04:22
  pick up rocks anymore and I have a hook.
• 1:04:25
  I put the hook on one side of the rock and pull back to see
• 1:04:27
  what's underneath that. Same as logs, right, 'cause
• 1:04:30
  we're always having fires. Any logs that are in the forest
• 1:04:33
  that have been there and rotting and dried, I'm not picking it
• 1:04:36
  up. I'll take a hook and I'll push
• 1:04:38
  it with a hook, right? Or I'll push it with my foot to
• 1:04:41
  see what's under it. Maybe there's fire ants, maybe
• 1:04:43
  there's termites. Maybe I don't know why you
• 1:04:46
  getting bit again? I got bit enough, right?
• 1:04:50
  You don't have to put that wet brick across my head again.
• 1:04:52
  I I understood it. So that's important in your
• 1:04:57
  healing story. It's it gets really important
• 1:05:00
  because you find these patterns. You're like, no, no, no, no, no.
• 1:05:03
  Let's let's think about this, right?
• 1:05:06
  I'm not gonna, I'm not walking on any limb anymore.
• 1:05:08
  Those broken bones hurt, right? I think the final limb that I
• 1:05:12
  was on, I think was the crack in my my neck.
• 1:05:17
  I was done. I was done balancing.
• 1:05:20
  I realized maybe the high wire balance in the neck wasn't for
• 1:05:23
  me at some point and we had to move on.
• 1:05:26
  But those healing stories, those stories allow us our experience,
• 1:05:30
  allow us our events and allow us to have a further base
• 1:05:34
  knowledge. And that's important.
• 1:05:36
  So because perhaps every event wasn't simply something that
• 1:05:41
  happened just to me. It was something that I had to
• 1:05:45
  learn or undergo or witness or be part of.
• 1:05:49
  I had to live it. I had to process it, and I had
• 1:05:51
  to understand it. And then the next experience
• 1:05:54
  that a person carrying everything that she learned from
• 1:05:58
  the experience before it, right? That's how I Live Today.
• 1:06:01
  Well, I've already experienced this, and here it is again.
• 1:06:03
  It's a pattern. Why is this a pattern?
• 1:06:05
  Well, I already know what to do. I know if fire gets out of
• 1:06:08
  control and it starts burning underneath the barrel into the
• 1:06:11
  grass, I know I have to either by get water or stamp it out.
• 1:06:16
  Learned, I'm going to have a massive fire.
• 1:06:20
  These are all learned patterns that we go through.
• 1:06:23
  I hope that makes sense because now we're going to move from a
• 1:06:26
  thought and belief into experience.
• 1:06:32
  What happens when life gives us another event?
• 1:06:40
  Does it shake the same box? Does it create fear?
• 1:06:49
  Or does everything we've experienced and learned give us
• 1:06:53
  a different way to meet it? Folks, when we come back, I'm
• 1:06:58
  going to take you into my second near death experience of my
• 1:07:01
  lifetime was in 2015. Because that event changed what
• 1:07:06
  I consciously chose to do. I made a decision.
• 1:07:14
  You're listening to military broadcast radio.
• 1:07:16
  My name is MJ, and on this beautiful station, my show is
• 1:07:19
  called The World of Conscious Positive Thinking, and we call
• 1:07:23
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• 1:07:26
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• 1:07:31
  of all, start whenever things get rough or it feels like
• 1:07:35
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• 1:07:39
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• 1:07:43
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• 1:07:54
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• 1:07:58
  Oh, welcome back. Welcome back.
• 1:08:01
  OK, remember why I'm telling the story.
• 1:08:06
  This isn't this isn't going to be a medical history lesson.
• 1:08:10
  And we're looking at one very specific path here.
• 1:08:15
  An event happened. My truth of my experience, the
• 1:08:20
  thought after it, the awareness that hit me, the intention after
• 1:08:25
  the awareness than my choice that I made to claim my action.
• 1:08:31
  OK and 2015 I was now on because of all my surgeries and
• 1:08:41
  autoimmunes and my double mastectomies and my kidney
• 1:08:45
  failures and my thyroid failing and my liver failing.
• 1:08:48
  I was my body was failing. The medical put me on all this
• 1:08:55
  different medications from urology to hepatologies to
• 1:08:58
  hematologies to oncologies to I was on, I'm not kidding, my it
• 1:09:06
  had to be at least 18 inches by at least 12.
• 1:09:11
  That was my pill box, 12 different big pharmaceutical
• 1:09:16
  drugs and probably another 10 herb, vitamin, mineral
• 1:09:23
  supplements. It was a lot it, it felt like
• 1:09:28
  that's all I ever did was take pills and and set my clocks and
• 1:09:31
  set my reminders in my phone for this pill, that pill.
• 1:09:35
  It was crazy, crazy. One morning I woke up and as
• 1:09:44
  soon as I opened up my eyes I felt floaty.
• 1:09:50
  It was really a weird experience and yet my body felt numb, very
• 1:09:56
  numb. I go to get up and I didn't
• 1:10:00
  really feel like I used muscles to get it was a The experience
• 1:10:04
  was I almost came like off my body.
• 1:10:08
  That's how I felt. And somehow or another I felt
• 1:10:14
  like I just cascaded and it was like an air.
• 1:10:18
  I felt like this thin again, thin, desirable air, this bluey
• 1:10:26
  late air. And I walked from my bedroom,
• 1:10:31
  down my one hallway, down the other hallway, into the kitchen,
• 1:10:35
  into the dining room because I felt like my heart was just not
• 1:10:43
  even beating. There was something wrong.
• 1:10:46
  There was I, I, I didn't, I couldn't figure it out, but I
• 1:10:51
  knew that I had to get to the table because my medicines were
• 1:10:54
  on the table. My, my, my O2 sensor was on the
• 1:10:59
  table. My blood pressure cuff was on
• 1:11:01
  the table. My blood sugar was on the table.
• 1:11:03
  My EKG monitor things were on. Everything was on the dining
• 1:11:08
  room table at this part because I could roll my wheelchair up
• 1:11:11
  into the dining room table. To be walking in a dream state
• 1:11:19
  and afloat, it was awful. I couldn't, I couldn't figure
• 1:11:27
  out what the hell was happening. I knew that I was thirsty.
• 1:11:33
  It was the only thing that I was like dying of thirst somehow.
• 1:11:42
  I remember drinking like a 36 ounce bottle of water and that
• 1:11:50
  was all I remember. And then I remember being in my
• 1:11:56
  mind just it went dark. I don't remember anything after
• 1:12:03
  that. I don't remember times but I do
• 1:12:07
  know I woke up and when I woke up on the table the time read
• 1:12:14
  1111. A number always sat with me for
• 1:12:18
  the rest of my life. I woke up very confused.
• 1:12:26
  I was I was looking at all the things on the table.
• 1:12:35
  My blood pressure said 78 / 56. When I looked at my blood sugar
• 1:12:42
  'cause I saw that I had obviously taken it.
• 1:12:44
  My blood sugar was 510, my pulse ox, my pulse ox red 90, and my
• 1:12:56
  heart rate on my blood pressure cuff said 55, and the warnings
• 1:13:01
  on my blood pressure cuff were coming off.
• 1:13:03
  It was sirening. As I woke up, I was fit.
• 1:13:09
  Like I said, I was face down on my dining room table and the
• 1:13:14
  only thing that I remember is air.
• 1:13:21
  Air, thin, light, favorable. How it looked, how it was.
• 1:13:29
  I wasn't consciously mapping my lifetime air patterns at the
• 1:13:34
  moment. It was why it was happening, and
• 1:13:39
  air became now a consciousness of mine.
• 1:13:44
  The experience came first. When I came through that health
• 1:13:52
  event, I had information and when I came through, I had all
• 1:14:01
  of my medical information. I had all my lived experiences.
• 1:14:06
  I had years of learning, and I had a decision to make about how
• 1:14:14
  I wanted to move forward. This was 2015.
• 1:14:18
  My injury in the military was 1987, late 87, but actually most
• 1:14:25
  of it was 88. The shot happened in 87, but
• 1:14:27
  everything happened in 88. Year after year, on meds.
• 1:14:32
  Another Med, Another Med. Another Med, another Med.
• 1:14:35
  Yeah. And now it's 2015.
• 1:14:40
  And now all of these meds, One increased my A1C1, increased
• 1:14:51
  fatty liver, one increased stenosis of my kidney, one
• 1:14:56
  increased my heart erythematically. 1 increased
• 1:15:01
  thyroid disease. You ever see the the
• 1:15:06
  commercials? Well, you have eczema and this
• 1:15:13
  new prescription blah blah blah. And look, now you can wear your
• 1:15:16
  swimsuit, you can wear your clothes because now your skin
• 1:15:19
  rash, you won't everybody will see your skin rash.
• 1:15:21
  However, it can cause kidney failure, it can cause liver
• 1:15:24
  dysfunction, it can cause you to vomit and have diarrhea.
• 1:15:26
  It can cause headache, blindness, and it can cause
• 1:15:29
  sexual. And you're like all's I had was
• 1:15:34
  a skin rash. Come on, The humor.
• 1:15:44
  The humor of the audacity of our ego.
• 1:15:52
  It's like I am so vain about my rash that I'm going to cause
• 1:15:58
  every other organ in my body, OK?
• 1:16:02
  I can't. I couldn't.
• 1:16:06
  I, I couldn't. I could not do it anymore.
• 1:16:10
  And that decision, how to move forward happened right there
• 1:16:15
  that day. That day at that time, like I
• 1:16:21
  told you, there was 24 big pharmacy meds and my functions
• 1:16:25
  would be failing and they would send me to another doctor and
• 1:16:30
  they would put me on another Med and they send me to another
• 1:16:32
  doctor and put me on another Med.
• 1:16:33
  Who's that sound like out there, folks?
• 1:16:37
  I did not want to wake up the next morning and throw my
• 1:16:40
  medications away. I did not.
• 1:16:42
  That is not what happened and I'm not telling you to do this.
• 1:16:46
  I'm telling you this is my experience and I am forewarning
• 1:16:49
  you. Don't do it unless you
• 1:16:52
  understand. My healing process unfolded
• 1:16:56
  carefully over approximately 16 months to come off of all this
• 1:17:00
  medicine. What changed was the direction
• 1:17:04
  of my thought. I knew I need to go another way
• 1:17:11
  because if the shot of Big Pharmacy didn't kill me, this
• 1:17:16
  medicine is killing me slowly. Remember, I was very athletic,
• 1:17:25
  Very until they put me in a wheelchair by a shot.
• 1:17:31
  My audacity and my faith to keep forward, that was that was
• 1:17:34
  implemented. Keep forward, have faith, keep
• 1:17:37
  moving, don't quit. That was really good that
• 1:17:42
  installed such a will, such a faith and such a beautiful
• 1:17:52
  awareness now didn't know it at the time, but I didn't have
• 1:17:58
  fear. I never, I actually had to ask
• 1:18:02
  my grandmaster. I don't have fear.
• 1:18:03
  And she says you do. I said I do, please explain.
• 1:18:08
  She said you do. You fear trust.
• 1:18:10
  And I started smiling. Out of all the men who cheated
• 1:18:15
  on me in my whole entire life, out of the friends who I thought
• 1:18:18
  were friends who abused me, they destroyed my heart.
• 1:18:23
  Trust. She was right.
• 1:18:27
  I feared. I feared it or Ozzy.
• 1:18:32
  I had to build a man wall and he he knocked it down.
• 1:18:36
  He knew about it because I told him flat out I don't trust men
• 1:18:40
  and that men I'd notice I didn't say man, that's men.
• 1:18:44
  I never trusted them and I always had an issue trusting
• 1:18:47
  them. I allowed to work with them.
• 1:18:52
  I enjoyed fishing, I enjoyed hunting.
• 1:18:55
  I enjoyed these things, but I would never let them close to my
• 1:18:58
  heart ever again. That was a trust issue.
• 1:19:04
  Getting off the subject, you start to recognize little
• 1:19:08
  patterns and when you start recognize these, we got to get
• 1:19:12
  them to go away because it could be an old belief system, it
• 1:19:17
  could be an old pattern, or you could have said what was my part
• 1:19:20
  in that? And now we have a balance.
• 1:19:24
  So with my medicine, I need to go another way.
• 1:19:29
  I knew it. There was just something there.
• 1:19:33
  That thought became my intention, and intention
• 1:19:37
  influenced my choice, and my choice influenced my actions,
• 1:19:42
  and actions became part of then my healing process, one pill at
• 1:19:49
  a time. Through all, I didn't just
• 1:19:52
  choose one thing. No, ha ha.
• 1:19:55
  There was acupuncture, there were spiritual surgeries, there
• 1:19:57
  was Reiki, there was Chinese medicines.
• 1:20:01
  There was the salt cave, There was infrareds.
• 1:20:04
  There was energetic frequency patterns going through my body.
• 1:20:08
  There was plasma energies. There was light therapies, there
• 1:20:12
  was cognitive therapies. I had more holistic Eastern
• 1:20:16
  traditional medicines and alternative medicines and
• 1:20:20
  miscellaneous medicines than you could shake a stick at.
• 1:20:24
  And lymphatic drainages, I every week I would have massages with
• 1:20:28
  lymphatic drainages, getting the energies out of my body.
• 1:20:31
  I would have Reikis, I would have acupuncture.
• 1:20:35
  I did a world of stuff, a world of it to come off all of those
• 1:20:40
  medications, event experience, thought awareness and tension,
• 1:20:54
  choice, action. That's why this particular near
• 1:21:01
  death experience belongs in my show today.
• 1:21:04
  I'm not telling you think positively and your illnesses
• 1:21:07
  disappear. That that's quite not it.
• 1:21:09
  You have to find the frequency that blast the illness.
• 1:21:12
  You have to find the vibrational codes that blast that.
• 1:21:14
  You have to figure out your pain bodies.
• 1:21:16
  You have to use affirmations to keep a high positive
• 1:21:21
  consciousness. And I'm telling you something I
• 1:21:24
  actually experienced. It was a change in thought,
• 1:21:29
  changed what I did next. And that is one way that I
• 1:21:37
  understand your thought becomes your power.
• 1:21:45
  Did everything I learned participate?
• 1:21:50
  And now I have another. Why?
• 1:21:53
  Let's ponder on that one. So over my lifetime, I
• 1:21:57
  accumulated practices and experiences, right?
• 1:22:01
  Prayer, breathing, Reiki, meditation, energy work, faith,
• 1:22:06
  visualization, therapies of red lights, therapies of music,
• 1:22:10
  therapies of vibrational decoding, visualizing that
• 1:22:14
  having the the teachers and western diagnostic testings OK.
• 1:22:20
  I will always always always use western diagnostic testing
• 1:22:25
  because it tells me what is wrong with me.
• 1:22:28
  It diagnosis me different ways of understanding my body and
• 1:22:34
  different ways of understanding consciousness.
• 1:22:40
  Reiki Thursday became a very pivotal part of my life before
• 1:22:45
  all this, so I started having Ozzy used to love.
• 1:22:53
  I was I was still in my businesses in 2009.
• 1:23:00
  I had the sportsman's addiction business at the time and I was
• 1:23:03
  doing fishing and hunting all over the world.
• 1:23:05
  I was still in that industry when I met with up with Ozzy and
• 1:23:09
  when he met me, his day was like on a Thursday was always the
• 1:23:13
  slowest day. And I said like, I can't, that's
• 1:23:15
  my Reiki Thursday. He goes, well, can't you change
• 1:23:17
  it? I said, what?
• 1:23:20
  No, I can't. I can't change it.
• 1:23:25
  There was no way that I was going to change something that
• 1:23:27
  made me so freaking happy. There was just no way.
• 1:23:30
  And not only did it make me happy, it really gave me a
• 1:23:35
  better thought process. It, it gave me a new awareness,
• 1:23:42
  a new thought, a new everything because those Reiki Thursdays
• 1:23:49
  became my time. My kids were with their dad.
• 1:23:53
  And this is now I need to just let my brain go.
• 1:23:57
  I need to stop because my brain doesn't stop.
• 1:24:01
  And so those practices was extremely important for myself
• 1:24:04
  health and myself health was extremely important to know that
• 1:24:11
  I needed that break. So naturally knowing that I had
• 1:24:16
  these on Reiki Thursdays, this is where you can talk about how
• 1:24:22
  these things accumulate over time.
• 1:24:25
  I had was doing Reiki Thursdays before I was even a
• 1:24:28
  practitioner. I just knew that my
• 1:24:31
  hairdresser's twin brother, Doctor Scott, was a certified
• 1:24:36
  Reiki therapist. And I was like, Oh my God, I
• 1:24:40
  need this. I need to let go of my, you
• 1:24:42
  know, everything, my energies. I, I just, that sounds awesome.
• 1:24:46
  And the very first time I did one, I was hooked.
• 1:24:49
  I was hooked. But I needed that time.
• 1:24:52
  I wanted that two hours every Thursday.
• 1:24:54
  I didn't care. I wanted it.
• 1:24:56
  I wanted the half hour before talking with him.
• 1:24:58
  I wanted the hour of his services or however long.
• 1:25:00
  And I wanted that time afterwards because it took me
• 1:25:04
  out of my everyday rigidness. And at that point, because I
• 1:25:09
  owned my own business, I worked seven days a week with getting
• 1:25:13
  these high fluential people with money to their destinations in
• 1:25:17
  fishing and hunting. So Reiki Thursdays were always
• 1:25:21
  there. My breathing, well, you know
• 1:25:24
  what? My breathing.
• 1:25:25
  And I started, I told you about air, air, air, air.
• 1:25:28
  So my air was an issue when I had chicken pox as a kid.
• 1:25:34
  It was an issue when I had high fevers.
• 1:25:39
  And then I go into seven. I was seven years old,
• 1:25:42
  skateboarding with my friend Nancy.
• 1:25:44
  I remember falling so hard on my coxus that I lost the air.
• 1:25:51
  I couldn't scream for help. I could see I was at the corner,
• 1:25:55
  I could see my mom's house, but I couldn't ask for help and
• 1:25:58
  there was no air. And there I sat rolling and
• 1:26:01
  rolling and rolling on the on the street air, air, breathing
• 1:26:08
  and then stupidness. In middle school, there was a
• 1:26:11
  fad going around like a hazing fad at the time where you would
• 1:26:15
  take all these big deep breaths rapidly, rapidly.
• 1:26:18
  And then somebody, most of the time it was one of the football
• 1:26:21
  players. They would come and they'd
• 1:26:22
  squeeze you from behind. They thought it was funny
• 1:26:25
  because people would, you know, fall.
• 1:26:27
  They would dig in the ground like a dog or a cat.
• 1:26:30
  And they, they the minds of children.
• 1:26:35
  I understand my mom's probably going, oh, my God, I know.
• 1:26:40
  I remember when it was done to me, I was the last one.
• 1:26:44
  It was right before we got all called in because the cafeteria
• 1:26:47
  and then you stepped out. But the actual school then was
• 1:26:50
  this way. And I remember I was the last
• 1:26:55
  one to do it. And the minute he squeezed me,
• 1:26:59
  the bell rang and everybody left.
• 1:27:04
  I hit my head. I was in that unconscious way
• 1:27:07
  again. I hit my head so hard I fell to
• 1:27:10
  the ground. I think it was Mr. Fagley, if I
• 1:27:14
  remember his name correctly, who took me to the nurse's office.
• 1:27:18
  And again, the phone call to my mother.
• 1:27:20
  And what did we do this time? I I ran into the wall.
• 1:27:26
  I remember just telling them I ran into, I ran into the wall
• 1:27:30
  and it was so hard. They're like, well, and he's
• 1:27:32
  like, I found her at the wall. She can obviously see the brick
• 1:27:35
  in her head. She ran into the wall.
• 1:27:39
  Yeah. I trusted my classmates with
• 1:27:44
  their little games choices. Breathing was always a part of
• 1:27:49
  it. Then I was like, wow, I learned
• 1:27:52
  to free dive. That was part of it again.
• 1:27:53
  Then in 4th grade, then I started thinking, Oh my God.
• 1:27:57
  I started clarinet in 4th grade. Wait.
• 1:27:59
  Before that, my mother had me inquire.
• 1:28:02
  All of this required breathing. Never called it breath work, but
• 1:28:08
  it was rhythmatic breathing. All of it, Every experience I
• 1:28:13
  had planned. My clarinet, playing the oboe,
• 1:28:15
  playing the sax, you know, playing the bassoon, this was
• 1:28:18
  all breath work. Playing the flute, Breath work I
• 1:28:24
  got in the military, How to do the gas chamber, holding my
• 1:28:27
  breath, Learning to dive with different types, with the
• 1:28:31
  regulator, with different types of air.
• 1:28:33
  Air. People said the body can't live
• 1:28:37
  with food and water. No, no air.
• 1:28:42
  Air got pregnant. What'd they teach you?
• 1:28:45
  Lamaze. Breath work.
• 1:28:48
  That's breath work. Lamaze twice around.
• 1:28:53
  Every time you get upset, you take take that big old deep
• 1:28:58
  breath and exhale breath work. Then later I started realizing
• 1:29:07
  breath work became a part of my life.
• 1:29:09
  I even realized it was called breath work.
• 1:29:13
  Lamaze is trying to breathe into that pain.
• 1:29:17
  Well, if it worked for Lamaze and I had the broken bones or I
• 1:29:19
  had whatever, I had pain in my body, I used it.
• 1:29:23
  Breath work. I used it to breathe into that
• 1:29:26
  pain. Breath work, breathing.
• 1:29:29
  Think about it. Then came prayer, the power of
• 1:29:32
  prayer, meditation, energy work. Then you have your teachers,
• 1:29:38
  your diagnostics, information. Then you have one major magic
• 1:29:42
  answer, everything you had learned becoming available when
• 1:29:50
  another event arrives. Yeah, I remember feeling like my
• 1:29:59
  hands were magic, going back into these things with
• 1:30:02
  breathing. Hurricane Andrew hit, and I
• 1:30:06
  remember my hands and didn't even realize what I was doing.
• 1:30:12
  These were all experiences when I put my hand on my uterus, stop
• 1:30:18
  the pain, when I helped the ladies, stop the pain.
• 1:30:28
  So when healing happened, can I isolate?
• 1:30:34
  One thing to tell you that healed me, No I can't.
• 1:30:39
  I can't sit here, which is why I made the disclaimer.
• 1:30:42
  Don't do it unless you really understand modalities and you
• 1:30:45
  understand your path and you understand your way.
• 1:30:50
  That healed me. My question is, was that a risk?
• 1:30:58
  Was I the fool? I had faith that there had to be
• 1:31:03
  another way because if I continued to allow big pharma to
• 1:31:07
  try to treat my body that was auto neuroimmune, I'd be dead.
• 1:31:12
  That near death experience taught me that.
• 1:31:16
  So my question becomes different.
• 1:31:18
  Did everything I had learned give me more ways to respond to
• 1:31:22
  the next event? That's what fascinates me.
• 1:31:27
  Maybe events themselves just became part of education, right?
• 1:31:32
  Learning how the body can work, learning what to do, not to do.
• 1:31:38
  That's the biggest sign of education.
• 1:31:39
  Knowledge is learning the experience.
• 1:31:43
  People can read a book, but most people don't have endemic
• 1:31:47
  memory. You're not going to read, you're
• 1:31:49
  not going to remember every passage of that book.
• 1:31:52
  You're not. You're going to read it and get
• 1:31:54
  the outcome. And you know, that's the gist of
• 1:31:56
  it and something that correlates to an experience that you had
• 1:32:00
  inside of that or resonated with you, then you remember it.
• 1:32:06
  That's the label. That's the boxes.
• 1:32:11
  So then maybe those events themselves just became part of
• 1:32:13
  that education. Did one health event shake my
• 1:32:16
  boxes? No.
• 1:32:20
  Did another establish a marker? Maybe.
• 1:32:23
  I don't know. Did something that frightened me
• 1:32:26
  once stop carrying that same power after I understood it?
• 1:32:31
  No. Did experience change my
• 1:32:34
  thought? Yeah.
• 1:32:38
  And did thought change my response?
• 1:32:41
  Oh hell yeah. Did my response changed the next
• 1:32:45
  experience? By far.
• 1:32:49
  Now we're not talking about positive thinking as pretending
• 1:32:56
  everything is wonderful in life. We are talking about conscious
• 1:33:00
  participation. Western medicine freed my will,
• 1:33:07
  afraid my soul, and I want to make something very clear.
• 1:33:11
  Right now. I believe in Western testing and
• 1:33:15
  diagnostics. If something happening inside of
• 1:33:20
  my physical vessel, I want to know.
• 1:33:24
  I'd be the first person to tell you, take my blood, take an
• 1:33:27
  X-ray, take an MRI, take I don't care.
• 1:33:29
  Test, test, test, test me. I don't say you're going to give
• 1:33:32
  me the shutdown. I'm going to take.
• 1:33:34
  I want to know, give me my blood work, give me my imagery, give
• 1:33:38
  me my tests, give me my numbers, give me my diagnosis, give me
• 1:33:42
  the information. Because it's that information
• 1:33:46
  that gives me my awareness. And once I have awareness, I
• 1:33:53
  believe I have a choice and a free will and how I move forward
• 1:33:56
  to heal me. And so do you.
• 1:34:01
  Just because you go to the ER and you're in pain doesn't mean
• 1:34:04
  that they have to establish all these things.
• 1:34:06
  The problem is humanity. Man is getting so used to taking
• 1:34:12
  a pill before they go. If I take this pill, what's my
• 1:34:16
  what are the side effects? What's it going to do?
• 1:34:18
  What do I have to look forward into later?
• 1:34:22
  COVID take the jab. How many people are dying of
• 1:34:26
  heart? Massive just heart attacks,
• 1:34:29
  aneurysmic rhythms, blood clots in the lungs.
• 1:34:32
  Taking the jab cause science said it was good.
• 1:34:38
  A science is man and that's all we know so far.
• 1:34:45
  That is your choice, nobody else's choice.
• 1:34:48
  Now if you were demanded to take it, now there's a problem.
• 1:34:52
  It's not about the job, but there's a problem between what
• 1:34:55
  you made. Then if they demand you to take
• 1:34:57
  something to keep your job, you had a choice.
• 1:35:02
  You're like, Oh my God, hell no. So when does our choice balance?
• 1:35:06
  Mji had had to have a job. It was COVID.
• 1:35:10
  I hear you. I didn't take the job and I had
• 1:35:13
  to have a job. I didn't take it.
• 1:35:18
  Demanding. Well, I'm not taking.
• 1:35:20
  You can demand all you want. I didn't take it.
• 1:35:24
  I haven't taken an inoculation since 1987, but that's besides
• 1:35:26
  this point. My husband didn't take it.
• 1:35:28
  My mother didn't take it. My sister and I pressured her.
• 1:35:35
  Don't do it. Please don't do it.
• 1:35:39
  There's not enough information. They I go.
• 1:35:41
  How can they not discover cancer?
• 1:35:45
  And yet they have a jab already within months.
• 1:35:48
  Come on. I just told you my rash is going
• 1:35:52
  to cause all these other issues in my body.
• 1:35:54
  What do you think that's going to do?
• 1:35:56
  Don't do it, Mommy. I know you like science.
• 1:35:58
  I didn't know she didn't take it.
• 1:35:59
  God. Thank God, thank you God, and
• 1:36:02
  never all of our ancestor aligns who got through because my
• 1:36:05
  mother would have been that person.
• 1:36:08
  She believes in science of medicine.
• 1:36:10
  That's her choice. But I am so thankful she didn't
• 1:36:17
  take it. So awareness.
• 1:36:21
  So once you have awareness, I believe you have a choice and
• 1:36:25
  free will and how you move forward in that healing you do.
• 1:36:31
  Maybe some people, you know, I know people who took job after
• 1:36:34
  job after job after job after job because they wanted to
• 1:36:36
  travel or they wanted to do this.
• 1:36:37
  So they had to do this and they wanted to keep performing or
• 1:36:39
  they wanted to, you know, keep going to work.
• 1:36:41
  And they wanted to. Yeah, I can ask questions and I
• 1:36:50
  can learn, and I can use what I've already known and
• 1:36:53
  experienced, and I can decide what healing practices belong in
• 1:36:57
  my health, in my body and my path.
• 1:37:01
  So do you. You can change direction like I
• 1:37:06
  did. I changed the direction when I
• 1:37:08
  received new information. And for me, science doesn't
• 1:37:15
  remove free will. It can give me information with
• 1:37:22
  which I exercise it. Testing, information, awareness,
• 1:37:28
  understanding, choice and action.
• 1:37:32
  And there it is again. Let me pull up another chair at
• 1:37:38
  my table today. Let's go science.
• 1:37:42
  Science now gets a chair at my table.
• 1:37:46
  Science is not my enemy. It's not.
• 1:37:49
  I believe in other sciences, maybe big pharma, not so sure.
• 1:37:56
  There's not enough information for me.
• 1:38:00
  Next week I'm going to give science almost the entire show
• 1:38:04
  today. Just one piece.
• 1:38:06
  Modern psychology gives us ways to investigate self talk
• 1:38:12
  expectations and learn to patterns and behavior.
• 1:38:16
  Neuroscience gives us another important word that we have to
• 1:38:20
  talk about today. You ready?
• 1:38:24
  Big word. I'll break it down though, so
• 1:38:26
  don't panic. Neuroplasticity.
• 1:38:31
  Neuroplasticity in simple language, our brains can change
• 1:38:36
  through experience and learning. That does not mean think about
• 1:38:43
  $1,000,000 hard enough and your neurons and your blades will
• 1:38:47
  just put put that $1,000,000 right in your checking account.
• 1:38:53
  Wow. If you could think that we'll
• 1:38:54
  think positive going forward in a job or creation or philosophy
• 1:38:57
  that you're trying to do or write a book, maybe it will.
• 1:39:02
  But just thinking it's not going to do it.
• 1:39:03
  There has to be an action, right?
• 1:39:05
  That's right. So that's why that's OK.
• 1:39:09
  That's not why. But that's, that's what, that's
• 1:39:12
  not what neuroplasticity really means.
• 1:39:15
  OK, so let's get back to neuroplasticity.
• 1:39:18
  It means that the brain isn't simply a finished machine that
• 1:39:23
  never changes. Experience matters, learning
• 1:39:27
  matters, repetition matters, behavior matters, knowledge of
• 1:39:36
  it matters, and it gives science something measurable to
• 1:39:43
  investigate. Where does the evidence end?
• 1:39:47
  What does philosophy begin? Where does spirituality
• 1:39:50
  interpretation begin? And these, all those boundaries,
• 1:39:53
  do they matter to me? I don't need science to prove
• 1:40:00
  every spiritual experience that I've ever had, and I don't need
• 1:40:03
  spirituality to replace a diagnostic test.
• 1:40:07
  They can answer different questions.
• 1:40:10
  So science can give me testing and it can give me measurements
• 1:40:15
  and it can give me information about my physical vessel.
• 1:40:18
  And once I have the information, I believe I have free will and
• 1:40:21
  choice and what I do with it. Now, when we come back to that
• 1:40:29
  spot, now you have to wonder what are some things humanity
• 1:40:35
  eventually called? Tradition began with somebody
• 1:40:41
  trying to explain the experience.
• 1:40:45
  And what if those traditions later influenced how human
• 1:40:50
  interpretated their own experiences?
• 1:40:53
  Wow, that's a thinker. So let's just move on to it
• 1:40:59
  then, right? So in the next part, why not a
• 1:41:02
  declaration or a fact and what is important?
• 1:41:04
  So human beings have been attempting to explain life,
• 1:41:08
  death, God, creator, and what may happen after death for
• 1:41:12
  thousands of years. Experience, story, tradition.
• 1:41:16
  Different traditions use different imagery such as
• 1:41:20
  passage, light, judgement, heavenly realms, gates, and
• 1:41:24
  Christianity. That Christian imagery, many
• 1:41:28
  people know a very popular picture.
• 1:41:30
  It's called the Pearly gates. And I suddenly had a wait.
• 1:41:38
  What is the story about those pearly gates?
• 1:41:40
  Why? Someone has an experience, Some
• 1:41:44
  man somewhere had an NDE mind blow.
• 1:41:48
  This was my mind blow with this thing was an NDE visiting the
• 1:41:52
  Pearly Gates. And then the philosophy is
• 1:41:55
  you're not ready. You can't get through.
• 1:41:58
  If you get to heaven before I do, just bore a hole and pull me
• 1:42:01
  through. I ain't going to bleed, my Lord.
• 1:42:03
  No lore. Wow.
• 1:42:07
  Well, that song taught in Girl Scouts.
• 1:42:10
  And then how do they communicate something that may be incredibly
• 1:42:14
  difficult to describe by language label.
• 1:42:16
  They put a word on it, they described what they saw, what
• 1:42:21
  they felt, what they understood by words that were already given
• 1:42:25
  to them by man. Other people hear it.
• 1:42:28
  Then the story gets repeated. These were the words that they
• 1:42:32
  use because there was another, another label for an NDE at the
• 1:42:34
  time. Images developed around it.
• 1:42:38
  Meanings get attached and over generations, some ideas can come
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  become part of a tradition. I'm not saying I'm right or
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  wrong. I'm a philosopher, I'm a mentor,
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  I'm a bridge of humanity. That's who I am.
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  I'm a seer. I'm a wire.
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  But it makes sense to me. I wasn't done.
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  I wasn't finished. Now, I'm not telling you that
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  somebody had an an an NDE and invented all the Pearly gate
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  stuff. It's plausible.
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  I'm just saying it's plausible. How many times do you talk about
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  people, even science and the medicine are trying to figure
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  this out? We don't know that.
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  All's I'm asking is could some of humanity's spiritual
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  traditions have been influenced by human experiences of people
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  who were attempting to explain it?
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  And then the question turns around.
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  If I grow up knowing stories about heaven and having the
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  religional background of Christianity, having the light,
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  the gates, the crossing, God, creator, what they describe,
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  then what happens if I later have another near death
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  experience and that same thing happens?
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  What could the language and imagery I've already learned
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  influence how I understand something that happened to me?
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  Experience or interpretation? Well, the experience is mine.
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  The interpretation that gets funny because you're trying to
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  figure out words and when another man puts a label on
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  those words and your experience sounds very similar to another
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  man's label, poof, wow, how could that be?
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  I'm not here to question Godfather, Mother, God,
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  creation. I'm not.
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  I'm not here to question any of your religional beliefs or any
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  of your science beliefs or any of your man beliefs.
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  I can only tell you what I experienced.
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  And maybe an experience helped create a tradition and maybe
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  tradition later gave another person language for their
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  experience. And maybe both processes have
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  happened across human experience and I don't know you know why.
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  That's all I know so far, haven't got there yet.
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  I do know that my NDE had another question attached to it.
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  This was the new awareness in speaking air.
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  It was always about air crossing your understanding of Father,
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  Mother, God, Creator. An old imagery of those gates
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  and then asked the same question, whether they answered
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  it or not. Was that experience influencing
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  my tradition? Was that tradition then giving
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  humans imagery with which to explain the experience?
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  Again could both occur. And now I find myself wandering
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  back. And now, what was I
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  experiencing? What actually happened?
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  Was it true an NDE? Was it a dream?
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  Was it said? How did I wake up over there?
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  Was I experiencing something humanity has been attempting to
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  describe spiritually for thousands of years?
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  Or am I now just using everything that I've learned
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  during my own lifetime and my own experience to give it
• 1:46:05
  language to the experience that I couldn't even completely
• 1:46:08
  explain what happened to begin with?
• 1:46:10
  I don't know, just telling you the experience, and I'm not
• 1:46:15
  going to turn a fascinating question into a fact simply
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  because the question excites me and the similarity patterns
• 1:46:23
  exist paralleling one another. That's awareness.
• 1:46:28
  There's that crack, the little more light that came through.
• 1:46:34
  Now that's all I know so far. Again, look what the look what
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  all that have shown us today. Dad gave me my words.
• 1:46:43
  Mom gave me an image. Young MJ, Young Mary Jo gave
• 1:46:46
  Mom's image her own interpretation, not what Mom was
• 1:46:50
  saying to me. Then my experience gave me
• 1:46:53
  markers, patterns, look at them. Louise Hay gave us questions
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  about self talk and repetitive language.
• 1:47:02
  Catherine Ponder gives us questions about thought, spoken
• 1:47:06
  words, intention, and belief. Prayer gives us an experience of
• 1:47:10
  directed thought to faith, and my NDE gives me an experience
• 1:47:15
  that I continue interpreting as awareness expands.
• 1:47:20
  Science gives us tool for measuring pieces of what happens
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  in that physical vessel called the brain.
• 1:47:27
  These are these are not identical things.
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  There are different chairs around 1 enormous mapping
• 1:47:35
  question. What happens to a thought after
• 1:47:37
  it arrives? Medicine.
• 1:47:39
  Science can dictate where that thought is in the brain, but it
• 1:47:43
  can't tell you what that thought is or where it came from.
• 1:47:47
  So we go to emotions, right? And when that thought has a
• 1:47:50
  feeling, because some thoughts barely register, others hit us
• 1:47:57
  very physically, maybe in our stomach.
• 1:48:00
  Oh my God, it hit me in my stomach when I heard that, or it
• 1:48:04
  hit me in my heart when I heard that.
• 1:48:07
  Your body tightens somewhere to feel anger, sadness, joy, love,
• 1:48:12
  excitement. Somewhere within your vessel.
• 1:48:17
  You feel that emotion now that thought, or you have the
• 1:48:22
  thought, now you have the feeling.
• 1:48:24
  So now that a feeling now is that emotion.
• 1:48:27
  And this is where Eckhart Tolle has to put a chair at my table.
• 1:48:32
  Because Eckhart Tolle's concept of the pain body gives us
• 1:48:36
  another useful question. Something happened today.
• 1:48:40
  I have an enormous reaction. Am I responding only to what
• 1:48:44
  happened today? Is that plausible?
• 1:48:48
  Or did today's event really touch something much older that
• 1:48:53
  was already labeled, boxed and put on a on a shelf or on a
• 1:48:58
  side? A memory, an experience, a
• 1:49:00
  belief, a fear marker, a box, maybe a past life marker?
• 1:49:05
  Woof, that gets deep. Maybe I ask, did this event
• 1:49:10
  shake one of my boxes? And if it did, why?
• 1:49:14
  And if it didn't, what changed? What did I learn between the
• 1:49:18
  first experience in this one? Did understanding change my
• 1:49:21
  thought? Did faith change my response?
• 1:49:24
  Did another experience establish a different marker?
• 1:49:28
  That is healing work to me. That's what I love to do.
• 1:49:36
  We've looked at words, beliefs, imageries, experience, prayers,
• 1:49:40
  fear, markers, choices. We've looked at them all, and
• 1:49:43
  now life is going to give me an entire philosophy, one hell of a
• 1:49:47
  test, right? Because what happens to the
• 1:49:50
  understanding of consciousness when the brain processing I
• 1:49:56
  depend upon begins to struggle? That's right, 2021 heart
• 1:50:03
  consciousness and one enormous Why so I'm going to tell you in
• 1:50:10
  2021 I received COVID. My whole faith move forward,
• 1:50:15
  don't quit was always you could take my legs.
• 1:50:17
  I don't give a shit take them. I don't care if that's what you
• 1:50:19
  want take my legs. I still have my brain I'm in my
• 1:50:23
  chair. My brain works, my hands work.
• 1:50:25
  I got it. Guess what folks, 2021 I caught
• 1:50:30
  COVID by July of 2021. I could not multiply 2 * 2.
• 1:50:38
  I would read a sentence and couldn't even understand what
• 1:50:40
  one sentence meant. My old joke.
• 1:50:44
  Go ahead, take my legs. It's my mind that controls me.
• 1:50:48
  And then your discernment. Well damn, not only did you take
• 1:50:52
  my mind, you took my physical freaking body.
• 1:50:55
  What else are you taking from me that was an unhealed MJ.
• 1:51:00
  Again, it was a trauma. It was an event that I had to go
• 1:51:03
  through and that's what makes this story really important.
• 1:51:09
  You did not experience consciousness as simply
• 1:51:12
  disappearing. This huge, huge consciousness.
• 1:51:17
  Consciousness shift. For me, that movement, that
• 1:51:21
  movement right there into what I understood as the heart
• 1:51:24
  consciousness. I always tell people, stop
• 1:51:27
  thinking with the brain. That's man.
• 1:51:29
  Man labeled it man. Put those boxes in there.
• 1:51:32
  Speak from your heart. That is heart, consciousness and
• 1:51:37
  light therapy, mind power framework, thinking less from
• 1:51:40
  ego judgement and more through my heart.
• 1:51:44
  Now that gives my wire the next question.
• 1:51:47
  Now that gives me if cognitive processing can change while I
• 1:51:53
  still experience an observer. What is the relationship between
• 1:51:58
  brain, mind and consciousness? I have my spiritual
• 1:52:03
  understandings. Science has things that it can
• 1:52:06
  measure, and next week we're going to put them all on those
• 1:52:09
  questions at the table. Creation, free will, and the
• 1:52:14
  shift. There is also a spiritual belief
• 1:52:17
  that I carry from that period. I believe in my heart.
• 1:52:20
  Creation moves through energetic shifts.
• 1:52:23
  When humanity's collective free will moves out of balance, I
• 1:52:28
  believe in those collective shifts, and the only person who
• 1:52:32
  could do that is creation, and that's my spiritual
• 1:52:35
  interpretation of what happened there.
• 1:52:38
  Personally, that long period of illness felt like a resetting of
• 1:52:43
  my whole entire vessel while my consciousness moved into another
• 1:52:46
  level of awareness. Can I put that in the laboratory
• 1:52:50
  and prove it? No, it's my own experience, it's
• 1:52:53
  my own free will, and it's my own intentions that I'm putting
• 1:52:58
  in my own knowledge and my own understanding.
• 1:53:01
  Can I tell you that's how I experienced and interpreted it?
• 1:53:04
  Absolutely. It's my experience, an
• 1:53:07
  experience and experience that is only to you, and you're the
• 1:53:10
  only one who can experience it. My interpretation of my
• 1:53:14
  experience is my interpretation. A scientific explanation is a
• 1:53:20
  scientific explanation, and man, who's to say is right.
• 1:53:28
  I told you somebody else had an NDE and so did I Very, very,
• 1:53:31
  very similar. But yet their experience was
• 1:53:34
  different than mine. Why?
• 1:53:35
  Because I didn't live it. They did.
• 1:53:38
  And if some man put a label on it, who's to say that label's
• 1:53:41
  correct? We don't know.
• 1:53:43
  We don't have to pretend that those those three statements
• 1:53:47
  right there identical in order it to investigate anything.
• 1:53:51
  That's consciousness, that's discernment, and that's me, The
• 1:53:55
  Wire. So let's come back to the
• 1:53:59
  original pondering question that we originally had and right in
• 1:54:01
  the beginning. Do thoughts create a reality, or
• 1:54:05
  do thoughts influence the choices, perceptions, and
• 1:54:08
  actions through which we experience reality?
• 1:54:13
  A thought can arrive without permission.
• 1:54:16
  Once I'm aware of it, I can begin asking questions.
• 1:54:20
  Where did it come from? What does that word mean to me?
• 1:54:23
  What image did I attach to it? What experience am I
• 1:54:27
  remembering? What emotion came with that?
• 1:54:30
  Is this something somebody told me?
• 1:54:32
  Is this a learned interpretation?
• 1:54:34
  Did I interpret what I intended? Did I?
• 1:54:37
  Did I create another meaning for it?
• 1:54:40
  Do I believe this to be true? Why do I believe this to be
• 1:54:44
  true? And most importantly, what am I
• 1:54:46
  going to do with it now? Because awareness may give a
• 1:54:50
  space between thought and action.
• 1:54:53
  And inside that space, choice. Man's free will, man's choice.
• 1:54:59
  So where's our Rd. An event.
• 1:55:01
  Something happened. I experienced, I lived it
• 1:55:04
  thought Something arrives. Language.
• 1:55:08
  I named it. Imagery, meaning take shape.
• 1:55:14
  Emotion, I feel it. Belief, I begin accepting
• 1:55:17
  something as the truth. Understanding, I recognize the
• 1:55:21
  pattern. In tension I consciously direct
• 1:55:25
  myself. In choice I decide, and in
• 1:55:28
  actions I move. And then with that comes another
• 1:55:34
  event. Welcome back to my full card.
• 1:55:41
  So the fool keeps moving because the fool comes home and the fool
• 1:55:43
  keeps moving. Mom wanted me to pay attention
• 1:55:45
  to the Cliff. Young Mary Jo Heard.
• 1:55:47
  I have faith. I'm going to keep going.
• 1:55:49
  Keep going, have faith. Just keep going.
• 1:55:52
  My adult MJ can finally hear both sides.
• 1:55:55
  Faith is my compass. Thank you, Mom.
• 1:56:01
  Faith doesn't mean I close my eyes.
• 1:56:04
  Faith does not mean that I ignored the test results, and
• 1:56:07
  faith does not mean that I pretend that an event isn't
• 1:56:10
  happening. Faith doesn't mean I know
• 1:56:12
  everything. And for me, faith means I can
• 1:56:16
  continue moving while remaining aware enough to look at where
• 1:56:21
  I'm going. Mom's message didn't disappear.
• 1:56:25
  Young Mary Jo's interpretation didn't disappear.
• 1:56:29
  My understanding expanded. So maybe that's what
• 1:56:36
  consciousness has been doing throughout this entire series,
• 1:56:41
  giving us another crack, another question, another awareness,
• 1:56:45
  another opportunity to expand what we thought we already knew.
• 1:56:49
  And guess what, folks? That's all I know so far.
• 1:56:53
  Let those walls crack. Let that light in.
• 1:56:57
  Sometimes 1 crack is enough. Because once the light comes
• 1:57:01
  through, I can see something that I could never see before.
• 1:57:06
  That's awareness. And then I can question it,
• 1:57:09
  experience it, understand it, choose what to do with it.
• 1:57:14
  And tomorrow I may know something more.
• 1:57:19
  Because why? That would be all I would know.
• 1:57:22
  There it is again, A thought may arrive without permission.
• 1:57:28
  What we feed it, what we repeat with it, speak it and act upon
• 1:57:32
  it becomes our conscious responsibility.
• 1:57:36
  Don't only ask what am I thinking, Ask where did I get
• 1:57:40
  that thought? What meaning did that give me?
• 1:57:43
  What experiences are attached to it, and what am I picturing?
• 1:57:48
  What am I feeling? Did someone actually teach me
• 1:57:50
  this, or is this how I interpreted what they said?
• 1:57:56
  And then now that I'm aware, what do I choose now?
• 1:58:04
  Maybe that's the place where consciousness gives thought its
• 1:58:07
  greatest power, not in controlling every event and
• 1:58:11
  consciously participating in what happens next.
• 1:58:15
  So next week, science. Here we go, Part 4, The brain
• 1:58:20
  meets consciousness, Neuroscience, psychology, and
• 1:58:23
  the search for answers. And we're going to ask what can
• 1:58:30
  science actually measure? What happens in the brain during
• 1:58:33
  the awareness? And what do we know about
• 1:58:37
  attention, perception and conscious states?
• 1:58:40
  What are neural correlates of consciousness?
• 1:58:45
  And here's the Wire's question that I'm already caring for you
• 1:58:48
  all that you can carry with you until next week.
• 1:58:51
  If we eventually map every process occurring in the human
• 1:58:55
  brain, will we have explained consciousness or create the most
• 1:58:59
  detailed map imaginable of something whose experiencer
• 1:59:05
  remains a mystery? Oh, that's deep, because
• 1:59:09
  measurement may tell us what is happening.
• 1:59:12
  Consciousness still ask who is experiencing it.
• 1:59:15
  That's next week's so for day not asking you to leave here
• 1:59:19
  believing what MJ believes. I'm not just asking you to think
• 1:59:22
  about it. And I'm asking you to become
• 1:59:24
  aware of you. Not me, you.
• 1:59:26
  Where did it come from? What experience builds it?
• 1:59:29
  What language shaped it? What images live around it and
• 1:59:32
  what emotions hold it? What happens when somebody
• 1:59:35
  challenges it, and what choices are you making from it?
• 1:59:38
  Maybe you'll find an old box. Maybe you'll find an old
• 1:59:40
  pattern. Maybe you'll find something
• 1:59:42
  that's not no longer in a map that we are evolved today.
• 1:59:46
  And maybe you'll break one open. And maybe you'll discover that
• 1:59:50
  you don't need to destroy all your boxes and start over again.
• 1:59:53
  Maybe you just need to make a bigger box, right?
• 1:59:56
  And if it cracks from the walls, look through it.
• 2:00:00
  There's your next Y. Folks, I am Reverend Mary Jo
• 2:00:03
  Gonzalez, known as MJ, and this is the world of conscious
• 2:00:07
  positive thinking. May divine guide you in your
• 2:00:09
  needs, and may the angels carry you home with peace, love,
• 2:00:12
  grace, joy, happiness, and abundance of what it is that you
• 2:00:15
  desire most. I'll see you next week, folks.
• 2:00:19
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